#i'm so emo about this song i can't wait to hear it live in an outdoor date

[halevren]

FHJY Spoilers || my live thoughts as I watch episode 7

this may take me longer than usual because I have hurt my hand so it's wrapped up rn and it makes it hard to type 🫡

TTTTAKING OVER TEENAGE REBELLION

I miss ayda aguefort i hope she shows up in this episode.

pitch perfect 2 mention! I used to be so into music related movies

So much happened last episode, this recap is so long

I am not a fan of Grix.

AGENT CLARK...

Two Kristen's again

OH NO

ADAINE COMING IN WITH THE SAVE

"Pretty fun to commit fraud"

"That was sophomore year, I'm cool now"

Body rolling I love body rolling it's so fun to just vibe

Mandatory drug test????

Bard class cool as hell

GRIX NETTED DURDEN?

Rip Gorgug he fell on the stairs

"Did she cast a spell on you " "I mean, in a sense..."

Littledoggy Girlcollar

they should investigate definitely

"If we all do drugs, they can't expell all of us."

Riz trying so hard to keep Fig from being expelles

shrimp burrito

Gorgug not being a fan of Mary Ann is very interesting to me and very reasonable.

"I think it's a really good thing you're thinking."

kipperlitty is subliminally messaging people with the food?!?!?!?!?

I can't wait to see the fan art that comes out of this episode

"Hey.... Girlie"

THE SILENCE

"Did you hear? She passed." KRISTEN EHEHEJWKEHBEE

OHHH KIPPERLILLY. THAT WAS SHADY. YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO SAY IT SO LOUD. I ABSOLUTELY KNOW YOU DID IT ON PURPOSE

KRISTEN KRISTEN KIRSTEN KRISTEN KRISTEN

"Hey do we need to lock it in" yeah probably

Max Durden is probably my second favorite npc

"Everyone has to have a least favorite friend, it's fine" NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Fabian running a study hall is so cool

This downtime sounds fun

SPECIAL THING IS GOING TO HAPPEN IF GORGUG GETS NAT 20????????

Riz "The Ball" Gukgak

SERVER AT BASRAR'S!!!!!!

Aewlyn mention 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

SHE GOT THE JOB

"Nice new shirt, did you buy it underground?"

The stress tokens are actually making me real life stressed

GORGUG NAT 20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SECOND GORGUG NAT 20!!!!!!!!

"It might be more stable than mine"

i miss Cassandra I hope she's okay

The shrimp jump. WAS a miracle

let's go Cassandra!

Fig paladin of Cassandra??????????????

Oh my god is Fig Multiclassing

oh my god wait craig he's still around

"it's like animal piss but in a good way"

"Kristen, your adult man is being weird"

"You'd be a nasty as paladin?"

"I don't want to harsh your vibe"

"Everyone has to lick me"

oh no he's a noodler

DETECTIVE BABY

gorgug has tunnel vision

Gorgug is literally so stressed

"I SUCK, YOU RULE"

the rage!

Fabian is such a loser when it comes to talking with girls

This is so painful, Fabian needs something. I don't know what but God he need something

THIRTY TWO????

Fabian stress token

Walking store Adaine

ya hoo

av class 🔥🔥🔥

i need art of fishing club Riz just goin' fishing

NAT ONE THAT BECOMES A 10

Gorgug & Riz joint birthday party!!!!

17 having a ice cream party sounds absolutely lit

SELF INSERT PC CLARK

Gorbag and Roz!!!

goodbye lucilla she's gone to the skies

"I think you're being weird here"

oh my god fig

Fig is having a strange day

"Why can't I tell him he's weird"

A YOGURT YEAR

"Haha! Counterspell! ♪"

"You've gotta be fucking kidding me."

oh my god Brennan said teenage rebellion.... just like... just like the song teenage rebellion... T-T-T-TAKING OVER TEENAGE REBELLION IT'S OUT TIME IT'S OUR YEAR—

"Can I take a stress for Kristen"

Riz is the only character allowed to take a stress for another person

popular kid Kristen!!!!

"Anyone who think he's cool" me too I fall in love with everyone who thinks I'm cool

alter emo hauntings a kid's dreams

"Not All Who Wanda Are Lost" single released on all listening platforms. 1 mil listens in a week

oh no...... this is going to be awful and awkward.

ohhhhhh....... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... Fabian.......... This is painful........

Ivy is catching these hands, leave my girl Mazey alone

"You missed your shot, playboy" no he has a call with his bank

Riz is at his conspiracy board

Something does feel off about grix

Everyone has a stress token

"Go roll me a corrupted bardic"

Even I'm grieving Lucy, she sounds lovely...

oh there's something deep going on with lucy

"It's the boss, baby"

Murph has figured it OUT

The epic music

This stress system is making me STRESSED

I relate to the stress causing antisocial things

LYDIA!!!!!!!!!

ohhhhhh goodness.....

[gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy]

- The day Scorpius met Alexa -

Scorpius: Ooo can we listen to music?

Albus: Sure lemme just

James: No way I'm not listening to your emo music

Albus: Fine you pick the first song then I pick a song then lily-

Scorpius: how come I can't pick a song?

Albus: Name one muggle song.

Scropius: That one about the black parade!

Albus: Okay that's my bad I set the bar too low

James: ALEXA PLAY HEAT WAVES

Alexa: Playing heat waves an Amazon music

Scorpius: WOAH WAIT WHAT?!

Albus: oh no

Scorpius leaning in close to the Alexa: It's alive?! Can you hear me!?

Albus: Scorpius you have to say 'Alexa' to get it to answer you

Scorpius: Alexa! Can you hear me?!

Alexa: Yes I can hear you

Scorpius: HOLY - IT RESPONDED?! IS IT ALIVE???

Albus whispering to James: How do I explain that it's a robot without breaking his heart?

James whispering back: You don't. Don't tell him.

Lily: I got this- Hey Scorpius thats Alexa if you ask her questions she'll answer them!

Scropius: okay - Alexa! What's your favorite color?

Alexa: I like blue just like my ring

Scorpius: That's my favorite color too!

Lily: My work here is done.

Albus: Well so much for music he's never gonna let us paly music on it.

Scorpius: What is this thing??

James: um she's um- A muggle house elf!

Scropius: house ... Elf?

James: Yes Elf- Come on you two let the nerd play with Alexa he'll get bored eventually let's go play Minecraft in my room

Lily: okay!

Albus: Fine.

- an hour later -

James: hey where did Scorpius go????

Albus: I have no idea-

Lily: there he is

Scorpius hugging the Alexa: I KILLED HER-

Albus: Scorpius wha-

Scropius: I wanted to free her because well it's wrong to own a living thing so I pulled the chain out of her and now shes DEAD

James: How could you?! She was going to get married next mouth!

Lily: James don't be a dick. All we have to do is plug her back in and she'll be fine

Scorpius sniffling: Really?!

Albus taking the Alex and plugging it back in: There see- Alexa! You alright?

Alexa: I am fine thank you

Scorpius: oh thank Dumbledore

[tyedyeinherveins]

My thoughts on the new Linkin Park...which are JUST MY OPINIONS.

As a teen I remember my first favorite BAND(I was a pop girl before this) being Linkin Park, I had their posters on my wall, I had shirts and bought all the magazines they were featured in. I had all the albums and in my depressed moments(which were a lot at times) I replayed "My December" and "Somewhere I Belong" probably a bazillion times. I was a mega fan for years and their lyrics helped me endure tough times.

