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my love for doing collaborative art works, art exchanges, big bangs and the like, vs my immense hatred for big chat rooms aka discord
#I only took part in One (1) big bang back in 2019 and we worked through it via email and yknw what?#id take that every single day than using discord again#tani's personal shit#this is to say. I miss doing big bangs :( does anyone want to do an alwake or remedy big bang?#id hate it but I Would try to use discord if Absolutely Needed#I just really like working w/ someone on a piece of art! collabs are so fun!#reading someone's work in progress and planning the illustration is funnnn last time i did three whole pieces <3
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hiiiii!!
so this feels kind of random and maybe a little ooc but i keep imagining shiggy as like a streamer (playing obviously league of legends but also like valorant, overwatch, fortnite, etc etc)
but could i possibly get some streamer shigaraki hcs pls and thank youu ♡
also i saw your post about emoji anons and id like to formally request that i can claim this emoji; 🧸 thank you for all your amazingly handcrafted beautiful posts!!!
ooouuuu yassss. i also love to hc shiggy as a streamer idc if its ooc!
also yes ofc ! 🧸is all urs bby <3
streamer!shigaraki hcs ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ̀ˋ
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it started as a joke, he didnt think anyone would really watch
but followers and viewers SKYROCKETED so fast, he was kinda overwhelmed at first
mostly streams LoL, but loves switching between diff games throught the stream (OVW, apex, valorant, fortnite)
but for some reason, he hates COD. HATES IT. if chat even mentions it he screams
he gets banned regularly for "random shit" aka trying to beef with the 12 year old's in chat, accidentally smoking on cam, etc
has absolutely no filter, just plays the game the same way he would if he were alone, which gives him one hell of a reputation online
chat goes WILD when he ties his hair back, cause usually its in his face
does a lot of 12-24 hour streams bc he cant sleep
streams at the most random and inconvenient times, like 4pm or 3am.
that being said he has no set schedule. he usually just hops online whenever.
loves bantering with chat, he thinks its so funny
"blueflame says... "this man needs chapstick lolz"
"well fuck you blueflame, you need a loving family and some bitches, but i guess both of us are fucked, hm?"
went through a huge minecraft phase and ended up creating a small cult following from it
which he abhors. like fucking hates it bc of all the drama in the minecraft community-he doesn't like to be associated with them.
calls his fans rats/bugs/etc.
goes on long-ass adhd rambles about random shit a LOT
"chat, chat watch this, gonna get this fucker"
*dies*
"chat. i am going to scream."
this man has 0 social awareness or media etiquette
like he's actually disgusting on stream it can be a hard watch at times. especially if he's eating cause he doesnt gaf about being "polite"
listens to a lot of hyperpop/metal/game osts in the background but has gotten in trouble for copyright lol
does dumbass dances in his chair if he wins a round
when everyone realized he wore gloves to game, he got sent a BUNCH of new ones, with different patterns and materials (he shows them all off) (his fav ones are the creeper-themed ones tho :3)
has "horror nights" where he'll stay up and play shit like fnaf, slender, closing shift, and other indie horror games
he played facade once but immediately removed the game from his pc (very dramatically) after trip denied his request to "kiss it sloppy style".
chat regularly begs him to play roblox but he always ignores it
even though he HAS it downloaded.
"chat what the fuck is skibidi ohio"
always drinking some form of energy drink no matter what time it is
"someone in chat said im cute. go touch grass"
has a discord server that he does in fact own and mod. but only lets certain people join (he does have a tier system after a while)
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ugh gamer streamer shiggy is so Real to me...and so cute...i need him viciously
thank u for the request, 🧸!
#myposts#mha#my hero academia#bnha#tomura shigaraki#mha shigaraki#tenko shimura#myhcs#shigaraki headcanons#myasks#🧸anon
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Hello! I've seen a bit of wiccan (?) things for a while, if I were to start I wouldn't even know how to start though. (my autistic ass does not leave the house and my mom would probably think it's weird to make strange concoctions of things) I also don't really know how deities work and how do you find out which one your communicating with? Tbh I've always felt like someone is around but whatever god it is seriously fucking hates me /hj Been better since I started medication but like the luck I have is 50/50 good bad and that is probably not normal. If you answer this it'd be very helpful.
Hi! Thanks for the ask!
I just want to start by defining a few terms for you :)
Wicca/Wiccan: A pagan religion that focuses on nature, magic and witchcraft. It was founded in the mid 20th century and Wiccans primarily worship 2 Gods which are personifications of nature.
Witch: Just a person who practices witchcraft. It's a non-gendered term and a non-religious term/practice. Not all witches are Wiccan but all Wiccans are witches. Witches can be absolutely anyone
Personally, I'm not Wiccan so I can't really tell you much about that but if there is one thing I know, it's witchcraft! There are many different places to start but I'm going to condense it down as much as humanly possible. It'll probably feel like a bit of information overload so just try to take it slow and relax. Enjoy the learning.
My favourite book for beginner witchcraft is 'Witchery: Embrace the Witch Within' by Juliet Diaz. She is a fantastic author and wonderful human. Everything about the basics of witchcraft you could need is in that book (imo). You should be able to find a pdf online if you can't get a physical copy.
As for youtube channels with solid content:
Harmony Nice: She covers everything Wicca. She has a playlist with all her Wiccan/witchy content witch is linked here
The Witch of Wonderlust: Olivia has been a favourite witchy youtuber of mine for a while. I wouldn't recommend jumping into her videos without any prior knowledge but once you have a grasp on the bare bones it should be okay. Here is a playlist she made with everything you could possibly need when beginning witchcraft. SOrt through the videos and see what peeks your interest.
The Hearth Witch: Another wonderful account if I remember correctly. Her videos used to be on the longer end (30-60mins) so if you have a short attention span then maybe not but she has a wealth of information.
I also recommend joining a few discord servers, following a few pages on tumblr just to get acquainted with the community and terminology.
Okay, on to the deity work situation. Deity work is generally considered more intermediate in the witchcraft community. key words being 'Deity WORK'. Worship is completely fair game. Setting up an altar, praying, leaving offerings, doing activities in devotion to the deity is absolutely something you can do relatively quickly.
As for IDing a deity, most people do it through 'divination' which is things like tarot, a pendulum, dice, bone throwing, and other ways. Most people also ask for signs that a specific deity is 'reaching out' to them or wants them to pay attention. You can also politely ask someone who is volunteering their time on tumblr or a discord server to find out for you via divination. If they don't say their doing free readings, obviously, don't ask.
Finally. luck is luck. It makes no sense for a literal God to hate a human. We all have periods of shitty luck and awesome luck! I wouldn't blame that on anything. Sometimes bad things just happen unfortunately. But sometimes amazing things also happen, even if it's just as small is finding 5 cents on the footpath.
That was so long. Congrats if you made it to the end because I nearly didn't when writing this. I hope this helped a bit. Feel free to reach out if you need a hand with anything. Thanks :)
#witchblr#witchcraft#paganism#hellenic polytheism#witch#pagan witch#hellenic pagan#witches#baby witch#beginner witch#new witch
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i recently dug up this weird awkward rant-thing about garou i typed out over discord back in february and thought that i should try comparing my thought on his character now to my thoughts from a little over two months ago.
- "get rid of heroes"
i wouldn't say that he was trying to get rid of heroes. in a way, he wanted to be a hero himself. i think that he not only just wanted to prove a point (heroes arent as awesome epic cool as the media makes them seem), but he also only ever hated the idea of false heroism. not heroism itself; instead the false heroism that the heroes in the association parade around for popularity and ranks, not worrying about the issues too small for them to care for. he wanted to replace this false heroism with... real monster-ism. lol. just his "absolute evil" stuff. honestly, from the way he worded it, absolute evil is just unbiased justice. peace and order achieved via unethical means. because in his eyes, this evil could spread where good wouldnt. (if he just (literally) got gud it would have the same effect. same strength but give him a heart made out of rainbows and puppies like mumen rider)
- "heroes win too much"
i still stand by this. heroes/protagonists in fiction need to lose more often. gets kinda bland when in every form of media it is always the protagonist winning to state a moral at the end of "dont be a bad guy". but garous relevance as a character isnt about that. it isnt about him being a bad guy. its about him being a good guy under the guise of a bad one. and the lesson to be learned from him and what he says is that the people who appear good often only appear good for face; on the inside, theyre the real monsters. during garou's flashbacks regarding justice man, a cartoon that he and many other children watched, we find that the villains of the show tend to have actually good reasons. like the monster that garou defended who was trying to restore peace to the ocean. (maybe following the direction of garou, the ha could air a children's cartoon centred around a monster as the protagonist. i would unironically watch it.)
- "the pity card"
i feel now as though garou was never meant to be written as a bad character. instead, i think that he was always meant to be a strange sort of hero. by the "pity card" i am referring to when writers take a character who is initially evil and gives a backstory to get viewers to like the villain more and understand their side. but while that may work on me sometimes, you'll notice that this isnt the case with garou. even from the start, (or, well, not from the START, but from the beginning, i guess. his start was beating up a bunch of people lmao. but most of them were bad people, so my point is still there in a way) garou is a good person. hes a sort of mentor figure to tareo and stands up to bullies for him, protecting the shed and deflecting bullets just so that tareo doesnt get hurt by a "hero". he doesnt kill metal bat and his sister when he has the chance. later on, he saves someone from getting used as a sacrifice to the monster association as well as an old man getting mugged. (granted, he dine-and-dashes after, but its fine. hes just a silly little guy.)
- "id let him destroy the world and even then, he wouldnt"
again, i agree with february me on this. even while under the influence of god, who gives him the power to live out his original goal of ruling the world, garou starts sobbing when he realizes that he killed tareo from the radiation. we see him desperately crawling away in a meager attempt to save the young boy. from this you can tell that he finally comes to the truth: world domination would never achieve the peace he wanted. the people he tried to save with his absolute evil, those helpless, bullied children on the school playground that painfully remind him so much of himself would've died. garou snaps out of gods influence from that, asking saitama to take gods power in his place. garou says that he himself is the ominous future that must be defeated, as he is the one who killed the only thing that had mattered to him at that point. im guessing that garou never remembers this moment, but it does impact his character.
- "because hes a good guy"
back to the topic of garou not actually being a villain! as i mentioned, he isnt a bad person. he has more compassion and regard for human life than some members of the hero association (amai mask nearly slaughtering human people under mind control, metal knight knowing information about the hostage they had to save but still refusing to comply, etc.) hes more of a hero than a majority of the heroes in the ha. just a little unhinged. but hey, so are at least 60% of the s class heroes, garou would fit right in. hes definitely strong enough, hes clearly fine with killing monsters, hes good with kids, and hes a little crazy. (most importantly hes got accidental rizz comparable to amai. i can picture him running from an insane fanclub. the girlies would love him.)
so has my opinion really changed? not really, lmao. still love him, always will. forever my favourite character in the series. i think that i maybe understand him better though. do i feel cringe for writing this long ass shit about some fictional dude? yup. wont stop.
#shui talks#opm#one punch man#garou opm#i realized how long this was after typing out this much jesus christ#shoved this in a google doc to see how many words it was because i typed this on discord and it surpassed the character limit#three whole ass pages#yeah my favourite character is garou how did you know!!!#gee willy i sure do wonder!!!
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genq do you ever wonder if it’s like. worth it. bc if i were y’all id have deleted my entire social media presence 12x over by now
Oh every fucking day. Y’all have no idea 😂 like I don’t wanna complain or seem all woe is me. But i have considered burning this blog to the ground multiple times and especially lately it really does kinda take a toll on me. Here’s a list of various things I deal with due to this blog AND it’s associated discord;
I cannot talk about any of my interests or opinions lest be ripped apart and have my income demolished
People purposely going out of their way to trigger me? For some reason
Blatant transphobia and misgendering ? For some reason?
Death threats????? For some reason???????
Directly being told I deserved and likely enjoyed my abuse
Having my content stolen, reuploaded and edited near constantly
Having said stolen content made into stickers and sold on websites like Aliexpress where I can’t get them taken down
People making literal hate videos about me because I… expressed my sexuality?
This is lesser but. A lot of people just fucking demand content straight up? No thanks, no please. Not even context. I get a lot of asks that are just ‘x emoji’ or just a single word of what they want with no explanation.
People coming into my DMs and just venting and traumadumping to me COMPLETELY unprompted when I’d never talked to them in my life because I’m ‘popular’ and I guess that’s just acceptable to them?
People entirely only interacting with me with the intentions of boosting their own shit / getting stuff out of it ?? Which like idk I don’t mind helping people out but I would prefer if ppl also like. Interacted outside of that
People going out of their way to just straight up ask my discourse opinions? Or just straight up telling me theirs! No matter how many times I say it’s a trigger and that I want no part in it. Similarly, people just fucking assigning a discourse opinion to me that they feel fits best and spreading that as if it’s fact when I’ve not said anything about it.
People just. Straight up thinking I’m their best friend? Or even being actively affectionate or even romantic towards me when we’ve never interacted before?
A whole slew of the weird and absolutely absurd shit ppl send to me on anon. If you’ve followed me for any amount of time you’ve surely seen some
People like. Obsessing and idolizing my relationships? Like it gets really creepy sometimes how much ppl get rly into my dating life. ^^;
And like. That’s just what I thought up on the fly with my husband. And sure to an extent some of this is just tumblr being tumblr. Or people being shitty. But the fact all this happens and revolves around an emoji blog is a little wild. Don’t get me wrong- I love running this blog. And I will continue to. I definitely think the pros outweigh the cons. But I also think a lot of ppl don’t quite realize how much comes from it bc I really don’t post as much abt the bad as I used to. Ppl… complained abt it lol ppl complained abt me answering anon hate and complained that I posted negative content at all, so I just stopped unless I feel it’s
Important
Funny or I can make fun of them
Something I need to set a hard boundary on.
Anyways I didn’t rly expect to go on such a rant. I’ve just been super burnt out and thinking abt this a lot lately. I don’t plan to stop doing it anytime soon but I’ve been trying to kinda. Be a bit more stern on shit and hold my ground a bit more. Thanks for the ask honestly, gave me a reason to sit down and explain some of this.
