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KISS IT BETTER !
ao'nung x metkayina reader.
a/n — sorry guys it's been a reallyyy rough past few days some shit has gone down but here's a lil drabble while i finish a fic 🫶 / also they're like 18 in this for sake of plot !
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To say you and Ao'nung didn't get along would be an understatement.
You two always argued, no matter how little or how big. From the way your hair was done, to who couldn't hold their breath as long, who was better on an ilu, you name it.
Though, despite you not being able to see eye to eye with him, you were always close with his younger sister. You were attached to the hip ever since children, and you spent practically your whole lives with each other, pretty much growing up together. You also grew close with her family, spending many dinners over at her marui.
So of course, you always had to see her brother.
Tsireya wasn't blind. Pretty much anyone could see the way you two acted around each other. And if they couldn't see it, they could certainly hear it. There wasn't a minute you could be in the same vicinity as each other and not throw insults at each other.
However, nobody really knows how or why you're like that. It's almost as if you were born into the world and just decided to hate each other.
And so you're sitting in between Tsireya's legs, her doing a new hairstyle for your hair and you whining about her brother once more. "I just don't get it," you complained, huffing in annoyance. "He really thinks he can insult me with a face like that! 'You'll never be able to get a boyfriend looking like that, y/n'," you gruffly mimicked, inaccurately impersonating his voice. "As if he's any better! Like you're the one who can't keep a girlfriend. He's projecting, I'm telling you."
Pulling extra tight on a certain braid you yelped, glaring over your shoulder. "Y/n, you seriously have a problem," Tsireya stated, sighing. "I mean if you really hate my brother so much, just don't talk to him. You both are around each other a lot for people who claim to hate each other so much."
"It's not my fault!" You quickly replied. "I swear, he's everywhere. I want to go clear my mind and go for a swim? He's already there. I want to feed the ilus? Apparently he was planning on going on a ride. I want to stop by and have dinner with my best friend? He-"
"Lives there, Y/n. He lives there," Tsireya finished for you. "I'm just saying. He may be my brother, but if he pisses you off that much you don't have to talk to him. He's good at riling people up. Especially you." She commented, finishing your hair and patting your shoulder lightly for you to turn around.
"He could piss anyone off with the things he says," You grumbled, shoulders drooping when you fell under Tsireya's disapproving gaze. "Fine. I'll try to not let him get to me. Starting now."
"Oh that's lovely, because he's right behind you."
"What-"
"Hi sister," he paused, eyes glancing to you in distaste. "Y/n."
"Ao'nung." You acknowledged him blandly, trying to take your friend's advice and not be disturbed by his mere presence.
"Mother wants you home for dinner," He continued, letting out a sigh before going on. "They invited you too." He finished, not sparring a glance your way before turning around and walking back.
"That went better than expected." Tsireya grinned, grabbing your arm and taking you to her own marui.
"Wait until dinner."
Dinner was going better than expected. You and Ao'nung hadn't argued yet, considering you chose to ignore him and he did the same. Your parents had joined the dinner as well, so you had no other choice but to be respectful.
Your calm nature soon disappeared as you heard the words coming from your parents mouths.
"What?" You exclaimed in disbelief, Tsireya sitting next to you with a shocked expression.
"Really, we think it's for the best."
"No offense or anything, but have you met Ao'nung? I can barely stay in the same room with him, nevertheless spend the rest of my life with him!" You complained, ignoring the stern looks from your parents. "It won't work. Me and Ao'nung, we don't work well together."
"For once, I agree." The boy finally spoke, not looking up from the table.
"Y/n, Ao'nung, I know this is unexpected, but we've all talked about it. You would make a great mate for Ao'nung. We'd like you two to be mated soon before Ao'nung chooses a girl us or the clan would not approve of."
You noticed how his jaw clenched at the comment, yet he stayed silent. You closed your eyes, trying to accept your fate. When you both fell silent, everyone got up and started to exit the room. "We'll give you two some privacy."
