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This is so interesting. There are so many different takes on love and saying "I love you" around the world.
Personally, I don't like to say it to everyone all the time simply because it's not a thing in my culture. It would either feel fake or like the word has lost its meaning if I were to say it to strangers or acquaintances, or basically anyone I'm not particularly close to. Heck, it even feels a little weird to say it to my own family, but maybe it's just me not having very strong bonds with my family. Idk.
It's typically not really a thing in my culture to say it to friends, either. Not outside of jokes, at least. Even if they're your closest friends. Despite that, I believe it's perfectly okay to tell them how you feel about them. After all, your best friends are people you love not unlike family. So I've been trying to learn to overcome the embarrassment and just casually say "I love you" now that I've made some friends, myself. And I'd say I've been pretty successful so far!đ
But seriously, to any mutual/follower/anyone else I'm not too close with, who might ever say they love me: please don't take it personally if I don't say it back. I simply can't bring myself to say these words unless I've already gotten to know you well enough and feel like we're actually close. It never means I don't like you, or that I don't care about you𫶠There's just too much weight in these words for me.
If it helps, I can easily say I love seeing you guys on my dash - seeing your creativity, kindness, humor etc.
Reblog if you think itâs okay to platonically say âI Love Youâ to your friends
#mugi's musings#on saying i love you#platonic love#cultural differences#friendship#online friends#moot love#honestly i'm capable of very strong platonic love and in these instances it just feels so good to be able to express it
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idk if you're open to it but i feel like you'd give a good representation of writing ni-ki anyway! can you make a story of him falling in love with a male reader? like its just hits him out of the blue and baam ... he likes *a* guy .. crazy stuff!
love all your works to the fullest!! đ
double take - male!reader x ni-ki
warnings: a little suggestive, cursing, etc.
the sun was just starting to set. it casted long shadows over your small town as you made your way towards the gathering at ni-ki's house.
his dad had invited your family over, just like old times. the whole neighborhood was going wild because after all, it wasn't every day that nishimura riki, the kid who used to play hide and seek with you, racing you to the vending machine, and played video games with you until your thumbs ached, just came back after years of living in Korea.
you had heard bits and pieces about his life through your parents, but you never really reached out.
what would you even say? "bro, remember when we used to dance together?" you doubted he had time for nostalgia, not when he had debuted as an idol, traveling the world, and living the dream he always wanted.
still, his dad's invitation left you no choice. and part of you was a little bit⊠curious.
he was taller, way waaay taller. you knew you had grown too, but next to him? you weren't sure if it was enough to count.
his once soft cute features had sharpened. he's got more defined jawline now and his nose got even more pointy, and despite everything, he still looked easygoing, laughing shyly as family friends and neighbors showered him with compliments.
does he even recognize you?
his eyes met yours and you looked away, not really sure why.
"hey, y/n!" he called out with his now deep voice, lifting his hand to dap you up just like old times.
ni-ki clasped your hand and pulled you into a firm hug. and he's so strong now too.
"hey," laughed awkwardly. "i guess you're ni-ki now?"
"you know i'm just riki." he smiled, scratching the back of his neck again.
you felt a little relieved, maybe he hadn't changed too much.
the two of you stepped aside and started catching up. a little strange at first but the conversation picked up quickly as you both tried to bring up old memories and filling all the years you had missed.
and at some point, he sighed resting his head on your shoulder without warning.
"i'm so tired from the flight," he murmured.
your body tensed.
you felt relieved again knowing he's still comfortable with you but you also felt nervous
because he probably didn't notice⊠but you like guys now.
i mean, you always did.
and to ni-ki's defense, he was just always like this too, he became comfortable with physical touch especially with guys after years of being surrounded by his group members.
the next day, you were walking through the neighborhood talking about some dumb story from middle school when, out of nowhere, his arm draped over your shoulders.
ni-ki was smiling, listening to you while looking ahead. "man, i miss this place," he said, completely oblivious to how stiff you had just gone.
"y-yeah," you replied, forcing yourself to act normal.
and it made sense that he wouldn't think twice about casually leaning on you or wrapping his arms around your shoulders,
or pulling you close during a game.
"let's see how good you are." ni-ki said, dribbling the ball between his legs, smirking smugly before passing you the ball, like he know he's about to win.
he was on you again, guarding so close. his body pressed against yours, chest to back, arms spreading wide as he tried to block your movements that you could feel the heat radiating off of him, the way his breath came fast and uneven... just like yours.
and your heart was already racing from running around, now it feels like it's going to burst out for a completely different reason.
it's okay, focus. just play.
you tried to step back but ni-ki was right there and he was just so fucking big. his hands kept trying to swipe at the ball.
you moved fast because you were too distracted, and-
foul.
you had practically shoved into him, and he stumbled slightly, blinking at you in surprise.
"whew," ni-ki said and laughed, still panting. "you play dirty like that?"
"sh-shut up," you muttered, reaching for the ball again to distract yourself.
and then in a desperate attempt to shake off whatever this was, you threw it at the hoop with way too much force that the ball smacked against backboard so hard it ricocheted off and bounced into the grass.
"âŠbro."
"i'm sorry! you're just... too close."
he walked towards you and patted your head. "my bad, sorry."
later, you had just stepped out of the shower. the steam were still clinging to your skin as you ran a towel through your damp hair. the only thing covering you was the towel wrapped loosely around your waist, while water droplets sliding down your chest.
you weren't expecting company.
which is why you froze the moment you saw ni-ki in on your bed, strumming nonsense on your guitar.
both of you just stared at each other with wide eyes. the silence was probably thick enough to choke on.
and ni-ki? he should've been used to this, right? because after all he lives with six guys, sharing dorms, and seeing shirtless bodies all the time.
this shouldn't feel different.
his eyes flicked down just a quick second before he turning his head to the side.
you gripped your towel tighter, "what the hell are you doing in my room?"
"i-" he swallowed, still refusing to look at you. "i was waiting for you."
"In my bed?"
ni-ki groaned, rolling onto his stomach, wishing he could just disappear into the mattress. "we were supposed to go spy on the date, remember?"
his sister's going on a date tonight and he convinced you to go with him because he needs "something" he could find so he can use it against her later.
such a little brother.
but yeah, you did agree to that.
you sighed, running a hand through your damp hair. "you could've knocked."
"i thought you were done..."
your fingers curled around the edge of your towel with your heart still beating a little too fast.
and ni-ki, while still half-buried in your bed, exhaled a breath and peeked at you from the corner of his eye then quickly, he shut his eyes and groaned into your pillow.
"put some clothes on."
"yea- yeah," you muttered, already turning away. "good idea."
"âŠyou're killing me here."
it was late, way past midnight, and he was lying on your bedroom floor, staring at the ceiling.
you were on your bed, already half-asleep, but still mumbling about how he could've just gone home instead of insisting on staying over.
he said it was easier this way, he said he didn't feel like walking.
but he just doesn't want to leave.
you rolled onto your side, your arm dangled off the bed, and your hand peeked over the edge, right in front of his eyes.
he swallowed before reaching out. he let his fingertips ghost over the back of your hand, touching and tracing the lines of your skin.
then your hand twitched.
and ni-ki can't help but intertwine his fingers with yours.
you stirred awake, mumbling groggily. "that's not a ghost, right?"
ni-ki let out a breathy chuckle. "it's me, dumbass."
your heart ached at his touch, biting your lip as you curled your fingers tighter around his.
"...come up here."
next day, you stood next to him. ni-ki didn't know but he was staring, reaally staring because he was.
your head barely reached his shoulder as you walk together, he also had to slow his steps just so you wouldn't fall behind. and when you stretched to reach something high, it was instinct for him to reach over and grab it for you.
it made him smile.
he didn't even realize he was smiling until you turned to him, brow raised.
"what?" you asked, giving him a weird look.
"no- nothing."
and you weren't convinced. "no, seriously, why are you looking at me like that?"
he shrugged, tilting his head slightly. "just⊠you're kinda small, huh?"
you blinked at him. "no, i'm not?"
ni-ki chuckled before leaning close to your face, "yeah, i bet you are."
he said it like he was challenging you or something.
your jaw dropped, stopping in your tracks as he continued walking. "what the hell?"
you glared at his back before quickly catching up, grabbing his arm and pulling it over your shoulders, forcing him closer.
ni-ki stiffened for a second. his heart were stuttering, but he gave in easily too, pressing a quick kiss to your head, before resting his head on top of yours.
