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indestinatus · 1 year ago

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I MATCHED I MATCHED IN MY MEDICAL RESIDENCY PROGRAM IN MY TOP SCHOOL I PASSED I PASSED I CAN'T BREATHE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#i also fell down the stairs while trying to scream it to my mom and now i cant walk #I'M MOVING TO SÃO PAULO #I CAN'T BREATHE #i've been studying for 2 years for this #damn it the timing of this #I'M GOING TO BE A RESIDENT!!!!!!!#i cant stop crying i cant even type evenly #i'm so happy i'm so happy obrigada deus #sofia is going to be a resident!!!! CLINICAL MEDICINE BABY #in my top SCHOOL I CANT EVEN #OMFG 😭#personal life

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why-the-heck-not · 1 month ago

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maybe maybe a mistake taking astronomy; idk why I thought I'd suddenly be a physics mastermind just bc I have more motivation for it now. It's the first week and I have no actual clue what I'm doing (or more accurately: should be doing. Mostly so far it's been lots of staring and muttering of "what the fuck" in regular intervals)

#rn it could just be like me being rusty in everything maths&physics related #like googling mf sin cos tan like I don't remember shit #except some like idk vectors and matrices I've used in coding #but like basic ass math? dude no idea haven't used it #for context: it's been 6 years since I last took a physics class (in high school) and like 2 years since the last purely math course #but I feel so stupid like ik the physics students there are probs just breezing through the first weeks like oof I'm big time not #studyblr #study #dark academia #uni studyblr #stemblr #january 2025 #2025

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sheepoftheseus · 26 days ago

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top 10 animals that are wizards

#chicken scratch #i cannot stress how little i've painted in my life this is the first time i've tried in like. maybe 2 years #i have never done a photo study ever i'm 22 yrs old & have been drawing since i was 5 #don't go to art school don't intend to. i just wanted to draw smthn w texture now that i can see good as fuck. this took like 2 hrs maybe #why the fuck do i not hate it

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huellitaa · 6 months ago

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studying bcuz i might be a loser but at least i'm really pretty and well educated

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anishenanigans · 9 months ago

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Custom design I did for a friend!

#man I've been drawing a lot lately #which would be great if I didn't need to study for finals #furry art #sfw furry #last time I designed an anthro was probably ~2 years ago?? it's been a while.#ani's art

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drinkinggblood · 1 year ago

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the sea beneath your wings

btw pretty please use my referral code: here

#path of titans #pot #rhamphorhynchus #paleoart #pot making a good design decision is legit once every 2 years im sorry but i've been so dissapointed w the designs of their recent playable #expect for rhamp rhamp is perfect il it's design #i just HATED hateg and achillo + ouugh whatever the playable they dropped before them im sorry they had been just kinda.. boring....#il pot's rhamp it has a lot of personality in it's design and animations compared to hateg n achillo. hes a ugly diseased rat thing.#paleo art #paleontology #paleoblr #pterosaur #my art #art test #art study

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shimyereh · 10 months ago

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Done with my fourth semester of grad school!

#this semester was absolutely brutal #(very heavy load of graduate coursework — while also teaching an undergrad language class 5 days a week)#(which is why I've been pretty quiet here lately)#I am now 2/3 of the way through the coursework portion of my PhD #earned my MA #made *very* accelerated progress learning a new language (Polish)#(the equivalent of 3 yrs of language study in 2 semesters! excited to take it to the next level in the coming schoolyear)#very productive semester — and year #now I can catch up on sleep and get back to business on my own projects #this summer's focus: get my 'Onegin' publication-ready

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lieutenantselnia · 3 months ago

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Actually I think it's a bit unfair that I can't be an astrophysicist and a historian and a game developer and a marine biologist and an archaeologist and an author and a seamstress at the same time

