#i would tag all the managers but i wouldnt be able to tag them all so ill have to just tag them in their respective posts

[batt00ny]

TTCC POLL BRACKET MASTERPOST

HAI! I really wanted 2 make a silly little bracket of ALL the managers in toontown corporate Clash BECAUSE THEY ALL MEAN SOOOO Much to me. Then I got autistic about toontown polls so now I'm the poll guy. Then college got me busy so now I just do it sometimes. I try!!!

The seeding is random inspired by the spirit on Toontown. Not serious just for fun!!! FOR GIGGLIES AND GOOFS

I have multiple brackets planned & they tend to drop when no other poll posts that day. I plan to have a lot so I hope you stick around! (Also I draw sometimes ... my tag for my original content is #BATT00NY ORIGINAL ....haha thanx...)

HERE is where you can find finished brackets!

I reblog all propaganda to encourage community banter & playful warfare!

Also additional rules I don't know where to add anywhere else: If there's a tie, both participants get to move on. If a round ends with an odd amount of contenders for the next round, there will be a revival match. Finally, rematches between the same participants will be avoided as long as possible.

Brackets are below! If a poll is open, it will be marked with a red OPEN in [brackets]! Dates are when the poll will be posted.

TOON SPECIES BRACKET STATUS: FINISHED!

ROUND 1 Match 1: Goat vs. Raccoon [RACCOON] Match 2: Sheep vs. Deer [DEER] Match 3: Rabbit vs. Alligator [ALLIGATOR] Match 4: Pig vs. Beaver [BEAVER] Match 5: Bat vs. Turkey [BAT] Match 6: Chicken vs. Monkey [CHICKEN] Match 7: Fox vs. Armadillo [FOX] Match 8: Cat vs. Kiwi [KIWI] Match 9: Koala vs. Duck [DUCK] Match 10: Kangaroo vs. Dog [DOG] Match 11: Horse vs. Mouse [MOUSE] Match 12: Bear vs. Cow [BEAR]

ROUND 2 Match 1: Raccoon vs. Deer [DEER] Match 2: Alligator vs. Beaver [ALLIGATOR] Match 3: Bat vs. Chicken [BAT] Match 4: Fox vs. Kiwi [FOX & KIWI] Match 5: Duck vs. Dog [DUCK] Match 6: Mouse vs. Bear [MOUSE]

ROUND 3 Match 1: Deer vs. Alligator [DEER] Match 2: Bat vs. Fox [BAT] Match 3: Kiwi vs. Duck [KIWI] Revival: Armadillo, Bear, Cat, Dog, Goat, Horse, Koala, Pig, Rabbit, or Raccoon [CAT] Match 4: Mouse vs. Cat [CAT]

ROUND 4 Match 1: Deer vs. Bat [BAT] Match 2: Kiwi vs. Cat [KIWI]

ROUND 5 Finale: Bat vs. Kiwi [BAT]

COG EMPLOYEE MAIN BRACKET STATUS: ITTY BITTY HIATUS; ROUND 5!

ROUND 1 Match 1: Head Honcho vs. Short Change [HEAD HONCHO] Match 2: Deadlock vs. Big Cheese [BIG CHEESE] Match 3: Corporate Raider vs. Toxic Manager [TOXIC MANAGER] Match 4: Two-Face vs. Connoisseur [TWO-FACE] Match 5: Bottom Feeder vs. Loan Shark [LOAN SHARK] Match 6: Ambulance Chaser vs. Cold Caller [COLD CALLER] Match 7: Number Cruncher vs. Shyster [SHYSTER] Match 8: Insider vs. Tightwad [INSIDER] Match 9: Back Stabber vs. Head Hunter [BACK STABBER] Match 10: Name Dropper vs. Needlenose [NEEDLENOSE] Match 11: Money Bags vs. Shark Watcher [SHARK WATCHER] Match 12: Flunky vs. Middleman [FLUNKY] Match 13: Legal Eagle vs. Double Talker [LEGAL EAGLE] Match 14: Barrister vs. Glad Hander [GLAD HANDER] Match 15: Advocate vs. Bean Counter [ADVOCATE] Match 16: Con Artist vs. Spin Doctor [SPIN DOCTOR] Match 17: Bagholder vs. Micromanager [MICROMANAGER] Match 18: Mr. Hollywood vs. Telemarketer [MR. HOLLYWOOD] Match 19: Pettifogger vs. Circuit Breaker [CIRCUIT BREAKER] Match 20: Magnate vs. Paper Hands [MAGNATE] Match 21: Mover & Shaker vs. Downsizer [MOVER & SHAKER] Match 22: Robber Baron vs. Pencil Pusher [ROBBER BARON] Match 23: Bloodsucker vs. Swindler [BLOODSUCKER] Match 24: Yesman vs. Penny Pincher [YESMAN] Match 25: Big Wig vs. Big Fish [BIG FISH] Match 26: Conveyancer vs. Mingler [MINGLER]

