#i'm a sucker for good angst

[fuck-off-im-ace]

I think we, as a fandom, don't talk enough about this moment. Cause what the fuck.

[somewhatidealname]

heyo! i hope you're doing fine.

i know your springtrap has no memory/recollection at all, nor does he know that he was/is a person- BUT - could there be a potential trigger to make him remember something? nothing big or revealing of his past and/or self! i imagined just minor things like maybe a song from his childhood, or the music that was playing at the opening day of fredbear's making him remember something- like the pattern of the carpet or his favorite childhood toy. It's like the remains of his soul call out to him (unintentionally?) - desperately wanting to clutch on on whatever familiarity is left to not rot with agony like the rest of him/his soul. He is a husk carrying remains after all! - Some physical, some deeply buried inside of him somewhere.

yeah he can catch faint glimpses of recognition! i brought up the thought of him suddenly recognizing other animatronics' machinery as something familiar in another post. i don't think he'd be able to recall something as far back as childhood memories, but with consistent memories in his old life (things he would routinely see most often, like faces or settings and whatnot) it can spark some kind of feeling within him. the animatronic programming could also remember things like songs or commands too, or maybe even other animatronic characters. that'd probably only apply to fredbear, i don't know for sure

[gr8butnotstr8]

Dare i say homelander's character always was kind of heartbreaking but after this episode I just- i don't think i have the words to properly describe my thought process but i'll try.

He's not just a whumpee turned whumper.

Do unto others as you would have them do unto you, right? Well that's it, until it's not just this.

Ever since he was born he's been nothing but feared, often even revered: not really like a god, at least not in a christian way, more like a lovecraftian abomination. He has never known humanity.

I repeat:

He has never known humanity.

When that scientist (Barbara) tells him his need for love and approval is too deep and too human for him to ever get rid of it he softly replies that oh well then it's good he's not human. And I mean, he isn't completely wrong is he? You cannot place the shackles of divinity upon a child and expect them not to succumb to the burden of your lowly, human, fearful gaze. How can we ever dare to demand him not to feel superior to anyone else when the first notion to be drilled in his head was that he's too powerful to be loved. Or at least to be only loved. Love tainted by fear is not what he's seeked all those years, even if he may not realize it. He craves approval, he craves genuine affection, to hold the gaze of another without seeing that glint of terror creeping out to meet his eyes, because it's always there. Even the most devoted hometeamer knows, deep inside their head, that Homelander's very nature demands they fear him. Sure they think it's just the respect they owe him for protecting them or whatever, but it really isn't. It's just the natural, human reaction to something that looks human but really is so far above human that you can't help but tremble. A weird kind of uncanny valley.

And so here he is. A god. In a horrific way yes, but still a god, and to try and mix - taint - his divinity with human wants? That's blasphemy. The mortals that tortured him when he was but a child, that shaped him into this wretched being yearning for satisfaction (such an alien concept, so beyond his reach) now must pay.

Humiliation of the flesh follows, because mere humans can't withstand what he was put throught, and as they die like flies he forgives them. Their sins have been forgiven. They have reached atonement not much in death but in the ways they died. In the tortures they put him throught.

Homelander is a "god born of man" and to free himself of the taint of humanity (and so mortality, which is his greatest fear) he needs to destroy his creators.

Anticlimatic, I know, but tragic nonetheless.

The paradigm has been flipped:

"God creates man, man destroys God" has now been reversed.

His yearning for love, his human neediness, has been shattered when he freed himself from his wretched notion of humanity.

Humans created him and made him of divine nature, then dared to call themselves his equals, then they brutalized his body to study its strenght and test its limits. How arrogant of them, to presume there'd be limits to such a thing.

In the end of this deeply nonsensical yapping i think homelander is truly cursed to never be happy, because he will always be in a cage and can only choose which one. He can accept his humanity (and the schackles that comes with it) and the inherent weakness of it, but that will never make him happy: he's too convinced he's a god, he believes in his own myth, his only religion (he is after all the only man in the sky).

Or, he can trascend humanity and become the fearful entity he was always destined to be, without human needs of love or approval he can be the ultimate arbiter of the planet. But that too comes with schackles, i'm afraid.

How could a divine being, basically a god, ever achieve satisfaction? Happiness? These are human matters. To give up humanity he has to give up on these goals too.

