#i'm pissed

[pellucid-constellations]

Okay everyone I'm writing but also I am going to rant for a sec because I have to get these words out there or I will explode

There are only a few men in my master's program because it's therapy and that's a pretty female-dominated field but there's this ONE MAN that has been sort of incorporated into the group of friends I have and oooooh boy is he getting on my nerves lately. He makes comments frequently about being a man and being careful not to mansplain and stuff but then he just does it without being aware because he's "trying so hard to avoid doing that" and that makes it worse!! I am literally a research assistant to the head of the program (she's super well respected) so I know her very well. He just started taking one of her classes and he texts me like every day telling me about her as if I wouldn't know???? And he talks over me all the time!! And he reaches out and asks me questions about school logistics or tests and I give him answers and I swear to GOD he's always like "hmmm are you sure??" like WHY did you ask me!! If you were just going to tell me that I'm wrong!! (and then I'm right btw). And everyone thinks he's a genius or something because he's a man with an opinion in class but I swear he's just yapping half the time. it's just so UGH.

I feel like sometimes the men that are hyperaware of misogyny are the ones at risk of doing all these little things because they think they could never do them. Or they think that just because they point out they're a man that means all of their actions come from a good place that doesn't belittle women. Anyway I am losing my ever-loving mind and I might punch this dude

[argentinesunshine]

eyyyy franco got screwed by williams strategy 🤡

listened to part of his onboard (i intend to listen to the whole thing tomorrow; i don't think i can take it tonight). they pitted him on lap 26 or 27, right before the VSC. he asked for wets and insisted he could make up the time in two laps. gaetan kept saying "stay out"; he acknowledged that yuki, liam and checo had changed to full wets, but "the majority are on inters, we think that's the correct call" despite his feedback

once the SC went out for worsening weather, they pitted him again on lap 30...only to put him on new, cold inters...with which he tried to catch up to the pack, spun out and crashed

why inters again

why did they pit him when he was on *checks notes* 3- or 4-lap-old tires

WHY INTERS AGAIN

he's a rookie and it's his first wet race in f1. gaetan said "we know it's hard, just survive" but how do you expect a rookie to NOT crash in heavy rain on cold inters. either they vastly overestimated his talent or they were just clueless

just because the "majority" of the field was on inters doesn't make it the right strategy. you just gotta be on the right tires at the right time. you gotta listen to your driver and work with him. that's how you win fucking races

my dander, it is up

incidentally yuki, liam & checo made it to the end on those wets. he would have been fine

i dunno how fine he would have been; he crashed before the wets were really tested, and by the time the red flag was over, inters were the tire of choice again

[lunadreamscaper]

EDITING THIS POST BECAUSE OF RECENT EVENTS: me and others were lied too about the harassment claims.

here is some info about the person who lied though DO NOT HARASS ANYONE INVOLVED thank you:

taleblr.

taleblr.

dear god. stop harassing people just because you don't like them.

Now I'm glad I left the Taleblr Survivors server.

let me reiterate. you dont have to like someone or their content,

but dont

fucking

harass them <3

just block them and move on,

did we learn nothing because apparently not lol.

like this isnt just a taleblr thing- just dont harass people just because you dont like them in general.

this goes both ways. don't harass the harassers.

[interesting-blog]

The world would say: "Horikoshi, wtf"

But we, Italians, would say: "Horikoshi, porco dio".

[allthebrazilianpolitics]

Taylor Swift fan dies after feeling unwell during concert in Rio

Ana Clara Benevides, 23, fainted and was taken to a hospital near Engenhão, but did not survive

Ana Clara Benevides, 23, died on Friday (17th) night after feeling unwell during the concert of singer Taylor Swift, who debuted her tour in Brazil at the Nilton Santos stadium in Rio de Janeiro, with an audience of over 60,000 people.

