#i'm going crazy

[novacaene]

everything I do is cringey and I'm okay with it

[bsdtual]

This looks a little too much like the ability that killed Kyouka's parents... Asagiri you wouldn't, right??

[thatstoomanysausages]

Does anyone ever think really hard about Grian's inability to team? To stick with the same people he'd allied with at first after it shows the slightest hint of going downhill? Or about everyone's knowledge to be weary with teaming with Grian as he's notoriously disloyal with his teammates?

Cause the gutting thing is, he isn't. He isn't disloyal. He doesn't have an inability. In fact, I'd argue he is one of the few people who are tragically loyal to a fault, at least in most cases.

In Last Life, although he killed both Jimmy and Mumbo, he still felt the need to return to his allies after he'd turned red, feeling betrayed when they threw him out for being red. After that, he stuck with Joel and didn't dare betray him.

In Double Life, although he cheated on Scar and constantly complained, he stuck by Scar almost obsessively. His aim to protect him, even if he said it was for his own benefit, was painful. He didn't try to leave Scar behind like Cleo or Scott, he didn't try to sever the bond between him and Scar, nothing. It was almost like he was desperate.

In Limited Life, he was beyond loyal to his boys. He was loyal until the very end. And although he immediately switched to join the Nosy Neighbours, he didn't try to team with anyone permanently until Jimmy and Joel were dead. His silence when he realised he was truly the last Bad Boy was deafening. He hid his grief by saying that he had a backup team, just to save face, even though he built a gravestone for both boys and grieved them meaningfully.

In Secret Life, it wasn't as if he was fine with having no allied, like someone would be if they truly didn't care for loyalty, he was desperate once again. Having no teammates later in the game would hurt him, yes, but his desperation felt lonely, not power hungry. He didn't dare betray Etho nor Cleo, and stuck by them until the end. He was losing his mind on his hill before he teamed with the two, he needed to have close allies to depend on.

Now, in Wild Life, Mumbo is out of the series and Grian goes to say he needs to find some more friends, even with Skizz still around. Now, I don't think this is a power play thing, it's a desperation thing. He's hiding his grief by pretending everything is fine because if it wasn't he'd be vulnerable. For the past couple sessions, he had been working tirelessly to help get Skizz a kill so he could get off of being a red life, even to his own detriment.

Grian doesn't half ass teams. He will not team with everyone. However, he gets vulnerable when the ones that he connects to die.

Because that's how it went about in 3rd Life. He allied with Scar throughout the whole game, it starting simply because Grian felt guilty about what he'd done to Scar. He felt guilty. He stuck with him the whole game, undying loyalty, and all it ended in was him standing at the top with his best friend's blood drying on his hands.

To him, being loyal to someone like he was in 3rd Life ended badly. So, to avoid that, he found a way to still stay teamed with people, but not be left at the top of that mountain again, alone, even if his teammates die.

But so far, the curse keeps following him. He will always outlive his teammates. And this season is following the pattern, again, Mumbo dying right in front of his eyes, so close, yet so far. Always in a distance where he could've done something different, and he'd still have a teammate.

He may move from person to person, but only when they are dead or reject him. He is the forever Widow, cursed to always face his consequences, over and over and over again.

[nanashiii]

Some chaotic screenshots from the Xiaohongshu app:

[einschlunz]

is it casual now?

[spectrumos]

I have to say I love miquella. I adore his aspirations and desire to relieve the suffering of others.

but he has suicide bomb soldiers in the Haligtree!

I aint TRUSTING someone who can charm people and has fucking SUICIDE BOMBERS. No matter what justification you have for that! Whether they figured out how to do that on their own, or Miquella just intended to give them a blessing, or whatever you can think of.

A leader who commands that level of belief and fanaticism, whether intentional or not, NEEDS to look in a fucking mirror.

LIKE, HOLY FUCK

Soldiers shouldn't WANT to sacrifice their lives! A kind leader would want them to try to fucking survive, yeah?

I know I couldn't stand the idea that someone, BECAUSE of their belief in our cause, or worse their belief in ME!? would choose to MARTYR themselves rather than run!

the suicide bombers were in the Haligtree! Miquella only shed pieces of himself AFTER cocooning! which means the soldiers became like this either before or during his cocooning.

Edit: I've taken a closer look at the haligtree soldier ashes and it says they only started exploding after he'd been gone for a long time.