You watched as they all left out the marui, turning towards the male. "Why didn't you say anything?"
"It's my mother, I doubt anything I would've said would have made a difference."
"Of course it would! You're her son!"
"You're just so stubborn, aren't you?" Ao'nung suddenly shouted, standing up now. "Thinking you can have everything your way? We have duties, y/n. Grow up."
"Clearly, I'm the only one who's thinking rationally right now! How can you be willing to spend the rest of your life with someone you can't stand?"
"Well like it or not, it's happening. Deal with it, because you're not going to change our parents' minds."
"I can't believe you," you scoffed. "I hope they don't expect me to love you. I can't see who would." You walked out furiously, stomping back towards your own marui.
"Oh, you're one to talk!"
The next few days you two kept your separate ways, but both of you knew your parents wouldn't let it stay like that. They'd practically set up a date for you guys, claiming it's so you could 'settle the feud'.
So you woke up, already in a bad mood, putting minimal effort into getting ready. You headed outside your marui, grumbling what sounded like a farewell to your parents, blood boiling at the sight of the boy who was waiting for you on the beach.
"Y/n." He gruffly greeted you, not meeting your eye.
"Ao'nung." You acknowledged him back, mind drifting back to the other night. Were you too harsh with your words? It was possible you could've gotten caught up in the heat of the moment, and if you were forced to spent the rest of your life with him, you should at least try to be civil.
"...how are you?" You inwardly cringed at yourself, making an awkward attempt to make conversation.
He sent a questioning look your way, realizing what you were doing. He almost wanted to laugh at how out of place you looked. He decided to play along, for whatever reason. "Okay. You?"
"I'm good."
The both of you didn't talk much for the rest of the day, but you didn't argue either, so maybe you were showing signs of improvement. You walked along the beach quietly, the occasional tight-lipped smile, or a hum in response to one of your or his attempts to make some small talk.
Your hangouts usually went like that, you'd greet each other and walk, tension so thick you could cut it with a knife. You were too scared to say anything about it, or change the newly made routine, until Ao'nung seemingly had enough.
"Y/n," he sighed out tiredly, stopping and turning to face you fully. "This isn't helping us at all. All we're trying to do is not argue every time we're around each other. We're not fixing anything, hell, we're probably making it worse. Even if we can't love each other, shouldn't we be able to get to know one another?"
You stood silent for a moment, considering his offer. "I hate it when you're right," you deadpanned, dropping the 'nice' act. "It's just so irregular. Why would I want to be stuck with you?"
"Cmon, I struck peace and you're insulting me?" He teased, flashing a rare grin to you.
"Stop smiling, people are gonna start thinking you want to be around me." You told him, walking off.
Ao'nung went after you, chuckling to himself. "I won't make it a habit then!"
To everyone's surprise, you were finally starting to get along. You acted like friends, even if neither of you would necessarily admit it. You were spending your time with Tsireya, deeming you'd spent too much time with her brother.
"I can't believe I actually saw you smiling in the vicinity of Ao'nung." She teased, laughing once you rolled your eyes.
"Oh shut up. We're basically going to be with each other for eternity, we had to stop hating each other at some point."
"He was talking about you the other day at dinner, actually. If I didn't know any better I'd say he's taken a liking to you."
"Absolutely not!" You denied, shaking your head. "We're not like that. Like at all. We're just friends now, okay? We don't see each other that way."
"Whatever you say."
What the two of you didn't notice, however, was that the boy heard the two of you talking, heart slightly sinking. Could you really not tell how he felt?
And oddly enough, he felt even more determined to prove how he did.
To your shock, Ao'nung started making advances towards you during your scheduled hang outs. They were subtle, but you noticed the slight flirting, or how his touch would linger on you longer than usual.
You didn't think much of it however, considering you just went from enemies to friends in the span of maybe two weeks. You were right to do so, when you spotted him with another girl one day.
When you first saw them, you really could've cared less. Ao'nung was popular, and knew many people. If he had friends who were girls, it didn't matter. Everyone knew you were each others promised mates, and the word quickly spread since people knew of your dislike for each other.
