#i'm just worried and upset abt these series

[kaleidoscopiclights]

I'm on a rant now, but I kept trying to think what it is about the progression of tales and FF as franchise's that bug me. Not just the edginess and people pretending the writing is good just because it's danker and visually darker (neither are genuinely any darker in tone or theme than any previous title in their respective franchise), or even people just being excited over the graphics. (Which? Yippee, I guess! 4k but a poor art direction, so what's the point!) But it was discussion in an Atelier thread that made it click. And it's because the games are becoming annoyingly mainstream.

The games, but also the "fandom." And to a degree, I hesitate to call it the fandom. I think FF and Tales are becoming stratified, and suffering from what VII and XIV have both created before. A lot of people play and love XIV. But an oddly high number of them have never touched another FF game, and probably won't ever. Which is fine for them, but they're XIV fans and not FF fans. Same with XVI to a degree. Very true of a weird number of VII (Remake trilogy) fans, unfortunately. And that's unfortunate because Square Enix looks at numbers and takes the wrong lessons from it. In the end, VIIR and XVI at least under-performed, so I don't even know what that means for FF. But in the case of Tales, it's worrisome.

Arise wasn't meant to be a Tales game, and given how Tomizawa views and treats Tales as a franchise, who knows what he'd do to the series. But for higher-ups to see Arise as a game stripped of most of Tales's identity and see it perform so well, I can only imagine the ideas that are filling their bobble heads. Because the issue with these games getting mainstream means they're eventually going to lose identity and a real brand to sell them. Tales makes money off of merch, and it had longevity because of how well it was nurtured as a franchise. It's like how anime makes success off of merch sales rather than bluray/DVD sales. I think the characters were the strongest selling point of this, and now we're at a time when people are less invested in newer characters, sans a pair or so from each of the Xillia games and onward. Mainstream sales aren't bad to pick up some traction here and there, but the mainstream market is so fickle. And frankly, lacking in taste. I like that Tales and FF were their own kind of art, but they're being stripped of that by supposed fans.

How do you call yourself a Tales fan, but you hate the anime and series staples? You're a JRPG fan "settling" for Tales games at that point. And it's sad because I feel like we're getting to the point where these people are the most vocal, and also pushing the most in sales. And I think these patterns are helping contribute to the downfall of both series.

[uriekukistan]

pleaseeeee spill about Rabbits Die of Loneliness????? i'm assuming this is the tokyo ghoul au you mentioned :). any parts you really like?

YES THIS IS THE TOKYO GHOUL AU honestly it's been completed and in my drafts for ages i just havent posted it yet....i have plans to make my jjk tokyo ghoul au a series of one shots as a opposed to a multichapter just so i don't feel pressured in writing it but that's beside the point

basically megumi is the one that gets kanekied (slightly different situation, he's not going on a date w anyone bc hello . yuuji). and one of the things im really proud of, even if it comes as a small detail, is after realizing what's going, he's not too worried or upset about having to hide being a ghoul because he's been hiding that he's into guys for years. like he's never gotten to be his true self, so hiding one more thing isn't that big of a deal to him. i lovee thinking abt being a ghoul as a metaphor for queerness,,,,,,,,

a little snippet for you!

thank you for the ask!

wip ask game!

[tearsonthepage]

hi, so i wanted to ask you a question.

i know that you are very protective of charlie's mother and i understand why and i fully agree that comparing her to aled's mother doesn't make sense. i agree that jane isn't abusive.

but, i also want to hear your opinion about her as a mother without bringing up all the people who call her worse than she actually is, i want to hear your opinion without putting you in a situation in which you have to protect her. so, my questions are:

do you think that she is a good mother?

do you think that she made mistakes in the series? if you do think so, what were the mistakes?

is there anything in general that you have against her as a mother?

i also just wanted to say that i'm so so sorry if it comes out as offensive or agressive, i don't want to fight, i just want to know your opinion, because when i read the books (especially solitaire and this winter) i thought about her as not the best mother in this world and even though i don't think that she was abusive or anything like it or actively hurt her kids on purpose i also think that she made some mistakes and i feel like your opinion might be very interesting because you always have great takes

~ the 💎anon

oooo i love this one, okok so

i do think she is a good mother, i think (like everyone else) she makes mistakes and she says the wrong thing because she doesn���t understand why her kids are upset with her when she’s just trying to protect them, but i don’t think that makes her a bad mother overall.

i think that when (in the show) she used banning her kid (charlie) from seeing the person they love (nick) as a punishment wasn’t exactly a great move. i understand where she could be coming from, that he spends too much time js hanging out and he ignores his work, but if that was something she wanted to teach was wrong she could’ve spoken with him abt time management, or getting work out of the way before going out. just flat out going “you cant see nick until its done” wasnt the way to go, maybe she could’ve said “i understand that you care abt him, but holding him as your number one priority, even above your schoolwork and future, isn’t healthy for you two. you need to understand that you need to manage your time better, and maybe get the boring stuff out of the way before hanging out with friends or your boyfriend.” but, if she did say that, theres no guarantee he actually wouldve learned anything. theres more but i feel like that needs to be its own post, and this one is js an example on the tip of the iceberg.

i dont necessarily have anything against her as a mother, being a parent is hard and theres no one way to do it, so you probably feel a little lost and overwhelmed at times. that being said, its pretty clear that her kids feel ignored or flat out hated by her pretty frequently, and that is DEFINITELY not what you want as a mom. i think she js tries so hard to care for them and protect them it can be overwhelming/overbearing and if shes not doing that, it seems to them like she’s ignoring them or doesnt care. she cares so much she tends to get a lot of things wrong, but when push comes to shove, she loves her kids and she can be good for them (letting charlie and nick have a sleepover, for example), she just worries too much and tries a little too hard to not be like her mom (the flashback of her mom hitting her when she was a teen).

sorry if this doesnt make too much sense lol, i tried ❤️

[ilbound]

a post in which i prattle abt the dynamic between kaen + verona in their shared trigun canon :

you know , setting things into perspective , verona did ... A LOT OF GOOD for kaen. for the most part , anyways. she gave them a place to live , somewhere to call an actual home ( read as : somewhere safe , especially surrounded by many people who care about them ) . she quite actually mended many of kaen's wounds ( i'll leave that for you to discern ) and helped them recover ... i mean , say as you like about how she is AS A PERSON ( none of those things are pleasant , i can tell you as much ) , but she truly - TRULY - took care of kaen and even went so far as to love them ( to such an extent that , when questioned about it by pandora that one time , verona sadly remarked , "i would move all creation for them, and that is a dangerous thing" ) . then , not only that , but by the time kaen is ~30 years old and returns from trying - and failing - to patch things up with their father , verona announces she and pandora gathered up the legalities to OFFICIALLY add kaen to their family ; thus , kaen - by that point on - is known as "kaen valhyr".

however ... things are not so happy afterwards.

to make an overtly complex series of events incredibly condensed , kaen figures out that verona is not as "immortal" as she seems to be ( but , verona never once mentioned she was , kaen simply made the assumption based on her presence & power ) ; kaen learns that verona is , in effect , living on "borrowed time" ... which explains the increasingly frequent culls and the worrying periods where the independent seems to dissociate or revert to a more aggressive / animalistic , unaware state. this essentially causes a very , VERY one-sided argument between kaen and verona ( read as : kaen does much of the yelling whilst verona simply listens & accepts the tirade ) . in the end , kaen - in a fit - yells : "i only just learned to stop carrying around one corpse and now suddenly you tell me i'm carrying around another?!" of course , kaen doesn't mean it ; people say things they don't mean when they're upset. however , kaen does not take the news well ... and does not acclimate to it well , either.

kaen decides they will do something special for verona. but they do it with the undertone of spite.

kaen gathers together several people in wellspring who are on good rapport with verona ( themself & pandora included ) for a ... "final supper" of sorts. they spring this on verona one evening. and tell her they want her to know she will be missed whenever she happens to leave them all. and then ... once everyone goes to take their places at the large table , lush with food and drink , the seating is DIFFERENT . as verona takes her place at the northern head of the table , pandora does not sit at the southern seat. instead , he pulls out the chair and lets kaen sit there so the two can face each other. strange , yes , but verona allows it. then kaen drops the bomb that the meat is , of course , human ( which , again , isn't uncommon at verona's table ) ... they explain that they KILLED & BUTCHERED it specially for verona. this , the exact thing verona said to them when they first arrived and had dinner with her.

verona is FURIOUS ; kaen killed ? kaen would never-- but they DID . and they did it for her , which only makes it worse. kaen also goes on to antagonize her , telling her she HAS TO EAT , otherwise it would be incredibly rude to them who went through all this trouble for her sake ... to please her ... to make her happy ...

the fact that kaen near-exactly replicated the first meal they had with verona ( the food , the scene , the words she'd used , even ) , purely to spite her ... really does something to me i cannot express to you. needless to say , things definitely shifted from that point on. and not exactly for the better.

[a-weird-cryptid]

Hey uh. As a system who read Elle(s). Please don't advertise as a comic about a girl with DID. That's not what she has. You can say it can be interpreted as DID but it is not about DID

SPOILERS FOR ISSUE 2

it's revealed that she was in the womb with 5 other embryos. And that they merged into her. That's not how DID works. As a system that sought out this comic after seeing this post, I did feel like it was a bit of a slap in the face. It's not your fault the comic falls into some actual misinformation but I feel like it was never meant to be about did

I think issue 1 leans into the DID coding a lot and I was very excited for issue 2. I think it's very DID coded but stating that its explicitly about DID is a bit inaccurate

Thanks for the criticism!

(Don't worry, I'll leave my comment spoiler free. But if you want to know what it's referring to, I'd recommend reading the spoiler section to the comment I'm reacting to, to get a basic idea.)

Again, I'm only half way through the first volume and I sadly didn't know that that's revealed in the second book. I can't tell my own opinion on it, because of the same reason, but I most likely will when I get there.

