#i've blurred out his name for privacy reasons

[oediex]

I've had a box for twenty years or so filled with tea bag wrappings. My family started collecting them after my grandmother went into assisted living, and we found out she had several booklets with instructions on tea bag folding. Origami, but with the paper wrappings that tea often comes in where I live.

One year ago today, in a deafening silence, my nephew was born. The day before, three weeks before he was due, he had died in my sister's womb. The weeks that followed were pretty surreal. Mourning a person we hadn't met, but who we'd been waiting for for months. I remember how, just days before it happened, I had expressed my excitement to friends over welcoming another member to our family. I love children. I loved this one already.

My sister chose the moon on his birth announcement card. A big, white full moon against the dark blue night sky. Two years earlier, she had chosen the sun to represent her firstborn. It was fitting. So a few weeks ago, when I bought some tea that came in white paper wrappings, I wondered if I could remake his birth announcement card, but with tea bag wrappings. I had been itching to get back into it for a while now.

This afternoon, I finally got to work. Scissors, a glue stick, some folding, some ripping. I had conceived of a tea-bag-folded moon and a dark blue collage background. The former I created with eight of the white paper wrappings that I had recently acquired. For the background, I was happy to find that twenty years ago, my family had drank quite a bit of blackcurrant as well as forrest fruit tea. I ripped their wrappings into tiny pieces and patiently glued them to the piece of drawing paper I had cut to size.

While I was working, it was unclear if my vision would bear fruit. I had done tea bag folding before, creating stars and flowers to adorn a birthday or Christmas card. But combining it with a collage background from torn paper tea bag wrappings was entirely new.

Happily, the result is stunning, if may say so myself, and definitely worth another try. I better start drinking more tea.

[we-cross-universe-king-relate]

my adventures with Justice League part 3

as I've said in my previous posts this is a headcanon of what would happen if members of the Justice League would show up and how they would show up and it'll keep up with the themes of young adults and so appearance-wise they'll look young and have an age limit of either 22 or 23.

The next member of the Justice League is Barry Allen AKA flash.

To keep up with Barry's origins after the accident in his lab he spent most of his time studying to be a forensic scientist and work with the police. It's around this time that he makes a name for himself as the flash.

One day Barry gets stationed in metropolis and stays there for a while. For the most part his time at metropolis is somewhat boring to say the least but there are times when the excitement picks up and this excitement comes in the form of Clark and Kara battling the bad guys of metropolis. While Kara and Clark are busy Barry decides to deal with the rest as his superhero persona flash.

When Clark and Kara are done dealing with the bad guys they are dealing with they decide to deal with the rest that got away only to find that they've already been dealt with. Once they see the bad guys dealt with they hear or more like somewhat see a blur passing between them and decide to chase it when they surprisingly reach it they find flash. Clark and kara ask if flash is is the one who dealt with all the bad guys and he simply replies yes afterwards Clark and kara thank him and flash just bolts off without saying another word.

for Barry helping Clark and Kara actually gave Barry a reason to want to stay in metropolis a little longer than what he was originally assigned for he also out of curiosity wanted to know more about metropolis is to superheroes so he goes directly to the only people who know anything about him: Clark, Lois, kara and Jimmy.

When he meets the group it's by chance because they're all on an assignment from Perry to look into the mysterious flash who entered metropolis. Barry tells the group that he actually knows something about flash and agrees to help them if they give him information about Superman and Supergirl. Both groups reluctantly agree to a little info swap they're both cautious to not give too much information afterwards they simply spend time with each other the group gets to know Barry as the sort of chatterboxy, friendly and excitable person if I had to describe this version of Barry I would describe him as"The chatterbox friend you don't want to stop talking to"

Clark and Barry get along swimmingly, they are very good conversations and to an extent have a laugh.

Lois and Barry get along well due to their mutual sharing of info Lois also gets a kick out of Barry's excitability.

