#idk if this is a cohesive post man i just want to scream

[straykats]

tbh like. we dont have enough time. i know this isn't new and unheard of but we really don't have time. like. i need to go to school and i need to work and i need to eat but where is my time to cook and enjoy it? where is my time to enjoy the things i need to do? i want to cook and read and write and paint and i want to sew but i want to enjoy it; i don't want to have to do it because i need to survive, because if i hone the skill/s, i can make money off of it. i want to do it and not need to meet expectations other than mine. i want to do it for fun and because i love it and i want to do it for the people i love and i don't want them to feel like they should repay me or anything. i want to do alterations for you because i love you. i want to tailor clothes for you, make them for you because i love you and i love creating things. i want to write something for you not to prove to anyone that i can write but because i want to show you that i will create for you. i don't want to do things for others to validate my own actions. i dont want to do it so i can be told that i'm good at it and/or that i should make a career, a side hustle out of it. i just wanna do it for funsies fr

[hatosaur]

writing ask - 1, 8, 20

#1: Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-fic.

a typical hatosaur-fic is definitely (conceptually, at the very least) a character journey full of supporting characters and a good sense of the world they live in. it’s usually conceptualized as long-form and multi-chaptered because i’m completely incapable of writing anything short. 

i seldom think to write oneshots but i should start to because they seem fun and i wanna start exploring smaller-form ideas instead going down a wholeass rabbit hole every time.

#20: Describe your perfect writing conditions.

usually, when i find the time to write, it’s at 2 am, after a shower, or after washing dishes when i’m all mellowed out. it’s how i come up with my best stuff tbh!

#8: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

(posting this one under a cut to keep the post relatively short!)

“Yeah, please, enlighten me, Ellie,” he says impatiently, “Enlighten me on -- on how you found her and somehow --”

“I let her go,” she whispers.

Tommy jolts as if he’s been struck.

“What? ”

It’s like poison in her stomach, saying it like it’s something she actually, completely regrets and seeing Tommy’s face morph into a sneer, but it’s the truth. That’s all it is. And yet --

Tommy explodes, “You can’t be fuckin’ serious!”

Ellie winces but tries to stay firm.

“You made me a promise! You said you’d make her pay! Jesus fuckin’ Christ...” He paces back and forth, limping the whole way, a hand to his wrinkling forehead. “What -- so all o’ that was fer nothin’ then? All the shit we went through? You leavin’, goin’ all the way to California, it was all a fuckin’ waste?”

“Shouldn't have even left in the first place,” she murmurs.

“What?” he challenges.

Fine. Fine. What more does she have to lose?

Ellie downs the rest of her beer and slams the stein onto the counter, meeting Tommy’s blazen eyes with her own.

“I said, I shouldn’t have even left in the first fucking place, Tommy,” she says firmly, glaring.

Tommy stares, incredulous, then scoffs. “So everything Joel did for you, it don’t matter at all, huh?”

“I didn’t say --”

“Well, that’s what it sounds like to me, Ellie. That man risked his life for you a thousand times and this is how you repay ‘im?”

“What good would it have done?” She’s cracking already, she can feel it. “It’s not gonna bring him back, it’s not gonna fix anything --”

“Goddammit, if it was one of us, Joel woulda --”

“I’m not Joel,” she seethes, tears burning in her eyes. “I know you wanna pretend that I can do all these things, but I can’t do what he did and --” She swallows roughly. Remembers large hands pulling her away from the man she’d butchered -- thrashing, screaming bloody murder -- then having her head pressed tightly to a solid chest, gentle whispers into her hair calming her. “-- and he wouldn’t’ve wanted me to.”