I wasn't intending to advertise Elles and I'm sorry if I accidentally did. The post was ment to be a simple, subjective review about the part of the graphic novel I've read so far. Since I'm new on this app and I wanted to try out a new type of post, to see what my audience would most likely want to see more of.

And I'm extremely sorry if I made anyone upset because I posted this review, not knowing that the series would end up being misinformative.

I def didn't expect the post to blow up that much. But since it did, I see it as my responsibility to correct this mistake, even if I didn't made it, nor could have known about it until I now. (If this person didn't made this comment to put my attention to it, I still wouldn't be aware of it. Again, thank you a lot. I think it's really important to stop spreading misinformation as soon as you see it.)

I can't really judge the accuracy of this reveal, because I'm NOT a mental health professional or similar, nor somebody suffering from DID (as far as I'm aware). But based of my own research, it's def misinformative and a mistake the writer (or whoever is responsible for the basic story) of this comic made. And I won't defend them for doing so, just because I like Elles so far.

DID is NOT formed like shown in the second comic. Instead, it's formed by extreme, repeated childhood trauma (most of the time of sexual nature) before the age of about 8. (And that's already simplified.) I most likely won't give my own, "full", explanation of this dissociative disorder on my blog. Unless there's a high demand. Since they're many ACTUAL systems and mental health professionals who did that WAY better than I ever could, already.

I will correct my post to make all of that more clear. But I won't take the it down, simply because of the positive feedback I got from the DID community. Which I assume means that it's still a good comic for DID representation. At least when it comes to the first comic book.

As well as the fact that, when searching about "Elles", most reviews, as well as real advertisement for this comic talk about different "personalities". Which is another term often used instead of "alter", as far as I know. I even saw some websites straight up stating she has undiagnosed DID. Which, in combination with the rest of the story, lead me to the conclusion that it most likely is about it nonetheless. Or at least it is suppose to be. Accurate or not.

Which makes it all the more disappointing to find out about the reveal in the second novel, in my opinion. I think it's such a "missed out" and rare opportunity to NOT show what DID is actually all about. And how it's formed. I thought they didn't mention it in any kind of way so far, simply because it's undiagnosed and noone really knows abt it. So I was hoping there'd be some kind of "big reveal" later. A few panels or even just simple sentences could have been enough to depict it more accurate, without accidentally triggering sb. Or making it less kid/ya friendly.

[mamawasatesttube]

#kon el and Janet illegal combo they’re gonna ruin Tim mentally#esp if they find out abt Tim begin robin at different times#scenario 1. kon knows Janet doesn’t. kon is being insufferable abt it and Tim is plotting to kill him actively at the dinner table#scenario 2. Janet knows kon doesn’t but Janet probably wouldn’t realise that kon doesn’t know and there’s just a series of near misses (via @roseandgold137)

#The potential in this for Kon to corner Tim and go “your mom is WORRIED about you! >:(” because Janet confided in him about Tim disappearing#at odd hours is actually so incredibly compelling to me. He doesn't know much about his besties son#but she thinks that because they're#Close In Age Kon can get through to Tim before he starts idk dealing joker gas or something.#I need Janet to gift him a pair of pearl earrings to wear. like a friendship bracelet. (via @scarletwix)

YEAH!!! YOU GUYS GET IT.

i think tim hides it from janet longer because we know he wants to tell his team, but just can't. but sins of youth still goes down. so him getting permission to unmask and show them his real face when he's already met kon as "kon's friend's janet's son" is like... well now kon will know, but tim won't have told him. holy loophole, batman! (tim is very smug.)

that being said the actual unmasking moment IS funny because kon goes OHHH SHIIIIITTTTTT?????????? and everyone is staring at him. tim is glaring at him like don't fuck this up don't fuck this up do NOT fuck this up. and then he has to frantically backpedal like haaahahaa yeah i'm just THAT upset about losing my bet to cassie. yeah. don't read into this

but now kon understands why his bestie janet is often worried about her son being out at odd hours or not seeming well-rested enough and sleeping all over the place, and once kon asked her what was wrong because she was very troubled and she said she was probably imagining things, but she could have sworn tim had a bad bruise on his face he tried to cover up with makeup before he left the house this morning, and she's not sure what to do...

...which also brings me to the delightfully OUGH thought of kon trying to be like dude you should talk to your mom :O and tim being like. you think i haven't thought of that??? i WANT to but i CAN'T. and kon's like but... she's your mom. she's worried about you! and tim, fifteen and so prickly because this is one of his sore spots, is just like. i KNOW. what would YOU know? you don't even HAVE a mom.

he regrets it the second it comes out of his mouth but uh oh! whoops! kon's staring at him like he's just slapped him across the face and oh no! that's the thing he's sensitive about! but he doesn't get the chance to apologize because kon just yeets away. oops!

im ALSO thinking tho that this changes so much of the owaw stuff because if kon already knows tim's identity before then, it's far less likely their fight on apokolips would happen. they MIGHT still get stranded bc kon wants to save steel, but... hmmm. hmhmmhmm!!

my toxic trait is that every time i have a fic idea that doesn't involve kon, my brain immediately goes "but wouldn't it be even better if kon was there??" and i mean it's right. every time. thus is the curse of having a favorite character

[slowdiived]

Canon to your stories as Kurt is getting bigger, do you think say if a really famous pornstar or vlogger or someone said we should kiss for this vlog like as a joke lmao c’mere like would he do so? Do you think he’d just be thinking abt his follower count straight away, or be so caught off guard he has to try and wrap his head around what they’ve just asked him, or not picking up on the social cues as much thinking yeah okay haha it is funny if we do, or do you think that’d be a line because he has you?

break the charm (kurt kunkle x fem reader)

first off, anon i have the next part that will come out soon where i will answer all your questions i promise!!! this has so much angst i am so sorry to everyone LMFAO this is part 17 to my lil series, we are getting closer to the end y’all omg….

in two weeks of you roommate telling you to leave, you found a two bedroom house. your brand deals kept your money steady and flowing, helping you be a first time homeowner at only 19. it was a dream, something you never thought to be possible. people would kill to be in your position and you felt guilty for it, you got this money piggybacking off of kurt and your scandal. not much work really went into your boost in numbers, just full frontal nudity.

kurt helped you move in, excited to be able to come over to a house where it would be just the two of you. he wouldn't have to worry about your roommate or his mom to interrupt him having fun. he spent a whole day carrying in boxes and helping you move your furniture. it only really consisted on your bed, dresser, desk, and nightstand but you needed the extra help. he was happy to be right at your command and make you happy.

and you guys spent the first night fucking until you both couldn't physically move anymore.

the next day, you both set up what you could in the living room and kitchen. a few trips to different stores got you some dishes and groceries, putting everything away with ease. kurt was live-streaming while you were sorting silverware and cups.

"am i going to collab with someone?" kurt read from his chat. "yeah, i got a few set up. one of (y/n)'s friends asked if i wanted to teach her how to play fortnite so we were gonna do that. n-not gonna tell you her name though because that's a secret!"

you look over as he leaned into the frame, a finger over his lips to signal he was staying quiet. you giggled and resumed putting things in drawers and cabinets.

"then i'm not allowed to s-say much but," he paused and took a bite of the sandwich he made. "i'm gonn- going to collab with alexa jones. we have a fun video idea we were gonna film soon."

you dropped an old mug of yours the minute you heard that girl's name fall out of his mouth. it fell and hit the edge of the counter, shattering on impact to the floor. it was dramatic to say the least, anger raging at the two incidents. kurt immediately snapped his head over to see what happened, his eyes widening at the glass and blank stare you have to the mess.

a piece hit your ankle where it had cut a slight dash into your skin. you noticed and immediately started to avoid the glass by stepping over it, passing behind kurt to get to your room. you had a box of bandaids sitting in your dresser drawer.

"are you okay?" kurt ran over, phone in hand.

"yeah," you manage to say through your blind rage. "j-just go clean up the glass."

"o-okay," he ran back to the scene of the crime.

you carefully placed the patch on the bloody cut, changing socks to wear a longer pair. you sat on your bed for a second, your heart beating.

he was still going to collab with her? after how upset you were with him? and he didn't even tell you, you had to hear with the rest of his stupid kurties?

this was out of line. you wanted to say something, tell him no way.

your brain soon explained to you that you don't need to be controlling, he loves you and he just wants friends. plus he is a whore for any bit of internet fame, power hungry for more and more followers. you were being dramatic, or at least you tried to convince yourself that you were. you got this sudden wave of realization that you doubted your trust in him when he hasn't done much to disobey your trust, you were being too sensitive. they were probably going to do something stupid like a vlog or a viral challenge. nothing to worry about.

you could hear him in the echoing kitchen. he was talking about how cool it was that he has met so many famous creators and giving his opinions on the ones the chat brought up. you could hear different donations of people telling kurt that they were obsessed with him or to say hi to their friend or something.

you sighed knowing that you made a scene and even if kurt didn't pick up on it, you know that the chat has probably already screen recorded it and is ready to post to twitter or tik tok.

you are really good at the relationship between social media and your boyfriend. so good.

you stood to your feet and stretched, your back popping and yawn being pushed out of you. today was tiring work and it was only about six in the evening, you still needed to get the kitchen put together. your feet moved you back to your previous spot, glass cleaned up and kurt smiling at you.

"all c-cleaned up!" he giggled, presenting his work to you with a giant arm gesture.

"good work soldier," you threw a thumbs up in the air then kissed his cheek on camera.

he graciously smiled and gave you googly eyes. he pulled your face in for a quick peck and looked back at his chat.

"kurt, does your gf care about you doing only fans content with alexa?" a donation rang through, causing you to look back at him with a narrow glance.

"guys no!" he sternly yelled. "it's for youtube, (y/n) would never want me to do that content with another girl and plus, i-i wouldn't want to do an onl-ly fans with alexa. have respect kurties, we are about love, r-remember?"

you smiled at him for shutting down his fans behavior and he noticed, giving you a quick smirk.