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DEAR ADULT READERS/CREATORS,
18+ (MINORS DO NOT INTERACT)
^ see that? there is absolutely no way you missed that disclaimer if you understand the proper way to read english. but, let’s say you did miss it... here’s this message;
if you are under the age of 18, do not interact with 18+ adult accounts, or content.
there. hopefully you got the memo. if not, then i guess, one day, you’ll have the great opportunity to be featured in this brand new series of exposing, purging, and reporting minors! i mean... yay you?
disclaimer!; do not send any unnecessary hate to any of these people! it does not solve anything, and it could get you in trouble. just report, and block. thanks.
featured today, we have (drumroll please)... @/matching-with-my-demons!
warning: this post is very long!
alright, so i don’t actually know for sure if he’s necessarily a minor, but i do know that he’s been lying his age, and many, many other details about his life, leading to him getting caught by yours truly.
from this point forward, i will be reciting a briefed account of what exactly happened from a collective point of view of all of the victims involved.
I. beginning.
so, (and i think all of the people involved can agree,) this person is a flirt. automatically. just giving everyone pet names, talking about doing stuff with us, role playing with us, you know. nothing too extreme. i wasn’t suspicious of him at this point. i mean, i was sure he was 18+. to be fair, he did mention that he was 21 turning 22. why wouldn’t we believe him? he was speaking like an adult.
II. little lies & suspicion.
now, i’m not saying that this is impossible, but at multiple times during our conversations, he’d mentioned that he was was fluent in seven languages. seven. it’s not entirely impossible, but you’d think that if english wasn’t someone’s first (of many) languages, they’d have some sort of accent, right?
not only that, but he stated that he was six years old when he moved to america from japan, and he hasn’t moved since. i know, i know, yeah, cool he knows a lot of languages, and he’s a foreigner. yadda, yadda. get to the point.
he said that he was of asian descent, and that his parents were both japanese, and they lived in japan their whole lives. where the hell is he learning all of these extra languages at the young age of 21?
if japanese is his first language, we can cut out the time needed to become fluent in it. next, i’m ignoring english, as he would’ve had from the age of 6 to 21 to become fluent in it, but somehow he claimed he wasn’t? (let’s not mention the obvious fake misspellings and misunderstandings of simple words.) how on earth would he have become fluent in (at least) five other languages in middle school-high school?
OTHER LITTLE LIES N DETAILS
- he claimed that he was a 6’7, 21 year old (cis) male.
- said he was a stripper, bartender, and a sex worker (we’ll come back to that later).
- sent a picture of “his” chest, but it was 100% from google or some shit.
- (not judging anyone who does) he said that his body count was 74, but literally no one asked?
- he texted us when he “got another body” tf? we don’t care. carry on, i guess. (said he went on for like 7 rounds but... what?)
- talked about getting a vibrator stuck in his ass n his roommate had to get it out for him, but once again, nobody asked. °-°
- said he could bench 200 lbs. not impressive, just thought it was worth mentioning.
- said he had the same birthday as bakugou, which, okay.. (4/20)
- he made multiple channels in the server where he could roleplay with certain people, which, i, and a couple other people never used.
III. the voice chat.
after a while of all of us messing around, the conversation started to get heated, and some of us were teasing him, including me. we decided to get on voice chat (his idea), and he started talking into the mic. all of us were very confused, as he did not at all sound like a giant of a grown man.
but, despite this, we all warily continued, until he left the call. when he left, everyone who was participating voiced their current concerns, and laughed out our nervousness. that is, until he re-joined and everyone muted. he continued doing what he was doing until he “broke character”, stating he was a voice actor and it was hard to keep up that voice because it hurt his throat. i would’ve believed him if he didn’t sound the exact same as he did when he was “in character”.
after that, we were a lot more concerned and on edge about his identity, and i started to focus more on the shit he was telling us, hoping to find out who the fuck this person really was. i stopped interacting with him in a nsfw way, and mostly observed what he was saying, just watching from the sidelines.
II. the pictures.
captions:
not only do the skin colors just not match up, the hands in each picture are totally different people. even if you take into account the lighting differences, the undertones should still be the same. these pictures are fake.
if you look at the fingers, you can see that the ones on the right are flatter, and shorter. if the hand on the left were to hold that phone, it would wrap all the way around the device.
from a common sense standpoint, we know that our palms are always lighter than our skin tone. the fact that the hand on the left is still darker, proves that these are different people. (not that we needed proof.)
also, if this guy is so muscular, why can he only bench 200lbs? and why is his wrist so skinny?
+ to me, the phone, (right image) and the quality of the picture, looks like a black iphone 4s. from what i can see, at least. meaning, if i’m correct, that picture is majorly outdated.
for both pictures, he flipped the image so that we wouldn’t be able to find it by just by reverse image searching. luckily, one of the people involved was able to figure that out, and told me immediately.
III. ID check.
like i said before, a lot of us were starting to get really suspicious, but at this point, i thought i was the only one that was sketched out, so i issued another ID check.
(be sure to click on the pictures. one of them is really long. also, when reading, read the date and times that messages are sent. i was trying to lighten the mood and be nice, but it was honestly so offensive that he thought i was legitimately dumb.)
so, obviously, these ID’s are fake. not only are the pictures the exact same, but the backgrounds are the same, the outfits are the same, the names are totally fake, and just, wow. i don’t really know how he thought that was gonna slip past me.
after i called both him, and @/yourmajesty-theking out, he went into his own discord and started ranting to some of the other people involved that he was freaking out because he didn’t have his ID.
remember how i said that he mentioned he was a stripper/bartender/sex worker? why the fuck don’t you have your ID on you if you claimed you were at work that day? you can’t get in without it. °-° just- everything he was saying didn’t come together cleanly. the timeline is all sorts of fucked up.
you can’t drive without an ID, how are you getting to work? you can’t get into a strip club without an ID, how are you getting in? you can’t serve alcohol without and ID, how are you a bartender? you can’t get an apartment without an ID, how are you living with a roommate?
he told us that he moved to america with his PARENTS, and somehow his grandmother is in america now? when did that happen? if you’re gonna lie, at least make it believable.
IV. conclusion.
anyway, do what you want with this information. the people in the discord all agreed that based off his voice and the evidence, that he couldn’t have been older than 15, and at most, 16.
though he hasn’t deactivated his account, the last time he was active was april 7, 2021 at 12:39am (EST) he claims he lives in cali, so i don’t know what time that is there.
thanks for reading. i’m sure i missed a lot of stuff, but for now, this is all i could put together. also, lmk if there are any spelling errors. i’m too tired to check.
like i said, if i get any hate for calling out a minor, you will be blocked/reported, and i will not hesitate to turn anons off for the time being. besides, saying dumb shit doesn’t affect me. just makes me laugh.
- bum <3
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i dont waste energy hating closed species And You Can Too!
alright you asked for it
Claim 1: “Closed species limit creativity in the art community by locking off certain concepts.”
No, they don’t. If you believe that, then you also must believe that copyrighting in general-- or just generally the fact that making a design exactly like someone else’s is viewed as kind of wack-- are stifling creativity. Why? It’s easy to accidentally make a concept that is similar to someone else’s, because there are literally just not that many Things That Exist. There will ALWAYS be repeats. Generally, if a design coincidentally looks like another, there will be a mixture of backlash from people who believe it was an intentional ripoff, and total acceptance from people who understand that it was an accident. Ultimately, the correct way to live is to understand that 1) these coincidences can happen and should not be punished, but 2) intentionally ripping off someone else’s work is wrong. It isn’t black and white, you must process 2 or more concepts at once.
Species owners understand this. I have never seen a species owner come after someone for accidentally making something similar or inspired. This is a myth. Species owners are busy as fuck, generally Normal People, and simply do not have the time or energy or desire to moderate things outside their community. Please talk to literally any of them for more than two minutes and you will discover this. Every species owner I have met is friendly and kind and I’ll go into detail on exactly how bullshit this stereotype of them chasing people down for similarities is later.
So, given that some randos will get upset and harass people over harmless inspiration/coincidence but most will not in ALL cases of accidental over-similarity: this is NOT a species-specific problem and happens just as often--if not MORE often, because of how much people fucking despise closed species-- with non-closed-species characters.
Secondly, species owners do not create a closed species with the goal of closing off a concept from use. They do it to create a community they can manage and share a concept they have created.
Take the world of Nephfei, created by the artist Queijac. The closed species of Nephfei are called Spinxyn, and they are very much sphinxes. They are not a brand-new concept Jac is claiming to have come up with, they are intentional and very direct references to sphinxes. What sets them apart is their species LORE, WORLD, and COMMUNITY.
[image ID: a screenshot of the Spinxyn species guide on deviantart, created by queijac. Text reads “IMPORTANT NOTE: Spinxyn are a species OF sphinx. Yes, they are sphinx, and yes of course anyone can make sphinx characters and designs using similar appearances! I claim no ownership over design aspects! Spinxyn as a CS community, however, which offers social art related activities, world building, themed events, etc., to use the characters in, simply relates to my own PERSONAL WORK and how i want to enrich peoples experiences with it! Please understand this, thank you!!!”]
This species is not closed so that Jac can copyright the idea of a sphinx. It is closed so that Jac has some control over the world and lore they have created. Were anyone able to create a Spinxyn without an approval process, not only would the community become too large to manage too quickly, but all sorts of Spinxyn with aspects that don’t fit the lore would pop up.
[Image ID: screenshot of a message from Queijac in the nephfei official public Discord server. Text reads: “theres just a total disconnect that 99% of ppl making closed species are making. a Group...... its about.... the community....... and building the community around One concept that someone makes and puts rules in place for so that they can actually. U kno. MANAGE THINGS... and make a cohesive group experience....... the reason CS have so much popularity is because they come with a community, not because theyre 100% unique never before seen or heard of concepts”]
Jac explicitly acknowledges that sphinxes do not belong to them and even says that borrowing some spinxyn-specific appearance details is okay!!! The ONLY thing off-limits here is a WORLD, COMMUNITY, and LORE.
Except it isn’t. Because Nephfei also hosts not one, not two, but THREE open species of intelligent beings, plus NINE official species of non-intelligent animals, so that anyone can participate.
Claim 2: Species owners harass and police people who make similar concepts.
I touched on this already re:species owners are busy as fuck & Jac openly encouraging people to make sphinx characters and even borrow spinxyn-specific traits, but this note from ground-lion/seel, the creator of Chimereons, really does it for me.
[Image ID: a DeviantArt note from ground-lion to me. Text reads “hello, thank you for showing me this! we don't actively do anything to police offbrands, since it causes more trouble than i think it's worth. i like to avoid drama wherever possible, and it seems like most people who participate in offbrands are just looking to press people's buttons so we can't/won't do anything to these people, i think it is best to just try and ignore it and move on.”]
Here you have the owner of one of the arguably most shit on and hated species saying outright “we don’t bother doing anything about intentional ripoffs”. For context, this WAS 100% intentional, I had noted ground-lion about a user I saw posting adoptables that were LABELED “offbrand chimereons” (so if anyone was hArAsSiNg PeOpLe oVeR SiMiLaR cOnCePtS here, it was me, calling attention to intentional and stated copying).
Sidenote: I think it’s shitty to intentionally steal a concept. Ground-lion has also said there is no issue with making anthropomorphic chameleon characters, just that chimereons were inspired by a set of traits, a word, lore, a desire to create a community, and their own personal stylization of anthro chameleons. It’s fine to take inspiration from how someone else stylizes an animal, but the degree to which people do it-- just outright copying every aspect of Seel’s work-- rubs me the wrong way. Not enough to say anything because that is only my personal opinion and because I do not have time for that shit.
The Dainty mod team + owner (Pajuxi-Adopts) also have a section stating that to make a design no longer a Dainty, all that’s needed are the following changes:
[image ID: screenshot of Dainty species ToS. Text reads “ Visual edits must be made for discontinuation, here is our standard discontinuation options: - remove the stockings completely and give them fur like an actual satyr - keep the stockings and give them human legs - make them an anthro - keep the stockings but they MUST start at least a quarter to halfway up the bottom portion of the deer leg with a clear divide between the stocking and leg with fur poking out underneath - you are free to suggest your own edits as well! “]
This may be speaking specifically about discontinuing a former Dainty due to the context we found it in, but this means that a design is not considered a dainty if, for example, its stockings show fur underneath and are not part of the body. That’s it. That’s all they ask. Pajuxi is not saying “this is my closed species of SATYRS WITH SOCKS and if you DARE make a satyr with socks i will COME FOR YOU!!!”, they clearly state that satyrs with socks are an acceptable Not A Dainty. I personally think the lore behind the stockings being physically part of the body and all the specific rules they entail is interesting and original and I do not think it’s such a wild ask to say “hey, please respect this and if you see it, don’t rip it off on purpose. You can take inspiration in all these valid ways but I want to have some control over the concept I came up with”.
Claim 3: Species owners are rich elitists making small artists suffer.
Species owners are small, independent artists. Artists being hated the instant they get even moderate success (that’s still usually BARELY A LIVING WAGE) is its own huge discussion and internalized issues + capitalist brainwashing you all have to deal with on your own damn time, but I want to emphasize that someone making a living or even comfortable wage from their art is Good, Actually, and is something we should all be happy to see and want to see more of.
Furthermore, no one is being taken advantage of. CS characters are a luxury item. You do not NEED one. If you absolutely will die without a sock deer, make one where the sock isn’t part of their body. If you will die without a chimereon, make an anthro chameleon and use your own ideas. If you will die without a sphinx character, I’m overjoyed to inform you that fucking nobody ever asked you not to make one. CS involvement is voluntary. If you don’t like them, don’t participate in them, but keep in mind that someone saying “hey, please don’t blatantly copy this design concept I spent time creating” is The Same Thing as someone asking you not to copy their individual character designs. You could live without stealing character designs. You can live without making something exactly like an existing CS.
Claim 4: CS put concepts behind a paywall and make them inaccessible.
Again, these are a luxury item. Most closed species MYO slots cost $10-$45. That is not a ridiculous amount to aspire to. Closed species owners WANT people to participate in their species, so there are a ton of ways.
