#i'm praying y'all choose the right one now

[thefictionalgirl]

The youngest daughter

You heard about me a lot,

She mentions me all the time,

They mention me all the time,

How she had to protect me

from the problems I've never caused.

You heard about me right?

But what do you know?

The lazy and unreliable one

in every story?

That's only natural for you to believe,

Because you know I believe that too.

The one who is admired,

The one who is loved.

And the one who doesn't care,

never try to be enough.

One who's "too much"

all the damn time.

And I know you heard about me,

And I know you heard,

How I spend a lot,

Someone your blood and flesh,

gets not as much as you thought.

Mom favours her,

Dad loves her the best,

She does whatever she wants,

a luxurious nest.

You practically heard this a lot, what I'm going to tell you,

Listen to me even though you know–

They sacrificed a lot, for building her life,

She did nothing, but she's the one at the edge of a knife.

Uncivilised, uncompromising and not so nice

No matter who becomes a virtue, she's always the vice.

The oldest's anger and dissatisfaction,

maybe not always it's the case,

But whenever the question is raised,

"They love you the most, they treat you the best"

Arrogant, rebellious and the unpleasant,

She gets that alot, that's how you describe the youngest.

And for whom, parents never cared about you,

And for whom, you had to refuse the last piece of cake.

For whom, you had to give up on your room,

For whom, you'll not be praised even for how much you make.

And you try, to go back on words, to change the fate,

because of the little girl, you want to, but you cannot hate.

And I guess y'all know about these,

The cat, the mouse and the piece of cheese.

And the cat leaves and moves out,

The mouse didn't know how to cope up,

So that's why she always shouts.

But then, how about reading some things unknown ?

What happens to the girl, why doesn't she smile anymore? Why does she always frown?

Did she have to take the responsibility of always being good?

She didn't need to be compared, she didn't need to be called rude.

You were busy complimenting the comparison,

An Individual, who was never known and given a reason.

Good or bad, she never wanted them,

You all made her the antagonist here who loves to complain.

And with the tag of being spoiled one,

she became the alter ego of yours,

The princess with a large mansion

And who never endures.

Someday you leave,

Making her all alone,

She never cries,

She has now grown.

It's the best, cause you never want to see

The teenage self in her eyes again,

Where everything is immature- love, happiness or pain.

She never had the idea of how the world works, right?

She said, "no I'm fine" whenever you charged her,

But the question in her eyes didn't surrender.

Hopeful- she wanted you to try a bit more,

"She never shares, she just knows how to close the door"

You wanted to be a teacher, punish for her mistakes.

She just wanted a sister to share her aches.

Hard or soft, whatever the feelings were,

She just never trusted you again,

And why would she do it?

You became a traitor

You never took the share of her pain.

And where were you, when she was on her knees,

Praying to make it all stop?

You were not there when she got home.

You were not there when she was trying to build her rome.

She never blamed you for choosing your happiness.

But why's that different when it comes to her?

Why can't you all see

That she too has a lot of scars?

To have nothing,

It must be hard, it must be bad,

But I had you,

Then why have I always felt sad?

I cannot describe the mixed feelings,

Maybe this all happened because of us.

I love you more than my life,

I cried a lot, weren't my eyes enough obvious?

I was not a criminal, nor you were,

We could have made it better, I swear.

But you never ever tried,

And I always denied.

You left the room, you left me alone,

Now you ask me about my feelings? Why have I never shown?

Was it so easy for you to abandon everything?

I know it's not bad, but why can't I do nothing?

TELL ME TELL ME I WANT TO KNOW,

don't you know that this crappy delinquent always feels so low?

After all this time,

After screaming for so long,

You hear the depth of my voice,

What about my continuous melancholic song?

Can't you see it falling from my eyes?

Can't you see I'm tired of tossing the dice?

Constantly hoping to earn a six,

I'll pick the pieces up in order to fix.

I refuse to believe in cracks,

I will try, I'll try to give what it lacks,

But you can never give me back, the years I spent yearning in vain,

Even if you try to have a conversation with stories from the memory lane.

Distanced soul,

Unattached roles

How do you think it happened?

How do you know it's not for the best?

Because that's way she became her,

That's way of the youngest.

✒mystica

[i-arch-my-backula]

Grocery store massacre: Ghostface and Leslie Vernon x reader

Just a little something I wrote, nothing too glorious. Not exactly romantic or anything other than the reader being chased around. I needed to post and this is the best I got for y'all right now because I'm still busy.

Content warnings: Murder, blood, violence, swearing, reader in distress

Working at a grocery store wasn’t your ideal job, but because you live in a small town, it pays well enough for you to afford rent and most other things you need. Today nothing much happened. Normal customers, a couple of teenagers being stupid, and one man who said he was a journalist. The conversation you had with him still sticks in your mind. 

“I’m new in town, I need a local to show me around.” He said to you as you hand him his grocery bag. 

“Maybe I’ll have to do that sometime when I’m not working.” You replied, giving him a smile. 

The digital clock on your register strikes ten and you grab the microphone for the intercom. 

“Attention Phill’s market shoppers, the time is now ten pm and the store is closed. Please come to the front to be checked out. We will reopen tomorrow at nine am. Thank you for choosing Phill’s market and have a great night.” You say, turning off the intercom and the music being played comes back on over the speakers. 

You’re closing tonight with two other people, which you haven’t seen either of them for the past half hour, but that isn’t too big of a deal considering barely anyone has been checking out. You tap your fingers on the counter at your register and footsteps are heard. You look over and see an older woman you know coming up to check out. 

“Hello Y/N. Working late tonight aren’t you?” She asks, setting down her things on the moving belt before you grab them and start to scan them. You give her a smile and nod your head.

“Yeah well I don’t mind taking the closing shifts. It’s not too busy and I like my coworkers.” You say, putting her few items into a bag as she puts her card in to pay. 

“Oh I heard some awful noises coming from the back when I was over in the dairy aisle. I don’t think it was anything too bad, but there were some strange noises going on back there.” She says, taking out her card and putting it back in her wallet. You hand her her bag and nod your head. 

“I’ll go check it out. Have a good night Mrs. Baker.” She smiles and takes the bag from your hands. 

“You too dear.” She walks over to the door and you finish closing up your register before locking the doors at the front of the store. You turn back around and make your way over to the back, pushing open the swinging doors and looking around. All the lights are off, which isn’t too unusual considering only you, the owner of the store, and two other coworkers are here right now. You take out your phone and put on the flashlight as you make your way over to the back office. 

The owner isn’t in her office and you shake it off as her being busy with something else. You clock out and flip the switch to turn the lights back on in the back, but it doesn’t work. You try a couple more times but it’s not working. You frown and turn on your phone flashlight again. You try to shrug off the feeling you’re getting as you walk out of the office and over to the back doors. Your phone starts to buzz and you look down to find an unknown number calling you. 

You shouldn’t pick it up, but it might be one of your coworkers. You hesitate for a couple more moments before you pick up and put the phone on speaker, still needing to use the flashlight. 

“Hello?” You ask, making your way around the boxes of products. 

“Hello.” A distorted voice says over the phone. “Who am I speaking to?”

“This is Y/N. Listen if you’re calling about where I am I already clocked out. I locked the front doors too, you shouldn’t have to-” You’re in the middle of your sentence when you step on something wet. You look down and find a large puddle of red liquid. You pray it’s just some kind of leaking strawberry syrup but that metallic smell can’t lie. You look over to your left and find your coworker's body, stabbed over and over again with kitchen knives from a nearby box.

A dark chuckle is heard from your phone as you drop it, splashing the blood on the floor slightly. 

“The question now is, where am I hiding?” You hear that distorted voice say. You shake your head and start to run, your feet sliding slightly from the blood still on the bottom of your shoes. You’re too focused on trying to breathe to scream. That is until you discover your other coworker's decapitated head, sitting inside an industrial fridge. 

You scream and all the air inside your body gets knocked out at the sight of that. You shake your head and move your hands to your mouth as you keep running to the back door. You make it there only to find it locked. It won’t budge and you feel tears roll down your cheeks. 

“God damn it!” You shout, slamming your body into the door, trying to push it open. You’re still slamming yourself into the door, trying to open it when a hand held scythe lands next to your head. You freeze and look over to where it came from. A man in tattered clothes and a strange looking mask making his way quickly over to you. You shake your head and push yourself off the door. 

“Leave me alone!” You shout, as if that will do anything. You look around in the dark, trying to remember where everything is when you see the distant glow of the office again, where a phone is. You look back at the man who’s grabbing his scythe again before you rush towards the light of the office. 

“Help! Please! Somebody help me! Help!” You shout, knowing the man is still pursuing you. You rush past the body of your coworker and back into the office, slamming the door shut and locking it. You dash to the filing cabinet and push it over, blocking the door before you rush your way over to the desk and you pick up the receiver of the phone, dialing 911. 

You’re panting and shaking as you wait for someone to pick up. You can hear him outside the door, slamming on it, trying to get in. Finally someone picks up on the other end and you immediately start talking. 

“Yes, oh my god I’m at Phil's grocery store on 82 street and there’s a man trying to kill me! He has a weapon and he’s already killed two of my coworkers! Please hurry!” You shout, hearing the person over the phone try and calm you down. Your heart is pounding and you’re trying to control your breathing when you remember there’s a window in the office. You turn around but before you can do anything else you’re greeted with the standing corpse of your boss, her throat slit and bleeding. 

You drop the receiver and scream, jumping back as the pounding on the door continues. You watch as the corpse gets tossed aside and another man presents himself. This time you know who he is, Ghostface. The man who’s been going around and killing other people for the past couple of weeks. This time he must have gotten help from someone. Your already racing mind is left with too many questions to process right now. 

“Leave me alone! Leave me alone!” You shout as you make your way over to the corner of the desk, the door to the office finally starting to crack as the man who chased you first makes his way in. You shake your head and look around the desk for anything you can use to defend yourself with. 

Ghostface raises his knife and charges for you. You’re able to doge him, only getting a slight cut on your arm from his knife as you grab a lamp on the desk and smash it over his head, sending him falling to the ground. The man behind the door is clawing his way through the thin wood with his scythe, making the hole bigger and bigger as he goes. 

You spot a letter opener and you quickly grab it, taking off the cover and holding it out as the man behind the door pushes his head through the hole. You spot the window and rush over to it when Ghostface stabs his knife into the window inches away from your head, shattering the glass, a couple shards getting stuck in your arms and hands. You scream and slice his hand with the letter opener, earning a shout of pain from him. You push him back and climb your way out of the window and onto the ground outside, running as fast as you can when you see the promising glow of the red and blue police lights. You drop the letter opener and put your hands on your forehead. 

“Please! Please help me!” You shout as you notice the large amount of tears streaming down your face. Police rush out of their cars, a couple running into the grocery store and a couple rushing over to you, trying to calm you down. You try to breath in as much air as you can as they walk you over to an approaching ambulance. The nightmare is finally over. 

Later at the hospital you’re lying in your bed, in a light sleep. You’re woken up by your phone buzzing. You pick it up and put it to your ear.

“Hello?” You ask, expecting it to be your mother or someone calling to check up on you. 