-

"hey so i'm gonna go shoot some stuff with a-alexa," kurt started, his hands reaching for his keys and green zip up jacket. "do you wanna come?"

you wanted to say no. you wanted to not have to watch her flirt with him like she did at the party, not even caring that you were right there watching. you wanted to tell him to cancel it and just stay home with you, watch your favorite movies and cuddle.

"oh, is it okay if i come?" was what came out of your mouth instead, no thought given.

he shrugged.

"i think it would be f-fun for you to actually g-get to know her," he smiled. "maybe we can all film together."

you were weirded out for his disregard that he let her cozy up on him the last time. you thought for a second, your legs uncrossing from each other on the side of your bed.

if you go and you are completely sober this time, more aware to how she is acting, you could shut her down. make sure everyone there knows that kurt isn't someone they can walk all over and get them to do things that he wouldn't normally do. you knew that there was scheming intent she had when she saw him at that party, the reason she dragged him into another room with her friends. she wanted something from him and you couldn't tell whether kurt was going to get fucked over or not.

"okay, if that is what you want," you got up and carefully brushed your hair, looking at yourself in your full length mirror.

you were okay with your outfit, flared jeans and a slightly cropped navy blue crewneck that had a little white flower embroidered on it. you quickly put on your white converse and grabbed your phone, putting it in your pocket.

"all ready then," you smiled at him.

you both got into his car, shutting the doors and letting the engine start up. you buckled in and pulled out your phone, ready to scroll through her instagram like the secretive crazy girlfriend you were.

okay not crazy, just nervous and upset.

he placed a hand on your thigh lovingly, squeezing it at a few red lights. it was his way of trying to get a kiss and you provided, making him all smiley.

it was obvious he wanted you there and he needed your touch. it reassured you that he wanted you, not alexa jones. yet, you still looked through her twitter.

you came across a few tweets from before kurt and her talked where she had said she found him cute. you were surprised kurt never saw it and you knew nothing about it. people were all over it but a lot of her fans defended you by saying he was taken. you smiled at the cute things all the fan accounts said about the both of you.

soon enough, you both made it to her driveway. he got out which prompted you to step out as well, nervous for what was to come.

in the daytime, her house looked even bigger. you were surprised at how much money she really takes in and what she wanted with someone like kurt who had just hit two million on his tik tok, and a million subs on youtube. that might be a lot of people but she had seven million on tik tok alone, what would she want with a gamer that was in a very public relationship?

good thing you were here and maybe be able to answer your thousand questions.

you both walked up to the door and he knocked. you looked over at him, he was shifting on heels and looked super excited. you giggled at how silly he looked in the moment, wide eyes and his lip in between his teeth all while he had a white bucket hat on. it didn't match his jacket at all but it matched his white minecraft t-shirt.

he really wanted to play that gamer card, huh?

she opened the door, a pomeranian tucked under her arm. she greeted kurt, giving him a quick side hug and then turned to you, just sticking out her hand for you to shake.

"oh my god!" she yelled. "hi guys, i'm so excited to see you both again, come in!"

you both step into her house and she shuts the door, letting the dog out of her grip to run free. you take a good look at her, she was in a tiny bright yellow tube top paired with white baggy cargo pants that were held up by a rhinestone belt. she also had a pair of yellow sunglasses sitting on the top of her head. you were glad she was wearing more than she was at the party.

now you are starting to sound like a prude. normally you don't care what people wear but she got on your nerves too much.

"(y/n), i had no idea you were going to be here!" her british accent rang through the very spacious and clean house. "sorry you had to leave the party early the last time i saw you."

"oh yeah," you gave a fake smile. "got a little too high and paranoid, you know how it goes."

she nodded, "is that why you and kurt were screaming at each other in the driveway? trust me girl, i've been there plenty of times."

you shot her this weird look and when you went to open your mouth, kurt took over.

"y-yeah, it was because i didn't know she was mess- fucked up," he stammered while trying to semi-lie for your sake. "was totally on me."

she nodded again then turned around to grab her iced coffee from off one of the steps of her stairs. she took a quick sip and then told you both to come upstairs with her.

"so how's everything been you guys?" she asked while you threw were climbing up.

"oh it's been great," kurt giggled. "i just hit two million on my youtube channel, numbers are growing."

"i remember when i hit two million," she recounted as she got to the last step, leading you both to a noisy room. "it was absolutely such a good day, i went out and made a massive vlog with all my friends like the vlog squad and stuff."

you suddenly remembered she use to be apart of that horrible group of people. you were glad she left even though she had put them through controversy hell about a year ago.

and now here you were.

she opened the door and there looked to be two other guys in there. they greeted you both and you came in. she offered you both a couple of stools to sit on while she plopped on a beanbag.

"you both know ken and jj?" she gestured to the guys and you quickly realized that they were her friends that she always made content with.

"oh yeah, hi guys!" kurt waved.

"yeah of course!" you try to say excitedly.

everyone had their introductions and chatted a bit until alexa asked what they were going to film. you turned towards kurt and put your hands on your crossed legs, ready to hear what he was going to say.

"yeah, i was thinking we could definitely do a few tik toks, t-then film for this weeks vlog where we do some old youtube challenges. everyone right now is r-riding that nostalgia wave."

they discussed what they would like to do, alexa saying she had the supplies for a few of them. you kept your eyes on kurt, eventually letting a few glances shoot to whoever was speaking then back at your boyfriend.

this seemed to be going well despite the random shade the british girl threw at you. you just tried to give her the benefit of the doubt for a moment. maybe that's just her way of being friendly or trying to be friendly. she could've told you to leave or ask why kurt brought you but she didn't. she was understanding her place a little bit.

soon everyone was migrating downstairs where you followed behind. they were gonna start with that stupid cinnamon challenge that was popular like thirteen years ago. you hadn’t thought about it for years, intrigued that kurt wanted to do older challenges than what was currently trendy. he did have a point, the nostalgia wave was high on the internet which means people will likely tune in.

ken and jj were all over each other since they were a couple. they did content with alexa as well, always in her posse of people she kept around. they wouldn’t stop trying to talk with you, ask you about anything and everything you had done online. while kurt and alexa were setting up, they were asking about your scandals.

“my scandals?” you asked while sitting at the large dinner table. “why?”

“just curious,” ken shrugged. “it’s always fun to talk about the stupid stuff we all get ourselves involved in.”

you gave him an uninterested look and tried to gaze back at kurt, watching him set up his camera. alexa was cracking jokes, making the both of them laugh. it made you sick, he shouldn’t be laughing with another girl.

“c’mon, nothing crazy has happened to you?” jj fished for your attention again.

“uh,” you wanted everyone to like you so they respected you more, at least that’s what you thought would happen. “well, a couple months ago i was trying to have like sexy time with kurt. i had gotten out of the shower and opened my bedroom door, dropping the towel and let’s just say… my whole body was all over twitter moments later.”

they giggled but in a way where you knew they were judging. they tried to play it off, using their overly theatric charm on you.

“oh girl,” ken swatted his hand in the air. “ain’t even bad compared to us. i mean at least it wasn’t anything serious.”

“yeah i just never wanted my naked body on the internet, ya know?” you didn’t mean to send and indirect jab at them but you did. “it’s a sort of funny clip but i got hell after. i was able to like profit and turn it into a whole ‘love your body’ moment, and my fan base was back again.”

they nodded and started babbling on about their scandals. you just nodded, your eyes moving to kurt every once in awhile to check up on the pair. they seemed to be fine, no boundaries crossed.

“they have great chemistry,” jj pointed at them. “people are gonna eat this up, ya know? kurt’s definitely gonna be in the online talk for a bit.”

“sorry, great chemistry?” you asked, your head shaking from confusion.

“oh not like that,” jj tried to reassure you. “just something fresh, something his channel really needed. i mean when you’re in his stuff it’s great, but he definitely needed more high profile people.”

“was his stream with ninja not enough?” you asked with a laugh, trying to make it seem like you weren’t phased by his remarkably rude comments.

“it was def super cool,” ken started, your eyes now glaring him down. “he just needs more people in his vlogs, like david dobrik style. he’s getting big enough that it might work out in his favor, maybe get to a point where he can have a kardashian sister or something.”

you nodded and smiled, but inside you were fuming. he was making great content, people loved his stuff. he didn’t need to change everything up just for numbers. soon with that kind of thinking you might just get lost in the wind of it all, be forgotten because it seems like they are trying to say everyone was bored of you. you picked up your phone, annoyed with the conversation and annoyed that you decided to come. now you have to hear these two people tell you that you’re fucking boring and kurt’s content needs to be better. fuck those guys.

“yeah he’s gotta stop streaming with bobby bud lee, that kids an ass,” jj sighed. “god when we met that mother fucker, i almost rocked his shit. surprised he wasn’t ever in a team ten type of situation. he has those fucking entitlement vibes.”

you laugh since that’s the way you felt about bobby. he was annoying and only kids cared about him, always watching him and his stupid prank videos.

“i hate him,” you snarled. “that kid is such an ass to kurt but begs to stream with him always. fucking weird.”

“yeah he reeks of desperation,” ken laughed.

-

“did you have fun?” you asked kurt while he sped down the road.

“loads,” he giggled. “i can’t wait to edit all my footage, i’ll probably have it o-out by tomorrow.”

“really?” you laughed. “you’re that ready to edit tonight?”

he nodded and you crossed your arms, sinking back into the passenger seat. your feet were propped up on the glove box, your legs pressed together. you kept your gaze outside the window, tired and longing to be at your house.

“yeah im just super excited,” he rang out. “this is gonna be huge for me, i’ll probably hit like three million subscribers just for having her.”

“i don’t think that will happen,” you tried to bring him down to earth. “you will probably get a lot of views though.”

he snapped to look at you once he stopped at a red light.

“you don’t think i can get to three million?” he asked with a hint of animosity in his tone.

you huffed out a chuckle.