^

this snip right here. 

while writing this, i was so worried it wouldn’t be cohesive because i’m very, very not used to writing arguments, nor did i feel like i was nailing tommy’s character because i just didn’t connect with him (i was still very fresh off of leaving my playthru incomplete sighs) -- but reading back, i clutched it. 

i REALLY like how i wrote it. i like the build-up to ellie fighting back, i like tommy’s rebuttals, and i like that when i had tommy say the whole “if it was us, joel woulda blah blah blah...” i had ellie shut it down FAST.

yeah, idk, i just really like going back to read it. :]

[llycaons]

47. strap in everyone, this is going to be a long night

wwx loves wen ning so deeply and wants so much more for him than for wen ning to follow him around his entire life like a servant. this is what I tell myself as wwx very sincerely discusses this with lwj while allowing wen ning to get harassed by children just behind him. one of his flaws is staring lovingly into his soulmate’s eyes as his bff is cornered by hooligans

in l*ving de*d as I recall, children screamed and ran when they saw him because ohh scar black veins, but in actual canon everyone is like “oh hey a funny looking harmless man we will now impede his progress and laugh at him while he tries unsuccessfully to scare us” god poor guy. but also like, wear a neck wrap perhaps? or maybe they’re just drawn to his mild-mannered-looking face

wwx, so lovingly, to one of the people he cares about most in the world: you have to get off the streets dude people are literally noticing you and it’s super inconvenient for us

meanwhile their little recon mission to the temple is ??? bc he’s like “we have to get out now or we’ll be too conspicuous” and then IMMEDIATELY reveals to one of the “monks” that he knows he’s not really a monk. did you really leave your foolish youth behind, wwx? really?

cut to that night (thank GOD the writers didn’t try to do any platonic equivalent of that scene in the novel and just omitted it entirely)

lwj’s massively tall silver headpiece is really not the most inconspicuous for nighttime scouting missions on the roof but I guess fashion beats practicality and wait, jin ling is here?

you can practically hear wwx think “oh you stupid brat why are you on the fucking roof with us”

I wonder if anyone reads these long things. they’re mostly just for me but sometimes I have a coherent thought that I’m very pleased with so I hope so. not that this relates to anything in this post

the first image we see of jgy after his reveal is the hands behind his back ith the fingers interweaving which is cool but idk if there’s any symbolic meaning to it or anything

“I have never blamed you” *pleading face* the look lwj gives jgy is pure murder. I don’t think we’ve ever seen him that hateful. not contempt, or rage, or annoyance. pure loathing. he wants to kill

jgy’s actor here is phenomenal. he’s always had terrific performances, but jgy with no mask of servility or false humility, in a position of power over everyone else, in control and enjoying it, looks very different than any of his other appearances (except for the flashback to his father’s murder ig)

speaking of, why do we still have to see and hear about xue yang? in two separate flashbacks he’s there fucking things up even after he’s dead! I don’t want to see him! at least not without seeing song lan again too :(

it’s dreadful that the temple finale takes a full two hours, but it is at least a gorgeous setting for the drama to play out. and in the novel it was way worse it took me like four days to get through I was ready to murder mxtx for that alone

I think it’s fun that the main climax of the untamed isn’t even really the fight here, it’s the conversations between jc and wwx, between lxc and jgy, the betrayal of nhs. I’m just used to climaxes being fights because of uhh shonen anime. I guess it’s not that unusual.

if there is one thing that’s unique to the untamed in comparison to any other show I’ve seen, it’s the story structure. I still think it’s brilliant. I prefer the cql flashback sequence organization to the novel because I love the sense of looming dread that builds continuously as you realize how close you are to wwx’s death, I was eager to see how lwj and wwx interacted postres as they got closer and more intimate in the flashback storyline, and the solid chunks of flashback make both storylines feel more cohesive and less nonsensical/confusing. there’s a real sense of time passing and wwx does feel like an older man reflecting on his youth. novel wwx was older than the juniors and I didn’t pick up on any age gap intent in his writing, but he also didn’t really feel like a much older or mature person. idk.