“You got lucky tonight.” That same distorted voice says from before. You hear your heart monitor beep loudly as your heartbeat picks up rapidly. “You better be careful, you never know what might happen next.” The voice says with a dark chuckle. You shake your head and drop your phone. Soon enough a nurse rushes in and checks your heart rate on the monitor. 

“What’s wrong? What happened?” He asks, keeping a calm tone as he feels your pulse. 

“I- The phone- The voice- He called me before- I just-” You stammer out, trying not to break out into hysterics. The nurse puts a hand on your forehead and takes a deep breath. 

“You’re safe here, you don’t have to worry about any of that now.” He says with a reassuring smile. “Try to take deep breaths and I’ll be back with some ice for you.” He stands back up fully before walking over to the door. 

“What’s your name?” You croak out, trying to take deep breaths like he instructed you to do. He turns his attention towards you and smiles, a hint of malice now on his face.

“My name is Leslie.” 

[enigma-absolute]

when u get this u have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite mutuals (non-negotiable, positivity is cool!)

Both you and @choasuqeen had sent me this at roughly the same time, so I guess I’m gonna have to answer this with ten things instead, which is fine!

I was able to cut, sew and stitch on a collar on to my Steve shirt in time to wear it out to my local convention with Blue in hand! Here's one of many photos!

2. Still can't believe I'm saying this, but I managed to rope in three friends to help me sing a cover of 'The Rainbow Connection' for a friend's belated birthday present. I genuinely still listen to it because... wow. It genuinely made both my friend and I tear up when we listened to it together over discord.

(And honestly, we could all do with a bigger choir together...)

3. I'm actually kinda proud of how far my art's come since I started keeping sketchbooks. Looking at the shelf on my right from 2019 to now (though I started in 2013), it's nuts how much I've drawn in those years.

4. On the topic of sewing and sketchbooks, I'm actually kinda surprised I still have bookbound my own sketchbooks, and now they sit in wait to be used someday, ready and waiting in their drawers until I choose the next to go ham with.

5. ...oh my god I still can't fully grasp the weight of having written my show's complete pilot episode, complete since last year for Honours. I know I usually talk and think about it in a very light manner, but dude! I have LORE for that story in SEVERAL notebooks, building and retconning and rewriting as I've gone. I did that??? I DID that?????!!!!!

6. If I really like someone international and online (PLATONICALLY), I'm the kind of woman to mail them physical gifts. The fact that I've sent so much mail and have a minor hoarde of envelopes and sealing wax should say something. This only comes at a certain level of closeness though, since, well, of course. You don't go exchanging physically addresses that easily.

7. Something I hadn’t noticed myself until someone had pointed it out to me is that I’m very outwardly silly in front of my friends. And why shouldn’t I be, I love it! I love that I can say or do something that can make my friends laugh; that I have the lack of care to just do a family guy death pose in a video games shop, get a lab coat for a Beaker Bit, or even have the dumbest grin and cackle while everyone else is done at another dad joke I can think of on the spot.

8. It’s hard to believe it now, but me ten years ago on this hellsite didn’t really have two cares about fashion aside from emulating her idol at the time. Now? I’ve developed some tastes and aesthetics, and while I still have a way to keep growing, I’ve found multiple styles and dream outfits and even outfits I own that not only work in comfort, but also style. Velvet green flared pants? Gold jeans? Bright blue overcoat? Vests? YES.

9. Now that I think about it, I’m… actually kind of impressed with my range of voice acting and impressions? Yes it’s very silly and often for the bit, but I’ve had people compliment my Kermit the Frog voice before, and even if I can’t reach the octave Columbo is at, I can still do the vibes.

10. This is off the back of having a psychology appointment recently, but... I'm kinda proud of how far I've come, honestly. From a lost and lonely and scared girl stuck in NZ to someone about to get a teacher's aide job (hopefully, pray for me y'all!) at her old school's sister school for kids on the spectrum - WITH a Bachelor's and Honours in Animation. In Australia. Who would've thought? I sure didn't. But now I'm here.

[doyouknowwhoyouare13]

Nyx reads Six of Crows (pt.1)

I didn't want to annoy anyone with too much spamming so this is just my general thoughts while reading! (PLEASE DON'T FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO READ THIS HALF OF IT IS GOING TO BE ME BEING DUMB AS HELL SO)

(updating every day, so you guys can keep up with my thoughts in real-time without TOO much spam :))

LIKE I SAID THERE'S NO PRESSURE TO READ IT AND HONESTLY IF IT GETS ANNOYING JUST BLOCK THE TAG #★nyx reads soc! AND YOU WON'T SEE IT ANYMORE I GET IT'LL PROBABLY BE TOO MUCH CONSIDERING THERE ARE 40 SOME CHAPTERS NO HARD FEELINGS 😭

part 2

SPOILERS BELOW!!!!

Started reading: 1/18/23

Finished reading: 2/4/23

Alright, since I didn't start this at the beginning of the book, I'm gonna summarize my thoughts from Chapters 1-4 in a few sentences:

AWWW JOOST AND ANYA SO CUTE, omgggg I'm in love with Inej AND Kaz, is this new? Nope. Uh oh, the girlfriend is gonna get killed. DAMN KAZ THE THREATS 💀 Jesper is so me. NOOOO JOOST. AND ANYA??? Who the hell is that. WHO TF IS JORDIE???? SLAY INEJ!!! Aww, new ship you guys!!!

Ok, that's all hope people understand it and if you don't, too bad. JOKING LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Starting at chapter 5 guys

Kaz is actually so smart

Oh Jordie is older-

I mean I assumed he was his brother but I thought he was younger

MEETING NINA!!!! (Ives said I'd like her)

omg. I'm in love with her. She has said one thing.

HIM BUYING STOCKS FROM THAT OLD MAN BECAUSE OF NINA💀

I can't believe they're only 17

I'm trying to be like Kaz

interested in Matthias like a lot

chapter 6 now

I wonder what Matthias did

omg another new ship

I'm still confused about the costumes

this prison feels like hell

so many gangs

WTF IS THAT THING

ROARS LIKE A LION

LOOKS LIKE A SNAKE THING

WHAT

AHH WTF I'M GONNA CRY

NOT PEKKA AGAIN

who would actually think of something like this 😦

It's sick

not sick in a cool way

sick in a WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL way

YOU'RE RIGHT NINA IT IS DISGUSTING

HOW ARE PEOPLE WATCHING THIS IN GOOD CONSCIENCE

ok maybe for the sick fucks

THEY CHOOSE TO DO IT

FUCK THE BENEFITS NO WAY I'M DOING THAT

omg they bet on it.

crying, screaming

"I'm mad at you, too" "I don't know yet. I just am." -me coded

oh Nina...this won't end well

ENEMIES TO LOVERS!!!

my two sides fighting ^^

NOT HIS HAIR

oh she down bad

Don't tell me killing wolves is against his morals- or his country's morals-

Omg. IT'S AGAINST HIS FUCKING MORALS- SOBBING SCREAMING PULLING MY HAIR OUT WTF

WHY DOES THIS HURT SO MUCH

HE'S WISHING THEM FAREWELL 😭

IT'S TRYING TO KILL HIM AND HE'S PRAYING FOR THEM

AHHHHHH-

HE'S CRYING.

HE. IS. CRYING.

😭😭😭😭

I'm hurt, you guys. Very hurt. Might cry. Probably will.

Do you guys see how sensitive I am yet?

WHAT DID YOU DO NINA???

HIS MOTHER 😭 KAZ I CANNOT RN

Kaz is a slay per usual

I love the word barbaric

such a funny word

Kaz is literally a genius

No I won't stop saying that because he is

I just rolled my eyes so much I could see my fucking brain

Am I the only one who hates when guys act tough?

"I can take it" STFU AND LET HER DO HER WORK 😡

WHY TF IS HE CALLED GOOD BOY I WANNA BE CALLED GOOD GIRL BY KAZ WTF 😡

y'all I don't know who said that cause it wasn't me.

anyways

...oh such a lovely reunion!!! how romantic!!!!!

Chapter 7 ALONG WITH Part 2!!!!

first pov from Matthias!

we left off where he was choking her and now he's dreaming of her???

trying to be like them fr JOKING JOKING

Matthias would like Taylor Swift

I mean he used one of her song titles in one of his first sentences!!!

He's so me

just realized that said hunted instead of haunted

crying actually

I thought we had something Matthias.

now with me those instances would be switched, kissing Nina sounds very pleasant actually

oh Matthias is down bad too

SLAYYYY

MATTHIAS YOU HORNY BASTARD

Sorry that's rude BUT TRUE APPARENTLY???

OMG MATTHIAS GET OVER YOURSELF AND JUST KISS HER HOLY SHIT

Me thinks this is a enemies to lovers to enemies to lovers again arc

JESPER'S HERE TOO? WOOHOO, THAT'S MY FAV FR!!!

I say that about everyone idek which one is actually my fav

"Boys like you weren't meant to get ideas, Helver," YOU TELL HIM KAZ!!!

"that Jesper character" HE IS CERTAINLY A CHARACTER INDEED BUT I LOVE HIM FOR IT

My girl killed something that no one had survived before her

Love her sm ❤

Kaz is a lot of things but at least he's honest about it 💀

LEARN HER NAME MATTHIAS 😭

I LOVE JESPER SM

my lord I think he wants to kill Nina, just a thought though

bro Nina fucked him up

GRISHA CORRUPTION??? HOLY SHIT THEY DO HATE THE GRISHA NINA WASN'T EVEN EXAGGERATING

Matthias drop the witch thing, it's getting annoying

A STORK- HE JUST CALLED JESPER A STORK 💀

THE DEMON. MY GOD HE LOVES NAME CALLING

SO SET ON THE KILLING THING MY GOD

oh he's so salty I love it

me thinks she will think about you, often (it's disgusting and I can't stop)

my lord Matthias, never getting on your bad side

does he genuinely think Kaz is a demon? like a demon demon?

New character y'all

OMG ANOTHER REMINDER THEY'RE ALL HELLA YOUNG

THEY SEEM SO MUCH OLDER

VAN ECK???

Chapter 8 IN JESPER'S POV!!!

I love Jesper he's so me

WTF HIS CHAPTER IS SO SHORT (I say as I've been complaining to myself about how long the chapters are)

Jealous? I know what you are Jesper.

It's ok me too

JOKING JOKING

or am I?

Y'ALL LEAVE THIS POOR KID ALONE

THEY'RE ALL GOING IN ON HIM

don't have a repeat of Joost. Istfg I will sob. don't try me.

hey, hey. flute is cool too. (ok not as cool as piano but don't tell him I said that)

JESPER 😭

Wylan give me all your belongings rn.

Ofc Kaz is unfazed, it's Kaz tf do you expect?

JESPER I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH

Nina provoking him won't do any good 😭

God the dynamic between Jesper and Wylan

I want what they have

"You're all horrible" YOU WOKE UP AND IMMEDIATELY STARTED TRYING TO STRANGLE SOMEONE YOU HAVE NO RIGHT. 💀

KAZ IS SO. SMART.

