#i'll be mentally here till summer gets here

[olivianyx]

GET YOUR DREAM LIFE: A CHALLENGE

Welcome to this challenge, babygirls and babyboys 🗣️🗣️🗣️

So are you ready to manifest everything you desired in April? Then start up rn!

I'll show you 5 important, simple steps you can use to manifest your dream life!

This challenge will be done for 30 days throughout April. At the end of this month, the results are guaranteed!

You might be wondering if its gonna be hard... Buuuut! The steps are super duper simple, just follow them!

THE STEPS:

🤍 MENTAL DIET 🤍

Y'all heard it right, maintain a strict mental diet, like literally stop wavering! Stop focusing on things you don't want! Don't accept things you don't want! It's that simple. Only focus on positive and favourable thoughts.

Your mornings should go like, 'uhh it's such a beautiful day. It's gonna be amazing day as always. But it's gonna be fun today! I literally love this life, it's freaking amazing, I literally don't know how to thank myself for this. The fact that I'm the ultimate creator is soo mind blowing for me even though I've always been for my entire life. I'm literally thankful for everything! My life's being too perfect and I get what I want everytime, everything's in my favour always. I literally look soo amazing in every outfit I wear, it's such a slay everyday. Uhh I'm soo lucky to have what I want. Literally my self concept is supreme' and blah blah blah. You can add whatever you want further lol.

So like literally throughout the day steady yourself in this mindset. If you catch yourself wavering, be like *sike there ain't no chance bitch* come back on track! Catch yourself waver ---> stop ---> drop ---> flip it into something positive or favourable.

Literally robotic affirming is the only way you can keep your thoughts in check. So go bestie! Keep your head high, keep a check on those thoughts inside your pretty/handsome head 😩 keep slaying everyday ✨

🤍 ROBOTIC AFFIRMING 🤍

Keep affirming babygirls and babyboys! Like literally don't even stop (unless you're doing smth important, then stop affirming for a while lol) y'all got your dream lives already 💅 so why y'all telling yourself that you don't?? Well y'all do have it, so tell yourself the ULTIMATE FACT that you have your dream lives already 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ tell yourself whenever you're free, like even doing your daily chores such as taking a shit or shower, or brushing your teeth, eating, scrolling through the phone, or walking, waiting in a queue (I'd never wait in a queue... Cus I don't go to places with long ass annoying queues 😭) or listening to music or watching TV, doing the dishes or doing self care (I love my babygirls and babyboys taking care of themselves like there's no tomorrow 😩✋🏻I'mma give y'all a nice smooch 😚) just do it my babies! It's the ultimate way to get (which you already have it) your dream lives! So get tf up babies! 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

🤍 LIVING IN THE END 🤍

This step shouldn't be missed at all babies! So focus on the end! Focus on having it! Focus on thinking from the end! Like you already are living yor dream lives, you have that car you wanted cus you already drive it everyday! You have that sp that loves you till death, that spoils you with their love, money, and what not?! You have that house you've been dreaming of! No, I mean living! You're living in that house already! It's yours my love! You got that perfect sculptured summer body ody that the normal human beings are jealous?? Like you have that body effortlessly 😩✋🏻 FOCUS ON HAVING IT BITCHES 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

🤍 USING SLEEP TO YOUR ADVANTAGE! 🤍

Listen here, my babygirls and babyboys! You sleep 7 to 8 hours a day, and sleep, according to medicals, is a state of complete rest. That means you're not aware of your surroundings. You're just being a black, quiet, space like floaty state (the void actually) so things are easier to manifest Instantly in this state! So why not do psych k or sats or the lullaby method before bed and after you wake up my loves?? It's so much more effective that what you do in the day time! Trust me! Go prepare yourself well for the bed babies 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

🤍 PERSISTENCE 🤍

Since you already affirming that you have your dream lives, you have it already! But you can begin to doubt that why is it not in the 3d... BITCH DON'T EVEN THINK LIKE THAT. Be like 'bitch wtf my life literally feels like a dream come true moment everyday 😭😭 like I'm literally living the life I wanted, I already am experiencing it wtf are you talking about' like literally GASLIGHT YOURSELF INTO THINKING LIKE THAT (cus you already have your dream life) like literally decide that you already have! Hold onto the new story no matter what! 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

So ig I've told you what you needed to do... So all you gotta do is follow the fucking steps babies 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

Okay, take care, love y'all babies! Byeee

- olivia 🤍

[thefiery-phoenix]

Read recently your post about yandere Jichang (why did he have to die 😭) so can you also do yandere Jihan Kwak ?

Sure :) And I know, I get down in the dumps every time I think about Jichang's death, WHY is the world so cruel? 😭

YANDERE KWAK JI-HAN (JIHAN KWAK) HEADCANONS

I simp for him too lol and god DAMN...I'll die from a nosebleed at some point because of how good looking so many of the Lookism characters look and cue my unholy screeching and psychotic giggling

You were visiting your grandparents for the summer vacation as you got down the bus and you sighed as you shouldered your backpack. You were too used to city life, you weren't sure how you'd fare in a quiet countryside but you did have to admit it looked peaceful. You pulled out your phone from your pocket to contact your grandparents when you realized the universe was playing a colossal joke on you since your phone battery was dead you grumbled under your breath. It's been a while since you'd visited your grandparents so you couldn't remember how their house looked like so you decided to ask someone along the way, hoping they'd know the location to their house. You were unaware of a certain pair of calculating eyes watching your every movement, surveying your features till you were approached by a guy who looked almost similar to your age and had a friendly polite smile on his face. "You seem to be lost there sweetheart...anything I can help you with?" he asked you politely as you smiled and explained your situation to him. The guy introduced himself as Jihan Kwak as the two of you headed to your grandparents house

As he kept talking to you, he couldn't help but feel more...attracted and drawn to you. You were a city dweller and yet you weren't so obnoxious and loud or had an ego complex, you had a genuine and nice personality. He kept looking at you from the corner of his eye, his cheeks heating slightly every time he saw you smile and talk about something you liked like your favorite book or your favorite movie and such, mentally noting down whatever you were telling him for future purposes when he'd meet you next time. Of course he'd be meeting you next time, and plenty more times after your first encounter, you've managed to make him intrigued and charmed him with your personality, you remind him of a fragile little doll to be honest, his savior and protector complex would get activated whenever he sees you, you're just too adorable for him, he can't take you seriously sometimes. He wonders how you've managed to survive this long but not to worry, he's here for you now

He'll pop by your grandparent's house every day and he'll have a good impression on them to get more closer to you. He usually wasn't someone who really gave love that much of a thought before he met you, he loved how soft your hands were, how kind and caring you were to those around you, how adorable you looked whenever you had that gleam of passion in your eyes when you spoke about things, how mesmerizing your eyes are and how he feels like he's getting lost in the beauty of your eyes... he loves everything about you. He isn't delusional, he knows his feelings for you are going out of control and he tries to suppress them only for something more darker, sinister and twisted to emerge as a form of love for you

He's aware his feelings for you are unnatural but he just can't help it. He just can't seem to get enough of you. He won't spill his heart out to yet since he doesn't want you to think he's weird but at the same time he doesn't have any qualms of being clingy to you and stalking you wherever you go. You're new to the countryside, you probably wouldn't be aware of the dangers but you don't need to worry, he's there for you to protect you and keep you safe. Of course, it kind of goes without saying, since he's also the brother of Jichang who's an officer, the people around would gladly keep an eye out for you to make sure you don't get yourself into any kind of trouble

His brothers would eventually find out about his immense feelings of love for you after Jichang catches his brother stalking you in the night as he simply glared at his brother which made it a bit awkward for a few seconds till they went back home and Jichang, Jibeom and Jihan sat down for a family discussion where he'll eventually be forced to spill his guts and heart regarding his feelings for you. Of course, they'd be happy for him and they don't really see anything wrong with how twisted his concept of love had become for you and Jichang would do whatever research necessary to find out more information regarding you by pulling a few strings here and there and would get rid of someone posing a threat to yours and Jihan's relationship. He wants his little brother to be happy after all, law be damned, plus they're eager to welcome you into their fold

Jihan likes being affectionate with you, deep down he's slightly insecure you might find someone else better than him which makes him even more clingier to you than usual till he starts developing the fear and paranoia of you leaving him. One day when you told him you'd be going back to your parents house since the summer vacation was over, he just looked at you in complete shock. For a moment he forgot you were on summer vacation and you were just visiting, he'll swallow the bitter lump forming in his throat as he wishes you all the very best and would invite you over for his house for dinner to which you'd agree. Then he'll formulate a plan to ensure you'd stay with him since he just can't afford to lose you, you mean so much to him. He'd feel empty without you and there needs to be someone by your side to take care of you, he's more than willing to be that man for you

Jichang would assist him in procuring some sedative to make you fall asleep after you've finished consuming the food which would make you black out in less than five seconds. Deep down Jihan feels slightly guilty he's slipping sedatives in your food but his fear of losing you overrides his sense of rationality which would compel him to slip the sedatives in your dish while telling himself that it's for your own good and he can't lose you. You're all smiles as you greet his brothers and they're really impressed with your courteous behavior and politeness. Jibeom would nudge Jihan in the chest and smirk at him and whisper what a good choice his brother made as Jihan grows slightly flustered and drinks some water. After you've finished eating your food, before you're about to bade them farewell, you lost your consciousness and you ended up blacking out in Jihan's arms as he carried you to a room and placed a blanket over you and caressed your head lovingly. You woke up after a few hours when the sedatives finally wore off as you looked around, confused as to what was going on when you were supposed to be at your grandparents house, packing for going back to your parent's house in 2 days

Jihan will enter the room and hand you a glass of water as he explains what he did and you'd stare at him in shock. He'd be hurt if you scream or insult him but he understands, he understands how you feel. It's a new concept for you and you can have all the time in the world to adjust, he doesn't mind. If you cry, he'll feel really bad and he feels an ache in his heart from seeing you cry as tears are streaming down your face. He wanted to ensure your happiness all the time, he didn't like seeing you sad so he'd just hold you in a comforting embrace and pat your head gently, telling you how much you mean to him. He isn't unreasonable, he knows you might be mad at him but deep down he'll be hurt and have the expression of a kicked puppy if you ignore him. Nonetheless he'll never raise his voice or hands at you, he can't bring himself to hurt you. That thought wouldn't occur to him even in his worst nightmare. With the kindness and love he's treating you with, you'll end up getting Stockholm Syndrome faster than Zack always screaming for Mira

You actually might have a shot at escaping from him since he does tend to take you out on dates outside to make sure you don't die from boredom from being at home all the time but if you do end up escaping, it'll be Jichang who'll find you and just bring you back to Jihan. Jihan would be worried about you and check you for injuries and then he'd tell you in a very serious tone how he'd never let you attempt something like this again since he loves you too much so now you'll have to earn his trust back before you're allowed to go out. If it's someone trying to take you from him then it's a completely different story. He might be kind and loving to you but his personality is like a snake, cunning and crafty as he analyzes how to get rid of the pest to meddle in between the both of you. Don't forget about his fighting skills, he's learnt from the very best himself and will not hesitate to snap the person's bones like a twig if he has to for your sake and the person would disappear off the face of the planet the next day who may or may not be buried 6 feet under the ground or probably fed to the wild dogs they have, but you don't need to stress your pretty head about that. Just leave all the violence and brutal things to him all right?