“just not the most realistic outcome,” you turned your head from the window. “you’ll definitely make a lot of money, maybe get other people on your radar.”

he smiled at the thought that other big creators might want to collab with him after this.

“oh w-wow,” he pressed into the gas once the light turned green. “you think?”

“that’s what ken and jj were taking about,” you looked forward, your eyes pressed to the car in front of you. “they want you to do david dobrik style vlogs, maybe get a posse like theirs or something.”

“that would be insane,” he turned left into your new subdivision. “maybe i could make that work, maybe i can get a group to f-film with. i could convince bobby to j-join.”

“wouldn’t be hard,” you mumbled through gritted teeth.

you felt worn out for the day, wanting to just lay in bed and fall asleep, forget that any of this was happening. you wished kurt would go home, edit his video there. you were getting fed up with him, mad that he always needed more and could never settle for his perfectly balanced life. always driving, always streaming, always gaming, never just living his life. he obviously had you and you were his life outside of his job, but it seemed like if you left, he wouldn’t care. he’d be upset that he didn’t have you to make relationship content with, not that he didn’t have someone to love him anymore. he’d be sad that he didn’t have some girl giving him immediate attention all the time, not the fact that he would be losing you.

maybe you did need time away from each other, learn to heal the lacking parts of your relationship.

you decided to brush those thoughts away once you got in the driveway, getting out and stomping to your door. you jiggled the key and let the two of you inside, plopping the keys on the side table you had gotten from ikea. you immediately walked to your room and pulled off your jeans, putting on sweatpants that were laid out on the floor. you didn’t realize they were kurt’s until you snuggled into your pillows, getting annoyed that his shit was always with you and always around. couldn’t even quickly put on on sweatpants without the thought of him.

you were soon groaning at yourself for being so snippy in your head about kurt. just hours ago you were making sure that he was still yours, checking up on him and shooting alexa weird looks. you loved him so deeply and yet here you were, always making him the problem when in reality it was you.

you didn’t have to waste your day at her house, you didn’t have to listen to ken and jj insult you in their twisted way. you did it because you were jealous.

“ugh!” you yelled, your arms throwing themselves outwards.

“what’s wrong?” kurt asked when picking up his laptop from the floor.

“just a bad day,” you mumbled without realizing what you said.

“a bad day?” his face scrunched up.

you shot up in panic, nervous that if you told him, he would brush it off, think that you were crazy or something. yet, you were sick of lying to him about how you felt until it was too late.

“i-uh,” his vision was still locked on you, it made your heart thump. “just wasn’t very fun for me.”

“oh,” he put the laptop on the edge of the bed. “t-thought that you were having a great time talking to the guys.”

“yeah listening to them insult me and basically telling me that alexa was going to be the best thing for your channel,” you laid back down and stared at your white ceiling. “great time talking, huh?”

kurt laughed, “she is gonna be the best thing for my channel.”

you sat up for the second time. you boiled with anger, your heart racing. he looked at you like he didn’t understand what just came out of his mouth.

“i thought i was but whatever,” you dug yourself under your covers. “i am just gonna go to sleep.”

“it’s only like seven,” he pointed out.

“goodnight kurt, have fun editing.”

with that you went to sleep.

-

as you awoke, kurt wasn’t in the room. you looked around, head poking from your comforter trying to find a trace of him. he was just gone.

you checked your phone to see if he messaged you. it’s not like he was in the living room, you didn’t even have a couch yet. you dug through notifications until you saw his name. you quickly clicked on the text, opening up to your conversation.

kurt 💙: hey i went home 2nite, needed to use my desktop

you growled at the fact that it wasn’t even because you were upset with him. he probably didn’t even care and was telling himself you were in a mood. you opened instagram, scrolling through stories and pictures. kurt uploaded the vlog an hour before you woke up, you decided that you were gonna watch after seeing him post about it to his story.

the video started out normal, they were giggling about how they were so excited to film with each other. alexa bringing up that she was a fan and kurt awkwardly saying that he was a fan as well. you cringed at the fact that people were gonna make fun of him for saying that, probably making jokes about him paying for her services. you just kept watching him do the stupid challenges, bringing the camera close to her face or to his. you had to admit the editing on the video was some of his best work, finding yourself giggling at the jump cuts and over usage of sound effects.

then one single frame ripped your heart into two.

with cinnamon in his mouth and a spoonful heading to hers, she said it would be funny if they kissed with the cinnamon in their mouths.

and she took the spoon, shoving it in her cavity and pecking his lips. they soon swallowed and started coughing.

you scrolled through the comments, checking to see what everyone was saying.

kurtssword69: bruh can’t believe (y/n) let him post this

unkle kunkle: are (y/n) and kurt broken up?

(y/n) slut: wait this is so weird.

you had just been cheated on and you were in the room with no idea.

[captainaikus]

Hi belle! Im so sorry for a late reply I was not online so much because I am so busy with all the activities in school😭. I’ve not really taken a rest yet but I’m fine! I try to take in between breaks when I do my activities so I’m hanging in there! And anyways I kinda have an Imagine with Oliver. So I am currently obsessed with Marvel right now, me and my family watched it in timeline order and I loved it so much!! So imagine watching all the movies and series with Oliver and the both of you are just simping for the characters and the actors😂 so yeah thats it hehe

How about you belle? Have you watched any marvel movies/series?

-💙

Don't worry abt it Blue! ( ∩´͈ ᐜ `͈∩) take your time and reply when you feel like it okay? no pressure ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)

And same, my writing time has been cut down due to assignments and papers that i have to work on- so i'm taking it easy ૮ ˶´ ᵕˋ ˶ა its okay to not keep up with timelines (cause i have fomow both here and irl- so i'm working on that)

Marvel movies! I actually wanted to say this for halloween- Aiku in a spiderman suit. but since he is obsessed with cowboy hats- he's just gonna wear that a pair of boots since it suits his very 'laid back personality'.

As for watching Marvel movies... I have seen a few- and on an unpopular opinion, Toby Maguire will always be my fav spider man (like ik tom holland and andrew garfield are cute- but just... nah. Toby is my childhood ૮꒰⸝⸝> <⸝⸝꒱), apart from that i've seen avengers, winter soldier and yeah that's it. I don't watch a lot of marvel movies tbh... my friends and roommates are maniacs tho (and they're telling me to watch the boys- i'm not sure if its marvel tho) i'm more of a DC girl- and the latest series i watched... its just romantic killer (anime) and i'm waiting for Ragnarok season 2 to come in...

Small Oliver Drabble - angsty fluffy cause i couldn't help it and he's my fav ૮꒰/ฅ//ฅ//꒱ა :

Oh yea if there was a marvel movie marathon ik he's gonna go with the popular opinion and like black widow- and banter with you, even if he doesn't mean it.

"You know if I weren't stuck with you, i'd totally trade you with Natasha Romanov." he said, grabbing popcorn and putting them into his mouth.

"Mhm hm... pretty sure you can do that now, since you have a football career and the world hasn't run out of red heads who speak Russian and latin- any girl would kill to have Aiku Oliver as a boyfriend." you replied humorlessly, resting into the sofa.

"You wouldn't?"

"Hm... not when you have Thor, Loki, Tony Stark, Peter parker, Steve Rogers and Bucky to entertain you. Its a different feeling when you want someone you can't have yet you're satisfied with it." you ranted, shrugging your shoulders, taking some popcorn into your hand and eating it.

"So you'd rather have characters portrayed by people on screen who don't even know you rather than me?" he contested, his voice sounding more serious rather than the tinge of amusement he got into friendly arguments.

It fueled your desire to tease him, your mind curious and the want to entice a reaction out of him.

"I mean..." you drawled out, a smirk making its way on your face. "I might not bag them in real life, but I am pretty happy with the view I'm getting. I did this before my first relationship and I also did the same thing before I met you. A girl can dream you know?"

"Even if you have me?" "Even if I have you."

"I'm gonna go get some water." he said, rolling his eyes and getting up from the sofa. Letting a few minutes pass you set the bowl of popcorn on the table, pausing the movie to follow him.

Standing at the door of the kitchen you watched as he stared at the counter, clutching a glass of water. Walking behind him, you circled your arms around his torso, nuzzling your nose into his back, hugging him close to you.

"You know that i was only teasing right?"

"Mhm." "Is Oliver upset with me?" "..." "Did I make my Oliver angry?"

"..."

"You know that I didn't mean it." you pouted, feeling him sigh.

"You're lucky you have me. I don't think Bucky and gang would be able to put up with your annoying ass." he said with a scoff.

"You brat." you laughed, biting into his back, making him yelp. Turning around he caressed your face, placing a lingering kiss on your head, his heterochromatic eyes staring into yours as he rubbed his thumb against your cheek.

"Jeg elsker deg." he murmured. "Jeg elsker too deg."

He chuckled.

"Let's go back. I get to pick a movie this time." [Jeg elsker deg is Norwegian, but Swedish and Norwegian sound really similar even if the spellings are different and Oliver can speak both.]

[shiningclown69]

@musa-agreste-cheng

Hi! Thanks for your interest in Brandon haha 🥰

For anyone else also finding more info, here's some links to the Russian Winx website under cut!

I also talk about Brandon content in general here

(This went off the rails when i started talking abt the comics lol)

Link for the entire Winx Russian wiki. Its all in Russian so just google translate the articles into your language!

This is the link to the wiki for Brandon specifically

I saw Bianca under his "relationships" profile status and that's how I found out.

It also features some interesting facts not found in the English wiki, like his family background. Those tend to come from the winx magazines.

This has the synopsis (+ some illustrations) of the book Bianca comes from: Peace in the Family

I've also briefly mentioned a plotline of Stella mistaking Brandon's cousin for him cheating on her in the tags.

Well, here's the synopsis for the book: Podium for Stella.

This book features one of my fave Brella moments (aka the ending), which I'll probably talk about in another post!

