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I just think Spite being a fan of Rookanis is neat, okay.
Read Part I & Part II here, while I procrastinate and re-write Part III for the thousandth time this week.
#once again my ass is being kicked#the writer's block persists but so do i#i'll get it done eventually...maybe...#work in progress#datv#dragon age veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#rookanis#lucanis x rook#lucanis x mercar#spite dellamorte#spite#fanfiction#rookie writes
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it's been a full year since i made the first post on this blog today.. feels like longer tbh
#i apologize for not really posting anything lately. it's just because i didn't feel like it lol.#but i am not like. done talking about utena. i don't think i'll ever be#i'll get back to it eventually#maybe starting with finishing the million posts in my drafts#m
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... why he sit like this
#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little#rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo#cats#It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually#getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol#Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime#I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering#all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty#e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time#that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense#that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh#I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol#which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything#I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still#recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually#slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever#reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished#any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky#and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly#going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et#etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make#stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin#.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care#and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc#ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it#82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol
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played mouthwashing... good game
#i have many thoughts. maybe i will write them out eventually but im too eepy rn#ive been meaning to play how fish is made for so long. i think i'll finally do that now lmao#reminded me of indika not storywise but just the effective use of the Game Medium#also probably hit even more bc ive been having a lot of thoughts lately about the way some people approach art#solely as this thing that is supposed to revolve around them and make them Happy#who then get angry when it makes them feel Big Emotions and/or doesn't perfectly 'represent' their experiences#part of enjoying art is looking at it critically. it's experiencing new perspectives. it's feeling big emotions both positive and negative#and sitting with those emotions and then asking ourselves Why the artist has done this#sometimes the point is to make you miserable and that doesn't automatically make it bad#anyways. good game
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Kid from Murder of Sonic the hedgehog nonbinary sticker? mayhap?
I think you mean Barry? Sorry, they arent on my list of characters to draw!
My plans to have in the shop soon currently are sonic, tails, amy, knuckles, shadow, rouge, omega, matilda, silver, blaze, big, metal, tangle & whisper(together), and three chao (hero, neutral, dark)
So any of those with specific flag variants people wanna see, im all for doin that for them 👍
#frosti talks sonic#basically all the ones i had last year updated and then a few additional characters#ones that are a definite maybe are the chaotix but im very busy with actual work lately so we'll see#anyways i'll use this space to update where all of them are at:#knuckles amy shadow rouge omega matilda and blaze are done besides adding flags variants#tails and big are lined#started lining silver last night#metal and tangle/whipser are in sketch phase#and i havent started sonic at all LOLL or the chaos but i have an idea for them#sonic is elluding me ill get to him eventually
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#arataki itto#genshin gorou#genshin impact#ittorou#gorou can be masc or fem both slay#personally i think transmasc is funnier. skin tone binder that yae makes him take off for the miss hina bit#though transfem has the whole aspect of gorou hating the miss hina bit but then when he's put in the fit he's like oh... hrm.#maybe even just genderfluid. whos to say. that's up to the masses#i also really like the idea of the two of them comparing their transition timeline too... gorou gets mad itto gets to be tall#despite the fact it wasn't a hrt thing he was just already massive#i think gorou would eventually grow facial hair and itto gets mad about that. itto wants a massive beard but he cannot grow one.#this is my city#whatever i need to go to sleep now#i'm procrastinating working on my fort comic.. no clue when i'll be done that but hopefully by the end of gay people month#shruggies#mine#my art
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How’s the demo coming along? /genq (Sorry if this is rude, I’m just curious ^^’’)