but the novel structure had its own merits and I really do see the appeal in having both climaxes at the same time. the parallel narrative kept us invested in both by jumping back and forth and provides nice comparisons to like, the two BM sieges. also because the readers didn’t know a-yuan existed until late in the novel, the lsz reveal seemed more timely, but in the novel narrative lwj, delaying was the same and therefore just as stupid

anyway jgy with jin ling being like “yes second brother I know who this is :) do you think I’m going to murder him? hmm? do you think I’m going to do a ton of fucked up things to you all?? :)))” and just leaving things to the imagination is terrifying. I wasn’t really scared of the other villains

lxc has dropped “a-yao” in favor of “clan leader jin”

maybe it’s because I wasn’t paying attention, but I really didn’t see much in the way of romantic undertones for these two this go around. I remember them, I know they were there, but I can’t remember them making much of an impression. jgy was...very background for a good 15 episodes so I kind of forgot about him

those diggers are so slow I swear one of the guys is moving as little dirt as he can get away with. paid by the hour, huh

when su she comes over you can see wwx go “oh not this fucking guy again” and lxc has to be like “literally dude why do you keep harassing my younger brother what’s your problem”

“oh how the tables have turned, huh?” “not...really..?” kjdkshfksdfa

and then su she is like “he thinks he’s better than everyone else just look at him he’s got that cold face” and wwx is like “he’s autistic you jackass” and then he tells him of course lwj isn’t arrogant and su she is probably recalling the time lwj told him to his face “you are not qualified to talk to me” so actually I don’t know who’s right

lwj definitely does see some people as beneath him but only if they...deserve it...?like in general he’s a very fair-minded person with a good handle on his own skills and abilities but just being skilled doesn’t mean he thinks he’s better than everyone. and he only treats people disrespectfully if he personally doesn’t like them and even then he’s generally pretty restrained.

ngl though there’s a very odd trend in cql about unskilled people being morally inferior to skilled people. it’s not everywhere, it’s just...well...around

omg but wwx saying “if you were in yunmeng jiang I would have eaten you alive you little bitch I thought I was such hot shit” is so jaskdshfdf

anyway fairy chasing him out is SO FUNNY too like this little dog sends a  adult cultivator running and jin ling is cheering him on and jgy is RIGHT THERE and he must be like oh my fucking god someone get that dog why is this taking so long”

okay. I was mad at him for 46 but I was so happy to see jc show up again as an ally. with the thunder and lightning blood-streaked umbrella and zidian! what an entrance! characteristically angry but also looking like he’s going to burst into tears at any second. classic jc.

again jgy with the big smug smile and melodramatic clapping and playing jc and wwx off each other as soon as he smells the slightest weakness - too bad jc is always a piece of shit to wwx so it’s not even phasing him wwx is like “no this is normal he’s just a huge asshole”

lxc telling jc that jgy is an expert at emotional manipulation...damn, you’d know, huh?

he does hold his own for a while even though the way he fights is stupid as hell but jgy getting into his head messed up his concentration. which is a such a shame because with wei fucking wuxian’s golden core he really should have been able to defeat someone with such weak cultivation

in the novel the fight making terrible noises made wwx cover lwj’s ears which was sweet but they didn’t do it here :(

oh the reveal that fairy is actually a huge coward is hilarious

jc telling his 16 year nephew to shut up omg jc he was just worried about you!! all his uncles are either evil, murdered, or grievously wounded

jin ling genuinely really loving jc who has nobody else at all makes my heart feel so soft I just wish jc like wasn’t such an abrasive dick all the time to him. jc is not good with kids. he’s not good at being nice, or gentle, or understanding, or encouraging, or supportive, or being a teacher, or raising spirits, or making anyone laugh. what he is good at is um fightinf off bad guys. he’s pretty good at that, usually. he’ll fight the bullies

but when I think about jin ling’s childhood (half of which, according to the novel, he spent at yunmeng), I can’t imagine jc being an especially good caretaker. jin ling overall does feel safe with him and knows that he can trust jc to fight for him if he needs it, which is more than jc had with myu, but parent of the year he most certainly is not

and I like that the story gives us those nuances. there’s a lot of shades of gray in this show, left to interpretation or audience preference. as always, I wish we’d gotten more from lwj - he can’t have been a perfect parent either no matter what the author wants us to think, and I do think he probably struggled with telling the truth to lsz about his own family, and he probably wasn’t the most umm engaging or expressive caretaker to anyone, but the kids are alright, you know? he learned to express affection in a way they heard even though it wasn’t what he was used to

but like I said, jc has looked to be on the verge of tears this entire time. it’s happening, folks. we’re going to get into some theatrics next time

