#i've been living for this thread

[ofluminance-a]

it's so .. strange how hanma has such a hold over him. such a simple action, and takemichi is putty in his capable and feared hands. swallowing thickly, takemichi has to remember to blink under hanma's sly gaze for fear he may got lost within it. it's the pass of a thumb along his jawline that pulls him back to here and now. blue eyes searching hanma's gaze, trying to understand whatever this was.

adorable? no, he wasn't that either, was he? " i, uh -- heh, " he didn't know what to say. pet names, or even just such sweet words were kinda foreign to him. still, hearing them from hanma, electrifies something within him. did he.. like them? perhaps the red pigment that was nearly tattooed to his skin at this point would do the talking for him.

though as sweet as it is to see hanma in a different light for once, it's soon pushed to the wayside as a deeper topic brings out takemichi's true feelings. kisaki.

& clearly, that was where the line was drawn between them.

" .. fun?! " scoffing, the blonde shakes his head. " going to a carvinal is fun or hanging out and going for a ride, not whatever the hell kisaki does in his spare time! " but then again, everyone had their own view of what fun could be. maybe it was that kisaki wasn't boring, that he kept hanma busy or something? whatever the case, if hanma wanted a change of pace, then takemichi was going to try and help him get that.

the surprise that colors hanma's features, is mirrored in takemichi's own. how.. was someone saying that he deserved better, so.. shocking? maybe.. it was just unexpected? but, when hanma takes a few steps back, leaving the close space they'd just shared, that makes takemichi reaffirm his words. hanma shouldn't have to feel as though he's overlooked or underappreciated. just because the two of them weren't all that close, that didn't mean that hanma didn't share a bond with takemichi. they weren't friends per se, but.. they weren't enemies either. hanma deserved a chance to just be.. out of kisaki's shadow. do what he wanted too, for a change. if, that's what he wants.

" and .. you're okay with that?! you're more than just a pawn! how can you follow someone who's just willing to toss you aside the second shit hits the fan?! that's not what friendships are based off of! hell, that's not even respect! " wrong in hanma's eyes or not, takemichi is pissed off even more now. sure, he had an idea of how shitty a guy kisaki was but -- to hear, this? " mikey would never do that to someone. " the words leave him, before takemichi can stop them, followed shortly by what can only be described as a growl of annoyance.

trying to calm his temper, takemichi bites his tongue on anything more; hanma's decisions were his own to make. takemichi just wanted him to understand that he had them, " you wanna live life to the fullest, and have fun while doing it, right? well, then forget about kisaki for a day, and have the day you want too. stay by him, if that's what you want. but-- you don't have too. you're in toman, you're one of us, you don't have to just stick with him. "

hanma's last comment brings a rare smirk to takemichi's lips, " it's about the only good thing i've done, " a comment meant mostly for himself. " but, good. "

It’s adorable how much Takemichi turns red just by him closing the distance. He doesn’t even seem to have to do anything in particular, he just crowds into his space in a way that is so typical of Hanma. Without regard or care to be invasive, his breath close enough to send stray blonde hairs fluttering.

“ That’s what I said ~  “  Hanma purrs, letting his thumb brush over Takemichi’s jawline in a slow, steady gesture with a sly smile. It might have been soothing if it was someone else. It wasn’t a threatening gesture though, it’s a ghost of a touch against skin, barely enough to be registered. But it is it there all the same.  “  You got another word you’d like? Adorable?  “ Now he’s stammering. So funny.

What would Kisaki think? He’d probably scowl and kick Hanma’s knees, although it wouldn’t actually hurt. Even if Kisaki tried his hardest, Hanma wouldn’t budge because it wouldn't even hurt then. Besides, it would be funny to see him so worked up over the situation, the scowl and snappy comments.

Hanma frowns slightly when he sees Takemichi look down, and there's something about it that shows that this moment has changed in tone and mood. It was a look that was going on in those stormy eyes of Takemichi's. Eyes that refused to shatter even when Kisaki tried again and again to crush him. But he was like an ant or a cockroach haunting Kisaki’s life ; Takemichi refused to break. Hanma liked that. For a multitude of reasons, some better than others. It doesn’t matter though, even if he does pout at the fact Takemichi’s no longer squirming for him.

At least there’s red coming back. He likes that.

“ Hmm? “  Hanma blinks in curiosity at the question, glowing orange briefly alight with surprise then settling back to his usual expression. It isn't a question he's particularly surprised by if truth be told. Yet it’s still like a secret being shared between them. Only, Hanma doesn’t care for it to be a secret. But that look! That sends a spark of delight right up his spine, pulling up a grinning.  “  Yeah, he is.  “  Hanma agrees cheerfully.  “  But he’s a hell of a lot of fun.  “ Kisaki kept the suffocating dullness of life at bay.  

