#i’m hiding rn and ppl take it personally

[ethereal-drivel]

what on Earth is with non-retail jobs insisting or encouraging lunch with ur coworkers, esp your BOSSES. girl this is my Break and i am so autistic i need thirty minutes to myself so i can be human again

[jasonntodd]

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[meowthiroth]

Starting to wonder if I just have some super specific form of scopophobia. It’s not something I’d need tagged in online spaces since it only bothers me in-person, but i swear any time I feel eyes on me it just makes me freeze up and feel like this

[kisakis-boyfriend]

Hey! I just wanted to rant/thirst to you about Freminet, so spoiler warning for some of his locked/upcoming voice lines bc I’m going absolutely insane over how he manages to flirt so submissively. Freminet may be truly sweet and innocent, but you can’t tell me that he isn’t purposefully advertising his subby nature. This guy automatically declines tasks from ppl other than his family, but offers himself up to “be of some use to you” in the first greeting 🤨. He straight up asks for orders with zero shame but it’s really the subtle things that are making me obsessed. I can’t really explain properly but it’s kind of like how a brat baits a dom into being more aggressive except he does it in a soft way?? He’s almost one of those mildly manipulative uwu boys going “I’m so shy 🥺👉👈 plz fuck me.”

Example A: Probably the best known example of this is one of his ascension lines where he goes “You didn't have to do this for me, you know. I'd obey you regardless.” Wtf bro, you can’t just say that?!? Being a bad liar doesn’t excuse you from not even trying to hide the horny. Please stop before I bend you over. I know some ppl interpret this as sad but imo it’s one of the most boldly sexual things to come out of his mouth.

Example B: Freminet mentions always having a home at the House of Hearth. And when you ask him to join your party he either says “At your command.” or eagerly asks us to take him (with us). But in the last option he replies with “Well, *fake ass sigh* I’ve got nowhere to go…” like he’s actively fantasizing about us making him come (along). I can just tell he’s smiling while saying this shit, he ain’t slick.

Example C: In an upcoming event the Traveler jokes about wanting to try on his helmet. Immediately the whore behavior jumps out and Freminet responds with “Well, if it’s an order…” Then there’s legit an option to say back “Yep, that’s an order”. Excuse me?!? Are you fucking kidding?!? I am actually gonna go feral rn. Like ofc Paimon interrupts saying “Hey, now’s not the time!” Paimon knows Freminet won’t get anything done once I slut him out like he’s obviously begging to be. “We don’t want to bother him now.” Bother him??? Bitch, he won’t be able to talk or walk once I’m done with him.

Anyways, that’s the end of my rant, but like wtf Genshin? Atp they might as well just let us give the kinky mf a contract and a collar

Bonus Points: The way Freminet will use his soft, raspy voice to randomly bust out a line more romantic than the actual poet characters in-game is crazy. Traveler just said goodnight like a normal person, wdym "May your dreams be as dazzling as the starry night above the ocean, and your dreamless nights be naught but filled with serene respite." Excuse me Prince Charming, how the hell am I supposed to go to bed without you in it now?

HKJFKSFSBDKDJSF

Anon please, I thoroughly enjoyed your analysis and now I cannot unhear these voice lines as anything except subby begging behavior 😵‍💫

Freminet has us all whipped with his pretty voice, short-shorts, and flirting. He knows exactly what he's doing and has no shame, it seems

[pumpkinsy0]

TWDG idea is actually a cool concept, and I totally am so up for it, and I do actually want to write about it, just for fun and all, but I think I would need think more about how it would pan out

For example, Would the curtis parents die long before the apocalypse, or have them die due to the walkers? I do like concept of clem finding out what happened to her parents, considering the idea she stuck with is that they’re alive and hiding.

who would be sticking with who? Obvious answer would be PB with his family but maybe they got separated along the day and ended up finding the Shepards gang? That could go along with your idea of Lee and Clem being Tim and Ponyboy where they eventually bond throughout the story.

Would Ponyboy and Curtis reunion be more like how Clementine finding Kenny again in the second season? I think that would be a really cool idea

Pony and Curly meet up especially.. but that would definitely be a long way away before they would officially find each other again.

This idea is so fun but I’m basically the only person in a friend group that likes both of these games, they wouldn’t get it I’m afraid..

in the most fastest, general way that i see this playing out

the curtis parents just already died before this all happened, and it was darry and soda who turned into walkers!!! now why couldnt they rush back home, idfk man ill find that out later, but point is darry called tim bc him and tim have this unspoken thing for looking out for each others families, tim finds pony and takes him w him!! and bonus points if pony saw them at some point as walkers, EXTRA extra bonus points if he saw his parents, johnny and dally too but they were so decomposed he didnt rlly understand it at the time lmao

as for the first group of survivors, i think it would b cool for it to be a mix of the curtis AND the shepard gang, because in the first bunch of survivors u hang out w, theyre all just unlikely ppl to be hanging out w one another, clashing but trying to survive and i can totally see that w the shepard and curtis gangs, which also builds onto the idea of pony and tim being clem and lee because this means tim would have to take pony under his wing so he can properly understand what to do w these guys, yknow??

