#idk i guess all this to say i am grateful and i had fun and i love everyone and nothing bad happened but i dont feel happy lately

[sleebyconfy]

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[babydollmarauders]

MEDIA MANAGEMENT — JACK HUGHES (23-24 SZN PART 14)

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notes: this is short and i apologize, but i’ve had an extremely busy day and didn’t have much time to write but i wanted to get this out before tonight’s game!

y/ndevils00

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y/ndevils00 WE’VE TAMED THE WILD!

SEE YOU AGAIN NEXT SEASON, MINI-SODA!

tonight, my (and hopeful your) favorite boys in white and red, won the second game in our back to back games with the Wild! making us 2/2 in our games against them this season!

we had a great FIVE goals tonight compared to mini’s measly three! i’m incredibly proud of all 4 of our goals scorers, AND the magical puck that flew into the net on its own about 15 minutes into the first! that was insane, am i right?!

and even more exciting, we only had TWO penalties tonight! 🥹 they’re finally listening to me!

my lil rabid chihuahua almost got into a fight tonight, which would’ve solidified his rabid status! but alas, he did not, and Timo the Train stepped in to defend him— which both spoiled my fun and saved me from heart failure; i’m not sure whether to be mad or grateful, so i’ve decided to be both! never limit your emotions, kids! be dramatic! i promise, it’s fun!

babygirl DID, however, draw a penalty on one of his former bffl’s, moldy boldy, for interference! which took us to the power play and secured dougie’s fantastic goal tonight— which was assisted by none other than the man who snores in my ear every night! giving him his 20TH POINT OF THE SEASON!! I’M SO PROUD OF YOU, MY LOVE! I’M GONNA KISS YOUR FACE!

tagged holtz_10, tmeier96, lhughes_06, jackhughes, jesperbratt, dougieham, and vitacz15

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lhughes_06 before you say it: i’m not gossiping. i fell.

y/ndevils00 that sounds like something someone that was gossiping would say

lhughes_06 then what would someone who WASN’T gossiping say?

y/ndevils00 idk, i’ve never NOT gossiped. and usually you gossip with me

jackhughes i have so many comments on this, idek where to start

y/ndevils00 you could start by telling me you love me? 🥰

jackhughes mhm i love you- why rabid? why chihuahua? why the snoring? please never call him “moldy boldy” again

y/ndevils00 i love you too! because you’re a bit feral sometimes! you’re tiny and yappy! i felt like it was pertinent information! i will.

jackhughes I’M TALLER THAN YOU! (wtf does “pertinent” mean?)

y/ndevils00 WHAT DOES THAT MATTER?! (relevant, baby! it means relevant!)

dawson1417 i didn’t do it :(

y/ndevils00 NEXT GAME!

dawson1417 next game!

john.marino97 are you guys just gonna do this after every game until dawson gets a point?

y/ndevils00 @/john.marino97 we’re bound to be right eventually! next game!

john.marino97 i guess i can’t argue with that logic… next game!

tmeier96 i did that for your own good. i could not risk him getting hurt because then you’d be sad

y/ndevils00 but a fight would’ve been entertaining!! if you’re gonna prevent a fight then you have to at least have one of your own! those be the rules!

tmeier96 i’ll keep that in mind??

nicohischier thanks for facetiming me and giving me a play-by-play run down of every single thing that happened

nicohischier i think i could’ve gone without the jack comments though

y/ndevils00 wdym? you DIDN’T want me to tell you how hot he looked? that’s YOUR boyfriend too, ya know!

nicohischier nope. i can guarantee it’s not!

y/ndevils00 i have photographic evidence

nicohischier pictures of us hugging to celebrate a win or goal is not “evidence”

y/ndevils00 i have about 475,000 people who think otherwise

nicohischier your followers don’t count

y/ndevils00 i have about 2* people who think otherwise

nicohischier neither do merc or johnny

y/ndevils00 *i* think otherwise

ehaula i wouldn’t necessarily say we started listening to you, i think we just did pretty good at staying out of the box this game

y/ndevils00 why do you do this? do you not wanna be my favorite uncle?

ehaula i’m your favorite uncle regardless. don’t lie.

trevorzegras go hughesy! that’s my best friend!

y/ndevils00 yeah? well he’s MY boyfriend, so HA!

trevorzegras this wasn’t a competition, y/n. you don’t need to assert your dominance

y/ndevils00 sorry, i had a nightmare last night

trevorzegras about what?

jackhughes that i realized i was in love with your “slutty ways” and i left her for you

trevorzegras aww, y/n! you’re intimidated by me and jack’s love!

y/ndevils00 i actually just know you’re a slut

trevorzegras all i’m hearing is that you’re jealous of me

y/ndevils00 then get your ears checked

[simpingcowboy]

Pedro boys and why I'm swiping left on their tinders

This is all to be silly!! I love them all very much <3

Frankie Morales

His name there says Frankie (Catfish)....with his main profile picture being him holding you guessed it...a catfish. He doesn't have many other photos on there, with the exception of a few older military photos that are so blurry you can hardly tell which one he's meant to be.

The rest of his page is pretty empty aside from the music section, where you actually get the first real glimpse at what this man is about. While his music selection is very respectable, it does not overshadow the glaring issues with his profile.

In short, Frankie's profile makes you think "Am I dating the man? The fish? Or a catfish?" Swiping left fs.

Marcus Moreno

This one isn't his fault! His profile is perfect. No really. All the women at The Heroics made sure to help him with it! His photos are cute and show off all his best assets. The bio is a little cheesy in an endearing "yeah he's definitely a dad" way. The problem then? It's Marcus fucking Moreno!!! Leader of the Heroics!!!!!! On Tinder???? There's no way anyone is going to believe it's really him. I believe there's a verification option on Tinder now, but really...even then Idk. Unless he fully comes out on an interview or something to super casually mention he's on Tinder, it just ain't working. No one likes a catfish! (Sorry Frankie!)

