#i've been sitting on this for. a week? idk
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10 questions for 10 writers
the beloved @arokel tagged me aaages ago and i'm finally doing it yayyy!
1. Is writing a hobby or a way of life?
a hobby i think. i do write a lot and it's a big part of my life but i wouldn't define myself as a writer you know? i'm just someone who writes :)
2. A journal full of notes or a clean completed manuscript?
journal full of notes!! i usually get tiny snippets of Disjointed Scenes stuck in my head and i recently realised that if i wrote them out i could. come back to them later if i wanted instead of forgetting them like a cool person. so i'm doing that in my notes app for now. but theoretically i'm all for a clean manuscript i'm literally incapable of writing a fic out of order aside from my little notes
3. Who or what inspired your writing?
honestly this question is stumping me a little. i don't know? i've been writing and telling stories from a very young age and i never had Big Inspirations. i do have people who influence my style (see the three authors i mention in question 8....holy shit to be able to write like that) but inspiration? idk i don't think i'm even getting what kind of inspiration this is asking about.
4. Which is worse: Someone you ‘idolize’ reading your first draft or listening to you sing?
Definitely singing. i don't mind people i look up to reading my stuff! even if it could be improved!! but singing for an audience is horrible :)
5. Has writing from someone else’s POV changed your perspective?
i'm a very emotional person and experience everything all the time except for when i shut off and stop feeling at all for a bit. the latter is a rare occurrence and i'm generally all about emotions so writing my favourite oc who operates on a Very low emotional spectrum was (is) a really interesting experience. i have to put a lot of thought into how bella sees the world but i Love the way his brain works so he's always worth the effort and i'm thankful to him for showing me something new
6. Tumblr, AO3, LiveJournal, or FFN?
no wattpad....how quickly forget our dark history. anyway yeah it's ao3!!! i Love the way ao3 works i did Not learn to navigate FFN well enough (not for lack of trying btw) to ever really use it
7. AO3 word count? And are you satisfied with it?
137,805. i'm a notorious fic deleter so it's not representative of the amount i've written over the years but. yeah! i'm happy with that. i obviously want to write more but word count is one of the stats i care least about
8. What movie/book gripped you irrevocably?
for books it's either the hungarian selection aka Verhovina madarai by Bodor Ádám and Termőtestek by Sepsi László - two novels i think about literally all the time - or Tell Them of Battles, Kings, and Elephants by Mathias Énard which i keep recommending to LITERALLY everyone because it's so beautiful. btw read tell them of battles kings and elephants by mathias énard it's so beautiful. for movies i guess dead poets society? aesthetically & also its message is so beautiful and i love a robin williams film
9. What’s the highest compliment you could ever be given, and have you been given it?
i don't know!!! any compliment makes me happy. but i love hearing that people came back to reread multiple times. like omg!! welcome back i'm so glad my sillies are in your brain
10. What defines your writing style?
i like to think my descriptions are pretty definitive, i loooooove stacking adjectives and adverbs and stuff with hyphens and commas and ands and other verbal connective tissue i love describing things in very specific ways and i think my writing also has a unique rhythm because of how hungarian works and how that translates to english. but that's just inside my brain idk!! my writing might be the most generic shit to everyone else :]
#not tagging bc i'm tired#i've been sitting on this for. a week? idk#but thank you!!!! it was fun i loved sitting with these questions <3#tag game
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#vampire hunter d#vhd#art#D the horseman of death (〃‿〃♡)#Hello Hello I hope you're all doing well 🥹🥹#Sorry that I only draw D haha I can't help it (❀ •̀ᴗ•́ )♡#I started Tyrant Stars recently and I finished gold fiend about a week ago?#Honestly I miss the stories where D would stay in one town in the entire story and be a little detective#since pale fallen angel it's been a lot of traveling ....🥲#and it will never not be funny to me that D has pockets full of dirt 😭 D take a shower man.... or wash your clothes please💀#2 versions because as much as I like white hair D he looks like alucard here because of the gold accents ( •_•)#I've never actually watched or played any of his games idk it does interest me? but not enough to sit down and watch it yet#I wanted to experiment with a black out style ( I tried incorporating red but I got too annoyed.#I intend to render it at some point!#so it might end up looking completely different#well...If I get myself to complete this and I like how it looks in the end I think I might make a little bookmark out of it for myself (〃‿〃#I think it would be neat...#....you see me drawing poppies a lot forgive me 💀They're just my favorite flowers���� The symbolism works out for this drawing....