OMGGGG WYLAN 😭

"No" "it looks like a target" NOW THAT'S A SLAY

Chapter 9 ANOTHER SHORT ONE!!!

HA KAZ PAIRED JESPER WITH HIM

I feel a new ship brewing

Kaz ships Jesper and Wylan confirmed

KAZ IS SO FUNNY

Can you guys tell I like Kaz yet?

MATTHIAS IS ADORABLE

He'd probably try to kill me if I said that to him

But I only speak the truth!!!

I take that back

how stupid do you have to be to attack Kaz?

Kaz being the best per usual

Chapter 10, INEJ!!!

MY GIRL HAS RETURNED!!!

Can't believe I've already read like 5 chapters today

But some of these have been short, this chapter is too

And it has still taken me like 4 hours I think, I'm a really slow reader 😭

anyways

Inej and Kaz's dynamic never fails to make me laugh 💀

oh...guys now why would you say that

oh no the silent treatment 💀

KAZ WHY WOULD YOU SAY THATTTT

Inej's parents were the blueprint

THE FLOWERSSSSS

omg that place sounds horrible.

AHHH NO INEJ

oml my heart is racing

LYNX IS NOT HER NAME 😡

omg she names her knives I love her

I want to know more about her Saints

her knives mean as much to her as Jesper's guns mean to him

WTF DO YOU MEAN IT EXPLODED

NO. NO WAY.

Chapter 11, JESPER AGAIN ❤❤❤

y'all gonna explain the explosion???

WHO ARE YOU SHOOTING AT JESPER

OMG.

"Not a kid" me too Wylan but I also call everyone kid so 🤷

omg Kaz you're a lifesaver, literally

ok it's official, yeah there's def 3 ships here

I know what you guys are.

Matt DIDN'T use his first opportunity to kill Nina? DEVELOPMENT!!!

I am calling him Matt from now on

IT'S TOO FUNNY

AHHH JESPER-

IS HE INSANE?

BETTER THAN WINNING AT GAMBLING?

I'LL TAKE THE CARDS PLEASE WHAT-

"you can't kiss me from down there" SO YOU WANT HIM TO KISS YOU?????? CAUGHT YOU BITCH/j

OH YEAH WYLAN!!! PROVE THOSE BITCHES WRONG!!! YOU ARE USEFUL!!! SLAYYYY

Lawd this chapter brought my heart rate up

Chapter 12, MY BELOVED AGAIN!!!

WHY ARE THESE CHAPTERS SO SHORT

the ones in the beginning were so long

wtf happened

Who cares PARTAY

I hate long chapters

aw not the fucking black tips again

MULTIPLE GANGS?

WITH HIS BARE HANDS 😦

AHHH SO MUCH STRESS- INEJ ISTFG

OMG INEJ SLAY I LOVE THAT FOR YOU I CANNOT

INEJJJ

Omg you worried me.

Kaz to the rescue again

omg.

crying.

she's not gonna die but lord-

ISTFG.

AHHHHHHHHH

this book has a habit of ending the chapters on very worrying notes.

anyways.

Chapter 13, Kaz

scared fr ngl

another short chapter as well

omg he loves her so much

but I love her more so he can fuck off.

JOKING LOVE YA KAZ

trying to steal my girl though 🙄

HIS WRAITH

SOBBING, SCREAMING, PASSING OUT, RIPPING MY HAIR OUT.

STOMPED 💀 HE'S SUCH A CHILD I LOVE HIM

Awww they're so cute together... (Wylan and Jesper)

oh...now Kaz....his eye socket?

OH HIS EYE.

KAZ.

OH HE JUST- THREW IT OVERBOARD- NO CARE IN THE WORLD-

OH AND THE HANDKERCHIEF.

OK I LIKE IT PICASSO.

KAZ. ISTG. I CANNOT.

FUCKING ROLLINS? I SWEAR THIS MF JUST NEEDS TO GET THE FUCK OUT OMG-

well bye ig

Don't mess with Inej guys you get your eye taken out and get thrown overboard

deserved

KAZ IS SCARY THOUGH HOLY SHIT

AND THE MY WRAITH THING AGAIN

I CAN'T.

JESPERRRR

I need to know what tf happened with Jordie.

Chapter 14!!! Nina is backkkk

This one is VERY long and by long I mean 15 pages so honestly I'm being dramatic.

Honestly the gang tattoo sounds like it'd look really good

YES NINA SEES IT TOO

Inej and Nina together>>>>

Best friends I say

I wonder if people ship them

I mean I guess I can see it idk yet though

Jesper and Inej 🤝 finding comfort in deathly weapons

Oh Jesper please don't start crying cause I will too

they're all so smart

how tf she know all those languages

y'all I don't think I like Zoya all that much

ONCE AGAIN SHE'S SO SMART

MATTTTT

omg she said he looks like a painting

crying, screaming

oh Nina..

um...everyone makes mistakes! you'll be ok!

ew. um. I would rather die, actually.

Me thinks Jarl Brum is a little bitch

I wish I understood all the words they're saying

NO. FUCKING. WAY. I'M GONNA LOSE MY MIND IF THEY DO WHAT I THINK THEY'RE IMPLYING.

oh some boy to the rescue

oh nvm.

NINA YESSSS SLAY

WHAT DID SHE JUST SAYYYY UGHHHHH

omg she's going to kill him!!!

I support women's rights but I also support their wrongs

joking I know she won't kill him

ooh she called out the name calling too

glad I'm not the only one

OMG NINA YOU DID WHAT

YOU'RE RIGHT HE DOES HAVE A RIGHT TO DISLIKE YOU 😦

I don't though, still love you SUPPORT WOMEN'S WRONGS!!! (/j)

OMG THIS HURTS.

I'M GONNA CRY-

Last chapter of this part, Chapter 15, Matty boy's perspective

Back to the short chapters

oh...violent per usual

WYLAN BITING THE DISK 💀

oooh Brum died? YIPEE!!!

omg Kaz 😭

HE'S SO IN LOVE

Kaz scary sometimes

AWWW HE'S WARMING UP TO WYLAN

"my ghost won't associate with your ghost)" MATTYYY 💀

CHAPTER 16, along with part 3, AND AN INEJ POV!!!

oh she's crying-

BEST FRIENDS!!!!!

3 DAYS?????

HELPPP THIS FRIENDSHIP IS EVERYTHING

I feel like Kaz has a death wish

OMG I NEED THEM TOGETHER. SHE CARES SO MUCH FOR HIM.

I LOVE INEJ AND NINAAAAA

not her bullying her singing 💀

THEY LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HER

THESE POOR CHILDREN

Chapter 17, AND JESPERRRRRRRR

I'd probably jump too, seems boring

HELP BOTHER WYLAN

they love each other

ok Wylan, come on now

JESPER IS JUST LIKE ME BRO

oh the lovers are quarreling

HELP "You're not dead!" JESPER 💀

Y'all...it's a good thing I'm a multi-shipper.../hj

"YOU'RE NOT INVITED" 💀

am I though?? I love waffles

Jesper is a people watcher

LIKE I SAID JUST LIKE ME FR

"Would it kill him to smile every once in a while" "very possibly" YALL 😭

Inej and Jesper friendship supremacy

omg Jesper loves Kaz

me too

AND HE ASKS ABOUT WYLAN

THEY'RE IN LOVE

WHAT

WITH HIS TUTOR???

SLAY WYLAN

SHE READ THE LETTERS I CAN'T

HE DOESN'T LIKE THE OCEAN EITHER????

JESPER WE'RE JUST SO CONNECTED

I told you Jesper has a crush on Kaz. "feeling his cheeks heat" I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE

idek if I'm joking at this point not

THEY'RE THE BEST CHARACTERS OUT OF THE WHOLE BOOK

I LOVE THEM YOU GUYS I LOVE THEM

alright day 2 (or 3, can't remember) of you guys putting up with my total BULLSHIT

Chapter 18, KAZZZZ

my husband fr

and Inej's

TRYING TO FIND AN EXCUSE TO TALK TO HER 😭

Kaz always has something over someone 💀

"tell me you know that. He needed her to say it." "He needed to know she believed him." HE WANTS HER TO TRUST HIMMMM

NO.

JORDIE.

OH THAT BITCH

BRO ISTFG

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

CRYING SCREAMING PASSING OUT OMG I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I WANNA-

BE RID OF THIS DISTRACTION? KAZ BREKKER. ISTFG IF YOU LOSE HER BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID TRAIN OF THOUGHT I'LL CRY.

KAZ BREKKER. 😡😡😡

BRO "He didn't want Inej." YOU JUST FUCKING SAID-

OH. THAT'S A HORRIBLE WAY TO DIE- POOR KAZ'S DAD-

HE GREW UP ON A FARM.

KAZ IS A FARMER BOY.

THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY.

this is gonna be sad.

oh he liked the omelets :(

OMG HES SO INNOCENT

FUCK NOT WCS

OMG I CAN'T DO THIS RN

HE BLAMES HIMSELFFFFF

I'M GONNA SOB

JORDIEEEE

NOOO YOU JINXED IT

actually about to start crying

knowing Jordie dies hurt

WHERE IS SASKIA NOW

"That seems like cheating" and he does it now :(

omg Filip not a good idea

AHHH

he didn't.

he didn't just trick some helpless CHILDREN right?

OMFG HE DID.

OH THE RIBBON

OH THE METAPHOR

OMG OUCH HOLY SHIT

Chapter 19, Matty boy is back

Feel like it hasn't been his pov in forever

It's only been 4 chapters.

Embarrassing on my part 💀

anyways this chapter is so long

20 pages this time

still not that long but longer than the last time I complained about it

anyways

I love Nina

HE CAN SMILE???

He's such a child

it's so funny

Finally they're having contact without them trying to kill each other

OMG HE'S SO IN LOVE

AHHHH in a good way this time

uh oh running out of romance tabs

you ruined it Matty boy

I love that they say that

"Strange people" PLEASE

So real Jesper

Kaz has his priorities straight

money>>>>everyhing/hj

HE LEFT HIS CANE????

omg they just keep going 😭

sometimes I forget they're technically speaking another language

do none of them have mothers

If Matty betrays them istg

Don't pull a Peter Matty boy

Ah fuck I'm out of post-its for my in-book annotations

ugh I should've been better prepared 😭

omg I'm ALSO always in charge of making sure people don't start fighting

ONCE AGAIN, KAZ IS A FUCKING GENIUS.

omg Matty, I love you, but you're getting on my fucking nerves

KAZ PAIRING WYLAN AND JESPER TOGETHER AGAIN

PLEASE TELL ME I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO SHIPS HIM

THERE'S NO WAY I'M THE ONLY ONE

AT LEAST YOU FOUND SOMETHING TO AGREE ON 💀

Matty, they ARE crows

HIM IMITATING THE BELLS

Because you're in love Matty boy, that's why

HOW LONG WAS NINA PULLING HIS HEAVY ASS BODY WITH HER? AND USING POWERS?? DAMN

awww they're so cute

if we look past the fact they are very close to death

um...

HE TURNED AROUND FOR HER

Nah I don't think it's intentional I think you just have a dirty mind Matty boy

"Then you're as stupid as you look" SLAY NINA!!!!