as for pony and curly meeting, like i said, curly was in the run down reformatory for a good while, and i think it would be YEARS after theyve actually met again, so next time they see each other, theyve grown up quite a bit and theyd be so happy to have someone they used to know in their old life actually alive, so they both have this sense of normalcy returning when theyre together but considering the trauma these too got goin on rn, it would b a while before they like OFFICIALLY got together

not THAT thought out but ideas just flowin here🙏🏽

[seattlesellie]

this is super random (also this is my first msg to u hi <3) and i’m honestly asking this generally to anyone else who also happens to read this, but recently i’ve realized my sexual orientation and come to the conclusion that i’m like REALLY attracted to women (as a woman myself ofc). so obv this made me also think abt how someday i’m gonna have to tell ppl close to me abt this but i’m literally losing my mind cause i’m NAWT vulnerable especially w/ my parents 😭 and also i just now was watching a tiktok live that was full of homophobic ppl and whenever i see that on the internet, it makes me wanna go deeper in the shell (or closet lmao) that i already am in. like it makes me realize how many horrible ppl there are that won’t accept smth so simple (i’m also very emotional as u can see 😍) so like tbh i’m not sure what i’m seeking here but ig i’m just curious if u or anyone else has felt like this/what helped u come out? like it’s so hard for me to be open and as someone who recently graduated and is going to uni, in a completely diff country alone, i’m gonna have more freedom and if i were to date another girl, it’d feel unfair to my parents if i didnt say anything prior abt my identity. ik they’re also very supportive, which i’m thankful for, but i just HATEEE vulnerability. idk man :( it’s also very weird finally realizing more abt myself. it makes me SO happy yet so so so scared? aarrghh idk sorry abt this long message, u seem like the nicest person and this place feels safe, so i just felt like i could ask/find some kind of relatability. 💗 sorry again for this long ass rant LOLS 🌟

okokok im gonna tell u my coming out story because i can awfully relate to this ?? n adding a read more cos this is so long sorry <333 🤧

literally knew i liked girls my entire life and like suppressed the shit out of it. would try and date guys all throughout highschool and would feel so terrible afterwards… but like you, i was super uncomfortable with that type of vulnerability and also barely had any gay friends, let alone any gay female friends. so i spent my life just thinking im gonna be in the closet forever !! until i met my now ex gf, she would constantly be sleeping over— but i did the classic thing of telling my parents she was just my new best friend, until one day my dad was like… be so fr rn are you two dating. like you said, my parents are also very liberal and supportive (especially my dad), but still— it made me panic and drop a mug and deny deny deny !! then, after being together for like 6 months it was incredibly hard to hide it, and obvs she felt super uncomfortable bc i was super closeted and she was super out. so i kind of had to come out to my parents (i hid under a blanket and told them i have an important thing to say n then they already somehow knew). my parents and i literally never talked about these things like my mom didn’t even know about my first kiss or literally NOTHING about me, we didn’t have that type or relationship at all so i can relate to u so hard !!but like here’s the thing— i don’t think it would be unfair to your parents, this is your story to tell and you should do it when you feel comfortable enough, and if it takes you dating a girl for that then so be it. you shouldn’t worry about other peoples feelings about this, as this is yours to tell and not theirs! as long as you’re in a safe environment, coming out can truly be such a big fucking relief !! like that absolute weight that drops out of your chest is so so freeing. if the people who are close to you love you— they will accept you. if they won’t? truthfully, they don’t deserve u and never have. about the homophobia, its always going to be here, unfortunately for us hateful and bigoted people will always exist, and that can be extremely stressful and painful, which is why surrounding yourself with people from your own community is so so important and necessary. uni is such a good place to do that !! so many new people to meet and especially queer people to surround yourself with !! i super understand your fears but the good things that happen after you come out— that feeling of no longer needing to hide yourself is so so worth it 💗💗💗💗

[j2zara]

YAAAAAAY EHEH I GET TO SEND YOU A BUNCH OF ASKS 💖💖💖💖💖(<- these ones are just me being excited)

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HIIIII SORRY THIS TOOK ALL DAY im so exhausted which is why i feel like my answers are not the best but here u go

💖 What do you like most about your own writing?

Argh…. Ngl i sent this one to more than one person in the circle of perverts bc I want to force ppl to say nice things abt themselves and now i gotta do the same thing. I feel like my answer before this year would’ve been my dialogue!!!!!!! Like. I do think i’m good at that. It’s hard to even say that because I feel like when I do enjoy a good quip and i feel like whenever i reread my original stuff im like “oh. I’m so marvel brained”. I don’t think dialogue is my strength in cloneverse tho.  At least. I don’t think it stands out. But otherwise that’s what i would land on.

Maybe it’s bc i’ve been in a very sorry for myself slump lately bc my current wip is giving me such a struggle but i don’t even know. Before now and my latest wip driving me crazy I would’ve said. Maybe coherence or theming? Like i don’t even know if thats a thing i CAN say like is it possible to be good at themes? Sorry im being so hard on myself rn I think if i were to look at my writing i would say i think it’s halfway decent but i don’t know the answer to the question…

📥 What is your fave fic to receive comments/messages on?

Oh this is an interesting one. For such a long time the answer would’ve been my old Talentswap fic for DR, tbh it always was like. Surprising and honestly kinda nice to get like a random comment of someone being like ‘hey i just discovered this! Sad its not updating but i really enjoyed it!” something like that. And I think b/c it was multichap it was very interesting and different when ppl were reading Almost for sure.