His love for you has no bounds which is mixed with possessiveness. Don't even try resisting his affection for you, he'll just hold you tighter to him and cuddle with you. He loves seeing you cooking, having a cute little apron on your frame as he envelopes you into a hug from the back and he kisses the nape of your neck and nuzzles your cheek with his. He truly does love you, just make him happy by being with him please, he'd be crushed if he loses you. Overall, a great yandere to have and he'd seriously be a blessing to have compared to the other messed up characters...

[lukolabrainrot]

Calm theory anon here and I seen an ask as I was scrolling that made me think. One question was why would Luke continue to see Ant if she was involved with pap gate? And another question was why would he continue to date ant it he knew it was hurting nic? So let's tackle the first one. My question to you is do you automatically think the worst of the people in your life? Do you automatically have bad things happens and assume it's someone attached to you? I personally don't. I think to figure out who was behind pap gate would be difficult and he might have just assumed they followed him from the after party to the hotel. He might not have even put two and two together. We know the girl been baiting the fans but an outsider would just think she taking pictures and posting them. So why would Luke think any type of different? To him she wasn't nasty. She I'm sure showed all her best qualities to him. Remember even though they been "seeing" each other for a year he's been gone for most of that. So did he really know her? No how can he when he spent so much time touring, and even when he was back I'm sure he was exhausted in between countries. So yes there is a possibly he didn't put two and two together. We still don't know who called them we still have just theories and I'm sure he's not gonna ask backgrid who called. Actually why would he even go that route mentally and assume it was his people? I'm sure that thought didn't come in his head till it became a pattern which was Italy. Now why would he continue dating Ant if Nic was hurting? Now this one made me pause a bit. Why would he? then it dawned on me who to even say they had that discussion on how they feel about each other. How would he know how she felt unless she told him? I personally am a people pleaser and honestly at times it sucks. I always put myself last. So it goes to stand if Nic knew he was seeing her then why would she get in the way of his relationship? She would never be the reason they broke up. Men naturally are able to communicate feelings as good as woman are. They are naturally logical thinkers. They react to issues using logic where as woman react using feelings. So Nic did why I would have done thrown herself into work and just have some fun try not to dwell on something you can't change. I seen an article that spoke on she went from the Tour to straight to filming. She didn't have to dwell in the Luke stuff cuz she kept herself busy. Now personally I think they have talked since then. I think it was after Italy. Who knows if they spoken feelings? But i do think things are moving in the right direction. Hey maybe this JD photos got a certain person moving.

💯

Hard to know EXACTLY what's been going on BTS with L/N since the beginning of the year. I personally think they have seriously been working on their romantic relationship since the Italy stop of the WT. I think papgate threw a wrench in everything though and things were definitely not all rainbows and sunshine between L/N this summer. I think they took some space this summer to figure out there stuff, and there was some type of positive shift between them after the Italy bday trip. I also personally think things have been kind of off and on between L/N for a while, and they have known each other so long, that if they can get on the same page, I think things will get serious pretty quickly. And I have this theory (based on everything I've seen between them this year and PARTICULARLY N's chaos week), that they have finally gotten on the same page 😉

I am also going to say this. I think it speaks VOLUMES what L/N have on their public grid of each other (and the other people in their lives they DON'T choose to put on their grid). Especially N (who's a lot more SM savy than L). I've said it before, and I'll say it again. L (not Colin) is ALL OVER N'S GRID 🤔

[mugeesworld]

Shanks with a chubby partner head cannons!

Female y/n

!!NSFW!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

Masters list-

ahhhh shanks...... Shanks shanks shanks..... This mf...... How do I put this.... Sigh

He is one horny ass bastard.

I said it! And it's true! Look at him?!?? He always has that sly ass look on his face that makes you want to both punch and sit on. (I want to at least..)

And I have to say I don't think he would settle down with someone. He looks like a pimp. Hoping island to island. Unlimited hoes you feel me.

BUT

That was before he met you of course;)

Cause when his eyes landed on you. He didn't just want you oh no no no! He needed you... He desired you. He would not have it any other way.

Cause when he sets his eye on something. Especially a glorious treasure like you? Oh then he has to have it! Never in his life had he ever seen such a treasure like you!

No amount of jewels, gold, silver, or berries could ever be more desirable then you. Cause you we're the true treasure to him. Just the thing he has been searching for.

THE ONE PIECE! (sorry sorry. I'm joking!)

But you are certainly close to it! Just kidding you're better then it;)

Shanks is the type of guy to think he has the most rizziest of rizz then hit you with a yo mama joke. It would work on me but obviously it's not everyones type of flirting!

Ok so I started this like 3 days ago. Did a story and didn't like it. So I'm restarting a whole new small story. Cause I like adding a small little story on my head cannons! I do it on every single one! So yeah.....

It's no secret shanks and his crew love to drink! And like every other island he comes across he has to check out the bar at the one you just so happen to live and work at with your friend! So as usual him and his crew go to bar.

Beep beep.... Beep beep..... You rub your eyes and turn over to turn off your alarm. Seeing the time you jump to your feet. "Holy shit! I'm late for work!" you quickly throw on some clean clothes and start dragging yourself to the bar. Meanwhile your friend Ren is taking care of shanks crew by herself.

"Where the hell are you y/n??!" she grumbles carrying yet another barrel of booze for the thirsty pirates! She puts down the barrel when suddenly another group of pirates walk in.

"Oh fuck this! I can't do two crews by myself!" she says throwing her hands up in the air and sitting down on one of the stools at the bar. The captain from the other crew looks around the bar. His eyes landing on shanks. "Oh don't worry miss. We'll be quick... We're not here for a drink anyways." he mumbles.

Ren quickly stands up from her chair at hearing that. "If your not gonna buy anything then you can't stay buddy! This is a bar not a hotel!" she explains, walking towards the man while pointing at the door. The man scoffs and pushes past her. Ignoring her protests.

He makes his way over to shanks table slamming his hands down to get his attention. "So you're shanks huh? You don't look threatening at all! How the hell is your bounty so high?" he chuckles.

"Well I didn't come here to chit chat. So let's get on with it. Let's fight!" he yells throwing the table shanks was using. Shanks ignores the man. People like this are new to him. He sighs taking another sip of his sake. "Can't you see me and my crew are just trying to have a good time? Take a chill pill!" he groans.

Ren backs up against the bar. Usually you we're here to help settle bar fights like this but she was all alone left to panic. The man clenches his teeth. "How dare you disrespect me like that! Fight me! Or I'll tear this place apart till you do!" he yells, once again throwing another table.

The man continues to throw tables and chairs. Shanks hated that the guy was doing this to the bar. But it seemed a guy like this would pop up every time him and his crew go for a drink. He was tired of it. After a few minutes of him having a tantrum shanks finally stands up having had enough of his bull shit.

When suddenly you barge in out of breath nearly falling over at the sudden stop. "I'm so sorry I'm late ren- HOLY SHIT!"

You gather yourself, standing up straight to look around st the mess he made. "Who the hell do you think you are messing up my bar like this?!" you scream walking over towards the man.

The captain turns around to look at you. "Just stay out of this Missy. You don't want to get hurt do ya?" he sneers crossing his arms. You roll your eyes looking around for ren. Spotting her behind the bar. "Ren what the hell happened?!" you ask throwing your hand in the air

She pops her head out from behind the bar. "This guy wants to fight that guy over there but he refused so- Hey wait! I should be the one asking you that! Why the hell are you late y/n?! I could of died!" she yells.

You awkwardly smile at her and look at the ground. "I may have slept in.... But we will talk about that later! As I was saying! Ahem* WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!" you yell pushing your finger into the man's chest.

"You can't just come in here and act like you own the place! You're gonna pay every penny of damage whether it's with berries or your life! I don't have time for your bullshit!" you scream grabbing the man by his shirt.

The pirate clenches his teeth and pushes your hands off him before turning back to shanks. Not paying you any mind. "Well I don't have time to deal with some foolish lady. I came here for one thing and one thing only." he says glaring at shanks.

You clench your fist, you've had enough. With everything that's happened today leading up to this you wanted to snap. You've dealed with pirates before. Either throwing them out or beating them if they refuse to pay. He wasn't gonna disrespect you like that. You're not the strongest but you can tell when you can win a fight against someone. He wasn't the biggest and certainly not the smartest.

You charge at the man, lifting up your fist and swinging. Nailing him right in the head. The man falls on his knee grabbing his head. "Don't you ignore me you bastard! I work to hard for this bar for it to be made a fool of by some damn pirate. If you wanna be a pirate so bad then maybe you at least have a bounty. Why don't I turn your ass in and fix up my bar huh?" you exclaim, pushing his head into the ground with one hand and holding his hands behind his back with the other.