ROUND 2 Match 1: Head Honcho vs. Big Cheese [BIG CHEESE] Match 2: Toxic Manager vs. Two-Face [TOXIC MANAGER] Match 3: Loan Shark vs. Cold Caller [LOAN SHARK] Match 4: Shyster vs. Insider [INSIDER] Match 5: Back Stabber vs. Needlenose [BACK STABBER] Match 6: Shark Watcher vs. Flunky [FLUNKY] Match 7: Legal Eagle vs. Glad Hander [LEGAL EAGLE] Match 8: Advocate vs. Spin Doctor [ADVOCATE] Match 9: Micromanager vs. Mr. Hollywood [MR. HOLLYWOOD] Match 10: Circuit Breaker vs. Magnate [MAGNATE] Match 11: Mover & Shaker vs. Robber Baron [MOVER & SHAKER] Match 12: Bloodsucker vs. Yesman [YESMAN] Match 13: Big Fish vs. Mingler [MINGLER]

ROUND 3 Match 1: Big Cheese vs. Toxic Manager [BIG CHEESE] Match 2: Loan Shark vs. Insider [INSIDER] Match 3: Back Stabber vs. Flunky [FLUNKY] Match 4: Legal Eagle vs. Advocate [ADVOCATE] Revival: Big Fish, Bloodsucker, Circuit Breaker, Glad Hander, Head Honcho, Micromanager, Needlenose, Robber Baron, Shyster, or Two-Face [HEAD HONCHO] Match 5: Mr. Hollywood vs. Magnate [MAGNATE] Match 6: Mover & Shaker vs. Yesman [MOVER & SHAKER] Match 7: Mingler vs. Head Honcho [MINGLER]

ROUND 4 Match 1: Big Cheese vs. Insider [INSIDER] Revival: Big Fish, Bloodsucker, Circuit Breaker, Glad Hander, Loan Shark, Micromanager, Mr. Hollywood, Needlenose, Toxic Manager, or Two-Face [OPEN] Match 2: Flunky vs. Advocate [7/27] Match 3: Magnate vs. Mover & Shaker [7/28] Match 4: Mingler vs. ??? [7/29]

ROUND 5 Match 1: Insider vs. ??? [8/4] Match 2: ??? vs. ??? [8/6]

COG EMPLOYEE LOSERS BRACKET STATUS: ITTY BITTY HIATUS; ROUND 2!

ROUND 1 Match 1: Short Change vs. Deadlock [DEADLOCK] Match 2: Corporate Raider vs. Connoisseur [CORPORATE RAIDER] Match 3: Bottom Feeder vs. Ambulance Chaser [BOTTOM FEEDER] Match 4: Number Cruncher vs. Tightwad [NUMBER CRUNCHER] Match 5: Head Hunter vs. Name Dropper [NAME DROPPER] Match 6: Money Bags vs. Middleman [MONEY BAGS] Match 7: Double Talker vs. Barrister [DOUBLE TALKER] Match 8: Bean Counter vs. Con Artist [BEAN COUNTER] Match 9: Bagholder vs. Telemarketer [BAGHOLDER] Match 10: Pettifogger vs. Paper Hands [PAPER HANDS] Match 11: Downsizer vs. Pencil Pusher [OPEN] Match 12: Swindler vs. Penny Pincher [OPEN] Match 13: Big Wig vs. Conveyancer [OPEN]

ROUND 2 Match 1: Deadlock vs. Corporate Raider [OPEN] Match 2: Bottom Feeder vs. Number Cruncher [OPEN] Match 3: Name Dropper vs. Money Bags [OPEN] Match 4: Double Talker vs. Bean Counter [7/20] Revival: ??? [7/23] Match 5: Bagholder vs. Paper Hands [7/31] Match 6: ??? vs. ??? [8/1] Match 7: ??? vs. ??? [8/2]

[that-fic-girl]

HAZBIN HOTEL X READER HC #1

Head canon: what it would be like to date them.

characters: Alastor, angel dust, husk, vox

disclaimer: everything i write about these characters might not be accurate to the actual story, please take everything in the fic with a grain of salt, none of this is canon!!