My secret weird answer is IYWD. Like. I’m at peace with the fact that its practically dead and nobody is gonna find it again i guess but a small part of me still considers it my favorite thing i’ve done in a long time so nobody does comment anymore but. That would be the thing i secretly kinda want. I’ll take literally anything tho obviously i love anybody that ever comments on anything.

👀 Do you have any WIPs that you would never let see the light of day? If yes, what are they about?

I have a Love is Blind au for a fandom I’m not gonna mention. Idk i might’ve mentioned it somewhere but eh. Its like ten chapters but only the first 5-ish are done i’m kinda 

And i’ve talked abt this this isn’t really a. Like. Oh I’m hiding this forever thing but. I have a DR Togakure hookup fic that’s written like. To take place during a naegiri wedding like in the post first game canon. And it is one of my favorite things i’ve ever written even tho it is smut, ngl my friends have been trying to convince me to post it and i might but im genuinely terrified nobody is gonna read it and im gonna be. Sad about it

📊 Current number of WIPs

Lol um… lj3porter fic. I’m two sentences into twelfth night coded j2 wooing Jace for Porter fic. Unfinished creeper Jace + j2porter fic…  a Jace topping Zara zarajaceporter fic. A fic that is in the IYWD verse that’s like a prequel that’s normal SB related. And if we could old fandoms I have semi abandoned talent swap (the ch 3.3 doc is like 10k lmao). Love is blind au.

If we’re counting original projects. My fantasy pseudo taming retelling. Horror comedy / locked room mystery called Date / Die. I have a. Sports romance (don’t look at me). And my weird lofty rom com thing that is this decade spanning story and used to be abt a “platonic” romance but idk I was like. They’re best friends they’re the most important ppl in the world to each other and they like having sex does that make this a normal romance. Maybe. Maybe not.

So ten. Yikes.

🍰 Name one of your fave comfort fics (doesn’t have to be your all time fave).

This is such a weird pull b/c i haven’t read it in years but Wing Man is a Bokuaka fic thats one of my fav of all time that makes me so happy idk its so like. Sweet and tbh i feel bad i never commented on it i really should bc they deserve to know i still think about it. but i just don’t reread fic all that often even my favs.

Actually that’s a lie i just remembered! I’ll cite something recent and i’m a little shy to cite something from the circle of perverts but also this is completely sincere i know i jokingly call @innskeep bambi’s LJ3 fic the perfect piece of fiction all the time but i do reread it… I just like them. I think it’s really cute and i like my little guys…  I love getting J3’s pov so much like i genuinely think its so comforting and special…

🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

I won’t lie I have a total DurDawn soft spot so like. I do think it wouldn’t fun to write something small for them. Also fucking hilarious as zukkacore that I’ve never written zukka and like. In my heart I would like too but they’re almost too precious for that? It’s hard to explain. Actually another answer might be for Mailee I actually think Mailee is soooooo underrated as a ship bc they have so much potential to be good for each other that wasn’t able to foster under azula’s thumb so I like that slightly toxic edge 

💻 Do you do research for your fics? What’s the deepest dive you’ve done?

I do a little bit of research but honestly not at much as i should. Last super deep dive i did was on the different filipino mythologies and history throughout the different regions bc ithink that subject is so interesting. but that has nothing to do with the sb circle that was for my own stuff. Lately I had to look up a little bit of elvish for something sb related lol. im such a fake fan of LOTR i love it but i’ve never actually read the books

🧠 What’s an idea you have that you can’t quite call a WIP yet?

A few! I’ve talked abt Jace hireling au I think that would be fun. And I joke abt Clone gamechanger au all the time and I SAID I wanted to try and make it work so like. Maybe. I’d love to try clone gamechanger au i think its funny and cute and i wanna do something indulgent.I feel like i’m forgetting something. Jess has real estate in j2porter vegas roleplay so i kinda wanna try maybe doing J2porter 50s housewife roleplay as a sort of sequel? I still like the idea of doing a You’ve Got Mail Shop Around the Corning fic. And. I feel so so so so indulgent wanting to write LJ3 stuff but like i just like them. I don’t know what i would wann write for them but i just like them

[gaykey]

firstly and most importantly, i am beyond proud of kibum for releasing a song that’s very obviously about having sex with another man like that’s such a bold and courageous step to take in an entertainment industry operating in such a conservative country like south korea, like he’s so fucking cool for doing this. love him endlessly!

i am really curious about how sm came to approve the intoxicating lyrics though - obviously sex is not something sm groups have ever avoided making music about but i think this is the first time an idol under the company has released a song that so directly references a same-sex partner in general, let alone in a sexual context. of course kibum has always done whatever he pleases and has never needed the validation of others but g&g is a sm release, so the company would have had oversight. i hope this doesn’t come off as negative btw, it’s absolutely not meant to! i’m just wondering what made sm give intoxicating the green light considering it is a potentially risky song to release to conservative audiences in korea. i guess my question is - do you think sm are fully aware that the song is about gay sex and are just letting kibum run wild or do you think there’s a more nuanced reason as to why they approved the song? do you think the execs somehow didn’t catch on to the obvious implications of the song or thought they were subtle enough for listeners to not pick up on? again, sorry if this reads the wrong way. i love the song and the album and kibum, i’m just very interested in learning about how it came to be haha.