But anyway, that shit was BEFORE the dlc!

acting like Shadow of the Erdtree was a straight up lie, a retcon, and betrayal of the previous writing on Miquella is honestly very fucking irritating.

It's a consistent expansion on his character! Someone who's so desperate to do the right thing that they're utterly blind to the folly of the actions they've taken along the way, or FAR worse, rationalizes and justifies them?

Someone who's childhood taught him that nobody could be trusted to help him if they're not loyal to his cause. maybe too loyal.

screaming

Additionally, the defense of Miquella's charm being "he used it in an ethical way" is fucking laughable and I utterly hate it.

That power is unethical.

Full. Stop.

Coercion is already evil. (our society does it all the time.)

And directly influencing someone's mind in a way they literally cannot resist (the only person who could resist it was the tarnished because we got his great rune) is far worse.

No person, god, or BEING can just use a power like that ethically. The power to do that is a temptation in and of itself.

Try to look at things from an angle of power imbalance, will yah? There's a reason power corrupts etc. is a saying.

Whenever a person holds great power, no matter how pure their intentions, they will misuse it and cause suffering.

Which is why I could never willingly let Miquella become a god. I'd sooner see him dead than that, because there's no way he could possibly make himself "pure" enough by removing fucking pieces of his very self!

A god who never feels doubt, indecision, fear, and love?

That's just a tyrant with even more tyranny than before!

A leader HAS to doubt their actions! If they cannot doubt, there's no room for anyone to protest their decisions!

The options, given his powers, are coercion, literally either killing those who resist, or fucking brainwashing them!

in the end, this game, and this dlc, are

A

FUCKING!

TRAGEDY!

ALWAYS HAS BEEN.

Rant over. Sorry if this hurt anyone's feelings, I'm just so irritated it's turned to anger, and I NEEDED to let it out.

[foreverurs222]

It's ridiculous how much I crush on him. I can never have him anyway, but I just can't get him out of my head. I think about him every day, it's soooo stupidddd. he's my absolute dream, I'm making a fool of myself!!

[mochimichael]

STANLEY PINES WITH A SLIGHTLY YOUNGER BF AISGSJJDB

He bites his lip, a bit nervous about bottoming for the first time. He doesn't wanna seem soft in his old age. But when you're so gentle with him, preping him so he can take you real good, he just melts. With your soft encouragement and praise, he stops holding back moans and whimpers. The way his callused hands tighten around the bedsheets when you first push in, the way he clenches around you. He cums so fast and is so embarrassed, poor baby. He mumbles something about his old age, but the real reason is that you just fill him up so good, he just can't help it.

[ehcahache]

WHY HAS NO ONE POSTED THIS HERE YET???

[pamqz]

Ok, so Edward's mom and Bruce's mom were once in the same place????? (Arkham Asylum)

I'm getting a little delusional guysss sorry , a lot of coincidence

Matt Reeves what do u mean???

[millleti]

you think it will be a normal day until Ferrari decides otherwise

THE CONTRAST + 🌶🍌 COLOURS PLEASE

[kidconsky]

Heiji still thinks about the "kiss" with Kaito

[smtx-736]

okay I may be biased and this will sound so wrong to the whole psych fandom but I really really let this out. But Henry Spencer wasn't that terrible of a dad.

Yes he was a bad dad, but he isn't as horrible as people make him up to be. He's as flawed as we are, and it brings a sort of realistic dimension to his character. But that's not the point. He loves Shawn, and he thought the best way to raise him was through survival skills and trying to raise him to become like him. Obviously it was flawed, which only worsened once Shawn's mother left. He's probably really terrible at being emotionally supportive, which created a wall between them. Shawn getting arrested didn't help, and Henry moving out of Santa Barbara created just more distance. After Shawn started psych, their progress of a healthier relationship was REALLY slow, but deep down they still had love and care for each other. In the episodes where Shawn gets kidnapped and SantaBarbara2 (or something like that) really shows it. So if Shawn still had that care for his dad, somewhere along the line Henry might have done something right in his part. He did what he thought was best, which wasn't the best way (obviously) but there was love. So yeah.

Sorry guys I probably should stop yapping.

[c2-eh]

Carlos and Charles in Don't Blink EP3 Season 4

[junviadinho]

i just saw a tweet saying that THIS IS HOW MARK LEE LOOK AT YOU WHILE YOU RIDE HIS DICK I'm going crazy.

PLEASE SOMEONE WRITE ABOUT THIS AND TAG ME

[foreverurs222]

ughhh... yeah ok, whatever you say 💞