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attn folks interested in preserving fanfiction + digital fan history
alright so uh... the us is going through some shit right now.
as someone who's currently pursing graduate education with a substantial focus in fan studies, i am especially concerned about preserving the amount of works fans have created over the last however many years we've been fucking around on the internet. in particular, i'm really worried about ao3 and (even though i look at it like a cousin i'm not fond of) wattpad. these sites have immense cultural value and history that is worth preserving, and i'm not gonna lie: i'm a little worried about their standing come january.
so this is where we as a collective come in. i don't know how many followers i have on this silly hellsite, but i'm going to ask folks this: please, please, please— start archiving the fanfics and fanart and fan-everything of the fandoms you're in, you care about, or you have been in. put it on an external harddrive. make back ups. you'll want it if things go south, and scholars like me will want it so we can preserve fan history.
if you're interested in doing this, rb or message me or leave a comment or something and i'd love to work together on making a massive, cloud and external, database of fandoms we all care about. we have time to do this, and other folks have done and are doing this, but we need to do it.
to spread this around some, i've tagged this with fandoms i'm most active with here, but share wild and far. even if you don't want to do this with me, do it with your friends. please <3
tldr: i, and many other fan studies folks/fans writ large, are worried about what happens to fanfiction come january and trump's presidency. if you also care about this, let's work together to start putting together a database of fics we care about.
p.s. and if you do it i'll even give you a little shoutout in the acknowledgements of my master's thesis if you want idk (is this anything????)
#taskmaster#game changer#dropout tv#dropout#naddpod#off book podcast#good omens#dimension 20#play it by ear#please please please do this#i'm literally on my knees begging you#please god
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Okay media consumers, I'm gonna ask you to follow some lines of logic with me.
For good stories to exist, there needs to be conflict.
For conflict to happen, one or more characters will almost always need to make bad choices.
Just because a character makes one or a few bad choices does not automatically earn them the label of "toxic".
Just because said character does not experience immediate consequences due to their bad choices does not mean that they never will (especially if their story is not yet finished), nor does it mean that their creator is romanticizing or portraying their bad choices in a good light.
I mean, come on. You guys love a good slow burn romance. The least you can do is get used to the idea of slow burn conflict.
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DO NOT INTERPRET THIS POST AS ME SAYING THAT YOU SHOULDN'T DISAGREE WITH ANY CHARACTER'S ACTIONS EVER. DO NOT DO THAT.
I can tell some of you are already thinking about doing that.
Don't.
Please.
I don't have the energy for that.
#this post was inspired by#my adventures with superman#maws#i'm literally begging you guys to have a smidgen of patience#i'm sorry if i sound combative but holy hell#the story is not even close to done yet#suspend your disbelief and withhold your judgement for ONE SECOND#it's genuinely so important to learn to extend grace to people who aren't even real#as part of the practice of engaging with stories#because if you shut down at the slightest hint of conflict you have completely lost the ability to see yourself in it#yourself and others#engaging your sense of empathy is a huge part of media comprehension#please for the love of storytelling put down your knee-jerk labels and give yourself grace#anyways thank you for coming to my ted talk#this post does not just apply to the maws fandom by the way
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I feel bad for Starlo.
Star has a point, idk what the four were ticked off about, there is like 99% chance everyone willingly participated in the trolley problem, based on what we've seen of his behavior thus far it's not like Starlo to be that big of a jerk/drag them by force/yell at them to do it. Ed's words:
he does it because Star asks NICELY
clearly jealous
It genuinely seemed like a fun time/fun roleplay, especially since every day is the same. Like, the five are supposed to be a rowdy and adventures bunch, what exactly did Starlo do wrong, I'm genuinely confused and curious. Except taking a big liking in Clover (his posse should know that this is a big moment for him, according to Blackjack they've known each other since high school and had the same liking for westerns. So they were basically a nerd gang.) Starlo was kind, patient and considerate towards Clover the whole time, even warned Mooch about them not being bandits, taught Clover gun safety, wanted to bring his posse along for a fun time, thanked Ace for telling him about getting Clover a new hat...
