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Hi! I hope this doesn't come out as rude but...it's starting to sound like you're getting yourself really overwhelmed with all those drafts. Maybe you should consider stop posting starter calls and memes, at least for a couple or weeks? I'm sure that your mutuals will understand, also because this way you'll be able to get back at them more properly and to continue long term interactions, instead of sticking to random one that rarely get anywhere/ rarely get continued. Just a thought!
hello there !! real talk, i wasn’t going to answer this, but this is not the first message of this kind i’ve got, and honestly? i’m tired. so yeah, it might not sound rude but it does rub off the wrong way, and i’m sorry your ask is the one that got caught in the crossfire, dear anon.
i know what my limits are, and if i get overwhelmed with drafts/askbox things, i have no problems doing a little purge and telling my writing partners that i did so. However I’m also a rather slow writer ( i’m not going into details about the reasons of such thing because my life situation & health aren’t things i should feel like i’m forced to share ), and i’ve always been the first to say that if that isn’t someone’s cup of tea because they prefer fast replies, i wouldn’t hold it against them if they’d rather not write with me, it happens, and everyone should be allowed to curate their writing partners circle as they seem fit.
now please, enlighten me about ‘properly continue long term interactions instead of sticking to random ones that don’t get continued’. ( and this is a genuine request )
because every single thread i have is not one that i consider “random” or that “goes nowhere”, even if they are ones born from memes answers, even silly ones, because i always try to bring into my replies bits and pieces that connect into whichever verse i’m writing into, and so in a way they all serve to develop my character and the relationship between him and the other muse. and if then some get dropped by my writing partners or me, well, that happens, it had always happened in the rpc, but i’m always upfront about it.
also the starters i write or the memes i answers, are never random, that’s why it takes me a while to get to my inbox and why my answers are usually longer than they should, because i like to write something that can serve as a good starting point for our muses with a setting that would make sense.��
now let me do a little recap. the last starter call i ever posted was months ago, and never once i thought of posting a new one after i was done with those starters because i knew i had quite the handful of drafts in my hands. so i have no idea where the whole ‘stop posting starter calls’ is coming from. the last meme calls i did was four days ago, and the reason why i posted it, it was because i had a lot of new mutuals and that is the easier way to start interactions if they wished for it.
and now i’m stopping rambling because otherwise i’d be here all morning.
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Fuck anyone who makes jokes about a crash that literally sent a driver to hospital.
Max's crash at Silverstone is the third most severe crash we've had in F1 in the past five years (most severe being Grosjean's in Bahrain 2020, followed by Zhou's in Silverstone 2022).
Additionally, the fact he was sent to the hospital at all is significant as Silverstone has its own medical facility on the grounds. It says everything that even as a precautionary measure, Max (+ Alex & Zhou the following year) was sent to the nearest hospital instead.
Do not for a single second take a driver walking away from a severe crash for granted. Sometimes, the miracles don't happen. Sometimes, a driver doesn't walk away unscathed. You do not want to be watching when the worst-case scenario becomes a real possibility, or worse; a reality.
If the like from Lando's dad is real... I have nothing else to say, from the bottom of my heart; FUCK YOU!
#f1#formula 1#formula one#max verstappen#fuck sky sports#if that like is real i don't have the fucking words#the sheer fucking privilege#the bitch slap he deserves my god if its real#there's so many people who have lost someone in a crash who would do anything for it to be just a joke#just something for a bit or meme or some shit#so their loved one could come home so their loved one would be alive#like ffs your son walked away from his worst crash which was at spa#there's at least 50 families who weren't so lucky at that track#I'm probably going to delete this later because I'm getting angrier and more upset#but its because i lived the other end i didn't get a miracle#we'll leave it at that
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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as#someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL#i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like#(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending#even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head#and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it#if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth#missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with#seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt#(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like#do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but#how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that#when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them#the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of#weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me#because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this#then good morning or goodnight
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No amount of collection of words can describe how happy I am with today's video.
Nexus?? Always a treat. Moon getting injured (though that's,,, an understatement)??? Pain and suffering hell yeah!! /pos Child Moon killed mention??? Unexpected but aough. Probably my favourite episode in a while.
