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brokebuckkmountain · 1 month ago

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2024 kicked my ass and it's not letting go without a fight

Picture this: You move to a brand new state. You don't know anyone. You spend your first several months living here dealing with a medical emergency that leaves you basically stuck in bed (and with a big ole nasty scare). By the time you get healthy again, it's the holiday season. Shortly before Halloween, actually. You're obsessed with Halloween, your birthday is in November, your long term boyfriend's birthday is in December, as is your anniversary, plus it'll be your first Thanksgiving and Christmas in the new house. You know you won't get all that time off as the new girl at work, and you have some savings, so you decide to just start working again in the new year. Upshot to this: you have lots of downtime to redecorate and enjoy the new place. Downside to this: you still don't know anybody in this state.

Then. Your long term relationship ends on Thanksgiving. You spend December in a fugue state, grateful to have a project (I spent so. much. fucking. money. on Christmas this year. I made a Christmas tree out of crafting stuff because I hadn't gotten mine out of storage). But. New Year's is coming up. It would've been your anniversary. And you know you'll be a wreck. Not to mention, you want to dress up and go out and take nice pictures since your ex has been creeping on your social media. Better than sitting at home feeling sorry for yourself.

You have one (1) friend in this state- your little brother that is also your roommate. Who you used to be best friends with, you guys hung out all the time and went on vacations together. Since he got into a new relationship a year ago, though, he barely speaks to you. His girlfriend, through no fault of her own, is going through a rough patch. And your brother is the self appointed "therapist friend". The kind of guy who gets so worked up over a friend, or even a friend of a friend's drama, that he will pace his bedroom for hours and yell at everyone else to fuck off because he's "dealing with something". So since he started dating this girl, the two of you barely speak. He goes to work, sleeps all afternoon, and stays up all night on the phone with her (he doesn't even talk to his friends anymore). You try to give him space. You do his laundry, wash his dishes, clean up after him (he is, in fact, a grown man). You loan him money constantly, even though he's working, so he can buy his girlfriend nice things. You cut his hair and help him plan a visit to her. You hide the relationship from your parents until he's ready to tell them and cover for him. Then. He decides to go visit her for her birthday (which is a few days after yours). You don't see him on your birthday because he's picked up so many extra hours to have money for his girlfriend. He blows off rainchecked plans with you until the point that you tell him to just give you your birthday presents on Christmas because he still hasn't done so after weeks and expressly doesn't care to. But fine. You still spend a fuckload of money on him for Christmas. And when he opens his gifts he immediately runs back to his bedroom to talk to her, and you spend the evening alone cleaning up his discarded wrapping paper and stacking all the gifts he left strewn over the living room.

Over a week before New Year's, you ask him to hang out. Because you don't want to go to a bar alone, in a strange city, as a young woman. He says he can probably cancel his plans (to watch a stream with his girlfriend) given the circumstances, but he works on New Year's Day. Then. Evening of the 30th, he tells you he read his schedule wrong and he has the 1st off. But also. He's thought about it and changed his mind- he will not be cancelling his stream on NYE. Despite it all, you will be sitting alone in your bedroom on New Year's Eve, on what would've been your anniversary with the very recent ex, sobbing your eyes out and totally alone.

#is this whiney? yes #let me live #i've had the worst year of my life #im so fucking lonely #i keep wishing it was all just a big prank #when my ex and i broke up he said #'you're a really good person and you go above and beyond to take care of everyone in your life. and nobody appreciates you #you're sad all the time because you give so much love to everyone else and nobody has ever bothered to give it back to you'#(himself included)#(this was a deep cut to a lifelong insecurity i've had. that im always the one who cares more)#we broke up not because i did anything #but because he felt too guilty for everything he had done and said to me #and 'didn't want to feel like a bad person anymore'#so #thats nice #personal #vincenzo #adventures in sarahs dating life #2024

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 8 days ago

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Just your average male living space.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen qing #lan wangji #A-Yuan #wei wuxian #(***Content warning for me talking about unhygienic living conditions in the tags today***).#The worst part of drawing this comic is that I've seen so much worse. This is a livable space.#I've helped out friends and family who were struggling and let me just say...I have seen some pretty dysfunctional living spaces.#Hell I've *lived* in some very dysfunctional living spaces.#Hording dishes under the bed was always something that grossed me out but it's unfortunately something I've seen people do way too often.#The horror everyone has upon walking into WWX's 'living' set up is so consistently 'Mate how are you living like this?'#It's honestly so integral to me that WWX's 'just left home for the first time' house/room be a depression/dysfunction pit.#You can learn a lot about someon's state of mind from how they keep their living space...and this guy is oozing 'deep depression'.#I don't think he's eaten anything but foods that classify as a struggle meal in a year.#Everyone is trying to stage an intervention but he just isn't in a good enough place to help himself.#By the way: I want to steer away from shaming people who have messy homes/rooms because life *does* hit hard sometimes.#My love language is coming into your home to do your dishes and do some housework. Don't apologize for the mess king.#Nothing could top some of the places I've had to help my older siblings out of.#I'd be okay with my flatmate having a severed limb and a blood pool at this point.#As long as he lets me take out the dishes from under the bed - We're good! My standards are so low at this point.