[pekoeboo]

"It's okay, Khalan. I'm right here. You're safe."

some Pain based on a few new developments within the SMP story. got a decently long explanation under the cut, for anyone interested.

so @cookieg122 and I decided that Khalan and Aya eventually find themselves in Aya's home dimension - a world ruled by a race of powerful fairies who are hell-bent on eternal conquest and proudly declare their violent Empire as the strongest in the world. Aya was their princess, having disappeared under mysterious circumstances (aka when she arrived in Drehmal), and her older brother had been searching for her ever since.

her sudden return ended up placing Khalan under suspicion though - as Aya's brother wrongly assumed that Khalan was responsible for "kidnapping" Aya and had him arrested as a result;; the corrupt king also got involved, hearing terrible rumors that were quickly circulating about Khalan and believing that he had hurt his daughter, so he made the swift decision to have Khalan publicly tortured and executed the next morning (multiple times over; since Khalan is immortal) as a way to make an example out of him to the Empire's subjects and remind them of what happens if they step out of line and threaten the royal family.

so of course Aya saves him!!!! she convinces her brother that Khalan is innocent so he also helps out with the rescue, and between the two of them they manage to stand up to their dad and save Khalan from a terrible situation ;n;;

there's like. so SO much more to this concept that I can't really explain, but that's roughly what's going on within the feelsy art here;; I kept thinking of just. the intense emotions happening within that moment, of Aya stepping up and taking on the role of comforter even though that's normally Khalan's thing. role reversal tropes always get me, and tbh Khalan just needs a moment to break down and process just how terrifying that whole situation was before he can help Aya deal with everything too;;

srry this got long, I wasn't sure how else to explain this pic without going into some detail. but I hope y'all can appreciate the feels anyway ;o;

Aya Armas belongs to @cookieg122 also on deviantart

[imtrashraccoon]

Who is your number one favorite UTAU skelly? Mine is Reaper~ ❤️

I like so many but I'd have to say Edge! I also really like Nightmare so it's hard to pick sometimes...

[satanicsanity]

It's nearly 12am here... I feel so bad go my parents right now 😅

I got done reading some angst & lore for this Welcome-home au, and in the middle of the night's silence, I just yelled... "SHE'S DEAD?!" while reading.

My mother is not happy with me at the moment hahaaa..

[that-angels-demon]

"Alpha Centauri is nice this time of year..."

Happy season three announcement! Here's a Crowley <3!

[biogarfield]

I'm still not entirely sure what it's about but before I knew anything about the gearmelt au I clicked on a fic about it with boombox and was promptly traumatized forever(hyperbole) as him and skateboard melted together in a horrific fashion

[feeder-of-rodents]

I got a fever and binged the entirety of Droners season 2 in two days

It was quite an adventure.

First the internet wasn't working, so I decided to watch the Monsuno DVDs i got from the library but our DVD player wasn't plugged into the tv. Then I got shocked by a broken wire because we have a rabbit in the house and I'm an idiot who didn't unplug the power before trying to sort out all the wires.

Turns out one of the cords I needed was broken anyways, so I resorted to calling dad and he helped me fix (read: turn it off and back on again) the internet. Since I already had the family computer open, I decided I might as well watch there.

Except the audio wasn't working. It later turned out there would have been a very easy fix, as the only problem was that the radio thingy that's linked to the family computer's speakers was turned off. I've dealt with this very situation dozens of times, but I had a fever and the computer was in a different place than it had been the last few years, so I didn't think of it.

Instead I decided to try headphones, but the audio quality was so bad it wasn't worth it just to avoid the battle with my laptop. When my dad got home, he called me into the room and asked why the computer was being weird and whenever he clicked on stuff it did something other than what it was supposed to do. It took me about 4 seconds to work out the problem, which was that I'd accidentally set the headphones down on the control key. I'm never going to let this one go!

Anyways, binge watching went well until the last freaking episode, where my laptop decided it had had enough. (In my laptop's defence, it has to deal with hundreds of browser tabs and is literally held together by tape.) The animation started getting choppy and everything slowed down until I was dealing with seconds-per-frame. Restarting my laptop (twice!) somehow made the problem worse.