NO WORRIES I DON'T FIND IT RUDE!! honestly it's been a bit slow, I wanna pick up my pace again and be on that GRIND like how I was cause that felt good!! I'm also planning to delete the game on ren'py since I'm having issue with some of the coding even though I'm following the tutorial exactly as shown so I'm hoping that deleting the game(which isn't that big of a set back for me, I really only had the title screen in there so far) and then just start from scratch cause I don't know if the game file is glitching or if I'm just REALLY bad at coding(though tbf I haven't coded anything since the required coding class in high school and I wasn't even using ren'py for that) Although my plans have changed a bit, I don't plan on going to college this semester(which my dad is NOT going to like so I'm really dreading even TELLING him), rather I want to focus on getting a job(which will still take up my time as well as having to take care of everything at this place) BUT hopefully I'll be less stressed and at least have more free time(I take FOREVR to do college assignments, I'm a really slow worker, I always have been) but I'm hoping that I get a job and make money and save it up so I can GET OUUUUUUT of this place which would lower my stress and give me significantly more free time. And then I wanna do trade school, I wanna use my own money, not my dads, if I'm out of here and use my own money I don' have to worry about anyone else's expectations other then mine so that's also less stress YIPPEE! Progress is slow but tonight I wanna find some music, which thankfully I already have an artist(Peritune) that I REALLY like so I'll just be looking through more of their stuff! Now that I have most of the scenes written out it should be easier to find music and backgrounds! Anyways long story short progress has been slower than I'd like but I'm feeling that motivation kick! I'll try to post more updates as well, sorry for just going MIA!!
#☕️-cafe sweet#🎤-asks#yandere visual novel#male yandere#yandere#visual novel#yandere boyfriend#yandere vn#It started out as a little break from writing and drawin cause my wrist was hurting and i felt drained#but then stuff just kept getting worse at home#im safe though dont worry just STRESSED LMAOOOOO#honestly though seeing people still being interested in Cafe Sweet is giving me a big motivation boost!#Thank you! I'll get more done tonight!#Also with money being mentioned i REFUSE to open up a kofi or a patreon#one i dont have a credit card#but two im such a slow worker that i have like nothing to offer like im not sure id be able to do monthly specials#and so id feel like im scamming people and i DONT want to do that#maybe eventually in the future but def not right now!#I also wanna redo Artemis' sprites cause i was NOT liking how they were coming out#which also made me unmotivated LMAO#I might fix up some of the beginning of the script tonight as well#i need a smooth way to transition into naming yourself and picking your pronouns as well as naming your cat
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#well I just submitted my essay for my history class so I'm finally done with finals#I wish I felt happier or relieved or something but I don't. I feel awful. my body hurts from the incredible amount of tension/anxiety I had#trying to finish it before 11:59. I submitted it at 11:55. I have never come that close before and I hate it#the amount of anxiety I had you'd think the deadline was hunting me for sport#and what's worse is I felt all this anxiety and put all this work into it and I'm not even happy about it#I spent two days trying to figure out what he wanted us to write about because apparently he just seems to be really bad at instructions#like I thought maybe it was just me overthinking but I spent two hours talking to my mom about it and in the end even she couldn't figure i#so then I had only two days to gather notes make an outline write an essay. while burnt out and barely able to focus.#and while not knowing exactly what I was doing like is this what he wants. is it not. who knows I literally don't have time left#to figure it out I just need to write something and hope it works#but I hate being unsure it makes everything harder#especially because I really wanted to make a good grade. this was the class where I made a 78 on my midterm#which brought my class grade to a B but I'd been able to get it back to an A and I'd be able to keep it if I got like an 80ish on the final#the essay turned out okay idk if it's what he wanted but whatever at least I got the other requirements like word count and sources#but the CITATIONS...we had to use chicago which I'd never used before and let me just say. mla is the love of my life after this.#actually chicago might not be that bad if I got used to it I think my violence should be directed toward every word processor#that links footnotes. it is so STUPID that there isn't an easier way to make them different#if it hadn't been for trying to figure out footnotes on google docs I could've submitted it like ten minutes earlier#and with phenomenally less stress#I eventually had to make a choice as to what I'd give up: (1) submitting it on time (2) perfect citations or (3) word doc#which is what he wanted it submitted as#except when I tried that thank goodness I looked at the preview before I submitted it because I saw that it'd messed up the citations#I ended up submitting it as a pdf. on time. with perfect (maybe) (I didn't have time to double check) citations. but not as a word doc.#is it the end of the world? idk probably not but not meeting a professor's requirements is like. anathema.#all of that is to say that I'm going to cry and then let it go and get to bed and just. idk. I've reached that point where#I'm so tired and numb that it feels like I'll never feel better#anyway#maybe I hurt because of my meds and the side effects decided to kick in now because the grace of God held them back long enough#for me to finish#earl crow ramblings
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Two expression practices for the price of one.