Give the rest of the books from the same series a read too, they all feature love-related plot lines if you're into that.

I hope to be able to find more Winx books with their own one-off plots, the art and stories always interest me!

Honourable but not niche mention:

The Winx comics feature Brandon many times, especially in earlier comics (aka from S1-4).

You can find full scans of these easily by searching "Winx Comics Issue XX" on google haha

They have a ton of wild plots, I'll just list down the Brandon centric plots I can rmb

These range from:

1. Brandon getting near-fatal food poisoning in an assassination attempt (bc he's Sky's bodyguard). He is kidnapped from the hospital and has a near-identical doppleganger that replaces him.

2. Another assasination attempt where spies ambush the specialists at night and almost stab Brandon. He does not get stabbed don't worry.

3. Brandon is framed in a yacht accident and he is questioned for his presumed involvement in an attempt to harm Sky. Yes, ANOTHER one.

4. Because of said assasination attempts and Sky's father falling ill, a war brews up on Erakylon. Sky and Brandon leave Red Fountain and return to Erakylon for a prolonged period of time. This takes place accross multiple comics and has repercussions on both Stella and Bloom.

5. After a period of little to no communication due to the Erakylon situation, Brandon and Stella's relations are strained. Stella has issues with her mother, while Brandon is stressed from work. They get into an argument and break up.

6. Brandon and the specialists get stuck in a mirror dimension caused by a dimensional rift. Brandon relays his location coordinates to Stella in her dream and the Winx save them.

7. Brandon jumps into a river to save a drowning witch, Shilly. He falls unconscious and finds himself stuck in a cave with Shilly, who has healed his wounds with her magic. Shilly is absolutely smitten with Brandon, but he is uninterested. With Icy's help, Shilly creates a love potion and brainwashes Brandon into loving her. Stella is so upset that she breaks up with him. Shilly eventually realises her mistake and un-does the spell.

8. The winx and specialists' ship crash and they land up on a deserted island. Brandon and Musa have been knocked into a coma by the crash. The group (except bloom and stella) get kidnapped by pirates but the two girls save the group.

I'm honestly q amazed how much I rmb...wtf I was gonna only write 4 plots how did this turn into 8????

Anyway, that's most of the Brandon content I can remember. Happy exploring! :)

[ambreiiigns]

so i didn't watch Anything today but yesterday. maxxxine it. fucks so hard. pearl is still the superior movie of the series but i was lile secretly worried abt maxxxine blowing it and 20 mins in i was like HOW COULD I EVER DOUBT YOU MIA GOTH!!!! 20 MINUTES IN I GOT GENITAL MUTILATION SPECIFICALLY VERY LITERAL BALL BUSTING I GOT SO EXCITED ABOUT IT I JUMPED OUT OF MY CHAIR AND TOOK A WALK AROUND THE HOUSE TO CALM DOWN OR ELSE I WASN'T GONNA FOCUS. it was fun & exciting & visually stunning Obviously i wanna say the story and final reveal and all was. kinda mid. but it's fine like i didn't care for it but the Fun of everything else made up for it. it was weird. lots of characters who are barely relevant but feel like they wanna be so it just leaves you a taste of Unfinished ? i feel like it kinda Lost the slashery-esque vibes the first two had going it very barely feels like horror at this point but i think it ties the series together nicely like it's ok if it gets wordier they were Finishing A Story. and the sfx were slappin good so i don't care. girlbossing to success that's FINE with me!!!!! idc. it was fun i liked it :)

in a violent nature was. So So Weird. i was so excited to watch it bc i heard it was like A New Fresh Slasher Movie Icon Wow!!!!! so. i was so hyped. and i don't wanna say i was disappointed but it surely is not what you expect. it's insane. like every single storybeat is something you've already seen in a friday the 13th (which is not a critique i will never mind a slasher movie being formulaic like if you do something new that's cool but if you stick to the plan i will Never complain. that is what i'm here for.) BUT the way it's shot is like. argh. it feels like a natgeo documentary and i say this so politely. which goes w the Theme of the movie where they keep implying that the killer is like a mindless wild animal and that Nature itself is out to get you it really does work incredibly well but it's so strange. bc you expect slashers to be so silly and campy and over the top and this is so quiet? the camerawork is so weird the framing the movements are So Weird. it's not super cinematic i don't know how to explain ittttt but. yk. but then the kills. some of them were off screen which made me sad but the majority that were on screen HOLY SHIIIT MY DUDEEEEE GO OFFFF it was SO GOOD SO GOOD. THE ONE. IF YOU'VE SEEN THE MOVIE YOU KNOW THE ONE. W THE HOOK THROUGH THE STOMACH INTO HER HEAD AND THEN HER HEAD GOES THROUGH HER STOMACH AND HE KICKS HER OFF A CLIFF HOLY SHIIIIT SOOOOO FUN THE WAY I WAS CHEERING!!!! but it being Like This kind of. disrupts the idea that the killer is mindless like an animal???? like. a feeling i kept having was that it had some cool ideas but never committed 100% it always did something that Interrupted that concept and ruined it. yk? like the camerawork is always like distant and impersonal except for that one or two scenes were it's almost traditionally cinematographic. the killer is mindless except he gets a flashback w his Motivational Dead Mother so now it feels like he's on a mission. yk?? a bunch of stuff. idk. the ending segment w the final girl is so unbelievably stunning tho it's just good. it's so much of johnny the slasher walking thru the woods filmed from behind and the lighting changing from day to night but it's not boring. really weird watch to make opinions on

and then stopmotion i don't even know what to say about it. it's incredibly good and weird and it has a certain post 2000s pretentiousness about it but it backs it up by HAVING ACTUAL STOP MOTION SEQUENCES AND LITTLE CREECHERS THAT ARE SO TERRIFYING AND HORRID and it even made me FLINCH at least once maybe twice. just watch it i can't even talk abt it. mommy issues are briefly at play and being consumed by your art and work is the whole point and it's done so well and the gore oh god. god god i had to call my brother into the room at some point to look at the little puppets bc they look So upsetting. insane. makes me feel crazyyyy

hi i watched three movies yesterday

[projectjasper]

So a few things

1. You mentioned in another ask that act 3 conflicts make you nervous and you're scared for how it'll be for Bad Buddy.... SAME absolutely same, I wanna trust them because so far the raised the bar very high, however I am still also very worried 😅 To be honest I'm glad we don't have side couples because I feel like a lot of the time they're utilized to fill time, to drag out the act 3 conflict and as Pran and Pat really have like 80% of the scenes in an episode together, that's how I hope we'll see them not break up but maybe fight a little or something and make up again the same episode.... I think I'm not the only one saying act 3 has ruined 2gether for me (not just their conflict though I could rant abt why I came from loving to hating 2gether for hours I think lol) and I don't think Bad Buddy is ever gonna go THAT bad but I can't help but worry

and secondly idk if this maybe goes together but in the trailer there's this scene, I can't give you the exact time right now but it's Pat I think leaving(?) Pran's room and Pran standing there saying his name while Pat is upset and walks away? What's your theory for that? I would say it's from their inevitable conflict which is the easy answer however the setting brings me a few question marks. It looks like Pat is leaving Pran's room while Pran is outside and I don't know maybe he saw something in the room? Or Pran is kicking him out because someone is coming over? it looks very angsty though so I don't know. I was just wondering if you had a theory for it because I always like hearing your theories

as for your first point, act 3 of 2gether really did fuck up the series big time, and my perception of it will never return to the way it was before episode 12 came out, even with still2gether fixing some of the issues. i have a lot of faith in bad buddy, but considering the history of our screenwriters and our wonderful director in terms of final conflicts, i am very afraid that the usual trope-y separation is inevitable, though i do still have hope.

i think some sort of conflict between the two of them specifically is bound to happen at the end, but maybe instead of breaking up and all that, they could have a fight, but ultimately come to a decision together and stay by each other's side no matter what. don't know how realistic it is to hope for that, all things considered, but oh well.

as for your second point, i know exactly which scene you are referring to because i've been thinking about it for a very long time (at 2:51 in the trailer):

so far, my best guess for it is as follows: i am convinced that after they start dating, they will decide to live together in one of the dorms, and i feel like it will be pran's dorm they choose to stay in. and i think that this might be the final sort of point in one of the conflicts they will have, which is pat deciding to go back to his dorm (for the first time in a while). that being said, we have so little context for this at the moment that this isn't even a theory - it's a hypothesis.

[hybeboyenthusisast]

hii I managed to catch up with the stupid cupid series! and I think I really appreciated the latest part, you made kai and yn very real and putting it in something like this is also a nice way to spread awareness!

also, I was just wanting to let you know that although I am tagged, I still don’t get any notifications for it, idk if you could help me fix that? but I’m looking forward to the rest if the chapters!