but also HOLY FUCK he must be getting the best lay of his life rn to be writing lyrics like that

hello! hope you are well!

i love this message, because ugh it touches on things i just love to talk about. kim kibum, music, and gay sex dhdhdjjsjsjs. so thank you.

i think? this might be a long reply, so be prepared, and i'm lowkey wine drunk, so PLEASE forgive me if it's a bit all over the place......

first of all, i would really love to touch upon the whole 'how could he get away with this in such a conservative country' but genuinely? despite what we observe of south korea via kpop (because let's be honest, that's where most of us get our info about the country. not @ you, just a generalisation) it's honestly not as uber conservative as you think. like in terms of lgbt+ people? if that makes sense. like gay ppl are everywhere, and they WILL find their own people.

because

though i think a lot of westerners think sk is like, this place where lgbtq+ people hide, and have no comminuty???

(again, not at you! i just know this is something i have observed, and i'm using your message as a like, a way to address the topic as a whole.)

south korea has a very vibrant and active lgbtq+ community!

admittedly, i am far from the best person to talk about this, but the point i'm trying to make is-

key IS super brave for how overt he is

but, he has the backing of a vocal community. and, we will always find and support our people.

and, how he gets away with it, is, heteronormativity.

it goes a long way.

the lyrics are vague enough (for straight ppl) that they can pretend it's not about kibum fucking dudes.

like, we know because we know

and same goes for the company

it's either, they're too oblivious to know what he's saying, or, they know that only those who know will know so? no harm?

so like, a mixture of awareness meets letting him run wild?

and yes!

literally, kibum having great gay sex is something i genuinely have hoped he has, and, from the sounds of it...! mwah, good for you bestie!

[goldenhypen]

hi em! i was gonna make this anonymous but ta heck w tht LOL okay so this is gonna b a long one js bc i wanna b as clear as possible for u but i jus wanna kno ur opinion on this n im sorry if this sounds redundant (given what ur whole acc is abt) but i saw this tiktok that was basically talking abt how ppl who read rp (real person) fanfics r weird , disgusting , and freaks (that one hurt ngl😭) and ig bc i never interacted w ppl who read them i had no idea this was such a controversial thing yk? so it kinda hurt and i got hella defensive bc these fics have helped me thru some hard times n r my safe space (esp ur acc i love it sm ur fics r quick n easy reads but so so good! and i love tht u write wholesome sfw fics i don’t like / can’t read nsfw rp fics) and r good when i need a quick romance fix bc i have none irl (tmi fr sorry!) but honestly it made me feel horrible abt myself bc im like damn am i sick freak for reading this even tho i read the sfw n wholesome ones?? n they were sayin the y/n , self inserts were even worse! 😭 n idk if this makes me ignorant but for the life of me i couldn’t figure out what made it weird! nsfw ones r different but regular romance or fantasy? esp since i never see this take when ppl mention they used to read one direction fanfics or mindless behavior & august alsina ones (these were popular among the black community for context!) like everyone laughs n reminisces i feel like ppl r a lot more critical n harsh on kpop stans tbh but i even thought abt deleting my tumblr bc i felt wrong for doing so it made me question myself for awhile just being honest anyways i’ll get off my soapbox im so sorry this is so long i jus wanted to give as much context and detail as possible! if this is too much please disregard but idk i just wanted an opinion on this take from a fix writer and i assume u read some too correct me if i’m wrong! thanks so incredibly much in advance and i hope we can b friends one day! 🧸🎀✨💌💕🫶🏽

this is so real of you omg ok first of all, thank you for going out of your comfort zone to do this! things like this make me so happy cuz you coming out of your way to do this (comfort wise and time wise since it must’ve taken you a while to write sm, esp considering the technical difficulties 😭) makes it all the more meaningful. and i rlly appreciate you coming to me of all ppl too! so thank you!

secondly, i agree with you on all the things you had to say !! i was once in your shoes, and if i’m being completely honest, a part of me is still navigating this as well. like some things i still question for example is if there is rlly nothing wrong with this, why do i feel the need to hide that i read/write? but for the most part, rn i am definitely set on there being absolutely nothing wrong with this! i can definitely see where these other ppl are coming from if they had never thought much of fanfiction or reader inserts etc. bc it’s probably similar to how i felt before being more exposed to fanfiction. but imo these are fantasies i just imagine in my head anyway and are almost like dreams to me yk? and so imo, they’re harmless. in fact, writing and reading ffs help grow my creativity, which is smth i value. cuz not only am i doing this for entertainment, i’m also doing it for the art (this is in terms of writing more so than reading but can still apply to both). however, similar to you, i do believe that imagines can be taken too far, as that is what aligns with my beliefs, such as nsfw fics (which is not anything personal at all to nsfw writers!). that imo can be harmful for the mind and spirit etc. (sorry if this is getting too deep and personal 😭)

ugh this is honestly so nice to talk about and have someone relate to on this cuz literally the things you are saying describe me !!! and dw, i have and never had any love life,, it’s non existent, believe it or not! so dw, you’re not alone 😭 like we can be delulu tgt 😭😭 and ahahaha yesss like i can’t tell you the amount of times i considered deleting this app or stopping writing/reading. it was challenging to process. but after doing so, i have come to the conclusions i mentioned earlier (how i think reading sfw fics are harmless). it’s literally just a form of harmless entertainment lol so i don’t see why ppl have to be so judgmental about it and can’t just mind their own business 😭 so dw, coming from a fellow reader and someone who has faced the same dilemma, you are not at all a freak 😭 and don’t let anyone let you think otherwise 😤☹️

also i can’t go without saying a huge thank you for all the kind things you had to say about my works :((( <3 that is so sweet of you to say and is so encouraging. it’s smth i’m finding i need a lot of, esp lately, so i rlly appreciate that and it means a lot. this whole ask and talking about this is rlly quite meaningful to me tbh 😭 so thank you for coming to me and being so brave to bring this up! 🫶🏻 also, yes let’s be friends omg !! i’d love that 🥹🫶🏻