- Chimereons hold First-Time Owner flatsale slot raffles every single month to ensure people who are new to the community have a greater chance of nabbing a slot than existing participants - Dainties have an art prompt every month, which rewards every participant regardless of skill level one prompt point (the art can be visual or written). Six prompt points can be used to buy an MYO slot for free. If you desperately need a dainty and are flat broke, you can get a free one by writing 150 words a month for six months or doing one drawing each month. Skill level doesn’t matter, ALL participants get a point if they follow the rules. - I joined a raffle for a free pre-made Spinxyn. I did not win the raffle. Jac randomly decided to give out 7 MYO slots too, one of which I won. I entered a raffle that DID NOT HAVE MYO SLOTS AS A PRIZE and got one for free anyway. CS owners want people to participate, I promise. - Dainties just had a 24-hour turn-in event (that they warned about a month in advance so folks could prepare designs), meaning every single person who submits a design in that 24hr time frame gets a slot. Normally slot sales are limited in number and sell out in seconds. - Jac sporadically draws quicker, messier Spinxyn designs which always cost $5 and raffle-flatsales them on Discord. $5 is not a gatekeepy price. - Tomoyokis recently had a free-for-all event where everyone could claim either a free common slot or a $10 uncommon slot. These are just specific examples I remember of easier or free ways to get CS. Non-specifically:
- art = reward systems are common, so again, just writing or drawing enough can equal a free MYO slot or entry into a raffle for a pre-made design - many many species that are relatively new have FREE turn-in events or giveaways to build a community - free FTO slot raffles - paid but discounted FTO slot raffles - random free design giveaways - trading art for a CS character or MYO slot (I’ve gotten a dainty and two dainty MYO slots this way, and I realize not everyone’s art gets accepted, which is why this is a whole list of ways that don’t require artistic skill whatsoever)
So getting your hands on one isn’t the worst thing in the world. You might need a little luck (as in, you have a completely fair chance that is equal to everyone else’s) or a little dedication (6 months of wanting one, or having to have a design ready within a limited time for a free turn-in event).
Also, there’s a reason CS prices cannot change much: this causes issues with the value of all existing CS characters. Dainties will ALWAYS be $35. The MYO slot price will NEVER increase. If it did, all previous dainties would be worth less, or would have to have their worth increased, which is logistics hell. Inflation doesn’t affect CS the same way it does everything else.
Claim 5: ok but legally nothing is stopping me from making one lmaoo
That is true. It’s also true that there’s not really any effective laws in place to protect artists when they say “Hey, please don’t quote retweet my art on Twitter” or “Hey, please don’t repost my art even with credit”. Sometimes, we just respect artists and do what they ask because we are Nice Fucking People, but apparently, species owners are a whole different thing, evil, and do not deserve the same basic respect.
IN CONCLUSION
Talk to a CS owner. They’re reasonable and kind people. There’s an exception to every rule, of course, but what I’ve found overwhelmingly is that they’re literally just people like you and I who were excited to make something cool and share it with people. The emphasis is HUGELY on community. I used to dislike the idea of CS too, but since participating in them and talking a ton with the owners (who are super down-to-earth and active in their servers-- Jac helped me with a confusing horse video game and gave me a Free Horse in there), I’ve realized that the caricature of CS owners as greedy and bitchy, laying claim to basic concepts like A Cat With Wings, is just bullshit. The stereotype that CS community members are an angry mob who will roast you over a fire if you draw a chameleon on two legs is bullshit. The idea that CS are impossible to get, are for the bourgeoisie, and cost thousands of dollars is bullshit (I bet you’re thinking about scarfoxes right now. Hot take: I think it’s great that an artist is selling their intellectual property for that much. I think we all should be able to. I think if someone chooses to spend that much on a design they think would make them happy, that is literally not a fucking problem, and since it was their choice and their money no one is being taken advantage of unfairly. Let people buy the shit they want to buy, I promise you will fucking survive).
I like CS, I think they are neat, I wish people would give the owners a break. They are just independent artists like me. They get lied about and stereotyped over this stupid drama bullshit and they’re so tired and saddened when the subject comes up. They literally do not police anyone-- they don’t have the time or the desire, and it wouldn’t work anyway.
I won’t post CS content here anymore. But I like participating voluntarily in these communities. I don’t understand why that’s something YOU get to have a problem with.
Stay out of my inbox. Thanks.
#long post#LONG LONG POST#seriously im not inviting argument so please please do not slide into my inbox or replies#anon ASKED; i am ANSWERING. the dialogue ENDS here.#not art#also this isnt meant as a like. Woke Post to Blow Up#it's my personal explanation and thoughts#so only read it if you want to.
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3am peter maximoff/me discord headcanons
the people have spoken. i edited it a bit so no personal info is revealed. also sometimes a ‘you’ is addressed, that’s my friend but feel free to imagine that as you. have a fun peek at my brain when i am not putting in Effort. also i misspoke its 6000+ CHARACTERS not words. i passed out after the final headcanon
- first of all. this bitch is Insecure with a capital 'I'. all his life he was told that he was a freak because of his mutation and then he believed he was a loser because he lived in his moms basement for a while and he just. he needs someone to tell him that he is actually great and a Hero
- I can and WILL be that person
- I think this is canon but ya know they don't really discuss this stuff in a superhero movie but. Peter is a whole ass virgin.
- bisexual because no straight person dresses THAT well
- if peter was around these days he would be a retro punk type of person. I think he would like lemon demon but that might just be because i'm listening to lemon demon rn
- since both his parents were holocaust survivors he would be a huge advocate for human rights
- i'm not saying he would try to kill the president but that's exactly what I'm saying
- I think Peter would have a similar interest in children as I do. other people's kids are cool. Do I want kids? FUCK no
- if peter maximoff was a real person he would 1) be my bestie and 2) ABSOLUTELY have a weed old people music basement party with us
- he is super touch starved because most of his mother's affection was given towards his little sisters (his dad wasn't around because of the whole. 'not knowing he was his dad' thing)
- peter would cry the first time he got laid and thats all im saying about that
- he gives the BEST hugs because they are tight but not too tight
- he smells like leather
- not a headcanon but. I want to touch his hair
- Peter Maximoff just wants to be given affection and praise for everything he's accomplished. I would pull the sun out of the sky and hand it to him if he asked
.- this is going to sound like im Projecting but Peter would play bass
- he plays bass because it helps him slow down and focus without being a drag on his personality
- hates water
- thinking about Holding his Hand makes me cry
- bro this is a FICTIONAL character I am being weird but I do not care
- dude I just pictured getting to wear the silver jacket and im :sobs:
- anyways back to what I was saying
- peter could tell me that the only way he could ever be At Peace and Happy was if I grew wings and flew into the sun then I would do exactly that
- he dresses in traditionally masculine and feminine ways because he is epic
- he just knows the power he holds in a skirt
- I am crying
- low key hc him as nb
- by low-key I mean not at all lowkey
- he is oddly good at drawing faces but nothing else. He can only draw faces.
- YES this is so he can draw the faces on the bodies i draw
- this man would punch a neo nazi in less than a second. no hesitation. again, the parents thing
- he protects his little sisters but like not in the creepy "whatever you do to her, I do to you" way. just in a 'dude I am literally an xman if u hurt her ill obliterate you' way
- hc abt me. I buy him shoes a lot because he is constantly destroying his shoes because he moves at the speed of sound
- living with peter would rock because 1) the whole space is clean in 0.000000000000000000001 seconds and 2) cuddles and 3) he showers in 3 seconds so the water bill won't get too high when i take 30 minute showers
- he is canonically a kleptomaniac but you already KNOW he is raiding and vandalizing hobby lobby because those bitches homophobic
- I would force you to let him participate in 1 mcu cover (MCU is my mcr cover band called my chemical uterus where we replace half the words of mcr songs with penis)
- he is an xman which means he is athletic but begrudgingly so
- if he was real every Christmas i'd give him twinkies and he'd give me chocolate chips and I'd sob and cry for hours and hours
- this motherfucker would despise ahs because he doesn't like seeing people sad or in pain but he would still listen to me if I talked about it because he's cool like that
- dude no one would ever shatter their phone around him because he'd just catch it before it hits the ground
- I am trying not to make this sexual but. I mean c'mon. he can jerk it to the speed of light that's gotta count for something
- he can do FLAWLESS eyeliner because he practices on his sisters and i am Jealous thinking about it because i look like a raccoon when i do eyeliner
- peter would say acab rights
- he would simultaneously love and hate Jojo Rabbit. if he were real I wouldn't make him watch it very often but it is my favorite movie so he might see it once or twice.
- problem is. this bitch can't be driven ANYWHERE
- it's always "bro we could've been there and back by now. no dude you don't understand you can just ride on my back—"
- any meticulous or "slow" tasks would make him really anxious and fidgety. unfortunately that just makes him more anxious because he's afraid he's annoying the people around him.
- ^ is that canon? probably
- retro gaaang
- arcade gaaang
- he would probably try to beat my asteroids high score but he CANT because im the asteroids KING
- literally I beat the highest score ever done in that arcade I am So Cool
- not a fan of stickers. too much responsibility
- pet ferret
- lowkey insecure about his laugh & his smile because a bunch of adults in his life said his laugh was irritating
‐ fuck you YES im projecting
- blue painted nails because he has taste
- king of DDR
- [friend’s name] you’re not reading this but he would kick ur ass in taiko
- halloween would fuck SO HARD
- space nerd space nerd space nerd space nerd space ne
- bro if peter was real i think id never infodump on my parents again
- a 3 hour rant about ahs from me
- a 3 hour rant about the solar system from peter
- my parents are crying because my voice box would implode on itself
- cud ddddleel ee
- i want him to Hold Me Gently
- i want to wear the goggles
- pink floyd party
- nirvana party
- mcr party
- crying on the floor because I love him so much.
- Peter likes to have his picture taken but he doesn’t want to see the picture. He wants to live on past his death but he does NOT want to see his disastrous hair
- speaking of hair
- yes i would braid it
- very nice color I want to touch it
- butterfly clips……………….
- in conclusion: I love this bitch and I will protect this bitch until the day that I fly myself into the sun
- also i want to kiss him on the m*uth
#peter maximoff headcanons#peter maximoff x me#god this is. borderline incoherent#have fun reading this and trying to decipher my brain
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1/6 Yeah, i totally support the author on this topic (Chris). Don’t get me wrong i totally understand how you, readers, feel about what he does and says and i used to ugh kinda hate him for that in both of my romanced and unromanced playthroughs. But I reflected a lot about him and his actions and when i imagined myself in his shoes everything fell into place.
2/6 I’s extremely hard to control what one does and says in high-stress situations especially if it is the first time one id experiencing them. I don’t want to justify him or to belittle the damage he did to Roe, but we need to understand that he also receives a lot of damage (both physical and mental) from the situation he found himself in. Our psyche is a very fragile thing and it’s so easy to break it by even mundane things not to speak about what happens in Superstition.
3/6 And yet he’s here trying his best to be a productive member of the team and willing to protect Roe no matter what. And the mere fact that Chris understands what he did and wants and tries to fix this and is not going to ditch Roe says like A LOT about him. Just remember how he berated himself when Roe blacked out after the ritual. He’s already punishing himself for all this and imho he doesn’t deserve our punishment too (at least not that much).
4/6 He is actually a very loyal friend and is going to be a very loyal partner if you choose to pursue him. i can vouch for that (yeah, says someone who didn’t even created him but hey i highly doubt Tierra would made a character who would treat mc like a piece of sheit in a relationship and will be infidel allright).
5/6 About his romance and his romancers, i totally understand how hurt you are and your decision not to pursue relationship with him is absolutely reasonable. If you don’t feel comfortable with being with him after all he’s done then just don’t and move on there’s nothing wrong with that! This game has quite a bunch of romanceable characters to try our luck with them, why not?
6/6 Or don’t romance anyone at all it’ll save you from extra angst and head(heart)ache as it was stated that all the ROs are going to break your heart sooner or later😅 oof quite a rumble i’ve made here. Sorry for oversharing and sorry if my opinion made you uncomfortable or hurt anyone, no offense intended guys! Just decided to share my humble opinion, that’s all. Tierra, good luck with writing your amazing projects! Love ya xoxo
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I’m going to post this and the other one I got right now because big inbox numbers scare me.
I’ll post these and those against Chris as well as long as all of these keep a respectful tone. I know some don’t want to join discord because of anxiety and other reasons so that’s why I’m posting these.
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so ive read fruits basket like twenty times, and over the last couple of years i noticed that, each time, i was drawn more and more to the characters of kimi and momiji, and identified with them in a way that was really confusing to me because i didnt really think i *actually* had a very similar personality to either of them? (discord friends may disagree but, well, this whole post is going to be about people and characters who change up their personality to be more likable.) i got all introspective about it and finally came to a conclusion about their characters that i subconsciously knew already: the key similarity between the two of them and myself is the way we very carefully layer subtle personality masks for ourselves to protect ourselves and to seem more approachable and likable without actually being vulnerable to other people. (other characters in furuba do this a lot too--key examples that come to mind are tohru, kagura, and yuki--but i care more about momiji and kimi so this is about them.)
to clarify a bit what i mean by this, ill start with a personal example. ive always been pretty good at remembering people’s names, especially if i think theyre cool and want to become friends with them, but i noticed around middle school or high school that people subconsciously find it intimidating/stalkerish if you know their name and they cant remember yours, especially if youve only met once. on the other hand, if they *do* remember your name, and you admit to not remembering theirs, they feel empowered and sympathetic to your situation; and if neither of you remember the other’s name, you have a moment of solidarity that can lead to a more relaxed relationship. so, i started pretending to have a manageable amount of trouble remembering the names of people i wanted to be friends with. the first two or three times that i meet someone, at some point i will use “clarifying their name” as a conversation starter, ie: “you’re....[], right?” or “is it []?” this is a small effect of a pattern of behavior i tend to follow: feigning incompetence to gain trust and camaraderie. is it manipulative? absolutely, but harmlessly so. its directly derived from my own social anxieties, but its a relatively healthy way to feel more connected with my peers and to stop feeling ostracized by people who resent me for being “smarter” than them--something i struggled with a lot in my youth. momiji and kimi dont put up the *same* masks as myself, but they are both rather adept at maintaining their own masks, and are both incredibly socially perceptive in the same way that i am: they analyze people’s reactions to their behavior and sculpt themselves to get the reaction they want.
