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Oscar looking smaller than Lando doesn't happen a lot, but look how cute and tiny he is in his little hood :((
#big brother lil brother vibes are strong with this one#i'm still in my feels about yesterday#landoscar man... people will talk about them in the future#lando norris#oscar piastri#landoscar#mclaren f1#tiny oscar#my babies
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Owen Wilson and Tom Hiddleston in Midnight in Paris (2011) // Loki S02E01 (2023)
#lokius#midnight in paris#loki#mobius#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#mcuedit#lokiedit#CLENCHING MY FISTS#the full circle of it all... something something i was following you no i was following you oh i'm insane about them 😭😭#to think this is where they ended up all these years later#not only masters of their craft but with an appreciation of grabbing a slutty little waist that only comes with great cinema#you love to see it!#(also if you saw me first label the loki ep as airing in 2024 since it still feels like s2 was yesterday then shhhh no you didn't 🤣)#marvel#marveledit#owenwilsonedit#movieedit#dianagifs
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blessed be (lorscher bienensegen) | telling the bees (wiþ ymbe)
"Bees" [remixed, abridged], Claudia Emerson // "Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years from Now" [remixed. abridged], Matthew Olzmann // "Letter to my Great, Great Grandchild" [remixed, abridged], J.P. Grasser | Len Redkole, Nina Weiss, Brian Babineau, Christian Peterson, Mitchell Leff, Dave Isaac, Megan DeRuchie
#liv in the replies#if i were insane there would be an appendix to this called telling the bees however i finished this at 3am yesterday its nearly midnight &#my cutoff is when my ahl asg stream cuts. GOD by now i should know when i save a poem like hmm. not applicable but god it'd be perfect#THAT'S A CURSE. DON'T PUT IT IN THE DOCUMENT. DON'T SAVE IT. FORGET YOU READ IT. IT'S A CURSE!! <- things i should've told myself when i#went to read bees was already like 👀 &then the first line was FUCKING CLAUDE!!!!! anyway. sorry also this is like. insanely long but ALSO#regarding mf claude. the first picture is a leftover from the claude edit i made years ago so that feels GREAT and BEAUTIFUL & also for me#as ever y'all will be getting a full breakdown. starting with what i regularly have a breakdown about every time i see it which is joelle's#james 1:12 tattoo which if u use the king james version (gay) is blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test he#will receive the crown of life the lord has promised to those who love him. which i always go blessed is he who perseveres // for those who#love him. and that's joel. ignoring him getting it then getting sent down on his birthday IGNORING IT. also we know the frosty/maple leafs#hahaha fuck the flyers lore right? good. that's morgan and his dad also bc i love a baby picture & it was perfect. also the dave isaac pic#next was in an article talking about morgan 'stung' by draft camp. shut UP. i have an alt for tells him with claude and ALSO hate the#elephant w/phil bc myesie u fuckin leaf-eater (giraffe) but i love the composition of that jake shot & had to use it (it was also almost#tells him) with thylacine jakey frog nolan also raff the extinct whale bc i needed him here. if my editing on incapable of joy is bad no on#tell me i did some SHENANIGANS to put morgan in there & color-pick/alter his jersey. new skill. i think euphoria is one of my favorite for#the sake of pride night but ALSO that polaroid kills me very time &they're so stoners contemplate the universe but ALSO i love transcendenc#so that whole three photo string i think is my favorite. and i was in looking at these like listen okay it's okay there are only so many#photos in the world. you can repeat from others you've seen before. except ALSO there's so many of these freaks together do you separate#and every time i was like there can't be more there was more. don't ask the number of back-ups for the sweetest blossom/pinch/ruffle sets#okay also the ready to be stung one was a surprise favorite fit for me because i love that line but wasn't sure how to convey it? so it's o#i think with how morgan's face is and the almost of it all. yes joel hardest trier is in there purely for me i do have an alt