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maybe im just better alone lmao
#june shines#good evening we're in a good headspace and ready to do homework and not watch any twitch streams or play genshin or drink 34 cups of tea#no cause#ok this is a weird post cause now a lot of irls follow me here#idc#hi#love u#but also#idk how to get close to people and then maintain that#like it just seems like too much#i dont want to put in the effort#id rather just be alone#yes ! i wish i could just love on you when it's convenient#im better off alone#its better when people dont get to know me#i love people but i hate being important to them#hm#my brother pulled diluc today he was Disappointed™#he wanted yelan#fair enough#someone get this man a waifu#he only plays male characters with the exception of xiangling and barbara#ar49 moment#jfaorjllfrluiarj fuck
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Angel Dust Turns Human Pt8
Pt1 Pt2 Pt3 Pt4 Pt5 Pt6 Pt7
IM SO SORRY FOR THE QUALITY OMG💔 this is so embarrassing; I was uploading the images through my laptop (cuz it's more efficient), and I thought it would look the same on my phone; I guess not☹️...I PROMISE it looks better when you press the images (IM SO SORRYYY😓!!!)
Anyways, it's confirmed now! Angel was deffo a cannibal: like father like son🫡. Idk if I'll explore any further on this topic - as I don't think it'd be something angel would prefer to delve any further about (which will be shown), however just know that he did eat humans unknowingly before knowingly🤫! The first time he eats a human is the exact moment Alastor decided he'd keep the boy to himself once and for all: a declaration🙂!
BEFORE ANYONE ASKS!! Ik vaggie asking Angel about the human thing seems abrupt, but she's a smart gal - also Alastor totally revealed the cannibalism through the joke he told so she was deriving from that and Al's whole behavior going on w Angel‼️ Sorry if the pacing seems rushed, I've just been😮💨😮💨
Don't judge me for how I drew the food on Angel's plate; I know it literally looks like a lump of shit, but pity me for Idk how to draw food😐...
Sorry this part was short, but I hope you liked it!!!♡
!Taglist: @diffidentphantom @cloversnstrawberries @birthrightversemain @dawn-sky-collective
#angel dust#hazbin hotel#alastor#fanart#hazbin art#no romance#/platonic#parental alastor#parental yandere#yandere parent#platonic yandere#yandere#yandere au#found family#father figure#parental figure#charlie morningstar#vaggie#possessive alastor#possesive love#possesive yandere#fatherlylove#I really am sorry ab the quality tho. I just get rlly worried about my laptop glitching so I try to be cautious w the size of my canvas☹️#I just dont want the thing to erase a whole page cuz Idk if I could survive that again tbh😓#But i FINALLY finished this part: I told myself Id finish today#Hint hint: Angel gets in an arguement w someone...I think! Idk I write as I go on haha!#Alastor rlly did enjoy Angel loving the same food as him - in a way it told him that they were practically made for eachother!#Father and son: both cannibals YAYAYA!!#After Alastor died - Angel didnt eat people anymore nor did he actively try even when he was butchering them up#Hed think about it! But. Well. It just seemed like a very personal familial thing he did w sir rather than alone: it made him sad now
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you know what i just saw some more of that weird ass reward for getting all shrines in totk, and tbh im still so
what is that?? there are no dog like sentient species in this version of hyrule?? the most is the sonau themselves but they got no tails??? i dont think anything in this hyrule has a tail like that? and sonau legs are pretty normalish human too areant they? they dont even have proper claws, just veguely longer fingernails- i guess there are the statues in the underground that kinda look like it (they dont got tails either tho do they??) but like ,,, theres nothing you can learn about them right? its never mentioned or even hinted at despite there being so goddamm much of the sonau still just up and functioning- their lil "material deposits" in the depths arent even withered beyond some plants growing on them, all their 'tech' (isnt it just .. magic tho? where the mechanism actually? its usually just some stone animated by green swirlies ... but ill mention that in another post) just runs perfectly like it was made yesterday