Wanted to work on a side profile of Cecil, and then I realized I had the young Cecil sketch from the other day. So boom, two for one. Would it better to have everything in a single piece? Yeah, but I'm lazy, and not doing this every day. Also, young Cecil, thought he was hot shit. So yes, I drew him biting his lip. I simp really hard for both version tbh more so for the grumpy silver fox. Anyway, currently working on a commission, so, once that's done I'll try and post the fic or one of the million things of headcannons I've got for him.
If someone has bad news, it's an unspoken rule to bring him coffee. Reduces the likelihood of getting yelled at. And he’s caught onto it. Noticing that depending on how bad the news is, the more coffee they bring.
#cecil stedman#invincible#invincible show#image comics#invincible comic#young cecil#Cecil has a caffeine addiction#i still believe young cecil was a little shit#and nearly dying mellowed him out#you know maybe i'll draw him younger with his scar next#like right after he got it#I have another practice to do with him being done with everything#so i'll get to it eventually
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i need y'all to know that this in9 art series is just an elaborate way of getting me to remember the names and order of the episodes lol
#personal#i love learning the order of things lol... cant explain it#anywayyy a mini update to anyone interested is that ive completed 21 of them#iev actually changed my mind on a couple of the screenshots i initially chose#which means i wont be drawing nick from tempting fate rip :(#(i'll get round to drawing him eventually dont worry)#(i mainly changed it cos i realised there are too many screenshots featuring r's face lol like this isnt even smth i did on purpose#several of these screenshots were picked by other people so its not even my bias showing istg lol !!!#but anyway needed to remove one of them so... rip nick sorry babe)#anyway i wanted to get 3 done today and ive managed one#but im sooarrrr sleeeepy that i may end up just getting another one done later lol#also tentatively i am currently thinking i might be able to get them all done by the 22nd but like...#that's a tentative maybe#anyway idk if anyone is actually interested in this but here ya go lol#i think ive said anywayy like 300 times int hese tags#annywayyyyyy
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And out of the blue I've gone back to playing the sims...?
#had a couple days where all i wanted to do was knit/crochet and watch YouTube#then suddenly i really wanted to get on the sims#maybe it's the lion pacing the enclosure#need enrichment so I'm jumping around activities?#not even done with my second/canon playthrough of dav#guess I'll get back to that eventually 🤷♂️
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good morning!! <333
#hehe ihop was yummy yesterday and we have leftovers :3#also i got one region to 100%#so now it's 100; 81; and 0 (probably more than that but i need to unlock the statue to know for sure)#anyway... given that the rest of what i need for the flower-feather clan area is probably in its shrine of depth...#i'm gonna start that third region today#dunno how much i'll get done but if i play like two hours I'll probably make good progress#also today is groceries + i lowkey wanna post that fic i wrote while it's still the month of his anniversary ('haitham :3)#so maybe tonight?#oh yeah i did manage to play an hour or so of wuwa last night - we'll just keep making slow progress until i'm eventually caught up :3#anyways that's all in your morning video game news lol#i hope that today/tonight is kind to you!! <333#morning rambles
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I actually have to write this idea because there's no fics of it that I could find so heyo guess I'm doing it.