Eventually as time went on I discovered Good Charlotte and thus began my emo phase and I listened to LP less and less but the love never died.

Fast forward to the day I heard the news...I remember exactly where I was.

My Mom,Daughter and myself were at the doctors office with my Grandpa who was starting to have health issues(he was in his 90s) My daughter and i were in the waiting room while they went in with the doctor.

I got a text, I cant remember from who(maybe my ex?) I'm not sure,but the text read " did you hear about Chester?" At this point I hadn't but as soon as I go onto FB im bombarded with posts like Rip Chester Bennington & Linkin Park front man dead from suicide. I audibly gasp which makes a few heads turn in the waiting room. I can feel the tears burning my eyes but I can't cry around all these people so I held it in But to say my heart was broken was an understatement. The rest of the day I felt numb.

Someone who helped so many of us with our demons couldn't outrun his own in the end. Utterly tragic and such a horrible loss for the music world. And I still feel this way and still struggle deeply myself with depression and my own mind. Sometimes I picture Chester in those final moments because sometimes I feel so low that I wonder what it would be like in those moments but I have kids I have to care for and if I'm gone there is no one else here responsible enough to take care of them. So I live for them, even when I wish so badly that I wouldn't wake up some days. (The song Heavy could could been legit been written about me) I wish Chester could have found some peace in his life, I truly hope he has it now.

I still mourn his death,I probably will forever. Will there be a day I can watch his last performance(I also have thoughts on this, the look in his eyes) and not cry? Doubtful.

Fast forward to last week when LP announced a new lead singer.

*I audibly sigh* I have such mixed emotions I don't know where to begin.

Even before they announced I always said I wish they could do what the band Apocalyptica does and just have guest singers on new tracks OR have Mike be the new main vocalist. I still stand by this.

I have absolutely nothing against Emily because frankly I know nothing about her. Her voice is fine and I may even check out HER band in the future but why does this feel like a punch in the gut?!

I never got to see LP live and if I remember correctly they were touring or getting ready to with MGK before Chester died. I remember saying I wanted to get tickets if they were near me...unfortunately that never happened. I see that LP plans a tour soon with Emily, and I don't think I could bring myself to go. If it were just the original guys i would absolutely, it's just not the same not to mention we are down 2 original members as well?! No I don't think my heart could handle finally seeing them live but like this. I'll pass.

Why not just start a new band with a new name at this point? I'd support that. Don't sing old LP songs with Emily.

Recently I saw Chester's son had lots to say about it(nothing good) while I understand I don't think I agree with it to the extreme he does but then again Chester wasn't my dad so maybe he knows more than we do? I don't know.

I don't doubt Mike and the guys love and miss Chester too but there's no LP without Chester in my opinion. I don't even doubt that Chester would give this his blessing but I'm sorry I can't get behind it.

Also,tell me what band that replaced their lead singer has ever done well after doing so? I can't think of any.

Anyways....big sigh. I wanted to get my thoughts out there.

I do plan at some point to get a tattoo of Chester,once I find the right photograph and a artist that will do it justice.

Gonna go listen to some old LP now.

Much love.

National Hotlines

* 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline: Call or text 988

* Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741

* Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA): 1-800-662-HELP (4357)

Online Resources

* National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): https://www.nami.org/

* The Jed Foundation: https://jedfoundation.org/

* MentalHealth.gov: https://youth.gov/federal-links/mentalhealthgov

[miscmonet]

I'm gonna call this... "Healing my inner teen and channeling my myspace days to simp over my partner on the internet in a healthy emo way"

Rain by Sleep Token broken down in how I emotionally connect and interpret the song and relate it to the healthiest relationship I've been in.

'For so long, I have waited

So long that I almost became

Just a stoic statue, fit for nobody'

~ I had dreamed so long of having the love I saw in media, the world eventually hardened me and I found myself cynical to love and had given up on a relationship days before I saw you. I felt broken and high maintenance. Like I was only fuckable not lovable.

'And I don't wanna get in your way

But I finally think I can say

That the vicious cycle was over

The moment you smiled at me'

~ Imposter syndrome is strong here, I feel like I will hold your talent back but I can't stop thinking about how my world stopped when you walked through the doors at my job, how warm I felt when you smiled at me. I was so afraid of rejection I didn't reach out first but you were the only thing on my mind for days.

'And just like the rain

You cast the dust into nothing

And wash out the salt from my hands

So touch me again

I feel my shadow dissolving

Will you cleanse me with pleasure?'

~ You changed my outlook on life, allowing me to see clearly, to drop my bitterness, your touch brings be back to reality. You shine light on my darkness and make it easier to live. Your kisses and touch heal things I don't talk about.

'It's that chemical cut that I can get down with

Up like the moon and out like the hounds

A dangerous disposition somehow

Refracted in light, reflected in sound

I'm coiled up like the venomous serpent

Tangled in your trance and I'm certain

You have got your hooks in me'

~ I'm willing to put my heart on the line and accept love, to submit myself to you in more ways than even I can imagine. You are the moon and I am the hounds howling for your love. I see love in every corner of the world, I see you in everything. I am the dangerous animal, your song/love tames me and entrances me. You have me hooked on you.

'I know, I know, the way that it goes

You get what you give, you reap what you sow

And I can see you in my fate

And I know, I know, I am what I am

The mouth of the wolf, the eyes of the lamb

So darling, will you saturate?'

~ I've made some bad choices in the past and I am always afraid of them catching up to me. Your love is the type that seems to good to be true and that worries a small part of me. I see myself as a horrible person, I worry that I tricked you into a relationship thinking that I am sweeter than I am, but would you shower me in your love anyway?

'And just like the rain

You cast the dust into nothing

And wash out the salt from my hands

So touch me again

I feel my shadow dissolving

Will you cleanse me with pleasure?'

~ Already explained ^_^

'Nobody can say for certain

If maybe it's all just a game

When I open my eyes to the future

I can hear you say my name'

~ There is uncertainty in everyone's future, in everyone's relationship no matter how well you maintain it. But every time I look into my future and what I want, you are always there. That is a feeling I have never had before. The certainty that in 5 years time I want to be doing taxes and laundry with you. It feels me with a warmth I have never known and have come to experience everyday in our relationship.

'So rain down on me

Oh, rain down on me

Oh, rain down on me

Oh, rain down on me, rain down on me

Yeah, rain down on me

Oh, rain down on me

Oh, rain down on me

Oh, rain down on me, rain down on me

Yeah, rain down on me'

~ Shower me with your love, allow me to float through life on the river of your love.