Jack Daniels

Mr. "Tinder What?" himself!!!! Let's say he manages to figure out how to set up a profile and all that. It's gonna be inTERESTING to say the least. His photos are actually pretty solid. An intriguing mix of photos of him on the ranch and photos of him in the Statesmen HQ looking very well put together. Opening line is definitely "Save a Horse! Ride a Cowboy! 🤠♥️" Very on brand for him. Followed by something very pro-american about the flag or serving his country and honestly... that's where I'm gone 😅. We get to see a bit of Jack's political mind in Kingsman and let's just say i don't wanna know the rest of it.

I'm grateful this is Tinder and not Bumble. Because if Jack used the audio prompt and I heard that smooth Kentucky accent...forget EVERYTHING I just said. I would be taking a chance on him. Sorry 😔 I can't fix him, but I will have fun trying!!

Joel Miller

For namesake, we're gonna set this pre-outbreak. There's no time for swiping in the apocalypse. Profile isn't bad just very empty. He's not really trying and it's kinda obvious. His bio reads something along the lines of "Single dad of a spoiled teen" with mostly photos of himself and Sarah on his profile. A few photos of him and Tommy out camping or on a work site.

And as handsome as he is, the profile feels like something his kid forced him to make as a way of getting him off her back. I wanna sympathize and help her out, but I don't know I have the heart to attempt to win over this very clearly emotionally unavailable DILF. So for that reason, I'm swiping left.

Pero Tovar

If for some ungodly reason Pero was given Internet access and had a dating profile... it'd be a disaster. His bio reads something along the lines of "I don't open this app. If you wish to see me meet me at this pub" with approximate days and times he's there.

The first picture on his profile is a way too far away blurry shot of him training. If I was feeling brave enough to continue scrolling through his photos...the rest would certainly be borderline explicit highly suggestive photos of his torso and groin. And whilst I might think about it for approximately .25 seconds any remaining sense of dignity would kick in before I actually did anything about it. It'll sting momentarily, but I will be swiping left.

Ezra

Another man on this list who should absolutely NOT be given internet access. His photos are beautiful but uninformative...the only shots of him are blurred and artistically obscure. He pads the rest of his profile with photos of books he's reading and grainy shoots of the forest.

The bio...if there's a word limit best believe that Ezra has hit it. He used every given character at his disposal and managed to say very little with all of it. Something about a wandering spirit longing for companionship and a couple sexual innuendos for good measure.

While visually and verbally not the worst profile on this list, his pretension is so utterly palpable through the screen I actually don't think I'd be able to make it through the end of his bio without cringing...also his music selection is all just banjo instrumental???

[arcadianmoonshadowjedi]

Heya! I just watched the last two episodes and oh yep, that got resolved quickly, and even with a lot of fun haha! I'm satisfied with it as well!

The thing with TDP is, I kinda never know which story element is just a smaller matter that will be resolved within a couple episodes, and which events will be spun into a whole multi-season arc, so... I wanted to talk about the brothers' separation at length in case Ezran decided to keep the grudge for a longer while.

I understood that things were complicated and that Callum was torn between two people he loves. I don't deny that he had reasons other than Rayla and that Ezran was difficult to approach in that moment.

I guess I find myself identifying more with Ezran's position because his world was, in comparison, still faaaar more complex than Callum's. Callum's motives were clear and personal. But Ezran, while having the same personal complexity, also had to keep up a PUBLIC persona on top of this at all times. Plus, he still is barely a teenager, while Callum is now almost an adult (Idk their canon ages).

What I'm trying to say is, I guess, that my brain is heavily influenced by The Queen's Thief book series at the moment, which touches upon the private vs. public image of Royals, their need for ceremonial pretense, their need to stay guarded and their struggle with trust, in a much more detailed and weighty way than TDP does. Also, the King's status as an absolute and representative figure is much more emphasized. With this in mind, Callum is an ass for abandoning the Child King who is his brother who just experienced the catastrophe of having his Capital destroyed who is not doing well emotionally because he just had to look into the eyes of his father's murderer for the first time since it happened.

I know, I know, I know. It all wasn't that bad, it worked out fine, the feelings they harbored weren't that destructive to their relationship or maybe the overall end-of-the-world threat they were facing helped them to put the scene at the river behind them. Also, Ezran had Aanya and held his spirits, and was ingenious enough to think forward even without any of his other allies present. He was his own person (something he learned in a previous season, I believe) and so I am proud of him for standing strong. TDP isn't TQT. Still I'm grateful for its behind-the-scenes look into a complex Royal experience because it helps me interpret depth into my fave boi Ezran.

Thank you for responding! The brothers are good, even Rayla apologized, Runaan stated his case and Ezran let go of his resentment, it's all good in the archipelahood. The river scene simply caught my attention because I thought the dynamic it provoked was suuuper fascinating.

Cheers!

Reddie

Definitely decided to finish another rewatch esp since I started my first watch at 3am before answering. I would disagree about calling Callum an ass though because he wasn’t planning on leaving his brother at first, he did try being a mediator between him and Rayla and had an entire conversation with him before things escalated as elaborated in my previous answer. Callum only chose to leave when he felt like Ezran wasn’t going to hear him out and saw that he was even willing to escalate violence against both Rayla and Runaan. If anything, Callum staying not only would’ve resulted in him getting arrested, but his relationship with Ezran would’ve become more strained especially if Callum wouldn’t have able to do anything besides nod to everything his brother was doing even if he disagreed. Like I’m not saying that Callum handled the situation perfectly or ideally, but he does tend to act in the heat of the moment, depending on what the situation demands of him often without much prior planning or thought. If anything, I think the time they spent apart helped them cool off things between them and realize how much the two needed each other. I might actually make a separate post on this whole topic going into further detail about all this and the complexity of the whole situation from each character’s stance and perspective.