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chalkrub · 29 days ago

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art trade w/ thrak800 on twit - love this fella !

#my art #anthro #furry #illustration #oc #boar #i'm always such a yapper but i can't think of a single thing to say for real #just had some apple slices with melted nutella. that was pretty great #and i got like 7 questions right on university challenge tonight. pretty damn good #oh and i brought a £17 cake reduced down to £6 the other day that was great. sliced that mf up and put it in the freezer #also i went on a walk through the hoarfrost yesterday listening to classical music at dusk and it profoundly changed me not to b pretentiou #this is the perks of life man this is what it's all about.#i'm also going a bit crazy because i NEED to be better at art on god i need to be better or i will sadly pass away #but also it's so hard. but that's the fun part. and also the worst part. this year i will get better i will i will i will #actually one more thing: i've got the most important character ever to show off soon......my magnum opus...#and one more thing: thrak KILLED IT with his side of the trade i'm eating the art he did for my girl ricky with my eyes and my soul #okay there we go i always have something to yap about in the tags. even when i think i don't #also sorry 2 my kofi people who i promised to show art to first but with art trades i simply have to post the art when the other person doe #yes i know literally no-one will care about this but i promised and i have failed....forgive me

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makenna-made-this · 3 months ago

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BAWKtober Day 21 - Lake

THE BAWK NESS MONSTER?!?

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muffinlance · 1 year ago

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I really do love your writing and Salvage gets me through when I am sad or depressed. However, I was wondering, how do you cope when someone who wrote a review didn’t like your writing? If you’ve had this before… I had one today and I am dejected. I’m working through my perfectionism and I keep telling myself, “my writing isn’t for everyone and it’s okay.” Any advice?

If it was unsolicited, especially on a fanfic? Delete it, block the person if you feel like, then go do your rage activity of choice before forgetting about it forever. That person is rude and doesn't deserve your time anymore than someone bumping into you on the street.

I've also found it useful to actively think of my fanfic as writing practice, and not even my brain expects perfection from writing practice. It also frees you do Try Cool Things.

Now take this digital blanket and cup of hot chocolate and go reread your nice comments.

#most readers are absolutely lovely #But yeah I've gotten these too because there is always someone on the internet who thinks they are Right and Smart and that those things #Are more important than being kind and polite #Fic Reader Etiquette 101: the only writers looking for crits on a fic are the ones that explicitly asked for it #The only potential exception is for typos that impact reading clarity and even then varies by author #I love having any and all typos pointed out but I know some writers Don't Want To Hear It #My worst comment was the person who wrote essentially:#Wow I remember loving this story it had a huge impact on my life but now I reread years later and it's shit #...Honey. HONEY.#please realize that your personal growth and resulting resonance or lack thereof with a story's themes #have literally nothing to do with me #and I hope your next bit of character growth involves internalizing your self-reflection instead of outsourcing it to fanfiction

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wonder-worker · 10 months ago

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people really do not know what they're talking about when it comes to Elizabeth Woodville's social status, huh?