OMG MATT GET OVER YOURSELF AND TAKE OFF YOUR CLOTHES.

IT'S NOT NATURAL FOR SOMEONE TO BE AS STUPID AS HE IS TALL 💀💀💀

A BURLY SQUID????? NINAAA

AHHHH

"He lied. He did like the way she talked."

MATTY

oh god

GO OFF NINA!!!!

HOW IS ONE OF THEM ALIVE?

oh poor Nina

YES NINA STAND YOUR GROUND

Matthias. Yes I just said your real name. That is such a fucked up thing to say.

SLAY NINA

Chapter 20, NINAAA

the ending of the last chapter made me really angry at Matty boy so

also I'm officially halfway through the book!!!

oh Nina loves him so much :/

so down bad

I LOVE THEM

well I get why he hates Grisha if his family was killed by them

WE DON'T EAT BABIES 💀

Matt you do not have fun you seem like the most boring person ever

I DIDN'T KNOW YOU COULD LAUGH I'M CRYING

Nina is so relatable

"Do you ever doubt yourself?"

"All the time." "I just don't show it."

OMG NINA JUST CALLED HIM OUT

fuck out of romance tabs

so cute though

OMG THEY NAME SHARED

AHHHHH

oh he angry

honestly has the right to

Nina now wtf come on

INEJ TO THE RESCUE!!!!

I might actually cry I found more tabs and I don't wanna go back

At least I have them for the future?

I DIDN'T EVEN THINK OF CHECKING MY BAG OMFG

IT'S A NEW FUCKING PACK TOO I'M GONNA START SOBBING

Switching general note post-its too BECAUSE THERE WAS A WHOLE FUCKING THING OF THOSE TOO

MY GOD 😭

how do you view Grisha as less than you WHEN THEY ARE LITERALLY BETTER THAN YOU IN SO MANY WAYS

ARE YOU CONTROLLING THE ELEMENTS? I DIDN'T THINK SO

CAN YOU KILL SOMEONE WITHOUT TOUCHING THEM? NOPE.

STAY IN YOUR FUCKING LANE

oh that's fucked up Kaz

ok well Nina is justified in all that

HE DOESN'T WANT IT???

WOOHOO

YIPPEE

HOPEFULLY THEY WON'T TRY TO KILL EACH OTHER NOW

Summing up what I read in school! (so ten pages)

That food was probably disgusting, CANNONS? "WHO KNEW I HAD A TASTE FOR LITERATURE" JESPER 💀. Good plan, but also so incredibly stupid wtf. NINA. Inej's discussion with Matty is so true.

alright continuing chapter 21, INEJ!!!

my wife fr

Bro Jesper is just so me

Bro, I'd give this man the most amazing, mind-blowing, leg-shaking, eye-rolling, breath-taking, sheet-grabbing, sloppiest head he's ever gotten in his entire life

Who said that cause it wasn't me

Def not

anyways

OH NO HE FLINCHED

oh shit they're pressed together

his touch thing

oh fuck

don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

Matty boy scary

"IT LOOKS LIKE LEAVING THEM IN A DITCH" 💀

Nina and Matty boy are so cute 😍

IDEAL FOR FAKING SUICIDES????

This book gives me stress

OMG KAZ I'M GONNA CRY

FAINTED??? SOBBING SCREAMING RIPPING MY HAIR OUT

Chapter 22, KAZZLE DAZZLE

SCARED FR

oh their story is so sad :/

NOOOOOO JORDIE

OH MY GOD.

HE'S SO YOUNG

THIS ISN'T FAIR

I'M ACTUALLY CRYING

HE HAD TO USE HIS BODY

OH HONEY YOU'RE NO MONSTER DON'T SAY THAT

OMG HIM AND INEJ I'M GONNA SOB

OH NO HE'S PANICKING CAUSE INEJ ISN'T THERE

TANKS?

Kaz slays with the quotes per usual

JESPER 💀

OH LORD KAZ I'M GONNA CRY AGAIN

THIS IS NOT THE TIME FOR JOKES JESPER

oh Kaz :/ I FEEL SO BAD

"Kaz knew the word for cripple in plenty of languages" KAZZZZZZ 😭

SLAY KAZ YOU DO THAT!!!

Chapter 23, JESPER!!!!!

He just like me but my father doesn't understand so 🤷🏻‍♀

THE LEG WAS ASKING FOR IT????? WHAT????

I WANT MORE WYLAN 😡

Love Jesper and Wylan so much

SINCE WHEN IS HE A FABRIKATOR

I LOVE THEM

THEY'RE BOTH FARM BOYS

Y'ALL THAT'S TOO FUNNY TO ME

THE FLIRTINGGGG

Chapter 24, NINA!!!

my other wife

so pretty much all of the Fjerdan are hella tall? scary

THOSE CELLS ARE HORRIBLE

poor Nina

UH OH UH OH UH OH

NOT AN ALARM OMG

Chapter 25, Inej!!!

even his gloves are genius

AH ISTG IF SHE FALLS

THE SHOES???

omg Kaz and Inej 😍

I hate this place.

EW HELEEN IS DISGUSTING

Flexing like a goddamn acrobat

"Better terrible truths than kind lies"

so real for that one

please Inej, keep going 😭

THANK YOU RAIN OMG

THE STRESS

YES INEJ, YES IT IS!!!

Chapter 26, my husband

the only thing keeping him alive rn is revenge

KAZ YOU BIT HIM??? 😭

Genius at 9

A ROCK??? BRO KAZ WAS AS RUTHLESS AT 9 AS HE IS NOW

Rietveld

Kaz Rietveld

Idk doesn't have the same ring to it but that might just be because I'm used to Brekker

Kaz should teach me cards imagine how much money I'd get

OMG HE'S HERE?

KAZ

ok y'all I'm gonna start struggling I've used too many images so I have like 3 more chapters I can go between and then I'm gonna have to start a new post

I'm gonna cry

anyways

chapter 27 JESPER!!!

OH I FORGOT ABOUT THE ALARM

ok they're all good

for now

HELP JESPER IS TOO FUNNY THIS IS A SERIOUS SITUATION

NOT THE MENAGERIE 😡

chapter 28, INEJ!!!!

my wife fr

DEMON AGAIN 💀

bro how are they all geniuses

so we have a new plan!!!!!

WDYM MISS THAT LOOK YOU'LL BE SEEING IT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE

RIGHT? RIGHT??????

I like shiny things

omg I hate this

DON'T SAY THAT

omg Matty said it

JESPER 💀

Omg she's gonna leave.

OMG HE TOUCHED HER.

AHHHH

HE DIDN'T PULL AWAYYYY

omg she'd be such a good captain

they all have horrific backgrounds

I love Nina sm

HELP

"all I can see is your ass" 💀

THEY CALLED HIM A TULIP

BRO THAT'S BETTER THAN THE STORK THING

I CAN'T RN

DON'T FLIRT WITH HIM FLIRT WITH ME

OMG INEJ ISTG IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO YOU

this is the last chapter I'm doing on this post

BUT CHAPTER 29!! MATTY BOY

I love Jesper

Bro loves her so much

we just moving past that??

HE DIDN'T SHOOT!!! WOOHOO!!!

[limbobongobingo]

Hey tumblr, hell site, digital void I scream into, the three mice following me. Let's talk about bedbug sex.

Traumatic insemination. What is it and why does it sound so horrifying? Because it is! And you know, I'd assume, I hope, and I pray to my political overlords, illegal for you to try.

Female bedbugs have a perfectly, perfectly fine and functional reproductive system but instead of using this male bedbugs, because evolution has no morality, inseminate female bedbugs with their needle, yes needle like penis.

Here's a schlong pic for y'all.

A bit if a closeup, save it for OnlyBugs jeezs.

Like I said before, they use this fucking nightmare to stab— tramatically inseminate if you will, female bedbugs. You maybe be thinking, "I'm sure they've evolved some kind of hole-orificey-thing down there Bongo . . . right?" NO! NO THEY HAVEN'T! I know if it works don't fix it, but what the actual fuck evolution! Not cool. Well I mean it is pretty cool that is why I'm here . . . Still, what. the. fuck.

I recently learned it causes CRACKS, VISIBLE ONES!

We get what happens, but how exactly? Female bedbugs actually get inseminated through their bloodstream! The fucking circulatory system!

When the sperm is deposited, it'll have antibacterial properties to go with it. Which yeah, makes sense. I wouldn't want blood dick diseases either! And, the real kicker? It doesn't even benefit the female bedbug! Its sole, singular purpose is to protect the sperm.

Now, thankfully, while it is stabbed into the female bedbugs circulatory system it's specifically deposited into this secondary reproductive structure called the mesospermalege. It's entire job? Stabby fucky wuky survival. Yep, that's what it does. It reduces the initial damage and is absolutely packed with shit that actually wards off them blood dick diseases this time! Wild.

Its the home stretch I promise you beautiful hopefully not illiterate mouse children you. We're almost done!

We know how, we know what it looks like, but actually why the fuck? It's apparently quicker then the conventional way, but I think they just wanted to spice up their sex lives. So take note aspiring parents, you could get a kid quicker and go to jail! A twofer! How absolutely positively great. I'm not the perturbed one here, you are.

The last notable section here, they just stabby stabby fucky fucky everything. Other males, other insects, probably inanimate objects on occasion. There is actually a theory about rollover insemination to explain the homosexuality, but really I'm not an etymologist and I choose to believe they just stab from dusk till dawn for no reason other than, you know, it works.

With that sprinkling of homosexuality, this concludes my ramblings on bedbugs. An insect that feasts on, and fucks in blood.

You're all welcome and I'm so sorry.

Let me know about spelling mistakes/stuff I got wrong!

[kcyars99]

Here Are the Complete Lyrics for Kendrick Lamar’s New Song He Just Dropped

Joey EchPublished: September 11, 2024

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Kendrick Lamar just dropped his first track since unleashing "Not Like Us," and rather than diss Drake, the West Coast MC appears to be calling out the entire culture. The lyrics find him going at influencers and dissecting the world around him.

On Wednesday (Sept. 11), K-Dot hit up Instagram with a new song, which leaves the listener wondering if society is living in a modern-day Sodom and Gomorrah. The 5-minute narrative, which is presumed to be loosely titled "Watch the Party Die" since it has no official name yet, finds Kendrick lamenting over an environment in which people succumb to temptation and gluttony. In his own vitriolic way, the Compton, Calif. spitter rhymes about chopping the heads off the proverbial fakes and snakes in hip-hop culture over a beat that is both sad and soulful.

Throughout the first verse, Kendrick implies that he is living in an apocalyptic world that needs cleansing, and he is just the MC to do it. The chorus finds Kenny praying to God while simultaneously hyping up his own righteousness. He also uses the second verse to call for those who practice "nasty decisions using money as a backbone" to have their heads "cracked." Then K-Dot closes out the third verse with the same sentiment while praising the likes of Christian singer Lecraeand rapper-activist Dee-1.

Listen to Kendrick Lamar's new track and read the complete lyrics below.