The information was confirmed to Folha by Estela Benevides, Benevides' cousin, who received the news over the phone from the doctor who tried to resuscitate her. The young woman is originally from Pedro Gomes, Mato Grosso do Sul, but she grew up in Sonora, within the same state. She was sent to the Salgado Filho Municipal Hospital after fainting and being attended to at the stadium. The cause of death was cardiac arrest.

Benevides was at the front row and ended up fainting on the spot. According to nurse Thiago Fernandes, 22, a friend of Benevides, she was resuscitated at the stadium for about 40 minutes. On the way to the hospital, she had a second cardiac arrest.

Benevides arrived around 8 p.m., was attended to, but did not survive, dying shortly after at the hospital near Engenhão, in Méier, in the northern zone of the capital of Rio de Janeiro.

The heat index at the venue reached 60ºC and unofficially, firefighters counted a thousand faintings during the event. Fans complained on social media about the prohibition of bringing water bottles into the stadium, considering the intense heat.

Continue reading.

If I may add: the venue closed its vents. During a gods-damned heat wave.

[yah1dka]

i hate the person who made "mori sexually abused dazai as a child" headcannon popular with my whole soul.

[piko-chan]

PEOPLE NEED TO STOP DANCING AROUND THE SUBJECT OF MENTAL HEALTH

I'm not "stressed", "overwhelmed", "feeling bad"

I AM AT AN ACTIVE RISK OF SUICIDE

"It's so hard talking about hygiene for us"

YOU SAY TO A PERSON THAT JUST TOLD YOU THEY HAD A SUICIDE ATTEMPT

GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER AND STOP TREATING THESE SUBJECTS LIKE THEY ARE TABOO

TAKE ME FUCKING SERIOUSLY

[jordieeeee]

spoilers!

NOOOOOOO LESTER (I knew it'd be him when he tried talking to olicharles in the hallway but the pair had to go confront a killer so Charles told him 'have a good day' it reminded me of Bunny because she just wanted to hang out with them similar to how Lester just wanted to talk to them for just a moment). THEO NO THEO? goddamnit the fics better go up istg

we'll try again next year

[yourlowkeyidiot3]

Why are people blaming the fact that Stan got kicked out on Ford and not on Filbrick

[f0linasahl0]

never getting over dean winchester's shitty ending

never getting over sam winchester's almost broken ending

never getting over how castiel left

never getting over how bad the supernatural finale was. it hurt a little with how it ended and i just..i don't know i never liked it. coming out now with this because i didn't have an active tumblr in what...2019?

idk i just didn't like it. didn't feel like a good ending for any of them. it was more angsty and heartbreaking than they deserved.

i'm sorry i just hated it :|

[my-wee-hughie]

I pray that they don't gloss over Hughie's trauma

[lightseoul]

ok i've made up my mind if i don't get paid i won't show up next week.

[riselike-a-phoenix]

I swear, if the show runners of House of The Dragon make Alys Rivers into the predator in her situation with Aemond, I'm gonna find Ryan and make him sit on a biggest cactus I can find.

Because looking at what they make of Aemond in season two, I'm afraid that this is exactly what they'll do. Make poor little Aemond a victim of this bad, nasty witch of Harrenhall, who will seek to use him to gain power, and poor little mommy issues Aemond is gonna fall for it.

And don't even get me started on this Alicent and Rhaenyra scene....

[eluboys]

[cluzi]

Are people actually seriously discussing the morality of vampires who, in the first place, haunt and torture humans for a living and for fun? Every vampire in this show abuses somebody, at some point, they're all literal monsters and inexcusable abusers because of untreated trauma so don't make yourself ridiculous, it's awkward. It's clearly the wrong show for you, leave it to who can appreciate FICTIONAL characters' gray areas for merely recreational purposes. You're boring.

[psychologeek]

I love your work and fics but because of your support of the genocide in Gaza Strip I am unable to truly continue supporting you.

