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1st pic - raven yapping to swallowtail :3
2nd pic - ratio and raven yapping about aeroplanes/aviation !!
3rd pic - swal and ratio going on an ice cream date
4th pic - ratio scolding swal for being sleep deprived (while the latter sleeps)
#luminari loses his mind.#hsr oc#hsr ocs#hsr oc x canon#oc x canon#to clarify#raven is aroace#swal is the pan icon#swalposting !#ravenposting !#silly sibling brainrot#rattail /j#i'm slowly letting them out#dr ratio x oc
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anyone interested in talking about the iconic 2000's middle-grade-bordering-on-ya book series gallagher girls??
#okay incoming rant about this series#i read the first book when i was 10 or 11 and i was absolutely obssessed with it. i read it so many times i had the entire story memorized#the issue was that i could not find the rest of the series anywhere. it was either sold out or out of stock#and then i found out that only the first 3 books had been translated into my first language so at that point i kinda gave up on them#anyway#flashforward to a couple of weeks ago#i was re organizing my bookshelf and on the back i found LYKY (is this how y'all are abreviating it??)#and remembred how much i loved it#and since i'm now fluent in english and was stuck at home recovering from a surgery i decided to download the entire series and read it#to find out what the fuck happened afterwards#long story short i read all six books in 4 or 5 days#and i haven't stopped thinking about them since#it's actually so funny how little information we have in the first book#i went all of these years thinking it was mostly a silly series about a boarding school for spies when actually SO MUCH happens afterwards#i can't believe i went all of these years unaware of zach goode's existence#truly character of all time#but also i can't stop thinking about how interesting it would have been if zach had come to hate the circle and his mom during the series#rather than before#make it a true enemies to lovers#and have us witness that portion of his character developement in real time instead of being told about it#like him slowly realizing through cammie and his time at gallagher that maybe what they were doing is wrong#i think it would have been very interesting to read#although let's be real it took me until halfway through book four to trust him and he was fully one of the good guys so..#but yeah i have a lot more to say but these tags are long enough#gallagher girls#okay i just want to add another funny anecdote about my experience with this series#my copy of LYKY has an age warning in the back recomending that readers should be above 13 yo to read it#and i distinctly remember finishing it and thinking the warning was kind of dumb bcs besides a few mentions of death and other heavier topi#nothing really happened#and now i realize it was a warning for the rest of the series not just the first book because jesus fucking chirst everything after
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#goddd the anxiety of having a book 'done' and letting ppl read it and send out queries to agents#the looming threat of a bad opinion on it#friends of mine have it now and are slowly starting to read it#am i offended that some of them don't seem interested at all? yes#like that's my life's work#if it's a failure then i'm fucking heartbroken#of course i will keep writing but don't be a fucking dick about my firstborn#also this is all in my head bc no one has sad anything yet :)#nothing at all :)#except for a few awesome ppl on here...#god. tumblr the safe haven as usual#my posts
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UHH REMINDER ALSO SINCE I HAVE BEEN SHARING A LOT MORE NEGATIVE THINGS LATELY that amid literally everything that's been going on, there are still things that you can do to retain control in your life in at least some areas!! not everyone can actively protest right now, not everyone has the means and that is OKAY! do what you can when you can!!
this post is a wall of text of me rambling about things you can do Right Now in your community or to keep yourself happy and motivated and going. it's a long one so it's going under read more. I also talk a lot more in the tags
i also use terms like Current Events a lot so I also apologize for the vagueness in some places!! I do not know if this will get flagged if I get more specific and my account has tried to go down twice now
#1: BONDING WITH YOUR COMMUNITY (WITH PERSONAL SAFETY IN MIND)
getting involved in your local community is a big big big thing I've seen talked about lately and I agree with that entirely!! the #1 best thing I feel like anyone can do right now is either volunteering at local support groups or getting involved in local activism
if you have a local community you can connect with for whatever reason then that's absolutely a good idea for both practical and emotional reasons. it can be for anything really, actually. reach out to friends, reach out to family, keep talking to people if you have the energy! it really does make a difference!
