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#no more power naps#I need a coma#don't we all bert#I know I do#I'm constantly exhausted#no amount of power naps will change that#if I could be in a medically induced coma for like a week I think that might solve my exhaustion#but oh well#I have responsibilities#so I can not be in a medically induced coma#too bad#bo burnham#bert gifs#bo burnham inside#bo burnham make happy#bo burnham what#robert pickering burnham#egghead#inside bo burnham#happy sunday#have a good week bertgif nation
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Good Morning, World.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jiang cheng#'Good Morning World' because to wwx the jiang household is what grounds him. It is his burrow and blanket.#The familiar soup and banter is his home. The familiar arguments and tension are also his home.#Notice how quickly he throws LWJ to the side once he has JC back in reach! 'He was so boring; I wish *you* were there!'#WWX is very quick to constantly remind himself that he fits within a very specific power structure and role.#He pushes boundaries but almost always only the boundaries that he knows he can push against.#Sitting here now and realizing that if WWX did take life more seriously and act more diligent he would totally usurp JC.#Because the contrast with Them (tm) is wwx is the one that gets in trouble and JC is the one that sticks to the rules.#That responsible appearance especially in contrast is the thin line that holds JC's self-esteem together.#And lets be fully honest. From JC's perspective the last week was also extremely intense and stressful.#It truly was a feat to travel so far so fast despite also being exhausted. Never knowing if it is all in vain.#JC said with his actions 'I would move mountains for you and dig through stone with my bare hands if it meant reaching you.'#and WWX said '[read]'#It's about wwx chronically asking 'why would someone care for me? I'm always tool to be used' than accepting that people love him.
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Did you see the clip of Joe yesterday?
Is it a clip now? Oh lord....was it funny at least?
It was the first time he ever used the F word in a conference.
He cursed? Y'all lying...I be trying to get him to curse, he don't curse when I'm talking to him...
#again love love loveeee this style of press conference where they get joe to talk about ja'marr a lot the first day#then report everything he said back to ja'marr the next day#truly they do have to communicate with each other in the MOST indirect convoluted ways#exhausting! just make them do these together!!! can you imagine them arguing about whether ja'marr's ever asked for the ball like that??#but still. this version of reality is also Very Good.#is it a clip now?? oh lord... just so wife embarrassed about husband coded if i'm being honest!#like 'oh what did he say now!! i hope it was at least funny!'#and then not believing that joe cursed (just like he didn't believe joe winked earlier in the year)#constantly trying to figure this man out <3#you know he's going to be on joe even more to curse now#the thing is i feel like joe probably doesn't curse much in casual conversion. midwestern polite boy and all that#but he's a grown-ass man so i'm sure he DOES curse occasionally#but maybe knowing how much ja'marr wants him to...he purposefully does it less around him to mess with him#that's a dynamic i fully believe for them#ja'marr chase#joe burrow#joe'marr
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((hey guys!!!))
((just wanted to make a little announcement that the blog is gonna go on hiatus for bit! During this time I wont be making responses for any questions unfortunately.))
((Just need a little break from Eri to focus on some other things at the moment! He will be back though! 🕺))
#eridan ampora#homestuck#eridan ask blog#((Eridan is a snowbird and leaves when it gets too cold lol))#((which it is here…..very chilly))#((anywayy I hope I'm not disappointing anybody! 😩))#((i just need to mentally step away))#((this blog has been my main focus for months and Its taken up all my mental energy#((almost becoming exhausting :())#((constantly thinking of replies#((what to draw#((feeling bad about not responding to people#((critiquing my ability to write/draw etc))#((anyway….yeahhhh just gonna….step away so I don’t go crazy lol))#((thank to everyone btw for all the support and sweet messages 🥺❤️. even if I never replied#((i promise I saw it and it means a lot))
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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paranoia about posting is so odd. "they're gonna know." know what?? i'm mentally ill? why is that bad. also its pretty freaking obvious. this is tumblr.com after all.
