#idk if im gonna finish this but eh

[the-paisley]

You cant just put an evil clownlady into a game and expect her to *not* be my favorite

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

happy halloween! hope everyone watched a scary movie that'll keep you up tonight but was nonetheless enjoyable! i sure did!

[oh-no-its-bird]

Started doing smthn, got bored like 2/10ths of the way in, decided to maybe not do it. Take what I did manage to do before getting bored as an apology

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

I DON'T UNDERSTAND, HOW ARE YOU ALL STILL SO HAPPY?

alt vers b/c i'm not sure if the colors on the final vers came out the best

[lanaevyssmoved]

Since you had alot to say( and rightfully so not criticizing) about bg3 being released unfinished what do you think about coral island being sold as complete when it has alot of areas in thst thats not finished with some major areas in gsme being locked behind a "WIP" Label?

i think coral island was released for full because it needed the sales to continue to develop the game. which happens a lot with ea games, full release means a boost in sales which means more money to keep working on it.

[selfspinninglies]

Found an artsyle that I actually like yippie

[solacedeer]

life is bad rn im gonna draw keith howell doing the dishes 💀

[caramelmochacrow]

thought it was friday today, twas a lie :(

[cardboardclownery]

CRASHES THROUGH A BRICK WALL

HI HI IM ALIVE!!!! sorry for the relative radio silence on here ;v;

on the topic of that actually!!!! finally have a proper folie a deux au update for you!! though its slightly different than expected?

me and professional buddy and fellow au creator @cookiecaker decided to share a summary of the story we're making for the au beforehand since we'll be taking a whileeee to finish it,,, got a lot of life to live and horrors to create "-v-

after this though you mayyyy or may notttt see some out of order chapter drafts posted for the story as well,,, or atleast one? eh youll see ;Pc

ANYWAYS!!!! this is gonna take a while so lets get on with...

THE FOLIE À DEUX DOAI AU

a summary!!

or story pitch? idk-

(cookie please lemme know if i miss or improperly describe anything here feel free to correct me-)

PART 1

the first three chapters follow alex just after the end of volume 1 as theyre abducted by lankmann and confined to his asylum as a "patient." eventually they get sent to winfrey as food, but winfrey refuses to eat them. theyre left to die in room 66 by lankmann for a Long While, until eventually he gives up and just puts alex back in their room

while alone in confinement, alex starts noticing strange things happening... dark patches start appearing on their skin, they get random pains as if someone were kicking them, and they hear a voice... a much clearer voice than the ones they used to hear while working in the asylum, and it seemed to be able to read their thoughts. though they originally just assumed it was due to being part of their thoughts as well, they find that they start knowing things they had no way of knowing and never learned prior to being confined. when lankmann typically entered room 66, how long hes inside, certain areas of the asylum patients found that theyd never heard of before...

this "voice" managed to help alex find a way to escape, leading to them running away and moving to another, smaller town in eastridge than the one they originally lived in to avoid lankmann's pursuit

PART 2

[ ! tw for cannibalism. yes you heard me- ! ]

so after getting far away from the asylum, alex assumes that their hallucinations and weird symptoms of... Something would wear off, since subject 02 was no where near close enough to affect them

well uh. nope! theyre still there!!

so eventually alex figures out "oh shit that thing is in my head somehow" and is obviously quite concerned!!! to say the least!!!! but theyre also oddly comforted by the idea of having The Voice in their head, since now theyre not entirely alone while on the run and i mean it helped them escape so it cant be that bad?? either way theyre not exactly excited about the whole ordeal and theyre starting to look different and theyre really hungry all the time and its not fun

so! at some point (with winfreys suggestion) alex decides to run off to another town a bit farther away just to be safe. but Uh Oh theyre all out of food!! so theyre extremely hungry, forcing themself through it so they can get food when they arrive but. they see someone in the woods while walking

and for some reason that makes them even hungrier

they try to ignore it and keep walking but they cant

and the next thing they know

theyre looking down at a person

chewing off the flesh on their leg

covered in blood

even after regaining their senses they cant stop themself from eating. it tasted... so good... they were so hungry... they felt awful but it really did taste so s o g o o d .