Jimmy is surprised to find that Berry is a fan of his flame bird stream. To say the least Jimmy and Barry get along fantastically due to both of them having a bit of a similar personality.

Kara does Tend to get annoyed with Barry because of his chatterbox personality but their friends nonetheless.

After a while of talking with one another something happens in the form of an explosion that causes Clark and Kara to split from the group and go check it out in their superhero identities when Jimmy and Lois turn around they see that Barry is gone too.

Explosion turns out to be a bad guy this time a bad guy from Central City where Barry is from. Because Clark and Kara don't know anything about this person he gives them something of a hard time but nothing they can't handle then out of nowhere flash shows up and handles the guy for the two of them the bad guy also reveals that he knows flash. When all of it is said and done and the bad guy from Central City is dealt with Superman, Supergirl and flash have another talk but because I'm sure this version of Cara doesn't understand privacy when flash refuses to reveal his secret identity Kara uses her x-ray vision and sees that it's Barry causing Barry to freak out but in order to calm him down Clark and Kara reveal that it's them getting very to freak out less but still enough because of the fact that the two people he just met are Superman and Supergirl.

After everything they meet up with Lois and Jimmy and Barry tells them that he's flash giving them a bit of a shock. they all decide to keep each other secret and from then on they decided to be friends after Barry's time in metropolis is up he has to go back to Central City before he leaves Clark Kara Lois and Jimmy decide to see him off and exchange information giving each other's phone numbers so they can stay in touch making barry another member of their group.

This version of Barry is similar to other versions of him having blonde hair and blue eyes, but and I'll only go into a little detail, a little lean as well but not muscular.

[sayruq]

Remember when Page 6 published Willa's face without Sophie's consent? I think Joe went behind Sophie back and sold Willa paparazzi photos. I doubt Page 6 would dare to do that without none of parents consent. They will not want to risk lawsuit.

I think Joe want to force Sophie to let him and his family to use Willa and her second child. For Jonas brothers brand and profits. If, you look at Sophie's second child and other celebrities's children. All their faces were blurred in paparazzi photos. Except, the ones that gave consent such as JLO's children.

After, divorce announcement. We see Joe immediately called paparazzi for his pap photos with the children and Nanny. I will not been surprised he want full custody. Because he want to sell his daughters to media. Similar to his brothers. Sophie is the only reason why their children are not being used for profits yet.

Sophie was the only who pushed for her daughters' privacy. She's the only reason we don't know the names of baby number 2. I've been following Sansa/Sophie stans for years and I did not know Willa's hair colour. Then within days of announcing that they're divorcing, he goes out with the kids and their nanny to play father in front of cameras.

I'm willing to bet everything that he's preparing to use his children to make money like his brothers do. That's the only reason he wants joint custody. Well, that and raising the kids in the same fundamentalist evangelical upbringing he got.

[sariels-world-ella]

I don't know if any one cares or relates to this or needs to hear this or not, but, don't you just get a bit irritated when someone from the older generation says, "don't do/say *insert thing here* because the other kids would make fun of you!" I get they are trying to look out for us but..

1. I don't care what the other kids think, if they have a problem with it, they can f*ck off, my identity is not determined by someone else's opinion.

and..

2. A lot of things changed since they were kids, times change.

Like, a boy kissed his boyfriend in the hallway and everyone around them reacted no different than if it was a straight couple, a goth girl wore a pastel gothic lesbian pride flag outfit completed with make up, there is a cishet boy wears dresses and skirts everyday, there is some boys wear make up, there exists openly trans students and people both respect their pronouns and chosen names, there is minority clubs where minority group students (+minority group supporters) interact, there is a gay-straight alliance club, there is literal pride flags around the school, gender neutral bathrooms.

I've seen people wearing shirts saying how they support autistic people, I also seen shirts supporting people epilepsy, down-syndrome, mental health issues, depression, and I have also seen people supporting "my body, my rules", "Black lives matter", (ps. I put them in qoutes because these are phrases, and not for disrespectful reasons), also students advocating to help lower homelessness and poverty in our state, as well as awareness about child abuse and human trafficking.