[winteriron-trash]

Spider-Man: Far From Home Compliment Sandwich

So I just saw S:FFF and I have... feelings. But since I’ve been really critical of the MCU lately despite claiming to be a big Marvel fan, I thought I should be nice and give the movie a nice compliment sandwich to prove that I still like Marvel. 

Good: The intro scene with the really crappy slideshow clearly made by an incompetent teenager was on point to teenage editing capability and fucking hilarious. It did a good job of setting the tone of the movie after the Dark and Serious intro with Fury and Hill

Good: Calling the Snap, “the Blip” is fucking hilarious and I love how meme-ish everyone is with it, which is probably the most realistic thing about this movie

Good: Peter’s suitcase with the “BFP” initials were a great subtle shout out, I liked that.

Bad: I think the other guy who had a crush on MJ kinda added nothing to the plot and did nothing for the conflict of Peter’s relationship with MJ. He just really seemed pointless and salty and his addition was only an annoying attempt at drama.

Bad: Oh. My. God. Can we like, not milk Tony Stark? I’m a #1 Tony Stark stan, but I feel like when your runtime loses at least fifteen minutes when you cut out every reference to him, there’s a problem. We make jokes about Spider-Man movies just being Iron Man movies, but this literally felt like Iron Man 6. Stop, and let the MCU move on.

Bad: I get that Mysterio was obviously going to be the villain the whole time, we been knew about that, but did the reveal have to be so cheap? Like, you had that cliche ass fade away of the scene, and Mysterio even had that awful Cliche Evil Villian Smile. Could you not have done it better? Like, we all knew Bucky was the WS, but the reveal was still shocking because it was shocking to the characters. This was just stupid.

Bad: And speaking of Mysterio, why the fuck would you get rid of his powers, just to give another cheap tie into Tony? It made no sense and you managed to ruin a great Spider-Man villain by making him an obsessive smart guy.

Bad: You teased the multiverse, and you didn’t follow through? Leave me alone with that nonsense. What could’ve been the coolest plot device of the whole movie was thrown away as a “wild idea”. Fuck that nonsense.

Bad: No, I’m not done about Mysterio. Why did you kill him off? That just didn’t even feel right at all, I hate it.

Bad: Where. The. Fuck. Were. The. Avengers. Why is Doctor Strange unavailable? Where’s Sam? Bucky? Wanda, even?What the fuck.

Bad: If the elemental villains were just illusions, how was Peter able to interact with the one by touching it and grabbing onto it, but the other he just entered? Maybe I missed something but seems fishy. 

Bad: Still not done with Mysterio. He was a bad villain and just a copy of so many villains we’ve seen before in the MCU. It was like you took everything that made Vulture interesting and just ran with what was left. He was an unstable psychopath with access to some dangerous tech and a cult of followers. We’ve heard this story before.

Bad: No seriously, where the fuck were the Avengers

Bad: I feel like Peter figured out what was going on way too easily? Like, he saw that it was just a projection and then everything was put together? Idk, that felt really fast and cheap

Bad: So many of the cool scenes from the trailer were just... not there and I feel cheated. The most iconic, Sider-Man feeling lines of the trailer were cut and honestly Marvel, this is getting stupid. A few seconds that end up getting cut is fine, but half of your trailer wasn’t in the movie. What’s the point of even having a trailer?

The end credits scene. No. Having Spider-Man being seen as a villain to the public is nothing new and fine if we want to believe that, but revealing his identity? No. I hate it. It doesn’t make sense to the story of Spider-Man and is now a loose thread we won’t find out the repercussions of for at least a few movies, all just for the shock value. 

