#idk I'm rambling

[auspicioustidings]

Johnny likes to pick a random little coffee shop in whatever place the mission takes them and sit for hours sketching the people around him. Something about it is a ritual for him, settles him in this new place and reminds him that this is what he fights for, the freedom of people to go get themselves a fancy coffee after a hard day if that's what makes them happy.

The day he sees you his sketchbook has pages of you. He usually moves quickly between people and he didn't even realise that he wasn't until he gets back to base and Ghost has a look at his sketches as he always does.

"Fancy a tea tomorrow then?" he asks.

They go but it was a longshot, you're not there. They visit again a few times when they can, hope you'll walk in. Gaz and Price keep an eye out too once they see the sketches.

They don't know you but you become so familiar to them. They've never met you but their allies all know your face. You are just a regular person going about your day never knowing that sometimes you are what is keeping a soldier on another continent going. You criticise your appearance in the mirror unaware that you've become somewhat of a mythic creature, a divine thing, a good luck charm across special forces and PMCs and rebel groups. Your face that you are trying to learn to love has been replicated so many times on the pages of those who have fallen in love with it.

And maybe you never ever find out, or maybe one day you're watching a news piece showing barracks and see your face up on the wall. The reporter asks the man if that's his partner back home. He smiles softly and says he wishes that were the case, but it's just a person he saw in a coffee shop years ago that he has never been able to forget.

[transradfem]

truth coming out of her well to shame mankind vibes, spurred by fandom blogs on my dashboard being willfully obtuse.

intestinal and stomach cramps from a MALE body adjusting to heightened estrogen levels is not the same thing as menstruation, no matter what you ~feel~ in your heart. menstruation is this:

female hormones ebb and flow during the month, and each one has a specific FUNCTION that helps prepare the ovum for maturation, release, and dissolution when pregnancy doesn't occur. the cramps occur for a reason, because the body needs muscular help to expel the endometrium (the internal, blood-dense lining of the uterus). i know sex ed in most places is garbage, but that doesn't excuse a lack of curiosity.

[pass-me-the-dilfs]

Reading Lou Sullivan's diaries as a gay trans man makes me feel so seen.

Like I view my gender as "gay man". I don't relate my gender to that of a straight man, and I definitely don't relate it to any form of womanhood or nonbinary-ness. And for so long it was scary and embarrassing and confusing. I felt like I was fetishizing gay men or trying to wiggle myself into some club.

But Lou feels the same way! The utter desperation he feels trying to be seen as a man and to be included in the gay male community is so fucking RELATABLE. And I cannot overstate how happy I am that he was seen as a gay man and was desired by other gay men, it gives me so much fucking hope.

[if-we-are-free-tell-me-why]

every time I hear someone say "oh you have to listen to Dear Evan Hansen it has such good mental health representation" I cry in Next to Normal

[bringbackmaes14]

There's something so funny to me whenever I see Trans!Logan Howlett headcanons in fics or fanart. Don't get me wrong, as a gnc person, I love the headcanon, I'm not saying it's silly (derogatory) but I keep trying to wrap my head around how it would work.

Because he has a regenerative healing factor. Could he have even had top surgery or would his tits have just kept regenerating? I've literally been trying to wrap my brain around this question for like four days since I saw a fanart of Logan with top surgery scars and I was like "but he doesn't scar????" Can someone with more creative braincells help me figure out how this would work????

[treefish]

Pepperfig’s a tourist destination

[nyan-bynary]

My controversial jjk take is that mahito should've remained the main threat/antagonist throughout the whole thing

[kazbrekkerfast]

has anyone written a tangled wesper au becuase I friend just showed me a post about it and I have gone feral

like wylan is so tangled coded he can do music and sing and draw and is locked away by a gaslighting ass bitch and just wants to leave and escape his tower and then this hot flirty thief arrives and helps him escape they are literally perfect omg

[hypertranced]

it sucks being an arcane fan and seeing people misunderstand marcus's character as a whole. in my eyes his scenes with his daughter are less to make us feel bad for him and are more for us to simply understand why he's still doing the shit he's doing. say whatever you want but if I had to do shady corrupted ass dealings to keep my family safe I probably would out of sheer terror, so while I fully think marcus dug his grave I can understand why he couldnt just rebel against silco. marcus as a character reminds me of the simple human fact that everyone wants to change the world but most ppl arent actually willing to sacrifice what they have to do it.