Thanks for the ask and I hope this answered more of your question 😊

[phneltwrites]

8, 20, 26 for the wolf comes home 💜

aha! ok so!

8. when I title I almost always title using carly rae jepsen lyrics, I have been doing this since 2020 with a couple of exceptions and I figured I would title wolf comes home similarly. I'd already picked one. It was going to be titled Never Seen The Tide. But the other thing about me is that at all times there is a song running in my head. Not always with lyrics but there's always something. It doesn't matter if I'm listening to music, sometimes there's a second song going. idk if you've seen that one video where the guy does 3 minutes of mashups of songs but that is what is happening in there the entire time. And while I was writing wolf comes home I had Up The Wolves on loop in my head over and over.

It's the rage of the narrator in that song about the historical wrong that was done, the revenge vibes. Ok there are not so many lyrics so I'm just going to drop them all. U can see the shaping influence lmao.

There's bound to be a ghost at the back of your closet No matter where you live There'll all ways be a few things, maybe several things That you're gonna find really difficult to forgive

There's gonna come a day when you'll feel better You'll rise up free and easy on that day And float from branch to branch, lighter than the air Just when that day is coming, who can say? Who can say?

Our mother has been absent Ever since we founded Rome But there's gonna be a party when the wolf comes home

We're gonna commandeer the local airwaves To tell the neighbors what's been going on And they will shake their heads and wag their bony fingers In all the wrong directions, and by daybreak, we'll be gone

I'm gonna get myself in fighting trim Scope out every angle of unfair advantage I'm gonna bribe the officals, I'm gonna kill all the judges It's gonna take you people years to recover from all of the damage

I sing this song to myself a lot and sometimes angrily strum my guitar and in particular get to it's going to take YOU PEOPLE years to recover from all of the damage I get a little spitty and I think that was my vibe for Simon in that fic. He is rageful. He is maybe not quite as rageful in the fic as this song is but he is that rageful in this universe off and on.

Also a quote from John Darnielle about this song: "this song is about a time in your life when you're pretty sure death is right around the corner but you're going to meet him and you'll have words with him and it will be a good day"

tl;dr title is from Up The Wolves, a song that speaks of a time when the Wolf will come home and oh, there will be a reckoning. And that's what happens in this fic

20. something I wish ppl noticed. I am very lucky to have many incredibly dedicated commenters who pick up on all sorts of things and I'm so grateful. so. I guess a couple of things 1: i don't think anyone picked up on my plug for EXOK games, which is a real game studio. Everyone go play Celeste.

And also I guess August? The relationship between August and Wilhelm in the fic is so complex. Wilhelm can't help but see himself in how the court is treating August as disposable and a crisis to be managed and that's cracking open a whole wound he thought had healed. In some ways it's easier for Wilhelm to see how fucked up it all is when he's not directly in the center of it. And on August's side, how much he is desperately trying to take care of Wilhelm like he thinks that will absolve him in some way. Simon is just like Death to August but Wilhelm's going through like 17 layers of mental shit. Also that Wilhelm just really really wants August to eat like, any food. The weird way they're both trying to take care of each other even though they are the people who have hurt each other most in the world. Fascinating! (this is not about excusing any behaviour)

26. fun fact. gosh. what's fun. uh. i guess a fun thing is I started some early exploration into designing the little game I mentioned in that scene in the car. if you ever see it on the app store you never read this.

I did a bunch of research to try and figure out the general longevity of different internet platforms to decide where people would be posting. We are definitely due for a mass die off event.

i guess also a 'fun' companion piece to this fic is this reflection on Alice Munro that came out when I had mostly finished drafting this fic. (tw csa) check it out here. There's this line in there about coming from a people with a past but no history, aka they don't tell the story of what happened because you're supposed to get over it and keep moving. Beautiful heart wrenching piece of writing that if you liked this fic you might appreciate the combination of rage and compassion in there.

[parkminijiminie]

First of all, welcome back!!! I missed you so much!! Your blog is a gem!!! -and are you gonna be back permanently or are you taking another break? Second of all, I haven’t watched the travel show but I saw a lot of clips and honestly, they just seem like friends. Yeah there is some moments where you’re like wow wtf is going on here but if u look at it from a different lense, it seems like friends enjoying time together because of them were busy with their own lives. I also didn’t expect jungkook’s personality to be like that. Obviously idk him in real life so I can’t really know how he acts in real life but idk he just seems weird? But I don’t think there is anything between them. Most jikookers were excited for this how because it was gonna prove that they are in a relationship but honestly they are just grasping at straws at this point, and so am I guess. All the big fandoms had band members ships like on direction and many kpop fandoms ship two members on the group too like winter and Karina from aespa although she was dating that actor💀 and finally I would just like to say that jk was hanging out with tae more than jimin although I think that jk’s friendship with tar isn’t really anything special except for bros having fun but yeah, seems weird. Sorry my thoughts are all over the place lol.

Hi! I am sort of back. I lurk around and react when I have the need to discuss smth with other people. Otherwise, I just long on and read what other people are saying. I think I will never be active full time because I simply don't have the time, but I love this space a lot, so I'll never really leave either.

To me, JM and JK look so far as people who were once a romantic item but no longer are, but remained in each other's lives just more distantly. The whole show looks to me like them, trying to deepen their bond and friendship again. I think during the time the US episodes were filmed, they were both single and probably spending the most 1:1 time for months, so some of their usual old tendencies resurfaced, like old habits. I am very curious to see the other episodes. I know lots of people are waiting for the show to give answers about the nature of Jikook's relationship, but I don't think we will get them but we could at least maybe see that made them enlist together after barely spending time alone in the beginning of the year.