#i have so so many drafts bc of this. ill let them out someday#I'm mostly worried about posting something delusional and sounding odd#but i think constantly trying to assess if a thought is delusional or not is exhausting#i just want to be able to say things on my silly blog without worrying#what im tryna say is I'm aware I might be saying absolute nonsense but i want to be able to talk freely anyways#so yeah idk.#also ill be fine its just the stress i think. this too shall pass yadda yadda. i just dont feel like logging out of tumblr until it does.#if its here to stay thats ok too ill learn how to cope.#I think stressing over whether I'm currently sane or not is a waste of time I cant change it either way so might as well roll with it.#even if i'm scared#ok yeah thats all. i want to draft this but i feel like that defeats the whole purpose lol#rambling#paranoia
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i feel like re: jonathan's camera, steve's reaction is way more focused on than jonathan's LITERAL CRIMES. like yes stevetommycarol like graffitied the movie theater and broke his camera, but jonathan... took illicit pictures of an underage couple THROUGH STEVE'S WINDOW. how would you feel? how would you react?
and jonathan never really faces any lasting consequences? he gets a new camera from steve. he eventually ends up with nancy. and nobody really finds out or punishes him for being a .... literal criminal....
meanwhile, steve reacting to it is treated like some huge thing bc he calls jonathan queer ?? like i get that it may be a little harder hitting considering the audience is (i think? i only know from the tumblr sample size) seems mostly queer, but context please. not excusing it, but it's the 80s during the height of the aids epidemic saur. and it's also easy to say things you don't necessarily mean in the heat of the moment. but guess what. he apologized. did jonathan?
other than that, name one thing that could actually categorize steve as someone who is Decidedly an Asshole. talking shit with his friends is such a non problem (do u not shit talk with ur friends...) and being popular doesn't mean shit unless there's evidence.
stop trying to give steve a redemption arc when he never needed ur absolution
#steve harrington#it's irritating to me#like this is primarily in the steddie space and it's genuinely made me not want to consume content#why does he have to change and explore other peoples' interests when nobody cares to do the same for him#he's constantly apologizing in fic and i hate it#tell me what he's apologizing for#tell me where he's a bully#fanon has completely twisted his character to the point where he's just completely malleable#i'm not saying fanon is wrong bc i understand projecting and adding little things to the character to make it more appealing to urself#and i definitely do that sometimes but I REALIZE IT#im not trying to claim that steve is xyz without thinking critically about it#having him put sm effort in when nobody else puts effort into him... it's exhausting#if ur gonna do that then paint it in a realistic way bc how long could anyone keep doing that#how sustainable is it to keep apologizing and hiding ur interests all of the time#it irks me
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ugh anyone else feel like the older you get, the more time passes the way it does in the sims???
like when you're a kid, an hour is a long time, but when you're an adult, an hour is barely long enough to like take a break, or maybe you can get SOME THINGS done, but before you know it, it's over, or maybe you have to get ready and you only have an hour to do so, and even if you're fast at it, you still feel like you're being rushed cuz after all an hour doesn't last super long??
#screaming into the void#don't mind me#I feel like I'm constantly living in a hurry#or in a time crunch#when I want to take a break and rest#it takes me at LEAST 2 hours to begin even feeling not exhausted#maybe it's the PTSD idk
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Day 35:
"I've got belts, way too many belts. I've got suspenders underneath here too. Why am I afraid my pants are gonna fall down so much?" -Rabbit
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#Youtube#spg#steam powered giraffe#spgdailyquotes#rabbit spg#vintage!rabbit#yeah i know it's been forever#this sounds like a conspiracy but I swear there's a virus going around which has the only symptom of making you#horribly and constantly exhausted#either that or depression but i swear it's not just me#literally i slept until 4pm Saturday and had to quit class early yesterday from tiredness and brain fog#yesterday being Tuesday because I'm queueing this for tomorrow
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To any Aro Mutuals that ship romantically, I have a question! Do you still call your s/is Aromantic? Or do you consider them something else?
#pan rambles#I know I got some fellow Aro mutuals so I'm genuinely curious#Because in my case. I just simply don't talk about it- In that way they're a little unlabeled#Mainly out of insecurity-afksnfksnfj#As an Aro who likes having a partner I've dealt with having to explain myself to a lot of people#and it's genuinely exhausting after a certain point#And idk...#I just feel like I'd need to constantly explain#and justify myself if my s/is are Aro but most of my f/os weren't and got into a relationship anyways#or that my f/os wouldn't want to be with me or love me because of it#But yeah-afksnfksndj Is this a me overthinking things? I wanna know if fellow Aros make their s/is aro too
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oooh, once i get some of my energy and motivation back for a couple days again, it's over for y'all. i'm comin' for ya
#rn I'm back to just. being chronically overwhelmed & exhausted.#struggling to enjoy much of anything. feel like I'm dragging myself around.#can't even log in to discord bc that's just Too Much for my brain atm :/#why is just existing so fucking tiring lmao#planning to just queue up as many drafts as I can once I can get myself to write again. for real this time!!!!#fuck the instant gratification I want to get caught up i'm tired of constantly feeling behind sfjgksh#as always & for about the hundredth time: thank you all sfm for your patience with me 😭💜#I appreciate u guys SO MUCH and I hope you're having a lovely week 💜💜💜#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.