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Complete Lyrics to Kendrick Lamar's New Song Loosely Titled "Watch the Party Die"

Verse 1

I think it's time to watch the party die This s**t done got too wicked to apologize It's different, get him whacked and disqualified We even kill the killers ’cause they like taking innocent lives Burn a whole village, we start over, here's really that time Why reason with these ni**as if they can't see the future first Why argue with these clowns if the circus is well at work Just walk that man down, that'll do everyone a solid It's love, but tough love, sometimes gotta result in violence If you parade in gluttony without giving truth to the youth, The graveyard is company, just tell us what casket to choose They party more than b**ches, tell me what are you working for? They glorify scamming, you get chipped over this credit card Influencers talk down ’cause I'm not with the basic s**t But they don't hate me, they hate the man that I represent The type of man that never d**k ride ’cause I want a favor The man that resides in patience So where the soldiers at? The ones that lost it all and learned to learn from that A thirst for life, head inside a book ’cause he concerned with that Information that'll change his life because he yearns for that Dedication, finding out what's right, ’cause he can earn from that I feel for the women that deal with the clown and nerd s**t Can't blame them, today they ain't really got much to work with How many b**ches harder than a lot of you ni**as? Would trade all of y'all for Nip, I can't be proud of you ni**as

Chorus

God, give me life, dear God, please give me peace Dear God, please keep these lame ni**as away from me Dear God, keep me shinin', the f**k do they really think? Pocket-watching, you must be the police God, bless these words, dear God, bless how I think Dear God, draw the line, they tryin' to confuse ’em with me Dear God, please forgive me, you knowin' how hard I tried I think it's time for me to watch the party die Get ’em gone, we gon' watch the party die Send ’em home, we gon' watch the party die

Verse 2

I think it's time to watch the party die Street ni**as and the corporate guys, the rappers that report the lies I need they families mortified We can do life without ’em, get they bodies organized Tell me if you oblige No more pillow talkin', jump-startin' neighborhood wars Dirty mackin' b**ches because your spirit is insecure The flashy ni**a with nasty decisions using money as a backbone I want his head cracked before he's back home The radio personality pushin' propaganda for salary Let me know when they turn up as a casualty I want agony, assault and battery I see a new earth filled with beautiful people making humanity work Let's kill the followers that follow up on poppin' mollies from The obvious, degenerates, that's failing to acknowledge the Hope that we tryin' to spread, if I'm not his vote Then you need to bring his f**kin' head or film that s**t in hi-res

Chorus

God, give me life, dear God, please give me peace Dear God, please keep these lame ni**as away from me Dear God, keep me shinin', the f**k do they really think? Pocket watching, you must be the police God, bless these words, dear God, bless how I think Dear God, draw the line, they tryin' to confuse ’em with me Dear God, please forgive me, you knowin' how hard I tried I think it's time for me to watch the party die Get ’em gone, we gon' watch the party die Send ’em home, we gon' watch the party die

Verse 3

Sometimes I wonder what Lecrae would do F**k these ni**as up or show ’em just what pray'll do I want to be empathetic, my heart like Dee-1 But I will... It's time to get these devils out the way Heavy metals on my sword, we settle hard disputes today The ghetto Hollywood divorce, say hello to your future fate The culture bred with carnivores, you let ’em snack, they eat your face The signatures is being forged They wonder why I'm not enthused to drop The more visible you get, the more your spiritual is tried It's cynical to say I know these artists petrified The end result in jail by Jezebel or drugged up full of lies Critical, I know my physical is tested all the time I'm pitiful, sunken place soon as I'm questionin' in my pride I'm seeing ghosts, blackin' out, relapse And one-third of the time, I spare no feeling that ain't mine I'm in my feelings when I slide I mean, a ni**a wonder what Lecrae would do Terrace Martin said I'm mentally with layers, true I flood the market with my best regards, I paid your dues And so it's up, if you ain't one of ours, it's bad news My ni**a Jay Estrada said I gotta burn it down to build it up That confirmation real as f**k, it ain't too many real as us Lockin' in to what I trust Looking outside, the kids live tomorrow ’cause today the party just died

Listen to Kendrick Lamar's Surprise Song Loosely Titled "Watch the Party Die"

he’s not playing around

[jonnyardor]

[Intro]

Understand, understand, understand

See my face, I'm done sayin: I aint playin

I am loved and Reborn, every day

I'm my own version of a real man

[Verse]

Felon in the eyes of my fam, really irritating

Weeping on the melons of Madame, keep em irrigated

Treated as an afterthought, they'll regret in hindsight

Streamin when my palm writes, income like pipelines

My rap is deeper than coitus and high life

Sobering thoughts and my fantasy is sky high

I got a good wife, we're raising ours right

True to my new self, I'm living Christ like

Should've passed out brother fingers to my little siblings

Cuz the way they passed me up, hate without a ceiling

Bigotry like this is why my wife abhors religion

Lukewarm Christians praying loud but God wont care to listen

Technological advancement, I can be more graphic

Imma knock your lights out, leave you keysmashing

Slap out the bass, out of wannabe Chuck

Chuckle at his gibberish, fucked his wernicke up

--

Head up your ass, I'll knot your arms , youre a pretzel

Head of mine critiqued, but it soon became the stencil

Brown noser relatives (immer am scharwetzeln)

Can't take my jokes? Let me hide a pencil

Dark humour is morbid, not anti-Black racist

Germans were zombies, gold diggers, makeshift

Graveyard shift but holes were like craters

At least in Namibia they buried their leaders

Skulls as a trophy like soldiers american

Did to Iraqis, Afghans, Iranians

They emigrate and change race like Kardashian

Big nose is vilified, Disney thinks Aryan

Papa named me Jonathan, God's gift, heaven-sent

Now he's bedridden, Godspeed, you're coming back

Instead of grieving, the rest seems hellbent

No to bereavement, keep acting heartless

Towards me and my wife and my offspring

Too often, neighbors and aunties did gossip

About me, then they believed their own stories

Sorry, your works dont give my God glory

Call me, verify what you heard about me

Doubt me, openly, long's you confront me

Taunt me, long as I know, you're really for me

But dont speak, ill about me, when I'm your homie

It's lonely, not just up top, but when you fall deep

Was horny, cramped in a room with kid and shawty

So corny, in-laws look sour, not resolving

So jarring, mad for no reason, it gets boring

Be honest, spell out your issues and move onward

A forward, attacking me nonstop like a coward

Dont cower, face your emotions, feel empowered

Where His presence towers, I can't get devoured

Verse

You were wrong for choosing your publicity

Over showing up for a woman in her pregnancy

Jeopardizing beating hearts, scoffing at their misery

You wont see their infancy without an apology

Narcisstistic mom and dad,

One had money, one had kids

Some of us did not repair,

Some need honeys, some need drinks

Pressure felt from everyone,

You're afraid what people think

So you're living how you're told

And you shame the mavericks

Thank you for your 3 horrendous months

Had a place to sleep, but we were on the run

When you kicked us out, He gave me an apartment

God is Lord over the storm, I'll never jump ship

Always faithful to my love, not like y'all did

Get offended bout my lines if the shoe fits

Fuck your feelings, cuz my heart has your shoeprints

Blocked your contact, until God gave me a new lens

(Chorus) x4

Understand, understand, understand

See my face, I'm done sayin: I aint playin

I am loved and reborn, every day

I'm my own version of a real man

[Outro]

Oh oh

Real man

Oh oh oh oh oh

Real Man

[nityarawal]

Hey y'all have you googled mom's name lately?

Mitra with Sun!

Wow- there's thousands of wonderful new stories since last we checked. Haydn didn't believe it meant Sun.

Isn't that bizarre someone who knows Farsi, studies planets, went to Iran etc would say something so dumb? He doesn't appreciate nor understand Persian poets either. Mindboggling.

Bobba knows he's Varuna! Lol

Every Christmas the lovers celebrate their anniversary.

It's divine.

I miss you so much. Mitra got me.

Thankyou Mommy.

You know she's even compared to Christ? Some mythical jealousy with Mitraism.

A mystical knowing that rivaled Christianity.

We are so very lucky mom. I pray you're all failing ok.

I enjoyed first night in my dressing trailer!(:

It's getting very cute and I'm enjoying paint box possibilities.

I left a patched wall rustic with board and want to paint an American flag on it.(:

Swedes do these barn house style paintings that are really epic.

Helen's sis had one in the only black house in the village.

Do you remember?

Do you hear from any of my bffs & sisters.

Worried for Zivit.

Any news I'd be grateful for.

I lost touch with many loved ones in lame Facebook wars.

Elon has a divine new Joe Rogan pod f/ yesterday you must hear!

He's doing AI conference & praying he heard the prudes and our beloved family.

It was King Reza Shah's II birthday yesterday.

Great party.

Persians brought it celebrating their beloved King.

It felt like the globe danced and rejoiced for our lineage.

He's only leader never criticized.

Amazing.

Georgia says no American leader ever spoke to her so Elon finally gave their country Starlink.

That was nice.

We see it but only privileged use it apparently in apartheid! LOL

Praying He's doing a savoy shuffle in UK and sorting it all out.

He seemed very strong. Did you know he does Jiujitsu?

Could Gracie studio help Isha get his rights back?

I was sad to see another 14yo boy- little Quazi- caged by Space x and estranged from mom in dadddy detention; am worried Isha was sold out?

I don't appreciate way Sunil Carved me out of my family. We are not for sale nor barter.

Justice is undoubtedly going to be served.

It gets worse with every passing moment.

Elon says price just goes up.

Make today a peace day like everyday.

I love you so much. Can you send me pictures here?

Isn't there anyway for y'all to shake a dead woman's Gag orders and embrace freedom of speech? RIP Queen Elizabeth & Barracuda Mamma Lori Clark Viviano AKA Sharkbait. Amen.

Look at Elon squirm with BBC pod next.

They have terrorised us over lake religious shit we didn't even know of from Roman times.

It's histories wars.

Is Sunil a existentialist?

I never fully understood his superstring theory.

Do you Isha?

Please look and let me know.

I think he probably is.

Do you remember when he'd set up little villages of cards in living room; and video while Romeo knocked them down to find the treats?

There's lots of ways you can groom in war.

It's just not the Huntley way.

I don't believe it was Gautama's way of the Rawal Gotra either. Buddha loves hos mom so much and is overflowing with Empathy and compassion.

We've all cried and Sung you home.

Megxit home.

Reza home.

Do you want to visit today and trick or treat?

I want to play Halloween and hug/eat celebrate with my beloved family. It's sad Britney and her family broke. Praying they forgive each other- for her heart and everyone's involved. Between us all we've probably been targeted by over a million Jewish attys capitalizing on our family.

We must always trust our enlightened elders.

That's why what Sunil did was a mind "F." ):

I'm sorry.

I know it wasn't good for anyone's Psyche.

Come home.

Shall we tie up the other trailer?

It's just for now.

Hopefully Elon really will get Reparations.

I'm grateful for all the time I have to enjoy the globe, you, and choose to enjoy it.

Maybe it's rude to laugh in face of tradgedy; rude to defy cancer; disobedient to angry British leaders in rages over silencing for their organised criminals kink..

I really feel Elon could rise through this. Please hold him in light of your heart. I just want the microcosm to reflect what my family can create.