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#''it strikes me that i know that girl'' <- lines that sit in your head forever and ever. narrative parallels of all time#thoughts#my art#les mis#javert#eponine#victor hugo said we've had nice parallels between a middle aged man and a young girl. now it's time for fucked up parallels#i had a whole collection of these w the two of them about parallels/cycles/javert perpetuating the same system that hurt him. but#they're barely sketches so i'll just post this on its own#there's a version of this with ghostly dogs things curled around them which was fun to do but felt a little too silly/reductive/unclear#so i took it out. altho i had a fun bit abt how their different collars represented their character#also not completely sure how i picture eponine but trying things out. i was really thinking abt how in her first appearance hugo emphasizes#that she is still a child even though she doesn't see herself that way & she's been forced to grow up quickly & was sort of trying to#reflect that. the odd area in mid teenage idk#still not Entirely happy with how i've structured/positioned it but it's been sitting on my computer for weeks so i may as well post it
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So, it’s almost a relief when one part of his carefully thought out plan goes a bit sideways. “What do you mean she's not coming?” Dick asks, genuinely confused, and glances at the clock, tightening up the bag of trash in his hands.
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dp x dc fanfic#litu au#im updating early!!! because i can!!! idk if i cna keep it up tho... next chpt is done just needs to not be looked at for a week...#after that...???? uhhhh i sure am gonna try i just wanan move along faster /huffs#impatient to update my own fic at this point I WANT TO BLAB#batpoopwrite#i have so much art i've been sitting on for MONTHS and i cant share it until we clear chpt 11#AAAAAARRGGHHHH#batpoopart
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hi hi hi :3c i'm aaaaaaalmost caught up on my dash after a couple of weeks of spotty appearances and a couple of weeks of being Straight Up Offline, and then i'll catch up on peoples' art and fics!! i miss being on here!! hi hi hi hi hi!!!!! 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻
(also i have been Pondering over a ren sentient a.i desktop buddy AU while i've been gone bc. i'm a sucker for that shit. dunno if it'll go anywhere but for now i'm playing touys and it's fun hehehe if you see a new tag at some point then that means i'm keeping him sjndfkn)
#tldr things are happening irl that are Theoretically Positive but carry a decade of baggage + are very stressful bc i'm being rushed#and health insurance bullshit has been stressing me out further. so any free time not related to the stuff above#has gone into like. crocheting a blanket. logging off. spending time off of social media. yeah!!!#i'm gonna be so so happy for everything to be done so i can sit down and Draw Things again!!! aaaaaaa!!!#need to finish my new ren ref sheet! need to draw smth for oushirou's upcoming bday!!#i missed r!ren's anniversary so i want to maybe doodle a little something for him!!!#and i want to draw little like. shimeji / ukagaka ren. is he malware gone rogue? did he just spontaneously gain sentience?? man idk lol#but in... middle school i think? i saw miyavi's 'girls be ambitious' MV and made a sentient a.i. oc based on his chara in that video#and ever since then. every time i selfship w someone. At Some Point i think about a desktop buddy au. :') it altered my brain sjkdn#ogey! i'm gonna try to finish catching up now!! i might not have the energy to say as much as i normally do on ppls art and fics#esp because there's SO much of it in my drafts ;;;;;;;;; but!!! i want to share everything i can!!! bc what i've seen is Sick As Hell!!!!#but yeah i'm hopefully gonna finish the last remaining Big Things next week 🙏🏻🙏🏻 and will maybe be on here more. (pls pls pls)#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]
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womp womp womp
for @gloomiegalaxie 's femboy friday!
poses made by @nsves @acha-sims and @helgatisha (at least i'm fairly certain the ones i used were made by these three. if not/i missed any please let me know!)