but. how coul#u doubt him. insert sasha's tweet abt how much joel loves philly but all his quotes have been abt being excited for morgan to have a fresh#start. AND NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES IN CALGARY AND YOU'RE STILL INSEPARABLE god i literally googled frost farabee calgary to find the last#blessed [because. heard but not seen you know of everyone traded but you went together. not seen. (which ties into the terrible appendix)]#and IT DIDN'T EVEN TAKE ME TWO MINUTES TO FIND THAT!!! WHAT DO YOU MEANNN anyway. sorry again it's so long & also i will be vanishing a wee#& a half after posting [redacted] is kicking my ass & im doing [redacted fun things WAIT ACTUALLY U CAN KNOW ONE i'm seeing hippo campus]#morgan frost#joel farabee#philadelphia flyers#calgary flames
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Close ups on the pocket details!!! I'm SUPER happy w how the top pockets look 😳😳😳
I think the variety of pride pins with the moral panic button/Mr Faggot beadwork just. Really sells it. Shadow the Hedgehog voice Pee Your Pants. If you're going to be a shithead about me I'm going to be really annoying and do a bit about it. Plus the little golden angel pin... ALSO really pulls the whole thing together. "God help you" Right in front of my guardian angel? Really? 😒And how could I not make mention of. The Skull. I love you The Skull. It's a button (not sewn on yet, pinned) that I filled the details in w nail polish. Oh yeah! Besides the bottle cap pins (acrylics sealed with mod podge and a prayer), the biggest addition there is the chain lining the pocket flap! I think it looks SO SLICK
The pansy was gonna go on the queer side, but then I got the boutonniere idea! And I think it looks nice! Kinda adds to the asymmetry of the floral print/plaid blocking. And... of course.... I have... my friends...... 🥺 Biggest additions here are the glow-star pentagram pin, soda tabs and the heart locket!
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I don't really have many new additions to the bottom pockets. Not yet! The only thing I did was stitch one side of the handcuff chain, and rearrange the pins holding up the other side. The cuffs/scorpion was just an impulse addition before going to a concert. But I do like it! And it looks even better now! Meanwhile, that other pocket, I actually have no idea what I'll do. Sakura is just there cause she matches really well, esp w the angel pin actually!
#punk tag#diy punk#my projects#I FORGOT I USED THAT TAG .#also i AM gonna put patches on this thang I PROMISE. I WAS TOO SCARED LAST RUN. THIS RUN. WILL BE DIFFERENT.#again still waiting. but i really really wanted to show off/talk about the details!!!!!#i have sooooo many Thoughts behind this jacket like. an entire ideology. it almost feels like drag in a way#like! in the sense that there's a performance and art going on here. if my existence is inherently controversial#then i'm gonna lean into that. make you sit with that. and i'm NO LONGER CUTE ABOUT IT#<- guy who called himself cute yesterday bc I LOOKED REALLY GOOD. IT WAS AWESOME. OKAY#i forget i have a body and a face so much.#also! the cuffs!!! feel like a slight nod to the kink community. like. i really do feel like the demonization of kink#is the reason why so much. everything is so bad. i have thoughts about this but i can't fully articulate them rn#but like. points at the sign that says all queerness and esp queer expression is kink in the eyes of bigots#points at the sign that those are my friends you asshole. it might even be me. who knows....#any which way! really coming together! i do really need to get studs though i think. the. horrors.#and also i'll look sick as hell.#rn i feel it's... well. not exactly subtle but i am fortunate to live in a safe area. i live in mind your own business state.#not like. saying that to you i mean like that's the general attitude where i live LMFAOOO#the worst i've gotten is a lady saying 'god help you' to me in passing. and that was really recent#an indication of ohhh changing tides. unsettling. but also she couldn't even look me in the eye when she said that lmfao#any which way! i am thinking of my safety but also i do feel like i'm lucky enough to have time.#my jacket
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throws more squid art at you
listen to this,,!!!!!