[kafus]

oh yeah kafu was announced for synthv earlier and to be honest i'm just hoping this gets some people to turn around on kafu a little bit. so much of the damn eng fandom hates her for some reason. like will you people like her if she's on the software you guys like (rhetorical but come on)

actually i'm just gonna infodump about my recent kamitsubaki thoughts now. marshmallow live was fun and it was nice to hear more haru cause she's still not out for public use but kamitsubaki really needs better tuners on their team some of that was kinda rough especially with sekai... like i wouldn't recommend it as a first impression for the musical isotopes

in other news the most recent musical isotope 4koma directly parallels the first ever 4koma and the artist has improved so much + kafu has grown so much over time... i wasn't expecting to like these comics so much they're so cute (first on left, recent on right)

can't wait for haru to be in the 4komas and for all of them to be together. i hope vwp themselves make a guest appearance at some point it would be funny BSNFFSK

they announced merch too but uh

i don't really have money right now and i don't feel the need to like. speedrun selling something because i've been having worse chronic pain issues lately and it's not worth it. maybe i'll get a kafu acrylic stand secondhand if i REALLY WANT IT for some reason sometime but shrug i'm good rn with my plushies and the VIP cup i'm getting later this month

aside from cevio, most recent VWP song was a fucking Banger it sounds like emo band music somehow and i dig it. i love vwp i really do but not all of their songs are BANGERS i want to loop. this one is destiny fucking slaps i implore you to listen to it. mv is really good too

and uhh kaf recent songs have been good even while she's studying abroad... excited to see how things pick up when she's back though i think she's coming back either later this month or next month?? i don't remember if she ever gave a direct timeline HJDFKSF

and that's about it for my rambling i really need to update my kafu playlist it's months out of date... but that shit hurts my hands and i'm having chronic pain so UNFORTUNATELY i will be putting it off again JSDFKSFD

[romanarose]

“What a beautiful wedding” + any of the TF boys, possibly bitter guest situation (or not whatever works babe)

Love this shit baby I knew what I knew what I was doing as soon as I saw this. Will is my SON and I LOVE HIM

*********

Will Miller wasn't one to get dressed up, but tonight was special. He'd do anything for the couple he watched dancing in front of him. If all they asked was for him to get in a tux and stand at the alter with them, Fish, and Ben... well shit, that was an easy yes. He stood next to a wedding guest as he watched Santi and his new wife dancing their first dance, so completely in love, and leaned over to make chit chat.

"What a beautiful wedding" and it was.

"Yeah, too bad the groom's bride is a whore" The guest replied.

Will took a moment. Did he hear that right? "Excuse me?"

"Yeah, heard she's been with half the town before Santiago, and the other half since they got together"

This was partially correct, even if it was a hyperbole. She had, infact, slept with a lot of people before Santiago met her. That wasn't an insult, just a fact. Nothing more than what Santi had done. Probably less, honestly. If anyone was a whore in this marraige, it was probably Pope. As for what she had done since dating Santi, he knew that wasn't true. Will suspected they had a threesome with Fish at some point, but that wasn't anyones business, not Will's, not the town's, not-

"What's your name?"

"Mateo"

Certainly not Mateo's. And if he was implying she was cheating, which Will assumed he was, that absolutely was not true.

"Mateo, you know I'm a part of the wedding party, right?" Talking shit about someone at their wedding was bold enough, talking shit to a groomsman was a whole other move.

Mateo laughed. "Yeah, lucky you."

That made Will turn. He was still deciding Mateo's fate at this point.

"And what's that supposed to mean?"

"Heard she's sucked off the whole wedding party today. How's that song go, once a whore, you're nothing more? Can't make a whore into a housewife"

Alright. That did it. And it was completely untrue.

"Did she not fuck you or something?"

Mateo laughed again. "No, seems everyone but me."

Will sighed. "Okay, here's what we're doing. You're leaving. When the song ends, we're getting your shit, and I'm escorting you out. The only reason I don't beat your ass right here is because I don't want to cause a scene."

Mateo looked nervous. "You try to take me outside, I'll make a scene either way."

Will shook his head. "No. See, I get the feeling the only one spreading these rumors is you. No one else cares what she did before she met Santi, Santi certainly doesn't. So you aren't staying here to keep doing that. Here's the thing. If I take you outside, I'm just going to rough you up a bit. Now, if you cause a problem, the others are going to have to get involved. Benny, you don't want to mess with him, he fights professionally. And Santi, he'll let us handle it tonight, but he holds a grudge. He'll make your life a living hell. Friendly guys like him and Benny know people. But who you really want to watch out for" Will grabbed his shoulder, turning him to where Fish was smiling, watching the bride and groom dance. "Seems quiet, right? It's always the quiet ones. Frankie here is just waiting for a chance to become unhinged. He's got a lot of shit in his life, and once he lets loose, it's game over. So, you better be happy it's just me."

Mateo moved to leave, but Will grabbed him by his jacket, turning to watch his friends. "Aht, aht, aht. Not yet. I wanna watch them dance."

*************

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[wcwick66]

Afternoon Tea

a friendly chat <3 [so disorganized but very excited] [[unedited. uuunnnedddiittteedd]]

I email my guitar teacher every week like clockwork, but he does occasionally get a couple more emails in when I don't quite notice. He's a lovely man, truly, and today I got to tell him - as my self proclaimed father, that I want to be In Showbiz. In very concise terms.

I told him I in effect was going to become Dr. Teeth and create the Electric Mayhem around me.

I am so serious.

I recently came across a website and a project that launched me down a rabbit hole of excitement and despair, and I've arrived on the other side covered in dirt to scream in your ear because you happen to be here that I am going to be a professional artist.

In about eight million different ways.

Hear me out!

I adore many things and started this blog to showcase my journey as an artist. A writer yes, but an artist most and writing is art and I will die on this hill, mother!

Cringe aside, I love how my mental crap allows me to create. What doors it opens to the horrors and beauty of what my hands can pull together. My brain weirdness also means that patterns [math] once I understand it, ends up actually fueling more creativity.

The project is from a guy who used to work at Jim Henson's Creature Shop. I think that's what it's called. It's where the puppets are designed, and this guy makes OPEN SOURCE [open tech? I am SO new to this part of robotics and this term] animatronics KITS so you can make your own puppets at home. As far as I know because I spent an honest five minutes looking at it through eyes of wow cool before immediately trying to refigure out how robots and animatronics even work.

A day later and I'm essentially re teaching myself math so I can understand the complete arsenal of robotics, electrical engineering, and physics information I now have so I can complete my first companion for my new band!

I already have my costume and I'm going to be working on finishing a musical album that has no description other than maybe micropop x midwest emo x opera.

My band is going to be me, four large animatronics, and two smaller robots that exist as my little dancers. When it isn't us, I'm going to put on plays based on stories I write, and play music live while a combo cast of unseen people and large scale puppets perform.

I live in an area where doing something like this might actually be a lot of fun for bored people, and I think we could be funny!

One day it might be nice to make a show or movie for YouTube or something, but I'm most excited about my animuppet band.

I'm basically going to record my songs in parts and edit and program them into the animatronics so I can have backup vocals, and I have all the instruments I need to do this thanks to the *years* of hours and effort put into saving up and getting them one at a time.

Writing is still my comfy passion, but music pushes so many other parts of my brain that feed back into writing that I feel I can do both. I want to be happy, and I think even just me and one seated swaying animatronic with a tambourine would be cute enough to get a $5 ticket at some point. I'd want to do free shows first because I am terrified and I haven't been on a massive public stage since I was about fourteen. So eight years of absolutely not performing for anyone. Spooky!

I need to come up with a name for my band, and what I'm going to call my style of puppet and animatronic. I'm excited to make sketches and little stories because these characters have my whole heart!

