#idc interpret this how you want I can’t stop you lol

[old-inactive-bit]

here’s some doodles from the past few days! they are not in order lmao!

im just gonna dump all the ones I like here, some I took the text out of, and I edited these all to try and make them more clear, but yeah!! ill also add context to some of these after putting them in here

also ⚠️ one of these has some blood/kiiind of gore in it but its really not that bad because its a pencil doodle

random varied doodles ✨

‘je suis so fucking addicted to alcohol’ is a reference to a thing one of my friends sent my friends once & I kinda want to digitize it and run it through picmix to make it sparkly lol

also I am so sorry about how I drew tails I was very tired lmao

me trying to figure out how to draw these characters ✨

(under the cut because this post is getting so long omg)

I think the last image is pretty funny because it also has the doodle related to amy going through war so my weird sketches figuring out how to draw characters look like they traumatized her lmao

other doodles ✨

the first image here was because there was a school assembly & I did not care so I started drawing hedgehog yaoi 👍 those were also my first doodles after sonic prime got me back into this lol i accidentally made amy look homophobic the first time i drew her this time im so sorry 😭

me obsessing over teeth for a bit ✨

i randomly get the urge to draw teeth. dunno why. teeth r just really cool lol

[uchihaharlot]

Shisui with a man I’m BEGGING🙇‍♂️. Sfw nsfw or both idc but I can’t keep living solely off of Shisui with women I know in my heart he’s bisexual and I need content so bad😫🙏

Nonny, deep down in my heart and Shisui’s cock, he is indeed bisexual. I’d even go so far as to say pansexual. Shisui has no limits when it comes to pleasure, I mean…he fucked his best friend and the better half of Konoha from what I’ve read!! He is not a shallow person! Loves the gratification of a good romp, especially if his partner enjoys it too!! 🍆💦 I love you for thrusting trusting me with this. ❤️😭

N/SFW( lol its mostly NSFW); Shisui loves all nonnies here!!; glory hole Shisui; p.s. I hope my interpretation of m/m is up to your standards 😮‍💨 as a female I can only go by what I’ve read and seen…heh; sounds a bit cliche and I’m sorry!! Plz dm me if you want to solicit your knowledge and help improve my m/m smut. 😊 I would be eternally grateful.

Shisui is not a shallow person, always on the radar for a good fuck. Which is why when he heard that deep laugh from across the bar, he was instantly drawn to you. How cute your eyes crinkled as you laughed with your friends. Must be guys night, gloryhole night. Spent the next half hour contemplating how to get you away from your friends. Then it came to him, duh, genius. Ordered another drink of whatever was in your hand and asked the barkeep to send it your way with the note. You weren’t really shocked, this sort of thing happened all the time and after a relationship gone bad. You were rather happy when you read the words:

‘I want you to cum in my mouth.’ Who was this mystery man? Scanning the bar there weren’t any eyes on you, Shisui was good about keeping his eyes trained from a distance. Unnoticed, stalking his prey. Wondering if you’d take him up on the offer. Maybe he should have just come up to you, but the thrill of glory hole night was the surprise!! Shisui was an adrenaline junkie. Loved the chase, and the adventure behind being a pleasure king.

Shisui is sly as fuck too, so the minute he sees you walk into the bathroom. He slips two people down and waits. As the line shortens, you figure the person behind you is who send their invitation. It was not, but you didn’t know that Konoha’s golden genjutsu boy was sharingan fucking you from a distance all night. The second two stalls open, Shisui pushes past the two people in front of him, slipping both men a few bills. Paid silence.

The stall clicked shut next to you. You were already hard. Needy, stroking yourself and unable to stop. How long had it been that a stranger serviced you? This was not something you caved to. Your stupid friends forced you out to rebound after that asshole boyfriend Jeff (fuck you Jeff, Shisui is a babe — he would never!!), slept with your roommate (and fuck you too Allen!!). Yea, fuck you Jeff you thought, slipping your throbbing cock into the hole. Mystery man’s (Shisui’s) eager lips already were enclosing on you. Warm, soft. Hungry. In an effort to steady yourself from his earnest draw on your tip, you pressed flush to the wall. Tried to hold in a moan, not happening. This guy was drunk on your cock in his mouth. His own moans hummed over your length as he dragged his mouth over you. Sucking in and out, licking the frenulum underneath the head. Gingerly wrapping his lips over said head and trailing his tongue down and back up.

Shisui really did want your cum in his mouth and down his throat. Doubled his efforts when he heard you stifle a moan and shift on your feet. Desperately chased your climax for you as the pulsing increased. It was so damned good you had to see who it was. Gave in and pressed that little button that would blow all anonymity out the window, just please — ‘please, let me see him.’ Almost instantly the other side was lit up, allowing you see a gorgeous mop of curls as your cum coated his throat when he plunged you to the back and swallowed you. Looked up at you as he finished sucking the soul out of you like a damn black hole. Eyes of red and divine beauty. The familiarity of the sharingan caught your eye before the name slipped your lips.

‘Shunshin no Shisui?’ You tried not to be surprised, but hell. You were.

‘Yea, but most people just called me Shisui.’ How embarrassing you called him by his old namesake, your face turns red and he laughs. ‘Adorable. Come, wait....’ he pauses as you both exit the bathroom, ‘You just did, but let me buy you another drink. Please?’

Hell fucking yea, you’re going to let Shisui buy you all the drinks he desired. So long as you ended up in his bed at the end of the night, which was a guarantee at this point.

[crybabyddl]

I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE TO REITERATE SOMETHING

Yes, let’s circle back to the beautiful performance of Edge of Great. More specifically the BODY LANGUAGE, particularly Julie and Luke’s, which I will be analyzing with gifs.

Exhibit A

Jealous Luke looks over at Julie and Reggie vibing

Julie is aware that she’s avoiding Luke, which she is doing so bc she realized her feelings for him thanks to Flynn earlier in the episode.

Since Julie has put the task of ignoring Luke upon herself even though she has no obligation to, she ends up failing her own mission. She sees Luke’s reaction to the lack of her attention.

She literally FREEZES. She’s emotionally worried to confront what she’s feeling and it’s beginning to manifest physically.

Exhibit B

It gets better y’all. After Luke finally has even a crumb of Julie’s attention, he beckons her over with his signature head tilt. This is important bc he did this with his longtime bandmate during the soundcheck of what would’ve been their biggest performance. If he feels comfortable enough using that body language with a girl he’s only known for, what, a week and a half(?) then you know this puppy boy’s got it BAD.

Julie is well aware that Luke is getting jealous. But in classic Julie fashion, she will try to tune it out instead of addressing it. Our wicked beauty doesn’t like confrontation and would rather just deny and avoid than potentially make things awkward, especially when she knows Luke would ask her about it at a later time.

The look on Julie’s face. Her eyes widen and the classic tight-lipped awkward smile is present. She’s literally saying “ok enough of that let’s get back to work doo doo doo” with her face. The way her body SWINGS back into performance mode as she faces the audience again. It may have been a split second, but when you’re deliberately trying to avoid looking into the dreamy (dead) eyes of someone you shouldn’t be crushing on, any amount of time feels too long. Plus, she knows Flynn is watching and doesn’t want her to lecture her (but she does anyway bc Flynn is observant and knows her bestie too well to let any action slip past her).

Exhibit C

Keep in mind; NONE OF THE GUYS KNOW WHY JULIE IS AVOIDING LUKE. Flynn, Alex, and Reggie have noticed the Juke chemistry, but it’s still too soon for them to get past the “we like each other but we’re too clueless to notice that we reciprocate” phase, so even though their respective besties know, they are still denying. Besides, Reg, Alex, and Flynn know better than to keep pestering if they want to keep their kneecaps. In reality they’re both smart enough to tell by this point, but for the sake of the plot and to make everything more adorably frustrating, Flynn has the collective brain cell under lock and key, leaving Juke to be like *dog tilting its head and making that “a-roo?” noise*

Anyway, Reggie notices Luke being snubbed after realizing that his extra dose of Julie time was slightly out of the ordinary. Luke is clearly concerned (look at his eyebrows and how his eyes travel from Reggie, to Julie, then to the audience to trying and get his mind off it and bring his focus back to the main goal; the performance.) If he can’t have the moment of connection with Julie that he so desperately craves, he’s gonna fill that void as best he can by connecting with the audience. >:’)

But Reggie’s trying to help Luke brush it off by conveying his reaction as ‘look at julie coming into her own! i told you she was a star! and you thought you were the lead singer? think again buddy this girl’s got you beat!’

But since Reggie isnt a master at hiding his feelings yet, especially around Luke, —who was able to get under his skin earlier (“girls, am i right?”)—Luke was easily able to see through that and interpreted what Reggie was saying as “look at julie go, she all in the zone. you’re literally making heart eyes at her get a grip you’re slacking lmao” (hence luke’s right eyebrow quirking at reggie like ‘dude seriously gimme a break u know i need attention like tinkerbell’) even though Reggie’s true message was a bit less harsh and more lovingly teasing, but it’s Luke, he sees things through his eyes and at his intensity, regardless of who it’s coming from. (This is one of the reasons why Luke comes off as selfish at times.)

Exhibit D

Poor Lukey boi can’t seem to catch a break today! Not only does Julie ignore him, then has a cute lil (platonic but it’s luke so it still makes him jealous >:P) moment, but now she has the AUDACITY to interact with Alex? The guy who was out learning Ghost 101 with this Willie guy instead of rehearsing with the band? What gives?! What’s he got that your moody ghost bf doesn’t? >:’(

He literally just watches, and even glances back in a way that, to me, screams ‘did i see that right? did i just see what i just saw with my own dreamy (but dead) eyes? say sike rn.’ \_(*_*)_/

Meanwhile, Alex pays no mind. I like to think that Alex is fully aware that Luke is an angry boy rn, but has learned to ignore it, especially this bc literally NOTHING happened. Either that or Alex has no clue and just truly thinks nothing of it and is having too much fun to think about Luke’s moody and childish behavior. Either way, Alex is just straight chilling and we love to see it *^_^*

Notice how Reggie is right there vibing with Julie and Alex. Luke feels a bit betrayed like ‘not you too! i know you were the first to turn on me but i figured since you’re such a golden retriever you’d be loyal and come back to my side!😠🥲’

Also; Luke approaches the rest of the group, wanting to be included in at least SOME of the vibing, but when Julie starts dancing and smiling with her buddy Alex, he backs up like

“you know what? nope. nevermind. not doin’ it.”

and the group’s like “i mean hey it’s your loss, but luke we want you to-”

“no, bc you chose to piss me off right in front of my face so no luke time for any of you! no cuddles, no hugs, no nothing! you made your bed, now lie in it and perish.”

Exhibit E & F: This is where it gets a bit interesting and theorized hehe...

Now we all know that this moment is just fucking ICONIC

WEOWH NEOW NEOW!!! WEOW NEHR NEHR NER-NER-NER NEHR NEHR NEOWHR!!! (wer nehr-nehr-ner-ner-nehr-nehr!!) WUEHNER-NEUHNER-NEHR-NEEOW-NEOWH! DLOOLOODDUH-DOODLAH-HOOBLUEH-NEOWHR-NEUEHR-NEEEEEEUOWRH!!!!

But hear me out– HEAR ME OUT!

What if... now don’t shoot the messenger who just so happens to also be the theorist... but what if...

WHAT IF!!! Luke didn’t!! plan this?!!!

Listen i know you’re probably thinking:

“Well uh Nicole, isn’t that kinda the whole point? It literally wasn’t planned until Charlie realized Madi was gonna be standing on the piano so he suggested the idea for the guitar solo to Kenny.”

And you’re right! But here’s the kicker:

What if Luke THE CHARACTER, just decided to do this as an “Alright that’s it! You wanna be like that? Well what if I just hit you with my super awesome radical totally cool wowza guitar skills & make a moment between us? Huh? What do you think about that? Hmm? HMMM???!!!”

He licks his lips & that to me read** like he was nervous (**read rhyming with bed just to clarify) so that means it could’ve been a spontaneous, spur-of-the-moment thing.

In the second gif, you can see that Julie’s head is tilted, as if she’s a bit confused, but she’s also delightfully surprised.

Julie is quick to smile and scrunch her nose at Luke, something she does often. It tells Luke his impulsive action garnered a positive response from his favorite girl. Julie also starts to shake her head, but doesn’t go through the motion in full, which means she’s still a bit nervous to let her guard down. This is probably because she doesn’t know what he’s thinking or what he will do next. The lopsided smile mixed with the suave, gliding steps towards her probably brought her back to her daydream lol.

Luke’s happy bc Julie’s no longer ignoring him. He smiles like a GOOBER bc this chump is simping HARD for our Julie. So cute! :’)

Exhibit G

And hear me when I offer this:

What if Luke poofed the guys out???

I know, I know. It’s a bold claim to make. But the boys are special, considering they are a threat to Caleb (3 gay-variant himbos vs. a gay magician that could’ve been on broadway but decided to make some sort of deal with a devil so he just entertains capitalists who most likely sold their souls to get into the hgc which i will probably elaborate on in a future theory so dont do that bc im gonna lmao idc we all have big brains) So it’s not too crazy to think that they could share some ghost powers.

We know Caleb transported the guys during You Got Nothing to Lose. And the guys have left a place at the exact same time on more than one occasion.

And you may be thinking “well what if the guys poofed out to give juke a moment alone together?” And to that I say...

Look at Reggie. He isn’t looking back at Alex like “dude let’s give them some space.”

The timing of him turning around, at least to me, makes me think Reggie was surprised by Luke approaching the piano. (But also he lowkey was waiting for Luke to prove him wrong by doing something to get Julie’s attention so Reggie isn’t mad. Neither is Alex but he doesn’t like being told how or WHEN to ghost) Luke doesn’t even give his bandmates a warning eyebrow quirk, a hand signal, nothing. Reggie turns to Alex like ‘dude what is he DOING?’ And before he can even really convey that, they go *POOF*

This man had a plan and he was gonna do it, so he did. Whether it’s the power of love, they stopped performing, or Reggie and Alex actually poofed out, the odds worked in Luke’s favor so he and Julie could have a super special moment, a moment special enough to make an actual living person (Nick) wonder if a “hologram” has a better chance at connecting with Julie than he does.

