#i’m done ranting now sorry xd

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Kaiser-goal analysis Part 3: Magnus

This is the final part of my analysis that started out with me trying to make sense of the Kaiser’s goal celebrations, and why they differ from other strikers’. I highly recommend you to read part 1 and part 2 before reading this. Or, at least checking out part 1, if you don’t have that much time

[Tagging u again @pixie05love and @fyeahkainess]

The leadup:

I had left it off with how Kaiser is utterly irrational now, emotions clouding his judgement. This has never occurred to this extreme before, even though he’s been fixating on Isagi for a while now. What I find interesting is that Ness actually comments on Kaiser’s strange and irrational play, and how it doesn’t benefit him. I think this is the first time that Ness has dared to propose an idea or tried to take control in any way.

Kaiser does not give a shit about Ness’ suggestions however: because of his miskick, his offer from real is on the line too. He is feeling it more than ever, the threat of having nothing to his name, of becoming inhuman again. So then he throws it all away, and accepts that he is a “piece of shit”. Discovers his one true ego, his one true desire: to be loved.

(I’m sorry, I’m aware this was me re-narrating the story and what everyone already knows, but it’s very important to be on the same page for the continuation)

Another small thing that I just can’t fit anywhere else: now that Kaiser is playing with cool rationality again, it’s Ness who makes emotional, and desperate plays. But Kaiser now sees that unless the conditions are met for his weapon, it is not worth risking another failure.

Symbolism for love: the moon, the ball, the goal

There is a strong visual connection between Kaiser’s confession to the moon about how he wishes to be loved, and the ball, which will help him accomplish this desire. Look at the placement of the moon and the ball: they are in the same place in their respective panels, and they are (almost) of the same size as well.

And in the panel above, it looks like the ball in motion doesn’t have any details. It resembles the moon. The thing that Kaiser reaches up to, as if it could help him accomplish his desire to be loved. It looks like the “moon” is the ball, but it is not stationary anymore, it’s moving towards the goal, helping Kaiser accomplish his wish.

The act of scoring a goal is aiming for love and receiving it. For now, it’s the only way Kaiser thinks he can be loved, as it is said out loud later in ch 279.

Celebration

There is an astronomical difference here: directly contrasting the first goal celebration, instead of Kaiser leaning down into the shadows, he is engulfed by light. This light comes from upwards, and ONLY illuminates Kaiser, the background is black otherwise -> darkness ~ night, light ~ moonlight.

He is reaching up for the moon again. Just like in his childhood, he’s reaching up for love.

And he has acquired it for now with this goal. He closes his fist here, he has gotten a grab of the moon, of the love, all thanks to this goal. He looks much more uncomposed in this pose than he ever has so far. It’s cathartic, full of satisfaction and self-fulfillment as he’d acquired his one true wish in that moment.

He’s also not looking for the other players’ reaction. Causing pain and taking pleasure in it doesn’t matter anymore, it’s not the root of his ego. He does not celebrate with sadism any longer, instead he is totally focused on himself, head tipped towards the ground, standing in a pose that is simultaneously solitary and beautiful.

And he doesn’t even face us, the readers either. Nomura and Kaneshiro are indicating that the celebration is solely for Kaiser to have: no one else can get close to observe his celebration, his expressions, and his emotions.

Vines and Ego

Another thing that solidifies how he has found his true ego are the vines. Prior to this, they had been colored white (or green or whatever) … the point is that they are now darker. They look solid, unbreakable. Before - just like his glass chain on the cover for volume 19 – the white vines appear snappable, like you could cut right through them if you tried hard enough: visually indicating his fragile ego. Now they look thornier than ever, stronger, more resistant. Like no one could break his desire to aim for love, his newfound ego.

But what I find interesting is that the black vines do not appear when he’s first changing his playstyle and throwing himself into restriction. They are still white, which clearly indicate that this new mentality is not the right one either: him perceiving himself as a piece of shit who can only live in restriction, is just as a fragile of a mentality is as the one he’d had before (his desire live on as a scar inside others). Even when he prepares to shoot the ball the vines stay white.

They only turn black AS he kicks the ball and as he remembers what he longs for the most = love. After the flashback we can literally see the vines turn gradually darker and stronger.

After his goal, he revels in “attaining a bit of love”, so the vines stay black for a while.

However, in ch 279, as Kaiser gets the foundation of his existence wrong again (“I can only live by hurting others”) the vines are white as he’s aiming to shoot. They are only dark when the ball is not in his control anymore: when it’s on its own way to the goal = on its way to fulfill Kaiser’s wish for love.

And in ch 283 they are white again… and I’ll be honest, it’s quite difficult to figure out what it could mean. Maybe that after ch 279 Kaiser is pushing himself into the wrong mentality again…? This masochistic view of himself, about how he’s a piece of shit who can never be loved and can only hurt others… how he always SHOULD yearn for love when trying to score a goal, but he can never gain love outside of football.

(At least this is how I personally interpret the inconsistent coloring of the vines…)

Also, a sidenote: as I’ve tried to analyze how the moon symbolizes stuff and how it holds so much importance regarding Kaiser’s story… plus how he wants to gain love through scoring but doesn’t view himself as someone deserving of it outside the pitch… yk what this reminded me of? MICK MOON’S STORY

Yeah…

If you follow me, you will never escape the “Kaiser might end up like Mick Moon” theory.

Interactions with Ness

So, Ness did not assist for the Magnus goal, however he is still happy for Kaiser (“at some point his dreams became mine” + kaiser’s manipulative love-bombing after the goals). So he approaches him, even though Kaiser is keeping his back to him again, instead of being affectionate.

So when Kaiser turns to him over his shoulder we can get a brief look at his eyes: and to me, they look full of pity and sadness…

After that though, he directly turns to Ness to acknowledge him but ultimately breaks things off. And this is important: Ness has a clear view of his face, of his eyes, emotions, all of that. But we readers do not. We can’t see his expressions because it doesn’t matter what Kaiser is feeling while speaking and cutting Ness off. It doesn’t matter whether his face is emotionless, sad, pitying, full of regret…

Because it doesn’t fucking matter FOR NESS. Only the outcome, the words, the results of Kaiser’s words does: that Ness is not needed anymore.

Which implies that this scene's protagonist is NOT Kaiser. It’s Ness. So, it’s fair to assume that he’s going to get a lot of development eventually, because of how this scene’s been constructed specifically around him.

And later on, we’re still seeing Ness chasing after the affection that Kaiser usually gives him as a reward, really just confirming my theory about Kaiser love-bombing him intentionally. Ness has been treated this way FOR YEARS, his only connection is Kaiser, his dreams literally depend on him… of course he isn’t just going to give up all that. Of course he still tries to stick to Kaiser, as he does not know how to play football otherwise (and how to exist otherwise…)

(I’ve always found it a bit strange that some ppl were just expecting Ness to immediately side with Isagi, get revenge on Kaiser, or to just get over him during this match… Ness had been manipulated to stay by Kaiser’s side for a looooong while, there is no way he can realistically find himself again that quickly)

Interactions with Isagi

Directly contrasting his break-up with Ness, we see Kaiser’s face more clearly than ever: it is not covered by his hair, as he’s intentionally pushing it out of the way to FULLY face Isagi, and his eyes are totally open here instead of his usual half-lidded look (I’m referring to the panel to the right).

And this scene not only contrasts with how he interacts with Ness, but it’s also a 180 when we consider his past interactions with Isagi. In my first part, I’ve mentioned how he has either kept his back to him (only turning to belittle), or how after the bicycle kick goal, he looks at Isagi from afar, not bothering to talk to him. He looks at him from underneath his fringe, as he’s trying to cover his frustrations and expressions with his hair.

But now he acknowledges, respects and understands Isagi’s strengths. After all, it is the thing that has catapulted his evolution to score the Magnus.

This respect shows in the way that he doesn’t actually touch Isagi during this new confrontation. They are finally standing eye to eye, challenging each other without trying to belittle through physical contact.

And on a larger scheme, this indicates how he’s able to face a challenge head on now: with respect for his opponents, and the will to aim higher than he is now.

. . .

Whew okay, i'm finally done.

First of all, I'm very sorry that I'm posting this so much later than I had promised. Truth is, I was kind of afraid to start writing this, bc there are already a lot of great posts analyzing this goal specifically...

But if you've read down this far, i truly love you in the least parasocial way possible. Honestly.

[honeybubblebeeeeee]

Breaking Up Slowly || Gojo Satoru x fem!reader

Gojo had broken up with you, for his own reasons but he still couldn’t stay away from you.

Part 2

You may read this and be like huh not realistic but i am writing this bec i was in this situation and it still got me messed up XD smut/hurt no comfort ://// (oral giving/receiving, penetration, creampie, nothing crazy) bad at writing smut bear with me

(also send requests! i appreciate them they help smmmm with writers block <3)

Your relationship with Satoru wasn’t ever a negative one. You two were compatible in all aspects. Your relationship was healthy. Until it wasn’t.

“I don’t understand! Just tell me what I did!” Tears were overflowing from your eyes as Satoru just stood at the door, a bag of his clothes over his shoulder. He couldn’t look at you even thought he was the one that ended things.

“It’s not you. I just don’t want a relationship anymore.” He looked to his feet and shifted uncomfortably.

You stared in disbelief. You had done nothing but give him everything. Anything he needed, you gave. You didn’t make a big deal when he was gone a long time and wouldn’t even answer his phone. You didn’t make a scene even when he was around and still needed space. You understood his job was hard. You didn't get mad at him when you hadn't seen him for weeks and when you finally did he didn't want to spend time with you.

“But why? Am I too much? Did I do something? Did I not do something?” You overthought every moment in an instant. You two had always talked when something was wrong. This is the first time there has been an issue and it wasn’t spoken about.

“No. I told you it’s not you. I just don’t want to be in a relationship. I have other things to focus on.” His blindfold masked any emotion that could be behind his eyes. It wasn’t often he wore it around you. So this felt like a punishment.

Taking in a breath you asked the hard question. “Are you seeing someone else?”

His head snapped to you and he took a step towards you but stopped himself from advancing further. “What? No. Of course not. I still want to be friends with you. I want to help you when you need it and….. and if you want we can still be, ya know, intimate.”

You scoffed at him. “You want nothing to do with me but you still want to have sex with me.”

Satoru sighed. “I still want you around. I just don’t want a relationship.”

Your heart felt like it was snapping in two. “Go. Get out.”

Satoru held out a hand. “Look Y/N, I-“

“Just go Gojo.” A flash of hurt crossed his face at your refusal to even use his name. He merely nodded at you and left.

. . .

A few days had gone by. Gojo had not spoken to you. You considered blocking his contact but it hurt too much. Part of you wanted him to take it back. To say he didn’t mean it and to come back. However part of you felt better with him gone. True feelings of how lonely you actually felt around him had risen to the surface now that you weren’t blinded by your love for him.

You were making your way to a hiking trail nearby your house when your phone started to ring. Pulling it out of your pocket, Gojo’s face lit up the screen. It felt like your heart was breaking all over again.

You considered not answering it but as the last ring started you accepted the call.

“Hello?”

“Hey! I just had to tell you this so I’m out with Yuji right. We were walking through the market and this curse comes out of nowhere. Sukuna and Yuji switch and apparently Sukuna knew the curse.” Gojo ranted on about whatever predicament he had been in. You were too stunned to say anything but oh, okay and force a laugh where it seemed appropriate. “So yeah I just thought it was so funny I had to call you to tell you.”

“Um yeah that is pretty funny.” Your mind spun. Did you imagine him breaking up with you?

“Anyway sorry to interrupt if you were busy. I just really wanted to tell you.” He sounded as if not a single aspect of this seemed wrong.

“I uh no. I wasn’t busy. I was just going to the trail by my apartment for a walk.” Through all his talking you had made it out of your apartment and almost to the trail.

“Oh really? I’m pretty close to there. I’ll come with you. I wouldn’t mind a walk. See you in a sec.” And with that he hung up.

You gaped at your phone. You almost wanted to call him back just to scream at him. You shook your head and kept walking, maybe he wouldn't be able to find you.

Just as you entered the trail, Gojo came up behind you. He smiled and waved, his dark sunglasses on. "Hey! It's nice out today huh?" You swallowed harshly and forced a smile at him. You walked in silence for a little while, Gojo's phone ringing broke the silence. "Oh sorry let me answer this." He walked away answering his phone, you stood there still in shock of how to even react to this entire situation. He was your ex-boyfriend now. So why was he acting like nothing ever happened?

