#idk if i'll finish this either

[nevarroes]

missed wip wednesday yesterday after getting tagged by @mrdraws bwaa so I'll post some today🙏

[funkylittlebats]

"Man I wish the McElroy's had continued Commitment or Dust, I would've loved listening to those! I would've listened to them over and over again!" << says guy who has only ever done relistens of Balance, never finished Amnesty, and never even started listening any of the other campaigns.

[siiiopao]

ask and you shall receive!!!

WIP (idk if i'll actually ever finish it tho lmao)

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I've been thinking about how Vash always seems to be hungry. Or at least, that he's shown eating quite often in the manga. Happily having his salmon sandwiches. Eating an entire box of donuts in the side car. Knowing the conversion rate of bullets to pizza. Seeing a flower and immediately wondering if it's edible. Pondering his life over breakfast. It's a really cute little character detail about him - he likes food.

But then I kind of started to think about the angel arm and its specific brand of destruction. How there were no bodies to be recovered. Nothing but a crater left of July, left on the Fifth Moon. It's all been incinerated. Devoured, even. Tristamp takes it even a step further and makes the power something akin to a black hole - a yawning drain; a constant destructive hunger.

Vash is clearly terrified of this potential for destruction, and for very good reason. But it's not separate from him as some kind of "power he can't control" - it's his arm. It's literally his arm. It is him. Vash is scared of himself, scared of losing control. He does what he can to repress it, even subconsciously (the gaps in his memory whenever it activates). He can't control it in the moment, so he takes steps to preemptively push it down, to avoid the use of his abilities entirely, to hide himself away.

I talked a bit in a previous post about how there are probably several interrelated reasons for Vash's chronically avoidant behaviour, but I'd like to throw one more into the ring and suggest that it's not just a matter of not deserving to want things, but maybe also that he's afraid of wanting. That if he allows himself to even think about what he wants personally that he'll want too much, take too much, and that the only cure in his mind for this is to give and give repeatedly.

I wonder how starved he is for love. Vash loves hard, after all. Once he loves (and I’m not talking about the broad, distant love/compassion he has in general), for better or worse, he carries them around with him forever, long after they've passed. Does he feel like it'd be selfish to admit this kind of want? His love isn't really a passive thing after all - it's the drive at his very core; a mournful inferno he is just barely suppressing. Does he remember how to love in a way that doesn't consume him entirely?

Is that part of the reason he checks out at signs of intimacy? Diverts gifts towards others? Tends to accept kind gestures only when under an assumed name? Intentionally starves himself in Tristamp? Runs and runs and runs? Is he afraid he won't be able to stop hungering? That allowing himself to want means his want will become insatiable?

I just have to wonder how much of his avoidance of connection is being scared that he will cause more destruction (to them? or to him?) by trying to take far too much into his hands than he ever caused by turning his back and running.

...of course I may just be entirely deranged here sorry.

[loquarocoeur]

cradles your face

alex yes the monza fic is calling to you how else will we get to read about them having copious amounts of sex after charles’ win

😥

I fear the monza fic may just have to be written...

[get-back-homeward]

Life With The Lennons, Exclusive by Ray Coleman, April 1965 [x]

[gracefireheart]

I wanna try and create an outfit- based off of whatever emojis wins on a poll- again soon™. But this time around, I wanna create an outfit for Medic. So uh, yeah, let's get to it :]

[I explain each option a lil' bit more below the keep reading line]

😈🕯️💎 - Sitting in a room and either holding or surrounded by lit candles (or both), he wears a demon themed outfit and a ton of jewelry, 'cause why not?

🕊️🪚👔 - Brandishing one of his bone saws while wearing a dove themed suit, his doves watch- from where they're perched on him- at whoever's below.

🧙🩸👗 - It's DnD night, so he wanted to dress like his Cleric/Wizard/Warlock's character. Which yes, does involve blood and wearing a stylish dress.

🐱🎻💅 - After a lil' bit of convincing, Pyro- with some help from Scout- got to put some glamorous cat-themed make-up on Medic. Something something he ends up playing the violin while still wearing the make-up idk lol.

[rabbitclangen]

Prologue, part 1

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[overly-verbose]

A little update; I've gone absolutely bonkers with writing between panicked revisions for Exams™ and thus can announce that Part 8 is gonna be around 16~k words (most likey somewhat above 16k tbh)

ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ 🎶

( (;; o o) ??? )

[volivolition]

prepping for my Bonus Days. i love tutorial agent lmao

[ineed-to-sleep]

So what you’re saying is that datv is actually the new stardew valley huh? 🤔

JFJAKWKKEKDKDK MAYHAPS?? I've never played stardew valley tbh but this is what I imagine it to be like now 😭

[lords-of-fortune]

Mixed feelings on the choices stuff but also annoyed that out of the three choices that are to be made I technically haven't made two of them yet bc I haven't finished inquisition and therefore trespasser ajdkfl

[bigkickguy]

I just think the next time yesod goes to fix roland's tie he's gonna get kissed !!

[brooklynisher]

They should make a Stardew Valley Mod where Piper Faraday is a bachelorette

NOT FOR ANY REASON IN PARTICULAR I’M JUST OH NO MY PANTS AHHHH MY PANTS AHHHHHH🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[beep-beep-imma-sheep]

As I've been hiperfixating on 🍎📻, I've come across fun ideas that would be fun to just explore in a fic. I asked permission and I got it.

The problem? My brain constantly has a bunch of ideas and fuses them together without my permission. It just goes

"ooh, shiny- *smashes it into some clay with other "shiny" ideas*"

Now.

What was supposed to be a few little fun One Shots, became me making a whole godforsaken timeline at ungodly hours of the night.

I have the overall vibe.

There's a lot of fluff and a lot of angst.

Scenes in my head.

And then bits that I'm not sure how I'm even gonna handle and-

This.

This got out of control.

The worst part?

I'M ONLY USED TO WRITING 10 CHAPTER STORIES AND OS IN MY NATIVE LANGUAGE.

I do have drafts of larger stories (in my native language) but those are not finished.

I'm doing it scared because omg how am I supposed to even write this.

In English, nonetheless.

Not my native language.

English.

what have I done?