Bad: Why did the “Peter tingle” only work at certain points? It was never really explained what brought it back and felt kinda stupid as a way for Peter to win the final boss battle super easily.

Bad: What. The. Fuck. Was with the other end credit scene? Why are the Skrulls back? Are we to assume that Fury and Hill were never even on Earth throughout the whole thing? Fucking why? Why was he on a spaceship with Skrulls? It’s not suspense, it just flat out doesn’t make sense. Fury wasn’t even Fury, so how did he know things like Happy’s “code”? It makes no sense.

Bad/Good/Confusing?: Okay, is Peter the next Iron Man or is he not? The movie couldn’t really seem to decide on that. It kept insisting Peter wasn’t and he was his own thing as Spider-Man, but then literally everything else was screaming that he was and I just can’t tell what they were doing with that. We don’t need a “next Iron Man” and yet the movie seemed to want to shove the idea down our throats. I like that Peter was adamant that he wasn’t the next Iron Man because he shouldn’t be, but at the same time, the movie seemed to contradict that idea? I’m really lost on that whole deal.

Good: Okay, “Peter tingle” is funny, I’ll admit that

Good: MJ was fucking amazing and I love her. Her finding out Peter is Spider-Man was so refreshing from the secret identity trope, and she did have the cool moment with the flail taking out the drone. She’s just a really great character and I liked her a lot.

Good: I love Ned. That’s all.

Good: Flash was annoying but in a good way? Like, I thought he was over the top in Homecoming, but he was actually kinda amusing and seemed like a realistic character in this movie. 

Good: Ned and Betty were cute together, and I’m actually not mad at how they had them break up but remain on good terms. It felt like an accurate depiction of high school relationships versus the typical dramatic shit we usually see in movies. They were just really cute and I hope to see more of Betty in future movies. 

Good: The fight scenes with the illusions, especially at the end where Peter relies completely on Spider Sense were really fucking cool. That whole visual was trippy and I loved it. 

Good: Okay, the scene where Peter has to take his clothes off for the lady agent and Brad walks in was kinda funny and I’m sad the lady agent was never to be seen again. I want her back. 

Good: Fine, I’ll admit it, J. Jonah Jameson at the end credits scene was hilarious and it was exciting to see him made into an established character to bring the Spider-Man movies back to their roots. 

Good: Whilst I hate the constant Tony Stark reference, the scene where Peter is building his new suit with all the holograms and Happy puts on AC/DC was probably the best tribute to Tony. It didn’t feel shoved down our throats and it didn’t make it seem like Peter was the new Iron Man, but it still was a cool way of showing how Peter is following in Tony’s footsteps and still his protegee. It just felt really awesome.

Good: Overall, it did feel like a good, cohesive Spider-Man movie. It succeeded where past Spider-Man movies have failed and was an enjoyable movie that was still lighthearted enough to be funny and easy to watch. Even if it does nothing to even try to fit into the MCU and manages to both ignore Endgame and try to explain Endgame at the same time, as a Spider-Man movie, it succeeded in my opinion. For as much criticism as I have, I didn’t leave the theatre feeling cheated or angry at it. I can nitpick things as they relate to the MCU, but as a movie itself, I don’t think I have much to complain about, really.  

See? I tried to be fair, this time. This is just mostly me rambling to get my thoughts out. I’m still ignoring most MCU movies post-Winter Soldier, but I’m trying to be nice this time and not completely hateful.

Also, to prove to yall how small and ignored the theatre I go to is, here’s the packed house for the brand new MCU movie. 

Wow. Don’t know how we even found a seat in this chaos. 

[pann--cake]

some thoughts on wwe live!

So I pretty much screamed by head off last night and had so much fun!! I’ll post some more pictures later (I mostly got their entrances and exits because the matches were all so good, but I did take as many of Seth as possible while screaming LMAO). Here’s probably the best shot I got:

Thoughts under the cut!

