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bonicedemandarina · 1 month ago

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Jinx and Isha bc I think they're neat, it was supposed to be a quick doodle but it got out of hand very quickly

#Ignore the background. I tried and fought for like 7 hours and then lost #Surprisingly this time I didn't have issues drawing the hair so that's good #Also bc all my pain and suffering went into THAT DAMN BACKGROUND GOD IT TOOK FOREVER #it was supposed to be messy but I kept redefining details and uuuuughhhh #but whatever who cares I'm not bitter #jinx arcane #jinx fanart #jinx and isha #isha arcane #isha and jinx #Arcane #Arcane s2 #arcane season two #I've been trying to get rid of this style of rendering bc I'm not vibing with it anymore but I'm too used to it so it's hard idk #basically it looked better with just the flat colors but then again. Took too long to let that effort go to waste yk #i drew something #id in alt text #alt text

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hoofpeet · 1 year ago

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I'd probably have to read the printed version and web version back to back at some point to note all the differences but... ough

#sorry i'm going to be excited about this comic for the next month #nofna #okay having finished this now--#and sorry if this doesn't make sense to anyone who's completely unfamiliar with this comic in advance-#the 'popcorn ending' (printed version) is nice to see but i think the web version hits harder. if that makes sense #so i'm kinda tied on which ending i 'prefer'- i think both are good though #also considering i've read the web version a good 4-5 times and the printed version only once- i probably can't make that judgement yet #easy answer- i do like Nutsedge :] so it's nice to see the ending where nothing bad happens to her #but also- NT suddenly becoming a greenie-esque villain out of nowhere felt a little jarring #as well as SV suddenly turning a corner and becoming a 'good guy' (arguable)- considering the first three books are about #/him being too stubborn to change or accept any outside worldviews . Him suddenly coming to his senses felt out of place #<- probably biased because i like characters being bitter to the end and ultimately destroyed by their own hubris #the web version is probably‚ objectively‚ a bit better #but -#(spoilers- if you're planning to drop ~70 bucks on getting these books)#the conceit of SV actually perfecting his style‚ using it once‚ and then immediately getting tooth-brained- was pretty cool #assuming it's meant to parallel him spending months tormented by trying to perfect it while something's still missing-#and then dying before he can narrate it to the audience‚ so that we never know what he figured out.#hard to articulate these thoughts but tl;dr- popcorn ending also had a lot to think about

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necrotic-nephilim · 6 months ago

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What's so fun about BruJay as a ship is Jason's sheer obsessive devotion to Bruce. Jason is possessive over Bruce, to the point he doesn't care about the deaths of others so long as he has Bruce's attention. A part of the UTRH arc this isn't talked about enough is that Bludhaven fucking explodes mid-way and Jason won't let Bruce see if Dick is alive.

batman (1940) #650

A lot of discussion about UTRH paints Jason as this anger-driven cold, calculating machine up against Bruce when it's so clear that his love for Bruce is what drives him at his root, even if he won't acknowledge it. He says it himself, he would've done anything if it was Bruce who'd died instead of him and his anger is rooted in that possessive devotion not being reciprocated.

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BruJay as a ship always to be, to some level, unrequited. Even if Bruce loves Jason back in that way, he'll never be that obsessed with Jason. Jason will always view Bruce's love for Dick or Tim to be a distraction, proof that Bruce isn't dedicated enough to him. Jason has the need to always have Bruce's attention, even when it could come at the cost of Bruce's other loved ones. Something something cannibalism as a metaphor for love in how Jason wants to consume Bruce's whole existence. He can't let Bruce leave him again, can't let Bruce love or grieve anyone else. Forcing Bruce to choose between Jason and the Joker isn't just about confronting Jason's killer, it's about confronting the other person who exists as this duality with Bruce and consumes so much of Bruce's life. That's the role Jason wants to fill, calling himself Red Hood and forcing Bruce to look at what he's become. But still loving Bruce and wanting more than anything for Bruce to reciprocate that love in the way that Jason understands. I just think it's good soup and rife with Dynamics that are underexplored with them.