Sure, at first he only liked Clover for being a human, but as Ceroba says, that changed and he grew to genuinely care about them, plus I can't help but think Star saw himself in Clover and that's part of the reason he was so proud of them all the time even when they messed up (I'll talk more about this at some point)
What exactly made Ace want to leave the gang? He even said how he doesn't mind "getting run over by the fake train"
he's so nice. says sorry for forgetting the safety goggles even when he was scatterbrained due to his excitement. I love him so much
The only real "faults" (I'll call them temporary faults) I saw in Star during the Wild East section was that he was even more enthusiastic and more proud than usual. But how couldn't he be when he met a member of the species that he has admired for so long because they have real cowboys and sheriffs on the surface (who are seen as brave heroes who deliver justice, while Star canonically feels like a nobody farmer). His posse should have realized Clover wouldn't be there forever and just let their boss enjoy himself with his "deputy who'd have to leave sooner or later anyway"(or be more patient with him/ask him why he feels this strongly towards Clover/if there's a deeper reason for that). His friends including Ceroba just turn their back on him so quickly instead. The moment he's gotten the chance to feel valued for once and put himself first and not have to take care of this whole town and everyone in it and live his dream of meeting a real human, suddenly "his personality is damaged?"
Star's literally built this whole town, organised everything, he worries about everyone, Ceroba (plus was the one to give her emotional strength before and after Clover's sacrifice), Kanako, the monsters, his family, struggles with feelings of worthlessness yet never wipes that smile off his face, always does his best to be hopeful and optimistic and make others laugh, gave his posse a nap time so they don't become exhausted, gave Ceroba a free home, didn't act upon his feelings towards her and was a 110% supportive, caring friend instead. THAT'S who he is. He's the papa bear of this friend group, the glue holding everyone together.
He was just *really* excited. Y'all know he's insecure and just wishes to escape who he is and yet y'all blame him for liking Clover so much. Yeah, the four are very clearly jealous. But why won't the four of you control your feelings for a while? As mentioned, Clover WILL HAVE TO LEAVE EVENTUALLY. They won't be Star's "deputy" forever (the kid who's just as into westerns as he is, who values justice just as much, who also values doing the right thing. Someone he clearly felt understood in the presence of, whom he loved; just look at the way he talks about Clove during Showdown). Star seems genuinely confused of what he did wrong poor guy just wanted to live his fantasy for once and feel important:
Even at the beginning Moray's like "oh no Martlet is upset" Mooch replies "don't be a buzzkill nothing exciting ever happens around here" and Ray's like "Yeah you've got a point"
If you all agreed to have a little fun with a human who will very soon leave forever why is Starlo's enthusiasm such a big problem? If the posse weren't into this after all (unless they were simply too jealous which could have been solved with a honest talk and a little patience) why are you doing this "rowdy" job with Star in the first place? Do you want your boring routine day to day life so much back? Or just for Clover to leave (which they will soon enough)? You, western enthusiasts, literally met a real human, A HUMAN FROM WESTERNS YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PASSIONATELY INTO (clearly not as passionate as Star but passionate ENOUGH to understand where he's coming from).
... okay.
#Like idk if I'm being biased because Star is my favorite character but I kinda just started thinking more and more about this and... yeesh.#Felt like a BIT of an overreaction to blame Starlo this much#No wonder he cracked#and unlike with Ceroba we actually see him do his very best to “fix” what he did “wrong”#i feel so much sympathy for this guy man#WAY more than for Ceroba#sorry fox lady#uty#undertale yellow#starlo uty#uty starlo#like dude literally had to come crawling on his hands and knees for them to forgive him#what “loyal” “supportive” friends they all are#sobbing for star#poor poor man#meanwhile everyone forgave ceroba for much much MUCH worse#she didn't need to burst into tears and beg for forgiveness even though she SHOULD have#everyone forgives her immediately on the spot + she gets a hug from clover#I'm sorry Starlo#like how was he “selfish” and “reckless”#he did something for himself for the 1st time in his life#y'all are reckless too btw#you put yourself first ONCE and they call you selfish#Star had the right to be mad at them for attacking Clover for no reason other than jealousy#wdym he's throwing you around for human business you literally wanted this#he watched the tapes more than 50 times bc that's how much he hates himself#and yet he's still been doing EVERYTHING in his power to be there for EVERYBODY
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hi I love your tags so so much! they were so sweet and so interesting and creative and the whole Aphrodite type of beauty thing sounds really interesting do you have any articles and recommendations to read further into it??
