#i'm usually not terribly bad at understanding shit but i don't understand this scenario

[a-s-levynn]

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[mono-dot-jpeg]

bad decisions - i. sae, b. meguru & m. reo

summary; let's make some bad decisions.

genre/extra tags; rambling post?/scenarios???, fluff but not really, diet fluff, and diet angst, late night thoughts combined with day light thoughts, might be ooc

a/n; im gonna go out on a limb here and say you dont want yandere obsessive tendencies in the relationship (i dont write yandere bc i hate that trope and i dont understand the appeal). i only did three bc this was all i can think of, im so sorry- hope you enjoy this either way. thank you for requesting and for your patience.

i think we all saw this coming when i say, sae probably gotta have some odd habits and thoughts when it comes to being a relationship. he's precise and serious in his soccer, and that bleeds into his relationships. it has nothing to you, no, not when he's so used to seeing into every detail and every possibility. he keeps trying to predict what you will do, and then you surprise him when it's not what he expected. most of the time, this happens when you're just doing something without much thought. he gets kind of weird about it though, he just blue-screens and had to take a moment before asking what is wrong with you because you didn't do the thing he expected. you have to tell him that this is just how you are, and he refuses to be outsmarted by his partner when he's usually the one with the brain cell between you two.

he feels the need to check on you a lot because he doesn't express it outright. he observes you like he's in a game match. it's cute at first but then you realize, "oh god he's really paying attention a little too well..."

he hates if you ever even try to interact with rin. he is one jealous little shit. if he's in a good mood [which is hard to tell with him], you have like a higher chance of talking to rin. but most days, he's keeping you away from him.

bachira is unpredictable and he's crazy. he loves you a lot. and i mean a lot. he's extremely clingy towards things he cherishes and that probably stems from the lack of friends he had back then and he's just scared to lose you. but sometimes he really impedes on the day-to-day routine. he needs reassurance when you're gone. he texts you a lot. very standard clingy person.

he feels the need to be a guard dog. he's possessive but not in the way sae would be with his jealously. no, bachira is possessive but he's confident that he will keep you protected from others. but also he loves to wreak havoc so he likes being loud about being clingy and protective. it can get overwhelming.

i'm gonna be real, this one is short because bachira's traits could probably be pretty amplified in a relationship and honestly, i would go as far as to think that most of his traits would just be either better or worse in a relationship.

overbearing. that should be enough to explain it.

he's got a weird complex with him. at least that is what i think. he really stuck with nagi a lot, and i think he would do the same in a romantic relationship. he's gotten too used to coddling nagi and he does the same to you. he spoils you. and it's great at first, but it can be a lot at once. and honestly i think he feels the need to compensate for something. what is the thing he's compensating for? i don't know, but he gives me those "compensating for something with money" vibes.

i think it's safe to say that all the boys have a pride to uphold and reo is no different. he hates being inactive. he wants to help you all the time. and i mean all the time. he wants to be useful but he goes at it terribly. he wants to be relied on.

is it crazy to say that i think reo is the worst out of the three here? probably but whatever.

[links-in-time]

Twilight Warriors

Chapter 1

This follows on from my fic 'Imposter'.

It's also me paying homage to @st0rmyskies. This is a love letter and prequel to their amazing fic 'Polyamorous Disaster Sky'. As well as their other work which I highly recommend.

I wanted to write my version of how I thought Warriors and Twilight's relationship got started before Sky became involved.

Anyway usual 🔞 warnings, enjoy 😊

"Shit! This is bad Twi!" Wars grunted, shifting Twi's slightly heavier body into a more comfortable position.

"It's not great but it's not terrible!" Twilight replied, tentatively poking at the arrow sticking out of his left shoulder.

"Stop doing that!" Wars smacked his hand away before Twilight could do any more damage.

"It's fine. I'll just pull it out and keep goin. Hand me a potion and I'll be right as rain," Twilight insisted. But his smile faded when he noticed Wars' stricken expression.

"What's wrong?"

"You mean other than the arrow in your shoulder? I haven't got any potions or fairies left. And if you're asking me then I'm guessing you don't either."

"Well, shit!"

"My sentiments exactly," Wars nodded.

He had managed to wrestle Twilight away from the battle in order to examine his wound. Having come up empty on healing items Wars was at a loss for what to do next. The blasted portal had spat them out in the middle of a monster camp. Enormous moblins from Wild's era surrounded them on all sides. He could still hear the others fighting for their lives not far away. Hopefully it wouldn't be long until they finished off the monsters and help would be on its way.

"We'll just have to wait for the others. One of them must have something to help. But I don't want to take that arrow out until they do." Wars insisted, trying to stay calm and level headed. Never mind that the man he had recently developed feelings for was bleeding in his arms.

"I'll be alright Cap," Twilight sighed, looking up at Wars with his lopsided grin which made Wars' knees weak. "I'm tougher than I look."

"Well you must be made of steel because you look pretty tough my friend." Wars chuckled.

His eyes kept flicking to the shaft embedded in Twi's shoulder. A million and one scenarios flashed through his mind. Not all of them bad, but only a handful of them had happy endings. His biggest concern was infection. Wars doubted moblins worried about keeping their weapons clean. The arrow head was likely dirty if not poisoned. Twilight hadn't shown any signs of poisoning, but he hadn't crossed it off the list just yet. A potion could heal most poison damage, but infections were tricky. They weren't always totally cleared up by magic, being a natural occurrence. He didn't understand why, that's just they way things worked sometimes.

"I'll be alright Wars, I've dealt with a lot worse trust me," Twi tried to assure him, gently rubbing Wars hand on his arm with his thumb.

It was a good long while before anyone came to find them. Four had a gash across his forehead, just below his head band. He was panting hard as he pushed through the brush towards them.

"I found them! They're here! Twi's hurt!" He yelled over his shoulder. "What happened? I saw you guys disappear earlier and assumed the worst." Four asked, as he dropped to his knees on the opposite side of Twilight to Wars.

"Got hit by an arrow. Can't move my left arm just now." Twilight explained plainly.

"Not good. I'll go get Hyrule. He was dealing with Wind but he should be done now."

Four sprung back to his feet and was away agin.

"Wait what happened to Wind?!" Wars called after him.

"You're such a mother cooco!" Twilight chuckled.

"Shut up you idiot," Wars huffed, no real feeling in his words.

"Aww, you always call me such sweet nicknames Cap."

"Alright now really do shut up. I'm not sure I want the others know about our little... whatever it is going on between us."

"Okay, no worries, I won't say anything," Twilight insisted and Wars could tell he wasn't teasing anymore.

Help in the form of Hyrule and Time came a few minutes later. Time held Twilight still while Wars pulled the arrow. An instant later Hyrule's healing magic flowed through Twilight's vains, stitching his skin back together. A small pink scar was all that remained just visible beneath Twilight's tunic.

"How'd you feel Twi?" Time asked, looking down at Twilight from where he sat above his head.

Twilight stared up at Time's upside down face and gave him a smile.

"Much better Old Man. Thanks Rulie, the rest of you okay?" Twilight sighed in reply.

"Everyone is mostly fine. After I fixed up Wind he claimed he spotted a village through his telescope, just up ahead on the road," Hyrule replied.

Wars thought the young hero looked exhausted. He always did after using his healing magic on so many people.

"Alright, we'll make for the village and hope we can find somewhere to stay and rest a while. Once we figure out who's era we're in we can come up with a better plan." Wars decided, his grip on Twilight's arm tightening slightly.

"Actually Four thinks it might be his, but he's not quite sure where the portal dropped us yet." Hyrule added.

"Alright, village it is," Time concluded, pushing himself to his feet with a groan. "Can you walk now Twi?"

"Yeah I'm good," Twilight insisted, gently easing Wars' hand off his arm. "Let's get moving."

The Chain moved slowly along the road Wind had found, towards the little houses off in the distance. Wars didn't walk directly beside Twilight, but he hovered near him, hardly allowing the Rancher out of his sight. He seemed fine. The chances of poison had dwindled to nothing. Maybe he was worrying needlessly. Still, he had dried smears of Twilight's blood on his hands. Wars curled his fists and tried to ignore it.

The village was small. So small in fact that there were no shops and no Inn. Time and Four spoke to a farmer who said he had a barn large enough to accommodate all of them. Four gave the old man what he thought was a generous handful of rupies and thanked him for his hospitality.

The barn was designed to house sheep and other livestock. Twilight instantly felt at home. The barn was drafty but it was the middle of summer and the breezes blowing through the cracks in the boards were pleasant. He smiled contently to himself and started unpacking his bedroll and his weapons to check a few things over.

"I don't think we're too far from my town," Four informed them.