Shanks and his crew watch with interest as you handle the pirate. Screwing his head harder and harder into the ground. "But seeing as you can't even take a punch from a foolish lady, your bounty won't even cover the costs of a single glass. You're not worth the walk to the police station.....You have balls coming in here like you own the place when you are weaker then a mere bar tender. Ton down your damn ego and get the hell out of my bar jackass!" you yell while bragging him to the door and throwing him out.

Breathing heavily you turn around to face the man's crew. "Get the hell out of my bar before I knock you all on your asses." you grumble, not in the mood to deal with them.

The crew rush out of the bar not saying a word. You stand still for a second trying to catch your breath before signing. "The audacity some people have is insane...." you whisper just loud enough to be heard. Walking towards the bar you see ren poke her head out from behind the bar.

"It's just my luck a snot nosed pirate trys to cause a ruckus on the exact day you sleep in..." she sighs rubbing her hand over her face. "I'm sorry ren it won't happen again! I'll clean up the mess he made since I was late." you say walking towards the table he flipped.

You flip the tables and chairs back over. Only a few being damaged. Fixing shanks table you see that the chair he was using is broke. "Damn! Sorry about that I'll get you a new chair." you say picking it up. Shanks shakes his head. "That's alright I can sit at the bar. You don't need any more work then you're already doing anyways!" he smiles.

"No it's alright I don't mind!" you say quickly walking away to grab him a new chair before he can protest. He sighs, still feeling bad about the mess he somewhat caused. You put down two chairs in front of him. "Their we are! I only seen one by the table so I brought another in case someone else was sitting here with ya!" you explain.

Shanks nods with a small smile. "Thank you! I was sitting alone actually! Sorry for the mess that guy caused. That stuff seems to happen in every bar I go to. It's a real party pooper. Would you maybe like to join me for a drink?" he asks sitting down in one of the chairs and patting the other.

You think for a moment "hell! Why not!" You sit down and he pours you both some sake. "I have to admit. I didn't think you would be so friendly after seeing you take down that guy. It was pretty scary!" he chuckles.

You laugh and shake your head. "I could of probably handled that differently but I wasn't in the mood to deal with someone like that today." he passes you your drink. "Their isn't many ways to deal with people like that. I think you handled it pretty well!"

You and shanks talk and laugh till you have to get back to work. For the remaining time he was on the island he was at your bar or sleeping. On the last day he asked you to join his crew. How could you say no?

I don't know how I feel about the little story but I don't have the energy to start over. Plus it ended up being way longer then anticipated!

Shanks is a childish person. It's his personality! He is just like luffy. Childish and bold. He might not be as bad as luffy since he is older but for the most part he is!

Let me give you a few examples! Shanks is very easy to please and distract. You never realized how easy it really was until you were naked in front of him for the first time

He was beyond excited! Cause if you are scared to show your body to him. He would praise and just beg you till you did. He didn't understand why you didn't want to!

Imagine shanks coming back from dinner on the ship, heading to yalls room. You and him still haven't had sex yet. And you decided fuck it! You strip naked and sit on the bed waiting for him. As a surprise!

And boy. It was certainly a surprise for him! Right when he walked in he was speechless. He stood there at the door way for a solid minute. Eyes wide and mouth open until you yelled at him to close the door.

He quickly turns around to close the door. Before turning back around he does a little dance cause he is so excited. He turns around towards you with a huge smile and just jumps on top of you.

As you lay flat on your back shanks straddles your legs, staring down at you. You start to get embarrassed with his piercing gave never leaving your body and try and cover up with your hands.

Shanks quickly pushes them away. "Oh No you don't! You covered up this treasure from me long enough! You're never covering it again! Such beauty shouldn't be kept from the eye." he says.

You feel your face heat up. You can't help but feel flustered every time he speaks like that. Shanks cups your face. Running his hand down to your neck. Then your chest. Then your breasts.

Small boobs or big boobs? He don't care. He finds them funny. Like a stress ball.

He squeezes and pokes your boobs. Even though it feels good you can't help but laugh at his reaction. The way he is looking at them is like a kid spaced out after getting a new toy.

He wasn't even trying to pleasure you at that moment. He was to busy playing with your tits to care. Shanks quickly stops hearing you laugh at him. "What are you laughing at huh? Can't a man appreciate his woman's body properly!" he says a little embarrassed.

He is very touchy. Like I mean he can't keep his hands off you. It's not always in a sexual way either. He just needs to have his hands on you in some way. It's comforting. When y'all are sitting down he will have his arm around you or his hand on your leg. Pulling you in closer by you waist. Their will be no space for air.

When standing he doesn't hold hands no. He holds your love handles. If he's walking beside you his arms wrapped around you and squeezing them or if he's standing behind you he's wrapping his arms around you and swaying with his head on your shoulder. You get no personal space.

Sometimes he just needs to hold you for a second. No reason at all. He just wants to. He will stop mid convo. Find you and get your attention even if you're talking to someone. He doesn't care. And wrap his arms around you and sway a bit. That's all. No words exchanged. Then he just walks away.

You will never truly understand that man.

If you don't want to he will just groan or whine till you let him. He has no shame. He's a actual baby😐💀.

Doesn't matter how you're standing or what's around you. He will find a way to satisfy his need to touch you. Doesn't care how embarrassing it is or who's around. His crew has seen everything by now.

He just can't get enough of your body and will take every chance he gets to savor it. Bro would walk up and just put his face on your chest and groan in relief. While you stand their embarrassed. He's actually a leach.

Who wouldn't want this man's large hands on them tho? Exactly.

Since he's so grabby he will grab your stomach too if you're comfortable with that. He will grab e v e r y t h i n g.

Their are no limits for him unless they are past your limits.

He loves laying on your stomach after a long day of God knows what. Listening to your heart beat. And feeling your warmth. Moments like that heals him. It suddenly makes everything better. He loves nothing more then just holding you against him. Knowing your safe and can't go anywhere.

You are truly the one treause he will never sell or loose. He cherishes you. He is actually obsessed with you. Like genuinely. His crew was shocked when seeing him settle down so suddenly with you after seeing him go woman to woman for year's. He was the last person they would expect to do something like that.

He would let you wear his cape. Or buy you one so y'all can match. He would put some shit on it tho like "Ms shanks/ Ms. Red /red haired shanks wife" even if y'all ain't married💀 and sure enough when the government sees that on the back that' your name on the bounty poster 😭

Shanks laughs his ass off about that. Finds it absolutely hilarious. The crew will start calling you Ms. Red. It's got a nice ring to it tho! Can't say I don't like it!

You may be thinking. "His love language can't only be touch!" oh he tries his best to do other stuff! He will buy you anything if you ask! He might try to say something romantic but end up saying the most random thing ever. "You're so beautiful y/n! Your eyes are as brown as a swaying tree branch...." he tries his best...he really does. You gotta give him some credit.

He does give you small praises though. Like "You're so soft/warm. I can't believe I'm dating you. I'm one lucky son of a bitch" random ass things.

Oh but when he's drinking...... You better not get embarrassed easily cause he will spout the most dirty stuff. He doesn't care when he's drunk. The bit of dignity he has before drinking vanishes with the first sip. He his groping and rubbing up on you. Saying all this stuff in front of his crew. You usually end up taking him to yalls room cause you can't handle the embarrassment. He can handle his booze we'll but when it comes to his words he's out of it. He can do everything else fine!

Bro is always horny. He would probably say that out loud too. The little amount of care he has is insane. It's actually scary.

That being said he will tease you until you are red as a damn tomato. He loves riling you up. Especially if you're the shy type. He loves seeing your reaction. In public or in private.

He doesn't play hard to get with you but after teasing you he will act like he didn't do anything. Like nothing happened. He loves seeing you squirm in your seat.

[lovely-lady-lumps]

The Cold to His Heat

Pairing: Peter Parker x Gn!Reader

Summary: Peter runs hot and you run cold, naturally, you connect over said body temperatures. But when summer comes around, Peter can't take you not being cold anymore.

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  One of the many things the bite had changed in Peter, was his body heat. Before, he was a normal temperature, feeling hot and cold both the same. But after, he started to feel warm mkst of the time. Sure he could get cold and it wasn't really a life destroying change, but it was somewhat of a nuisance when it came to summer. Temperatures reached their highest in this season and man did it suck. He was constantly drinking ice water, turning the air conditioner lower when May wasn't home. He used to absolutely hate it, until you started dating.

  In fact, you're the only reason he's pretty okay with it. Because just like stereotypes go, a man that runs hot ends up with a woman that runs cold. And you were always cold. He never really realized it at first, assuming you cuddling into him was due to the new relationship. That was until you first held hands, your fingers feeling like ice sickles against his. Since then, he's used his newly developed body heat to warm you up anytime you need. Feet cold? Tuck them under his thighs. Nose cold? He'll kiss it till it gets warm! The best part? Your body cools him down.

  So when the air starts to get warmer and you lean on him less and less, he's devastated that you don't need him for such a simple thing anymore. He prepares himself for a long, suffering summer with nothing but ice cream and webbing through the air. However, just because you don't need him doesn't mean he doesn't need you, so he comes up with a plan.

  Well, the term plan is used very lightly. Aunt May goes out with a "friend" every Wednesday, and when she's gone, he gets free range over the cooling system. You may be hot outside, but when you come into the 64° apartment? You'll be just as cold as usual and need him to warm you up. It's a win-win really. Lucky for him, today is Wednesday. Unlucky for him, May is home.

  "So when will your friend be here?" His aunt asks from the kitchen, pouring herself a glass of water.

  "Umm, really any minute now. Can we turn the air down? Please?" Peter barely hides the desperate tone to his words. He stands across the small island from her.

  "Absolutely not. It's already 67° in here! Are you really that hot?" May reaches over to feel his forehead, which he quickly dodges.

  "No, I'm fine. Just... a little warm." He's saved by the sound of a timid kock on the door.