I can't wait for you all to meet us <3

[sinceileftyoublog]

Riot Fest 2024 Preview: 5 Cant'-miss Non-headliners

St. Vincent; Photo by Alex Da Corte

BY JORDAN MAINZER

Emo Friday, indie rock Saturday, metal Sunday seems to be the theme of this year's Riot Fest--at least for the bands in the big fonts on the poster. Of the bands previewed here, you've got your pop-punk farewell, your art rock heavyweight, and your post-punk up-and-comers, but also the finest of the alt-country and hip hop worlds today. Yes, I'm fully aware that two of them overlap, but who's to say you can't go half and half? Here are 5 can't-miss non-headliners.

FRIDAY

Sum 41, 6:05 PM, Cabaret Metro Stage

"I don't wanna believe that maybe this is the end," Deryck Whibley sings on "Landmines", a standout from Sum 41's eighth and final album Heaven :x: Hell (Rise). On the contrary, Whibley's been pretty publicly okay with hanging it up, and I have to imagine it's in no small reason due to the strength of the record, two discs that, respectively, dive into the pop punk of the band's early years and the more metal-adjacent sounds of their more recent releases. It's as if Sum 41's released a greatest hits album of their various aesthetics. The first disc, Heaven, opens with "Waiting on a Twist of Fate", an impassioned blast that Sum 41 can still do as well as anybody, and doesn't slow down for the majority of its runtime. Even the songs where Whibley expresses ennui are ripe for rousing singalongs, from the barnburner "Future Primitive" to the stadium-sized "Dopamine". The band sounds as exciting as ever; the interplay between Dave Baksh and Tom Thacker's guitars, and Frank Zummo's rolling drums propel songs like "Bad Mistake".

Impressively, the songs on Hell are no less catchy and perhaps even more dynamic, such as "Over the Edge", whose hardcore verses subside for the hooky chorus and an unexpected piano outro. "I Don't Need Anyone", a song written after the band decided on calling it quits, sports a big, swinging bassline from Jason McCaslin, as if to say, "We might miss playing music, but you're gonna miss the feeling you get when listening to us, more." They even find room to document their penchant for live covers, delivering a fairly straightforward though no less burly version of The Rolling Stones' "Paint it Black".

On closer "How the End Begins", Whibley's perhaps a little more honest than he was at the beginning of the album, singing, "Sometimes I wonder if I have enough to say / Or am I just an echo, a reflection of yesterday." Even if Heaven :x: Hell acts as a proper career retrospective, it's a hell of a time, something the band can be proud of for years to come. Catch them for the last time on Friday night and rap along to the immortal "Fat Lip".

Waxahatchee; Photo by Molly Matalon

Saturday

Waxahatchee, 6:15 PM, Radical Stage

Katie Crutchfield's brand of alt-country might be a stylistic outlier at Riot Fest, but that makes it all the more punk, if you ask me. Leaning into the high and lonesome has resulted in the two best Waxahatchee albums so far, 2020's Saint Cloud and this year's impressive Tigers Blood (Anti-). Hearing her and her venerable band play these songs, at golden hour? That's unbeatable.

St. Vincent, 6:35 PM, Cabaret Metro Stage

On St. Vincent's first self-produced album All Born Screaming (Total Pleasure), the oft-acting singer adopts her boldest persona yet: herself. Throughout the record, she sings about loss, grief, and the art of keeping on, with a sense of brutal honesty we haven't yet seen from Annie Clark. "Give it all away cause the whole world's watching you," she sings on groovy opener "Hell Is Near", ditching the idea of role atop swirls of syncopated synth layers, dramatic piano, and hypnotic twelve-string guitar. What she cares about most is being subsumed by the music--well, that, and you being subsumed by her music, Clark embedding herself in your ears, like on the slinky, whip-cracking "Flea", rife with her trademark guitar squalls.

Part of Clark's comparatively straightforward communication, though, is letting us know when she's struggling. On "Reckless", she's shaken by the idea that those she loves will one day be gone: "Hey, ma, I'm cracking up," she sings, her usual assured baritone morphing into a creaky falsetto. She uses industrial beats and repetition of phrases to mirror emotional states of panic or release, screaming over and over "What are you looking at?" during the outro of "Broken Man", ending the title track by consistently chanting "all born screaming" beside skittering drums and a propulsive synth line. At the same time, All Born Screaming still finds time for uplift. "Violent Times", laden with David Ralicke's cinematic horns, is a tribute to finding love and practicing art amidst societal chaos. And the gorgeous "Sweetest Fruit", a salad of synaptic synths, galivanting drums, and twangy electric guitars, is dedicated to queer creators like SOPHIE and political cartoonist Daniel Sotomayor who passed away far too young. Clark has spoken about how the act of screaming is a sign that you're alive. As such, All Born Screaming shows a newfound appreciation for her earthbound world.

Live, expect to hear much of All Born Screaming, plus standouts from St. Vincent's previous five or so records.

SPRINTS

Sunday

SPRINTS, 1:20 PM, Cabaret Metro Stage

They don't even have to begin their set with "Ticking", and SPRINTS are still guaranteed to keep you on the edge of your seat from start to finish. Yes, that song's build up of guitar, snare, and chanted vocals exemplifies the apex of the Dublin quartet's live intensity, but any of the hard-charging tunes on Letter to Self (City Slang), their terrific debut album, could introduce you to their urgent world. With SPRINTS, lead vocalist Karla Chubb sings about self-acceptance and love in the face of a world that stigmatizes depression and discriminates against queer folks, and she's got the might of Colm O'Reilly’s lead guitar, Sam McCann's groovy bass, and Jack Callan’s meaty drums to back her up. SPRINTS play early, and they might not play to a packed crowd, but everyone will leave a fan.

Tierra Whack, 5:00 PM, Rise Stage

Tierra Whack has been one of the most exciting figures in hip hop for the past half-decade. Her first major statement, her debut mixtape Whack World, consisted of 15 minute-long, world-building vignettes, each accompanied by a video. Her first three EPs introduced her as someone unafraid to blur genre lines, questioning the usefulness of such divisive tags to begin with. (They were appropriately titled Rap?, Pop?, and R&B?) Earlier this year, Whack finally released her debut studio album World Wide Whack (Interscope), and it's a proper emotionally complex follow-up to the identity struggles of Whack World. Sure, she flexes her rapping prowess and overall aura. "I make a dollar every time that my heart beats," Whack declares on "MS BEHAVE"; on "CHANEL PIT", she claims that--yes--at her concerts, the "mosh pit smell like Chanel." Much of World Wide Whack, though, is melancholy, delving into her anxiety and struggles with friendships and relationships. The nervous R&B of "BURNING BRAINS" is the sound of sensory overload, complete with pitch-shifted, molasses sweet, indecipherable backing vocals. On "IMAGINARY FRIENDS", built around a surf rock guitar line and minimal drums, she sings, heartbreakingly, " My last best friend, said he wish he didn't know me / His name was Oscar and he really hurt my feelings / When I grow up I want to hang from a ceilin'."

Whack often spits around understated, minimal production, and she references suicidal thoughts numerous times throughout World Wide Whack. But the album is not defeatist; instead, it's a statement of triumph despite her troubles. On "27 CLUB", talking through her ideations, Whack almost acts like her own guardian angel, showing herself what life would be like if she were gone. And the most joyous song on the record is "SHOWER SONG", a slice of Southern-fried synth funk about the joys of--you guessed it--singing in the shower. She adopts a nasal vocal style as if to emphasize her carefree attitude towards how she sounds, a moment where the ultimate curator is instead finding strength in her vulnerability.

