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Hello Pia. Could you please elaborate a little about challenging a peak alpha and how they really can or connot controll things when they are challenged? As I understand ardolphogen is pieaking when they are in this situation? And they MUST do something? Or? I was comparing two scenes exactly - Ef challenge Gary and Janusz challengeTemsen. Thank you!
Hi anon!
I can definitely elaborate on this :D
(Under a read more because I...well...elaborated.)
So, firstly, Temsen and Gary are different people, and how they react to things are going to be different. This is true across a lot of different situations. Consider, for example, that Efnisien has been rude to Gary many times and Gary has just let him, but if Efnisien does that even slightly to Temsen, Temsen scolds him immediately!
They are different situations. Gary tolerates Efnisien's rudeness because he finds it charming/amusing and he likes that. Temsen doesn't tolerate it at all, because he believes that as a doctor and a peak alpha, he should be awarded respect from other alphas, especially young alphas who have shown a pattern of violent, abusive, disrespectful or immature behaviour (which Efnisien has!) -
This is also why Temsen tolerates Janusz' disrespect better than he does Efnisien's, because he knows it comes from a place of severe trauma. Janusz has PTSD from his experiences with Nate, and that is Hillview's fault and responsibility. Janusz is right to be angry, and his challenge comes from a genuine place of injustice.
Temsen recognises that he is culpable here, and that he has no grounds on which to scold Janusz, in other words he recognises that he's earned some disrespect on this specific issue. He can also tell that Janusz is doing it from a place of stepping into his strength to take care of Nate - that's something Temsen has asked him to do and that he wants, even if it comes from a disrespectful place (momentarily - most of what Janusz says is measured, calm, and clear - and actually not disrespectful at all - disagreeing is not disrespect). So that situation has a lot of different things happening which causes Temsen to react / not react the way he does!
Most important, no one here has any idea what Efnisien does or says to mount the challenge in the next chapter. Assuming it's solely based on what happened in this chapter is understandable! But that's not what it is. If Efnisien doesn't do what he does in the next chapter (which I'm not going to spoil), Gary's reaction would never have happened. They would have talked about Gary's uneasiness around Efnisien feeling the need to protect him, they would have gone back to normal, and they would have been fine.
Efnisien is also experiencing something new for him that he's never gone through before, and no one's really mentioned it yet. Gary had his ardolphogen rage, Efnsien also has ardolphogen in his system. He was dissociated into his rage state in that chapter, and wasn't thinking clearly, especially as he escalated his violence against Cella. We have no indication that he's left this mental/hormonal space or that it's calmed down, because he lost consciousness, and hasn't really been himself since. Alphas and anger control issues go hand in hand, the ardolphogen is not like testosterone (after all, in the omegaverse, they make both!), they can't just go 'oh huh I've been flooded with hormones, let me not do what they're telling me to do.'
And, fun fact, actually most humans can't do this past a certain point! Tell a person with PTSD to simply calmly think through their fight/flight response and stop having flashbacks, and they're going to laugh in your face, or never talk to you again. Lots of people have intense hormonal states they can't just shrug off! They must respond. It's just that the hormones and the emotions are different.
Gary has PACS, an unstable internal emotional landscape, and has been treated as a pariah by the news media, James' entire family, and has challenging mental health issues, from being casually suicidal for years after James' death and hoping that something would kill him, to being very hostile initially to making intimate connections with other people.
Gary and Temsen aren't in any way starting in the same playing field here. Temsen is happy, he's fulfilled, he's got a greater capacity for not responding to disrespect, and he also practices early intervention selectively - badly behaved alphas get scolded, usually-good-alphas who have a reason get a pass.
That being said, we've never seen anyone mount a direct challenge to Temsen, so we've never seen his response to them. No one really does it. That would be the equivalent of someone trying to pin a peak alpha to the ground, mount them physically, take a 'dominating' position over them, threaten them with physicality, or threaten to kill them in a duel etc. Obviously there's very few circumstances where this would happen and very few people would be willing to try (except for other peak alphas lol), because it's legal for peak alphas to murder anyone who attempts it, because they aren't in control of their hormonal responses when it happens.
In fact the only way to easily take advantage of a peak alpha that way is while they're sleeping or while they're too sick to fight back.
And I'll leave that as the context for the next chapter.
But, yes, when an alpha mounts a challenge to a peak alpha, physiologically they must respond. And most respond with immediate, lethal force.
Comparing what Temsen's experienced with what Gary's about to experience is like comparing apples and oranges. They're just not the same thing, and they're not comparable. We've seen Gary be disrespected by Efnisien nearly 100 times by now, we know - with only a few exceptions that involved either domestic violence initiated by Efnisien or extreme verbal disrespect - he can handle that.