Alastor

he hasnt been in an actual relationship in a while so being close and vulnerable with someone is quite hard for him, especially as someone who associates emotions with weakness.

First off, its safe to say he adores the ground you walk on. He's in love with everything about you, your clothes, the smell of your hair, your sickly sweet voice. his loves it all.

If there was ever a problem you needed fixing, a person you needed taken care of or even a errand you needed to run he would tend to it himself. he would not let you lift a finger.

PDA is a iffy thing for him, he wouldnt do grand big gestures but maybe a hand on the hip or a few words of affirmation.

everyone in the pride ring quickly learned of yours and radio demon's relationship. And no one dared to mess with you, ofcourse there was people who wanted to test their luck but they would have to pay the price later.

his love language is definitely words of affirmation, he will sweet talk the shit out of you. At night when it's just you two in bed, he will have his hands stroking through your hair whilst you rant to him about your day and he'll reply with sweet nothings

"oh darling, i've missed you all evening"

"you looked ravishing today my dear.."

"mm your hair smells amazing, my love"

Angel Dust

Angel is one of, if not, the horniest mother fuckers out there but somehow, he manages to somewhat make a healthy relationship with someone.

you two are seen as "the bad bitch" couple. you're always out together, always getting into dumb shit together. You'll get yelled at by vaggie at early hours in the morning because the two of you where playing a childish game of tag in the hotel halls.

his love language is definitely physical touch, he'll have his arms slung around your waist almost all the time. Kisses are a MUST every 5 minutes, like this boy will NOT part from you. especially in the mornings when you have to leave for work;

"mmnnnnoooooooo...stayyy for five minutes pleasseeeee"

"but sweets..you're soooo warm"

"sweetheart please, you feel so comfy"

yeah good luck with that.

nights with him are VERY eventful, if it wasn't obvious. You two would usually be at it late hours into the night but sometimes, when you two where too exhausted to fuck like rabbits, he would be sprawled across your lap whilst you stroked his fur.

Husk

Despite his harsh tone and uncompromising demeanor, you understood that Husk wasn't trying to be malicious towards you. It was simply his way of communicating, and you knew that his behavior wasn't personal. Even though he could be abrasive at times, you loved him for his rough edges and authentic personality

You and Husk's time together was mostly spent at the bar. You didn't like to drink much, but you loved seeing him work and make cocktails like a pro. You didn't mind that it wasn't considered a typical date, because you liked spending time with him in whatever way he felt most comfortable.

Husk is not used to receiving compliments, as he didn't often receive them in his past life. When you complimented him, it caught him off guard and he was surprised. But he eventually learned to appreciate it, and it even made him feel a little sentimental.

Despite the difficulty, you were able to help Husk realize that you genuinely cared about him. He had been used to being surrounded by dishonesty and hypocrisy, but you were always sincere and real. He held you in high regard, as you were the only source of light in his life, and he didn't want to lose you.

vox

You were known as a strong and independent person who didn't need assistance from others. You knew how to stand up for yourself, despite being harsh and tough at times. Despite your exterior, no one was aware of the soft spot in your heart that Vox's affection and touch alone could melt away your severity.

He appreciated seeing your affectionate side, as it felt special and intimate, like a shared secret between the two of you. He knew you valued your privacy, and he respected it by never sharing photos or other details on social media. He didn't want to betray your trust.

You were often feared and respected when you were with Vox. People found it hard to believe that someone as intimidating as yourself could have a tender, caring side that was kept hidden from most. Vox was glad that he was the only one who got to see that side of you. He didn't want to share something so special and personal with anyone else.