"don't react."
a/n: thank you so much for showing love! it keeps me going.
also this is my first time writing ni-ki and male!reader pairing, so glad this was requested! ><
i know i should've leaned more towards him falling for the reader but i also feel like it wouldn't really be a big surprise to him because it's you/him, the reader.
i actually wanted to make them strangers instead of already knowing each other then i also saw a video (the video attached below) where ni-ki was singing the song double take by dhruv during live and omg i just got so inspired by it lol!
hope you like it! <3
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ok so this is my proposal for a Reverse Robins AU that's actually a Reverse Batfamily AU because Duke and the girls deserve some swapping too.
The typical joining the batfam timeline goes like this:
Dick-> Barbara-> Jason-> Tim-> Steph-> Cass-> Damian-> Duke
So let's swap
Duke:
both of his parents are severely incapacitated via rogue attack
since he grew up relatively normal, and has two parents he very much love and are technically still alive, he becomes Bruce's ward
the light to batman's darkness
overall very sunny personality but with some darkness one could explore
you can have his teenage angst phase start due to the awakening of his powers
no metas in Gotham and all that
so he goes to his own city and becomes his own separate vigilante
Damian
ok so this might be a little bit of a stretch but hear me out
he meets batman already trained and capable
and older than the current sidekick
also, his stance of killing may make him a kinda separate thing from batman
like, definitely not his sidekick
especially assuming this Damian is already a teen by the time he meets Bruce
it's not exactly the same, but near enough
his career ending injury could be related to the LoA
and instead of going hacker, he could go doctor
idk, think about it
Cass
ok this one's pretty easy
young child is found feral in the streets and gets adopted
she becomes the second signal or whatever name duke chose
and she is basically a really great child: appreciative of everything, actually goes to school, and so on and so forth
and then lady Shiva shows up
Shiva challenges her to a death match, Cass wins but refuses to kill her, since that's her mother, and gets killed for her troubles
now for her vilain arc it'd be a little different than Jason's
but I think it could happen
first she kills Shiva and steals her title
and when she does she has some epiphany about how some people will never regret the things they do
and she could become an assassin
killing the people who are truly horrendous, who she can clearly see are doing evil and regretting nothing
Steph
ok so while she would probably not grab Cass's/Duke's name, she would definitely be going out
and Batman gets PTSD seeing this small young vigilante going out and putting herself in danger
and tries to stop her
but Steph is too stubborn enough to actually stop
eventually he allows it but only on strict supervision
and maybe this is where she becomes the Signal III or whatever
at some point her father figures out who she is and while she's dealing with that she gives Tim the title
you could play on the fact that she's clue master's daughter and make her develop her detective skills
maybe enough that when Bruce "Dies" and Tim tells her of some suspicions she leaves with him to investigate
becomes Spoiler again and finds Bruce
Tim
ok so this one is kind of a stretch but just hang on
Tim, like always, is a fanboy
but since there's no Dick, he never figures out who Batman is
but he still loves the bats
and figures with all his money there's definitely something he could do
so he starts heading out to the streets, aiming to help
the others don't take him seriously because they see him as just a batman fanboy
so he has to struggle and try and fail and try again to be considered part of the team
he only becomes a part of the team when he becomes signal in that Steph fiasco
due to not being trusted, he starts a gang war, and Leslie fakes his death
he spends a year around the world, building his sense of identity and acting as a vigilante
and when Bruce disappears, he thinks something's fishy
and he keeps the name
Jason
this one fits way too well
Jason either never steals the tires or steals them quickly enough to never get caught
he continues living as a street kid, stealing, being a snarky asshole, and helping the alley kids when he can
he could become some sort of informant for the bats, as well as an opportunistic vigilante
as in never actually going out intending to stop crime, but ending up doing it when possible
he brings crucial info on cases, also stopping muggings, and becomes closer and closer to the batfam
eventually, being one of the biggest informants of the city, and an incredibly smart kid, he gets enough info to figure out the Bats identities
and Bruce adopts him
he decides to go out and save as many people as possible
he also has a very strong moral code
his father was forced into being a criminal by being excon, so he recognizes that sometimes you don't have a choice
he also is against excessive violence, since breaking bones, while it may not kill, it puts you in excessive medical debt and that's way too shitty
he and Cass argue constantly about this
Barbara
ok so this is the stretchiest one of them all
so try and stay with me
young Barbara, trained my a cop for self defense purposes, decides to go out and use her abilities for other people's defense
the batfam catch her, and snitch on her with her dad
while she is grounded, she manages to hack into their comms and uses this opportunity to try and annoy the batfam into letting her become a vigilante
eventually Bruce "dies" Steph and Tim leave, and Duke becomes batman
left with half his backup gone, and realizing there is no way he can keep Barbara sealed by herself with only Jason for help (Cass is an assassin, Damian can't go out into the field, and the rest are either Bruce or looking for him) he decides to make her the fifth signal
she's snarky at the fact they stopped her from helping people for so long mirroring Damian's attitude
Dick
this one is easy with some changes
the flying graysons get murdered later, with Dick being in his teens
instead of going full vigilante, dick joins the we are signal gang, and eventually becomes part of the batfam in a similar way to Duke
naturally, he names himself Robin
of anyone has some ideas to add or improve on this prompt, feel free to do so (respectfully), also if someone writes a fanfic please tag me, I'd love to read this story
also this was inspired by a post by @too0bsessedformyowngood , so you should definitely read that
#there's a severe lack of cass and duke in#reverse robins#also i think it's funny that basically none of the original robins got to be this version of robin#also almost all of these fit very well#there are so many duke and dick parallels#same with jason and cass#batman#bruce wayne#dc#dick grayson#barbara gordon#jason todd#tim drake#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#damian wayne#duke thomas#batfam
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the beef between hunter and crosshair once the latter returns to the squad lives in my mind rent free forever, and no, I will not elaborate
#star wars#the bad batch#tbb hunter#tbb crosshair#the tags are where i elaborate#um#idk i just love that they see the world differently#and yet they both feel betrayed#left behind..#and then theres the whole added layer of tech being gone#also the clones werent properly taught to deal with emotions soooo..#*long sigh*#ALSO#i think the jedi were some of the better role models/parental figures/etc that the clones had#can you see where im going with this..#the batch didnt have a jedi đ#theyre doing the best with what they have#god#i love making myself emotional about the clones#clone headcanons#tbb headcanons#the bad batch headcanons#clone culture#jedi culture#emotional dysregulation#nature vs nurture#nd clones#star wars thoughts#clone troopers#clone force 99
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I want to start with saying this among so many things Iâm gonna say though out honey idk about u but damn u are talented like way you wrote this and wrote it so realistic so authentic so well amazing. Lee not perfect plastic version of himself or foam at the mouth monster but a more if this was everyday thing I see this and the reader too. He didn't mind. Everyone talked about him too. Granted, he was a bit shady sometimes, with his secret businesses here and there, but it was something he had in common with you. Both of you fell outside of what was appropriate.
As I said we start right off the back on an odd way to start him out ( which he probably done so often ) eating lunch on watch or should I say watching her. ( which u so wonderfully done brought it back and put a bow on it ) He noticed that about you. How your body moved almost fluently away from others. You didn't like to be touched. I mean it in my mind feels or looks what a ballerina would look like . All in her own little world .
We know from his little thoughts to himself that he been watching her for a long time . How long is she like 5 years younger or so and he grew up with her or longer. Fascinated !! lol like from what goes around to watching to even speaking to your parents and they didnât see the signs probably how reader been missing it but letâs be realistic sometimes itâs like that which is probably like many others I too find myself drawn and maybe đ€ rooting for the two .