lets take a look at what this means for kimi. surface level, kimi seems pretty cookie cutter--sure, shes a little chaotic, but she fits quite nicely into the femme fatale/dumb blonde trope (even though shes not blonde). but did you know that shes actually at the top of her class? its subtle, but to me its always been obvious that shes actually incredibly intelligent and constantly manipulating people to suit her needs. there are easy examples of this, of course: flirting with a teacher to get a new whiteboard, anyone? but there’s one scene that’s always spoken volumes to me about her character, and that’s the one-off joke where kakeru starts to say some “secret” about her, clearly joking, and she immediately shuts him down by cutting him off with “don’t say unnecessary things!” and elbowing him in the side, all while still smiling cheerfully. the subtlety of this is that, with her reaction, she’s actually imitating their audience: yuki. it’s yuki she doesn’t want to know about whatever kakeru knows, so she shuts down kakeru in a way we’ve seen yuki yell at kakeru whenever kakeru makes idiotic jokes. the physical attack, the angry smile, accusing kakeru of saying something annoying, but that doesnt really matter; none of these are particularly characteristic to kimi, she causes as much chaos as kakeru on a good day, but they’re incredibly recognizable to yuki. her reaction is familiar to yuki, and it invokes an assumption that kakeru is making a lame joke, not trying to reveal one of her deepest, darkest secrets, and it works because yuki would react completely differently if kakeru tried to tell someone about *his* secrets. yuki doesnt pursue the subject further, kakeru bounces back easily and doesnt give it a second thought, and kimi is safe. so, we can tentatively say that kimi has a habit of reflecting other’s expectations to hide her true self.
now, is this one scene enough on its own to prove this idea? of course not. however, when we view her actions as a whole we start to see a pattern. we see several instances where kakeru will say something stupid and kimi will listen, encourage it, or say something just as stupid back; it’s only when he tries to reveal something about *her* that she shuts him down. we see subtle signs of genuine anger when he tries to reveal her secret: the overly violent jab, the tensed vein/angry eyebrows, etc--not very characteristic for happy-go-lucky, flirtatious kimi. and, of course, we have several examples of how she manipulates a) men into buying things for her, granting her favors, leaving their girlfriends for her, etc; and b) women into feeling inferior to her, feeling aggravated with her, and thinking she’s incredibly troublesome but knowing that they can’t argue with the men about it. overall, its not a far stretch at all to think she’s manipulating everyone around her to avoid revealing information about her true self: a proud, intelligent woman who enjoys causing chaos, but is also very manipulative and controlling to the people around her and hates being vulnerable.
momiji is in some ways similar, and in other ways very very different. most people--especially characters in the story with him--tend to put momiji in this “sweet, innocent child” box. it’s not just his height--his fashion, mannerisms, outlook on life, etc are all very reminiscent of someone much younger than he is, and people tend to *treat* him like he’s much younger than he is. even if they know intellectually that yes, momiji is significantly older than he appears, it’s very easy for the older sohmas to treat him as a troublesome but still loved younger sibling--someone to be taken care of, not taken too seriously, someone lovable. i’ve seen several people point out that part of *why* momiji does this is because he subconsciously feels that hes not allowed to act like an older sibling (to momo), so he acts as a younger sibling in an effort to get a similar sort of familial bond without overstepping the boundaries that his family instilled in his mind, and i agree. i believe momiji has a habit of feigning youth to more easily bond with the people he loves. his childish actions and behavior make him easier to deal with, and also give him a little more leeway to do things that would normally frowned upon if he appeared older, ex: sleeping in a bed with tohru, wearing a girl’s uniform top to school, taking any chance he can get to be physically affectionate with people, indulging in sweets and candy, etc.
two things draw momiji’s true personality out of its shell: his growth spurt, forcing people to acknowledge his actual age, and the breaking of his curse. late game momiji, to me, has always seemed bitter, tired, and sarcastic, as opposed to the sweet, energetic, and sincere front he’d put on for most of the series, which is very interesting to me. of course, you’d normally *expect* someone who’s gone through as much as momiji to *be* bitter, tired, sarcastic, etc; however, when he puts his child-like mask on, it’s easy to pretend that he’s this loving, saintly child who bears no ill will towards anyone, who can be knocked to hell and back and still stand back up to smile again. and i do think it’s true that momiji has an incredible capacity for forgiveness and love, but there’s also no denying that he has a limit, and we can see that during his first conversation with akito after his curse breaks. this, i think, is the most raw, true representation of momiji in the whole story; momiji has lost his link with the family he made for himself in the zodiac, he’s been physically forced to grow out of his persona, he’s finally seeing that his primary abuser is really not so powerful after all, and he’s forced to finally confront the fact that, while his curse, the thing that caused most of the troubles in his life, is broken, the impacts it already had on his life won’t magically go away. momiji in this scene seems completely disconnected from akito, who is still caught up in the curse, still desperately trying to hold everything together; in his lowest moment, we can finally see momiji, not as an all-forgiving saint, but as someone who just wants to start over. he’s not happy that his curse ended; id even go as far to say that momiji, out of every zodiac, is the one who most wishes it was still around, for the bond that it gave him with the other zodiacs and as something he could pin the blame on for his family struggles. which is why it is so sad to me that his was among the first to break.
now, yall probably know by now that i am a momimi bitch, so lets talk about them together. most of the people i see shipping them--and i fully admit, this is how i started shipping them--simply just say “same energy,” make a few cute headcanons about how they’d use each other for clout, and call it a day. this is perfectly fine. however, here at Overthinking It Inc., we take it a few steps deeper. personally, i have a hard time getting invested in a ship unless i can see how the characters compliment each other, how they help each other grow, and how they could genuinely enjoy each other’s company enough to pursue a romantic relationship. it took a little bit of obsessive extrapolating, but ive finally figured out just *how well* momiji and kimi compliment each other.
momiji, at the end of furuba, is going through a metamorphosis. he’s been forced out of his childish persona and into the life of an adult rather quickly, and he takes the opportunity to try to become more true to himself. we can see, in the last few chapters, the beginnings of bounds of growth; however, i imagine that there is a significant “awkward” period in his growth. judging from what i know about his character, i believe he would, in his effort to be more honest and confident, overcompensate a bit; he would become overbearing, intense, perhaps even oversharing. he might have a tendency to try to figure out what’s “wrong” with his friends and family, might always be trying to “fix” everything. i could easily see him, in fact, develop a bit of a selfish attitude (albeit rooted in kindness--it is, after all, still momiji); in his journey to stop letting people walk all over them, i believe he might become prone to walking over people himself. he’d have no idea where the lines are, where someone’s limits are, because he never had the chance to test them out in his youth, and because the people in power in his life (his parents and akito) never respected anyone else’s limits. enter kimi: tough, walled off, and incredibly secretive, though she tries to hide it. momiji, with his social perceptiveness, would notice at some point how difficult it is for her to form genuine, emotional connections with others, and would feel the urge to help her, to draw her out of her shell, not realizing that she doesnt necessarily want to be understood, nor that she’s (now entering headcanon territory, be warned) *scared* of those kinds of relationships. she’d take it, for a while, but there would come a time when she’d snap. this would do wonders for helping momiji figure out where the boundaries are, and how to be more aware of other people’s wants and needs (and it is something that tohru, reserved little wallflower that she is, would never be able to do for him).
kimi, on the other hand, has not quite started developing her character at the end of the manga. i like to apply all sorts of believable anxieties onto her: maybe she regrets not having an easy connection with other girls, like she does with boys. maybe she refuses to believe in the familial structure (that momiji idolizes). maybe she’s so used to playing the part of the homewrecker that, when she finally realizes that she’s found something or someone she truly loves, she doesn’t know how to handle it, and always worries that somebody’s going to take it away for her. maybe she views connections with others, or vulnerability, as a weakness, something that could be used against her, and tries to do everything she can to wall people off and hide her true feelings. well, good news for her, momiji is the resident king of loving family structures. family is something he truly loves and understands, from how much he’s admired it from afar, and been grateful for the family he’s made for himself in hatori, tohru, and the other zodiac. he’s well primed to help her understand what a true family is like, that real love is a good thing, not a scary thing, and that it’s okay to be vulnerable sometimes. this big, sweethearted doofus who somehow managed to see how much she was struggling under the many layers of masks that she hides beneath? there’s no way kimi wouldnt fall for him. and she, this girl who challenges everything he believes in, teaches him valuable lessons about how far is too far, and is basically the most fun person he’s ever met? there’s no way momiji wouldn’t fall for her.
i believe the two of them would start things off as almost a play; theyd portray a satire of the ideal male and female celebrity couple rather easily; theyd lean into the standard boy and girl roles almost ridiculously so, drawing attention to the absurdity of the standard relationship and somehow flirting through it. kimi, as we know, likes to pretend to be this helpless, flirtatious, “i couldnt possibly do anything on my own, oh whatever shall i do O3O” caricature of the feminine “ideal” to draw men in; momiji, i feel, would respond to that with a dorky, happy-go-lucky, “i can help you with that, miss ; )” caricature of the masculine, “ideal” gentleman, just for fun. theyd put on a show, for each other, for their peers, and for themselves, but they would eventually run into some troubles (detailed above). things would be tense, but theyd keep up their personas--why would they *ever* admit to their flaws to the outside world, theyre perfect? their friends would notice, of course, but wouldnt be able to do much about it; in the end, the only people perceptive enough to read through the bullshit of one is the other. theyd come to an understanding--spoken or unspoken (with the subtleties of their relationship, its not unreasonable that they could change their entire perspective of their relationship with just actions, not direct words or conversation)--and shift back into their previous, flirtatious relationship, except its different this time. because now, they understand each other, they love each other, theyre practically reading the other’s mind, and theyre perfectly in tune. rather than putting on masks to hide from each other, they wear one together to hide from the world--but, they think, that’s probably enough.
#meta#it me#long post#and i do mean loooooong#kimi toudou#momiji sohma#momimi#please dont criticize me too harshly im not trained in writing and i do this for fun#<3#fruits basket#fruits basket spoilers
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a get to know me meme
tagged by the lovely @blushingbaka & @fairielightsss thank you both for tagging me! i loved reading your answers and i love that you guys wanted to tag me. it means a lot 🥰
tagging: anybody who sees this and wants to do it. if you do see if and do it bc of me id love to be tagged so i can read all your answers! 😊
1. What do you prefer to be called name wise?
Sam
2. When is your birthday?
September 4th!
3. Where do you live?
A small-ish town in Indiana
4. Three things your doing now?
Well I’m at work so I’m supposed to be working but I’m answering these questions, coloring, and talking to my lovely friends on discord.
5. Four fandom that have piqued your interest right now?
Hunter x Hunter, Demon Slayer, Fruit Baskets, & Food Wars.
6. How has the pandemic been treating you?
If it wasn’t for this pandemic I wouldn’t have met and become friends with a lot of you guys. I wouldn’t have made my smau and I probably wouldn’t be here answering these questions. So I’d say pretty good. I hate not being able to go out and do things, but I’ve loved getting to know all of you.
7. A song you can’t stop listening to right now?
Untitled by Knuckle Puck. It’s such an amazing song.
8. Recommend a movie.
Only one? Oh crap. Uhm. Honestly any of the Austin Powers movies. Those are my all time favorite.
9. How old are you?
23, soon to be 24.
10. School, university, occupation, other?
I am a medical receptionist at an optometry office and I absolutely love it.
11. Do you prefer hot or cold?
Weather wise? Hot. I absolutely loathe the winter.
12. Name one fact that others don’t know about you.
My dad named me after Sam I Am from Green Eggs & Ham by Dr. Seuss.
13. Are you shy?
At first yes, but then I get to know someone and I become a crackhead. 🙃
14. Do you have preferred pronouns?
She/Her!
15. Any pet peeves?
A LOT! I’m only going to give you one though lol. I absolutely hate being interrupted while I’m trying to talk.
16. What’s your favorite “dere” type?
Probably Tsundere bc I cant stop myself from loving them.
17. Rate your life from 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be.
Right now I’m probably at a 7 or 8 and it’s bc of all of you.
18. What is your main blog?
This one!
19. List your side logs and what they’re used for.
This is my only blog.
20. Is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?
I absolutely love my friends and would do anything for them. I love talking to them whenever I can and helping them in any way that I can. I can be a little annoying bc I LOVE to talk, but I’m always there whenever they need me. Ive been told I give pretty good advice as well. My messages are always open if anybody wants to talk or wants to be friends. 🥰💕
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!! She said - I didnt want to say anything more about the drama cause I am honestly extremely over it, but you are completely right. This is exactly what she is doing. And she KNOWS that.
thats her message directed to my friend twice.
heres the screenshots of her coming back again to say the same thing again.
not to mention based on the diction from the original ask, i know its bob. because its the same diction used on the anonymous hate i received not too long back. and the same diction i was communicating with.
just because you have screenshots doesnt show the whole narrative. you took bits and pieces of the times i was present in conversation, and any person would be confused to what the fuck is going on. i dont know if youre upset that i actually own up to my mistakes, but im not some heartless "discord gremlin" like you people want to believe.
im not playing a victim, and someone making a HATE post about me does make me one ah... 😂 you got stuff mixed up man....
i dont get how im using it for clout? thought itd be the other way around. because what would i need it for? i never @ed you a single time, and im not even active on ao3 lol. and it just shows yall are stalking my blog. just like on my server, waiting for me to fuck up. like on my blog ready for me to slip up. its strange that youd be on my posts like
that. because you even implied that my shit is trash LOL so theres not reason why you should even responding to a post...? on my blog?? girl what... if i was such a "manipulator", why didnt i make the callout post first? if i wanted to absolutely fool my followers (yup because you think that theyre that dumb) i wouldve @ed you and everything!! not.
i write because i want to make stories and share it with people. im nice to people because theyre nice to me. i like letting people know their important. idk if you think its fake because i am no longer nice to you, but im friends with almost everyone i meet so take that with what you will...
you dont accuse people or use strong definitions to describe someone because they have beef with your friend. you pretend like i cant be upset and i have every right because all you guys are doing are twisting my words because you guys dont like me and feel everyone else shouldnt either.its always, "what did sav say" "its not what you said its how you say it" but no one gives a fuck how they come to me. no one gives a fuck "how they say it" to me. if i feel defensive of course im going to get cold.