in a haze, they discard the body, clean themself off and reach the next town. just after unpacking in an apartment, they collapse, flooded with the emotions they fought off on the way there

the next day, alex finally confronts winfrey (or winfreys voice rather-) about all their grievances and they eventually reach an understanding, as winfrey opens up about fearing the outside of the asylum despite longing to escape through alex, so they eventually agree to let winfrey pilot their body for a few days to get a feel for how the world has changed since the time winfrey had been free

in doing so, winfrey realizes how small and helpless humans are in comparison to them and how terrified the patients they devoured mustve been. this allows them to appreciate human life (specifically alex's) much more and want to escaped in their own body to join alex outside and introduce clyde to what they learned after finding it again

while piloting alexs body, winfrey is suddenly forced back into their own after lankmann inflicts enough pain to wake them from the dissociative state that piloting alex left them in. soon after this, winfrey overcomes the fear that was originally keeping them from escaping the facility and breaks out

PART 3

this section is a lot less figured out than the rest so uhh bear with me please ;v;

essentially this couple of chapters just follows alex and winfrey as they get used to life on the run, figuring out where to go from there and how they could potentially find clyde, along with just talking face to face and getting used to that. its a weird feeling talking to someone that you share thoughts with yknow? like talking to yourself but its... not... yourself...

around the start of this section winfrey also expresses that they feel drawn to feminity as a human concept, thus being referred to with they/she from this point on in the story!! transfem winfrey yippee!!! it just makes sense in our head idk-

PART 4

alex and winfrey start noticing news broadcasts and posters asking around for a "dark figure" lurking around, as well as warnings about alex being missing from lankmanns asylum. this fuels alex's paranoia, leading them to seeing lankmanns caretakers everywhere, feeling as if theyre being watched wherever they go... until eventually their home is ambushed and theyre taken back into lankmanns custody

alex is essentially used as bait to get winfrey to come save them from the asylum, since lankmann couldnt find a solid lead on where winfrey could be. alex tries to convince her not to fall for it, since they can both tell this is what lankmanns trying to do, but winfrey eventually caves and breaks back in to help alex, getting trapped inside once again

PART 5

depsite the circumstances, winfrey and alex do their best to stay determined and keep looking for a way out, but they dont make much progress. to make matters worse, lankmann tries "live feeding" patients to alex in the same way he did with winfrey due to realizing that alex has veldigun traits and assuming that theyd have the same appetite as her. this isnt the case, and eventually lankmann switches to dead patients as food for alex, which theyre forced to accept due to lacking any other options

both winfrey and alex are miserable in the situation, the helplessness sinking in fairly quickly as alexs body begins rejecting the growing veldigun portions of itself, decaying under the immense stress

during their final moments, winfrey pilots alexs body to allow an atleast somewhat peaceful death as their consciousness fades away, leaving winfrey alone to reflect on all that had happened...

...and thats the official end of the story!! i had like,, a hypothetical epilogue/alternate ending where lankmann forces a Mind Merge with winfrey somehow and then gets killed and she breaks out again but like. idk the logistics of that are iffy and i kinda prefer the more melancholy end for something like this ":]c

ANYHOW!!!! hope that was!!! something!!!! please feel free to ask questions or provide feedback or anything else im always happy to engage with my fellow freaks (affectionate) :]

ALSO IF YOU MAKE CONTENT BASED ON THIS AU LET ME KNOW I WILL DIE FOREVER alright thats it for real this time- stay safe broskissss BP

[avoidantvoidd]

Uh hi.

im back with my monsterfuker Altaïr propagate ^^. i hope i used that word correctly lmao

this one is based on medusa!desmond ask from, u gussed it @teecupangel :)))

uh im working on a lil comic of sort on it, but my motivation is next to none rn so... i'll just post what i've finished.

i gave (or tried to) desmond isu patterns for his uh.. paterns.. lol. They came out a bit thick but eh whatever i dont see much problems with it so im not going to fix it lmao.

and also their hight differnce in the pic is not 100% certin, i just gussed and bullshited my way around that. like most things in my life.

i hc that desmond can resize himself. in this pic he's 'fully shfited'meaning this is himin his normal size. but when he's w Altaïr or any other people he'll shift to the avarage human size.

his eyes r gold in his 'true form'and brown when he shrinks down. cuz i love his brown eyes ok?

Altaïr is ready to start a family with the snake man and Malik is concerned for him.

He saw des and Alt falling in love and he knew they were done for <3333.

as always, tap on the iage for a clear view. tumblr keeps messing up my stuff.

also i made something :).