^ related to the above, if you can involve yourself in volunteer work, or mutual aid, or just helping others out in some other way, then absolutely do that! you can start with asking around, or searching up aid or other groups that may need extra help in your area, and go from there!!
I see a lot of people have been saying for months to organize and then absolutely no one ever explains how to organize, and if you don't plan on starting something up Yourself that is how you get involved. you find like minded people and you lend your hands. I just looked up "volunteers needed/mutual aid [insert town here]" and went off of that
and there are a lot of different places people might need assistance for. one example being food banks, pantries, are basically always accepting new donations -- if you have produce, not all of them will accept it due to safety regulations, but a local community garden might! libraries also will exchange more than books, and protecting libraries by showing involvement and interest in them is important now more than ever
local businesses, emergency aid if you have the certification, environmental work and disaster cleanup, assisted living areas, shelters, a lot of other specific areas I can't name right now. if you are physically able to seek out support and give back in turn (and if you aren't able to do one or both of these that's also okay!!) i highly highly recommend it. mutual aid especially goes both ways. do not be afraid to reach out for help, that is what they're there for
speaking of libraries!
#2: KEEP INFORMED
this can refer to a lot of different things, but on a federal and local level it is never ever ever a bad thing to keep up to date with what's going on. anyone trying to do bad things on a government level is relying on you not noticing or staying uninformed in the invent that you do notice. keep track of what's going on in your area and plan accordingly!!
keeping up with the news (and fact checking, always, because journalism isn't always ethically practiced), finding where your local city hall or equivalent is and staying up to date on local legislation, has always been important for safety and especially is right now. know how to determine a reliable source from an unreliable one, and know how to pick apart the difference between fact and misconstrued ideas spoken as fact. I'll probably make a post on that too at some point and link it here when I'm done
it is overwhelming to hear just how much is getting worse so quickly, but it's crucial that you don't allow yourself to become unaware, because that makes you easier to lie to. you do not have to work yourself to burnout or to a breakdown, please take breaks whenever you need to and put your own health first!!
but don't do yourself the disservice of not knowing what's happening around you. I want everyone to be as safe as they can, and to be safe you have to be informed
#3: FIND SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO (AND ALSO KEEP CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE EVEN IF IT'S IN SMALL WAYS)
staying up to date on current events has been overwhelming for me, but it also has helped me to maintain a sense of control in my life. and there are a lot of other ways to do that, too, and also give you sources of happiness and things to still look forward to! I'm listing what works for me but I'm sure there's infinitely more ways to pull that off
taking up or getting back into hobbies or interests is a very effective way to keep joy in your life, and this goes double if you're sort of stuck in your house like I am most days. you should get to do things that make you happy!! you deserve to still have things to look forward to!!!
I've also been personally using my interests to try to learn how to do more practical things that might help me and the people I live with; I'm a gardener so I've been working on trying to grow food, starting with sweet peppers. don't know if I'll end up needing that one day (or if my neighbors might, but as the economy completely fucks itself it could get very useful very fast), but having the knowledge and the means helps me feel more in control of what happens in my personal life, and it really has made me feel better and have a source of hope
I really hope that everyone who sees this is doing as well as they're able right now. saying all of this because I don't want to contribute to any ideas of complete hopelessness, if that makes sense. there are things worth getting up in the morning for and every one of you matters and you deserve to be happy. and I love you /p
even if you aren't utilizing your hobbies in that way (again, PERFECTLY fine, do what you need to forever), something like that might be useful for you, too! you can learn new skills or read up on all those things you already wanted to look into but kept putting off, you can carve out a little space in your world for Joy and for Whimsy if you don't have one already! it's good for you!! it's incredible in fact!!