#yes Elizabeth was without a doubt considered too low-born to be queen #no she was not a commoner and nobody actually called her that during her life (so I'm not sure why people are claiming that they did?)#Elizabeth's social status was not a problem in itself; it was a problem in the context of queenship and marrying into royalty #Context is important in this and for literally everything else when it comes to analyzing history. Any discussion is worthless without it.#obviously pop culture-esque articles claiming that she was 'a commoner who captured the king's heart' are wrong; she wasn't #But emphasizing that ACTUALLY she was part of the gentry with a well-born mother and just leaving it at that as some sort of “GOTCHA!”#is equally if not more irresponsible and entirely irrelevant to discussions of the actual time period we're studying.#Elizabeth *was* considered unworthy and unacceptable as queen precisely because of her lower social status #her father and brother had literally been derided as social-climbers by Salisbury Warwick and Edward himself just a few years earlier #the Woodvilles' marriage prospects clearly reflected their status (and 'place') in society: EW herself had first married a knight and all #siblings married within the gentry to people of a similar status. compare that to the prestigious marriages arranged after EW became queen #Elizabeth having a lower social status was not 'created' by propaganda against her; it fueled and shaped propaganda against her #that's a huge huge difference; it's irresponsible and silly to conflate the two as I've seen a recent tumblr post cavalierly do #like I said she was considered too low-born to be queen long before any of the propaganda Warwick Clarence or Richard put out against her #and the fact that Elizabeth was targeted on the basis of her social status was in itself novel and unprecedented #no queen before her was ever targeted in such a manner; Clearly Elizabeth was considered notably 'different' in that regard #(and was quite literally framed as the enemy and destroyer of 'the old royal blood of this realm' and all its actual 'inheritors' like..)#ngl this sort of discussion always leaves a bad taste in my mouth #because it's not like England and France (et all) are at war or consider each other mortal enemies in the 21st century #both are in fact western european imperialistic nations who've been nothing but a blight to the rest of the world including my own country #yet academic historians clearly have no problem contextualizing the xenophobia that medieval foreign queens faced as products of their time #and sympathizing with them accordingly (Eleanor of Provence; Joan of Navarre; Margaret of Anjou; etc)(at least by their own historians)#Nor were foreign queens the “worst” targets of xenophobia: that was their attendants or in times of war commoners or soldiers #who actually had to bear the brunt of English aggression #queens were ultimately protected and guaranteed at least a veneer of dignity and respect because of their royal status #yet once again historians and people have no problem contextualizing and understanding their difficulties regardless of all this #so what is the problem with contextualizing the classism *Elizabeth* faced and understanding *her* difficulties?#why is the prejudice against her constantly diminished & downplayed? (Ive never even seen any historian directly refer to it as 'classism')#after all it was *Elizabeth* who was more vulnerable than any queen before her due to her lack of powerful foreign or national support #and Elizabeth who faced a form of propaganda distinctly unprecedented for queens. it SHOULD be emphasized more.

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iwakuraz · 4 months ago

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feeling like,,,, soon I'm probably gonna become obsessed with evangelion again. the weather forecast says I'm gonna have the evangelion brain disease not too long from now

#mole talks #maybe i should rewatch it. yeah haha that'll make me wanna die #i remember the first time i watched evangelion was actually when i was 14 and was in year 10 #had to do some pretty important exams (year 10 is the year before you do gcses so the work you do then feels like a big deal at the time)#i stayed up late watching evangelion and then the next day i went into school only to absolutely flunk my maths exam #i got.. 26% in that exam #my friend was SO pissed off at me when she learnt i spent so much time watching eva instead of studying!!#but this is one of my favourite memories ever for some reason #i've always been bad at maths.. but lately i've actually been kind of okay at it so i dunno what happened?#i didn't pay any attention in maths class last year #but i somehow performed very well on my maths exam last year #and this year i was moved up a maths class because my grade was high #i don't know how that happened? but i almost started liking maths after that #but then. my new classmates in my new maths class are the worst #i have the coolest maths teacher now! but the worst classmates #they talk constantly and never shut up #and i want/ to die. (just kidding i don't wanna die. i love life and living and laughing and et cetera)

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babehog · 4 months ago

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I don't think I have the words to properly communicate how I feel right now. I'm grasping at the hem of my own life. I've been stumbling along my life from the sidelines recently. I genuinely didn't want to live for a not insignificant time of this year. So much shit happened all at once that I thought I wasn't gonna get through to this point.

I feel like I'm regaining myself. I can straighten out my back and walk with purpose again. I can make myself a breakfast and enjoy flavors. I can sing at the top of my lungs and cry and I can feel. I can feel so much again. I almost lost myself and I'm so happy that I'm back. I missed being alive.

#im so glad I didnt do anything stupid a few months ago when everything really was at its worst for me #i was close to doing something I was gonna regret and I'm crying now because I feel like life is worth living again. I had given up hope.#i love all my friends so much if you read this and you consider me your friend please know I've been going through a LOT the last two years #and I have missed you just as much as I have missed being alive. thank you all for being patient and understanding #thank you

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sugarsnappeases · 1 year ago

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thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo.#this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so.#not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :(#i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

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muselexum · 7 months ago

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( waking up one morning after 18 months of hiatus and finally getting the spark™ to freshen up ur rp blog )

#( war is oveeeer )#( time passes but my love for rp is like a little gremlin that randomly shows up and beats me with its lil bat )#( I'm still stuggling with art block for my other creative outlets for months now but I want to warm up my writing fingers )#FOR ALL ( ooc. )#FOR ALL ( tbd. )#( pretty sure I've been going through the worst burn out of my life and im just now seeing the end of the tunnel )#( had to face and address basically everything in my life ever so my brain just decided to go into low battery mode for awhile )#( it's odd cause not much about my life is significantly different from when I left -unfortunately-#but I have also developed and changed so much as a person. ppl around me say that and it's so reassuring to hear <3 )#( also lmao apparently I was pretty Vitamin D deficient esp in Canadian winters and APPARENTLY have a genetic calcium deficiency so UHHHHH #I love being medically neglected and gaslit into believing I just had anxiety and depression with no physical contributors <33 #that's being taken care of now tho. but yeah ugh that was something to process too.)#That aside I've been doing well!! I'm in such a different place now it's kind of wild. Always a work in progress but im happy <3 #Have some goals I'd like to meet for the end of the year so I'm hoping to close out these two years on a good note!