Isnât funny how itâs the ones that donât do or act the same like the general does that look away . Little things and poof they draw it up to a big thing â Too different, too quiet, or too loud. You didn't say the right things, you didn't like the right things. You were too honest. â I like how you add it more of a separation then the others. Because it makes it feel idk show more realistic not just oh she different because she has brown hair and blue eyes not blonde hair and blue eyes or what not which I mean if thatâs your reader good but way u write it feels more like you ( as in the reader reading it) . Then we got him talking about his little fantasies hehe man OO man this man something else

Itâs so sad but true how many of us can relate again to this reader, â It was the time that you could disappear in a story and live a life you were never going to get. Experiencing all the emotions and adventures safely from your own home. Romance, and travels, fighting dragons or being a ruling Queen. In real life you liked things simple, but in your head you were free to do whatever you wanted. In your head people liked you. You belonged.â And again this is a prime example of why like me why this story means so much . I mean what do we do all time from a sport to video games to online videos or simulation games we all do something to escape. Itâs funny because she this adorable girl and she so innocent huh something Iâm sure Lee Lee drool a water fall if he knew knew maybe guess but not knew. And she reading smut fantasy fairy tales lord if only Lee can read your mind u be wrap his chubby fingers.
In all the places I assume Lee be somewhere else but to pick her at a library lord he bold. Hehe just imagining him in his uniform between those book shelfs . But dang a lang snap me out a brown paper bag and glass cup of ice and water bc I never thought I saw this but man o man was this such a scene.
âThey said he liked the booze and he loved the ladies who gave it away for free. He had always been pleasant if you ever saw him, devoted to his work, but gossip still followed himâ now silly but itâs a question he was always been pleasant do you mean like she always seen him but in hindsight or in general because this kinda goes with beginning when he lays the ground work on his history with reader. So she been aware of him but still doesnât realize it. Man o man I canât say a thing bc I tend to act the same way.

Remember how I said I see now and agree w Lee well haha that went to đŻ percent higher after watching they laugh at her about chairs CHAIRS really shit we all need a little bit of comfort Im sure no one laugh at Goldie locks so why her I swear ooooo I will attack w my small hands and sharp nails rawwww and kick them til they are nothing bit soup đ. Like really really well this is the world we sadly live in . â So you had talked to your boss if he could make an exception, if you could keep yours, and store the new one. But of course he hadnât wanted to. And you admittedly got a little upset. Word got out, or maybe they heard you. You had cried on the toilet, but tried very hard to gather yourself and continue like nothing was wrong. It didnât matter. They knew. And they thought you were crazy.â
Then we hear what she feels about her parents. âYour parents were disappointed, no doubt, but they always assured you they loved you, and that it would be nice in their old day to spend it with the three of you. You wondered if they had a different child than you, if they had wanted to get another. Someone easier to handle.â I mean shit this poor girl canât win. LEE SAVE HER OR USE I NEED AN ALIBI FOR WHOOPING THIER ASS. and in walks Lee once again coming to save the day. Again once again itâs like having to take it from page one. Hehehe like he doing it all and she so use to not being treated or ask her opinion she doesnât know how to deal with it. Small convocations complements etc etc all I wanted to do was eeek with excitement and then again pass out grab a brown bag and glass of ice water . Like way she was so into the story and ask about chickens or how she blurted out her favorite color. And he offers her how to drive ahhhhh loving it. Way he spoke to her and kept giving her words of encouragement ahhh my god or calling her cleaver or what not I am getting tattoo this story name to my heart bc Iâm who always was addicted went more by now even about wanting a cat or learning to drive being lonely my god I donât know how she made it I be dead but in all itâs smart on him getting the ability to talk to her with no way out and calling her a good girl he won just with that even though I donât think she realizes what happening being she was like oh I will help him find a good girl but also was left a smile and was like I need to find ways to talk to him better next time in all this was such a good 1st chapter

Dream Of A Girl
Part 1
Summary: The sheriff had his eyes on you for a while, the town's joke of an Omega. You never thought you'd find love, but around him you just can't help acting on your inner instincts.
Pairing: Lee Bodecker x reader
Word count: 3899
Warnings: Lee, small town gossip and bullying, neurodivergent reader, slurs\insult of neurodivergent back in the day, no catsđ„ș, turns slightly non-con at the end, Alpha\Omega
Notes: absolutely loved writing this, got really into it, I hope you'll enjoy it, and make sure to drop me a comment, I would love to hear what you think!đ
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He was watching you again. Inside his car, on his lunch break, slurping from his milkshake as his eyes never left your form. Your head was turned down, watching the pavement as you moved, yet you seemed to be aware where everyone else was because you never bumped into anyone. He noticed that about you. How your body moved almost fluently away from others. You didn't like to be touched. You flinched if someone did.
You were alone a lot. Listening to the noises around you, or he would sometimes hear you murmur to yourself. Sometimes you made strange noises if you were excited. He knew what they said about you.
They thought you were weird.
He didn't mind. Everyone talked about him too. Granted, he was a bit shady sometimes, with his secret businesses here and there, but it was something he had in common with you. Both of you fell outside of what was appropriate.
Of course, he was the sheriff, so no one dared to say it to his face. But they did to you. He had watched you for years. With your pretty hair, and that bodyâŠ
He shuffled in his seat uncomfortably. You always had an effect on him.
He loved your eyes, although you barely look up to him. You do that. You glanced past people, or talked with your face turned a different way. Some people looked at you funny when you did.
But he knows why. Your parents told him once. When you got dared into doing something naughty. You didn't like it, but told him you had said you would do it before they told you what you were supposed to do. And you needed to keep your promises.
He talked to you sternly about how wrong it was of you, and you sat there with tears in your eyes. Head down. Like you had committed the worst crime. You were a good girl. Your parents told him that. It wasn't your fault. It was those kids. They thought it was funny. School talked to them. They left you alone. But you didn't make many friends.
Too different, too quiet, or too loud. You didn't say the right things, you didn't like the right things. You were too honest.
He liked that about you. He didn't need to wonder what you thought. You weren't two faced like all the other bitches. Who smiled at him in hope for favors, or in hope he would turn his eyes away from what they were doing. You were, you.
When you were alone, or thought you were anyway, your shoulders relaxed and he could sometimes see you smiling. Most times you would if you spotted an animal. Talking to it, like it was your friend. And you were good with kids. Really good. They flocked to you and you easily handled them. You didn't like sudden noises, and you were very clear about that, and they listened to you.
That's something people did like about you, they had no problem ditching their kids on you. You were a natural.
It was one of the things he noticed first about you. That drew him towards you. Your natural motherly instincts. He knew you would do excellent with your own. And the idea of you, one or 2 kids by the hand, belly swollen with another, made him rock hard each time.
God, you would be so pretty. He imagined your children; babies with brown hair, maybe a cleft in their chin, like his. The family Bodecker. You, all soft and sweet smelling. A ring on your finger. It made him come so swiftly once he touched himself.
He was happy no one snatched you up. They all couldn't look past your different behavior and see the gem underneath. They were blind to your qualities. What fools. But it worked in his favor though. Such a good, sweet girl. All ripe for the picking.
You were growing and seemed to not be aware of him. That was okay, he was fine with letting you have this time for yourself. Just out of college, young women needed to find their own way. He didn't want you to feel like you missed out on everything once he married you. That led some housewives to turn a little crazy, he saw it all the time, married at 18 or even 16 at times, high school lovers, and by the time baby number 2 was on the way, they looked worn out and disappointed in life.
Not you though. You finished school, you had a nice job, good parents. He gave you that time. He never was far away though. Watching you. Making sure you stayed out of trouble. Or trouble didn't find you. There weren't many boys to approach you, but those with eyes did, those who were too eager to be bothered with your quirkiness. He made sure to scare them off. He didn't need the competition.
He had a good job, a job that gave him power over this town, a nice house. He could afford a family. When the time came, he could convince your parents he was a good match. But most important was he needed to convince you.
đ
You walked into the library to return your books and pick up new ones. You came here at least once a week, often twice, as you loved reading. It was the time that you could disappear in a story and live a life you were never going to get. Experiencing all the emotions and adventures safely from your own home. Romance, and travels, fighting dragons or being a ruling Queen. In real life you liked things simple, but in your head you were free to do whatever you wanted. In your head people liked you. You belonged.
Lately you got very into fairytales again. Consuming every book you could find, rereading classics, daydreaming about the magic that was both wonderful and scary. The Alpha King, and Omega and the false mate, Sleeping BetaâŠthey were all lovely stories and you couldn't get enough. You walked through the rows upon rows of books, feeling calm and like you were amongst friends. Here you were safe. Here you were liked.
Your hands occasionally picked up a book and read the cover, lost in thought. You didn't even notice the presence next to you, until a voice shook you out of your thoughts.