Again, regardless of who made them poof or how they poofed, they mf poofed so Luke’s a happy hamster. (Idk it just sounded fitting instead of happy camper lol wait what if someone had 3 pet hamsters and named them alex reggie and luke🥺 someone buy some hamsters and let me be their godmother or their aunt and i’ll love them from afar.) Anyway, Luke’s thriving, flourishing, his crops are going to grow in time for the harvest.

You can see Julie lean back as she turns to see Luke. It’s... almost as if... She. Wasn’t. Expecting. Him. To. Be. There..??

Honey badger Luke bc he DGAF <|:) Bitch, it’s Luke mf Patterson and he’s gonna,, GET! IN! YOUR! FAAAACE!!!

You CANNOT tell me he’s not doing the absolute MOST to try and seduce Miss Juliana Mariposa Rose Molina.

Yes I’m making a headcanon that Julie has TWO middle names and that one of them is the spanish word for butterfly and that the other is her mother’s name. Also yes, I believe (i believe that we’re just one dream away from who we’re– oh, that’s not what we’re doing? okay, sorry!) that Juliana is Julie’s full name.

In this house we love and respect Juliana Mariposa (Dahlia)** Rose Molina

**I’m just putting Dahlia there for fun bc I can. :) Whether I’d consider it a possible middle name of hers depends. Anyway I just thought it was a cute thing to add bc it goes along with the other middle names I gave her *^_^* Also, I feel like I made a post giving a bunch of the characters middle names lemme see if I can find it later)

Ok i’m done this took me basically all day from like 10am until 4:08. I obviously took breaks in between, but not long ones...😶

[piracytheorist]

Since the first thing that strikes me about re8, story-wise, is that it seems to be all over the place? Again, I’ve no idea how it ties to previous games but it feels like this parental/mother-child theme is just hanging there with no resolution at all? I mean yes, Ethan saved his daughter, presumably breaking some sort of abuse cycle, yay, congrats, but what about his wife/gf? Isn’t she supposed to be like the main protagonist of the story of a mother bereaved to the point of tyrannical madness

Or rather, this specific story is not the right choice for his character since there’s SO many ethical and philosophical issues and questions implied but never properly explored because of Ethan’s ‘fuck you, idc’ attitude (which is completely understandable in those circumstances but adds virtually nothing to the plot and arguably even ruins it a bit). Heisenberg could’ve been an excellent ally with fascinating grey morality (provided the writers wouldn’t push him to the point of absolute insanity and let freedom, not power-hunger be his main goal and motivation for rebellion).And again, aren’t the lords supposed to represent child development stages? In which case Ethan what? Kills the possibility of some evil version of Rose? Or his own chance to experience fatherhood throughout all of those stages? Either way, it seems a bit… weird to have a Parent destroy multiple people whose main relevance to the plot is that they’re children of an abusive antagonist in a storyline so extremely focused on parent/kid relationships.

I feel like the main theme of re8 is not just parenthood/motherhood, but the relationship itself of the parent to the child. There's a lot of mentions to "children being used". Miranda kidnapping people, experimenting on them and mutating them and then treating them like they're her kids; Miranda kidnapping and practically killing Rose; Dimitrescu making daughters out of reanimated corpses she experimented on; Heisenberg wanting to use Rose's powers, etc etc.

And it's important that Miranda is at the center of this. There's something very interesting she says to Ethan in her boss fight:

"Why do you interfere? Surely you have no need of Rose now, so close to death?"

And that's where her mistake was. Ethan wasn't doing all that because he needed Rose herself. He was doing it to save her, fully aware that he wasn't going to be a part of her life cause he knew he was dying. Miranda was way too dependent on her love for Eva - and like, I honestly get it that losing your child can devastate you (if anything my fear of that is one of the reasons I don't want to have kids) - so much that her life literally revolved around her child. Once Eva died, Miranda wanted to die. Once she found the Megamycete and discovered she maybe had a chance to bring Eva back, she dedicated her entire life and ruined multiple others to do just that. Her one and biggest need was to get Eva back. It wasn't a simple want or wish. It was a need. She'd get her child back, damn everyone else - including other people's children.

Miranda had no-one to blame directly; Eva had died from the influenza, it wasn't like she had any chance to change things. Ethan's case was different; he had people to blame, particularly, the one who kidnapped Rose and dismembered her, and her lackeys who kept said parts and fought him for trying to take them back.

So on one end, you have a parent who lost her child due to a tragedy, and ended up destroying other - innocent - lives in order to get her back. On the other, you have a parent who lost his child due to a crime, and ended up going after the criminals responsible in order to get the child back. Like, it wasn't even revenge, and it wasn't that he "needed" Rose in his life. He simply wanted to save her and ensure she'll be alright.

I fully agree it could have been Mia as the protagonist in re8, and that it was a wasted opportunity to simply fridge her and have her in the sidelines angsting over her husband. But whether it was Mia or Ethan as the protagonist, I feel like the theme that I explained above does offer a resolution, showing the opposites of Miranda and Ethan, and ending Miranda's tyrrany of her "need" to have her child back through Ethan's determination to ensure his child's safety and happiness - even if he doesn't get to be a part of any of that later on. Miranda showed obsession; Ethan showed dedication.

And this is how I see the abuse cycle breaking and the resolution is reached; an obsessed parent hurt a good parent's child to bring their own child back - the good parent's dedication stopped the former, allowing the former's tyrrany to end and their child to grow up safe.

Seeing as this is a horror game, I don't tend to focus on the morality issues (if I'm interpreting your second message correctly). Like, the developers are making a grant effort to put us in Ethan's shoes, first-person POV, plain character protagonist and all; our child got kidnapped and practically murdered, and we have the chance to bring her back. We'll absolutely raise hell to the people who are responsible for it and we will get our child back, fuck any moral dilemmas we might have. When someone is threatening your life, you have the ability to kill them to defend yourself. In the case of a caring parent, that ability may multiply by a lot when the threat is towards their child. And I feel that this is what the game explored in the end. Though the whole survival issue is taxing on Ethan, he doesn't give a damn about who he has to kill if it means saving his daughter - but again, it's only the responsible parties. We see how watching all the people at Luisa's house die affected him, and even before Elena died, he wanted to ensure her safety before he went searching for Rose; he is sympathetic and morally rational, but also capable of cold-blooded murder if someone is threatening his child. To a lesser extent, we saw that in re7 too. With his life on the line, he killed Jack (multiple times) and Marguerite, and at the end he recognized how they were actually victims of Eveline. But they were still actively trying to murder him so he wasn't given the chance to help them. With Zoe, he promised to send help, and he did, even wanting to talk to her once she'd been rescued by her uncle and Chris. The same applies to re8, but as I said, it's multiplied since it's his daughter who's in danger, and the end of re8 proves he cares for her safety more than his own.

Now, all that said, I think it's important to note how it's stil a Resident Evil game. I haven't actually played or watched any playthroughs of other games, but the basic concept in these games, from what I understand, is that the player shoots zombies; ex-human beings who have lost any human mentality and will just come for your throat if you don't kill them first. They're not humans anymore, they can't be reasoned or sympathized with. It's not really an issue of morality, ethics or philosophy. Your life, and the life of your child in the case of re8, are in danger. You don't give a shit. You just start shooting and hope for the best. Again, I don't know if the morality issue is explored in other RE games, but to be honest... Resident Evil doesn't sound like the kind of franchise that's thematically into going super deep into the morality of shooting zombies to save your life.

I have to admit I haven't thought of the Lords being representative of child development stages. I think they could be put as Moreau being a toddler, fully dependent on their parent - funnily enough, the Greek word for baby is "moro", pronounced almost exactly the way "Moreau" is pronounced in the game - Donna as a child, Heisenberg as a (rebellious?) teenager, and Dimitrescu as a late teen/young adult (if anything, Dimitrescu seems to behave like the eldest child of the bunch). But I'm not sure the connection that has to Ethan as a father, if anything because the bosses are fought in complete random order of age, if my analysis is correct. Like, I understand the symbolism behind the Lords' behaviours, maybe as you said they represent the obstacles Ethan had to overcome. In one single day and with his life on the line, instead of in the course of Rose's entire childhood and adolescence, but that's exactly why he hated being a protagonist of a horror game, lol.

Anyway, yeah. All in all, I don't think Resident Evil is a franchise where we should expect to sit down afterwards and ponder whether we were right to shoot the zombies that were trying to kill us. Again, I'm not the right person to ask this, since I don't know anything about other RE games, but that's the conclusion I'm making in a meta-thinking way.

[izukult]

This is such a cute idea! I’m addicted to making weirdly specific Spotify playlists so this is perfect. I have an ✨eclectic✨ music taste but my favorites are usually bedroom pop (mxmtoon, chloe moriondo, khai dreams, etc), romantic classical (think Debussy and Revel), and indie (although I like some Megan Thee Stallion, AC/DC, Nirvana, etc when I’m hyping myself up). As far as my personality goes, I’m pretty insightful and like to support people whenever I can, even if I don’t know them well. I can be a little chaotic sometimes, but I like to think it’s a chaotic good. I love tea, blankets, philosophy, deep conversations, the outdoors, and writing. I’m also an INFP and a Taurus :)

Sorry if that was too much, thank you so much! Take care of yourself and stay well

- Elle ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

( @snoozless ) you don’t understand how bad i want to be your friend. 😐😐 ok so you kind of get bonus 😀 but it rly might not be bonus because akfjakdkw. so, i gave you matsukawa!! but he’s not always like revered about so if u want a character lmk!! i am. in love w him tho. you’re so sweet you would balance him out and yall would be equally chaotic together.

he would have philosophical questions w u!! he might just be a little blunt & might accidentally cut the convo short, but he would listen to everything you said.

he’s used to a wide variety of music bc i’m convinced the seijoh playlists are absolutely fucking cracked like so loud. so he really could sit there and listen to anything. and i mean ANYTHING. like if you wanted to put on christian rock he’d awkwardly try to tap his foot on beat for you.

but, that doesn’t mean he’s gonna geek over you i feel like he’d be pretty private about the relationship. he’s not like secretive but he’s not gonna post you every two seconds yknow? he wouldnt put prom photos, but if yall went to look at the stars or go on a little hike he’d take a pic and youre wearing baggy sweats and one of his shirts and your hair isnt brushed for shit and it’s way too dark to properly make your face out and he’d put that shit on his main absolutely 😒

this man would be the kind of mf to look up his “crush’s” zodiac just for shits & giggles, so if he randomly knows a taurus fact, don’t question it<3 (he looked up your compatibility and he will take that to the grave)

issei is an infp idc. so yall got that in common.

he’s genuinely so pretty.

bc i took so long, i’m going to put descriptions for all the songs i love you thanks for requesting sorry for taking forever i’ll link the playlist and list the songs<3

1. silly girl- chloe moriondo

okay while this song is actually kinda sad, i think tHIS is pretty cute. issei comes off as this intimidating guy, and the more you get to know him the more you forget ab this idea of him you had or whatever? like the lyrics “i made him perfect, cause i wanted him to be” are really prominent in the point i’m tryna make because like even tho the lyric is obviously sad bitch shit, music is up for interpretation and this is like “hello ok he actually a real mf and shiiit maybe he cool😁✊”

2. nice boys- TEMPOREX

kinda sad. i don’t care how unemotional he might act, everyone has shit that brings them down. PLUS HES A PISCES THERES NO WAY HES NOT SAD SOMETIMES. this song just really taps into insecurities for him, and the song just gets under his skin in like a very therapeutic way. also “because he’s a pisces” some of his emotions are super intense so the “because he cares too much” line hits him fuckin hard

3. IV. sweatpants- childish gambino

this is some shit he listens to more with his team, absolutely. no doubt they blare this shit during weekly practice. but, he really really likes the song. so, when you’re hanging out and he has the aux? it’s one of the first ones he puts on. you two jam to it together. he’ll come up w dumb little dances to fit with certain lyrics (stole some of them from oikawa and hanamaki, but he won’t tell you)

4. you get me so high- the neighbourhood

okay unfortunately i must say him and hanamaki get fuckin faded in empty fields at two am all trashy like. but they make it look good idc. and if you smoke, cool, if you don’t he does not care. he always associated getting high with,,, getting high and everytime he listened to this song it just was one of his getting blazed jams, but now he’s got like a different kinda “euphoric” feel with loving you? like i said this bitch is a pisces even if he doesn’t overwhelm you with affection, he thinks ab you 24/7

5. 80’s makeout session- dacelynn

thIS SONG IS SO CUTE. but it’s p self explanatory. in love and also spare a kiss pls

6. can i call you tonight- dayglow

i feel like actually coming to terms with genuine feelings for someone would be kind of weird for issei. like no offense, but he sees it as kind of a pain in the ass. i genuinely think he would be someone to put his all into work or a task in front of him. he’s super intuitive, and constantly uses it to be better. whether it’s in volleyball or like cremating ppl i guess (HE WORKS INA FUNERAL HOME POST TIME SKIP IF U DIDNT KNOW). and it’s the same in relationships, but it’s also harder because he can’t have this complete clear head because you make his brain go kinda fuzzy. so, this song is like his little way of expressing that even tho he was like ‘internally conflicted’ this mf chose to go for it and that’s how much u mean to him

7. clair de lune, L. 32- claude debussy

i’m gonna be fucking honest with you. even though he’ll listen to anything, i really don’t think this man is looking up ‘classical romance study tunes’ playlists in his free time. he definitely enjoys the music, but that’s only if someone points it out to him. and he’s listened to you talk about it before, and watched you as you heard the piano and gauged your reactions and thought u were pretty cute he’s not gonna lie😼. so he definitely just looked up classical romance and picked the first recommended song and added it on there. he’ll dance w you a lil bit, but it wouldn’t be that quiet, intimate slow dancing in the dark you think would come w this song. itd just be a little sway as he hugs you from behind while you get water, or he twirls you once randomly with a laugh UGH I LOVE HIM

8. like real people do- hozier

ok. this one was fun for me. idc. double meaning lol. so this song is literally about two dead bodies in a bog and ,,, and he works in a funeral home PLS LMAOFJAJDJA I THINK THATS SO FUCKING FUNNY AND SO DOES HE. but also this song literally is my idea of love. this is my idea of love. and yall listen to it, with your stupid little death joke, but he looks at you and he’s just like ‘oh’. yknow? YKNOW?