where does that thing come from?? and its supposed to the the HERO FROM THE TAPESTRY???? huh????? and its decked out in sonau clothing head to toe with clear gerudo refs too?? that so weird bc youd feel like there would have been some mention of this, especially considering that that thing is on the tapestry and impa(was it her? or purah?) RECOGNIZES ITS THE HERO FROM THE TAPESTRY???? like, CASUALLY even?? like a well known fact ?? did i miss some big lore part somewhere that talked about that dog gerudo sonau thing?? and if its on the tapestry that means it wasnt that long ago really (i mean ... all the sonau shit is still pretty much fully intact so arguing that they came and went in the time between totks past and botws past isnt that plausible either imo ..??) o how come you never see anything from that and yet its somehow completely known for them, and you cannot tell me she saw the abstract version of the hero and then looked at that armor and went thats the same bc two colors veguely matched or what?!! also given that its fully clothed in sonau stuff .. like the arms are literally raurus bracelets .. thingies, but then the sonau where supposedly a complete and unknown mystery until it suddendly came all raining from the sky and revealing its been there and EVERYWHERE the whole time apparently? with the most we knew was some flimsyly made stereotypical barbaric armor set in faron in botw? which i guess is also fully undone by totk since it shares absolutely zero in desing to the 'actual' sonau stuff we got in totk
and if it where some sort of descendant from the mix of kids rauru and sonai kinda .. must have had (unless they did away with zeldas bloodline stuff too .. which .. why even call it zelda anymore at this point lol) then again, where did those features come from (like the tail and red hair, the strange googly eyes? is there a mix of goron in there too??) and how was it then not documented or seen anywhere else?? youd imagine the mutant kids of the first tragically dead king and queen of this hyrule would be known in some way .. that is assuming it was that, but given the weird features no other species has still is ... it just doesnt add up
(i had the awful thoguht for a second that it might supposed to mean the gerudo came from that but .. the gerudo are already there LITERALLY the 1:1 same as in the present, just like all the other species ... which is also disappointing as hell, like seriously? not even different feather colors for the rito? literally the same clothing for the gerudo as in botw but white with golden stuff instead?? some vaguely different zora features? idk ? anything? also the hero would never be gerudo, we know only evil comes from that *explodes*)
if its supposed to be a mystery then they absolutely failed in making it any interesting or intriguing but still something that feels like its part of the world, like botw was very good at giving you mysteries you wanted to talk and theorize about that still felt organic, harmonic with the world, but in totk its all either boring answers or just ... completely out of nowhere and just kinda stumps you (in a bad way)
*sighs* yet antoher ramble rant, this game could have had it all, it was right there on the plate in front of them all they needed to do is grasp at it, why wouldnt you ..
totk will never not frustrate me huh ���_ಠ
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#totk#ganondoodles rants#i dont like it#its so?????#why even touch on that#you did all that to botws legacy and then cant even leave the tapestry alone??#its not even a focus#like#what#you act like botw never happened but then insert this into the whole tapestry thing#its also just kinda boring#like look theres sth people wondered about QUICK make it sonau somehow and also raising more questions (in a bad way)#like theres good kinds of confusion but theres also bad ones and totk imo does it only bad#no thank you id rather forget that thing was ever mentioned in connection to the tapestry
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i feel somewhat responsible for this, even if i’m not the one saying these things. I’m genuinely so sorry.
No need to apologize! It's not one singular person doing it and truth be told I don't think it's a large majority that thinks that (albeit the ones that do are quite vocal). I didn't mean to upset anyone or anything when complaining about it, I was just letting off some steam.
Having a yap session under the cut sorry I feel like rambling under your ask anon.