We are a Tribe of peace, light and love.

Prosperity is Gravy.

I feel I paid more for Twitters freedom of speech than anything in my life.

$44b wasn't what it really cost & I think Elon gets that.

We all worked.

Got taxed in alienation warfare.

Every home I had was raided by Nazi Sheriff on bribes.

It was creepy.

I never broke the law.

My job is to be a mom, a full disclosure journalist and realtor. The word means more to me than the buck. That's rare.

I might not look like Miss Ambition but it's because priority of my life is you. To some being a mom might not bring the Britney billions they want to tax our family with.

As far as I'm concerned my billions are voting in an arena of violence we don't appreciate.

Return all. Elon knows this is on to-do list.

We won't have blood money on our hands.

We worked to hard as yogis to allow Sunil Rawal to violate our sacred family.

My stomach is actually quaking at what nasty things hrs done. Let it go. It's just not worth it. We choose love. With you. Every day.

Every minute.

Mitra Nitya is the eternal friend.

We all know that's true.

We all will be paid.

I got my X tip button. (:

This won't ever happen to another family on my time or dime.

4 billion mothers are strong.

Peace.

Hugs. Xo

Mom

Nitya Eternal

[dailyaudiobiblechronological]

8/13/2023 DAB Chronological Transcription

Jeremiah 23-25

Welcome to Daily Audio Bible Chronological. I'm Jill. Today's the 13th day of August. Welcome, everybody. It's a brand new week. It's a brand new mercy, yours for the taking. A brand new day. And I thank God for the promise of beginning again again. Let's jump into the reading today and let's just take a moment and posture our hearts. Empty anything out of our heart. Out of our mind. Maybe just even wiggle your fingers. Shake off all of the things that would pull you into your attention for today, that would vie and compete for your allegiance to what you're doing here, spending time alone with your creator in his word to allow him to speak to us and change us from the inside out. I'm so thankful that his word and his spirit does that- renews our mind. Restores our hope and gives us our daily bread. We're continuing where you left off yesterday, with China- going to pick up Jeremiah Chapters 23 through 25, and this week we're reading the New English translation, Jeremiah Chapter 23.

Prayer:

Thank you for your word today. We thank you for meeting us here. Another day. Another week. Another new mercy. New Grace. New reminder of your deep, compassionate love for us. A reminder today of how powerful you are. And for those of us, because we are all guilty, who speak for you in your name, with no right to speak for you while doing evil, while speaking in our own knowledge, in our own strength, in our own mind and from our own places and so easily mislabeling it. You forgive us, God. May it cause us to turn in the other direction and go no more. Go in a new direction. Go into the newness, the redemption, the path that you make straight and right for us. Thank you that you do make all of our paths straight. We pray this now as we worship you in spirit and in truth. In the name of the father, son and Holy Spirit. Amen.

Announcements:

Looking forward to a beautiful week together in God's word. I'm Jill. We'll turn the page together tomorrow. Until then, love one another. 

Community Prayer Line:

Hi this is encouragement and prayer is for Zach from California. I heard your request today. And the fact that you're being so brave and sharing that is huge, because the devil wants you to hide it and to be alone. But when others know, we're able to fight together and know that God doesn't judge you for struggles. He doesn't hate you for giving in. He wants you to find peace. He wants you to know that you that he loves you dearly. And that this season will not last forever. I've had struggles for years and every day I choose to fight against it. So every morning, keep your day to God. And choose to fight it. In a world where **** is everywhere, it is definitely difficult to just to, not just to give in. So be strong. Be brave. You've got this. It's in your heart to not want to look at it, to not be a part of it anymore. So every day just focus on that. Know that you are forgiven. That you are loved and every time you mess up just turn to Jesus. He will cleanse you, renew you. And make you stronger every single day. Be blessed, Zack, and know that you are his child and that He loves you.

Hey DABC Fam, this is Lady of Victory. On the evening of Monday, August 7th, y'all I have been trying not to make this call all day, but I know that is nothing but my pride getting in the way. Like girl, you be praying for people. You don't need prayer. No ma'am and no sir, I do. So here's the thing, y'all. I am in the last semester of my coursework for a PhD for my PhD program, and I have a balance that has always been taken care of with a grad plus loan that I have been applying for and been receiving since 2019 when I started my PhD Program. Well this last semester of my coursework because I have some adverse things on my credit, umm, that loan has been denied. So now I have no other way to pay for the balance that's on my account. And so, you know, my financial aid people at school were saying, well maybe you could take fewer correct classes and maybe you could postpone it until this and maybe this. I'm like, oh God, no, please Jesus. So I've called the creditors and what the Department of Education wants is six months of on time payments, while I just started paying them in like May, June, July, So maybe like maybe June, so June, July and August will be the third payment, so not six months, but they've been paid on time. So the creditor said that they will send me out what they can send me and in the meantime, I'm going to send them to the Department of Education. Even though I know they want six months, I'm still going to send it. And I'm just believing that whoever gets this will show grace and mercy and reverse that credit denial to get this credit report done. So would y'all pray with me please? I appreciate. 

Hi, this is Cynthia from Texas and I wanted to call and pray for. I think her name was Maddie, the girl who was cutting herself and tried to commit suicide. Um, Lord God, I lift her up to you. I pray that you would show her how precious she is to you and how much value she has to you. I pray that you would help her to see her worth in your eyes and that you would surround her with her, your love and transform her view of herself. I pray that she would pursue you and that you would show her just how precious she is to you, Lord God. I pray that you protect her from all the lies and attacks of the enemy. I pray that you would surround her with your angels and with a hedge of protection. And I pray this in Jesus name. Also, quick update on Alithia. And so I am really encouraged. She won't get weighed for another maybe four weeks or something, three or four weeks at her one year appointment. But she's doing really well. She's eating a lot and I've been experimenting with different foods and giving her more carbs and she's I've been finding some really good foods that she really likes that she'll eat a lot of, which is a huge blessing. And then also umm, I found a really good formula to supplement her food that doesn't have any seed oils in it. So I'm encouraged. Then I also have some different people in my life who are encouraging me saying, hey, she's she's a healthy, happy baby, like she's thriving in every other way and so maybe I don't need to worry. So anyway, thank you all so much for your prayers. I really appreciate it. God bless.

[holdonendure]

Brothers and Sisters

When we met I was a single mom, looking for a substitute to fill the hole that had been left by my baby daddy. I was on the prowl: looking at the materialistic part of you to determine whether or not you would be the right one to step into the kingdom that I thought I had. Yes I was the Queen of my kingdom and no one could tell me no different. When I saw you I had to look you up and down to make sure you passed my shoe test. Yep, the shoes had to be fly, and they were. He made it to the next stage, he got to buy me a drink. After talking for a while and me receiving the words that I wanted to hear I went ahead and gave him the correct phone number. I have to admit! I did not think he would call, but he did. He called so much my own mother said "GIRL YOU BETTER TAKE THIS BOY'S CALLS!" I laughed her off of course. Didn't she know I was a Queen and he was going to have to catch me if he wanted me. I think he wanted me, because I GIVE UP was not his name. No man had ever went hard for me like that and I was intrigued, sooo I had to see how this thing would play out.

Wow, a man who is genuinely willing to accept my ready made family. This is just to good to be true. I'm still a little skeptical so I think I will keep my walls up just to be sure, I can not risk another broken heart. I kept myself guarded from the time we met till halfway through our marriage. My thoughts were that I was the Queen of this relationship and my King was lacking some very important qualities. We were both and still are followers of YAHUSHA HA'MASHIACH, but at that time our walk was not as strong as it needed to be. My idea of important qualities were CAN HE AFFORD ME when it should have been DOES HE HAVE THE ABILITY TO LOVE ME LIKE MASHIACH LOVES THE CHURCH.

I thought I knew what Love was but I was clueless. I thought it was a feeling, an emotion. Now here I am claiming to know YAHUAH and don't know a thing about Love, which is a key ingredient in being a follower of the Most High. So there I was miserable in my marriage because I was waiting on that Love feeling to take over me, and well it never did. I was ready to divorce my husband because the feeling wasn't there. My husband suffers something called sin (we all do) and sometimes he needs extra special care. When we got married I did not know that I was signing up for that so, I began to build up animosity towards him when his true colors began to appear. That animosity I felt towards him was like poison to me. I just allowed it to make me mentally sicker and sicker. Little did I know I had allowed the enemy (The Devil) to take over. I felt trapped in this marriage and my husband was going to know that. Y'all this man of mines put up with all of my trials and tribulations. I told him I didn't love him anymore, He stayed. I cheated, He stayed. I kicked him out because I had a hard time dealing with his sinful self, and he was too at the time, He stayed faithful. You guys I had no idea the kind of man I had married. And now twenty years into our marriage I realize he accented me in just the right way. YAHUAH did choose him for me. I was so BLIND! I was quiet and shy, he was loud and outgoing. I never had to worry about him cheating on me. In extended family matters and issues he always supported me. However, I was known to be a little wishy washy, I apologize. The fact that he struggled with sin meant that he needed more of my attention. I was so selfish, I did not want to give my husband what he needed. I was refusing to obey YAHUAH, and I suffered dearly for it. I was about to give up on my marriage. I smelt sweet freedom, But YAHUAH intervened. I was being drawn to my word and spending more time with YAHUAH. I began to seek after him with my whole heart, and then out of nowhere change arrived. I was reading my word and praying on a regular basis. I began to realize very clearly what Love was. It's of YAHUAH and a choice. NOT A FEELING. YAHUAH says Love is patient, love is kind, It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always hopes, always preserves. It never fails 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. I began to put YAHUAH first in my life and everything else began to fall into place. My Joy returned! My peace returned! True Love is borne! MY YAH IS ALWAYS BIGGER!

[crystalsamethyst]

Continued!

This is a rough-looking fight even though it's barely begun! There's a lot of 'tyrant shadows', and my rogue has been frightened somehow.

Oh no. It linked with our cleric and the mass around us formed to look exactly like him. It's Dark Link! No wonder this knight was having a fucking time. And he turns out to also be linked to one and we feel real bad for roughing this one shadow up.

If we kill it and knight dies, we'll just bring him back because we're level 18 and we can do that. But also Similarius (the actual double) cast heal through our rod of resurrection on our buddy so we probably won't even need to!

Eyyyy my rogue killed the van sized one linked with the knight! Now to beat the shit out of the one linked with our cleric. They asked why I'm not invisible! Because I went into battle before thinking about it! Can't shadows kind of sense you anyways? I can sure sense them.

Woahhh it's bleeding shadows. Metal af. But we eventually defeated it!

---

Cleric: How in the protestant hell- Wait, no, how in the 9 layers of hell-

Us: lmao

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Druid: What does commune do again?

DM: You can communicate with a god.

Druid: But since I'm not a cleric, I don't really have a dedicated one.

Rogue: Pick a god and pray to it!

Druid: I might just let the DM choose-

Rogue: NO

She ended up choosing the cleric's god. I was so worried the DM would pick someone completely wrong for the situation.

Druid: I've got two more questions after this. What should I do?

Rogue: Who's the hottest god!