Quite often, he would call you on the phone, knowing that sweet words could be just as effective as a kiss. He enjoyed hearing how your voice softened from its usual seriousness to a more affectionate tone. He was aware that when he said loving phrases to you, you would blush and smile shyly, and sometimes he even regretted not being able to witness it in person.

"i've missed you today babe.."

"mhm look at my pretty girl/boy!"

[angelyuji]

An idea has formed lol. What if you somehow managed to escape from Stan and Ford. If this question is too hard for you to answer what if Stan and Ford catch you while you try and escape. (Ford would be more likely to look for you, Stan.... not so sure lol)

i see what ur putting down🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

tw // physical abuse, implied noncon, kidnapping (lmk if i missed any tags!)

minors dni!!!! 18+

i feel like escaping stan is definitely easier than ford purely looking at logistics

stan allows you in the main areas of the house to clean and cook. once he believes he’s broken you into submission, he’ll even allow you to stay unlocked in the house to do your daily chores. for the first couple times he leaves alone, you’ll play along, gardening and doing yard work to see if you can fully like escape. stan doesn’t leave the shack for anything until the weekend and sometimes he’ll take you with, so like a month into this new “normal” he’ll leave for some “shopping” (telling you to cook dinner and finish up some chores) and that’s your chance. the moment you see that car leave your view, you pull on some pants and fucking book it. you run like hell until you reach the other side of the forest and hitchhike to fuck-knows-where. just away from gravity falls.

for ford, it’s wayyy harder cause he wouldnt let you out of his basement lab. like… ever. he practically lives down there and if he does need anything, he just tells stan and stan gets it. plus, ford has hugeeee trust issues. like the only time he ever removed your chains or whatever he’s using to keep you locked up, is when he’s running an experiment and he wants to use you as a guinea pig. i can think of one instance where he might bring you upstairs tho.

mabel and dipper find out abt you and ask to meet you (obvi they’re under the impression that you’re willingly staying with ford) and ford doesn’t want to disappoint his grand-niece and nephew. reluctantly, he gets you all dressed up and brings you up the stairs. he thinks he’s gotten you broken down but just in case, he gives you a bracelet that works similarly to those electric fence collars that dogs have. if you leave the shack property, he’s alerted and you’re tranquilized. you can’t take it off, but someone with pines dna can. halfway through this introduction, ford’s like “oh i gtg some research stuff i need to do is finished (idk im not a scientist)” and he leaves you with mabel and dipper!!! mabel fs sees ur bracelet and goes “omg!!! i need to male ur bracelet prettier!!!” and takes the bracelet off of you. dipper tries to stop her since its “your property” but you’re like “nooo!!!! like its totally fine!!” trying not to sound too eager loll the moment mabel takes the bracelet off, you calmly tell the kids that you’re going outside for some air and fucking SPRINT the moment your foot hits the grass outside the shack.

when it comes to getting you back, ford would def help stan and vice versa. the both of them have their strengths, so they’d definitely be able to help each other out.

stan is a grade A criminal. like he knows how to fake identities and hide from the fbi. at first, he waits a couple days, thinking you’ll be back. he obviously doesnt believe you’re capable of surviving without him, but once a week or so passes, he’s getting pissed. he has…. connections… that he can use to keep an eye out for you. say you do somehow manage to evade him for a while, that just pisses him off even more. stan (as lazy as he is) can get shit done if he puts his mind to it. so with the help of ford, he will find you. when stan does find you, he’s definitely relieved that you’re okay, but also he’s fucking pissed. he’s going to drag you out by your hair and shoves you into the back, ranting about your betrayal. he’ll bring you back home and will literally never let you out of your “cage” with supervision again. if he does let you out again, he’s going to be in the same room and ford def made him a nice collar for you, so you’re gonna be quite literally chained up like his dog. he’ll stop treating you like a person until you properly show him that you’ve understood what your place is.

smarty-pants ford will come up with something and stan would help with finding you becuz fords kind of a mess. when ford does find you, he’s like a desperate, manic mess. like he’s fr tweaking out, ranting abt how you broke his trust and how scared he was and how scared mabel and dipper was. you’re like cornered and freaked out cuz this guy looks crazy af. hes got you by the shoulders and shaking you, tearing up. he’s going to bring you back to the shack and put you back in the basement, but to make sure you won’t pull a stunt like this again, he’s going to snap your ankles. hes going to be telling you that its for your own good, but as punishment he won’t be giving you any medication. but yeah, now, ford’s never trusting you again so you’re gonna be stuck down in the basement forever :)

