#idk if you’re much of an oc guy but I do have a server you could hang out in if you want?

[courfeyracs-swordcane]

helloo. 💫🎀🌸🌠🌙💙🌟!

HELLO!! I have lost the ask game but UNO REVERSE

[juhihuji]

do u have any random facts or things about Depth of heaven and ur characters (sfw or nsfw 🤭) even if what you want never comes to light, I really enjoy reading the concepts and asks about ur OCs

Hehehe I haven't thought about the characters and their story in a long time, until recently...but I never put a huge amount of thought into them before either! I kinda just knew I...wished I could make something cool that had everything I wanted in that kind of game lmao. Even if it doesn't happen, I felt like I wanted there to be twists and secrets...if it never happens then nobody but me will ever know about them, huh! But, if it does happen then I'll spoil stuff for later! What to do...ah I'll share about it! But I'm giving it a spoiler warning for something that doesn't exist anyway lmao Also I'm not a writer or a scientist this is all wacky world rules ok xd also there might be inconsistencies idk I never wrote anything down I'll tell u their heights! June: 5'4 Puzzle: 6'3 Koa: 5'6 Adam: 6'1 Keizo: 6'7 Lloyd: 5'11 Static: 6' Cyril: 5'9 Holly: 5'7

In high school June and Puzzle were da weeaboos who listened to vocaloid on their phones at lunch. Puzzle wore cat ears, big headphones, and tutus to school. I think....I decided that because of her old bad design lmao. I thought I had a drawing of her in cat ears but I can't find it 😔 June prolly just wore hoodies and graphic t-shirts. They were each others prom dates! June wore a tux! Okay spoilery stuff ahead!

I have a general idea what I want the story to be, but right now I just see it as disjointed scenes in my head. I posted some June and Puzzle wearing dresses where I wanted a scene to happen in a casino on the ship. Cruise ship casinos are kinda lame though lol, but it'll be as big and cool as I want >:•3 and it's an excuse to have everyone in cool formal wear cuz that's always fun! The cult leader calls for a big party on the ship and everyone has to attend! It's also where he culls the herd...because not everyone is worthy of going to heaven...apparently Koa likes playing video games! He's on the top of the leaderboard for one MMO, and during one event the top prize was blueprints for an in-game item: roller skates! It would make for cool merch to put on your wall or something. There was a rumor among the playerbase that the blueprints could make skates that function as they do in the game. Koa won the prints then used them to custom build his own skates (they look kinda generic now but I haven't put a lot of thought into their design lmao). The combination of materials used and construction give them a magical quality that allows him to skate faster than any human could! He's always pushing his limits, and sometimes it gets him in twubble xd Keizo has an issue with bad dreams...at night he replays all the times in his life where people were rude to him or each other, how he needs to keep peace between them, he just really hates assholes! He has nightmares about them treating him badly and there's nothing he can do, because at his height and with his strength he'd come off as the bad guy no matter what! They push and push 'til he's about to snap...then he wakes up! The rage super heats his blood and his skin glows red and steam pours out his ears! His hair is all wacky cuz it holds it's shape on the pillow from all the heat lmao June and the rest of them find out about it when they see steam coming out from under his door at night. Don't wake him up though! If he's still glowing hot he'll sleep walk while in a berserk state. First, it makes him really rude himself lmao. He'll say all the nasty things he won't when he's awake! Second, if he sees someone doin' shit he don't like, they're gettin' these 🤜🤛 In his happy ending you'd see him with his hair flat for the first time wouldn't that be nice :•3 Adam is always doing experiments on himself, kinda just for shits, kinda because he wants to discover something amazing....!.....?!?!??! When he was younger, his sister, who he loved v much, died. He wanted to become a doctor, not because he wanted to find a cure for the thing that killed his sister...because she died in an accident! He wanted to find a way to make people invincible! He's always injecting himself with stuff hoping it'll make him stronger. He likes Keizo as a friend, but to Adam Keizo is a perfect specimen of an indestructable human. Adam's been fascinated with him for a while, but Keizo also just makes for a good subject for testing against! Also, they met when Adam was studying abroad and Keizo came up on a motorbike and attacked the wheels on Adam's scooter. Cute! :•) Keizo used to be a bad boy :•( Other experiments Adam's done: Eyesight like a HAWK Cat ears but for real Jelly bones(?) Longer ween 😳 Lloyd is a stinky tech wiz who likes playing around with AI's and robotics! He has myassive myega brains and he monitors many of the functions of the ship by himself in his server room. When the captain is captured and thrown off the ship, Lloyd uses his know-how and special accesses to make sure the cult doesn't make a mess of everything. He knows about and can see everything that happens on the ship...for fun he likes video games toooo! And plays with Koa! He likes buildin' lil gadgets n tings for fun too! They can come in real handy! nsfw! Stuff past here!!!!!!!!! June, Koa, and Lloyd are all inexperienced!

As a lover, Keizo tries to be gentle...but once he gets into it he can be a bit rough! If you're into it, just enjoy! Or speak up and he'll slow down! Hmmm I was inspired by a scene from the film Crying Freeman (which I haven't actually watched 8•|) of some ppl doin' it in a closet(?)...it's all dark and cramped and humid and their skin is so shiny and glistening it's probably the thing that awoken me to drawing people super sweaty. I just can't help myself 😳 def wanna give Keizo a scene like that. This doodle was inspired by it actually lmao

Adam is patient and gentle! Lots of kisses and verbal reassurance and checking in w/ u. He's aware of his age and he doesn't wanna come off badly so he'll let you do all the pursuing. And June will pursue him hard if she has to! He's also gonna make you beg and ask, just so he's sure sure :•) He loves to sit her up on the examining table n do things wit his mouf n fingers 😳 I'd probably make it an option to call him daddy in certain scenarios...up to u if u choose it find out what happens for urself idk 😳😳😳 or don't

Koa likes to tease you, maybe bully you a lil, but when it comes to intimacy he's a wimp! I just like the idea of making the bully bend to your will, but he likes it. It just feels good to wipe that cocky smile off his face! Step on him! Make him whimper! I know June's a virg too, but Koa is just so easy to tease it makes it feel like second nature. BUT the more time they spend together, the more confident Koa becomes. So! Enjoy havin' him under your thumb while you can cuz it might not last forever! Lloyd tries to stay composed when June starts showing an interest. He's usually alone in his server room, but secretly appreciates her company when she comes by. At first he'll act like he's too busy. He's not used to being around women! As his interest in June grows it becomes harder to hide his feelings! So June notices...and teases him! Cuz it's just so easyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyYYYYYYY 😩 Seeing his serious expression crack when you put ur hands in his pants is lots of fun :•3 And he shows you a voice he's never shown anyone else before 🤤 He does his research and with your help he'll learn exactly how to worship u 😌 IF it ever happens there has to b a new game plus where u unlock threesome scenes with Koa/Lloyd and Adam/Keizo :•x That's all 4 now! Sorry I'm fuckin' gross and don't know how to type :•|

[edda-blattfe]

This Blog Is No Longer Active

( Aug. 17, 2020)

Don’t worry, I’m alright and will explain my reasons as to why. No, this is not due to the recent drama in the fandom (contributing a lil bit, but not causing); those issues have been tossed around since....January, was it? (Idk anymore...) Nor is it the lack of game activity. It’s my fault.