-hogoflight
Hello my fine feathered (I am assuming possession of feathers if you are, indeed, capable of flight) @hogoflight! I'm always always happy to hear that people appreciate my frenzied rambling in the tags :D! I have a lot of articles and recommendations :D!! Ancient Greek notions of beauty and representations of it in their art and sculptures is a pretty well studied topic! There isn't any way for us now to know definitively what the beauty standard was (it varied widely from region to region and culture to culture after all) but here are a couple of my favourite reads about Aphrodite and what her representations tell us about idealised beauty!
Probably the most empirically extensive one I can list is Krönström's thesis which compares statues of Aphrodite and literary text referring to both the goddess and mortal women to determine physical ideals for women in five specific eras of Grecian antiquity. Including measurements of the statues there are many descriptions of Aphrodite as 'curvy' with a 'voluptuous figure' and with 'ample buttocks and bosom'.
"When the beauty traits are described in the texts, they are never extreme or anything that could not be found in normal people just that they are more beautiful in every aspect. Furthermore, the sculptures’ physical forms look healthy, they are tall and have distinct curves. Great examples of this are the Knida sculpture and de Milo (the Melian) sculpture."
Of course, these images are still idealised, and there was still a concept such as 'too fat' or 'too skinny' found in written records (and this thesis even includes analysis of pornographic writings and descriptions of the fashion and stylings of pubic hair of women from different regions!!) but from an interpretational standpoint? There is absolutely no reason why these can't refer to a fuller figure. Height was also a very important factor after all and over the course of many eras, it seems like being well proportioned in addition to the length and appearance of one's hair were the most important factors (and, like Apollo, greater beauty was given to those with curlier hair)
Mireille M. Lee's 'Other Ways of Seeing' essay which talks about the forgotten female viewers of Knidian Aphrodite which is also extremely illuminating on how Aphroditic sexuality and sensuality was perceived totally differently from the well documented male voyeuristic gaze (which was overly preoccupied with the statue's nakedness and therefore over-sensationalised the statue's physical appearance) vs women's perspective on the statue which is more centered on the beauty of simplicity in Aphrodite's garment and decoration and in her power and ability to captivate both in her finery and without it. I think it's especially useful in exploring the importance of finery, jewellry and adornment in representations of Aphroditic beauty.
"Some of the small-scale copies are heavily jeweled, especially those from the eastern Mediterranean, for example the Hellenistic gilded terracotta statuette in the Çanakkale Museum (Fig. 5) in which the goddess wears, in addition to the armband on her (right) arm, the following: a necklace with multiple pendants; cross-bands extending over both shoulders and hips, with a cascading pendant in the center; a coiled snake armband on the left arm and another snake on her left thigh, and a twisted anklet on her right leg. (The left leg has been restored, and might also have featured an anklet.)"
"Jewelry is especially associated with Aphrodite in Greek literature. As seen above, in the Homeric Hymn to Aphrodite, the goddess adorns herself with gold jewelry, dress-pins, and earrings in the shape of flowers (162–3)..."
Finally, and to me, the most important one in the argument for an interpretation of Hyacinthus as fat, beautiful and fundamentally Aphroditic comes from Brilmayer's brilliant brilliant thesis done on Aphrodite's work and influence in Archaic Greek Poetry which does away with all of that masculine preoccupation with physical proportion, measurement and bodily ideals for a focus on a Sapphic Aphroditic ideal centered in clothing, ornamentation and, most importantly cunning as symbols of Aphrodite and ultimately a feminine idealised form of beauty. This paper also discusses Pandora and Helen in these terms and it is just kind of a wonderful read tbh.
"Combining Homeric and Hesiodic elements with her own ideas, she [Sappho] alters the way female beauty is viewed. For example, the Homeric war chariot – a symbol of male, military prowess - comes to symbolise the totality of Aphrodite’s power uniting in itself male and female qualities. Having addressed the concept of beauty directly, Sappho then concludes that beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. With the help of Helen of Troy and her beloved Anaktoria, Sappho sets out to reinvent the concept of female beauty as a godlike, subjective quality that may be expressed in many ways, yet remains inspired by Aphrodite."
The conclusion to all of this of course is that Aphroditic ideal beauty is much more fluid compared to its stricter Apolline masculine standard. The nuances and understandings of both are of course, constantly being studied, analysed and scrutinised but really, if Dionysus who was both bearded and clean shorn, effeminate, birthed and rebirthed (and twice gestated!) and strongly associated with vegetation can be popularly portrayed as fat and handsome, why can't Hyacinthus?!