He hung up and walked back towards you. "I have to go sorry but I'll catch up with you later?" He waved to you and made his way back in the direction you had both come from. You raised your hand weakly to wave to him.

. . .

A few weeks had gone by. Gojo hadn't spoken to you much. A few 'hey' and 'how are you' texts but they never went past a couple messages. Ironically it was him that was leaving you on read even though it was him who was texting you first. You hadn't physically seen him since that day in the woods.

It was late in the evening. You weren't tired but you didn't feel like doing anything in particular. In cases like this you resorted to weird hobbies at unconventional times, like baking at 11:00 pm. You had made a few batches of double chocolate chips cookies. One that had been your favourite and Gojo's. The man had a ridiculous sweet tooth and had always begged you to make them. You rarely had time to bake. It was one of those things you took for granted and regretted. If you had more time would he have stayed? Is that one of the reasons why he left?

Unsure what possessed you in the moment but you went for your phone and snapped a picture. Then sent it to him.

You: (Pic) i finally had time to make some more Gojo: ....are those the double chocolate chip ones that always stay super soft???!!! You: maybe Gojo: this physically pains me

You smiled at his silliness. You wanted to punch yourself for what you were about to do.

You: you could come by and have some i can even put some in a container for you to take home

He read the message and a few minutes had gone by. You cursed yourself. Gojo was your ex. Gojo broke up with you and here you were inviting him over cookies late at night. Smart. Real smart. You sighed ready to bask in your melancholy as your phone rang. Gojo was calling. You shouldn't answer right away right? Don't want to seem desperate... right?

"Hello?"

"I'm outside, buzz me in?"

You gaped for a moment before coming back to reality. "Oh right." You hung up and walked towards the pad by your front door, pressing the button, allowing him to enter the building. After a few minutes a knock sounded at the front door and of course you opened it to reveal Gojo. He had his black circle sunglasses on.

"Oh uh come in." Stepping out of the way to let him enter. Gojo slipped off his shoes and made his was to the kitchen. You shut the door quickly and followed him. He was practically drooling over the cookies. "Did you want a glass of milk or something?"

He turned to you. "Yeah but don't worry I'll get it. You sit."

You nodded as you leaned against the counter while he munched down the cookies in front of you. "These are so good. You always make the best treats." He leaned against the opposite counter across from you.

You two were really only an arms length apart from each other. You could reach over and pull off his glasses without even moving too much. "I'm glad you like them."

Gojo picked up another one. "You want one?"

"Sure" You shrugged and moved to reach for it but he moved faster and held it to you lips. You took a soft and tentative bite out of it. His sunglasses covered anything his eyes would reveal. He moved it away for a moment before feeding you the rest of it, then leaning back and simply watching you.

He took a shuddering breath before standing straight. "Did you see that movie sequel that came out? We used to watch the first one all the time." He moved over to your living room and plopped himself on the couch. You followed behind him, sitting on the farthest side from him. "Yeah... I haven't had any way to watch it though."

He smiled boyishly. "I downloaded it." He took a few minutes plugging something into the tv, where he pulled it out of you were not sure.

You sat separately as the movie started. Gojo paused it and looked to you. "Do you want popcorn?"

"Uh, yeah sure" You got up to move, but he ushered you to stay put.

"No, no I got it. Don't worry." He sauntered off to the kitchen. I guess on the plus side he knew where everything was. After a few minutes he came back, a large bowl of popcorn in hand. He sat more in the middle of the couch now. The bowl taking up the only space remaining between. Gojo slipped off his glasses placing them on his head.

The movie resumed. Both of you slowly ate at the popcorn while watching. Your hands brushed periodically and it made your skin heat. Occasionally you snuck glances at him. His soft frosty locks, his white eyelashes fluttering as he blinked. You could just barely see the crystal blue of his eyes.

You looked away quickly before he could notice but at some points you could just barely see him turning to you in your peripheral and not turning back right away. Sure, he could be looking past you but you doubted it.

The popcorn had been devoured. It was one of your favourite snacks and you knew he knew that. He placed the empty bowl on the table and subtly moved closer to you. You pulled your legs up in front of you, your feet facing him.

Your toes brushed the side of his legs. Even that little bit of contact almost had you begging for him. Mentally you scolded yourself. Swiftly, he scooped his arm under your legs and stretched them across his lap. "You can stretch out, it's a long movie." Gojo looked to you, a soft smile playing on his lips. His blue eyes dipped to your lips, your neck before snapping back up and then returning to the movie.

You swallowed sharply before looking back to the tv. Was it hot in here? You felt hot.

Gojo settled his hands atop your legs and leaned more into the couch. His fingers playing with the fabric of your pants absentmindedly as he watched on. You shivered slightly at the touch. "You cold?"

Coughing to cover your stutter, "Oh uh yeah a little." Actually your body was on fire and your heart was racing but you didn't stop him from reaching over and grabbing the throw blanket that rested on the side of the couch. Gojo strategically threw it over you both. You thought this would give you more of a barrier between you to stop his incessant touching that you were not going to out right say no to.

However to your horror or your relief his hands stayed under the blanket and continued his movements. You could feel him testing how far you would let him go. His hand rubbed up and down your shins, massaging softly. Could he hear the pounding in your chest?

Slowly the area he occupied increased, his hand running up your thigh, squeezing after a random amount of strokes. Could he feel you squeeze your thighs together every time he did? You were fidgeting. Flexing and wriggling your feet. Your hands busily picked at your shirt under the blanket.

Gojo's hand slowed and stopped. You took in a deep breath. Maybe his torment had stopped but you hated that it did. He readjusted your legs to move from sitting by his knees, to right in his lap. One hand moved to rest just above your hip and the other stayed, making taunting circles on your thigh. You forgot you were staring when he turned and looked at you. "You okay?"

"Uhuh." Swallowing you turned back to the movie. A few minutes passed. His hand on the thigh kept making taunting delicious circles while the other slowly started to move back and fourth.

You hated this, how he broke your heart, acted like nothing happened and then came over here like he still had some sort of say over your body. What you hated more was that your body didn't hate it, that you couldn't stop him. You could feel the slickness collecting between your legs. The way your body begged for his touch.

The circles above your hip had started out on top of your shirt. At some point that you hadn't noticed his thumb had slipped underneath and was toying with the skin right above your waistband. You adjusted your legs, he halted for a moment letting you move. You brushed the need that had developed in his pants. His face pinched at the contact, his chest rising and falling heavily.

As you settled, Gojo returned to his current occupation. The movie still played, you didn't even know what was happening. You pulled your legs away and stood up. The blanket falling, your eyes catching his hardness but you quickly looked away. "I um just need some water. Would you like anything?"

He spread his arms along the back of the couch, not even remotely embarrassed of his length pushing through his pants. "No, I'm okay. Thank you." You nodded quickly and moved to the kitchen. He continued watching the movie.

Grabbing a glass and a straw, some ice and some cold water you sat back onto the couch. What had possessed you to sit right next to him, under his arm? He threw the blanket back over you, draping your legs over his, while the arm behind the couch wrapped around you and he slipped his hand into your waistband.

You could feel his fingers running up and down the skin of your hip, if he moved anymore to the side he would have a handful of your ass.

Shakily, you sipped on your water, the ice clinking grabbed his attention. Gojo's crystal blue eyes looked down on you and you hated the way it made your core tighten.

"Thirsty?" You held the straw towards him in offering. Watching as his mouth found the straw, sucking softly, his throat bobbing as he swallowed. God, you have never wanted to be a straw so bad. What was wrong with you? He let it go, water droplets on his lips. "Thank you."

A shaky hand reached up and wiped the water from hip lip with your thumb. You hesitated right over his mouth. His lips parting, his warmth breath caressing your skin. Without hesitation he kissed the tip of your thumb, taking back the water droplets, the moisture wetting his already soft pink lips.

You let out a shuttering breath, his hands gripped you. One free hand grabbed your glass and set it on the table. You couldn't stop yourself from staring at his lips, against your better judgement your hands snakes around his neck, tangling your fingers into his white locks.

Gojo licked his lips, eyeing yours. "Can I kiss you princess?" Words failed you, so you settled for nodding your head. You wanted him bad. It was wrong but it didn't matter.

He hesitated at first then in record speed gripped the back of your head and pulled you into him. You couldn't even stay you didn't also pull him towards you. You clashed in a frenzy of lips, teeth and tongue.

Tugging at his hair caused delicious moans to leave his mouth and you swallowed them greedily. You nipped at his lip and he opened easily allowing you to slip your tongue past his lips. He pulled away for a breath. Both you of gasping, chests rising and falling rapidly. The way you had looked, eyes blown, hair a mess, lips puffy, must have triggered something primal in him. He latched onto your neck biting, nipping and sucking down to your collar bones and across. You knew he was leaving red angry marks but you had no intention of stopping him.

He couldn’t take it much longer. His hard throbbing length ground into you and it only made your core flare with need. Almost as if sensing it, Gojo picked you up, wrapping your legs around his waist and walking you to the bedroom. In that time it became a personal mission to leave just as many red marks on him as you were sure he left on you.

He deposited you on the bed, his glasses thrown to the side and his shirt discarded on the floor. Gojo grabbed you by the thighs and pulled you to the edge of the bed, slipping off your shorts and underwear in record timing.

"Wait, Toru I-" He stopped and looked up as you sat up and moved away a bit. A wave of disappointment crossed his face. "Do you not want to?"

"No, I do I just.." He grabbed you again, pulling you back down. "Then lay down baby and let me taste you yeah?"

His kissed up the inside of your thighs, nipping and sucking as he went. Small gasps left you lips and you looked down to see him already watching you. As he approached your center, you both stared at each other. His tongue licked a slow strip. "Mmmm... I missed the way you tasted. So sweet." You could not control the soft moans that left you lips as he slowed licked and sucked your clit. You writhed under him, to stop you from moving away he wrapped an arm around your waist, gripping your thighs.

With his other hand, he teased a finger along your opening. "You're so wet for me baby, fuck." Whining you gripped his locks, pulling his face back towards you. Gojo chuckled at your neediness. His long index finger slowly pushed into you as he sucked harshly on your clit.

"Toru, i- fuck" Your breaths were heavy as your chest heaved. His movements continued, his pace increased as he brought you closer and closer to the edge. "Toru, I'm so close, I- I can't-"

"Come for me princess, I wanna taste you, it's okay baby" Gojo continued his assault as he pulled you over the edge and let you ride his face as you rode out your high. Your body relaxed, eyes closed as his touch disappeared. You were too strung out to even really think.

He moved around the room but you didn't pay attention to him. You were so relaxed now you could have slept. Probably better than you had since he had left.

Satoru grabbed the back of your head and pulled you up to your knees on the edge of the bed. His cock on your lips, pre cum dripping out as you took him in. "Ugh fuck baby" His hand on the back of your head encouraged your movements as his length hit the back of your throat.

He did not give you time in between thrusts, relentlessly fucking your face until you were a drooling mess upon him.

Gojo pulled out with a pop and leaned down to bring his face to your level. "You look so good with my cock in your mouth princess. Did you miss my cock?" You couldn't say much, your brain clearly was not working so you nodded at him. His blue eyes were wide with desire as he smashed his lips against yours and pulled away abruptly.

"Turn around. I want to fuck you from behind. I love the way you look when I'm deep inside you from this angle." With slow movements you turned around, he grabbed your thighs to pull your knees right to the edge. Your reflection in the mirror on the other side of the room stared back at you.

His cock caressed your folds as he pressed down on your back making you arch into position. "Look at me." Your eyes snapped to his in the mirror. Slowly he pushed into you. Groaning as he did. Holding still once he was fully seated.

"Fuck~ you're so wet, your pussy is gripping my dick so hard it almost hurts. I can tell you missed me inside you." Both of you shuddered as he slowly pulled out to the tip and slammed back in.

Your nails dug into the blanket, soft moans leaving you both as his paced increased. One hand gripping your hip and the other pushing you down, keeping you in position as he slammed into you relentlessly. "I'm going to come baby, you feel too good I can't stop..."

His thrusts became stuttered as he pushed into you with one last thrust. Bending over you as you both panted heavily. Gojo kissed along your shoulder, across your back and down your other shoulder while still being seated inside of you. After a few moments he reached for the towel and set it underneath you, wincing as he pulled out and left you in a pool of your own mess while he cleaned himself off.

Your brain was still jumbled as your sat on the towel, before you even could come to your senses he was already dressed. His white locks a sweaty mess upon his head, his black sunglasses covering his eyes.

"Oh, you're leaving?" You couldn't stop the disappointment from entangling with your voice.