A couple months back, I said something that hurt a friend....I mean really hurt. She needed time and space to heal....I didn’t know how long that would be, and I’m sure as hell not proud to say that I didn’t give her that. She didn’t block me at first, I didn’t know what or if it meant anything (in hindsight, she was probably trying to be nice because that’s the kind of person she is; a good person). I didn’t know what to do or what the parameters were, if I should ask or no... BUT THAT WASN’T ANY EXCUSE FOR MY BEHAVIOR. She was in enough pain already, she was hurting, and I don’t know if it was all because what I did or not! I really hope it was! Because at least then I know that blocking me is all it took!!! But you know what?! Tumblr will still show reblogs from blocked blogs....we have so many friends in common, I don’t want her to stress out if she sees my artwork on their blogs, and I don’t want to put our friends in an awkward position. I can’t contribute art to this blog knowing it’s going to hurt her. Let’s face it; I should’ve left long ago. I’ll leave the blog here, there’s too much to simply get rid of and I already left the discord servers I modded for. It’s time for me to move on, away from here. All I ask is this: If she writes a rant calling me out on all of this, DO NOT DEFEND ME. I AM IN THE WRONG. I AM THE BAD GUY. I don’t care about loyalty or whatever other excuse anyone can pull from thin air! LISTEN TO HER. And you know what? Whi,e we’re on that note: LISTEN TO EACH OTHER!!!! If you have time and energy to argue or send hate mail, then you have time to talk through your problems; remind people how amazing they are; how beautiful their artwork is; what amazing writers they are!!!! BE KIND, FOR THE LOVE OF THE EARTH BENEATH US!!!!!

To my friends; I’m sorry for not saying goodbye to you personally, you all deserve better...so much better. Thank you for giving me the name “Blue” (not the fairy, but really me), thank you for always saying such beautifully kind things about my art and writing, thank you for sharing the stories about your ocs and aus with me, and thank you for helping me grow as a person through this year. It’s ok if you’re disappointed in me...I am too....and I hope you will all be able to find happiness wherever it is life takes you. Please remember, you’re all amazing, incredibly talented people with imaginations that can rival the heavens. I love you.

Thank you for letting me be Blue!

(This post was time scheduled, I will not see replies in it.)

[magmahurricane]

A decade of friends - in no order, here’s to all the amazing people in my life old and new!

@shinkumancer : I remember following your work waaay back in the Archie Comic days. I had always been too shy to approach you, but I loved your work. I still remember so much of your Egg Boss art and it’s insane how far you’ve come. You’re still one of the sweetest, kindest people I know and I always enjoy the little drawpile sessions we have! 

@zlatis-art : We haven’t been friends for very long - it’s roughly been a year, now, but it feels like we’ve been friends longer. Something just... clicked when we met, and god I came on strong looking back! I don’t regret it tho - taking the plunge and letting you into my life was such a good call. You’re super patient and you strive so hard to treat everyone fairly and give people so much love. You’ve come such a long way with both your OCs and your art, and our calls are always so much fun! 

@sege-h : Would you believe I actually don’t remember exactly how we met...? I know it had something to do with the Sonic RPC iirc. But you’ve always been such a wonderful source of optimism and joy, and I love our talks! You’ve always been so supportive of me and I don’t know how to thank you for it?? I need to draw Storm and Carey doing more shenannigans when I get better!

@rainingautumn : I also don’t recall how, other than vague recollections of the Sonic RPC I think. I feel like I learned so much from you - you’ve provided me with different perspectives, which really helped me open my eyes to a lot of things. You’ve always been such a warm, positive presence while still standing firm and speaking up for yourself, which is so hard to do. I love your little messages, even if I don’t always know how to respond to them!

@boy-of-silence : You’re legit one of my oldest friends around and looking back on where we started it’s honestly kind of insane? We met on dA and we were practically babies like??? It’s insane, I remember so much and it all blurs together like mad, but we’ve always just sorta stuck by each other and I’m always so happy to see you on my dash. You got me into Homestuck, and you made me curious about Bioshock (I still need to finish Infinite), and I still remember the little art collabs we used to do...! I got nothing but good memories!

@kismeti : We don’t talk much, but I’m hoping to change that soon! I love your work, and you’ve put so much into your OCs. Seeing you tweet about petsites makes me think about Neopets and I age 500 years every time,, You honestly seem so sweet and kind and I can’t wait to see what more you’re gonna share with us in the new year!

@fini-mun : I don’t talk with you as much as I should (purely because I’m shy as all get out) but you’ve honestly been such an inspiration to me. You’re so incredibly kind and patient -- I still have that doodle you sent me while I had been down in the dumps. I remember I found you so intimidating when I first met you on dA, when I first tried to commission you -- and watching you grow as an artist and getting to know you has been so great! You don’t know how much I smiled that night when I expressed how I knew nothing about BatIM and you up and streamed the entire game live. I know we were both excited to play FO76 together and that was a let down for like, the entire fandom. But we should definately hang sometime and do stuff! Give your ratties my love!!

@oddpastrys : JAAADE,,, I vaguely remember meeting you in one of Kaden’s streams,, and then in Joan’s weird campaign. You’ve always been such a fun, energetic person and you always bring the best jokes. Deadass, watching RWBY with you both ruined it and enhanced it. You’re so much fun to be around and you always work so hard to cheer everyone up and please everyone, and we don’t say thank you often enough - I don’t thank you often enough. You’re so sweet and fun to be around and I’m 100% not sorry about all the horrible, horrible things I’ve made you see. 

@calderscauldron : Kaden!!! You’re another one of my oldest friends, and it’ll never be wild to me how insanely lucky it was that I happened to move to the same state as you. I remember when we were dumb kids on dA, and how you used to joke about kidnapping me -- and how my first thought when getting to Texas was “I should see where this guy lives and meet up!” sjkfdjkfs It’s been a helluva ride and I don’t regret it. We had our bumps and fallouts but we’ve always worked through it all -- and your art has come such a long way. You’re always so sweet and so much fun to be around.  You deserve so many nice things and I can’t thank you enough for sticking by my dumb ass for so long!

@haunted-pixel : Yet another decade-old friendship! Bronwyn it’s been such a fucking wild ride. I still remember your old OCs from back in the day; I remember our gryphon friend group, and our lizard group and screaming about digimon, I remember getting really into Kimba/Jungle Emperor Leo cos of you and your OCs, I remember all the drawings of Z and Miki. I remember Nuki and the others. It’s been such a long time and so much has changed around us both. We don’t talk as much anymore but I’m always thrilled when we do hit eachother up on twitter!! I seriously gotta draw more Carey x Zanity sometime. You’ve also just, improved so much as an artist and branched out so much?? Your plushies and your fursuits are absolutely amazing and I can’t believe how far you’ve come! I also still have the sketches you and your sister did for me when I was technically homeless and stuck in the hospital and I’ll always treasure them - and the Nack you made for me is still sitting cozy on my shelf, along with the yeen and Sonic you sent!

@nuttyrabbit : My absolute best friend!!! And probably most unexpected friend! I remember seeing your posts in the Archie Sonic tag way back when, and how my asshole ex used to rant about how she hated you for w/e reason. I used to be so intimidated by you because you told it how it is, and I respected your opinion so I was always lowkey afraid you thought I was stupid and hated my ideas/OCs. But even before we got close, you stuck your neck out for me when things got bad between my ex and me. And in 2018, we finally just started to click with our OC stuff.  Lady Luck became a huge comfort dynamic for the both of us. You always argue against it but I still say you’re one of the kindest people I know. You always try to look out for me and find ways to lend a hand when things get tough, you’re always trying to help me when I’m down and you go out of your way to cheer me up and I can’t thank you enough. Meeting you at RTX this year was incredible.  Thank you so much for being you. <3 

@finitevus : We don’t talk much but I can’t not add you!!! You’ve been so kind and supportive to me, and artistically you’ve always been such a big inspiration. I love your character designs and your writing is so so good, and you always strive to be so positive and warm to others and I promise I’m not ignoring you when you reach out; I’m just very shy and dumb ankjdjkfs I need to,,, say hello on discord sometime. And draw you many things!