EDIT: its called watching porn and reading,, doujins. unless you do those off incog then youre a real troop. on any day you will see the incognito tab guy at the top of my screen LMAO. and my friend sent that and i had to protect her privacy ahah. also im sure you cant copy and paste? id know because when i first got tumblr, id try copy and pasting blog names but itd never works so i had to get the app.😔 plus im not tryna have some person in my actual life got pulled into bullshit. im not hearing anything until someone tells me dude. and i cant go on my inbox either? and those screenshots were from when you sent them if you checked the timestamp lol.
you say that we're children but you attack us. 🤔😂 vent is supposed to be where you share whats troubling you and when people attack you instead of course someone is going to get defensive. arguing with people in vent is so inappropriate, and im really speechless. if you were trying to really "open" her eyes, you had to send it twice? if youre easily angered by someone saying they dont like people celebrate early than thats your prerogative.
dont try to claim harassment when you made a post about me first, sent your minions after me. you know whats harassment? coming into my server the sole purpose to basically get me annoyed and fuck up, make posts and reply to hateful messages like "yes yes hate sav the cunt child!" this is me defending myself. if you were truly done youd stop. bbs.
stop trying to push this weird narrative that i dont give a fuck that i hurt peoples feelings. ive explained it all dude. its up to you if you dont want to believe but im just going to ask kindly that you stop dude. you dont create this demonizing post, delete my replies and everything ive said, block me and say, iM oVeR iT, and proceed to talk shit about me behind a block? stop acting like that post wasnt an act of just pure hate. like you got what you wanted, i just ask that you stop.
i said i was going to drop it and you responded so... im done because you and your people want to believe that im terrible person, its fine. at the end of the day i know me and the people who know me will stick with me. i just ask that you stop and i'll delete my stuff if you delete yours. best of wishes dude. 💃🏽
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Magia Record 4 | Uchitama 3 - 5 | Eizouken 5 | Iruma-kun 17 - 18 | BnHA 76 - 79 | ID: Invaded 5 - 7
Magia Record 4
There’s a fish behind Iroha. Also, I was confused about the ketchup cake thing Jenn mentiond in one of her posts until I saw it here.(On a related note, ketchup cake seems to really exist…but only in Canada.)
Ah! Tsuruno. I’ve heard of her from reading around about this mobage.
The coding of the episode went funny again…
I feel like despite this being everything Madoka was, this seems to have lost some of the charm somehow. I’ve been reading that others are having similar experiences, though. Update: I think I know why now…although there are magical girl events fuelling the entire thing, the show is currently more bent on being a CGDCT. That’s why I’m not so happy with it…I dunno about others, though.
I suspected Séance Shrine was Mizuna Shrine…I mean, it was right behind Iroha and co.
Who was that blonde girl…?
I thought I just saw face-stealing aliens swoop in (i.e. someone didn’t bother drawing in the girls’ faces). I thought that was just a Bones thing exclusive to BSD.
“Olibe oil” (sic). Also, there are creepy blue (green?) figures walking the aisles…
I notice Iroha needed an extra bounce to get over the gate.
What’s that orange marking on the girls’ faces…? Update: Reading the wiki reveals it’s the Witch’s Kiss, or something similar to it.
Uchitama 3
Well, it says “chome” but gets translated to “street”…which is a bit weird. A chome is a city district, which functions much like a street but isn’t the same.
I just realised the title card has a dog’s face on it. Maybe next time it’ll be a cat’s face…
Oh my gosh, it’s a Yu-Gi-Oh duel! Teenager-ness…(?) What is that (LOL)?! *squints at screen* Oh, chuunibyou. That makes sense.
They even materialised the (Gon’s) chair! (LOL)
At least this matchup isn’t Bull vs. Momo…thank goodness(!)
I seriously love how much skin they make Bull show…(LOL…?)
Well, if the race to the top is exciting then the race to the bottom should be humiliating, no? That’s how these things work.
LOL, just seeing a badass dude that’s meant to represent a wolf howling like one is hilarious. (But seriously, are any of these neighbourhood dogs a Bad Enough Dude, to paraphrase an old game meme?)
Don’t Naruto run, Pochi! It’s dangerous!
Ahhhhhhh, so that’s why people call Pochi “Shiro” and feed him tofu…
The video got encoded funny again…
Uchitama 4
This is like Wakasa all over again…
The “My Name is Gon” title is a reference to “I Am a Cat” (Wahagai wa Neko de Aru). It actually doesn’t have the word for “name” in there, which is a bit weird…Update: It’s about the day-to-day introspection and life of a cat and the wagahai suggests the cat thinks rather highly of himself, so I’d assume the former (applied to a dog of course), if not both of those things to be part of this.
The fact that Gon doesn’t move his mouth while telling us weird things (such as how Bull’s sweater reminds him of an old lady in Osaka) is hilarious. It’s almost like a play with Gon as narrator.
See? That titlecard has a different dog’s face now! (I believe it’s Kuro’s, actually.)
This series is actually really informative about cats and dogs!
The Detective Conan parody cat is pretty interesting in regards to how the series wants to play with the human/animal dichotomy.
Now the titlecard has a cat’s face.
This song is so energetic! The banners are pretty funny too – I mean, “trying to get a ripped body” is impossible for a dog, right?
Yyyyyyyyup, Ume is singing this song (Sanchome no Hoshi* or The Star of 3rd District*)! I’m being spoilt!
Eizouken 5
Iron Giant…I thought the name sounded familiar. Turns out it’s a Brad Bird-directed movie.
This episode is very Scott...LOL.
I like how they showed the back of the guy to correspond with the back of the robot.
Iruma 17
Gap = sukima, as you might know from a post I made re: Mairimashita! Iruma-kun puns.
“Yes, boss!” in English.
Why do people being questioned at a koban always have katsudhum? (Hataraku Maousama reference)
Ooh, this long-haired demon from the Game or New Magic battler is hot!!!
That's the 1st time Acchan and Bakemi appear...
I'd assume the ga in Gabuko means gakkou (school).
Now it's ki su ma...(instead of sukima)
Iruma 18
Aw, Kiriwo's so cute...
...and he's now a sadist. (Good job, me...I don't like sadists much.)
The cyclops girl's name is Dosanko, huh?
Hanabi are "fire flowers" (translating somewhat literally), which is why they "bloom" in the translation.
Update: Oh, I accidentally skipped ep. 17. I was wondering how Sabro got to hold up Comecome's stall…
BnHA 76
I’m not sure how the subbers got “Go entropy! Plus Chaos!”, although it might have something to do with Saikou da! (which I made out from listening to the audio).
Okay, now you can hear them say “Plus Chaos”.
Note Overhaul’s eyecatch background is purple, which contrasts Deku’s green. By the way, the eyecatch says that Overhaul belongs to the Shie Hassaikai and not the League…the guy’s always been picky about not being associated with the League.
The one time I turn the volume off, I don’t need it (LOL).
Dame da is closer to “It’s useless” or “You’re useless” than “Naughty girl”, subbers.
The coronavirus has taught me that masks make people seem less human, especially those with weird mouths like Overhaul’s plague doctor/bird one.
BnHA 77
In one of the Discord servers where Mudamaid appears, I decided to take Chronostasis. Why? He isn’t that bad-looking when he hasn’t got his mask on, to be real with you.
Froppy uses “senpai”, not Tamaki’s hero name.
I believe Tamaki calls Tsuyu “Kero-chan”, hence “Miss Ribbit”.
I wanna cry…I know Nighteye won’t see All Might again until All Might himself dies…(and this is because I’ve read the manga – thanks Viz and Shonen Jump for doing that!)
Shigaraki makes me beg the question…where do those hands of his come from??? Update: Ewwwwwwwww, those hands come from individuals affected by Tomura’s Quirk! (I think that’s a spoiler though…)
I almost got to the point of crying. I mean, I knew it would happen, but seeing it animated…makes it worse, y’know??? (Also, I accidentally might’ve stuck my finger in my eye when I was trying to wipe away tears, so either way, I teared up.)
BnHA 78
Huh? This OP is awfully cheerful after Nighteye’s death…I think it’s called Star Maker? Update: Star Marker by Kana Boon.
Well, you do realise I don’t know about anything after this point…all over again. So your surprise will be mine too.
LOL , it’s a Titan! (Apparently – according to the wiki pages I read – Gigantomachia is based on the Titans of lore, so…that’s true in more than one sense when you take into account Attack on Titan.)
The birbs are so cute!
That was just a few solid minutes of recap. Not as bad as Detective Conan where they frontend it, but still bad.
Hmm? I thought I saw black hair on Kurogiri…?
“He’s a walking disaster.” – That’s what I’d say about Bakugou, LOL.
Shouto “Daddy Issues” Todoroki taking the stage again…not that I mind, but…isn’t this Midoriya’s story?
I think I saw a Funko Pop All Might in the ED…?
You can see someone with a red wing Quirk. Based on what I’ve read around, that guy is Hawks.
Deku’s shirt at the end says “sheets”, not “shirt” (it’s missing a small ya).
BnHA 79
“…and I like udon better!” - *facepalm* That’s not how you make friends, Yoarashi.
Gang Orca’s like the Gordon Ramsay of heroes…with much less swearing.
*laughs behind hands as kids spill out the door* Welp, this is going to be real good.
This blonde kid is basically Monoma ver. 2!!! I hate him already!!!
Oh…that’s surprisingly strategic, Bakugou…*shows image of kid being dangled by a rope* Uh…or maybe not.
Who’s this guy with the bolo tie, anyway…?
Uchitama 5
I seriously thought this cat was Nora…(Sakura)
Does “big sister” refer to Lilly or another cat…?
Oh, I was wondering why Sakura didn’t have a cat tail…turns out she’s a pig. (Huh. It reminds me of a kinder version of the Africa Salaryman mixer joke.)
I like how open the series is in regards to interspecies love. Then again,…bestiality is an absolute no-no in my books, so maybe not.
Is it just me, or is there a slight bruise around Nora’s left eye…?
It’s like a Boueibu reunion! Shirai and Ume at the baths! Yay~!
There’s something absolutely silly about seeing anime boys hide in cupboards like cats. It puts a stupid smile on my face, like Eizouken does.
“I told you to get in the bath already!” – Gaddammit, Koma!
How do Gon’s glasses not fog up in the bath? (MST3K mantra required)
Oh, Nora does have a bruise around his eye! What’s it from, though?
Way to upsell Koma’s services, Kuro. (partially sarcastic…?)
“Can I say we’re having a doggone good time?” – Remind me to check what that sounds like in Japanese later. Update: Kuro says something that sounds lik izoizo in the line beforehand and then matches it in this line. In order to match the puns, there’s a pun in the English translation too.
ID: Invaded 5
Matsuoka’s glasses thing reminds me of Kanamori (Eizouken)…
“hole experience” – Is that a pun…?
Never ask a woman her age.
Hmm…”maidenly innocence”…
Why do some people believe “never mind” is one word???
I just noticed there’s a differently coloured bar on the title card…maybe that’s how far into the episode you should be. Also, is this well a pun on “falling for you”?
I noticed the blood had a weird texture to it. Also, I noticed the woman had heterochromia bfore it was pointed out she’s not real.
I have a theory. See, John(nie) Walker is an alcohol (sake) brand, right? This is Sakaido (as opposed to Anaido, who’s the Perforator and ana = hole). It’s the same character, so (I suspect) Sakaido’s crime has to do with alcohol…
Hmm…this ain’t gonna pass the Bechdel test after all…
Oh! Post-credits segment! Keep watching.
ID: Invaded 6
“Matsuoka was injured” – Er, he still has the knife in him…?
Ohhhhhh…this has gotta be Hondomachi!
I predict Hondomachi and Sakaido are going to go head-to-head someday. Update: Or those two vs. Johnnie Walker.
There was a cut-off footprint…
Isn’t it possible for a person to kill someone without knowing their name?
*cries* Sakaido! I’ve never seen you so emotional before…!
ID: Invaded 7
So Narihisago did look like Sakaido at one point…when his daughter was murdered.
The thing that reads cognition particles has “Back ground. Rad. Lev.” on the bottom of its screen.
I don’t have the sound on right now, so I dunno what Matsuoka was reacting to specifically…(aside from the guy owning up to whatever was done.)
Interestingly, Katsuyama has the character for “win” in his name. However, this is the only link I’ve found between the serial killers and their names.
There’s a character which appears in both the word for “martial arts” and one of the (dead) professional fighters – Takehiko Fujita. It means stuff like “war” and “military power”.
Oh! There’s a bar on the titlecard and this one is up to 900 of 1200…I wonder what that means? Is that an indication of time, perhaps? Also in the bottom left, “CAM 025”.
Miyo Hijiriido?! Oh my gosh! This is new, indeed!
Okay, so the characters for Miyo look like this: 聖井戸 御代 The first character in “Miyo” is the same one that denotes “go” in goryoushin (formal way to denote “parents”) and similar words in keigo. The characters which aren’t “well” (water well) are the character for “saint/holy” and “age” (as in the period of time, alternatively “generation”), aside from the one I’ve already discussed. Therefore, I’d suggest Miyo is actually “the great detective [who ushers in a new] age” or “the great detective [of the current] age”. Update: Apparently Miyo means “age of a ruler”, as in the period of their reign (specifically referring to the emperor if it needs to be). I’ve heard there’s specific words in the Japanese language used only to refer to the imperial family…this is probably one of them. That specific name combo (as “odai”) is also a very polite way to refer to spare change, although that doesn’t seem very useful to know.
What’s that thing on Tamotsu’s wrist…? (A watch? Wouldn’t that be illegal in a prison like this?)
Interestingly, all other killers wear white. Narihisago is the only one in black (or brown…or whatever colour that is).
What would Miyo need a key for? The key to the mystery, or a physical key?
I don’t think you can see Narihisago’s face in any of the pics he has of Muku or his wife.
Ooh…Sakaido’s pretty ripped. (Me likey…not that I would like a killer…)
Why is Sakaido…or I should say Narihisago…dead in his own imagination, huh?
Hmm…Miyo wears a black singlet or sleeveless top of some sort under that cape...poncho…Holmes cosplay thing. She still has a gun in her detective form, too.
Notably, no detective wears a skirt in this world…*sigh* So much for Nancy Drew and Miss Marple…
Muku has smiley faces on her hair decs.
Does that mean you’ve met the real Muku…? (I think this is Momoki speaking about Muku.) Update: It might be Habutae, actually. I never really got a grasp on the names of the peanut gallery.
Hondomachi’s never seen the cockpit in real life, right?
Well-ception! (It’s a bit of a joke that when there’s something in something, I call it [X]ception as a homage to Inception.)