  His eyes widen and he rushes around to May's side, "I need you to leave. Now. Please." He begs, gently maneuvering her towards her room.

  She laughs and grabs her glass off the counter, "Okay! Okay, I'll stay in my room like a good aunt should. But hey," She pulls herself from his grasp to look him in the eyes, eyebrows raised. "You behave or certain privileges will be taken away."

  Peter grins and nods, giving her one last gentle shove, "Got it aunt May."

  She gives him a peck on the cheek and rushes down the short hall to her bedroom, "Have fun!" She says as she closes the door.

  Peter sighs and relaxes his shoulders, only to tense when you knock again. He gets to the door in minimal time, swinging it open a little too eagerly. You're standing on the other side in a nice tank top and shorts, with a hoodie tied around your waist just in case. He looks down at himself and realizes he's in a loose fitting t-shirt and gym shorts. Looking back up he gives you a sheepish smile.

  "It's extra hot out today, huh?" You ask, smiling softly at him.

  "Ye-yeah it is. Uh, come in." Peter mentally slaps himself for his awkwardness.

  You walk in and immediately begin to look around, hands clasped in front of you.

  "So, we have tea and water, I think we even have some Coke if you want some." Peter offers rapidly.

  You turn around to face him, hands dropping to your sides. "Water is fine, Pete." You assure.

  He lets out a breath and nods, making his way to the kitchen and grabbing two glasses to set on the counter. As he's getting the water jug out of the fridge, he feels your arms wrap around him from behind, resting on his waist. He tries to gage just how warm or cold you are, but can't feel much through his shirt. Glancing at the thermostat, he wishes it would magically get cooler.

  "What do you wanna do today?" You ask with your face pressed into his sholder blade.

  He relaxes at the feeling, telling himself it's just like any other day. As long as aunt May stays away. "How about a movie?"

  You nod and pull away, letting him turn to pour your glasses full before grabbing one and waiting for his instruction. He leads you the short distance to the dark grey couch and sits on the left side. You sit on the right, tucked into the arm of it almost immediately. He deflates at the gesture of sitting so far away.

  "This couch is so comfy!" You compliment, running a hand over the fibers.

  He chuckles, "I'll be sure to let aunt May know."

  The two of you sit and browse for a few minutes, arguing over which Disney movie to watch. Finally landing on Ratatouille, you settle into your spots. Of course, as usual, you curl into yourself with your knees held close to your chest. He on the other hand, spreads out like a starfish, foot brushing yours on the small sofa and arm hanging off the edge. Even though it's as cool as it's going to get in the room, he's still too warm. He waits ten minutes into the movie before deciding something needs to be done.

  "Hey, is it okay if I take off my shirt?" It's so blunt that he cringes as it leaves his mouth.

  You laugh and nod, "Sure. Are you hot?"

  He pulls his shirt off in one swift motion and throws it on the back of the couch. "Yeah, a little bit." He shrugs, flopping back onto the cushions.

  "Don't you have a fan or something?" You ask with furrowed brows.

  "No. I usually just..." he trails off. Embarrassment fills him at his almost admission.

  "Just what?" You sit up from your position, listening intently.

  He bites his lip in thought but one look at your concerned gaze gets him to spill. "Well, you're usually cold. Im usually hot. I kind of just wait for you to hold me to cool down. But I didn't want to make you uncomfortable because I know you're hot so..." He breaks eye contact half way through, not able to handle the humiliation.

  "Peter," it's spoken so softly, "Is that why you haven't been hugging me?"

   "Yeah. I figured with it being hot, I would just make you hotter. Didn't want to overheat you." Peter explains.

  You stare at him in disbelief, "Oh my God we're idiots." You gasp.

  His head shoots up to glare at you in slight offence.

  "I haven't touched you because I was afraid you were too hot! Babe, I'm always cold, doesn't matter what time of year." You reach out a hand to touch his knee, cooling the patch of skin in seconds.

  "Wow, we really are stupid." Peter breathes out.

  You giggle and move your hand away, "So, we can agree that much cuddling is needed right?"

  "Absolutely." Peter opens his arms in invitation and you practically collapse onto him.

  You tuck your hands in between you, palms laid flat on his chest and legs stretched to keep contact with his. You both let out a relieved sigh, settling back into the cushions.

  "You know this won't last long don't you?" You ask, eyes closed in content.

  "Just shut up and enjoy it." Is his happily spoken answer.

  He closes his own eyes and rests a hand on your cold upper back, letting your cool skin lull him.

  And if aunt May came out to see you fast asleep tangled up in each other, well she obviously didn't take a picture.

[seraphirism]

Hello, 🐈‍⬛anon is here!!

Sadly, I don't have really an opportunity and mental strength to give akuneko enough time, work's taking a lot from me☹️I still didn't even read the Butler's Wedding Party, I'm so far from the fresh events, gosh... I guess I'll have to force myself to catch up otherwise I'm scared that I won't be able to do so and the game will be closed by the time I'll have enough time (sorry for the dark thought I just was scarred by how Senjuushi was closed TWICE and I didn't had enough time to at least read the main story😭)

Anyway, I'm really hyped up for the Sanrio Collab Halloween!! Very interested to know what happened that sanrio pookies suddenly came to the world of our butler pookies (is it bc the third ultimate bbgirl of this title Bellen woke up?/j)

hii, 🐈‍⬛–anon (*^▽^*)!! hope you’ve been doing well!

I totally get it. since the summer event (the cruise one) i haven’t been too active as well 😭 i just login from at least once in two-days so i can collect enough gems (the ones needed to unlock memories of the butlers in the album).

and I’d say many of the events are filler content with lore dropped in small bits. they’re not extremely connected so you wouldn’t be missing out on much if you read the recent events for now and leave the previous ones.

god, don’t scare me, 🐈‍⬛–anon 😱 aknk won’t end it’s services ✨ it’s doing very well (like its always on top 15 or above in rankings) so it should be very unlikely (devs, please don’t think about it 🙏)

you played senjyushi too?! I played it as well \(//∇//)\, not the older one but the Rhodoknight one that ended its services this year. it put me in such a slump when it ended its services. i knew it wasn’t doing the best (it was literally 31 in ranking 😭) but god i loved it too much.

i started playing it a month after the new game launched. what got me into it was Snider 😔💖

I have gotten obsessed with fictional characters from time to time (quite a few i can name) but very few can hold a candle to how i liked Snider ✨ (i read his entire affection story from the older game and my obsession became deeper.)

i literally had every single card of his besides his Halloween card (the purple themed one) + his first anniversary card. i didn’t spent a dime on the game but I grinded hard enough to have all his cards, unlock all event stories of his + anything with him. plus, of course besides Snider, i loved UK’s faction, Kathariste and France’s faction a lot 💞!

I didn’t get to read the last few updates of the main story either 😭 i read till the introduction of the third part of the main story right before the bomb dropped for Like-two—and then they announced EOS and it made me so depressed. Senjyushi R was the reason i tried to learn japanese—it was my favourite game. before senjyushi, afterl!fe had also ended its services so senjyushi was another blow to me.

but I’m glad it’s getting a switch release! better something than nothing! as much as i regret the fact that the story will end and i won’t ever get see Mark, Like-two, Jitte, George, Snider, Enfield and so many more characters again with new content again, I’ll have to satiate myself with what i have 😔

i literally started akuneko because i didn’t have another game to obsess over after senjyushi. i also left akuneko two years ago because i wasn’t able to focus on senjyushi with akuneko 😭 it’s my rebound partner.

back to akuneko, I’m excited as well for the collab! I’ll read the event story in the weekend if i can make time. silent hill 2 remake was released too so I also want to play that (or at least watch the play through 🌫️)

you know, you’ve stated the best reason for sanrio pookies coming into the aknk world—it’s the awakening of the ultimate baby-girl, Bellen. I’m not accepting the reason the writers will choose in the event story—the actual reason in my heart will always be the awakening of Bellen 💞

[nescaveckwriter]

Stethoscopes & Triangles - Chapter One ❤️‍🩹

Sam Winchester x Reader (Aka - Amy Summers)

A/N: Heya bugsie 🐞, here is another fanfic, about Sam & Dean, was requested by a beautiful anon 💕 (I hope you like it darling)

Side Note: Thank You Bugsies for the love and support, I'm open to take more requests, as writing is one of my favourite things to do

Warnings: Death, Swearing, Angst, Hospital Scenes, Fluff

Code Blue!!! Code Blue!!!!

"Dammit!!! The kid keeps coding, come on buddy, pull through for me" she whispers while standing over him, giving him chest compressions.

"Doctor Summers, its no use, its been more than 15 minutes, he's gone!" The male nurse exclaims.

Her eyes throwing darts, "Dammit Jeremy! The kid is only five, we owe him, we have to try just once more."

Shaking his head in disbelief, agitated he says, "fine do what you want!"

The sweat on her forehead is visible, determination evident, "1...2...." Counting the chest compressions underneath her breath.

Standing back, while they place the defibrillator once again! Seeing the little boy's body jolting up and then down towards the bed again, is just one to much.

"Stop! Just stop it! He's gone, there's nothing we can do now!" Her voice stern and emotionless.

Calling the time, while removing her cloves, and letting it fall to the ground, walking out of the emergency room! Walking towards the parents, ''Mr. and Mrs. Rogers, I'm so sorry but unfortunately your son didn't make it'' her voice disinterested. Walking away till the sobbing off the parents becomes more, and more distant.

''Dr. Summers is truly a very cold person, don't you think Judy?'' his voice bitter.

Scornful she replies ''Jeremy, we are not suppose to talk about other people that way, especially not Dr. Summers, she is absolutely amazing at her work'' 

''Just because she's great doesn't mean she needs to be such a jerk'' he mumbled bitterly.