I've seen plenty of students who are openly gay/lesbian, trans, queer, bi, pan, aro, ace, neurodivergent, religious/non-religious, you name it, walking around the school like any other student, no one gives them crap, they wear and express their pride flags, religious symbols, racial identity pride, autism swag, and/or pronoun pins all they want.

(If you don't believe me, I can provide photographic proof, however, there may not be many pictures of people themselves out of respect for privacy and if there is, all their faces would be blurred unless they consent to having their face on the internet)

Things change, I bet if a lot of these things happened back when the older population were kids, those people would be harrassed and bullied. Yeah, sure, these type of people still exist, but a good amount of the younger population is trying to move us forward.

Though it's not everywhere, acceptance does exist, just because some people don't accept you for who you are doesn't mean there is no one who will. If someone doesn't love you for who you are, then they don't deserve you. Your identity is your own, people can try to invalidate it all they want but only person who can TRULY invalidate your identity is yourself.

Don't people get to you, and be yourself. If someone is making you so you aren't comfortable in your own skin, then tell them to screw off and for them to worry about their own identity.

Tl;DR

Times change don't let the people stuck in how past was like, stop you from having a better future. No matter who you are or where you come from, (as long as your not the scum of the earth, ex: a p*dophile), you matter! your identity is yours, only you have the power to disvalidate it, don't give that power to others. Keep on going, I believe in you! ♥️

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Ocean Eyes - Part 13

A/N - OMG finally an update!!! I'm so sorry it has taken me so long but writers block is a bitch! Thank you all for sticking with me and being so patient 💕💕💕 Please like/comment/reblog.

"CHRIS EVANS HAS A SECRET FAMILY!"

Shit, shit. Shit! Oh my fuck this can't be happening!! I thought to myself as i clicked on the link Hannah had sent me, the page loaded showing photo's of Chris and I kissing, photo's of Chris and Mason...... my heart was racing and i could feel the panic setting in.

"Fucking Brian!" I mumbled, this was taken the day i saw his car outfront! I got up and made my way to Chris' office, i needed to let him know about this ASAP incase he was suddenly blind sided with a question while doing his interview.

As soon as i appeared in the doorway Chris looked up and gave me a little smile that soon fell when he saw the tears in my eyes.

"Im so sorry but can you just excuse me for two seconds..... i'll be right back" Chris said leaving Scott talking to Jimmy Fallon.

"Whats wrong?....." he asked quietly pulling the door closed behind him.

"Im so sorry Chris....." i shook my head.

"Why? Whats happened?...."

I passed him my phone showing him the headline and photo's "Everyone knows, I'm so sorry! This is all my fault...." i started to cry, this isn't how i wanted everyone to find out... we weren't ready for everyone to know yet!!

"Hey stop! This isn't your fault sweetheart!" Chris wrapped his arms around me "come on don't cry, i hate it when you cry".

"Im so mad Chris!...they have no right posting photo's of Mason!"

"Let me just go finish up this interview, i'll be two minutes" he kissed me before rushing back to finish up with Jimmy.

After Chris had finished up his interview he was calling his publicist Megan, he already had missed calls from her so she had obviously heard what was going on. An hour later she was sat on the sofa across from us listening to the whole story.

"I want those photo's of my son taken down now! They can't post photo's of my 6 year old for everyone to see!" Chris was yelling as he paced the room.

"I've already put in a call and told them to take it down, but you know its gonna be out there now....you can't hide from this Chris"

"I know but.... fuck! We didn't want Mason in the public eye..... he's just a kid!"

"I get it, they should have at least blurred his face in the shots, most tabloids do nowadays unless the parents give consent but this particular tabloid that published the story, they're not one of the big names so they're more interested in their 5 minutes of fame with this exclusive"

"Brian did this. He did it to hurt me, its not even about the money! He could've sold the story to one of the big tabloids and got a payout..." i shook my head "the guy is crazy! I wasn't even dating him!"