#I think I have a quarter-life crisis /hj #like I want to make space discoveries but I also want to analyse ww2 battles and I want to-#study the behaviour of whales and I want to create fictional worlds and I want to sew costumes and and and #there's so much knowledge out there to be learned and things to try out how are you supposed to do this all in one lifetime?#when you're expected to start working a fulltime job and stay in that line for the rest of your life??#though my problem isn't necessarily that I don't wanna be doing that job - it's more that I don't *only* wanna be doing that job #I just wish I could just try different job fields and see what they're like for like 2-3 years before trying out something else #but since they're all so different I'd have to start from the bottom again every time which probably also means worse payment etc #and I just don't have the time for that because I'd also like to build a stable life and maybe have a family later on #plus some of these jobs are just don't pay very well to begin with #I swear if I was rich and didn't have to worry about regular income I'd probably just be a forever student and study a whole bunch of stuff #just because I want to #unless I win the lottery I'll probably just start working fulltime though once I hopefully finish my master's #however I've already been thinking about signing up for studying history afterwards regardless - just for fun without pressure #I love the topic and then I wouldn't have the pressure of *needing* to find a job in the field afterwards #bc it's hard to find something unless you go for the teacher (or maybe professor) route plus pay seems kinda meh either way #but we'll see #I don't even know what this post is supposed to be. like not really a vent but. still complaining? idk #I don't know how to tag this #selnia talks

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jiyuu-na · 21 days ago

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[가을방학 - 이브나] autumn vacation - ibeuna (YLBFT)

Song Link -> ❀❀❀

when your phone rings while you're sleeping, i just let it ring a bit…

in response to my confession, which was like lukewarm coffee, you let a few buses pass us by before telling me this:

"even if hundreds of days pass, i will never ever only have eyes for you. even if my happiness becomes soaked in tears, i'll never become an idiot suffocated by you. i won't become like that."

looking into the eyes of someone who didn't answer correctly or kindly… i'm not even sure if i really liked the black of your eyes.

even if hundreds of days pass, you will never ever only have eyes for me. under a sky with rapeseed and tea olive flowers in full bloom, you'll never become an idiot with a heart i can fill. you won't become like that.

"perhaps even my confession, which was like a late snow in spring, could become a yellow flower?" i tried thinking something like that

TL: the title 이브나 (which has nothing to do with the song) is short for 이럴려고 브로컬리 나왔냐 or "You Left Broccoli For This?" which is a comment one of the Autumn Vacation members received after leaving the band "Broccoli, You Too?" and joining Autumn Vacation

#first song tl from korean!!! woooo #i've been studying korean for like a little over a year so i didn't think i'd be able to tl anything soon but : ) i was wrong #i LOVE autumn vacation and have wanted to do a song of theirs for well over 2 years now #hopefully i'll gain the confidence to tl more korean stuff later #this song in particular i always listened to at night so im posting at 3am #autumn vacation #feb 2025

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lysgaardsbakken · 3 months ago

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long personal rant incoming 🫠 ignore

#why will my parents never say a good word to me when it comes to school #like i got 48/50 from a mock final exam before even revising half of the material and my dad said “you say it was easy yet lost 2 points”#leave me alone #i was so excited when i checked my results and they didn't care?? just brushed it off cause i said it was easy #well yes it was cause i have been studying regularly for the last 4 years #and it's always like that they'll also never encourage me to do anything more like they'll try to talk me down #i wanna choose maths as my major and then data science and noooo i am not smart enough for that and i will not have a job and not have money #idk what's their point like i said i won't study law which they want me to like 1836292 times #and im just so tired of them and my family overall like soon it'll be christmas time and it'll only go worse #i don't want to go through the annual do you have a boyfriend and you look so slim round of compliments #yes i look slim you dumb ass i hate how i look guees how i've gotten there #and my relationships are so bad #irl i literally have one friend who's moving out to another city in summer so yay!#i could go on but what's the point even #ignore #personal

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stillfruit · 5 months ago

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i love not knowing if i'll ever be healthy again i love all of the time i've used to move my body become nothing i love spending my adulthood wasting away year after year for various reasons baby!

