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[gingerjolover]

hi ging i know this is totally not the place for unsolicited asking for advice so totally ignore this ask if it’s the wrong place to be doing this BUT in short i’m having an identity crisis yay!!! up until very recently i though i was just a very very supportive ally, eg when homophobic things were said around me i was personally offended but was just like noooo i’m just a huge ally i’m not gay!! i love love munagenius, and not just in a “i wanna be friends with all of them!” way, i’ve had crushes on girls irl, but have just pushed them deep deep down and i’m attracted to them and i would date a girl and AND I KNOW THAT SOUNDS SO GAY LIKE I SHOULDNT EVEN BEEN QUESTIONING BUT FOR SOME REASON IM IN DENIAL. it’s like i almost don’t feel gay enough? literally nobody knows because i like men (unfortunate i know) and have been in “straight” relationships all my life. i know nobody but me can tell me if i’m queer or not like this is my shit to deal with but maybe i just needed somewhere to dump my feelings anonymously :p

hi baby!

this is a safe space, you’re always allowed to ramble in my inbox (that goes for all of you!)

i can’t, in earnest, sit here and write, “well if you like girls and you would date a girl, you’re queer,” because i know first hand that it’s not that easy

i was right where you are not that long ago, and i hope i can use my experiences to give you some guidance?? without making it sound like it’s all about me??

we had very similar experiences, i’ve ALWAYS had crushes on women but never realized they were crushes, i was like “no i just want to be their best friend” or “i admire them soooo much,” or “i wish i looked like them” — and while those are totally normal thoughts to have, i also actively was pushing down the idea that i, as in me ginger, could be queer, i didn’t know what queer meant and i didn’t even know that bisexuality was a thing when i was young

i had a MAJOR identity crisis actually like right before i started posting on here consistently, if you look at my tumblr in the very beginning it was literally all “insert male celebrity x reader” because i did not allow myself to look at content that i was not “queer enough” for

denial is something i ALSO went through, i can’t tell you how many times my best friends (both queer) had to talk me down about WHY i was getting so worked about about labeling myself or feeling confused about liking girls, trying to find the root of why i wouldn’t allow myself to say i was queer or even curious about my sexuality

obviously accepting yourself is hard, right? it’s challenging an idea about yourself that is different from what you’ve always known yourself. i struggled so much with this because, like you sweet anon, i was always straight and nobody knew otherwise

self acceptance/no longer being in denial is also hard because there’s so many factors. one of the biggest factors for me was i was living in an environment at the time where queerness was NOT fully accepted, i know that i was going to be unsafe (mentally, emotionally, spiritually) if i had come out. (i eventually did to one of my family members and it worked out but most of them still don’t know)

one of my other things when not feeling queer enough was like “well i haven’t had a lot experiences with women so i can’t really be queer,” and my best friend literally was like “do you tell children who identify as queer that they aren’t because they haven’t kissed anyone?” and i said “of course not!” and he sat there and let me think about it… and then was like “well yeah, see how stupid that sounds? you’re not LESS queer because you don’t have experience, like maybe it’s more intimidating for you, but it doesn’t make you less”… and it’s something i still think about all the time

i know i’m rambling and i’m kinda jumping around but something you need understand and sit with is you don’t HAVE to label yourself! the biggest reason i hadn’t come out (combined with above) is because i couldn’t label myself, i didn’t feel queer enough for any label.

i ended up (after truly months) coming out as bi (not even officially, i just started referring to myself as bisexual and posting stuff on instagram and creating my own lil community) because like you anon, i unfortunately like men😪 (even though i am actively only dating women/nb at the moment, don’t dissect this too much i am still in my identity crisis)

i guess what i am trying to saaaaay is be patient with yourself, you are queer enough, even if you’re just questioning (although it sounds like you were where i was and you’re def not but i can’t tell you that). as long as you are entering this space respectfully and your intentions are pure, you have nothing to worry about sweet anon.

working to get over the “my whole life is going to change” and turning it into “my whole life is going to change!!!” is a way to help with this identity crisis. any change is hard, change is super scary, but as long as you’re in a place where you are safe and healthy, living authentically, even if confused, is so much better than feeling trapped and trying to work through it alone.

i hope this makes sense, i am obviously oversimplifying a lot of the issues of coming out or identifying yourself, i am very privileged that most of my life hasn’t changed since i have come out, and i know it’s not always the easiest/safest for people

i love you sweet anon! my inbox is always open - so are my messages :)

[botanikos]

I want to take the form of your father and take your adult self to Loo Loo land. When I catch you doing something naughty, I will strip you naked in front of all people and start spanking you until your cheeks are red and you start crying, while people watch and laugh at the mighty Prince Stolas. I will also make sure to send the images to Stella for her amusement.