It does take a good curator to put together an unforgettable live hip hop set, and Whack's likely to cull from her instant classic mixtape and new record at Riot Fest. Whether her mosh pit will smell like Chanel? To be determined.

[frostbite-the-bat]

[dream journey entry]

Saw looks to the moon somehow go emo evil after reading a pearl I gave her that overwrote her and she kept reading it as things kept beeping and she got disattached and like turned into a big lizard and I begin running and she follows me and there's other lizards going after my SLUGCAT but I keep living somehow

Then I was in?? Idk if wolf quest but I was a wolf straight up but we talked video game terms and at first I was talking to wishes about kieran and Would Kieran Be A Deer and we joke about it and I go "if kieran deer exists I may still need to hunt him" and I start running up the hill where I live and I hope people don't notice me and hurt me and I just need to get into the woods

Then when I'm there it's a little meadow in the woods where Ive got some pups and what's supposed to be my mate, some other wolf who didn't speak, and a friend who was new to this

We ran around in circles a bit and I notice my vision has a minimao. I then walk to the new friend and go - you stay and protect the pups I'm going to go hunt for them

Then as I head out THEN the looks to the moon dream happened sorry I got the order wrong but I'm not rewriting this is my journal. It started with me and salpho talking about some bendy game and then I'm inside of a factory and there's like steam and shit and then the ceiling breaks.. And it's a robotic and there's tubes that resembled guts and other things. I'm a slugcat now and I climb up. I obtain a mysterious pearl and the pov is now like how it is in actual rain world. THEN I get to lttm

After that I'm eating some snack on the bridge that's here irl and I'm looking at my house thinking IS MY MOM WATCHING... and I think man I want ice-cream. So I walk into the city and see the first shop is full and I don't go in. I go deeper to like the Plaza area and in a set up car shop there's my neighbor, selling ice-cream. He's talking to his son currently who's explaining to some other kid how his dad got here by bike

I wait for my turn to order and hear that the dad is watching a video and it has some song about "like Ken and Legos" and I look at the video and it's like a rap battle between someone's oc and muffin from bluey

And it was so fucking hilarious I like hold my head and just WHAT IS THIS

... Then my alarm rang and I woke up

Another part of the dream I remember I can't just remember WHEN it happened went like - I was with some friend in a place full off pools and I supposedly worked there with them and I had a bag of my stuff. At some point I kept falling in the water as we showed things off and I had to be pulled out but it was more of an inconvenience than anything. Some concert was said to be happening or smthn and we wanted to leave and I had 1 minute to pack all my stuff and hop into a bus but it was already full of stuff so all I had to put in was some snack and my switch

Then we're back at the water place except the interior and there's some trophies and we are setting them up... The were like little cars and one of them would start running once turned on and couldn't be displayed normally so I just sorta took it with me as a bunch of people looked at it

[hotfuss]

live debut of my god in las vegas, 16/4/22

credit: RebelDiamonds on youtube

[oddree13]

Steddie Midwest Emo AU

Steddie and honestly Stranger Things as a whole is ripe for a Midwest Emo AU. Maybe I've been listening to too much Front Bottoms or whatever, but I can't get it out of my head.

Because picture Steve leaving the Upside-Down for the last time and unable to cope with life. And Steve really doesn't think he needs the government-mandated therapy but the kids do, so he goes to set a good example. Because even after everything Steve is still trying his best for the Party even if nothing supernatural is coming after them.

The session start of basic, and he's convinced that the person he's assigned should have Eddie or Robin as a patient with how laid back and weird he is, but he's stuck with Tim for the foreseeable future and he'll deal. He deals until Tim one day brings up music therapy and Steve thinks he should just take the guitar Tim hands him and bash it over his head because he's here to process the hell of his life not learn an instrument.

"I'm not going to be any good at it, Tim."

"Who cares? You've got feelings, and yeah you might not have any skill now, and you may never, but it doesn't matter. Some of the most interesting music happens when your passion is bigger than the tools you have to deal with it. Isn't it great?"

And Steve thinks that Tim took one too many tabs in college but he takes home the acoustic guitar anyway.

It doesn't take long for Steve's passion to surpass his skill, and he really finds that he doesn't care. He doesn't care because he cries for the first time scribbling down his feelings about that spring break.

We keep playing with the numbers We are running out of time We are running, we are running But you're a killer and I'm your best friend Think it's unfair, your situation

He shows his shitty song to Tim who encourages him because for the in months Steve actually talked about something real and not just something he thought he should be talking about.

After a few more sessions and a few more songs, Tim passes him a flyer for an open mic night a few towns over.

"Is this mandatory?"

"If I made it mandatory would that make it easier?"

Steve doesn't nod but Tim tells him to go. So he goes and plays three of his discordant songs and some guy stops him after the show to let Steve know he plays drums. He doesn't understand why but he calls the guy a week later. Raul starts to provide the beat to Steve's arhythmic ranting and it's nice to have someone to just make something with that doesn't know what the catalyst is.

The party finds out when they notice Steve no longer picks the kids up from D&D on Fridays. He says it because they have their licenses. Eddie thinks he's lying.

Eddie, Robin, and Nancy trail him one random weekend and are surprised to find Steve's car parked in front of a bar that has a small line of people waiting to get in. Robin thinks maybe Steve just uses live music to escape but something tells Eddie it's more.

They go to the bar just in time for the MC to announce the lineup and just stand in shock as Steve takes the small stage. None of them get are able to voice their many questions because the drum starts, calling the room to attention, and Steve joins in with a simple three-chord strum.

I have this dream that I am hitting my dad with a baseball bat And he is screaming and crying for help And maybe halfway through, it has more to do with me killing him Than it ever did protecting myself And I believe that, yeah, Dad, maybe no one is perfect But I believe that you were pushing your luck

The trio exchange glances, and listen as for the first time they truly hear Steve Harrington express emotion that isn't carefully masked by a veneer. They watch in awe and don't move, afraid that if Steve sees them he'll stop.

After two more songs, Steve lets the crowd know it's his last one, and there's a collective murmur of discontent, but Steve just laughs. A girl in the front calls out asking him to make it a love song, and Steve tells her he doesn't have any of those, but he can get close enough. He checks in with Raul who starts a steady 4/4 beat for Steve. Before playing his guitar he tells the girl it's a song he wrote about 'a summer he tried trying to impress a guy.' As the crowd whoops, Nancy and Robin turn to look at Eddie who doesn't know what to think.

It's "The cops are coming in" type of sobering up It's a girl who'll never learn that I could not give a fuck My friends are happy, I am happy, I have learned to adapt It's a darker kind of humor and I can still hear them laugh

Because Eddie listens to the lyrics and if he didn't know better he'd think Steve was singing about the summer after spring break - the summer they were all coping, sometimes self-destructively. But then that would mean that-

He doesn't get a chance to finish that thought because Nancy elbows him. He looked up and sees that Steve has spotted them, but he doesn't look away. Instead, he locks eyes on Eddie as he repeats his declaration.

And I will remember that summer As the summer I was taking steroids 'Cause you like a man with muscles, and I like you

[shuckinbeanz]

All I Need is You, You

Credit to the lovely thaidoodles for our daily bread. 🙏

warnings/notes: reader is preggers, ya'll are married ofc like in all the other ones, and i totally think this song fits Denki, our Electrocutie #2. 💞

Underage characters are Aged Up!