I know that you believe that supporting the Palestinians is anti-semitic but if you learned about these topics you would know. Zionism is inherently anti-semitic itself, Zionism is a political philosophy that was first created in the 1600s by anti-Semitic Christians who believed Jews from all over the world should be expelled and gathered in one place. And then Theodor Herzl, an atheist, adopted Zionism to find a "suitable country" to colonize, and several countries were suggested: Uganda, Argentina, Cyprus, and Madagascar. But with Jews' rejection and with the support of Western politicians, Zionism secured their interests in the resources of the Middle East, thus Palestine.

Maybe if you learned what it was like to see through the eyes of people like Bisan Owda, Wael Al-Dahdouh, Motaz Azaiza, Hind Khoudary, or maybe even the six year old Hind Rajab who died after traveling through a "Safe Zone" with her family and being stuck in a car with their bodies for 12 days.

This is not a war. This is a genocide. I'm not asking you to change overnight, but knowing the full truth of what Israel is doing under the same excuses that you're telling yourself will help you understand what's really going on.

Thanks for the compliment? I think? 

Uh, ok, this isn't about my writing - this is about you complaining about my thoughts and experiences. Cool.

Edit: I have to admit that I'm curious what brought this up. Was it the A/N in "Some of Them (want you)" (a Damian-centric fic), and the mention of the bombed hospital in Israel? Raising awareness to the facts refugees need to bribe their way into Egypt to save their lives? (From Sudan and Gaza)? Was it the mention of the war in Kurdistan? Or maybe it was the way I talked about the Iranian regime, and how Baluchistan and Akhwaz are a flame?

Or perhaps it was the PSA in "Who am I? (to disappear)", in which I tried to remind ppl that watching and passing forward videos of ppl being tortured/killed/sexually assaulted is a bad thing. Do you not agree with the sentiment?

Or maybe you just don't like Cass. That's probably another option

Anyway -

Support genocide etc.

A. I do not support genocide.

B. What's happening in Gaza rn isn't genocide. It's war. And the use of that term is very disrespectful and dismissive to other places, in which there IS, actually, a genocide.

C. That being said, I don't support war. I don't support death. And I really wish this wouldn't happen.

I Don't??? Think?? Supporting Palestine is antisemic??? 

I do think that pro-palestine rallies with chants like "Gas the Jews" and harrasing jews and Jewish place ARE antisemic, yes.

If you need that difference explicitly said, I guess you should look at the rallies and pro-p things you're talking about.

"But if you learned about these topics"

EXCUSE ME????

If I LEARNT ABOUT IT?

Because of course - my knowledge, as part of a minority group, of a subject that is INHERENTLY related to in-group topics, and the what I learnt from people in-group are obviously less relevant than what you, oh great saviour, has learnt through Tik-Tok.

"Zionism is inherently anti-semitic itself"

Do you even understand how ignorant saying that is??

Do you understand how much this is propaganda?

"I believe that (Jewish people right to self-determination and live peacefully) is a bad thing" - do you even hear yourself?? 

"Zionism.... was first created in the 1600s by anti-Semitic Christians who believed Jews from all over the world should be expelled and gathered in one place. "

No. Just don't.

Idk - maybe this is what they teach in America or idk where, right next to "jews, Muslims and Christians lived peacefully before the evil Zionists colonisers " (look up the massacres in Zfad, the massacre and ethnic cleansing of Habron, Gush Etzion, Gaza-several cleansing btw).

Anyway, Zionism in the older form (yearning to go back Home, Eretz Israel as the Jewish homeland, and a connection between God-People-Land) is one of the first things in the Jewish narrative.

Practically, the Jewish calander is SoLunal calander that based on the seasons, weather, and agriculture in the levant.

Religiously - jews prayed to go back to "build Jerusalem" every year since the 2nd temple was destroyed. We kept practicing traditions and Mitzvahs that are related to the connection to the spesific area.

(And there always, always been jews going to Israel.)

Herzel's thoughts and actions to create the Zionist movement came after he watched the Dreyfus trial and realised that jews will always be haunted and discriminated BECAUSE of their Jewishness. So if you want a place without this, you gotta make a Jewish state.   (There are many kinds of Zionism,  I go with this as a general and simple explanation.)