"Uh... yeah. I can't stay so." Gojo kissed the top of your head and went for the bedroom door. "I'm free later in the week. We can hang out again if you like. I'll text you." Before you could usher a response he left, closing the door behind him.

Tears welled and fell and quiet whimpers turned into full sobs as you sat in the mess of the both of you. You hated yourself for giving into him, for letting him touch you and be inside you again but what you hated more was that you knew he would be over again and you knew you couldn't bring yourself to say no.

[eddiediazismyhusband]

Hi! I just wanted to say that I like your attitude and resilience (I'm a weak man, and every toxic anti-buddie/anti-buddie-shippers/pro bucktommy idea just hits me straight in the heart).

I don't understand how people can suddenly start hating Buddie because of "crazy fans", but still be smitten by bucktommy despite of how crazy some of their fans are.

And I really hate that they have this ammunition (their ship still going, Eddie happening to be hetero) to bully us with (haven't Buddie shippers been through enough of hate these past six years? And who knows how much more of it we'll have to yet to go through...)

Ah, sorry for the rant😅

The long ass message anon from lenaboskow's asks xD

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awwwww, thank you anon 😭 <3

if i’m being honest, the public resilience comes from years of being bullied and ridiculed, so at this point hate (especially anonymous hate) just rolls off my back bc atp it’s just par for the course with these people.

i definitely understand the toxicity hitting you right in the feels though. i have mentioned before but i have really bad anxiety and depression, and there are times when if i haven’t taken my meds i will start to spiral over the smallest things (just ask @lenaboskow who has been present for a lot of this unmedicated spiraling)… so i definitely understand that some of the toxicity and hate can be hard. especially when the writers continued to give them ammunition after seeing what what was happening on twitter during the premiere period of season 7.

I’ve been a buddie shipper since s2. I have put up with seeing ridicule and disrespect from the fandom for shipping buddie for years (granted i only started getting actively involved in the fandom very recently, i still kept up with cast interviews, articles, etc. and could see plenty of it there) so i understand it can be hard seeing so many people that once were hardcore buddie shippers suddenly turning into violently hateful stan accounts for this new ship is jarring and disappointing… i have seen so many of my favorite fic writers turn into anti-buddie-eddie-bashing enthusiasts seemingly overnight and it’s hard to see.

that being said, i still have not lost hope. abc and tptb see what is happening— they see screeners being harassed for talking about buddie, they see buddie shippers getting doxxed and getting death threats, they see lou stirring the pot (though thankfully it seems something has been done about that)

these creators know that stoking this kind of fandom behavior is not okay- they know that it’s a bad idea to reward toxicity and hate. they have also been the ones actively laying the groundwork for buddie for six years. a lot of the writers actually care about buck AND eddie, rather than just buck (regardless of whatever is going on in kristen reidel’s cesspool of a creative mind), and we know that queer eddie has been discussed at length before to the point where the queer storyline of s7 was almost eddie’s. these writers see what we see, the actors see what we see, tim minear sees what we see.

i don’t know what they have in store for next season, but regardless of whether or not we get buddie canon, i am very optimistic that the pilot won’t be around much longer, especially after the drama and toxicity he has stirred up within the fandom, bc the last thing a network tv show wants is bad press, and that situation has the potential to boil over into something much worse if they didn’t put a stop to it immediately.

anyway, anon, never apologize for sending a long ask, i love to yap and i love being an outlet for people to vent if they need to <3 i believe in you, that you will be able to withstand this blip in the fandom; as someone who’s had to go through similar situations in other fandoms it will not matter a year from now once everyone has moved on. unfortunately we are caught upnin the novelty of it, but once it either peters out or becomes a sort of ��new normal” (which i hope it is the former and not the latter) it will be so much easier to bear with.

i hope you have a lovely morning, afternoon, or evening, sweet anon 💕💕

[halfusek]

man. batdr archives. what

i hate them

sorry im gonna go full on hater mode here because oh my god? oh my god

i’ve got a sneaking suspicion that this came out now as damage control for the AI thing because 1. it wasn’t included in the game all along like BATIM’s archives were and 2. this tweet

like was it thrown together in such a rush that they forgot a whole ass character?

or it is a joke and was a planned action half a year after the game came out but eh who knows

either way this is not what i’m here to rant about (cuz im sure this is gonna turn to a rant)

it’s about bad writing, bad exposition and bad game design. buckle up!

i see what they mean with the smile being a challenge to create, you can see in countless animations for fansongs how different artists tackled that and for one i think they did that very well

however. why the clothes exactly? is it just a meta reason with no reasoning in-universe whatsoever?

and look i’m not a fan of the ink demon having a voice (though i respect the craft behind it, the voice actor is very talented, it’s just a personal preference) BUT if you made the ink demon talk you should by logical extension either make toon bendy talk as well or explain why the hell he’s talking? i can see it being distracting but there are characters that have squeaky annoying voices in games and they’re fine (and it’s not like toon bendy is around the player for a super long time)

i dunno what logic this whole thing operates on anymore but if joey commissioned the ink machine then it should be his and arch gate got all his shit after he passed away so idk what retrieve is supposed to mean here

but it could just be badly written sentences and the archive is full of those (once again making me think that the thing was done in a rush)

that’s fair i guess

yall did make him look like a generic demon tho

i mean... it could be worse? if the goal was to make him look out of place then it was achieved but idk if it’s actually a good thing

i do like the bit about Wilson influencing how things look under him being in control of the cycle (though they have a very silly definition about what the cycle is but more about that later)

dude. the beast bendy design was already bad in BATIM and they made it even worse in BATDR like what TToTT

its just an angry mountain of muscles, the batim design at least had that leg injury thing going on which made moving with front arms make more sense, this dude right here is just a big inky gorilla (and not in a good way)

playing as the final form in on itself isnt a bad idea, does sound quite fun, personally tho i did not enjoy the very ending on the game

i dunno it just felt weird and all the other characters randomly appearing and the lost ones attacking being so awkward and ink demon acting as if they could kill you... nah man i wasn’t feeling it

okay so lets get this straight

cycle = a series of events that repeat

breaking the cycle would mean doing something different and stopping the cycle from continuing (so what... wilson was doing actually)

saying that making it restart again is what breaking it means is just??? no?

“satisfying face reveal” welp. each to their own XD

i see their purpose theme and thats neat and all but man do i hate how henry in this game is just. there and how some stranger is the person helping him get out of his horrible fate like its sooooooo unsatisfying

yeah she got more personality ill give her that

but she’s not a beacon of hope. she’s a beacon of tearing away the satisfaction of defeating a villain that we as the player worked hard towards

and uh... isn’t getting thrown into a horrible dimension full of monsters that audrey isn’t familiar with and is supposed to be freaked out about a bad moment to introduce a familiar face? like from a writing perspective, because it happens nearly instantly as chapter one starts

shouldn’t audrey be unmotivated then and struggling to figure out the world on her own? the player should also be haunted at this world, like it’s a horror game bestie ! don’t make me comfortable

well glad to hear the confirmation on that batds is happening in pararel to batdr

but his involvement in the main story is honestly such a nothing burger

is he there just so you can put batdr on the “can you pet the dog” site?

oh ok so what you’re basically putting down here is that he’s a boring perfect extremely rich guy, wasn’t even a bad father, completely stripping wilson’s arc of depth, cool, was afraid there would be something of substance powering the backbone of the plot of this game

and saying that both joey and wilson are worse people because theyre cringefail at business XDDDDDDDDDDD

ok here is something that im glad they addressed because ive been wondering about it - how audrey forgot that joey was her dad and how did she end up working at arch gate then

i suppose it implies that there’s something we might still learn/theorize about it, like for example if it was the machine drawing her in or gent wanting to get the machine back and manipulating things into place from behind the scenes

i really wonder how you can enter in and out the ink realm unnaturally but good to mention why he looks like that if he’s supposed to be nathan’s son

you cant just say that a character was important to the story, its not gonna happen from words

how is she important exactly? she just talks and uh.. helps audrey make the drink that makes you fall asleep? man that section of the game was Weird

i do want to like her, she seems nice and there could be interesting things to her backstory but as for the plot she really didn’t do much, sorry, betty

if you wanna say that pushing the plot forward by giving audrey that drink and then alice appearing outta nowhere and kidnapping here is a good big contribution then idk what to tell you... its such a bad way to make the plot progress, it was so confusing because characters were behaving as in forced to do Things to Progress the Plot (especially Audrey drinking that thing at all like seriously girl?? and Alice appearing comically at the last sip like wooooooow are you for real)

ah. so they were attempting a redemption arc

[saying this he didn’t threw aside the large rock. he was right to be holding the large rock]

this sucks man! what did joey help correct exactly? created more ink people to suffer eternally? wow, dude, thanks

also lmao what learned from his mistakes, did you HEAR his dialogue at the end of batim?? (an audrey can be heard right after that scene as well so isnt his whole change of heart supposed to be happening around here + allison has already been added to the squad)

it’s just... it’s just such bullshit man

you can make us like joey as a character but don’t you fucking dare make us like him as a person

bad. just bad

(aaaaaand this is the part that made me realize i wish the archives just. weren’t added! wow! i’m even surprised with myself with how much I Don’t Like them)

WHAT flaws??? hello??? please give it a big thinking and tell me what flaws does Audrey have im shaking and crying

also is her “deep dark past” supposed to just be like bEINg JoEY DRewS DAUghtER OOOoooOOo? lmao. wow so dark wow so deep

i dont know why this story needed a fresh pair of eyes because the story is that audrey is joeys daughter and that wilson is nathan archs son and that bendy is bendy. wow so deep so dark and complicated!!!!!!!11!!111

also whats the point of fresh eyes if you welcome us with familiar faces?

also sorry to break this to you but its not hard to stand out from the kinda cast that is presented to us in this game. sorry i cant decide if i care more about audrey or random employee number 24 with a random problem that i have 0 reason or time to get attached to. i seriously cant decide

suuuure we were so muddled xD oh you got us so good you sneaky little cheeky little quirky little

cant fucking believe we almost had a proper nathan arch jr and a secret one eyed villain that there was so much hype about and theories that they obviously tried to deliever here

its speculative but. knowing that they take inspiration from fan theories - they admitted to it and ex employees said so, i think we would have to be in some serious denial to think that @lucky-dreamfisher​‘s one-eyed bendy theory wasn’t meant to be represented here with wilson’s character

ALSO THIS NARRATIVE. THIS NARRATIVE HAS ZERO- NO, NEGATIVE AMOUNT OF COMPLEXITY

GOD

this story makes so much LESS sense based on what you said! aaaaaaaa we were so close to greatness

what is so wrong with not resetting the cycle then?

not that im a fan of how wilson was approaching things, he very clearly wanted to make himself the ruler of this realm and have power over everyone but sounds like that sure beats living under ink demons reign?

but also idk if this is entirely true like in batim chapter 5 we can see that lost ones were capable of making that lost harbour and sammy is later mentioned to have mastered a special ability too so??

i wish we learned more about the pit because it sounds quite interesting and we were working hard towards getting there and finally didnt get to see it at all (a shame! very unrewarding to the player)

im not gonna comment on reverting here cuz its a serious mental thing im not knowledgable about

i haaaate this

you... this is not how exposition is done!

show don’t tell?? how about SHOW don’t TELL??

what in the goddamn. you can’t just pull that outta your ass and say yep. this is how it is. bro. dude.

im referring here to the ink machine bit, the previous sentences can actually be seen in the story

but the design does not reflect what is written here

and they are doing so much of that in these archives, this telling of the story in a place that is not meant for telling of the story, you do that IN the STORY. rarghrgrh

surprise i found another nice thing: confirmation on that alice was the one who mutilated the butcher gang, cuz i dont think that was ever confirmed before but at least you can find implications of that in the game so its fine to outright confirm that here, good job about that

i dont know what theyre on about carley, she doesnt really look like that to me and ive looked at her model in the archives, in the files and at peoples renders of her and i just dont see it

but i guess it might mean it was like a suit that someone got stuck in- FNAF?!>!!>!?

no way. no fucking way

we got robbed what ToT

he was removed in favour of WHAT???? AMOK????