#Clove Posts#lots of tags#tbf it is a crossover so those get a bit iffy on being done#yes it's the enstars bsd crossover I've mentioned it as a bsd AU for Enstars before but it turned into a crossover#I've found some stuff involving bsd interacting with the Enstars universe#but not Enstars being shoved into bsd soooooo#I'm calling this crossover Bungo Stray Stars#it's basically bsd but what if I added 51 more characters#I've got plans for oneshots/short fics but nothing for a long fic yet but maybe eventually?#I'm really not confident with my writing ability#but I'm sure that as I go I'll get better through the practice of it right?#that's generally how things go#I'll need to write fight scenes so that'll be oof but I want to do it so I'm going to do it#I'll do it bad but it'll get done!! eventually
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;-; I was on my way to replay faith for like the 34895487 time and it's gone ;;;;;;-;;;;;;
it was one of the best pieces of the jam
are u ok?
thank you this is very sweet :-)
i did take faith down... the short of it is just that faith got a really weird reception and it made me feel really weird and just overall, while i don't regret the experience, i think i had different expectations going into a jam and because of that i just didn't feel good about it in the end. i think i have just learned that game jams are not for me hahaha
this isn't me trying to discourage people from participating or anything (it was still fun making something like that) but it's just my personal experience. if you want to join any jams you should try it for yourself and see, i know a lot of people had fun with this jam so i'm not generalizing at all & you may have a different experience than me. and it was still really cool to see all the different stories that came out of it :-)
#and to be clear no one was like. Mean i guess aside from anons in my inbox lol#like i have a pretty thick skin about ratings and reviews and it wasnt anything to do with that really. everyone that did rate/review#was very nice actually#but it was some of the other reactions that just made me feel like..... Unwelcome#it just feels like me and my work do not.... fit in. is the best way i can describe it#and maybe im being overly critical of myself and just in my own head about it but. what can you do#maybe i'll reupload it eventually outside of the jam but atm i just need it Offline because ppl made me feel weird about it#and i dont want to feel weird or self conscious about my work#i wanted to keep it up until the end of the jam and then i was going to wait until after the donations were done but#it just didnt work out that way unfortunately. that's what i get for posting it so early on during the jam lmfao#ask#anonymous
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Gencon is very busy...!!!
Ummmmm highlights of the day..!!!
I maybe bought 4 Naruto figurines. Thankfully not individually expensive (though perhaps a little expensive all together...) see I wanted Sasuke but I also wanted Kakashi and I couldn't have Sasuke without Naruto and well it would feel wrong to have the 3 of them without Sakura and so I somehow. Got all 4. Haha. I'll most likely post pics later, whenever I end up opening them. I'm still at the convention center rn lol
(Putting the rest of this under a cut bc it got a little long lol)
I was on the field of the Lucas Oil Stadium, aka the stadium that the Indianapolis Colts play at. I've attended all of One game here (not professional football, it was a high school game lol) so I've felt the size of it, but it's still fucking crazy being on the field. It's so BIG...... and obviously they've got the grass covered rn, but it's still pretty cool!!!
I maaaade dice!!! Pretty precise process it seems, & definitely would require a Lot of work (after the sanding and the painting etc etc). I do still wanna get into it, but if I wanted to spring for stuff like the vacuum chamber or the pressure pot...
Yeah, it'd get expensive. Add in the fact that I don't have a good place to do this away from the cats & it really is not feasible to start rn. But!!! Eventually!!!! I think I'd really enjoy it. I just need a dedicated workshop space where I can spread out without worrying about poisoning my cats lol.
Here's some cool game set stuff I saw in the event hall. This picture is maybe... hm... a fourth of the event hall? And then when you consider that the vender hall (connected to the event hall, though it's closed right now) is maybe 1.5 times as big as the event hall?? Give or take a little...
