#i'm a yapper lol

[pookiebearmick]

weekly tag wednesday 👀🌈❤️✨

thanks bbs for the tags!!! @gallapiech @spookygingerr @thepupperino @jrooc 🥰🥰🥰

Name and ao3 handle: Deckard, pookiebearmick

Current Location: My home!! 👏

Favourite thing you’ve created (or seen created) for the fandom? One day I will make little fanart but for now I've only written a few things and made a couple of gifsets hehe, I like this little ficlet I wrote and this gifset I made!! ✨ (if u wanna send me a prompt i would write some shit for you OR if u have some scene(s) you want a gif of i might be down for that - send me an ask!)

Why is it your favourite? I love fluffy shit and I think Ian hiding in the pool is SO funny (plus I hadn't seen a "pls Mick" gif and I needed it lol)

Did it come easily or was it hard to create? I feel a mix LOL gifs take so long and the most frustrating thing for me is always having too big of file sizes to actually upload them on this godforsaken website 😭

Last ao3 fic you commented on? Okay look I am SO behind on reading any fics, I've been in a "I don't wanna read" mood lately so I've mostly been listening to little YouTube vids or watching Shameless clips when I would usually be reading so I think it might be what do you know? by @em-harlsnow (so cute btw, def worth the read) 🥰

Biggest WIP heartache you’ve ever experienced? I'm with Pie on this one, Things Beyond Mistake by Grayola lives RENT FREE in my head 24/7 my god.

Favorite trope or head cannon you like included in a fanfic? Big fan of fluffy soft husband shit, enemies to lovers, slowburn, and slice of life 🌈❤️

Least favourite? I don't love the omegaverse stuff lol, just not my thing!

Secret or surprising kink or trope? I don't think so? I don't know that I'm very secretive with the things that I enjoy reading LOL

Describe how you feel after you’ve created something new? I feel pretty energized for a bit and super excited about the thing, but then mostly just like relief at finishing a task TM (even if it's not a required thing but just a personal "I wanna do this" thing)

Top hype man you have that always helps you get across the finish line: I'd say my partners 🥰

It's been a bad day, you turn to the fandom and you _____? Play snails in the Discord server lol I love that stupid little game. If I'm really feeling the bad day I'll either find a comfort fic (thank u Boy Best Friends by @whatthebodygraspsnot and from way up there (you and i, you and i) by @sam-loves-seb or if i'm feeling something longer Suncatcher by @wehangout) ✨

anyways i've yapped long enough lol, tags below the cut!

if you wanna!! (sorry if you've been tagged/posted already i've only been on for a bit and might not have seen your post yet hehe) @heymrspatel @mickeym4ndy @burninface @rxinbowwparadise @twinklyylights @transsexual-dandelions @transmurderbug @celestialmickey @gardenerian 🥰🥰🥰 also if u weren't tagged at all this is ur tag!!! i'm missing so many people lol

[murkying]

redstone supervisor

[butyouaremymess]

Colin + his (many) love confessions for Penelope

[obscurenephilim]

My first attempt at drawing this poor traumatised child

I tried going with a more sketchy style, just cause I love the concept and vault styles a lot

Did I look at actual references of Raz?

No-

Yap time

I got into Psychonauts on, like

December 1st-

I had just finally 100%'d American McGee's Alice: Madness Returns (that game hits all of my fears, but I love it sm) and the little Raz cameo reminded me that both games were on GamePass!

But I forgot again and then my partner and I were bored and she suggested me trying out Psychonauts

I then proceeded to 100% both games within a little over a week-

I regret not getting into it sooner, as I've known about it since I was a child

I used to try and watch my cousin play, but my parents wouldn't let me >:(

I remember hearing about PN2 before it released and being excited about it, since that would've hopefully helped gotten me into it!

I don't remember what stopped me from playing them once it came out, though-

[calculatedklown]

People love to go into Gortash fans comment sections just to tell you that they find him ugly and that he's a bad person lol

Like…..you don't even go here….is this babies first fandom???

[residentialsinyomakai]

You'll never guess who the kinda primary subject of this yappost/doodle dump is

sigh. it always comes back

Freaky ahh bowl of rice...what's he on about

"But Yōmakai isn't this a maddiman post. Why are the first two things besides the intro not ma" IM GETTING THERE. PATIENCE

I redraw Kagemura every now and then to see if I improve!! :) Think I kinda ate w this one frfr

No me mires con tus estupidos ojos

UEgh. judging you btw

Expression stuff cause I love seeing different depictions both from other people and within my own mind

Mini thing based on a. Trend jm noticing LMAO

Also this Maddiman that scared some of my friends apparently 😔💔

AU shenanigans and this idiot again. HATE HIM BLOW HIM UP NOW!!!! Jkjk i wish people drew him more i love him :)

Anyways all done :) see you!!

[martitheevans]

So, no season 4?