"We're gonna try and do something about him too, leave it with me" Megan gave me a small smile while writing something in her notebook "So, you should probably post something on your socials.... clear up the gossip. Usually id say don't react to this but we need to do some damage control because right now, i guarantee all people are thinking is either you've been an absentee father with no interest in your son for the past six years" she said looking to Chris "or you'll be public enemy number one for keeping Chris's son from him" she looked over to me and i lowered my head in shame, i had done that..... i had my reasons but i did it all the same.

"So what do we say?" I asked quietly as Chris came and sat beside me taking my hand.

"We say that even though the two of you haven't been together romantically up until now, you have been raising your son together but chose to keep him out of the public eye"

"I'll put something together for you to look over, make sure you think its okay" Chris told her.

"I know this isn't great but we can handle this"

"Thank you Megan".

Over the next couple of days things gradually calmed down, Chris had posted a simple statement which i was told to post too even though my accounts were private to friends only, he didn't go into much detail but confirmed that we do have a son together and asked for our privacy to be respected.

His fans had actually been amazing and so supportive, of course there were a few saying some not so nice things about me and Mason but we knew that would happen. The tabloid stories quickly disappeared regarding Mason when other celebrities started posting, calling the tabloids out for not respecting our privacy after we had made it clear we didn't want our son in the spotlight.

But i still had this constant pit in my stomach, a feeling that things would still get worse before they went back to normal.

I was currently laid on the bed next to a basket of laundry that needed folding and putting away, I had retreated upstairs with the excuse of doing laundry while Chris, Scott and Mason were out back playing some game. The truth was i just needed some alone time, i was tired of putting on a brave and happy face, pretending like everything was fine. My hands massaged my temples trying to shift the dull headache that seemed like a constant thing lately.

"Hey, you okay?" The sound of Chris's voice from the door way made me crack open an eye to look at him.

"Yeah, headache is all"

"You've been up here a while, i got worried"

"I was doing laundry i told you....."

"You mean the laundry still sitting next to you?" He teased with a raised eyebrow.

"Yep, i started then i got a headache. I just need a few minutes" i said quietly closing my eyes again.

"Sweetheart you know you can talk to me, you don't have to act like everything is fine....."

"Yes i do, if i don't I'm gonna loose it and i can't do that with Mason around".

I felt the bottom of the bed dip and opened my eyes to see Chris crawling up the bed towards me, he moved my legs so his upper body was resting between them as he pressed kisses to my T-shirt covered stomach.

"What are you doing?" I shook my head and chuckled at the playful look he had on his face.

"Trying to cheer you up, maybe help you forget for a while" he smirked pushing my T-shirt up more so he could kiss my bare skin this time.

"Is now really the time for that? Mason is awake downstairs...."

"Its the perfect time for that, Scott will keep Mason busy"

"You dont know that....."

Chris quickly pulled his phone from his pocket and tapped quickly on the screen before tossing it aside.

"Done, no distractions" he laughed.

"Oh god please don't tell me you told Scott why?"

"Of course not but he's not stupid"

"This is a bad idea..... we said slow...."

"This is slow, i just wanna make you feel better. Plus you know orgasm's are supposed to help with headaches" he shrugged with that cocky grin.

"Oh really? Is that right?"

"100%" he nodded making us both laugh, he reached for my shorts and starting to pull the them down my legs...

"Wait!" I said suddenly sitting up to look at him making him groan as he looked back at me from between my legs.

"What?"

"Lock the door would ya?" I giggled throwing myself back down on the bed shaking my head as he leapt from the bed and flipped the lock.

"Now where were we?" He said before crawling back into position.....this was a bad idea.

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[dendro-ymir]

Keeping up with the Todorokis but it's messier

Context: This is my SI-OC, who was unfortunately born in the world of My Hero Academia. She's very salty about it, find out below.