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#oc // finch#squid#squid band#terrestrial changeover blues (2007 - 2012)#artists on tumblr#art#furry#sfw furry#my ocs#music#music art#starlingpaw's art#doodled this yesterday while struggling with a big headache and finished today with an even worse one. might have been the worst headache#i've experienced in my whole life i'm not kidding but i am ok now#feeling a bit silly still but ehh..#anyways this kind of....vent art i guess??????it sure was made with emotions in mind.. mostly dizzyness tho..#anyways squid talk i love squid i don't think i'm getting out of this squid phase anytime soon.....#you should listen to squid!!! i am always free to discuss this band and have hours upon hours of material to talk about in my head#forcing every user on this site to listen to squid they're so cool. they clicked very slowly for me but it was so worth it#british people yelling in my ears with funky instrumentals sure is my favorite music genre#i think it's kind of funny how squid are considered part of the big three windmill acts alongside bcnr and black midi yet for some reason#they aren't as popular among music nerds?? i guess bcnr hd their afut and bm had their hellfire but still i feel like not enough people#talk about them. don't get me wrong!! they're very much popular.. they're signed to warp! but i just don't see people going feral#about squid the same way i see people go feral about bm or bcnr#there's ofc many many windmill bands that aren't nearly talked about as squid are on the internet!! i just think it's silly#how squid are in a weird spot within internet music nerd discussion
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I've gotten so burnt out with miphlink lately, it feels like everything I draw is for other people (only for it to get mostly ignored anyway) :/ I have so many miphlink aus that I love so much but I just feels like there's no audience and it's getting harder and harder to share my stuff and enjoy it o(︶︿︶)o
(I did recently think about a lifeguard x swim teacher au which I really like the idea of tho. But there's still a worry that I'll make link in a way people don't like and will get criticised which happens a lot in the main part of the miphlink fandom when someone disagrees with a big person in fandom.....)
#snail speaks#meanwhile zelpha is really fun but i cant share it without this intense feeling of guilttttt#i'm.strugglign to enjoy miphlink as a whole#and zelpha fandom feels like its jist 99% wrong dynamic for me to enjoy#so i'm really not sure what to do#i still love my model au#and my ponyo au#but god. i want to do something different with a different dynamic#^ thats it! thats my problem#i need to do something new#(the thing with miphlink is that the fandom can be kind of mean to me.#and i'm scared to do anything that is slightly darker or less cute)#it feels like i'm constantly competing with my fellow creators :/#also i sketched some zelpha yesterday and it was SO EASY#i didnt have yo think about what was ok or how their dynamic is meant to be#i need to treat miphlink like a sandbox again#anyway thats a lot of tags haha#i just want a space where i can enjoy MIPHA
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This time last year I would drive out to shows an hour and a half away from me and my back would already be in pain by the time I arrived. All I could do was stand there and nod along and stand one or two rows back from the pit and hold my arm up to keep people standing if they knocked back into me. By the end of the show I would be fatigued and my feet, my back, my neck, and my shoulders would be in moderate to severe pain, even if I took a naproxen before I left.
Last night I went to a show the same distance from me where the headliner had an hour and a half set. I was on the edge of a rowdy push pit full of sturdy to beefy dudes in their 30s and 40s and even on the edge there was a lot of dancing and jumping and shoving. I honestly only recognized one song from the headliner but I was having the time of my life and was incredibly sweaty and tired out by the end, and only my feet were mildly sore, not even having taken pain meds
It only really struck me last night just how different my experience is now to when I started going to shows regularly 2 years ago, and especially last year at my worst point with pain, and it got me reflecting on what's changed.
I had a breast reduction/top surgery. I had physical therapy, which I'm still seeing the benefits of even though I definitely had some deconditioning after surgery. I switched to slightly better shoes. I also have a different car and the head rest doesn't tilt my neck forward lol. I can't tell if I'm more active or not - I've been going to more shows and going on like 1 or 2 10-min walks per week, but my job changed from hybrid to fully remote so it's hard to tell.