As usual Wild's map was useless, just a fuzzy screen and only his inventory was available to him.

"We'll spend the night here then press on in the morning. These people don't seem to have been bothered by the monsters so far, I'd like to keep it that way," Time said to the others.

Wars washed his hands with the last of his water before handing it over to Sky to be filled with everyone else's.

"I'm going to go for a quick walk around the village, make sure we didn't miss any monsters back there," Wars announced.

He was already turning towards the door of the barn when he felt Twilight's hand grip his arm.

"I'll come with you. I could do with stretching my legs a bit more," he uttered, quickly letting go of Wars.

Together the pair left the barn and headed for the edge of the village. It really was small, just a collection of farm buildings and squat single story houses. Twilight spent a while saying hello to the flock of sheep out in one of the fields while Wars rolled his eyes.

Secretly though he found Twilight's way with animals both impressive and endearing. He had an amazing way with them. Like he could speak to them in their language, calm them with his natural kindness. Wars wondered if he'd ever used that soothing talent on any of his brothers.

They walked across the main road through the other end of the village in about fifteen minutes and rounded the corner back towards the barn.

"Did you see that?" Twilight asked suddenly, pointing off between two houses towards some trees.

"What?"

Wars was instantly on alert. His ears pricked for any sound ahead of them. He couldn't see whatever it was Twilight had spotted, but he trusted Twi's instincts. They were always odly accurate.

"I'm sure I saw somethin slip between those two buildings. Might have just been an animal, but we should check it out."

"Alright, I'll follow your lead," Wars replied, drawing his sword just in case.

Twilight and Warriors approached the two buildings, shoulders tensed and senses seaking out anything out of the ordinary. Wars attention drifted away from Twilight towards the trees nearby. Which is why when Twilight rounded on him and pinned Wars against one of the walls, he dropped his sword in surprise.

"Twi what are you...?!" He protested.

Twilight cut off Warriors question with his lips. Planting them firmly with all the pent up passion he had felt throughout the last few days. When he drew back for breath Wars was staring at him, eyebrow raised.

"You didn't see anything, did you?"

"I might have," Twilight replied coily. "We could always go and check. Or we could stay here."

To emphasise his point Twilight pressed his thigh between Wars' legs, putting pressure on his groin. Wars whimpered, a sound which drove Twilight forwards, like a predator taking advantage of its preys weakness. He met Wars' lips once more, kissing him while his hands went to the man's hips to push him roughly against the wall.

"Mmm," Wars moaned into Twilight's mouth, as he began rubbing himself against Twi's leg.

Twilight grinned, flashing his teeth before dipping his head down to kiss Wars' neck. Their clothing didn't allow for much skin to skin contact, but Twilight made up for it. His lips and teeth found the soft spot beneath Wars' jaw and gently nipped his skin, earning him a soft moan from the Captain. Twilight hummed to himself in satisfaction. Watching someone like Warriors wriggle under his touch was intoxicating.

"You okay?" Twi asked, as Wars shuddered at the touch of Twi's tongue on his ear.

"Oh yes," Wars breathed, his hands wrapped tightly around Twilight's shoulders. "Oh Twi!"

Twilight chuckled a little and Wars felt it pass between their chests, tightly pressed together. He let his head fall back against the wall of the building while Twi continued to suckle at the soft skin of his neck.

"We sh-should probably get back. The others will start to wonder where we are," Wars uttered, just about able to keep from stammering.

Twilight moaned softly against his ear.

"I don't want to go back."

"They'll get suspicious. And I don't fancy the tease fest I know Legend will give us if he found out. Come on Twi. You know I want to, but let's be at least a little sensible about this."

Twilight withdrew a little. He stopped pinning Wars against the wall quite so firmly. And he eased his leg out from between Wars' thighs.

"Okay, we'll be careful. When we're with the others everything can be normal. We'll just have to take every chance we can to be alone," Twilight finally relented.

Wars reached up and stroked Twilight's cheek.

"I might be making my perimeter sweeps a bit longer from now on then!"

***

Wild made a simple meal of grilled meat and vegetables for dinner, after which everyone went to sleep. All except for Time who sat on watch at the barn door. The night passed without incident. Watch shifts were exchanged until Legend passed by Twilight at the end of his shift. The older hero was wrapped up in his blanket as usual. But Legend noticed Twilight seemed to be shivering. It wasn't cold by any estimation, it had been quite a pleasant night. But Twilight was definitely shivering.

Concerned, Legend took a few steps closer and squatted down beside Twilight's head. He reached out and laid the back of his hand on Twi's forehead. It didn't take long for Legend to confirm what he suspected. Twi's skin was hot and slick with sweat. Legend grimaced and wiped his hand on his tunic.

"Dummy, went and got yourself a fever didn't you," Legend grumbled in a low tone.

He let out a long sigh and looked around for Time. He found him sleeping not far from the door and went to rouse him.

"Hey, Time," he said, shaking the man awake. "Twi's got a fever."

"Hmm, what?" Time replied groggily rubbing his good eye, as he tried to push himself up onto one arm.

"Twilight's got a temperature and he's shivering something fierce. I think his wound got infected and now he's got a fever," Legend explained.

As Time and Legend went to check on Twilight, the other boys began to stir. Hyrule and Warriors were quick to join Time and Legend by Twilight's side while the others gave them some space and started packing up their things.

"He's got a fever alright," Time confirmed, withdrawing his own hand from Twilight's head. "Twi, can you hear me? Are you awake?"

Twilight didn't respond so Time started gently rocking his shoulder.

"I was afraid this would happen. I should have taken the arrow out sooner," Wars sighed, shaking his head.

"He would have bled out if you'd done that," Legend remarked.

"Anything you can do Rulie?" Time asked, lifting his gaze to look at the traveller.

"I don't think so." Hyrule shook his head sadly. "He needs medicine, not potions or healing. They won't do anything for an infection like this. Good food and warmth should help with the fever, but yeah, medicine."

"I'll go see if anyone in the village has anything that could help," Legend announced, already getting to his feet.

"I'll come with you," Hyrule replied, following the Vet to the door.

It didn't take long for the two boys to come back from their search. The villagers had been sad to inform them that they only had medicine for their animals and a few small supplies for themselves. However there was a larger town nearby where they should be able to get what they needed.

"Sounds like my home town," Four remarked. "I could get us some lodging if we went there."

"Twi's not in any fit state to travel Smithy," Wars reminded him, a gentle hand laid on Twilight's shoulder. "I suggest we split up. Some of us go to town and get medicine for Twilight. Some of us stay with him here and do the best we can until the others get back."

"Sounds like a good plan," Sky agreed.

"I think Four, Legend, Wind and Sky should go to the town. Maybe you should go too Time. Hyrule should stay in case Twi gets worse and he can do anything. And maybe Wild, perhaps you could make him some soup?" Wars continued, addressing each of the boys as he spoke to them.

"That's a solid plan Captain, anyone have any other suggestions?" Time affirmed.

There weren't any objections to Warriors' plan, so the boys going to town finished packing up and left as quickly as they could. Four assured Wars that they would get there and back as soon as possible and not to worry.

Wild went to forrage for ingredients even had a pumpkin donated from one of the farmers. Wars was pleased to see Twilight finally open his eyes when Wild started cooking in one of his portable pots.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" He asked softly, brushing some of Twilight's bangs out of his face.

"Like crap," he croaked, his voice thin and weak compared to the commanding tone he had used on Wars only the day before.

"Some of the others have gone to fetch you some medicine. Wild's cooking pumpkin soup." Wars explained.

"Smells good," Twilight remarked, following his nose towards the source of the delectable smells wafting from Wild's stove.

"I'm glad you haven't lost your appetite. Think you could sit up and drink some water?"

"Sure."

Warriors helped prop Twilight up against a bale of hay they had moved behind his bed roll. He groaned a little but mostly he just seemed exhausted.

"Are you warm enough?" Wars asked, his hand already on a spare blanket folded up beside him.

"I'm 'k for now," Twilight sighed, taking a deep breath.

Wars handed Twilight his canteen and carefully watched Twi taking slow sips. He was pleased to see him drink quite a bit before he handed it back. Not long after Wild arrived with two bowls of steaming soup.

"I tried to make it the way Sky said, but we didn't have all the right herbs. Tastes good though. Hope it helps," Wild informed them as he passed both bowls to Warriors.

"Thanks Wild, you and Hyrule alright?" Warriors replied, looking past Wild to where Hyrule sat reading.

"We're fine. Hyrule's a little fidgety, but fine," Wild smiled with a shrug.

"Okay. You don't have to stay in the barn by the way. If you two want to go explore that's fine. Just don't go too far. Try to keep the village in sight in case we need you." Wars urged, trying not to make it sound like an order.

