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moodysullie · 1 year
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The MCU will never let Strange fan be happy by witnessing his character development ALONE without other stuff I wanna throw up why do I have to continue to suffer
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lazylittledragon · 2 months
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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smoozie · 4 months
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Why is every Ever After High redesigner an Apple hater. I just wanna watch some interpretations of the plot and some cute new designs, I didn't come here to hear u complaing abt Apple for 30 minutes.
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tofixtheshadows · 7 months
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Constantly rotating Falin Touden in my head as one of the best examples of "haunting the narrative" I've ever seen. Schrödinger's maiden. Schrödinger's chimera. She's the saintly little sister they have to save and the savage dragon they have to slay and the girl they love that they have to eat.
They literally fridged her and defrosted her.
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I feel bad for Starlo.
Star has a point, idk what the four were ticked off about, there is like 99% chance everyone willingly participated in the trolley problem, based on what we've seen of his behavior thus far it's not like Starlo to be that big of a jerk/drag them by force/yell at them to do it. Ed's words:
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he does it because Star asks NICELY
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clearly jealous
It genuinely seemed like a fun time/fun roleplay, especially since every day is the same. Like, the five are supposed to be a rowdy and adventures bunch, what exactly did Starlo do wrong, I'm genuinely confused and curious. Except taking a big liking in Clover (his posse should know that this is a big moment for him, according to Blackjack they've known each other since high school and had the same liking for westerns. So they were basically a nerd gang.) Starlo was kind, patient and considerate towards Clover the whole time, even warned Mooch about them not being bandits, taught Clover gun safety, wanted to bring his posse along for a fun time, thanked Ace for telling him about getting Clover a new hat...
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Sure, at first he only liked Clover for being a human, but as Ceroba says, that changed and he grew to genuinely care about them, plus I can't help but think Star saw himself in Clover and that's part of the reason he was so proud of them all the time even when they messed up (I'll talk more about this at some point)
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What exactly made Ace want to leave the gang? He even said how he doesn't mind "getting run over by the fake train"
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he's so nice. says sorry for forgetting the safety goggles even when he was scatterbrained due to his excitement. I love him so much
The only real "faults" (I'll call them temporary faults) I saw in Star during the Wild East section was that he was even more enthusiastic and more proud than usual. But how couldn't he be when he met a member of the species that he has admired for so long because they have real cowboys and sheriffs on the surface (who are seen as brave heroes who deliver justice, while Star canonically feels like a nobody farmer). His posse should have realized Clover wouldn't be there forever and just let their boss enjoy himself with his "deputy who'd have to leave sooner or later anyway"(or be more patient with him/ask him why he feels this strongly towards Clover/if there's a deeper reason for that). His friends including Ceroba just turn their back on him so quickly instead. The moment he's gotten the chance to feel valued for once and put himself first and not have to take care of this whole town and everyone in it and live his dream of meeting a real human, suddenly "his personality is damaged?"
Star's literally built this whole town, organised everything, he worries about everyone, Ceroba (plus was the one to give her emotional strength before and after Clover's sacrifice), Kanako, the monsters, his family, struggles with feelings of worthlessness yet never wipes that smile off his face, always does his best to be hopeful and optimistic and make others laugh, gave his posse a nap time so they don't become exhausted, gave Ceroba a free home, didn't act upon his feelings towards her and was a 110% supportive, caring friend instead. THAT'S who he is. He's the papa bear of this friend group, the glue holding everyone together.
He was just *really* excited. Y'all know he's insecure and just wishes to escape who he is and yet y'all blame him for liking Clover so much. Yeah, the four are very clearly jealous. But why won't the four of you control your feelings for a while? As mentioned, Clover WILL HAVE TO LEAVE EVENTUALLY. They won't be Star's "deputy" forever (the kid who's just as into westerns as he is, who values justice just as much, who also values doing the right thing. Someone he clearly felt understood in the presence of, whom he loved; just look at the way he talks about Clove during Showdown). Star seems genuinely confused of what he did wrong poor guy just wanted to live his fantasy for once and feel important:
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Even at the beginning Moray's like "oh no Martlet is upset" Mooch replies "don't be a buzzkill nothing exciting ever happens around here" and Ray's like "Yeah you've got a point"
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If you all agreed to have a little fun with a human who will very soon leave forever why is Starlo's enthusiasm such a big problem? If the posse weren't into this after all (unless they were simply too jealous which could have been solved with a honest talk and a little patience) why are you doing this "rowdy" job with Star in the first place? Do you want your boring routine day to day life so much back? Or just for Clover to leave (which they will soon enough)? You, western enthusiasts, literally met a real human, A HUMAN FROM WESTERNS YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PASSIONATELY INTO (clearly not as passionate as Star but passionate ENOUGH to understand where he's coming from).
... okay.
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damnation-if · 4 months
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hey!! can i ask for a color palatte description for the ro's? like what their hair/eye colors are?
hope you're having a good week 💙💙💙
Hi!