Table flip! That meme hasn’t been around for a while, come to think of it…
I find it interesting that they point to the circles of the roof when talking about pi. As you know, the circle and pi are related.
Hmm? I don’t remember seing the quote “Let us try to make this world a better place” in this episode…
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hello, i’m mina and i’m too excited to roleplay with you all ! i’ve only recently started getting back into groups and this one really caught my eye. the roleplay is just amazing and all of your muses are absolutely wonderful. from what i can see, everyone is a great writer, intimidating, but that makes it more exciting for me. my face claim is my absolute queen soyou - feel free to add my discord - queen soyou#1226 for plotting purposes.
( kang jihyun, twenty eight, cisfemale ) by chance have you met CLAUDIA SONG yet? i hear SHE has lived in COLUMBIA CITY for TWO MONTHS and works as a HIGH SCHOOL GUIDANCE COUNSELOR. i’m surprised you haven’t met them yet but for when you do, i hear they can be quite EMOTIONAL but also COMPASSIONATE. for whatever reason they remind me of DENIM OVERSIZED JACKETS, LACED BODY SUITS and DISORGANISED NOTES. ( mina, 20, she/her, gmt )
under the cut will be a little about claudia ; please proceed with caution as there is mention of codependency tw, domestic abuse tw, emotional manipulation tw under the cut.
one would say that claudia had a little too much personality in her early life. she had always been full of energy and passion, a girl wanting to show off her creations and talents to all, especially her parents that had moved from south korea shortly before she came along. they did enjoy her company; a vibrant, polite young lady? there was nothing to dislike. she was the type to help with the washing of the dishes but then accidentally break one - her intentions were there, they just weren’t executed correctly.
ever since she could remember, claudia loved to sing and dance. she was a theatre kid growing up and her parents greatly encouraged her to take part in productions even though it took time away from her school work. she found herself taking a natural lead and even helping some of the other students with learning lines on top of home work. she always liked to lend a helping hand and that was never going to change.
as she grew older, she did take a more nurturing role with her friends. she was always the one that they came to for advice and that became her responsibility. the girl didn’t feel like she could have any negative feelings of her own so tried to make sure that she appeared happy and supportive at all times - she wanted the best for those around her, she didn’t see anything wrong with it.
however, she was sensitive and their struggles quickly became her’s. a natural empath, she found herself struggling to deal with the horrible things they were going through. her home life was stable, she had a family that loved her, teased her for her broken hangul, but they loved her and would always protect her in the way that they knew how - she was mature enough to understand that not everyone had that privilege.
it was only natural that she fell into the realm of pyschology. claudia wanted to help people, she really did, even stuck at college despite hating the whole set up of it. she was somewhat a loner, someone who kept to herself and talked to strangers who she would never see again. she missed her friends from high school but realised that the dynamic had changed and they weren’t together anymore. it hurt her, a lot, more than it probably should have done. no one seemed to need her here... she didn’t realise, but she was incredibly codependent and that’s when the pattern started.
matthew williams wasn’t the first male to give her attention in her second year but he was certainly one to make her feel safe. he was in her psychology class, a mature student that was taking it to enrich his resumé and she was taken by him. he listened to her, asked for help, gave her life advice - it seemed like the perfect match.
while he continued down the path of business after completing his bachelor course, claudia decided to stay on and get her master’s in school counseling. she didn’t want to be at a practice, she wanted to be where it really mattered and also where she had experience. if only there had been a counselor at my school i may not have felt so much pressure. however, the woman didn’t realise that she needed it.
she moved in with matthew as she believed it was the best thing for her in that moment. it was true; he was kind, loving, supportive, everything she could have hoped for and she was hardly going to throw that away. she married him when she was twenty four and he had just turned thirty one. she was convinced it was love but it turned out he was manipulating her the entire time. claudia doesn’t like to think that her entire marriage was a lie, that hurts her too much and she would rather hold on to the fond memories she has of that time in her life, even if they were few and far between...
the manipulation wasn’t noticeable to her at first, it was more about controlling where she was and what she was doing. claudia had a few friends at the school she got a job at and she enjoyed spending time with them. they had made her feel so welcome when she had first started and their personalities seemed to mesh together. after school they would go to a bar, occasionally catch a student with a fake id and have a fun time with it and would also go for meals out. it all made matthew feel invisible. he made it his mission to know where she was, what she was doing and her next plans so that he could clash with them. claudia was loyal, she would choose him over them any time.
at first, she didn’t feel like anything was wrong. they had both made sacrifices and a marriage was supposed to be work - she wasn’t about to have a disagreement with him over things so petty. however, as time went on, he became more and more angered, aggressive with her. the woman was small but she also had too much respect for him to try and fight back. at times, she felt like she had said the wrong thing and deserved it.
as it got really bad, claudia became more and more tearful at work - they even put her on a warning for walking out on a student because she was in tears. she would get up at 4 every morning to make sure the house was spotless, so he would have nothing to hate her for and she would spend the rest of her day worrying about the most mundane of things. he could always find fault with her and it would always end badly for her...
she used the school production as a great way to get away for a while, to help the drama department put on a show and that’s what kept her going. the kids did need some encouragement but she was there to give it every time and even help them with their technique. it reminded her how much she loved it to begin with and realised that she should have kept doing it.
claudia felt it difficult to ask for help as she had always being the one giving it. how could she help the students if she couldn’t even help herself? broken ribs and a collapsed lung, he was actually the one to call 911 for her. the doctors and police knew what was happening, especialy when she claimed that she slipped... the ‘split’ wasn’t easy for her. the woman felt useless wihtout him, moreso than she had done with him.
AFTER:
one of her friends at the school took her in to recover and she actually ended up moving with her to seattle before she got her own place. the other woman was kind and let her take as much time as she needed off. claudia used this time to get involved with community stage productions and it definitely lifted her spirits. being cared for while slowly becoming used to freedom did wonders for her.
she has recently got a job at a local high school and plans to move out of her friend’s house after she has had a few paycheques. she does love living with her friend and her family but now she feels ready to get her own space to truly start building herself up once again.
claudia is a very nurturing individual but also quite sensitive. if she’s uncomfortable about something, she is one to cry.
she sings in public while she has her earphones because it brings her joy.
although she finds her job challenging at times, she’s glad to be in an environment where she doesn’t feel threatened.
she wears glasses but hates wearing them.
she’s very big on oversized jackets and lace body suits. if she’s feeling adventurous, she’ll add a heel into the mix. steve jobs is also her style icon as she has so many bodysuits and sweaters that have a turtle neck - she jokes about this daily.
she’s actually taking part in the community production and she’s loving every minute of it.
claudia drops her phone at least once a week but it still doesn’t have a crack in it... she’s well and truly mastered the art.
she tends to use humour as a way to cope with her emotions. she can be the joker but when it comes to someone else, she will make sure to listen and advise.
claudia still puts others before herself so catch her trying to sort out other people’s problems and not even touching her own...
her friend knows her for taking in people in need and she has got told off for this as there are children living there and she doesn’t even know them that well - she just wants to help but doesn’t think about repercussions of her actions.
she’s really enjoying living in seattle with so many things to see and do - she’s just fallen in love with it and she’s so glad shegot away from her old life and was able to start some place new!
generally, her room is an absolute tip. she has little passion for organisation but can find things with ease if people don’t tamper with her system.
she’s a fan of a regular latte, nothing more adventurous than a salted caramel latte at christmas for her !
she calls her parents three times every week to check in with them to make sure that they’re not worrying about her. she loves them dearly and is so grateful that they’re more present in her life now !
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Lokane Gift Exchange!
A Gift for @nofearofwaves
An AU in which Jane does the impossible and brings together two brothers for the holidays, while finding a family to call her own along the way. Enjoy!
Pass the Discord, Please
Jane loathed the holiday season with every fiber of her being. The happy families, the food laden tables, the traffic jams from traveling that made her late to work almost every day. Hated. Loathed. Despised.
This year was no exception. With Thanksgiving approaching in a mere two days, Darcy had left her alone in their apartment so she could visit family in North Carolina. She had invited Jane to come with her, but after the incident where the younger girl’s uncle got drunk and used Jane’s shoes to relieve himself, she’d said never again.
Then there was Erik. He was so involved in his work that he barely knew what day it was, much less that Jane was going to be alone for the holidays. So alone she was, watching Die Hard in lieu of the cheesy Hallmark movies that monopolized her television this time of year.
She was in the process of watching John McClain kick some ass when her phone rang. She picked it up, seeing her ex-boyfriend’s name on the caller ID and groaned.
“What do you need, Thor?” she answered, rolling her eyes. He couldn’t be bothered to call her and chat when they were dating, but he certainly called when he needed favors.
“Jane,” he croaked, his voice sounding broken and tired over the phone. “Thank you for answering. I just… I need someone to talk to right now.”
This was different. She sat up on the couch, clutching the phone in her hands, her brows furrowed. “What’s wrong?” she demanded.
“It’s…” she heard him breaking down on the other end of the line, his voice cracking as he spoke. “Mother’s dead. She was in a car accident.”
Suddenly Jane felt like the worlds biggest asshole. “I’m sorry…” she apologized, vowing to be kind to Thor, at least for tonight. She remembered Frigga quite fondly from when they were dating. Thor’s mother had doted on her, and Jane had come to love her like she was her own mother. “When is her funeral?”
“Three days from now,” Thor sighed. “We’re still going to get together for dinner on Thanksgiving as usual, and go to the funeral the next morning. Father’s not taking it well, and Loki… well, he’s in an even fouler mood than usual. I worry they’ll be at each other’s throats, and I won’t be able to stop them. I was hoping…” He paused, as though unsure of his next words. “I was hoping maybe you could come to Thanksgiving with me this year,” he asked hopefully. “Maybe having you there would diffuse the situation somewhat. They both know how much Mother loved you.”
“Absolutely not,” Jane shook her head. “You know I don’t do holidays.”
“Please, Jane,” Thor pleaded. “I’m begging you. I have no one else I can ask. You won’t have to do anything, but be there. I promise.”
“Thor –“
“Please.”
Jane sighed. “Alright, I’ll do it,” she conceded. “But you owe me.”
Thor thanked her profusely, and when he finally hung up, Jane sunk down on the couch in defeat, the sounds of explosions from her television echoing in the background.
“Well,” she sighed. “I guess I’m doing the holidays after all.”
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The evening started out normal enough. Jane dressed in her favorite sweater and boots, and took a cab over to Thor’s house. It was a well-built stone living quarters in an upscale neighborhood. Nothing but the best for the son of a wealthy contractor.
The inside was even more impressive, with teak wood flooring and marble accents everywhere. Even the furniture was more than Jane could afford on her modest paycheck.
When she arrived Odin was already there. He sat on one of Thor’s oversized chairs, watching football, and looking generally displeased with being present. The eye patch he wore that covered wounds he’d sustained in the war did little to make him more approachable. He scowled the moment she walked in the door.
“Jane Foster,” he greeted, his tone icy. “I thought you and Thor had broken up.”
“We did,” she quipped, trying not to let his tone get under her skin.
“Isn’t the point of breaking up that you agree not to see each other anymore?” he pried. “Are you so desperate for Thor’s attentions that you have to show up and ruin the holiday for all of us?”
Okay. Now she was starting to get pissed.
“For your information, Thor asked me to come,” Jane spat as she hung her coat up inside the door. “Not that I owe you an explanation or anything.”
Odin’s brow furrowed in anger, and he was about to respond when Thor came in the room, saving her from an unnecessary rise in her blood pressure.
“Jane!” Thor greeted fondly. “I’m so glad you could make it.” He stepped forward and enveloped her in a tight hug, which she returned. Odin scowled yet again as he watched them.
A buzzer went off in the kitchen, and Thor excused himself to check on the ham. Odin turned his attention back to the game, leaving Jane to stand in the doorway awkwardly.
She had little time to think about it, before the door opened behind her. A tall young man with pale skin and raven hair stepped inside, looking slightly perplexed upon seeing her. He removed his coat, his intense green eyes flickering to her in interest.
He was quite handsome, and Jane was at a loss. “Hi,” she fumbled awkwardly. “I’m… uh… I’m Jane.”
“Hello, Jane,” he greeted, his voice a soft rumble. Something akin to a smirk played at the corners of his lips, as his eyes assessed her boldly. It felt as though she were naked under his intense gaze, and she found herself crossing her arms over her chest. “You’re the Jane, correct?” he asked. “Jane Foster?”
“Huh?” she blinked, her mind taking far too long to register that he’d spoken to her. “Yeah,” she blurted. “I’m Jane. Foster I mean.” She instantly wanted to face palm for sounding like such an idiot.
The stranger tsked playfully. “Trying to win your way back into my brother’s good graces I see. Wanted another shot at the family fortune?”
All of Jane’s tongue-tied awkwardness slipped away to be replaced by anger. “Excuse me?”
“You heard me,” he smirked, leaning in. “Why does any woman date a pompous, self absorbed asshole? You’re digging for gold, and you’ve found it. It would be a tragedy to let it slip away.”
There was a loud pop as she struck him, and his cheek was set on fire with her handprint. His eyes widened in shock, and for a moment Jane was afraid she’d taken it too far.
He pressed a hand to his cheek, and looked at her with a mixture of surprise and awe. He smiled. It wasn’t a smirk, but a genuine grin that stretched across his face, followed by a low chuckle. “I’m Loki,” he introduced himself, his green eyes sparkling with mischief. “Perhaps you’ve heard of me.”
At that moment Thor returned, looking quite pleased. “Loki,” he greeted warmly. “I see you’ve met Jane.”
“I have,” Loki acknowledged, his eyes never leaving her, even as he moved away. “I like her. You should have kept this one.”
Thor glanced at her in confusion and Jane merely shrugged. Loki left towards the kitchen with only one lingering gaze on Jane. He ignored Odin’s presence completely.
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Thanksgiving dinner was a tense affair. The four of them stabbed at their ham and potatoes awkwardly, while Thor tried to keep a conversation going. Jane helped him out where she could, but it seemed that only the two of them were interested in having a good evening.
Loki refused to look at or speak to Odin in any way, and even his comments to Thor were short and brusque. His eyes often fell to Jane, and she could feel his near constant gaze on her as they ate. Odin grumbled and spouted out one word answers, his heart not in the conversation.
