#i've been kind of slow this year

[honourablejester]

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Favourite colour: I change my mind on this all the time, but red and green are both recurring favourites. I tend to like darker, saturated tones for both, and also veering towards yellow more than white when going lighter. Think garnet over ruby, peridot over emerald?

Last song: Me and the Devil by Soap&Skin. I’ve exploring songs with a kind of dark folklore vibe on youtube? See also It Goes Dark by Elk Eyes (found that one via the show Midnight Texas), Saint with a Fever by Patrick Park (found via a Miracles fanvid waay back when). For a classic with this sort of vibe, Sinnerman by Nina Simone.

Last movie: God, when was the last time I sat and watched a movie? It’s actually been a while. Nothing new either, I think I was mostly watching classic B-movies, also on youtube, like 1946’s Shock with Vincent Price (despite the name and star, it’s not a horror movie, it’s a noir thriller about a woman who witnesses a murder and winds up under treatment for shock by the murderer himself, who realises what she would have seen to put her in this state. So, um. Be careful if you have medical triggers? But it’s fun seeing Vincent Price in one of his, shall we say, more subtle roles).

Currently watching: I’ve been quite enjoying Legends of Avantris’ Icebound D&D campaign. There is one particular arc that I keep wanting to scream at people about, because it is such a fantastic use of a couple of creature types and abilities in conjunction to make an absolutely horrifying and icily logical plot. A+ DMing, excellent excellent excellent use of creatures.

Other stuff I watched this year: I’ve been extremely low effort and low maintenance this year, in that I’ve mostly been following Minecraft SMPs and TTRPG playthroughs and calling it good? I haven’t watched an actual TV show in ages. I’ve also found Cinema Cities youtube channel and have been using her videos as recs to look up classic noir and horror films, which has actually been quite a lot of fun (she’s how I found Shock above).

Shows I dropped this year: All of them, apparently? Well, no, it’s mostly that I haven’t picked up any new shows this year. For a couple of years, I think. It’s been a while.

Last book: I semi-recently went on a buying spree through the local second hand bookshop, and I’ve been working my way through my haul. There were a couple of the Lost Fleet series by Jack Campbell in there, which is quite fun if you like military sci-fi. I also got a few horror short story anthologies, including the first of the Black Wings of Cthulhu collections, and a couple of nice collections of ghost stories.

Currently reading: Are we counting solo play D&D adventures? Because I’m currently on Drums at Daggerford with my cleric/ranger, and I am continuously checking to see if the next book in the Eight Petals Argent series has come out yet.

Tagging @oneiriad, @minathevampireslayer, @liuet, @centaine7, @travellingwiththedead, and anyone else who would like to play.

[bacchuschucklefuck]

sometimes I think abt how the months coming up to and the prom night in freshman year must feel to class swap sklonda. your perfect kid who has literally never gotten a single reprimand for anything does what can only be described as a quad crit crime combo and becomes a nerd punisher by the end of the night

[basketobread]

You’re genuinely so funny. You should seriously make some kind of comic

omg this is such a late response but i hope you know that i made this EXACT face when reading this. thank you SO much!!! i really would love to make a comic soon featuring my oc's or something... maybe i'll get around to planning one eventually. but comics aside, your words mean SOOO much. THANK YOU AGAIN!!!! 😭😭😭❤❤❤❤

[lunarharp]

pretty & cute witch men

[extra-love]

Happy New Year, @spear-gsun , I was your @touhousecretsanta for this year- I have one fresh miss Mizuchi for you!

Apologies for how late it is! (Thank you for waiting warmly ^^;) I hope the new year treats you well!

[disdaidal]

I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

[minimoll7]

I really want to draw and post art again but yet its been so incredibly hard to really to do anything? I'm at a point where I really just don't know why. I tend to sketch stuff and maybe sometimes I'll start working on the line art but then I just stop and never go back

I don't know what my problem is or what is really stopping me. I get really happy when I sketch and things are coming out really well!! But then that's kind of it? Its not like I feel super depressed about it or anything, so what's holding me back? A big ol mystery

[sarah-yyy]

okay!!! pay review came in at just a little under the 20% increase i was hoping for!!! but considering circumstances, still grateful!!!