Admittedly, I do think there are reasonings for people thinking this way. A lot of the focus with Clash has been on the cogs, especially after the 1.3 update. Which I can't say I blame them! Managers were something new and exciting and (from what I can tell) really separated them from the other servers. I don't blame them for wanting to put focus on that because that was their thing. Alongside other things, but majorly when you hear Clash the managers are mentioned in someway shape or form. But as we all know, toons ended up taking the short stick from this. This isn't helped by the gameplay itself, being mainly a fetch-quest deal so you often only talk to npcs once or twice unless if they're repeated ones and the taskline wasn't entirely accessible on the wiki for a while (shoutout to the wiki maintainers. The taskline script is a savior). Which I'm quite excited to see if they deal with this issue with the rewrite. I imagine they will, but anyways. Social media posts would often contain more managers than toons, which I also believe they're starting to fix. And ontop of this, I believe most of the team in the early era of the sever is gone, so there's been some stuff lost in the change. So yeah, dialogue/writing has been kind of rocky. AGAIN- I am completely aware of the rewrite going on and I am not judging them harshly based off of their current state. I'm very appreciative of the fact that they took the time to listen and are focusing on trying to fix it up. And then there's also fandom mischaracterization- especially of the cogs. Forgive me for mentioning mischaracterization because normally I wouldn't really care (I've mischaracterized characters before..especially in my younger years. I think it's just a process of learning an having fun and I hate to limit anyone because of it). With that being said, there's a lot of baby-fying and coddling of the managers. Especially with those who have more 'sympathetic' stories (Misty, Chip, Winston specifically). Don't get me wrong, I like these characters and I can appreciate the story they're trying to tell, but I feel like so many people will hear their dialogue and then misplace their anger. People get mad at Bessie for trying to protect HER lighthouse or at the Elders for trying to keep YOTT safe (lets not forget Winston was there to brainwash toons). Yes, yes technically there would've been better ways to do it but consider this: The toons are scared. Their homes, stores, lives are being taken over by a big corporation that has more resources that they do. They don't have the privilege of waiting, seeing, and gathering. And then people forget that the company has such a huge role in both toons and cogs lives. If you're mad over the mistreatment of Misty or the fact that Winston is still in the dungeon, your anger should be directed at the company who doesn't care. I may be completely wrong in saying this, but I feel like the stories with almost all of the managers is a reflection of the company. The toons are only trying to protect themself and their environments and yet this seems to go forgotten when people start bashing them. And of course, I'd consider myself a toon guy so me saying all this and complaining may come off as "I HATE the cogs and everyone who posts only about them!" and for clarification that's not true. You all know how much I like that little brain thing. The cogs are interesting, their designs are fun, I don't blame people for liking them because I do too. I just wish that the thought process behind so many of these discussions wasn't so cog focused because I believe that this anger at the toons for, RIGHTFULLY, defending themselves helps push this mischaracterization of them as a whole. That they're mean, boring, unlikeable while the opposite is true. Yes there are some, what I'd consider, "filler" dialogue from the shopkeepers. This is just because of the gameplay. But there are some funny and cute moments with them if people would just listen and read.
Which also brings me into another point: people skip the dialogue. I've caught myself doing this before (on my first account. I have 4 accounts total, so I reread the dialogue on like 3 of them). But people will complain about lack of toon personalities while doing this. It's like reading through a comic book, only looking at the drawings, and then complaining because there "isn't a storyline". Luckily, there's been efforts to keep track of the dialogue on the wiki but I doubt a lot of people are going through and reading the entire script. It just feels very disingenuous to criticize the dialogue when you haven't even read it. Likewise, people don't seem to read the blogposts either. This is both from a dialogue aspect and from an update aspect (people continuously asking about hammerspace/mix-and-match under unrelated posts).