#important#i don't usually write the srs posts myself since others are FAR better with their words than i am. it's the autism I know it is#but I haven't seen a lot of posts (or really any at all. to be honest) about what can be done about everything very rapidly going to hell#and when you see all of this constant awful news back to back and no way or means to protect yourself it's very very easy to feel doomed#and hopeless. and all those other things. and that's not good either. it's unfair to you#it's more productive and i feel like more helathy for your psyche if you use the updates we keep getting of Bad thing after Bad thing --#-- to prepare. to plan in advance and do what you have to do to be safe. your top priority right now should be protecting yourself#physically and emotionally! whatever that looks like for you#on top of branching out with my gardening I've also been slowly getting back into weightlifting (being disabled i Have to take it slowly)#and I've been researching first aid. i hope to take a class if I'm ever able#that's what works for me. your situation migjt be completely different. do what works for you right now#and remember you have support! you have people who are there for you! check in on your friends and let them check in on you!!#if anyone needs me for anything at all my dms and ask box are open. literally anything i dont care if we've never spoken before#protect yourself in any way you can and do not lose hope. there is so much worth living for even if i hate that we have to wait for it#you are IMPORTANT you are VALUED you are LOVED#you CAN make it. i know you can#you deserve! to be! okay!
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.......... Solas helping Lavellan tighten her corset......
#solavellan#like prerelationship#his hands lingering as he slowly tightens them#methodically ensuring that its just tight enough#feeling her heat radiate from her#aching to pull her close#hed do some elaborate elvhen knot and then go i learned it in the Fade#he just wanted to show off#then when he finally had to let her go he tightened his hands so he didnt reach out to pull her back again#anyway I'm yearning at work
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Even the use of the term 'queer identity' in prev are we sure you're not reading out of the brochure 🤔
#I'm in the 21st century I think 100% of my friends are queer and/or lgbt (yes all at once) at this point#and yet i don't flat-out point-blank ask how people identify when it's not offered and doesn't affect me*#I'm tired of everyone my age only having socialized online and thus talking like american psychos with caards#part of the joy of intimacy is slowly learning about one another- let's not lose that to gay hogwarts houses#and it makes 'changing your mind' about sex and gender (extremely normal part of living a life) that much harder/stigmatized too#*example of exceptions to the rule would include things like neopronouns#considered 'unusual' and hard to intuit through conversation + does affect me because i need to know and use them#fanfiction#<- for my own tag
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Had a weird Hollow Knight-related dream a couple days ago, so I decided to draw a major scene I remembered from it dgsgshf
More context will be in the tags, for those interested!
#hollow knight#little ghost#hk ghost#the knight#hk hornet#hornet#alright. as of writing these tags it's been a week since the original dream so! let's see what i remember dgsgsgf#i was playing a game. which was a sequel to hollow knight ((Not silksong though))#there was some new sort of divine infection in hallownest and hornet had asked ghost to investigate it. they ended the last one after all!#the red glowy spike gate thingy is what you jumped into to enter the 'infected' areas#though it actually led directly to a hub world type of place. which was kinda like an expanded base for the grimm troupe?#more like an entire lair instead of a camp. also some greek gods were there for some reason lmao. they had their own special rooms too#so sidenote but- new headcanon that there are grimm troupe members named ares athena artemis &... venus lmao. not aphrodite for some reason#also monomon was there?? i think??? except she was cooking????? she had a sidequest to deliver something to someone though i dunno hdgfhdgh#i remember going back to the grimm troupe lair a couple times throughout my 'playthrough'#anyway. the 'infection' this time around was more of a glitchy physical corruption thing? rather than a mind corruption.#though there were still aggressive enemies to fight. but i remember getting a map from cornifer early on and he was. probably infected#i think part of his body was covered in electricity or something? so he wasn't fully visible? but he was still acting normally#there was also a moth who was the seer but then later wasn't the seer (but was still the same moth) dghgdhf. i delivered stuff to her#that glowing white wall thing in the drawing was like a one-way gate. you could only cross it from the other side and ghost came from there#i guess things looped back up somehow i dunno ghdgfhgf#anyway. ghost's red eyes. those are significant! those happened while i was walking through a corridor. it had pools of shallow water#(shallow enough to just walk through) and also creatures that were lightseeds but red.the implication was that they were full of Blood lmao#and as i went along killing them--as one does--as i walked through the hall. they started turning the water red too#there was also narration about this as it was happening ashdgsf. specifically the narrator said the water turned red before it actually did#ghost's eyes slowly turned red too. but aside from that they were fine! since. they're the player character and the player is perfectly fin#BUT. when they encountered hornet again. she thought they were infected. and that she lost the only family she had left </3#she didn't attack though. instead she just jumped into the red spike gate without a word. decided to try to fix everything herself#but eventually you'd encounter her again down below and she'd fight you. didn't actually get to that in the dream though#aand i'm out of tags </3 i wanted to talk about what i'd do to make this make more sense as an au or something now that i'm awake but. :c