"Sure, Hyrule wanted to go look for fairies so we'll go check out the woods nearby," Wild brightened, before turning back towards Hyrule.

The two young men quickly slurped up their soup before picking up their gear and disappearing out the barn doors. Meanwhile, Wars turned his attention back to Twilight.

"You ready for some soup?"

"You going to feed me like a child?" Twilight frowned.

"I don't have to. You wanna take the bowl?"

Twilight unfolded his hands from his blanket and carefully took the bowl from Wars' hands. It was warm and made him realise just how cold and clammy his hands were. Twilight swallowed the lump in his throat as he picked up the spoon and lifted it to his mouth. He spilt half of it down his chin before he swallowed the rest. It was still hot and he almost burnt his mouth. Twilight sighed and rested his hands in his lap, defeated.

"You want me to feed you?" Wars asked, this time without any hint of teasing.

"Alright," Twilight replied begrudgingly.

Wars picked up the bowl and the spoon and shuffled himself into a better sitting position. He scooped up another spoonful and gently blew on it before feeding it to Twilight.

"Tastes good," Twilight mumbled.

"Don't talk with your mouth full," Wars remarked, loading up another spoonful.

"Yes Sir!" Twi chuckled, but there wasn't any fight in him.

His whole body seemed slumped and ragged, like the fever and exhaustion had seeped into his bones. Wars fought down his pity and continued to spoon feed Twilight. As he did, he couldn't help smile ever so slightly at the intimacy of the situation. Of course he was sorry that Twilight was ill, but there was a certain affection in what he was doing. He scraped the soup off Twilight's chin when he dribbled a little. He backed off when Twi seemed out of breath. And waited patiently when he needed a moment before he could eat any more.

Eventually Twilight said he'd had enough and couldn't stomach any more. Wars was pleased that he had consumed more than half the bowl and took it back to the pot to keep it warm in case Twi wanted more.

"Want me to feed you now?" Twi teased, wiggling his eyebrows a little.

"Ha ha. Very funny. I'd rather you not make a mess of my clothes thank you very much," Wars replied mockingly.

He picked up his own soup which wasn't quite tepid yet and quickly drained the bowl empty.

"Huh, that was good. I'd like to try the original recipe if we end up on Skyloft some day." Wars remarked, setting his bowl aside and taking a quick drink.

"I'd like to show you my home some day," Twilight sighed beside him.

"Yeah, what's your home like? You live in a place called Ordon right?"

"Yeah, I live in a tree house just-outside the village. Rusl helped build it when, when I was too old to stay with them anymore." Twilight explained, his eyelids growing heavy as he struggled to breathe between sentences.

"Sounds lovely. How about you get some rest and you can tell me more about it when you're feeling better Twi?" Wars said softly.

"Okay," Twi sighed, already slipping back down onto his bedroll.

Wars helped him a little and carefully wrapped Twilight in his blanket.

"You still warm enough?" He asked, gently pressing the backs of his fingers to Twilight's cheek.

"Bit cold," Twilight moaned, burying himself in his blanket up to his nose.

Wars nodded and unfolded the spare blanket, gently laying it over twilight and tucking it in around the edges.

"Better?"

Twilight just nodded, exhaustion already claiming his conciousness. Wars hummed in contentment, sitting back a little on his heels. He gazed down at Twilight's peaceful features. The markings on his face had always been a curiosity, but he never thought they detracted from his handsome features. Warriors had always been told he was good looking. Ever since he was a child he'd been told he'd be a heartbreaker. That never sat very well with him, and after Cia... Wars hadn't actively saught out any relationships.

There had been a few one night stands, some short term relationships that never went anywhere. People always seem to expect him to be one thing, the handsome hero. Whenever he tried to express there was more to himself than just that, people seemed to lose interest. Not Twilight. All the boys teased him for his good looks. Not with any real meanness, but even the other heroes had noticed Warriors' looks.

It seemed Twilight had noticed more about him than just his charming smile and his dazzling blue eyes. Maybe it was years of being adored for nothing more than his face that made him a little sceptical. But when Twilight looked at him it didn't feel like he was being appraised anymore. It felt like Twi was seeing him, really seeing HIM.

Imposter : Chap 2 >

[faksyan]

12/16/19 :3

ooohh boyy that got really long. lots of mgs rambles under the cut. thanks for the ask!!! very slight nsfw mention in the second one, nothing major.

12) the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

I'll be honest I'm actually still familiar with some of the games only on surface-level (fake fan I know), and I don't think I have anyone like that from those I know well.

Well, Paz, but I talked about her a bit in the last ask already. She is full of rage and loneliness and gets just a glimpse of real affection and friendship and I find a lot of these themes very compelling. And I guess all the women in general, because fandom spaces usually gravitate towards men, and with mgs it's even less surprising. I really, really like Eva in Snake Eater, but that's mostly due to my own interpretation rather than the writing. I feel like her understanding of love must be really interesting as someone who was taught to pretend/actually feel on some level love on command, and I also think it's interesting that she was the one The Boss opened to. I really wish so many mgs women's traits weren't so tightly linked with romance, man. Quiet is also so cool, but she too suffers from being reduced to just that.

I really like The Boss, she's such a interesting contradiction - cold and strict, but also full of love for the while world and ready to give everything she has to make it just that much better. I would love to see in more detail things about her and Sorrow, an actual game with her as a protagonist would be awesome. Strangelove's tapes in pw are absolutely fascinating as well, the one where she's talking to Joy's ai almost made me cry, and she generally has some pretty interesting take on some things. I really liked the part where she talks about how ai would be an amalgamation of people's consciousness rather than of individual's in the future, because that put into words part of why I hate ai-generated images and text that people call art.

16) you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

Well, I can get people liking anything on account of different tastes, so this is more about popular takes I don't really get because of how different my reading of canon is, I guess? Like the idea of bbkaz being abusive to a point where Kaz was having a horrible terrible time every day at every corner. I've seen it in some fics, and kind of get where people go with it, but I think Kaz "almost blew himself up with a grenade so he wouldn't be taken prisoner" Miller would rather die than be treated like shit. He would blow up their shared tent if it ever came to it ya feel me. He is too proud and too impulsive and too much of everything. They respected and listened to each other and I'd say a lot of their issues were kind of more subtle? in a way. What they had definitely wasn't healthy in many aspects, but it was in ways where they both could ignore/didn't feel were that bad at the moment, that type of thing.

I read through almost the entirety of ocelhira tag on ao3, and i could write a whole list of stuff about them that I personally see differently as that part of the fandom. I'm very picky when it comes to them, in no way those are bad, and I've /seen/ them being executed in a way I enjoyed, I just don't really get them. The main things I don't really see are, as follows:

That they hate each other (next to zero basis of that before the ending of v, and even this can be argued about.)

They would punch each other on the first meeting or shortly after (never seen either of them as people who would resort to violence in a more business-like setting. because that's how I see them approach what they have. Ocelot mainly uses violence in specific scenarios like interrogations and is good at controlling his emotions. Kaz is impulsive but he is a businessman to the bone. Maybe he'd punch Ocelot at some point but definitely not early on. I feel like the main instigator of random CQC is Snake after all, and without him they would figure things out differently.)

They would fuck on the first meeting or shortly after (Ocelot is weird about intimacy and doesn't trust anyone and is a spy who's probably never had friends or lovers, in any meaningful sence of the words. Also he's on aroace spectrum to me. I don't think Kaz would have sex with a person he genuinely despises even if he found them appealing, out of sheer stubbornness. If he hates a person he hates them, same reason why I don't think bbkaz would work in any way past v. Even if Kaz tried to hook up with Ocelot in the beginning, he would probably kill him for a mere insinuation. Give me the intricate details of getting to know a person and figuring shit out, they had nine whole years.)

There's probably more, but this is getting like. super long sorry my bad. And sorry so much of it is about ships, the platonic tags are barren as a desert I gotta write and draw some myself✌️

19) you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

Vocelot a bit maybe (not necessarily romantic or sexual) because the whole concept of them having a close relationship could go a very fucked-up route (like a bit more than the average mgs level). Not really ashamed, that's why I like it, it has a sort of a Hannigram feel to it. Even in case where they genuinely care about each other, there are still some weird power dynamics and mind games and codependency. I just generally find ideas of brainwashing really unsettling.

Also I really like Huey as a character. am I allowed to say that. am I getting fed to the bears. I can and will elaborate at some point, I just really like characters who are unredeemable impossible hypocrites (hey, that's part of why I'm a Kaz Miller fan) and Huey is just. vastly misunderstood when it comes to what caused him to spiral, none of which helps his case but it's INTERESTING. Instead he's just being reduced to a punching bag without taking a look at what exactly led up to it all. Grantedly, I don't think Kojima thought about it that deeply at all, but it came out as a vivid critique of how society and especially military treats men who are disabled/not "masculine" enough/can't stand up for themselves. to me. and I like that.