#clemask#clemramble#I think I hit some sort of word limit because it wont let me add anymore so im continuing in tags#It kind of feels like people want the toon resistance to be the perfect victim and then get mad when they act accordingly#Fear. Nervousness. Sadness. Helplessness. Anger. etc etc are all valid reactions to their situation#Not every toon needs to be heroic and whimsical. they're scared. their situation is scary if you think about it#they're at the risk of losing their environment and homes.#Obviously the cogs also have their own issues but I always see this brought up when talking about them but the same context#isnt given to the toons when thinking about their characters and communities as a whole#It's kind of weird to me because I feel like even pre-rewrite I know that I can still understand them and justify their actions#and yet people act like clashes (pre rewrite) writing is justifying the cogs when in reality its not#its just showing that cog society (reflection of workplace enviroment) has its own issues. i never saw it as a justification#even with misty. like I never once hated bessie? my opinion of her never changed even after mistys dialogue#bessie did what she had to do because she was scared and wanted to protect herself and others.#id do something similar if a cog (known for taking over towns) suddenly came up to me#PLUS bessie leaves misty alone afterwards. ppl act like she took a shotgun and shot misty dead and it makes me laugh#ANYWAYS SORRY ANON. NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE.#realistically if youre not saying it then i doubt youre contributing#I would say “i wasnt mad” or anything but to be completely transparent with you guys i was Not-Happy when writing that one post#but it's not directed at any single person but rather the idea itself. I'm sure after the rewrite people will chill out#ITS NEVER THIS SERIOUS im beefing over characters named pretty princess sparkles. im aware of how silly this all sounds ok#the clash fandom isnt the only instance of this. ive seen stuff like this in sw before so like. I know this isnt an uncommon thing either#normally id just keep this on a priv or between friends but something kinda snapped yesterday#i think its bc I just KEEP seeing posts like it with those “hot take” posts or whatever and ppl are always so mean about it#i also think some ppl just already dont like toons and look for every. little. thing. to go after them for#like the “youve been drafted line” i refuse to believe people took that line 100% seriously#or maybe this is all wrong and im just a huge toon fan. and in that case i will die on this hill#you will have to pry them out of my cold dead hands before you catch me genuinely bashing them#ok thats clems giant critques and complaints out of the way
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Someone's probably already said it but I'd rather rip and tear at my flesh and destroy my beautiful feminine image and be assured the reflection in the mirror is mine than see a pretty face I don't feel at home in
#by extension id rather be ugly and free#than easily consumed by others and not even feel like myself doing it#ive been told “people would kill to have your body” i could not give less of a fuck#ill destroy it just to piss you off actually#let alone creating myself in my image the spite is a bonus#forcemasc#ftm
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ik i go on about traveling and how bad it is but. hear me out. when i get a license i literally need to go back to the US and just do a fucking roadtrip. i wanna go to new england. i wanna see the forests. maybe even the great lakes. i wanna see the west coast. i NEED to go back to the south. i need to see louisiana. but this time like, for real actually see it instead of passing by. i HAVE to go back to new mexico and white sands and go back to hill country and west texas and
#z xarre#ive been yearning to go back. im mostly interested in the nature aspect of the US. but tbh also just go back and re-visit places#that i have probably forgotten about. in my head rn im doing it alone bc i have no friends who would be up for it probably#and also id rather just do some things alone#but like for example.... i would loooove to stay in santa fe some more. but this time without my parents.#i would love to stay an entire day in white sands. go to carlsbad caverns again. see some of the west tx canyons................#i would love to spend time in both baton rouge and new orleans. but ik they have a tourist problem especially in the quarter so idk#i would feel iffy abt going there :/#anyways idk why im even thinking abt this trip i will never have the money to do that lol. maaaaaaaaaaaaybe go back to tx bc thats the plac#i wanna go (back) to the most. but other than that.... no money OR time (assuming i will have to work at some point in my life)
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Have you ever had nosebleeds before? Do you know how to deal with them? (I have chronic nosebleeds so I can give tips)
I have, once during highschool and now but still don't know how to deal with em properly
#messyr#im confused bc its unusual but maybe bc of chronic stress and bodily pains that im starting to reach my limits LOL#i usually just “ ride it alone ” or drink/take whatever thinking itll go away#it's bad ik#I deal with other ailments and i struggle to tend to em AAHH basically- im . weak. and if I completely get sick in some way deathly:#id rather kms no cap AAAAAHAHAAHAH#ironic and funny how my family are nurses but never had concerns on- eh. LMAO i get it
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hi get ready for a rant already bc apparently adults cant adult and have to deal with their issues like were in middle school!