dude there ill be real. there’s barely anything that is worth keeping there instead of having him play a bigger role

and im not even that big on sammys character! hes one of my least liked characters personally even! but at least there is something more to him and just man after 5 years you could have given him more than just a dumb wilhelm scream joke, that almost feels like a spat in the face lmao

thanks for again confirming something though with that flow thing, as we noticed sammy uses gaps in the wall in batim chapter 2 to travel around the place

why not have him teach audrey the flow ability? imagine how could that would have been

im just baffled this exist but sammy apparently had to be cut out

lol

lmao

moving on

my brother in christ why are you making it a mystery if she will appear, she literally appeared in every game so far with quite major roles

also... what layers? sure in batim with her story (susie’s story) there sure been some layers, susie’s story in batim is probably aside from joey’s story the deepest character arc they got

but alice in batdr? she’s there to play a stupid game she set herself up to lose, get mad at that (eh?) shoot you and die

what layers, really

gender

but also idk i found the fight annoying and random, you could throw it out and not much of value would be lost, put sammy back in

YOU MADE HIM NOTHING

YOU TOOK A PERFECTLY FINE ENEMY AND GAVE IT ANXIETY THATS WHAT YOU DID /j /ref

idk if id describe the ink demon as putting the player on edge because he doesnt actually roam the place

you see a grey overlay on your screen and you need to hide or you die... which gets tiring fast and annoying

you totally could still have lurker (even if just restricted to some areas) as a free roaming monster

and the unlikely ally thing is just so bland like yeah he’s there, we know nothing about him aside from that he eats hearts, incredibly charming fella 

not thrilled by his design either but that issue i already had with the first trailer but i guess they just sticked with that

bendy devs not use mental illnesses as derogatory terms challenge

i like the crab boy design, he’s sillay

bro forgot a texture tho

so yeah not. happy with the archives

sorry if im like overly negative but ive honestly tried to give this sequel (because despite what they were saying it IS undoubtedly a sequel) my best assumptions and it turns out its nearly all the worst assumptions

its annoying, im annoyed

they should hire a writer to help them get this mess together, maybe get adrienne in on it, i dunno, because clearly if they need to be specific and not leaving things open like in batim, then they arent managing very well

they even fucking killed harold

[zvtara-was-never-canon]

Can I just ramble a little because I got so excited finding your blog! (All those notifications of someone liking your posts are probably all from me, sorry)

Anyway! I was very excited because this fandom is rife with Zu.tara and I don’t ship that! I just want my little corner to sit in where there’s no shipping wars or ridiculously bad takes on characters (I’m so demanding I know, how could I ever expect something so impossible from the internet). This is from someone who likes Zuko btw, he’s a good character and his redemption arc is one of the best done redemption stories ever I think.

I just don’t understand why it’s so popular. There’s nothing wrong with people wanting to ship these characters, it’s just they find a way to bring it into everything! Oh, here’s a cute post about Appa and Momo? Not anymore! Boom, ZK shippers crawling over the reblogs to scream about Aang! Oh, you like this fan art of Toph and Aang hugging after the wars over? Nuh-uh, now you gotta deal with the shippers in the notes! Type in literally any character and the first result will always be something about that damned ship! The ship itself I don’t have (much) of a problem with, it’s the fandom that annoy me!

But then I found your blog which is a relief! There are still a few of us on tumblr with some sanity left lol. I don’t know, I just struggle to get behind ZK, especially because in the ATLA universe, 16 (Zukos age) is considered marrying age and Katara is obviously younger than that (it’s also why I don’t skip KA, they both need a little time to grow some more and 12 is too young for dating imo). That’s not the only reason I don’t ship it, mind, but it does play a part. People will hate on Kat.aang and say the age gap is too much but then turn around a ship the guy who hunted Katara and her family for nearly three seasons and be like “this age gap is fine”

I’m probably not making much sense sorry I just needed a rant

Hey, rants about being annoyed at zutarians are always welcomed here. Even some zutara shippers do it, why shouldn't you? XD

I will say that I don't agree that 14 or even 12 is "too young" to start dating. It's literally around the time kids are in the middle of, or about to finish, puberty. It is THE age range most people start having crushes, kisses, and yes, relationships. It's not gonna be the same as romance between two older teens/young adults, but it's perfectly normal and happens literally every day.

[phoenixisobsessed]

Okay guys, I know there’s still a while until I’m done with the catformers, but I’m starting to wonder wtf imma do after. I still wanna be an ask blog, so I’ll leave it up to you guys what I should do!!

I might put it up again closer to the ending of catformers, if I don’t feel like enough people saw it / feel like they may have changed their minds.

MORE DETAILS ON EACH ONE:

People will send in character requests as usual, but will send in a catpicture themselves together with their ask. In this version, characters going double doesn’t matter anymore (I think) xD

Just any funny or silly picture. Can be cats, can be dogs, can be humans. Anything you’d find on r/blursedimages basically. Can even be popular drawing memes! Open for anything.

Before catformers I really just wanted to re-design a bunch of characters, and have people ask for specific characters to be redesigned. Like man idk which ones I wanna do. But I do have the Elite Trine right here. Also did some panel redraws that may also be included in this category. (Said I’d never draw IDW again LMFAOO let me just clown on myself rq)

Vines, ideas for comic skits, interactions between characters, funny trends again. I think this would be funny.

I really enjoy my OCs, so this would include drawing them and answering questions about them. Also in this is talking about the AUs and headcanons for all of the characters, including ships and such. So it’s not all OC stuff okay also others. I draw also your ships and headcanons!! (Rarepairs, hell yes! Proshippers, get the hell off of my page 🥰🙏) Will I draw your ocs? Mayhaps I will. Your ocs interacting with other characters? Your ocs interacting with MY ocs??? I’m going too far in my yapping I need to stop now sorry guys.

Just all of it. Plus, I’ll answer any whacky or silly questions you have to me about transformers (I think it again goes into point 5.) but basically people can ask for anything they mf want!! And I’ll get to it.

We want the consistent theme of cat transformers going. So I keep it as a series on my blog, maybe every second day or so, who knows, but we also want some diversity. Want to be able to spread wider and ask for other things.

Anyway, I just want to know what we are interested in keeping here, I’m open to anything really. I’ll probably either way accept asks of anything, but only openly “advertise” the blog as the thing that wins (if all of the above doesn’t win xD)

And thank you to everybody who has stuck around! I love seeing interactions from so many blogs I recognise as consistent followers of the 100 cat transformers series. Even if you think I don’t recognise your blog name every time, there is a high chance that I do! I’m not going to name you all now, but I see you (totally not creepy LMFAO). I read every single reblog I get and I love each one of them. I want you all to know that I appreciate you staying with me along the journey, being basically just as, if not more, passionate about it than me and I hope to still see you sticking around. Again, thank you all so much. <3 Couldn’t do this without you amazing people.

Sorry, I know this is a long post, but I had to just happy rant for a moment. I LOVE YOU GUYS /SRS

[silverbladexyz]

HIHIHI

your writing is very good. i was wondering if you could do a post about how the flags would react to their partner wearing their clothes :)

HIHIHI THANK YOU ANON 🤞 and bro I wanna wear Lippmann's clothes now they must be so comfy since he's so rich.

The image does not belong to me. It belongs to @angolicious.

TW: Mentions of injuries, blood, slightly suggestive and sarcasm in Pianoman’s section aka me ranting but it’s funny lol

The Flags reacting to their S/O wearing their clothes

Pianoman:

-We all know how elegant and fancy he is. Which means that HE HAS A BILLION THINGS THAT HE WEARS THAT ARE SO ODDLY SPECIFIC AND HARD TO GET BECAUSE HE DECIDED TO BE EXTRA AND FOR WHAT- ahem ahem basically his outfit is complicated and it took me months to find all the cosplay parts

-You're lucky though because he has spares of those waistcoats and ties and gloves and those sash-belt things and whatnot. Gosh Pianoman we all love you but why must you be so extra with your outfit??? /hj you look gorgeous keep slaying

-So let’s say you were bored and decided to hunt around in the wardrobe for a bit to see what types of clothing was in that tinyyyy space. And ta-daaaah you found a lot of his clothes that he used for his Mafia work! Actually they were just extras of what he wears but shhh

-After taking like a bajillion minutes just to get that darn sash-belt on, you look at yourself in the mirror, and hey you actually look quite good! Pianoman has great taste in clothing, even when it’s so hard to put on smh. But bro literally tell me where he gets his clothes because I’ll yeet all the way to the store he buys them from

-Anyways you’re so immersed in admiring yourself in the mirror and you don’t notice a person walking up behind you. It’s when you hear his chuckle that you turn around and become flustered

-Pianoman secretly was not expecting this at all, but it was a nice surprise. You looked so smexy in his clothes that he just had to tease you about it. He even feels a bit proud that you were the only one who got to wear his clothes

-Tells you to keep it on because it looked so good on you. The thing is he’s wearing like I dunno three layers and it’s super duper hot so you’re basically overheating. I don’t know about you but I wouldn’t keep it on for another second

-If you’re shy about it, Pianoman would smirk, but he’d wrap his arms around you while whispering in your ear how great you looked in his clothes. Maybe even incorporate a kiss into it. Be careful on how you reply because one thing might lead to another and you might not be able to walk the next day ;)

-Also complain to him on how his clothes took so long to put on for me, will ya? I swear everybody in the Mafia just has it in their blood to be rich and extra (Pixyys if you know, you know xD) but they fine af

Albatross:

-His clothing style is actually quite casual and decent, unlike a certain mafioso that likes to be extra *cough cough*

-You were trying to pick something to wear to your shopping trip, but you didn’t really have any clothes apart from your Mafia formal wear. You made a mental note to go shopping for casual clothes, but now wasn’t the time since the store was about to close

-And an idea popped into your mind. Why not borrow your lover’s clothes for a while? At least with Albatross, his outfit wasn’t really complicated and fancy lmao I’m sorry Pianoman so it wouldn’t attract a lot of stares

-Just pop on his sleeveless leather jacket, a long-sleeved shirt and ragged pants and then you’re done. Bonus points if you wear glasses and earrings too. And I would recommend to wear those black gloves because they look so damn nice

-The shopping trip was great and nobody stared at you because that’s how casual Albatross’s outfit was. Which is a good thing because you don’t want to attract attention even though you were just out on a shopping trip

-When you arrive home, Albatross is immediately running up to greet you, but he stops when he sees what you were wearing seemed... familiar

-His face breaks out into a huge smile and he teases you, saying how cute you looked wearing his outfit. And Albatross is the king of teases so you’re going to be very flustered

-But he compliments you on the outfit, saying how much it fits you. Definitely asks you to wear it more often, and even brags about how great you looked in his clothes to the Flags

-Wear matching outfits with him! Maybe not the entire outfit, but put on something that mostly resembles his clothes and make it the opposite colour, and Albatross would have stars in his eyes as he admires the both of you

Doc:

-His clothes are quite simple since he is a doctor and spends a lot of his time at the infirmary. So if you need an outfit that you can just chill at home in, go and rob his clothes just make sure that they’re clean

-You also have some medical knowledge yourself, so you spent your time at the infirmary sometimes as well. Although you weren’t as good at medicine as your partner, you have saved a few people a number of times

-So let’s say one day there was an emergency casualty at the infirmary. The Boss ordered you to treat them immediately, but the thing is you didn’t have any doctor clothes to wear. Thinking quickly, you put on some of Doc’s spare clothes and hurried to the infirmary. Luckily, you managed to save the patient, but the clothes you had were dirty now

-You went back home to change your clothes, but you didn’t expect to bump into your boyfriend. Doc raises his eyebrow when he sees you in bloodied clothes; his clothes nonetheless

-He does ask why you were wearing them, but he is lowkey proud. Doc loves the sight of you in his clothes, and would also want you to wear them more often. He doesn’t say it out loud though because he’s secretly shy

-Okay but he needs some new clothes because the ones he’s wearing are old. Take him out to the next shopping trip please

Iceman:

-His outfit just screams chill. Most of the stuff he wears is big and comfortable, not to mention it’s simple and easy to move in. I bet he got it for 50% off too okay he actually didn’t I’m sorry

-Iceman’s clothes looked so comfortable that you decided to give them a go one day. When you were home alone, you grabbed his overcoat, vest, slacks, necktie, suit, gloves and his scarf okay I lied his outfit isn’t simple at all 

-But despite all that complicated-ness, his outfit was actually quite comfortable! Iceman tell me your secret bro where do you get all of these nice clothes??!! Anyways, the clothes smell just like him with a tinge of coffee and smoke, which actually isn’t that unpleasant

-Iceman is a very good assassin, which means you don’t even hear him walking up behind you. It’s when you glance at the mirror and see who’s behind you that you startle a little

-He doesn’t show that much of a reaction when he sees you wearing his clothes. Iceman is so quiet that you think he’s mad at you dw he’s just secretly admiring you in his outfit

-If you were feeling embarrassed, Iceman wouldn’t really understand, but he’d still comfort you anyways. Once you’ve calmed down a little, he’d ask you why you were wearing his clothes

-He thinks it’s cute when you wear his clothes, and he even buys you an exact copy of his outfit except that it was your size so you two could match ❤️

Lippmann:

-Pretty boy is pretty rich, so I bet his clothes must be top quality and very comfortable to wear. They’re all made from the best silk and material. In other words, Lippmann’s clothing >>>

-So let’s say you were picking out clothing to go to a party, but you didn’t really have anything that you wanted to wear. After turning your wardrobe inside out, you were about to give up when you decided to see if Lippmann had any suitable clothing from his acting careers

-And he did! There were all types of clothing, from basic jeans to fancy leather coats, and the colours mix perfectly. Damn Lippmann, you didn’t bother telling your S/O about all the clothes you have in your wardrobe?