[colgatebluemintygel]

sorry I’m all up ur notifs rn but thought this should be a separate ask - in ur response to my previous ask you mentioned that remus has this air of vulnerability to him which is part of what draws ppl in, and I’m curious whether u feel that that vulnerability is outwardly visible (to other characters I mean) in OAO? Or rather, clearly it is since u mentioned it in this context lol, but I’m curious how that shows through (or if it’s just his vibes)? Since we (so far!) only rlly see him through Sirius’s unreliable narration and he obv knows Remus so well but also describes him as rlly hard to read and hard to get him to show vulnerability, and I’m curious now if that’s something about Remus that’s clear to everyone (which might be what ur referring to about him being mysterious) or something Sirius sees bc he knows Remus so well - I guess I’m intrigued that ppl seem to pick up on his vulnerability when it seems like he’s working so hard to hide his emotions in order to avoid seeming vulnerable, yk? He’s such a fascinating character lol (I am just like everyone in the club fr)

PS. this is how I’m picturing the sandals, except with the leather even more beat up and cracked:

(PPS If there’s any way you’d be willing to share where we’re up to in the OAO playlist in terms of chapters/events………finding out the Remus POV was next totally upended my personal theories about which songs were part of his POV lol so I’m v curious)

omg never apologise!!! i literally love talking about them <333 SO YES i think in part the vulnerability comes through in his general appearance; sirius is constantly waxing lyrical about how sexy and beautiful remus is, but he's also this bird boned man who looks like he lives off porridge (aka the only thing he knows how to cook) and cigarettes. he has perma eye bags and always looks a bit sleepy. yes, he FUCKS but he could also do with a protein smoothie if ya feel me. sirius's very first impression of remus was that he looked like a well-loved teddy. comforting, but also something to be treasured and protected.

i do think a huge part of the draw for people towards him is his almost contradictory nature; on one hand, he's so very kind and gives off strong sensitive guy vibes (in the same way that all tall spindly men reading beaten up books on the bus do), but he's also elusive af. and i really think this combination of traits makes people go wild; it's like a tease. like you KNOW there is so much there under the surface, but it's all being kept tightly under wraps,, and people can't help but fall for that. they want to be the one to uncover it all! added to that, he's always willing to lend an ear to other people and their problems, but he becomes v dodgy when it comes to talking about himself. sirius always feels guilty for taking up room with his feelings, and definitely part of that (not that sirius realises) is remus using sirius's feelings as a bit of a buffer for his own. if that makes sense? he's not being intentionally manipulative, but he feels like his own feelings are a burden; i think tied to that is a desire to make sure that nobody else around him feels like a burden for their feelings, but also a desire to just feel useful.

also, what will be made particularly evident in the next chapter ;-) is that remus controls himself A Lot around sirius. more than anyone else. around sirius, he's both the most himself and at his absolute most vulnerable, and that combination absolutely terrifies him. and he works overtime to try and keep himself under control. it doesn't help that sirius always finds a way to slip under remus's defenses, so he always tries extra extra hard to guard against that. but sirius always finds ways of surprising him (and vice versa)!

anywho..... i think the essence of what i'm trying to say here is: at his core, remus is incredibly vulnerable, and he works overtime to try to negate that. but!!! we will see some of those walls fall... :-) eventually :-))))

YES YOU GET IT. THOSE ARE HIS SANDALS. THEY LOOK LIKE THEY'RE FALLING OFF HIS FEET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TAKEN FROM THE GRAVE OF AN OLD WELSH SHEEP FARMER. DUG UP AT AN ARCHAEOLOGICAL SITE AND PLACED DIRECTLY IN REMUS'S HANDS. THAT IS THE VIBE !!!!!!

oooh yes of course <333 remus's songs are house of cards - half the day is the night ;o)))))

[dearweirdme]

for the people who don’t believe in taennie, i’ve noticed they fall into two camps. one is that he’s being pressured into resigning and so the company is trying to ruin his reputation so that he relies on them. and the second is that it’s a beard because enlistment is close and since last year in paris, more ppl started to really see him as queer. for the first, i’m unsure because yea the comp has been a little weird in how they’ve been treating him but their contracts aren’t up for a while and nothing points to him wanting to leave. and for the second, it’s not like he’s hiding his queerness rn either, walking around smiling widely in his pride hoodie. i know taekookers think that this gives taekook more room to openly interact but if that’s the case how come it feels like they’re still being restricted. personally i’m not sure what to think the motives are, just that i knew something wasn’t right when hybe gave conflicting responses to whether he’d show up at cannes causing there to be the rumor that he’d hardlaunch there. they had the opportunity to shut it down right away and instead purposefully gave clout to her appearance, when tae was actually nowhere near there because the celine private party was at a hotel in antibes not cannes.