I am very much going Through It though. Moon :(
#the horrors!!#i'm actually looking forward for the next vrchat video for once. it's been a bit#okay tsams now give me the comfort /silly#sun and moon show#WHEN MOON STARTED APOLOGIZING#screaming crying throwing myself against a wall#i could not take the first part of the video seriously though#nexus i love you but stop screaming when things don't go your way i beg#might delete later probably not though
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#life update nobody asked for lol#I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies#I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow#still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow)#is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr#I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa#downgrading to a flip phone actually#I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER)#I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most#delulu is infact not the solulu#daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey#it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me#if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit#Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand#As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you#The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends#Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that#Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again#But I just wanted to share what's been going on#And I miss you guys a lot#I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart#I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme#Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person#But I hope you all are doing GREAT#Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy#You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything#xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥
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I want to delete my account.... disappear for a bit........ but I WON'T I WON'T I WON'T I PROMISE
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#I'm my worst enemy atp HAHA#Idk a fresh start does SOUND nice#but this user is like. mine#it's ME#my identity if you will#and I also have a lot of memories here and while it is a messy account (which bugs me..... I wanna clean it out so bad but it's HARD)#and I'm going to see family on Thursday and we're coming home Sunday I believe#which is rlly cool bc I don't see those family members a lot#but my mental exhaustion..... It's tiring to interact irl#and online interaction is a lot easier for me personally#aaaand ik I'll probably get irritated a lot get frustrated lock myself away bc of that all#you get the point#my thoughts also say that if I were to disappear here it'd take a bit for ppl to notice/they wouldn't care that I'm not on the platform any#BUT IK IT'S NOT TRUE#I seek validation too much I'm gonna be completely honest#I want to know ppl would miss me I want to know I make a difference here but yk#my account always dies for a bit when I'm on some kind of break 💔💔#I was abt to get wayyy too deep there HELP#yeah probably gonna delete this list in a few hrs I always cringe at them later on bc of the stuff I say in tags#I'm too much of a yapper and share too much online#but nobody sees anyways#and me saying that stuff makes me call myself an attention seeker istg 💀💀#sorry guys 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏#I'm trying to make this humorous and not too serious 😞😞
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I think I've become an official HI3 player. I check the HSR leaks hoping for iterations of HI3 characters now
#I have little hope about some of them. For instance the Su and Kevin voice actors are taken by Aventurine and the Trailblazer iirc?#Kalpas' voice actor does the male Dreamseeker in Part 2 of HI3 which is not as terminal considering HSR is a different game but still#Luocha thankfully exists. I don't think they'll be introducing Kiana anytime soon#I would love Sakura but I'm way more into PE Sakura than CE Sakura and then there's what they did with Miko#Some of my favourite things of PE Sakura they gave to Jingliu or Acheron already (freeze time‚ haunted and corrupted by loss‚#unable to unsheathe a sword and memories coming back to her when she does‚#piercing someone's heart with her sword but the other person living on with a new life‚...)#Thus an iteration of all that but with the cool things missing could get messy and unsatisfactory pretty easily#Mobius and MEI are similar to Mei and Herta so they're in a similar situation to PE Sakura#I find Griseo somewhat unsettling in a good way and in a way same with Eden. I love all the loss weighing on her as if she had already dead#with the concept of her being The Era itself and the era dying. So I wouldn't mind seeing them too#Hua seems like she may appear in the Xianzhou? Given the Marshall existence and that the Xianzhou drinks a lot of those concepts#Blade‚ Dan Heng and Jingliu drink so much of Fu Hua. I don't care about Hua though. The Herrscher I did like though#I'm curious about what they'll do#Other than the Chinese voice actor having already a steady job in Mihoyo‚ there's echoes of Kalpas in Blade‚ Arlan and Sam#so I really don't have much hope there. Not as little as with Kevin and Su perhaps but... yeah not really a lot of hope#Yet here I am. Hopelessly hoping for a Kalpas iteration. Imagine how beautiful the fire would be *sigh*#I was so mad about him being my favourite in HI3 but it just makes sense#Besides the Guzm.a process he went me go through‚ he truly has a lot of themes going on that recall Blade. I don't know...#I like his CN voice actor a lot‚ and how he plays Kalpas in particular‚ both when he's calm and when he's deranged#The Dreamseeker doesn't have the same voice at all unfortunately. I would really love to see him in HSR what can I say#That's the kind of person I've become. In a little bit of time I'll be wanting a Kalpas plushie at this rate#I talk too much#I should probably delete this later