You trusted Ao'nung, he was not only your betrothed but your duties were to each other, and he wasn't dumb enough to try and change that.
At least you thought.
Their second interaction, you saw the same girl, Mau. She was a sweet girl, you knew her through Tsireya. You watched quietly from afar as the two talked animatedly, large smiles and their laughter heard from where you stood. You hid behind a smaller palm tree, it's leaves shielding you from their view.
You couldn't quite hear what their conversation was, so you settled for just watching. You were shocked when she pressed a kiss to his cheek, and how he turned purple in response. You denied how you felt your heart drop to your stomach, and deemed that their conversation should be private and hurried to leave.
In the midst of rushing out you accidentally walked right into one of the leaves, your lip getting cut in the process. "Oh, fuck." You cursed underneath your breath, hoping no one could see you leave. You sprinted away to another part of the beach, moving over to the marui near the ilus.
Ao'nung squinted his eyes at the sight of someone running away, thinking it oddly resembled you. A wave of adrenaline quickly hit him when he realized you might have seen Mau, and he jumped up in panic. "I'm so sorry, I have to go." He excused himself, rushing after you.
He found you with the ilus, smiling when he heard you talking nonsense to them. He cleared his throat, "You seriously have got to make some new friends."
You froze at his voice, almost turning around but realizing he'd see the wound on your lip. You stayed in place, back turned to him as you kept feeding the creatures. "Don't be salty I have more friends than you, even if they can't talk."
"In your dreams, hun," He teased, sitting down next to you, confused when you turned away from him. Concerned, and a little scared you saw his previous interaction, his head followed yours, trying to meet your eyes. "What's wrong?"
You pursed your lips, turning around and eyes widening when you realized how close his face was to yours. Afraid of talking and showing him your cut you only shrugged, shaking your head.
"Why are you holding your lips like that?" He questioned, making you hot with panic. "It makes you look even more stupid."
"Oh just shut up." You mumbled, figuring there was no way out of this. You lowered your head, but not before he could see your wound.
"What happened?"
You really just wanted to let the ocean swallow you whole.
"I ran into a tree."
"While eavesdropping?" He laughed, seeing the way your head quickly perked up, the caught look on your face.
"I didn't- I mean-"
"Oh don't worry, I know you were just questioning my loyalty. I mean with a face like this, there's loads of girls after me. Had to break many hearts knowing I was promised to you."
"Keep telling yourself that. And if I was testing your loyalty, you definitely failed. Not that I mind, but who lets other girls kiss them when they're promised to someone else?"
"If you're jealous, just say that," he simply shrugged, smirking at you. "I turned Mau down, by the way. Told her I was already to be mated with another."
"Oh," you couldn't help but let out a breath of relief. "Your parents will be happy to hear that."
Rolling his eyes at your ability to not take a hint, he only sighed. "Yeah, sure."
Ao'nung then refocused on your lips, looking at the cut. "You know, we should really do something about that."
"It doesn't hurt that much."
"You should let me kiss it better."
"What?" You exclaimed, looking at him incredulously.
"You heard me."
Not bothering to hear your response his lips pressed against yours gently, in fear of making the cut any worse. His hand came to rest against your jaw as his lips moved slowly. You felt him smile against you before he quickly pecked your lips again, pulling away with a smug look. "Feel any better?"
"I'm not sure, you might have to kiss it better again."
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a/n — I FINALLY POSTED AGAIN. WRITERS BLOCK IS A BITCH.
