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Been a monoma fan since day 1 and I'll die as one too.
My king, I'm going to miss you dearly âšïž
#mha#mha monoma#monoma neito#mha fanart#bnha#bnha spoiler#my art#digital art#neito monoma#if this turns out to be fake I might delete this??#idk its hard to tell currently#but he slays anyways so idc I love my man <3
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nothing (besides everyone ignoring Orym's deal) has made me angrier than watching Dorian keep up this facade. Dorian Storm has always been a type of mask he's worn. At first he called himself a liar because of it. The happy go lucky bard was a way of escaping for him. He was escaping Brontë so he created Dorian. He didn't believe he was Dorian. Until the Crown Keepers made Dorian real. And for a while, he really believed he was Dorian. That he has this new family and new life and he could be who he truly wanted to be.
And then his brother came back and made his problems Dorian's problems. Until he had to put Brontë back on. Because even if the Crown Keepers + Cyrus called him Dorian, he was Brontë. He had to be who his brother thought he was.
When Cyrus dies, the thread to Brontë had snapped. He was going to see Orym, back to the Bells Hells, back to Dorian Storm. But the foundation of Dorian had shattered. Dorian was created in order to run from his place in life, family, Cyrus. Now he was gone. The Crown Keepers had fallen apart. His friends fell through his fingers and he couldn't do anything to stop it. He was once ready to side with a betrayer god for these people and now they're in the wind.
So Dorian shows back up to Bells Hella and he's completely broken. The foundation of both of his lives has been thoroughly rocked. No brother. No Crown Keepers. The two things that forged Dorian Storm. He wears that mask so fucking well. Because he still wants to believe in it. He said it live on stage that he should "believe his own backstory". The one he made up. The one where he was a bard.
He wants to be Dorian so bad. He spends all his money on Orym, he spins the bottle so he can kiss his friends, he flirts, he blushes and giggles at compliments. Exactly how Dorian would, should.
But he wears the gold of the heir. He has a festering animosity inside his chest. He doesn't sleep. He's thinner than he was. He doesn't sleep. He sicks abominations after their creators. He talks to God's without an ounce of self preservation, daring them to strike him down. He does not acknowledge them as they taunt him.
The god of beauty and magic calls him beautiful and he does not smile.
#silver sending stones#cr spoilers#cr 3 e 107#dorian storm#got carried away in both the post and the tags again#this was supposed to be an add on from those tags yesterday#but i went off the fucking rails so hard im gonna have to make another post#and listen.#i know people are âš multifaceted âš#but i think its interesting to peel apart the layers of dorian storm.#because i do think all of this is just dorian.#like the rest of us he would not be here if not for his family. his brother. the crown keepers. bells hella.#he is informed by the things that happened in the past. none of these identities could have happened on their own#but if we're looking at the arch as a whole#theres the bronte era. the dorian era. and then era where they got very muddy. and the era now.#i dont feel like he's suddenly a secret third person now#but you know how we all look at the past versions of ourselves and wonder how theyd feel about us now?#dorian just has names for them#and because there was a mixing of both his lives i think dorian is having a hard time reconciling into one#he tries very hard to be both himselves#the man contains multitudes for sure#and idk i just keep picturing him as a little bronte. and exu dorian is smiling and singing with him. he tells him all about their friends#and current dorian looking at them. afraid to approach. afraid theyll ask about their future. afraid to tell them.#but theyd probably figure it out. hes wearing gold after all.
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Youâd think that, between Gideon and Kremy, Gideon would be the easier one to get a read on (in terms of feelings towards certain situations and party members), but no. I can read Kremy like a motherfucking book. The way he spins lies and half-truths like a spiderweb; the way his tone will shift subtly depending on who heâs talking to, what theyâre talking about, his feelings on the situation/subject/towards the person, etc; all of it. Kremy is so fucking easy to read for someone whoâs supposed to be a silver-tongued conman.
But Gideon? His tone doesnât shift all that much. He generally has a happy, confused, or entertained tone in his voice, with the exception of when heâs angry, frustrated, or upset.
Idk, maybe itâs harder for me to read Gideon because I listen to the podcast (itâs just easier for me since I can listen while driving or working), so I have to rely on tone shifts and other verbal cues. That, or maybe itâs because all of my past blorbos have been emotionally constipated men, who would only express their actual feelings about a situation based on tonal shifts, body language, and reading into what theyâre saying.