Hi anon!

I know the motives for something like this can be hard to understand. Especially for BTS fans, this has not been done before.. so it is strange and it tears at the believe of who the members are a bit. I’ve seen people mad at Tae for possibly lying to them. And I’ve seen many say that stuff like this just doesn’t happen in South Korea.

But I think, Kpop is starting to outgrow SK a bit. Especially BTS (look at Jk right now) and BlackPink are so huge. We’ve heard Jk say that he wants to be a big star. And with that comes marketing beyond SK and strategies that are different from what’s been done before.

I think that’s what’s happening with Tae as well. I don’t think he has the same stardom as Jk in mind, but I do think he wants things for himself and I think it’s to be able to be more himself. You might think, but if Taennie isn’t real.. how is that any closer to him being himself. Well, Taennie is something short lived. It’s a few months of having a rumored ‘girlfriend’, just enough to get the ‘he dates women’ through. It might not even be to make it appear like he isn’t gay, maybe just to show that he also dates women. Which unfortunately is looked upon slightly different than someone being gay. It allows him some freedom in the long run. It would allow him to wear pride hoodies in Disneyland, it might allow him freedom in his music/lyrics. It would take away a but of the ‘gay’ so he is in general able to hide less strictly. Even though it’s a side effect, I don’t think it’s to cover up his relationship with Jk. They manage fine under the shroud of bff’s. But maybe they have personally felt more free to roam around a bit. But I think the intention is solely for Tae’s image. At this point (though I don’t know what is still to happen.. maybe around his album release) I think the promo part was mostly for Jennie’s benefit. It was scheduled around her release(s). But in a way it was promo dor Tae too.. just not for a project, but rather for his image.

It’s about walking a fine line. A bit of fake to be able to be more real in the whole.

[thatbitchsimone]

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Are there any books, articles or anything that you recommend in the self-help/self-love realm? I struggle w ocd, depression, anxiety and an ed (for the last week I’ve actually decided to recover and have started eating three meals a day!). I’ve kind of had an epiphany and come to terms with the fact that I’ve led myself down really dark path of manipulating everyone around me and the guilt of hiding/lying is unbearable. I’ve lost all my personality, friends and empathy for others. I feel like all my values have become superficial. And overall, I’ve developed such a nihilistic view of the world and I’m so tired of it. Everyday is so miserable and I feel like I’m not enjoying a single second of it because of the restrictions and boundaries I force on myself. I REALLY REALLY want to change, but I’m struggling to find resources (besides my therapist ofc) to inspire me. I want to feel healthy and smart and strong and full of love again. (Would literally piss my pants if you respond, I love u sm and ur advice would mean the world)

ok i just wanna tell u that im so proud of u for taking this step towards recovery and i am rooting for u so hard like honestly im cheering u on so hard rn.

ive never been into self help as a genre tho like it just doesnt rly do anything for me. like all of my self love and acceptance etc come from myself internally like its something ive ”achieved” thru experience and introspection and just age and personal growth like i think its something that was kinda planted inside of me like a seed very early in life that has evolved and grown thru my whole life up to this point, probably by my mom tbh. so im kind of lucky in this sense.

hopefully some ppl will have some recommendations in the replies of this post tho. im sure theres a lot of good stuff out there that the girlies can share.

love u babe i know u will succeed and im gonna be cheering u on every step of the way

[psychoticwillgraham]

ive only been home since Tuesday and ive already lost a lot of my progress on things. im afraid to leave the house again, im depressed as fuck again, and my anger is worse and I don’t even try to hide it anymore. it’s really hard to be happy and nice when the people around you absolutely despise your existence. i can’t go ANYWHERE in public without ppl staring at me and giving me nasty looks and now after two incidents concerning the bathroom I use, im just avoiding using the bathroom when im out of the house. I’ll only use it in a restaurant if almost nobody else is in the place at the same time as me.

not to be that person or anything, but people really don’t think that afab gnc people face issues like the bathroom stuff. but guess what: we fucking do and nobody listens to us or takes us seriously. that’s all I’m gonna say on it rn.

[cookiescr]

Thanks I’m literally harassing all my friends about this stupid visa and when i finally get it, it’ll become a national holiday jsjsjsjs rn I can’t sleep bc I’m nervous about tomorrow

Yeah I started with it and visit some courses, so it’ll be a long road until I actually finish. Brain already gave up tho

You just need to visit your gf and bet you’ll see snow, it’s fun but pls don’t touch the yellow one. Or who knows, maybe climate change will make it snow someday over there too 💀

Yeah kinda it’s the same process as painting digitally but at the same time it’s completely different. But nothing goes over doodles on paper during school, best treasured memories

Yes ok im a Flight attendant mainly, but I’m also working in the on board kitchen as a flying chef because I got extra wine sommelier and business class service training which makes me basically a bootlicker but at least I don’t have to interact that much with ppl as the others due to my assigned position. Ngl idk if I regret doing this or not cause I’m missing out on juicy gossip from the expnomy crew 💀

Yeah pilots are obsessed with fitness they spend most of their layovers in gym. Except for the old married ones they either drink and eat or hide in their rooms. Either way most of them are so boring and they don’t even earn good anymore to see past the dull personality

hslakdjsa i think as you sent this I'd just fallen asleep but hell yee celebration when ur visa gets processed

how lond does it usually take to finish masters is it like 4-6 years as well :0 or is it like a take your own pace thing?

