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emotional neglect didnt even affect me that much. it was the being born inherently without value that did most of the work

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male breaking bad fan voice: yeah it's about all these vicious cartel members and career criminals, they start off as regular people, but by the end they're murdering innocents for their own gain, even as their loved ones are oblivious of the cruel and terrible things they do. it's all really morally grey. if I were to say which characters I hated the most it would be Every woman

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Really genuinely trying to be less of a cunt but lately I've been looking at so much of the visual art and writing that gets celebrated around here, enough for people to even make a living, and I can't help but think "really? I don't even have to try?"

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It sucks that there's only 20 minutes in each day. If there was more than that I would get more stuff done I'm sure

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Data source: https://pmc19.com/data/

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i fear a lot of ppl confuse “was this character’s death well written and good for the story” with “did i like it, personally”

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every one of those people who post like 'i had no life until I was 30/40/50/whatever but then I finally found out how to live so don't worry you'll find it eventually' is a survivorship bias plane. what about all the people who won't. or who didn't.

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Well, that was it, I guess

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no matter how hard i try i will always be that little girl wondering why everyone is better friends with eachother than her and begging to be loved

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it never stops striking me how deeply fucking evil and yet entirely commonplace it is for people to film others when they're distressed and exhibiting symptoms of psychosis in public to try and "go viral." the next time you see one of these videos going around i need you to remember one of the most frightening and dark times in your life and then i need you to imagine having it not in a safe or private place (which you may not even have access to at all), but out in the open with a snot-nosed fucking tiktoker shoving a camera in your face for the duration of it and then uploading it to millions of jeering strangers

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finishing the cod biography has made me a new level of insane. i had exactly 1.5 glasses of wine and cornered one of gregg's relatives to talk about the icelandic cod wars for a half hour. a species of fish fed the entire western hemisphere for a thousand years, and we fished them out of existence in a few generations. which i knew, but reading contemporaneous accounts about the absurd bounty of food on this continent that has now been obliterated will break your brain.

can't wait to read the history of salt. i'm trying to become completely unbearable in polite company.

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your web browser is like a beautiful and exotic horse, you need to feed her only dark mode readers and ad blockers or she will get sick. you can't feed her shopping extensions