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Staring at herself in the bathroom mirror, her bangs  still clinging to her sweaty face, her ocean blue eyes now, a distant grey, looking tired, trying to fight back the tears, cursing herself mentally for failing the little boy, recalling the crushed look on his parents face. Biting her tongue, the taste of blood, awakening her senses. Cupping her hands, bringing some water to her mouth, swooshing it around, then spitting the slightly red-pinkish water into the basin. ''Man Up Amy! Stop being a failure, you're such a disappointment to me'' hearing her father's gravelling voice in her head. 

Hearing the chatter of nurses coming closer, locking herself in one of the bathroom stalls, their voices fruity, but hushed ''That Dr. Summers is real something, she's so cold, how that hot hunky boyfriend can actually love her, blows my mind'' 

''Tell me about it Claire, what he sees in her, I have no idea, yes she has beautiful long black hair, and those blue eyes, and quite a fit physique as well, but her personality is so cold and distant.''

''Oooh I'll take that gorgeous looking man any day'' 

''Oh yeah, we'll be a better fit anyway, our personalities is warm and friendly, not like hers.''

''They don't call her doctor cold for nothing'' laughing as they walk away.

    Tears staining her velvety cheeks. ''Get yourself together Dr. Cold'' mocking herself. Unlocking the door, walking to the basin to wash her face. Dabbing the paper towel over her face, her mouth curved into a smile, revealing the dimples, Sam, amazingly handsome Sam, he always had a way of making her knees weak, ever since they met in college, they disliked each other at first, her nature hard and cold, and his soft, empathetic and so gentle, they'll clash about every little thing. They lived opposite from each other, but it changed one night, getting a 'D' in chemistry, and freaking out about it, she sat on the stairs at three in the morning, knowing her father is most probably going to kill her, she felt a big gentle hand on her shoulder, his smoky voice, full of empathy, ''whatever it is, its going to be okay.''

The two of them sat till the sun came up, shared stories about their father's and how if affected them. He asked her out two days after that, revealing he had felt this way for the longest time, and they've been going strong for a little over seven years. Moving in together was the next logical step after college, building a life together while she was busy with her residency and Sam serving articles for his clerkship, didn't come without challenges, but they made it, both of them have their dream jobs, and their good at what they do, even if it interferes with their social lives and especially their relationship, but their still holding on and going strong. The pager alerting her, there's yet another emergency, breaks her thoughts. Tossing the paper towel in the dustbin, she runs off to the ER.

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Unlocking the door with its detailed appearance, he walks in. Peeking in to the kitchen, then to  the living room, shaking his head at the sight of her sneakers laying upside down at the armchair. ''Babe, were are you at?'' hearing her mumbling something that's she's in the bathtub. Peeping inside, the bathroom smells like lavender, the fragmented candles reflecting the glow on her fair skin, her long hair, tied up in a messy bun, her body drenched under the hot water and the white soapy bubbles, creeping up to her collar bone. ''Damn your beautiful'' his voice smoky and slight breathy.

''Hey babe, thank you, I missed you today!'' her voice tired. 

Knowing her like the back of his hand, ''Sweetie, hard day at work?''

Tilting her head towards Sam, revealing her greyish blue orbs. ''I lost a five year old boy today, due to a damn drunken driver.'' her voice heavy with emotion.

Concerned look on his face, his brows furrowed, ''Love I'm so sorry'' walking closer, landing a kiss on the crown of her head. Placing himself down on the floor next to the bathtub, taking her hand, stroking her lean fingers. His voice low, ''What can I do?'' 

''There's nothing you can do, babe, you being here is enough'' revealing the pain in her voice.

Looking up at her, stroking the tears off her dewy cheeks, knowing, that she's a strong women, but not really the cold person, she makes out to be. He whispers,  ''I'm here for you baby'' while kissing her softly. 

''Thank you love, I don't know what I will do without you.'' replying breathy.

A corner of his mouth lifted, ''Probably pass out due to hunger'' trying to lighten the mood, he suggests he'll make some dinner, while she relaxes a little more, and when she's ready, then the the food will be plated, and they'll binge, one of those home renovation shows she likes so much. 

''Sounds perfect thanks babe'' a soft giggle escapes her full lips.

Giving her a small kiss he walks towards the kitchen, wondering if she knows how much he loves and adores her, no one get's him like she does, that's probably why he is planning to ask the big question, once he's done working this big case.

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Chapter Two Here :)

[countlessrealities]

IMPORTANT - BLOG UPDATES 2024 !

I should have made this post at the start of the year, but between the holidays first and working double shifts later (and now), I never got around to doing it till tonight.

I made sure to include everything in this post, so you guys won't have to jump around to check my pages, so please, make sure to read it.

RULES CHANGES

Interactions: Be interested in at least TWO of my muses, or at least be open to try and interact with a couple of the others, outside your chosen one. This way I'll be able to keep interacting with you, even if I were to lose inspiration for one of the characters you have chosen.

Matching effort: I've said this a few times, but this year I've started to apply this rule. I match the energy and the interest I receive. This goes for sending memes and asks (IC and OOC), offering ideas for plots, carrying on the scene in a thread, and so on. I will also try and reach out first more (even if it might take a while because I'm socially super awkward). However, if the effort remains completely one-sided for weeks, I'm here because I want to interact with people, but I'm tired of spending my time and energy on people who don't want to interact with me, even if they say they want to.

MUSES ROASTER CHANGES

Millie and Stan have been removed from my muse list.

Rick Prime has been added as a test muse.

Muses are now listed and grouped in primary, secondary, tertiary and test muses / request only.

Primary muses: Rick, Morty, Summer, Evil Morty, A-991 Rick.

Secondary muses: Evil Rick, S-314 Rick, Bill Cipher, Mabel, Adrien / Cat Noir.

Tertiary muses: Mercenary Rick, Blitzo, Poison Ivy.

Test muses / request only: Félix / Argos, Rick Prime, B-001 Rick (request only).

GENERAL POLICY CHANGES

I won't be answering drafts so strictly in chronological order as I've tried to do so far. I'll follow my inspiration more, which means that primary muses will get slightly faster replies compared to the others.

For my mental sanity, I'll space out the replies from people who tend to answer me quickly. It's nothing personal, I need to do it not to get overwhelmed.

On the other hand, I'll be more open to brief shenanigans, dash commentary and events-related threads.

Also, if we're mains, we can discuss having a "back and forth" thread (which means a thread with short replies that I'll reply to without queueing it every 3-4 days)

I'll be more selective with who I follow (back), and more liberal when it comes to softblocking people. However, if I softblock you, you can come and talk to me about it (as long as you're ready to be civil).

If you have read this post, please leave a like / comment !

[mechanicalowls]

First Date

a terrornoss fic

ao3 link

chapter 1/2

rating: t

summary: summer of 2018, brian comes to visit evan in LA for a week, somewhat repressed feelings resurface

chapter under the cut

The LA sun was high in the sky by the time a distant doorbell echoed throughout the house. The lone occupant stirred suddenly, jolting up from the crouched position he held in his desk chair. With a glance up at the clock that illuminated his workspace, Evan's eyebrows raised in surprise. He stood up from his chair, groaning as he popped his back. He tousled his hair and scratched his ass as the doorbell chimed once more.

Evan hummed as he descended the stairs towards his front door, the sunlight filtering in through the window reinvigorating him somewhat as he padded through his kitchen. The canadian reached his front door at last, and scrubbed his face in an attempt to rub the insomnia from his eyes. He didn't want his guest to worry over his health, that was just impolite.

The man let out a chuckle as he swung open the door and cast his eyes over his friend, hand raised to ring the doorbell a third time. Brian flinched at the sudden movement, taking a step back into his suitcase. 

“Thought ya finally fell asleep on me.” Brian poked with a smirk. Evan rolled his eyes and stepped aside to let the irishman into his home.

“I'd never do that to you, Brian. That's your thing.” Evan flatly stated, his smile not quite meeting his eyes. He mentally cursed at his monotone, especially after Brian quirked a brow at him. This guy knew him too well. Knew too much. Luckily for him, Brian didn't push. He would never push unless it was serious; Evan appreciated that. He led his companion to his guest room, where the slightly taller man left his suitcase and backpack by the nightstand. Evan snickered when Brian let himself face plant into the mattress.

“Good flight?” Evan asked, still snickering. Brian groaned and rolled over onto his back to stare up at the canadian.

“The best. Little kid cryin’ and kickin’ ma chair the whole time, dogshit in-flight wifi, and they held me up at the bag check again. I swear it's cos I'm irish, racist bastards.” Brian lamented. He smirked when Evan chuckled at his prior suffering.

“S’pose you’ve been busy, huh? Kept me out there long enough.” Brian grumbled in false annoyance. He knocked Evan's leg with his foot, exhaling a laugh when Evan knee'd his other foot in turn.

“Just spaced out ‘s all. Lost track of time.” Evan said with a shrug of the shoulders and an indifferent look upon his face. His normal look. Brian huffed, only partially believing him.

“Yea yea, had to get a quick wank out before yer buddy Bri-Bri comes in, I getcha.” Brian jeered, deciding he didn't want that other conversation. At least, not yet. Evan smirked at that, shoving his hands into his pockets. In doing so, he felt his phone vibrate. The shorter man turned on his heel, kneeing Brian's outstretched leg a second time. 

“Food's on.” Evan hummed, padding out of the room, hands still in his pockets. 

“What?” Brian squawked, scrambling off the bed, slipping onto the floor in the process. He clumsily got up and caught up with his friend, following him down the stairs and towards his front door.

“I ordered chinese a bit ago, felt like chicken and rice today.” Evan hummed, peaking through the peephole, before opening his door and snatching the delivery bag.

“Aw, you couldn't've waited till I got here? ‘M starvin’ Ev.” Brian whined, the smell of the 3.6 star chinese food coiling around his soul and making his stomach rumble. Evan set the bag down on his counter and looked over his shoulder at the taller man. He huffed at Brian's whines and untied the bag, pulling out way more cartons than needed for just chicken and rice.

“I figured you would be. I ordered for you too. If you keep crying about it though, I'll just keep it for myself.” Evan stated simply, waving a greasy plastic container in the irishman’s face. Brian stared down at the container in awe, raising his palms like he was a begging orphan. Evan scoffed fondly, placing the prized offering in his friend's outstretched hands.