#necrotic festerings #brujay #jaybruce #jaybru #jason todd x bruce wayne #batcest #i've had this thought in my head for a while #i was just weirdly shy about posting it? like convinced myself it's not as verbose as some of my other thoughts #also GOD why is the art of this arc SO BAD.#i can't take it SERIOUSLY #i hate looking at it.#the faces. why are the faces like that.#brujay needs more love bc jesus #gotham war had some good brujay content but i am still too bitter to discuss that shitshow. so. ignoring it for now.#bruce changing jason's brain chemistry as an act of love is the most FUCKED UP brujay thing ever tho #it's so Them.#sorry that is just peak brujay. they are incapable of meeting in any middle and always trying to change each other.#maybe this meta should've been about that.#but then i'd have to use new-52 and rebirth panels so eh. nvmd.#this page makes it seem like i hate post-flashpoint comics. i don't i swear #they just interest me less for batcest.#like oh yay everyone's getting along and working together.#it only came at the expense of throwing away decades of character work. small sacrifice.#i need to stop posting meta at fucking 5 am.#no one is going to see this bc i can't be a normal person.#wrote this while watching invincible #which is pretty good so far but man the ending of ep1 clocked me. i was absolutely bamboozled.#i had something else i was going to say in the tags but i lost it.#anyway most of this is a ship post and projecting shit as per usual and yk. not serious comic media.#i'm just silly and gay.

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swan2swan · 3 months ago

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Sammy's wrangling the kids again...

#you know what woulda been great?#if there'd been a properly-edited and non-rushed and non-pandemic-crippled episode #where Sammy had been going off hot and Darius was trying to calm her down #woulda been great to parallel with this #especially if it wasn't the sloppiest part of the prior series #sammy gutierrez #darius bowman #jwct #chaos theory #yeah I'm very bitter #but also the point remains that this is a bit of a callback....#also I love that Sammy's assertive now #MAYBE A LITTLE TOO MUCH SO #but contrast this to her reluctance to ruffle feathers in the gang before

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throughpatchesofviolet · 22 days ago

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I brought in some homemade peanut butter fudge for my coworkers, today, as well as some ornaments as little holiday gifts, and everyone who saw me expressed appreciation ... it felt really nice, I won't lie. Just ... to do something small for others like this. And I've been noticing that whenever I reach out and try to help or comfort or offer something to someone else, it makes me feel a bit better.

I think sending out tree messages yesterday had a similar effect, and helping the kiddos on Thursday with building gingerbread houses and making shakers for their sing-a-long. It's hard to put into words, but it feels like I'm finally coming out of the funk I've been in, and it's because I'm choosing to be kind in spite of everything I'm going through.

#I think it's fair to say 2024 was really hard on me ... but I'm glad I'm ending it on a strong note #we still have a ways to go before the new year‚ but I feel happier than I have in a long time #and I'm going to choose to be kind and positive rather than letting myself constantly stew in bitterness #I'll be doing my best to sort out this blog before the new year comes‚ but I won't try to do more than I can realistically do #also I wanted to say thank you to you guys‚ again /gen #I haven't been the most active here but it means a lot that you're all still here #I'm very slowly allowing myself to enjoy things again and express the same passion I did in the past #so hopefully I'll seriously get back into posting about my ships and Project Moon stuff soon #I have many thoughts and opinions--as usual /lh #I also want to start replaying Linbus from the beginning ... I think it's time to take a crack at rewriting it with Sherry as a Sinner #I'm going to try and finish reading Red Chamber‚ first‚ though--because I think I want to liveblog things when I replay #just share it with you guys ... I want you to know why I love it and the characters so much--and also why I dislike certain characters #okay--this got long‚ but I do seriously feel a lot better #and the fact it's on RolEva anniversary too ... perhaps I will finally post about them again #scattered pages

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found--family · 10 months ago

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am i the only one who sensed some jilted lover vibes from jensen?