[hisui-dreamer]

Hihi, first of all I LOVED the story, still crying in a ball on my bed with my spider plushie named dridy, but before reading this I had a thought that I'd love to share, this was probably obvious and I'm just dumb, but the reason epel is so manly and kinda mean is because he's the poison apple! He's soft and cute and deceivingly sweet on the outside, but mess with him and bam! Evil, lol. I had been thinking about how annoying it was for my favorite characters to be mischaracterized, like malleus only being a idiot with technology and only sweet, none of his evil side at all, or completely opposite problem of him only being evil. Or with vil being a terrible person who would make fun of your insecurities, and that made me think of epel who is sometimes mischaracterized as a sweet little guy by people who don't know his character very well, and that made me think of his character more and i thought, 'oh hey, I wonder why they gave him that personality, since they could have given him anything because he's not based on a actual character' then I had a 'OH SHIT' moment and realized why he was characterized like that, it probably was obvious to everyone else though lol, don't mind me just going on a rant brought on by nothing. Anyway thanks again for the awesome fic! Remember to drink some water and have a great rest of your day/night! ⁠\⁠(⁠･⁠◡⁠･⁠)⁠/

aldjdgkahs im really glad you enjoyed it!! i had to put myself in the sad depresso mindset with some heartbreak songs to get in the mood lmaoo, sending you comforting hugs!!ʕ⁠っ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠っ

that's actually such a cool way to look at it!!! I never realised the poison part could be linked with his rash tendencies omgg that fits so well with the theme. damn yana is such a genius🛐

malleus does come off as less evil to me though hahaha, what with his obliviousness and his eagerness to learn about human customs. i guess he'd be a chaotic neutral?? good intentions but bad actions, like when he over demonstrates his magic and almost destroys the place lol. he seems to usually have good intentions though

vil is definitely a weird interpretation, i feel like rather than make fun of someone's insecurities, he'd help them embrace it and use it to their advantage?? like epel with his cute appearance, he wasn't the best at encouraging him, but he was still trying to help epel understand that his "weakness" could be his strength. worst case scenario he'd be critical and truthful in his criticism, for example how epel's accent could be seen as impolite?? he really is an interesting and genuine character haha

but no that realisation with epel is actually so so cool, i hadn't even thought of it before!! i just interpreted the poison apple theme as vil's last resort against neige lol

thank you for ranting in my inbox hehe!! i love having these character discussions (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) i hope you'll have a great day/night too!! 💞

[mickeytheticklee]

YES (a lil Gina Porter drabble)

Pairing: ler!Gina Porter x Lee!Reader

Summary: You accidentally wearing Gina's crop top to school

Warning: Tickling, mouth tickling, this shit is short y'all, my writing is BAD

An: Been on my HSMTMTS brainrot

It's been almost a full hour of you and Gina working on the project together. You both were focused on completing it, although neither of you can understand a damn thing.

“Do you know the answer for number two?", Gina asks, hoping her her prayers work so she can finish this assignment. Bad thing was you were struggling with the same question. “No, I'm on that question.", You say, your eyes glued to the paper, erasing the last few mistakes of the problem. You both thought being paired for this project would be good because of the cute study dates at Gina's house, yet both of you suck terribly at math. Gina sighs, even though it's always a dream come true that her secret date can come over without suspicion from her mother. Luckily Gina had a backup plan for in case this scenario happens.

“I'll text Kourt or Ashlyn if they have the answers.", Gina says, grabbing her phone from her back pocket. You took a brain break from the amount of math you had to learn in a day. Gina did too, looking at you with a tired look but a lovely smile. Looking back at her you adore her beautiful brown eyes, feeling sentimental at the promise ring you gifted her on Christmas. Feeling distracted upon Gina's polished nails you didn't hear her question.

“Are you wearing my shirt?", Gina asks, causing a flushed look upon your face. You thought she couldn't notice by the baggy gray sweatshirt you stole from EJ. But still the purple collar from the pink crop top was visible to Gina. “Oh...yea, you left it at my house last week and I ran out of laundry so I stole it.", You say, feeling happy but nervous. It was true you were too lazy to do any laundry but sometimes you loved the feeling of Gina's clothing. Her scent and her warmth were still connected to the shirt. When Gina leaves away from her acting gigs you cling onto her accessories, feeling apart of Gina when you miss her.

“Are you okay with that? Do you want me to take it off?", You ask, trying to take off your sweatshirt as if you had a spare shirt to change in. The pink crop top was one of Gina's favorites, she's been on a search for days trying to find it. All for it to end up being worn by her girlfriend who mostly wears baggy clothing. “No, it's okay. You can keep it on for now. But...", Gina says, pausing with a smile. You weren't catching on to her giddy smile and excited hands playing with yours.

“But what?", You ask so innocently. Gina smile has on a smile, holding in her question wondering what response you'll have. But from the big ass grin you had and not recognizing Gina's hands were close to your thigh she knows you'll be quite oblivious to her trap.

“Would you mind...taking off your sweatshirt?", Gina asks. You did as you were told and took it off, with Gina's help. Because of Gina's more feminine fashion sense you rarely borrow her clothes. Yet if you took a deep dive in her closet you can see five of your sweatshirt hung up and ironed. You felt a chill from your lower back after taking it off. You felt as if a part of you was stripped away as you usually don't sport the crop top fashion. You sit up awkwardly, feeling insecure about wanting to rock a shorter, and tighter shirt.

“Hey, you look like a rockstar in my shirt okay? I love it, and I love you.", Gina says, reassuring you of all your insecurities. Feeling comfortable in your skin you lean in to kiss Gina. You stop a few times before Gina closed in to create a delicate kiss. Leaning back you felt her touch wriggle around your sides, feeling a small probe. It was ignorable after the first few, but Gina relentlessly went harder to get a reaction out of you.

“GINA! GINAHEHEH!!", You say, giggling thru the kiss. You tried to take her naughty hands away but she fought back harder, and deeper against your side and hips. You tug from her but you felt her weight on you, continuing to attack you with tickles. “IT TICKLESHEHEHE!!", You say, laughing out loud with speaky fits of laughter.

“Yea you don't say.", Gina says, teasing you,“Honestly I didn't know how ticklish you were until now." She teases you as if she isn't tickling you almost everyday. It's a battle to get thru Gina's tickles. Her impeccable strength and quick fingers leave you helpless against her. “SYPPSTOPHAHAGAHA!!", The laugh gets louder, and now you start to understand the truth behind Gina's trickery.

You try to pull down the crop top to cover any piece of skin possible. It was no use, it was stuck on you for good, and exposed all the areas Gina was feasting on. “Aww what's wrong? You can't cover that cute belly?", Gina teases, having you in a smile you can't tame. You tried pulling up your sweatpants but you still felt Gina's pokes. You couldn't escape, especially not with Gina's nice lips on your tummy ready to blow raspberries. “EEEEHAHHAHAHA!!", You say, laughing while your hands turn into fists. They cover around your red face, laughing thru Gina's scribbles.

“I should let you wear my clothes more often. They seem to really fit you.", Gina says, still scribbling your tummy and dipping her finger upon your belly button. You laugh, still not budging against Gina pinning you down. For Gina to complain that sports aren't her thing she sure is strong. “I WON'T WEAR YOUR CROPTOPS HWHHWHE!!", You laugh, swearing you won't make this mistake again (but you will). Gina knows you will if she ever plans on leaving her whole wardrobe at your place again.

“STOPHAHAHHQHQ!!!", You say, laughing at the raspberries and tummy kisses she's giving you. But it all stops once Gina hears a car pull in at her driveway. She decided to go softer upon your tummy so her mother doesn't suspect any funny business.

[unrivalling]

15, 16, 29

15. How do you come up with titles for your fics/chapters.

Pure vibes usually. I also usually either come up with them before I even start writing the fic ("I can write something where XYZ happens and I could call it 'The Devil's Bargain'") or I come up with it literally as I'm posting the fic to Ao3 ("Oh shit, this needs a title and a summary.") I also try to make my fic titles recognizeable, but sometimes if I think of one that's REALLY good, I'll save it for possible use someday for my original projects.

16. At what point do you come up with titles?

Oh no I did NOT read ahead. See answer for 15.

29. Bit cut from a fic, or a fic idea I don't plan on getting to.

So, I never say never, but I ran into a block with this TWST fic I started because I decided that the main character probably wouldn't survive the scenario I put him in and it was TOO bleak (even for I).