Tell My Muse What You Want To Do To Them On Anon. ✩

I don’t care if it’s cute, sexual, or violent. Just do it!

Well he WAS having a grand time with these delightful fantasies. But this one just RUINS THE MOOD. He's absolutely astonished, confused, mortified, and disgusted. ❝ This could have had potential if it weren't for the fact that you want to take the form of my FATHER. Though I cannot say I find any real shame in the possibility of Stella finding out about such a situation. She's said far worse at our parties. . . You'll have to try harder. ❞ Now he's just insulted.

[astros-silly-place]

the crusty old iPad I do art on just fucking died like permanently and like right before the genloss founders cut this is homophobia

[shaftking]

We have to take the word twink away from normies because I literally just saw someone call prince Adam a twink. Like fucking excuse me?? Prince Adam? Human Beast?? A twink????

[shieldofiron]

Imagine, Max who ends up both blind and paraplegic after the upside down shit. Before everything she had freedom, and by freedom she means her skateboard. Once she leaves the hospital and moves in to the house her mom got from a combination of goverment hush money and state money she longs for that same freedom. She hates everything about her situation, well, sometimes Billy helps out. She thinks about everything she used to be able to do with her skateboard and curses herself for being Vecna bait. But one day it finally hits her, Wheelies. She can do wheelies.

Lucas tried to talk to her about how dangerous that could be, but she has her mind set, and when he sees that he knows that the best he can do now is help. So Max, with Lucas's help, attempts to pop a wheelie for weeks. It doesn't help that half the time when she's finally making progress with it Lucas freaks out over her safety. But finally, one day in september, she finally does it.

Jason and Eddie visit a lot too. Her new house isn't too far from their new trailer. Jason might've been the reason why she was like this, but him being paraplegic too now helped her a bit. She wasn't ever completely alone with everything. Some days it was just nice to see someone else going through it. When Max finally got the wheelie right she called everyone, the party, Steve, Eddie, Nancy, ect.. And after the hospital stay together, wherever Eddie went Jason went too. Immediately Max saw an opportunity, she was gonna teach Jason how to do a wheelie. If she felt trapped just not being able to ride her skateboard she could only imagine how he felt.

So about a week later Max started to teach Jason how to pop a wheelie, under the supervision of Eddie and Lucas of course. He struggled with it a lot but after awhile he finally got the hang of it. She could imagine how big his smile was, and his laughter sounded so joyful and relaxed. The two were both proud of themselves, and Lucas and Eddie were glad to see that they got along.

I have been having so many thoughts on the possibilities of these two being in the same boat it's unreal. Plus Eddie and Lucas just care about them so much, but at the same time, maybe a slightly rebellious former skateboarder and the former captain of the basketball team might not be the safest match.

Why would you do this to me actually, that's beautiful I love it, it hurts so much.

[imaginationxlost]

Hello!! I just wanted to tell you that Rearrange The Stars is so good and the only HP fic I've been able to 'stomach' after *gestures wildly at JK* I'm non-binary transmasc myself and being able to enjoy drarry without too many conflicting feelings is a relief, your writing is so so good and I could spend (and am!) hours reading it! Thank you

Well, uh, let me just nudge you to my fanfic blog first: @imaginationxfound.

Beyond that: Thank you! I'll be completely honest; Rearrange the Stars is being written out of spite towards JKR and also as a way of coping with all the, you know, *gestures wildly at JKR*. Because oof. Still hurts. Still hurts a lot.

I really am glad you like it! And since you like my writing so much. Welcome to my original fiction writing blog. I have a book out. The main character is a trans guy.

[12neonlit-stage]

you're allowed to discuss and work together, reblog for a higher sample size or something

You have 1 week, good luck!

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

[nocek]

And we all should be jelly.