The best part though? Fatphobes can get absolutely wrecked because in the past year I've put on maybe 20-25lbs and my knee and hip pain are gone so🖕🖕
#I think the PT and surgery are the biggest factors but the rest adds up!#I was feeling down the past few weeks about still not having great stamina or strength but yesterday put into perspective how far I've com#I don't feel so hopelessly deep in a hole - maybe I can still make even more quality of life improvements to my activity level like this#And I did it without spiralling into unhealthy attitudes and behaviors to do with exercising even while experiencing shame in that category#Anyway I'm in my 30s and getting back out there after a looot of isolation in the first 3 yrs of the pandemic. It's hard but worth it 🖤#*masked through all this too!
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this 'I'm probably nonbinary but I have a job so I can't worry about that right now' mentally I've adopted is quickly falling apart
I am worrying about it
#every day I come to a new soulcrushing realization#about me wanting to be a man#yesterday I was thinking about how I don't want to have kids ever#but then I imagined myself as a man and being a father#and it didn't sound so bad#I'm going insane#I'm more or less ok being a girl right now i think#but the idea of growing old and still being a girl is making me want to rip my skin off#I feel like I'm running against time#but there's no fucking way I can transition it's just not possible
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believe it or not, writing down your feelings on something you're conflicted on can actually make you feel better about it
#genuinely spent a lot of yesterday with arcane swirling around in my head#and I just kept feeling worse and worse about it#but I'm legit feeling better now#turns out that yeah I still love this show a whole lot#rambling
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I stood in the same spot, coughing in the background from time to time, I met eyes with that professor at least 10 times but at the 11th time she seemed to notice me for the first time and asked "oh why are you wearing a mask?"
So you didn't hear me rejecting my own lungs waiting for my turn for the last few hours? You didn't notice my lack of face until now? In the afternoon?????
Situational awareness is very weak, won't survive the winter.
#steel rambles#was thinking about this funny moment#yesterday was a day#a day that could have been the thesis of an anthropology student#such a day#btw the cold is almost over#yiiiiippi#exam week while feeling sick is terrible#a cold almost fainting while getting home and almost falling asleep while on the bus and in the bathroom were not in my exam bingo#but I'm still standing#ye ye yeee#2 gone 2 more to go and maybe#maaaaaybe#I'll come back with something to show y'all too
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The far right scored 40% in France for the European elections. We're the second country with the most seats. And many other countries have the far right leading too. This is a catastrophe.
Because of tonight's results, President Macron decided to dissolve French Parliament. We're called to vote again in 21 days. The left is scattered and all parties have suffered an incredible defeat today. The only result of these new elections will be to give majority to the far right in the French Parliament too. We'll have a neo-capitalist president governing with a far right prime minister.
I don't know why he chose to dissolve. Like the entirety of the left, I hate Macron. He's been conducting the cruelest class warfare and the bourgeoisie received several victories thanks to him. But I still prefer his majority to a far right majority. He called himself the shield against the far right. It was already hypocrisy and I've been saying for a long time his policies were just giving power to the fascists. Now he's literally doing it.
#i'm still shocked i think#the far right was predicted at 30% which was already atrocious#and now they got 40#the only time I was counting on this damn president's ego#to keep parliament as it is#and not make things worse#he concedes defeat#i just feel so powerless#the only thing that was keeping a horrible transphobic law to be voted#was the huge leftist block in Parliament#now it'll be gone#they're going to be even worse about immigration#climate change#every minorities' rights#yesterday was pride in my city#for fuck's sake#i was still on the pride hype#and now we're just going to have fascist government#here too#upthebaguette#i guess#nothing to be up about#french side of tumblr
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i feel somewhat responsible for this, even if i’m not the one saying these things. I’m genuinely so sorry.