9. BS- still woozy

like i said, i think he puts a lot into work. and he literally plays for a powerhouse school there’s no way he doesn’t practice a lot. so that means there’s a lot of time where he’s physically not there and definitely can’t text, because he’s trying to improve. and while he wouldn’t stop volleyball for someone else, he understands that you are like super amazing for being so Cool with him not being the most available. the song just reminds him of how compassionate you are and also he does miss u when he’s at practice YKNOW?

10. i <3 u- boy pablo

this one made me so fucking soft ew. ok. this song reminds him of you so so much. he’s totally okay being vulnerable with you? and even though he has pretty heightened emotions, he’s never felt like so strongly for smth other than like ??? volleyball and caring ab his siblings (BUT HE FEELS DIFFERENT FOR U THAN HE DOES FOR A VOLLEYBALL AND HIS SIBLINGS PLEASE😁). HE LUVVVVV YOU

11. heart-shaped box- nirvana

so many reasons. for one, simply fucking JAM. yall would scream this on a drive. if you ever got drunk together, this would be the first song you play. also, little lyrics remind you of each other. (the pisces lyric in the first and third verse, and even tho the flowers aren’t being used in a sweet sense in the song he does remember talking ab flowers w u, and now any flower is mentioned and he’s like “ah yes. my girlfriend.”)

12. pluto projector- rex orange county

FUCK. FUCK THIS SONG. GOD. NO. LIKE HE REALIZES HE’S IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH THIS SONG. HE T E L L S YOU HE’S IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH THIS SONG. the first time, he just sends you the name of it like ‘pluto projector <3’ and you listen and it’s so sweet and ur like ayo turn this shit up. and he adds it to your playlist, which definitely gets a smile from you. and then one night like two weeks later youre just laying together, and he’s running his fingers through his hair and he pulls away for a second to grab his phone and he turns the song on and you just listen to it in silence and it’s so fucking intimate. and he’s just like “i don’t think i’ve ever related to a song more” and you think he’s making a joke so you tell him to shut up (also jokingly) and he just laughs and it’s dark in his room and he’s playing with your hair again and he just goes “god, if you’re telling me to shut up over that i don’t even want to imagine how you’re gonna react when i tell you i love you” and it’s right around 3:10 in the song i’m literally so gone for him. bye you cry and try to hide it but he can tell HES PERCEPTIVE

13. i wanna be yours- arctic monkeys

okay for one, it’s a good song. it’s a song he absolutely let’s play in the background, just to cover the static lol. but also? ALSO? THE TITLE APPLIES TO YOU THE FUCK? it’s as if,,, he’s whipped,,

14. supermassive black hole- muse

hanamaki prolly showed him this song, and it’s one of his vibe songs. he will do falsetto while singing it if he’s in a really good mood and it just makes everyone laugh, including himself. it actually kind of grosses him out, because this song used to literally just be a song he would aimlessly go hard to but NOW his little bitch ass is like “you set my soul alight”? i guess i relate and “oh baby, i’m a fool for you” well, surely i’m not a fool but yea i get you muse sing it. it’s so gross. at this point he wants one thing that doesn’t make him think of you, just to prove that he’s not that gone, but he struggling

15. desperado- rhianna

i’m sorry to say it but this song makes him feel like a bad bitch LMAOOOOO. like if he’s ever getting pregame jitters or anything, he will just play this song. whether it’s on the speaker or in his headphones, he puts this shit on full volume and gets a lil too cocky LOL. this is also on the main seijoh playlist no doubt. he wants to share his bad bitch song w you, so you can aLSO feel like a bad bitch?? dUH

IM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT BABES! IF YOU WANT ANY OF THE SONGS CHANGED (or even the character) LMK!! UR AMAZING ur so sweet it makes me ill

[waywardfacegarden]

Who is your anime: 1) husband 2) wife 3) babie 4) side hoe 5) squad [pretty much if they could be your best friend group] 6) would be your bff 7) would be your archenemy?

Well, hello there, soulmate!!!💗💙 This question is so interesting asjdaldsj, and it also made me realize I have. Way too many crushes on fictional women... (and men, too, tbh, but with men i have like my top 20 pretty clear [not in particular order, just. my fave of faves LOL] and with women I was like. Oh god. Oh god. Do I mention her... or her... NO, HER... NONONO HER. NO WAIT--)

But okay. PLEASE HAVE IN MIND THAT I HAVE LIKE AT LEAST 20 HUSBANDS, WIVES AND BABIES BUT TO NOT MAKE THIS THAT LONG I’M ONLY MENTIONING ONE EACH.

Husband: Rin Matsuoka from Free! (but you obviously know that already ajdlalhds). Dude, I’m. You already know how much I’m in love with him, I cannot. Cannot. He’s hard-working, kind, talented, charming, smart, competitive, so inspiring, so fucking soft, emotional (i love the fact that he cries with ridiculous romance movies akjdladsj he’s a crybaby i love him), he cares so deeply about his friends and his kohais, he’s such a good leader/captain, too?? and kinda a tsundere which is my type apparently, LMAO. But, YEAH. He seriously makes my heart go all askdjlakdjjlad crazy. It makes so fucking. Soft how he’s so tender when he’s with his kohais, too???? DUDE I CAN’T. I was pretty much melting in that scene where he’s teaching Rei how to swim aksjdlasdj. I also die every time he smiles. But it also adds like. 100000000 years to my life. He’s such a blessing ajdlkakj, thank God for Rin Matsuoka. HE’S ALSO SO FUCKING PRETTY?????? AND HOT????? AND CUTE????????? AND ALLURING AND ATTRACTIVE AND GORGEOUS ALL AT ONCE. GGGGHHHHHHH. I malfunction every time he shows up aksjdladj.

Wife: After like. 20 minutes of thinking about it I realized I couldn’t pick only one so I gave up and decided to say the one I’ve been pretty obsessed with most recently. Momoe Maria from Ookiku Furikabutte. SHE’S JUST SO PERFECT??? She’s badass, she’s so freaking cool, she’s smart and cute and pretty and did I already mention cool???? Asjdhald. She’s the coolest. She plays softball and she’s. A COACH. AND SUCH A GOOD ONE. She’s strong (both physically and mentally) and kind and so, so hard-working and dedicated and I just really, really love her. I also could wax poetic about how cute she is tbh ajsdajh. AND BADASS. Basically, every time she shows up in a game (because she’s. The coach. Everyone falls a bit in love with her imo and HOW COULD YOU NOT?????). SHE’S SO INSPIRING. I admire her in such a deep level uGH. All my respect and unconditional love for this woman.

Babie: Mihashi Ren from Ookiku Furikabutte (look, I’m about to finish the manga and besides Bakugou Katsuki, oofuri is the only thing I’ve been thinking about this week ajdladja bc it’s SO WHOLESOME). Listen, HE’S MY SON, OKAY??? I HAVE SO MANY ALREADY BUT I DON’T CARE. I want to protect him, to tell him he’s amazing and doing so great, and to make him feel better with himself, to make him more confident in his talent and to STOP being so hard on himself BECAUSE HONESTLY, THIS BOY IS SO HARD-WORKING AND SO. ENDEARING. AND HE’S DOING AMAZING. He’s always, always working so hard, and he’s!!!! Such a cute, adorable anxious bean. I just want him to be happy.

Side hoe: (I don’t know what this means LMFAO i hope you don’t mean anything sexual bc i interpreted like someone you would kick ass with LOL). Yuri Plisetsky from Yuri on Ice!! Akjhdjalh LMAO. YURIO I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH, AND YOU’RE DEFINITELY NOT A HOE BUT. YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT, RIGHT? But YEAH. He’s the one I’d kick ass with. Also he’s????? One of my favorite, favorite, favorite characters ever, I admire him LOTS. AND LOVE HIM. My love for him equals Rin and Bakugou so. Just so you understand LOL. ALSO I BOUGHT HIS HOODIE SO WE WOULD BE TWINS!!!!!!!!

Squad: DEFINITELY BAKUSQUAD. DEFINITELY. They’re morons and completely disasters but they’re!!! My favorite people ever!!!!!!! They’re the kind of people that have your back ANYTIME, that support you and not judge you, that encourage and support you, that is THERE for you. THEY ALSO WOULD BE SO MUCH FUN TO BE AROUND?????? They’re all kind and funny and witty and AMAZING. They’re such good friends. Definitely my fave squad in BNHA and in a lot of other stories (i also love samezuka obviously and team gai from naruto but ajshdaljf i feel like bakusquad is more my kind of friends). They’re my fave kind of people and idk, I feel like I would always be happy around them. They listen, and make everything fun for you, and care, and I wouldn’t mind having to be The Mom Friend with Grumpy Mom Friend Bakugou and having to tutor them with Bakugou too akjdlaj. They would make me insanely happy, you have no idea. PLUS BAKUGOU IS IN THERE. WHAT MORE DO I WANT?????? AND I COULD RAMBLE WITH SERO OF MANGAS ALL THE TIME AND BORROW HIS MANGAS AND AKDJLADJA YEAH BAKUSQUAD (kami, mina, sero, kiri, jirou [YES JIROU IS ON HERE] and baku).

BFF: I WANT KAMINARI DENKI AS MY BEST FRIEND. He’s such a good friend???????? He’s so supportive and so kind and so funny and A RAY OF SUNSHINE and I just think we would get along amazingly I guess ajsdlasdjald Idk I want him to be my friend🥺🥺🥺 He’s also my Bi Icon and he strikes me as a king of memes and he NEEDS to explain them to me bc I never get jokes or memes akdjlasd.

Archenemy: Kinda cheated on this one but: Lio Fiota from Promare. I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH OKAY YOU HAVE NO IDEA (again, rin-bakugou-yuri-level. He’s one of my biggest crushes). But I wouldn’t mind if he crushes me asdhasdjalsdj LMFAO. He’s just so badass????? and so cool??????? and I probably would just Be Whipped in our fights but idc okay?????? A lot of archenemies are in love with each other okay don’t judge me LMAO. Enemies to Friends trope with my one-sided pining LOL. (The only thing is that he’s so kind that he probably wouldn’t fight me🥺🥺).

ANYWAYS THIS WAS REALLY FUN TO DO, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOPE YOU’RE DOING AMAZING, TAKE CARE, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!💗💗💗💗

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Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

🔥 Ty you’re the perfect person for me to go off about this first one with- lets talk about ocs.

OCs are often treated badly in this RPC.

As ya’ll know, I write ocs.  I write a lot of them, I write a grand total of.... Eleven, with varying degrees of activity.  So obviously, this is an issue that I not only care about, but it effects me GREATLY.  I don’t write any canon characters (anymore) bc I can’t take the pressure of being ic and true to canon bc I’m a stickler for canon.  Anyway.

OCs.  We’ve all probably had them at some point.  IF you’ve been around long enough there was even a server dedicated to them that I was a part of.  And in being in that server and writing ocs, I have made some observations.

-OC Popularity is often directly linked to either the popularity of the writer.  Chances are, if you’re a popular blog that writes canons.... If you offer an OC, people will like them.  Blogs are popular because the writing is good and the writer is friendly, so obviously, your OC will be appealing.  This??  Isn’t a bad thing.  It’s just something that I have noticed.  I’ll never really get all that mad at an oc for being popular lol.  I might get jealous but like.  I won’t do jack about it.

-OCs are often better than canon characters.  I said it.  Lets face it, Horikoshi has so many characters that he can’t make all of them as fleshed out and well cooked like the protagonists and the main antagonists. OCs offer fresh new blood to the story we all know and love, and they might just end up spicing up what your blog canon is.  Seriously, I’d fuckin kill to see some of the OC’s ive met in the actual publicization.  And we can all agree, any OC is better than Mineta. /lh Anyway, holding canon characters i nthe highest regard of who’s worth writing and who’s worth writing with, you’re only holding yourself back,

-People are often stinky about family of canon character OCs and I think people shouldn’t brush them off so readily.  Like.  Bro, *holds up Hideki Kirishima* this boy is canon idc what you say.  IT’s fun to make the world a little bigger.  Indulge a bit, see how it feels to give your canon muse a sibling.  Just.  JUST DO IT.

-People avoid oc muses with bitchin powers As if our main characters aren’t OP as hell.  Like.  Come one.  We’re having fun don;t make us feel bad.  Communicate and talk about things.  Just bc my OC has a quirk that COULD kill yours immediately, doesn’t mean I’m gonna make it happen without your permission.  People are quick to assume that OCs godmod.  Stop that.

-SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE OCS BUT ARE SCARED TO WRITE THEM.  Y’all.  It’s okay.  Please, write your ocs.  People will come to them, I swear.  Some of my favorite ocs pretty much had to be coaxed out of people, and now i can’t imagine these ocs not running around.  We should be confident in our creations.  It takes a huge amount of skill to create a new character from scratch.

🔥 That actually kinda brings me into my next thing, which is what I like to call the Just Make And OC moment.  I’ve seen this in a lot of fandoms, and I’ve started to see it more and more in this community.  What is this moment?

Say you’re writing a canon character.  You think, hey, I like this character, but what if.... X.  So, you roll with it, you do X.  You like it, you keep it.  And then, you’re like... What if.... Y.  And you do that too.  Great, you’re having fun.  But then, you’re like... Z... I REALLY want Z.  And these can be small things, but more often than not, they’re BIG things.  Big, CHARACTER CHANGING things.  

We all have the freedom to interpret canon how we want, and write our muses how we want.... But... What if you just... Took everything you just did.... And just... Made an OC.  Like, you’ve changed core elements of the character so much that they’re barely recognizable.  just give them a new name, maybe change the hair color and BOOM.  You have a GREAT OC to start with.  I used to be in the Undertale RPC and Fandom and if you’re familiar you know that Undertale is just... AU City.  And it’s fun, I’m glad people have fun- but if you’re changing literally everything about a character, even their NAME... It’s just??  Why bother, just make an OC.  It’s fine.  BC if you think about it, you’re not really an alternate universe, it’s the MHA universe and its character that you’re altering.  And there’s a point where... You’ve just made your own character, and that’s sick as hell.

I’m not talking like... Those things where “Oh yeah it’s all the same except instead of dying, Magne lives and has a beautiful husband and lives to be one hundred” or “This is a verse where a villain character gets rehabbed into heroic society” because those are things that wont take away or add too much to the character.  It’s more like you’re opening a door for new things without adding or taking away too much.  It’s when you diverge so far from the character... THAT’S when the Just Make An OC Moment kicks in.