#I swear all my irl points were dumped into insight and absolutely nothing else#and with emotionally constipated men I roll with advantage#no but seriously itâs so hard for me to get a read on how Gideon feels about Coalecroux situations#like the wedding or the scene during the opera#Iâm not counting the love curse because fae magic and all that#I can tell when he understands that Kremy is upset or uncomfortable about something#but I canât tell how he generally feels about him aside from being his best friend#maybe its more obvious with visuals???#I mean I will rewatch the series eventually on YouTube once Iâm all caught up#but rn I have to rely on verbal cues and by god thatâs hard for this genasi#also Iâm not hating on either Richie or Mace here#I love being able to read my favorite emotionally constipated alligator#and the lack of tonal shift in Gideon makes sense for his character#itâs just weird to me idk#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#also if this is worded weirdly blame it on the fact that itâs currently 2am
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I adore reading your rambling tags, don't stop posting things there đ©
Don't you worry. I think I might be incapable of stopping idk what happened I never used to tag ramble
#asks#anon#i do really love talking. clearly LOL#but ive also been working on listening the past few years#and thays pretty cool too#i had to learn how to think before i speak. like legitimately im not hearing the words I say#im thinking about my next sentence while i say the current one#its exhausting and i never remember what I've said HWJJJSDJEJ#but people tell me im direct and deliberate and clear so idk...#but listening is also really hard...#conversation in general is really hard#i stll love it of course#its just very tiring for me#which is PART of why I like to do this when i cant sleep cause of nightmares or whatever#tires me out haha and also is a great distraction#and is good practice! for me#so idk i just like it. and its nice to know its not annoying#i wouldn't post hardly any words at all without the safety of the tags#they're not rebloggable so thats a relief#you have to opt in to read them#the space is limited. etc etc#so. im glad it is wn option and im glad its a welcome one!#no intention to stop#thank you for the reassurance on it#delete later#maybe. I'm so tired i need to check later to see if i wnt to delete it#anxiety meds working yay i can sleep bye
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btw one of the things i want to do when i really rap up atbb for real is spontaneously get the energy at will to do actual updated fullbodies of the main 4 since now i actually have the ability to draw them the way they look in my head & have the skills to put some more variety in their shapes. basically i wanna
#warning big character design rambling in these tags but like. were u expecting any less#if ur wondering what changed-#first of all everybody has bigger hands bc i'm actively deciding to commit to that decision because i like it :3#next russ is a bit taller . i'll probably change some other things like making his armor look more solid & making him look more frail#-without it but i dont wanna pick up my tablet rn so thats all i feel like editing with my mouse lmao#edge has the biggest changes mostly in just being Wider. i want to make him Look stronger yknow#currently its just one of those annoying âskinny anime girl actually has 2d spraypainted abs and can lift a truckïżœïżœïżœ tropes that i Hate#its a lil too many triangles when he should really be more like a triangle-flavored square. yknow#that being said the weirdly feminine hips were not intentional but only time will tell if they make it into the actual final design or not#i will not be making his pauldrons wider than they were originally. those things are already wacking everything around him they're fine#fluff's change is just being a bit skinnier so he looks more pathetic and sad. probably gonna try to make him look a bit younger too#but age is hard to represent with skeletons from The Land Of Sharp Features#i might also change up his pants/shoes more idk. Baggy Everything makes a very difficult silhouette and the boots are just boring tbhh#they're the bi flag but i dont think a single person has ever noticed lmao#and stretch's biggest change is that he's going to Have A Fullbody Reference That Isn't From 2019#probably make his hoodie longer/looser so i can make the transition to the leggings less awkward & show off his tank under it a bit more#the leggings & sneakers get to stay tho i think. the red wraps the design up well & the chicken legs are funny to me :>#and karma isn't here but he'll probably also get an update to be more square as well. and NOT SKINNYYYYYY#i gotta cram some more emotional repression & inferiority complex hints into his outfit so his post-void look contrasts more its IMPORTANT#AND ALSO NEVER USE UNDERTALE SPRITES AS A REFERENCE FOR ARMOR EVER EVER EVER AGAIN#that being said im really excited to one day finally sit down and draw his post-void design i think i'll have fun with that one#theres a reason my sf bros dont really fit their ârolesâ in the au yet like undyne & alphys do. hehehe#basically to sum up all these tags: becoming more skilled at art is a curse because you KNOW you can do things better now
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Me: I'm fine about my autism now btw, like I've come to terms with my fixated interests, limited tolerances and social inabilities. The alienation it brings is not ideal but it's just a reality I've gotta deal with now that I know it's just a part of who I am. I mean, it's not like an awkward conversation is gonna ruin anyone's life, is it? We'll both move on from it eventually. This is fine!