Eventually I had to dig up Flickfetch and just download the episode. It was somehow still worth all the trouble

Well, now I can finally read the 2 (actually 4 by now) fics on Ao3 without having to fear spoilers!

[achairwithapandaonit]

Made up fic title, please: Ruffled feathers

all for one kidnaps all might, mocking izuku and saying that it's tradition for the current holder to lose their mentor in a traumatic way. this, naturally, ruffles izuku's feathers (so to say) and he spends the rest of the fic never giving up on getting all might back.

all for one riling him up by trash talking all might, saying he's a terrible mentor for putting izuku in this situation, and also blaming izuku for all might being in this situation and him having to retire, just makes his mental health worse. eventually he gets all might back, but all for one is still out there and all might isn't waking up because of some kind of quirk that he's under the affect of.

perhaps they meet in the one for all void a couple times before izuku gets his hands on all might, and always his vestige is just out of reach. now there's just nothing

[spiritualpuzzleshipper]

I open up Tumblr and this is what I see???

I have seen it before thanks to my angst loving friend @hikarichino but this still gives PAINS IN ALL THE PLACES!

the door to darkness

[storyweaverofgondor]

. . . I am really incapable of writing something without any angst, aren't i?

[dizaryswrites]

I drop Batman from my pull list and all of a sudden Gotham gets into a damn war. I'm confused, kinda tired of crossover events AND YET my fomo is raging

[kodaiki]

┊.˚🪩 ༘┊͙ 𝐒𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐒 ; ↳ as a rising star in the tumultuous world of hollywood, you're handed a golden opportunity to boost your career – a fake relationship. what your manager forgot to mention? your leading man is none other than satoru gojo, hollywood's notorious fuckboy. easy? well, not exactly.

pairing: fem!reader x satoru gojo tags: smau/partially written; actor/actress!au, fuckboy!gojo, jjk is a live-action show in this au, fluff/angst/humor length: 1/?? note: AAAAAAAAA im a sucker for fake dating, actor au trope. enjoy besties! <3 taglist details: CURRENTLY CLOSED !!

to be added to the taglist, leave a reply on the MASTERLIST post of the smau (this post!)! the capacity is 50 users so pls be mindful of that!

[disclaimer: the way the reader is portrayed is just for the reason of style/posing! this is not what the reader looks like (she should look like however you’d like her to!) just wanted to clarify!!]

PROFILES ↳ y/n's besties ↳ gojo's group ↳ others

ONE – hold on, i'm dating who?

TWO – the deal

THREE – he will be a pain in the ass

FOUR – satoru, don’t be a whore

FIVE – act like you like her

SIX – meeting and matching hoodies

SEVEN – exclusive! satoru gojo’s party

EIGHT – interrupted movie night

NINE – angus disapproves

TEN – the interview

ELEVEN – it’s giving jealousy

TWELVE – breaking out

THIRTEEN – besties united

FOURTEEN – good night, loser

FIFTEEN – the audition

SIXTEEN – try again?

SEVENTEEN – sleepover

EIGHTEEN – sugar daddy

NINETEEN – we’re booked!

TWENTY – lego flowers

TWENTY & A HALF – friends?

TWENTY ONE – in denial

TWENTY TWO – invitations sent!

TWENTY THREE – i’m literally home

TWENTY FOUR – roommativersary party pt. 1

TWENTY FIVE – roommativersary party pt. 2 ─ BONUS – maki and shoko's texts after the party ─ BONUS – texts from shoko and suguru to gojo

TWENTY SIX – two months later…

TWENTY SEVEN – new character unlocked

TWENTY EIGHT – get her a grammy ─ BONUS – y/n's texts with suguru

TWENTY-NINE – sleepovers n skincare

THIRTY – let’s be honest…

THIRTY-ONE – coming to terms

THIRTY-TWO – satoru and y/n being sickeningly sweet

THIRTY-THREE – it’s like a reward

THIRTY-FOUR – worst news ever

THIRTY-FIVE – terrible plan

THIRTY-SIX – daily shenanigans

THIRTY-SEVEN – house sitting?