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people doing this whole "look at how rhaenys acted with corlys's bastard son vs how catelyn acted with jon snow" to demonize one or the other is weird because, like, maybe it's just me, but i think that catelyn and rhaenys had different reactions because they're different people in different situations.
#personal#like they're clearly very different people with different personalities#hell even the situations are different#rhaenys kinda stumbles upon corlys's bastard whose name i don't know cuz i'm not watching this season just kinda in passing#she knew he existed but didn't really have to deal with it at all#meanwhile ned comes home with this baby he says is a product of cheating and just goes 'he's living here now'#there's no space for catelyn to separate herself from the betrayal of fidelity the way that there likely was for rhaenys#like i'm not catelyn's biggest fan#not just because of her treatment of jon (altho yeah i'll be honest i'm not a fan) but there's stuff about her personality#and how she views the world and what being in her head is like that can rub me the wrong way#(she's just so constantly judgy and rude about nearly everyone she doesn't know and even some that she does and it can get exhausting)#but she's a different person to rhaenys and also occupies a different role than she does#rhaenys has a lot more going for her in her marriage than just being corlys's wife#she's got the bluer blood as a targaryen princess she's got a dragon she's got power and influence in her own right#meanwhile catelyn doesn't have nearly as much#she's a lord's daughter yeah but in this entirely new kingdom where she is now her power comes from being ned's wife#and mother to his children#in her head jon is a threat to that power due to being not only a reminder of ned's infidelity but also how his placement could supplant#her children and thus herself by extension#along with her just having a different personality to rhaenys that makes her harsher about it#(i mean i still don't LIKE that she takes it out on jon who certainly didn't ask to be born but i at least understand from characterization#and again: they're different people! no shit they'd react differently!#i'm just baffled at this attempt to pit GOT characters against HOTD characters all the time it's so weird#like now there's people arguing who's better between jace and robb stark and i'm just left baffled#do y'all literally not know how to consume content in any other way except petty fandom wars? my god you're annoying
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as a student you just have to accept the fact that you're always going to be tired no matter how many hours of sleep you get
#i'm just constantly tired#i slept for seven hours and still feel like shit#studyblr#study aesthetic#study tips#studying#student#spilled words#spilled pages#spilled ink#spilled thoughts#spilled writing#mental health#mentally drained#mentally exhausted#mentally tired#mental illness#light academia aesthetic#romantic academia#dark academia#light academia#classic academia#academic
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GUYS I'VE OFFICIALLY LOST IT-
So. Awhile ago, I saw this post, right? Basically it just said that Sera and Sir Pentious' cards have very similar compositions, and that Seraphim, which is what Sera is, are often associated with serpents. Interesting, but could still be a coincidence, right?
So anyways I checked the reblogs and saw somebody say they should kiss. And now I'm insane.
Because like... the only thing we know really about Sir Pentious' potential story arc in the show is that he's gonna have a crush on one of the other characters. And the only thing confirmed about his sexuality(to my knowledge) is that he is attracted to women. We don't really have any way to know who his crush is, because there are a lot of women in Hazbin Hotel, but could still be noteworthy, right? And like... okay this is gonna sound like the most "trust me, bro" evidence I could possibly pull out of my ass at first but I just need you to hear me out here, okay? Sera's crown and Sir Pentious' hat have a lot of visual similarities. Here's a helpful diagram :)
Which like. Okay. Could literally be nothing, right? Except for two small things that I can't let go of: One, Sir Pentious' goggles + the v-shaped brim on his hat were added to his design AFTER he was given a more prominent role in the show-
(Pilot design, back when he was meant to be a one-off villain of the week vs current design as a member of the main cast)
And two, the Hellaverse shows kind of have a tendancy to use visuals in order to signify characters' relationships to eachother. It's also just a pretty popular form of symbolism as a whole tbh, but the Hellaverse has a lot of really good examples. Like, for instance, how Vaggie's new outfit is a lot closer to Charlie's color pallette than any of her previous designs, or this really good breakdown by @/raeynbowboi about the symbolism of hearts in Hazbin Hotel and how they pertain to Angel Dust/his relationships! It's from awhile ago so some of the info is a tad outdated, but overall I do think the analysis holds up. Meanwhile, in Helluva Boss, Moxxie and Millie have basically the same color pallette and they were the most functional relationship in the entire show before before Fizzmodeus came along. Which, speaking of those two...