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~Masterlist~

sickeningly sweet like honey under the cut! <3

You don't know how this escalated. Your husband was absolutely adorable. You had settled in the living room's couch and called the goofball up, missing his voice. He was out of town for a couple months. You listen to him begin to sing yours and his song, giggling happily.

'We are runnin' so fast And we never look back And whatever I lack, you make up We make a really good team And not everyone sees We got this crazy chemistry Between us'

It's been about a week since you found out you were pregnant, and two weeks since he left for work.

'Jump starting your car 'cause this city's a bore Buying e-cigarettes at the convenience store Making new clichés on our own little tour Let's ri-ee-i-ee-ide~'

You snort out laughter at the way he dramatically pronounces, hearing the grin in his voice.

'You don't have to say I love you to say I love you Forget all the shooting stars and all the silver moons We've been making shades of purple out of red and blue Sickeningly sweet like honey, don't need money'

You decide to join in on the fun, yourself, a little bit, singing along with him.

"All I need is you All I need is you, you~"

And he continues.

'We try staying up late But we both are light weights Yeah we get off our face, too easy And we take jokes way too far And sometimes living's too hard'

You join in again.

"We're like two halves of one heart We are, we are, we are~"

He repeats the chorus.

'You don't have to say I love you to say I love you Forget all the shooting stars and all the silver moons We've been making shades of purple out of red and blue Sickeningly sweet like honey, don't need money'

And you sing along one more time.

"All I need is you All I need is you, you~"

'Eat a pill stay and chill, you don't need to go I'm about to bring emo back if you leave my home I'd panic at the disco and you'd rather watch a TV show Then I'll squeeze your booty real hard like I'm kneading dough'

You laugh again, hearing the mischief in his voice.

'Pizza boy, I'm speeding for ya We can get married tonight if you really wanna!~'

You snicker to yourself at his serious tone, "We're already married, ya goof." as he continues.

'Me in a cheap suit like a sleazy lawyer~ And if you break this lil' heart, it'd be an honor~'

He repeats the chorus, one last time, as your mind wanders off. It's been a week since you found out you were pregnant. And he wouldn't be back for another month, at least. So, you figured telling him now would be a good time; better than letting him know when he comes home in a month. When he finishes singing, you open your mouth, the sound of your heart thudding in your ears too loudly to notice the muffled jingle of keys on his end, "Hey, baby?" you call, and he hums in reply, and the moment the front door located behind you opens, "I'm pregnant." you say, hearing his shocked sputtering behind you as well as over the phone, causing you to turn around to see his rather hilarious red-faced expression.

He was supposed to be out of town a couple months. Yet, here he was, home in two weeks. "You're pregnant?!" he finally exclaims, door wide open. You laugh, leaving behind the phone to launch yourself off the couch, running around it and into his arms. He hugs you tightly, a goofy grin on his face. "That's good news! Very, very good news! Can't wait to tell the gang!" he exclaims, shimmying you and him away from the door before kicking the door shut. Then suddenly, a pout replaces his grin as he releases you. "Wait. You didn't tell them first, did you? I mean--ow!" you halfheartedly smack him up beside his head, crossing your arms. "No. I was conflicted between telling you when you got home, or telling you sooner." you tell him. And like a switch, he brightens up again, plopping down his luggage before picking you up, making you squeal in surprise. "Good thing you told me now, then! 'Cuz I'm hooome!~" he exclaims, carrying you in a fireman's carry to the back of the house, as you laugh.

[tillxthexearthxstartsxtoxcrumble]

Review for the album "I Went To Hell and Back" by As It Is

I'm gonna go through each song and then I'm gonna do a whole album review at the end of this. Lowkey inspired by @/emilyblame here on Tumblr so go check out their post and follow them because they make absolutely amazing content.

Warning for the album- This album does have very dark moments, including mentions of wanting to end their lives.

IDGAF-

This song came out first from this album, and was written before all the other songs, according to the band. This song basically sums up the whole album really well, sound-wise and lyrically. It has a good sound, one of the heavier sounding songs on the album. This song is one of my favorites of theirs overall, partly because it began the new era that I got to see happen, partly because it's just such a good song.

I LIE TO ME-

I'll be completely honest, this one I wasn't the biggest fan of especially compared to all their other songs they had released. But this has definitely grown on me. It is probably the most pop-sounding song on the album, but still keeps the feel of the album.

ILY, HOW ARE YOU?-

Ronnie Ish, you fucking amazing human. He wrote this song, and it is such a sweet song. It's a song about checking up on a friend who isn't doing good without forcing them into talking about it. The sound is really good on this track, and it has a follow up song right after this with the response. This has honestly become one of my favorites on the album which I didn't expect to say, but it's true. This one isn't exactly sad in any way, it's a song about wanting your friend to be okay.

IDC, I CAN'T TAKE IT-

This is the response to the last song, where it yet again isn't the saddest song you will hear from this album, but it definitely has some really depressing lines. The sound on this one is also just so fucking amazing.

I'D RATHER DIE-

This was the first 100% new song on the album I'd heard and let me tell you- I really needed this song. It's my current favorite out of the newest ones, and it just speaks to me on so many levels. A lot of fans I've seen or even talked to agree with that statement, too, this is a popular favorite right now. It called me out on a personal level in the way of I related to basically every line in this song. It's one of the chillest sounding songs on this album, but the lyrics hit hard. I have no other way to put it other than this one hits home.

I MISS 2003-

This one is really not sad at all, but it's just a full on jam and I fuckin love it more than anything. I wasn't even alive in 2003 but I find myself wanting to sing this as loud as possible, it's just so good. Packed full with so many references to popular emo and pop punk songs from that time, it pays respect to all the people they look up to and loved at that time. They also had fans come out and film the music video for this one and they said it was a super fun time and that the band was super friendly so definitely check this one out.

I'M SICK AND TIRED-

Back to super sad songs. The sound starts going back to heavier at this point, too. This one I can't describe too well, it's just such a heavy song that I think will definitely go hard live.

I WANT TO SEE GOD-

This one I've seen a couple fans say they don't like and a couple say it's their favorite, I really don't get why anyone wouldn't like this one? Only reason I can think of is it mentions God, but other than that it's just so good. It goes hard. The song is actually really fucking sad. But this is one of the heaviest songs on the album, definitely a harder sound than IDGAF had in my opinion, about the same lyrics though. But I love this one.

IN THREES-

I can't express to you how much I love this one. If you're a fan of Set It Off or Jordy Purp you HAVE to check this out. It is a song with all three artists, it goes SO HARD. I listened to this one on repeat for so long, and it remains to be one of my favorite songs ever made. I actually can't wait to see this one live, I will be screaming every word. Cody's and Patty's voices mix really well in this, and it is just *chef's kiss*

I HATE ME TOO-

What can I say about this one, other than just ow. Who the fuck would hate on them, I don't know, but I just wanna talk. Also lowkey relatable as hell. I can't describe how hard this one hits me, I love this band so much I hate that it got to this point. But the sound on this track? BEAUTIFUL

I'M GONE-

I can't emphasize how much at this point how sad these songs get. But God, I'm addicted. This one also called me out and hurt on many levels. A good "crying-after-school" song

I DIE 1000X-

This is one of my other favorites, I love listening to this one. I can't even fully describe how or why I love this one, but I just do. It gets stuck in my head 24/7 and I will be listening to this song a lot before the concert.