PART of the reason I think people don’t just do this is they like being connected to the canon character, bc it means that they can still garner interest but chances are, if you already have people interested in writing with you, they will happily take your oc. 

All that to say, if you write a canon divergent canon character, don’t stop, if it makes you happy.  Like, seriously this is just something I see and feel.  But also dont?  Be surprised?  If people aren’t super on board?  I don’t really like to write with straight up moral flipped characters bc i feel like... If Deku was a sadistic villain brought up by AFO instead of his mom, he ain’t Deku anymore.  THATS JUST ME, but I’m not the only person who feels that way.  People might just want that classic vanilla canon, and you shouldn’t make people feel guilty for it, in my opinion.  Keep doing what makes you happy, and let other folks to the same.  

Also, it’s not your place to tell someone what they should or shouldn’t do.  If someone writes a canon divergent and you don’t like the divergences, move on.  It’s not your business.  That’s not what I’m doing, I’m just saying that sometimes I am bothered by this, because to me it seems like a lot of these canon divergent canons are in essence, OCs, but since they still have the canon’s name and face strapped to it, it gets more love and attention.  And that bugs me, and I will point it out!  I’m not sorry for it.

I know this one will make me lose some of you so I’m sorry.

🔥 I’m running out of juice but uh can we talk about how blogs about minor characters are the fucking tits bc like i said earlier Horikoshi has so many characters he left a lot of side characters with next to no bones and the people who take those bones and stuff them full of flesh???  Chefs kiss.  That’s kind of my exception to the Just Make An OC Moment.  At some point, that character just BELONGS to that person, like Spinner belongs to Eros, or how Meow created a Hawks’ dad that is so much better than what we got, and Flowers literally created Wash.

[zitkaplushie]

nightwing secret files liveblog:

this is gonna be a long one so it’s under a cut!

taking wing-

is that jason??

i like this 'a christmas carol' type exposition i'm ngl

i'm not sure if 'jason''s dismissal of the circus is dixon using an unreliable narrator, or if dixon actually believes that

god i hate this art so much

how dare u insult the teen titans in any way 😤 i like the name

also titans cameo!!

more awful jason characterisation (pls dixon just stay 8732894738 feet away from jason)

"without robin i have no family" i guess the titans are just chopped liver huh

"i always thought that one day i'd be batman" nope nope nope nope you have 0 understanding of dick's character if that's what you think mr dixon

i love clark having a part in dick becoming nightwing - i adore it - but the way dixon retcons the importance of the titans, and especially kory, in dick becoming nightwing rubs me the complete wrong way. i'm choosing to read this as a between the scenes moment, but i 100% dixon intended this to replace the titans' importance. and the way ppl just swallow it up w/o thinking about the reasons behind why dixon would want to erase the titans - and kory - pisses me off lmao

"i didn't mean to stay so long [with the titans]" *eternal screaming* he really wants to undermine the titans at every possible turn wow

at least the next page acknowledges the importance of kory in dick's life, but right afterwards we have "lmao she must've liked your costume. all the girls did. you're a chick magnet" (paraphrased) and i'm just back to sighing

also hi i'm mad at the framing of babs being the endgame bc of course they'd do that. and also at kory being shorter than dick. thanks! i hate it! i'm willing to bet that dixon asked for that specifically.

"this is where i came in" i'm confused at this part but tbh i don't care enough to think abt it any more

i'm also ughhhh at the way they're trying to give bludhaven importance. i don't care, i don't like it, he should've never moved there

ok i do really like that last page

the fact files things are good enough, i love the art for the haly's circus one! the pt barnum ref is 😬 though (ik ik it's the 90s but fjskdh why)

lost pages: teen titans-

ok so, i don't like devin grayson. i don't like her writing at all, i don't think she gets the characters at all, and hot take: if you dislike a character who's super important part of dick's life, and helped him come into his own and be who he is, you shouldn't be writing that character. (i'm talking about kory here, but tbh if you dislike any of the characters who dick interacts with frequently and are a huge part of his life - especially his love interests, and his family - you shouldn't be writing dick.) so i'm not going into this story with high hopes. however i've seen ppl talk about this story as being really good so i hope i'll like it too

you can tell she mostly cares about the fab five, which wouldn't be a problem if she treated the ntt characters better but alas ://

kory and vic both say 1 thing the entire page lmao

ALSO KORY NOT KNOWING WHAT DAY IT IS IS ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT I CANNOT BELIEVE

i loooove the parallel between dick grasping wally's hand and young!dick holding his dad's hand 🥺🥺🥺🥺

vic legit says one thing the entire story lmaoooooooo 🙃🙃🙃

i love garth and roy being brought to the tower 🥺

this is def some of grayson's better work, but it suffers from the same thing all of her stories do. she doesn't fully understand all the characters. if one character is off it affects the whole story. a lot of her stories have good ideas and poor execution, and this one definitely doesn't have awful execution but there's still something missing and as someone who loves the titans it's just sad. i get why people like this story - it made me tear up at the end ngl - but the rest of the titans are just as important as dick and it feels like the writer doesn't understand that. (i get this is a dick comic but it's still a titans story.) (it does however make me want to write a fic expanding upon this moment and the aftermath bc the idea of the titans all coming together to cheer dick up is so goooooood. are they gonna have a party celebrating dick's parent's lives? are they gonna eat junk food and watch a comfort movie? are they gonna just sit and talk?? the possibilities are endless!!)

the art is gorgeous as all of jimenez' art is, i love his style so freaking much!!

the next page is of the bludhaven supporting cast and all it does is remind me how much i do not care abt them. i think the only one i actually like is clancy, the others are expendable and forgettable. (i do love clancy a lot though, i wish she'd been written by more people than just dixon). though, i usually love guice's art, i think i actually prefer mcdaniel's take on clancy??? which is 100% a first for me.

i like seeing the set up to dick's apartment, bc i'm a sucker for layouts and maps. i wish this comic was way better written bc the concept of dick living in an apartment building and interacting with his neighbours is one i really like, esp in superhero comics. but again i have to say, alas.

a day in the life of nite-wing/hangin'-with tad:

painful... just painful...

i physically couldn't care less about this if you paid me

the next page is tad's file and i am Not Reading That. nope nope nope. and also fuck you.

next is a map of bludhaven, and like i said, i'm a sucker for maps.

the page after that is brutale's file and again i just do not care. the art is by damion scott who i really like, but the design looks like knock off scarecrow so

the next pages are files for double dare, lady vidc, shrike and blockbuster and i'm skipping them all bc i give negative fucks

next is a spread of what i assume is dick's cork-board? it looks kinda interesting but the writing is hard to make out and i don't care enough to try to decipher it

next is torque's files and same same, idc idc

nightwing's romances/orange you glad i didn't say banana?:

ok so y'all know i hate dickbabs. i hate everything about how it was built on the foundation of tearing down kory and dickkory and i'm a kory fan first and foremost so i hate this whole situation. so i'm already predisposed to disliking anything that talks about how babs is dick's true love, and talks down any of his other love interests. i come into this with an admitted bias. i'd try to be charitable but i don't see why i should when no one involved in the writing of dickbabs is charitable towards my faves so 🤷

i love love love stelfreeze's art! he's drawn babs in something else i read and i loved it then and i love it here!

i adore dick and babs' friendship, so the beginning is really sweet and cute. i also love the concept of baby!dickie being obsessed with watermelons and wanting to eat them forever

dewey decimal system!!! librarian babs reference!! fdjkh she's such a nerd i love it

babs trying to talk about romance and dick's like 'lol nah what abt fighting' lmao

i Do Not like babs hitting dick while talking abt 'i was segueing into talking about romance, hint hint'

this is romance? dick giving exactly 0 fucks?

why are these writers obsessed with hinting at dick and donna??? like first dixon and now grayson??? please stop!!!! i do love how he says he loves her bc 🥺🥺🥺 i love them

ur not being slick having babs call donna 'donna' and kory 'starfire', i see you grayson. i see ur hate for kory.

and reducing kory to just her body, and dick's sexual attraction to her boils my blood

i'm choosing to interpret babs's face in that panel as her being attracted to kory too

i do like that dick talks about being in love with kory, and thinking about still being with her. a) i'll take those crumbs, and b) thats how i see dick's relationship to love as being (though devin views him as kinda flighty and unfaithful so idk how we're agreeing on this lmao)

pls stop talking shit abt huntress devin, ur the one who made dick/hel a thing

since devin loves her brudick subtext, i'm side-eyeing the mention of bruce there

also why are we hinting at cass pls stop

babs being jealous and petty pls stop

the ending was smooth i have to admit it. if it was any other ship i'd probs love it but as it is, i'm tired of everyone else being downplayed in favour of the ~babs is dick's true loooooveee, it's always been herrrrr, from the beginningggggg~

i don't mind babs being dick's first crush though, in fact that's my hc for him because hello?? who wouldn't have a crush on babs??

thank you mr stelfreeze for accurately portraying babs' bitchface bc she's being a petty bitch here (and i love her but lmaooo i hate this whole thing)

next is the files on the bludhaven pd and i do not caaaare

then there's a timeline, but i don't care about any timeline that dixon writes. i'm petty though so i'm gonna read it and talk abt why i don't like the retcons.

i hate the dickbabs reference in YEAR FUCKING 3 jfc. pls stop with the retcons.

also lmao the difference between the way dick's canon relationship from that time is described in the shittiest way possible (though reluctant at first, dick begins a long and tumultuous romance with teammate starfire.) and how he wrote dick and babs' relationship (robin first teams with ... barbara in her guise as batgirl. the two will pair time and again over the course of their careers and develop a burgeoning affection for one another) this was at a time when they weren't even remotely interested in each other!!! there was no affections there dixon! no matter how much you wish it to be true!! and again the contrast with 'starfire' and 'barbara'! like it's dehumanising and i hate it.

and he can't even bother to get the new teen titans' team name right.

no mention of kory's importance in dick becoming nightwing, nope we ignore that bc it's thanks to superman now.

stepping away from the way he hates kory to talk about the way he hates jason! jason's described as a 'troubled orphan' and a 'juvenile delinquent'.

no mentions of how jason and dick bonded but as soon as tim gets introduced he talks about how dick and tim 'switfly bond as brothers'.

another incredibly impersonal description of dick and kory's relationship (the wedding of dick grayson and kory anders (aka starfire) is aborted by the rogue titan raven. dick and kory soon part company and dissolve their relationship.) but at least he calls her kory this time.

also i love how he speeds up through all the 'non important' development for dick but spends a whole page talking about all the bullshit he's been writing for nightwing. i understand why, but it's just lmaooooo 🙃 when you read it like that, it really shows how shitty this comic is.

talks of the 'doomed relationship' between dick and hel and i really hate it pls stop

the last page is dick's evaluation by the police academy and i do not care so i'm skipping it too.

[tidethreads]

No pressure but I'm very interested in your more elaborate opinion of the song 😊 Have a great weekend! 💕

thank you my weekend was actually pretty nice!!

my brain isn’t fully working yet but i really just wanna write what i think now. in general i think i’ve already mentioned that i don’t think the song is as much of a break-up song as people think also bc he’s still dating the person this has to be about, i’m just gonna go through the lyrics bit by bit and write what i think and then do an interpretation and conclusion at the end

warning: this is very long and detailed

[Chorus]I can’t writeone song that’s not about youCan’t drink without thinking about youIs it too late to tell you thatEverything means nothing if I can’t have you?

ok starting off, i like that the chorus is at the very beginning, i think most people agree here. the interesting thing is that the “you” is always at 1 of the subsequent bar, which is the same thing he did in FAIY and there was a lot of speculation about that and different interpretations - the fandom interpretation is that it should be seen as belonging to both the former and the latter line (fallin’ all in - you - fell for men who weren’t how they appeared) while people “outside” saw it as being the close of the first line only.

the reason i’m recalling this is bc i read someone say that the first you can be seen as the start of the second line too and that the second line would be “you can’t drink without thinking about it” (the it would be instead of the second “you” but ..yea. i don’t agree with that)

i also don’t think “everything” is just an empty word that describes everything in his life ever but i’m gonna elaborate on that at the end

[Verse 1]I’m in Torontoand I got this viewBut I might as well be in a hotel room, yeah

i think i’m gonna keep most of my “unpopular opinions” for my other ask that asked about them, let me just say the first two lines are (for me) about the fact that his feelings for this person are what’s on his mind and they’re the “constant” basically, and that’s why it doesn’t matter where he is - bc they’re always there and yeah home is home but you can’t just turn off your thoughts about someone you care about this much

Itdoesn’t matter ‘cause I’m so consumedSpending all my nights reading texts from you

celebrities…they’re just like us lol. what a mood

basically yes this “confirms” my paragraph above, it doesn’t matter where he is bc his personal life is so overpowering

[Pre-Chorus]Oh, I’m good at keeping my distanceI know that you’re the feeling I’m missing

this is the part where i tell you that in order for my interpretation to work, i need to disregard the more obvious interpretation of certain lines and “keeping my distance” is one of them. i don’t know what i think about it yet (wow also sorry i’m writing in this much detail about every single line lel)

“the feeling i’m missing” - i see that as that his life is missing (as in it’s not there) the fulfillment of being in a romantic relationship, this is NOT about how he misses the person this is about, idk why everyone is saying that

also “i know that you’re filling the need for this certain thing in my life” does not mean he doesn’t currently “have” the person? the entire song is not saying much at all about whether or not he “has” that person. for me it’s an acknowledgment of this person’s place and importance in his life, not an “i miss you” line

You know that I hate to admit itBut everything means nothing if I can’t have you

“YOU KNOW THAT I HATE TO ADMIT IT”. this is the line that stands out the most for me in the entire song. yes, this can be a commonplace and they could have just added it bc it fit, but shawn admitting the struggle between his career and his relationship and that he “hates” (ok strong word but even acknowledging that he has difficulties) admitting that his relationship is taking up more and more space and that yes of course he loves his career but at what cost?

also the “you know” is what is telling me they’ve had several conversations about this

[Verse 2]I’m so sorry that my timing’s offBut I can’t move on if we’re still gonna talkIs it wrong forme to not want half?I want all ofyou, all the strings attached

(ok idk why the format is messing up now). anyway i needed to insert this verse as a whole bc this is the most wtf part of the song for me. i mean just read the verse and then structure it topically. it makes very little sense.