No need to apologize! It's not one singular person doing it and truth be told I don't think it's a large majority that thinks that (albeit the ones that do are quite vocal). I didn't mean to upset anyone or anything when complaining about it, I was just letting off some steam.
Having a yap session under the cut sorry I feel like rambling under your ask anon.
Admittedly, I do think there are reasonings for people thinking this way. A lot of the focus with Clash has been on the cogs, especially after the 1.3 update. Which I can't say I blame them! Managers were something new and exciting and (from what I can tell) really separated them from the other servers. I don't blame them for wanting to put focus on that because that was their thing. Alongside other things, but majorly when you hear Clash the managers are mentioned in someway shape or form. But as we all know, toons ended up taking the short stick from this. This isn't helped by the gameplay itself, being mainly a fetch-quest deal so you often only talk to npcs once or twice unless if they're repeated ones and the taskline wasn't entirely accessible on the wiki for a while (shoutout to the wiki maintainers. The taskline script is a savior). Which I'm quite excited to see if they deal with this issue with the rewrite. I imagine they will, but anyways. Social media posts would often contain more managers than toons, which I also believe they're starting to fix. And ontop of this, I believe most of the team in the early era of the sever is gone, so there's been some stuff lost in the change. So yeah, dialogue/writing has been kind of rocky. AGAIN- I am completely aware of the rewrite going on and I am not judging them harshly based off of their current state. I'm very appreciative of the fact that they took the time to listen and are focusing on trying to fix it up. And then there's also fandom mischaracterization- especially of the cogs. Forgive me for mentioning mischaracterization because normally I wouldn't really care (I've mischaracterized characters before..especially in my younger years. I think it's just a process of learning an having fun and I hate to limit anyone because of it). With that being said, there's a lot of baby-fying and coddling of the managers. Especially with those who have more 'sympathetic' stories (Misty, Chip, Winston specifically). Don't get me wrong, I like these characters and I can appreciate the story they're trying to tell, but I feel like so many people will hear their dialogue and then misplace their anger. People get mad at Bessie for trying to protect HER lighthouse or at the Elders for trying to keep YOTT safe (lets not forget Winston was there to brainwash toons). Yes, yes technically there would've been better ways to do it but consider this: The toons are scared. Their homes, stores, lives are being taken over by a big corporation that has more resources that they do. They don't have the privilege of waiting, seeing, and gathering. And then people forget that the company has such a huge role in both toons and cogs lives. If you're mad over the mistreatment of Misty or the fact that Winston is still in the dungeon, your anger should be directed at the company who doesn't care. I may be completely wrong in saying this, but I feel like the stories with almost all of the managers is a reflection of the company. The toons are only trying to protect themself and their environments and yet this seems to go forgotten when people start bashing them. And of course, I'd consider myself a toon guy so me saying all this and complaining may come off as "I HATE the cogs and everyone who posts only about them!" and for clarification that's not true. You all know how much I like that little brain thing. The cogs are interesting, their designs are fun, I don't blame people for liking them because I do too. I just wish that the thought process behind so many of these discussions wasn't so cog focused because I believe that this anger at the toons for, RIGHTFULLY, defending themselves helps push this mischaracterization of them as a whole. That they're mean, boring, unlikeable while the opposite is true. Yes there are some, what I'd consider, "filler" dialogue from the shopkeepers. This is just because of the gameplay. But there are some funny and cute moments with them if people would just listen and read.
Which also brings me into another point: people skip the dialogue. I've caught myself doing this before (on my first account. I have 4 accounts total, so I reread the dialogue on like 3 of them). But people will complain about lack of toon personalities while doing this. It's like reading through a comic book, only looking at the drawings, and then complaining because there "isn't a storyline". Luckily, there's been efforts to keep track of the dialogue on the wiki but I doubt a lot of people are going through and reading the entire script. It just feels very disingenuous to criticize the dialogue when you haven't even read it. Likewise, people don't seem to read the blogposts either. This is both from a dialogue aspect and from an update aspect (people continuously asking about hammerspace/mix-and-match under unrelated posts).