The show opened with a 10 man tag, but the dumb thing is, the whole “heel team” all came out to the Miztourage music so I didn’t get to see The Revival do their entrance. Lame. 

Wish there had been a 1x1 women’s match, but both tag matches were great. I FLIPPED OUT for Bayley and Sasha, I had never seen them live before. A got a pic of a Bayley/Sasha hug!! Later in the night it was Nia and Alexa vs Asuka and Dana, very good match. Nia and Alexa are HILARIOUS in the ring together, I wish they’d let them do some of that stuff on tv!

There was a very funny segment with Elias, Gallows, and Anderson. I got bits of it on video but I was laughing the whole time. Then Kane came out (idk why??) and Elias was like “I know why you’re here...YOU WANNA SING A SONG TOO!!” and I nearly died. I have a video of Kane singing “she’ll be coming round the mountain,” it was weird and hilarious. Then he choke slammed them all. xD

Saw Enzo vs Kalisto for the Cruiserweight title, pretty good match. You have to get caught up in Enzo’s entrance and shout it with him even if you don’t like him lol. Kalisto was amazing to see live. Enzo had on one of those Enzo wigs they sell, and it fell off during the match and Kalisto put it on and it was great.

There was Finn vs Joe, GREAT MATCH, they gave it a lot of time and Finn cut a little promo first. OMG Finn’s body is OUT OF CONTROL in person. I mean. Even his BACK was like, omg. The muscles. That man is cut like a diamond. Also, I almost threw my phone doing his entrance thing.

WE ACTUALLY GOT TO SEE BRAY WYATT VS BROKEN MATT AND IT WAS WONDERFUL. Those two are just top guys, they’re so great, lots of funny bits and great spots between them. Sadly neither of them had mic time but it was an amazing match. EVERYONE in the crowd did the fireflies, and then EVERYONE did the “delete” chants. It’s cool to see a match where the crowd literally loves both guys. 

The main event was the IC title match between Roman and Cena and LET ME TELL YOU. It was SO FREAKING LOUD. There were a lot of little kids in the crowd but Roman actually got A LOT of cheers too. It was really fun to watch, they work great together and there were a lot of close calls. Everyone was on the edge of their seat for this. I still cannot believe how loud it was. What I hated to see though was that the front row people down on the floor (who had to pay like SO MUCH MONEY for those seats) booed Roman literally the ENTIRE TIME. They were like, heckling him very obnoxiously. Then at the end of the match Roman stayed out for a while to play with the crowd and he was throwing out his wrist wraps and those people flipped out that they wanted them like...??? YOU WERE A DICK TO HIM THE WHOLE TIME??? Whatever. Roman was very classy about it. Great guy.

AND FINALLY THE MAIN EVENT OF MY HEART: THE TAG TEAM STEEL CAGE MATCH. We were sitting next to a very nice couple who both had The Bar shirts on, so we had some friendly jibes going into this match. The Bar came out first, then Jason, and omg I was literally SHAKING waiting for Seth and my heart was pounding SO HARD and then I jumped up out of my seat and screamed my head off. My husband took a video and you can hear me screeching lol. I got the most pictures of this match obviously bc SETH. It was really fun to watch, a lot of back and forth moments. Seth got out first but then Jason got stuck inside for a bit and Seth was like running outside of the ring for a while before he decided to get back in to help him. Then Jason got out and left Seth inside. Then there was a moment when the Bar was almost going to jump down before Seth and win, and Jason caught Sheamus on his shoulders so he didn’t hit the floor and then Seth dropped REALLY FAR and won haha. I definitely noticed that Seth and Jason still have some kinks to work out. They’re not a cohesive unit, for sure. Seth was definitely the one calling the shots, telling Jason what moves to do with him and when to climb the cage. Seth is doing A LOT of the work in this pairing, and I hope that comes out in the storyline going forward. At the end of the match, Seth spent so much time going around the whole ring and the ramp and along the sides, I think he hugged like every kid down there. It was really sweet. And Jason was nowhere near him the whole time, which was interesting. All they really did was high fives and raise their hands at the top of the ramp together. It really sucks to think that I could have witnessed Seth and Dean in this match, but that’s how the cookie crumbles I guess. But seeing Seth was SO AMAZING, I love him so much. 