Aka just imagine booths upon booths upon booths... I'm gonna have to take a pic of it tomorrow. I was there too briefly to think about taking a pic. Honestly I maybe managed to get through like a tenth of the whole vender hall in an hour of wandering. It's fucking huge. And So Many Dice... I bought one set of 14 (I think it was) dice. Aka an extended set. And then I got a random set bag of dice (just a basic 7). And then a d20 with a cat on it. And a dice of LETTERS. Aka I guess a d26 (I totally did not have to double check that there were 26 letters in the alphabet)(I have 702k words written & posted to ao3)(😂😂😂 I'm very tired) but with letters instead of numbers. And it's glow in the dark!!! And I found some hxh buttons, and a mighty nein poster, and uhmmmm. A cute lanyard. And that's all I bought. Which really is such restraint for me. (Omfg I just saw a dragon cosplay)(someone just dressed as a dragon)
OH YEAH I saw a fucking. Persona 5 Ryuji cosplay. Hanging out with the biker lady from Durarara. Featuring the Ryuji holding her scythe hfksbfmd which was such a funny image. I was too shy to ask for a pic but just trust 🙏 i saw this
Anyways yeah the only real big thing I bought is the naruto figurines. I'll show pics later once I got the stuff again (I dropped it all off in the car earlier)
Omfg literally as I've been sitting here (on a bench at the side of a main hallway) someone stopped by and gave me a handmade bracelet !!!
DND's 50th anniversary!!! So cute!!!!
#speculation nation#not Too much anime stuff. tho i clearly found some stuff. no trigun yet unfortunately 😔#which i already walked thru the artist area (as much as i could)(i was getting a little stressed by how crowded it was)#so idk maybe i missed a booth or smth but it'd definitely be less likely to see elsewhere in the vender's hall#but WHO KNOWS it's a wonderful massive world in there.#im actually sitting outside it rn and staring longingly at the closed doors. tomorrow... i will be able to Actually peruse it more...#and i will quite possibly wear some ear plugs next time bcus i was getting Stressed Out!!! overstimulated!!!!#pulled in a million different directions!!!!! aaaaaaa!!!!#anyways yeah my events are all done for the night. just kinda hanging out now waiting for my sister's game to be done.#gonna collapse into bed as soon as we get back. so i should probably eat some more.#i had an overpriced and underwhelming sandwich. but there is pizza somewhere. maybe i should eat pizza.#i actually... still have the keys lol. from when i dropped the stuff off at the car earlier.#which is weird. I have the ticket to home with me. but i still wait. bc it would be a dick move to leave with them lol#and also. while i Can drive. i do not have my license. so that would be. a bad. idea.#my shoulders Huuuuurt but thankfully i dont have any combat classes tomorrow#hurting shoulders is more just from my bag bc my shoulders fucking suck. but it makes me glad i can rest more tomorrow.#oh yeah i did the sword knife and longsword today. might get bruises from that knife one. it was very focused on parrying#swords. swords. swords. swords. the longsword class made me really want to own a longsword. i dont own one. yet.#i could. i could. i could. sometime. eventually. i want a longsword. i think i technically just own uhmmm um um#a rapier? a machete? a uh. i dont know what that cheap anime convention sword is actually. OH YEA AND CANE SWORD#no longsword though. i really want to own a katana too. someday i'll own both. someday.#real swords are unfortunatelly really expensive. thats why i only have uh. uh. uhhh. oh yeah i do have those 2 swords from mountains trip#i dont really know what those are either. you know i really should know what bladed weapons i own. i dont though.#i own cool swords and knives bc oooh fun pointy things! wheeeeee!!!#i'll study up on it later. lol.#anyways i guess i should go look for more food. i have rambled enough. bye!
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D a b u r n
Dazai x Auburn
dove pelase dove please please dove please i swear we did not smooch we hate each other actually
#dove <3#auburn dazai arc#eventually i'll stop being in denial#but also i. had a dazai arc when i started watching bsd actually.#its funny that it came back#i really didnt think it would come BACK#for the longest time i was like “nah dazai isnt for me i dont get why people like him”#NOW LOOK AT ME TF#to be far he is one of those characters that i cant see myself actually being with#but idk why that is because personality wise we are compatible#maybe its because hes too smart for me idk LMAO#anyways im done rambling
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