-So after finding which clothes you liked, you tried them on and admired yourself in the mirror. A lot of them had his scent on it, which made them feel a lot nicer on you. And did I mention that he has the best taste in clothes?

-Lippmann came back and actually walked in on you while you were still looking in the mirror, and you could say that he was pleasantly surprised. A smile is on his face as he gently teases you, saying how good you looked in his clothes, but he is actually going to his wardrobe and picking out another outfit that looks even better on you

-Also dress up with him on some days! I never see him wear anything else apart from those same old vest and coat, so make him pop on a leather jacket and jeans and you’ll have yourself a very cool Lippmann

@pixyys @pianotross @chuuyas-beloved @angolicious @nekokinax @sariel626 @dazaiyohane @scarletta-ruan @yuugen-benni @arisu-chan4646 @lakeside-paradise @catzlivedforbsd

[tamelee]

fuck booktok fr it literally recommends the same ten books over and over again, mischaracterises or twinkifies half the characters and then act like theyve done no wrong when other book communities hate on them. LIKE BABES YOU LITERALLY TURNED LITERATURE INTO FAST FASHION. capatalism is at an all time high in booktok, with ppl having 200 physical tbr's and five editions of the same book. but if you say anything about it, you hated on for hating???? we really need to go back to libraries, its like ppl have forgotten those exist. anyway that was my small little rant hehe (sorry feel free to ignore)

Oooooh, book-community discourse is a thing? *-* Interesting. I do know they get a lot of backlash from the art-communities because every damn novel has one of three cover-designs and they all look the same nowadays. You can hardly tell the authors apart. Most are made by AI as well -.- (I mean, shouldn’t writers/authors and artists be on the same page about the matter? No? Imagine complaining about your writing being stolen and then using AI for your cover-art… come on now.) 

Feel free to rant always xD I’m actually happy to know I’m not the only one feeling weird about these 10’ish recommendations that you see over and over again. I picked one out that was Goodreads #1 bestseller once (2022, I believe) and seeing people rave about it and giving the monstrosity 5-⭐️ catapulted me to an alternative Universe to rethink my entire life. I don’t think I’ve ever been more confused. (Beautiful prose though, I’ll give it that.) 

((I put book-tok and -tube together because to me it didn’t seem like it’s much different? I don’t really use tiktok, but they all repost their vids and recs through yt-shorts. Not sure if putting the two together pissed someone off then, but please do correct me if I’m wrong.))

Yeeaaahh, you’re right actually. I never really sat down to think about it, but that analogy you made is pretty brilliant. I mean, it’s sad, but a lot do treat books like fast fashion from what I’ve seen. I may not like majority of these ‘trending’ books, but treating a piece of work that way (cheap and trendy) hurts my book-loving heart a little. If ever possible in the future, I’d love to have a library in my home with my favorite books. (Dark academia style of course.) I usually only buy a physical copy if I really liked it after reading the digital version. Unfortunately around here, most libraries have closed :( So I’m afraid you’re right about that as well— people really have forgotten. 

[standinghereirealized]

if you had to rank them, which dynamics do you prefer?

Evil!Chase and good!Omi

Evil!Chase and evil!Omi

Good!Chase and good!Omi

Kitty!Omi and Dragon!Chase

Kitty!Omi and Chase

Omi and Dragon!Chase

Thank you for this wonderful ask anon! And I’m really really sorry for this late reply!

This answer is going to be a long nonsensical ranting because this is what I love so much so I’m sorry in advance XD we’re really in it now anon

Evil!Chase and Good!Omi:

The classical dynamic that pull me in like a mad person. It’s all about that delicious irony of the evil and vile antagonistic force being the only one who truly understand and obsessed with bringing out the blossoming potential of the young and naive protagonist of the opposite side. “I can fix him” “I can make him worse”. Chase wanted to forced Omi into his folds and principals. Chase care about Omi too much to actually leave him scars in any way. Chase believe in Omi in a way that no one else cannot. Chase doing all of that while staying true to his selfish and tyrannical way until the very end. Evil mentor who actually act and even wanted to be a mentor to this Xiaolin young warrior. They never truly give up on each other, for the better or the worse. Omi get his ego inflated because of Chase. Omi learn true humility because of Chase. Individuals who feels isolated from their peers because of the inferiority complex cause by themselves and others. Chase in one way or another help Omi avoid Chase’s own fate. This is the pinnacle of everything that keep me up at night. Peak protagonist and antagonist dynamics. XC prove that this relationship is the true core of their character development because without it Chase and Omi are just simply horrible people.

Evil!Chase and Evil!Omi

This is the most hypocritical thing Chase had ever done and I love it. Chase is so deep in delulu land and as the same time he isn’t. Omi will join me this Omi will join me that and then he’ll do the brainwashing anyway. Funky little murder monk jumping around his lair. Chase thinks this is completely normal. Omi’s first man hunt yayyyy. Omi’s first time betraying his friends and master yayyyy. Omi first time experiencing the evil that he’s always fight tooth and nail against yayyyyy. Omi’s first time being robbed of his own agency by his own mistakes yayyyyyyy. Imagine knowing that you can’t really convince your self proclaimed student to side with your ideals so you just make a very convoluted plan to brainwashed him and make him loyal to you after by his honor code, couldn’t be me. Evil!Omi is always laughing but there’s nothing but bitterness in their situation, it’s hysterical, it’s vile, I hate and love it so much.

Good!Chase and Good!Omi

I’m sorry for being mean but we know who will win the custody battle between Chase and Fung. Og Chase is evil and even then people are seriously consider just let Chase raise Omi anyway. With good Chase there isn’t even going to be a competition. He literally kneel down to talk to Omi on eyes level. He’ll throw hands with the most dangerous Heylin warrior to protect Omi. “We’ve never met but I feel like I know you”. Vs Fung who thinks that acknowledging Omi’s need for validation from parental figures for once will make him arrogant. Chase and Omi knew each other for like a day and immediately become generation gap besties. The path that og Chase could have had if only there was someone stopping him from going to the wrong path, the true verdict for Chase’s nobility if fate had given him a chance. It’s the foreshadowing Chase redemption arc that only appears in my dreams because of course season 3 have to be about beans

Kitty!Omi and Dragon!Chase

All I’m saying it if you go back to the fight for Omi’s freedom battle episode, when Chase crawled after Omi to get him and Omi yells the classic sparrow eating hot dog that literally throws Chase of his reptile maniac mode for a second, you can see just before that moment, Dragon!Chase looked like he was actually grab kitty Omi by his own hands. Like, just give the cheese kitty a really bone crushing hug to stop him from starting a revolution against your dictatorship with his friends. We got a doting cat owner in the form of a giant lizard and his rebellious newly acquired cheese kitty who give him headaches but he still love him. I’ve been thinking about that for five years.

Kitty!Omi and Chase

Look at me I’m like the new overlord of the earth, just split it in halves btw, there’s fire and blood and agonizing screams of the damned around me and all, real hectic if you asked me, I wonder how I can ransack the next poor neighborhood with a bunch of volatile, vicious army of well trained warriors turned predators, and-oh Omi do you need a scratch? Okay let me just stop literally everything I’m doing real quick.

Omi and Dragon!Chase

This is the real reason why Chase wanted to recruit Omi, only after that did he realized Omi’s potential too. Omi is a dangerous-side-of-nature magnet and Chase is an oversized venomous (figuratively and literally) lizards with an army of carnivorous cats. It just simply what’s going to happen. Nobody can ovoid it. Mother Nature put attracting weird creatures in Omi’s genes.

Annnnnd lastly, my personal favorite dynamic, Good!Chase and Evil!Omi

Long story short, this fine young gentleman have a crazy chihuahua who will bites every one except him. He’s think his chihuahua is the most cutest thing ever. He knows about the bitings tho, but whether he cares or not it’s entirely up to debate. In conclusion pure dose of serotonin for me.

[tobesokaylee]

Happy 17th 💞

Yes, Christmas soon 💓. Do you already have all your presents? I'm just waiting on one more things that should be delivered today and then I'm done 💞

Finding presents for my parents is always the hardest part somehow 😅 So glad I've got that out of the way now.

(Another good thing about xmas, I will be done with this fanfic, which, and I'm sorry I keep annoying you with this, but it's been a very stressful December so far XD)

I barely get to read anything myself, bc I'm always busy somehow.

But anyway, one week of work left this year 🥳

Hope you have an amazing day 😘

Read you tomorrow 💖

Happy 17th ❤️

I am expecting my gifts to be here Monday and hopefully my post office won’t do me wrong 🥹.

My mom is NOTORIOUSLY hard to shop for because she always likes to say “oh whatever you get me is fine” but it’s not really 😒.

And you have not been annoying about your Fic! I love hearing you tell me about the process and I am always ready to hear you rant away about it so it is absolutely not annoying 😤😤😤. I also have not been reading much either (fics or books) because everytime I try I get distracted by something else🥲.

The year is almost over and Christmas is almost here! I’m looking forward to New Years 👀 that’s always my favorite time of year (other then my birthday 😏)

Until tomorrow ❤️

[burninblood]

This kind of long rant are always welcomed, don’t worry.

I can totally back you up on the art: I think Carmen Carnero’s strong female gaze has been the real added power to this run. The voice around is that Bucky (and also Steve) never looked more handsome and sexy XD That’s it when a woman has the pencil (or the apple pen LOL) on her hand: she knows what other women likes. No more macho men, please. (I’m saying this also from my own perspective, as a woman drawing men, sometimes at least)

Also it’s safe to say we as a society have kind of evolved in some departments since the late 90′s and first 00′s, so the rappresentation is surely more vary in the comics’ media too. There are a lot of great male comic artists who know how to draw a male character that looks good to the woman’s eye (thinking about Marco Checchetto art here, he is incredible imo!), please and thank you! Sad that the art in CW: Alpha was a huge throwback to that kind of old school art style, which surely didn’t help to embrace a pivotal and harsh point of the narrative. Anyway, I totally agree, Carmen’s art with her sensitivity in catching expressions and emotions on character’s face is really important for this story.

Coming to the writing... I only read another work fom Kelly & Lanzing and it was Batman One Bad Day : Clayface, and honestly I found it really good. Almost perfect, imo. Probably the fact it was a one shot helpd a lot ‘couse we as readers can see the progress of the whole story in a relatively short time and they as writers had a point to start and one to finish to keep it choesive and strong. Writing a long run on a comics series is a totally different beast.

As I said before I was totally ok with what Bucky did in issue #5 and #6. I read so many comments of people screaming that he was a villain now, that they ruined him and stuff. Absolutely not. As you said it was time for Bucky to take action, to step out of Steve’s shadow (the matter of how he has been “treated” by his friend during the years has been laso lightly touched in “United States of Captain America” recently) and be his own man and, most important, trying to right some of the many wrongs he has suffered since he was born, it seems. His reasons were understandable and we could empathize with his feelings and this almost selfdestructive choice.

What I found lacking in CW: Alpha was a degree of credibility in what he did. We already knew he was going to kindnapp Ian, so this didn’t come like a great surprise, but I was honeslty expecting a different approach, like Bucky telling him somethin like “I’m sorry I’m doing it, but it’s for a greater reason” “Don’t worry it all will end well. You’ll understand in the end” “I will explain when everything is done, have faith in me” something of this sort to let us know that there’s still that desperate man taking desperate measures under the facade he is probably putting on to confront White Wolf. The same scene, written with a different touch, and I’d buy it much better. As I read it now it feels a bit too pushed up for pure shock value, and that ending line of him winning just needs a “mwawawah” sort of laugh and we’re done!XD

Btw, of course I’m not losing any hope, a bad issue in a decent comic run is nothing if I consider my 20 years experience with the media!XD We’ll see what will happen, and eventually with Carmen’s art back on the page things will rise up too.