Also me: physically unable to watch beyond the first word of the first question of The Assembly because oh my god what if someone says something awkward or controversial or someone can't make themselves understood people are gonna get mad and scream about it online and I will freeze up and be stuck in the backlash forever I don't know how to handle conflict AT ALL let's just hide in the corner behind the sofa instead wait what if I became a hermit actually yeah yeah yeah that sounds good let's do that
#unresolved trauma? never even heard of her haha đ
#maddie debrief#that 2-minute intro/taster did nothing to calm me down either btw#I'm never comfortable around the types of shows where 'difference' becomes the core conceit of the premise#oh. so you've created a format dependent on making a socially alienated group face the social rules that made them alien in the first place#and then deriving your conflict from the 'natural contradiction' between the two?#sounds like the exact kind of conflict-seeking environment where I can let my normal guard down enough to meaningfully challenge#my deeply rooted feeling that people generally find me cumbersome to be around and mostly just tolerate my presence out of necessity#lovely that#(like i say I haven't seen the show#so idk if it is actually like that or if it's just the promo material stirring shit up as per usual#but as of rn I do not feel welcome in this room)#why does the 'we're not so different after all' always have to come at the climax and never the midpoint of the story?#why can we never find more than personal gratification in that realisation?#why do we always focus on the difficulty of coming to the realisation rather than the conflict of putting the realisation into *practice*?#I know why#it is because the human imagination is far more limited than we like to believe#and we find it hard to even *imagine* a world that we haven't seen functioning for ourselves yet#let alone find a purpose in *acting* on the idea#(especially if we ourselves currently feel dependent on the status quo for our personal welfare#which is why shows made to depend on 'difference = conflict' make my blood run cold)#so if we have to see to believe - how many cases of real world functioning equity does the average person understand?#very few. so let's instead lazily invert the state of power in an existing dynamic that people are familiar with#thereby reaffirming its false dichotomy through perpetuating what is essentially the same old conflict#while claiming to subvert it when in fact all we have done is reverse the dominance while keeping everyone locked in their roles#can someone just put some thought into how we might create a format that aims to loosen up the underlying skewed power dyanmic#so that everyone has to work together to prevent the elevation of a single way of being over all others#because that just becomes suffocating to *everyone* in the end#and that can still *acknowledge difference* but not as a source of conflict - rather as a source of collective strength?#but the story of changing one perspective will always be easier to both tell and enjoy than the one about building something new
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hmm I really want to change my name
#i have since high school but i just dont know. what to do bc nothing feels right or really stands out#my current one doesnt vibe with me and there are people who i am genuinely very wary of who know me by it so i just want to distance myself#from any association..#but then what do i do w my real social medias. like do i just change it and not tell anyone.#anyway since im moving to a new state its perfect bc No One there will have any idea who i am and theres no chance to run into someone who#knows me by my current one..#idk ive tried some and theyre fine but they dont click. sometimes i think ive found it and later its just like eehhh#and i would rather die than name myself some shit like sock or other infantilizing thing. and all the people i can think to name myself#after either have the most boring monosyllable or something way too fkin cool for me#cant win! its hard to ask people Well What Do You Think Fits Me bc thats a big ask lmao and ultimately i would have to rly think about#it. sm f h......#that being said if ur reading this 1st of all damn 2nd of all u could suggest a name. could use the help lol
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why do i have an almost date tomorrow đŹ
#its a video call but i metna guybin a dating app i joined today#we're probably not very well matched he's clearly a genius and an overachiever#he lives really far away but he's moving close by to get his PhD next year#and he's a lawyer#i didn't ask but he's probably getting his phd at one of the fancy ivy league schools in the area đ#he sent me an op-ed he published and everything#he's two years younger than me and achieved more than i ever will in my life hopefully he doesn't think im lame and dumb lol#i probably couldn't make it work bc of how badly ive done in school and life he will probably think im stupid :(#but he seems nice so far tho he was clearly disappointed my eyes were brown đ#anyway lawyer doctor may be out of my barely graduated high school and community college now currently unemployed league#lol#but we'll see#in all seriousness he's probably too intense and overachieving i need a laid back chill person lol#also he's moving a tiny bit fast? hard to tell but i dont have much experience online dating idk lol#anyway wish me luck i wasn't expecting an instant date after joining the app lol âïžđ
#also he works forna charity#and i garuntee he's going to harvard or something for his phd thats the only reason to leave his current area to do it in massachusetts#i was literally like this guy cant be real but he is lol
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No hate at all ( I wish you the best) but it is so funny that your blog is called opens up 4 no one but you have all those ... journal entry things. You open up for everyone all the time (again it's very interesting), but the irony is just so funny.
My username comes from my favorite song when I was in like 8th grade (little house by the fray (one of the most emo cringe songs ever lol)). But yea the irony is not lost on me, it's bc I don't talk to anyone irl đ
