#i've had the worst year of my life

[brokebuckkmountain]

2024 kicked my ass and it's not letting go without a fight

Picture this: You move to a brand new state. You don't know anyone. You spend your first several months living here dealing with a medical emergency that leaves you basically stuck in bed (and with a big ole nasty scare). By the time you get healthy again, it's the holiday season. Shortly before Halloween, actually. You're obsessed with Halloween, your birthday is in November, your long term boyfriend's birthday is in December, as is your anniversary, plus it'll be your first Thanksgiving and Christmas in the new house. You know you won't get all that time off as the new girl at work, and you have some savings, so you decide to just start working again in the new year. Upshot to this: you have lots of downtime to redecorate and enjoy the new place. Downside to this: you still don't know anybody in this state.

Then. Your long term relationship ends on Thanksgiving. You spend December in a fugue state, grateful to have a project (I spent so. much. fucking. money. on Christmas this year. I made a Christmas tree out of crafting stuff because I hadn't gotten mine out of storage). But. New Year's is coming up. It would've been your anniversary. And you know you'll be a wreck. Not to mention, you want to dress up and go out and take nice pictures since your ex has been creeping on your social media. Better than sitting at home feeling sorry for yourself.

You have one (1) friend in this state- your little brother that is also your roommate. Who you used to be best friends with, you guys hung out all the time and went on vacations together. Since he got into a new relationship a year ago, though, he barely speaks to you. His girlfriend, through no fault of her own, is going through a rough patch. And your brother is the self appointed "therapist friend". The kind of guy who gets so worked up over a friend, or even a friend of a friend's drama, that he will pace his bedroom for hours and yell at everyone else to fuck off because he's "dealing with something". So since he started dating this girl, the two of you barely speak. He goes to work, sleeps all afternoon, and stays up all night on the phone with her (he doesn't even talk to his friends anymore). You try to give him space. You do his laundry, wash his dishes, clean up after him (he is, in fact, a grown man). You loan him money constantly, even though he's working, so he can buy his girlfriend nice things. You cut his hair and help him plan a visit to her. You hide the relationship from your parents until he's ready to tell them and cover for him. Then. He decides to go visit her for her birthday (which is a few days after yours). You don't see him on your birthday because he's picked up so many extra hours to have money for his girlfriend. He blows off rainchecked plans with you until the point that you tell him to just give you your birthday presents on Christmas because he still hasn't done so after weeks and expressly doesn't care to. But fine. You still spend a fuckload of money on him for Christmas. And when he opens his gifts he immediately runs back to his bedroom to talk to her, and you spend the evening alone cleaning up his discarded wrapping paper and stacking all the gifts he left strewn over the living room.

Over a week before New Year's, you ask him to hang out. Because you don't want to go to a bar alone, in a strange city, as a young woman. He says he can probably cancel his plans (to watch a stream with his girlfriend) given the circumstances, but he works on New Year's Day. Then. Evening of the 30th, he tells you he read his schedule wrong and he has the 1st off. But also. He's thought about it and changed his mind- he will not be cancelling his stream on NYE. Despite it all, you will be sitting alone in your bedroom on New Year's Eve, on what would've been your anniversary with the very recent ex, sobbing your eyes out and totally alone.

[makenna-made-this]

BAWKtober Day 21 - Lake

THE BAWK NESS MONSTER?!?

[muffinlance]

I really do love your writing and Salvage gets me through when I am sad or depressed. However, I was wondering, how do you cope when someone who wrote a review didn’t like your writing? If you’ve had this before… I had one today and I am dejected. I’m working through my perfectionism and I keep telling myself, “my writing isn’t for everyone and it’s okay.” Any advice?

If it was unsolicited, especially on a fanfic? Delete it, block the person if you feel like, then go do your rage activity of choice before forgetting about it forever. That person is rude and doesn't deserve your time anymore than someone bumping into you on the street.

I've also found it useful to actively think of my fanfic as writing practice, and not even my brain expects perfection from writing practice. It also frees you do Try Cool Things.

