#i'm incapable of moving

[just-slightly-chayotic]

*sobbing into a pillow* i miss kimchay

[brown-little-robin]

I think I'm in the "conscious incompetence" stage of being a social animal in the real world and it sucks so majorly. bro what do you do after you realize you're bad at socializing and then in-person interaction gets harder because you know you're failing at it now.

[solarpunkani]

Minor W for the solarpunk zombie story, we finally reached the front gate of the town GOD BLESS

Already shoving other OCs into the project as minor characters

Now the problem.....

I am overthinking EVERYTHING

[bredforloyalty]

logically or cognitively or w/e i know i'm not insane but then why do i get the sense that i am

[borgialucrezia]

these parts are from two different books (the first part is from the borgias: blood & beauty by sarah dunant, and the second part is from sins of the house of borgia sarah bower) and i gotta say, the babygirlification of juan borgia is so real!! he's an it girl and we love to see it 🙏

[fweakish]

she encourages my bad posture by resting on the curvature of my lower back while i'm at my desk.

[july-19th-club]

*claims to be devotee of the wild*

*despises winter, objectively wildest season given that it is the time when the land is largely left to its own devices and none but the most hardcore human people venture past the most heated and domesticated parts of the world)*

[hsslilly-blog]

source

[punkrockisafulltimejob]

Bleh

[distopea]

Sorry for ghosting messages on discord and such these days...

To be honest, I'm not okay. Really not okay, but I have to cope with it and move on, move forward, and it's difficult. I'm going through three weeks of nightmare, dealing with an exhausting personal situation that drains me emotionally, physically and mentally. I feel that my energy is incredibly low, sporadic, and this is quite chaotic to handle.

I'm also... Not very much able to deal with people's issues as well, and the slight negativity makes me run away from discord because I just can't cope. I'm usually a very good listener and I don't mind when you come chat about what you're going through, but these days, I feel that for my own good I need to save that empathy of mine and shelter myself to get better.

That being said, my activity on tumblr will be matching my current moods. Sometimes I'm overly focus, sometimes I'm a void with nothing inside. Things will get better, but I just require a bit of patience 🖤 and understanding... Thank you all.

[ladyseidr]

guy who abandoned u without a word when things got Rough and then shows back up at 20 years old ( pictured ) to "apologize" but he's still not over the weird will-they-won't-they relationship u once had

[tvckerwash]

hmmm I'm thinking about wash's stance on the training accident and I think it would be so funny if he gave maine a lecture about it afterwards

[thedreadvampy]

idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

[hangingslothcentral]

whenever i start a new project, i find myself going on a little journey across the internet looking for advice on starting new projects. i know how to do it, but i'm always curious about other people's ideas. most of the stuff i read is aimed at new creators who don't know how to get things off the ground at all.

one thing that strikes me about it is that there isn't really any consensus about how to start something, and i think that's really great! there's a million ways to approach a problem, and (short of solutions which harm or exploit others) none of them are wrong if they're the one that's working best for you.

still, a significant number of the articles i read position themselves as having The Answer for how to make a thing. i think a lot of people sorta feel they have to frame their advice like this in order to give the impression that they know what they're talking about.

sometimes as i'm reading i get gripped with a sense of panic about it, a feeling of 'oh no i'm doing things WRONG', or concern that two ideas about new approaches which I've found would be interesting to try cannot be applied at the same time to the same project.

but! advice between one article and the next isn't necessarily going to carry over or map on perfectly. many pieces of advice about starting projects is going to be contradictory based on your sources. it makes me wonder how many people get caught in a loop of trying to take ALL the advice, even when it would be impossible to do so.

sometimes ripping out your whole process and starting from the ground up is the best thing you can do, creatively, but in many circumstances, taking the pieces of advice which will most meaningfully help you redirect your existing skills whilst leaving behind the things that don't serve you? that's also a valid and worthwhile thing to do!

drawing on the knowledge and experience of others is an important practice whatever stage you're at in your life as a creator of things. learning new methods and techniques can help you develop your own practice and sharing knowledge is incredibly important. just remember that there are many ways to solve the same problem, and part of what makes your creations unique are your approaches as an individual. it is impossible to take all of the advice! do continue to seek it out, and also know that you're not disrespecting it by deciding it's not something which will help.

above all, keep creating stuff!

--- Eira xxx

[aromanticannibal]

it's so funny that apparently cartilage piercings are supposed to hurt more than other piercings but my ear cartilage piercing didn't hurt at all while my snake bites made me pass out and my cheek piercings are. they sure are

[stereax]

woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way

but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D

anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