What we're about to see from Efnisien is not what he's done before.
#asks and answers#underline the black#underline the rainbow#underline worldbuilding#i've spent like 5 hours on this#but mostly because i keep getting distracted#apologies for any typos or reverse/substituted words as it's late now#ohlo ohlo temsen#dr gary konowalous#efnisien ap wledig#the next UtB chapter is efnisien proving#that he is still a young and reckless alpha making#extremely stupid and unwise decisions#and he never had a mum of the same level as gary's mum#so sflkjas yeah
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What Dan and Phil Text Each Other 4 + Familect (article)
#dan and phil#amazingphil#daniel howell#danisnotonfire#phil lester#this idea has been cooking in my brain for literally MONTHS but this weekend was literally the first day off i've had since JANUARY#which is so cruel and unusual don't get me started but anyways#and also the first time they haven't dropped something unhinged that i felt compelled to run through photoshop#also it took forever because originally i was going to do all the WDAPTEOs so like i pulled clips from 2 3 and 4#and didn't end up using any of the ones i pulled from 2 and 3 so guess i just wasted some time there#so it didn't take me actually as long to put together the actual set but like i spent a solid 5 hours working on the general project#tbf though the videos are 20 minutes long so like an hour was just watching to get the time stamps#and i didnt want to miss one by putting it on higher playback speed bc some of them are really quick#well congrats if you made it this far in my fucking tags essay about this post#this is like a 'stick around after the episode for a look behind the scenes' segment#hexagifs
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#this shit is my bread and fucking butter#I'm having so much fun you have no idea#just finished the 7th light novel....... four more to go.....#so far it's been like. 5% romance. 25% medical malpractice. and 70% fantasy politics#I'm having the time of my fucking LIFE#sorry I haven't been posting mahoyome much I've spent literally all of my waking free hours this past week reading/watching#the apothecary diaries#kusuriya no hitorigoto
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Finally drew what comes to mind whenever I see video of the mascot performer out doing the birthday song while the Chuck E. Cheese animatronic is turned off sitting in the dark, still clearly visible to the audience.
(Original meme I'm referencing below)
#my art#chuck e cheese#ptt#ptt chuck#animatronics#cec#you know I actually spent time on something when I'm actually using tags for their intended purpose#this is also technically the first piece of chuck e cheese fanart I've ever posted anywhere#which is kind of funny since it's a shitpost. a shitpost I spent WAYYY to much time on#I got so carried away making that realistically rendered chuck e animatronic. it's heavily referenced off of a photo obviously#this is also the first thing I've made with my new huion tablet. because my old one broke </3#it arrived today and I then immediately went to spend like 5 hours on this without moving or taking a break once ghghgfh#if I take a break I just end up never finishing it.
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Finally gotten around scanning the September Animage issue. Please enjoy!!
#Finding a scanner I could use was such such a pain ;;;;;;#No way to scan the poster though it's way too big and I can't reach the center...#Unless by folding it‚ but I'd rather refrain from doing that#Anyways I'm in the process of scanning the whole magazine so hopefully I'll be posting the j/jk and g w/itch sections too#Then I'll probably upload a folder with the whole thing#atsushi nakajima#ryūnosuke akutagawa#sskk#shin soukoku#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd s5#bsd season 5#bsd scans#my scans#mine#Edit: This is another thing I've been trying to do for months and I just spent the last three hours fixing up the pictures#Felt like it was worth mentioning 。:゚(;´∩`;)゚:。#New year's resolution is definitelly to spend less time with my computer
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Today you get painting of a genshin oc of mine
Tomorrow? Fuck if I know
#nebula art and doodles#oughgh#oc tag#genshin impact oc#will i post the. literal regions-worth of genshin ocs i've had since the game dropped?#most. likely not#maybe i'll do it as a sideblog but idk#anyways im proud of it bc this was supposed to be a style study which#went wrong (spent 4-5 hours straight painting just her)#genshin is a guilty pleasure of mine but we ball#working on other fnaf stuff as we speak anywho
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happy pride month from vash the stampede!!!! 💜 seeing all the ace vash art makes me so happy I wanted to contribute!