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When you figure out have to characterise Gale Dekarios without getting a headache lmk
honestly soothing to know this is a Universal Experience
#gale dekarios#baldur's gate 3#bg3#oakweave#I think it's also when you put him next to Halsin that it becomes so much harder#because a lot of popular fic including Gale is Bloodweave and then you can easily fall back onto a bouba/kiki dynamic#but these two are some bouba/bouba motherfuckers#so you have to define them beyond that but ALSO beyond their magical capabilities#because both of their characters are so rooted in having a complicated relationship with being defined by their abilities#while at the same time allowing them to be coloured by their experiences?#which is INSANE because I don't have a 17 intelligence!!!!#I'm not even a native speaker!!! how the fuck am I supposed to emulate Gale's speech pattern in a SECOND LANGUAGE smh#at least halsin has the fucking decency to have an 8 intelligence. thank you good sir#but yeah no this rarepair is a puzzle that I cannot figure out#compels me though#(in other words I've veeerrrrry slowly been working on something while procrastinating all the cleaning I have to do in my house)#(it is deeply self-indulgent and so far Gale has been Entirely Too Quiet to be in character)#(and honestly? I am going to try and Care Less because hey man. come on.)#(do try to let your hobbies be FUN)#flipcitrus#sorry i forgot to tag you i am Bad at Tagging
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I brought in some homemade peanut butter fudge for my coworkers, today, as well as some ornaments as little holiday gifts, and everyone who saw me expressed appreciation ... it felt really nice, I won't lie. Just ... to do something small for others like this. And I've been noticing that whenever I reach out and try to help or comfort or offer something to someone else, it makes me feel a bit better.
I think sending out tree messages yesterday had a similar effect, and helping the kiddos on Thursday with building gingerbread houses and making shakers for their sing-a-long. It's hard to put into words, but it feels like I'm finally coming out of the funk I've been in, and it's because I'm choosing to be kind in spite of everything I'm going through.
#I think it's fair to say 2024 was really hard on me ... but I'm glad I'm ending it on a strong note#we still have a ways to go before the new year‚ but I feel happier than I have in a long time#and I'm going to choose to be kind and positive rather than letting myself constantly stew in bitterness#I'll be doing my best to sort out this blog before the new year comes‚ but I won't try to do more than I can realistically do#also I wanted to say thank you to you guys‚ again /gen#I haven't been the most active here but it means a lot that you're all still here#I'm very slowly allowing myself to enjoy things again and express the same passion I did in the past#so hopefully I'll seriously get back into posting about my ships and Project Moon stuff soon#I have many thoughts and opinions--as usual /lh#I also want to start replaying Linbus from the beginning ... I think it's time to take a crack at rewriting it with Sherry as a Sinner#I'm going to try and finish reading Red Chamber‚ first‚ though--because I think I want to liveblog things when I replay#just share it with you guys ... I want you to know why I love it and the characters so much--and also why I dislike certain characters#okay--this got long‚ but I do seriously feel a lot better#and the fact it's on RolEva anniversary too ... perhaps I will finally post about them again#scattered pages
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One of my favorite hobbies to engage in is ignoring the canon course of video game romances
#yes my warden in an open relationship will have a foursome at the pearl#and yes I will continue to have Morrigan sleep with Orest after the “I love you and I hate it” conversation#I am digging into her brain so deep rn#morri seeing sex as the main manipulation tool she has and being so scared to have orest be just In Love With Her#she says no to his invitation of sex once and he just goes oh okay I'm sorry#I still love you that's okay#and it scares the bejesus out of her#time to keep fucking him so I can pretend that he just wants me for my body#time to let him fuck other people so it'll be easier for him to leave me in the end#I can't have him so dependent on me for his happiness or else it will destroy him (the man I love) in the end#I have to let him leave my side slowly or else he'll die if I separate myself from him I saw what happened with his ex-lover (tamlen)#let him be happy with zevran or leliana or anyone#fool woman he will never let you leave and never stop loving you#I love morrigan and her fucked up relationship with intimacy so much#orest is also especially easy to think you're manipulating because he acts so stupid (and it's only partially an act)#he loves so openly and so intensely and yet he's also clearly very easily drawn in with the appeal of a Nice Ass#I could talk about them forever#I'm editing an old fic to better fit with their dynamic and the canon of the romance#and the orest x morri content I've written since I first wrote this fic#and this doesn't just apply to orest and morrigan#I ignore that tamlen and gorim are female warden LIs only#I ignore that Blackwall is “straight” (blackwall may be but thom isn't that's for sure)#I do whatever the fuck I want with da2#anyway time to stop rambling in the tags and actually get back to writing#dragon age#dragon age origins#dragon age ii#dragon age inquisition#original content#and mainly
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do you think the fact that its never stated that anthea and concordia's last names are "harmonia gropius" like it is for n and ghetsis is intentional. like it may just be because they're severely underutilized, but n and ghetsis had their names specifically stated in the directors columns and a fan meeting respectively.