The makeshift holding cell on Night Raven College grounds was plain but comfortable. It was near the faculty quarters, one of the rooms that visiting lecturers often stayed in while on sabbatical. There was a bed, a wool blanket, a simple vanity, and some generic decor on the wall that left Vil wondering if the headmage purchased it all on clearance from some hotel supplier.

All the better that he sat for hours with the lights off, fighting a truly vicious migraine as flashes of his memory rose to the surface before falling away again along with waves of nausea, waiting for someone to come tell him what was real and what wasn’t.

That someone, eventually, was Dire Crowley.

He explained what had happened in plain, staccato language. Vil had overblotted at the SDC. Neige Leblanche, Jamil Viper, Deuce Spade, and—Rook Hunt, had all been recovered from the scene.

Always a bad actor and a worse liar, Headmage Crowley paused briefly before the name he’d saved for last, like he thought that would be the thing to send Vil into grief and hysterics. But it was all terrible, regardless of how close he’d been with one of the victims. All the headmage did was confirm that the horrifying images in Vil’s head were real, that he’d be living with them the rest of his life.

Which likely wouldn’t be very long, anyway.

“We don’t have much time,” Crowley said, once he’d reached the end. “The magic enforcement officers will be here soon, and I have no choice but to turn you over to them.”

He watched Vil for some sign that he understood, and Vil gave a curt nod.

“Most don’t come back from the state you were in,” Crowley continued. “But mages have been held accountable for their actions while overblotted. Say nothing to the officers.” He paused, and his mouth turned down in sympathy. “You may want to get a very good lawyer.”

A tremor of cold humiliation ran from Vil’s head to his stomach. He wanted to bite back at Crowley for patronizing him, for assuming Vil didn’t understand how much trouble he was in.

He felt himself freeze over and stare ahead, back straight, chin upright. There was no telling what he was doing with his eyes. When he spoke, it was with a forced, clear voice, like he was rehearsing.

“I have no desire to hide from the consequences of my actions.”

Crowley���s mouth opened, in shock, or like he wanted to say something. Then he closed it, turned his head downwards.

“You say that now, but things are fresh. There may yet be a way out.” As if relenting to some internal battle Vil couldn’t see, Crowley rose from his seat and turned to leave. “For what it’s worth—”

“It’s not,” Vil snapped, and the venom in his voice made him feel sick and ugly.

“I don’t think people are entirely responsible for what happens during an overblot, or just before.”

“Who broke my overblot?” Vil asked. Questions of right or wrong didn’t matter to him. He knew who was to blame, even if by some miracle the justice system decided otherwise.

Dire Crowley watched him warily, his expression otherwise unreadable on the other side of his bird’s skull mask. “I don’t know,” he answered. “And if I did, I’m not sure it would be wise to tell you in this state.”

“When you find out who it was, tell them in no uncertain terms that they should have just let me die.” Vil noticed rather than felt the surety in his voice, the way his cold hands trembled where they hung limp in front of his knees. “It would have been kinder.”

Dire Crowley watched him for a while over the ridge of his raven feather cowl.

“You say that with such conviction, Mr. Shoenheit, but I can’t help but notice your hands are shaking.”

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[strxnged]

14, 20, and 73 for the writers ask game :)

14. what’s your worst writing habit? 

i know this is a somewhat normal thing but i have so many wips. so many ideas just barely brainstormed for. so many google docs with like 1k words in them sprawled across my drive. now, i'm not saying wips are the bad habit—IT'S THE FACT THAT I. BEAT MYSELF UP OVER THEM. SO MUCH. i feel terrible about creating worlds or people or scenarios and then NEGLECTING THEM. im so sorry i brought you into this world only for you to never experience completion.

20. what is your favorite trope to write?

it's really hard to say for this because it seems to change a lot. but i do like my overly descriptive character angsts that usually develop from me getting obsessed with a singular scene or line in a piece of media. those always just get my brain going and i love writing them even if they're depressing as shit (and usually, yeah, don't get completed).

73. how do you visualize scenes? do you see it like a movie in your head, or do the words just flow?

um, yes. both. it's a process to get ideas down on the page. constructing sentences that flow and don't run on, while also describing, is my passion and my ruin. it's not really like a movie since i'm not usually thinking about camera angles as much as i am what the reader should understand about their senses and emotions in the situation. it's more about, "what information helps the reader understand this idea in my head?" rather than "what is the idea in my head?"

send me writer asks (please) (pretty please)

[trackermons]

ghost game episode 9 thoughts aka i tried to do the post on main as usual but ended up breaking the tag limit so you have to deal with me now

LONG long long post under the cut

so i didn't dislike this episode but i probably wouldve enjoyed it more if i hadn't spent most of last week theorising and losing my shit and getting WAY too overexcited about things that probably weren't going to happen and, to nobody's surprise, didn't. in retrospect i shouldnt have expected an all out reveal of what is presumably the big bad literally nine episodes in so looking back a day after watching it, i'm just pretty stoked gulusgammamon actually got acknowledged at all. i hope they continue to actually question that/hiro worries about it, because your partner turning into a big violent cloud and slapping the shit out of a guy so hard you launch him into next week (or several years, actually) is Kind Of A Big Deal that you probably shouldnt ignore

i also kinda wanted to see wezengammamon because it's my favourite of the three non-fucked-up-and-evil evolutions but thats literally just me i think and i would still like the other two partners to evolve first they deserve it. do i think they will evolve first? debatable but i have theories

i was kinda. unsatisfied by the resolution from a "ive been watching this series since october and nobody's been given a proper digimon-style beating yet" standpoint but also if i think about it from a character point of view it makes slightly more sense. like these are kids. hiro especially does not strike me as the kind of kid to sit there and watch someone fucking die in front of him even if they were trying to kill him a few seconds earlier. i think the CPR thing was a bit dumb but i can at least understand why they would have wanted to help clockmon, and at least by now the general approach to digimon has been long-established as "talk them down and if that doesn't work just knock a little sense into them until it does"

on the other hand, clockmon immediately going to "ok nvm i guess i can't hurt anyone anymore now youve been nice to me :(" was a lot less understandable and i won't get into it because i'll be here for hours if i do but you could at least give him a little moral crisis onscreen come on

i am glad we got the loredrop from bokomon this episode actually! while it felt a little clunky and out of place in its execution, i've actually spent a considerable amount of time these past weeks wondering and theorising what the pattern is behind some digimon being able to touch things and appear and others not, and it's pretty cool to learn definitively what's up with that. maybe that's just me i love comparing the little worldbuilding details in digimon but i'm glad it was explained and not just brushed over as "thing that happens" for the entire series

i still can't believe they just ditched hiro to go get ice cream. they took his fucking digimon partner to get ice cream without him and just left him there hE KEEPS JUMPING AROUND IN TIME GUYS. GUYS THATS A TERRIBLE IDEA WHY WOULD Y i know there needed to be some reason for clockmon to be able to catch him alone but the whole thing is equal measures of sad and hilarious to me lIKE OF ALL PEOPLE ON THIS ONE PARTICULAR DAY HE SHOULD PROBABLY NOT BE LEFT UNATTENDED AND YET,

overall i did kinda feel bad for hiro this episode. this whole time he's really seemed to have his shit together so actually watching him get the short end of the stick in a digimon scenario was fucked up but fun. and then he had to watch some kind of Murderbeast come out of his little buddy and vibe check someone nearly into oblivion like it was nothing? i think he needs to take a nap that's gotta take its toll on a guy

as for next episode predictions i know ive been saying it for the past four episodes but i really think angoramon could evolve this time. from the .5 seconds of footage of symbareangoramon we actually have, i don't think he'd be especially out of place in a fighting game setting. i've been proven wrong Multiple times before so i don't want to say it's definite, but like- put it this way. in the episode where flying was a useful skill to beat the enemy we got kausgammamon. so in the episode where physically beating the shit out of things is (presumably) a useful skill to beat the enemy we could get symbareangoramon. angoramon's moveset in general is pretty centered around Hitting Things Hard like i think it could happen

another point to this theory is that the angoramon/jellymon dim cards for the vital bracelet are being released this month, but the champion forms on the cards are still hidden in promotional material. i think they're going to show symbareangoramon and/or teslajellymon in the anime before they release the cards, which is a pretty strong point for them showing up in the next few episodes. it's the most credible prediction i have tbh

ok thats all for this week i will be back next time

[vicsdeangelis]

a note, that no one cares about, on why i'm taking a "break"

i'm only doing this because i just had a breakdown in the shower and i just need to talk. maybe i'll delete this tomorrow, idk

this starts on a personal note. i've been having a terrible time, mental health wise, in the last month, give or take, because my old psychiatrist is awful. he didn't take me seriously when i went to him for the first time and told him i have depression, only actually believing it when he came to that conclusion, as if i was just saying i had a chronic mental illness because i felt sad sometimes. he never explained the medications to me, and i'm too much of a wet sock to ask. in my last visit, he said he had a different diagnosis of me, but said he wouldn't tell me what it was. he never gave me a reason for that. in that same last visit, he changed my medication, essentially taking me off my antidepressants and putting me on mood stabilizers. they don't work. the only time i can think of that i've felt this consistently unstable was years ago, before i started taking my antidepressants

and this has affected everything in my life. i'm snapping at my mother like i did when i was a (unmedicated) teenager. some days i spend more time in bed than out of it. i started crying almost every day again. most days i have only a single meal, and even that makes me feel guilty for eating at all. i had started reading books again before that, but now i don't find the energy to do so anymore. i have to force myself to shower and brush my teeth. i forget to drink water and go to the bathroom. i don't take care of my hair. i don't listen to music or sing anymore. everything feels grey and pointless, and i feel numb on good days and fucking awful on bad ones

so, with that scenario in mind, må was the one thing i had that gave me a single little shred of joy

and then the global citizen video happened, and the messages came, and i gave my opinion, and that was my mistake.