[virginreprise]

plans for an american trilogy…it’s coming together !!

[icouldbeyourprettygirl]

OUR LEGS TOUCHED AGAIN!! I REPEAT, OUR LEGS TOUCHED AGAIN!! And it wasn't like an, "oops, sorry" thing, either. They were pressing against each other with force, and I could actually feel him shaking he drinks wayyy too much caffeine

[transradfem]

sometimes i think about the language that some radfems use to describe bodies like mine and get angry. i don't think i can do anything to change their minds, but i can talk about how i feel.

i had top surgery six years ago, but i do not feel mutilated. i have been taking testosterone for seven years, but i do not feel gross or undesirable or disgusting. yes, i know i am a woman. this is the truth. but i am also transsexual, in the sense that i am socially read as male and took steps to appear that way.

i do not want to tell other dysphoric or detransitioned people how to frame their experiences with the medical industry, that is not the point of this post. but if you, personally, have not gone through these experiences, it is not your place to say whether or not i should be ashamed of my body. is that not what got us here in the first place?

[littleholmes]

“This time around, I’m finally seeing you.”

I think Endeavor’s finally realizing Touya is his son? Which…he should’ve realized it this entire time but he’s been so clouded by his need to be Number 1 and better than All Might and have children who can exceed AM’s level that he hasn’t seen his children for who they are—but really, he hasn’t even appreciated any of his kids as they are or for who they’ve become and what their quirks can do because he’s been so far up his own ideals.

The start of the war with Touya’s reveal, the hospital family meeting with Rei and the kids, and now these final battles, plus all of Touya’s monologues, plus the fights between Shouto and Touya, and Touya coming back again and again…

I think all of this finally managed to shake him out of his own cloud so he can finally see his family as his family and not tests and lab equipment. (The fact that it took all of this for Enji to get it just highlights how deep he was in his warped sea and state of mind.)

idk I’m rambling but perhaps this means that now, much too late, as Touya’s racing toward him engulfed in white hot flames, E doesn’t see an experiment or even a villain, but his son

[angeygirl]

William becoming Dave is the in-universe(?) equivalent to springtrap becoming scraptrap

Like you look between spring and scrap and are like 'what a downgrade' well that's officer burke in Ch 12 looking at Dave

You all know I like Dave and William equally but I just mean appearance wise they (william and spring) start off and broad and intimidating and then get all scraggy and ugly

All of these characters are the same person

[valkerymillenia]

A few days ago I saw these TikToks with interviews about AO3 fanfiction and one of the questions was "what is the one thing that makes you click out of a fic immediately?" and there were a lot of classic valid answers but I couldn't come up with an answer myself until just now.

You see, yeah, there's some things I don't enjoy that much (like, for example, reader x character fics, first person narration, OC x character, certain untagged triggers, consistent and abundant grammar/spelling mistakes, etc) but it doesn't make me completely give up on a fic that caught my eye, I'll usually give the author a chance and read a bit before I decide to back out or not.

But I just remembered one thing that immediately makes me back out, it's just that it's rare enough that the answer that occur me to me until now.

It's when something in the fic gives away very glaring that the author is either a bigot or that they are very much a minor.

Of course, the latter isn't a problem in gen fics but in the others? 😬😬😬

Example: I remember once I started reading a mature fic for my rare pair and suddenly the author is describing the 30 year old character as "mature and wise, with greying/salt-and-pepper hair and wrinkles around the eyes" and I just... I had to pause and close my eyes because what??

I tried to keep reading but then the author kept making this 30 year old into a almost retiree or middle-aged, past-their-prime, put-together, all-knowing daddy figure (to the super mature and totally grown up and responsible 18 year old) and I just had to give up and back away.

I remember I was 33 when I read that fic and the way the author spoke about the 30yo character just made me so uncomfortable because it was so clearly the point of view of a kid.

Similar things happen I read fic that starts getting religiously preachy/pro-life, or has racist racebends, white savior complexes, or poor concealed misogyny.

[epavirees]

last year i didn't even care about music that much like i vividly remember when i got my spotify wrapped and the whole list was full of songs i did not recognize because i had only listened to music while drunk, offering my devices to everyone going like "yeah just put anything on the queue" and that list of unfamiliar songs made me go "yeah okay i guess i'll try listening to more music next year"

and you can be damn sure i would've never predicted i would nine months later be clinically obsessed with a slovenian indie rock band and an estonian rapper and some guy from vantaa