[wildstar25]

things that im thinking about in that birthday comic still cause i spent a lot of brain juice on it and I need everyone to know:

how much love g'raha has in his eyes when he's looking at Arsay

Y'shtola distracting Arsay with a kiss because oh gods she's using her brain and will figure out the surprise before it happens

The implication that either Arsay had attempted to read one of Y'shtola's books and only managed to get a little way through it OR that Y'shtola was reading one of Arsay's books (and was most likely not even research material. but the other scions cant know that so shes being vague.)

going back to that one wol question: arsay wouldnt fold the page edge but would use whatever she could find in her pockets as a bookmark

It was definitely G'raha's idea to surprise Arsay because he knew she wouldn't accept a party being thrown for her for reasons outside of WOL saving the world stuff

everyone's casual but nice outfit. It took a whole day just to figure those ones out! obvs graha and shtola are my favourites but thancred and krile are close seconds.

Arsay not being able to control her own cry reflex

Arsay looking so baby

Seriously this panel took so long

Arsay, definitely not fine, saying she is fine. its a reflex.

I mentioned in the tags but shes mostly upset over the fact people stopped everything on short notice to do something for her. She loves it, but she feels unbelievably guilty for it. She doesn't want to be a burden on those she cares so much about! That and her ever wavering self-worth compound into this really terrible mindset of "people shouldnt do things for me. I can only do things for them"

The only reason g'raha didnt rush over when Arsay started crying is because she asked for a moment and even if it was killing him he respects she needs space. Also he probably was not expecting her to cry as much as she did. Though he of all people understands sometimes it just happens like that.

Y'shtola knowing to re-frame the situation to arsay as a "duty" as a way to get Arsay out of her own head. She knows Arsay better than anyone (aside from G'raha).

Y'shtola showing some softness but its still very stern in delivery.

At the end of the day arsay is still offering someone else the first slice of cake. She wouldnt take it for herself. She'll only eat when her friends have had their fill. even if the cake is for her.

Arsay does not need to ask for a knife cause you know she has one on her

[theboy-thebitch-thelegend]

if u dont want my long ass rambling about Alastor, and some minor spoilers, dont look 😅 but he's my blorbo and therefore i'm studying him like a fucked up little bug (affectionate)

I see Alastor's character as a combination, mainly, of three main traits/motivations, plus one that i'm more guessing on but wouldnt surprise me:

1. he lacks empathy. this isn't a moral judgment, just a trait he displays

2. he seeks freedom above all else, but if asked, would rather admit to seeking power above all else. i believe his attempts to gain power are (consciously or not) a means to the end of freedom, not vice versa

3. he sorts people (demons, angels, whatever) into two categories: those he has control over, and those he doesnt. he is capable of respecting and forming relationships with only the latter category. not saying theyre healthy relationships, but they are often at least somewhat functional and prove lasting

...

the fourth (speculation) is that he hates himself lmao. which i think gets very intertwined with number 3. he's very self centered, that's just his view of the world(s). he has more respect for people who he has trouble controlling because he sees them as being in the same category as himself (as opposed to them being in the broader general category of a puppet audience beneath him). however he's not able to feel anything much deeper for them, because if his only lenses are "idiots" vs. "people like me", well. he has no respect for the former and no capability for love of the latter.

...

i think his inability to feel empathy or love leads him to have interesting motivations. freedom through power is perhaps the main one, as i mentioned. but when he first came to the hotel he stated his main goal was to be entertained. while he definitely had additional motives, i do think that was a true statement.

i think he's fascinated by Charlie because, well. she's the princess of hell. she should theoretically be one of the most powerful beings there. she *could* rule hell with an iron fist, if she wanted. but she doesnt. and i think Alastor wanted to see what that was about, i think it intrigued him.

right off the bat, she refuses to make a deal with him. that choice solidly places her in the "people he respects" category, by virtue of her keeping grasp on her own power and freedom. since that's Alastor's main goal for himself, it makes sense that he is drawn to others who manage to achieve it. if she'd taken a deal, the rest of the season wouldve gone way differently.