n mentions he was given the name harmonia, did ghetsis withold that name from anthea and concordia on purpose? if he did, why? he'd still need them to trust him, so they'd keep raising n in his place. not sharing that name is maybe an effort to distance himself, maybe he only cared about n having that level of trust with him?
#clai speaks#alder trying to fill out government documents for them bc ghetsis never did and finding its a nightmare#''what do you mean you Don't have a last name'' ''fath-- ghetsis didnt give either of us one'' ''n has one??'' ''we're not n i guess''#ooo do you think n and by extension a&c would change their last name#n holds on to it for a very long time i think. idk if he would ever actually get rid of it but sometimes i think about it#learning to slowly let go of his awful past and his awful excuse of a dad yknow#but also just thematically. the name fits him too well HDUGDHF#cant imagine n being called anything but natural harmonia gropius. its also such a pretty name#i'm getting offtopic. i've never even seen Fans call them ''anthea harmonia'' or whatever its JUST Anthea/Concordia#its just interesting to me that the reveals for n and ghetsis were so deliberate and its radio silence on a&c
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it's another day im talking to more people about time sensitive things but this time there's a NEW time sensitive thing that i wasn't even made aware of until NOW and somehow this is MY fault ,
#''you were supposed to talk to [x] about [y] to give them a week in advance'' I WAS? NOBODY TOLD ME!!!!#NObboOdy told me this#we brought up this subject multiple TIMES and you never thought to tell me EARLIER ?#BABE WE GOT 5 DAYS INCLUDING TODAY AND DAY OF#RRAAAAAAAAGHHHHHH#I'M STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok normal again.#Breathes in really deep and lets it out real slowly and then grins and gives a thumbs up#clamtalk
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show tempe gang crossover with the morris islanders would actually have been the best episode of bones ever. btw
#please ignore the rest of the tags i will just be making things up#okay they start out in carolina but at least half the episode takes place in dc. do not ask me how travel logistics would work#tory spends the entire episode off with tempe doing bone stuff. booth feels upstaged by a 16-year-old girl#so he goes and hangs out with ben who does NOT trust him right off the bat#ben ends up having to run him over to liri at some point because there's crime afoot and tom is busy. they spend most of the ride in silenc#ofc they end up bonding Eventually because they are both obsessed with crazy emotionally stunted redheads named t brennan#tory is more effective than any of the squinterns and manages to piss hodgins off so bad just by existing#coop hangs out in the lab as saroyan tries to kick him out thirty times. he just keeps showing up and she can't prove who's letting him in#(it's tempe.) angela loves tory but tory does not love angela back. saroyan tolerates her. sweets likes her but knows she's hiding somethin#comes to the conclusion that she can read her friends minds and slowly drives himself crazy because obviously that can't be true#tory brings hi along whenever she needs someone with people skills and he is MORE than happy to participate in a hodgins experiment#hi gets to be king of the lab for about ten minutes. shelton hits it off with angela immediately and they solve half the case together#booth fucking HATES hi because he's evasive and really good at the manipulation thing. booth can't win verbal sparring and he gets Big Mad#at one point the four of them are in an interrogation room together (MISTAKE) because tory had them meddling a little too close to the sun#and booth is trying so hard to question them which didn't work even when they COULDN'T read each other's minds#tory figures out who did it and hi steals her thunder a la shrek wasnt vandalized he gave birth#temperance tells tory 'i know you've got a secret sweets told me and even though i don't trust psychology i find he's insightful' etc etc#tory's like well i might be but i can't tell you it's not just my secret and you wouldn't believe me anyway#because let's be real tempe WOULDNT believe her#meanwhile saroyan convinced by sweets paranoia managed to get a sample of tory's blood and test it and is like HEY WHAT THE FUCK#gets hodgins and they just stare at the results together and delve into conspiracy theories. he's like i KNEW there were werewolves#they debate telling tempe but know it wouldnt end well for the kids and decide to get rid of the evidence. but hodgins is SO smug#also angela spends the whole episode trying to convince everyone hi and shelton are dating and no one believes her#they finally see them kiss or something and they're all somehow floored and angela's just like yeah? duh?#if anyone read this i'm sorry and why