#ginger rambles#ginger answers asks#Once again I do not care how it happens or who I have to pay#I don't even care how much research I have to do#All I care about is more unique portrayals of Hyacinthus#Literally that's it#I will go through every academic hoop to make that possible if that's what peeps need TRUST#No because there's a genuine conversation to be had about a Hyacinthus who is split between masculine and feminine qualities#Likewise there's a wonderful conversation to be had wrt Apollo's fluidity in terms of presentation and how it does not reflect on his gende#the way Dionysus' fluidity reflects on his#Apollo is ALWAYS masculine no matter his ornaments garments makeup or action#It doesn't matter that he has the prettiest curls or wears elaborate dresses for his kitharody and dances#or values the deep dyes of the lapis - Apollo is ALWAYS male and that cannot be concealed by any finery or garment#Aphrodite however is an ally in this measure because through her beauty bridges the gap between the mortal and the divine#And we see this constantly in the way mortal beauties are able to attract the eye of many gods and how glory and ultimately immortality#are gained from these things#After all even after their deaths or betrayals or tragedies#We still tell their stories and remember their names#And what is Apollo if not the one who recites all of these beautiful memories - what is Clio if not the one who records these histories#ANYWAY PLEASE DRAW FAT HYACINTHUS#PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE#I AM ON MY KNEES I AM BEGGING (no pressure seriously I'm being very lighthearted) BUT ALSO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEE#TOGETHER WE CAN KILL THE PATROCLES/HYAPOLLO VISUAL PARALLELS WE CAN DO IT I KNOW WE CAN#ANYTHING SO THAT XANTHIAN DEVIL ARISTOS ACHAION DOESN'T GET ANY MORE PARALLELS WITH APOLLO P L E A S E#This is of course entirely because of my own biases and such there's nothing objectively wrong with comparing and paralleling#Hyapollo and Patrocles - however and I cannot stress this enough#P l e a s e#Thank you for the ask <33 Always a pleasure to provide more relatively obscure references mmhm#Hope this helps!#oh almost forgot
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Psst ... you're cute 😉😉😘
I-!! H-hi!! I. I'm.... T-that, um-
T.... T-thank you, miss, um- I. I.... Y-you're extremely pretty yourself, um-!! I-
#oh my god what has happened to my notes what have you done to me#and more importantly#can you do it to me in dms too#AHEM anyway hi holy fucking shit my low mood just got blasted to fucking kingdom come i#......h-hi 👉👈#Um- i-#oh goddess above I'm. I. This is so much all at once I don't know what to do about this-#(please by all that is holy do not mistake that for a complaint I would quite literally beg on my knees for it to continue if you ordered m#I mean asked)#....asked.*#.....a-anyway
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Y'all I got 3 episodes to go and I'm so fucking scared 😭😭😭😭
I dunno how, but I'm 100000% convinced it's only going to get worse from here.
Iswtfg if Madoka ends up forming a contract with Kyubey DESPITE LITERALLY EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED I'm going to yeet myself out a window ashbfkcnklhf;jkaa
#dreamer talks#no spoilers pls <3#puella magi madoka magica#madoka magica#madoka kaname#madoka i am literally on my hands and knees#begging you to not to do this#I'm so scared you're going to anyway#but PLEASE for the love of ALL THINGS HOLY#fucking DON'T
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I know we're all utterly in love with campbell bain and he's absolutely everything but I would also like to say I would lay down my life for rosalie my god
#was rewatchin the first 3 eps this mornin while waitin for my friends to wake up#I can't believe I overlooked her before#rosalie I love you so goddamn much#I need more of her ohhhh#and her friendship with campbell is just. oh. ough#I'm on my knees begging to see her in more art/fics#(also aware that I'm literally drawing campbell bain as I type this and not rosalie like a hypocrite LOL)#I just love her so much wahhh!!!!#rosalie garrity#takin' over the asylum#takin over the asylum
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honey i don't know how to tell you but you were so not the target audience for this
#blud was literally strip teasing AND serenading his bestie from a balcony then proceeded to do whatever the fuck the whole cleveland gig was#like that was not for you babe. no i'm sorry i know. it was just not for you don't take it personally it's not you it's them#their obsession for each other and weird kinks are to blame here (please come back i'm begging you on my knees bawling my eyes out)#ramblings
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thinking about serial killer's daughter clove again! can you imagine the vibes though like.