#trigun#trigun maximum#trigun fanart#asexual#vash the stampede#trimax#re: charms if it happens shipping will be from belgium jsyk!!#he makes me so happy!!!#AND WHAT IF I TEAR UP?? WHAT THEN????#you guys i didn't know something i made could make me feel this way#i spent an embarrassing amount of time on it sdfjbkln#i'm posting it now because if I don't i'm gonna spend another 5 hours on it#granted i could still end up tweaking it and just editing my post bUT STILL#for context i'm not great at art i barely ever draw but i want to improve so i decided to draw one vash every day of june#i've been seeing a little bit of improvement and when I drew this one he was pretty flawed but also he made me so happy that i was like#ok i'm cleaning it up and fixing it digitally#and now 12+ hours of work later here we are#ANYWAY ANYWAY I'M RAMBLING#THANK YOU FOR THE ACE VASH ART THIS MONTH YOU GUYS INSPIRED ME PLEASE KEEP IT COMING#it clears my skin waters my crops#also pls don't follow me for this i post art once every six months at best you'll be disappointed!! i'm a writer first and foremost#anyway gotta go draw today's vash weehee!#bee draws#ace vash tag
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why is it SOOOOO difficult to write SOBS
#(i hope tht mario isnt massive for mobile users.. if he is Sorry)#I spent like what. 5 hours? writing and i dont have much to show for it; the fic thingy turned out rly short and very bad#but im lowkey proud of myself;; i've never written for 5 hours straight; i never have the patience#i am super scared to go back to read it tho; but i wanna like. at least try to finish it so i gotta#btw yeas it is steve and zombie. you know the rest wha ever#personal
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Happy 5th anniversary, ONEUS!
#oneus#foroneus#hello i'm back#spent months without ps since i got a new pc and wanted a newer version#i know this isn't as nice as some stuff i've done but i hadn't edited in a long time#also it took like 5:30 hours on sunday which is when i managed to download ps and i had to finish it that day ashcgdsf#also can you believe i thought it was missing some silver sparkles and decided it looked better without? truly surprising#i hope that i can make gifs with this ps and it won't save like shit like before#mine#m:edit#*stars#*gh
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"likes don't do anything" they do
"there's no algorithm" there is
"well nobody uses the for you tab" I do
"reblog all art and fics you see" there's no thought put into that. if this does work on people, then it's just pity engagement borne out of guilt rather than genuine interest, which is arguably worse than having none, because it's totally hollow.
#if I make art of my ocs who I'm personally fond of and spent a few days drawing just right and it gets 3 reblogs then it gets 3 reblogs#it's rational to feel a little disappointed sure. but I can't do anything about that. it's just luck#and I got Very lucky accumulating a few thousand followers on my main-turned-art-only blog off the back of when m.oomin was very popular#(tho realistically many of those users are probably inactive/passive followers now)#and having this number of people tuned into my posts Still only gets me a couple dozen notes on original stuff.#every 3 years or so something might blow up. like that bugs bunny comic lol. and I did Not expect it to#especially bc it happened about a year after I shared it as well.#it can happen any time. so don't feel discouraged when your art doesn't get noticed right away#the one advantage this website has is that there's far less of a fomo culture compared to other socials where trends come and go in a week#and people will still interact with older posts. especially bc it's easier to find what you want through the tagging system. sort of.#there's really no way to predict this or aim for large engagement! oh unless you're specifically catering to the current hot topic#like d.unmeshi is wiiiildly popular right now. I've seen comics get 5-digit notes in under 48 hours 'cause more eyes are on it.#but if it's not something you personally like and you're only creating things for the attention then you're gonna be unhappy#and people will inevitably move on.#I'd much rather swing my art back around every few months or so until it finds someone it resonates with#than make people who were never planning to engage with it feel bad for no reason
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I love you. But for the man that you are. Not the god you'd pretend to be.
#thanks to the hotfix shenanigans & mod incompatibilities literally breaking my game after patch 6#i am 500 years late to the new kissie animations#i FINALLY got to play through them last night and omfg i am HEALED they are EVERYTHING to me you guys 😭#i literally cannot even they are so pure so precious and i've spent like 5 hours just spamming the kiss button#also i decided to try my hand at a b&w gifset which i've not actually done before and i kinda like it??#i mean it's not the best and i still have a long way to go but it's not completely terrible either so yay me! 🤷🏻♀️#gale#gale of waterdeep#gale dekarios#oc: dharmon#gale x tav#baldur's gate 3#bg3#bg3edit#gamingedit#mine:bg3#mine:gifs#baldur's gate
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#delete later#another journal entry 📝 for the void#i have not been sleeping well for the past 2 wks 😵💫 i always wake up like clockwork after 5-6 hrs which feels like not nearly enough#i feel like i've done everything there is to do (consistent exercise + consistent sleep times + earplugs + weighted blanket + no caffeine)#last night i took melatonin too but no... same problem staying asleep 😭#ahh whatever. i'm just frustrated that it has to be this way :(#anyways in an act of spite i reread like the 4 wips that have been sitting in my drafts from the past few weeks#i think something that will never cease to surprise me about writing is that more effort/time doesn't necessarily translate to better#results; i suppose that's the case with all kinds of art but#it does feel somewhat unintuitive. one of my fav professors in uni said to not dismiss those 'lightning in a bottle' moments (in art) as#blind luck... but to instead analyze the circumstances and iterate on recreating them. and i think one of my artist friends who i deeply#respect said something similar (wrt artistic rituals/setup). i have too many thoughts on writing and on my own creative processes and#weaknesses to fit into any number of tags here. :') that said...#*shakes ch2 draft* after everything i did and all the hours i spent WHY are you still so bad?!!! D: i am baffled and frustrated.#and why do i prefer this other [redacted] draft which i hammered out with utterly no regard towards the quality??#anyways. back to the drawing board i guess T.T
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sometimes i'm out there living my life in the real world and suddenly i find it so bizarre to remember normal people exist. i mean just completely average people, living their lives regularly. like. what do you MEAN your life hasn't been completely consumed by a gay ship that may or may not become canon from hit netflix tv show Stranger Things (2016).