I CAN'T FEEL A THING-

All the songs from "I'm Gone" to the end of the album just hurt so much and sound so good but I can't describe why. They all are songs you could scream at the top of your lungs and it'd feel so freeing.

I WENT TO HELL AND BACK-

This one is so calm. But it hurts so fucking much. I was crying a lot during this song, this is one that I related to so much and I just can't express how much this one means to me. This was the perfect song to be the title track, and it was good to put it at the end of this, because after all the rest of the songs, this one hits.

Whole album review-

This is such an emo album jfc. But like- in the best way possible. The songs are so catchy and relatable, the band members themselves are just so nice and funny. I can't encourage you enough to check out this album and the band in general, they're genuine and their songs show that. Each and every song on this album had me either crying or wanting to dance and yell the lyrics. Sometimes both. What more could you ask for from an album? But seriously, I liked all the songs and I also liked the whole playlist on YouTube in this post, so if you're just looking to casually listen to music while doing something or if you want to sit and pay attention to music, please try out this band. You won't regret it.

[candybowbeansies]

All I Need is You, You

Credit to the lovely thaidoodles for our daily bread. 🙏

warnings/notes: reader is preggers, ya'll are married ofc like in all the other ones, and i totally think this song fits Denki, our Electrocutie #2. 💞

Underage characters are Aged Up!

~Masterlist~

sickeningly sweet like honey under the cut! <3

You don't know how this escalated. Your husband was absolutely adorable. You had settled in the living room's couch and called the goofball up, missing his voice. He was out of town for a couple months. You listen to him begin to sing yours and his song, giggling happily.

'We are runnin' so fast And we never look back And whatever I lack, you make up We make a really good team And not everyone sees We got this crazy chemistry Between us'

It's been about a week since you found out you were pregnant, and two weeks since he left for work.

'Jump starting your car 'cause this city's a bore Buying e-cigarettes at the convenience store Making new clichés on our own little tour Let's ri-ee-i-ee-ide~'

You snort out laughter at the way he dramatically pronounces, hearing the grin in his voice.

'You don't have to say I love you to say I love you Forget all the shooting stars and all the silver moons We've been making shades of purple out of red and blue Sickeningly sweet like honey, don't need money'

You decide to join in on the fun, yourself, a little bit, singing along with him.

"All I need is you All I need is you, you~"

And he continues.

'We try staying up late But we both are light weights Yeah we get off our face, too easy And we take jokes way too far And sometimes living's too hard'

You join in again.

"We're like two halves of one heart We are, we are, we are~"

He repeats the chorus.

'You don't have to say I love you to say I love you Forget all the shooting stars and all the silver moons We've been making shades of purple out of red and blue Sickeningly sweet like honey, don't need money'

And you sing along one more time.

"All I need is you All I need is you, you~"

'Eat a pill stay and chill, you don't need to go I'm about to bring emo back if you leave my home I'd panic at the disco and you'd rather watch a TV show Then I'll squeeze your booty real hard like I'm kneading dough'

You laugh again, hearing the mischief in his voice.

'Pizza boy, I'm speeding for ya We can get married tonight if you really wanna!~'

You snicker to yourself at his serious tone, "We're already married, ya goof." as he continues.

'Me in a cheap suit like a sleazy lawyer~ And if you break this lil' heart, it'd be an honor~'

He repeats the chorus, one last time, as your mind wanders off. It's been a week since you found out you were pregnant. And he wouldn't be back for another month, at least. So, you figured telling him now would be a good time; better than letting him know when he comes home in a month. When he finishes singing, you open your mouth, the sound of your heart thudding in your ears too loudly to notice the muffled jingle of keys on his end, "Hey, baby?" you call, and he hums in reply, and the moment the front door located behind you opens, "I'm pregnant." you say, hearing his shocked sputtering behind you as well as over the phone, causing you to turn around to see his rather hilarious red-faced expression.

He was supposed to be out of town a couple months. Yet, here he was, home in two weeks. "You're pregnant?!" he finally exclaims, door wide open. You laugh, leaving behind the phone to launch yourself off the couch, running around it and into his arms. He hugs you tightly, a goofy grin on his face. "That's good news! Very, very good news! Can't wait to tell the gang!" he exclaims, shimmying you and him away from the door before kicking the door shut. Then suddenly, a pout replaces his grin as he releases you. "Wait. You didn't tell them first, did you? I mean--ow!" you halfheartedly smack him up beside his head, crossing your arms. "No. I was conflicted between telling you when you got home, or telling you sooner." you tell him. And like a switch, he brightens up again, plopping down his luggage before picking you up, making you squeal in surprise. "Good thing you told me now, then! 'Cuz I'm hooome!~" he exclaims, carrying you in a fireman's carry to the back of the house, as you laugh.

[chamaleonsoul]

Okay so, it's been two days since my 5sos show and I think I've processed it enough to talk about it and do it justice.

It was amazing. The place and the people were buzzing with energy and that translated beautifully into me barely being able to hear the band clearly because we were singing louder. I didn't know it was the biggest show of the tour until Ash tweeted it, and honestly the effort everyone in the crowd put into singing at the top of their lungs made me feel so proud.

Of course I knew they were a great live act, but being there and hearing it and feeling it was a whole another thing. They sound fucking good. They never miss a note whether is singing or playing. And Luke's voice is amazing ofc.

Some moments that took me by surprise (because the songs hit harder than I expected) were Complete Mess, Best Years and Lover of Mine. I got chills (specially during the last chorus of cm).

Moments that didn't took me by surprise (because I just knew) were Take My Hand<3 (that song speaks volumes to me), Red Desert (their harmonies right after Ash's moment is Something), Talk Fast (blessed), 2011 (because I'm a nostalgic bitch by nature), Jet Black Heart and of course Youngblood. Specially jbh made me feel and understand (again, i knew this already) how many lives they've touched with their music and fuck that makes me so emo i want to cry. I was expecting to cry then and there, but it didn't happen because I think I was too overwhelmed to do it lol

I also love, love, love the power they have live with songs like No Shame, Teeth, If Walls Could Talk and More. They go hard and I love that so so much (and I hope the new album keeps that energy somewhere).

Speaking of power and energy: Ashton Irwin. I'm not comparing, but I figured cake would take all of my attention (cos that's how it works) but, wow. Like, no. They did capture my attention for sure (Luke is literally unreal, he looks and sounds like an angel and Calum feels like he was made of marble and silver and gold) but Ashton —even though he was the farthest from me (like 15 meters or so), I was still jumping as high as I could (bear in mind the space around me was so limited during most of the show) just to watch him. And he has such... something as a 'front' man. This kind and bright but firm voice of command when he talks to the crowd and that was something to behold. It felt as if we were all in the palm of his hand, willing to do anything he asked us to. Even when a lot of people don't speak english, I could see everyone's willingness to just obligue him. (Needless to say I'm now completely enchanted and enamoured by him).

Moving on. Michael was so sweet and gentle, and plays so effortlessly like ?