I’m so sorry that my timing’s offBut I can’t move on if we’re still gonna talk

(first of all, saying i’m so sorry instead of just i’m sorry makes this seem so genuine, my heart) 

ok the timing of the song is off, or the timing of his feelings, idk and idc. basically this is about how he’s holding on even though they’re done - much like the bridge. BUT THEN

Is it wrong for me to not want half?I want all of you, all the strings attached

THIS IS A RUPTURE. this has nothing to do with the first two lines. and in all honesty i think this is the “truer” part and the first two lines were added in when the tone of the song was decided or sth. idk. but since my entire point is that this is not rly a break-up song then i’m obviously gonna lean on lines like this a little more

“wrong for me to not want half” ok for me this part is interesting bc in his entire second album, “half” of this person (bc we’re not ignoring the 99% chance this is about the same person) meant moving on from this friendship-relationship limbo with shawn pushing towards the commitment and there being a sort of back and forth (see: Mutual, LIJ, Why, WYR).

BUT here i see this as a conversation in an already-established relationship and since this song is IMO about the conflict of his private life w his public one and fame in general, i think “half” here means that they’re keeping it so much on the downlow that his relationship is not part of other parts of his life and this is him saying he wants to move away from this a bit, that he wants his relationship to take a larger role in his life (not feelings-wise but in general) and he’s willing to make some effort to make this work (”strings attached”) bc he knows it doesn’t necessarily happen “just like that”

[Bridge]I’m trying to move on, forget you, but I hold onEverything means nothing, everything meansnothing, babeI’m trying to move on, forget you, but I hold onEverything means nothing if I can’t have you, no

ok i don’t have much to say about this. i’m acknowledging that this is in opposition to what i think but since you also can’t really dispute my interpretation of the rest of the lyrics with actual things to back you up i’m mostly disregarding the bridge

INTERPRETATION

this song immediately reminded me of If I Could Fly by One Direction - written by Harry about how he’s devoting himself to someone he can’t be publicly dating and how he’s suffering from the segmentation and how he’s willing to give up his career to be with that person: a conscious prioritisation of his relationship over his career.

and i think this type of struggle is what CHY is about. it’s shawn realising and acknowledging that he is immensely famous and his career is in full swing but at some point in a relationship, you start being so attached and in love and devoted that in the end, what matters (or could matter) more is that one person

i think this entire point is driven home by “everything means nothing if i can’t have you” - i think “everything” is his fame and his career but in the end, it means nothing if being famous means his relationship is taking a bigger hit than he’s okay with (this is for me the logical continuation of FAIY where he’s talking about his relationship being an “away place” from his career for the very first time)

and this is where you can start speculating about why he can’t have that person. dating someone as famous as shawn obviously always requires more effort and commitment and it’s scary to start that kind of relationship - but why is this one this hard? and this delicate? why does it need to be away from his career? why can’t he have both the relationship and this type of career?

i mean yes you can think that “can’t have you” means that the person he’s talking about just doesn’t want to date him but ….i don’t think that

i also love how this song is just so LOUD and UNAPOLOGETIC about his feelings? SM3 was all about the uncertainty (the good and bad parts) and then falling more in love with that person, but now they’ve sort of established themselves as a couple and this is utter devotion? “i can’t stop thinking about you and you’re the most important part of my life”? CUTE AF.

basically what i’m trying to say with all of this is that “can’t have you” is either hypothetical (”this would mean nothing if i couldn’t have you”) or about his public persona (”i don’t like being famous when i can’t be with you and i’m trying to reassure you”)

i tend to think that the “too late” and the love declaration and the reassurance aspect of the song means that this is a conversation after a fight. idk this is just what it reads as to me, i think talking about your relationship’s place in your career is hard in that position and there’s bound to be some conflict and i think that that’s a conversation that shawn has had several times.

he said somewhere that they had the chorus first and then wrote the rest of the song around that, and if you just take the chorus in itself i think it fits this interpretation perfectly and they wrote the vague break-up references around it when they decided that’s the direction they wanted to take the song in. i think it’s also necessary to note that shawn didn’t write this song alone, even if it’s based off his life and his experiences so specific details don’t even rly have to match

ok. this was very long but it’s basically my view of the song, you can tell me if you agree or disagree and what your own opinion is!

[musuniverse]

@the-doctors-girlfriend okay, so bear with me cause i’m doing this after tonight’s ep and my thoughts are a jumbled mess, still tryna figure the ep out. here we go!

we got some ragnarsson content! now we can add to our ivar/hvitserk/ubbe theories! there was an interesting ivar/ubbe parallel with hvitserk. he’s on shaky/unstable ground with both brothers, and they both ended up putting a blade to his neck. it seems both ivar/ubbe had violent intent toward hvitserk, but they both ended up withdrawing (and i feel like there was a bit of hesitation on both ends). initially, it felt like the writers were giving hvitserk incentive to betray ivar or that ubbe didn’t kill hvitserk out of love--but ivar didn’t--to paint ubbe as the better brother. it’s hard to tell, though, why ivar didn’t. he might talk of how it was a mistake for hvitserk to come with him (which, when he was like, “i thought you came to me [aka chose me] because you loved me, but that’s not true” i felt bad for him. he hides behind this cold, hard shell, but he’s quite insecure on the inside), but maybe he was waiting for hvitserk to say something and prove him wrong (he did tell heahmund that he didn’t want to be right about how everyone betrays people basically). on the other hand, i took it as a sign that no matter where or who hvitserk is with, he’ll be stuck in the same, unstable position. his life’s at risk no matter where he chooses to remain. he’s basically at the mercy of both his brothers since they both chose to spare his life.

also, i felt bad for ivar when hvitserk cracked a joke about ivar’s chances of fathering children. i don’t know why hvitserk thought he’d be able to get away with it, but maybe he felt he'd earned enough of a place beside ivar to have immunity from his anger/pain. anyway, i quite liked the sequences they had for this ep, with the pre-battle and battle scenes. i interpreted it as reflecting their internal conflicts and what they’re fighting for (love, dreams, memories, family, etc.) as they were fighting. that’s why i found hvitserk’s a bit interesting because he still seems, in some ways, to be stuck in the middle, but the thing he thought of while in battle was the moment he chose to leave ubbe behind, ivar pulling a knife on him, and ivar not thinking he loves him. interestingly, in his vision, he sees ivar standing up with the blade to his neck (which, in reality, they were both sitting down when it happened), so maybe it reflects how he sees their relationship? like, they’re equals in everything now (hvitserk crouching down with ivar when rollo’s forces came in, sitting together, riding ivar’s chariot together, and now standing together)?  it’s interesting to try to figure out what he might’ve been struggling with or what it might say about why he’s fighting for and alongside ivar. for now, though, he’s still team ivar.

OKAY I JUST THOUGHT OF THIS RIGHT BEFORE I POSTED IT. but now that i think about it, after his vision, hvitserk gets up and faces ubbe. there’s something about his facial expression and body language that seemed almost like he was...challenging ubbe? but he didn’t try to defend himself, and the face he made when ubbe stopped short of lobbing his head off made it seem like he was trying to prove something to himself. maybe that, for all ubbe’s talk of “you’re my little brother” and so on, it’s just that: all talk. ubbe’s just as willing as ivar is to put a blade to his neck (and perhaps, they’re both just as willing to spare him), so now he doesn’t need to have regrets about his choice because he would’ve been in the same situation, either way. or maybe he was trying to prove something else to himself and ubbe, but idc at the moment.

okay, sooooo, one episode later and heahmund/lagertha still doesn’t make sense!! what was interesting, though, was when they first kissed, it looked like heahmund reciprocated it pretty eagerly. however, the second time they showed it (with lagertha’s sequence), it seemed like he was less enthused?? like i know i saw her tongue come out, but the dude barely moved or reacted to return it. also, heahmund nods at ivar from across the battlefield (which, i’m like what kind of laser eyesight cause they were hella far apart and to see each other from that distance is...wow), but i couldn’t quite read ivar’s expression--which is to be expected. he doesn’t wanna show all his eggs before they’ve hatched, but i mean, it didn’t look like he nodded back. i swear i saw his nostrils flare or a barely contained snarl or something, so it’s hard to tell if they were and still are in cahoots.

also... I CAN’T BELIEVE HARALD ACTUALLY KILLED HALFDAN!!! that’s all i can say about that lol i’m still a bit shocked that he actually stuck to his word on that. about rollo recognizing hvitserk after, like, ages...i guess blood recognizes blood lol, but looks like we’ll be getting rollo in 5B. okay, and about the (possible) hvitserk naked scene in kattegat...maybe it wasn’t cause he was taken prisoner? i mean, they won the battle, and bjorn assumes they’ll take kattegat soon, so...maybe there’s another reason for that??? like idk he’s havin a good time lol. also, bjorn’s new wife lasted all of 10 mins, like, it’s only been 2-3 eps and she’s already dead. what was her purpose? was it just so the writers had an excuse to bring these people in and secure an alliance for lagertha? and I ACTUALLY FORGOT ABOUT MAGNUS LOL i mean, on one hand, ragnar COULD have denied it to prevent giving ecbert power over him and something to hold over him to force a negotiation--which ragnar wouldn’t be interested in anyway--but maybe he told the truth. who knows? the writers seem to have left that story behind.

i found out hirst doesn’t have any brothers, but he apparently wrote the movies ‘elizabeth’ and ‘elizabeth: the golden age’ and i was like !!!!! those movies are the reason why i always have and always will picture cate blanchett as elizabeth i. like, idc about margot robbie playing her or whoever is playing her on reign. i was just so shocked!!

EDIT: AND ANOTHER THING! i just remembered that ivar referred to his men as “brothers” during his lil hype speech! which i feel like makes sense given his denouncement of brotherhood with ubbe. ubbe didn’t stand with him so =/= brother, but these men--his army--they stand with him, which means his army = his brothers. he knows they’re willing to die for him. i mean, they shielded him from the oncoming arrows, though he already didn’t seem too bothered by them anyway. all i could think was “who needs blood brothers when you have brothers in arms” (which could actually be, like, a whole new type of blood brother lol as in, spills blood for you, whether it’s his own or your enemy’s)

[bartsugsy]

I hope the use of Seal lyrics was intentional Lo (I mean I'm pretty sure it was lol) cos "my power my pleasure my pain" distracted me from the great meta (to be?) post you were making! But back on topic I feel you on all the unresolved shiz, I just don't think the show think anywhere near as deeply into it as us! I do think more effort is put into Robron (and Coira) then other couples which translates into longer story arcs, so there's still hope.. pleasure and pain... lol!

oh, yk i just can’t resist throwing nonsensical song lyrics into things 

the show definitely doesn’t think about this shit as deeply as we do because… well, they’ve got other characters to worry about and we’re all out here like HERE’S 200 WORDS OF META ON THE SIGN IN THE BACKGROUND OF A SCENE WHERE ROBERT AND AARON ARE MAKING OUT 

(i say we but that was me. i did that. I DID IT AND I STAND BY IT)

sometimes i do think though that… even if yes, ok, OK FINE, none of these scenes were made to withstand the level of in-depth scrutiny we put them under and no, i never needed to write a 3000 word essay on the confusing characterisation of rebecca white when she’s clearly, in the crudest terms, more plot device than representative of an understandable human and as such it’s all just sort of futile, but… sometimes, just sometimes, i think the bigger picture ideas aren’t actually necessarily off base

ok and i just got this ask from another anon, so hopefully neither of you mind, but i’m going to put this in here, because this ties in to the point i’m going to attempt to make (that’s really just me validating my inability to be succinct and my love of meta) lmao:

anonymous asked:

but i think - because its a soap - robert and aaron are never going to resolve any of their issues in a satisfying way. because if they were resolved and dealt with then the show wouldn’t be able to use those issues for drama. so i can’t really see their reunion addressing any of the january stuff tbh

on some level, i agree with you. i totally do. on another, broader-picture level, i think that… i think i’ve been surprised by the level of cohesiveness in the storytelling for aaron and robert - like, it’s not the most tightly constucted thing in the world by any means, and this is obviously coming out of me coming from the glee fandom, where we had literally no cohesiveness ever and so i’m probably just over-impressed by even the most marginal attempts to write a meaningfully constructed longer form story, but… but i think, given that it’s a soap and given how much content they need to produce and given the inconsistent treatment of a lot of the characters on the show, aaron and robert’s relationship does get a decent amount of care put into it, on the whole, and sometimes that’s visible in the storytelling - like sometimes, a scene will happen that just sort of… slots a lot of things into place and calls back to meta we’ve been writing the whole time and… idk. like, you really do just need to look at rebecca as a character and compare the writing for her over the past year with the writing for aaron and robert, who have much more consistent traits and motivations.  

i think this is why i like writing meta for this show. because sometimes there’s a pay off, where the show will specifically highlight things we’ve been talking about and examining and make them explicitly canon. it’s super satisfying. the heavy handedness works (for me) for this purpose. it’s like taking our meta and saying to everyone ‘oh hey, that thing you were reading into is exactly what we were going for’. and the general audience will do this as well - everyone will have an opinion on what’s happening beneath the surface of some stuff, it’s just that they might mention it off-hand to someone they’re watching the show with whereas we sit down and spend three hours typing up an argument to support it based entirely on how we’ve interpreted that last three years of canon and then use it to try and convince people to feel the same way lmaoooo. it’s awesome. but those bigger picture ideas that maybe aren’t called out specifically 

like… don’t get me wrong, i don’t believe in the idea that they’re going to call back specifically to the january argument and take a big, in-depth delve into why that specifically happened and why it was some sort of turning point that they ignored in favour of being together and how that ultimately went wrong… i can’t imagine that’s happening lmao, that’s absolutely what our meta is for (which is fine). like… i don’t see them calling back to the specifics in any meaningful way (at most we might get some dialogue parallels bc the show loves those, as we know lmao)

but like… ok, some of this is going to come back to how early on did the show know they were going to break aaron and robert up, in all honesty. we know that iain has been intending to get rid of the whites… probably since the time he started? going by the interviews he was giving at that time? we know rebecca was brought on with some sort of plan in place for her character (to get in between robron lmao). obviously we can sort of… like, chicken or the egg, what came first - lucy announcing she was pregnant and them realising that rob and aaron would have to get married quickly, or iain deciding to go max feeling exploitation and get two weddings out of robron? this is all random extrapolation on events we know, because we can’t pinpoint when it became clear to them that they were going to do a wedding, followed by a big break up, followed by a big reunion and culminating in another, ~~~~real (so to speak)~~ wedding. but at some point, that would have been firmly in their plans. 

the january argument -

ok. ok fuck it let’s meta the january argument even though i literally said i wasn’t going to and that i wanted to wait until they got back together idc i don’t listen to me she doesn’t know what’s up

the reason i love the january argument so much as a turning point within the larger overarching story they’ve been telling is because it works so well as this big flashing harbinger of doom that the boys both ignore - it’s built up specifically from problems they have been having since right before they got engaged 

and look, i wanna write meta about all the arguments they have firstly from the reunion until ssw and then from in between ssw to the january argument, because i think the stuff that takes place when rebecca is in the village is very pointedly building towards what ultimately happens in january

and i think it’s clever because when you watch it for the first time, the fact that aaron is ultimately driven to violence and puts kasim in hospital and then ultimately gets arrested is what you’re left thinking about - it totally draws attention away from the things aaron and robert are saying to one another and the way that their argument(s) echo previous fights they have had around rebecca and aaron not understanding rob’s bisexuality and rob’s tendency to lie and scheme and rob’s defensiveness around his schemes and how much he has changed and is trying to change vs how much aaron needs from him and just… the ways in which they’ve been slowly falling apart. 