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What do you say to someone who leaves a comment on your fic and basically expects you to comment on theirs too
#this was a bit ago but I've been thinking about it lately again for some reason#probably because they replied to the comment that I left on their fic (...that I kinda didn't want to leave because I felt pressured to)#like it wasn't mean spirited or ANYTHING like that#but it did feel... weird?#like 'hey I'm commenting on YOUR fic see? now go comment on mine.'#I don't know if it was supposed to be like that#it probably wasn't#I'm probably overthinking it#but still...#yeah.#it just rubbed me the wrong way#rambles from the floor#delete later
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Reading moodboard #84430940 (Patreon)
#Doodles#I wonder what this is in reference to lol - could be anything really!#Bit funny actually - I was reading something else in overlap at the time - a fic from another fandom though it ended up not being for me#Different authors just speak to different people! It was fun to come back to something familiar and realize Just how much I appreciate it ah#Novel and familiar! My very favourite <3 And of course it was a wonderful experience on top of that hehe ♪♫#Numbers lol - I really have done way too much age headcanon math pfft#I just love timelines! And even if the hints aren't exact they /are/ hints and I'm going to use them!!#The numbers that are established are such fun markers - and using characterization as hints towards how many years have passed! Ah! ♪#Like how it's definitely possible that Max took a two year but considering his family he was probably pushed to do a four year#There's no confirmation either way but it's just so fun to consider what they'd do based on how they're written!#These are the kind of written math problems I enjoy hehe#I was being a bit self-deprecating for that doodle actually tho lol - art mimics life and all that pfft#Also confirmation of him being a Lit Major ❤️💕💖💞💗 Small details give me big love you must understand this lol#As evidenced lol ♪ Adding to my playlist definitely didn't help it very strongly upgraded to Big Love for like a week straight lol#Terrible ♪ Couldn't stand it <3 Genuinely painful ♫#Lol - ''finding'' more - it's what had my blood on fire! I'm so grateful for mirrors#Anyone who's been following me for a while knows I have this whole thing about Legacy and what you leave behind and the internet in general#That the internet is forever except when it's not - that plenty of things get deleted or lost etc. etc. and it makes me very sad :(#So seeing that there was an in-built preservation - it only saved Some things but anything saved is precious!! It made me very happy <3#And then finishing off 💔💕 Beautifully heartbreaking ah#Even skim-reading later made me cry again! It's deeply affecting hhh#Another experience I'm so happy to be able to have ♥ Another tally on the wall haha <3
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genuine question does anyone know what to do when you feel like a nervous breakdown is coming? like is there a solid reliable way to stop it or at least prevent it from getting really bad
#dw I'm okay at the moment... I think#distracting myself by making a playlist lol#but I had one earlier this week & I'm still kind of scared from it#literally couldn't move or talk or do anything for the whole day#like my phone ran out of charge early on & if you'd paid me a hundred dollars I wouldn't have been able to go charge it#I know this is a regular occurrence for some ppl ofc (much love if that's you <3) but I'm not at all used to this so it's a bit scary#it's late. I want to go to sleep. I've been missing out on sleep all week#but I'm literally up worrying that I'll have another messed up nightmare & it'll start off another one of these things ugh#probably gonna delete this in the morning but for now would happily take advice <3
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(Stumbling out covered in blood) hey guys
#Stoat Plays#Sorry for so few art posts lately full disclosure I've been gaming lmao#I am pretty proud of this though because I am NOT good at video games in the Slightest#I'll probably draw something for this game later though it's worming its way into my brain#ALSO NO SPOILERS I haven't found many secret levels + haven't fought the P rank bosses yet#I have beaten both acts 1 and 2 though. Very poorly.#I'm trying to go in as blind as possible before I inevitably get my ass kicked#Still though feel free to ask about it I'd love to talk about it a bit#Delete later
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read through alien space for star rail context and every frame himeko's in you can faintly hear me in the bg trying hard not to think about how much she looks like diluc