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silversoulstardust · 1 year ago

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watching atarashii joushii wa do tennen for the BL but I'm amused at how accurately they portray traumatic work experience

a simple thing could be triggering

and yet it could easily be fixed with a kind gesture from a superior

#ive been working for almost a decade now and ive had a fair share of horrible bosses. so i sympathize with momose #the worst I've gotten was when i was still working under the government. i worked an average 80 hours per week and my boss at the time—#hated me and how vocal i was against his abuse (read: cutting off contract workers and passing the workload on the overworked paramedics)#so he digged out some shit on me from a year before (read: went on vacation outside the country without notifying the gov) and —#gave me an ultimatum: get transferred to another hospital or face disciplinary actions (and risk not furthering my study)#so i left #anyway. five years later shit works out just fine and im grateful for that. but it was depressing at the time #all the hard work I poured was wasted on the wrong people #oof im rambling too much #sorry bout that. still salty about that boss #i hope he's living a miserable life #chromie is watching #atarashii joushi wa do tennen #my new boss is goofy #momose kentarou #chrmz.txt

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katsuki-king-of-twinks · 3 months ago

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This cat is probably about to maul me again...

#just a feeling i had #do your worst you little shit i love you unconditionally #I've already had to have an IV and an intramuscular antibiotic injecting in my ass cheek due to your aggression #i will gladly endure that once or even twice a year for the rest of your life if it means you will give me the snugs #don't mind me #mine

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starcitysirens · 3 months ago

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i feel like the universe is sending me signals that i should rewatch glee. and i think i am going to listen to the demons

#listen i've always just had the one blog #i went back through my archive #and i really was just posting through the worst years of my life #while actively engaging in glee fandom #and no therapy #i think i still have a couple of mutuals from the glee days #glee: it's a cult

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gloomyshoujo · 9 days ago

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Hey, just letting ppl know I won't be on for a lil while bc it seems like my mouse broke? I'm not 110% sure yet if it's the mouse or something else (testing out my moms work mouse for now). I have had a queue up for a lil while now (still new to it lol), so my blog won't be entirely dead.xD I'm pretty strapped for cash tbh, so yeaaaa not entirely sure how this will play out but I'll figure something out.

#rant #man not my week. first i burnt a pixel on my monitor #from static shock to now breaking my mouse from it??#god i'm so tired of this #tho i wanna say......damn my moms mouse mouse ain't bad??#and its hp too which is a brand i swore i'd never use #i think my microsoft one i've had for years now has been #the worst mouse i;ve ever used in my life lol #like the scroll was shittttt and it;s uncomfortable as hell #should have seen this coming tho its been #acting weird these past few months;;;

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agnesandhilda · 9 months ago

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my father is an olympic gold medalist in the sport of emotionally tormenting women

#bolo speaks #I've had him blocked on everything for the past two years because I was one of the women he terrorizes even when I was still a girl #but I'm only able to do that because *other* women in my family are on the frontlines dealing with him. which I am keenly aware of.#anyway I got a message from my grandma asking if I was mad at her because he'd been saying that I hated her (untrue and bizarre to boot #like just factually a man I haven't been on speaking terms with since I was seventeen has no leg to stand on whatsoever wrt to what I have #going on emotionally or in my relationships. but he's nothing if not adept at digging into people's worst insecurities so I get why she'd #be bothered)#and he has a new girlfriend now who I haven't met but who he treats the way he treated my mother before they separated #going into drunk rages breaking her things degrading her etc. and *her* family encourages her to ignore it because he's got money #and I don't know. I don't know my dad's girlfriend I've never met her but I am intimately aware of just how horribly #he treats every woman in his life. anyway [NAME] if you're reading this GET OUT ‼️#and the worst part is that he is like. a genuine shameless misogynist like he'd go on these crazy rants about #how women are just vaginas and we're all stupid and hysterical anyway so it doesn't matter if me and mom are scared of him #because we're just dumb women. which has naturally torched his bridges with me and every other woman in our family right.#and his takeaway from that is that he's *right* and being put-upon by all these irrational harpies for no valid reason.#my dad voice: are women scared of me because I'm violent and unpredictable? no. it's those stupid bitches that are wrong.

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nontrivialproof · 10 months ago

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Chappell Roan tickets reselling for over $300 makes me want to kms

#I've had the worst year of my adult life and I live in a place no one ever comes. I deserve to hear good luck babe live on my birthday.#well in reality I probably do not. but what do any of us really deserve?

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