@lightdax : You’re always a whole lot of fun and I refuse to apologize for your eyes with half the shit you’ve been exposed to by proxy. You’ve always been really sweet and you’ve really been pushing to improve this past year and it shows! Take time off your mayoral duties for the town of Cuckoldia and put up your OC bios tho! @nvllspace : I,, gotta tag ur RP blog cos IDK ur personal but JACKKIIEE. You’re so sweet and fun and your art is always such a treat. You came through with helping me realize just how toxic a certain person I needed to cut out of my life was, and you’ve always been so kind and supportive. You’re always a blast in our calls and I love your AUs so much! Also you need to stop having so many gorgeous characters cos holy shit,,,

@frecklefacefromouterspace : Nixe!  You’re usually busy these days but whenever we do catch you it’s always fun. If it wasn’t for your old server, the current server wouldn’t have even existed and you brought us all together! You’re always so sweet and bubbly and you have one of the cutest, most distinct styles I know.

And to all my other mutuals - thank you all so much for sticking by me!  I’m having difficulty typing now so I’m sorry I couldn’t get to everyone but sincerely: thank you, all of you, for making these past years such an amazing ride. I’ve learned so much from each of you and I can’t wait to see what’s in store for 2020!

[9noryn]

New answers!!

From questions asked in the ask-the-incuwives channel in the Seduce Me Discord Server!

From abil:  if your husbands had to stay in the abyssal plains after the events of the war, how would you feel? would you be okay with it?

Noryn would pack up and move with him lmao she's not attached to places, more so people so; of course there has to be a lot of talking and planning together, but she's pretty down to continue making things work from the plains side. She wouldn't have to worry about being found by Angels and get obliterated, big plus. She'd miss her sigil witch brother and her friends in the human world though; but she'll easily think about video calls and gaming and visits. The big make or break would be whether she can get hooked up with high speed internet in the abyssal plains

wait i just realized... the abyssal plains doesn't have internet yet

noryn's not gonna like this one bit; neither would matthew 

two gamers, in a dimension without games

((first order of business is to invent internet and get connected to human world, the first demon world hacker))

Bonus:

Midnight: Noryn starting up a tiktok channel for tiktoks in the Abyssal Plains that only the incubi and the wives see LOL

Midnight: no, she vlogs

Zio: hey demons its ya boi

More under the break!

From tkdigiboy: how would you react if one of the boy's ex-bf/gf or 'playmates'(sex for energy) came to visit or hang. would you let your husband do a one time fling for energy?

noryn's been friends with her exes, and their exes; so as long as things are chill, it's just like meeting anyone else from someone's social circle. it only gets weird if it's like... this person distracts matthew away from noryn a lot or otherwise gets in between her interactions with him

e_e they don't even have to be past lovers, anyone that does that will get on noryn's nerves and make her go on a jealous gifting spree, where in a fit of jealous frustration she buys a bunch of very thoughtful gifts for matthew to give to him later

regarding the one-time fling: emergency sure; but like, consent and all is one time and case specific

like if matthew is blowing up noryn's phone like "iM dY INNg OF SEX STarVaTION AND yOu'RE IN THE HUMAN WORLD" she'd be like ? ?? ? bE SAfe FIRST AND WE CAN TALK LATER

From Kantah: ooh what are the wives' hobbies? :0

Noryn hobbies: being an internet gremlin; tea brewing, drink mixing, bartending/barista; dabbling in potion making

From tkdigiboy: To noryn/zio: how well do you get along with simon and his wife?

pretty well!! though she thinks of simon and simone as mika's pets so whenever she visits mika she likes to try to befriend them and get matthew to play with him :>  simon's a lot less of a rascal when noryn can give him the attention he seeks

From Diva:  how long does it take Noryn to find out Divana’s favorite bubble tea since she cant magically know like usual [cause she’s a collective ton of different personalities]

Diva: Zio wait how long does it take for Noryn to figure out Divana's fav bubble tea after she god damn blue screens

Noryn: -sits there with window xp error noises going off in her brain-

Divana: I think this one died

Zio: poor baby; noryn would probably just blindfold herself and randomly mix ingredients and hope for the best. serving a chaos demon aint easy

Diva: Especially when Noryn Knows Alot of Things™️

From dari_baguls:  Idk if this is more for Zio or Noryn buuuut do you really have the cat stalkings Noryn wears in the game? I cried when I saw Noryn cause I also have the same stalkings and also (at the time) had short hair TvT just wanna know for research purposes

i do have them irl! Her outfit is based off of what i wore when the game was being made

She’d look like this in present day

Gotta refresh noryn’s design cause it’s very undergrad student vs her now working bartending professional :9

From Diva:  Oh no Noryn and Divana in the same room fucking around with potions

Zio: POTIONS POTIONS POTIONS in carrie's kitchen no less

Diva: Many things went wrong that day

Diva: M a n y

Zio:

Noryn: "can i come over to make sum poshuns" 

Carrie: "Of course,you dork"

Noryn: "Also Divana will help" 

Carrie:

Diva: 

Read at 3:45 pm

Zio: 

Noryn: "henlo? carrie u ther"

From tkdigiboy: Question to zio and kary: how do you 2 handle your husbands when their doing their usual routine towards eachother

Karygurl: Start making bets, make popcorn :D

Zio: when sam and matthew bicker; noryn stands aside and lets them get through their system if it's between them specifically; otherwise she's a participant in the bickering LOL they're a lot like rascally friends, and noryn is also a shit starter 

Zio: i headcanon that iri or twila like to occasionally stir the pot, like drop a small [controversial hot take] and watch the boys mcfreakin lose it

sam, matthew and noryn are all competitive casual gamers shit's going down there's no allegiances

From ☁bunny☁: jumpin in here: for all of the incuwives creators, especially zio n kary, how do you guys feel about people writing about ur ocs in their own stories? or drawing them? im writing my own interpretation of the story with my self insert and i love carrie and noryn dearly and would love to include them (and the other incuwives) but id only wanna do it if its cool with their creators first !

Karygurl: I mean please do!! I bookmark and save EVERYTHING that has even a tiny whiff of Carrie in it, I'm honored anyone would want to include her in anything ever

Zio: im flattered if your inspired to write in or draw my characters!! let me know if you want to collab too

Zio: do it do it; shout outs and cameos give me life

Karygurl: SAME Zio

Zio: plus if there's no story conflict, im down to adopt new dynamics/lore/etc from what people create

From Mari: What kind of things would you do to make your husband laugh?

To laugh? noryn would be an utter fool lmao and tell him an embarrassing story about herself (she's had a whopping 9 lives worth, there's no end to headass decisions and shenanigans when it comes to her); something like 

Noryn: "Babe have you seen our dog" 

Matthew, pouty but still hanging in there: "Huh? She's in the other room, right?" 

Noryn: "Now watch this. Bijo, cuddle attack!!" 

Distant pitpattering on the tile gets closer until Bijo, the apron wearing shibe, gets ready to jump with a soft woof

Bijo full-body slams into noryn

oh my god, noryn would do unintentional slapstick when trying to show matthew some new trick or skill

tkdigiboy to zio: pet peeve with matthew

probably him being a touch too open-minded and overly generous with his time to the point that he wears himself super super thin and tired. he's kind of that extreme of being too self-sacrificing? 

Noryn reminds him that he doesn't owe everyone he comes in contact with that kind of life-changing attention and focus, especially if those people take advantage of his kindness.

Noryn is very much "i have limited time and energy in this one body, I focus on saving the one person I can" whereas Matthew is the "I want to brighten everyone's day, and give them what I didn't have or give them something only I can provide"

While they have similar tastes and interests, their perspectives help the other grow into a healthier, better person.