#personal stuff#delete later#remembering the reason i got into honkai in the first place was to see what similarities genshin might have inherited#and going oh yeah!! this is fun actually#anyway yeah. woe same hair color bangs and art style be upon ye. the little hair loopy is driving me crazy#don't get me started on the red eye that pepper mint has contrasted to the delusion. good night#the manga itself was really interesting though! i haven't read a whole lot of the honkai manga bc i don't know where to start really#like i've read azure waters bc i love my girl. and second key for gay people lore#but i haven't read any of the others i don't think#also REALLY funny to me who didn't finish apho 2. originally i thought welt's star rail experience was an isekai.#i honest to god thought void archives hit him with a train and he woke up on a different train#while funny. the actual reality has me head in hands. the image of star rail himeko that welt sees and recognizes her.....auuuugh.#and the very person who rescues him is the person he feels like he did wrong by lying to her. agh.#but yeah! i only knew a little bit abt himeko's dad based on what we're told early in game#so i originally speculated that genshin murata's father was the og pyro archon who died and she took his place#but now i'm not entirely sure.#chances are. since we've seen archons inherit the same Ideal along with their element. murata probably fought her predecessor#and took their place#ACTUALLY FUCK ME. WAIT.#LIBEN'S LINE ABOUT NATLAN . WAS HIM TALKING ABOUT OTHER WORLDS.#at first i thought it was just a cheap way for the developers to talk about their other new game and maybe it was BUT ALSO.#AND AT LEAST ONE MURATA WAS OBSESSED WITH GOING TO SPACE.#HMMMM#listen i am not all that excited for natlan purely on the basis that i know mhy is going to fuck up every character design#but plotwise maybe i am allowed a little bit of hope. lol#anyway void archives pretty. i get it now.
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When people dismiss your ideas, and it's starting to annoy you but you have to stay calm
(Actually I'm an idiot for being annoyed about this- I literally admitted myself I have no knowledge of the media in question and asked them to decide for me- I don't know why I'm annoyed that they said the opposite at all..)
#kny#shinobu kocho#if you find it you find it#sorry this is childish#I'll give a bit of context#basically I brought up a Mesmerizer duo#and then wasn't sure of who was Miku and Teto so I put the characters based off vibes#but then another person just proceeded to go#“but __ is dead though- I think they'd fit Miku more-”#..#can you Atleast look deep into the idea of them being Teto#rather than dismissing it just because the character is dead..#I'm probably gonna delete this later#this is childish
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was taken aback by my coworker's genuine kindness today and then taken aback by my (new) other coworker's lack of tact and humanity lol
#suicide tw#for my next tags and GRAPHIC kind of so take care#but i genuinely think if you say something like 'i don't think he actually wanted to kill himself. if you want to slit your wrists you do#it you don't just slit them a little bit'#you should probably consider shutting the fuck up ??????#like that lacks so much compassion and not to mention a lot of us in that office are mentally ill or have a history of mental illness#which i think she doesn't know she literally got here 2 days ago#but holy shit maybe don't just start talking about someone you know slitting their wrists with people you barely know?#it was so unnecessary too like she was telling a story but she could've just said he attempted suicide no need to be specific about the#method. like it was extremely triggering for me i was genuinely so shaken#also lmao. clearly she's never tried to slit her wrists .... idk if it was a me problem but it's not as easy as it seems lol#it's actually in my experience the hardest method. that i've tried. for a few reasons i'm not getting into but it also takes lots of guts#so maybe don't go around saying 'if you REALLY want to kill yourself in that way then you just DO IT'#and if you really wanted to be a piece of shit you could just say i think suicidal people are a bunch of cowards or something lol#ALSO LIKE. before that she was like 'my friend's son who's not well.. he has severe psychological problems poor thing...'#like 😭😭😭😭 can you not treat us like we're poor little souls who need to be pitied. thanks#god i hate ppl sometimes. it'd take 0 effort to just not say things that could make others feel bad and yet#delete later
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#coming back and ALREADY wanting to redo my icons lmfao. I will resist the urge.]#Probably going to delete drafts for the most part/not doing TOO much tonight bc I'm on a close open (woo how FUN) but]#I'm....semi back. Probably slower than I was before I had to take a break and it'll take me a bit to get the multi going again]#;;light rain { ooc }
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taking doodle requests for a bit!! cannot guarantee they'll all be colored but maybe. i'll try to finish them all tonight if i can though
#yapperbee#i'll draw almost anything#well not exactly anything. if it's something i can't draw i'll probably ignore the request.. sorry!#not sure why i'm doing this during artfight but! uh! yeah!#i doubt anybody's going to see this post since. nobody ever does#also dw about how long that “bit” is. i'll probably delete this post when i'm not taking requests anymore
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