[marshmellowtea]

celia hates basically all of chris's friends by virtue of them Being Chris's Friends (it personally offends her that there are people who love him better than she ever could in his life), but she has a special distaste for sandra, who she not only dislikes for being a dirty whore promiscuous, but she's also openly accused her of trying to steal chris from her, an accusation that held no weight when it was first leveled at her cuz sandra hadn't thought she cared about chris like that but it slowly became a self fulfilling prophecy as she spent more time with him and his parents and decided "yeah, actually, i am going to steal your son from you and your creep husband you piece of shit, fuck you celia fuck you fuck youfuck you"

[rafesbbyy]

So when are we gonna admit that the writers of HOTD were just expecting the show to be carried by GOT's legacy and success? They put zero effort into understanding their own characters and it's so obvious (seriously, are s1 and s2 even the same shows atp?). Its so obvious they're relying on GOT's legacy which isn't a bad thing, but they're also not doing anything good with they current story that they've got. They've completed butchered every character, every plot line because they know the show will still be popular due to Game Of Thrones.

[pkrockinon]

I should yap more, damn..if anything it'll probably be about Soriku

[imaginespazzi]

You've probs been asked this before but do you have any other ships outside of Pazzi?? Also, who's your fav fictional ship?? I'm curious lol

I'm a really big Preath girlie like that was my og "are they, are they not" couple and trust, they kept it way more lowkey than Pazzi and I was in the trenches.

I also adore Mapi and Ingrid and Sam and Kristie and honestly in general I like most of the big WOSO couples.

Not to get toooo hetero, but I absolutely adore TomDaya to death like that's my SHIP and I love them so bad.

And liiiiisten, they're not technically together yet but as musical girlie and Wicked lover, I am currently pretty much glued to the Ari and Cythia lore like it just needs to happen.

As for fictional ship, I have so many so I'll just keep it gay and say that I was a pretty big Brittana fan at the time.

[ldpdluvr]

i just got to the 2k word count for my fic 🥳🥳 i think this is the first time i've written a fan fic that is this cohesive, i kinda don't know if it makes sense but i'm too shy to show anyone helppppp

[sharkzillasaurus]

Hey chat, random yap sesh today, I'll try and have some art tomorrow 👍👍 Anywho the yapping...

Just small details about character designs that help me distinguish characters, I'll be using Yes Man as an example

Yes Man's design has loads of little details that I love, the little antenna on the top right of his head, the little crosses on his shoulders, as I like to call them idk if they have an actual term, the fact that the wire going around the bottom of his shoulders is one long wire that goes around the top of his face, etc, etc.

Whenever I see models and drawings of him I always look for these little features, as they help me figure out what character it is.

When it comes to human characters, these features come in handy as I struggle to distinguish between faces, with most people looking the same to me. Say a character has black hair and a purple T-Shirt:

Those would be the recognisable features for me.

But what if a artist were to change the shirt colour to, let's say yellow, in their own design of the character, but another character already has black hair and a yellow shirt, and I've already got in my head that black hair and yellow shirt belong to that character?

I'd probably see them as the same character, even though they're not.

Where am I going with this? Idfk don't ask me!

I think what I was trying to say is that although I love love LOVE fan designs of characters, it can be hard for me to recognise that character as that character, which is why I love even more when the artist keeps certain recognisable features from the original character.

And that it very only slightly ticks me off when artists forget little features, but in all honesty it doesn't even matter!! It's still Yes Man without the antenna, he's still recognisable. They're small and forgettable features that don't really add or subtract from a character's design, only existing to maybe add a little detail.

I think i just like really looking at a character's small details and memorising them all, don't take this post to heart, I don't even think it makes sense!!

Okay toodle pip, chat 😊👋👋

[dwtdog]

they’re sooo dramatic. and i was seeing more of a balance this time compared to other times that were just kicking his ass before when there was delays like this time lots of people going well we should be grateful he even wants to make content still. so that was good but yeah people were saying none of them give a fuck anymore and stuff like idk there’s just no empathy there and it’s so dramatic. sure i find it a little frustrating to post about that game like it’s something for us to look forward to because it’s not content but 🤷🏻‍♀️ i would love for them to not cater to only irl fans and i think just streaming for like literally an hour every two weeks would calm people down so people don’t keep getting heated but it is what it is. i feel bad over his computer that has to be so frustrating

i think a lot of people (reddit included) have finally understood the insane scope of the project and are now more understanding as to why it's taken so long bc I def saw a lot of comments that were saying that obviously it's not dreams fault (duh) and that he has been working hard so I hope he at least sees those if he does check the reddit-which, lets be honest, I'm sure he will

[brynn-lear]

I think I'd ship you with Argenti. It's the vibes for me

drawing this made me realize we're like a masc gf x fem bf dynamic haidjwjdiis

I'm not sure what you meant by "vibes", I'd love to know more- but if you don't want to elaborate that's fine cuz this is still such a W. I have such an appreciation for Argenti as a character, so bless you 🔥🔥🔥🔥 /gen

[tirfpikachu]

Tumblr may have filtered my last ask bc it had a link, or maybe you weren’t interested in responding. If it was a fluke, I’d love to hear your thoughts on a post by butchmartyr/760478305191346176/noooo-trans-person-dont-mistake-your?source=share

My first thought was “there shouldn’t be gender affirming clothes” just clothes you like wearing or clothes that feel expressive. I stewed on it for a while because I definitely support people doing what works for them, but seeing this “no it’s not ur radical self acceptance, it’s trans apathy and don’t die wondering, u could be happier” was kinda wild. Anyway take care out there!!