#burcon #cockles #thoughts #at the start of the panel and through a few particular interactions he seemed very standoffish #he was giving a little bitter and hurt and perhaps even resentful - maybe he only learned of misha's gf #at this con too! maybe it was news to him. on top of not seeing misha for months i can understand #if he was feeling a bit neglected and out of the loop. there's also the matter of misha's gf not being #in a poly thing with jensen and dee like vicki was ie. what she has with misha is seperate so i'm sure #that's another difficult thing to deal with knowing their time together is strictly separate #i've no doubt he wants misha to have a partner and be happy but there's an adjustment period #letting new people into your life and whoever misha's partner is now or in the future is going to #affect jensen on a personal level and moreover his relationship with misha. it's all very intriguing #and while i like what little i've seen and heard about this woman for misha i just think no matter who #she is it's going to take a toll on jensen's relationship w misha. i thought it was plain to see on jensen's face #during their panel: numerous moments where he was giving a poker face that wasn't covering a laugh #but instead like he was trying to smooth out his bitterness. or so my eyes and brain and heart tell me.#just various moments where things looked uncomfortable and jensen making off-colour jokes that didn't land #and which furthermore were barbed and snarky - not in their usual banter way but like he was lashing out #and using the excuse of chaotic panel convo to explain away his comedic pitfalls. but again maybe i'm #looking to much into it? idk. there are some lovely moments! fun and caring moments - but they #mainly came from misha's direction ngl. it seemed like misha was trying hard to keep the peace #while jensen was just running his mouth on comments and jokes that kept not landing - for me #everyone on my dash is loving their dynamic this panel - and i want to feel that love! it is possible that #learning misha has a gf has skewed my perception a little like i'm putting context onto moments #i otherwise wouldn't. but i also think i would've laughed and generally felt better watching their panel #if that was the case. idk. whatever the reason i do think something was OFF between them on stage #and it was coming from jensen from the start. misha picked up on it partway though but things felt #a little strained throughout. like jensen wasn't looking at misha as much as usual or reaching out for him #misha tried to salvage and not react to things. but both their answers to the last Q were passive aggressive af #and when they left the stage together they weren't close or touching or chatting like they usually are...

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keeps-ache · 3 months ago

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buttered noodles 💫💛🍜

#just me hi #it's just a Lot of butter cuz i don't like having pasta sauce w/ parmesan (something wrong w/ that idk hfbshv) so :3 #i was thinking of putting garlic in it but idk if that would be good... do i wanna take the risk.. i mean you can't really go wrong with #garlic... Hmmmm....#//oh yea i am definitely gonna switch up my main blog theme ehe :3 #and maybe my rb blog's theme too cuz i liked it when the colours were matching lol #maaaybe to blue.. i don't remember if i've ever had a blue theme so this might be the first blue theme ehe :3 #i just like to have an Image for the banner so i need to figure out what i'd like that to be.. hmnmnmnmnm!#//alright you know what i'm gonna put garlic in this one second lolll #okay i put black pepper and garlic in it's not too bad :)#prolly shoulda put more salt in too cuz i'm craving it. salt <3 #/having spaghetti cuz the meal is actually supposed to be eggs and i cannot have that lol #some people are upset about this! like my dad. and my brother who is making the food lmfsh #i didn't know food was being made i am innocent in this !! probably anyway #like nobody is more displeased by this than me dude. i wish people could actually like. describe what some foods taste like so that i could #actually see why they like them #but you ask and they say 'what are you talking about? it's just egg' but 'Just Egg' SUCKS dude what is Your Egg like. pretty please kfshvjg #and grapefruit? grapefuit sucks but my mom likes it and i can't understand Why #and i wanna ask what it's actually like and why she likes it but she only says 'idk it's good with salt' what does that MEAN #how does the taste change?? how would you describe it before that ? clearly it was good enough before the salt or you wouldn't have tried i #with that!! i just wanna know !!!!!#dark chocolate ?? Please ??? do you like the taste of restrained anger and resentment cuz that's what it tastes like lmao ???#Coffee ??????? i can't understand coffee without a bajillion tons of sugar (+ other things) masking the taste how do you. Deal #not even deal- Enjoy !! how are you enjoying it !!! Why !!!! and why does everyone think i'm trying to convince them it's bad when i ask #LMAO--#like i'm not trying to say it's bad i'm trying to figure out how it's good please. Please Man lmfvshjfvhgfks #okay so clearly i have thoughts on all that LMfvshgjhfs #bitter stuff sucks and i barely like sour stuff Sometimes. food is all around good though so lol 👍#//alr i'm gonna. [starts scooching away]#i am almost out of tags (rip unlimited tags i miss you so bad hfsvh <3) edit: i ran out LMFVHS ; TOODLES !!