#also im just a very open person. like if u ask me something irl ill probably just tell u#i dont really give a fuck. but also im just so unhappy currently that im just anxiety shrapnel everytime i open my mouth#but like im very self isolated and i talk to other ppl and i cant tell if what i do deviates from the norm#bc everyone is like oh yea i dont see ppl enough#but like. i only talk to ppl at work and i avoid coming in when ppl r around. the most i talk in a week is probably when i meet with my#boss for like an hr every week and we have to cancel all the time bc shes busy#i dont even text people. like my parents might text me once a week and we'll go back and forth like 2 texts and thats it. then maybe they#call once every month or 2? so idk that seems unusal to me but its my life so its hard to tell#but thats y i vent on the internet so much bc i literally never talk to anyone in my daily life when im not trapped on long car rides#its not as bad as when i was an undergrad tho. then i would go week long stretchs only uttering thr words please and thank u#bc then i was truely not talking to anyone and hadnt developed socal skills lol#unrelated#my dad Said i was only hermit spectrum lol bc i dont really get lonely#on the hermit spectrum*
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i have to get a new phone case and screenprotector Guys its literally scaryyyy
#getting a new case scary... my current one is piterally like. well ill be honest i think it is more like shrapnel than a phone case#its like. a soft part and a hard part and well. the soft parts that arent under hard parts have been entirely torn off#so the entire bottom of my phone is sxposed as is the top half on both sides#and the hard part is also broken all alone the bottom And i lost a corner the other day#so yeah.#i should prolly get a new one.. ill probably just get another boring one bc i get scared if ppl know things abt me#vut also maybe i should get like a nice one so i can like. idk its a conversation starter....#like if im at the library and somebody sees my phone case and its like idk van gogh or something they could be like I love van gogh and i#could be like Omg thats awesome hes one of my all time favorite painters .... hes also very interesting as a person and his letters with#his brother etc etc etc and the person would be like Wow this guy is so interesting and knows a lot about van gogh I should become friends#with them and introduce them to my friend group and we will all be friends.#<- thats basically what might happen. but also what if theres somebody who Would have talked to me#and then they see my theoretical van gogh phone case and theyre like Ugh i hate van gogh. fuck this guy...#not that id rly wanna be friends with that person anyway but like. yk. van gogh is a theoretical example#what if it was more of like a fandom thing or something Which id literally never get but theoretically. and theyre like ew this guy likes#... idk. outer wilds. and this imaginary person ive created thinks iuter wilds is rly problematic so they tell everybody else in the#library Hey this guys a freak and a weirdo and everybodys like wow this guys a freak and a weirdo and they throw books at me and then i#cant ever go to the library ever again. i know thats unrealistic but a lot of thjngs i never thought would happen to me have happened to me#recently so. i wouldnt even be surprised at this point its like im a little kitten in a wet cardboard box all alone and somebody poured#gasoline on me. and i was like Oh what the hell why did that person pour gasoline on me... and rhen im like Its ok i can deal with the#gasoline. ajd then as soon as im recovered ANOTHER person pours gasoline on me and im like dude why this. what the hell.#but km like Weird it happened twice.. but its ok and fhen ANOTHER THING OF GASOLINE and im like WHYY and b4 i even get s chance to recover#skmehody throws a match in. and its like man what the hell did i do. thats basically whats happening with me Nd god rn. he just keeps#pouring gasoline on me and brother its getting a bit tiring.
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Two daysssss until I can try and get old art of mine off the old desktop hard drive dude I am so fucking excited.
#ramblings#if theres anything particularly good i might rb this and dump the highlights lollll#were talking like 2012/2013 up to like miiiid 2017 ?#i realized that if i want the rest of 2017 im gonna have to ask if they still have that laptop i used during that time but idk if i want to#those not caught up on the karl lore some really stupid/ shitty stuff happened late 2017 and it still messes with me a tad#it has nothing to do with that laptop and i dont rlly think my parents would remember tbh?#but its a sore/ awkward topic for me even tho its been nearly 6 years lmfao#i doooo wonder if that old laptop still works i could access some accounts ive been missing#(also would be fucking awesome to private my old youtube account bc i dooonnnt want that stuff public anymore)#<- my current youtube is fine but i had one in 2017 with my given name attached to it cuz i didnt know how to change the channel name#so. yk :/#UH FUCK i didnt wanna go off about that stuff uh anyways#i was surprised by how into the idea my dad was but tbh it makes sense. he has a lottt of hard drives he wants to go through so o7#hes making me do it first so i can tell him how it works and tbhhhh its kinda funny. girl its like a build ur own usb-stick#(hes in his 50s tho so whatever he can be a little technologically illiterate. as a treat)
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Things I think about sometimes
#Idk his current color palette is much more pleasing compared to his original yellow look#But at the same time I don't like the pale blue eyes#Dark eyed slappy just feels right#I'm biased because dark eyed superiority but its really hard to top dark purple eyes#He can keep the pale blue eyes if he ever does a tell tale heart reference tho#I'd love to see him get murdered for his eyes#I'd do it personally#The spongebob connoisseur#Slappy laszlo
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AUGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#waiting for smn is soooo#idk#idk how to feel what to think#anyway asked my friends for advice on it#they were all like u should have a convo abt it. bc like#emotional support is important in a relationship and receiving none of it is bad#like how come we r both having a tough time and yet so far i was like aw theyre having a horrible time theyre dealing w#depression thats why they cant support me :(( like.#im also having a tough time dealing w depression and ive been there 4 them consistently !!! and im sorry but like when i was horribly#depressed like 10x worse than this yrs ago i remember i still did my best to be there for whoever i was dating at the time#but rn its so one sided like im excusing a complete lack of emotional support under the category of mental health stuff#and even tho i told myself it was an explanation not an excuse it was in fact both. it was def an excuse#depression can make it hard for u to be there for others but when theyre ur partner and ur best friend and u cant even respond#to them stating how they feel properly that is bad !! viewing them telling u their current emotion or feeling bc thats what the topic is#as ~putting stuff on you randomly~ is bad!!#like fr whenever i feel sad i have to eat up my feelings and cry on my.own bc im afraid theyre not going to respond well to me telling them#that. its not like i vent or anything either (w/o asking. but i dont even do that) its just#UGHHH IDK#anyway ive been avoiding this convo w them for a while bc i have been trying to be patient and just. wait for them to get better#and maybe someday they would be there for me!! maybe my friends r all the emotional support i need if i feel so bad that i cant keep it in!#but its just not fair on me i think. ive been feeling shit too!!! i forgot that i existed#until i finally told my friends abt it and they were like. relationships r a two way street etc etc#anyway yh#idk how this will go x#taking some time away to collect my thoughts n so are they so