So yeah. I love this band and their music but mostly I love the people they seem to be and their compromise to bring people together. I can't wait to see them again and experience this magical thing and hopefully meet them one day (fingers crossed).

[bedtimebrain]

EXO Baekhyun: Speedpost!

(while i've been having fun with all these drawings in my past few posts, i must admit i almost puked when i looked at this one as i was uploading today. for the sake of our eyes will nicely put a stop to this soon :,D)

Char: baek x u Genre: military baek, fluff!, needy (?) reader Description: you thought you could do just fine with baek in the military, but it seems like you actually need him a little more than you think Word Count: 1.3k Track for feels: Avril Lavigne, Wish you were here

You honestly thought you were the kind of strong and independent girlfriend. The kind that would do absolutely fine when your boyfriend enlists.

But truth be told, you barely scrape past this week, and it has only been a week since baek enlisted. Doubts, doubts. Could you even hold it together for another 2 more weeks? You remember just the day before baekhyun's enlistment, he deliberately teased you with fake sobbings,

'babe, will you cry if i'm not around? you might miss me so much it's too much for you to bear right? if you..'

you simply scoffed and cut him off

'ya, byun baekhyun, i'm afraid i would have to disappoint you. i am very much a busy and independent woman. i will do just fine with you enlisting. plus we will probably get to call once in a while, i can live with that'

you smugly folded your arms, sending an attack to his ego

In hindsight, the attack went out like a boomerang and came right back at you. You can already imagine baekhyun playfully gloating

'Strong independent woman, jagiya?'

Perhaps it might all be better if a wreck package hadn't self-invited itself to your life this week.

First of all, your boss decided it was a good idea to throw your proposal back in your face. Next, your very considerate across-the-globe client planned a conference call close to sleeping time in korea. As if it all couldn’t be worse, you overheard a juicy conversation your colleagues were having about you in the washroom.

All these just made you want to run right to baekhyun. To lie on his lap, throw punches at him and hear him flame your life perpetrators with the most nonsensical phrases.

During the day, all you looked forward to was your phonecalls with baek. But who knew even a phonecall date would be as hard to fulfil as climbing mount Everest.

Apart from the first day, every other day the past week was met full of hiccups. Either you were caught up with conference calls and work, or baek was cutting too close to lights out for a long call.

You call it baek crumbs, yes you were surviving on baek crumbs.

There was still sometime left before your phonecall date tonight. You yanked open your refrigerator in search of your alternative destress mechanism -- chocolates. You sighed at your depleting chocolate stash, physically indicating how badly you needed baek.

Back on the sofa, you swallowed down Freddo and you plugged in your earphones like an emo teen, randomly choosing a song radio to play.

As if Siri heard your inner thoughts, the radio chose to play Avril Lavinge's Wish You Were Here. Before you know it, you were a crying mess.

It's not even like you guys were breaking up, but the lyrics were literally stabbing into your heart But right now i wish you were here.... Damn, what i'd do to have you here ...

You were pathetically brawling away when baekhyun's call came in. Suppressing your heavy sobbing, you picked up the phone after a couple of rings at this untimely moment.

'Jagiya, i've 15minutes today! How have you been? You wouldn't believe what happen today! Jagi? Are you there?' His animated voice died down and he held a pause.

'Are you crying? y/n why are you crying? what happened?' you hear a hint of panic in his voice

Baekhyun was fast at catching on things, your quietness, shakey breathes and suppressed hitches were more than enough to indicate a red flag to him.

You had intended for tonight's call to be a fun and not your emotional health hotline help. Taking a deep breath, you tried to put up a front, and with your most stable voice, replied him

'ya, what crying? so what happened with you today?'

'ya, stop bullshitting me. you're crying, what's up with you?' turning all serious, he wasn't going to let you dodge this

you bit down hard on your lip, you couldn't get a syllable out of your throat, afraid the moment you did so you would break down completely.

'damn it, i would totally break the law just to bring a camera phone in so you cannot hide your face from me. tell me please?' he sounded urgent and frustrated, but gentle in asking you to tell him

'baekhyun ah, i can't do this anymore. i thought i could, but why is it so difficult' your voice cracked and you burst into hot tears

'i haa-d such a bad week and i just want..want.. to tell you about it every night. but our time together is always so short that by the time it got to my turn to tell you about my day.........the call ends. and.. and.. i don't know..... what to do about all these on my own..with--without you' you were wailing and possibly incomprehensible by now

'ya..y/n-ie, mi an hae. jeongmal mi an. i just realised i hadn't even heard about how your day went this entire week. i always got so carried away telling you about me, i wasn’t considerate enough.'

Almost running out of tears, you regain your composure quickly

‘Jagi, I’m not blaming you. Please don’t take it that way, it’s just.. I really wish you were around.’

The call suddenly went silent on the other sides, then you heard some low shouts in the background

‘Baekhyunie?’ You guess it was probably an early roll call again

A few moments later, baekhyun was back on the call.

‘Jagi, I’m sorry, I’ll probably have to go soon, the sergeant’s checking my barracks next.

Anyway, I actually had something I wanted to give you the night before I enlisted, but you insisted you were an independent and busy woman....’

His sentence was left broken with a sudden series of clattering like his phone had dropped. You heard louder shouts this time round, then a hurried whisper from Baekhyun

‘Jagi, check the right drawer under your table alright. I got to go now, mi an.’

‘Ah, okay.. saranghae’ and the call was dropped.

You know it was beyond Baekhyun’s control when he had to end the call. But it still didn’t stop you from feeling down at the abrupt goodbye.

Forcing a smile on your face for the sake of your own, you went to your table as baekhyun had told you.

Right drawer under the table?

Pulling open the drawer to find a floral patterned metallic box.

Was baek referring to this?

Popping open the metal box you gasp at the contents scattered within. With a hand over your mouth, you could feel your eyes welling up with tears again.

Chocolates. Lots of chocolates. Fanciful chocolates. Notes... byun baekhyun actually wrote notes for you?

He never once made you cards no matter how hard you ‘jaebal’ for him to. He would just say

‘Too difficult’

‘Too bothersome’

‘Suck at handicraft’

You pulled out the longest note in the entire box and couldn’t help but chuckle when you saw his scrawls

Annyeong Jagi! I bet you would choose this to read first cause it’s the longest. Did I guess it right?ㅋㅋ i wrote a letter to my beloved EXO-Ls, and I thought, how could I not leave you with one? Y/N, you see the chocolates in this box? I went to the candy store that day and picked them individually for you. Because I’m not around, I thought you might need them more. If you have a hard time when I’m away, take a chocolate and a note, enjoy them and think about me. Thank you for waiting, nae sarang, very soon I’ll be with you again. ^^

On the table, your phone vibrated and your screen lit up.

A msg from baekhyun:

Found my speedpost? Saranghae, wool ji ma(dont cry). Let’s call again tmr, goodnight!

You were smiling and crying like a fool by now. With a vision blurred by your tears, you typed a reply

Ya byun Baekhyun. Gumawo.... saranghae

Surely, you must have saved a nation your past life for you to meet byun baekhyun.

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I was watching EXO arcade and this super random thought came to mind, do yall think their new album concept actually came from EXO arcade?

Like maybe they had been planning a season 2 all along and a new album. But they couldn’t think of a concept, so tada! Arcade, games! For their album concept~ Is there any talk like this circulating, hahah, hope I’m not late to the party then.