#i know i'm being dramatic and privileged etc etc right now but i hate living like this #i probably had covid in the beginning of august and since then my heart and lungs have just been fucked #so now i'm probably looking at at least 2 years of long covid and maybe permanent neurological damage #could i be lucky and get better in few more months? maybe. do i believe that will happen? no. optimistically maybe next summer id be better #my symptoms are not that bad considering what i know other people have suffered but at the same time that makes it feel not real #otherwise i'm pretty much fine except i feel like fainting alot after standing up or excerting myself and anything beyond walking #spikes my hr to 160 and right now even laying down my hr is around 80. this comes with the associated shortness of breath etc #what fucks me up about this is that my normal hr is low with my rhr being under 50bpm and i'm physically active #so basically i've went from regular running and half marathons being no issue to not being able to jog 1km at the slowest pace possible #without spiking my hr to zone 4 #so now with the recovery time of this being however long if properly ever i'll have to basically start all over again with everything #i biked to the grocery store yesterday and that took me out for the rest of the day because my heart rate just didn't go down afterwards #outwards i look fine and i wouldn't be as affected if sports and moving wasn't a part of my life and relationships but it is #i've read studies about recovery times and a lot of them don't feel applicable because the test groups are either very different from me #based on the baseline health info such as activity levels or they're elite atheletes which i am not #some have given me hope that keeping my hr under like 130 by doing activities like walking until maybe someday things get better works #but who knows and even if it does this will be yet another thing that takes the littlest bits of muscle tissue i have on me away once again #because besides deconditioning muscle loss is yet another symptom. so i will be even weaker than i am right now #i don't know how much of what i'm experiencing in terms of mental effects is from anxiety over my physical health and how much is brainfog #but we'll see i'll just have to start walking a lot every day and keep up with simple and slow strenght training so i'll want to die less #i don't think my family will ever properly understand because almost all of them are athletes and the one who isn't never does any excercis #so either i just look like i'm weak but i was always weak so it's not a big deal or my experience isn't really that important #this is so so so pathetic both my reaction and the issue but it's difficult to not feel this way especially with the uncertainty #shit talking

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rosie-lav-art · 1 year ago

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I didn't have an Anime Drawings phase as a kid, so I get to start at Middle School Level as a 27 year old 😭 at least I can only go up from here!

Please recommend a blorbo or two of yours for me to draw. I need to practice!!!!! I have so many years of practice to catch up on before I find a style I can do easily/consistently 😭

#rosie draws #doodles #Pls don't come for me I am trying my best #I know I'll get better with practice #I've already seen improvements in my anime girl 2000s style with Starlight Starbright #I'm gonna do some ranma 1/2 and inuyasha studies ses if I can't get that style down #If I drew this when I was 12 and watching death note.....i would have been over the moon with ot #I gotta remember that 12 year old Rosie would be so proud of anything I've drawn recently #12 year old Rosie figured wed never be an artist #And now I'm out here trying to learn and grow every day #I started a comic that's fucking crazy!!!! It's just a Lil one but it's something!!!

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kaurwreck · 6 months ago

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for the ask game: LILAC CHARCOAL AND RASPBERRY

anon this is so sweet 😭

[ask game provided below for reference; if you'd like to play, please reblog from OP here:]

#anon i love this but i have a covenant with God so i can't kill Him with you #this reminds me of the time my brother lamented his atheism and my agnosticism on behalf of our religious mother. but i'm not agnostic.#so i clarified i believe in God and that's never changed. i just choose not to worship Him + I think there are multiple truths (incl. gods)#which is shorthand but I've never been able to explain it to others to their satisfaction and it isn't anyone else's business anyway #he thought that was MUCH worse and became so dramatic. he was genuinely so thrown. he fixated on the fact it's heresy.#which I didn't expect because like yes it's heresy but heresy is a doctrinal concept -- it doesn't have any intrinsic meaning.#and not to be dismissive but doctrine is fairly sequestered from God. It's functionally and historically a voidable social contract.#i was involved with the church/attended various bible retreats for several years before leaving. but I didn't leave over God lmao.#my institutional involvement was always contingent on its alignment with my own individual purpose/practice/rituals/bible study/covenant.#which church/community leadership knew and tried to triage in various ways but like. it's not hard to reject authority baselessly derived.#so my present relationship with God isn't any more heretical than it was when I practiced Christianity as a religion.#If anything I was maybe more heretical in funnier and more flagrant ways when I was practicing than I am now.#but anyway. my point is.#i wont help you kill god but I'm always here for heresy.#alternatively i also recommend either (1) listening to god is dead (meet the kids) by british india #which when engaged with meaningfully amounts to the same philosophical state of being as killing God #or (2) forming a reverse orphic mystery cult relationship with Him the way I did when from ages 10-14 #in other words #we can either sacrifice God to the secular age like thomas jefferson and nietzsche #or we can obsessively study the bible @ the cost of enough sleep that we (in brief spurts) access the parts of us inclined towards prophecy #those are the only two approaches to god that I'm capable of partaking in with any sincerity or intellectual honesty #and I'm unfortunately very married to sincerity and intellectual honesty.#(i'm sorry for meeting your very nice compliments with a nonsequitur illustrating why i should live as a hermit in a remote woodland shack)#(but I suppose I'm not sorry enough to remove the nonsequitur from my response prior to publication. so. take from that what you will.)