and probably, not as entertainingly.

one of the key parts of entertainment is that you don't quite know what's going to happen next. for a control freak like Alastor, that's hard to come by, unless he himself *is* the entertainment (which is a big part of his character). but he stated he came to the hotel to BE entertained. i see that as an admission that he didnt know what to expect from the hotel. which, coming from a powerful being, is quite a compliment- almost a statement that he believes in them.

i think Charlie challenges those fundamental categories that he puts people in. he can't sort her into either one. he can't control her, but she's nothing like himself. he knows she has something he doesn't. and unlike most other people, it's not something he can take from her to acquire for himself:

the ability to love.

as i said in the tags of a post i just reblogged:

#i think its interesting that the night before the fight tho when he's talking about getting used to the lot of them #it almost seemed a bit wistful #like i always knew he was fighting for his own goal whatever that may be #and yes he'll make alliances and stay loyal to them #but i really do think he was starting to wish it could be deeper than that #i dont know if he considers himself capable of it #we know he has old friends #not just strategic alliances but what actually appear to be friendships by every outward definition #but i dont think he's allowed himself (or believed himself able to) actually *feel* something for them #even when he can and will play the role of a friend and ally for various reasons #i think the hotel started to 'work' on him more than he anticipated #he didnt quite get to the point of truly feeling love for them #loyalty, protectiveness, willingness to avenge- yes. but he didnt feel love for them quite yet #but i think he wanted to. #ultimately he still was fighting for freedom (and i think his attempts to gain power are to that end, not vice versa). but i think he #did at least *want* to feel love even if he wasnt quite able to yet #and i think thats the only reason he didnt die.

in the battle, he lost his microphone, which represented his power, the measure of freedom and control he was able to claim: it's literally a tool to amplify and broadcast one's voice. by most reasonable calculations, he shouldve died. instead, his power and freedom was "killed"- but yet he wasn't.

the hotel didn't quite redeem him just yet: but i think it made him consider things he never had before.

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i found it interesting that there was no big fuss about his return. they had to all assume he was either dead, or deserted them. he had to know that they would assume one or the other: and neither one looks good on him. yet he confidently just shows up again and falls right back into the group. whether he realizes it or not, he knows on some level that they will accept him back.

he might not be able to love himself, and he might not be able to love them- maybe not yet, or maybe even not ever. but some part of him knows that they love him. and accepts it enough to go back without shame.

some might read that as more of a strategic move to keep furthering his own ends. and actually tbh i think *he* only sees it as that.

but there *is* more to it than that. there *is* love there, and he's connected to it in some way, which is probably a first for him. and i think/hope that *thats* what will end up being the key to his freedom.

[exiledelle]

its vengeance au PAPYRUS time (LINKED POST HAS UTY MERCILESS SPOILERS)

i was originally planning on having more sprite edits n stuff for this but unfortunately i think too many of my thoughts would be too hard for me to sprite, at least not currently, but. since i dont want to be spending months on this:

like i mentioned in the original post, after clovers slaughter of a decent part of the underground, and progress toward breaking the barrier being shot back to square one as a result, the royal guard essentially goes into a panic, putting out a mass recruitment.

much to the relatively-newly-crowned empress, undynes, dismay, this includes papyrus. wouldnt be a good look for her to turn down such an enthusiastic volunteer, especially not when the guard is in desparation.

but shes still biased, and doesnt want to see him hurt, so she manages to position him as a royal watchman instead of a guard. instead of capturing a human, his job is just to keep watch, help anyone who needs help in the forest, and if he manages to spot a human, all he needs to do is report the sighting to the rest of the guard. pretty simple and fitting job for him, and hes still very enthusiastic about it!! plus he gets a neat ranger uniform, so win-win (the design stuck)

once frisk escapes the ruins though, and clover chases after, papyrus notices somethings not right before hes able to send his report. theres TWO whole humans, which would surely make undyne and the guard happy, maybe send him up a couple ranks too, but...