I didn’t want this to be that long, I swear. I’m truly sorry!XD

how it started

how it's going

[secretlyblue12]

Day 7: Pumpkin picking

The first week done!!! That's so cool, I'm loving seeing everyone's stuff so far and really excited to see the rest of the month. XD This one is an IRL one based the vlog premise, so that's exciting. I kept switching between if I wanted to do this with Tommy or Tubbo, but ended up keeping it on Tubbo so yeah.

It had been an all-day event, but there would be at least two vlogs coming out of it so it was a day well spent for the group of friends. Both Tommy and Jack had done filming, but the day was coming to an end, and Tubbo was feeling all the energy he had put into it sputter out. Somehow Tommy was still going strong, and Wilbur and Jack were struggling to keep the ‘kids’ in order.

Tommy had run off with Jack somewhere, the two filmings each other running around the pumpkin patch, determined to find the perfect one before the other got it. Ranboo followed them from a distance, laughing and joking, holding cameras when needed, and such.

Tubbo sighed heavily, hefting his pumpkin higher against his chest. Wilbur gave him a strange look, bumping shoulders and nearly sending the unsuspecting Tubbo to the ground. He chuckled, making sure Tubbo wasn’t going to fall over, before asking if he was alright. “You just seem to be out of it right now.”

Tubbo nodded, “Just tired. We’ve been out all day, man, I am just ready to head home.” It wasn’t that he wasn’t having fun, just that his social battery had run out about an hour ago, and now he was just barely dragging on and keeping face for the cameras. He wanted to make sure he kept up with all the bits and jokes but found himself zoning out more often than not. “And my feet hurt, how far in do you think we’re going to have to walk in here before they’re all run out?”

Wilbur looked over at the trio who were crowded around a pile of pumpkins laughing at something. “Probably got a while left, do you want to sit down and rest a bit?” He suggested, looking for a clearing.

Tubbo nodded, letting Wilbur guide him over to the side without a word. Tommy’s screams faded away and before he knew it he was sitting in the grass, his pumpkin set off to the side and head between his knees. Wilbur put a hand on his shoulder before giving the teen space.

They sat like that, in mutual silence, till the distant conversations grew louder and closer, making Tubbo lookup with dull eyes and a slight grimace. Wilbur made some quick gestures, and the volume came down to inside voices.

“Are we done then?” Wilbur asked, stretching and leaning against a tree to push himself up.

Tommy and Jack nodded, both of them fiddling with their things to get them where they needed to be. “Yeah, missed you both towards the end. We might do some more filming on the way home, or do the outro real quick while we’re all together real quick.”

Jack and Tommy both finished up, showing off everyone’s pumpkins and zooming in on Tubbo, who was out for the count. Everything was finished quickly, and then there was the final talk of how the videos went, or what bits they would keep in. Everyone was packing up and gathering their things, well, everyone except Tubbo who remained firmly on the ground.

“Come on Tubs,” Tommy whined, reaching down to tug at his hand. “We’re going to bring you home now, sorry we stayed out so late.”

Tubbo whined, letting himself be dragged across the ground. “My leg’s hurt though, don’t make me stand up yet!”

Everyone laughed, making different efforts to get the boy standing. In the end, it took Ranboo jokingly offering Wilbur up for piggyback ride services. “Really? I- okay, is it bad if I’m actually considering it. My legs are killing me, dude.”

Wilbur hesitated, before leaning over. “Fine, but just because I think you might actually die if we made you walk.”

Watching Tubbo get to his feet was funny, after sitting for a while it was as if his legs had shut down. He felt like a newborn gazelle, shaky and unsteady, but Wilbur crouched down for him to get on. It only took another minute, and Ranboo offering to carry Tubbo’s pumpkin as well as his own, for them to be on their way.

“Really,” Wilbur teased, hiking tubbo up higher on his back, “the fact that you’re shorter than the rest of us is a good thing.” Ranboo snorted, and Tommy cackled. They had all heard Tubbo’s rants about how they were all just unnecessarily tall before, though Jack was the closest to his own height. When Tubbo whined into Wilbur’s neck, the older gave his knees a sympathetic squeeze, not expecting him to kick out with a squeak.

“Wihilbur, don’t do that.” Tubbo giggled, clinging on to Wil’s sweater.

Wilbur giggled deviously, “Oh, you’re ticklish then Tubbo? Maybe that will help your mood, get your energy back and all that.” He held on to Tubbo with one hand, reaching back with the other to scribble at his side. He wasn’t expecting much, Tubbo was wearing a rather thick sweatshirt, but Tubbo was tired enough that even the thought of it happening sent butterflies fluttering across his skin.

Tubbo giggled frantically, squirming as much as he could without running the risk of falling off his perch. “It wohon’t! Wihil, I- ihit tihihckles.”

Jack cooed at him off to the side. “Awe, look at him. He’s so sweet like this, can’t believe he was threatening to stab us just a few hours ago.”

Tommy was all but bouncing next to him. “Yeah! Get him Wil, Tubso needs to smile cause he’s been in a right state.” He switched his pumpkin over to one hand, poking at Tubbo’s other side and chuckling evilly when he jerked back and forth between him and Wilbur.

Tubbo kicked his legs and brought one arm down to swat at Tommy’s hand. “Stohop ihit! You’re nohot helpihing.”

Wilbur had to toss Tubbo back up in the air to keep him from slipping down. “You’re a squirmy little thing, aren’t you? Some help here guys? Make sure he doesn’t fall backward or anything.”

Jack followed Tommy’s lead, reaching over with a free hand and wiggling his fingers at the teen’s neck, smiling when Tubbo squealed and shook his head back and forth before hiding in Wil’s neck. He could see pink slowly making its way up Tubbo’s neck and to the tips of his ears through his hair. “Look at that, he’s going all red, isn’t he. Come get in on this Ranboo while you can.”

It was well known that Ranboo ended up being a common victim among everyone, so any chance he had to get he went for it.

Ranboo looked down at his hands, both of which were full of pumpkins, and then back up to Jack with a blank look on his face. “We might have a slight issue with that, I- um. I have pumpkins.”

“Doho it ahand I wihill kihihill you lahater Rahahan- TOHohomy, Naha!”

Jack looked over to where Tommy had snuck his hand between Tubbo and Wilbur, squeezing at his stomach and making Tubbo kick out violently. Jack couldn’t help but chuckle along, “Now that’s just mean, mate.”

Wilbur brought his other hand back to hold onto Tubbo more steadily. “Jeez man, you’re a kicker. ACK- careful, don’t choke me. Tommy not so much.” Wilbur jerked with Tubbo when he flung himself back to get away from Tommy, hands still around Wilbur’s neck.

Jack put his hand on Tubbo’s back, making sure he wouldn’t fall backward. “Switch me Ranboo, I’ll take the pumpkins.”

Tommy scooted over, letting Jack and Ranboo do a transfer and holding Tubbo up with one arm around his waist, still clawing into his tummy. “He’s fine, Wil. See, you’re fine, aren’t you Tubso? I think you were right, he’s getting his energy back now.”

Tubbo didn’t even bother to complain, just sinking back into Tommy’s chest, only to be transferred over to Ranboo.

“H-hi.”

Ranboo smiled down at Tubbo who was leaned back on him, head tilted all the way back to be able to look at him properly. “Hi, Tubbo. How’re you doing?”

Tubbo shook his head, not able to stop his anxious giggles. “You dohon’t have to do this, I’ll get you back ten times worse.”

“Mhm,” Ranboo hummed, “I think I do though. A-and you’ll do that no matter what so, an empty threat.”

Before Tubbo could make any more threats Ranboo had a hand sneaking under his shirt and scribbling on his side. Tubbo ended up releasing his hold on Wilbur entirely besides from where the eldest still had his legs under him and melting entirely into Ranboo’s chest. It was like lightning was coming right from Ranboo's fingertips, zaping every nerve ending until he couldn't even squirm away anymore to get away from the feeling.

He explored while he could, being careful not to wear Tubbo out too much more than he already was. The conversation carried on mostly like normal, with the occasional comment on if Tubbo’s laugh got high pitch or changed suddenly. They got a few odd looks when they got closer to the front of the pumpkin patch, but Ranboo wrapped it up and leaned Tubbo back against Wilbur’s back.

Tubbo just gave a half-hearted grumble, a few threats distinguishable between the mutterings along the lines of “Wait till later… get you back… not over.” which Wilbur would carefully warn Ranboo about later. A Tubbo with a reason for revenge was a Tubbo to fear after all.

He wouldn’t have to worry for now though, because, by the time Tommy opened the door for Wilbur to let Tubbo slide in, the boy was barely awake enough to register himself being moved, and Ranboo had to be careful not to let Tubbo collapse fully onto the ground.

They shuffled him around until he was buckled up, everyone else filing in after and settling into quiet conversations for the ride home.

Even Tubbo would have to admit though, by the end of the whole ordeal he felt a lot more positive than he had before. That didn’t mean the others would get off scot-free though, they’d just have to wait for him to rest up first.

[dilvcslut]

Oikawa x Innocent Reader

Request: hello! may i please request oikawa x reader with corruption kink? (and if you’re feeling generous, feel free to sprinkle in overstim)- idc how long it is but 🥺🥺🥺 please?

OMG YESSSSS okay let me rant about something real quick before the smut... I had a dream that me and Oikawa got married so like I feel connected to him and my sister said she didn’t like him so I ignored her the rest of the day XD okay okay I'm done talking about me, so lets get into this~ (and I am feeling quite generous~) Fem pronouns used!

Warning: Corruption kink, overstim, smut, 18+, Oikawa being a horny twink

PS: I also didn’t proof read much because I'm ready to take a nap so sorry if i have any miss spellings! Thank you <3

As soon as Oikawa met you he knew he needed you. You were so cute and innocent. Whenever you looked at him with your big innocent doe eyes he just wanted to absolutely wreck you. But he knew he had to take his time, he had to win you over. He wanted you to want him.

Oikawa would hang around you all day, make him a big part in your life. Soon enough you were asking him if he wanted to come over to your house. Of course he said yes. When he found out your parents weren’t home, he swore he immediately got hard. You brought him up to your room, and told him to wait there. While you went to get snacks for the both of you, Oikawa looked around your room. You had some plashes and a soft vibe to it. Yeah, it matched your personality. Oh what lewd things he wanted to do you in this ro... “Oikawa! Are you okay? You looked out of it” Damn, you were so cute. “O-oh yeah I’m fine i just spaced out”

After eating some snacks you both got comfortable. you were laying on your side, facing away from Oikawa. He went behind you and cuddled you. “O-Oikawa wha-” “It’s okay Y/N! This is just what friends do.” “Oh okay, if you say so Oikawa!” You were both cuddling for a while, then Oikawa started to move his hand down lower and lower on your stomach. His hand then reached the waistline of your pants. You hadn’t said anything because you thought it was normal for friends, like he said. Oikawa then put his hands down your pants and panties. “Don’t worry Y/N, I’ll make you feel good~” You didn't exactly know what he meant by that, at first.

He brushed his fingers across your lower lips, then used his index and ring finger to spread them apart. He used his middle to tease your entrance, making you wet. “I-it feels... weird” “I know, I kno. Don’t worry you'll feel good real soon. Can you lay on your back for me?” After you rolled over he tugged on your pants and panties and slid them off. “Oikawa, this is embarrassing...” “Oh, are you embarrassed because of me?” He said that to purposefully make you feel guilty. “Of course not!” He then proceeded to go down on you. He went eye level to your virgin cunt. He grabbed your plush thighs and put them on either side of his head. He licked a stripe up your cunt. It felt like electricity zooming through your body. He was right, he did make you feel good!

He continued with his ministrations until you felt a pressure in your lower abdomen. “Oikawa! My, my tummy feels... weird” “Its okay, it will feel like that. Just relax and let go” You didn't exactly understand what he meant but you trusted him. After a few minutes you felt a rush of tingles throughout your body. Oikawa then took out his cock and lined it up with your cunt. He then slowly, inch by inch pushed his cock inside you. It stung a little but you didn’t say anything because you didn’t want to disappoint him. After his whole cock was in you he gave you sometime to adjust to him, while waiting he kissed your tear stained face everywhere.

When he started to move all you could feel was pleasure. You hadn’t noticed all the sounds you were letting out until Oikawa said something. “You make the prettiest noises~ I’m glad I'm the first to hear them~” He then sped up his thrusts, your whole body moving with the power of his thrusts. You thought you were going to break in half. But when you looked into Oikawa’s eyes, you felt safe. There was so much love in them, so you let loose and held him close as you climaxed. You let out a loud wail, surely the neighbors heard. But even after cumming, he continued with his thrusts. 