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airenyah · 1 year ago

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now that i've turned thai drama into my bachelor thesis, the only question left is: how to turn thai drama into my master's thesis

#i have about 2 years to figure this out #it's gotta be something that i can do with whatever skill level i'm at with my thai once i get there #not just the skill level but also my cultural knowledge #i'm one semester into my master's and i've already decided on a supervisor for my thesis fkfjfjf #and he even said he'd let me do this SO!!#airenyah plappert #alternatively a different idea i had was to do a translation analysis of pjo #since i have 3 different translations of the og series at home (german italian and norwegian)#i think thai would be fun tho bc i don't think the thai language is something that gets researched a lot here #we don't even have thai studies as it's own subject to study #(there's korean studies and japanese studies and chinese studies)#(there's also one major called 'south asian tibetology and buddhist studies' but they have no thai unfortunately)#(i was still thinking of doing that as a 2nd subject tho bc i'd get to learn more about buddhism which i know nothing about)#(and also they do sanskrit which could also be suuuper interesting)#(also i have so many indian mutuals and i thought it might be fun to learn about indian culture)#(and then discuss it with the mutuals and learn even more djcjjcf)#(let's see if i can manage to schedule it hfhfhc)#(bc i've also been thinking of doing theater film and media studies as a 2nd major)#(i have too many things i'm interested in send help)

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raininyourblackeyes · 1 year ago

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Well this is shaping up to be the most depressing New Year's eve ever, and my grandma literally died last year just a few days before... my entire family is arguing in the living room, I can't even walk unnoticed to the kitchen to get snacks and chocolate. Like why did you have me go and buy that expensive champagne the other day, if you're just gonna yell at each other the entire evening. At least let me study in peace

#and why am i not at a party??#1. i've never been invited to a new years party in my life #2. all my friends from uni are also studying #3. non uni friends are at the parties but i'm not someone you'd want at a party tbh i understand why no one ever invites me

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arctic-hands · 2 years ago

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My last bout of sleep paralysis (which was when I was recently hospitalized for nine days and getting no sleep because literally almost every half hour someone was waking me up for vitals or a blood drawl or to give me medicine or to prod my stomach or the attending bringing in the interns because I'm a great case study or because my infusion pump wanted to make obnoxious noises for no reason) was so horrific that when I told my therapist about it yesterday she visibly paled and freaked out on my behalf. Is that a good sign?

#would have loved if i had been hooked up to the heart monitor at the time to see how fast my heartrate shot up while it happened #and it would have been mildly amusing to see the nurses freak out over it #coincidentally and predictably my nurse did in fact come in a few minutes later to give me my meds #at like 2 a.m. because that's just how schedules roll i guess #and she say ME all pale and bug eyed as i desperately tried to distract myself on my phone because i didn't want to fall asleep again #and when she asked me what was wrong and i told her she clucked her tongue and said honey i wouldn't want to sleep after that either #I've had four boughts of it over the last six years or so which doesn't sound like an lot but one time is enough for me #so I'm gonna ask my PCP this week for a sleep study #sleep paralysis #sleep disorder #nightmare #the art i made about the sleep paralysis disturbed my therapist but i thought it was rather mild in comparison to the actual hallucination #art therapy #sleep deprivation

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