(and ok at some point i will write my actual meta where i actually quote the dialogue instead of making vague references to it, although i usually feel like it’s a safe assumption to think that you guys know where i’m sort of pulling these ideas from when i talk about this shit - specifically, stuff i want to talk about includes the things aaron has said about rebecca and robert’s interactions with her, the moment robert talks about his scheme as something that is no longer about andy and absolutely about the money, aaron’s understanding of the robecca kiss, rob talking about how aaron can’t be happy and that he screws things up (which is horrible foreshadowing for kasim), rob yelling about aaron walking away from arguments and not recognising the change rob has made and the way that rob literally brushes his kiss with rebecca under the table, aaron literally saying that he doesn’t like the person he is around robert because of how things have played out with rebecca ec. etc.)

anyway, they just… i’ve fully written about this before, but the kasim stuff acts as a distraction both for robert and aaron - who, before aaron’s arrest, are having a tentative conversation where rob is gently pushing for them to still go to vegas to try and work things out and aaron is absolutely not convinced. after aaron gets arrested and then gets released, the next scene they have is aaron trying to give robert an easy out and robert point blank refusing - over the course of the three episodes, from aaron getting arrested to aaron giving the police a new statement, rob makes multiple references to fighting for their relationship even if aaron doesn’t think it’s a good idea - literally says that he’s not going to stop fighting for them, which is important but also sort of conveniently skims past the point that this argument didn’t occur in a vacuum and at no point have they faced up to what happened to bring them there between the two of them.

when, during the reveal, aaron says that rob was the one who pushed for this, you can sort of see where he’s coming from in a sense. i think aaron’s impending sentencing also made it harder for them to focus on what the real issue was (or rather, made it way easier to ignore, because they were too busy being terrified of losing one another) - but even then, rob decides to throw a surprise wedding because in canon we know that aaron is panicking about leaving robert and losing him completely - which is ultimately what happens, both exactly in the way aaron feared, but also not at all because rob’s motivation to cheat is, as we all know, entirely about aaron (or rather, about both rob’s feelings for aaron and rob’s horrible decision making/tendency towards lashing out impulsively when confronted with things he doesn’t know how to deal with like a normal human and fucking up his and other people’s lives in the process). aaron’s fears that rob would want someone else were unfounded but those fears also sort of led him to underestimate how much of a toll his getting sent to prison would have on robert and so, in the most perverse and unexpected way, his fears about what robert would do given rob’s behaviour up until that point, ended up being spot on.

all this is to make a point that the january argument played a massive role in robert and aaron getting married the first time round and also led them both down a road where they were distracted from what should have been the ultimate sign that things weren’t working and thus didn’t take the opportunity to fix it, rather let things get dangerously and disastrously out of control. i remember a lot of the meta around the time of the jan argument pointing out that things hadn’t been resolved and that they would be resolved at some point - i saw a lot of people talk about an immediate resolution. i think my instinct was that it would take them a little longer - maybe a month max, but that things would be worked out before the wedding. the fact that the wedding wasn’t legal was like this big red herring - it made us all believe that the only reason they’d have a second wedding would be to legalise things. but oh, oh no, no - little did we realise at that point that the whole first wedding was just another distraction (a very beautiful and romantic distraction, but a distraction nonetheless). the first wedding wasn’t a random break from the misery they’d had between that point and ssw, it was a symptom. once again, robert finding a way to push through their issues, to make it more about their love and the fact that they want to be together, and aaron following because that’s what he wanted too - neither of them wanted to deal head on with any of their shit.

uh, taking things right back to my original point of ‘how much of this will we actually see resolved when they get back together’ - i mean, it’s difficult to say? because on the one hand, it depends on what story the show wants to tell with them next and on the other, it depends whether they want to sort of just brush their issues under the carpet and pretend they never happened (worst case lmao). i think, though… i mean, i don’t know, i actually genuinely don’t want to speculate at all on what we’ll ultimately see because down that road leads madness and also an inevitability that we’ll all get it wrong, as we did before with both the jan argument and the purpose of the first wedding, for instance. i think, particularly because it is something i’m looking forward to, i also don’t want to put any expectations on it, really? i’d rather just watch it as open-mindedly as possible. which is also why i want to wait until after i watch it until i really write my meta around this break up, because then i can sort of shape my opinions about what we’ve been shown and where they’ve taken things. i don’t want to try and assume they’ll deal with x or they won’t deal with y or they’ll have them do this or whatever.

having said that!!! that doesn’t stop us from looking at what’s been done so far - the wedding, prison and the ons happened over six months ago now, so we’ve got enough distance from it to say that… look, rob and aaron had so much misery and so many problems from ssw onwards and they ended up going through a massive break up. so big-picture wise, it’s logical that all that misery was intentional. it wasn’t just fuelling the andy plot or whatever, it was there as a build up to ultimately splitting aaron and rob up and making it last a while (even if they hadn’t decided at that point to actually break them up - it’s chicken and egg, they would have known what they’d put them through up until that point and understood that this could realistically ultimately lead to a break up). the january argument wasn’t resolved because it couldn’t be, because that would be counter-productive to the eventual plan of separating them. the first wedding was rushed and not legal and the reason for it being held was literally LITERALLY bc aaron was afraid rob would cheat - because again, that wedding wasn’t going to be the one that lasted. there had to be problems there.

basically - yes we absolutely put more thought into this shit than the show does but that doesn’t necessarily mean that the thought we put into it is… wrong? or will lead to us not feeling satisfied? because the way that things have gone wrong with robron so far have led to a break up. it feels like a safe assumption that they’re not going to go through a massive break up again after they get back together at the beginning of 2018, so on some level somewhere, it seems like a safe assumption that we’re not going to have rob kissing his ex to get money, or aaron doing a miserable 6 week prison stint, or robert knocking someone up etc. basically, i guess what i’m saying is… the pain wasn’t for nothing? it was there to play a function in the story and while i doubt that aaron and rob are gonna get back together and the show is gonna be like ‘ok well their problems are fixed now so that’s nice’, they’re going to be writing with a different eventual goal to the one they’ve had this year?

this wasn’t even ur original question i just took this to an entirely different place lmao. sorry. i guess what i’m trying to say is i’m not particularly concerned about getting a final resolution on rob and aaron’s issues, but the writing for them will change as the direction of their story changes, so. the reason i’m waiting is more because i’m waiting for that direction to stop being “keep them apart” and start being “get them back on track and prove they can be together”. which is sort of… the next step? i guess? regardless of whether or not they have problems (and it’s a soap so u know they will), the story needs to shift from a break up to a big second wedding - the one that you assume will last more than a month (because they’re not stupid - they know there’s only so much you can wring out of a thing and they’re already pushing it). so… yeah. that’s what i mean when i talk about this particular storyline wrapping up.

i could just keep that last paragraph and delete the rest and you would still have your answer but im obviously not going to do that.

[teenmomtruths]

My Weekly Thoughts

Yes, Javi did admit he not only came over unannounced and uninvited, he Hopped The Fence!! And when he came in, he said there were shoes and clothes everywhere and he asked Kail what had happened, why tf is the house so messy? Um, none of your fucking business! He doesn’t live there; it Would be scary to come out of the bathroom and there’s your hulking ex-husband ranting about the mess. Kail didn’t say Isaac said he was scared, Jo did. Because Kail called the police, since Javi refused to leave, and then called Jo to come get Isaac. Jo said Isaac said it scared him and he didn’t like that. I thought Vee downplayed it but she’d feel differently if it were her home and her child scared. That was when Kail asked Jo to tell Javi because of all this he couldn’t be alone with Isaac anymore, for now. Jo literally said, ok..goddammit. Lol. Javi laughingly told his friends about hopping the fence. That’s psycho stalker behavior and it’s not ok. The cops asked if Kail had anything in writing saying he couldn’t be there, since it technically was still his house, she didn’t, and there wasn’t anything they could do. But the fact that Javi stayed on and ranted and made her call the cops before he would leave is crazy. And him saying shit about how the house looks is yet another example of his compulsive, controlling behavior. You would think Kail learned her lesson about getting pregnant by someone you really don’t know that well. Idc if they were married, they still met, married and conceived in a very short period of time. It takes years to really know if you’re going to work. At least date two years. Chelsea, so far, has just been lucky in that with Cole. At least she waited 6 months to introduce Aubree; Kail had Isaac saying I love you to Javi within 6 months. Kail also said on the aftershow that she was sick as a dog for the first 12 weeks of her pregnancy and wasn’t at all with either boy, so maybe it is a girl. And maybe she’s already showing how different that will be :)

Jace came into Jenelle’s house, sat down and immediately picked up the Xbox controller and started playing. I think he looks at her place as the ‘fun’ place (most of the time), where he’s largely left alone and allowed to do whatever he wants. Sharing custody with my nieces’ and nephew’s paternal aunt has taught me about that one. They act completely different, by all accounts, at either home. She’s always frazzled, yelling, has no control. She lets them run wild and talk back and regularly feeds them cereal for supper. At our house, while they are allowed freedom outside, since we live in the country, they have rules. They have to eat a good meal or they don’t get a snack. If they don’t eat their veggies etc, they get a banana, apple or whatever instead of ice cream or cookies for snack. I don’t argue with them. I tell them what to do and they do it. If they start to talk back they get time out or some consequence. And they are so much easier to deal with. Because the rules are clear, they know what to expect, and they know I don’t play. This makes them torn. On the one hand, they enjoy the freedom they have at her house to skip a bath, eat cereal, talk back. On the other, they thrive on a schedule and knowing what’s coming. They’re so much calmer that way and I keep trying to tell her, don’t get down to their level. If they tell you to shut up, you don’t scream, no You shut up! You calmly tell them they don’t speak to adults that way and to go to their room. It works so much better but she keeps doing it her way and keeps texting me all the time all upset. It’s frustrating. I just hope having them Fri-Sun will be enough to instill good hygiene and eating habits etc, to make a difference. They Love corn and green beans! And they’re like .50 a can at Walmart, how freaking hard is it to warm up a can of corn to go with supper? Ok, I'ma stop now. :) Ohhhh, but Jace’s face during that whole conversation :( You could just tell he was thinking, this is my fault, it’s about me. Esp with Jenelle screaming she only gets stressed out over her mom and Jace. Good job Juhnelle. If that text from Nathan about moving to England and signing over his rights is real, OMG. Shows how impulsive and unstable he is, again. I can’t believe he’d even consider just leaving Kai and signing over all rights. That would show he really only cares about himself.

I thought Chelsea ordering the baby was a little over the top. Cole was a good sport about it, but as she said, she’s the one whose going to be breastfeeding and getting up at night. So why make him get up several times with a crying, mechanical baby when he has work the next day? She can be a little controlling too. But baby Watson is just beyond adorable and I love the things she buys for him, too cute!

This is from last week, but someone mentioned Leah’s grandma saying have Germy sign over Addie and do it alone. I couldn’t believe she was telling Leah that. I get it’s frustrating for him to change times, but it’s not grounds to keep Addie away from him and her have no father. I was glad Leah didn’t even consider it. Her mom and grandma are crazy. Leah seems to realize that now and she is doing so much better as a mom and in thinking for herself. She must’ve decided on college instead of cosmetology because of the schedule, mostly. It would’ve required Saturday hours and her missing time with the girls. In any case, it’s awesome she’s staying un-pregnant and starting college. I hope she sees it thru and continues on this path. My only criticism would be that she needs to stop discussing Ali’s life span in front of Ali. Ali doesn’t need to know right now that she may not live to get married and go to college. Kids come up with enough to worry about on their own. She might interpret it as, omg, I could die any day!