#aonung fluff#aonung angst#avatar x reader#avatar#ao'nung#aonung x reader#ao'nung x y/n#ao'nung x reader#ao'nung x you#avatar fluff#aonung#avatar imagine#avatar angst#avatar fic#i'm sorry if this is dogshit#i'm going through a slump#like i couldn't WRITE
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🔖 pictures from the family photo album
#ts4#sims 4#daithí lore drop while kmiks on break <3#i've got brainrot#i gotta go back through my blog and make character tags soon#don't look at the hammer in pic 2#i didn't do the uv properly when i converted it to accessory#its a bit warped but it'll do#also shan i got your ask thank you for sending it <3<3 sorry i didn't reply yet#i've gotta travel to a neighboring county for a few days and i'm in a bit of a slump about it#i wanted to add more to this post but i also wanted to post it before i left#so here it is#this is queued i'm not gonna be around for the next week or so <3#/daithí
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Save me new Emu card...new Emu card save me
Gave up on the background so I just blurred the card behind it, looks very fugly but oh well
Original card! She looks so pretty
#digital art#fanart#art#project sekai#emu otori#hatsune miku colorful stage#project sekai colorful stage#pjsk#prsk#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#been going through a bit of a slump#sorry it looks bad#really wish i had the motivation to make a background but I'm not motivated enough
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tim "i'm not trying to be romantic" → gets his girlfriend a 1st place trophy before she even takes the detectives exam because he believes in her so much, and then writing in a little '7' next to it after she notified him that she didn't do as well as she had hoped SEEMS PRETTY FUCKING ROMANTIC TO ME.
#*carly#ik i said i was gonna go on a little hiatus cause i'm currently working through a little depresive slump but.....#that doesn't mean i missed out on tonight's ep especially since it's actually a really good source of serotonin for me it's my fave show 🥺#and my brain couldn't help but make that parallel from that scene after lucy giggled like 'this is cute you did good'#HAD TO RATTLE THIS OUT OF MY HEAD AND SHARE IT WITH YA'LL#the rookie#4x22#6x03#tim bradford#lucy chen#chenford#otp: you know me so well#AND TO THINK BACK TO S2 TIM WHEN HE WAS DATING RACHEL AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR HER BIRTHDAY SDDZFRTYGHJKL#HE HAS COME SO INCREDIBLY FAR#i mean we all know he secretly got game.....#he just never showed off those smooth moves as much in his other relationships cause he never felt really attached to them#BUT THIS IS LUCY WE'RE TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THAT'S HIS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#HE LOVES HER AND WANTS THE WHOLE DAMN THING WITH HER#A HOUSE BABIES GRANDBABIES ALL OF IT#sorry i made the connection and it made my brain go buzzerk#ttfn ta ta for now 👋
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Nico: Oh, I don't have enough to pay rent *undoes first button of shirt* Percy: *Unbuckles belt* Well, I'm sure we can reach an agreement... Jason: We're playing Monopoly, keep your clothes on!
#Percico#incorrect quotes#I'm going through a creative slump#so have a low quality shitpost#not my own idea#but this one just made me think of them#they are half-serious half-trolling Jason btw
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Does anyone have any good stand alone fantasy book recs?
#I'm more than halfway through the book I'm currently reading and don't have my next one planned#which always stresses me out because I'm always afraid if I don't already know exactly what I'm going to read next after I finish one#I'm going to be too indecisive and fall into a reading slump
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//with rays ending service, I've been doing a bit more research into the plot for rays (since I can't read a lot of it bc language barrier) but I'm definitely going to be adding two rays verses to flynns page (one normal Flynn and one with baldo possessing Flynn) so
I'm adding a teeny tiny baldo muse to this blog bc flynns possession arc FASCINATES me
The verse page will be updated when I finish rebuilding it
#;;ooc#also apologies for lack of replies and activity#been going through a tiny little slump but I'm trying to get over it#the rays verse muse is more awake than ever tho fr fr
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he's tired.
#ffxiv#ffxiv screenshots#ff14#emet selch#shadowbringers#shadowbringers spoilers#ffxiv shadowbringers#i'm doing a ng+ and i went through OBSESSIVELY watching his microexpressions here#the man is. so exhausted. so depressed. the only thing keeping him going is his duty#he isn't acting here anymore. this is all so raw and so real#the slump when he walks. the weight he carries#and there's azem right in front of him never quite seeing him#ughhhhhh. i love him so much. i am not over him. i want him back#he would've made a great companion i'm telling you.