It was too much, and when his thumb came down to rub fast small circles on your clit, you couldn’t help but scream. “W-w-wait, t-too much” It took all the brainpower you could muster up to say that. Oikawa didn’t stop though, he just kept on going. In and out, in and out. Plowing into you. Oikawa then felt his release coming closer, so he sped up. You were on the brink of your 3rd orgasm of the night. OIkawa had to physically strain himself to not cum inside you whilst you were cumming. He pulled out and released all over your stomach. He got up, put on his underwear and get a wet cloth and cleaned you up. 

After that, you and Oikawa did it at least two times a day. You were once so innocent, but now you can't even think of living without Oikawas cock <3

Okay so for the end i debated on whether i should put just “Oikawas cock” or “Oikawas horse cock” but we all know he's a twink and I'm not trying to feed his ego (too much) but i hope you liked it :)

[raibebe]

i honestly had to take a break between reading everything because some anons comments/asks just took me out completely. or triggered me. or both tbfh.

first of all, if i ever see someone say that jaem has a robotic tone/voice when he raps AGAIN, i'm seriously gonna explode. like no. i cannot begin to stress enough how much i love jaem's voice (tone)/flow when he raps. he might actually be my favourite rapper in terms to that. idk why but his voice is so fucking attractive to me and it literally makes me ascend in the clouds when i hear him sing/rap.

secondly, to the people saying that line distributions are always like this and that there are other main rappers that fit the parts more and yadda yadda, blah blah.. WE KNOW. okay, trust me, as a winwin and xion (oneus) stan, i KNOW how unfair line distributions get and i KNOW for a fact that that's just the way that things work with most kpop groups. BUT, like you (that means you, rai, that i just happened to stumble upon now xD) said, "universe (let's play ball)" could have EASILY been a 7 member unit, or a 6 member unit, or a FIVE (5) MEMBER UNIT.

E A S I L Y.

and trust me, if SM had done their job properly, it'd get all the hype they wanted it to even without "the popular" nct members.

but no, they had to put jaem in. because he's a visual, the visual, and because he's a center, the center. they had to put him in and give him one (1 !!!) line that is not even his own completely, it's shared w another member. and then they just decided to give him screetime as the visual.

yeah, i think other jaemin stans and I (even tho jaem is just a bias wrecker for me) should apologize bc we're upset that jaemin is just seen as the visual. :D

is that what some anons from here expected? for that to happen? for us to be like, "oh yeah, no biggie, he has screentime!" ??? like, no?? when i download the song and listen to it or go on spotify to listen to it, i won't be looking at how much screentime x or y had. i'll be listening to the song and as expected, i won't hear jaemin's voice that i'm super in love with.

and that's both frustrating and upsetting. :/

because jaemin puts in a lot of work. because jaemin is talented and has tons of potential and because jaemin is so much more than just a pretty face. jaemin is more than the "hyper" member or the "funny" member or the "weird" member, OR THE "PRETTY FLOWER BOY VISUALS" MEMBER. jaemin for me, has one of the best voices in kpop. and i seriously don't know why his voice attracts my ears so much but it does and it's such a shame that other people don't think he deserves more exposure to his voice or that they think that just because he's seen a lot in mvs, then that's enough.

it's not. stop saying nanadoongies are overreacting. i'm a winwin stan, i'm a renjun stan, i'm a hendery stan and i'm pretty close to becoming a jisung stan. i've seen plenty of unfair line distributions go towards "my favs" or "my biases". and yes line distributions happen all the time, but this one could have been avoided.

na jaemin is an amazing rapper, dancer & vocalist. na jaemin is an AMAZING ACTOR for fuck's sake & yes he's also an amazing visual/model. and since his visuals are utilized so good, i just want his voice to also be utilized just as good/much. like pls.

again, just like you said rai, this song could have easily been a 5/6/7 members unit song, to (imo) give a break to some of the overworked members and to also give the spotlight/exposure to some other members. but no, SM really just said "nah, let's overwork our idols to sell more".

i ranted, sorry lol, i was more upset about this then i thought. you've got loads to read.

Wow this was long sksksk

I hope you’re not mad that I’m not commenting on everything you said because i’m on mobile 😂

[melody-of-lost-souls]

Hey,

I don’t know where it was stated—but SS fans bring it up all the time. Apparently, Sasuke would bring Sakura back to life if she were to die, and use that against us sns shippers, saying he wouldn’t do that for anyone but Sakura…Ahem, last time I checked he was ready to die with and FOR Naruto. As shown in the wave ark, and at their final battle. And stated that “Everything would be pointless” if Naruto were to die during that one dudes fight in brouto(I forgot his name). I’m not sure if he was referring to the battle itself, and how if Naruto were to die that it would literally be pointless, and the guy they were fighting would of course win whatever he was trying to win I forgot lol. Or, if he was referring too how losing Naruto would make everything pointless—his will to live, to continue fighting for the village, etc…

Anyways, I don’t know if they got that from that horribly written novel?? How they consider that canon or even remotely in character is beyond me… But the fact it wasn’t even written by kishimoto, and they’re so passionate about this novel, and are one hundred percent sure that ff is canon…Is delusional. Enjoying the novel is one thing—but forcing it on others despite the fact the original creator of Naruto hadn’t written it is absolutely ridiculous. How can they be so confident if the CREATOR of the show didn’t even write it??? The creator of the characters knows them better then anyone yet they’re sooooo sure that they’re in character in this novel. NO they’re sometimes not even in character in Boruto!!! But they’re too blind to see that because anything that aids to their precious ship makes them want to piss there pants. LIKE even if there was a sns moment that didn’t really make sense and was ooc I wouldn’t go and piss myself over it!!!! I would simply enjoy it momentarily! But they can’t let this novel go—and shove it in my face everywhere I go! They downplay absolutely everything that happened in The manga—and say “well in the novel—” LIKE STOP!!!! Ugh, anyways, sorry for ranting…You can ignore all that and just answer my initial question. Thank you!!!

Hello anon! I was writing a whole ass answer and this shit of pc got crashed. So i will try to summarize it cause now i am lazy xD

So yes it's true that fact about Sasuke saying well he didnt say but the author was pretty obvious about his thoughts (cause she DAREEESSS to write this monstrosity from Sasuke's pov) that he would revive Sakura if she dies

"If she cooperated to revive the beasts, and if her corpse could be found... he could revive her and see her again.

"You were going to try to revive her... using the reanimation jutsu..."

Noticing Sakura's expression, Gigi couldn't help but let out a small laugh.

—Aww, don't be so hurt, Sensei. Do not look at me like that. I really wanted to see her...

last time. Even if she was forced with a forbidden jutsu. Sasuke... if you were In my shoes, wouldn't you have done the same?

"..." Sasuke remained silent. He really couldn't say that he wouldn't do it. the same.

I thought back to my meeting with Itachi, when he was brought to life through Edo Tensei.

It is an irreplaceable memory of him. I thought just a few moments talking to him they could dispel any misunderstandings. Even if it was up to the

Edo Tensei. If he ever lost my wife... who knows if he might do the same decisions that Gigi at that time

So yeah, but this is purely from the novel Sasuke retsuden WHICH IS NOT CANON. Ofc SS love this novel because is the only romantic material they can have since they have nothing and only indiference in 699 manga chapters which are the canon ones. SS will fight cape and sword saying this thing is authentic and how kishimoto drew the -poor- cover of the novel.

Sasuke turned to face Gigi.

“...My body moved without thinking.

Occasionally, unintentional feelings lead people to take actions

unexpected. Sasuke thought of when he jumped in front of his best friend to receive the blow of Haku's needles.

At the time, I genuinely wondered why I did it, but now I know.

He may have lost his way in the past, but Naruto had always been the one.

Sasuke's best friend. They were reasons that exceeded logic.

He didn't think that Gigi had the same emotions that Sasuke had for Naruto with

Menou, Ganno or Penjira. She though she probably carried some sort of attachment. Its funny because the author has some parts in her writing where even she cannot explain SNS bond saying for example that Sasuke gave his life for Naruto without reason, and they exceeded the logic

And If they were just friend and best friend, how he cannot find a reason? How his "friendship" for naruto exceed the logic? Which logic man? Also, what kind of emotions you have for Naruto then? Anyway that's it, that statement is from Sasuke retsuden novel, they will use it against us because ofc they will is the only moment where sasuke could dare to do something for Sakura. About the Jigen fight.

I didnt read the manga cause...Ikemoto draws ugly(?) But I saw the canon anime episodes so i will speak from that perspective. Sasuke repeats this sentence twice. Once he said it against Momoshiki, in the movie and also in the canon episodes (if I'm not mistaken but the movie is also canon to the manga so) And then he repeated Vs Jigen.

First he said "You know if you die everything will be lost, dont you?"

vs jigen he said "It will be all hopeless without you" Which Naruto repeated "I think the same about you" So. I think they /he said in 2 senses. One is very obvious (but a bit ambiguous) that they are the most powerful men in the world, so if one of them dies...well WHAT DOES HAPPEN TO THE OTHER? I WONDER? I really wonder why Sasuke feels so insecure if Naruto dies (we know the answer) But he is as powerful as Naruto. He has rinnegan and Sharingan he has THE POWER to control Naruto's Kyuubi. So why does he think is all hopeless withouth Naruto? Of course the task would be harder without him, keeping peace but...he has kakashi, shikamaru, a bunch of great shinobis who will follow his rules since he is the other half of Naruto and since Naruto gave him the authority and same "power" as a Hokage so...Why so insecure? I get the same feeling as when you life partner is not there so you not feel able to do some things you used to do both together.

Also, Sasuke in his teens when he tried to kill Naruto in vote2 in that moment he didnt care about this topic. Kaguya existence was already in that world, so he would have to deal with that alone and still he resolved to kill naruto to not have his beloved one in his way to not get distracted. (when he wantd to receive all the hate of the world to become their only enemy...there wasnt room for feeling and receive Naruto's love) So why does he feels now insecure if Naruto dies? Sasuke here is in his 30's a much mature and powerful man. So Sasuke here feels insecure and feels weak if Naruto dies, and this speaks many levels about them. He ALWAYS felt weak around Naruto and without him. But when he is around him, he lets himself feels weak cause there is someone who can support him and give him strenght, is not a weakness that it hurts it's more of "i'll show you my weaknesses cause I know you won't hurt me". Nonetheless if Naruto is not there, then he will feel weak and insecure and would not be able to destroy these enemies. Sasuke is holding onto Naruto's dreams and they are sharing them, but if the blonde dies...despite Sasuke will inherit his will and pass it to his (their) son...Still he has not the same determination as Naruto. So, in my opinion is an ambiguous sentence (as a lot of them that there are in this manga) which means that yes if Naruto dies then everything is pointless since nobody would be able to defeat the enemy (despite is boruto the one who has to defeat them since he is the mc lol) and its also about how hope will be lost for sasuke if his sun dies. (which is metaphoric too, what happens if we dont get our lightsun? )

[alirhi]

Loki ranting

Okay. I had this thought in my head of like just compiling links of all the Loki shit I've posted/reblogged so far so that when I get into a conversation about the show and how it fucking disgusted me, I can just be like "here. here's this masterlist post, go read all this shit. This is my entire argument, and not only mine, but a lot of stuff posted by people far more intelligent and level-headed and eloquent than I am, whom I happen to agree with." Because the alternative is constantly getting fired up all over again, and that is exhausting.

BUT! I'm stupid and don't know how tumblr works. Apparently I can't just be like "give me all the Loki-tagged shit I've got" I can only search all the Loki-tagged shit on all of tumblr. And I'm not scrolling back through all of my posts. I talk too fucking much for that shit 😂

So, I'll try to remember all of my grievances with how the MCU has treated Loki, and all of the excellent posts made by other, equally upset fans, and put it all together here under this nice, neat little cut for everyone else's sanity and scrolling convenience...

For people who actually read my shit fairly regularly - bless you, you crazy, patient people. I love you! - this is going to be a lot of repetition of shit you've already read. Probably at least twice. I'm passionate and I have a terrible memory lol. Sorry.

Anyway, first, for those who don't know me and haven't been following my explosions of rage for the past couple of months, some quick background: I do not read comic books, so Loki's Marvel comic canon means nothing to me. I know almost nothing about it. The reason I'm so in love with the character in the MCU is because I am an eclectic witch and the deity I've actively loved and worshiped the longest in my life (literally for as long as I can remember) is Loki. So when he was mentioned in The Mask, I squeed. When they named Matt Damon's character after him in Dogma, I cheered.