NAUUURRRRR I WAS TOO LATE THE POST GOT DELETED???

but honestly from what you've said... i feel like trans ppl, especially those who go for more stereotypical opposite sex gender conforming clothes/hairstyles/etc can 1000% do gender affirming things that are sexist, or at least describe what they're doing in a sexist way. they often don't bother to look at their own behaviors thru a feminist lense. in their defense, they are often dealing with debilitating dysphoria and can't really think much beyond "i want the discomfort to stop" and humans often draw conclusions about strangers based on very stereotypical characteristics like long vs short hair, makeup, skirts/dresses vs shorts/pants, high pitched vs low pitched voice etc so for them, conforming to the opposite sex's stereotype means having an easier time being recognized as the opposite sex/agab. it means the awful feeling inside them stops and they get relief from the distress that dysphoria gives them. so they aren't thinking clearly, and i say this as someone who was dysphoric for like, 13 years.

honestly in some way i don't blame them - often they do this only until transition, and then i've found they (at least transmascs) are more likely to want to be visibly gnc post-transition. so they aren't just giving into the patriarchy's demands and reinforcing stereotypes permanently; it's a form of treatment, in a way. but the thing is that it's also addictive... they get validation from one stranger, whether it's just out of trans allyship or not, and then it makes the following times they're misgendered that much more painful. which makes them seek transition that much more desperately, understandably so.

the problem with this is that many of them don't just affect themselves with this. they affect "cis" gnc people too with how they talk about themselves and how they talk about gender-validating crossdressing ("crossdressing" can be a cringy word, but ykwim). they aren't just talking between themselves, as much as they tend to think they are. they're posting about this shit in public social media spaces with mildly dysphoric ppl and gnc people who can very well develop dysphoria thru reading their "how to Look Like A Man/Woman" type posts. if to "look like a man" or "look like a woman" you need to be gender conforming, what would that make "cis" gnc people reading it feel about themselves? in a world where we're always told that we're not man enough, we're not real women, we don't act or dress or think like a woman should? of course i developed dysphoria. ofc i did. many other detrans & post-trans gyns and detrans men developed it as a result of this kind of rhetoric. i understand that these ppl need tips from each other to figure out how to manage their dysphorias. i get that. but this shit isn't well moderated at all. they don't actually tell people hey, it's okay if you're just gnc. they don't put a dysphoria-inducing trigger warning or something. they don't realize that this is a... okay, this will be a weak metaphor, but kinda how some mental illness communities will give each other tips that really makes shit worse for ppl reading it who might not even have had any signs of mental illness symptoms before reading it. <<< another thing that happened to me btw, those tumblr spaces really made me mentally sick. i was always prone to it, same as how i was prone to dysphoria, bc of my upbringing & genes. but reading about very mentally sick people's deep inner thoughts really fucked with my head!! and reading about very dysphoric people's deep inner thoughts REALLY fucked with my sense of self. reading about them calling their boobs in masc outfits gross and disgusting and feeling slimy or whatever on their chest made me start feeling dysphoric about them; i had always felt insecure abt my body, and hated that it was so sexualized by boys, but suddenly i developed a whole new complex about it. i know gnc male/amab ppl can have similar feelings when transfems talk abt their bodies and how gross they looked in feminine outfits, how they wish they looked like cis women, how they can't wait to have that happened bc their current visibly gnc bodies are disgusting. cis/bio gnc men reading or listening to that shit can really gain so much shame abt their natural inclination towards femininity and traditionally unmasculine things.

trans people, dysphoric people really need to watch how they talk about their gnc bodies pre-transition and how much they casually gender clothes, hairstyles etc (even just in jokes). they also need to make sure their audience doesn't have ppl who are mildly, potentially treatable dysphorics who can fall deeper into dysphoria by reading what mainstream tras say about their gender nonconforming bodies and womanhood/manhood. they have no idea how many vulnerable, insecure people susceptible to new insecurities are reading what they're writing or hearing what they're saying. also, them trying to steal the "don't die wondering" sapphic slogan by making it about transness, making it about transition, is truly fucked up. if they listened to detrans/desisted/post-trans people AT ALL they would know what to do and not to do to prevent future detransitions. and detransitioners makes them look bad, as they always love to remind us, so why the fuck would they be so careless as to create more of us by not moderating their spaces? it harms trans people too, doesn't it?

we need more tra accountability. we need them to call this shit out.