âExcuse me.â
You froze and looked up. Sheriff Bodecker looked down at you.
âOhâ, you said, stepping away.
He chuckled and shook his head. âI didn't mean for you to leave. I just wanted to grab this book.â
You watched him as he picked up a faded green book. He flipped through the pages. You hadn't expected him to read. You scolded yourself after the thought. You didn't know him. It's just thatâŠhe didn't seem the type. You heard stories about him. They said he liked the booze and he loved the ladies who gave it away for free. He had always been pleasant if you ever saw him, devoted to his work, but gossip still followed him.
Gossip was tricky, though. For years rumors went around that you were stupid. That you were rude. That you were mentally challenged. They didn't understand you. And you honestly often didn't understand them. Luckily your parents loved you and stood up for you. They might not always understand but they didn't punish you the way other parents would have. They didn't make you feel bad for not always looking them in the face. Or for being blunt and too honest. How your head was in the clouds at times. Or how people overwhelmed you sometimes. But other people, they didn't get it. And they didn't like what they didn't get.
You watched everyone around you making friends and falling in love. Easily getting through events you struggled with. They got married, and started a family. It was difficult at times, to realize you wouldn't have that, but eventually you accepted it. You were comfortable with your life. You had your family, and one or two acquaintances, and you were okay. It was nice being alone. Quiet. When you were alone, no one expected something of you.
You watched out of the corner of your eye how he assessed the book, before he looked at you again. âDo you know if it's any good?â
You glanced at the title like you had to think about it. âIt's a little boring. But I don't know what you're looking for.â
âJust a little something to entertain me in the evenings. I was never much of a reader, but I thought why not read a book once in a while instead of always putting the telly on, ya know?â
You nodded. âWhat genre are you interested in? Action? Or mystery.â
âRomance.â
You blinked. âRomance,â you quietly repeated. You're eyes gliding past the titles of books and thinking to yourself.
âI don't mind it being a littleâŠnaughty, might motivate me even more to be honest,â he chuckled.
Your cheeks heated, but you tried not to show any signs of your discomfort. A heated romance. Of course you could list a few, but it felt awkward sharing that with him. You hummed softly under your breath, more out of nerves than anything, but you grabbed a book eventually. âA little naughty, and definitely romance,â you told him.
He hummed and turned the book in his hands. âThank you, I didn't know where to start.â
âThe librarians are happy to help if you can't find anything.â
âYes, I'm sure they are, but you seem like you know more about this stuff.â
Maybe you did. Maybe it was easier to approach a visitor than the strict ladies running this place? You continued your search, but he did not leave.
âDon't you have enough books?â
You frowned. How could anyone have enough books? And why was he criticizing you? âI like reading.â
He laughed. â No, I can see that, but do you really read all these in a week?â
âNo. Sometimes I read them in a few days.â
âOh, really. Okay. That's impressive. I really need to catch up if I were to compete with you.â
âIt's not a competition. You can read how you want.â
âOh I know, I was just joking.â
It wasn't a very good joke in that case. âOh.â You thought, then replied. âDo you need anything more?â
There was silence, then he answered awkwardly. âNo, you helped enough.â
You nodded.
He said your name quietly and when he didn't continue, you looked to the side at him. Your eyes locked and you blinked before you looked away.
âTell your parents hello from me, will you?â
You nodded. You would, if you remembered.
He walked away and you were left feeling a little weird about the whole conversation. Sheriff Bodecker, reading a romantic book. It seemed a little silly. But maybe he was a little lonely. He was unmarried and didn't seem to be in a hurry to get settled.
He asked for something a little naughty, though. If he wanted anything naughty he should've gone to a different section of the library. They had a few of those, although most people didn't dare to pick them up and give the ladies anything to gossip about. Sheriff Bodecker, with a naughty book. You smiled to yourself. It would be the talk of town.
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You wrapped your scarf around your neck, it was a little chilly today. Maybe you were just tired. It had been a long day at work today, your hands were cramped from all the typing, and your colleagues had left you feeling a little upset. Normally you tried to not listen to their chatter and ignore if they were ever negative about you. But todayâŠthey had stood a little nearer and you had more trouble filtering their voices.
They had talked about Marcie, who had found herself a beau. If only it had stayed about Marcie, it would have been fine. But they had looked over at you and pretended to lower their voices.
âSpinsterâ, they had used. They giggled slightly during it. You pretended not to see them staring at you. Or how they didn't care if you heard it.
âSheâs never going to find anyone, I mean did you hear her talk about the different office chairs to mr. Johnson? One would think she had to sit on spikes.
You bit your lip. You did not want to cry in front of them. They had changed the chairs two days ago, the old ones too worn out to be pleasant. But you had liked them. You were used to them. And it felt like an old friend had been ripped away from you. So you had talked to your boss if he could make an exception, if you could keep yours, and store the new one. But of course he hadnât wanted to. And you admittedly got a little upset. Word got out, or maybe they heard you. You had cried on the toilet, but tried very hard to gather yourself and continue like nothing was wrong. It didnât matter. They knew. And they thought you were crazy.
And now they kept bringing other things up in their conversations. Like they enjoyed your discomfort.
You did your job well, however, so you were pretty sure if you laid low for a while, mr. Johnson wouldnât fire you. You always made sure to finish all your work, even if you had to stay longer. Got the job done.
But now, at the end of the work day, you felt exhausted. It was tiresome keeping up pretense. The constant noise of the workplace around you. A short break to try and relax and be alone wasn't enough. You knew maybe things would be easier if you sat with them and told them things you heard, so they could gossip about someone else for once. But you didnât like them. And they were too much. You needed your break to rest before getting back to work. You often sat outside on a bench alone, or took a walk.
You took a deep breath. Tonight you were going to read your new book, and ask your daddy if he wanted to play the piano. He didnât do it as often as he used to, but you always enjoyed his music. He would do it for you, you knew it.
As a single Omega, you still lived with your parents. It was common to do so. You couldnât live alone with your designation and it didnât seem like you would ever move out and get your own home to look after. Your parents were disappointed, no doubt, but they always assured you they loved you, and that it would be nice in their old day to spend it with the three of you. You wondered if they had a different child than you, if they had wanted to get another. Someone easier to handle.
You walked past the shops, occasionally looking through the windows. You liked window shopping. Seeing all the new things on display, even if you didnât buy much. You didnât need it. But sometimes you saw something pretty and pondered if you should get it. You should buy a new dress. Most of the ones you had were getting a little old. But they were so comfortable and new dresses felt a little tight and rough. Perhaps your mother would buy some fabric and sew one for you. She knew your tastes.
A car honked next to you and you startled. When you looked around with a beating heart you noticed the car of the sheriff. He had rolled down his window and called out to you.
âSorry, little lady, didnât mean to scare you. I saw you walking and thought maybe you wanted a ride home?â
You blinked. A ride with the sheriff. You had never done that. âIâm fine walking.â You replied and tried to smile.
âYou just look tired, is all. And it is going to rain soon.â
Was it? You didnât feel much like getting wet. Still, this was weird. Different. What were you even going to say to him?
He opened the door from the inside though, clearly expecting you to get in, and you didnât want to be rude. He meant well.
You clambered in, fixed your dress and your hair.
âLong day?â he mentioned. âYou look tired.â
âYes.â you answered.
âI get that, Iâve been busy since 5 this morning myself.â he sighed. âGot a call in for a robbery. Those damn Callen boys always stealinâ them chickens from the Bookers farm. Not exactly the most exciting job.â
You blinked, thought of how to reply. âDid you get them back?â
He chuckled. âWell some of âem. They ate at least two, but I arranged for them to work a few weeks at the place to pay them back. And I'll make damn sure they're going to show up and do the work.â
You nodded. The Bookers were cheapskates, but a theft was a theft, and you were sure they enjoyed the free labor. Those chickens couldn't be worth that much.
âYou look nice today,â he mentioned suddenly.
You looked down at your dress. A little frayed around the edges. Your hair must've been less than proper because you tended to play with it if you were in thought. Maybe he was being nice. âEh, thank you,â you mumbled.
He hummed. âThat dress is a nice color.â
âBlue is my favorite,â you blurted out. You wore red today, you didnât know why you said it.