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accidentally took fenris to the gallows what will mage hawke say
#sigh. i havent given him his act 2 gift yet so i can balance it out if i choose the mages shouldnt be oppressed thing but.#iiiiii dont know. i mean its kind of hard to tell a man who was enslaved by a mage in a society of free mages that love slavery that#other mages outside of that instance should be allowed to live freely. like i cant pretend to not see his reasoning man#like. idk something else should be done besides how mage circles are currently run#bioware doesnt like nuance very much though. tbh.#time to return to staring at fenris for 20 stalling minutes
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#boink#its 1am and im fucking#.#nauseous lmao#ate a dining hall hard boiled egg bad idea bad idea#anyway im#im fucking off my rockerrrrrr babeyyyyy#so here are some things#acappella concert this wknd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i could cry#gotta say gbye to ma seniors :(((((#gonna miss the current md so much#aft4r that we are gonna do a PARTY#fr this time#i think#idk#im excited#gonna see my sibling in their show tmrw#or day after that#idk yet#but im excited either way#NEXT friday ska man is doing a conert aaaand i am telling myself FOR REAL i am gonna go#they may or may not be at myyyyy concert#bc his friendddd is also myyy friedndddd (i thinkwe are friends. i like her very much and hope we are friends) and WE are both in the group#i hope he comes#anyway#(but also i have been stressed recently that my friend who is also his friend maybe doesnt like me andis maybe mad thati am#converstaing with her friend but i dont know but i was really stressed out about it at rehearsal and i felt like she was mad at me so i had#to leave or else i was prob gonna panic and then i started crying during my fav song :((((((#but idk)
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đȘđđđđđđ»đŸđ: 'Sweetheart' àŒàż B.C. & Y.J.
‷ Spit Roasting | Brat Taming | Manhandling
â± word count: ~4k (i dont wanna talk about it.)
Ⱡwarnings: *inhales* fem!reader, threesome, frat leader! Chan and frat boy! Jeongin, reader is a teeny bit of a brat, brat taming, some fingering, unprotected p in v, rough sex, light system mentioned but not used, spit roasting/eiffel towering, manhandling, mention of deepthroating, 2 "good girl"s, choking, impact play (1 face slap and like 1 spank), big cock channie AND soft-hard dom channie? (hard to explain but act surprised.), squirting, mention of sharing with other members of the frat (its only the rest of skz in the frat but specifically mean dom minho is named), jeongin films you with his phone and says hes gonna send it to the frat groupchat lol⊠i think thats it? Idk this was a fever dream
â± notes: pov: sian getting carried away when she enjoys writing something. also the urge to make this a series is so strong...
mostly proofread, but may be some mistakes/inconsistencies
Kinktober Schedule
DO NOT republish or translate+post my work!
âY/N⊠Can you uhâŠâ Jeongin clears his throat and rubs his face with both hands as if trying to keep his composure. âCan I have a cup of water?â You smile and nod, standing on your feet and walking out of your room to get him some water. Once you closed the door behind you, after telling them youâd bring some snacks too, Jeongin looked over to his friend desperately.
âHyung. I am⊠not your strongest soldier.â The comment in itself was enough to make Chan burst out laughing, but he tried not to grab too much attention so he chose to snicker into his arm instead.
âBreathe man.â Chan laughed and leaned back on his arms, stretching and taking some breaths himself. âIâm not fairing that well either haha⊠I donât think she even realizes what sheâs doing.â
The most popular fratâs leader, Chan, and his youngest junior, Jeongin, are in your bedroom. And you, unfortunately, had agreed to tutor them after one long day in the library. They had the other 6 members with them and you were particularly stressed from preparing for a final later that day, so you arguably werenât very clear-minded when you agreed to it.
Nonetheless, you kept your word and, after exchanging numbers with Chan, you sent them your address as well as a list of what days and times were best. It surprisingly wasnât hard to find a time that worked for all three of you, and the study date was quickly decided. When the day came and you got a knock on your door and you opened it still in your pajamas, both sides were shocked at what they saw.
They had never seen any skin other than your arms, and sometimes your legs on the rare occasion that you wore a skirt. So when they were met with you in a crop top tank top and short shorts, they felt something awaken in them. Jeongin even more so, considering he had a secret little crush on you that only his frat knew about.
And you were surprised because you had completely forgotten that you agreed to tutor them. But considering they had already seen your outfit, you hadnât bothered to change out of it. Which ultimately led to your current situation: your notebooks and their textbooks spread across your floor alongside them, with their painful bulges hidden underneath their hoodies.
You return only 15 minutes later with 4 bottles of water and a big plate of bagel bites. Both men drop everything instantly and lunge for the plate, taking it from you to âhelpâ you carry everything, but in reality just so they can demolish the food. You smile and shake your head endearingly, a little too entertained by the childish action.
Through their fiending, Chan still offers you the plate many times and makes sure they leave enough for you to eat as well. Then, once both are satisfied and calmed down a little bit, they allow you to continue the lesson. Everything goes well for another 30 minutes until a slip-up happens with your wardrobe.
Chan notices first, and he feels his fingers twitching when you lean forward to point out something to Jeongin. You slightly lean over him in the process and the hand to hold yourself up rests right beside his thigh. The size difference between his thigh and your hand is enough to make his mind wander, but then he watches very closely as the strap of your tank top slowly falls down your shoulder from the new position.