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everysongineverykey · 2 years ago

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and for my next trick i present... my Grand Tv People Freakout Extravaganza!!! *falls to the floor weeping violently*

#the owl house #toh raeda #raine whispers #eda clawthorne #i swear to god they're going to kill me. they're going to kill me. falls onfloor #you do everything you can to keep your beloved from finding out your secret thinking they will surely hate you but they end up leaving you #for doing just that #and then thirty years later they lie to you about being brainwashed and pretend not to recognize you #to keep you safe so they say #but you look into their eyes and all you see is that younger you staring back at you!!!#the one who loved them so much she forced the feathers and claws back down into her skin to keep them with her and didn't even succeed!#and you think: i thought we were past this. i thought you said i should have known better.#but when it comes down to it you both just want to keep the other safe more than anything. because maybe you still love each other #underneath the years of loneliness and bitterness. and maybe the thought of looking them in the eyes #and just saying 'i'm sorry. i was wrong. i miss you. i love you. can we try again?'#is too frightening for that prideful earnest loving yet cowardly and broken girl inside you.#and the thought of admitting you have made them change their mind is too painful for your beloved #who has resigned themself to always standing there and watching as you go and destroy yourself while cracking a joke.#anyway. heehoo funny owl show

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sskk-manifesto · 6 months ago

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#Fifteen episode 2. Mmmmmmhhhhhh #The animation quality DOES get worse. This episode shows it lol #So many static frames stretching for so long... I feel so sorry for the animators.#I still stand by the fact that if studios can't provide enough budget or time to their animators seasons simply shouldn't be released.#But after all who am I to talk...#The scene of Dazai shooting at the soldier makes my blood freeze. Rimbaud throwing books in the fire is equally upsetting #Like I /know/ it's an anime about literature with constant metafiction references–#and that this too has a symbolic meaning and is *supposed* to be upsetting but that said.#Seeing whole books being thrown in the fire is such a disturbing sight that calls for such a visceral response in me 😭😭😭#The amv opening is nice! Makes me even more bitter about season 5 one lmao. Of the kind #“not only we had to get a amv opening (((while we deserved a wholly ss/kk focused opening)))‚ we even got a bad amv ending at that”#Mmmmhhhh I hateeeeeee how they handled the Sheep 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Seriously this is just another bug instance of #“me and the author have WHOLLY different views of what human nature is like”#I just... Don't think... Children joining together in an hostile environment would act like that. I'm so much more of a t/pn kind of guy.#Children who come together to survive would protect each other and especially would trust each other. Why is there such a big lack of trust #Why doesn't Shirase trust Chuuya? Why doesn't Chuuya trust Shirase (with handling more information)? It's just dumb #It's dumb. It sounds stupid from the very plot aspect that Chuuya would act so shady and suspicious with the Sheep instead of being open–#about what his course of action is. It's like he was trying to have them turn on him. It's stupid of Shirase to mistrust Chuuya–#when in eight years he never gave them any reason to doubt of him.#And I know right as I'm writing this that someone is going to read it and think “you're completely missing on the unbalance of power that–#creates these dynamics of lack of trust” but the thing is exactly that I don't see why that unbalance of power would ever come to be!#They're all just kids. They're aware of that. If Chuuya never had malicious intentions towards Shirase‚ I don't see why he would ever fear–#his betrayal. Likewise‚ I don't see why Shirase and the other Sheep members would ever be so manipulative and disrespectful towards–#Chuuya if he's been nothing but kind to them (and we have no reason to think otherwise)?#It all comes down to: I think people are inherently good and willing to help each other. The author thinks not lmao. It is what it is #But I wish you could see t/pn. Where kids are constantly trying to outwit each other in order to OUT-SACRIFICE THEMSELVES for the others lo #I love t/pn it's my life... I miss it #random rambles #And if anyone would like to argue that Dazai specifically set them off to betray each other... Yes I DO understand that's what the story–#is suggesting. I just don't think Dazai - for how good. and infallible he is - is enough to scrape long-term relationships of trust.