I spent a long time putting together a graphic for this before I realised that you asked for just a description haha... oops. well. here is the graphic anyway XD
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If you're looking for a link to the page with more general descriptions, there are some on the RO's page.
Very sorry for the delay in replying! My life is. hectic. smdnfgbsfgf
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why-the-heck-not · 2 months
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If you don't mind me asking, why did you start waking up at 3:30 am? Assuming it's a choice you started making at some point lol
oh yeah, wasn't on accident for sure (am not originally a morning person, I'm "fake it till u make it"-ing that one). Started to wake up at 4am like 2 years ago, bc started going to the gym and that's the only time I can actually get myself to go (I hate working out around ppl, and I usually get to finish almost the entire workout without anyone else there). It's been on-off since, but I like the feeling of having been up for hours and it still technically being the morning. Plus it does wonders for the anxiety bc there's always "still bunch of time left in the day" (even tho that's not true bc gotta go to sleep earlier but somehow it still feels like it)
Recently tho started the 3:30am instead of 4am, bc there's now someone at the gym, who gets there early also, reserves the smith machine/free weights spot, and they just put down a yoga mat and do abs in front of it for like 20 mins and like hey ?? sure it's not against any rules, you can do that there, but there's also a separate area for things like that legit meters away. and SURE I could ask if it's alright I use the smith for couple sets but I'm not going to; I'd rather wake up 30mins earlier out of spite and to avoid talking to strangers. (In the "women only" side of the gym the smith machine/free weight area is small & only fits one person (at least in my country's culture of "always keep 2m distance to strangers" ) and there are ppl in the general side of the gym no matter what time, so i'm not going there either)
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I'll disappear now im so sorry. I'm so sorry for wasting your time i just wanted to be a good person but still failed because of my selfishness and now my sins cannot be forgiven I'll go
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synintheraven · 1 year
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I lied guys this is my new favourite drawing by me 😭
+ a few close ups under the cut because I love the details and everyone should see them (;
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cattatoir · 1 year
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I think I have unpopular Sandman takes bc I'm usually on his side
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sciderman · 8 months
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I would say you’re more of a Mr peanut butter type yeah
doggy doggy what now?
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omgthatonenerd06 · 9 months
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i need people to understand how feral i am over fellow travelers, and how Tim and Hawk walked life together but on different paths. At almost every turn, Tim chooses to help others and fight for other people (reason he wanted to get into politics, protesting the war, fighting for the recognition of the aids crisis, becoming a social worker, etc)
and Hawk chooses himself and the select few he loves every time (politics - "owing" Sen. Smith, marrying Lucy, etc)
But the one time they act the other way is regarding each other. Hawk chooses Tim again and again – getting Tim the job, warning him, protecting him from the FBI, taking care of him, arranging a meeting between Tim and the politician in SF, etc. Meanwhile the few times we see Tim be selfish are regarding him and Hawk.
Fucking Obsessed
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lab-gr0wn-lambs · 10 months
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I know I said Carol can do whatever the hell she wants, but the way she keeps saying "you should hate me. please don't hate me" instead of just "sorry" and more importantly "are you ok?" is driving me nuts
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caeslxys · 2 months
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how is the cr fandom that petty oh my god
but van don't you know it's like a cardinal sin to give a flying fuck about uh. fuck. nuance I think.
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punch-love · 4 months
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I need to stop adding ravonna to all of my one-shots idea since she is so universally disliked by the fandom but she's my baby girl and @primewritessmut keeps giving me inspiration so I'm going to keep doing it
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nervocat · 3 months
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man.
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#gonna say I'm venting a bit (kinda of a lot)#but I may seem selfish from this and let me say now ik everyone was putting themselves first (which is a very good thing)#but having three mutuals deactivate their accounts within I think two months or so??#I rlly don't like to be negative and I might also take a break from Tumblr (as much as I love posting here#so I'm still unsure if I'll even stick to that) bc of how negative I've been lately#I just don't want to keep venting and putting that on everyone so#but yeah I just. It makes me sad to see old/new mutuals go#I never thought I'd have to like#witness it#Idk#I've cried over losing them all and it feels rlly silly but I mean idk#I (try to — my feelings with crying are iffy and I hate admitting I do cry) not cry over everything but I just can't word stuff rn#might be posting less/not posting at all for the next few days or so#I'm gonna be busy in July anyways so it's probably better to just say that now#sorry guys I'm just dealing with some stuff mentally lately (an example being gender dysphoria but I can't even word the stuff going on#not to sound like I'm overexaggerating bc I rlly don't wanna seem like I am. It's nothing too serious so don't#be worried at all pls I'm ok enough I won't just disappear)#I just wish I could have alone time in my room with my cats without my family bugging me for a few days#It's tiring atp#I wanna lock myself up just to recooperate and figure out how to deal with certain things the best I can#anyways yap fest over I'm gonna go play wuwa and build Jinshi more#sorry for venting again 🫡🫡
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