her dad was supposed to go into a hunger games but then didn't and he tried to live a relatively normal life with like a wife and kids and everything, had three sons on purpose and then an accident baby (clove) like ten years after the third son. one day he allegedly goes mad and kills a bunch of people at the quarry where he works in some vicious murder spree and peacekeepers chase him down and shoot him dead right in front of six year old clove.
her brothers are all grown adults/gone and the mom doesn't want to deal with a grieving traumatised child by herself so she sends clove off to the academy and then disappears to one of the other towns. clove's brothers have either relocated far away or just can't afford to take her in so she gets to live in the academy dorms. then clove spends years getting bullied and teased about her loser deadbeat serial killer dad who couldn't get into a games so she puts on this creepy image to protect herself and becomes so good at knife throwing that it gets her a highly coveted spot in the games.
she plays up the father's daughter image/her inherited sadism and it kind of stopped being an act somewhere along the way. she does obviously have emotions and feelings though, in fact one of the reasons clove grows fond of her district partner is because he deeply respects her and doesn't belittle/harass/tease her about her past or act like her father's actions define her, and he's terrified of her but in an admiring and sweet way instead of genuinely being repulsed by her like most of her peers were around her.
#who's gonna write the fic#I'm sorry guys I'm so bored#in my fic I wrote Clove as just having a normal family because I've met girls as mean as her irl that have relatively normal families#so I know you don't have to have a tragic creepy family history to be a bitch lol#but yeah serial killer's daughter clove literally fits her personality so well#had to sneak in some clato at the end of this post lol#literally any dynamic they have is so important to me because i feel like it's one of their first times of friendship#where they didn't have anything to gain from each other and just appreciated each other as people. liked each other#like yes you can say “Oh they only cared about the rule change because the alliance could be extended”#in the movies he left her to die of course (pisses me off to this day) but in the books:#no one who only cares about practical alliances/protection gets on their knees to beg the person not to die#okay this turned into a clato rant real quick oops#thg#clove kentwell#clove thg#thg clove#thg headcanons#the hunger games
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#thriller bark#ch464#i think. okay sorry for dragging this out over multiple panels but i do not care#but anyway i think. this scene and confrontation could have been a really good moment for sanji#to develop his motivation and characterization wrt nami specifically#rather than fueling the pervy side of his character it could have brought about a righteous justice#at someone he cares about being violated in this way by a stranger. you know. instead of implying he wants to be the one#doing the violating. truly one of the moments why i question why i like him#honestly any other option for this scene would have worked.#i know it ends up not going anywhere beyond more peeping tom jokes but godddddddd#on my hands and knees begging you to be normal oda....#i have heard he's better in the opla but i havent seen it yet.#maybe i should watch it with my gf. what do we think gamers#she knows nothing about op should i make her. i'm sure i'll end up watching aeon flux or smth in exchange with her#<- ignore that i literally offered to watch it with her over new years but shit happened and it fell through
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lumpus is a fascinating specimen glad theres other people also fond of him
HE SURE IS i will be honest i almost like him a Little Too Much because i Also live in my fantasy world of make believe where camp lazlo is a little more than a 6.4/10 show (I STILL LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!) and instead also includes all my insane 20k spiels of backstory stringing and talks about character writing but
(also. i do think it's funny how popular slinkman is in comparison, i love him just as much, but i actually see people mention really liking slinkman pretty frequently if someone happens to posts about camp lazlo which is GOOD because he DESERVES IT MAJORLY but the lumpus bug has Also caught me something awful even though i hate him and he sucks so i'm alone adrift in the world out here...)
edited this just for him
#mail#cartoons#camp lazlo#you can't send me this though because i'll remember how lonely it is in this fandom#and start talking about the 500 things i never share until i'm finished with them#and then i'm on my knees begging anonymous tumblr user to talk to me about camp lazlo#i keep being like maybe i should make a sideblog cus i have so many OCs and WHATEVER else#but then i'm also like i should've done that 4 years ago when we revived the fandom for a bit#anyway i wore like over-the-calf socks the other day on my walk and the whole time i was like “heh... 😏 just like scoutmaster lumpus”#like what is WRONG with you?#thank you for indulging me for a brief moment here though i'm too cowardly to put this out of the tags but#i hate that i love him so much like its on me for going way too hard on things#and he literally does so much stupid shit that even the later writing should piss me off even more than it does#but like when he's written good he's written so good... and voice acted so well... tom kenny....... sir#he's a moose which is extra special around here...#i love his moosey snout and his curly hair and his stupid navy socks and his little moose tail in the comics and his glasses i hate him#i feel like these 2 in general like at a glance aren't super eye catching but i'm seriously insane so there is So Much to work with to me..
