#i yearn for autumn

[sainz100]

2024 Brazilian GP | x

[hephaestusshield]

[alicentsaegon]

Lucien Vanserra and Elain Archeron

[prasannawrites]

[distort-opia]

I'm sorry, I will go nuts about Thousand Autumns on main, because this bit from Volume 2, Chapter 46 has been living in my brain rent free:

Yan Wushi literally just traded Shen Qiao for a sword he didn't even need, to a man who very likely would rape him and kill him, knowing Shen Qiao's only choice was to self-destruct and die. The worst possible betrayal... right after Shen Qiao had started to see Yan Wushi as a friend, to think that even if Yan Wushi was a monster to everyone else, maybe to him he could be different; maybe there was a speck of humanity hidden inside him.

And still, after all that, in excruciating agony after having shattered his own foundations and barely alive, Shen Qiao goes over every interaction they ever had and thinks that even if he could go back, and undo it... he wouldn't change it. He wouldn't take back knowing Yan Wushi, learning about the world, breaking out of his naive and secluded worldview. It makes me want to chew glass, because of course I've also seen people go "But when did Shen Qiao develop feelings for Yan Wushi?" and it's all... right there, with this being one of the most beautiful and subtle moments. Shen Qiao did fall first, and then couldn't even take it back, didn't want to take it back. And then cried about it. Someone save me from the Yanshen shaped Hell I find myself in!!

And I love MXS's writing because this isn't forgotten. Later on, in Volume 3, Chapter 79, Yan Wushi himself asks this, right before he sacrifices his own safety to lure Sang Jingxing away from Shen Qiao, in a reversal of what he did before:

Shen Qiao says he doesn't regret it. And I swear, when I first read the novel, at this part I instantly went "OH GOD YAN WUSHI WHAT ARE YOU ABOUT TO DO YOU HORRIBLE BASTARD NOOO" but then he proceeds to save Shen Qiao. All while spewing bullshit about how it doesn't actually mean anything. There's no feelings involved, of course not!

It's just. I love the symmetry of it, which is clearly intentional. Of having Shen Qiao, after Yan Wushi's betrayal, find himself unable to regret having met him. And then the same thing, but explicitly, right before Yan Wushi's one conscious, unselfish act of kindness.

[violetispurple]

so it’s october… let’s do that thing the girl in red song says and fall in love because i want to love someone. i want someone to love me like that. i want to be wanted. ugh it hurts help

[theking-mustdie]

ok who’s gonna bite the bullet and date me this fall?

someone has to do it

[achilleansunrise]

Need a boy who will love a house that smells of pumpkin spice

[degeneratenymph]

[funkyplantguy]

someone sedate me i'm thinking about cumbo again

[lorelune]

jing yuan can barely cook. like. can fry an egg (poorly) and read instructions on a mix but that's about it. however he has suuuch a good palette... taster king

[sainz100]

2019 Hungarian GP | x

[sweetnnaivete]

summer makes me so happy

[cvntyboylove-666]

In honor of fall I would like to stay inside and cuddle and get fucked in nothing but a chunky knit sweater and kiss and giggle afterwards and have pumpkin cocoa and watch a movie after a nice hot shower <3

[poems-of-a-lover]

i wanna go to a pumpkin patch with a boy and pick out pumpkins and go on a hay ride and go thru the corn maze and get hot cider and caramel apples and watch the sunset and maybe kiss or somethin idk <333

[diary0fahopelessromantic]

This morning’s air was cool and windy. I’ve noticed more yellow leaves adorning the ground today. All of my friends are ecstatic that autumn is showing her face again, and normally I would be too, but this year is different somehow. I’ll miss the green grass and the butterflies, the sun shining just right on her eyes and showing me a whole world I have yet to explore behind them. But she’s excited for autumn, so I can be a little too. And at least this means we’re one season closer to spring. I love spring.