“So have you decided what you want to do about the business, Thor?” Odin asked suddenly as he took a bite of his ham. “I’m not getting any younger.”
Thor’s fork clattered against the plate, and Loki’s eyes instantly fixed on his brother, brows furrowed.
“I…,” Thor stammered. “I’m ready to take it over if you still want me to,” he finally said.
Odin nodded. “Of course that’s what I want,” he agreed. “I need some time to travel, and get away after your Mother. You’re ready now. I couldn’t imagine a better replacement, and I’d be proud to hand the business over to you.”
Thor seemed at a loss for words, and Loki snorted. “How touching,” the dark haired man growled. “I thought that perhaps on the eve of Mother’s funeral, that we could put aside your favoritism and focus on the woman you never deserved in the first place. My mistake. It seems as though you’re still determined to rub Thor’s superiority in my face.”
“Odin rose from the table, and fixed Loki with a harsh glare. “Silence, boy,” he snarled.
Loki sprang up and slammed his fists on the table, leaning his upper body across the feast and towards Odin. “You call me boy, but what do you know of being a man?” he shouted. “Mother cried nearly every night, because of you, so stop pretending like you ever cared about her!”
Odin lunged across the table, and Jane jumped up, scrambling to get away. Thor intervened, putting himself between his father and his brother.
“Enough!” he shouted, putting on hand on Loki’s chest. “You should be ashamed of yourself to speak to our father in such a way. Where is your sense, Loki?”
Loki pushed him away, fury contorting his features. “You would side with him? Even after everything he’s done?”
“Aye,” Thor nodded. “Father’s actions do not excuse your behavior, Loki.”
Loki reached forward, and for a moment Jane was afraid he would knock the dishes from the table onto the floor. She was wrong. He straightened up and gained control over himself. A cold fury shone in his eyes, but his face was impassive.
“To hell with both of you,” he simply said. “This is no family.”
Without another word, he swept through the house and left, slamming the door behind him. They heard him drive away, his tires peeling out on the concrete.
“Well…” Thor sighed. “That didn’t go well at all…”
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Frigga’s funeral was far bigger than Jane ever expected. People showed up in droves, and if she had to guess, she would say there were at least a hundred mourners in attendance.
She had worn the only dress she owned, and come to pay her respects to a woman she had admired. Thor found her almost the moment she walked in the door, and asked her to sit with him and Odin. She wanted to refuse, but after the evening before and the terrible loss they had endured, she didn’t have it in her heart to say no.
Thor and Odin both wore suits, a haunted look in their eyes as those around them talked about how much Frigga was loved. They whispered quietly amongst themselves, occasionally shedding a few tears. Thor tried to make small talk with Jane before the service started, but he seemed a poor version of his usual cheer.
“Where’s Loki?” Jane asked before she could stop herself, unable to help but notice the younger brother’s absence. He might have been an asshole, but surely he wouldn’t skip his own mother’s funeral.
Thor shrugged. “I called him four times last night. He didn’t answer. I thought he would at least show up, but now… I don’t know…”
The funeral service started, and Jane found herself looking around at the crowd as the speaker gave Frigga’s eulogy. She refused to believe that Loki wouldn’t show up to his mother’s funeral, especially after he defended her so vehemently the night before.
It took her nearly fifteen minutes, but she finally saw a flicker of his presence at the back of the crowd. He sat alone, his hands gripping the back of the bench in front of him, and his lips tightened in a pained expression. She didn’t know why she felt drawn to him, but a desperate need to just go and sit with him so he wouldn’t be alone drove her to action.
Jane waited until some of the crowd stirred and slipped out, mumbling some excuse to Thor about having to use the restroom. She snuck back to the very last row, and weaved her way in and out until she found herself next to him. She plopped down beside Loki, with only a faint “hi.”
He looked at her as though she’d grown a second head. She could see the unshed tears in his eyes, and he wiped at them with the back of his hand.
“What are you doing here?” he leaned forward and whispered fiercely.
“Thought you could use some company.”
“You didn’t come with Thor?”
“No,” Jane told him simply. “I came by myself.”
He seemed placated by her answer and nodded, saying nothing else. Jane sat with him for the remainder of the funeral, listening to the music and eulogies given by those who knew her. Neither Jane nor Loki spoke until it was over. Once everyone stood to leave, Loki turned to Jane and gave her a curious glance.
“Tell me, Jane Foster,” he asked with the slightest hint of mischief in his eyes. “Do you have any plans for the rest of the day?”
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Loki’s apartment was several miles out of town, and nothing at all like Thor’s house. It was plain with little decoration anywhere to be seen. No photographs hung on the walls, the furniture was black leather, and everything was pristine, almost as though no one lived there.
“I’m still in the process of moving in,” Loki explained, as though he expected her to ask. He went into what looked like a bedroom, shutting the door behind him and leaving Jane alone in the sparsely decorated living room.
When he returned, he held a box under his arm, and was pulling on a t-shirt over a chest that had Jane’s mouth watering. He was not as built as Thor. His body was pale and lean, but it was all muscle. The t-shirt slid over his chest, hiding it from view and Jane struggled to raise her eyes back up to his face. If Loki noticed, he said nothing about it.
“I have some of Mother’s things in this box,” he explained as he sat the box down on the table. “I wanted to take something to put at her graveside, and I was hoping you could help me choose since you knew her.”
“Of course,” Jane said easily.
They sat together on his leather couch, and he opened the box. Inside were various items that Frigga had owned. A necklace, a coin purse, a book on medicinal uses of plants, another book full of poetry, and a knife that had roses engraved on the hilt.
“All of this was hers,” Loki said reverently.
“Was there something she liked best?” Jane questioned as she looked through the items. “Maybe something she used or wore every day?”
Loki gave it some thought before answering. “The only thing I saw her with everyday was the knife,” he admitted. “Her father gave it to her, and she engraved the flowers on the hilt herself. She carried it with her everywhere.”
“Then that’s what you need to take to her graveside.”
He asked her to go with him, but he didn’t have to. Jane would have gone anyway, if only to just to pay her last respects to Frigga.
Loki knelt at his mother’s grave for quite some time, a few stray tears making their way down his pale cheeks. Jane watched at first, unsure of what to do, until finally she decided to kneel down beside him. She placed a hand on Loki’s shoulder, and just stayed there, letting him know that she was there if he needed her. The gesture was simple, and all she had, so she knelt on the ground with Loki for what seemed like hours, wishing she could do more.
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The next week passed in a blur. Thor and Loki had both called on her to accompany them on an evening during the week. She had said yes to both, thinking they could use a friend right now.
Jane watched as Thor threw the bowling ball down the alley, knocking over nine out of the ten pins at the end. He threw a mighty fist up in triumph, before heading back over to retrieve his bowling ball.
Thor’s friends, Fandral, Volstagg, Hogun, and Sif clapped with exuberance at his near strike.
“Nice one!” Jane smiled, as she watched Sif ready for her turn behind him.
Thor threw his ball the second time, taking out the last pin with a whoop of victory. He came to sit down next to her, seeming happier than she’d seen him in awhile.
“Nothing better to help with stress,” he proclaimed proudly. “I can’t control everything, but I can always control my bowling score.”
“Is everything okay with the contracting business?” Jane asked.
“Oh yeah,” Thor laughed bitterly. “Father just takes off and leaves the business to me like it’s no big deal.” He leaned forward, his hands on his knees, and whispered, as though he were telling Jane a secret. “I can handle the customers and the various laborers we hire, but the books… they’re way over my head, and Father left me with hundreds of receipts and nothing written down. I’ve got an auditor coming at the first of the year, and I’m absolutely screwed.”
Jane was taken aback. “Odin just left you with all of that? Why?”
Thor threw his hands up in the air. “Your guess is as good as mine. I tried to hire someone to get the books in order, but everyone is backed up until after tax season. There’s no way I’m going to have this done by the first of the year.”
An idea struck Jane, and the words spilled from her mouth before she could think them through. “Why don’t you call Loki and ask him to help you?”
Thor snorted. “Yeah right. He didn’t even come to Mother’s funeral. I’m not calling him, and even if I was desperate enough to do so, he wouldn’t help me. You don’t know him like I do, Jane. He wants nothing to do with Father or the family business, and that’s all there is to it.”
“Loki was at the funeral,” the astrophysicist informed him. “I saw him there.”
Thor seemed surprised by this revelation. He ran a hand through his golden hair, temporarily at a loss for words. “I am glad that he went, though I wish he would have not been so dramatic and sat with us.”
“You should call him,” Jane tried again.
Thor shook his head, his lips set in a firm line. “No,” he decided. “There’s no way I’m asking him for help.”
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“Absolutely not,” Loki growled when Jane tried to bring up the subject of him calling Thor. They had just had their second dinner together in a week, and were now putting a considerable dent in Loki’s bottle of chardonnay. “He’s dead to me,” Loki said matter of factly as he sipped his glass of wine.
Jane sighed. “You can’t avoid him forever. You’re brothers.”
“Yes I can.”
“No,” she said firmly. “You can’t.”
“Watch me,” Loki replied defiantly.
Jane sat her wine glass down, and leaned closer to him on the couch. “What’s your deal with him?” she asked. “Why are so angry with Thor?”
“It’s a long story.”
“I have time.”
Loki bit his lip and scowled. “Fine,” he agreed. “It started when we were children. Father always favored him over me, and for a very long time I didn’t understand why. Everything Thor did was perfect and pleased Father, while I… well I was quite the disappointment to our old man. Never good enough.”
He frowned, drumming his fingers against the side of his wine glass. “I tried so hard to be the son he wanted me to be. I wanted to take over the family business eventually, thinking maybe then he would be proud of me. When I was eighteen, he announced that Thor was to be his successor. He’d never even considered me.”
Jane felt herself reaching for him, and she placed her hand over his. He looked to her, his green eyes pulling her into their intensity.
“I confronted Father about his choice of successor,” Loki continued. “And he finally told me the truth. He wouldn’t give the company to me, because I’m adopted. In his eyes I’m not a true Odinson.”
“But that…That’s not fair,” Jane stammered.
“No, it’s not,” Loki agreed. “I thought Thor would be on my side, and help me talk some sense into Father, but he didn’t stand up for me when I needed him to, and it’s caused resentment between us ever since.”
“I’m sorry,” Jane told him earnestly. “I know Thor, and he doesn’t always say or do that right thing. Have you ever told him how you feel about all of this?”
“Absolutely not,” Loki scoffed, removing his hand from under hers. He leaned across the couch, nearly pressing her backwards with the invasion of his body against hers. Jane struggled to keep her position, while still maintaining enough space between them so that he wasn’t on top of her.
“But tell me, Jane Foster,” he growled, his voice dangerously low, his face so close to hers that she could feel the heat of his breath. “Have you been telling Thor about your feelings lately? I know you’ve been out with him twice since the funeral, and I’m beginning to think you’re not truly broken up.”
Jane blinked twice, her brain taking a moment to process the meaning of his words. “What… No!” she snorted. “It’s not like that at all. Thor and I are most definitely broken up. I just… I thought he could use a friend right now with your mother’s passing. That’s all there is to it.”
Loki seemed to consider her words for a moment, a scowl turning down the corners of his lips. “And what of me, Jane?” he demanded. “Are you simply spending time with me because you pity me?”
“That’s not – “
“Then tell me, Jane,” he snarled. “What am I to you?”
“I…”
He kissed her then, pressing his lips to hers harshly. The kiss was not gentle. Loki’s lips were demanding and desperate, taking hers as though he feared she would push him away at any moment.
She didn’t. Instead, Jane wrapped her arms around his neck, as they slid down on the leather couch together, and returned the kiss with fervor. When they broke apart, he lay over her, his forehead against hers, and their breaths ragged with excitement.
When Jane pulled up to kiss him a second time, she decided that even though she wasn’t sure what he was to her, she was definitely not kissing him out of pity.
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The next two weeks passed quickly. Jane saw a lot of both Loki and Thor, one as a friend, and the other as decidedly more.
She played with the bracelet Loki had gifted to her as she once again tried to talk sense into Thor. He sat at the table in the diner, receipts spread out everywhere, and a large, black book in his hands. He was beyond stressed, and he kept picking up the receipts and putting them back down, unsure of where to start.
“You need to call Loki,” Jane told him again, beginning to feel like a broken record.
Thor shook his head.
“Why won’t you?”
“Father entrusted the company to me,” Thor sighed. “I have to prove to him that I can do this on my own. Loki would not be willing to help me anyway.”
“Why do you say that?” Jane pressed, as she caught a receipt that nearly fell from the table.
“He wants nothing to do with Father or the business, ever since…. well since he caught Father cheating on Mother.”
“What?”
“It was an ugly business,” Thor told her. “Loki caught him in the act, and Father offered the business to him instead of me in exchange for his silence. He said no, of course, and told Mother. Loki and Father have hated each other ever since.”
Jane was silent for a moment, not really knowing what to say. “You’re not your father,” she finally told him. “Whatever grudge Loki holds against Odin, is not your fault. You two need to talk some things out, and he won’t call you first, so it has to be you. Just do it. You might be surprised how he feels.”
Thor gave her a quizzical look, as though he’d never considered that Loki wasn’t angry with him. “You think he would take my calls?”
“There’s only one way to find out.”
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“Thor called me,” Loki told her as they sat together, drinking and watching television.
Jane perked instantly at the news. “Oh, really?”
“We talked, and he asked me to help him with the books for the business.”
“Are you going to do it?” she asked, trying to feign only mild interest.
Loki cocked a brow at her, and took a sip of his wine. “Yes,” he finally answered. “I told him I would go to his house tomorrow and help him straighten up the books.” He sat his wine down next to him, his eyes watching her intensely, and Jane got the feeling that he wasn’t finished.
“And?” she prompted.
“He invited me to come to his house for Christmas dinner as well.”
“Oh?”
“I was hoping that you would go with me,” Loki finished, watching for her response.
Jane’s mind scrambled for something to say. “We have to tell him,” she blurted out. “I can’t just show up unless he knows.”
“I’ve already thought of that,” Loki admitted. “And I intend to tell him tomorrow. Hopefully he’ll take it well.”
Jane took a long drink on her wine, the prospect of showing up to Christmas at her ex-boyfriend’s house with his brother, both terrifying and exhilarating.
