#i've. gained. so. much. weight.

[uncanny-tranny]

Weight gain as a form of recovery, I LOVE YOUUUU ✨️💐🙇‍♂️

[chappellrroan]

i am so glad that in this world of weird borderline ed triggering and promoting content there are also many women who openly talk about how fucked up these beauty standards are because sometimes it really feels lonely like i am not the only one who's suddenly being constantly slapped with thinspo content. the obsession with body fat smile lines eye bags shaving hair is fucking weird stop bringing that shit back i thought we were all over it

[unbidden-yidden-deactivated20240]

I've been on such a journey with my body over the years, trying to let go of a lot of shit I was socialized into and appreciating my features as they are.

I used to hate wearing glasses but I couldn't wear soft contact lenses so I conditioned my eyes to have calluses on the backs of my eyelids for my hard contacts.

I hated my nose and wanted a nose job. As it was, I was extremely self-conscious about the exact angles and vantage points that I would allow pictures of me to be taken at.

I used to hate my curls and would spend anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour every morning flat-ironing them before class. I also hated the light reddish brown color and would dye it.

I used to feel like I looked sick and my eyes sunken in without a minimum of black eyeliner and mascara.

I used to feel like a sasquach if I didn't shave my armpits, legs, bush, and pluck my eyebrows.

Now, after years of pushing myself to give fewer fucks, I:

Have cute glasses I like and don't wear contacts

Love my ginger curls and take proper care of them, and don't dye my hair

Say fuck the haters; my nose is great

I've embraced the strong eyebrows and will fill them in, but I only wear eye makeup when it makes me happy

I stopped shaving my pits many years ago. The legs and bush took a lot longer, but in the last year or so I've gotten there.

And now, most recently, I've stopped plucking my eyebrows, because I honestly have no idea how full they can get if I just let them do their thing and don't interfere. I'm learning what my face actually looks like, and learning to appreciate it as it is.

[skynapple]

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[radmista]

Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake

[self-critical-automaton]

Made an effort for Christmas but it was really hard to take good photos of. Pretty good look in person tho at least even if it doesn't all come thru

[buthappysoverrated]

hm. probably need another haircut now

[oceanlovingcommunist]

a truly peaceful day.... I went to Quaker Meeting and there was such a feeling of quiet levity among everyone, and I talked to my older weaver friend afterwards who I hadn't seen in a few weeks.... came home to my clean house, called my mom and sister, got rid of old flowers and arranged some dried lavender i just got..... hung up a new art print i love in a just-right place..... lit candles and incense...... now i'm sitting so comfortably listening to one of my grandpa's old choral albums, looking at the incense smoke rising and the light coming through my plants' leaves..... no better day to spend drifting around my beautiful home in a beautiful new pair of wide-leg black linen pants than a gorgeous one like today!!!!!

[anaonmyshoulders]

Why did I get stuck with these horrible fucking fat genes? couldn't I be naturally skinny? I'm already going through enough.

[straydogged]

weight gain as an outward indicator of healing my beloved!!!!

[silverofthunder]

been doing some home work outs 'cause gyms are not for me and i've also tried to exercise more. i really need to take better care of myself.

so far it's looking good. and if the weight goes down eventually, it's just a bonus (it has gone down a little bit when compared to autumn, so yay!). 😊

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(fyi, i have big thighs so the work outs might make them... well, you know 😁)

[seekingthestars]

me, last monday when i made the appointment: since i have to do them before the end of october, i'll just go get my biometrics done in two weeks, i have time then, whatever, no problemmm

me, today: how much weight can i lose in the next five days

[wretchie]

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[imekitty]

Today I worked on:

Prompt submission: 167 words

Disillusioned: 372 words

Buried: Proofreading

Ghost on the Couch: 59 words

Last sentence written (from Ghost on the Couch):

He couldn’t possibly be in a bad mood now.

[4ngelofmydreams]

made the mistake of stepping on the scale and now i want to kms

[daedrabela]

i miss being hot. i miss taking pictures and feeling cute. i miss dressing up and wearing minxy little outfits. i can't stand myself anymore. i can't look in the mirror.