[nspx]

a non-cohesive rambling post about tlj

buckle in boys because what the fuck

also. spoilers. so many spoilers

right so i’ve been reading some posts and mainly it’s all ‘rian johnson u asshole’ and ‘star wars is ruined forever’ BUT i dont think it is?? not completely anyway?

i thought the movie was. good? i mean. coming out of the theater i thought to myself i like this, it’s fine. and it is fine, but not. not it, you know? it had its ups and downs and honestly im surprised it’s getting so much hate, because i actually kind of. liked it? but there was some bullshit, yall 

l u k e s k y w a l k e r

my sweet son what did the bad man do to you?? i mean. i. i??? 

LUKE “THERE IS STILL GOOD IN YOU, I CAN SENSE IT” SKYWALKER TRIED TO KILL HIS OWN NEPHEW???? BECAUSE HE WAS AFRAID OF HIS POWER??? THE LUKE THAT T H R E W AWAY HIS LIGHTSABER IN FRONT OF THE EMPEROR BECAUSE HE //BELIEVED// IN HIS FATHER??? TRIED TO KILL A TEENAGE BOY - HIS FLESH AND BLOOD!!!!! - IN HIS SLEEP??

right, so. i believe that luke is a nuanced character with flaws. and i believe that there have been times when he struggled with his own grasp of light and dark, this being one of these times. but?? trying to murder his nephew??? 

during the movie i thought that maybe luke looking into ben’s darkness made him fall into his own a little bit? because i just don’t see luke that way. luke always believed in the good in people. he saw the good in vader - v a d e r - who was so far gone he didn’t even believe it himself anymore. and you’re telling me he truly didn’t believe kylo could be saved? or even helped? that he deserved to die, even if he believed this just for a moment?

other than that. i found luke had his good moments in the film as well. using the force to trick kylo, so that the rebellion had time to escape. or the beautiful moment where luke was looking at the sunset, the end of his journey in parallel to the sunset in anh, the beginning of his journey. pure poetry. a+

sitting with yoda and watching the tree burn? turning into a force ghost? threatening to haunt kylo forever?

leia and luke sitting down together? luke kissing leia on the forehead? good shit

but. the scene with luke squeezing milk out of that creatures tits and drinking it savagely. i... that could’ve been avoided. i mean. it did make rey see that she didn’t necessarily find what she had been looking for, but? honestly this movie disrespected my son, luke skywalker, so bad but also. the scene where he wiped nonexistent dust off his shoulder? such a badass move

(”see you around, kid” my soul descended from this astral plane to another, i love u luke)

snoke 

what the fuck

what the fuck what kind of bullshit. hes so weak. hes such a bullshit character, honestly. general grievous would’ve eaten him for breakfast and grievous is a pussy bitch. he wouldn’t have survived a day in the clone wars. palpatine would’ve projected his ass into the cold reaches of the galaxy with a mere look. fuck this snoke guy how am i supposed to take him seriously

that dumb speech?? fuck that guy. seeing him die was cathartic but at the same time anticlimactic cuz like?? too easy. -12/10 villian

onto the next point

K Y L O R E N 

or should i say, ben solo? who even are you kylo? make up your damn mind

like. you want to be good but you also kinda wanna be the leader of a new fascist government. you kinda love rey but also?? ‘you’re nothing’ MMMMM i think the fuck not boy “but not to me” nice save loser

honestly..... i have such a love hate relationship with kylo. because the way this movie was set up and what r*an did to luke.... u kinda see that he made it so that everyone just knows that.... LUKE FAILED KYLO OK. he truly did. luke was afraid of ben and he could never truly offer him the support that he needed because /fear/ *cue to yoda cackling like a maniac (what the fuck was that all about, also)* drove him to madness, i guess?