He chuckled. âIs that right? Well I love blue.â
Your eyes looked anywhere but him, at the passing buildings and bushes. What else were you going to say? It was polite to talk back, your mother had told you. Ask about something!
âEhm, this is a nice car,â
He turned to look at you again, not keeping his eyes on the road and you swallowed. âWell, it comes with the job, but it does its work.â
You nodded.
âDo you know how to drive?â
âOh no. No, no. I do not.â
âI could teach you.â he offered, and your heart rate increased.
âNo!...no. I don't think I can, I get nervous.â
âWell everyone gets nervous the first time, but youâll learn soon enough, youâre a clever girl.â
You blinked at him. No one had ever called you clever before. You werenât stupid, you werent, but no one thought you were particularly bright. âI get nervous.â you told him firmly.
He hummed âWell alright, If you change your mind, I'm more than willing.
âI don't mind walking.â you told him.
âYeah, I see you walking around. You like looking at things donât you?â
You looked down, ashamed, but his finger lifted your chin. You startled at the contact.
âWasn't mocking you. I just see you sometimes. Gotta keep an eye on the crowd to make sure nothing happens, part of the job, I canât help it. So I see you walking and befriending the neighbors cats.â
âOh.â You didn't know what to think of this. Being watched. You always felt like you were. âI like cats.â
âI like them too. Theyâre a little feisty. You got one at home?â
You shook your head. âNo, my parents donât want one.â
âI was thinking about getting one. Might be nice to come home to something, you know? House is all empty.â
You understood. Youâre parents rules, however, nothing you could do about it.
He sighed â YeahâŠ. gets real lonely for a man by himself. You got someone waiting on ya?â
âEh no. No, no one.â You felt nervous. You knew it was common for a girl your age to settle, or have settled already. It was embarrassing to admit.You had never even kissed before.The thought of it made you anxious though, How to even do that with a tongue, and how to move? It seemed mighty complicated.
âMe neither,â he admitted. âItâs a hard job, and not everyone can deal with being the wife of a sheriff. Iâd treat her right, though. Yessir. Iâd be a good husband. For the right woman. I always wanted that. A house, a wife, some kids. A nice meal when I get homeâŠâ
You hummed, like he had done before.
"You can cook?â
Your eyes moved rapidly over the car interior. âWhy, yes?â it came out as a question.
âYeah I expected you to. Youâre a good girl after all. Momma raised you right.â
You felt warmth shoot through you. You didnât know why. He was being nice. And you werenât used to that. You actually were a pretty good cook. And you liked doing it. Relieving your mother from the hard work running a household was. And showing you cared. You know you werenât always good with that. Often absorbed in your own head and your own feelings. So cooking was something you could do.
âWould love to have a home made meal again. Itâs been so very long.â
You nodded.
He eyed you. And as the silence lingered he tsked. âWell, who knows, maybe someone will invite me someday.â
âOh. Yes. I'm sure,â you were quick to agree. It would be nice for him. Someone cooking. Maybe Miss Oleson would, the woman was all alone and about 70, she probably would love the company.
You would ask her, so he wouldn't feel embarrassed. Miss Oleson would watch you sometimes when you were younger, and she was kind to you. She always gave you candy even if your parents had told her not too. You were fond of her.
You arrived at your house soon and you got out. He leaned towards the window again.
âIf you want, I can come pick you up again tomorrow.â
You blinked. Why? Was it going to rain again tomorrow?
âYou donât have to.â
âItâs my pleasure.â he grinned. âUnless iâm being called away, but if so, Iâl call you.â
âI donât have a phone.â You eyed the laces of your shoes.
He laughed. âNo silly, at your office, I can call the company.â
âOh. Yeah that would work. I guess.â
âThatâs settled then. Iâll see you tomorrow.â
âOkay.â you mumbled and turned to walk towards the door.
As you heard him leave behind you, you suddenly remembered you hadnât said goodbye, or thanked him. You felt your cheeks heat. You were supposed to thank someone for helping. You messed up again. Tomorrow, when he picked you up, you would make sure to thank him then. Maybe he wouldnât think you rude anymore. And maybe you should find some questions to ask him about. So he didnât ask you weird ones when there was silence.
You hung up your coat at the door, suddenly smelling a nice scent coming off it.
The fabric had absorbed some of his that lingered in the car. You sniffed carefully and then reared back in shame. It was kind of improper to just smell someone. You only did that to someone you knew better. Like family, orâŠor a suitor.
Still, the scent lingered in your nose as you walked away, and it was pleasant enough for you to feel a little lighter for the rest of the evening.
Part 2
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Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.
#katniss everdeen#the hunger games trilogy#the hunger games#primrose everdeen#hunger games#batcavescolony reads the hunger games#suzanne collins#'now it seems i have become someone precious' NOW? GIRL BFFR you're their hunter girl#and this isn't negative just bffr girl#your WHOLE DISTRICT did the three finger salute that you yourself says means admiration thanks and goodbye to someone you love and on top is#old a rarely used. your WHOLE DISTRICT decided in that moment that they needed to bring back this sign of respect for YOU#...................................................................#idk why some people are thinking i mean this as negative i don't she is unreliable but its not intentional. like when Peeta heart stoped in#CF she doesn't know what Finnick is doing at first cus she doesn't know off the top of her head what cpr is. she also thinks Peeta after the#reaping is acting for the cameras. he isnt we dind out later his mom basically told him Katniss was gonna win and he would die. obviously#shes not doing it on purpose shes just for lack of better words uneducated? as in she doesn't know everything shes not omnipotent#so when Plutarch (? second games guy) shows her his mokingjay hiden watch shes like *wtf that's weird?* then the people traveling to#district 13 show her the mockingjay cookie and explains it and she then goes on the difference between his watch and their cookie#and why does eveyone act as if district 12 is as bad as the capital? they CANT help Katniss and Prim in the way you want. they cant give#them food. none of them have any! and im not putting iton Katniss but they hid they needed food so they could stay together. it sounds like#some of you are in this our world mentally of what people do after a loved one dies (brings food constantly checks on them etc) district 12#cant do that. they dont have food and they're all suffering. you cant give someone food when you have none to give. then theirs the fact#that peeta DID help. Peeta buring the bread and tossing some to her then taking a beating from his mom is a HUGE thing in the books.#he used his resources to help her like you all said someone should.#district 12 DID (rip) care about Katniss before the hunger games. why do you think she was allowed to hunt? or how her trades were good#these are the little ways 12 can shows Katniss they love her. but again Katniss doesn't see this and YES its because she had ptsd before the#hunger games as well. i swear some of you make it seem like d12 was all living a life of luxury and glaring down at Katniss.#other things that show Katniss is in hight standing with at least her people of d12 is her dad was known enough through d12 for peeta dad to#comment on his singing along with his commenting on her mom. also her mom is a healer in the community. yeah her parents arnt the top but#of d12 but they are/were definitely high staning in the Seam.
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don't you want to be a cult leader? - danyal al ghul au
this is mostly a joke post but i thought it was funny and had to share so--
his first mistake was, obviously, inheriting his father's inability to see an injustice and stand still. -- actually, danyal's first mistake was his lair being so big. a mountainous island with a large temple in the center resembling his old home in Nanda Parbat? With sprawling foliage and rivers and streams and waterfalls galore? What was he going to do with all that space? Let it go to waste? He had plants there! Native trees of the ghost zone growing from the soil! He couldn't let it all be left unchecked!
So naturally after helping a fellow teenage assassin ghost -- who he later learns is named Akihiko, -- from Walker of all people, he sent them over to hang low at his lair until it was safe enough for them to wander around the Zone. Walker couldn't get through Danyal's astrofield if his life depended on it, and trust him -- he's tried. Danny was clearing out debris from his stupid transport vans for weeks.
Honestly it wasn't so bad, he and Aki really quickly became fast friends and Danny loves having a sparring partner close to his level again -- he hasn't had this much fun fighting since he left the League. Aki was very dedicated and levelheaded, the both of them clicked really well because of it.
Nonono, the real trouble began after Danyal met some long-passed League members and allowed them to come join his island as well. Apparently they had made a few enemies of the zone, and maybe Danyal still felt some loyalty to the League. He couldn't just let them be left to rot. Their zealotry could be overlooked so long as they kept it contained and helped him take care of his island.