[imwritesometimes]

I think a lot about how if I'd have been born like 200 years ago I would have been sent to the sea side and dosed with cocaine every day for my Mental Maladies but instead I'm walking around in 2024 and ppl are trying to make me feel like shit for not opting into hustle culture or convince me AI & crypto currency are the future...

[watery-melon-baller]

its so fun :)) and awesome :)) that i cannot fucking make my brain focus on my homework :))) holy shit im gonna kill someone :)) why can't my brain just work for five fucking minutes :)) this is easy homework too I just can't concentrate on it at all :)) and it's due tomorrow morning :)))

[britneyshakespeare]

i think reading the first three shakespeare henriad plays back-to-back-to-back has broken my brain for the last three months

[veliseraptor]

Liseeeeeeee how can you be so productive like wow

first and foremost by being extremely fucking neurotic about it.

as a person I am trying to deprogram myself from the defining impulse that tells me that in order to prove my existence worthwhile I must be constantly contributing something of tangible worth, or else doing something, actively, that I can in some way convince myself is an Accomplishment, otherwise in short order I will become worthless, irrelevant, and a failure and nobody will like me anymore."

I mean, I think I am also relatively blessed with a brain that, for all its faults, does tend to focus pretty well once I can pin it down into doing a thing, and a life that is flexible enough to permit me to take the time out of it to do things like write fanfiction and knit and whatever.

but the point is that I don't actually really have advice about this because I honestly don't feel like I'm speaking from a place of giving advice, current evidence (me trying to finish a thing on time) notwithstanding in general I'm trying to give myself permission to be less productive, not trying to figure out how to enable or advance the ability to hold the (often punishing) pace I set myself. if that makes sense.

but yeah in honesty my answer to this question as far as the "how" remains the same: pretty sure it's mostly the neuroses. as a human being I think I'm about 70% running on questionable coping mechanisms, very good compartmentalization, and a strong "if you think this sucks it could be worse! so do what you gotta to make sure it doesn't get worse!" mentality.

[eggmeralda]

can you get burnout from doing nothing

[sylhea-raemi]

next shiraishi an event is gonna be bout for beside you part 2 with worse trust issues (thanks ken), worse abandonment issues, worse inferiority feeling

[endlessfuckup]

Are you okay?

Not really :/

Constantly dealing with one traumatic/chaotic event after another

[cardentist]

hey, so people need to be aware that youtube is now (randomly) holding basic features for ransom (such as being able to pin comments under your own videos) in exchange for Your State ID/Drivers License, or a 30 Second Video Of Your Face.

not to pull a "think of the children," but No Actually. I've been making videos as a hobby since 2015 (and I've had my channel since middle school), I was a minor when I started and I'm not sure I would have understood the kind of damage something a seemingly simple as a video of your face can do.

this is a Massive breach of privacy and over-reach on google's part No Matter What, but if they're going to randomly demand a state ID or license then they absolutely should not allow minors to be creators.

google having a stockpile of identifying information on teenagers is bad enough, but the Alternative of recording your face and handing it over to be filed away is Alarming considering it opens the gates for minors who Aren't old enough to have a license.

and yes, there is a third option, but it's intentionally obtuse. a long wait period (2 months), with no guarantee of access (unlike, say, the convenience of using your phone's cameras for either of the other two), with absolutely No elaboration on what the criteria is or how it's being measured.

it's the same psychological effect that mobile games rely on. offer a slow, unreliable solution with no payment to make the Paid instant gratification look more appealing (the "payment" in this case being You. you are the product being offered).

and it's Particularly a system that (I think intentionally) disadvantages people who don't treat their channels like a job. hobbyists or niche creators who don't create regularly enough or aren't popular enough to meet whatever Vague criteria needs to be met to pass.

markiplier would have no problem passing, your little brother might not be able to. and while Mark's name is already out there there's no reason why your little brother's should be too.

something like pinned comments may seem simple, you don't technically Need it. but it's a feature that's been available for years. most people don't look at descriptions anymore. so when there's relevant information that needs to be delivered then the pinned comment is usually the go to.

for my little channel that information is about the niche series I create for. guides on how to get into the series, sources on where to find the content At All (and reliably so). for other creators it can be used for things Much More Important.

Moreover, if we let them get away with cutting away "small" features and selling it back to you for the price of your privacy, then they Will creep further. they Will take more.

Note: I have an update to this post here: [Link]