THIRTY-EIGHT – i have an idea

THIRTY-NINE – satoru’s feelings

FORTY – otp central + kento

FORTY-ONE – left on read

FORTY-TWO – a storm brewing

[mrs-weasley-reid]

JULY REC FICS

Hello, my sweets!! I wanted to try something out to provide my full and utter support to all the amazing writers I've come across in the form of monthly rec fics (starting this month). Join me in giving them love through comments and reblogs. It really is a joy to hear how you're doing as a writer. It makes up for all the angst we write lol

I will be going based on what I've read recently and not by the date the fic was posted. And the number of fics will depend on how much I've read the entire month. Also, please respect these writers. Some contents are 18+, so MINORS should not be interacting in any way, especially when the authors themselves specify it.

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Spencer Reid

✿ a question unasked by @easy-there-leftovers ↳ SOOOO ADORABLE. I'm a workaholic craze gal, so it speaks to me on a silly level.

✿ missing the happy hormone by @lavenderspence ↳ I'm a sucker for Spencer fluff this month, what can I say? This fic Tina made had my waterworks going on for about a minute because it's so sweet

✿ desk duty by @reiderwriter ↳ All you have to know is the amount of evil laugh I made while reading this

✿ the theory of love by @ophelia-is-complex ↳ Genuine intimacy is quite a challenge to write, but THIS ONE, this one had me in a sappy mood

✿ like nothing matters by @cerisereids ↳ gagged and had to pause the reading so many times because HELLO— had me spiraling at work

✿ the devils disguise by @qlossytbh ↳ I said I sobbed a little bit, but I actually cried so much I ended up taking a nap and felt better afterward. It's all fluff, though, don't get me wrong. I'm just very dramatic when the red devil's on the clock

✿ not so funny by @reidmania ↳ Angsty, that made me wanna start a fight with some random twiggy tall guy. Sooooo good!

✿ cloaked in passions touch by @raekensluver ↳ If you don't like Spencer's hands, you're fucking lying to yourself!!!!!

✿ language of devotion by @gghostwriter ↳ I'm in love with reid, and this fic just had me stumbling back onto his lap like a good gal

✿ this req response by @mandarinmoons ↳ Sorry, I'm not sure what the title is, but it's so adorable and got me to go to work, so kind of a lifesaver tbh

✿ hallucinate by @gghostwriter ↳ Oooo, this one was so cute, hehe. Honestly, I lean towards Spencer fluff lately just because I've been too overstimulated with work this past month, so READ THIS ONE ITS CUTE

✿ it's golden, like daylight by @dudeitiskarev ↳ I actually felt like I was reader the entire time I read this. It's well-written and so adorable and something that should be framed in a museum

✿ much ado about nothing series by @incognit0slut ↳ binged it all morning, and I was whipped !!! It's ongoing, so if I have to wait, so does everybody else

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Aaron Hotchner

✦ choiceless hope series by @hotchfiles ↳ This series had me rolling over my bed on a Saturday. A lot of feelings getting played (mostly mine)

✦ beanstalk by @solardrop ↳ I kid you not; I was giggling like a weirdo when I read it. And that itself deserves the recommendation.

✦ too busy being yours by @hotchfiles ↳ Lari knows how to get a sick gal to giggle. I love bau!rossi!reader. I love Rossi as reader's dad, so I enjoyed it more than I thought I would

✦ ignorance by infatuation by @boneblushed ↳ Oh, this one was a nice snack while on my break at work. LOVED IT SO MUCH

✦ hungover by @basketonthedoorstepofthefbi ↳ Mmmm, such a good read! Plus Jemily is there sooooo

✦ from across the bar by @hotchscoffeecup ↳ Evil laugh ensues. A nice cuppa of some good ole kinky stuff

✦ doomed by @hotchfiles ↳ guys, I stopped my car in the middle of driving home just to read it, so it's THAT good. Honestly, I strongly encourage everyone to read all of Lari's works! She's my writer crush, if none of you realized it by now

✦ a bunch of cuties in love by @lavenderspence ↳ hehehehehehe this definitely did not remind me of that one older guy I used to flirt with who had an adorable younger brother that I babysat🤭

✦ schrodinger's cat by @none-of-your-bullshit ↳ angst on a Saturday morning is like taking a shot of soju before 11 am, and this one felt like it <3

how about you also comment your top 3 fave fics for this month to spread more love to our great writers?

[vulpixelates]

thinking about... her 😍💖🥵 (ava du mortain wayhaven chronicles)