#clemask#clemramble#I think I hit some sort of word limit because it wont let me add anymore so im continuing in tags#It kind of feels like people want the toon resistance to be the perfect victim and then get mad when they act accordingly#Fear. Nervousness. Sadness. Helplessness. Anger. etc etc are all valid reactions to their situation#Not every toon needs to be heroic and whimsical. they're scared. their situation is scary if you think about it#they're at the risk of losing their environment and homes.#Obviously the cogs also have their own issues but I always see this brought up when talking about them but the same context#isnt given to the toons when thinking about their characters and communities as a whole#It's kind of weird to me because I feel like even pre-rewrite I know that I can still understand them and justify their actions#and yet people act like clashes (pre rewrite) writing is justifying the cogs when in reality its not#its just showing that cog society (reflection of workplace enviroment) has its own issues. i never saw it as a justification#even with misty. like I never once hated bessie? my opinion of her never changed even after mistys dialogue#bessie did what she had to do because she was scared and wanted to protect herself and others.#id do something similar if a cog (known for taking over towns) suddenly came up to me#PLUS bessie leaves misty alone afterwards. ppl act like she took a shotgun and shot misty dead and it makes me laugh#ANYWAYS SORRY ANON. NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE.#realistically if youre not saying it then i doubt youre contributing#I would say “i wasnt mad” or anything but to be completely transparent with you guys i was Not-Happy when writing that one post#but it's not directed at any single person but rather the idea itself. I'm sure after the rewrite people will chill out#ITS NEVER THIS SERIOUS im beefing over characters named pretty princess sparkles. im aware of how silly this all sounds ok#the clash fandom isnt the only instance of this. ive seen stuff like this in sw before so like. I know this isnt an uncommon thing either#normally id just keep this on a priv or between friends but something kinda snapped yesterday#i think its bc I just KEEP seeing posts like it with those “hot take” posts or whatever and ppl are always so mean about it#i also think some ppl just already dont like toons and look for every. little. thing. to go after them for#like the “youve been drafted line” i refuse to believe people took that line 100% seriously#or maybe this is all wrong and im just a huge toon fan. and in that case i will die on this hill#you will have to pry them out of my cold dead hands before you catch me genuinely bashing them#ok thats clems giant critques and complaints out of the way
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The only types of stories capturing my interest right now
YA fiction (with a weird interest in shlocky dystopian fiction)
Rereads
My retellings
Imaginary Book Recs and stories I haven't written yet
#books#i'm a little worried about how difficult it is to get interested in any book#but part of the problem is the time of year#and just yesterday it hit me that i probably burned myself out by reading so many victorian classics/old books last year#i started rereading 'matched' for the first two bullet points#it holds up but i'm still struggling a bit#i plod my way through sentences instead of sinking in (and i know it's 100% me and not the writing style)#(though maybe part of the issue is that it's a lot like my first-person present-tense writing style)#(so i'm in writing rather than reading mode)#i've also got a bunch of shlocky dystopian stories on hold in the library app#that i missed out on when they were actually popular#i've got a craving to reread retellings in general#(for some reason there are certain points in the workday where i'm suddenly struck with a desire to reread 'brine and bone')#(and yesterday i felt a major craving to reread 'thorn' despite the fact that i don't really like it)#at least the retellings craving means i can focus on the retelling i'm writing#as for the last bullet point well you can see my problem#i don't want to write these stories but i want to read them but they don't exist#i also feel like i want to just work on developing characters and a setting that will never become a story#like making up lore for a show that doesn't exist#unfortunately i can't settle on what kind of story/characters i want that to be
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anyone else hate long distance relationships and lack of consistent feelings on their part