I'm thinking of like uhh starting patreon properly after the trip and try to see if it can be like a proper income thing that i can pay taxes for so i can finally travel around askdla like i wanna make a snowman with my gf hhhhh or snowball fight. Also that would be kinda scary asdkjla

oh damn ye the back of my notebook was always full of doodles like I still kinda remember my teacher writing a little note at the back of my notebook complimenting a shitty drawing but it stuck with me

job mystery solved 😎 also that's dope like for some reason I never thought there would be like a chef on a plane like it never crossed my mind lkajsdal

dang i thought pilots like earn a lot or something

[theuniverseawakens347]

“ I read your blog 6 x’s over” …. BEFORE meeting me at st Francis 3-4 days into my stay…

Then how many times once I got out …

Especially when the ancestors spirited me about the truth of not only 4400 REAL OWNERS but also … Illuminati vs masons AND HOW WE GOT HERE. ..

And the dead skulls .. that I LOVE SO MUCH ..

How’d you get past the righting there ..

“Thinking I’m cool and creative like cashay to tell truths” …

Why not just be a face to face WITH YOUR CREDIT CARD AND TALK TO THE VICTIMS …

I KNOW ITS AN ALARMING AMOUNT…

But you LIVE W TWO OF THE BIGGEST YOUR HURT THE MOST…

We had a sit down with Vivicca whitsett… and a fern painting something so small you lost your shit over and AMPt UP even more …

I just … who failed Lee REALLY … the women in your life. From childhood to adulthood ..

I mean the men yeah but like … at what age

Does one in YOUR PLACE legitimately say “i need help”

WITHOUT bullshitting and attacking people for being able to literally SWALLOW THEIR PRIDE AND WORK FOR BETTER AND ACTUALLY BE AND DO IT.

I had chalked in Ava BE THE LIGHT in my kitchen which you used for yourself to continue darkness in the world .. along with

My blog originally saying

“ reclaiming my light through my darkness” —- THE AMOUNT OF SHIT IVE GON THRU AT THE HANDS OF OTHER PPL THAT IRONICALLY WRAP BACK TO YOU, I wasn’t EVER going to let it take me from being A POSITIVE SHINING BRIGHT LIGHT … literally wanting to isolate myself NOT OUT OF DEPRESSION, but out of THE UNDERSTANDING I work best IN MY LANE …in MY ARENA OF WHAT I KNOW TO BE TRUE PEACE FOR ME TO WAKE UP EVERY FUCKING MORNING AND WATER MY SELF SO THAT MY SURROUNDING ENVIRONMENT CAN THRIVE W ME…

AND LIKE A TRUE NARCISSIST YOU BOTH TOOK ALL THAT AWAY FROM ME .. and you’re STILL DISGUSTED I GOT LIKE NOTHING TO MY NAME RN BUT STILL THRIVING AND SMILING EVERY DAY …

Lee … borderline personality YOU HAVE .. the amount of accounts you’ve created to impersonate someone else IS NOT MWTHOD ACTING .. it IS INFACT ALARMING .. but also you finally tapping in to your truest self with out understanding which is alarming …

Shapeshifter .. one good one bad …

YOU HAVENT SEEN ME IN ACTION .. you e seen bits and heard bits AND EDITS THOSE WRITINGS TO UR TRUEST JEALOUSY FORM ..

But what I do is STAND ON BUSINESS YOU BULLSHITTING ME CAUSE IM 30 — and NOT IN THE PD DPHS EMAILS and telegram marketing GroupMe chats …

BUT I CAN STILL TELL YOU YOUR TRUTH AND WHAT SOMEONE ELSE IS DOING TO YOU … a protwjeè for AN AMAZING CAREER .. but it’s just naturally in me … can’t explain it correctly cause you numb me then use the “it’s too creative” against me to the police.

BUT YOU BOREDERLINE .. like Aja miles … but you EXTRME LIKE THE KILLING GENE … “only in men” you told me November a week before thanksgiving at the cabin 2023 .. watching law abiding citizen AND THE GOOD NURSE .. or cereal killing nurse movie ..

But YOU have an inner voice that’s evil AND VILE AS FUCK and instead of owning it in YOU AUTONIMY .. you shove it onto trump OPENLY .. then silently take it out in other ppl names .. you Scientology personality test your victims get them to do writings of how they’d murder someone in writing .. then find their arch type personality and go and go CRIME WRITING IN THEIR FACE AND THE NAME OF SOMEONE WHO WOULDNT GO THAT FAR ..

Now you got “the complete” “kill package” AS YOU THINK …

But you’re a coward and hide behind “it’s a creative journaling outlet”

… I got in trouble at TCS for writing I wanted to kill // hurt malada whatever her name was for tripping me in soccer THEN HAVING HER DAD CUSS ME OUT IN FRONT OF THE TEAM .. not knowing YOU WERE EMAILING PARENTS AND TEXTING THEM AS ME ALARMING THREATS … but I wrote Malaga’s dads truth CAUSE YOU and my own about her .. BUT ME BEING FAR REMOVED FROM WHAT YOU WERE DOING TO ME SINCE 2rd grade at 54th … and at TCS TO SOOHIE SHALBOUB BEFORE I EVEN TOUCHED THW CAMPUS…

USC .. DURING TRAINING MY CLIENTS bc equinox … FUCKTARD LEAH AND VANESSA … and Paris jealous of Mel and Kendall .. and Eric … and moon .. and mj …

I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THESE PPL TIL I WALKED IN THE DOOR .. and you had aubri spy on me kardashian … “it doesn’t add up but it fits Morgan’s character” … for ass shots ..