You should be careful.

Hanma can’t hide the shock that darts across his face at the remark. Nobody cares about Hanma. Nobody says he should be safe. That he should do this or he shouldn’t do that. Because he’s Hanma Shuji, because he’s the reaper, because he’s an asshole, because he’s this or that. He abruptly pulls back and straightens back up to his full height, staring down at Takemichi.

“  You’re wrong.  “  Hanma comments flatly, and then gives a small, hollow laugh. But what follows isn't denial. In fact, it's affirmation.  “  I’m just a pawn to Kisaki. Though his favorite even if he doesn't say so ~ I know what'll happen. He’ll toss me aside the moment he no longer has use for me.  “  Hanma knew exactly what was going on. What was going to happen if it ever came to that point. There was no no idea what he'd do about it.  “  Might as well have fun while I can till that day comes though! Live it to the fullest.  “ He grins at Takemichi like what he said was a normal thing; like it was normal to not give two shits about what was going to happen to oneself. " If it's any reassurance, you piss him off just as much. "

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

hello everyone PLEASE think about the concept art for fabby's workshop with me please

[elkkiel]

i'm really happy!! i scrolled back on some of my kitty token and like. i'm officially at the point where I'm cringing at my art from a few months ago again!! that might sound sarcastic but i'm 100% serious. stagnating or even losing skill from being burnt out and depressed feels fucking awful. and like without art I genuinely have no fucking clue how to keep on going. but i think i'm getting healthier to the point where i'm finally improving again with little baby steps. so slowly getting those skills back feels unbelievably good

i'm just :') haven't felt hope like this in years, like since i finally found the right mix of meds and didn't want to kill myself every single day lol. life is feeling fucking worth it again baby. nothing to say fuck it to, we are just straight up balling B)

[pastafossa]

Hey Pasta! i was so glad to read that things have been starting to look up for you recently & i hope it only gets better ♡

have you heard about the fic binding legal scandals happening bc of etsy sellers binding & selling hard copies of fics? i saw some authors are reccomending putting disclaimers on their fics to hopefully avoid legal action being taken against them & was wondering if you were planning to do something like that? id hate to see your works being taken down/deleted bc of peoples ignorance

art like yours deserves a place in the world

Thank you so much anon! Things are definitely looking up a little, and I've got my fingers crossed that my mood will continue to follow it. 😅 Honestly if I could just have a six month period or so where things were chill I'd be SUPER relieved.

And I have seen it yeah, and I've been watching it fairly closely since this has the potential to alter the fanfic legal landscape that we writers post in regardless of whether or not one of our own fics were being sold. I'm well aware TRT isn't as big as some of the fics at the center of the current legal/ethical scuffle over it, but TRT is popular enough in the fandom that I've kept an eye out on etsy for bound copies just in case. I'm still supportive of people binding TRT for personal, non-commercial use only where no money changes hands, I have no issue with that. That being said, I am considering slapping a general, 'please don't do this commercially' on the fic. I honestly have no idea whether it would actually protect the fic or not, and whether or not that would protect me from legal blowback (my life for a lawyer matt boyfriend to explain this shit). But it wouldn't hurt to remind people that this sort of thing is how you get fics taken down. 99.999% of fic authors do not have the funds to fight someone like the Mouse even if they'd eventually win. So, as much as I joke about wanting Feige to notice TRT and hire me to write Jane into Daredevil, if allllll of us want TRT finished, we need to all play by the rules, especially as Born Again will likely give the fandom (and potentially TRT) a boost in popularity.

[immobiliter]

i'm 100% that person who has a mental list of hcs regarding how all of my muses would or do get along with each other ( especially muses within the same fandom or who have crossovers ) and will always be up for throwing more than one into a thread if the situation demands it or just plotting big interconnected things that don't just involve a back and forth between two characters

[bumpscosity]

i'm gonna be honest i'm doing pretty bad rn. i'll live but somethings gonna snap sooner or later

[deanpinterester]

hi what

[naydralikessoup]

indie game....... save me indie game.........

[queer-reader-07]

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[the-art-cave]

[scrawnytreedemon]

Is it so bad that I don't really like ships of characters I simp and I only like the reader insert fics with them?

Yeah I can't deny I'm jealous of the canon x canon ships with my faves, knowing that they possibly can be together while I can't. I know it's dumb,so that's why I never hate on someone who likes those ships I just ignore it

Like Sefikura for example, I don't like it cuz I'm a massive hoe for Sephiroth,also bcuz sometimes they make the ship pretty icky,also bcuz Cloud is baby and I'm still angy at Sephy for mentally torturing my Babyboy like that

IT'S CHAOS WITH MY FICTIONAL FAVES!!!!!!