(more about why this is problematic undercut)

"You don't know what it's like" -

What. The. Fuck.

You said you came here via my fics. 

I'm sorry.

Did you miss the whole long AF a/n I wrote in the last months??

About my personal experiences with war?? 

Both current (the whole saga with physical/mental safety, the evacuation, losing my glasses, etc. ??)

And previous (being bombed and evacuation 1 as a kid. My first PTSD. Terror attack and PTSD number 2 (ft. dead babies. Fun times). Rockets, more rockets, war, friends hurt in terror attack, friends-of-friends DIE in terror attack, more wars, etc.

(And that's not even the reason I was suicidal since young teen).

"This isn't war, it's genocide"

I'm sorry, do you remember how it fucking started?? How it continues?? How there are still FUCKING ROCKETS AIMED AT Israel??

Yes. This is sad. People shouldn't die in war. 

In fact, I truly believe that death-machines and people should not be near each other.

**Which is why I'm so mad at the fact non one's talking or doing anything to make Egypt open the fucking borders and let ppl through without having to bribe their life out**

" the full truth of what Israel is doing"

Right.

You, who's purely immune to Propaganda, of course.

You sure knows much more then me - who, you know, the one who ACTUALLY LIVE THROUGH this, and actually familiar with the history of the country and conflict (no, it didn't start in 1948. Not even in 1918. It was way earlier.)

(And just as you mention - have you heard about Ellin (9) and  Eithan (5) Kapshiter? They were shoot in the car with their entire family.

Ellin was considered missing for 2 weeks, before her body was identified. That was a couple of hours after her family's funeral.

For some reason, I didn't see any "where's Ellin?" On Tumblr.

Oh, and do you remember Kfir and Ariel Bibas? Kfir just had his first birthday.

They are still held captive, btw. For some reason, I don't see anyone in the "ceasefire now" crowd talking about how CRUCIAL it is that Hamas bring back the people they, you know, kidnapped. That they should get medical attention and visits from the RC. 

In fact, in the last hostage deal, this was something Hamas refused to include.)

Calling it genocide is problematic in many ways. Including for the people who suffer from this war.

Calling it genocide allows the the activism to be mostly anti-Israel, instead of pro-palestine.

For example, focusing the efforts on "stopping Israel" and "Israel is bad" and "boycott Israel", instead of "how do we save lives" and "why Egypt not opening the borders".

Less "ceasefire now!" (Though a good target) And "defund Israel!"

More "release the hostages and let humanitarian aid in".

(not to mention that all those efforts, for some reason, never go to other places and other people who suffer. Never even go to Palestinian in refugees camps - in Jordan, Lebanon, Syria.)

Pro-tip:

If someone tells you "a (very important thing in a minority's group culture) was actually created by (A majority group) as a (bad thing)", then you have one of those options: It's a lie, reclaiming, and "yes but no" .

1. It's a lie - aka: Just bc you didn't know about it, doesn't mean it's not real. (Sort of like the term of "dark ages" - that come to portray the intellectual darkness in Europe between the fall of Rome and the Renaissance. Though it wasn't the same if you look at non-european history.)

And in a simpler example-  Pasta! Usually considered "Italian", but only got there at 4th century BC. Evidences in China during the Shang Dynasty (1700-1100 BC). There was also African form of pasta, made of kamut crop. 

2. Reclaiming (see "queer" - was used as a general term, then a slur, going back to an Identity.)

3. Yes, but actually no (take for example sign language (s) - languages, as community languages, started to form when schools-for-deaf became a thing. Residential schools, where the students lived together and worked together ehad to learn to communicate.

Then they learn sign language - of the area/country/etc.

It doesn't mean that "Hearing created SL". The languages were built from home-signs (look at the difference between simple words, like "eat" in different SLs - like brit vs. Japanese) , and gained depth through the creation of Deaf communities.