“So much for sitting at home and not doing the holidays,” Jane muttered, half to herself and half to Loki. “Between you and Thor I may never have peace again.”
Loki laughed as he leaned over and kissed her.
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Thor sat at his kitchen table with Loki at his side. His younger brother had just finished up organizing the books for the contracting business’ audit that was coming up in a mere week. Everything looked perfect. All the receipts were in place, the book had been double and triple checked, and Thor had never felt more relief over anything in his life.
“Thank you, brother,” he told Loki earnestly. “I could not have done this without you.”
Loki waved him off, and handed him the finished books. Thor hesitated for only a moment before taking them in his hands. “I’ve given it some thought, and I was wondering if perhaps you would like to take part ownership of the business,” Thor asked shyly.
Loki stared at him in disbelief, and Thor found himself stumbling over his words.
“I am owner now, not Father, and the business is mine to do what I wish. I would be honored to have you as my partner,” he mumbled. “If that’s something that you would want.”
Loki gaped at him for a moment, before a smirk settled across his face. “I would love nothing more, brother,” he admitted. “But before you sign the paperwork and make me you partner, there is something I must tell you.”
“Oh?’
“It’s about Jane.”
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Odin spent Christmas at Frigga’s grave, a pot of poinsettias in hand. He talked to his dead wife as he had on so many evenings since she passed. Sometimes he told her about his day, other times he asked her questions even though he knew that she would never answer, but mostly he apologized. He’d spent so many years running a business, that he’d forgotten how to be a husband and a father, an error that had caused much pain to both his wife and his sons.
“Forgive me, Frigga,” he breathed, the cold air around him chilling him to the bone. “I have not been a good man, and certainly not a good husband to you.”
The grave was silent as though Frigga herself was giving him the cold shoulder. He chuckled at the memory of her, so vibrant in life.
“I did what you asked,” Odin told her. “And you were right. You were right about everything. I should have treated Loki better, and I should not have put so much pressure on Thor. They were always meant to run the business together.”
He shifted on the dirt, placing the poinsettia down next to her headstone. “You were right about Jane Foster too,” he admitted. “She reminds me a lot of you, my love. All fire.” He laughed. “She brought them together, just like you said she would.”
Odin reached out and touched his palm to her headstone. “Rest in peace, my Frigga. I will join you soon enough. Until then, know that our boys are happy and well thanks to you.”
A wind swept out from the night, and trees above Frigga’s grave danced in the cold air, as though his wife had heard him and was pleased.
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Jane sat around Thor’s table yet again, the mood far lighter this time. She ate, talked, and laughed with Loki and Thor. They talked of the future for the Odinson business, and made plans to get together more often.
Loki held Jane close the entire night, his arm rarely leaving her shoulder, unless he meant to take her hand in his. Thor strangely seemed pleased with their budding relationship, and Jane was relieved that there were no fights.
They opened gifts and drank hot chocolate together, staying up well into the night and enjoying each other’s company.
Somewhere in the festivities, Jane realized that she would probably not celebrate another holiday alone. In the span of a month she had made a friend, acquired a lover, and found herself a family, and she couldn’t have been happier.
The End
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> Vel : Meet a nerdlord
Today at 2:45 AM
deputyheadmistress Alright, someone talking to you on my behalf about a lack of privacy got to me a bit. But I'm not upset with you for how the internet behaves.
flippinoptimist thats lurky, theyre a little closer to omniscient than is average for most beings, and like kind of giving advice, and they mean well i think they meant it mostly to make me stop chargin around in like, manic mode, though, even if stuff relatin to you was the causal start of the chain sorry you got dragged into it miss granger, and that i wasn't doin the tact thing
deputyheadmistress I didn't mean them, I meant the thread about different faux book titles. But a close to omniscient being is, I suppose, something I'll also have to get used to. I'm at least a bit used to manic teens, though it's not the best way to get shocking information.
flippinoptimist i think my earth age would technically start with a two, but thats sorta recent after you spend enough time around here you get used to the like, multiverse
deputyheadmistress Can we, perhaps, stop talking about the multiverse for a few moments? And talk about something a bit more grounding, like your particular brand of magic. I'm very curious.
flippinoptimist sure its sorta a fusion of everything ive run across, since the inherent stuff that my ~destiny~ tried to put on me isnt the same kind of stuff as the place where im learnin the inherent is more of a "woo, heres a big abstract concept, you are an incarnation / channeler of a shard of it, neato"
deputyheadmistress That sounds like a lot to dig into, but alright.
flippinoptimist the school part is about how you can structure thought and energy flow into symbols and runes and things i'm focusin on artificing ..and the inherent part has given me a knack for illusions i cant figure out how to actually cast spells but im good at making things!
deputyheadmistress Oh! I was very good at ancient runes during my time at Hogwarts, and while I haven't managed to do much with it since graduation, other than an enchanted bag, I'd be really curious to see what similarities there might be. I wonder if you can cast spells. Logic seems like it'd point to yes, but if you're from somewhere else...
flippinoptimist id be curious about them! i know the words to a few spells but ive never seen them and do naut have a wand of the kind you are thinking of the wands i know about / make each have a specific spell in them, and are locked to create a specific effect that triggers when a gesture or word or w/e happens
deputyheadmistress That's terribly inefficient.
flippinoptimist sure, its Terrible
deputyheadmistress ... Is that referencing those historical people of note who end up being so infamous people associate them with the word 'Terrible' as well?
flippinoptimist naut much different than having a necklace that makes you invisible though yes! it also enables a billion terrible puns
deputyheadmistress I was curious. It's a bit strange to add it yourself, don't you think?
flippinoptimist (ba dum tsh)
deputyheadmistress Oh.
flippinoptimist it is
deputyheadmistress Well, that explains that, doesn't it?
flippinoptimist but my species has this thing, where on adulthood we each replace our kid name with an adult Title
deputyheadmistress Oh, it's a cultural thing.
flippinoptimist yeah, and i chose a human one
deputyheadmistress Alright. I read a little bit on that.
flippinoptimist because humans are neat and i like them
deputyheadmistress Oh! Well, I'm glad you like humans, then.
flippinoptimist and i respect a lot of the cultural things i see in most of the human places i have found
deputyheadmistress Good, I was about to ask that.
flippinoptimist also everything that comes out of japan is amazing
deputyheadmistress I don't know how I could let you use a wand from here, but I want to try.
flippinoptimist id love to try if you can think of a way! i am pretty good at establishing first contact with new universes, and i could get you alien tech and magic to check out if you wanted for various definitions of alien
deputyheadmistress ... Alien tech won't work so well on Hogwart's grounds. I had to heavily modify this computer so it'd function here.
flippinoptimist i am curious about how
flippinoptimist alllsooo.... ill have to find a copy of the magic version of getting around from place to place
deputyheadmistress Oh! I wrote a whole thesis on how to make magic more compatable with muggle text over the summer, let me...
flippinoptimist but i know where to find it! couple of steps and itll work out okay
deputyheadmistress I'll send it to you later. It's a bit lengthy, and I have to type it up here. Alright, I'll hold.
flippinoptimist okay i hate to say this because i am definitely interested in exchangin data and showin things, but it feels rude not to remind you before we get much further that a step of getting this to work is probably going to involve me (random internet stranger) havin to figure out what your coordinates are, so i can write them in the format needed for the circley part i can get you the circle rune pattern either way, but if you want a way to actually use it, id need to basically track your IP but, like, fancy and involving you running a thing on a computer let me know if you want to do that part, but heres the circle diagram
flippinoptimist -- flippinoptimist began sending file : transportationcircle.pdf --
deputyheadmistress I have been warned about random internet strangers.... I may have to work on protection wards for a moment, for the sake of safety.
flippinoptimist sure thing i highly advise not using that w/o fillin in coordinates the way it says, and also not without knowin your home coordinates if you step through that thing, the only way back is to know how to write your home address, you know?
deputyheadmistress Alright
flippinoptimist to find home coordinates, install one a these chat programs, and send me a private message, i can use a couple a tools to trace the connection from there and get your code
deputyheadmistress This is certainly the sort of decision I want to be making at five in the morning. Alright, I've got everything set up. What is life without adventure, and the chance to make the headmistress mad at me.
flippinoptimist lol the decision will still be here at not five in the morning, but you wont be able to blame it on the time then shit i should give you the programs shouldnt i -- Discord, Trollian! --
deputyheadmistress Thank you.
flippinoptimist i have a set of coords i can give you that are explicitely for being a neutral place to meet people, but the sky isnt done yet so its janky lookin but! the building is finished
deputyheadmistress I've chosen a fairly neutral place for the moment, don't worry.
flippinoptimist ok!
deputyheadmistress > Message him on Discord. This will be absolutely fine. Totally.
flippinoptimist > He messages her back! About two minutes later, he gives her the number version of her coordinates, which she can use to get back home from anywhere. He also gives her the coordinates to the convenience store, which he mentions is "a pocket dimension under construction"
deputyheadmistress > She'll... Write that down and probably not do anything with it for a while. > If he tries to look at her coordinates directly, it will really really not work, as if his machine were glitching, but he can probably go a few miles out for a nice view of a scottish country side.
flippinoptimist > Neat! He ..does poke that far, but then sets his machine to go back to looking somewhere else. The coordinates are saved, but he promises to himself to not use them. if somebody gives you coordinates, you can go places, or people w/ yours can send you stuff or come visit
deputyheadmistress Alright. This is going to take a bit of getting used to, but if you want to come over you can.
flippinoptimist > ..man, he was supposed to be in time out, but lately he'd been doing so well ..until today.. and he'd been leaning into choosing the Chaotic choices more and more often... > What good was putting yourself in time out if you didn't stick to it?
flippinoptimist crazy o clock in the mornin probably aint the best time for first impressions, though its temptin as hell. i could send across some small magic gunk and weird alien snacks as a proof of concept, and meet you like, tomorrow or another day soon?
deputyheadmistress That sounds good! I'll send you some magic things too, then.
flippinoptimist sweet! we can compare notes
deputyheadmistress > Time to gather some of George's jokes and some magical candy.
flippinoptimist > He would send an invisibility ring, a few novelty disguises, a small opal that made anyone within line of sight experience a slightly sweet taste (in a well-shielded bag), and a variety of alternian mass-produced snackfoods labled in a clearly alien language. Ones he thought might not creep out humans too bad.
deputyheadmistress > Bertie botts every flavor beans are a necessity, though she does make sure to include a carefully penned note about what flavors he may come across that are less pleasant. Chocolate frogs are included as well, of course. Things that turn skin different interesting colors, fireworks that make flame animals bound through the air.
flippinoptimist > He is going to admire the hell out of and carefully store these for later perusal.
deputyheadmistress > He also gets a somewhat large coinpurse that he can shove his whole arm in and still seem to not run out of room.
flippinoptimist okay this is a pretty neat bag stupid question and no i am not going ot try, what happens when you turn it inside out
deputyheadmistress You could turn it out for a really long time. I think it'd be annoying to stuff it back in though
flippinoptimist okay, what if i went for a swim in the ocean with it is there a limit?
deputyheadmistress Of course there's a limit. But it can hold a tent or two, several thin blankets, changes of clothing, general everyday use things, and of course money. Thin things work better, obviously. You could probably fit thick blankets, but it'd be way more annoying both to put them in and pull them out.
flippinoptimist that makes a lotta sense and is pretty interestin i have a tech way of carrying lots of stuff, but you mentioned tech was sad
deputyheadmistress Oh! I have a print version of the paper I was going to type up.
flippinoptimist ive got an amulet thats basically like a mr potato head that disguises you all the runework lines up so you can unclip parts and clip in different parts
deputyheadmistress > Send that along, also. There's moving pictures involved, with her pictured. Oh wow.
flippinoptimist modular!
deputyheadmistress I don't think describing it as 'Mr Potato Head' is reassuring, for a disguise, but a modular disguise is interesting.
flippinoptimist it only works when everything is seated in firmly and shut, but its also sort of like legos > He .. sends a modular disguise amulet over too, with a couple of bits and pieces it only does disguises for my species, but hey, maybe thatll be handy
deputyheadmistress Maybe.
flippinoptimist pro tip if you are ever going to go to a place with my species, ask them which color of person is best for you to be can of worms subject really
deputyheadmistress That sounds racist as hell.
flippinoptimist oh yeah
deputyheadmistress Joy.
flippinoptimist p much sometides people call the usual empress "fish hitler" most of the dudes i know are huge rebels
deputyheadmistress The magical world just recently got done with a war similar to Hitler's.
flippinoptimist but! there are placeswhere things are fine its just good to check if a place is one of them first
deputyheadmistress So I'm a little sick of that.
flippinoptimist i hang out in like three different places where she got deposed differentamounts of time ago yeah thats aight
deputyheadmistress At least there's that.
flippinoptimist speaking of humans, its great how often its naut like that like, sometimes, but anyway people can be pretty cool when teyre given teh chance
deputyheadmistress I do like to believe in the inherent goodness of people, despite how much bad has happened.
flippinoptimist i think people can choose how theyre gonna be theresa lotta nice reasons to choose not to be a dick
deputyheadmistress I should hope you wouldn't need reasons, but yes there are reasons to be nice.
flippinoptimist sometimes bein mean is tempting, otherwise people wouldnt do it you get all wrapped up in somethin, dont see all of it, then suddenly you get a reality check an gotta go "hey is this where i wanna be" and then people ignore the question because they dont wanna think about it and then its sealed, theyre dicks and theyll stay that way
flippinoptimist till they look around again
deputyheadmistress I suppose.
flippinoptimist i spend a lotta time thinkin about it i was a jerk when i was younger, and i decided to be nice instead so i spend a lot of time talkin to dudes who are or were also jerks and we all get better! cause i can help them find the reasons they need to start
flippinoptimist also jerks are sometimes kinda hilarious, and theyre often pretty good at shit. otherwise theyd have learned better when they ran into a problem they couldnt solve w/o help.
deputyheadmistress It's getting a bit late. I think I should probably turn in for the night, before all of the teenagers wake up and need scowling at.
flippinoptimist that is probably a thing i hope you have a good night miss granger it was nice meetin you
deputyheadmistress It was really interesting talking to you, Vel.
flippinoptimist i try for interestin
deputyheadmistress Do you really need to try?
flippinoptimist not really
deputyheadmistress Have a good night. I'll talk to you tomorrow.
flippinoptimist bye!
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