ALARMING WHAT THE YOUTH W DO W BODY DISMOROHIA .. and you get off on this shit ..

I said Lisa miller a mother’s miscarriage = A BIG LEARNING LESSON ..

IT HURTS YOU MOST WHEN I SAY THERES REASONS YOUR KIDS DONT WANT TO BE W YOU … and you KNOW THW TRUTH BUT DONT WANT TO OWN IT ..

It’s just 🤯…

THE WORLDS BIGGEST COWARDLY “ dawg” ..

How you expect 48 BULLSHIT “laws of power” to stick with anyone WHEN THE EMPATH FINALLY WAKES AND REALIZE THEY WANT CHANGE …

Good thing , even “a sleep” I did what I did GODS PLAN, for those who felt they ran out of time unfairly or couldn’t catch up to beat the clock, Nelson.H. ..

[love-and-books320]

You reblog all this stuff about the Hunger Games and ATLA yet claim to be Pro-Israel. You can’t support revolution in media yet when people fight against a colonialist state irl you say they aren’t fighting properly.

Do you think indigenous Americans weren’t fighting back ‘the right way’. Native South Africans? What about the people of India and Pakistan? There is no right way to fight against a colonial state.

You can not be pro-Israel and Pro-peace. To be pro-Israel is to be pro-colonists. That is Pro-Violence. You can’t say “Those things happened awhile ago. Israel is a place now” When people are still alive from the Nakba. When they are still invading and stealing land. You are watch colonialism happen and you are on the side of the colonists.

I say this with kindness and love but maybe you should look at those stories you love so much. It’s just disappointing to see someone miss the point because this colonization seems too grey to them.

It was complicated to American Colonizers too.

And Australian

And South African

And in India.

Now that colonization happens infront of your face you claim again that it’s too complicated.

But this probably won’t change your mind. Which is disappointing because you seem very nice if not slightly blinded. I hope you stay well and you do better ❤️

hi anon!! First I wanna thank you for taking the time to reach out bc if someone’s gonna dislike me or my opinion I’d rather them talk to me about it first! This might be long but I hope at least you read it lol

First i want to say what I’ve always said about this. What Israel is doing is wrong. Personally, I believe that Israel has a right to exist because when it was created that was where most Jews were living at the time because it was their homeland and because the holocaust had driven them out of a pretty much all of Europe. Fleeing Jews were even denied access to America, that’s how horrible it was. There are also valid reasons it shouldn’t have been created that I can agree with. But it a state now. Most ppl living there were born there. If you want to get rid of the whole state you’ll either have to forcibly remove those ppl from their homes or kill them.

which, I agree, is what Israel is trying to do to Palestinians rn, which is insanely horrible and disgusting. I hate Israel’s gov so much. I’m serious. But I do think Israel has a right to have a gov(not this one, but a better one), I don’t support Israel rn but I do support Israel as a whole if that makes sense???

You mentioned the indigenous American people. And yes I agree, huge screw up on America’s part. But what would you have happen? The USA is a colonized state so would you…decolonize it?? Just kick out or kill all Americans who have been living here for generations? That shouldn’t have happened to the indigenous ppls but it shouldn’t happen to the American ppl now. It shouldn’t happen to anyone.

“from the river to the sea, Palestine will be free” that means all the land will belong to Palestine. Israel is between the river and the sea. To completely eradicate Israel as a state would require killing just as many if not more Jews than Arabs are being killed rn. Your answer to a genocide should not be a genocide of the oppressors. That goes for both sides, also kinda a banger line???

my main issue is with Hamas, a terrorist group that kills ppl who wants peace, rapes women, and hides behind women and children to protect themselves. Check the UN’s statements. This is not all Palestinians and does not justify what Israel is doing. But I do hate Hamas.

also you talk a lot about colonization and Israel being a colonizer state. But it’s not like Israel was already a state, invaded Palestine and said this is ours now. That’s what colonization typically is. Instead the area was colonized by Britain(I assume no one wants to go back to that??) and Arabs were living there. Before ww1, even, Jews started to migrate there bc it was their homeland. During and after the holocaust it became the main place for Jews to go, resulting in most jews(a number far far smaller than before the holocaust) living there. So the UN made it into Arab and Jewish states. The UN. Not a country. The UN.

also the Jews were the first ppl living there. Ever. Then they were colonized by the Romans, then the Arabs, then Ottoman Empire, the Brit’s, etc. If we were to really truly decolonize the land, it would belong to the Jews.

that’s not what I believe tho. I think Israel and Palestine should share it equally in peace and I hope and pray that one day that will happen. And if you hate me or think me blindsided for that….maybe your the one who’s not pro peace.

Forgive me for spelling errors or untrue facts. I really hope there are none but I am human, and therefore can be influenced by propaganda and fake news. And sorry if that sounded mean I love you so much anon thanks for reaching out!!!!