“You… Yer too good to me, Ev. Far too good to me.” Brian mumbled, wasting no time in ripping the seal on the delicious confection in his clutch. The heavenly scent of the duck and broccoli inside melted his senses.

Something stirred in Brian's chest at the notion of Evan remembering his preferred take-out order. He couldn't remember the last time he and Evan had chinese take-out together, much less what he had ordered then. But the canadian had remembered what Brian liked, and thought ahead to order for the both of them.

It was sweet. Really sweet. 

The two stood in the kitchen in comfortable silence, indulging in the grease and seasonings their respective orders provided. Evan stared at Brian's shoulder almost the entire time, unable to meet his gaze. He had seen the twinkle in Brian's eyes at his display of hospitality. He tried to reason with himself that he'd do this no matter which friend of his was bunking with him for a week; but would he?

Nogla had ordered himself food last time he visited, Tyler did as well. Marcel and Brock had both eaten by the time they knocked on Evan's door; and hosting parties was a completely different story.

The idea to order for more than just himself had never crossed Evan’s mind. His logic was that he would be going out with his friends, or they could order something themselves if they wanted. It's not that he didn't care enough to, he just never thought of it.

So why had he thought of Brian's preferred take-out order while scrolling through uber eats?

Maybe because the irishman was on his mind regardless, due to his week-long stay. Maybe it was just one of those weird memory things, like when you remember an obscure fact about the names of alcohol because someone said “horseback riding” in a conversation. Something logical like that.

“Ya ok?” Brian asked him from somewhere in the void that was his kitchen. Evan blinked a couple times, regaining his thoughts. He had zoned out thinking about Brian again. Something about his buddy had just peaked his interest as of late, and he just couldn't put his finger on what exactly was making the irishman live rent-free in his head.

Evan finally looked up to meet Brian's gaze. The worry in the older man's eyes made something in his chest clench. Evan shrugged and smiled the best he could.

“Yea, sorry. Kinda out of it today, I guess.” He all but mumbled. He saw Brian's jaw work side to side as he tried to find something to say. To find the right thing to say. He and Evan both knew his response to that would determine the entirety of their week together. Neither wanted to be nipping at the other over something stupid.

Brian tutted.

“Let's just relax then. No recording, no going out. Just sit and chill.” Brian proposed, setting his empty plastic take-out container onto the counter. Evan wasn't looking at him anymore. He was staring at his shoulder again. The only indication that he heard at all was his eyes flicking between Brian's own and his shoulder for just a second.

“‘m tired too, Evan. We can go somewhere later if yer feeling up to it.” He offered. Evan nodded but held his tongue.

Brian truly did know him too well.

And Brian could say the same about him.

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As it turned out, chilling was all that was needed to boost Evan’s energy levels. He and his guest had laid strewn about his furniture, flicking through the cable channels and streaming services for about 6 hours. Each gave their own commentary over whatever they were watching, whether it be Brian recalling a related memory or Evan ironically nitpicking a movie he loved. 

As the afternoon slowly dredged into night, the two found themselves getting closer and closer together. They had started off on separate pieces of furniture, Brian draped over the recliner, and Evan sprawled out on his couch. But every time one of them shifted, they got closer and closer, mostly Evan sliding from one end of the couch to the other. It wasn't until Brian excused himself to the bathroom while Evan picked out a DVD from his shelf that either noticed just how close they were.

While the teasers played, Brian returned, wiping his hands on his jeans. Without a further thought, the irishman plopped his ass down on the couch with his host. As Rush Hour 2 progressed, the two men hardly noticed the slowly closing distance between them until they were practically on top of each other. Brian stretched both his arms along the back of the couch, and he willed himself to loosen up when he felt his companion lean against his arm ever so gently.

Evan didn't speak a word of it, and so Brian didn't either. Both were overly aware of their proximity despite this. This had been happening alot recently. They always somehow ended up here, on Evan's couch, not quite cuddling, but not quite separated either. Every time Brian came to visit, this happened at least once.

It was normal, Evan reasoned with himself. They were best friends. They spent so much time together regardless of any distance between them. Oftentimes, the two men found themselves just enjoying each other's company over a Discord call, long after everyone else had logged off for the night.

Evan wasn't one for cameras, but he would turn his on, just for Brian.

The irishman didn't make a big deal out of it, more than likely fearing the loss of that privilege that so few of their friends had. Sure, he would poke fun at his friend the second that camera popped up on his screen, but it wouldn't feel right if he didn't. Evan could take a joke.

They just had a bond like that.

So, naturally, they would become closer physically too. Ever so slightly leaning against each other when they were alone, hands lingering upon each other just a bit longer, and Brian being one of the few people who could hug the introverted man unprompted. 

And if Evan felt any sort of fluttering in his chest when he brushed hands with his friend or when he was enveloped in a warm hug by the taller man, or when they sat upon his couch, on the verge of cuddling, well that was his business and his business alone.

It didn't mean anything more than he was happy to spend time with someone he deeply cared about.

Nothing more than that.

Hopefully.

“Did you know they did all these stunts for real?” Evan blurted out, smirking when Brian squawked in surprise.

“No they did not. There's no way they did.” Brian protested, turning towards the man next to him. Evan shrugged, glancing up at him.

“I'm serious man, they really did! See, look! That's really Jackie Chan!” Evan pointed at the screen as a car flipped over in front of an obvious green screen. Brian scoffed, shifting in his seat.

“You can't fool me, Fong! I'm not falling fer that!” Brian exclaimed, pulling Evan closer to emphasize his point as he poked a finger to the man’s chest. Evan sputtered out a laugh, spurring Brian to laugh as well.

Evan pushed Brian’s hand away. Brian pushed him back, Evan returning the jab. They went back and forth until they both were laughing breathlessly, with Brian’s hands resting on Evan’s chest. When they finally looked back up at each other, Evan felt a blast of heat scorch his cheeks.

He could feel Brian’s shaky breath on his face. Their noses almost touched from how close they were now. Despite wearing a sweatshirt, the heat from where Brian’s palms rested against his chest singed his nervous system. 

It was dark in the room, but Evan could still see the splotchy blush that bloomed across his guest’s face as he too realized just how close they were. Despite this, Brian’s hands remained upon Evan’s chest.

The scary thing, however, was how neither made any attempt to break the contact. And even still, the most frightening part was how unafraid both men were. Neither made to move away and break the contact they held. It didn't feel wrong, and that terrified Evan.

Brian smiled gently at him, and he felt his own lips curl into a smile at that.

Their noses touched at last, and Brian’s pretty blues flicked between Evan’s eyes and his lips. Evan breathed slowly, feeling his eyelids growing heavy.

So close, they just had to-

A loud whine sent both men away from each other, each flustered beyond belief as they registered Evan’s stomach growling.

“Bottomless pit, you are.” Brian snickered, removing his hands from Evan’s chest after what felt like eons. Evan scoffed and rolled his eyes, willing his blush away.

Were they about to-?

“Whatever, dude. Still wanna go out?” He begrudgingly asked, already knowing the answer.

“Of course I do. Where ya thinkin’?” Brian asked, as if he wasn’t breathing shared air just a moment ago. Evan hummed, letting his head fall back against the couch; his hair tickling Brian’s arm.

Best not to think about that right now, he decided.

“I know this bar nearby. Little dive bar. Not crowded usually. I could go for something deep fried.” Evan posited. Brian snickered.

“And some whiskey to drown your sorrows?” Brian questioned with a knowing smirk.

“That would be nice too. I'll call an uber.” Evan concluded as he stood up, shutting his TV off and opening the ridesharing app. Brian huffed out a chuckle as he too stood up and followed his shorter host towards the kitchen.

If Evan didn't say anything about that, he wouldn't either. He didn't want to anyway. Just another unspoken thing to add to their repertoire. He liked it. And he wanted to do that again. Whatever that was.

The tension between them was palpable as they awaited their grand chariot. They stood side by side, Evan chewing on his sweatshirt string, staring off into space, and Brian scrolling through his texts. The silence wasn't uncomfortable, but it wasn't their typical shared comfortable silence either.

Neither wished to acknowledge how they both almost- Evan blinked, falling back into his body beside Brian.

He mentally sighed, and leaned a bit into his companion. Brian didn't jump, but he did tense up. He looked down at his friend, who merely blinked at him indifferently. Brian exhaled, and smiled at Evan before he leaned into Evan's side. A ghost of a smile graced the canadian's face.

Wow.

[spiritoffox]

hi! i'm curious, do you have any fave svsss headcanons? or any plot bunnies that you may or may not write in the future? 👀

Hi!! Thank you for the ask, ngl I had to sit down a bit and think about this... like do I have headcanons for SV? 😅 And yeah, it turns out I do, but unless I explicitly state them in a fic, or imply them heavily in text, they don't apply to every fic I write, you know? Added a read more because this got long, sorry!

So here are a few, that I could think of rn:

Top!SQH: I don't really write MoShang-centric (or CumPlane) fics, but if I did, it would be most likely with this dynamic in mind. I just think he is neat. ☺️

SY's age: I'm down for him dying relatively early, like between 18 and 20. It just makes everything funnier IMO to have him play the wise mentor when he was barely a legal adult in his own world and the mental age difference between BingQiu switching during his 5-year nap?? ☺️ (But I also have several WIPs where SY is like in his 40s so...)

SY's original hotness: every time I see someone post about him being a total knockout (conventional or unconventional) who is over it/doesn't know/etc., I smile. It would work a lot, is all I'm saying, and in a reverse transmigration situation, someone would definitely have their work cut out for them.

modern!LBH's job: so if LBH was born/raised in the modern world and an orphan, I'd probably write him as someone who is a doctor or an engineer - mainly bc I could see him with the drive to show everyone that he can do it on his own and excel too. Funnily enough, in the modern AU WIPs I currently have, he is either a haute cuisine chef (romcom with single parent SY), a medical student working as a waiter/delivery boy (romcom with fake dating), an escort (fic with a hopeful ending), or a gardener (lesbian horror). So like 1 out of 4? 😅

Plot bunnies. They are really bunnies, I have around 140 docs in my SV WIP folder. Some of those will be merged into one fic, and some of them have like 5-6 different fics in them because I was lazy and didn't want to open a new file.