I really appreciate you being so kind abt the latest part ❤ I was really worried people would be upset about it. Idk why you arent getting notifications and I'm not sure how to fix it, but I can message you when new posts go live ❤

[yourmidnightlover]

ssa hotchner: chapter 2 - one week

TW: threats, language, talking abt abuse/what happened to y/n the night before, mild drinking

WC: 5,116

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you woke up to the bright sun peeking in through your window past the hills, shining brightly into your eyes. you sat up, and rubbed your eyes in attempt to wake yourself up even more. you looked over at your clock to see the tie was already half past 6 a.m.

you didn't have to go to work for the first time in what felt like forever. trudging out of bed, you made your way into your bathroom and started the hot water.

the cut on your face looks exponentially better than it did last night. the handprint's swelling on your face had gone down quite a bit, but the bruise on your arm was definitely still there.

you brushed your teeth while you waited on the water to warm up. once the shower was ready, you shed your clothes and hopped inside. you took your time, letting the events of last night try to sink into your mind.

after you finished up, you used a towel to dry your hair a bit and got dressed in some leggings and a large t-shirt. you figured you might as well be comfortable if you didn't have anything else to do.

going back into your living room you decided to read the note that was taped to your gate. you pulled the bin out, followed by the shoe box, followed by the note.

you've been receiving them for close to 7 years now, ever since that high profile case you did for the bau. honestly, there was no telling if the letters were from more than one person. they are all typed and printed out.

at first they were all 'thank yous' for putting away a serial killer, but then came the anniversary of him being in prison... and people got a bit angry. then, people who were grateful for you putting him away forgot about it, as they should since they have lives of their own, and all that was left were the people who were angry.

the people who would wish you were dead. the people who think you should be inside there with the other killers. the people who were upset about you putting their 'true love' away for good. those were the people you were scared of.

the people that knew your address.

the people that sent you death threats.

those were the terrifying ones. the ones that kept you up at night, looking out of your window, trying to see if anyone was truly out there. nobody ever was. logically, you knew that nobody was out there lurking.

but if you told big bro, he would go all fbi on the letters. he would try to figure out who sent them, and send them to jail themselves. you didn't know if they were truly a threat, so what's the point in poking the bear? if they got too terrible, you would tell him. maybe...

you son of a bitch. you should've been his last victim so you wouldn't be here and he would be. you're nothing but a manipulative little bitch.

you don't deserve anything you have handed to you.

go die, bastard.

you folded it back up and placed it in the box, the bin, then pushed it underneath the couch.

were you worried? of course. would you tell anyone? not yet. if your fear became unmanageable, you would let someone know.

the only problem with the notes is that there was no return address. you put up security cameras everywhere around your gate in hopes of catching the culprit(s) on video, but sadly they were able to hack into the cameras you had gotten.

you would check the video footage after you received a note or picture. the time stamp went from 8:54 to 9:03, meaning they probably hacked into it before they got there.

maybe garcia could find whoever hacked into it every night if you needed her to. surely she would be able to work her magic when necessary.

you went into your room to check your phone for any new messages.

a <3: what're you doing for lunch today? feel up to spending time together two days in a row? let me know whenever you can; there's no case today.

you: i don't have any plans at all today, i guess i'll just have to suffer through another lunch with you.

and... sent.

unknown number: hi, y/n. it's spencer. i just wanted to know how're you doing? is the cut on your face okay?

you: hey back genius :) i'm doing pretty well, all things considered. my face is looking much better than it was before i went to bed, thank you for asking.

send.

while waiting for a response, you decided to clean the house a bit. you vacuumed your rugs, washed the dishes in your sink, did your laundry, and that was pretty much all you had to do today. everything done before 10 a.m.

checking your phone, there were two more messages, one from each of the guys.

a <3: great! would you mind just meeting me at the office around 11:30?

you: that's no problem at all. any place in mind?

you checked the other message from spencer.

spencer :) : i'm glad you're doing well, y/n. and to clear things up, your face didn't look bad at all last night, bruise and cut included.

what a little charmer...

you: thanks for the clarity, it's very appreciated. so how've you been since last night? save any other damsels in distress?

you put your phone down and decided to start getting ready. you opted for some blue jeans, high rise, and a lavender halter top. you paired that with some white high-top converse and threw on your gray blazer spencer brought you from last night, after you retrieved it from the dryer.

wearing something so casual, you decided to just wear your natural hair to the office. you did, however, need to cover the remnants of your adventure last night so aaron wouldn't be upset upon seeing something.

you used some good ol' color corrector, concealer, a bit of foundation, and some powder to cover the bruises and fail to disguise the cut. then again, there's not much that can be done to cover that up.

you checked the time on your phone, 10:53, and saw two more message notifications.

a <3: i was thinking about ordering some mexican food to the office so we could just stay there.

you: i'm good with anything, so that sounds great! i'll see you soon.

you sent the message and hopped over to the one spencer had sent you.

spencer :) : sadly, no other damsels. although i suppose that could be considered a good thing to most. oh! and if you were wondering, i got your number from garcia. i wasn't stalking you or anything, no worries.

you: yes, i'm glad i was the only damsel in need of saving last night. also, if i were to find out you had been stalking me, i don't think i'd be afraid. in fact, i'd probably be more flattered that THE dr. spencer reid would consider me stalk-worthy.

was it flirtatious? yes. would it make him flustered? probably. would i enjoy being the person that flustered him? absolutely.

sent.

you got into your car and began the journey to quantico. the drive isn't very long, only about twenty minutes. you hopped out of the car, and made your way to the front desk to check in. looking over your shoulder, you saw none other than spencer reid walking up to you before the woman gave you your visitor's badge.

"hi there, damsel," spencer smiled as he greeted you. you walked closer to him after thanking the lady.

"hey, hero," you laughed as you both got closer. "is it too soon to hug you?"

"oh, uhm... not at all. i was actually-yes. i do want to- i'm just gonna..." he stuttered as he opened his arms for you to snuggle into.

"i like your hugs," you surprisingly announced.

"th-thank you," he smiled as he rested his chin on your head, secretly enjoying the coconutty scent that wafted off your hair into his nose.

"yea this is gonna be the new greeting tactic for us. just saying," you huffed into his chest.

"i wouldn't mind that at all," he laughed before you pulled back from his embrace, giving his shoulders a little squeeze before relinquishing all contact.

"okay, i'm here to see aaron. i'm assuming he's in his office, like always?" you rose one eyebrow in question before feeling a hand on your shoulder, turning to see aaron.

"i'm not always in my office," he rebutted as he embraced you in his arms. "how are you?" he asked nicely.

"i'm good! i hope you aren't overworking yourself like you usually tend to do," you voiced into his chest. he pulled back, not releasing your shoulders but looking deeply at your face.

"what's that?" he pointed to your cheekbone, his brows furrowing in concentration.

"oh, pshh. it's nothing," you shrugged as you waved his hand off, noticing spencer behind aaron with a look on his face that suggested you tell your brother what it was.

"y/n. what happened?" he pushed, giving you his 'brother' look.

"fine," you huffed. "i was gonna have to explain it eventually," you rolled your eyes. "last night before i left, ron got a bit handsy. before he did too much, spencer showed up to return my jacket. things got out of hand, ron might've slapped me, spencer might've pushed him against a wall, all's well that ends well," you grinned in hopes that he wouldn't have understood a word you just uttered.

"ron slapped you?" he asked in disbelief, his face still showing no emotion as per usual.

"yea, but spencer stopped him before he got to do anything else. oh! i don't have a job at all anymore, so i'm free for the next two weeks," you pressed your lips together.

"reid was there?" he turned to face spencer, who's face looked like a deer in the headlights.

"yup. i don't know what would've happened if he didn't show up. i really owe him, aaron," you said, trying to calm your brother down from the edge he was not-so-clearly teetering on.

"well, reid. uhh, thank you. and y/n. you should've told me this the second it happened," he ordered, looking at you shooting daggers.

"sir, yes, sir," you nodded off. "i'm sorry i didn't tell you. i just knew you'd be upset and i figured since everything's okay now that it wasn't important," you shrugged, trying to diffuse the situation.

"it is important. it will always be important because you're important to me," he emphasized before taking a deep breath. "as long as you'll tell me next time i think i'll be okay."

"great! now when's the food supposed to get here because... food," you excitedly asked as you followed aaron as he turned to go to his office.

"it'll be here in about 10 more minutes," he announced as he motioned for her to sit beside him in the chairs in front of his desk. "so... what's the full story of what happened?"

"are we really gonna talk about that right now?" you huffed, clearly over the situation from last night.

"yes. we are. harassment is a serious issue that should be dealt with accordingly. you know that, y/n," he reasoned, propping his arm on his desk as he looked at you with his stern face.

"i do know that. i also know that he only ever did that to me. he has a wife and two kids; he'd never do anything to put them in jeopardy," you announced, trying to convince aaron not to press the issue any further.

"but he would be willing to risk a law suit from you because of what happened?" he questioned in defiance, not accepting the ask to drop it.

"i wouldn't give him a law suit, aaron. you know that," you remarked, leaning in towards him slightly.

"you should. logically, you should sue him for hitting you. and i'm assuming for whatever else he's done to you in the past," he corrected you.

"how do you know he's done anything in the past?" you questioned, aaron nodding his head to the side. "right. profiler," you sighed. "look, he used to call me names i'm uncomfortable with, but now i won't have to deal with him. i don't work there anymore and never will again."

"you may not work there, but what if another woman starts working in the office? who's to say he won't harass them as well?" you looked down into your lap, fondling your fingers in avoidance. "look, i'm not trying to be rude about it. i just don't like seeing you hurt, and to know that the guy who hurt you isn't getting anything done to him is ludicrous."

"i know. you've always looked out for me since we were kids, but i'm not a kid anymore. i'm a grown woman and can take care of my own business when i need to," you replied softly, placing your hand over top aaron's in comfort. "but thank you, for always caring. i know you do it because you love me, even though you don't say it often," you laughed, trying to bring some light hearted-ness to the situation.

"i do..." he nodded along. "love you, that is," he added with a rare smile.

aaron has always been there for you. ever since you were kids, because of you dad he would take the role of protector for both you, sean, and your mom.

because of his role of 'protector,' he has this external shell that he feels as though he can't shed. in his mind, if he sheds it he's not able to mask his feelings, leaving not only himself but also those he protects vulnerable.

"i love you too, a.," you smiled back, giving his hand a gentle squeeze before releasing it from your grip. aaron took his phone and checked the time.

"the food's here now," he announced as he went to go pick it up from the front desk.

when he returned he gave you the food and you began to eat together, him telling you the latest garcia story that got quite the kick out of you until his attention went elsewhere.

"... so...?" aaron asked sneakily, a sly grin appearing on his face.

"... so what?" you furrowed your brows in question as you took a sip of your drink.

"you and reid, huh?" he widened his eyes in suspicion.

"what about me and reid?" you wanted to press him further, even though you knew exactly what he meant.

"that's exactly what i would like to know. what's going on with you and reid?" he finalized, pointing his fork accusingly at you.