[norisxfics]

Hopeless (fanfic) Ch.1

Title: Hopeless Characters: Jinyoung, Jaebum, Alice (OC) Chapter 1

Can also find this story here on AFF

Humans. Human's are the most intelligent beings on the planet, but that does not mean we are flawless. In fact, we are full of flaws, but we work on these flaws, we learn, and we change, that's how it works. We make mistakes we regret, we make the wrong choices. This is what this story is about.

Infidelity.

Dishonesty.

Love.

Pain. 

I was in the bathroom finishing up my make-up since I had a date tonight. My boyfriend and I had planned this about a week ago, we agreed we had been too pre-occupied by work and not spending enough time together. If we weren't working we were usually just lazing around at home, gaming or sometimes he would go out with friends or invite his friends over. So yes even though we lived together we still didn't give each other a proper amount of attention. As I was applying the last up my make-up my phone starts ringing, it was him.

"Hey babe! I'm almost ready, when will you be here?"

"What? Oh..I was just calling to let you know I'm watching a game tonight with my friends,"

"Um...no, we have a date tonight,"

"Oh shit...I forgot! Sorry babe I promised them last night tha-"

"you promised me a week ago! just cancel and tell them we have a date tonight..."

"babe it would rude to break a promise on friends like that"

I grew furious, this wasn't his first time doing this "Jaebum...are you fucking with me right now? It's okay to break promises with me but not your friends? You always do this shit,"

"Babe chill it's-"

"No no no, don't tell me to chill, whatever do what you want...you know what don't even come home tonight."

I hung up the phone and smacked my make up off the counter before walking out to the living room, pacing back and forth to calm myself. He's been doing this a lot lately, he always cancels last minute with some dumb excuse. Bros before hoes right? "Ugh!" I yelled in frustration.

I sat down on my computer and opened up my discord application, clicking on the server my online friends and I made game together and talk.

AliceTheBunny69: ugh I'm so pissed off right now!!!

wildnsexy328: Wassup??

Alicethebunny69: my boyfriend canceled on our date again, he keeps doing this, this time the "boys" wanted to watch a game together and god forbid if you cancel plans on your bros, right?

randodude100: hate to be that guy but are you he's seeing "the boys"?

someguy2: ....yeah I agree with rando that's kind of suspicious

wildnsexy328: ....

alicethebunny69: tbh...I've been a bit suspicious but I'm scared to find out...

wildnsexy328: does he let you see his phone? maybe you can pretend to be playing on his phone or smth and check if there's anything?

gamergirl22: my ex bf hated when I touched his phone, i mean i respect privacy but the way he acted when i touched his phone got me suspicious of him,I later found out he had been cheating on me with my best friend.

alicethebunny69: ugh he used to leave his phone laying around and never had a pw on it, but idk he suddenly put a lock code on it and won't tell me what it is...he only let's me play with his phone if he's next to me

randodude100: yup he's most likely cheating...

wildnsexy328: oooh are we about to do some secret agent shit and invetigate??? Agent Jackson here to save the day!

alicethebunny69: Jackson....I think you're right, I'm going to see whats up, I'll talk to you guys later!

I logged up and grabbed my phone. I decided to call one of Jaebum's friends who was close to the both of us. He picked up pretty quickly when I called "Noona! What's up?"

"Hey Youngjae, so don't tell Jaebum I called okay? But I wanted to know, is there anything going on tonight?"

"No not really...what's wrong?"

"none of the guys are getting together for some game or whatever?"

"not that I know of- I don't think there's any games going on that we care about tonight, besides most of them have work tonight,"

I pursed my lips and sighed "okay so, I don't want Jaebum knowing I called you or anything, okay? But can you see if the guys are up to anything and get back to me?"

"um, sure I'll text you, is there something going on?"

"I hope not, I hope I'm just overthinking...anyway I'm hanging up, thank you," I hung up the phone and bit down on my lip nervously. I felt my stomach twist as I thought about whether he was cheating or not. I walked over to my fridge and pulled out a bottle of water. I twisted the cap off and began gulping it down. I soon got a text from Youngjae.

"They're all either busy, or at home with their parents...Except Yugyeom, he said he's out to party at the club or something"

Why did he lie? I took a deep breath and sent him "thank you" 

Maybe he's out with Yugyeom? I thought. If he wanted to go clubbing he knows he I don't mind, hell we could have gone together even, so why would he cancel on me? I groaned in frustration and started pacing again, my heart was racing.

"Wait...I know which clubs they usually go to...maybe I can find out if I go," I called a taxi and put my shoes on before heading outside. When the taxi arrived I got in and told him to drop me off in Gangnam. The road took about half an hour to get to since we lived a bit far away from Gangnam. I paid the taxi when we arrived and I got out the first place I went to was a club Yugyeom frequented. I got in and began looking around for either Yugyeom or Jaebum. It took a while of me moving around through everyone until I spotted them.

I went home that night regretting that I had gone to find him at all. As soon as I got home the first thing I did was get into bed under my blanket, hugging my teddy bear. The images of him all flashed through my head as I began to tear up. 

There was, dancing, not with Yugyeom, not by himself. He was dancing with a girl, grinding her up, feeling her up. She turned to face him and they started making out as he squeezed her stupid little non-existent ass. Rage grew within me but I just stood there. I watched it go on for a while before I rushed out of the club and took a taxi home, the whole ride I was angry. I felt betrayed. 

But that feeling of anger soon turned to loneliness. I started questioning everything, mostly myself.

Where did I go wrong? Am I not attractive anymore? Does he hate me? Am I too boring? Just why? Why does he feel like he needs to go and see other girls? We even talked about marriage on time, was that all just talk? What happened to us?

I remember when were piratically inseparable. He asked me out in our senior of high school and people would always tease us about how we were always together. Like that one time...

We were sitting outside on one of the schools benches during lunch, I was feeding Jaebum and he fed me. He then pulled me into his lap and placed a fruit between his teeth. I knew what he was waiting for. I chuckled and leaned in taking a bit from the strawberry before we kissed softly. "gross, get a room" one of our friends, Mark, interrupted us and we laughed. I chewed and swallowed the strawberry "this could be you but you're to dense to notice that your crush is head over heals for you, just ask her out already!" I chuckled before kissing Jaebum again "wait-...what?! She likes me?! Hey guys... guys! Stop kissing and listen to me, you're not lying right?" I tried to break the kiss to reply but Jaebum didn't let me pull always, he gestured for Mark to go away already.

I really missed that. What happened since then?

At this point I started sobbing heavily into my bear, tears pouring out of my face as I screamed into my bear. What do I do now? I love him too much I don't want to break up.

So many thoughts went through my head before I finally fell asleep.

"Hey, babe, wake up," I woke up a bit when I heard his voice as he pulled the blanket off of me "Jesus...were you crying?" I opened my eyes and saw Jaebum grabbing a tissue, trying to wipe my make up off. I turned on the back, facing my back towards him and he let out a sigh. 

"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to make you cry, I want to make it up to you today, so please get up I want to take you somewhere, so go wash your face I'll be waiting in the living room,"

I was trying to be stubborn and not listen to him. I stayed about ten minutes thinking about it. "So what if he cheated? I'll just work harder and maybe we can fix things...people fall into temptations sometimes right? I'll let him tell me about it once he feels he's ready, for now let's pretend nothing happened." I told myself. I know I was only fooling myself but I had so much hope that it could work out, I love him. 

I got off the bed and wiped off my makeup and decided to just apply some eyeliner and lip gloss, I stayed in the clothes I had worn last night and just fixed myself up before heading to the living room. He got up and smiled at me pulling me in for a hug before pressing his lips against mine. He then rested his forhead against mine and closed his eyes "I'm sorry I keep making you cry, I don't blame you if you hate me, but for now let's just go out on a date, yeah? We can talk things out..."

I nodded "okay..." 