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#i've been trying to tidy on the days when i don't feel motivated to do anything#so i'm at least building a space that invites in good feelings#sometimes you go through little slump periods#but that doesn't mean they're empty#they're just a different season#and i'm growing under the surface like a seed#studyblr#light academia#pretty spaces#classic literature#jane austen#emma#productivity#motivation#study spaces
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I just have to get through this week → I just have to get through this week → I just have to get through this week → I just have to get through this week
#📜.qi texts#how is it already the start of the 4th week of school#I think I'm going through the Start of Uni Slump where everyone hates uni for the first sem and is overwhelmed#ugh my to-do lists are getting longer and longer......#it's so over#I WANT OUT !!!!!!!
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i really have missed writing xue yang though. he's one of those characters where i can just sit down and black out and an hour and a half later there's 3 new scenes in the word doc and it's a tossup whether they'll be hilarious, heartwrenching, or horrifying. i don't have to come up with any of it he just does that for me
#aphelion.txt#i used to think it was kind of silly how a lot of RPers call their chosen character their 'muse'#nah man. some characters are just like that.#xue yang#xy#curiously enough chara undertale also does this for me#if i'm in a bad enough writing slump i go write something stupid about chara to unstick myself and it works every time#'Murder Gremlin slash Poor Little Meow Meow' just does something unfathomable to my brain apparently#ok if you read through all these tags you get a reward#did you know i have a really bad habit of writing cringey crossovers with chara that i dont post anywhere#well technically the first time i wrote xue yang pov#before starting kmsa#was actually. it actually#IT WAS CHARA AND KID XUE YANG HANGING OUT LMAOOOOOOO#the doc is titled 'grandmaster of demonic children' and honestly im still kinda proud of that joke#but i cant tell anyone bc. the cringe
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sometimes I'll remember that official marvel/DC comics have done werewolf 'AU' stories and I become less embarrassed of Abomination
#I think I'm having another art slump. I mean technically it hasnt been very long but for a few days ive just been..#disappointed with my skill and I'm considering taking a break from posting art until I get it how I want it#I like my style dont get me wrong but it feels super underdeveloped to me right now#of course it wont look exactly how i imagine it. but I'm thinking it could look close to it if I take some time to really work on it yknow#+ I won't hold myself to that standard exactly because it would only end up stressing me out. I still want drawing to be *fun*#but I'd also like to be satisfied with what's produced#if I go through w/ said break I may still post the things I *do* like. The decision is pending though. I still like posting a lot lmao#<- tags that have absolutely nothing to do with the actual post#anyway. I'm saying all this under this text in particular because I've been wanting to draw more Abomination#but am currently shackled by my current confidence. yep. thats what the tags were leading to
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mutuals did you know i love you so so much
#ooc; onion girl enthusiast#((ITS TRUE))#((GAH I FEEL HIT WITH THAT END OF YEAR GRATITUDE I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE))#((JUST..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BLESSING ME WITH YOUR WRITING AND YOUR CHARACTERS))#((THE DYNAMICS WE BUILD THROUGH PLOTTING OR ON THE FLY GENUINELY MAKE ME SO HAPPY I LOVE THESE STORIES WE GET TO CREATE TOGETHER))#((I GOTTA STOP YELLING. BUT I WONT))#((EVEN WHEN I'M NOT WRITING BC IM IN A SLUMP OR IRL THINGS IT BRINGS ME PEACE JUST TO SEE YOU ALL ON THE DASH AND I CANT THANK YOU ENOUGH))#((THAT INCLUDES YOU GUYS THAT I'M YET TO WRITE WITH TOO))#((MWAH!!!))#((MAN. I GOTTA GO TO BED SORRY FOR YELLING AT YOU))
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I've been working on my pieces for near's bday event and in the process I've come to realize I like drawing mello 🕴️
#elle is talking again#I've completed only one illustration so far and mello's in it#I especially like drawing him with his scar#speaking of that piece it took way longer than I anticipated 😭#my fault for being a bit too ambitious with some of these but 🤷#I've had all the thumbnails done for like over a week now I think my art is just going through another slump so I'm getting slowed down :'#BUT we will persevere#for near's bday 🙏#I feel like I need a support group or smthn like someone kinda needs to kick my ass so I get these done in time