CW: slight NSFW/suggestive themes. we're gonna be talking about reproductive systems & stuff so beware.

its blurry as shit i'm sorry.

so when i first saw 'medusa desmond' the very first thing that came into my mind was eggpreg.

why am i like this? well u'll never know.

does desmond have a penith? or does he only have a slit? its up to u bud. im not brave enough to draw dicks at this moment in time, that's why :>. The reason why I said 'reproductice organ which idk how to name' is cuz it's not a human organ nor is it a snakes. It's a bit of both if. Idk I tried to search for something but it didn't really fit for a half snake man, so I had to adapt.

uhhhh i dont think i have anything else to add. that's all folks. untill next time.

[ozzgin]

:3 🧋 anon back after idk how long I did try to read clover a while ago and after u recommending it I tried to read it again and actually got to 100 smth chapters but for some reason just dropped it but I'm gonna pick it back up again now fuhdissnsajdjsld I've just been rereading crows and the worst and its like Side stories KUNOU RYUUSHIN, KOUSEI AND SHOUGO THE MEN U R <333 GOOD GOD THE ARMAMENT HAS SUCH FINE MEN!!! Juuzou too I love me some blondes <33 anyway lovee ur recent work btw ehe 💗💗💗💗 ur writing is just so fun to read and is very entertaining!! All of ur ocs r so cool too!! My favs r totally Daitou and Kazuya also ofc the old man yakuza cuz im a WHORE fujsodn AAA anyway so sorry for the long ask its just I'm not good at like showing my appreciation for like this free content u write and draw for us and let us consume tysm!! I hope u continue ur work and have a good day ❤️❤️❤️

Who would've thought that a fellow delinquent enjoyer is going to prefer the criminal OCs? By the way, Daitou and Kazuya are named after WORST characters. 🤫

I'm very glad you've given Clover a chance! It's a tad less delinquent heavy compared to Crows and WORST, which is why it also took me some time to finish it, but I feel like it has more fashionable characters, you know? Takahashi Hiroshi goes for a very 80s-90s style.

I've been wanting to come up with a biker OC for some time, but now I'm wondering if I should just quietly advertise Ryuushin as a character in some sequel romance instead. Big, buff guy at your local gym who tells you he's a professional boxer and used to lead a biker gang in high school. Asks you out for drinks, can't handle alcohol too well. You get to meet his buddies from the old days, like the older Bitou brother, or the younger TFOA members occasionally coming by to pay their respects.

Maybe someday, when my schedule clears up. Until then, I leave you with some pages from the official artbook. Wishing you a great week!

[obsidianpen]

You know who I miss in hp that no one really remembers? Firenze even it the books we didn't get to see what happened to him after fifth year and honestly the centaurs were such an interesting addition who played semi-important roles in both fifth year (fucking um bitch got the karma+big brother Hagrid ) AND ANDD in the final battle after all hell breaks lose! I wanna know both in NG and in Incendiary, will we get to see more of them? it was in the final battle where centaurs join in and really light that spark needed for harry to escape but NG cuts off the final battle, so what happened to them? Just waiting in the forest? Looking at the stars and thinking this was not supposed to happen? Or did they know what was gonna happen and unlike canon did not even go there? Also this got me thinking...what's Voldemort stance on magical creatures ? Werewolfs were/are? his allies? but what about others like goblins or centaurs or Giants? is that gonna come up soon? honestly Harry is so cut off from the whole world rn we have no idea what Mr.V has done so far... erasing emotions is scary and not something that I feel likes is just gonna sit in the corner of the plot like a good lil boi so many ppl we haven't seen yet or only heard about them from others... McGonagall, shacklebolt, Arthur! bill, charlie, Fleur, TEDDY AND ANDROMEDA!!! Dean and wait is Lavender Alive? You saved Fred but like is Lavander dead dead? if so where tf is Grayback? cuz Harry aint gonna be happy with that... also poor Neville's funeral (Im the same anon who read hauntingly before it was even finished via some pdf at 4 a.m and cried so much when writing that post lol idk if you remember XD) and I forgot to ask you! how do you feel about us reading some of your deleted works via pdfs? I do not know whether to feel guilt or joy ? (anyway what happened was that I still can't read hauntingly past that chapter...and I was so so sooo mad at Snape and Neville, I detested them from the bottom of my heart so bad that I had to re-read both Nevilles death in NG and Snapes canon death for 3 days straight just to calm down a bit lmao) anyway I wonder what will her grandmothers reaction be to Harry explaining what happend

( I feel like I wrote a huge pile of messy stuff thrown together sorryyy :<)

Firenze!!! I hadn’t thought about him a ton either tbh but I will now! about the old pdfs - eh, I guess I’ve made peace knowing that it happens and there’s nothing I can do about it 🥲 like I dont love it but it’s all right, I am very neutral about it now