Here are some that are almost finished being written tho:

Haunting of Bly Manor AU: lesbian BingYuan with uni student SY going to be the nanny for a rich widow's two children in an isolated estate over the summer to get her tuition money together.

SY as reincarnated SXY: TLJ/SY, past!TLJ/SXY with SY finding himself next to SXY's cooling body and baby!LBH is already in the river but caught up in the nearby vegetation.

SV/Stardew Valley/From fusion: BingQiu with SY waking up on the bus to Cang Qiong Mountain with a letter from his grandparent(?) telling him about an inheritance. He has a dilapidated farm called Qing Jing Peak, only a few spirit stones in his pocket and the bus breaks down immediately after his arrival. He can't leave the mountain, every time he tries he gets turned around, his money is barely enough to buy himself some bread till his first crop matures and every night when it gets dark monsters appear in the town.

Isekai AU: BingYuan where original!LBH agrees to play a game with a strange entity before dying during his daughter's wedding. He has to go into various worlds and try to fulfill the original host's wishes or change their fates. This is a multi-work series, part one (interstellar arc, also omegaverse) is almost done, I'm writing part two (zombie apocalypse arc) now, but I'll not publish any until I'm at least close to finishing part three (waffling between two settings). Will be at least 5 big arcs.

There are also several one-shots that I could post, I just have to find the energy and the time to edit them. I'll get there eventually. 🥰

Thank you for your question and sorry for the long post! Hope you have a nice day!

[jinnie-study]

2024.03.05 - march and all the things before it

one day, after everything is through, i'll turn around and still have you.

excuse my messy desk, it just felt like it added to the photos of where i'm at mentally.

first year of med school has been a whirlwind of amazing new things and also a bit of a disaster. here's a list of updates in no particular order of just everything that comes to mind since i started school:

i had my first course failure ever (like.... ever.) and it's taken a huge toll on my psyche. i have to remediate it in the summer and it sucks because i wanted to do other things and i have to just sit with this feeling of having failed something big time for the next two months until then.

before that, though, i got thru first semester for the most part unscathed. a few bumps and bruises but nothing crazy.

im a part of student government and had a major success in getting rid of a really awful lecture that people have been trying to get changed or removed for at least the last three years.

i got to visit my partner abroad for christmas! it was wonderful and i miss them so much. it makes it that much harder to be down here i think.

i have gone to the beach and stared at the ocean a few times and it helps but i don't do it often.

back in august, i had a major back injury that limited my mobility almost completely for two days. since then, it's been on and off pain for months and i finally started going to PT. hopefully we can make the pain go away because apparently it has already made my left leg decently weaker than my right leg 💀

my cat had a really bad cancer scare back in september and he's only now beginning to recover. i love him so much and we had come to terms with not putting him thru surgery to remove the tumor and just wanted to keep him comfortable and at home. my mom fed him holy water and he's managed to get better. ❤️‍🩹

i've forcing myself to get back into journaling and reading because i need hobbies that are off-screen and i'm limited from exercising until my back is a little better.

i bought noise-canceling headphones (pictured above) and they've changed my life tbh. i don't know how i managed before.

i didnt used to burn candles but now they help me turn my brain into focusing mode and it's changed my relationship with stress and studying.

i went on a random mini vacation with my family to nintendo world in february and i think i healed a part of me that i didn't know needed healing.

i think that's all the biggest updates i have to share. i've been documenting med school and life more often on my private twitter account but it feels more important to me to make sure i get it here in this blog. i want to be more consistent with posting here again! i might add it to my to-do lists when i update newsletters and socmed. but i also like this blog just being a space for me to be without a lot of pressure to keep up with it. idk. thank u for being here! for reading and for sticking with me 🫡 till next post

[clatterbane]

10 Songs On Repeat

Tagged by @fivekoboldsinacoat. Put the Spotify "on repeat" playlist on shuffle and share the first ten results, then tag ten people. (Or, I guess, if you don't use Spotify, share your top ten songs you listen to on repeat.)

Also, following his lead in linking to YouTube for accessibility. I preferentially went with live performances where possible, unless the sound quality sucked too bad by my own totally subjective standards. Just didn't have the spoons for more translation work today, but I also included a few lyric snippets where I could because why not.

The "On Repeat" can be pretty dangerous, dealing with somebody who is as prone to going off on neurospicy kicks as I am. Instead of, say, a couple of weeks of nonstop Delta blues, '80s synth, or Latin American metal? This time, we've apparently got wall-to-wall Swedish punk-adjacent stuff. (Which is more likely than most other genres here to not be English language. Handier for me learning Swedish than for most of y'all!) It's also mostly from newer bands.

Heavily featuring both Bäddat För Trubbel, who spent the 2010s (roughly) paving the way for trouble here in Malmö--and Trubbel, who evidently already found it in Gothenburg!

Mascara Snakes - "Vakternas Skräck" (live) - ("The Terror Of The Guards")

Bäddat För Trubbel - "Bäddat För"

Svart Katt - "Våld Mot Tjänsteman" ("Assault Against Officer")

Trubbel - "Tro På Mig" ("Believe In Me")

Viagra Boys - "Down In The Basement" (live). (Out of Stockholm, but their singer grew up in the Bay Area. I am still mad I missed seeing them across the bridge in Copenhagen a few months ago.) How're you going to explain your sex life to your wife?

Bäddat För Trubbel- "Bättre Män Än Mig" ("Better Men Than Me")

Viagra Boys - "Worms" (live) - (From an awesome session.) Also, one rather bizarre Korean horror movie (?) fan video I just ran across.

Hjelle - "Arbetsförmedlingen Ringde" (live) ("The Employment Agency Called")- (Yeah, same guy from Bäddat För Trubbel. I've been enjoying his voice and sense of timing, OK? 😅)

Svart Katt - "Bara En Spegel" ("Only A Mirror")

Trubbel - "Gbg City" (This live video is quite the extravaganza of pasty jorts-clad flesh, from last summer. In best Gothenburg style, evidently.) - Better audio studio version.

Continuing on to Spotify's "Repeat Rewind", for some wider representation over the medium term lately. Still pretty heavy on the punk-adjacent stuff, but I guess that's where my head has been.

1. Gnome - "Ambrosius" (These guys out of Antwerp are pretty awesome in general, for what I guess you'd file under stoner/doom metal with a sense of humor--where you can actually hear the bass in the mix. There's no real choreography in this particular lvideo, which is a shame.)

You can eat from the ground

2. Refused - "Summerholidays Vs. Punkroutine" (live) - (Also a Swedish band, btw. In a good 2012 performance.)

And I'm still certain that what motivates me is more rewarding

Than any piece of paper could be...

Rather be forgotten than remembered for giving in

3. Suicidal Tendencies - "Till My Last Breath" (Yeah, really feeling it today.)

But I'll never let all this emptiness win

Until my last breath I'll be a fighting man Not just with my fist, but my mind and I got a plan...

Until my last breath, I ain't nobody's bitch Until my last breath, I'll keep pissin' on the rich Until my last breath, I'm gonna do it, I ain't gonna just try Until my last breath, I'm gonna hold my head up high...

I'm never letting go Until my last breath, the whole world's gonna know Until my last breath, I'll be keeping a score Until my last breath, I'll be fighting for more

4. Ramones - "Mental Hell" (Not their best album, but I still have a weak spot for it.)

I'm not feeling very well

5. Viagra Boys - "Milk Farm"

They say that you can get delirious from layin' off the sauce

But I don't know nothin' 'bout that

'Cause I ain't ever laid off

6. Alien Nosejob - "Television Sets" (live) - (And I finally just thought what one part of this reminds me of. Major flashing lights warning on that video.)

I don't need no cigarettes

I don't need no booze

I don't need the TV set

I don't need the news

7. Riddarna - "Vi Kommer Att Dö" (Keepin' the titles cheery over here: "We're Going To Die". But, better make the most of it!)

8. Dwight Yoakam - "Purple Rain" (live) - (Impressive tribute, when I already respected Dwight quite a bit. Studio version.)

9. Motörhead - "Tear Ya Down - B-Side - 'Louie, Louie'"

Gonna show you what I'm all about

I'm gonna shoot you down tonight

I don't really wanna freak you out

10. Orkan - "Rik Rikar Rikast" (live) - ("Rich Richer Richest" - Studio version with significantly better sound quality.)

To translate the chorus:

Have you forgotten what equality means?

Have you forgotten what solidarity means?

Have you forgotten what generosity means?

Have you forgotten what honesty means

I always feel awkward tagging people for this sort of thing. But, I will have a go this time: @soilrockslove @adrawatcher @theonewhopoops @floorbananamotherfucker @reddragdiva @kelpforestdwellers @queerdo-mcjewface @birdblogwhichisforbirds @supernini235 @ailurinae @katisconfused @ajax-daughter-of-telamon @soilrockslove @medleymisty

[museenkuss]

Thank you for your nonjudgmental and thorough response.

I guess you can say I started reading that stuff last summer, unplanned. I was looking thru some tags and I stumbled upon a Rey/Ben solo one. Just clicked and read it without even realizing what I was getting into.

And after I saw the tags, I was scared tbh. I felt gross but it only made me curious to know why a big chunk of authors were writing this trope. And even more people reading it. So I got into it.

After awhile it became cathartic. I read it not because I found sexual pleasure in it, but I could see my naive self as a teenager in these characters. I was sexually assaulted a lot by strangers and related men. Till the point that I didn’t even physically react after awhile. This was me growing up in a 3rd world country. Consent was an alien concept and still is.