[iridescentanachronism]

calum + a coffeeshop run-in

Hello folks! I am back again to wreck havoc (by wreck havoc i mean write a mediocre at best + way too long oneshot LOL) so I hope no one minds! I am in love with Calum Hood so idk i thought i’d write this cute fluffy piece! This is an OC I might use her again, and the two don’t meet till the end but its very fluffy! If you’re not a fan of slow burn this probably isn’t the drabble for you. Anywho! Thank ya for the support on the last fic and constructive criticism is MORE than welcome!!! Love ya <3

WC: 1914 

As the soft sunlight poured into the coffeehouse, she let a small smile grace her face; a steaming cafe au lait was sitting to the right of her favorite novel, It’s Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini. The warm brick walls were covered with blankets of thick ivy and the familiar barista sent her a wave as he grinned at her seat of choice. Every Saturday morning she, as gracefully as possible, plopped her bag down onto the corner table next to the large window, and proceeded to order the exact same thing as the week before. The habit had evolved into more of a tradition for her and the employees, and all parties involved looked forward to it every week. Of course, however, not everyone knew of her tradition. All of the regulars looked at her with familiarity, however, Calum Hood was not a regular. 

He first spotted her on Saturday the third, he would never forget the date. After becoming overwhelmed with the stress of the studio he had popped out for a smoke and ended up in the cozy joint, not anticipating the beautiful girl humming in the corner. He noticed how the pages of her book had been dog-earred, spine worn, and the cover had shown marks that could only be a result of love. He noticed the way her thick brown hair laid perfectly over her shoulders, and the way her hazel eyes began to moisten while she read. He knew that he wasn’t the only person whose breath had been taken by the polished young woman. Whilst Calum took his time adoring the woman who he had deemed no less than an angel, the boys continued to work, and eventually his brief solace had to come to an end. After receiving his drink, he considered introducing himself, but he knew he didn’t have much time before his absence would go from being a mere annoyance to a menace, so he swore to go back on the next Saturday, hoping that her visit was a habit. 

Calum had never felt as though the days passed by slowly, his schedule was always packed and the bassist had little time to dedicate to anything other than his craft. Typically, he would be grateful for the daily recording sessions, long days of interviews, and time to perfect his abilities; this week, however, Calum yearned for the time to pass more quickly. He busied himself with every possible task in an effort to distract himself from the memory of the woman who had entranced him. No, he didn’t believe in “love at first sight”, but he did know that he was drawn to this girl in a way he had never felt before. He had purchased a copy of the novel that she appeared to adore, and after starting it he had realized why her eyes misted at the cafe; it was a gut wrenching story of perseverance in its most raw form. After reading a few chapters, he proceeded to clean his kitchen, do a load of laundry, tune his bass, attempt to write, and make himself lunch, Calum had about had it. It was only eleven in the morning on Wednesday, how the hell was he supposed to last until Saturday? He allowed his mind to wander into a dangerous territory; he began to build a backstory for the beauty. He decided she must be a quiet introvert who preferred to go at her own pace than follow another's, that's why she spent her Saturday morning alone and in peace, rather than surrounded by friends or family. 

After a long day of bussing tables, Theo unceremoniously threw herself onto the couch in the backroom. It had been a busy Friday night at the restaurant she worked at, a scene that she knew far too well from her years of working there.  She allowed herself three minutes, no more and no less, to rest before her short trip home. She was simply so exhausted that even the drive to her home had seemed daunting. After her time-out had ended, she quickly wished a goodnight to her coworkers and walked to her car. She faced almost no traffic on her car ride home (as she had expected, as she clocked out at 11:03pm), and made her way into her cozy apartment. After saying hello to the attendant at the desk downstairs, she scurried up to the third floor to complete her nighttime routine and jump into her familiar bed. Before allowing herself to fade into sleep, she rolled over and made sure to set her alarm for nine; it was simply tradition that she made it to her coffeeshop before the eleven o’clock rush. 

On Saturday morning Calum was buzzing with excitement. Duke’s “walk” appeared to be more of a speed walk today, and Calum’s shower was about five minutes shorter than usual; his hair routine, however? Roughly 15 minutes and approximately eight curses longer. He could not wrap his head around the gut feeling he had all week: the stunning girl would be back today, and Calum would approach her. The plan seemed simple enough, being that he had not made one yet. Calum, or “Cool Guy Cal” as he demanded people call him, thought he would be able to come up with a smooth one-liner as he approached the girl he could not get off his mind. He gave Duke a quick kiss on the head before grabbing his car keys, asking fate to give him this one chance with the girl he couldn’t forget. 

Theo woke up well before her alarm, she set it every Friday night hoping that her work sleep schedule would magically wear off and she would be able to sleep past six, but her plan never worked. She padded around her apartment in her ex’s large tee shirt and fed her goldfish, Samuel, while affectionately murmuring that he was the best choice she’d ever made. She tidied up the house and began her morning routine, brushing her teeth, washing her face, and pulling her unlawful curls out of her eyes with a few clips. She sighed at the dark circles underneath her eyelids, but hadn’t thought enough about them to bother with makeup. She grabbed her day bag, untouched from the week before, and happily trotted out of her complex. The walk to the cafe had always been her favorite part of her trips, the birds chirping and the bright sun spreading across her skin could turn any day into a good one. Her green maxi skirt brushed along her legs as she confidently strutted down the same route she took every Saturday morning. She walked with her shoulders back and head held high; unknowingly carrying an aura of professionalism and class. The young woman hadn’t realized that she appeared so poised before she moved to the Golden State. Far more people than she could count had complimented her for her stature since she moved, and she had just about had it with strangers approaching to compliment her “vibe”. During her tenure in Los Angeles, Theo had realized that everything here was curated to be seen by others. Simply, in LA people believed that every aspect of one’s life was meant to be on display, and therefore, little things like one’s strut down the street and the amount of rings on their hand translated to their worth and opinions. She continued her trot down the road, ignoring the looks being sent her way and instead focusing on the cafe au lait and comforting text that she knew awaited her. 

Before Calum left his car, he made sure to triple check his appearance. He wore what he believed to be his best shirt (Ashton agreed with him, so he knew it wasn’t a mistake), left his curls a little messy, and made sure he had absolutely nothing in his teeth, despite the fact that he hadn’t yet consumed anything. He jumped out of the car and walked briskly to the ivy covered walls, a warm feeling began to spread in his chest as he swung open the doors and glanced around the cafe. The feeling dissipated quickly when he realized that the girl he had ventured out for was, in fact, not there. He ordered his drink of choice and sat at a table near a window before huffing in frustration, but he had nothing to lose at this point, so once his number was called he rose to pick up his drink and enjoy the serene cafe he had found himself in. 

The little bell jingled above Theo’s head as she walked into the place she had grown so familiar with, her face still felt hot from the merciless Los Angeles summer she had walked through, and it was her absolute favorite feeling. The long skirt fluttered around her calves as she walked up to the counter to say hello to the baristas that she now called her friends, and they began working on her drink without even asking what she would like. She went to take her usual place in the secluded corner by the window, and while walking over noticed a breathtaking man sitting two tables away from her spot. Her breath hitched in her throat and she shot him a soft smile as she took her rightful place. 

My God. I could wake up to that smile everyday. Calum thought to himself in awe. He quickly curved up the sides of his mouth to send her (what he hoped was) a sweet grin in return. He quickly shook the previous thought out of his head, knowing it was more than irrational and inappropriate since he had yet to even learn the girls name. He watched as the man who took his order walked over to her table with a bemused smile, they chatted briefly and it became quite obvious to Cal that his hunch had been correct, she does come here every Saturday morning. Zach, the barista, had left her table with a laugh and returned with a big mug. After straining to hear Calum heard the girl release a melodic giggle paired with a genuine thank you for the server. Zach mockingly bowed to her and said, with an exaggerated wink, “anything for you, Princess Theo”. Ignoring the spark of jealousy that ignited when Calum heard the pet name, he felt more gratitude for Zach than he could ever imagine. Theo. Theo fit the young woman perfectly; a greek name meaning “divine gift”. With this newfound information Calum felt the surge of confidence he needed, he approached the table in the corner with a bit of nerves in his tummy. 