------------------------------------------------ Another great recap 🙌🏻🙌🏻

[nikastormborn-blog]

My Weekly Thoughts

Yes, Javi did admit he not only came over unannounced and uninvited, he Hopped The Fence!! And when he came in, he said there were shoes and clothes everywhere and he asked Kail what had happened, why tf is the house so messy? Um, none of your fucking business! He doesn’t live there; it Would be scary to come out of the bathroom and there’s your hulking ex-husband ranting about the mess. Kail didn’t say Isaac said he was scared, Jo did. Because Kail called the police, since Javi refused to leave, and then called Jo to come get Isaac. Jo said Isaac said it scared him and he didn’t like that. I thought Vee downplayed it but she’d feel differently if it were her home and her child scared. That was when Kail asked Jo to tell Javi because of all this he couldn’t be alone with Isaac anymore, for now. Jo literally said, ok..goddammit. Lol. Javi laughingly told his friends about hopping the fence. That’s psycho stalker behavior and it’s not ok. The cops asked if Kail had anything in writing saying he couldn’t be there, since it technically was still his house, she didn’t, and there wasn’t anything they could do. But the fact that Javi stayed on and ranted and made her call the cops before he would leave is crazy. And him saying shit about how the house looks is yet another example of his compulsive, controlling behavior. You would think Kail learned her lesson about getting pregnant by someone you really don’t know that well. Idc if they were married, they still met, married and conceived in a very short period of time. It takes years to really know if you’re going to work. At least date two years. Chelsea, so far, has just been lucky in that with Cole. At least she waited 6 months to introduce Aubree; Kail had Isaac saying I love you to Javi within 6 months. Kail also said on the aftershow that she was sick as a dog for the first 12 weeks of her pregnancy and wasn’t at all with either boy, so maybe it is a girl. And maybe she’s already showing how different that will be :)

Jace came into Jenelle’s house, sat down and immediately picked up the Xbox controller and started playing. I think he looks at her place as the ‘fun’ place (most of the time), where he’s largely left alone and allowed to do whatever he wants. Sharing custody with my nieces’ and nephew’s paternal aunt has taught me about that one. They act completely different, by all accounts, at either home. She’s always frazzled, yelling, has no control. She lets them run wild and talk back and regularly feeds them cereal for supper. At our house, while they are allowed freedom outside, since we live in the country, they have rules. They have to eat a good meal or they don’t get a snack. If they don’t eat their veggies etc, they get a banana, apple or whatever instead of ice cream or cookies for snack. I don’t argue with them. I tell them what to do and they do it. If they start to talk back they get time out or some consequence. And they are so much easier to deal with. Because the rules are clear, they know what to expect, and they know I don’t play. This makes them torn. On the one hand, they enjoy the freedom they have at her house to skip a bath, eat cereal, talk back. On the other, they thrive on a schedule and knowing what’s coming. They’re so much calmer that way and I keep trying to tell her, don’t get down to their level. If they tell you to shut up, you don’t scream, no You shut up! You calmly tell them they don’t speak to adults that way and to go to their room. It works so much better but she keeps doing it her way and keeps texting me all the time all upset. It’s frustrating. I just hope having them Fri-Sun will be enough to instill good hygiene and eating habits etc, to make a difference. They Love corn and green beans! And they’re like .50 a can at Walmart, how freaking hard is it to warm up a can of corn to go with supper? Ok, I'ma stop now. :) Ohhhh, but Jace’s face during that whole conversation :( You could just tell he was thinking, this is my fault, it’s about me. Esp with Jenelle screaming she only gets stressed out over her mom and Jace. Good job Juhnelle. If that text from Nathan about moving to England and signing over his rights is real, OMG. Shows how impulsive and unstable he is, again. I can’t believe he’d even consider just leaving Kai and signing over all rights. That would show he really only cares about himself.

I thought Chelsea ordering the baby was a little over the top. Cole was a good sport about it, but as she said, she’s the one whose going to be breastfeeding and getting up at night. So why make him get up several times with a crying, mechanical baby when he has work the next day? She can be a little controlling too. But baby Watson is just beyond adorable and I love the things she buys for him, too cute!

This is from last week, but someone mentioned Leah’s grandma saying have Germy sign over Addie and do it alone. I couldn’t believe she was telling Leah that. I get it’s frustrating for him to change times, but it’s not grounds to keep Addie away from him and her have no father. I was glad Leah didn’t even consider it. Her mom and grandma are crazy. Leah seems to realize that now and she is doing so much better as a mom and in thinking for herself. She must’ve decided on college instead of cosmetology because of the schedule, mostly. It would’ve required Saturday hours and her missing time with the girls. In any case, it’s awesome she’s staying un-pregnant and starting college. I hope she sees it thru and continues on this path. My only criticism would be that she needs to stop discussing Ali’s life span in front of Ali. Ali doesn’t need to know right now that she may not live to get married and go to college. Kids come up with enough to worry about on their own. She might interpret it as, omg, I could die any day!

[purple-possibilities]

11 More Questions

First mate @letliv3 tagged me back, so here I am again with TMI. This got really long, so buckle up lovelies!

1. What is your favorite movie soundtrack and why?

I have two movie soundtracks on my phone. One is the soundtrack for Sweeney Todd (the one with Johnny Depp—is that how you spell his name? Idc) which I love because the lyrics are clever and I have been a member of many choirs in my life and we’ve sang this musical. The other is for Sucker Punch, the movie with the girl in a school girl outfit and a katana, because there are awesome covers of amazing songs, and they’re so relaxing omg. But other than those, I don’t really pay attention to movie soundtracks. But wait, hang on! When Batman Forever (I think? One of the Batmans from the 90s) came out, my brother, who was is obsessed with Batman bought it, and we used to listen to it all the time. So for nostalgia sake, that one. Kiss From a Rose is like, the greatest song (we never really listened past that track lol!)

2. What is your favorite smell and why?

I like French Lavender because it just smells nice, but the best smell is a mixture of freshly cut wood and sawdust, metal and tools, the dark green Polo cologne, fresh, crisp spring air and a hint of cigarette smoke. That’s how my dad used to smell when I was a child. He doesn’t smell like that anymore. A few years ago, when I was walking under a construction site, I got a whiff of it. From what seemed like a dream I was slammed with childhood emotions, memories of love and safety, bike riding on Saturday afternoons that ended with cherry-flavoured popsicles, laying in a pile, squished on the couch, wrapped up in blankets and surrounded by pillows on top of my dad, while my mom joked about us being as lazy as the lions we were watching on the Discovery Channel. It was a piece of nostalgia wafting over on the breeze. If I could bottle it, I would in a heartbeat.

3. If you could eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?

ONLY one? Forever? Ugh I would totally hate that food after a week. So let’s go with something healthy and maybe with a variety of ingredients so I could pick some out if I got bored. But my fav food is hot and sour soup, which doesn’t have much variety. I think actually I’d pick steak. Because you could marinate it differently, but even if you were limited to salt and pepper, you can still make it taste different enough. And different cuts taste different so I’m gonna cheat that way. I will greatly miss that soup though.

4. What teacher has most influenced you in your life?

Good or bad or memorable?

Good: my grade 7 science teacher subtly told me off for being a judgemental 12/13 year old and I still feel the shame of that sharp glance and flat retort. I’ve been much kinder since then.

Bad: my grade 11 art teacher made me feel worthless because the art I produced didn’t fit his idea of how he thought I should be interpreting his ridiculous prompts. I had to do a mixed media piece which explained “The Economic Crisis in China.” And my interpretation wasn’t “art,” but the person who got to chose their topic, chose “Global Warming,” and painted a tiny polar bear in the centre of a canvas with a white background got an A+. I’m not bitter at all, what are you talking about? I hated that he wouldn’t talk about it with me. He expected me to know what he wanted and to just do it, and that’s such a horrible thing for any teacher. In my whole life I have never disliked a teacher. I even like the teachers that everyone else calls hardasses. He and I just didn’t get along.

Memorable: My grade 11 English teacher gets an honourable mention because he was a babe and damn if I didn’t have the hugest crush on him. We used to get into conversations about the origins of words and the history of language and if that isn’t what makes the ideal man then idk what is. Talk nerdy to me 😘

5. Who was your idol as a child? Why did you admire this person?

Samus Aran, from the Metroid video game series. That was my favourite video game, my dad’s fav game, my bro, my male cousins, my uncles…everyone in the family loves that series. It was about a bounty hunter in a set of impressive, head-to-toe armour, who was just the biggest badass; a human trained by an extinct alien species to use their advanced technology and weapons. And the major “reveal” of the game? Samus is a woman. There were no female characters that were playable back then, or that weren’t just princesses that needed saving. There was no game more fun to play, that was as unanimously loved (in my small world) than Super Metroid. And I wanted to be her. We had the same colour hair (they’re changed her design now which upsets the little girl in me) and I wanted to be a badass bounty hunter that defeated space aliens and had the last being of an alien species—that was typically a deadly menace—imprint on me and think I was it’s mother. Little girls have strange dreams ok, and honestly I don’t think that dream will ever leave me. I want to cosplay as her one day, I just have to get the confidence to do so.

6. What kind of coloring books go you like? The simple and succinct ones or the intricate and detailed ones?

Eh, well I’m an artist so I much prefer to draw. But both have their ups and downs. The intricate ones can be very relaxing, as you can easily colour in pleasing patterns. But the simple ones give you more space to “freestyle” so to speak. But I love co-op colouring with children. When my cousins were super young I used to draw them pictures to colour in, and their mom has kept them all.

7. What are your go-to pair of shoes?

Slip on flats, when the weather permits it. I can take them on and off without any fuss, no ties or buckles. I have a pair now from sketchers which are plain black…something. They’re accidentally (yes, accidentally is the right word) construction shoes. They can withstand over 30k volts of electricity or something, idfk I don’t understand safety shoes. All I know is that I’m not getting electrocuted any time soon. Try me, lightening. I dare you! ⚡️⛈🌩

8. What would you name your Direwolf if you had one?

I want to say “Lucky” only because those guys don’t have much, but if we’re not being superstitious, then probably “Paul.” Because of a Family Guy joke.

9. If you could change one event in the past, what would it be? (It doesn’t have to involve you in any way.)

I…I’m really sorry, but I can’t answer this with complete honesty. My first and second responses are too personal. But my third? Hmm, if I’m being selfish, I’d close my eyes (so vague mwahaha). If not…there’s too many to chose. So many tragedies the world has faced, I can’t choose one that weighs heavier than any other, or would make the biggest impact. Because you also have to consider that some good came out of those tragedies. And if you stopped one event, then whatever tensions were being built up would just break at another time. Maybe I’d stop a natural disaster from occurring, save a bunch of lives. I’d actually love it if the Library of Alexandria still existed, or the Colossus of Rhodes wasn’t destroyed by an earthquake, or that giant statue of Athena that used to be in the Parthenon wasn’t torn down…I have a soft spot for pieces of history that were destroyed.

10. What is your favorite memory you have with your group of friends?

Not my current group, or a group really. But my fav memory with a friend is with my first roommate in university. We bought a pumpkin to carve for Halloween that turned into a ridiculous photo shoot featuring pumpkin entrails, pizza, and the stars of CSI New York on our shitty tv.

11. If you could become part of your favorite series/ movie etc. would you?

Well, first I have to pick a favourite, which is just impossible. But for the sake of the question, since I’m very involved with the Naruto fandom atm, I suppose I’ll just use that in place of “favourite.” On the one hand, it seems like a drag. Any war-torn place seems horrible in comparison to this world. But then again, magical powers are pretty sick. Would I be born into the world, or transported there? Would I have powers, or be just normal me? Would I have “foresight” based on my knowledge of the series, or be a “tabula rasa?” So many things to consider! When in the series would I be injected? Post the Fourth War, sign me up as I am now, and even as a civvy; so long as there’s some Rokudaime in my life I’ll be fine 😜. Before that? Ehhh…it depends. I’d probably miss everyone in my life over here, and with no guarantee that I’d make new bonds in the new world…ok so I’d def want my friends and family there (well, some of them lol). So maybe, depending on the situation when I got there. Which is pretty much a non-answer. Sorry!

I’m not making more questions or tagging anyone since I’ve done it once already. If you want to answer the questions I laid out in the last one, or answer these questions, just tag me! I’d love to read people’s responses. It’s all so fascinating!

[sleepymarmot]

MEA liveblog #8

I finished it! I’m free!

Multiplayer

Hell yeah level 9/10 rank I asari adept -- full extraction and top score on a silver APEX mission with bonus to combos! Against outlaws, but still. And I got an outlaw badge for it!

Yoo, two human female vanguard cards! And my Charger is now at X!

Looked up my statistics:

Dialogue:

Interrupts: 11

Casual: 151

Emotional: 187

Logical: 206

Professional: 187

Kills:

Kett: 983

Outlaws: 857

Remnant: 520

Wildlife: 377

Holy shit, the Pathfinder killed almost as many former Initiative members as the Initiative's enemies...

Melee: 276

Assault rifle: 60

Pistol: 135

Shotgun: 100

Sniper rifle: 59

Biotic: 679

Combat? Force?: 0

Tech: 316

Jump: 5

Construct: 35 (wow)

Combos: 777

Hello patch 1.05

Why did they remove the priming icon from Throw? Does it not prime anymore?! 

Good news: Throw still primes. Idk why they removed the button. Like misinforming their players?

Bad news: the game is super laggy. Did I set my graphics too high?

The fusion mod perk is still broken!

No, I don't have a new email, SAM! I got one from Peebee, very cute but referring to I don't know what.

Multiplayer

Kroguard level 7/rank I successfully extracted from Silver!

Maxed out Avenger and Katana, goodbyeeeee

Singleplayer

Fuck, I opened all my reward boxes and then realized the game loaded the autosave with the still-bugged fusion mod support :( Goodbye all my rewards ughh

I lowered the graphics to default but the game still keeps stuttering... I don't understand

Peebee on Voeld: "I should have dressed warmer" Sigh, once again game writers blame their sexist costume designs on female characters who have to wear them...

Finally I got to hear PB&J's conversations about asari reproduction myself...

SAM asked me about my romance and I picked the sappy option because it was the safest...

Journey to Meridian

I don't like how the patch changed my Ryder's face. The lips are too narrow and round now.

Damn, I should have taken Jaal. I knew the spoiler though. Want to know what from? A freaking side romance video I clicked because I was sure something so inconsequential wouldn't have spoilers. Ha!

Peebee says something like "They created life but the Archon wants to destroy it!!" in the most melodramatic tone. Ugh! The tendency to say overly sweet things like this is the worst part of her character.

Ha, screw you ascendant! I'm a bit offended that my rifle doesn't one-shot his orb. Ah well, I'm not wearing any weapon damage bonuses...

Oh, a Destroyer and a Fiend are fighting each other? Good, I'm not going to get involved.

The Destroyer won and came for us but had the decency to open up its chest as it turned to face us lol

I'm overusing Bio-converter + Life Support like hell on this mission lol... Too many bosses

lol nullifiers im not scared of you

Why is my mouth so small! It's bothering me.

Tempest

Lexi doesn't want to talk to me lol. Can't interact with her

Jaal's door is closed, I knew he'd have a lot to say

Well this conversation was saccharine. Jaal are you a positivity machine?!

Don't you "love" how you can go through the entire game not knowing that Gil is gay?! There's even a dialogue option about him "loving" Jill! This entire dialogue tree is a mess. At least everyone on tumblr has ranted about that so I don't have a lot to add. But even if you (try to) set the homophobia aside it's a mess. He talks about fathering a friend's child and you can't even be surprised because usually only romantic couples start families? And you can't even disapprove really, the most negative thing is "it's crazy" said in an awed, surprised tone of voice.