Now take this digital blanket and cup of hot chocolate and go reread your nice comments.

[wonder-worker]

people really do not know what they're talking about when it comes to Elizabeth Woodville's social status, huh?

[iwakuraz]

feeling like,,,, soon I'm probably gonna become obsessed with evangelion again. the weather forecast says I'm gonna have the evangelion brain disease not too long from now

[babehog]

I don't think I have the words to properly communicate how I feel right now. I'm grasping at the hem of my own life. I've been stumbling along my life from the sidelines recently. I genuinely didn't want to live for a not insignificant time of this year. So much shit happened all at once that I thought I wasn't gonna get through to this point.

I feel like I'm regaining myself. I can straighten out my back and walk with purpose again. I can make myself a breakfast and enjoy flavors. I can sing at the top of my lungs and cry and I can feel. I can feel so much again. I almost lost myself and I'm so happy that I'm back. I missed being alive.

[sugarsnappeases]

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

[muselexum]

( waking up one morning after 18 months of hiatus and finally getting the spark™ to freshen up ur rp blog )

[silversoulstardust]

watching atarashii joushii wa do tennen for the BL but I'm amused at how accurately they portray traumatic work experience

a simple thing could be triggering

and yet it could easily be fixed with a kind gesture from a superior

[katsuki-king-of-twinks]

This cat is probably about to maul me again...

[starcitysirens]

i feel like the universe is sending me signals that i should rewatch glee. and i think i am going to listen to the demons

[agnesandhilda]

my father is an olympic gold medalist in the sport of emotionally tormenting women

[nontrivialproof]

Chappell Roan tickets reselling for over $300 makes me want to kms

[hide-your-bugs-away]

Where did you watch Don't Look Back (1964)? I've been wanting to watch it for a while now because I'm always itching for literally ANY Alan Price content but I don't know where to find it to watch it. I was wondering if you knew?

HELLO AAAAA THANK YOU FOR REACHING OUT TO ASK!! Dont Look Back is constantly playing on loop in my brain... my favorite movie of all time, no contest, and not just because the fruity and moody piano man who changed my life plays the comic relief and emotional linchpin (though, I could honestly write a huge analysis on the significance of his role in the film as a whole)... it's such a great time that perfectly encapsulates why I love that era of music so much - especially that snapshot-existence of early-'65. 🥹

(More under the cut because Connie starts rambling...)

Anyway, the place I originally watched the film was on YouTube (back in 2020!) A full, high-quality upload of the movie was on the platform (miraculously never taken down for copyright) for years... up until that stupid SESAC situation happened on YouTube a couple of months back. A lot of Bob's content was caught in the crossfire, and while most of the music and videos came back, those full uploads of Dont Look Back are all gone now for some reason. There is still one single upload of the movie on YouTube, however, it's AI-colorized and upscaled to... mixed results 😬 Putting aside my own feelings and negative bias towards AI tools being used in that way (especially because the colorization of films can be an expression of art in itself), it just doesn't look super good?? In my opinion?? It just superimposes a lot of oranges and browns to everyone's skin and hair and that's it,, not a lot of those truly striking colors that 60s London was known for, especially in the mod/beat scenes. Not to mention, like a lot of black and white movies from that time period, it honestly feels *best* to experience it the way that people 60 years ago saw it, because the choice to make it black and white in the first place was an artistic decision, in a lot of ways (along with being a practical choice on Pennebaker's part, no doubt).

All of that to say... I have both Dont Look Back and 65 Revisited saved to my Google Drive and I'd be happy to share it with you 👀 Alan's in only a bit of 65 Revisited, but it's the part in the Newcastle tie shop which is 10/10. I also have Snapshots from the Tour saved on my computer - it isn't saved on my Google Drive yet, but I can send it your way as well if you'd like 🙏 There's a great scene in that one where Alan's talking about blues music with Albert Grossman (Bob's manager) and Tom Wilson (Bob's record producer, later for the Animals as well after they ditched Mickie Most) and agghhhgGggh IT'S SO FASCINATING TO WATCH. ALSO. ALAN PRICE CIRCA 1965. AAAAAA. Freshly seperated from the band (and the Eric) who introduced him to that music in the first place... CRIES SO LOUDLY.