(at least Miguel is so maybe they are closer to that dumb triangle than Wade thought XD)

[artist-rat]

some epilogue vibes (an excuse to draw some hugs. and my durge so many times)

[somerandomdudelmao]

Let me show you one of my original concepts :>

Because. Why not haha👍

Characters refs Masterpost

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[joshuamj]

Hero.

[star-ocean-peahen]

Christmas is a time for famil.............ial dysfunction!!

hahahahaha im the only person in this house who doesn't explode when upset hahahahahaha isnt it funny how that sounds like im a better person but i really just lash out quietly and sarcastically instead hahahahahaha and thats definitely worse because it's more insidious and hurts people when they have less of a chance to understand it hahahahahahaha

hahaha dad snapped at me for trying to protect my sibling from his forceful anxious rants and like yeah thats not the best way to go about the situation i see that now. its not going to work to tell him he's said enough because 1) he does not want to hear that 2) he does not want to hear that from me 3) hed never stop anyway because hes not ACTUALLY saying it for other people's benefit he's saying it because he doesn't believe emotional validation is a legitimate emotional need so he doesn't allow himself to have it so his anxieties have to come out somehow and this is how they do that and i cant really get down on him for that because i did it too!! when you dont have another outlet the anxieties will still come out but just in a non-constructive way!! of course whenever MINE did that he mocked me and made sure i knew EXACTLY how disgusting and cruel he thought i was being but BECAUSE of that i know how it feels and i dont want to do it to him!! the point is that i dont want anyone else to feel like i did and that includes the person who made me feel that way!! because he doesn't really deserve the grace and respect he never gave me but im going to try to give it to him anyway!! because thats the point of breaking the cycle!! but hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my drive to protect my younger sibling is stronger in the moment than my drive to break the cycle and i dont know what to DO to do it the right way and i dont have to get it right esp when it isnt my job.................i just hate to see him saying things that hurt me so much to them...........

and its so fuckign. hard to remember that small humans have no better way of dealing with their emotions so they express them in non-constructive ways. because theyre being little rats.

and my mom is like the only one actually trying to make this celebration fun for everyone and she cant handle the emotional weight of everyone's problems on top of organizing the entire holiday for everyone. she can't do it. i watched her break down in the kitchen. shes doing better now but its not fair!! its not fair that this is happening to her!! its not fair that this is happening to us all!! its not fair that i had to be strong for her when i was repressing all of these feelings!! its not fucking fair that i love them so much!!

and im part of the problem!! i know that!! i make situations worse because im upset!! i tell my dad off for not deescalating when i suck at deescalating too!! im catty and petty and im definitely traumatizing my siblings in the way i was and thats eating me up inside!! i dont know how to do this better and i cant be expected to do this better but FUCK i hate it!!

i just. i wish my siblings could calm themselves down i wish my dad could successfully deescalate situations and not get into stupid arguments that he has to win to make up for his lack of consistent validation i wish my mom could stop yelling at my siblings i wish she could have enough support that she doesnt have to feel anxious i wish my family was NOT SO FUCKING DYSFUNCTIONAL.

its silly goofy but my anthem for when my dad makes me feel bad is the living tombstone song "i can't fix you" because it makes me feel better but its not just that i cant fix them i cant even HELP them. or even if i can i hurt more than i help. wanting to help doesnt translate to succeeding. fuck. i just. i just dont want anyone to feel like i did. but i make them feel that way more than i save them from it. fuck. do i have a thing about saving people. do i care more about feeling like i saved someone than actually being what they need. i dont fucking know.

[racoons-in-a-trenchcoat]

The most awful fucking thing about humans is that they are the most deadly thing to other humans

And yet we’re like created social creatures that cannot live without other humans like we actually will die in isolation

Doomed if you do, doomed if you don’t

[oilith]

Don't laugh at people or mock people who are "childish". People are allowed to like things that are considered "childish". Toys, kids cartoons, anything like that can be a valuable source of comfort for the people who like them. It's important to have things in life that make you happy, and without them it gets miserable. Wether that thing is stuffed animals or cooking or writing lyrics, what's important is that others don't ridicule and belittle them for it. There shouldn't be such judgement for the things that make people happy.

[geothebio]

in my five years delivering pizza, these are definitely the best delivery instructions i’ve ever gotten