after all asks were answered, i got so overwhelmed with anxiety, with a feeling that people hated me for what i said. i felt unwanted, despised even. and that was purely paranoia on my part, because not once i saw anyone saying anything about me. because honestly, who the fuck am i? why would people give a shit about what i think on this website? but still, the feeling lingered, and it still does. it still feels like no one wants me here

i saw people with different opinions and it made me feel crazy because, what am i doing? am i wrong here? and this isn't about being wrong or right, i'm woman enough to admit when i've made a mistake. what boggled my mind is that i just couldn't understand how the other option was better, i couldn't understand its logic. it felt like applauding them for doing the bare minimum. i know i'm sounding whiny, and i'm not explaining myself in the way i want, but that gave me a feeling of like, being alone, being the only one with a different opinion, and that made me feel ostracized. and the fact that i still don't feel any different about the situation, idk, it feels. lonely?

i think i mentioned that i only heard the song once, the first time, when they released it, and i really liked it. but now i can't bring myself to listen to it again because it reminds me of this feeling, of being unwanted, of being hated, of being lonely. in all honesty i can't bring myself to listen to any of their songs because i'm afraid they will have the same effect

usually when i felt something similar, i was able to sleep it off, but ever since the video came out i just can't. i just think about it every day, and i don't even know how to distract myself from it, besides giffing them, which is so ironic because it obviously doesn't work, but it's the only thing i'm good for

all the partying and LA have started to wear me down as well, ever since. it's not that i don't think they're working or whatever other bullshit excuse people have. i'm just growing tired of it. if i'm being honest, i've been growing tired of the way they've been marketing themselves to us-american audiences and media for a while now. i know there's no place for authenticity in fame, but it's starting to feel blatant (let's be real, why do you think this european band took down one of their earliest and a bit scandalous videos now?) and i'm just so tired of it

and listen, i'm the fucking idiot for attaching the only bit of joy i managed to get to a band, i'm fully aware of that. what really hurts is that now i feel like i have nothing left. nothing to make me smile, nothing to look forward to, nothing to be excited about

all of it because i opened my damn mouth

and on that note, i turned off my asks. i'm tired of giving my opinion on hot takes like the video, or coachella, or what the fuck ever, only to delete them a few days later because i can't deal with the anxiety. i'm tired of people sending me some funny asks and me giving them disappointing answers. i'm tired of having a breakdown Lite every other week, making a post about it, and receiving a couple nice asks because even tho i know they come from a good place because people are good, to my fucked up brain it feels like pity, and i fucking hate being pitied. and i'm tired of receiving some little scenario in my inbox and just stare at it because i'm fucking useless and i can't fucking write, disappointing people once again. do you know how many asks i have in my inbox? 61. out of those maybe four aren't scenarios or ideas, but that's still over 50 things gathering dust in my inbox because i'm a fucking fraud who lied to herself thinking she could do this, and all it did was disappoint people, myself included

i'm genuinely not doing well, and måneskin used to be a source of light in my life. they aren't anymore

i hope this passes, i hope i can leave this shit behind me and go back to the one thing that made me smile, and i hope it happens soon, because i'm feeling fucking miserable

anyway, i have a queue running, so the blog won't be completely inactive

[freebooter4ever]

IDK why I'm bugging you w/ this, but I thought I'd share as a fellow Sledgefu fan. I'm making jambalaya this week, but the market was out of the usual sausage I use, so I bought a new brand. I did some research on this new sausage, and found a bunch of bad reviews. The best was one titled "Don't buy it, cher!" So now I'm afraid my dinner will be terrible. BUT I'm amusing myself imagining a Sledgefu version of this scenario. Like Gene does the grocery shopping one week and (being well-intentioned but clueless at the store) buys some off-brand key ingredient for one of Snaf's recipes. Thus prompting Snaf to remind Gene after the resulting ruined dinner, "Don't buy it, cher!" And you know Snafu could never stay upset with his Genie for too long. :)

ok first off you can never bug me with sledgefu!! ;_; and second off, im really sorry to hear about your jambalaya, how bad did it turn out? and lastly, i am absolutely terrible at cooking and am sadly on gene's side in this bc i would not be able to tell the difference. this head canon is adorable though....i could totally see gene being that guy who will see something nicely displayed at the supermarket and immediately buy it bc he hasnt tried it before. which could either a) result in something amazing or b) end up in snafu teasing him for the next week. although i would also argue that snafu, having grown up in poverty during the great depression, wouldn't know a brand name if it hit him in the face. i think he could make ANY off brand shit taste good. its when gene starts buying those manufactured questionable hybrid products that start becoming popular in the 50's that snafu starts having problems. Like if gene even starts inching towards the jello isle, snafu probably wheels him out of the store asap.

Oh fun story, sometime in the december of 2020 when things were bleak i found a NEW FLAVOR OF ALMOND MILK at trader joes, and this being during quarantine shit like this was EXCITING. So of course i go and buy it, having previously experienced trader joe's flavored almond milks like pumpkin and mint and peppermint (not all at once). Anyway the flavor was tumeric and ginger and it had no added sugar and it was...well...yellow. IT WAS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING I HAVE EVER TASTED. Absolutely do not buy. I suffered through an entire glass thinking i've drinken worse, but even i with my tastebuds that could eat nothing but ragu and spaghetti for three days straight couldnt do it. I poured the rest down the sink.

Fastforward to late febuary i go over to the artists house and my friend is like 'oh boy do i have something to show you, i found something new at trader joes' in a VERY MISCHIEVOUS VOICE. And i was like 'oh thats exciting trader joes is always good!' (how easily i forget). And then my friend reaches into their fridge and pulls out THE ALMOND MILK. The dreaded disgusting almond milk. I literally recoiled backwards and was like 'OH GOD NO!!!' and my friend started dying laughing and was saying 'i see you have experienced the almond milk before because you share my reaction'. And then we laughed for ten minutes straight because of our shared understanding of the pain of trying to drink it. Anyway long story short this almond milk is now legendary. My friend was debating what to do with it bc of not wanting to waste food and i was like 'yes, i understand the delimma. But no. Pour that unholy stuff down the drain.' which they did.

Tl dr if you ever see an innocent looking carton of almond milk at trader joes that has a yellow friendly sun and the words 'tumeric and ginger' and you start thinking it's gonna be a nice cold, creamy treat....no. NO. DO NOT. RUN AWAY. RUN AWAY FAST because if you buy that thing and try it and then feel too guilty to throw out it will sit in your fridge until it grows legs and then will chase you down.

[sunnys-rewatch-blog]

S2, E10

"Touched by an 'A'-ngel"

Jason's house has been broken into like, three times now. He is being way too cool about it. If Peter Hastings hadn't put an end to this poor man installing a fucking fence, maybe he'd have some privacy.

So much to unpack with this "weird photos of Aria" thing. First of all, there is no scenario I can think of where this would make sense for Alison to do. It reads like the writers are just using her as a scapegoat because they wanted to shock us, without regard for whether or not it made sense. If you're going to set us up to look at something a certain way just to give us a shock factor, the alternative can be used to develop characters and teach a lesson. But the girls never learn not to to jumping to conclusions like this, and I don't think Ali's motives for this are ever explored. It makes about as much sense as if you told me the milkman dropped a roll of film behind your bush, and contribute about as much to the story.

"Jason, you have to admit, this looks really bad"- that's rich, coming from you, Aria. Personally, I think the worst part of it is that your friends broke into his house. TWICE. Does it not occur to any of you that no one has to live their whole private lives doing only what "looks good" to you?