JK definitely spent a lot more time with Tae in 2023 compared to previous years, but I don't think their relationship is especially deep. They're buddies and share similar interests. They were also free at similar times, but I'm not sure there is any deep emotional connection there. The fact that JK called Tae definitely surprised me, but then we all saw how rudely JK hung up on him. I'm finding it hard to say where JK's head was in the first half of 2023, and I sort of can't really connect to JK of Jan-July 2023 like I did in the past. It seems to me he was very determined to be this cool, successful man at that time. It's also interesting that JM didn't spend time with neither him nor Tae up until July last year. That's also unusual.

Shipping aside, these two episodes really made me appreciate JM even more. I've always known how gracious and sweet he is, but he was such a good sport even when very sick, so appreciative, mature, yet fun and light and emotionally present. My standards when it comes to him are always high, and he somehow always manages to surpass them. I think he would be a great influence on anyone, and he especially well balances JK. It's sort of sad how I am already seeing people using JK's words to attack JM when Jimin was such a supportive friend for JK during this whole trip. I appreciate JK saying he is "obviously grateful" that Jimin came. Maybe he already had told that to JM many times, but it was important for the audience to hear it as well, considering how JM gets hate for "forcing JK to go on the trip" 🙄

[reddbuster]

In all seriousness, what're your opinions on the three dlc/bonus cases from across the series (rise from the ashes, turnabout reclaimed, and turnabout time traveler).

Oh that’s a good question actually! Not exactly a brave or controversial opinion here but I really like rfta. I understand why some people feel like it drags on too long (and there are definitely some parts of the case that I feel could have been shortened or cut) especially if you’re just here for the story and aren’t all that into the mystery. But I really enjoyed it. The mystery is fun and compelling and the themes of corruption present in the entire series really come to head here in a satisfying way. I also love Edgeworth’s arc in this case because this is arguably him at one of his lowest points. like wow way to kick a man when he’s already down. He definitely needed it though. Also my beautiful wife Lana is there and she sucks so bad it’s awesome I love her. When I first played the case I wasn’t huge on Ema for the first bit because quite frankly I missed Maya and I wanted her back. And of course there is no replacing Maya my favorite my best friend but honestly Ema grew on me really really fast. She distinguished herself from Maya enough to be her own character worth caring about but she also provided that much-needed pep to an otherwise dreary case. Also the way they build tension in that case…..chef’s kiss. One of my favorite cases probably in the entire series. Turnabout reclaimed is..decent. It’s a fun silly ace attorney case and generally a good time! It just…isn’t much more than that to me. There were also a few things in it that felt kind of iffy to me, like the way the game clearly expects you to look at Norma DePlume as unattractive and thus relies on this assumption for some of it’s humour beats. Period typical fatphobia I guess (The period in question being now). I also felt like the treatment of rap music in this case was a little mean-spirited but idk maybe I’m just sensitive. Overall though it was a pretty fun DLC case, I really like that we get to see Athena and Phoenix in action as investigative partners, I think they have a really fun dynamic! Also of course I love that they brought back Pearls for this case. my darling my angel my daughter who I raised myself et cetera I will never say no to a Pearl cameo even when it feels a little ham-fisted.

Turnabout Time Traveler is a tricky one because I am only just replaying it now and the last time I played it all the way through was a very long time ago but I will try my best to give my thoughts on it nonetheless. I am a not-so-closeted romantic so even if it sucked absolute balls and had no other redeeming qualities, I feel like I still would have gotten some enjoyment out of it. However I am also a not-so-closeted PW Trilogy fanatic so the whole premise of this case is right up my alley. I won’t lie and say I think this case is completely fantastic. The mystery is pretty easy to figure out overall and most people figure out who the killer is not long into the case. The nostalgia trip, while appreciated in some ways, also comes off as slightly forced in some moments to me. I feel like the way some of the returning characters are written (Larry, Edgeworth, even Maya to an extent) feels like it’s flattening the depth of them a little bit? I feel like that with a lot of moments in the Yamazaki games but I definitely find it more grating here than I ever did in investigations. And quite frankly I found some of the high-tech gadgetry shit a little too goofy even for ace attorney. I’ve always felt that aa is at its best when it balances the absurd soap opera bullshit (affectionate) with a believable setting and grounded character-based storytelling. And one of my biggest gripes with aa5 and 6 specifically is that for me they often failed to strike that balance. On the other hand, I do think turnabout time traveler is overall a really good time. The case, if not mindblowing, is entertaining, the characters are compelling to me, and I think the steampunk aesthetic of it all is a fun & fresh direction for a case to take, even if I rolled my eyes at some of the wannabe detective-gadget crap. And even if I have complaints about some of the characterization it IS really nice to have Phoenix, Maya, Edgeworth, Larry and Ema all together on one case. I am not immune to the We Put Your Faves In One Room and Made Them Solve a Mystery Together.

[rebornofstars]

* I know I’m technically a focus on art but I also want to chat as writer—what’s one of your favorite troupes that you rarely write whether it’s because you feel you can’t do it justice or just because you don’t? Me personally I am an AVID fan of mind bending/un-reality fics, but I can never write them to a satisfactory level. They’re so fun to read especially when they’re multi-chapter and you’ve gotta theorize on wtf is going on!!! It’s quirky and fun!!!! No one knows what’s going on and I ADORE that type of confusion. Learning to write is fun but I’m not at that level yet and I’m excited for when I can GGHRAAAHHH!!!!