So uh... This was written in August 2021, and it's almost one year for this little word vomit. This is an unfinished draft.

I've been in this body for approximately two or three months, and even as time passed, I still refused to acknowledge the current situation. For the past days and weeks I've been stuck here in this godforsaken world, I still deluded myself into thinking that this is all a prank from my team members from the office, but to be honest, none of them obviously had the power to stage a prank of this level.

Even if they've seen all the manga and manhwa collections in my room, why of all the mangas in there did it have to be My Hero Academia? After wondering about it, I've hit a wall.

What's the next step, you ask? Blame the nonexistent gods, obviously.

To whoever's up there and having fun with all my suffering from down here, fuck you! Transferring my consciousness and soul to another body— in a child of the Todoroki family— what kind of weed do you smoke, huh!?

... As expected, no one shouts back from the abyss.

Like any other person, I bawled and thrashed, kicking and screaming in the unfairness of it all. It's the only way this body knows how to react, but truly, I was indeed aggressively crying my soul out.

My dignity, my sense of identity, my privacy, all gone because I'm in an immobile body... AAAAAAAAAAAAA—

And perhaps sensing my bottomless agony, the gremlin beside me cried too. Thanks, Touya. I appreciate your help.

With that, I proceeded to cry even louder just to make my parents' lives harder.

Soon after, I hear voices from around me and Touya. And then, I was picked up by the lady I'm supposed to call mother from now on. And even through the tears that continuously blurred my vision, I could make out the outline of her figure. Her pristine white hair was short, and behind her slim figure was the towering figure of the two-decade-and-some-years old mountain of a man who was also supposed to be this body's father.

"Oh no, hush, it's alright, you're alright," Rei rocked me gently, a worried tone apparent from her voice. Endeavor disappeared in the background, moving towards Touya.

Don't get me wrong, I have yet to understand Japanese, it's just that they're a few of the only words I've gleaned from these two.

"... Kaguya," Endeavor's voice was heard. (My new name— on the back of my mind, a loud whisper passed. I ignored it.)

Fuuuuuck yoooouuuuuu—

"Stop crying, it's the middle of the night."

No, I can't hear you. Can't hear, can't hear at all—

Then he picked me up, cradled this small body in one arm and Touya in the other. While Touya was on a peaceful laying position, I was sitting on the arm of this man, and the lady behind me was gently supporting my back so I didn't fall. With a small chubby face stained with salty tears, I made sure to put on a glare as I met his bright turquoise eyes...

And with the force of a roaring pebble, I smacked his face with all my little power.

Overall, a fairly tame night in the Todoroki household.

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Perhaps expending that much energy that night was a bad idea. Because after that, I've been exhausted and have been wading in and out of time. In other words, my sense of time was messed up.

That's why I'm calm today.

Another reason was because this body was too sensitive. This body was born too early along with Touya, which was the reason why this body was too damn weak.

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THAT'S ALL THERE IS TO THAT PART, IT'S BECAUSE I SUCK AT WRITING LOL

Anyways, here are the deets:

As you can infer, it's already planned. The titles, the kanji of the oc's name, literally everything has been planned by me. Though... They're all scattered across my files and I can't seem to find them.

I dunno if I should still continue to write this or the other one, but,,,, if I did continue this,,, well. I don't know what'd happen to my other SI-OC. And there will be minor changes here as well. Maybe the HotWings content will be changed as well?????

Here you go.

If someone still read this far down below, thank you, and please let me hear your thoughts.