[fruitybashir]

Are you planning any new Bokris fics? ✨

hiiiiii the answer is uhh yes and no?

im always having more bokris on my mind bc the brainrot is that bad but like. idk when i wanna properly get to it and finish stuff, im kinda happy with taking the slower pace rn

there is still one more holidate bonus that i wanna do, theres an unrelated bokris oneshot i miiiight do at some point, theres the book im reading next month thats definitely gonna spark something new but ... yeah.

and theres the lesbokris au that i am on and off adding new bits to but i actually dont have a fully fleshed out plan for it so idk how long im gonna take for it. i havent even decided yet if i wanna make it a chaptered thing or release a 50k beast all at once. idk. if im gonna do it chaptered tho its not gonna be a weekly upload thing like holidate, thats for sure, but also like eh ��\_(ツ)_/¯

i dont know anything concrete yet and i just uploaded smthn new so im not rushing myself to put out anything new super soon

[gaybd1]

This is a big ask so don't feel like you have to, but would you be interested in pitching some summaries of the fics you have up on Ao3? I know there are summaries up there, but I like the casual way you have with words and you say fuck a lot and I dunno yeah

omg this is so funny bc i know the exact way with words you're talking about and of course im not gonna pass up a chance to promote my own work hehe YOU GOT IT!

i have 20 atla fics so I'm going to recommend them in order of... least to most kudos??? to try to trick people into reading more of my stuff? lol idk

I'm 99% sure all of these are Zukka fics...

The Last Five Years - ok actually this is a bad place to start bc i don't think im gonna finish it. it just really didn't take off but um its a The Last Five Years AU with really fucking sad Divorced Zukka

Do Not Stand At My Grave and Cry - this is i think my newest one, it has trans zukka and it's a bit angsty with a fake death but i also think it's kind of fun. it's the idea trans people have of ''who's going to care if my family puts the wrong name on my gravestone?" but there IS a happy ending

A Problem Halved is a Problem Shared - im gonna be honest i dont fucking remember writing this one lol but it says dialogue-only and it WILL be angsty bc it is about zuko and sokka dealing with different issues they have

One Last Time (and its sequel The End of All Things) - Actually OLT is definitely one of my faves I ever wrote. It's my canon-compliant take on um... *cough* Sokka's death, referenced in Korra. It's SO angsty but it has one of the most visceral scenes I've ever written and I DID cry writing this. TEoAT is the happy ending Divorced Zukka deserved with bonus Iroh but you WILL cry reading that too. BUT i cant fucking recommend these ones enough!!!!

If I fade away (the awful things we do to make the head go quiet) - VERY dead dove. trans zuko needs to pay a MASSIVE price to get home to the Fire Nation after Ba Sing Se, and it's not his choice at all. I love this but READ WITH CAUTION

In Which Sokka is Supportive Ally Boyfriend Goals - I am dead serious i like dont remember this one at all but i know it has trans zuko!

Nourishing the Flame Within - not the best written tbhtbh BUT it does have two very important Zukos in it that I hold to be universally true: trans zuko and eating disorder zuko

bad idea right? - okay this is DEF one of my faves lol its about divorced zukka but they just cant stop messing things up and sleeping with each other even though theyre not together anymore lolol

Keeping it in the Family - lmao OKAY SO this is the ONE version of zukka that im like 'ok all u z*tara folks, maybe zuko WAS with her and it obvs didnt work' and then he hooks up with sokka instead and its GREAT but oops now we have Family Drama

Scars of Trust - bro im not gonna like i barely remember writing this one but i remember I LOVE IT and it's about sokka who has been dating zuko a while but he finally learns that zuko is trans? its great

Playing the Long Game - eh, i don't love it, but I'd say it's worth a read. it was my first longer fic in the fandom. it DOES have a great Zukki evolution though if you're into that, and a nice mystery!! Also some whump and angst bc of course

Keeping Score - I liked this one! It's just little snippets of times Sokka has survived assassination attempts, because we always hear about it happening to Zuko, but Sokka gets them too. Angst obviously

It Was Cruel and It Was Wrong - wow, a dead dove fic, yes. It's basically like "If I'm Joo Lee and you're Joo Lee, then who's flying the bison?" Yeah so Sokka and Zuko are both brainwashed by the Dai Lee and Suffering but be careful because this gets DARK

Mother - Izumi has two dads but she feels bad she doesn't have a mom. But guess what, her dads don't have moms either!! She's very happy to find that out! Wow Izumi, way to have some sympathy.