Nothing wrong with that, personally! I get wanting to indulge in the warmth of a good fantasy-- That is what alot of fiction is for, after all.

Bless you, anon. Alas, as someone also plagued with my own Dumb and Horrid Fictional Feelings, the brain can be such a little bitch when it comes to that stuff. Good on you for recognising how and why you feel that way, ignoring the stuff you don't like and focusing on what you do.

LMAO I get that completely. I should mention, though, that I am one of those people who indulges in the nastier side of the ship, lmaooo. Even so, I get why it wouldn't click with you.

(FR when is it not?)

[moved--naitfall]

@worldhell asked:

‘regress’ for whoever you feeling on my side ! eye emote

Send ‘regress’ to meet my muse as a child.

from my archived blog. maybe farlan paid a visit in levi's head? maybe it's time travel? levi hallucinating/dreaming about what's about to come? still, I needed to throw my child @ ya

Hollow and weary, ice blue eyes, unfocused due to absolute exhaustion, contradicting their usual sharpness, met with the kind gaze of someone he was supposed to know, someone he was going to meet, and trust with his humanity (the remnants of it, when the world desperately tried to take it away from him, so the man could be shaped to a tool). Unbeknownst to the child not only there were many years left for him to live, too much to lose, but also someone worth living for, patiently waiting for their lives to align.

Levi's figure was small for his age. He was young, not older than ten, but one could easily mistake him for a six-year-old. Much easier to prey on. Soft dark hair was on shoulder-length. His mother, skilled with scissors couldn't cut it for him for a long time, and Levi didn't care enough to do this on his own. He'd wear a white dress that didn't belong to him — to keep her scent close to his body, her warmth, for as long as he could, now that her hands had grown cold, and he wouldn't find comfort in her embrace ever again.

He could barely stand on his feet. He hadn't eaten for days, and slowly but steadily he was losing his ability to think. He preferred it that way, if his heart wouldn't hurt this much. It'd be an easy death. He hadn't anything else to do with his life after all, now that his only source of light was gone. Had she suffered in her last moments? Was she in pain? For long his mother had suffered, for months slowly fading bit by bit, but had she found a tiny bit of peace before leaving? Soon he'd know. It was decided after all. The weak wouldn't survive for long.

He hadn't the strength to speak, and he rarely did. There was nothing worth saying, and people never listened. But the man stood there, watching him with eyes that held a familiar warmth. What could he possibly want from him? ❝ Who are you? ❞

[ohxnxnani]

@pudgefeeder sent 🎁

Wrapping paper tubes bonked and bounced as Nani swore, tripping up the last stair to the apartment she shared with Stitch and Lilo. She banged her knee, dropping the rest of her burden on the landing outside their door.

Wincing, swearing again under her breath, she rubbed her knee and tried to collect the fallen items. A package of tape escaped her grasp and clattered down the staircase. Groaning, Nani stood, leaned across and opened the door, calling,

"Lilo, can you help me get this stuff inside?" before turning to trot down the stairs after the tape.

[pastafossa]

We going to Queens!! Home of a certain Web-Head, perhaps the most culturally diverse place in the world, and the best borough! (I'm from Queens btw lol)

YESSSSSSS I'm excited about Queens! The research I've been doing about your borough for the fic makes me grumbly that I didn't do more visiting when I lived close (lol 'close' - 2 hours away in good traffic, but STILL) enough that I could visit. Like holy shit, just the food variety alone in, like you said, the most culturally diverse place in the world all packed into one borough. I desperately want to go and eat everything, shop, explore, see some festivals. Your parks are gorgeous too and you have the GIANT GLOBE THING I ALWAYS SAW ON TV so at least fic-wise I have lots of indoor-outdoor options whereas that's a little limited in Hell's Kitchen LOL.

Peter loving and wanting to just help and take care of his neighborhood makes a ton of sense. This is a good place; I'll have to find more reasons for Jane to wander over.

[ofviolentdeath]

Ryland technically lives out of his truck. Sure, he could stay in hotels, but that would make it easier for his family to track him and, honestly, Ryland does his best to avoid them when he can. As far as he's concerned, his truck is home.

[wewontbesleeping]

lmfao i saw a post on threads that was like "i've seen a lot of people suggesting that white men need to speak up more and be better allies and so many people are saying we need more white men to make podcasts, so i'm really thinking about starting one" and. sir. the last thing the universe needs right now is another man with a podcast. i promise.