“Hey, it’s nice to meet you. My name is Calum, I was just wondering if this seat is taken?” He wouldn’t admit it to anyone else, but Calum may have thickened his accent a bit in an effort to woo the girl. She already had him wrapped around her finger, at this point he needed every advantage he could get. He watched in adoration as her face flushed bright pink, and she sputtered out a greeting of her own, “Oh! Um- hi I’m Theo it’s nice to meet you as well, no-no, the seat isn’t taken.” From the second that Calum slid into the chair across from her, Theo knew he would be nothing but trouble, and in the years to follow she would learn that while he was troublesome, he was so much more.

[poppyknitt]

sup nerds

contrary to popular belief, i am in fact alive.

i’m just more active on discord now because i don’t have really much reason at all to be on tumblr aside from posting what little of the shit i write/draw that can actually be posted on tumblr-

because, uh, yknow...

Darkness and Desperation’s canon timeline is different from the timeline i mainly write about now, and the one i mainly write about is a timeline that’s kinda formed around the versions of DaD’s characters that appear on discord-

n i don’t wanna do a controversial thing on tumblr with my story, especially considering the turn of events that have happened and all the shit that i’ve found out about DaD while on discord, involving a lot of stuff like character love lives, mental health issues, backstories, and alllll that jazz-

but hey, yknow what, if you wanna know? fuckin idk, tell me or somethin’, cus if enough people wanna know all the wild-ass tomfuckery i’ve discovered about DaD & its characters, i’ll let you guys send in asks n shit about all of it!

then again, i literally have nothing against you guys sending in questions n shit about my aus in the first place. like, seriously, by all means, send me dem asks tho, i wanna answer your questions about my aus and ocs and, well, pretty much everything i write about/create-

(oh and in case you’re wondering, the server i’ve been spending time on is the jacksepticeye writing community discord. it’s got a bit under 150 people in it but i love the damn place, and, honestly? probably no more than a third of the members are actually active in it at all, and even then, it’s not even that crazy/wild there.)

if you do join, i will just go ahead and let ya know that DaD has its own text channel in there, as does ACAU, though, ACAU’s hasn’t been updated since february, and hasn’t even gotten any new content since like, december or january.

[kaepop-trash]

sorry idk if this is a dumb question but I really love dotc and ris and I was a bit confused: why didn't oc want to be with jaehyun in the end ?

It's not a dumb question at all. Ask me anything you like whenever. I hope this at least aims at answering your question-It was infuriating.

_

The charming basketball star hopeful and the girl everyone had vaguely heard of before. Still pleasure came with a side of rosy glasses and she almost let herself fall for the ease their joint rhythm had. It was easy, it was peaceful. Not in the kind of way that felt monotonous after a while, but the kind that made you recognise the smaller things people search for all their lives. 

The music blared in her ears so loud that her temples throbbed a little in protest. Still her legs burned from the movement. Jaehyun had gone home for the Autumn break and she had become almost pitifully needy as a result. Classes started again on Monday and she spend that Saturday night running across campus as a means of exercise and a way to channel all the tension settled in her muscles. The one realisation that irritated her the most was one that came with the gravity of how restless his absence made her –It was quite infuriating. Still she was under rosy delusions and she almost let herself believe that this could be what literature and low budget movies try to make you believe. That maybe somewhere between the misery of university life and the uncertainty of an unstable future, could be this type of comfort that could be made permanent if only she asked. Proprietorship was a strange thing, two words could change the course of things so incredibly that it almost felt unreal.

I'm yours.

She had to slow down and stop eventually, hands resting on knees to catch some soothing air in her stinging lungs. Her phone buzzed, the obnoxious watch on her hand lighting up to show the notification. The watch was a gag gift from her high school friends because she always tried her best to be healthy. Currently the watch showed her an Instagram picture of a girl from her old dorm in a picture with Jaehyun beside her on a bar. She slid the notification away and resumed her run with a quicker pace.

He was back. And since the picture was posted a good few hours ago, he had ample time to let her know. Not that he needed to, but she could argue that it was the polite thing to do.

It had been another half an hour of her run and her mind had already gotten so ahead of herself that she was in a daze. When her phone rang, she came to such a startling halt that she almost fell over. Her finger almost slid to answer the call till her exhaustion let her catch up to the name. Her hesitation was short but present nonetheless as she answered.

“Come over.” His voice was soft. She could imagine the small pout on his velvety lips.

“No, I'm tired, I've been running for an hour.” She checked her watch for an estimate, her eyes growing wide at the sudden sound Jaehyun emitted from his throat, somewhere between a whine and a groan.

“Just come over, I want to see your face.” Jaehyun grumbled and she scoffed.

“I'm sure it’s my face.” She scoffed the second time, hanging up.

Jaehyun tapped on the spine of the book in his palms impatiently, he'd be lying if he said he wasn't dying to see her, as he had been all break. But it seemed to scare him too much, making his bones clatter like it was warning of some impending doom.When his door opened, she was annoyed to find him more pleased than shocked. She pouted at him with disapproval.

“I'm sweaty and sticky. I'm not even wearing makeup.” She grimaced as Jaehyun easily pulled her into his arms, leaving a light kiss on her slick temple, making her duck away.

“I need a shower.” She protested but Jaehyun only grinned.

“Later, you'll just get sweaty again.” He kissed her neck with purpose, swaying her.

“But I'm too tired.” She whined softly in protest. Jaehyun stopped his ministrations and looked up, immediately flashing a disappointment through her lower half. Jaehyun watched her eyes carefully, before his lips lifted slightly at the sides. He always smiled like that when he had nothing honourable on his mind, that coupled with his dropping eyes made him so irresistible that it seemed truly unreasonable to resist.

“Come lie down, I'll take care of you.” He smiled invitingly. His offers were always so insanely tempting, her skin hot at every proposal as it was the first. She lay down on the bed wordlessly, her eyes closed to register the sensations of his presence. Slowly he peeled her joggers off, watching her expectantly as she did the same to her top, both items discarded in a rush across the room. The contrast was suddenly stark, she lay in bed absolutely naked and under his scrutiny as eyes roamed her frame. Jaehyun stood in a full attire of jeans and a dark red t-shirt.

“I really did miss you.” Jaehyun breathed out to mostly himself, leaning down back on the floor slowly. He held her ankle gently and pulled her closer to the edge, a wide grin on his face as he left a kiss inside her thighs making her gasp. Slowly he teased around her heat, an action that made her squirm and move around her limbs. When he slowly brushed his nose against her slit she bit down on her bottom lip so harshly that the taste of her mouth turned metallic.

“You're being so impatient today.” Jaehyun hummed against her, enjoying the increasing effects on her. Slowly he licked up, lost in the way his name sounded on her ecstatic lips. It didn't take long for her to grip his hair a little tighter and come undone right below him.

“Let's take that shower now.” Jaehyun's voice was cheeky, laughing at her sleepy nod. He discarded all his unnecessary clothing, slipping into bed in his boxers. Before he could go forward and spoon her, she turned over and buried her face in his chest; her breathing falling into the gentle rhythm of sleep. Jaehyun lay awake with wide eyes, confused by his rapid heart, yet enjoying the way she seemed to fit into him.

The entire morning she was confused by the glances thrown at her way, frequent mumbles fell on her ears and she didn't know if it was just social paranoia or something based in reality.

“He really shouldn't have given you that t-shirt.” Johnny laughed as he sat down beside her. She looked at him with a mixture of confusion and shock.