OH BOY. oh boy. hello there thank you so much for the ask i absolutely love it. this took me a while to respond to because i had to get my thoughts in order 😅 i like a good never-say-never attitude, but there are many many things i write that are not as good as the blurry versions of themselves rotating around the inside of my head! the potential, u know? i can never do the potential justice. somehow i don't think that will ever change.

one thing i definitely struggle with is long-term character development - whether it's romantic, like a slow burn, or platonic or just in terms of narrative structure, whatever. i can't seem to get it happening to my satisfaction. i am so comfortable collecting snapshots of specific points of a character's journey, but when i try to slowly allow them to grow and change, it always feels cheap idk 😬😭 i'm also not so good at writing stories which span a longer period of time and/or have timeskips. it's mostly due to lack of practice with longer stories, and i'm working on improving!

in terms of more specific tropes or genres, though.... mysteries. i can never figure out how heavy or subtle the foreshadowing should be. comedy is also hard, although i've been practicing that one and i think i'm slowly getting the hang of a few different styles that are more humourous. and sometimes i read, like, Feist and Wurts' Empire trilogy, or Rothfuss' The Name of the Wind, and realise all over again i have a looooong way yet to go when it comes to introducing worldbuilding into a story naturally and intuitively. also, this might be silly, because the LU fic i'm most known for is literally about this, but reveals? i'm not so confident i can live up to the hype or satisfactorily fulfill the tension i've built. i hope my cursebreaker readers are not going to be disappointed by the payoff/reveal i have planned 🤞🤞😁

that being said, though, i keep writing all of those tropes and genres anyway, and it's really an honour to have the space and encouragement to be giving it a shot. i'm so grateful that all my recurring readers have put their trust in me and my ability to deliver a good story. throughout my childhood writing has always been a very solitary endeavour for me and i cannot express how much fun i've been having on ao3 over the last year, and tumblr the last few months. i've never had a fandom community like this before 💕 and i like to think that while i'm still growing my skills, i also have the potential inside me for anything, if i give it a good shot and keep at it. i think we all do.

i'm very sorry for all of this word vomit 😁 i guess, to chat as a writer, all i can say is i also LOVE reality bending stories, and they're SO FUN and you're SO RIGHT, and i don't have so much one problem writing as i do a lot of smaller more general ones, because i like to throw myself into my problems head-first, and i believe that you too have a million potentials inside you if you keep at it, and i for one am very, very excited to see where you go. i guess this whole answer was a gesture of enouragement, in the end. 🤩🥰

[jeonqkooks]

happy new year's eve!

just a quick lil post bc i’d just like to talk a bit about my 2023 on tumblr and what’s to come in 2024 and this isn't exactly a sunshine-and-rainbows post so i figured i'd say it while we're still in 2023. idk if anyone’s even bothering to read under the cut but if not then this is just for me lol

but yeahhh 2023 wasn’t exactly great in terms of the tumblr experience for me. i was in a creative slump for a while there and thought writing had completely slipped from me. got wack anons for the first time! people whom i thought were relatively cool turned out to be weirdos which was hella disappointing lol smh. the fandom experience took a turn for the worse - though i am still grateful that i had a solid year and a half that was really fun being a part of the fandom before things took a nosedive (🙄). overall, it was the accumulation of all these things and more that made being on jeonqkooks not as fun and comforting anymore, which has been quite sad bc you know how much i loved being here with you guys - you’re all my bubs 💞

don’t worry i’m not leaving lol. i’m not abandoning any wip. i’m still gonna be here; i’m just taking my time to find my groove with the blog and our lil community here again <3 when it comes to writing, i’ll probably be a bit more active elsewhere (cough @withleeknow cough) for the time being bc that’s where the inspo is coming from right now lol

also, i’m kinda hoping for bigger changes in 2024 in my personal life sooo there’s that !

yeah, that’s it i guess. i’m still in the obs server if people are still interested in joining

love you all very much 💘 happy new year's eve!

[miabebe]

Hi!

Um, idk how to start but oh well, hello, I don't remember when exactly I started following you, but I think it was when you started writing the where you're convenient series. I do remember that the story that made me follow you was the legend of the sea. Okay that aside, I just wanted to say that I really really appreciate your works. It usually takes me a while to send an ask to someone and I always feel bad because I really went to tell people how much I love their writings but it takes a lot of courage for me to actually send an ask. Oh god, I'm rambling, it's just, I've been wanting to tell you how much I love your works and I think the accidentally kidnapping a mafia boss oneshot just gave me that courage to do this. I'll start off with the fact that the legend of the sea was my first read from your works and it was idk, so comforting? I just loved cheol's character and I felt so good reading it, well, that has a lot to do with the fact that I am a huge angst enthusiast but yeah, it was such a good read, I absolutely loved it. Next well, I had first read Joshua's where you're convenient story and when I tell you I cried, not because of how painful it was, but because of the fact that it's hard to find good shua angst and this one was just so good, I love love loved it. Moving on to the too many beds oneshot, I want you to know that I had seen you post the teaser for it and was so eagerly waiting for it and when you posted the full fic, I had just written my dance exam and it didn't go nearly as well as my previous ones and I guess, reading it was like treating myself to something good to make myself feel better. I am such a sucker for e2l and the way those two were so genuine with each other was delightful to read. Them being so accepting of their feelings, not needing to confront them with a heavy heart but understanding them so well and, listen it was just perfection. I've already read it a few times and I'm going to read it again in the future. Now, if we talk about the the jeonghan's mafia oneshot, it was so different from what I was expecting, like idk, it was so unexpected, but in a good way. I love when plotlines are completely unexpected, they're always so fun to read. The two of them living together and growing on each other, falling in love, oh god, it was so good, their dynamics, their complicated feelings, it was mindblowing. Oh, and bss, I absolutely loved their characters, they were such a fun addition to the plot, they made it lighter. The angst was chef's kiss 💋. Okay, last but definitely not the least, I am so excited for the camp seventeen series, I read the prologue and well, if you think you are unhinged to write it, I can tell you, I am just as unhinged or maybe more for how much I'm anticipating it and how much I'm gonna love it. I squealed when I read the prologue and their descriptions, it is so exciting. There's still other works of yours that I haven't talked about but I've already said so much, I'll cover the other ones next time. Please, take your time writing and thank you for putting the effort to write such masterpieces. I heard you're not feeling well, please take care of yourself, hope you feel better soon. Thank you again, and I'm sorry, I blabbered too much.