#you can see blue and yellow together and not think of anything?#you can listen to heroes by david bowie and not imagine two boys from the 80's kissing to it in an alternate dimension?#words and expressions like “flickergate” “lettergate” “birthdaygate” “churchgate” and etc are completely meaningless to you???#so you are telling me you have NOT in fact#spent countless hours of your life reading and watching every single piece of byler analysis you could get your hands on#and then ranting about it to everyone you know until they get sick of you???#and you most definitely didn't watch like 5 different movies simply because they were tangentially mentioned in said analyses??#you are genuinely saying your mental and emotional state does not depend on a fictional ship and whether it will become canon or not???????#YOU TRULY DON'T BURST OUT LAUGHING INSTANTLY AFTER SEEING SOMETHING THAT FAINTLY REMINDS YOU OF THE LOCAL VILLAGE WITH THREE WATERFALLS???#couldn't be me fr.#v rambles#my posts#byler#byler brainrot#byler nation#byler tumblr#byler endgame#how do people even live without having read a 325 slide byler proof presentation at least three times.#i've genuinely long forgotten what caring about stranger things a normal amount was like 😃
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figured i'd go ahead and share what i've been working on instead of Yeosang's incredibly late birthday fic time is a social construct from which i'm completely divorced
#stray kids#bang chan#photocard template#kpop#so incredibly hyped for skz's new album#and having a stable income after 5 years of being a student means i FINALLY get to start growing my photocard collection again#as y'all can see skz have a loooot of photocards#which necessitates some sort of tracking method#keep in mind this is just Bang Chan's cards too#so multiply this all by eight to get the full total#but anyways i couldn't find any preexisting templates i liked#so i've spent like 42 hours perfecting this one ^^;#now just gotta do this for seven more members....#which will go a lot quicker with the base template in place but still#i'll also have to update them once ATE is released and everyone starts posting the new photocards#so hyped for it even though all the different concepts haven't even been released
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I'm doing something utterly deranged and it is entirely self indulgent and probably won't ever get posted somewhere I'm just
Very into a ninjago au I made.
Let's put it like that
#Why have I done this#I've spent approximately 5 hours on this and for what?#A 22 second long clip?#Like this is deranged behaviour i am making a version of the theme song for my stupid au just so I can watch it on my own#Ft my incredibly high tech way of getting youtube videos to edit lmao#I am probably gonna post something about this au#I've written uh#23.5k words about it so like#Uh
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#an accurate representation of my day#I did not make anything (aside from a little knitting and a pan of crescent rolls)#I just spent. uh. 5 hours researching resin crafts.#I've been fascinated with resin for like a decade#but it's so expensive! and I thought the applications were so limited!#so I intentionally kept myself out of it!#like obviously I knew it was great for water facsimiles#and I was vaguely aware I could use it to make the little cabochons for lolita accessories and stuff#but in the past 5 hours I have learned how shaker charms work#(which I've always kinda wanted to make gorb shakers but assumed they *had* to be done by a manufacturer)#and I've been reminded that bezels exist and if you're careful with how you go about things they can be made very very similar to enamel pin#*pins#(something I've *also* wanted to make for years but haven't due to sunk cost and minimum order quantities)#so uhhhhhhhhhh#if I get to stay on the good med there may be more gorb merch this fall.#since I can make it by hand.#(superaenbow had the great idea of making like set boxes of merch instead of a la carte individual items)#(since they're also chronically ill and it takes a lot less energy to pack 20 identical boxes in a row when you've got time flexibility)#(rather than like 10-40 unique packages)#(I would probably be doing something like that. or like maybe mostly set boxes and a few extras a la carte or something.)#(could make prints and maybe do die-cut stickers since it would take less wrestling with the machine than the kiss-cut)#(anyway no guarantees! dunno if I get to keep the good med!)#favorites
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