#ts4#the sims 4#gloomie's femboy friday#i've been cat sitting for a friend so i haven't had any time to build a set this week. but it works out because i've been with boa#so now i've got an excuse to do a photoset that's very vaguely inspired by it lol#anyway here's Bunny Boa. idk if i'll use him in anything else yet.#*been listening to boa on repeat#but seriously saruin's cand-e set is so fun to use i love it <3#could've sworn we had light up floors?? but i think i might be confusing it with the sims 2 night life stuff RIP
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👍keep slaying vibe man
I just think you're neat
idk why but this ask has been sitting in my inbox for a bit bc i like to look at it since for some inexplicable reason it makes me laugh, i love it, thanks bruh, i've been running on low energy all week so this was always a nice pick-me-up LMAO
#turtle files: ask#me sitting there like 'hehe ppl think im neat'#i've been thinking of doing an omo ask round soon#idk i've been feeling so low all week i crave some interaction#but i gotta plan for it or else i get overwhelmed way too easily ajkskjbjkd
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#very random (not snz) haha but#does anyone else feel like their social battery fluctuates like. 0 to 100 with no middle ground or is this perhaps something wrong with me#i will go for weeks without having the social energy to talk to people i love and treasure 😭#maybe it's a lack of dopamine in general idk... would not be thrilled to add another mental illness to the list#but then i'll have a night where i am super talkative and happily reply to half the people i've been talking to#or times when i send off all my responses and sit at my laptop like when are my friends going to reply 🙂 i can't wait to talk to them 🙂#i apologize if you have personally been on the receiving end of my extreme inconsistency 😭#i have been thinking about it recently and i think that's in part the reason why i also gravitate towards long form conversations;#it feels mentally easier for me to deliver a meaningful response once in a blue moon than like sustain that level of#conversational depth on a more consistent basis? because i am inconsistent#but sometimes in the long wait between responses (which i have arguably played a large role in establishing) i feel unexpectedly social and#then feel strangely lonely 😭 (🤡)... truly i feel like i am lowkey a badly adjusted adult#this is not a catastrophizing post (though i did catastrophize slightly more over it in past weeks); just passive musings atp#i go through similar flows with artistic motivation but the highs and lows are not synced with my social energy at all#i think i am someone who likes to analyze my habits just as a whole because i really enjoy optimizing for things 😭 so this tendency in#particular really perplexes me#delete later perhaps because i know this is truly a yap post. (i apologize)#i met with a friend earlier irl and this might be the remnants of the social energy from seeing her or it might be a function of#the drink i had (strawberry matcha 🥰) if you have read this far i apologize personally
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[Image Description: A digital sketch of Porphy from Outer Wilds. They are leaning on an implied surface, resting their head on their right hand while the other hangs down. They are looking to the right, winking with their left set of eyes. They are framed by an orange rectangle in the background. End Image Description.]
porby ::)
#porpy ::)#this is a remake of a sketch from march 17 2022#I liked the original but I'm really glad I redid it! I like this one so much better and enjoy seeing how I've improved ::3#this has been sitting in my drafts for 3 weeks now aaaGH I don't understand why I'm so nervous about it.#but yeah it's porphy idk what else to say#compositional rectangle.#outer wilds#porphy#btw of COURSE they're winking at gossan do you even have to ask?#much intellectual debate about how many eyes hearthians wink with
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tomorrow is my first day back to work and I'm a lil nervous
I haven't been able to get anything written for here bc I've been trying to get a couple other things written (updating my Bill Cipher redemption fic and starting a Gyutaro x reader x Daki because I make poor life choices)
but I'm on light duty for a month, basically just sitting at the register checking people out, unable to do any stocking or anything bc I'm not allowed to lift anything over 15 pounds so I can't lift totes, bend much, or reach much, so I'm allowed to bring something to do in between customers... maybe I'll get some writing done? I feel as if I'll be slacking off bc that's how my brain works
but you know what, I kill myself for that store normally, I don't work full time simply because I can't afford medical insurance if I did, but even working only part time I give my all while I'm there, I'm not someone who slacks off. so if I'm healthfully and approvedly permitted to slack off and take it easy for a month, I guess I'll take it (... plus, I mean, I'll still be working, just light duty, it's not like I'll show up and get paid to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, I'm still gonna be ringing out customers)
ANYWAY MY POINT IS-
get those last requests in! after I get home from work tomorrow, I'll be closing the askbox and won't open it back up till this batch is finished and I swear I mean that this time 😂
#mod post#should I have ordered Jessii Vee merch knowing I am not getting paid for two weeks bc I didn't work for two weeks ? maybe not#BUT DAMMIT THIS IS WHY I HAVE SAVINGS#'weirdness all the way ' button and YANA 'be kind' button and squishy pink gummi bear COME TO ME#... been uh. been doing a lot of impulse online shopping while I've been sitting at home bc idk it scratches a certain itch in my brain#and my mama has been nice enough to be buying most of my food when I usually buy my own just bc it's hard for me to walk around much rn#but I'm feeling a lot better physically I just get tired easily so hopefully I'm gonna be back to buying my own food soon#like I appreciate everything my mom and lil bro have been doing for me but MAN I don't like being UNABLE to do shit myself you know?#I took a shower this morning and it exhausted me and Mom had to be in there to help me the whole time in case I lost my balance or smth#it's better than it was the first week but I still hate feeling like I've temporarily lost some of my independence#I can't wait to shower by myself again and for it not to drain me#which is such a small thing to want and miss but like#OKAY TAG RANT OVER THIS RECOVERY IS JUST DRAGGING#I'm getting old tbh that's what it is I'm 30 and don't bounce back like I used to 😂😂😂😂
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i don't know if this could be considered a reactionary or anti-intellectual sentiment or something, but does anyone ever have the experience of wanting to consume older media (and by older i mean like pre-2010s) specifically bc you don't really want to deal with endless discourse around it? and when i say this, i don't necessarily just mean negative or critical discourse, but also like obsessive fan discourse that discusses every single little detail from every possible angle and has even created micro-discourse about those specific analyses.