When Thor came out in 2011, I just about died from happiness. I was hungry for any representation of this underappreciated god, no matter what it was. I didn't even bitch about how underpowered he was, because at least he was there. But I'm getting slightly ahead of myself.

I can hear anyone reading this going "Why Loki? Isn't he, like, evil? Like basically the Norse version of The Devil?" Because I heard all this shit irl all the fucking time. And no. So let me give you a quick rundown of who Loki actually is.

Loki is a Trickster God. He's often referred to as the God of Mischief. He is not and never was evil, simply chaotic and hedonistic. Loki Laufeyjarson was the son of Laufey (that's mama; they changed her to a man for some reason in the movie) and Fárbauti. Right from the start, from his name, we get a sign of how Loki goes against traditional norms of the time, because in Norse culture, families were patrilineal, and surnames were "son/daughter of father" (which would have made him Loki Fárbautitason), not the mother. But Loki's surname is matrilineal. Feminist icon woo! lol

Though he's a Jotunn, Loki is counted among the Gods (Aesir) in Norse tradition. Depending on his mood, he is alternately helpful or disruptive to the other Gods. I'm not gonna sit and teach a whole text class on him lol but I'll use my favorite example of Misunderstood Loki - the conception of Sleipnir!

So, get this shit. This is also part of why I DO NOT follow Odin and never fucking will (a very small part, but still part of the reason). So, the other Norse Gods are petty motherfuckers, and they wanted some shit built but didn't want to pay the dude doing the building. So they were like "okay, if you can get it done in X amount of time, we'll pay you, but if you can't manage it NO MATTER WHAT, this whole thing is free." And they made sure he had NO help, nothing but him, his materials, and his Very Good Horsey. And this guy and his horse were fucking BAMFs. So it was looking like he was definitely gonna get it done in time, and Odin was like "nah, fuck that shit. I'm cheap." and so he sent Loki to distract the work horse. Loki transformed into a mare and lured the horse away, got fucked, got pregnant, gave birth to the 8-legged (for some reason) horse Sleipnir. Odin rides Loki's son into battle. Um. Kay.

So Loki helped Odin be a petty mf, and Odin got himself a new pet out of the deal.

Oh, also, because he's smart af and a shapeshifter and a master magician and genderfluid, Loki "fails" to fit the super fucking toxic and narrow Norse/Aesir view of "a real man". He prefers intelligence and manipulation to solve problems rather than violence, he's not afraid to behave like a clown if it gets shit done, and that grosses the Aesir out, so they constantly ridicule him for being "less than a man".

Loki is the God of the outcast and the misunderstood. The marginalized people from all walks of life. He is the God of the LGBT community. In modern terms, he's pansexual, polyamorous (married to Sigyn and they are deeply in love, but boy gets around and I've never seen any indication that Sigyn gives a shit) and genderfluid.

Okay. Focus, Ali. This is part of why I usually post multiple rants instead of one big long one XD The longer I ramble, the more I get sidetracked and forget the original point.

So. Loki's awesome, and being a Trickster, is powerful as all fucking hell. There's not much he can't do.

And now we come to Thor (the movie, not the deity). Loki's there! 24-year-old Ali is spazzing! All is right with the world!

Oh lord, they've actually done him justice?! Amazing! He's complex and nuanced and emotional, just like the real Loki! I loved this movie. Loved. It. The climactic thing with trying to blow up Jotunheim never really made much sense to me until someone made an excellent point the other day about Loki being raised in a racist society that was racist against his own race, he just didn't know it yet, poor child. Baby Thor was never corrected when he pledged to commit mass genocide, so Baby Loki probably absorbed the lesson then that Jotunns=evil and killing them all will win his father's love. Anyway, 2011 Loki was a beautiful, heartbreaking portrayal of the God I've loved all my life and spent 24 years longing to see depicted on the big screen.

Then The Avengers happened. And I saw another Loki very close to Norse mythology - mainly, how he's treated. In the beginning of the movie, he's sick, exhausted, and in pain. He can hardly stand, he stumbles and needs help when he walks. He was very obviously tortured, and the sickly blue light of the scepter's control is in his eyes. That gets less and less pronounced as the movie goes on, showing Loki working his way free of it, but in the beginning, he's a mess. Because he was tortured and used by Thanos. Marvel directly confirmed this, and that he was under the scepter's/Mind Stone's control. Loki's actions are not his own in The Avengers. He's under both threat and Thanos' direct control. The movie actually shows The Other directly threatening him to keep him on task, because this is not Loki's plan. It is not what he wants. He's being used and villainized... Just like in real life. It hurt to see this done to him, but the accuracy was too beautiful to ignore.

Thor: The Dark World comes out. I've heard people complain that this movie is the weak link in the Thor trilogy. I disagree. I think that's Ragnarok, for a bunch of reasons, but we'll get there. (And for the record, I loved Ragnarok, too. It was a funny movie. Infinity War and the Disney+ series are the only portrayals of Loki in the MCU that I truly fucking hated.) Anyway, good, fun movie. Had its faults, as all movies do, but it still followed Loki's real-life arc in a way. How? By having Loki dragged back to Asgard in chains and imprisoned underground. Again, not super happy that this happened to my love, and having to see it on screen was painful, but at least in the MCU he's not chained to a rock with venom dripping on his face for eternity, so there's that. (poor Sigyn. how tired do her arms get, holding up that bowl? best wife ever, amirite?)

In TDW, we're shown Loki's love for Frigga, who favored him and taught him magic as a child. We see his bravado; his attempts to mask his true feelings, especially grief. We see him slowly coming back to himself after the events of The Avengers, and slowly mending his relationship with his brother. He accepts that Odin will likely never love him, but Thor just might, because they were close when they were young. "I didn't do it for him." No, no my sweet, you did it for your brother, and a little out of guilt for what happened to your mother.

At the end, Loki fakes his death and escapes, taking the throne, and I have mixed feelings about this. Not the writer's choices here; I love that completely! A natural progression in Loki's story. But my joy is tainted by how closely they're following the Eddas now. Because Loki's escape from his prison heralds the beginning of Ragnarok. And Loki will die in Ragnarok. I don't want to see that play out in front of my face. I won't be able to handle the grief (spoiler alert! IW broke me. I almost walked out of the theater. Loki's death was legitimately fucking traumatic for me. I don't even care how pathetic that is. That grief was real, it was intense, and I still shake and cry when I think about it.)

Marvel announces that Thor 3 will be called Ragnarok. The internet treats this as a shocking revelation. I roll my eyes and mumble "duh" to myself and move on XD

Then they say Ragnarok will be a buddy comedy. I throw up a little in my mouth and no longer want to live on this planet. If they're going to make something called Ragnarok, could they at least treat it with even a fraction of the respect they've shown these characters thusfar? Jfc. I mean, I'll see it anyway, because I'm a whore for Tom Hiddleston lol. But come on, people!

I hated that they made Hel the long-lost older sister and Fenrir her fucking pet/attack dog. Those are my favorites of Loki's children! Hel is such an incredible badass that the early Christians named their dimension of eternal torture after her! They were terrified of her, to the point of naming the place that terrified them most after her. That's awesome! And Fenrir's just the best. I love wolves. Those two details, and Odin's retcon of "we're not Gods! ...lol, except your sister. she's totally a Goddess. and def gonna kill literally everything, so... good luck! byyyeeeee" pissed me off royally.

The rest was great. I genuinely liked this movie. Still do. And they finally used The Immigrant Song! That was pretty cool. If they'd thrown in Bring the Hammer Down and Thunderstruck, I might've called this movie perfect. XD

I wasn't totally in love with their portrayal of Loki in Ragnarok. Yes, the falling for 30 minutes line was funny, as was "I have to get off this planet" and "YES! That's how it feels!" And "Get Help" was funny as hell. But also, like... There is no way Loki would have been the dumb one in that first encounter with Hela. Also, he can teleport and project copies of himself and shit, so... He would not have been that desperate to go straight back to Asgard and bring her right along with them. Loki's not stupid. But whatever. Movie's gotta movie.

What I did love was seeing the slow mending of his relationship with Thor continuing, and the badass fighting on the bridge. I also loved that, like Real Loki, Movie Loki helped when help was needed, was quick and clever, and while he was carrying out the main plan, he was also planning ahead and grabbing the Tesseract. Yes, that drew Thanos right to them, but that's a whole other thing. Loki never would have left that thing on Asgard to be destroyed or lost.

And now Infinity War. Hooooly fucking shit. You know what? No. I'm not going into this. He was killed, years of character growth were erased forever, my heart fucking shattered. The end.

Endgame. IW hurt me so bad I didn't see Endgame until this year. I actually watched Civil War first (for context: I had actively avoided all Cap movies until this year because I fucking hate Steve Rogers. I find him insufferable. Did not realize what I was denying myself until I watched CW and finally saw the charms of Bucky. When he appeared in IW, I was so lost. XD I was like "...who dis? Murder Jesus?" also I just... didn't care. I was numb by then from crying through most of the movie over Loki)

So, anyway. Endgame. Loki picks up the Tesseract in alternate 2012, escapes, fans go "yay! he didn't actually die!" I go "yes he fucking did. Five years of his life, gone. Five years of growth and change, erased. Loki is dead. This will not be the same."

I was more right than I could have predicted. Now we come to the point of this rant. Sorry it took so long, but you were warned lol.

The Loki series makes me so angry I actually get sick to my stomach. It was fucking TRASH. When I praised Marvel for following Norse mythology so faithfully earlier? Yeah. I DID NOT MEAN TREAT HIM THE WAY THE OTHER GODS DID. I did not mean paint him as a pitiful clown, a joke, a caricature of who he truly was, with his pain and suffering played for LAUGHS.

This is supposed to be 2012 Loki, newly freed from Thanos' control. The Loki we saw in the beginning of TDW - snarky, exhausted, nihilistic. The Loki who rolled his eyes and said "get on with it" expecting to be killed.

The bumbling clown flipping on a dime from posturing to calling himself weak is not 2012 Loki. That is not ANY Loki. That is Tom Hiddleston in a black wig doing what he's told by a shitty writer who had no fucking idea what he was doing and was salty about his (bad) original script (for something totally fucking unrelated) getting killed.

In Episode 1, Loki is mocked, imprisoned, stripped against his will, tormented, belittled, and given a flippant summary of all the trauma Actual MCU Loki suffered that this one skipped out on, with no context, no acknowledgement of the trauma he's already lived quite fucking recently, and with the narrative twisted to not only erase all the abuse he's suffered, but to make it all his fault. And this is supposed to make him want to help these people?

And worse, IT FUCKING WORKS. WHAT?! I CAN'T- FUCKING WHAT?! Remember when I said LOKI IS NOT FUCKING STUPID?! So why is he STUPID?

Episode 2, he's a child. Mentally, this Loki is a fucking child. Now we've erased all the growth and development of his entire adult life. He's dopey, impatient, impulsive, desperate for a pat on the back and actually shows it. Yes, abused and neglected children crave the positive attention we never received, and we often grow up to be a bit emotionally stunted. But not all of us, and not Loki. Not as we've seen him EVER in the rest of the MCU. Playful and a bit callous at times? Absolutely! But not a big dumb fucking puppy.

Episode 3, a ray of hope, despite Sylvie! (I hate Sylvie) Loki casually admits he's pan/bi; labels never come up, but he admits to being with both men and women! He sings! Not really relevant to whether I approve of his portrayal or not lol but Tom has a beautiful voice, Norwegian ("Asgardian" lol) is a gorgeous, entrancing language, and I could watch that one bit on loop for eternity and never get bored. And then, finally, we see a glimpse - a glimpse - of Loki's power! He stops a falling building and pushes it right back up! Are we finally getting to see what he can really do? Will the next episode bring us Loki in all his glory?

Nope. 4 and 5 we see him mocked and pushed around and utterly irrelevant. Again. We see tiny reflections of what he could maybe theoretically do in other random Loki variants, but the "main" (lawl. main. it was the Sylvie and Mobius show. Loki was never the main anything.) Loki? Nothing. He wears his heart on his sleeve for no reason, bonds with the man who imprisoned, taunted, and gaslit him, is killed, and continues to be a moron and a joke. Always the clown. Always the dumb one. The one with the bad ideas. The inferior Loki.

Don't even get me started on that finale. I can't. This already took so much out of me. Fuck Marvel. Fuck this fucking show. I just... I'm done.