So now my head normalizes all the dark, gore and taboo topics. For me I feel freer everytime I read some fucked up shit. But I’d KILL someone if they went after someone young IRL. I’d protect them with my life. I don’t okay that shit IRL.

I just get lost in the fictional world. And I know it’s bad, trying to get outside that mental state but whenever I read fluffy stuff I don’t find enjoyment in it.

Sorry this got a lot. And I hope it doesn’t weird you out. I just felt like sharing it with you.

Thank you for sharing! I'm incredibly sorry you've had these experiences, that's beyond horrible. My heart goes out to you and I hope you're at a safe place where you can heal and grow.

In general - but especially with this context - I just need to say again that reading dark stories (or engaging with dark topics in fiction in general) doesn't make you a bad person. Fluffy stories aren't for everyone. There's a little webcomic that came to mind that you might've come across on tumblr already with the caption "different stories resonate with different people". Maybe it's a little more focused on the writer, but it's still very relevant here I think. To me, it really summarised the whole question of "why do you read/write stuff like that????" - Because sometimes, it helps.

That's why it made me sad when you said you "know it's bad", because really, reading those stories isn't a bad thing. You're reading something, that's all. That's not hurting anyone. I know I keep repeating myself but I know we can feel shame or guilt about things we engage with or have an interest in and I don't want you to feel that way. It seems that you found yourself reading something that resonated with you based on your experiences. That doesn't make you a bad person.

Also, you're not alone in this. Finding certain tags and being shocked, intrigued, curious or scared, and then doing research, reading some more, reading a lot more - it's not uncommon at all. It happened to me, too. Sometimes, I look back at stories I was super invested in and liked a lot and am surprised at how dark they are. But then I think that at the time, they helped me in some way. I read them for a reason, maybe I needed to read them. I don't feel guilty for that. Maybe in the future I'll look back at stuff I'm reading right now and will be equally shocked, but right now that's what I want to read for one reason or another.

If you start to notice that it's actively making you miserable, I'd advise you to switch gears for a while because sometimes, we can be stuck in a downward spiral and (intentionally, maybe) make ourselves miserable. I've been there before and found myself binge watching south park (of all things) because it made me feel horrible and I was sad and stressed. In that case, I had to tell myself at some point "this isn't helping me, I just end up feeling worse about myself, also I'm procrastinating doing things I have to do or enjoy doing by doing something I don't enjoy." - if that sounds familiar, maybe try stepping away. In either case, be kind with yourself.

This got SO long again, but I hope it was still a little helpful. Again, I'm sending a lot of love!

[toyahinterviews]

TOYAH ON BBC PEBBLE MILL AT ONE WITH PAUL COIA 29.4.1985

Comes to do the interview from singing "Don't Fall In Love"

TOYAH: I've got my family with me too (means her fans)

PAUL: That was an amazing crowd outside there

TOYAH: It's very good 

PAUL: It's your new single, but of course it marks a return. We haven't seen you singing and dancing for a long long time

TOYAH: 14 weeks

PAUL: You're concentrating on acting. Notably, of course, “The Ivory Tower”, which was a tremendous thing

TOYAH: “The Ebony Tower”

PAUL: Thank you. You're you're so beautiful I just go all … (Toyah laughs) Remind me of the lineup in that drama

TOYAH: There was Sir Lawrence Olivier, or Lord Olivier (below) I think is the correct title. I never got it right. There was Greta Scacchi, Roger Rees played the reporter. He's gorgeous. And then there was me, and really there's only about the four of us in there throughout the whole play

We were stuck in France for two months in this gorgeous chateau, and we had the French aristocracy treat us very well. We dined at big tables with 15 people sitting at one table. It's really beautiful

PAUL: Working with Sir Lawrence Oliver or Lord Olivier as you correctly said - oviously you can learn a lot of acting from him, but does he ever come out and say "teach me how to sing" or something?

TOYAH: He was fascinated with my career as a singer. I learned more from him by his charm. He was totally polite. There was no bad temper ever. Usually with a lot of stars they are a bit temperamental, but he was gorgeous

He used to arrive on the set, and he'd have a little song that he'd practice as he got out the car with the chauffeur. He'd sing this song … I can't repeat what he said. Totally unrepeatable sometimes. But I just think working with people with humor, it's really nice

Katharine Hepburn was like that when I did the film with her ("The Corn Is Green", 1979), great character and so very strong up against men. She's a feminist, but with charm. Lovely, lovely people

PAUL: Your new LP, which is coming out in summer -

TOYAH: It's called "Minx"

PAUL: You have been a bit of a minx in the past. Do you think that maybe you're just now calming down, getting a bit more mature?

TOYAH: Inevitably I'm getting old. I can't wait till I'm 40. I going to be really wicked

PAUL: Are you really?!

TOYAH: Yeah! PAUL: Can I come and see you? (both laugh) TOYAH: Well, it's going be a long time till I'm 40

PAUL: But you have arrived back with this new image. How would you describe the new image?

TOYAH: Well, I've just grown up a bit, and I've done all the colored hair and everything, and I didn't want to live in the past. People see me as the kind of punkette of 1981 so I've done all that. There's no point remaining like that

You've got to keep moving on. That's what life's about. So now I've grown up a little bit (laughs) I've tried to - mentally and physically so I'm just portraying my role still as a 26 year old woman

PAUL: But of course, we mentioned films and this image of the punkette. There was a film “Jubilee” you did, which, of course, promoted that idea. What sort of films are you going to be doing now?

TOYAH: I've got a few films coming up. I've got a very historic film coming up about a very famous lady in Britain

PAUL: Go on!

TOYAH: It's called “Boudica” but I haven't signed anything yet, so it's very premature, but I'm looking forward to that if it all happens

I've got some some other plays coming up for the opposite side (nods her head to the other side of the building) So I hope by August I'll be touring and then around Christmas I'll be acting again PAUL: We'd love to hear another track from the album “Minx”. This is “World In Action”?

TOYAH: Yes

PAUL: Ladies and gentlemen - Toyah!

TOYAH: Thank you

Watch the interview HERE Watch the performance of "Don't Fall In Love" HERE

[mysticdreamcafe]

Continuation sort of

I don't want to rant about anything more right now. The world is what it is. It's always been ruled by the rich and powerful so there's no change there. I'd rather look at the positive.

Trump won our election and all I can do is hope that the government has learned from his past shenanigan's. That's all I have to say about politics.

Being raised in, working in, and drinking in bars most of my life I've learned never to discuss politics or religion. Used to be you didn't talk about these things in bars but I feel it's a good life practice.

Moving on...

Food prices have gone crazy so I'm implementing my plan of having a garden. I've had this idea or plan for a few years, but my health got in the way. Now that the infusions are helping and I've sorted out my bed so I can slowly get the raised beds prepped for next spring.

I mentioned, before, about my bed being replaced by an adjustable frame and new mattress. Well, the frame works well and raises my head enough to breathe easier. As for the mattress...NOPE!. I felt like I was being drawn and quartered while someone hit my back with a red hot poker. So, I brought my other mattress back down and tried it. It actually works well on the frame and I am not in as much pain.

I'd burn the other but I think it's mostly cement rods instead of springs. That and the fire department would rush over and give me hell.

Ok, back to the plan...I'm thinking of turning the metal shed we don't use in the back corner of the yard into a chicken coop. Figure some insulation and modification to keep them warm and/or cool will be needed. The fence we used when trying to do a ground level vs raised bed garden will go far in giving them a run while keeping them safe.

Hawks, buzzards, cats, and my two dogs who love playing with small animals till they kill them and gut them are what they need protection from.

It's autumn and working in the cooler weather is easier when hauling cement block, digging out a drainage ditch behind fence that's still on my property, and harvesting scrub and wood from back area to fill boxes. Just need to find the sweet spot between drenched with rain and frozen solid.

I'm looking forward to planting, tending too, and harvesting fresh veg. next summer. We want to plant specific trees in the area we had cleared (where the scrub and fallen wood is to be found) but they won't be large enough for a few years to give fruit.

I should mention that the Dr. has put me back on the super strict diet. Lean meat with limited pork and grass fed beef, fish with limited shrimp or shellfish, greens, extremely limited veg besides leafy greens, nothing artificial or prepackaged except certain protein shakes, spices and seasonings, and very limited fruit in the form of berries and pears.

This will help repair the damage the new mattress, and redoing my room did. It will also help me not damage myself to much while setting up garden and coop (if I conquer my fear of birds I'll do the coop).

I went from over 12 prescription medications to 6. I might be able to stop one more but the others are ones I can't give up. Seizure, mental, infusion, and 2 inhalers (30 yrs of smoking and 2 COVID episodes) means these are here to stay.

I am doing well. Mentally, I'm in a good place. Physically I'm getting stronger. I'll never by able to do what I want, but I will do what I can.

Remember, you are smart and beautiful just the way you are.

MV

[possumcollege]

To be clear, I'm not so high and mighty that I'm above explaining a joke but I'm also not in a place to personally respond to every reader who expresses confusion. I do actually have longer storylines in the works and some things are intended to feed back into future strips. I try to make things that are as complete as I feel they need to be to communicate a feeling, a moment, a little piece of a world in my head that I need to see, and I hope feels good for others. I know that doesn't always make for the most relatable experience but I promise I'm never throwing intentionally confounding pitches. Like many of my characters, I like living on the surface and a whole lot of what I do is, It would be funny if this happened, against the backdrop of, goddamn, a lot of fantasy world building is racist as fuck.

I'm also one guy making a webcomic by myself in the hours between a full time job and 2AM, while coparenting a child, spending quality time with my people, and keeping chronic mental illness at bay.

Honestly if y'all mostly dig the comic and have questions, feel free to ask. I can't promise I'll remember to get to em but pretty frequently there'll be someone on Webtoons or in the comments who's got the wherewithal to take a stab at demystifying things. I enjoy reading those.

I'm also considering including Q&As and more background writing on Patreon once I get that up and running, hopefully by the end of the summer. Till then, feel free to drop me an ask here. Lord knows I prefer answering those than checking haz waste containers for the 3rd time in a day.