like, for example, i'm thinking of challengers, which is a movie i really enjoyed and which i do mostly enjoy engaging in discussion and analysis about, and which for the most part seems to have been received positively, but there's something i find so exhausting about engaging with it sometimes (and by extension a lot of contemporary media) because it feels like you are required to have a Take on it. i'm also thinking about all those articles from like vulture or variety or whatever that are titled things like "we need to talk about THAT scene" and all the stan accounts and it's just like............idk i wish we could just let the art BREATHE sometimes, you know? not everything NEEDS to be discussed to death....
and like...this isn't to say that there was never tons of discourse around older media (DEFINITELY not lol) but, i guess, because there was no social media back then and no algorithm to track your movements online and to put its finger on the scale occasionally and no endless content slop machine and people's attention spans weren't totally zonked, it feels like it was less............omnipresent? idk i guess the point i'm trying to make is i wish we as a culture could just let works of art just like.......exist and breathe for just a little while before we launch into our Hot Takes
#i do think this is tangentially related to the phenomenon of binge watching vs releasing episodes a week at a time#tbh i think the reason why releasing episodes a week at a time tends to produce less annoying discourse#(at least imo) is that it kind of forces you to just sit with each episode for a while and digest it#and also everyone has the same amount of information about the story (meaning not all of it)#so it forces you to be a little more conservative (not in the political sense) with your takes#idk this is just something i've been thinking about......#social media#fandom#text
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Friendly reminder that your body needs time to do absolutely nothing to regenerate outside of just sleeping. You need rest!!!! It is so important!!!!!
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Starting to become. Honestly a bit miffed at UPS.
#i never should have looked at the tracking#if it just ends up being a day or two late thats fine its the holidays whatever#but knowing its been at the same facility like 10 miles from the destination for a week now is mildly irritating#it could have very easily been quite early but fine i paid for it to arrive at a certain time and thats fine#but its an hour and fifteen minutes from the end of the estimated window and its STILL not even out for delivery#and for it to be *late* after sitting ten miles away for a week is just#I'm allowed to be annoyed at that right????#like#the person its for won't even be home until tomorrow but thats so hugely not the point#nevermind its been near two weeks total since i handed the parcel off#i could have damn near delivered it on foot by now#these things happen and its the holidays and its FINE but like#i paid double the price to avoid having to drive 30 minutes to the post office#i've been REALLY hoping it gets there at least by tomorrow evening which shouldn't have been a hard ask#and im just#im upset idk#it's dumb but its really bothering me
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made the mistake of thinking a bit too long about political situation at home and now i'm crying again lol
#i cant i really cant anymore i've been crying almost every day for weeks now and i'm tired of mourning my country's future while sitting in#another country doing fuckall trying to get some stupid degree in things that are not important or real!!!!!!!!!!#i hate myself for being here i should not be here#i think i've been alternating between desperate optimism and denial since tuesday but today it really hit how bad it is#and it's exhausting to have to constantly remind people of it and explain why we're all so worried#idk man. i truly and genuinely don't want to be alive (like in general too but also wrt this specifically)
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A Taste of Dark Matter
#cyberpunk 2077#cyberpunk 2077 fanart#cp2077 fanart#cp2077#kerry eurodyne#kerry eurodyne x v#male v cyberpunk#v cyberpunk#cyberpunk fanart#otp: to bad decisions#art by me#vincent ezaki#I've been sitting on this for two or three weeks now too scared to post it for some reason idk#probably bc the wip I shared of kerry's tattoo got so many notes and kind words#which I greatly appreciate I really do <3#cause this was the first time I properly drew him#and I didn't want to get bummed out on the full pic not being as appreciated for some reason xD#I know it's dumb#I really enjoyed making this and that's what should matter#cause I love these two idiots so much#aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh#so I'll shush now and go back to drawing them more over and over and never stop
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words cannot even begin to express how much i adore this man
#caddicarus#he is such an angel oh my god#i hope someone recorded the whole show#i've seen the clip of the proposal that happened!!#and i saw the little clip of jim reading out that crazy hate mail from october LMAO#seems like lots of amazing things happened at this show.#unfortunately i don't live on the east coast where cool shit like this happens!#bro looked SMOKING in that suit holy shit#and it seems like he's picked up the habit of flashing a peace sign in every photo just like me lol#anyWAY i know i said a week ago i was writing a BPJ about TCWOC and it obviously hasnt come out yet...#i keep meaning to sit down and write it but man this school semester has been mentally DRAINING#idk y'all might have to wait a few weeks 😭#but i will say i adored that blu ray
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