Jeongin himself feels his own composure completely break at his sight. You leaning close to his face was enough to get him flustered, but the sight of your tank top strap slowly falling makes his cock twitch. Then, as if to add insult to injury, you shift just the slightest amount and your tank top loosens around your torso until it now hovers below your chest, giving him a good view of your tits, and a very slight view of your nipple.
Jeonginâs breath catches in his throat and he snaps his head to his eldest brother. âHyung..â You hear it and look up at them curiously. The redness in their faces gives away that something happened, but it doesnât hit you until Chan calls your name breathlessly and tugs at your fallen strap. Both men look at you with dark eyes and you feel your heart skip a beat when you realize that you just flashed 2 members of the most popular frat in the fucking state.
âUh⊠Sorry⊠I didnât realize-â You quickly fix your posture and your strap, wrapping your arms around your chest and trying to hide it from them. Chan chuckles and looks you up and down, making your face flush even harder.
âItâs ok, baby. But I think weâve done enough studying today. I think you should help us with something else now.â He leans forward and grabs your arms, tearing them away from your chest and helping you to your feet. He leads you to the bed, leaving Jeongin in awe on the floor left to do nothing but watch the situation unfold.
âYouâre so pretty, Y/N-nieâŠâ He starts once he softly pushes you to sit down. He brings one of his veiny hands to your cheek, rubbing his thumb against it soothingly as he talks, âYouâve helped us so much already, but thereâs one more thing we both need from you if thatâs ok?â His gaze is strong but comforting as he checks for consent, and you find yourself nodding quietly despite the butterflies in your stomach.
Jeongin rises to his feet eagerly, taking a seat next to you and immediately leaning into you, resting his hand on your lower back. He leans into your neck and breathes in the scent of your body wash, sighing into your ear at the way it makes his cock twitch. Chan laughs and uses the hand on your cheek to lean your head to the side for the younger man.
âHelp us and weâll help you, okay baby?â You nod and look up at him under your lashes, moaning quietly from the lips that latch themselves on your neck. âYou gotta tell us what you like and donât like though, yeah?â
âMkayâŠâ Your eyes flutter shut and you have to bite your lip to stop yourself from moaning when Jeongin bites down on your neck, his other hand now resting on your inner thigh and squeezing it.
âCan we be rough with you?â You nod. âHaha⊠Yeah? Can we smack you around a little too?â Your eyes snap open and you nod eagerly when your eyes meet. He smirks and bites his lip, the hand on your cheek sneaking its thumb into your mouth. He opens his mouth to tell you to suck but moans quietly when you do it on your own.
âGood girlâŠâ His eyes flicker down to Jeongin, and the smile on his face widens when he asks the next question. âWanna get Eiffel Towered? Jeonginnie here is a bit eager with it, he might fuck you silly, but Iâm a little too big for you to take this soon. Donât wanna hurt you just yet.â He winks at the last sentence and pushes his thumb against your tongue.
When you nod, his body visibly bristles and he removes his finger in favor of tugging at the hem of your shorts, silently asking if he can take them off. You donât bother replying and just lift your hips, just enough for him to pull them off along with your panties. You gasp when Jeonginâs hand immediately returns to your thigh, this time kneading the fat just an inch or two from where you need them the most.
Chan takes a seat opposite of Jeongin, on the other side of you, and rests his hand on the inner thigh of your other leg. He pulls it apart from the one Jeongin was squeezing and the younger man, despite being distracted with your neck, catches on and spreads you open.
Youâre exposed to them both and, for the first time since he sat down, Jeongin releases your neck to take in the sight of your pussy. He sighs to himself and rests his forehead against your temple as he finally trails his fingers higher, ghosting them through your wet folds.
Your legs kick and Chan tightens his grip on your leg when Jeongin immediately sinks two long fingers into your hole, curling them off the bat and overwhelming you in all the right ways. Chanâs hand hooks your leg over his lap and moves to roughly play with your clit as Jeongin starts fingering you. He even leans down, craning his neck to land kisses all over your chest.
He lets up on your clit for just a second so he can tug your tank top under both of your tits, giving him better access. Then, he goes back to rubbing rough circles as his mouth ventures lower to your nipple. Your jaw drops and you lean back on your hands as you let them play with you freely, thoroughly enjoying all the attention.
Your moans are quiet and shaky, egging them on further as they work your body towards an orgasm. Chan is busy harshly sucking your left nipple as Jeongin speaks up for the first time in a while, his breath fanning your neck and making you shiver.
âYou look so hot⊠Does this feel good, honey?â He curls his fingers up, digging his fingertips on the very edge of your g-spot.
âJeongin⊠up more please-â You whine and look at him desperately. He listens and shoves his fingers deeper, now angling them perfectly into your g-spot. You respond by furrowing your eyebrows and throwing your head back with a loud moan.
âHaha. There?â
âUh-huhâŠâ Chan laughs at your response and removes his fingers from your clit, nudging Jeongin away at the same time. You whine at the loss and fix your neck to look between them. âW-Why?â
Chan doesnât answer and pulls you to your feet, yanking your tank top over your head. He places a kiss on each of your tits before kissing his way up to your neck, then stopping at your lips where he pushes his onto yours. You start to wrap your hands around his neck only to be spun around and held in place by Jeongin.