In all the time I've been on this app, this might be one of the most heartwarming things I've ever received 😭🫂 I'm particularly shy too so I know how hard it must've been for you to send this and I'm so so so grateful to hear from you, thank you so much ❤️

The Legend of the Sea was a particularly difficult write - I knew the writing style wouldn't be everyone's type but I wanted to challenge myself so I wrote it and I'm so happy you liked it too!

Where you're convenient is also one of my favourites, I loveeee the marriage of convenience trope so much, it has sooo much scope? But aaahhh you cried? I'm touched you thought it was worthy of those happy tears 🥲

I'm so sorry to hear about your exam but I'm glad something I've written gave you a little solace! I don't think there's a bigger honour than being able to make someone happy with a few words, I'm glad I could do that for you, it makes all of this worth it!

I really was banking on the bringing a unique plot line for all my reverse trope one shots, I feel so accomplished knowing the Jeonghan one was unexpected 🤭 thank you so much for loving that piece!

Ahhh Camp Seventeen is coming next and I have sooo much planned for it, I'm so excited to share with you - I hope it'll be just as good or even better than everything so far, I'd love to hear your thoughts about it when the chapters start dropping!

Again thank you so so so much for sending this to me, I couldn't have been happier reading this 🫂 I hope you'll ramble often in my inbox or even in my DMs if that's more convenient for you, I'd love to talk more ❤️

[sundewhasaudhd]

Hehe going to your dms is scary so I'll just leave this here :]]

Happiest Birthday, Sundew!!!! :DDDD You're like a year closer to ummm starting a drug van, I think :DDD (Google says you need to be 18 to own a van apparently hahahah). Unless you're like, 18 or older. In that case, you're a year closer to err getting a job maybe djskskk idk if you'd look forward to that ahahahahha. Is there an age requirement for sky diving? If there is, you're a year closer to that I guess!! ToT ★★★

Anyways, we are by all means not close, like at all, so I hope this doesn't come off as weird to you, but I appreciate you!!! :DDDD I love seeing you in my dashboard or notifs everytime I'm in tumblr :DDDD!! Your AUs are so cool pleasseee I wasn't exactly a c!Wilbur/c!Quackity fan before (didn't dislike it, I think it's cool, just not my cup of tea), but like after I read your AUs some gears shifted hahhahaha. I love your overall vibe and I am so grateful for the amount of dsmp reblogs that end up in my radar mostly because of you and one other person ahahahha. I also appreciate how friendly you are, based on the interactions we had :]] Random but I started saying chat a lot lately because you kept saying it at one point and I just liked the sound ToT. Did all your tag games as well, even though I don't exactly post them much recently ahhahaha. It's fun, so thanks for always including me :DDDDD.

I'm grateful and happy you exist and are alive in a timeline where we're moots. I'm grateful for the memories I made that you played a part in and I hope I've left behind some good memories for you too. I love(/p) the you that you share with the world, and I hope that the people dearest to you love the rest. I hope your days are bright and filled with love and that you'll always find a way to look for that glimmer of hope and care when things get bad. I hope you're always surrounded with great things and amazing people. I hope your creativity and passion never burn out, and even if it does, I hope it sparks again anyways when you're ready. I hope the world is kind, despite it all. A kind life for a kind soul :]] It's a wonderful feeling to exist with you :]]. I hope everything else with you is as wonderful too ★★★

Thank you for everything!!! Happiest birthday again!!! :DDDDD Hoping you celebrate your existence today rahhh and enjoy your lmanburg cake 🍰🍰🍰

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Oh my gosh, I’m gonna cry, thank you soooo much :]

Also, heeheehee my c!TNT duo propaganda has worked >:3

[argisthebulwark]

Hi yes hello just stopping by to say that I'm obsessed with everything you write. Every time you post something new I literally drop everything to read it immediately. Your drabbles about Farkas, Vilkas, and Brynjolf always leave me smiling, swooning, and pining. How you fit so much perfect characterization into so few words yet make it so spot on for them each individually leaves me in awe. Especially for the less popular characters! Like Balimund – love that big cuddly blacksmith man! And Thrynn! I flipped out when I saw you had Thrynn content, he's one of my absolute favorites and there's so little about him out there. I'm absolutely obsessed with your headcanons about him! But anyway, that's all, I love you and hope you have a lovely day.

Thank you!!! I wish I could type thank you a hundred times because this is so very kind, I am always so relieved to hear that people enjoy the things i write. I work really hard on characterization so it's awesome to hear that it comes across!!! Thrynn!! I know I haven't talked about him in ages but it's so exciting when people get interested in niche side characters, it feels like there's so much freedom with them since bethesda gave them a handful of repetitive lines and called it a day lol. I was soo into him for a hot minute idk what happened. I keep a sheet of paper with a running tally mark of how many times I've used each dude, I guess he just never made it on there lol. I am so so so grateful that we have this shared fandom space. It's so fun to create things and hear from folks that enjoy them, tesblr is the nicest place I've been on the internet. Thank you again for your message, it made my day <3

[petruchio]

I'm the anon from earlier who wants to be you (and I miiiight also be the anon who wanted to drink wine and eat cheese and talk about the hunger games a while back but hush im shy), idk how to explain it's just. you feel like Pinterest to me. but an actual realistic and still messy one? not curated but still ideal? you seem so sure of yourself, even when you admit you're going nuts over a crush or whatever. cool older sister vibes, I feel like im visiting you wide eyed in your city apartment and playing dressup in your wardrobe. this reads like a love letter. The way you feel about yourself is how I wanna feel all the time.i love you let's have wine please