#this is gonna be long in the tags sorry#and for the record. everything im going to say in here is on Me and not on my girlfriend and i know the solution is TALK TO HER#but can i have a minute to just. say it#okay. so im long distance with my girlfriend and we've been long distance (5hrs drive) the whole time#we've been together almost 9 months and in that time we've seen each other 4 times.#once in may once for halloween once for thanksgiving and today/yesterday for NYE#the longest trip of any of these was a tuesday night- sunday morning. so like. four full days of being together#but interspersed with family bc it was thanksgiving#okay. so just setting the stage#i love hanging out. i love hanging out on the couch or doing random shit like walkin around a town or grocery shopping with her#like i love being introduced to her friends and family as her partner and doing likewise to my people#like i love hanging out with her forever#but like. UGH my issue is like. any. kind of intimacy beyond literally like cuddling and holding hands?#like lack of consistency on my part. like okay sometimes kissing is fine and we're talking like a peck on the lips and then sometimes#im like. no i dont. want to do this. and obviously im not being Forced to if i asked her to not she would respect that!!#i like the Idea of kissing and sometimes i do enjoy a little peck but sometimes im like not. into it.#and then like. we've been together for a while we've Talked about sex and stuff but we have not had it yet. haven't gotten anywhere close#to it yet#like i like the idea of having sex with her but if i was faced with the reality of that right now i would freak out like just get. really#stressed? panic??? and there's no trauma in my past. i haven't ever had any kind of sex i have no trauma associated#with anything. like i would just. freak out a little. and we wouldn't have sex and that would be fine but. idk.#i dunno if i'm like. ace or something or it's just still too New of a relationship to do that? because despite being togehter for 9 months#when you've had literally less than two weeks of full days together in that time#it feels really fuckin new#i dunno man.#i'm just afraid that im just. idk not built for a relationship.#she was drunk and wanted to snuggle when we went to sleep last night and it stressed me out because i hate not being able to move when#im asleep. i told her this she gave me my room that was fine. but like man. i am never gonna want to snuggle like that#i still dont love kissing#like. for my house. okay i have very specific ideas of what i want my space to look like and feel like
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I write lots of rant posts when I'm sad or angry, so to balance it out I'm now writing this one to announce that I am happy :>
#i had lovely christmas even tho they were smaller than in the two previous years#but just... it's good to be home and with family. my bf and his dad came over yesterday and it was so nice having them here#the midnight mass was beautiful and i loved everything about it#even if my allergic reaction to the incense was so severe i couldn't talk for most of yesterday#and i'm still feeling a bit unwell today lmao#but it's just this calm sort of happiness!! nothing particularly out there. just. fireglow and cookies yknow#slowing down for a bit#not being afraid#i hope it lasts (especially that last part)#personal#izzyposting
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I'm hoping taking an extended break from Limbus (aside from dailies and weeklies, of course), helps me return to it with passion, again ... make no mistake, I am thinking about the game and characters nonstop--even when engaged in other activities--I've just been having trouble posting about it due to a myriad of things.
#the break has been over the last month or two ... I'm just now starting to get back into thinking about it seriously#part of my problem is I don't engage with it in the usual ''fandom'' way ... I'm not here for ships or jokes#instead I like it from the perspective of someone who enjoys storytelling#I like seeing the way they adapt classic stories ... the way the characters interact and grow and change#make no mistake--I am still 100% in love with Heathcliff#but I don't just enjoy Limbus for the sake of OC × Canon ... my relationship with it is more complex than that#today--or yesterday I suppose--I finally got back into Red Chamber and read a good 400 pages#so I'm starting to feel that fire come back ...#also I changed Rodya's emoji back to the slot machine#just felt better‚ considering her Canto#anyway!!#I'm going to bed ... feeling a bit excited for the event later in the day#it's a rerun but it's voiced--and it's a Heathcliff focused event so ~#I'm mostly looking forward to the new goodies#I need Thread so I can Uptie things ...#scattered pages
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