Jeongin pulls you into him and bites down on the opposite side of your neck that he had marked earlier as you faintly hear Chan undressing behind you. Itâs only then that you notice the hardness pushing against your thigh and the bareness of the man in front of you. You wrap your hand around his dick and stroke him eagerly while he sucks more hickies into your skin.
Once Chan undresses fully, he crawls up your bed and rests on his knees near your pillows. Jeongin glances over at the older man and reluctantly pulls away, turning you back around and shoving you onto your hands and knees on your bed.
You grunt at the roughness but are given no time to react further as Chan drags you up the bed. You come face to face with his cock; hard, veiny, and an angry red. Your jaw drops and you look up at him to see a smirk plastered on his face. Yeah⊠you need him in you.
âTold you I was big, baby girl.â You whine and wrap your hand around him, placing a kiss on his tip as you revel in the sheer weight of him. ââM not trying to break you today. Maybe next time, yeah?â You nod and his thumb pulls at your bottom lip. He doesnât need to say anything else because you obey his command before it even leaves his lips.
Your lips wrap around him as the bed dips behind you, but youâre too enamored by his cock to pay the other man any mind. Chan moans loudly and tangles his fingers in your hair as Jeongin, now kneeling behind you, slides his tip through your folds a few times. âReady?â He huffs out impatiently, but not wanting to force anything. He gets what he wants as soon as the question leaves his mouth because you push your hips back and grind against him.
The action causes his tip to slip into you for a split second and itâs all it takes for him to lose his composure. He curses and digs his fingers into your hips, holding you in place as he shoves his entire length into you at once. You moan around Chan, making him also moan out at the vibrations of your throat. The hand in your hair tightens as Jeongin finds a frantic pace that also fucks you onto Chanâs cock simultaneously.
It's almost brutal the way Jeonginâs hips slam against yours. Even his balls find a way to smack against your folds and it brings your orgasm even closer than before. Your body is still wound up from them playing with your pussy, and you canât control the constant clenching it provides to the younger of the two. He moans loudly and his hips stutter at a particularly tight hold from you.
âShit. Youâre clenching me like crazy, honey. Gonna cum already?â Your hand tightens around Chanâs base and you moan around him, nodding as best as you can with him half down your throat.
âDonât you fucking dare.â
Your eyes snap up to meet Chanâs and he stares back sternly, eyes narrowing. A whine leaves your throat subconsciously and he immediately shakes his head, standing his ground. The hand in your hair loosens slightly as you pull off of him, and you have to plead through your moans to get your point across.
âPlease! I canât hold itâŠâ His hand leaves your hair completely and grabs onto your chin instead, roughly pulling you up to sit upright.
âI said no, so youâre not allowed to cum yet.â
He squeezes your cheeks and holds you in place as Jeonginâs thrusts speed up. Heâs desperate to chase his own orgasm, and he doesnât spare a thought to your struggle. Heâs fucking into you so fast that your eyes flutter open and closed almost constantly. Chanâs eyes stay on your face the whole time, and the second he sees you go slack-jawed, he growls.
âDonât make me repeat myself.â The eager cock constantly pummeling your insides was too much, especially at this new angle, but the sheer anger in his voice made some sick part of you happy, inadvertently cursing you to cum. Quiet grunts follow loud moans as you cum, and Jeongin fucks you through it, using your tightness to milk himself dry.
Chan allowed Jeongin to use you to ride out his orgasm up until the second he pulled out. Then he snatched you from under him and flipped you onto your back under himself. Jeongin laughed somewhere behind you at the aggressiveness and you swore you could hear your heart beating out your ass.
âSomething tells me you know about the light system.â
Chanâs face was painted with anger, and you could feel that anger seep into the way he slapped his cock onto your used folds. You stayed quiet, a part of you wondering how far you could push him, and you got the reaction you wanted when his hand came down on your thigh when you still didnât answer. You gasp and clench around nothing. Then, he waits only a few more seconds until you nod your head repeatedly, giving him the answer he wanted. You try to rise slightly to rest on your elbows, but Chan shoves you backward with a tsk.
âGood. Use it, yeah?â
He sinks himself into you before he can finish his own sentence, and you both hiss at the intrusion. Heâs definitely bigger than Jeongin, maybe just as long, but the girth of him is enough to have your head spinning already. Your nails dig into the sheets as he shoves inch by inch into you, not slow enough to let you stretch properly, but slow enough to make you grow impatient. Heâs not even bottomed out all the way before heâs stopping. Part of you is thankful because you can already feel him in your stomach, but the other side of you wants it all.
âBaby. Give it a second.â You whine and thrash your head around, doing everything in your power to push yourself back onto him. Chan sighs annoyedly and digs his fingertips into your hips to hold you still. Before he has to move another muscle the bed dips and a set of long fingers tightly squeeze your throat.
âPlay nice for Channie, Y/N. Itâs one thing to piss him off, but itâs another to piss us both off.â Jeongin leans down to whisper in your ear, but Chan still catches onto it. He also catches onto the way your walls flutter around his cock at the implication, and he realizes what the two of them have gotten into.