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thesmokinpossum · 5 days ago

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I don't want to delete IG per say, I just want an option that allows me to get a tiny electric shock every time I open it to remember that I really shouldn't be on this godforsaken app

#nothing makes me feel black pilled more than spending litterally 2 minutes on ig #but does that keep me from going on it? unfortunately no #i'll try not to do it too much in 2025 tho i'm already bitter enough

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entropii · 2 years ago

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This scene got to me this most recent playthrough 🧍

#the northern passage #tnp mc #my art #riven lai #don't look too closely at me i'm emotional 🧍#idk idk thinking about that tnp lunar new year post thinking about that one moment where the hunter gets a little bitter that #lea gets to have friends and family #thinking about that one sketch i did of riven wearing a full set of hanfu for the first time #thinking about how foreign they feel in it about how it reminds them of their mother who they probably can't recall the face of and #of a sibling they can't remember the name of #thinking about them getting that flash of memory about a dice game they can't remember how to play #and trying to find a set of dice for it but not remembering the name and having to resort to describing the pictograms to someone instead #thinking about the possibility of a younger lai deciding 'that's not my name anymore' because it reminds them of home (?) but they #can't bring themself to give it up entirely so they use it as their surname instead #thinking about them thinking about how their mother called them leoi leoi sometimes and #believing that probably no one's going to call them that again

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help-me-find-a-name-please-lol · 1 month ago

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i have depriving myself down to an art form

#why am i like this??#why do I keep breaking my own heart?#apparently I've also got to finish the job by posting into the abyss #wish someone would fix me cos this cycle ain't stopping #(missed out on adopting yet another rescue dog I had my heart set on)#i should be fine with this cos I said I wanted to give a home to a dog who had trouble finding one #or who would struggle with inexperienced owners #and this dog was rehomed in just days so he clearly didn't need me #but after the extreme grief of losing my last dog to cancer it's been really hard for me to find a dog I'm ready to commit to #(especially in my town cos I'm just not a staffy/pig dog person and that's 99.99% of dogs here)#and I don't know when it's going to happen again #I finally got ready to hit that button to enquire and then got the news on page reload. it hurts #the other dog I like is too far away to meet and would hate the 2-day car ride back.#he's been getting overlooked for too long. but he's also like 30+kg which dramatically increases his ongoing cost of care #and I'm still trying to find work. (I could have afforded looking after the little guy inc. in any emergencies with my savings)#anyway I have to pick myself up cos my nieces have asked me to [“help them”] train their big unruly dog #that it was 100% irresponsible of my sister to get #but as usual she gets to have whatever she wants and everyone else has to pick up the pieces #and then I get to hate myself for growing bitter from being responsible and caring about the situation I put others in (ppl and dogs)#anyway gonna go cry myself to sleep #maybe one day I'll get sane and stop my belief in “signs from the universe” to guide me re: whether it's ok to let myself have something #(after I've done the logic math)

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1randomperson15 · 11 months ago

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I am. in my feelings today about the dsmp cc drift. Did it have to turn out this way? Was there another option? Was this inevitable? I don't think that anyone's really happy about how things turned out, but I don't think we can ever go back. Man...