“That’s his morning after t shirt. Jaehyun means well, someone gifted his this t-shirt but it was far too small and he lets girls wear it.” Johnny hesitated towards the end with labels.

“You mean girls he's slept with.” She inquired and Johnny nodded.

“So everyone here knows I slept with Jung Jaehyun last night.” She sighed, a small glance over the room showing only knowing eyes.

“If it makes you feel any better, it's only because they did too.” Johnny laughed awkwardly.

It didn't make her feel better, in fact she could now spot the different eyes on her. Some laughed at their knowledge, some gave her a sympathetic glance and some stared her down with judgement. The consequences of actions had never weighed her down as much, it was completely outlandish as she stood there, quietly being assessed based on whose clothes she was in.

She left her class, wondering why Jaehyun hadn't made his way to it, debating whether it was place to wonder nonetheless ask. Her question was answered rather harshly as she entered the somewhat crowded café on campus, her eyes finding Jaehyun in a booth with a girl she recognised as a junior. He had his arm around her neck so effortlessly that no one would even consider it out of place. The passing guilt in his eyes when they met hers was momentary and mostly overwhelmed by his confusion, still the guilt was admission enough, suddenly they were both blatantly aware of where they stood. She averted her eyes and stood in the line to order.

“Hi.” A voice so close to the shell of her ear made her gasp, taking a step forward and turning around with accusation. Jaehyun grinned at her expression widely, patting her head twice.

“What are you getting?” He asked as he stood beside her.

“A coffee, I have another class in half an hour.” She kept her words curt. Not because she wanted him to know she was irritated, that would require too much explanation. But she couldn't control that small part of her that wanted him to suffer a little from her change in demeanor.

“You should eat something (Y/N), you just had juice for breakfast.” He chided. She couldn't help it, the way her chest fluttered almost effervescently. His concern touched her in a way his hands or tongue couldn't yet and it seemed to suffocate her.

She didn't say much else to him till it was her turn to order. Sticking to her single order, she heard Jaehyun sigh loudly as she walked away and waited for her coffee, not acknowledging Jaehyun's lingering form anymore as she picked up her coffee.

“By the way, I'm keeping this t-shirt.” She informed him, turning away and sitting down on the opposite side of the café. (Y/N) was carefully assessing the reading material for her next class when a server came to a stop at her table, placing a plate on her table.

“The guy you were standing with at the counter left this for you.” The guy pointed at Jaehyun's retreating form from the glass windows. She stared down at the humble croissant, allowing herself to smile at the gesture, thanking the waiter.

“That’s literally what my life is like now, don't giggle.” She warned Yuta as she hung up the phone. Her old RA was not giving her a letter of leave she needed from her dorm and she was absolutely exhausted from trying. She sat back with a scowl, picking up her beer from the table. When Yuta and Doyoung both laughed she looked up with question.

“What's up?” She heard Jaehyun's voice and groaned. Taeyong who was sitting beside her got up, letting Jaehyun shift in beside her.

“Why do you look so-” Jaehyun began, stealing her beer which made her scowl more. When she lifted her hand to demand it back he shrugged away, ignoring the subtle way Yuta, Doyoung and Taeyong tried to warn him.

“So irritated?” She questioned with a sweet smile and Yuta winced. Jaehyun was still oblivious, only nodding cluelessly.

“My old roommate refuses to give me back any of my essential utilities. My RA won't write me a letter to stop my dorm fees, just ten minutes ago the girl from psychology who works at the bar ignored my requests for a beer so I had to send Taeyong. Do you know what they all have in common?” Her voice was still calm, almost jesting and she brushed her words off with laughs and light gestures.

“I slept with them?” Jaehyun spoke, slowly sliding her beer back to her. She looked down at the almost finished beer and smiled wider.

“You slept with them.” She said with affirmation, “And now you sleep with me, so they won't let me live.” She patted his thigh before turning away, leaning her chin on her palm and sipping the last of her beer. Everyone stayed silent, till she looked around.

“Why is everyone quiet? No no, don't feel bad for me. I'm sure all the girls he sleeps with goes through the same. It's okay we chose our faith.” Something she said made Jaehyun turn to her, a frown slowly adorning his own lips. There was yet another silence, everyone around the booth confused by the same thing.

“So did you know that Doyoung is hooking up with our Economics teacher?” Yuta broke the ice, looking up with panic when Jaehyun stood up abruptly.

“Gross! Is that how your grades are so high?” She asked unfazed, Doyoung looked up at her with wide eyes.

“I'm very offended that you think so little of me.” He pouted.

“She's 34!” She grimaced.

“Karen is a very charming women.” Doyoung defended. Jaehyun came back with two beers, one for himself and another that he placed in front of her which she sipped without acknowledgment.

“Don't call her by her first name.” Jaehyun said simply, sitting back down.

As they walked out of the bar Jaehyun grabbed her arm once, making her turn back with questioning eyes.

“I'm not,” He stopped, staring deep into her eyes in a way that made her cower. “I wouldn't sleep with other people. I know we haven't said anything but I'm very keen on monogamy.” Jaehyun's eyebrows were furrowed gravely. Both of them simultaneously not drunk enough and too drunk for such an important conversation. She was so taken aback that her ‘okay’ was unconvincing and she turned away before she caught his face fall.

As they walked, Jaehyun stopped suddenly making everyone do the same to face the pleasant smile on his face.

“Haejunie!” Jaehyun called out.

“Haejun?” Yuta said with suspicion.

“-ie?” Doyoung said with furrowed brows.*

“My RA.” She joined their mumbling from the back, shocking the two boys. Taeyong watched slowly as she tried to remain nonchalant, laughing with Doyoung about something, but he noticed her glance towards Jaehyun a few times. Taeyong decided to go stand with her, giving her a smile that she returned.

“She'll give you the letter tomorrow. I'll meet her at the office. She also said she'll get your things from your roommate, I'll get them to your dorm.” Jaehyun patted her head affectionately but Taeyong was more intrigued by her forced smile and nod.

“Are you coming to the house? Taeyong made some meat pie that smelled heavenly.” Jaehyun tried to sound casual, but his eyebrows lifted up and he chewed on the inside of his cheek.

“Call my doctor if I ever refuse to eat Taeyong's food.” She grinned at him and a slow exhale left Jaehyun, his lips lifting up.

As they walked towards the house, her steps lingered at the back. Taeyong decided to join her when he noticed Jaehyun give her glances. There was a silence throughout between the two of them as they watched the others be loud and active.

“He's so good at getting things.” She thought out loud and Taeyong nodded in response.

“People want to give in to him. Maybe that's why he likes you.” Taeyong turned to her but she gave him a half hearted smile.

“Yeah, so maybe now that I have I'll become another means to get things.” She all but mumbled. Taeyong looked up to ask about her words but she already struck a conversation with Doyoung about why the Leaning Tower of Pisa is a architectural marvel.

The bright and appreciated hopeful everyone on campus knew and the girl who people now wondered was his girlfriend or not; It was dreadful. Still she made herself one promise, it was fun till she willed herself to not get too comfortable. She promised herself that she would leave before she fell for him to cut both their losses.

It was an early Sunday morning but she stood at the door of her new house with eyes swollen from sleep. Jaehyun carried a second heavy box into the house and up the stairs to her room.“What kind of charitable person were you in your past life to deserve that? My boyfriend won't even carry my bag.” One of her senior housemates walked out of the kitchen.

“I don't want him to do this. And he's not my boyfriend.” She spoke solemnly.

“Exactly. He's not even your boyfriend. You must have saved a country or something.” She assessed, sipping on her mug.

“What?” She turned to her making her laugh.

“In your past life. I don't know my juniors outside this house. But him I'd bag him if I were you.” She scoffed but (Y/N) smiled ironically.