Here we go with this weird club thing.

Yep, this looks like a good place to talk to your (former) teacher about your secret relationship. Right here at the high school where he was a teacher a few weeks ago, months at most, during college fair day when the place is crawling with people.

A stable is a really odd place to go on an impulsive detour for lunch. Don't you usually have to make reservations for this kind of thing? I have never seen a place where you could just show up like this.

Why does Kate assume Hanna has any idea what's going on, here? It was Mona who said she went to this camp. They just rolled up here and didn't even ask if she was familiar? Even as a course of conversation? I'm imagining Mona starting a sentence like "This one time, at Equestrian camp-" and Kate squealing her tires straight into this parking lot.

Kate would have been a more effective villain in Season 1, before Hanna fully re-bonded with the other girls.

I understand Hanna having no knowledge of horse riding techniques, but has she really never seen one up close? Even at a fair or something?

I would still swear Ezra knew Aria's friends knew.

I don't think anyone ever mentioned what a shit friend Hanna is to Mona. They spent the summer bonding only for Mona to get dropped like a hot rock. On my first watch it really took me a while to warm up to her, I remember wishing Hanna would drop her as a friend- and she has been rude and generally terrible sometimes, to the point that I would fully respect it if Hanna did fully drop her for something like bullying Lucas or pressuring her to skip school in front of her mom- but some of their interactions are painful for other reasons.

How long was that microphone broadcasting? There was quite a bit leading up to Hanna's offensive comments. I'm not saying the rest of the conversation would have made that easy to hear, but the context might have softened the blow. I would like to think, if it were me in Kate's position, I might have been hurt and confused but I'd realize I had to make peace with her not liking me or wanting to share hobbies. I would take it as a sign to back off. Of course, I'm a full grown adult with a different life history and mindset. And I'm not a villain.

Why does Jenna talk like she's narrating a Stephen King novel?

Marlene was definitely reading either Twilight or one of it's derivative works when she was deciding how to write Ezria.

Kate's phone call with Hanna could have been written by a dungeon domme.

How many sessions did these girls go to? I only know about two, maybe three each. They're talking about it like they were going for months.

[ablogwithaview]

Hi Olivia! I don't even know why I'm telling you what I'm going to tell you, I suppose it is because I've seen you give really thoughtful advice to people before? Anyway, the thing is, I've been dating this wonderful boy for a year and a half, and we're super happy about our relationship. The way in which he declared himself was beautiful, and I love him to bits. The thing is, we have this friend in common (we belong with a group of 11-12 friends, all of us studying at the same university) cont.

-cont (2/?) sorry for bothering you- and there's this girl in my friend group which I consider a really good friend, but lately I have been realising strange behaviours from her part: the day after my boyf and I started dating, she called me ugly crying because "she was so envious and she really wanted to have what I had", and I took it only as a sign of her mental health acting up on her (she has really strong self-steem issues) but lately things have been getting worse

-cont (3/?)- because she won't stop commenting on my appearance (I'm as tall as my boyfriend and overweight, while he's a slender, beautiful boy) and sending veiled messages about how I /need/ to get in shape (she's blonde and thin and has blue eyes and it's a really pretty girl), or about how I can't "stand physical activity". She won't stop telling my boyfriend things like "you're my best friend, I really love you" and won't stop touching him, or at least trying to -cont-

-cont (4/?)- because my boyfriend sometimes looks daggers at her when she behaves like this. When I'm not around because I need to stay at home for whatever reason, she tells him things like "I can be your girlfriend tonight" and she won't STOP TALKING BADLY ABOUT ME TO MY OWN BOYFRIEND, no matter how hard he tries to tell her to stop doing that. I've thought about this for a long time and I thought that is was all a product of my own insecurities -cont-

-cont (5/?)- and that I was seeing things where there really were none because she is pretty and thin and gorgeous and I'm fatter and less beautiful than her (at least by social standards?) BUT I'm usually not this insecure about my own appearance (I love my face and think I have gorgeous hair and I can rock some gorgeous outfits, I tell you) and her attitude is really wearing on me, and I'm really short-tempered and I'm doing a tremendous effort trying not to say anything mean to her -cont-

-cont (6/?)- because I know she has issues, but I can't stand it when she tries to make me look bad and not deserving of my boyfriends love and affection towards me. I know he loves me very much, and I him, and I'm not worried at all about our relationship, but this girl belongs in our friend group, and I don't want to break the friendship we all have built over the years because of this, but I'm really tired of her constant behaviour towards me, always criticising and playing me down -cont-

-cont (7/7)- and trying to make me look bad in front of my boyfriend and trying to flirt with him. I'm really tired, and I don't know if I should say anything to her, because she has had problems with a few friends outside our circle and she always plays the victim, and I don't want that, so I'm really lost and my boyfriend and I really don't know what to do about her attitude, but we're really exhausted of all this shit. Sorry for venting on you, I just needed and outsider's perspective I guess

Okay, I’m starting to reply to this even though you’re not done writing, but this needs immediate attention. 

That girl is! not! your! friend!!! Like she doesn’t even get a side of the story here because what you’re describing is not acceptable from any angle. There is no universe in which her issues, whatever they may be, can excuse this behavior. Like I don’t even know where to start. Everything you’ve said about this scenario is wrong. It is absolutely never okay for her to do any of those things.

I want to be nice and thoughtful here, and that would make me want you to tell you to talk to her, but honestly, what she’s done is not excusable. She is a terrible person, and I don’t think there’s any coming back from that kind of behavior. So kudos to you for holding back and trying to think of her, but you’ve done enough. Get her out of both of your lives. If the rest of your friends in your group have eyes and ears, they’ve probably noticed her behavior and will likely understand your point of view. If they don���t, then they’re not your real friends either and it doesn’t matter if they don’t stick by you and you deserve better friends. 

Seriously. You deserve to live a life where someone pretending to be your friend isn’t being absolutely horrid to you about you while trying to steal your boyfriend. None of this is acceptable. 

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I don't know what parts exactly you & the anons are talking about, I'm not asking to agree or disagree I just like reading different POVs over writing and execution. That being said what parts of Ed's writing/execution (recent examples or not) you find weak, repetitive, unimaginative (that's your main complains I guess)? & that Maxine writer, I'm not qualified & informed enough to judge her as an overall writer, so what's her weakness as a writer iyo? In general I enjoy reading critiques.

Under the cut because asking me about this kind of thing almost always guarantees an essay. Also, big spoiler warning! 

My main complaint actually tends to be the writing overall as opposed to a lack of creativity - you can use the same idea multiple times, but you need to make sure that it’s different in its own way as well. Emmerdale thinks that this can be achieved simply by swapping out characters (usually for ones that are similar) which obviously couldn’t be further from the truth.

Like I’ve mentioned before, I find their only strength when it comes to writing is drama, and it’s a) not much of a strength considering how they execute things, and b) what you’d already expect of a soap opera in the first place. So it’s no surprise that whenever they try to write for another sub-genre, it always goes terribly wrong. Just take a look at the “Whodunnit” we’ve been forced to endure for the past three months.

There’s not exactly much to pinpoint, because I think virtually everything they do is weak, repetitive, poorly executed or all three. Their overall strength tends to lay with characterization and character interactions, but even that can go pear-shaped sometimes. (See: Chrissie’s personality transplant.) And usually that’s when Emmerdale are unable to think of another way to get from Point A to Point B. I, personally, thought this was the case last Thursday during the bridge scenes when they needed to go from Moira trying to convince Emma  not to jump (Point A) to Emma being pushed (Point B).

When it comes to execution, I can obviously only judge from the standpoint of a viewer. I haven’t taken a media course in my life, so I suppose you could argue that I don’t understand the difficulty of executing/producing a soap - especially with a budget. But I feel that Emmerdale’s biggest issue with execution, is that they don’t take the time to properly visualize beforehand what they’re trying to achieve. 

Visualizing goes a long way - I do it all the time for my writing, even though there will never be a visual representation of it - and it can help with planning angles, character positions, actions, zoom and panning etc. Of course, that’s only me talking about execution from a visual perspective. I take much more issue with execution in terms of writing/storyline - where a storyline’s going to go, what’s going to come of it, what the consequences will be etc.

Anyone who’s ever looked at my blog knows how much I’ve hated this Emma storyline, in spite of it having lots of potential and Emma being my favorite character. And the main reason was because it was poorly executed, especially for what it was advertised as - a mystery. Of course, I know a “Whodunnit” is never intended to be quite like a mystery. But that’s the way Emmerdale were playing it, and they failed to deliver. Massively. 