#dsmp #yea I'm fucking main tagging #I can mourn friendships #that fell apart under the harsh scrutiny of millions of people #I'm so so bitter #I try not to be #y'know I try to move on #I still kinda keep up with what q's doing #what dream's doing #vaguely #I'm not too into any of them anymore but I watch and accept that things can't go back to the way they were but #I miss it so bad #when they were all friends #george's video was a gut punch #I hate what it's become #I hate that nobody learned shit #every community hates another one #all the fucking interfighting #all the superiority complexes #you know how parasocial some people are to creators whose content they've never watched #you know how many people I see celebrating or hoping for so and so's downfall #you know how much bad faith exists #I have no doubt there were some personal issues that came into play for the drift #but #I think it's pretty undeniable that the absolute horrid behavior of some in the community played a role in all of it #y'know I bet I'm not the only one #I bet Tubbo Fundy and Sam got to bond over redstone back in the day #I know dream mentored tommy when he was still up and coming #bad is undoubtedly stuck between friends #cont. in replies bc apparently there's a tag limit now :D

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pastafossa · 1 year ago

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I'm going to be really sad about losing a bunch of my art supplies/pieces so if that's not your thing, feel free to scroll by.

Nothing like going out to the garage to get some wood for your upcoming projects only to find there had been a leak, water pooled on the floor beneath the boxes in your work area, and had ruined a bunch of the wood you'd been painstakingly collecting for carving for years.

The irony: most of the wood that was ok? Common basswood that's easily replaced. It was mostly my rarer woods that were ruined.

Cherry, maple, walnut, cedar, buckeye. Woods with beautiful grains. Precious butternut that's going extinct. Gifts from my wood carving teacher and mystery wood castoffs from other woodworkers who didn't need them. Odd shapes and pieces I had plans for. Gone. Everything in this pic, from what's inside the box to what's in the can (some of which can't be seen) had to be tossed due to mold from the water damage. You can't put a price on this wood emotionally. I literally just want to cry. Fucking years, some of them already partly carved and I just hadn't had time to finish them since moving here.

The only silver lining I can think of is that I have another box of wood in the house, with some rarer woods in it. But this still really, really hurts.

#i saved what i could including wood where there was only a tiny bit of mold and damage #that i could cut off with my knife or clean #but all the pieces here were too damaged and they had to be tossed #i've collected this wood for years and you can't just buy more #some were gifts and some were chunks of wood i've been drying for s few years so i could carve it #some were half finished pieces i just hadn't gotten back around to yet #some i'd saved because they were pretty and i didn't know what i wanted it for yet but i'd figure it out #i'm trying to hold onto the wood i did manage to save but i'm bitter it's mostly basswood which is easy to find #7 pieces of rarer wood saved. just 7 #out of roughly 60 pieces large and small in that box #i am fucking heartbroken

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cementcornfield · 20 days ago

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out of curiosity do you follow any hockey teams/players? hope you’ve been having a lovely day also <3

i'm gonna be honest, the only hockey player that exists to me is tyler seguin because of the Body Issue shoot, That Tweet, and he's very, very attractive.

but other than that, no, i'm not really into it!

#i'll be honest i have a love/hate thing going on #the fic is SO good even if you have no idea who these guys are #like it's incredible. the hockey fic writer thing is a joke on this website at this point but it's also not a joke #so many good stories by a bunch of very talented writers!#sometimes when i'm out of football things to read (very often the case!) but still want a sports fic #i'll just go find a random one on ao3 and am often satisfied #(until i look up the guys lol. i'm sorry. there are so few hockey players that are attractive to me)#but then like. i also get insanely petty and bitter about it #because WHERE are these incredible fic writers for my sport?? my ship??#(not to dismiss the amazing fic writers we DO have. but there are so few 😔)#we have Narratives we have Lore we have Gorgeous Guys trying to kill each other too!!#but it's like....i'm pretty sure i know why hockey is the most popular sport on tumblr and ao3 #(it being. you know. the whitest sport.)#and that's not to diminish it as a sport or as a fandom! talented great people in it! many beloved friends and mutuals!#and i know there IS a growing overlap between hockey fans and football fans and i'm thrilled about it!#but like. to even that balance out. i don't feel like i need to actually get into it.#sorry! more than you wanted probably!#but yeah. not really into it. do enjoy the fics though when i come across them!#and i'm sure there are many ships my mutuals are into that i would be into as well #if i wasn't so trapped by my own current obsessions!#i hope you're having a lovely day as well <3 <3

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fembot-y2k · 25 days ago

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The bottom dysphoria is real and permanent

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