ANON!! oh gosh. im seriously going to cry. as cheesy as it sounds it really means a lot to me to hear. honestly it really does!! (and to be a living pinterest board?! be still my heart!!!! my actual dream.)

what’s funny is that i am actually a younger sister!! im the youngest of two and actually among my cousins who i grew up with i’m the youngest of FIVE!! but i’ve also always had a lot of friends younger than me who i love to go all “wise professor” on so i can def see how i could give off a big sister vibe ;) i actually love it that i do. and i really do loooove giving advice as we know LOL!

also it would be a lie to say that even i feel like this about myself all the time!! i spoke a little about my mental health ups and downs recently and i won’t get into the details but i definitely had a difficult winter! (and fall and parts of last summer as well if im being honest.) i make a lot of effort to do right by myself when i’m feeling low, but it really is HARD sometimes! but it makes me so happy to know that my recent feelings of joy have been coming through even just on my blog :)

i was taking a yoga class a few weeks ago and the teacher said something that really resonated with me — she said, “you can train your brain to look for love and joy and light in the world. and it’s your brain. you have the power to do that.” now, you can get all woo woo about it (and i love that woo woo stuff, i do; i meditate all the time and i have a crystal on my bedside table for luck and i love flipping tarot cards. (what’s life without a little magic/subconscious belief/superstition. do i believe it’s “real?” not really. but it gives life those little sparkles that make it fun.)) but anyway, the yoga teacher said you don’t even need to approach it from a spiritual or woo woo perspective. in fact, it’s neuroscience: your brain will build fat around the pathways you use the most often. so you can build a practice of looking for love and joy and happiness, your brain will respond, and it will become almost second nature to find the light in your life. of course it’s easier said than done… but it really resonated with me. so that’s all to say it’s been something i’ve really been trying to cultivate in myself and my life lately!! of course it’s not perfect — i still get down on myself a lot. but it’s something i found really lovely to think about.

anyway that was a bit of a ramble i guess. but i just am so touched by your message 🤍 i am genuinely honored that you see me this way. it’s really special and i’m really so grateful that you took the time to write this to me!! it means the world 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

[yujeong]

Tagged by @justanothervariant in this writers' ask game - thank you so, so much🥺

Rules: Go to your published works on AO3 and list the first and last fics you published there, a fic for a fandom/ship you've only written for once, your favourite fic in the fandom/ship with the most works, the fic you wish more people read, the fic you agonised over the most, the fic that sprang fully-formed from your mind with minimal effort, and a work you are proud of—for whatever reason❤️

First fic published on Ao3: My VP retelling fic called Little House on the Hill. I had the immense desire to write their story from my POV and I decided to start posting it last December. I haven't touched it in months unfortunately, due to other projects I'm working on rn but I will get back on it soon.

Last fic published: Shoot me, a fic that was part of the game "Guess The Author" on the kindergarten mafia discord server, in which Vegas has to choose who to kill between Pete and Macau. A fun angsty little concept that has a happy ending :3

Fandom/ship I only wrote once: just a kiss, a PorschePete fic which was a way to scratch the itch of seeing them almost kiss during ep 4. I don't have any other ideas for them, so it'll probably be a one-time thing.

Favorite fic in most popular fandom/ship: VegasPete are my babies and the ship with the most fics on Ao3, which makes me super happy. My favourite fic for them is Dead End, a gift fic that I wrote for the amazing @xxhappy-chickenxx. Post canon Vegas angst, the way I adore it.

Fic I wish more people read: Honestly, all of them, because I'm an insecure bitch who gets an adrenaline rush from hits/kudos and especially comments, but if I had to choose, I'd say (Not) Family, a 500 word fic about Vegas and his relationship with Kinn and Tankhun, because I advocate for more fics in second person POV (it's so much fun writing it and it's so rewarding to read if it's done well enough, more people should try it) and Guilt Trip, another 500 word fic that explores the relationship between Macau and Pete during the hospital era, because MACAU AND PETE ARE PRECIOUS AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP GIVES ME LIFE, OK? (Stay tuned for the extended version of that btw. I know I said it's coming soon like months ago but I mean it this time, hopefully it'll be here by the start of November🤞)

Fic I agonised over: Dead End. That's it, that's the post. No, for real though, VegasPete post canon angst is something I wanted to try for a while but I was always afraid of fucking it up. The feedback I received for the fic made me believe that I did a good job with it though, so I guess it was all worth it in the end.

Fic that popped out fully-formed: This doesn't happen to me haha I don't have fics fully formed besides some basic plot elements and some vibes but I guess the closest it's come to that was Broken Vows - a fic in which Kinn takes revenge against Vegas for Tawan in the pettiest way possible. Idk, I had written the basic structure of it one random day and then polished it a bit and submitted it for the server's GTA. It was very fun to write in general, I'll admit.