[lillupon]

So, I've got a very long rant/opinion here and Idk really know how to say this without coming off kinda bad but I'm gonna say it anyways. I agree with the fact that the seventeen tag has been kinda dry lately on most fanfic places, but it's really only in the smut area. It's the sane way with other groups too I feel like. All of the nice little innocent tags are boomin to this day and thats completely fine. I think the smut tag is dry tho bc lately I feel like a few social issues (like sexualizing people and disrespecting them and their identity) have crossed over into kpop and have been ?blown out of proportion? Lately there's been a rampage of people who like to say that writing smut about someone is disgusting and is dehumanizing because people want to assume that it would make the idols uncomfortable which could equate to some morality issues on how you are reducing someone only to their body without their consent and a bunch of stuff like that. It kind of pisses me off bc this is fiction. About grown adults. Clamping down on horny people who simp over hot asian men isn't going to solve the issues we face in real life. I think a shit ton is wrong with the world we currently live in, and deciding to come after something that isn't even real bothers me. Like what does that actually accomplish. But yeah, I think thats a reason why smut has been dying down. I mean, on youtube almost every video about unpopular opinions, or things they dont like about kpop will include something about shipping idols in fanfics. And then everyone in the comment section will talk about how its all fine and dandy in moderation, but once people start writing smut it's crossing the idols personal boundaries. It's something I've been seeing a lot more often and I think people who are interested in writing smut are being turned away from it bc we've gotten to a point where people are being called disgusting for having fantasies.

Hi Anon, thank you for sending in this Ask. 

I want to preface this by saying: when I write or talk about Mingyu and Wonwoo fucking on my blog, it is a fantasy. I am not speculating about what the real Mingyu and Wonwoo might be like in bed. I am imagining the versions of Mingyu and Wonwoo that I have created in my head, that exist only in my stories. None of it is real. I understand that this can be a blurry boundary for some people. But for me, the separation between fantasy and reality is well-defined. Now, on to your Ask!

You’ve hit the nail on the head with this one. You’ve also touched on many of the issues I have been struggling with myself as of late. It’s difficult to argue about morals since everyone has a different set of values, as well as different comfort levels. Some people think real person fiction (RPF) is a gross invasion of privacy. Others are fine with it. And others don’t care one way or another. There is no single answer; I can only offer my answer. Which means, of course, people are welcome to disagree with it, or parts of it. 

In this essay (LOL But forreal: this is an essay), I will be sharing my experience in the k-pop fanfic community from 2014 to present, the etiquette I personally abide by as a reader and writer of RPF, as well as my stance on RPF in general.

I started reading and posting fanfics back in 2014/2015 on a website called AsianFanfics (AFF). Obviously, no one on that site had a problem with RPF, since AFF is a platform made specifically for sharing stories about Asian celebrities. For many years, I read and enjoyed RPF with zero guilt. I scribbled away by myself in my own corner of fandom and curated my own content. I didn’t interact much with other fans, readers, or writers. I didn’t have a Twitter, and I only used tumblr to reblog memes. As a result, I’ve been able to avoid a lot of anti-shipping discourse, as well as purity and cancel culture. I had no idea there were so many negative opinions about RPF. It wasn’t until I became active on the subreddit r/Fanfiction last year that I learned about all the discourse surrounding RPF. 

This newfound ‘awareness’ does make me feel guilty at times—but only because after mulling this over, I still don’t think this is something to feel guilty about.

Here’s what I remember, first and foremost, when I create and consume RPF: fanfics and my favourite ships are fictional, and fiction is fantasy. This is basic etiquette when it comes to RPF, and most people in the k-pop fandom understand this. Delusional fans exist, of course, but they are not representative of the entire k-pop community. 

Another point of etiquette is to keep fanfics within fandom spaces. I would never push my fics into celebrities’ faces, or go around claiming that my fanfics are accurate representations of a k-idol’s life or personality, in any way, shape, or form. I would also discourage directing ship-related questions to official accounts, or bringing them up during fansigns or other face-to-face interactions; I believe that in these instances, shipping does have the potential to strain real-life relationships.

So with basic etiquette out of the way, let me share my approach to RPF in general.

As much as we like to think we know our favourite celebrities, we really don’t. All we see is their public persona. And this public persona is intentionally controlled, managed, and curated by a team of people: directors, tabloids, editors, makeup artists, publicists, etc. How “real” are these celebrities? We are so distanced from them that they may as well be fictional.