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lowkey highkey praying the poll ends up with shinsou IMAGINE HIM IN A DORM WITH KAMINARI, SERO, AND TODOROKI OHHHH MY GOD
same, same, and same THE WAY MY SMILE WIDENED WHEN I READ THAT LAST PART AAAAAGH ELLE PLEASE I LEGIT NEED THAT TO HAPPEN????
#put me in that dorm too#WHAT who said that#that's literally crazy#BUT AAAAAH I LOVE THAT IDEA#I'M GIGGLING AT THE THOUGHT OF IT ALREADY#YOU GUYS PLS VOTE FOR SHINSOU ON THE POLL I'LL LITERALLY GET OB MY KNEES AND BEG#EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU PLS PLS PLS#🖇️frans; [ answers !! ]#🖇️frans; [ moots !! ]#𐙚 elle my love !!#both of us need to be in that dorm#who said that this time what#LMAOSHAHAHA I NEED TO SHUT UP 😭😭
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finally published my vw hanahaki au ♪(´▽`)
#please read it i'm begging you#i am quite literally on my knees#please... please...#it was decaying in my drafts for months i HAD to publish it#errrmmmm i'm bad at tagging in ao3#trigun#trigun 98#trigun maximum#trigun stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#vash the stampede#hanahaki disease#txt
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IDW is hard to read at many points and I have sympathy for those who find it difficult to be motivated to read (given that I've also done a nearly full phase 2/3 reread and still had to skip some stuff), but if people continue to not read the comics and then comment/make fanon and headcanon on things they never read, I'm simply not going to take them seriously. I would think "you should read and enjoy the source material" isn't that unreasonable of an expectation for people who are supposed to be FANS but I suppose in today's fandom culture that just makes me a dirty dirty gatekeeper
#squiggposting#semi related to previous post but also not#in genral i'm just tired of popular content and headcanon being dominated by ill informed or outright ignorant takes#i'm on my knees begging and pleading ppl just ACTUALLY READ CANON#I promise canon is fun and cool and when you look at it with your own eyes#you will find so many things that tickle your fancy that fandom never told you#bc fandom by nature only proliferates the most popular parts of the story#literally pleading. begging. shitting and crying. please just fucking read canon#and for TF IDW fans that means please read something besides mtmte/ll or at least#have reading comprehension on the things you HAVE read if you insist on only reading two books
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Chat what the Fuck
#i swear to God. every time I'm like no I'm putting my foot down I'm moving on. or i think maybe i was wrong and he's not my person#something pops up to remind me of him#but literally 4 minutes ago. Four. Minutes. He was driving behind me on his way to work i watched him pull into work are you JOKING ME#WHAT THE FREAK#lord release me from these shackles (loving and missing him but not being able to be with him in any capacity)#whatever#he definitely knew it was me lmao. my car is fuckass ugly (she went through a lot)#what does it all Mean though#the signs. the symbols..#like what am i supposed to get from this genuinely#i prayed last night to see the results of placing my faith in God#i did what i felt i was lead to do#and my gut said that this dumbass man will be back in my life by Christmas#i personally feel as though time is running out for that to happen (bc it is??)#but then i just saw him for the second time since July#which. you have to understand is crazy#we live in the same town. my friend lives in his neighborhood. my other friend lives right next to his place of work (hence why i passed it)#this is so strange#documenting all of it in case I'm right though#that way no one can call me crazy#and if I'm wrong then I'm on my hands and knees begging to be put in a fucking psych ward#🥀#wtf man#i didn't cry this time though!!!!!!!!!!#progress!!!!!#ironic that i was very much thinking about him but tbh when am i not
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#anon i've deciding i'm not participating in further discourse over p fucking 13 so i'm not gonna post#but i agree with literally every single thing you're saying#EVERY SINGLE THING#daniel ricciardo i'm on my hands and knees begging you to stunt on these hoes 🙏😭#answered#anonymous
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