#im about to just be like ok fuck it fine i wont be ur friend im more than comfortable being alone#id rather be alone#or j away from this#genuinely
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Something i'd like to point out
We can assume the final part of p2 of the canto was not only from heathcliff's perspective but dante's as well, considering we know they can look directly into their memories when resonating with them.
we did not get a new cg for carmen's appearance. This is something you could chalk up to time on the artist's part, and wanting to focus purely on "main" story cgs perhaps? But for this im gonna assume it was purposeful
For those who aren't aware or need a refresher, this CG is from ayin's perspective, from ayin's memory of laying with her in the grass in the past, in the first game
its personal, and there's only one body who could have this image in their mind.
when viewed this way, the lack of even a redraw feels more intentional 😀...?
#limbus company#dante#carmen#heathcliff#lobotomy corporation#canto vi#Yeah sorry#i think the intention the theory and the story is more nuanced than Oh so dante is just ayin#and i know this has a history of being a laughed at idea pretty rightfully so even#but im just trying to look with my eyes alone here and im noting this down as Something i saw#also id rather no comments on any perceived laziness by the artist because. well i am hoping you know about vellmoris situation#and how its probably not easy right now. Whole other post#canto vi spoilers#red string board#Ignore im just putting any uhh theory related posts or whatever in that tag for my own finding#I tried to keep this one really short since i just wanted to get it out there yeeep yep yep#More carmen stuff to come if i let it out of my head
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my handsome boyfriend is helping me fix an error im having with a vector2 thing getting converted wrong thing, i need to dance with him in the moonlight immediately
i may not know how to program very good but so help me do i know how to pick a man i love him so much hes so cute i sometimes can't read soup can labels because im thinking too much about him <3 boyfriend <3
@a-person3 <3 hi boyfriendwhoilovesomuchhihihihihh HI hi hi hello handsome hello beuatiful hello my heart my world my bugsquashing brilliant boy~ i love you~ everyone look at my amazing boyfriend !!!! he let me boyfriend him!!!! he let me!!! i told him i wanted to live my life with him and he said yes!!!! im loved!!!! im loved by someone i love!!!! life is beautiful! im gonna cry again-
#love#romance#cute#nerd boyfriend#boyfriend#nerd boy#my beloved#my heart#my world#i love him#hes perfect#hes my heart#hes my babygirl#im sorry for calling you babygirl honeydove-#hes so cute#im so lucky#i have to tell everyone how much i love him#im gonna cry again just because i think hes so cute when he helps me program#im glad im not very good at bugfixing it means my boyfriend gets to help me and i get to havev the romantic joy of being helped by boyfrien#like maybe i could solve it alone eventually but id rather melt with love over how handsome he is and how lucky i am#now its like a date!!! programming date!!!#i need to shower him in flowers!#i need to shower him in love!#i need to spin with him in a field of flowers!#hes my heart! my love! i love him so much!#im so lucky!!! im so blessed!#i could go on and on and on forever-
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im willing to try streaming games one more time, but i still have the feeling im not made for it, im rather silent when i play something and talk very little to begin with, so if i start doing commentary now i fear its both not gonna sound genuine and that my voice will die super quickly (i dont think a stream with little commentary is fun to watch now is it?)