"nothings going on with me and spencer," you raised your hands in defense. "i just drove him home after he intervened in the... situation, last night so i made sure to thank him. he texted me earlier today to ask me how i was holding up after yesterday evening- like a gentleman," you pointed out, raising your eyebrows to establish some sort of dominance you knew you didn't have over your brother.

"right," he said in a sing-song voice, you rolled your eyes at his tone.

"shut up," you scoffed as you threw away each of yours' trash. "so, i think it's time for me to go," you smiled as you turned to face aaron from the doorway.

"ahh, right," he sighed with a small grin. "i actually talked to strauss about getting you onto the team," he raised his eyebrows.

"did you, now?" you smirked. "what'd she say about it?"

"she said that you'd need to fill out an application, and that if you were to be hired there'd be a trial run first to see if everything would work out smoothly," he announced happily.

"really? so there's a chance i could work here?!" you squealed, rubbing your lips into a tight line from the excitement.

"a pretty good one, at that. i actually have an application right," he reached over his desk to retrieve a couple pages stapled together, "here," he smiled, handing you the application forms.

"oh my gosh!" you shouted, throwing your arms over your brother's stomach and squeezing him tightly. "this is so exciting! do you think i'm actually qualified?" you asked, pulling back from his embrace.

"are you kidding? of course you are?" he asked incredulously. "just fill those out, return them to strauss, and i'm sure she'll review them quickly," he nodded.

"right. i'll get going now," you smiled widely. "thank you, a. thank you so much," you said, giving him one last hug before you whooshed out of the door, papers in hand.

you walked down the stairs and out of the glass doors towards the elevator. the doors started to close after you pressed the 'lobby' button, but there was a brown satchel stuffed between them to stop the from closing right before they shut. once thy opened back up, you noticed who the bag belonged to.

"hey, spencer," you smiled, scooting over in the elevator to make more room for him.

"hey, y/n. how was your lunch?" he asked, returning your smile.

"it was pretty good. aaron gave me an application for the bau, which is very exciting," you bit back a wide grin.

"really?" he asked happily, his eyebrows raised, you nodded in return. "that's so great!" he said cheerily, wrapping his arms around your waist an lifting you off the elevator floor as the two of you giggled together.

"i know! if i'm being honest, i'm a bit nervous about it, y'know?" you said as he placed you back onto your feet, your hands still on his biceps.

"why? we already know you'll fit in well and do great. what's making you nervous?" he asked, his head tilting slightly as he looked at you with a confused expression.

"i don't know..." you started. "i guess since i've only worked at one job, doing one thing, moving nowhere, staying stagnant, i just don't know anything else," you shrugged.

"it's actually incredibly normal to feel nervous about a new job. over 80% of working professionals feel nervous or anxious when starting a new job," he clarified as the elevator doors opened, you both walking out together. "think of it this way: you know the material, you're more than qualified, you know everyone you'd be working with, and you're passionate about what you'll be doing. there's no doubt that you'll do amazing," he encouraged as you continued the walk to your car.

"thank you. at least i know i'm not the only one that gets this way," you sighed. "so why'd you walk all the way out here?" you giggled. "don't you still have work?"

"uhh, yes. i-i do have to work. i just f-figured- i just wanted to uh, talk to you?" he stuttered out, clearly not realizing how charming it was.

"well, thank you, spencer. i really enjoy our little chats," you nodded as you unlocked your car. "thanks for walking me out. i'll see you?" you asked.

"yea, yes. i will uhm, see you later. goodbye, y/n," he smiled gorgeously.

"see you later, spencer," you grinned back as you closed your door and began to drive off after buckling up.

halfway home, you got a call from someone. you pressed the bluetooth answer button on your radio to answer.

"hello?" you replied, readjusting your hands on your wheel.

"y/n hotchner. i can't believe you were at the office and didn't even bother to say hi to me!" emily's voice rang through the speakers.

"emily! hello to you too," you giggled.

"you even said hi to reid! but not me?" she shouted. "what gives?"

"sorry, i just kinda ran into him, i guess. well, he ran into me," you corrected yourself.

"what does that mean?"

"well, he kinda stopped me while i was in the elevator so he could talk to me. he's such a good friend," you complimented.

"only friend?" emily asked suggestively.

"yes, em. only friends," you laughed at the insinuation.

while it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world to be more than friends with him, it certainly wasn't the right time for a serious relationship in your life yet.

"righhtt... anyway, that's not the only reason i called you," she stated.

"and why did you do that?" you asked as you turned onto the highway, a straight shot to the street with your house on it.

"i wanted to know if you'd like to come with us to a bar after we get off of work tonight?" she asked.

"hmm... who's 'we'?"

"well there's me, morgan, garcia, and you if you'll come?"

"sure, it sounds fun," you agreed. "besides, not like i have anything to do with no job and all," you laughed out.

"great! now we could probably convince reid to come now that you're going!" she exclaimed.

"jeez, em," you huffed as you rolled your eyes and turned onto your street.

"you know it's true. morgan's already teasing him about it and everything," she snorted out over the phone.

"oh poor spencer..." you grimaced as you thought about the relentless teases.

"yea, yea, yea. but you're coming, and there's no backing out! i'll just pick you up before i head to the bar. be ready at 8, ma'am. dress hot, please, garcia and i already agreed to it," she demanded.

"yes ma'am, sounds good," you nodded even though she can't see you.

"alright, love you, bye," she said, holding out the 'e'.

"love you too, bye," you said as she hung up the phone, finally turning into your driveway to be met with your gate.

you entered the code and the gate opened, allowing you to drive half a mile up to your house. you had always wanted a nice, big house as a child. the kind that people had in movies, and everyone looked at online. you signed a lease for this house a while back, and got an amazing deal on it sense you knew who owned it previously.

unlocking your door, you walked into your house with the papers in hand. you walked into your dining room and started filling the papers out easily. it was only 1 p.m., so you had a while before you had to start getting ready for going out with them tonight.

*******

you threw on a maroon colored corduroy skirt, tucking in your spaghetti strap, black tank top. adding some black  heeled booties, you added a few silver pieces of jewelry.

after adding some mascara, lip gloss, and a bit more powder you felt like you were ready to walk out of the door. you did a few spritzes of perfume before grabbing your black crossbody purse, letting it hang on one shoulder before grabbing your black denim jacket, dashing out of the door to emily's car.

"hey em," you said as you swung the door open, crawling not-so-gracefully inside.

"hey there," she said as she examined what you were wearing. "i seriously did my makeup for half an hour and you come out looking like that? it should be illegal to look that hot, y/n," she rolled her eyes with a huff.

"are you kidding me?" you replied, looking over to see what she was wearing herself.

she had on a short, black dress that had a low neckline, allowing tasteful cleavage to show through. she wore that with some red pumps to match her lipstick and some shimmery eyeshadow.

"okay, you can't say that. you look hot, em! don't sell yourself short," you punched her arm playfully.

"yea, yea, yea," she said, beginning to drive out of your driveway.

once you arrived to the bar, it looked like it was almost full. the music was loud, and you could feel the base through your feet on the floor. it took you about a minute until you could find the others, derek, pen, and spencer, sitting at a booth in the corner of the bar.

because of how crowded it was, you sat across from penny and derek and in between spencer and emily. you were practically on top of spencer because of how small the seats were, the poor guy.

"damn, you look great, y/n," derek gushed before looking at spencer with a smirk. "don't you think, pretty boy?" he laughed out, earning a jab from penny in the stomach.

"play nice, derek," she scolded him. "but you do look great, y/n. your legs look amazeballs in that outfit... like wow," she exaggerated.

"oh, shush," you blushed. "i'm kinda hungry... you guys?" you asked them.

"i could go for some cheese sticks," emily replied.

"i ate before we came here," spencer replied with a smile, leaning into your ear a little bit to answer.

"so cheese sticks and... cheese fries? i adore cheese fries," penny added.

"i'm okay with whatever. i'll go order," you said as emily got up to let you out.

"i'll help," spencer added as he scooted out with you.

"great, any drink requests?" you asked, pointing out to all three others.

"jack and coke," emily requested.

"anything fruity they have!" pen told you.

"whiskey, on the rocks," derek said with a smile.

"you've got it," you said as you turned around, realizing how crowded it was as you tried to weave through the first few people in your way.

you felt a hand grip yours firmly, turning to see it was spencer's hand you felt a sigh of relief wash over you. he leant down to your ear to talk to you, so you leaned a bit closer to him.

"i'm gonna put my arm around your waist so we can get through easier. is that okay?" he asked. his breath on your neck and ear almost distracted you from the question.

"y-yea. that's uhm... that's okay," you nodded your head as you felt his arm snake around your waist, pulling you closer to his side.

you moved one of your arms around his torso in return, squeezing yourself further into your side so you could avoid bumping into as many people. you could smell his sweet cologne, and the smell of what seemed to be coffee and old books. the warmth of his entire being was undeniable, drawing you closer to his presence.

eventually when you made it to the bar, you both kept your arms around the other. after ordering the food and drinks, you finally pulled your arm back, but stayed just as close to him.

"have you filled the application out yet?" spencer asked sweetly, leaning into your body.

"yea, i finished them just before i got ready to come here, actually," you nodded your head with a smile. "i guess you could say i'm a bit eager to start working."

"i think that's a good thing," he smiled brightly.

"oh, it definitely is!" you agreed. "i'm just so bored at the house. i've only been gone for a day and i need something to do, y'know?" you shrugged.

"busybody?" he questioned.

"oh you have no idea," you laughed, pushing his shoulder back playfully.

"i guess it runs in the family. hotch is always working on something as well," he mentioned. "so working at the bau would be a great fit for you both."

"yea, i sure hope so," you said longingly. "so what else do you do for fun... besides reading and working, of course," you asked.

"uhmm, i enjoy magic, i guess," he expressed.

"really?" you perked up, straightening out your posture at what he revealed.