âWho wouldâve thought the schoolâs resident good girl is a fucking brat.â He chuckles and talks under his breath. Jeongin snickers to himself and backs his face away to watch Chan plant his hands on either side of your waist in order to lean forward.Â
âArenât I right? Your little pussy really liked the thought of pissing us both off.â
Your lips turn into a fine line and you look at him incredulously, lips slightly downturned. Then, as if to dig your own grave, your gaze drops from him and you stare off to the right. He follows your gaze curiously and he can feel the vein in his forehead pop out when you find more interest in your ceiling fan. His tongue pokes into his cheek and he digs his hands farther into your mattress.
âYeah, nah. Thatâs fine.â His hips reel back and slam forward again, this time forcing the rest of his length into you. Your demeanor falters and you catch your bottom lip between your teeth to try and keep quiet. Youâre bad at hiding it though, and the way your eyebrows furrow deeper and deeper with each thrust gives you away. Both men laugh at the sight of you struggling to stay defiant, and Jeongin finally loosens his hold on your neck in favor of sneaking that hand down to pinch your nipple.
Chanâs hips are bruising, more so than Jeonginâs, as he doesnât hesitate to hold back. Now that he has a better idea of what you like, heâs not afraid to give you everything. His movements prove that further as he pulls out almost all the way just to sink in fully, and repeating the action constantly all while going fast enough to render you brainless.Â
When that stubbornness finally gives out and your gaze falls between your legs, your whole body shakes at the sight of his thick cock entering your body. Your eyes slowly trail up, taking in the sweat dripping from his stomach and then the redness that has taken over his chest and his neck. Your eyes finally reach his and he smiles at you sinisterly. âYou done?â He tilts his head playfully and rolls his hips deeply, making your eyes squeeze closed for a moment.
âFf⊠Fuck you.â
His hips come to a stop and you swear you can see his lips twitch.
âYeahâŠ?â It comes out quiet and alongside a breathy, in disbelief, laugh. Your lips part to say another snarky comment and his hand comes down on your cheek, rendering you speechless. Your body tenses up and you clench tightly around him. He definitely didnât miss the way you moaned at it either.
âCâmon, pretty. Be good for me.â His hand wraps around your throat and squeezes it tightly, cutting off some of your airflow. It makes your head spin, especially when his hips start moving again. Heâs trying to convince you to play nice before he forces you to. But he realizes real quick that it just isnât working. And you, instead, just furrow your eyebrows and dig your nails into the forearm of the hand thatâs choking you. He grunts and releases your neck, this time wrapping both his hands around the underside of your knees. He pushes them up until youâre folded in half and your knees are by your ears.
âAh! C-Chan!â
âThatâs right, baby. Say my name~â Jeongin sits up on his knees and replaces Chanâs hands with his own, using some of his own body weight to hold your legs down. Now that heâs able to use his hands freely, Chan uses the thumb on one of his hands to spread your pussy lips open for him, giving him a better view of his cock splitting you open.
âShit! Wait youâre- mmmmfuck! Youâre too deep, Chan!â Your hands push against his stomach to try and push him out, but he shoves your hands away with his other hand. That same hand comes down on the side of your ass, making Chan sigh dreamily as your walls squeeze him so snuggly.
âThis pretty pussy fits me so well baby. Want me to cum inside and make you ours? âWanna be our fratâs pretty little sweetheart?â He moans loudly at the thought, and then once again when you nod and look up at him with teary eyes. Jeongin himself smirks at the thought and hovers his face over yours.
âThat bratty little attitude of yours will get fucked out the window, honey. We got a looot of meanies over there. Minho-hyung will have a lot of fun with you.â Your eyes squeeze shut, already knowing who Minho was and hearing stories about how he was in bed. Most girls agree on the same two words: animalistic and straight-up mean.
âI should film Channie-hyung fucking you like this and send it to the group chat. Maybe even tell them we got ourselves a little toy. What do you think, hyung?â You hear the ding of his phone starting a recording and youâre cumming before you realize it; gushing around Chan and causing loud squelching noises to fill the room.
Chan laughs with his chest and his whole body shakes as he cums, his hands squeezing the flesh of your hips as he bottoms out one final time to cum deep inside. He doesnât need to fuck you through his orgasm thanks to the way your walls continue to clench around him, almost suffocating him with the aftershocks of your orgasm.
You squeal when he finally slides out of you, every vein on his cock making you even more overly sensitive. Jeongin giggles and slides next to you on the bed, pulling you into his chest and running his hands down your back. Chan leans forward and places a kiss on your temple before swiftly leaving the room, stating heâs just going to get a washcloth to clean you off.
âYou okay?â Jeongin kisses your neck softly and trails his kisses to the corner of your mouth. You hum and let your eyes become lidded, heavy with exhaustion. He can see it in your face and he coos, âYou can sleep. Channie and I will take care of everything.â He smiles sweetly and tucks your hair behind your head, trying to wipe some of the sweat off your forehead too.
You hadnât planned on any of this happening, but his fingers ghosting along your arms and all over your back are all too convincing as they urge your eyes to close. In seconds, youâre falling asleep to the feeling of Jeongin caressing your body and his lips repeatedly pushing against your cheek.
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