I draw from the public persona that idols project, and I work them into my own writing. But at the end of the day, these personalities are my own interpretation. My interpretation is probably nothing like an idol’s actual personality. I just use the “public persona/character” that idols portray as inspiration for my own stories, which are set in wildly different universes.

More than anything, I think of k-pop idols as “actors” in my fic. You know how when you write an original novel, you scroll through Google images, looking for the perfect person to portray your original character? RPF is literally that, except you might build upon pre-existing dynamics and personalities.

When it comes to explicit fanfiction, two main concerns are prevalent: one of consent, and one of sexualisation.

If we argue against explicit RPF due to lack of consent, we should be willing to apply the same lens to all explicit works. How do we know that the creator of a movie, book, series, etc., is okay with us using their characters in our stories, explicit or not? We don’t. Perhaps some creators encourage fanfiction, but don’t want their lovingly crafted characters engaging in sexual acts or experiencing trauma. We just don’t know. I feel this line is even more blurred when we talk about characters from movies or TV series.

Let’s take Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes, as portrayed by Chris Evans and Sebastian Stan, from the Captain America movies as an example. I am willing to bet that when people consume and create explicit fanfiction about Steve and Bucky, they are imagining Chris Evans and Sebastian Stan in their heads. I doubt many people are imagining the 2D cartoon versions of Steve and Bucky, even though they’re technically the exact same characters. Why? Well, it could be because movies are more readily and easily consumed than comics, and so people are unfamiliar with comic book Steve and Bucky. But it might also be because fans find Chris Evans and Sebastian Stan attractive. Is this really any different from RPF, where fic authors make up everything about a celebrity’s life?  

When readers and writers of fanfic talk about how hot Steve Rogers or Bucky Barnes is, those comments are about Chris Evans and Sebastian Stan’s bodies. When reading explicit stories, fans are going to picture Chris and Sebastian’s bodies in their head, doing sexual things. Can we say, “Well, it’s not really you, Chris/Sebastian”, when in a way, it is?

The reality is, people are going to thirst over celebrities, regardless of whether or not explicit fanfiction exists. They’re going to post thirst tweets on Twitter. They’re going to talk to friends and strangers online about how hot [insert celebrity name here] is. They’re going to fantasize about dating and having sex with their favourite celebrity. Or, as it is in my case, they’re going to make up stories in their heads about their favourite idols dating and banging each other. People are going to do all of this without ‘getting consent’ from the celebrity. Cracking down upon and shaming writers of RPF isn’t going to change any of that.

To be honest, I’m not sure why people think it is disgusting to imagine sexual scenarios about real people. It is okay and normal to have these kinds of fantasies. I suppose the alternative is to fantasise about having sex with cartoon characters instead? It’s a very binary way of thinking to say that if you imagine/write real people in explicit scenarios, you are immediately sexualising, dehumanising, or objectifying them. There is more to dehumanisation than writing smut about our favourite celebrities. For one thing, you can love someone and appreciate all parts of them, and still want to fuck their brains out. And generally, fanfics come from a place of love—love that is not only sexual in nature.

Is it the sharing aspect inherent to fanfiction? The possibility that a celebrity might stumble upon explicit works about them? The chances are very low, I think, of the k-pop idols I enjoy writing about coming across my English fics. But I also believe in curating your own content, and that applies to celebrities too. Perhaps a celebrity should not go searching for fanfics about themselves. And of course, people should not show celebrities their fanfics, unless invited.

Another argument I hear against (explicit) RPF is, “How would you feel if someone wrote fanfiction about you?” First off, I don’t like this argument because there’s a difference between someone who decides to be a public figure versus someone who decides to remain a regular private citizen. Celebrities should and do know what they’re getting into when they choose their occupation. (This is not to say, “They are celebrities; sexualise them all you want because that’s what they signed up for.” Here, I am only acknowledging that people might have sexual fantasies about celebrities they are attracted to. Presumably, celebrities are cognizant of this.)  