And it.. snowballs from there? He meets a teen squire aptly calling himself Ambroise -- whether that was his living name or not is yet to be seen -- who died during feudal france, who is just about as dramatic and passionate as every french stereotype makes them out to be. He calls Danyal "my moon and great muse" -- which is both flattering and little uncomfortable, but Danyal's grown up in the League as the Grandson of the Demon Head, he is used to mild worship. he passes it off as nothing more, nothing less. -- and while his energy is overwhelming on the worst of days, he helps Danny draw out of his shell more in ways that Sam and Tucker still struggle with.
Him and Aki butt heads a lot, but the two seem to hold the other in at least some positive regard, so Danny doesn't worry too much about them fighting while he's gone. It only becomes a mild issue when Aki also begins calling Danny "my moon". It's a little sweet, so Danyal brushes it off.
Then he takes in a troupe of ghosts some time after he defeats Pariah Dark and they begin calling him "great one" just as the yetis do in the far frozen. This is where he meets the twins -- a pair of sibling ghosts who call themselves Trixie and Missy (short for Trick and Mislead) -- who aren't quite as passionate as Ambroise but more energetic than Aki. Eventually they also start calling Danyal "my moon" and attach themselves to his hip, even within the living. They like to hide in his shadow and cause trouble for the rest of the students. He makes sure they don't hurt anyone.
He's pretty sure Aki is jealous, same with Ambroise, but he can't be too certain other than the fact that they become much more lingering (re: clingy) whenever he visits the island.. Something he's trying to do much more often these days due to the increasing amount of people living there now. Since when did he become so popular?
Then there's PÄnelĂłpeia from the Greater Athens, who ran away from home and joined his Island after he ran into her while she was being chased by Skulker -- and he's pretty sure the reason was because of her chimeric appearance. Her strange eyes and mismatched wings and lion's tail and talons. She assimilates into his friend group very easily, she gets along well with Ambroise and Trixie and Danny usually finds the three of them climbing the trees to pluck the most fruit from the top. They can fly and he knows it, but they prefer to climb.
Then finally there's silent poet Akkara who comes from ancient mesopotamia, who gets along most with Aki -- which is no surprise there considering their similar personality dispositions. he watches Aki and Danyal fight each other and leaves comments on this or that that he notices. He writes Danyal poems on clay tablets and leaves them by his room.
They're one big mismatched group of outcasts, and Danny's got the other ghosts on his island to tend to, because they're living on his island and he wants to be hospitable even if he struggles with that. But he spends the most of his time with them.
Sam and Tucker are making fun of him. Tucker jokingly tells him 'careful Danny, at this rate you're gonna start a cult'. Danny really wishes he had taken that joke more seriously.
He just. keeps. collecting people. Wayward souls lost in the zone, looking for shelter or refuge from something or other -- whether that be another hostile ghost, or a past afterlife, or just a purpose. Danyal finds them, he takes them in, offers them a place on his island until they are ready to leave. Many seldom do. He's not complaining -- he has the space, and it feels like it's only ever growing.
His close friends, his "inner circle" as he's heard the others call them, keep insistently calling him "my moon". He starts calling them his stars, because then it only feels fair. They're his stars, this is his constellation. It becomes a thing; little star halos begin forming behind their heads, picking them out from the rest. He loves them so much, it's hard to place. Sam and Tucker are also his stars, but they reside in the living realm, they're his tie to Life. Meanwhile, his friends here know what it's like to be dead, and sometimes its nice to relate.
Those living on his island keep calling him "Great One" and he's beginning to notice zealotry in their care for his island. He really, deeply appreciates it. His close friends gain nicknames -- as his stars, it's only natural for him to pick them out from the cluster in the skies. Akihiko, his Sirius and bright star. Trix and Missy, Castor and Pollux, the twins and troublemakers. Ambroise, his zealous Antares and close friend. Penelopeia, chimeric and loyal Vega. And Akkara, his Arcturus and strength.
It's ridiculous how long it takes for him to notice; he is, of course, a deadly trained assassin. He is meant to be observant -- and normally he is! But somehow this becomes a blind spot. One that becomes too big to be dealt with by the time he realizes it.
He should've noticed when Aki, his Sirius, stood beside him one day while Danyal looked over his island and saw the sprawling spirits carrying on about their afterlife and bowing to him as they saw him, and said: "I looked down into the depths when I met you; I couldn't measure it." They aren't one for flowing prose, it took him so off guard he was silent for over a minute before he finally spoke.
Danyal should've recognized devotion for what it is, and yet he didn't. He should've recognized it when Antares began spouting praises about him, crowing about his radiance and resplendence to the heavens. He just brushed it off as Ambroise being Ambroise. He should've recognized it when Trix and Missy nearly broke Dash's leg after he knocked Danyal's books out of his hands, he excused it as them being protective. Of them coming from times where such violence may have been customary -- after all, that's what he used to be like. What he was still like, sometimes, when his emotions nearly got the better of him.
He should've noticed it when the people living on his island followed his word like gospel, looked at him like he hung the stars in the sky. When his friends gifted him a shawl with the moon phases delicately embroidered into it, with silver, shimmering thread and moving stars lovingly stitched into it. Their constellations seen clear as day in the dark fabric. When he found small shrines dedicated to him -- but they lacked any image of him beyond stones carved to look like moons, so he ignored it. When the religious imagery began popping up.
He really, really should've noticed it when a bunch of cultists accidentally summoned Antares, and Antares had turned to him when he arrived and called them heretics. But he was so centered on the fact that they had kidnapped one of his stars, that he hadn't paid much attention to what Ambroise had said.
Sages say that faith is blind, they should also say faith in you is even blinder.
It really only hits him one afternoon while he's sitting in Sam's room studying with Tucker, Missy and Trixie lounging at his feet, Aki sat on his right, Penelopeia braiding his hair, Ambroise draped against him, and Akkara lurking over him. Its one of the rare few times they're all in one room together.
It hits him like a bolt of lightning. He looks up from his textbook. "Oh Ancients," he says in no amounting shock. Everyone looks up to him.
"I've become my grandfather."
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#danyal al ghul au#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc prompt#ive been playing cult of the lamb recently and you can tell#anyways i thought this was funny to think about. its specifically danyal al ghul bc that makes it even funnier#tfw you accidentally become a cult leader. rip to you danny you have a cult following#not at ALL an accurate depiction of a cult but i still think its funny. innaccurate cult depictions. ur in too deep to change it now danno#sam and tucker: hey dude... this is a cult | danny still learning how to People: what. no. these are all my friends and refugees.#his inner circle are all Insane about him they just show it in different ways. Sirius is as equally zealous as the rest they just don't#show it as much. which has mistakenly convinced danyal that they are the more logical one. no danny. they would kill for you#danny: i am being hospitable | sam: you created a cult | danny: i am being hosPITABLE#i dont like ghost king aus but i love danny being in positions of power it just has to feel earned. 'accidental kingdom acquisition' is my#favorite trope it just has to be done correctly. đ«” build that bitch up with your bare hands and not realize until its too late you fool#'becoming a world power by accident and im in too deep to back out now'#danyal. a raised assassin (has no threshold for normal behavior): *sees utter devotion towards him* yeah this is fine and normal.#danyal: yk i dont see this ending horribly. *goes and collects more followers* yeah this is totally cool. welcome to the constellation#danyal: *saves a few people and houses them in his lair* (everyone liked that [to a worrying degree actually])#his inner circle: my moon! | danny: my stars :]#danny: ive become my grandfather. | danny: ... | danny: idk how to feel about that honestly.#those poor cultists that kidnapped antares were subjected to a 3hr tangent about 'the radiance of the Moon and his resplendent generosity'#before danyal found him and got him home. who were the cultists summoning? who knows! but they got Objectively the Worst out of the#constellation to summon by accident. actually they're all bad there's no picking who. they're all various amounts of Unhinged Danny just#Never Realizes It because he is also Unhinged and thinks some of this shit is normal.#like yeah thats totally normal behavior he has no questions whatsoever. this seems like Typical People Stuff.
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Thinking about "So Long, London" as one does and the "I'm pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free" which is devastating enough on its own as a succinct shorthand of saying "I gave you some of my most formative years thinking we were committed to the same life plans together" (as in building a family life together) but with ~everything~ can also be a statement of her entrusting him with her youthful hopes and dreams and joy and earnestness only for it all to be cast aside and not returned (and at worst, weaponized).