See, I made this diagram because, after I pointed out the similarities between Sera and Sir Pentious' headgear to my dad and asked him if those kinds of similarities were a valid form of analysis(because I am but a humble highschooler that doesn't know everything about media analysis, and also I felt like I was losing my mind-), my dad said that I should look at the creator's(Vivziepop's) other works to see if couples having similar motifs was a recurring theme. So obviously, I picked my favorite couple in either show and disected their designs for every little detail that could maybe possibly be an intentional parallel. And while some of it is kind of iffy, like Fizz's limbs being the same kind of blue as Ozzie's tufts could just be a way to show that Ozzie made them, or both of them having uh, two things sticking off of their head(that one's definitely a reach-), I think stuff like both of them having hearts as a recurring detail in their designs or having lITERALLY THE SAME EYE COLOR??? Are pretty good evidence that Viv/the Hellaverse design team tend to use visuals to signify characters relationships.
ALSO!!!! If the Fallen Angel Vaggie theory ends up being true, there could be some interesting parallels to draw between Chaggie and Sera/Sir Pentious! Something about like... demon royalty/random angel vs angel royalty/random demon. Could be used to draw parallels between how the two societies treat that kind of thing idk.
So, now that all the meta evidence is out of the way, we can get down to what really matters: would these two work as a couple? Do their personalities mesh well togther? And the answer to that is!
IM SORRY FOR USING THE GIF IT WAS A GOOD JOKE IN MY HEAD BUT TYPING THIS OUT IDK IF IT'S ACTUALLY FUNNY-
But in all seriousness, I don't actually know. We just... haven't seen enough of Sera to know for sure. In fact, this whole theory is based off of small details that definitely add up to SOMETHING, but could very well be pieces to some very different puzzles that I'm trying to shove together because somebody jokingly suggested that they would fit. Like, the parallels really COULD mean something, and it COULD have something to do with Sir Pentious having a crush on another character, but like. There could also be a million other answers to both of those questions, y'know? I also have a tendancy to make wild conspiracy theories about genuinely inconsequential details... I almost never talk about them publically, but still. Though I will say, based off of Sera's description in the leaks, I could definitely see a world where she bounces off of Sir Pentious pretty well. Her description in the leaks very much gave me uh... Isabela cover of Surface Pressure vibes, y'know? Shit that is- that is a weird way to describe that but most people on here have seen Encanto right? Y'all get it? And Sir Pentious is both a Victorian Gentleman Type and completely unhinged. Like... idk there's something there. I could maybe see it working. But at the end of the day, it's just too early to tell.
That being said I WILL be trying to pump out some fanart of these two before the actual show comes out and crushes my crackshipping dreams. Also their ship name is either SeraPentious or PentSera I can't decide.
Edit: Wait a second... SeraPent. Serpent. PUN!!!!!!!!!! Okay I think I'm going with SeraPent-
#this is really just my attempt to make PentSera a thing before the show airs and I look like a fool#CRACKSHIPPERS ARIIIIIIIISE!!!!!!!!!#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel analysis#idk if that's actually a tag but who cares#sera#hazbin sera#hazbin hotel sera#sir pentious#sir pentious x sera#sera x sir pentious#serapentious#pentsera#I might just stick with pentsera tbh it rolls off the tongue way better#analysis#long post#I feel like. I should tag this with late night ramblings. this feels like a late night ramblings post.#probably because I'm sleep deprived and so depressed I'm constantly exhausted#I'll tag late night ramblings for now and remove it if I change my mind ig#late night ramblings#serapent#gal overanalyzes random shit
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I wish a "9 to 5" were still an actual 9 to 5. I can't even relate to our Lord and Saviour, Dolly Parton.
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