Fic I'm proud of: I'll just say all of them because I feel it in my bones. Even Bitter Hearts, Clouded Minds, the second installment of my Heroes and Villains series which I am very mixed about, is a story that came from my heart and slipped through my fingers onto the doc document and then on Ao3 so, I can't say I'm not proud of releasing it into the wild. KinnPorsche The Series gave me my passion for writing back and made me start writing fanfic, something I had never done before so I'll forever be grateful for it. English isn't even my first language so I'm glad I pushed my insecurities aside and gave fanfic writing a try 🥰

I'll tag @wisteria-daydreamer, @therealblessedaffliction and @fleet-off, as well as any other writers who want to join in ✨

[motherofkittens94]

Ah gee I went to see hozier yesterday and yeah I enjoyed it the music was good but I had such a strange experience right first off this lady pulled me out the queue and put me to the front im used to this part happening and I'm usually kinda glad like yes that’s the one single disability perk right, queue jumping

but also this lady was making me hold her hand which was a bit much like you dont need to do that I can walk but yeah my disability is noticeable i guess and people think theyre doing good but anyway she let me go in ahead and yeah that was great but then I guess she was telling the whole staff about me or something because like literally every other ten minutes some new staff member would corner me ask if I was okay or why I was alone or if was I lost or if I needed help I would say I'm okay not lost im by myself I can manage but then some other person would come later and ask me again if i was okay and if I wanted help and Its like again??

eventually they moved me to the raised platform which is not what i booked ok but fine it is a better view there from thanks but I dont see why people felt the need to be checking me so much i wasnt drunk i wasnt injured i wasn't upset i was not doing anything out of the ordinary nothing that anybody else wasn't also or less even i mean there were very drunk people there and they weren't being asked if they were okay

I mean asking once fine nice even

twice ?understandable but like seven /eight times? Frickin weird leave me alone already I can manage

Like I feel I should be grateful they were helping me and it sort of was and you may think oh but everyone wanted to assist you wouldnt you perfer that? surely worse things could've happened instead you got better treatment thats good right?

Yeah maybe but you know it was going on so often it made me feel self conscious like clearly I was coming off as not normal and /or vulnerable somehow or maybe they didnt believe i was as old as i said i was or idk but i didn't ask for help and didn't really need it either I just wanted to have fun listen to music relax be a regular person like everybody else there

It would've been fine- if i had asked for help - I didn't

Also afterwards they didn't even let me leave until it was nearly empty and then they all waving at me like goodbye sweetie goodbye _like embarrassing how am i ever gonna come back here now after this

and then they made two guys walk with me all down the street because i was going home by myself ive done this same journey a billion times i know what im doing

so anyway thats not even the end of it because next I take the train back and get off my stop someone in the train gets off to ask I'm okay and if I know where to go like yes I'm going home then as I go up the hill this lady is following me annnd then she asks im okay and if i need help as well!

what do you think I'm doing!

like what the hell is wrong with me tonight that nobody thinks I'm okay? I don't know what you think is wrong whats the matter with me huh? I can't work out what I did that made everyone so concerned except just being there

I was by myself fair- i guess if someone was with me all this wouldn't have happened and yeah im a loser and i go to events by myself sometimes so what? its not illegal though is it im twenty eight not bloody five i literally live there I don't need help walking around im not lost I dont need you to pretend to befriend me I did not need help

Maybe i took this all the wrong way because yeah they wanted to help but it felt like every single person was singling me out and letting me know they think I'm strange and that I cant cope

Uncomfortable!

This is what i get for trying to do normal gal activities I guess

[superm4ks]

I’m not used to disagreeing with you bc I usually don’t but the Charles post, woof! Maybe it’s bc I’m not a Charles fan but I am definitely a fan of max. Is it fair to consider you a chirlie at this point? 😂 as a person who prefers Carlos just overall (we exist I know) and how close this season was, just, I know Charles is stamped with the whole predestined thing and his fans like to say Ferrari don’t deserve him just as much as they like to celebrate this whole destiny brand but this season it was very close between Charles and Carlos? They basically traded off being the one more comfortable with a better weekend and close in points as well. It’s just grating to see him written of as like “mid”; when he actually is a very strong driver, good defensive driver maybe sometimes considered too tough by some but I have fun watching him. But everyone’s of course entitled to their own opinions and to like and dislike whoever. I guess it’s the Carlos and Checo comparisons that especially tend to make me go 🤨 bc maybe if you’re looking at Charles and max as being the “special boys” and the “other one” will always be just that. But the Ferrari drivers were closer this season compared to last year and Checo has just been further and further from max so performance wise to compare them… idk if I think it’s too generous to Charles or too unfair to Carlos (sorry Checo I guess). I just read your long post and had some thoughts, im not as good at articulating them as you… feel free to ignore! Hope you’re having a nice weekend

Oh bro lemme go ahead webblewebble my laminated chirlie permit rn I'm very much a sharl fan hes definitely one of my 'special boys' so the bias is real. Like when u say 'maybe ur looking at ((ur favs)) different' I absolutely am like theres no question about that 😭 Like personally I think if Ferrari were to have a competitive car over a whole season 16 wud be the one getting the most out of it. That has to do wid how I watch the sport and the type of driver I like or what ‘fast’ means to me like its really not worth all that jhjkjh just a preference. I was drawing some parallels between rbr and ferrari not checo and carlos’ individual performances just the dynamics that occur when a team has a car capable of dominance and what I think wud happen wid Ferrari. We were talking about why some chirlies—and that’s the last time im using that word like I cant— ‘hate’ on c2 to the point theyre celebrating pierre gasly randomly saying ‘they aren’t friends’ and imo its kind of a strange beef to have unless ur just a hater, which is fine but like , I think it’s a waste of ur time lmfao. Because some people acting like Carlos is the crux of sharls suffering and once he leaves it’ll all be ok and smooth sailing and like that’s just ridiculous. It takes responsibility away from Ferrari and their ((lack of)) leadership and ((lack of)) development. Maybe that’s me but I’ll never blame a driver for wanting to win and prioritizing himself even if its to the detriment of others and especially his teammate bro Im a Max and Lewis fan. And listen Monza this year?? I gotta say moved me profusely. I caught a glimpse of the mclaren dawg like that was nasty business. So while I don’t recognize in Carlos the potential I do in sharl like I agree wid u that it makes no sense to compare him and Checo when their seasons were fundamentally different and they had different objectives. And Carlos before his ((imo)) inevitable plateau did his job well yk got the win and everything. Have a good Sunday ty for the chat