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Yes. She finally found out why she's transforming and how she's being cursed. I've kept that secret for months. Thank fuck it's out in the open! Cursed amulet! But her character can't actually tell us because that's what part of all the cursed objects

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DM: Mystra happily replied because the druid is in an angel form right now (from the battle) and used some pretty big magic.

Cleric: So you were communing? Why did your face look like you have to shite?

Druid: I was-

Rogue: Wait, can angels shit?

DM: I was literally thinking one of your questions was going to be 'can gods piss?'

Druid: (Out of character) Please put this in your blog lmao.

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The knight is on his knees crying in a frozen tundra on finding out from the commune that his dead family is in heaven. Cleric, who got jealous druid was communing with his own god, is communing with her too.

Knight: Please, if you're talking to gods, can you ask them if I'm still worthy?!

Cleric: Workin' on it!

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Cleric: So Mystra, what were y'all talking about?

Mystra: *starts telling*

Druid: Hey! I thought this was like a confessional box! Don't go spilling all my secrets!

Cleric: I'm a better follower!

DM: Mystra don't care, either.

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Remove curse has been cast! The item is now able to be removed and unattuned and she's throwing it off!

Cleric: Why couldn't you tell us about it?!

Druid: Because that's the curse! You can't talk about having cursed items!

Rogue: It's like fight club!

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Cleric: Hey again, Mystra! So uhhhhhhhh how can we remove the physical corruption?

Mystra: True resurrection, true polymorph, or it can be removed by the lord of the hells.

Cleric: True resurrection can't be cast on someone alive, can it?

DM: No.

Cleric: *cracks his neck and looks at the druid* so. Who's got a knife?

Rogue: I've got two of them!

It's been decided next time we have to renew our vows by being widowed, she's gonna be the one to die and get revived. Two tasks in one!

Druid: Cleric, why can't you be the one who dies for our vow renewal?

Cleric: Because I'm the fucking one who has to bring you back!

Lmao. Lover's spat. Ah, marriage.

It's time! For DND! We have been told we're closing in on the end!

So we enter on Tiax, offering us 20 soul coins to kill our river guide who is his captain. All of us are like uhhhh no?

Druid: I'm gonna just restrain him. DC 20.

DM: I rolled a nat 3, my phone's just charging but I'm sure he doesn't have +17 to resist being restrained-

Cleric: Pussy.

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Tiax: I'm doing the bidding of my god, the god of lies!

Druid: If your god is the god of lies, how do you know he's not lying to you?

Tiax: Heheh, how do you know your benefactors aren't lying to you?

Druid: That's the thing, I don't trust anyone.

Cleric: What? Not even me?

Rogue: Yeah, we're married! Ouch!

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We're in initiative and my rogue goes first.

Rogue: I never liked him anyways *goes at him, swings twice, badly misses twice lmao*

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So thing is, we're in our cleric's own magic mansion. Tiax is stuck in here with us. Idk what he thought the turnout would be, especially since we clearly care about the captain.

Oh FUCK he fucking healed himself and dispelled magic on it. Nvm. Still, bad to fight three of us. I just did like 70 damage when finally hitting and it's still druid, cleric, and cleric's double.

And we killed him easy peasy.

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We are un-fridgeing the other boat lady, who better not betray us too. Resurrected! She's pretty shook but hey, that's fair. What she went through is brutal.

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There's this fricken knight dude facing shadows that I reached out mentally to, he's monologuing, I totally didn't hear the part where he was facing shadows and like I thought he was just standing on the edge of the river dramatically goin 'so this is where I die!' and I telepathically go "who's this tyrant you're regretting not defeating? What's your name, age, race, birthplace-"

Dude is having a whole fight he's outmatched in and I didn't even realize lmao good thing I didn't distract him enough to get killed.

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Oh no. Oh no. Oh no. Our cleric cast daylight on the knight's sword to try to fend off the shadows and the entire area around them went dark and a bunch more shadows started amassing in the sky around us. Yikes yikes yikes. More on the next one.

[mytvjunk]

Love, Victor: Season 3 trailer 👀

Do not read ahead if you have not seen the trailer yet

-So they straight out gave us a major spoiler, without any warning, by telling us that Victor goes to Benji's house after the wedding debacle. Tbh this kinda annoyed me because I was looking forward to finding out about this major cliffhanger while actually watching the season opener but they chose to spoil it within the 1st ten seconds of the trailer 😵‍💫 Say what you want, but there were ways to edit the trailer without spilling that information, but production blatantly chose chaos.

-I was fully expecting the love triangle aspect, but now they want to throw at Victor a third love interest, when no one asked for this 👀 But if this is just a one time thing, than cool. Just don't drag it out and try to get us emotionally invested in this new character.

Also, are there no teen actors in Hollywood? Cuz this new guy is almost 30 year's old (IRL) playing a high schooler. I'm sure it can't be that hard to cast an actor who's in their teens.

I pray to all the TV gawds that before Victor & Benji fully break up, that they have real closure. That they have a good conversation and air things out. Because one of the biggest issues in this ship is their lack of open, honest communication. Hopefully they come to a sound understanding.

-As for Rahim, I'm assuming he's getting friendzoned and he seems to be going along with it. I wonder if this is a situation where Rahim is choosing be a friend rather than nothing at all to Victor 🤔 Let's see how this plays out moving forward, cuz it's clear that there are feelings there, probably more from Rahims end; so this might result in him getting his heart further broken.

-And it also looks like Victor is going to jump into the dating app world. So all you Vengi & Vahim shippers get ready for a messy season, cuz it looks like the writers are going to put y'all through it. And tbh if these ships become too unbelievably convoluted, I'd rather see Victor drop all the nonsense and choose himself at the end!

THIS right here is a scene I'm very much looking forward to seeing. I have a strong feeling Benji is going to over power the conversation and not really listen to what Rahim has to say. But tbh, they were never really friends 🤷

🗣 WRITERS I beg of you, please do not screw up the new ships. As much as I enjoyed most of Felix and Lakes relationship, I'm loving the direction you've taken with Felix x Pilar & Lake x Lucy. Don't fumble it!

As for Mia, I love her so much and I hope she has finds resolution with her parents. I want all the best for her. I'm so here for her and Andew being end game 🙌🏾

[wellamarke]

Alright. This is going to be shorter than I planned because I keep tying myself in knots over the very first shot, but I'm going to skip straight to my main point about the Dashing White Sergeant, which is this:

Nobody gets to dance with the person opposite them in the circle.

That is not how the dance works. In DWS, you dance with two people: the ones either side of you, in your row of 3. Yes, to be fair, you join hands and walk back and forth to meet your opposite person, but that person never gets your hand. So, how, pray, do we get this:

AND this:

Well, it's because, in what is arguably his boldest move since 'carrots', Gilbert breaks the set and spins Anne over to his side:

When what they're supposed to have done is this:

ie. Diana, Gilbert and Jane should have performed a straight swap with Caleb, Anne and Charlie. That twirl? Does not exist in the Dashing White Sergeant.

This absolute... opportunist, sees his moment and risks throwing the whole dance just to get to hold Anne's hand. I'm so proud.

The first time they come into the centre he's all smirky, because yes, being face-to-face is fun and an excellent twist on their usual head-to-head. But that's not enough, he wants to dance with her. He's going to get his hand-hold after 3 years of waiting for it, damn it all.

(I know, I know, I'm coming late even to the Netflix release and I've missed the intense week-long dissection of the scene by literal months, so obviously all this has been said. But it's NEW TO ME and I haven't seen the text posts so I'm going to still talk about it).

There is so much metaphorical resonance here.

The two positions (beside and opposite) are supposed to be irreconcilable in the dance. Anne and Gilbert are two people who so often oppose each other but, when it comes to things that really matter, they are on the same side. Likewise, the parts of the dance they spend opposite each other are fleeting, and for the main section, they are on the same side.

Both Anne and Gilbert are the center dancers of their row (the center is the only person who dances throughout - all 4 corner dancers wait out certain bars). This mirrors how both of them have their own storylines, concerns, goals etc in the show. But when Gilbert breaks the set, positioning Anne as to his choosing, he doesn't make her a corner dancer. Instead, she becomes the center dancer of his line. What an interesting fact about the axis on which Planet Gilbert spins.

Even when they're part of the same row, things aren't straightforward: there's a third person involved. In real life it's Winnie; in the dance it's Charlie. Gilbert watches Anne with Charlie and has to wait out the bar. Anne will have to do the same with Winnie.

At the end of the dance - literally in the last few bars - he returns Anne to her original position. In practical terms, this means Mrs Lynde doesn't have anything to complain about, as there's no evidence by the end that the set was ever broken. In sneaky terms, it means he gets to finish the dance face-to-face making eyes with Anne, and not Jane or Diana. In heartbreaking terms, it foreshadows how (at least for now) the discoveries made during the dance aren't going to change their relationship, as everything goes 'back to normal' on the outside. In romantic terms, it could be seen as Gilbert saying: "I want you by my side, but in the end, I'll put you before myself" (in the sense that 'before' can also mean 'in front of').

Breaking the set ought to have thrown everything off - if nobody else moves, Gilbert has put Anne next to Diana, so the boy-girl-boy-girl pattern is lost. The fact that the dance is able to continue means that others have moved to compensate. Crucially, one of them is Diana, who is best placed to perform damage control as it's her spot Anne's moved into -– foreshadowing her manoeuvring the situation on the train and saving the day! But it's not just Diana: everyone in the set will have noticed the shift – mirroring how the whole of Avonlea are basically aware of how these two feel about each other before they are.

Or, in more mathematical terms, the other 4 people in the set, shifting to make way for Shirbert, represent the 4 people with the most to say about Shirbert: Jane plays Winnie (telling Anne she isn't engaged to Gilbert; this parallel works weirdly well since Jane and Gilbert are seen dancing together, and Jane's traditional values mirror Winnie's 'expectations') Diana plays herself (being the person best placed to call Gilbert out the train journey, and being the person best placed to compensate in the dance itself, since Anne's in her spot. Damn, she even does the callout opposite him in a train carriage, a position usually held by Anne). Charlie plays Cole (telling Anne about Gilbert's crush; interesting, then, that Charlie's got a crush on Anne) and Caleb Lynde plays Bash (knowing about Shirbert before so much as meeting Anne; and would you LOOK at that, I was about to say I can't find a link between Caleb and Bash, but the link is MISS STACY!)

Most dancers look in the direction they are skipping in for the circle part of the dance: Gilbert and Anne look dead across at each other before the swap, and then after the swap:

...yeah, they're looking at each other the whole time, even for the direction change - which means that one of them is always skipping 'backwards' (sideways, but against the direction they're facing, led by the other). If that ain't a metaphor for trust, I don't know what is. Also, they will each be the backwards-facer for the same amount of steps, and if that ain't a metaphor for compromise... you get what I'm saying.

I will probably think of a few more resonances after posting this, and yes, I know that I'm reaching on some of it, but even without all that symbolism, you HAVE to hand it to Gilbert. As far as he knows this might be the only time he'll ever get to dance with Anne, so he's going to make the most of EVERY SECOND, and dance more with her in that one rehearsal than any other couple in the room have managed in two.