Impact - It's about Zuko taking a longer time to recover from an assassination attempt than he'd want, and Sokka being loving and patient with him! I wrote this when I had a bad concussion for like three weeks and so it's pretty like. Medically accurate lol

Scratchy - Short and sweet. I don't remember this one much but I know that it is fluffy and involves turtle ducks!

Hidden Pain, Shared Love - Another short and fluffy one. It's about the first time Zuko sees that Sokka has problems with his leg sometimes?

Zuko and Sokka Get Engaged in the Most Zukka Way Possible - okay i actually really love this one because it's on brand and cute and also i made it fucking angsty because oF COURSE

Zuko Amongst the Dragons - yes so what if zuko was raised by dragons and met the gaang but he was super feral? and what if shenanigans ensued? AND what if sokka and zuko fell in love anyway????

[mayzi33]

I just finished The Magic Misfits The Second Story AND YOU GUYS.......

I keep falling harder and harder in love with these books.

EVER SINCE I SAW THE ESMERALD RING'S PICTURE ON THE FIRST BOOK I ALREADY WENT LIKE "HMMM LEILA AND THE CRYSTAL BALL GIRL KINDA LOOK SIMILIAR"

POOR, INNOCENT ME....

Also I would like to have a talk with this Kalagan guy. For literally playing with an orphan child's feelings over a stupid notebook. LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.

Protect Leila at all the costs. And Carter. And Theo. And Ridley. And Olly and Izzy. Protect them from those SICKOS.

Also I love Carter's and Leila's relationship so so so so so so so much. They're siblings and you cannot tell me otherwise.

I wanna see more of the Magic Misfits' friendship. Idk, but everytime they just interact the slightlest it makes my heart jump out of joy- I would adopt them all if Carter and Leila already didn't have such good parents. (Dunno about Theo, Ridley and the twins yet.....)

AND STAN MR. VERNON AND OTHER MR. VERNON FOREVER. THEY'RE SO SWEET AND CARING AND GIVE THE ORPHAN CHILDREN ALL THE LOVE THEY RIGHTFULLY DESERVE AND IM SO SO SO SO HAPPY THAT THEY JUST--- EXIST.

I can't wait to learn more about the Esmerald Ring. The kid with the puppet particularly freaks me out- And I can't help but feel like they're the ones responsible about Carter's parents' disappearance.

Also uuuuuuh- I have a small, slight feeling that Uncle Sly might be a bit of trouble in the future. Idk- A part of me feels like he might come back and the other part feels like he will never be mentioned again other when Carter jokes about all the trauma that man caused him. ("I'll ask my criminal uncle when I see him. Which I hope is *never*.")

I DONT KNOW YOU GUYS... I think its just because the phrase he said on the first chapter of the first book still freaks me out a bit. ( "I have eyes and ears in all cities from here to Tombucto! You'll never escape, hear me? Never!")

But eh, he honestly doesn't worry me as much as the rest of the grown ups in this book...

ANYWAYS.

I ALREADY ORDERED THE THIRD ONE AND IT'S PROBABLY GONNA ARRIVE NEXT WEEK

So until then........ Do you guys have any fanfics or any TMM content to reccomend me? :'''D (I cannot spend a single day without my children.)

[elegyofthemoon]

life stuff

eh.... it's genuinely really hard to find any sort of motivation or to be bothered to do any of the work anymore because i really just want out of it. like yeah yeah ok i told myself i'd stay and at least finish this rotation, but tbh, what does it matter if i'm going to leave anyways ?

i've already made my decision to leave. i had a moment of getting really cluttered in decision but yeah. i need to leave for myself.

so that makes it harder to be motivated to do any of the work left for this rotation :o) like how do i even push myself if its all gonna be inevitable anyways?

i think its also just even seeing the study material + being at work itself just tosses me into anxiety attacks so it makes it even harder to do it

so why should i lol

after this meeting with the dean on thursday, maybe i'll figure out if i can leave sooner than wait till the end of this rotation. idk theres no point in staying longer anyways. even if the next rotation is going to be something im more "interested" in, i still cant be bothered to go on anymore

buuut i still have to do the work in the meantime instead of just sitting and waiting... just have to remind myself to take care of myself first despite everything. but. thats kinda hard too bc i worry also if maybe all of my decisions is "avoidant" :I overthinking...

just need to find something to motivate me day to day