"yea. i know a few little party tricks. wanna see?" spencer proposed, you nodded eagerly. "okay," he licked his lips as he began digging into his pocket and pulled out a $20 bill, also getting a pen. "watch..." he said as he jabbed the green paper with the pen.

"okay?" you squinted your eyebrows at what he was doing, unsure of where this trick was leading.

he then started to drag the paper around the pen, not tearing the bill at all. you felt your jaw drop in awe as he continued playing with it. then, he drug the pen all the way out of the bill, not a hole in sight. he made the bill disappear, leaving you stunned.

"what? how did you-? where did it-?" you stuttered, looking at him accusingly.

he reached around your hair, behind your ear and pulled out the same twenty dollar bill as earlier, a smug look on his face as he did so.

"okay... wow." you said as you began slow-clapping in awe. "i'm thoroughly impressed, spencer."

"thanks," he smiled shyly as he tucked the bill back into his pocket. "i've been doing magic since i was a kid. it's one of my hobbies when i'm we're not trying to catch serial killers," he shrugged.

"i'd say you've picked a good hobby," you chuckled. "i bet kids love it when you do them, huh?"

"yea, it's quite the entertainment for children," he nodded. "i love their reaction to it. it just makes me happy that i can bring a smile to their face."

"that, spencer, is fascinating," you complimented as the bartender handed you the drinks and spencer the food to take back to the table.

walking back was much easier than your journey to the bar, people actually making way for others with their hands full of refreshments. at least some people still had their manners.

"okay guys," you addressed as you began passing out the drinks, "here is your whiskey, jack and coke, and a tequila sunrise for pen."

"ouuu! i like the sound of that!" penny cheered as she took a sip of the drink, her eyes widening with delight.

"thank you, ma'am," derek thanked as he took a sip of his drink.

"absolutely perfect, y/n," emily relished in her beverage.

the rest of the night was fun. you laughed, joked, and danced with the girls. you even got to know spencer a bit more, much to your liking.

the next day you turned in your application, and was surprised when you got the job on the spot. you would begin your trial run in one week.

and you couldn't believe how fast that week went by, because as soon as you blinked, you were in the bullpen of the bau at your very own desk.

[gallus-rising]

setting: post-canon. title is lyric from Bird House In Your Soul (idk which one yet) (ok i started to ramble so under the cut)

Dimple gets GOT by some rando esper that deals w evil spirits (not Matsuo) the S&S gang are ofc upset bc rando is like "wow this one's p strong! good thing i caught it before it could hurt anyone :]" basically a well meaning guy and all that. rando has Dimple sealed in a jar or something bc they couldn't exorcise him. S&S are like. "ok but that's our friend??? can you let him out plz??" but rando is like "ah no sorry man :[ i pulled out all the stops for this one and was just gonna put it on my shelf or throw it into the ocean or w/e" they are able to convince rando to hand him over and get planning to Free Him (safely)

Mob is v upset. Tome is v upset. Reigen is v upset. we are all sad that our good friend Dimple is trapped in an Artifact. can't figure out what to do until Mob remembers, wait a sec! that claw guy (Matsuo) who was able to fuckin Get Mogami! maybe he knows stuff abt this sort of thing?

problem: no one has any idea how to contact Matsuo (i don't think they even know his name in canon?) so the Gang Splits Up to try to track him down. hitting up other former claws like "hey you know this guy based off a vague description?" trying to see if he's got a business or is affiliated w any "official" psychics. Tome method of just going people watching and Hope

but in the meantime multiple ppl are worried abt Dimple getting stolen or broken if left unsupervised for too long so they kinda pass him around? (kids + Seri can't watch him while at school. Reigen shouldn't have him w/o an esper around (minor angst on that???)) multiple PoV time babyyyyyy B] to see Dimple + Character relationship for various angles

Mob = that's his best friend :[ (who has died at least twice before his very eyes) Reigen = that's Also his best friend (but it's not as bad as Mob since he's never witnessed Dimple fucking Die) Seri = weirdo work friend who must be reliable if his boss + Mob (guy who shot him w the Friendship Laser) like him so much. Tome = work friend and LITTLE GUY!! Ristu = "i mean he gaslit me and tried to steal body but i was kinda acting up at the time and also he apologized so it's whatever". Teru = were it not for your friendship w Kageyama i would have slaughtered you. Shou(?) = yeah that's Ristu's Brother's Friend, ig i'll see if i know anyone who knows something

BUT ALSO! Dimple angst since he is only vaguely aware of what's going on outside and time is acting weird in there. he is an evil spirit who has done multiple Evil Things and is also kind of a dick most of the time. maybe everyone realized they don't care actually :[ but anyways when they get a hold of Matsuo that freak (affectionate) is deeply moved by all the fwiendship for ghost 🥺🥺

something?????

i'm gonna be real. i just need angst and character study and hurt/comfort and Dimple Hugs

hhhhhng Powerful mp100 genfic idea i'm having inspired by a twt thread i saw a few days ago but idk is i'm strong enough to actually WRITE IT!!!

[stuckwith-harry]

WOULD u rather ... forget the potter books and get to read them again OR have an 8th book come out that is guaranteed to fit right into the classics (as if it belongs there ... no worries abt being disappointed or frustrated .... not necessarily a post-dealthy hallows book, just an 8th that fits right in somehow). can't decide if this is a hard question or not but i'm hitting send give me your thoughts m'lady

… can i choose neither

i don’t really have an urge to wipe my memory and read the books for the first time again because then i’d lose memories of all the ways the past like, 11 or 12 years of my life were shaped by harry. everything from my taste in music, the way i spent my gap year, my most cherished hobby that became my dream job, all my most cherished relationships, all the best and the worst but specifically the best things in my life relate back to harry somehow. and it sounds dumb and cheesy but harry the character specifically has been such a guardian angel to me. core four have been guarding angels. reciting the motto of gryffindor house back to myself has pulled me through so often. one time i was steeling myself to go talk to a friend i’d been fighting with and when i swiped on my shuffled spotify neville’s theme came up. it’s just too important to get rid of and start over. i wouldn’t want to miss it. (the love club groupchat would not exist!!! i wouldn’t know you guys exist!!!)

but i’m also weirdly protective of it and even before we like, collectively divorced jkr, i HATED the idea of an 8th book. like the first few years after the series finished the rumour that we’d be getting an 8th novel would pop up again and every single time i actually got upset about it lol. i didn’t want the ending touched: it told me exactly what i wanted to know, that harry lived and had a family and built a happy life for himself, AND we got a fanfiction playground spanning almost two decades between the battle of hogwarts and the epilogue that we could fill to our heart’s desire. if you forced my hand i’d rather go for the 8th book i guess but i’m really really not fussed. at this point it’s so personal and special to me that i just want it to myself and everyone, specifically jkr, minus maybe 3 friends whose opinions i trust to just leave hp alone forever lol

[nrumtsu]

having meta or analysis or whatever swirling around in your head with no articulate way to express it is agonizing. I wish I could mind-meld with someone who could clearly understand what I'm trying to say and then say it for me. but I'm gonna try to write it all down anyway LOL I'm brainstorming for a comic or two so getting this out will help I think... ALSO THIS IS ALL PRE DUAL DESTINIES COS I HAVENT PLAYED THAT SHIT AND PROBABLY NEVER WILL…

since last night I've been chewing over the way a lot of people characterize phoenix and miles. phoenix as an emotional and sensitive person who wears his heart on his sleeve. and by contrast miles as cold and self... I wouldn't say centered, but focused?

but what I'm chewing on is the idea that maybe it's kind of the opposite? at least the further you get into the series.

phoenix is snarky, keeps a lot of his thoughts to himself, and tries to disengage from conversations that would make him emotional. in turnabout bigtop when miles is brought up, he's clearly upset with maya for talking abt it and is fairly aggressive when he tells her to stop mentioning him. and when he encounters iris, he won't tell anyone why he acts weird around her. and miles notes that he isn't surprised by phoenix's guarded behavior.

I mean he was betrayed by dahlia at a very young age. miles leaves at the end of the first game and was gone for a year, leaving phoenix to mourn over a death that didn't happen. and then there's obviously everything that happens in aa4 with kristoph. I think that was kind of a breaking point for him, which is why we see him portrayed very differently.

OR DO WE? like how different is he really from the phoenix we know in the trilogy? he certainly wouldn't present false evidence by choice before he was disbarred. but he's still clever and... hm. IDK what word to use but kind of keeps everything close to his chest. he doesn't give apollo an inkling of an idea of what's going on before turnabout succession. without hearing his inner commentary we're left with a damaged man, a man who struggles expressing his emotions and intentions.

that’s not to say he isn’t passionate! his passion propels him through every aspect of life. but… speaking from experience, when you keep things like your emotions and worries to yourself, you end up expressing those feelings and thoughts through other means. like anger, passion, fear… they’re easy to express because they can be so volatile and come up at any moment, and I find that they’re harder to suppress than other emotions.

OK ENOUGH ABOUT PHOENIX. let’s talk about mr. miles edgeworth. he’s written as no-nonsense, as though he finds all emotions to be trivial and distracting. this is probably true when he’s still under MVK’s “mentorship,” but that all changes once MVK is sent to death row. do I think he processes his emotions in a healthy way? definitely not at the beginning of his “freedom.” but he comes back at the end of justice for all, clearly changed, and while I think the way he expresses this to phoenix isn’t necessarily the healthiest… he at least expresses it.

he emphasizes that the truth is all he cares about now. I don’t think his pride disappeared, just changed. and he worries abt keeping up appearances, sure, but I think that at least with those he’s close to he strives to always be honest. I mean to be fair this is also the same man who told phoenix about his deepest darkest trauma within a few months of reuniting with him. I think at least in contrast to phoenix, he always strives to be honest, even if he doesn’t always express it well. also, not for nothing, he has given himself a lot of room to grow, whereas phoenix has kinda stayed in one place. physically and emotionally.

IDK WHAT DO I KNOW. just been thinking about this all a lot lately.