Something else I like, as well, is that he knows the format of the dance from watching the initial demonstration - so he COULD have tried the spin in the first run-through. But he doesn't do it until he gets the vibe from their first face-to-face that Anne, maybe... isn't opposed to dancing with him. (Also, he waits 'til he's invalided Moody out of the running, freeing his buddy up to give them some nice twinkly backing music... Gosh, Gilbert, how far back does your web of cunning go?!)

Just as a parting shot, I'll point out that Miss Stacy is the one who pushes Gilbert (nonsensically) to the other side of the room, where Anne ends up. I say nonsensically because at the beginning they're standing like this:

with Gilbert being the ONLY boy on the right hand side of the room, so no way should he be moving across. What actually needs to happen is that two boys from the left should go to join him. Gilbert should have stayed put. But no, Miss Stacy wants him over there:

She ships it, y'all.

Gilbert then stands for a bit in the middle of the room, foreshadowing his indecision/being torn between two options later on:

Look at him, stroking his chin, all confused! Thankfully, Mrs Lynde is there to park him firmly on the left side of the room, ensuring proximity to Anne. Thanks, Rachel. Thanks, Ms Stacy.

And most of all, thanks to whoever choreographed this scene! It took me so long to get a comprehensive look at Gilbert's actions because I kept getting distracted by everything else that's going on: Ruby, Tillie and Jane are all wonderful too, and let's not forget Moody and Charlie partnering each other just before Mrs Lynde yells 'stop'. Wonderful. Perfect scene is perfect.

[asmo-ds]

TW: mentions of cancer, overbearing parents, and overall confusion.

Ok, opening up a bit here with the religious trauma stuff:

I was raised Mormon. At 13, i wanted to leave. However I never felt comfortable telling my parents that because of how strongly they felt about our religion. They told me they would stand by me no matter what, but because of stuff I won't mention, I had no reason to believe them.

Anyways, fast forward three years, and my sister gets brain cancer- keep in mind, we as a family had wanted more kids for 10 years until it happened- and I found it hard to stay positive in the gospel. How could a God be labelled as "just", "kind", and "merciful" if shit like this happens? And I tried to take it, y'know, she made an excellent recovery, that's worth everything to me. But what irked me the most were people at church.

"Just pray."

"Let God's will happen"

"Whatever God has planned for her is best."

What the fuck? Excuse me? You had no fucking right to actively seek my family out and say that shit IN FRONT OF OUR OTHER SIBLINGS! One of them being my sister's twin. (Ages 8,6,4)

While my parents didn't tolerate it, it just gave me more reason to pull away. I didn't like the people, I had/have a lot of questions with no satisfying answers, but I still think the standards the church provides are valid and healthy. I questioned my self-worth a lot, basing it on my faith. That's gotten better now. I still need to get the balls to tell my mom, (specifically), that I want to leave.

What I'm trying to get at is religious trauma can be having the religion forced on you, it can be experiences that shake your faith enough to make you question it, and it can be how it influences your life and mental health negatively, etc.etc. And if you still want to be part of the religion after everything, that's ok too!

I'm proud of y'all.

(Sorry, this was long...)

(Also, my sister is doing phenomenal now😁)

I’m so glad your sisters ok now 🥺

I cant say i understand your story since i’ve never been part of a religion, but i will say i’m here for you no matter what you choose to believe in or not to believe in

and if your mom has a problem with you wanting to leave it send her to my dms i’ll have a little chat w her 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇

and i’m proud of you for being strong enough to share this 🥺💖

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The Untamed, episode 42 - watching notes

I was up playing partygames over discord until 3 am yesterday, so I didn't get to watch another episode. I complained about it to my friends, which in turn made them complain that I sounded like I would rather watch my "gay chinese fantasy show" than spent time with them. I contemplated saying yes, but decided to keep my friend instead :D

And we were currently in the middle of a confrontation with Jiggy (as I've been informed he's called ... what? ^^) who apparently murdered his son to keep some secret, which with how this shows is going, I wouldn't be surprised is them going full game of thrones and ... you know what I'm talking about

Oh right, Su She is there

He's the Jin Zixun to my wei Wuxian. As in, I can never remember his name or why I should care 🤷‍♀️

(But thus time I DO remember who he is. That is, after lwj said his name ^^)

I'm so sure that jgy hit all evidence by now, btw

Okay, no. his wife is still there

Su She might be an asshole but his hair piece is gorgeous :D

What does it say about me that my first thought about that dagger was COOL!!! 😱😱😱

How dare you take Wen Qing's name in vain! 🤬

😱

I thought she'd stab him!!! Not herself :'(

I'm a bit surprised that with 5 cultivators in the room, no one does more to save her

Oh, JGY is a damn good actor!! I mean we knew that before, but now his apparent confusion and grieve for his wife seems even more (dare I quote lwj?) shameless

Lan Xichen, i know you love him but ...

Fun fact: In German, we call fake tears "Krokodilstränen". Literal translation: "crocodile tears"

That's what this is 😐

Especially about the nie Mingjue

Poor Nie Huaisang 💔💔💔

"Taking the head. Who in the world would have done such an insane act?" GEE, I WONDER ...

Sorry, I still find jgy fascinating, but this is so uncomfortable to watch, knowing at least part of what really happened 🙈

Lord, give me the power to murder people with one gaze like Lan Wangji 🙏

This whole conversation is so supremely uncomfortable

I'm still unsure if Jin Guangyao really doesn't suspect that "Mo Xuanyu" isn't who he says he is or if it's just a very convincing act 🤨

Favourite trope: Hanguang Jun, Yiling Laozou's knight in shining armour

First of all: Hot

Second of all: Lwj internally: DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING TOUCH HIM I ONLY JUST GOT HIM BACK AND WE HAVEN'T EVEN MADE OUT YET

probably

Also, for a split second there, you saw Jiang Cheng leap forward with a real look of concern on his face, like his first instinct was to help wwx himself 🥺🥺🥺

HE'S USING SUIBIAN AGAIN!!!

This feels so huge! 😱

I'm weirdly emo about a sword rn :')

His cover is blown of course

And him and Jin ling just had a good relationship :(

NHS, JL and JGY: How could it BE that this is Yiling Laozou???

Meanwhile Lan Xichen and Jiang Cheng

"With the right kind of sacrifice, it can safe one who was seriously injured." Is this another instance of "we can't say this it's necromancy because censors, but y'all damn well know this is necromancy because no one falls down a cliff and then lies there "seriously injured" for goddam 16 years"?

I'm all teary eyed at lwj not even hesitating to flee with wwx :')

Jin Ling 💔🥺

Fuck you Jin Guangyao for playing at his pain!!!

Omg they're as good as holding hands!!! 😭😭😭

Of course, wax is pushing lwj away, OF COURSE. Self-sacrificing idiot!

That mask reveal was *chef's kiss* the drama! The gasps! The ... long-suffering "here we go again look" from lan Xichen :D

I LOVE IT WHEN LWJ SPEAKS UP!!

"You're wrong."

So simple. Yet saying so much: "I kniw him. I trust him. I chose this."

And OF COURSE Wei Wuxian gives him another way out

BUT THESE TWO FINALLY GET THEIR SHIT TOGETHER AND COMMUNICATE THEIR THOUGHTS! FINALLY!

"Did you believe in me back then?" YES, I WAS JUST TOO AFRAID TO SAY IT,SO MY CONCERN CAME OUT AS ANGER 😭😭😭

And the single logged bridge again 😭😭😭 I adore that metaphor! And I love that they chose to show us the flashback. Because last time, wwx and lwj parted, took different roads so to speak, one the one of defiance, the other the one of orthodoxy. Neither wanted to part ways, but neither probably thought that they had much of a choice. But they did have a choice and they made it. And lwj has already expressed his regret over that. So here he is again, using his second chance without a thought.

Because lwj believes that wwx is right, MORALLY, so he will go against his clan, reputation be damned, and stand with the man he loves ... finally. He'll choose what they both believe to be right and walk with him "until it's dark" :')

And THAT'S WHAT I LOVE ABOUT THIS SO MUCH!! It's not just that "oh they're so cute and they compliment each other so well, they must be soulmates uwu". Most of all they share a common morality!!!

I'm so goddamn amazed at this ship! This is not I was thought I was getting when I boarded it, but goddamn it I'm loving the ride! 😭😭😭

And .. just, the look in Lan Wangji's eyes ... they have 50 swords drawn on them, but guessing from the look on his face and the softness of his gaze they might as well be at their wedding 😭😭😭

He looks like a man entirely at peace with his decision :')

Just ...

Look

At

THEM!!!

They're holding hands in that last shot!!!! 😭😭😭

I'm absolutely floored at how utterly beautiful this scene is! "Romantic" seems too insignificant to describe it. It feels more like 42 episodes worth of love and pining and misunderstandings coming to their natural conclusion

My heart is so full right now guys :')

Very nice of these 50 people to wait for their moment to pass before attacking. Very considerate 😁

"Are we going to fight or not." "Too much talking" I WANT 50 EPISODES OF THESE TWO BICKERING!!! 😭😭😭

Jin Ling :'(

Noooo

No

Noooo

I don't know who my heart is bleeding for more here

Jin ling doesn't deserve to have to shoulder his parent's and uncle's pain :'((

All this supporting each other when injured? That's the good stuff

And those flashbacks ... wwx finally FINALLY realizes that lwj never hated him for his actions, he was afraid for him :')

Tbf,the guy has a sliiiight communication issue 😐

That quote about how lwj is at his side now that everyone else despices him!! That's it THAT'S THE SHIP!!😭😭😭

Oh, lwj took him back to cloud recess

I'm surprised he was allowed to, tbh

Ooh, so Mo Xuanyu knew something!

And... someone else must now know about him?

Also, I didn't realise that wwx still had a cut from the curse

I gotta take a moment to scream about HOW UTTERLY DOMESTIC AND AT EAS THESE TWO NOW ARE WITH EACH OTHER!!! 😭

XICHEN!!!

I should have known that the OG wangxian shipper would support them

But he still trusts Jin Guangyao. Not that I'm surprised

It's so weird to see anyone on this show in trousers btw 😅

"You're more than I can handle." Lol ^^

"You trust Master Wei, while I trust Jin Guangyao." Oh boy ...

I feel like this might be more of a confrontation than these two brothers had in their entire lives

Love me some detective-wwx

Poor Xichen 😔 he doesn't want to believe it

Somehow, wwx with a white underrobe makes me think "that's what he looks like when he and lwj accidentally swab robes" :D

Uuuh! The restricted section forbidden chamber!

So ... jin Guangyao somehow got this piece of music from the lan library?

But he's good! He's really good! He consistently uses others weaknesses and prays on them so that they act in a more extreme manner, but not so much that others would suspect foulplay. Case in point: nie Mingjue's death by anger and (more recently) the way he played towards Jin ling's feelings.

Aaaand another rather abrupt end in the middle of a conversation. That's one thing this show does not do well 😅

Anyway, I'm not complaining this episode send my shipper heart (BECAUSE I'M SO DWEP DOWN THIS RABBIT HOLE AT THIS POINT) fly with joy!!

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