but time to decide is running out really quickly, im so torn about potentially ruining the game for me trying to stream it but also about there being moments i would want to share but will never be able to if i play it alone ... then again, of the people that follow me a tiny fraction is german and would understand what i say, most are zelda fans too so they would play it themselves instead of watching a crappy stream and if i wanted to have any kind of audience on twitch i would have needed to start building it years ago
i think years of isolation and loneliness are also playing a part in making this decision so hard for me despite there being clearly more points speaking for playing it alone
#ganondoodles talks#i know theres little to do about it#and probably no one that can help me decide#but when im torn like that i always need someone elses opinion to make a final decision#and i would want an honest one too bc trying to be nice is good and all but id rather know the truth#...another point for playing it alone would be that me caring so much about it might actually be detrimental if i end up not liking things#i really shouldd just bite the bullet and accept that im better off doing these things alone
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i really do believe i just annoy everyone here and no one cares about anything i have to say. just block me tbh even if we’re mutuals. i don’t care anymore
#i think the only reason i have mutuals is because they don’t want to break the mutual cause that’s just how it is around here#i don’t care. go ahead break the mutual really id rather you just be honest about it#i barely ever get any interactions yet i see everyone else always interacting with each other#it’s so obvious no one likes me 👍🏻#it’s fine. this isn’t me trying to beg for attention. i’m just finally accepting how things are#one two three no one will ever love me#aaaa im used to being alone atp i always think maybe if i try hard enough that will change#but nothing ever changes. this is how it’s supposed to be i guess#shrug#snow.txt
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there's so many big posts ive seen where ppl act like polyamory is passé in mainstream fiction and i truly don't get it . 'poly is cool and all but what about the tension of love triangles' ..??? y'all are doing that thing where you spend so long in certain internet bubbles that you trick your brain into thinking the status quo isn't the status quo anymore
#for instance in YA/teen books alone all throughout the 00s and 2010s love triangles were p much the default#and in like. the history of fiction 5ever especially fiction that's positioning you to root for straight couples#love triangles have been a standard way of adding romantic/dramatic tension#like that is the majority opinion and it's strange that bc there are some relatively recent pieces of media that have gone the poly route#ppl online have decided that 1) polyamory is overdone and 2) stories w poly relationships cant have strong dramatic beats#id rather ppl just say they dont like throuples and poly relationships that aren't V-shaped instead of acting like theyre an inherently laz#way of writing relationships
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i think ultimately it was too many small things cumulating within the span of a week it's just impressive that it always happens when i'm in pms hell. god gave his worst mental illness combinations to his lamest soldiers
#thank fuck woulge played jackbox without me before i hit pms that wouldve been BAD#like i was bummed of course but it wasnt that serious. hormones really will fuck my shit up its so fucking bad#i take dismissal or being ignored or 'maybe later's as disinterest & then turns out ppl were interested!#but because somehow circumstances keep making it that im not there it communicates to me that they just did not want me.#& this. keeps happening to me. 😭 WITH SO MANY PEOPLE#so maybe im just not annoyingly insistent enough but id rather die than become a nuisance#if i offer to play with more than once thats already too much. id rather play alone at that point probably.#& dont get me started on asking for help. ill do it once then thats enough.#people have communicated more than enough to me that they dont care about doing early game content#hold up the beautiful soul who stole one singular madeleine yesterday?? BISCUIT TIME#mentwl illness cancelled im having a fucking snack BITCH
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some people are so pretentious it makes me want to throw up
#i have wanted people to like me my whole life#but god id rather spend my whole life alone#than pretend i like something i know jackshit about#just so they find me “cool”
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SOME DUMBASS HAD OPENED MY BACKPACK ON THE TRAM AND I DIDNT NOTICE IT THE WHOLE WAY HOME ARE YOU KIDDING ME
#cupid.exe#i did feel something but i thought that they had pulled a strand of hair#they were laughing at something at the guy behind me and i tried to ignore it as mich as possible#i probably have more fear of people stealing ny stuff then the average person (thanks mom) ehich is probably a good thing#so to see this happen is like nightmare level 20000 for me rn i might actually sob#thankfully i dont think anyone has actually taken anything but its still so werid#they pulled down the zipper with my pokemon keychain which is circual and thin and it probably got in the way#im tired of this school .. but i know that assholes are everywhere so id rather just be alone forever but i wont get some stupid diploma#if i go to individual classes... would save me aton of stress maybe but not worth it in the end#'u cant go without human interaction' too bad for me i guess
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