#especially after everything she went through before they met#that it would have taken a lot for her to let someone in#and trust in them#and reconnect with that side of herself#and you compare her demeanour in 2017-2022#to how she is now#and it's like a completely different world#and there are a lot of reasons for that and not just *** don't get me wrong#but you see the way she - to quote a certain someone - has such a love of life#and is so earnest in everything she does#and the way she is present in the world now is way more like her teenage self than how she'd been in the last decade#and not in terms of maturity because she's clearly a grownup#but just in her zest for life and her embracing of who she is#idk idk it's a lot#writing letters addressed to the fire#this will flop because it's the middle of the afternoon during a show day but i had to get it off my chest
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Maybe there are people talking about it, and I just havenât found my autistic special interest Bleach fans crowd. But up until 2022, it was an extremely niche anime in the west. People in the west just hated it, and said it didnât deserve to be in the big 3⊠because it is an incredibly grounded anime set partially in the real world with realistic characters đ
Bleach IS a shonen anime, so idk if thatâs the type of stuff youâd like. But I love it dearly. You can easily read the manga through online definitely completely legal and not ARRRG methods if youâre more interested in reading it. But if you want to watch the anime instead, then I heavily recommend looking up a filler list. The filler is always the thing that kills it for non-Bleach fans. There are about 150 canon episodes in the original anime, and thereâs also the TYBW arc thatâs currently still being animated.
People all have different things for when theyâre saying bleach âfell offâ when they werenât even real fans in the first place if they believed Bleach fell off at any point đ Bleach never fell off, you just didnât like the arc.
Going back to Jason and GK, I havenât even finished the game. I have only just gotten introduced to the Court of Owls in-game. But I saw the cutscene of him and Babs playing the dance game, and then him having the flashback- speaking of, I absolutely love the fact that we didnât get visual flashes to anything, we just see him be not okay. Sometimes the visual flashes work really well for story telling, but itâs also a huge breath of fresh air to not get that. I get to use my brain to figure out what Jason is thinking and seeing, or imagining. Itâs not shoved in my face.
Slightly unrelated but something that pisses me off when people handle PTSD and flashbacks?? is mistaking a stranger for a trauma-based person. I always think of the scene in Harry Potter 5?? when Harry sees a stranger and thinks itâs Voldemort. Like,, THATâS NOT HOW IT WORKS? At least it isnât for me. For me, itâs not prolonged and not in great clarity, itâs a very quick thing of thinking I saw my abuser, and then staring at the stranger for like 30 seconds to figure out if it was or not. It never is, but they look incredibly similar but also very distinctly different.
It may honestly be entirely different for others, and may work the way it did in HP5 for Harry with Voldemort, especially because I donât have the level of trauma from my abuser that others do (Iâm not comparing trauma or trying to invalidate my own experience, Iâm just stating a fact). Iâve just never seen anyone talk about what visually happens when you think you see your abuser/trauma-based person, so I only have my own experience to go off. That scene in HP5 has always bothered me tho.
I also donât experience hallucinations, so who knows? Maybe Harry was genuinely hallucinating⊠I didnât consider that until just now.
Gotham Knights is so fun when you donât have a little bitch in your ear telling you itâs shit, and that Arkham Knight is better
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So I was just told something interesting
You know how a lot of these big Victorian houses have seemingly useless railings around windows that are clearly not balconies? Come to find out these sorts of houses were built so that you could close off parts of the house from each other, like if you had guests or were hosting a party or something. But staff still needed to be able to get around so these windows would be large enough that staff could go out one window from one closed off section of the house to the other. It also gave the effect that guests rarely actually saw staff moving around doing day-to-day tasks. And apparently, a lot of these windows had hidden panels that swung out and make it look like the window wasn't there from inside the room When I heard that, I immediately thought about a lot of modern criticism of older novels books that feature wealthier protagonists, who talk about their isolation and loneliness. I've heard people discussing these protagonists say things like "How can you be lonely when you're surrounded by staff? It must be their sense of class that prevents them from seeing the staff as people who they can socialize with". That is absolutely at play, don't get me wrong. But with the windows in mind and the knowledge that one of the marks of a good staff at the time was to be as unseen as possible, I think it's completely possible that these protagonists, and the real people they represented, really DID feel that they were completely alone in their houses. Not only were all these social structures in place to keep them separate from everyone else in the house, but also these physical structures that further limited interaction. Because we no longer build houses like this and a lot of older surviving houses no longer have this feature, it's a bit of context that modern readers aren't aware of
I think it's really interesting, cause it gives a whole new context to these stories and social life in the period, and also makes me wonder about what other context that we're not aware of when looking at history or fiction from previous time periods that would re-frame our understandings of the event of those times
#Sword speaks#I love this shit I love it so much#it's like getting a new puzzle piece and seeing all the other places it could fit#to build out my understanding of the world#or like getting to glimpse the world through a different pair of eyes#and this is why I'm a social scientist because there are millions of different eyes to view life from#and every new perspective is fascinating and deepens my understanding of the world#and we live in such an interesting and beautiful world#idk I just *flails in anthropology*
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life is hard for us oz fans who are only meh about wicked. have half a meme.
#it's not even that i dislike boq as a character - he's fine. i think galinda is the most intriguing of the musical esp in her relationship#with power and how that relates to her relationships with other people. but boq is fine#i am just SO fucking tired of conflating boq wicked with nick chopper baum books#that's not my tin woodman. and i don't want him to be. nick (unlike many oz characters) has a very specific and set backstory#he has a whole damn book about it ffs#and boq is such a different character in terms of role symbolism and personality that i just cannot see him as even an au version of nick#fiyero too to be completely honest. though his mischaracterization doesn't bother me quite as much bc i read the book and he is rather#intriguing as a separate character - i don't love him in the musical tho. anyways specifically calling boq the tin woodman and saying#all the baum book stuff happened to him is so irritating to me because they are not at all the same. and nick is one of my favorite charas#in any media ever. idk. no hate if you like boq ofc and i don't want to stop you from having fun with the characters#i just am getting tired of the greater oz fandom latching on to wicked as fleshing out the baum or mgm characters. it's an entirely#different world. (and yes we can discuss the fact that wicked is intended to be canon compliant with the 39 film - but once again it's#a stretch to say it fits the charas. and that isn't the issue i have here.)#anyways. sorry. i'm just tired of wicked = boq = nick stuff#esp im annoyed at the fiyero and boq blorbo-ifying i see when the women of this musical are far more interesting and proactive#boq and fiyero are just furniture/pawns in the great drama that is elphaba's life and the way she pulls glinda into it with her#but WHATEVER i DIGRESS and shit. ignore this. whatever#it's the way people attempt to reconcile a lot of non-compliant media into whichever one they like the best. which is all fun and games#i am just being a hater. ok? this is me being a hater.#analysis#wizard of oz#wicked#wicked musical#toast talks oz#toasty talks
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Like they just did that and moved on
#i know they werent the point of the story/other things were going on (al) BUT OMFG#like WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE JUST WENT AND DID THAT?? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY MEANT EVERYTHING TO HIM???#âoh. ive had enough. yeah. thats all i really need. they gave me everything i could want. hehe. thank you. and goodbye. my friendsâ#ASDFGHJKL?!?!?!?!??!?!#sorry i cant be coherent about this please understand what im trying to say#âi want the worldâ âno you want friendsâ âshit ur right. guess ill dieâ âokay cool ill yell ur name and then never be sad about itâ#do not misunderstand me i absolutely love them i adore them but like do you see what im trying to say#also in the sub (the one i watched at least. idk if they differ between platforms) he says#âenough... yeah. thats enough. i dont need anything more. see you later. my soul... friendsâ#OUGH#FUCK#thank goodness for fanfiction yknow. i need them in grief and pain but also i need him to live yknow#fmab spoilers#fmab#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#greed the avaricious#greedling#ling yao#edward elric#im so not okay about them istg#moss' madness
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Idk maybe Bucky didnât bring up the disability jokes because he was too busy being rude, yelling at Sam, blasting past his boundaries and clear ânosâ, blaming him for everything from giving away the shield to walker killing that kid, to idk probably also for the moon being in retrograde.