Cora I took you to Meridian and you have nothing to say?

More forum threads! And a shitload of emails!

Aw, Liam is such a good vivid character -- both the conversation and the email are great. I love his email attachments. I mean I'm still angry at him about the stupid, irresponsible, dangerous shit he did in his personal storyline, but he's definitely the most engaging of the male starter companions in ME.

Here's the Movie Night continuation, I was starting to worry it was broken...

The ship's doctor asks me to buy some booze on the Citad--the Nexus, why does it sound so familiar

Let's appreciate the fact that the "golden worlds" are not just inhabited -- they were created for someone other than us! The Initiative has even fewer rights to them than initially thought.

I'm glad Bioware sped up the galaxy map (not surprising after that kind of outrage) but the stupid and vertigo-inducing camera turns and pans are still there.

Btw I preferred my own more abstract interpretation of the Scourge as the Chaos to the Remnant's Order. Now they look even more mundane. As if the mystery and awe didn't already evaporate after about the second vault because they're all the same thing with slightly different puzzles!

Nexus

What?! I don't get to actually play with Drack, Kesh and Vorn?! What's the point then?

Keri where are you? I can hear your voice but it's coming from nowhere.

Oh my god I can see Kandros's purple tongue through the hole between his jaws(?)

Tempest

Well at least I could get Gil a date!

Am I like... supposed to give a shit about Jaal? I mean Ryder is getting all emotional no matter what I choose and I'm sitting here like "idc". And I don't want to bash such a nice person, it feels mean to dislike someone for doing nothing wrong, but that's the problem, he's so bland. From the promotional videos I assumed that Peebee would be the irritating designated best friend/love interest like Liara, but it's mostly Jaal.

Tempest again -- after a week-long break

Why couldn't Bioware add a "take all rewards" button? Why do I have to spend 10 minutes clicking “space”?

Ah yes, Bioware's trademark mashing naked dolls together! When Peebee's eyes flashed black it was pretty creepy.

Movie Night requires one more step... After the main mission, then.

Great, another galaxy map fetch quest -_-

Yoo finally the point of no return!

The final mission

Fine, I'll take you Jaal for plot relevance, though I'll probably miss Cora's Shield Boost...

Playing as my twin is cool, but why is he underpowered? Trying to kill a single mook with no powers and that tiny pistol was torture...

Where's Peebee? On the bridge?

Why open the equipment screen but not let me change the squad? It made sense to take the Science Team PB&J to the Meridian, but not to take back an ark! It makes no sense! I'm on my ship with everyone, but can't choose a new team?

Ah, so it was a romantic goodbye with the LI, and I didn't have to choose the "schmaltzy" version to make it more personal? Damn.

Ughh, so much lag... It's not fun to fight when fps falls below 10 sometimes.

The final fight is so badly designed. Apparently I have to hold ground at the quest marker position, but it's not explained clearly, and the circle doesn't appear until you're almost done. I jumped into the abyss several times because the quest marker was hanging over it.

Ah yes, Meridian, home for the humanity. Despite the fact it was clearly built for the Angara... Ugh!!

I don't get it. We're selecting a representative of whom? The entire cluster? The Nexus? It's bullshit.

Oh, this wheel is confusing. So each candidate is assigned to a "tone", when I first click it it's a question, if I click for the second time it confirms the selection. 

Hmm, my first choice was the Moshae, but maybe Morda?

Went with the Moshae. Thankfully, Ryder said exactly what I wanted to say! Haha, Addison: "That's the point, you colonial wad"

This human woman got a name from Quarian godparents?? That's a thing? Okay.

I don't understand how Ryder could use the Remnant without SAM. Has SAM changed her brain enough that it's now superhuman even without SAM's active involvement?

Oooh, interesting email. I haven't thought of angaran reincarnation as a designed feature to carry extra information in DNA. So they can be genetic hard drives -- again, like the kett? This has got to mean something. And angara "remembering" how to use the Meridian, or being sleeper agents? I demand a big storyline in the sequel about this!

Um. Using the Remnant involves not just a connection, but moving your consciousness into them? Okaaaay. That doesn't sound ominous at all. This entire terminal is like a sequel teaser...

Yeah Jaal, I can't stop joking because everyone is being so sugary sweet and I can't bear it anymore

The Moshae doesn't sound too excited about her new job... :(

The Quarian-Volus-Elcor-Hanar arc! Yoo! Sequel or DLC?

"Seeing you in cahoots makes me all misty" I don't know which is worse, the line itself or the delivery...

Aw, the science team are all in the same lab! ...With the dancers. What?

Tempest

Peebee sent an email saying she wants to explore the galaxy "with or without me". Aw.

Okay, I'm tired, let's leave The World is Waiting and Movie Night for tomorrow.

Watched alternate dialogue choices on Youtube.

I chose the casual option to rally the fleet, but logical is good too. But I think that after watching her brother being kidnapped and tortured, Ryder doesn't have the patience to be inspirational...

The emotional option as you walk out victorious is addressed to your LI! And Peebee's reply made me laugh and clap: "And now they all know you're mine!" And they walk away hand in hand. Aw.

Can’t find logical and professional options for the goodbye with Peebee before the final mission :( Not a fan of emotional and casual.

Oh. I thought Habitat-7 would have something more than one cutscene...

My edition of the Movie Night glitch: Ryder was simply invisible. Peebee was embracing thin air. So much for romance.

The funniest thing, tbh, was that Ryder leveled up when the scene ended.

Aaaaand now I'm free! 92%, 97,5 hours. I still have some sidequests to do, but let's leave them until later.  

[nostalgiaispeace]

389.

5,000 Question Survey–Part twenty-seven

2501. what image, scent, memory, etc. would you take with you into the dark/light, the land of dead, heaven, infinity…..? the smell of a forest.

2502. Who is the most annoying musical artist EVER? Taylor Swift...Justin Beiber....Demi Lovato...Miley Cyrus 2503. If you HAD to go to one of the following concerts, which would it be: Snow Vanilla Ice NKOTB Milli Vanilli BSB NSYNC

2504. Do you believe in manifest destiny? no... 2505. Have you ever fallen for an email forwarding hoax (send this to 13 people and old navy will send you a $200.00(100 pound) gift card)? Do you ever think ‘well, maybe…’ and actually forward those damn things? no; no

2506. Let’s say there are 2 schools. one for boys and one for girls. They are both supposed to offer the same facilities so that the girls and boys get equal education. Would you take this to mean that the same courses should be offered to both girls and boys or that the same amount of money should be spent on each school? both?

Imagine that in the boys school fifteen boys sign up for calculus. In the girls school only five girls sign up for calculus. Should the girls calculus class be dissolved and replaced with an easier one? no.. 2507. Would it bother you if you found out that the fruits, vegetables, and meat that you eat is genetically altered (in lots of cases it is!)? they are tho... 2508. What does this world need? peace. 2509. Is there anything you do just because you want to even though it has no redeeming social value? yes...tumblr lol

2510. If you drink what kind of drunk are you? i don’t really drink. 2511, Do you ever 'conveniently’ forget something you don’t want to remember? yeah... 2512. If you have any cousins are you close? no 2513. Are you in love with yourself (your beautiful self)? not at all. 2514. What was the first movie you got on dvd? i think Lilo and Stitch tbh 2515. If you’re sexy and you know it clap your hands. Did you clap? no 2516. have you ever called a: psychic hotline? no suicide crisis line? i’ve dont an online chat one. sex line? no dating line? no 2517. have you ever placed a personal ad anywhere? yeah 2518. Do guys look good in make up? sometimes. 2519. What are 5 things you don’t care about? - 2520. What are you going to do until you die? read books; watch movies; sing. 2521. What 'issue’ do you think your opinion is so right about that you end up trying to sway others to your point of view? mental health stigma 2522. What age do you hope to live until? don’t care. 2523. Do you like to tie others down during sex? no

Have you ever been tied down? no 2524. Do you own any “toys”? yes

Do you ever use them? yes

2525. Have you ever been spanked in that sexy way? no

Have you ever spanked anyone else? No.

2526. Do these questions make you uncomfortable? kinda

Do you like that feeling? no?

Does it turn you on? no..... 2527. You know those ___ for dummies books (COMPTERS FOR DUMMIES, SURFING FOR DUMMIES, GOLDF FOR DUMMIES, WICCA FOR DUMMIES)? yes Which one do you need to read? none. 2528. What do your socks look like? white 2529. Which of these really famous music artists started their career as a mime: no clue...

Alice Cooper David Bowie Bruce Springsteen Moby Jewel Frank Zappa

2530. Does love float away if you let go? probably? 2531. Do you think that most people in today’s society are: kind? no calm? no humble? no peaceful? no helpful? no happy? no spiritual? yes creative? yes friendly? no independent? yes intelligent? some? having fun? no clue coming up with new ideas? yes able to think for themselves? no able to really connect with others? maybe?

If you answered no to any of the above, why do you think that is? experience.

2532. Do you believe that every action has a sexual motive (think Freud)? no 2533. Speaking of Freud, did you know he was on drugs (think cocaine)? don’t care. 2534. Do you trust psychology as a valid science? yes 2535. ID: In Freudian theory, the division of the psyche that is totally unconscious and serves as the source of instinctual impulses and demands for immediate satisfaction of primitive needs(sex, food, aggressive behavior, drugs, alcohol, yelling, anger, fighting). SUPEREGO: In Freudian theory, the division of the unconscious that is formed through the internalization of moral standards of parents and society, and that censors and restrains the ego. So, which one do you express more, your ID or your SUPEREGO? superego 2536. Do you think that people who are alone and depressed are depressed because they are alone or alone because they are depressed? neither. they have a mental illness. 2537. Can you complete any of the following lyrics: I stop and I stare too much, afraid that I care too much… - You’re a new and better man, he helps you to understand,He does everything he can, he’s…. - Took the needles from my arms and put them to the sky… - Top Gun shut down your Firm like Tom Cruise…. - Don’t you take it so hard now, And please don’t take it so bad…. - 2538. How about these? From around the way, born in '73, Harcore B-boy named… - And this feeling shivers down your spine, Love comes in colors I can’t deny…. - Before he hung up the phone he took a deep breath, stopped, and replied…. - When I want you in my arms, when I want you and all your charms, whenever I want you all I have to do is… - Silly games that you were playing, empty words we both were saying… -

2539. Have you ever been to see a ballet? maybe 2540. What is the difference between Satan and Pan? - 2541. What should a poem be or do if it is a successful poem? ? 2542. When you interpret a poem can each line mean anything you want it to? i’m sure? 2543. Are you an orgasm addict? i like them but naw 2544. Are you a sugar junkie? yes 2545. What are you doing? this and watching The Purge Anarchy

Why aren’t you marching in line with the rest of them? ? 2546. Do you only hear what you want to? sure 2547. Are you anal-retentive? ? 2548. In and Out Over and Under Around and ???

WHAT 2549. What was the last thing you returned to the store? - 2550. Why ask why? to learn

2551. What is your favorite song or artist that is: jazz: Ill Wind - Billie Holuda metal: suicide season - BMTH rock: Since I’ve been loving you - Zeppelin new wave: - psychadelic: - 2552. What are your feelings about: Picasso? - Van Gogh? - Michaelangelo? i like his work D'Vincci? interesting Einstein? he’s cool Tesla? -

2553. Who else can you think of that made a MAJOR contribution to art or science? - 2554. Who can you think of that made a major contribution to modern thought? - 2555. Why is it called 'coca cola’? no idea. 2556. Would you ever buy a Ford car? i have 2557. Donald or Daffy duck? none 2558. What is the most memorable thing about Pee-Wee Herman? - 2559. Lease or buy a car? which i could buy 2560. Have you met Real Talkin’ Bubba? no

Do you love him to death? - 2561. Have you ever been in a situation where you weren’t sure if you were seducing or being seduced? no 2562. Can you 'pinch an inch’ on your belly? - 2563. Have you ever been to: a temple? no a bar? yes a massage parlor? no 2564. Would you ever want to visit Thailand? Sure. 2565. What culture are you fascinated by? European 2566. Have you ever worn a cape? naw 2567. What is the difference between 'nude’ and 'naked’? I don’t care

2568. What can you get for a dollar (.59 brittish pounds)? a soda from the vending machine 2569. What makes you who you are? everything 2570. How do you search for meaning in life? i don’t 2571. If your partner collected internet porn pics of celebs s/he thought was hot would that bother you? no. 2572. You are alone with your lover’s diary. What do you do? ? 2573. You read some and find out that a whhhiiillle back your lover had a crush on someone else, but you two were together. You both still hang out with this person. What do you do? nope. fuck that bitch. 2574. Are you an old fart? basically. 2575. What were your favorite things to do in the yard as a kid? play 2576. Why don’t people have more fun? no idea? 2577. Have you ever wanted to have a pet skinned and turned into an article of clothing? um no wtf

What pet? -

What article of clothing? -

2578. Do I come off sounding normal, mildly irrational, blatantly insane or completely certifiable? i don’t like this question. 2579. Did you ever feel that you were unable to function in society? yes 2580. Is it nap time yet? feels like it. 2581. Do you have to have the space next to the door or can you walk from the other end of the parking lot and still be okay with the world? sure? 2582. Do you like trains? sure 2583. What’s in Hungary? people 2584. have you ever felt like you were holding someone else back? probably.

Has someone ever held you back? dunno 2585. What do you think of the term, 'organized religion’? not a fan 2586. What do you think of the name 'Orson’? idc. 2587. What frustrates you? ignorance. 2588. Winkin, Blinkin and Nod, one night, sailed off in a sea of dew.. ? 2589. Is ten dollars (5 pounds) a good price to pay for one lipstick? no

Does anyone else remember when lipstick was, like, 2 or 3 bucks? no 2590. Are you ill? no 2591. Where were you the night of…..oh hell, last night? home 2592. Do you pronounce the 'er’ sound at the end of words(lookER or lookA)? yes 2593. Do you drink only 100% juice? probably? 2594. Do you remember the bills you have to pay…or even yesterday? yes? 2595. What duck? - 2596. Do you collect coins? no

How about stamps? no 2597. What’s the best way to learn a new language? no idea. 2598. Is god in you? nope 2599. Are you in god? nope. 2600. Do you know which fork to use at a formal table setting?

no