but then again kylo also burned everything down right after he collapsed a whole building on his uncle and went on a 10 year long murderous rampage, so? how am i supposed to defend u kylo get it together already

BUT THENNNN, like. this snoke character manipulated him all along? that doesn’t excuse kylo’s actions but ya know. hm. idk. all snoke did was abuse kylo and then he was like “ah my shining beautiful strong apprentice i have always believed in you”. what the fuck. at least be a little intimidating. 

honestly kylo should’ve just clocked him in the face with his dumb fucking mask instead of ruining the elevator, what a missed opportunity and waste of resources

kylo ren/rey

honestly. i mean. im not here for or against this ship. because i see both sides of it (like, kylo is a murderous asshole that abused rey and murdered millions, but also - redemption arc? i love a redemption arc bitcc fuck me up)

personally i’m less interested in their ~love bond than i am in their force bond because it’s so fucking epic, my dudes. e p i c 

we always had anakin or luke as these two all-powerful people that carried the entire balance of the force by themselves but now we have two people, so completely different and y e t they r two halves of one whole and i love that so much

they’re both incredibly strong. i like that there is both light and dark in both of them. they complete each other. i don’t see their ~relationship happening tbh like we won’t get an anidala level of romance, i just think this force bound destiny thing is an interesting idea

their long distance skype call force connection? loves it, the force is magical

(”you’re not alone” “neither are you” i cannot believe. i cannot believe. “can you cover yourself up” *crickets* i’m dead)

rey’s parentage

mmmm. i keep seeing people complain she isn’t a skywalker. i was 100% sure she was but now i’m kinda glad she isn’t? the force sure loves her tragic desert children

she came from nothing but now she’s the very last jedi, the last hope for the galaxy, and i LOVE THAT. 

the rebellion

ok. ok. i am devastated

the rebellion truly did lose so much in this movie. sooo much. i’m crying. what for? was that necessary? 

and poe? my son. i love him. general hugs? i cried laughing. my son

but whaaat the fuck was the deal with admiral purple hair? ever heard of communicating like a normal person? like, telling poe what she was planning would’ve saved them sooo much bullshit? but telling poe would’ve cut the movie in half sooo

so many lives were lost because?? felt like really no reason at all, just miscommunication and people - the good guys - fighting each other?? it was sooo unsettling

like. so much of this movie i felt like the characters started out doing one thing and in the middle of the writing process the writers were like mmm no wait let’s go in a completely different direction which has 0 to do with anything at all yes brilliant

but then poe’s speech at the end? the last of the rebellion all together in the falcon? there is hope there is always h o p e 

honorary mention

general hugs 

i hate him but also kinda. respect him? he’s an asshole but he was ready to shoot kylo ren, he was ready to go

other things i found (REALLY!!) bothersome

the lack of finnrey

the lack of finnpoe

just the mains interacting?? 

things i really liked

rose!! and her sister!! their backstory was so touching! also, rose is force sensitive and so is finn. don’t fight me on this. did you see the bond between rose and animals? a ~force bond. d o n t fight me.

l e i a - i cried, ugh. this really was her movie

the humor!! this really was a funny movie

the cinematography - some of the shots really were breath taking

i saw a lot of little tidbits alluding to the other sw movies and also other sci fi movies, i liked that

THE KIDS IN THE CITY!!! 

THE LITTLE BOY AT THE END!!! HE’S FORCE SENSITIVE!! THE JEDI WILL COME BACK THEY WILL COME BACK THEY ALWAYS COME BACK!! loves it

the Force (leia surviving space? luke projecting himself all the way to a random ass planet? LUKE OPENING HIMSELF UP TO THE FORCE AGAIN? HOW REY IS SO POWERFUL SHE CRACKED OPEN THE ISLAND?? i love. the force loves all of her children and will go to ridiculous lengths to make sure they stay alive)

anway i’ll be screaming about this movie for a month despite all of its flaws have a good night