Mysteries are all about clues, and suspects, and going through the mystery at the same pace as the detectives - that’s what makes it immersive. You can feel like you’re solving the mystery alongside everyone else. The issue Emmerdale had was that they gave you everything right away. You knew who all of the suspects were, you knew their motives, and you knew roughly where they all were at the time of Emma’s murder. (Excluding Gabby, because not even the writers knew where she was apparently.)

That’s not a mystery. That’s not really even a “Whodunnit” because you’ve already got the answer - it was one of those 7. And if you wanted to take the time to go over the possibilities, it was easy to knock that number down to 3. (You remove Pete, Ross and Cain from the equation, as the likely suspects, and you remove Adam who was blatantly going to be the scapegoat.) I went a step further and removed Laurel, because I knew she was going to be alibied by Bob long before it happened, which was how I knew it would be Moira so many weeks before it was revealed.

This year’s SSW had a similar problem when it came to execution. The visual execution was stunning for once. The pacing and everything else? Sadly not  so much. Everything happened too quickly, which left far too much room for fallout and nowhere near enough for suspense. It was akin to a rollercoaster with a single drop at the beginning, and then just a flat track for the rest of the ride. The other problem it had, was lack of reason. Or, rather, one scene of lack of reason that was a set-up for a major plot point and thus left a bad taste in my mouth for the rest of the week.

I ranted about it at the time, but I had massive issues with Adam’s reaction to Emma saving Moira from the barn fire. Massive issues. Why? Because it was an unfounded reaction, and so painfully clearly the reaction he had to have in order for the episode to progress the way it did. 

Finn got shot because Emma had a shotgun. Emma had a shotgun because she was being chased through the woods by Adam, who she wrestled it off of. (Which is… something in and of itself.) Adam was chasing her through the woods with a shotgun because somehow he just knew she’d started the fire (which she didn’t so… there’s that, too) and tried to kill his mom.

Problem is… he had no reason, whatsoever, to make such a hostile assumption right off the bat. The scenario looked exactly how Emma described it to him upon being questioned - she’d just pulled them both from the burning barn and helped to deliver the baby. Like, that’s exactly how it looked and anyone else would’ve believed that story for that reason alone. Adam, as far as I’m aware, had no reason at the time to believe she would do something like that. And so you get an entire death, set of events and reaction based on lack of reason alone. 

But… that’s off-topic. Mostly.

When it comes down to repetitiveness and lack of creativity, it’s just staring right back at you from the second you sit down to watch an episode. You’ve got the contrived love-triangles playing on a loop, crawling out of the woodwork one right after the other even when they’re not needed or are completely out of the blue. Right now we’re preparing for a near-identical reiteration of what we just had wrapped up.

The Bartons get wiped out one-by-one, leaving two survivors - the sons, Ross and Pete. Up next, we have the Whites getting wiped out one-by-one, leaving two survivors - the sons, Sebastian and Lachlan. (Only difference is they’re not brothers.) There’s even a car-crash in both! Who’d have thunk it? 

Of course there’s a chance that Rebecca might pull through and survive the White Massacre of ‘18, but it’s not looking likely if this storyline goes in the direction it’s so obviously pointing towards. (Unless she does a Chrissie and gets a new personality; guess we’ll have to wait on more spoilers to find out.)

There’s a good difference to the stories overall - one involved murder, the other will (likely) be a tragic accident - but the core layout is the same, and I personally don’t think they should air this storyline so soon after the Emma one due to that. Also, let’s not get me started on how they’ve really been overusing the death element lately. Depending on how soon they air the White storyline, we’ve literally just watched Finn and Emma die - twice in the latter’s case. 

I’ve mentioned in the past how they tier their characters, which definitely adds to the repetitiveness as you get the same core faces showing up. Bob is finally getting something to do, but it’s long overdue - then you’ve got characters like Sam, Lydia, Megan, the Sharmas (where’s Priya been lately?) etc. who just fade into the background and then you’re like “oh!” when they suddenly show up again. 

Mostly it’s the constant love-triangles and romance storylines going on at once that make the show seem too contrived, repetitive and unoriginal. Right now, all at once, you’ve got:

Chas/Paddy/Rhona

Alex/Aaron/Robert

Vanessa/Charity

Leyla/David/Tracy

Debbie/Tom

Harriet/Cain/Moira

That’s six romance plots at once, and four of them are love triangles. (Not to mention that I’m sure I’ve missed at least one.) I’m not saying they’re all bad on their own - Aaron/Alex is good once you kick Robert out of the picture, and Charity/Vanessa has been a thrill to watch after such a lack of wlw material on the show - but you don’t need that many central romance storylines going on at once. You certainly don’t need four love triangles happening in unison, like… holy shit?

But that’s enough about me and my burning hatred for love triangles/contrived romances, so we’ll move onto Maxine. Now… I won’t claim to know all of her episodes, but the ones I have seen of hers definitely point to her being a weak link. I know, for starters, that she’s responsible for a lot of Rbrn episodes, which is enough said really. But she also wrote last Thursday’s flashback episodes which were… god awful. I doubt the storyline overall was solely her doing, but she did a terrible job of executing it.

She also wrote two of SSW’s episodes (the 5th and the 6th I believe?) at the end of that week. The writing was incredibly flat in spite of the opportunities, and that right there is what I believe to be her weakness. Now I’m not saying I’m a good writer or anything - because trust me, I’m not - but I could definitely do better than she did with the opportunities/material she had. She’s also the one, going by those four episodes alone, who seems to struggle with keeping certain characters in line with their personalities. (Seemed pretty prominent in all of the Bartons imo.)

At any rate… I know I complain a lot, but not everything about Emmerdale is necessarily bad. They write some decent stuff occasionally, such as Rhona’s rape storyline, I love a lot of the actresses, and character relationships. There is some great visual execution sometimes, and a lot of opportunity/potential even if they do fail to utilize it 95% of the time. 

It’s just that the bad outweighs the good, and it’s particularly noticeable on this show of all shows. It annoys me, quite a lot, that these people are professional writers and yet a lot of the stuff they produce is still, well... a mess to put it slightly nicer than I originally did. But hopefully that answers your question, most likely in more detail than you’d have liked asdfghjk.

[emilemily]

Oh my God. I can't even believe when I found out last night. So. I now know things that should probably make me angry, but instead just confuse the shit out of me and also make me laugh a little bit. Okay. Last night, I went out to have drinks after work with my co-workers and my roommate. Dude had to work later because he had some late tables, so I told him that I would just wait for him to get out since we get drinks really close to work. I usually always walk there at night after I get off.

Anyway, I sat there and had about four vodka cranberries with my friend Laura. I then walked outside and I was sitting on the bench talking to Laura and this dude that she brought home from the bar I week ago. Dude from work walks up, he looked like he'd had a bad night so I bought him a beer. He downs it quickly, and then drives me back to my apartment. My friend from work tags along with us and Laura rides in the car with the other guy.

We get back to the apartment and I take a shower and quickly get dressed, while I do this, dude waits outside on the couch. Eventually we leave when we head back to his place, and I'm already six drinks in and I'm feeling pretty good. So I am sitting with him on the bed and we're just talking. Chatting about our night talking about our coworkers, just shooting the shit.

All of the sudden, he grabs my bottle of whiskey and takes a shot. He then lays down and pulls me down onto his chest. He starts to stroke my hair and I can tell that something seems wrong, so I ask him if he's okay. He tells me no I'm not I'm so stressed out I've so much on my mind. I tell him that I'm here for him and that things will always get better. He's very vague about his life so I never quite know what he's stressing over. I just try to get his mind off of it to help in some way.

Anyway, I then tell him to talk to me because I can tell that he needs to. He tells me that he's just done so many bad things in life and if I knew about it, all of it, he doesn't know how I would take it.

At this point, I'm a little worried that maybe he murdered somebody or worse... If there is worse. He looks at me and then turns away from me for a minute and puts a pillow over his face. It's almost as if he wants me to guess. So I start to name numerous scenarios that seem a little crazy. I know for a fact that he was unfaithful in his marriage, so I named out the craziest thing that I can possibly think of. "Did you fuck your wifes mom?"

I was just being facetious, but I was extremely shocked to hear him defeatedly say yes. It turns out that he was fucking his wife's mother for 4 years. While they were married. And his wife only found out 2 days ago. Now, their marriage is over. She moved in with her boyfriend last week to a new home. What I don't understand is how she never figured out that her husband was fucking her mother until way after the fact.

I also don't really know how I should feel in this situation, as I was not involved at the time and it didn't have anything to do with me. I mean, it's a little bit despicable... But at the same time, I know how terrible his wife was to him so I find it hard to truly fault him for seeking out something nice elsewhere. But, did it have to be her mother, though? It feels like I'm in an episode of Jerry Springer or possibly a lifetime movie.

You're welcome.