Last I checked your traumatic past doesnât give you the right to repeatedly be an abusive asshole to someone who is also going through shit and actually also didnât ask you to show up to their place of work, berate them for their life choices, and then spend the next few days being as nasty a bitch as possible while you just try to hold your own shit together while the world burns down around you, including your own personal life and your familyâs legacy.
I mean I guess the OP shouldnât have said âwhen Bucky got his shit togetherâ and went âwhen Bucky decided to stop being a raging dickhole to a man who actually didnât ask for his opinion or to be the subject of rude and unnecessary behaviorâ instead, because thatâs accurate.
Again, your trauma does not give you the right to be an asshole, especially to people who also have shit to deal with. But in general, really. Donât be an asshole, donât expect others to put up with asshole behavior just because you have trauma. Youâre not entitled to pay it forward so others should suffer too for your own pain.
I canât believe this is the first fatws post Iâve made in years. And itâs because this bullshit nonsense has come across my dash.
Anyway I love Bucky, and I love Sam, and honestly 2028 Bucky and Sam seem to have moved past whatever differences they have had, but you do you I guess, and constantly expect
Btw accusing others of always playing the race card when it comes to Sam does not in fact absolve you from the racism and inability to see Black characters as human being who do not exist just to comfort and coddle your white fave. But thanks for playing!
Also you wanna talk ableism? Man itâs pretty fucking ableist to infantalize a character to such a point that you expect every single character around him to not only put up with his behavior but coddle and indulge him to an extent where they arenât allowed to have reactions to his behavior lest he becomes sad and cries.
Me: The whole "making amends" idea in The Falcon and the Winter Soldier is incredibly stupid and smacks of victim-blaming because Bucky should not be forced to make amends for things he was *made* to do against his will.
Its literally like telling a SA victim to apologize to all the other people their attacker also hurt.
Also, don't tell trauma survivors to *get their shit togeher* its extremely insentistive and misinformed. Mentally ill people aren't just being annoying or mean on purpose.
Sam Stans and people in wider fandom:
*That's not victim blaming! Bucky was never a victim, it was doing it all willingly anyway and that's why Sam said to make amends!
Also Sam has PTSD too. He is the only person in history who ever suffered discrimination, so Bucky trauma doesn't count and if you keep mentioning it you are a big bad racist!!
Me: OK, that's messed up. Don't dismiss and invalidate people's trauma.
Also know its not just black people who are subject to discrimination? Lots of people suffer discrimination, including disabled people and mentally ill people and this applied historically as well.
Furthermore, having been subjected to racism doesn't give Sam or anybody else a free pass to mistreat others. What's wrong with just treating those around you with basic decency, sympathy and compassion?
That includes Bucky, who is also disabled BTW.
Sam fans and others in general fandom:
"Bucky is not disabled! I already told you HE IS NOT A VICTIM he never was! He is not marginalized! Stop babying him! He's an adult and he CHOSE to do all the things he did as the Winter Soldier!"
He's just being mean to Sam on purpose and being selfish. Sam doesn't have to be nice to him! That's so tone deaf and its racist!"
Seriously poeple: if Bucky had bought up how the disability jokes and blaming him for things that caused his PTSD made him uncomfortable IRL Sam would have been receptive and understood because he's actually a decent human who knows its wrong to mock people for things they can't help. Or blame them for things that they didn't choose.
It is a shame that the writers of FAtWS and a good number of Sam Stans can't seem to grasp this.
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tbh i think that even unwinnable fights should be winnable. some of the BEST fights i've ever run as a dm were ones i built kill the players (in a fun way. I had some cutscenes prepped so even the loss would be a different flavour of win)- but then they were clever bastards and managed to either win the fights or pull themselves out of trouble. I think it's perfectly fine to plan for a fight that players aren't supposed to win, but you need to let them. if they can't win, they can't lose, and the meaning of that encounter is diminished. do that too many times, and they stop trusting you to give them roleplay prompts and start expecting to sit there waiting while you drive the story for them.
but if they can win... if there is always the chance to win, no matter how impossible the odds, then they ALWAYS have hope. they always get invested. they feel the big emotions of success or the big emotions of failure, and you fucking Win as a dm/roleplay prompter/lead bastard.
#qsmp neg#qsmp crit#discourse#<- for blacklists#im not grumping or anything im just musing on like. the mechanics of why everyone is so upset about the latest fight#and how it can be avoided while still keeping these fights genuinely difficult and intense#its hard because there's so many players and they all have wildly different strengths and weaknesses#so someone who could take on the code easy needs that enemy scaled differently than someone who isn't a big fighter#but it's hard to do that in a world where they interact w the same enemy#and you only have so much man-power to cater to a big server like this one#and then you bring in the big powerful items that the players can and can't access but which the admins have ultimate power over#and the fact that some of the admins themselves have lag issues or aren't super great at pvp so they accommodate that with better gear#and it starts getting messy#but for the fights themselves yeah regardless of what armour or gear or killing-methods they use there should Always be a win condition#and idk maybe there was one and we just didn't get to see it#but if that win condition is 'parents sit in the safe room with their babies while the others are overrun'#then i think there are ways to build better win conditions#anyway i love game design and player/dm interactions qsmp hire me now i want to know your behind the scenes#jk im too busy to apply#but man. i wanna nerd out so bad that sometimes i think about it
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lots of thoughts lately about fantasy au archer geto,,,,
#i have this half baked idea where gojo is this miracle anomaly of magic from a noble clan#and suguru is just a regular boy born in a small mountain village who is born just as much of an anomaly but unknown to the world#until rumors spread and eventually news reached the gojo clan and they enlist him into their service#and heâs trained to be part of their milita and as he gets older gojos personal bodyguard#and the clan refuses to see geto for how powerful he is and someone equally as powerful as gojo destined to be be by his side not below him#but theyâre too elitist for that#and geto hates the gojo clan and hates his lot in life and hates satoru#until he officially becomes his bodyguard and sees how satoru has not control over his life either đ and is just as trapped#it takes a long time for them to get along especially bc satoru is so awkward#heâs strange and peculiar and theyâre both touch starved đ„ș#but the two of them understand thereâs no difference between them that theyâre two sides of the same magical fate đ„ș#and they fall in loveeeee obviously and make sweet sweet love in gojos bed of silks#and then run away together or something idk#okay maybe this is less half baked than i thought lol#my art#kelp#geto suguru#suguru geto#satosugu#stsg
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2024 reads / storygraph
Asunder
slow-paced high fantasy
a woman who has a contract with an eldritch entity allowing her to see the dead & survives by taking various jobs
when a job searching for stranded smugglers in a cave goes wrong, she ends up with the soul of a dying stranger bound to her shadow
along with a scholar and her old childhood friend, they travel to his home country to find a way to unbind him and save them both
dark fantasy world with gods, demonic entities, arcane magic, and semi-sentient beasts used as transport
#asunder#kerstin hall#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#okay SUPER fascinating worldbuilding with some very visceral creatures and biological constructs and interesting magic systems.#many things I like. A great cast of characters. Honestly I could read tons more stories set in this world.#itâs very slow building and meandering narratively; focusing on the complex journey of the main character#didnât love the audio narration tbh - it felt like some lines are read with the wrong emphasis or tone? but I got used to it after a while#So this has one of my absolute favourite tropes (bodysharing.) unfortunately it turns it into a romance which is. well.#it just doesnât hit the same if you make it romantic!! so that kinda made it change traintracks from being on a direct line to#potentially 5 stars to a whole different station where i do not live. lol.#I SUPPOSE itâs a well developed relationship and Iâd prefer romances more like that than instalove I guess.#I did love their dynamic; too; but suddenly realising it was romantic threw me for a loop. I had put him in the annoying dad category.#I do also feel like we didnât get quite enough of him as an individual person and characterisation - which obviously makes sense to an#extent; but I felt like I only got to see more of him in the brief time around his father.#Also he was surprisingly chill and nice to her immediately considering he was essentially her hostage???#Anyway I did enjoy a lot of it; it just suffers the unfortunate tragedy of#[literally my favourite thing made for me] [turns that thing into literally my least favourite thing i hate]#but also -random dude youâre bound to being overly protective and considerate despite barely knowing you (platonic/familial vibe) - yeah!#random dude youâre bound to being overly protective and considerate despite barely knowing you (romantic) ehhhhâŠidk.....#(to me personally. i'm sure people enjoy that. whatever)
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