SO.... yes!!! Feel free to message me and I'll share that link with you!! 🥹 IT'S SUCH A GREAT AND FUNNY AND INTRIGUING MOVIE whether you're a Bob Dylan fan or Donovan fan or Alan Price fan or just a fan of that era of music in general AAAAA as I said before... IT CHANGED MY LIFE. ALAN PRICE HAS A MENTAL BREAKDOWN AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE SAME. /pos

[melleonis]

boy did this living situation go from "lovely apartment with a pleasant roommate" to "landlord and roommate conspiring together to make my life hell" in a hurry

[memes-in-a-half-shell]

**This is my personal version of Donatello. If you want to imagine something else for yourself, you have every rights to do so 💜**

Wanted to note down some bits and pieces of my version of Donatello~

I'm not the best at doing character sheets, lol, but at least there's some info down!

And some more under the cut.

Personality-wise, Donnie can be a bit shy and reserved/careful with his expressions at first when meeting people for the first time. But it doesn't take long for him to come out of his shell (pun intended) and reveal his mellow nature. He likes to seize how a person is at first before getting to entrust them with his true self. He can be quite the wiseass at times, but he'll never push it if he feels someone being uneasy around him. Personally, the best way I can somehow describe his vibe is like one of a skater from the early 2000's (dunno how to explain it - I just see it clearly in my head because I've hung around people like that and I was an amateur skater myself in those years). He's chill, and if you're chill with him, then he's chill with you too.

In friendship, you'll often find him cracking jokes in the smoothest fashion, easily bringing puns along the way. He'll gladly bring others into his projects and get their input - no matter if they know the subject matter or not. It's like a special way of rubberducking for him! He doesn't mind being social, but others also have to understand that he needs his downtime to relax and get his energy back.

In relationship, he's very in tune with his partner's emotions. He can be very attentive and tender with them, savoring every seconds spent in their presence. You want to watch some random videos or a movie? Just say so and he'll make time for you - especially if he's been working on something all day. He just wants to take a break and be with the love of his life. Sure he'll have his little moments where he'll poke fun and be a loveable shit, but in the end he respects his partner so much - he'd give them the moon if he could. His demisexual nature makes it that he'll completely give himself to his partner once he gets to properly connect with them. And once he does, he's unstoppable and his love his infinite. His partner's pleasure comes first, starting off in the most romantic ways - which may build up to something more passionate along the way.

With Vee, he finds an equal in terms of energy levels - being able to be goofy by moments and then wanting to spend time alone, together. He admires her creative mind and believes that she completes him for whatever mindset and vision he lacks. Donnie's not afraid to reveal his true nature to her; his emotions and weaknesses. Together they are a team and communication is their golden ruler.

He'll never admit it to his brothers, but being in a relationship brought Donnie to listen to romantic music artists (ex: Bobby Caldwell, Barry Manilow, any kind of jazz ballad artists) and watch romantic movies (especially with Vee). Not that he's ashamed of it, but mostly because it's something only for him and Vee to enjoy. It's their little space and bubble of joy, where they can connect through the conveyed emotions and deepen their affection.

He's also very cheesy and will give her 574843284623 nicknames. Amongst them:

Babylove (started calling her that because she calls him sometimes "bébé d'amour" - french roughly for "baby of love"). That's his personal favorite.

Baby

Love

Little lady

Honey

Love of my life

Chérie (he's trying his best)

My peach (mostly 'cause of her butt 🤫🍑)

Overall, while Donatello remains a true nerd at heart, he remains very confident in his abilities and skills (technical and social). Once you gain his trust, you can confide in him without any fear and he'll always be there for those that matters most. Time only strengthened his wise nature and as long as you let him live his best life, he'll let you live yours - may you never hurt anyone, that is.

He's just the best :] 💜