“You know what they say, curiosity killed the cat.” She sighed, a sense of defeat in her bones.

“Someone once also said that curiosity is the lust of the mind.” She winked at (Y/N) before walking away.

___

* I know using korean like that can be a bit embarrassing. But I really didn't see a way I could articulate the same expression in English, with the same comedic and dramatic effect.

[foxgloves-fox-love]

Self-shipping AU

Just wanted to do these questions hehe ;w;

1. What kind of blog does your f/o have? Do they selfship on main? Do they look like a regular fan? Quiet reblogs or lots of gushing? Lots of analyses of your character and your source or incoherent blabbering? Do they have a headcanon blog? Do they try to roleplay as you?

Ren is shameless and only has like one sideblog that he reserves for creative stuff. He posts everything else onto his main blog. He also gushes a lot just lots of keysmashing and talking about how cute I am, and not a lot of analyses just tons of blabbering. He posts all his headcanons on his main blog and frequently tags pictures with our ship name if they remind him of us.

2. Do they prefer selfshipping by inserting themselves into your source, or by daydreaming about you in their own little / personal world, or by imagining you by their side during their daily life?

He definitely daydreams about me in his own little world especially before bed and also imagines me by his side during his daily life. He would probably insert himself into my source as well bc he's not satisfied with where he is in his life. He just wants to do everything.

3. What’s their self insert like? Is their s/i literally them? Is it basically them but with just a few changes - to be more like the person they’d like to be, or to “fit in” your source better? Is their s/i totally OP or extra or more realistic? Is it an OC that’s totally different from them?

His s/i is literally him. He doesn't change parts of himself to fit into my source or to be more like he wants to be because he uses self-shipping as coping and wants me to love him for him.

4. Do they spend more time on wikipedia, on your fandom wiki, on your TV tropes page? Looking for official content they might’ve missed, like fun trivia? Looking for fanart, for fics? Looking for information and details and references for fics or art or other fancontent they’re making because they want to make sure they get everything right?

He's definitely a fandom wiki kind of guy and scours the internet for content. He doesn't need to look at references that much because he has me memorized pretty easily. There are multiple looks I've gone through in "canon" and while he loves all of them and it's hard to remember all of them, he tends to stick with the one that's most currently out in canon because it makes him feel like he's living beside me.

5. Do they create anything inspired by you and/or their ship with you? Fanart? Fanfics? Gifsets? Moodboards? Edits? Songs? Dances? Crafts? Playlists? Cosplays? Do they post them (or pictures of them) online? Do they sell any merch (online, at cons, etc)? Do they make pics of their selfship in dollmakers? Do they spend hours on otp prompt generators? Do they commission art of their selfship?

He creates fanart but doesn't draw much anymore and is kind of sad about it because he misses how much he used to draw. Instead he tends to write fic and create songs and playlists. He posts his music and stuff online on his sideblog for creative stuff and doesn't sell merch when he goes to cons. Because he doesn't draw as much anymore he LOVES making us in dollmakers and picrews. He also commissions a shit ton of art for his selfship and is completely shameless about it.

6. Does your f/o have a selfship wedding with you? Do they celebrate it on their blog or more privately, with their fellow selfshipper friends? Do they make any content (like art, fics, etc) to celebrate?

He wrote a song to propose with and is waiting for anime canon to catch up to his favorite part from the manga before posting it and making a huge deal about it. When he does have the wedding he commissions a really extravagant wedding picture and has it framed and put in his room.

7. Does your f/o have fankids with you? If not, maybe pets?

We own a dog and he wants to have kids when we get married so he can cope with his anxieties of being a bad father.

8. Do your f/o and your friend’s f/o plan for double dates since their f/os (you and your friend) are from the same source? How would that go?

lmao :') idk? >w> Maybe Farz and Ren would do that...

9. If you have multiple f/os (romantic, platonic, anything), imagine them making or joining a Discord server or a group chat about you or your source. Who gushes, who shares art and fics, who analyses everything, who sends memes?

Oh god lmao. So like I was doing this for Ren, but imagining everyone in a discord server is killing me!!! Vincent would do nothing but post porn gifs and be an absolute butt and laugh at people all the time and Jack would like never talk in it except to post the occasional psychological profile of me and talk about how interesting I am every once in a blue moon. Gengar would just cry type all the time. Craig would shitpost with memes and laugh at people because he’s a dick and not actually into self-shipping and Shino would analyze EVERYTHING from the show. The people who would gush and talk the most would be Ren and Omen ;w; Ren would share his music and Omen would think it's all very interesting. Omen might even develop a crush because Ren is so interesting and Ren would be completely oblivious bc he’s guzzling that self-ship juice lmao.

10. Does your f/o have very creative ship names, or are they bad with finding tags / ship names, or do they just use regular fandom tags?

Ren likes the ship name Rae and uses that irl, but he likes to do the fun creative ones in order to tag stuff. He uses "Little Star" for it.

11. What’s your f/o like when they read / watch / play your source? Do they reread / rewatch / replay their favorite parts over and over? Do they make comments aloud? Which parts of your story made them laugh? Made them cry?

Ren gets really happy when he watches the anime because it's very relaxing. He watches his favorite parts over and over and over again until he can say the dialogue by heart. He doesn't make comments aloud but he gets super emotionally invested. His favorite parts that make him laugh are when I say goofy or dumb things and then comment on the irony and break the 4th wall. The parts that make him cry the most are any time I get hurt and start crying. When I got bullied or felt bad with my classmates or was hurt when I was very young. All of those hurt him a lot and he cried about it.

12. Do they post any videos related to your source? Like AMVs? Or reaction vids (with them reacting to your source as they read / watch / play / etc)? If your source is a game, do they make a walkthrough? Is it a perfect walkthrough, a more casual one?

He would like to make AMVs but doesn't really have editing software for it, but wants to learn! He wants to post reaction vids but is nervous about posting his face online for...reasons. lmao

13. Which of your f/os has “y/n’s husband / wife / partner” as a username online?

Ren would definitely call himself my biggest fan. He wouldn't use husband but he'd definitely use fanboy.

14. Do they have merch of you? What kind of merch? Posters? Keychains? Stickers? Stuffed toys? (And if they have a plush of you, do they kiss it and sleep with it?)

He has a plush that he cuddles and sleeps with and sometimes makes out with lmao. He also has so much merch!!! He is the type to make ita content. On Christmas he decorates the tree with stuff and has posters all over the walls. His favorites tho are figures. He looooooooves figures the most. He's constantly shelling out the big bucks for the biggest and most detailed ones because he can look at them and feel like I exist in a 3d space.

15. What kind of content do they like / make the most? Is it fluff? Angst? Hurt / comfort? (btw: imagine your f/os going to you when they need comfort, because they love you and you’re comforting to them.) Do they respect canon or do they make lots of AUs? What kind of AUs do they like?

-rubs hands together- His favorite content is hurt/comfort both with me being hurt and me hurting the other party, depending on his mood. When he gets unstable and lonely he plays out angsty situations to further his spirals. He knows it's unhealthy, but it comforts him at the same time. His favorite when he's feeling like being healthier is making irl AUs where he can play out his trauma with me as a caretaker figure or alongside him and comforting me.

16. Which of your f/os has 1341 pics of you saved on their phone / laptop? What kind of pic did they choose as their phone / laptop background? Is it a canon pic of you, or fanart, or art of their selfship with you?

Ren definitely hoards a lot of shit on his phone, he has so much content of me on it it's ridiculous. Omen kind of does the same but not nearly as much because he has multiple f/os and has to share space with them lmao. Vincent's phone is just filled with porn ok just lots of rule 34 shit but he also like doesn't have a lot of content on it because like he's just a horndog and only really gives a shit about the dirty content. Jack has pictures but not a lot because he prefers to fantasize.