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The 'blessing' of having a shitty memory is that I can read my own fanfiction and experience it as if it was an old favorite I haven't read in so long that I forgotten all the details of. I read a lot of fanfic, sometimes you just rediscover something you enjoyed and forgotten about. Wow, look at this story, it's exactly to my taste, isn't that wild? What a coincidence.
The curse of having a shitty memory is if the fic is unfinished then I will have only the vaguest idea about what's supposed to happen next, even when I have an outline (I have a very hard time sticking to outlines anyway, so it's less of a help than you'd think). I sure hope The Author will return from the war and finish this story because I have no idea what comes next and even if I have an idea, I will be hesitant to continue the story because what if the version of the character now living in the back of my head is different then that one that was there when I wrote the first part, so readers will feel like the suddenly turn OOC?
#shut up tc#so I started rereading In Tune today#and I love it. I only have the vaguest memories of the arc where YQY beats a slaver to death but it sure has my handle on it huh#the background worldbuilding is coming back to me slowly.#and I remember these characters#but you could lay out the plot step by step and I would not be able to tell you that I wrote this#part of it is bc my writing style is like#I put the characters in Situations and then let them do what they would do#sometimes I give them a nudge towards the outline#I know as the author I should have control over these characters but I'm not sure they agree
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OC-tober 22 - "The All Seeing Eye of The Commander's Shadow"
Meisi belongs to @cheddargoblin
(tyvm tucking him into my pocket)
#gw2#bweirdoctober#guild wars 2#gw2 oc#others ocs#asura#gw2 asura#art#RRRAAAARGHHHHHH MEISI#i fucking........i'm gripping him in my fist so so so tightly#to be the mastermind helping the commander#to have that work relationship slowly erode your friendship with them#but i'll still be loyal and stand by your side and move you in the logical direction#i'll do what you cannot even if i'm starting to lose understanding of why#i cant let you go i wont bear to let you go i will keep moving you forward long after you've wanted to give up#shaking and trembling#also the fact he can see ghosts is SO COOL its so cool#SORRY i did totally just go and add an eye effect bc i thought it would suit him lmfao#i thought it would be sick if he had a cool eye effect if he ever purposely channeled or tried to seek a ghost out or smth....#just know i'll be eagerly sitting and absorbing everything you post about him#HOPE U LIKE THIS...SORRY I GAVE HIM A FANG BC I THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE#<- tags from a week ago
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whatever you do, dont think abt Linger by the Cranberries but it's Nandor's pov 🥲
#nandermo#wwdits#what we do in the shadows#guillermo de la cruz#nandor#ohhh i thought the world of you~#I thought nothing could go wrong But I was wrong#I was wrong~#when Harvey made that post abt s5 and Linger i obvs thought he ment from Guillermo's pov#but now im like???#its about someone knowing their partner is cheating on them and their relationship is slowly fading away#and they just want them to tear the bandaid off so to speak#instead of draging out this torture of lingering#And I'm in so deep You know I'm such a fool for you You got me wrapped around your finger~#Do you have to let it linger?~
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