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oh God. oh f*ck just realizing Ji Yong didn't collapse from the blood loss until he made sure Heon was alright. was still alive. oh f*ck i'm going to lose it
#tv: vigilante#vigilante#vigilante kdrama#nam joo hyuk#yoo ji tae#kim so jin#lee joon hyuk#kdrama#local gay watches Vigilante.txt#local gay watches k-dramas.txt#he sort of like slumps against the railing right. and Heon does the same and Ji Yong sees him and they just. look at each other#Ji Yong is asking all the questions his mouth cannot and Heon is answering them and then all of the fight drains out of him. every#drop of adrenaline leaves and he lets go#a man banging his head against the wall isn't a bad way to go as long as those who loved him made it out i'm??????? throwing up????????#love as violence love as claws out and teeth bared love as everything has to go through you to get to them shut up. shut up#i can't f*cking do this anymore
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ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏
#haunted ecosystem#i'll take a burst of creativity in a different form than usual than the burnout slump i've been in for a few months#<- part of why my fandom stuff has taken a smidge of a backseat#dont get me wrong i am still very excited about my fandoms im just having fun off in oc hell (affectionate)#its nice to just be able to create and not really worry about perception. and also i feel Less bad about just throwing ocs into the wringer#((blame the fact i've been REALLY interested in whump recently and i have been. fixated. on one of my characters.))#and ALSO i've been! rekindling my flame for wtds. i've been putting off thinking about it since that fic got.#nothing bad happened? but it was still very devastating that somebody who i considered a friend from that fic just. evaporated.#but i'm gonna finish that fic for him :) even if it takes a year. even if it's the one thing i finish ever. it'll be wtds.#for where its gotten me and the fact its what got me out of my shell and is the reason i trust that my writing is good!#i used to really hate rereading my work. i catch flaws that are obvious to me. but that fic. i just think about how *good* the story is#that story means. a lot to me? as a person? like the main character is not a good person. but people care about him anyway.#and there are so many little things. so many sentiments. so much that is a love letter to people who've done bad but learnt to do better#because. god knows i wasnt a good person even just a few years ago. and maybe i see myself in him a bit.#he came from a place of paranoia and fear and pain. and maybe its a good thing that i've found it difficult to write him recently.#because god. i've been HAPPY. even with the rough moments and bad days. i've been happy. i mean fuck.#my birthday's what. ten days away? god damn man. i'm going to be 18. that's an achievement.#i want to look the kid who thought it was over at half my age and tell him we fucking made it. and there are more years to come.#there's a life ahead. even if it's going to be a bitch. even if it's going to be tough. there's love in your heart and people who care and#you're going to fucking live and you're going to feel better one day. you have people to meet properly and thank and cherish.#because for every day it feel like the world's ending there are a dozen more where the sun shines just the right way through the rain#and you can't help but smile because it's just so god damn beautiful.#and fuck it. you're sick. your hands hurt and your legs don't work right. and it's tough sometimes. but you have people who understand.#you have people who honest to god love you for who you are and appreciate your company. and 18 is the first step.#you've spent half your life unlearning things and you've spent half your life relearning how to be what YOU want to be#and if you're a mediocre artist and passionate writer then you'll be fucking great at that. taking the time to learn when it strikes you.#and maybe this is for me. but its also for anybody reading it too. please god if there's one thing you take from this let it be that#somebody out there cares. *I* care. god i care. even if we've never spoken proper i care about you.#i practically have a list of everybody i see in my inbox. i love seeing familiar names show up. i.#i dont know how to neatly wrap up this tag ramble. but. i am so damn full of love it hurts sometimes. its scary to be happy but thats ok!
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