If someone (whose existence I am not even aware of, mind you) decides they want to write explicit fanfiction of me in some tiny corner of the Internet, I wouldn’t care so long as: (1) they don’t shove it into my face, and (2) they don’t harass me and ask invasive questions about my personal life and relationships. It’s not hurting me or negatively affecting my life, so it wouldn’t even register as a blip on my radar. When fanfiction remains within its appropriate spaces, it is largely harmless. 

Now, if a k-pop idol were to ask their fans to stop writing fanfiction about them, would I? Yes, I would. However, I can’t imagine that happening. Judging by the number of ‘sexy’ concepts, fanservice moments, and variety shows such as ‘We Got Married’, I am certain that k-pop idols realise they are the stars of many fantasies—some of which are explicit in nature. Considering the prevalence of shipping in the k-pop industry, I would argue that shipping is subtly encouraged.

It’s sad that so many talented writers are shamed out of fandom, or feel that k-pop cannot be the medium through which they tell their stories, or explore their sexuality, or cope with trauma, or simply have fun. Professional works and Hollywood love their RPF—readers and writers of fanfics should be able to, as well. 

As you said Anon, “clamping down on horny people who simp over hot asian men isn't going to solve the issues we face in real life” (this is a lovely sentence, by the way). The kind of person who dehumanises another and reduces them to a sexual object will do so some other way, if not via fanfiction. I don’t think the issue of fetishisation can be fixed simply by telling people not to write explicit RPF. In my experience, people who read and write RPF are more respectful and thoughtful about these things than the general public. We’ve all seen the general public say highly sexual things about celebrities in the media and to their faces, or tag celebrities in their thirst tweets. Are these things less invasive than fanfiction? Personally, I don’t think so. And in my opinion, there are more pressing and damaging issues in stan culture than fanfic.

In conclusion, I don’t think there is anything wrong with creating and consuming RPF, both explicit and non-explicit so long as we:

Remember we are writing fiction

Keep RPF within its appropriate space, and

Do not harass celebrities about their personal lives and relationships

RPF is not for everyone. There may be people who enjoy RPF, but draw the line at explicit stories. This is fine. Everyone has their own personal preferences. What is not fine, however, is attacking people for creating things you don’t like. I’m not sure what kind of moral crusade people are on and what they hope to achieve by shaming writers of RPF, explicit or otherwise. Ultimately, fic authors are writing a fantasy. It’s not real; no one is being hurt. I think it’s important for people to curate their own content, and AO3 makes it very easy to filter out explicit works and unwanted tags. 

Maybe this is me trying to justify my own participation in explicit RPF—I don’t know. What I do know is that I love k-pop, and fandom is an important part of my media and entertainment experience. I adore the k-pop idols I write about, and I just want to imagine them being happy and getting lots of love and orgasms. Let a bitch be horny, goddamn… 

Some bonus fun facts!

At the time I am writing this, on AO3:

26.2% of Stray Kids fanfics are rated M or E

26.3% of Seventeen fanfics are rated M or E

29.0% of Merlin fanfics are rated M or E

34.9% of Captain America (Movies) fanfics are rated M or E

40.1% of BTS fanfics are rated M or E ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Coincidentally, I saw this post on Reddit this morning: Can we have a RPF positivity post?

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Giving this its own post because in the other one it is hidden underneath all that text.

This is a piece of art I made with paper tea bag wrappings. It's modelled after my nephew's birth announcement card. He was stillborn just over a year ago.

The moon is made by tea bag folding, the background is paper torn collage.

Blurred part of the image is his name (cut out of the same tea bag wrappings as the moon is made out of) which I've hidden for privacy reasons.

Lots of imperfections but I think it came out really neat and I'm definitely combining tea bag folding with paper torn collage again. (Also want to try combining it with paint at some point.)

I'm going to have to up my tea drinking even more.