his job is also to HELP people. and clearly, frisk needs help. so in a conflict of interest, papyrus opts to help frisk find safety deeper into the woods, and only reports clover, to try and keep them at bay

realizing way too late the kind of threat they are, and that theyre too far gone for his usual approach of trying to talk them down like he does in undertale. he'll attack clover, but only when they have him and/or his friends cornered and its absolutely necessary. papyrus IS tough, so he can at least stall them, but he also knows his best chance is to find an opening to flee (he still has to protect frisk, after all), and that a prolonged encounter isnt really in his favor

unfortunately, being a watchman, as well as undyne being busy with empress duties, means he doesnt have as much time for his usual Spaghetti Training, so he falls back to rations of dinosaur egg oatmeal (calling them rations makes it sound cooler to him), which he gladly shares with anyone

...he gets a little overexcited though. its fine, this is normal for him, dont worry. also, the oatmeal survives this.

also in case youre wondering about sans: hes....actually pretty much the same, all things considered. hes happy papyrus got into the guard, tags along to his outposts, pulls his usual pranks, that kind of stuff. this isnt a sans au (and i dont really want it to be), so theres like. not a lot of emphasis on him, and theres not really going to be. he'll still like. timestop to drag papyrus and frisk out of danger given that hes there, cuz he does want to help protect them both, but hes not going to go all out on clover, at least not right away, and not without backup or a plan.

(also i say timestop and not teleport just because thats my own interpretation of the grillbys scene, and him having attacks start and end in seemingly random spots during his fight, i dont think its definitively canon or anything, but i still lean more toward timestop than simple teleportation)

WITH undyne busy though, papyrus is assigned a different captain to answer and report to.

someone... ...nyafarious... within the guard.

she will come later though. once i can make a sprite or two, and have more details ironed out. (should probably also start making a masterpost for this au at some point)

[scrapperjoe]

Josuke post grad

I was inspired by @/yossarianirl (not fully tagging for the sake of notifications) posting their josuke head canons i feel like posting about my ideas especially for the nijimura au.

First off, homie definitely has adhd. School was rough for him especially with constant stand drama and trips to the hospital. A lot of people, myself included, always like to imagine josuke in the medical field, but don't really realize the grades you have to have to get into med school are lowkey insane. You gotta be at the top of your class; advanced placement classes no less. Josuke would no doubt really struggle getting those grades. Especially given the Japanese education system being notoriously cut throat.

But josuke feels like its his duty to help people and goes to med school regardless through the speedwagon foundation. They do offer him a lot of accomodations and even hook him up with tutoring and extended time to turn in work. (The spwf is disability friendly because i say so.) And after ungodly hours spent studying all those silly medical terms and such, hes able to pass and INSTANTLY goes into being a paramedic. One of the worst mistakes of his life.

My heart goes out to anyone in this position because of what you have to deal with. Josuke had thought "i can just save them with crazy diamond!" And learned his lesson way too fast. Sometimes the paramedics arrive too late, and crazy diamond can't help with strokes, heart attacks or overdoses. Theres some emergencies... You just cant help with. Mortality is an unfortunate part of being a living being. And life is incredibly fragile. The position lasts at best 1 year before josuke has an incredibly horrible week full of death. The mental toll and survivors guilt is far too much. Even with counselling hes met his limit. The dreams and nightmares are too much to bare so he has to quit. Since he didnt want his suffering through med school to go to waste he decides to become a physical therapist.

With all this said, it's no mystery that josukes a mess of an adult. Tomoko cooked almost all his meals and he has little to no adult skills other than laundry. After moving out post grad he lived off instant meals having no idea how to cook. He completely lost his appetite because of soggy freezer meals and fake food. Doubled with amounting credit card debt from retail therapy and shopping to relieve stress, to the point when hyakuko meets her fkmt fixation keicho cant help but feel kaiji seems all too familiar, he was not in good shape.

After moving in with the nijimuras however after okuyasus ex wife walked out, things got better. Living alone was not for Josuke, and with the added family members, some things get a lot easier to manage from meals, to laundry, and so on. Yeah, a 6 person family (7 including josuke) is a lot. But... Okuyasus cooking and keicho doing a fair share of the cleaning took a huge burden off him. Josuke being able to help with the kids was a HUGE help amidst okuyasu recovering from insomnia and the plethora of issues keicho lives with. Keicho helps him with paying off credit card debt and honestly, josuke wouldnt have it any other way than to be with that family.

[symposiumagia]

SRRY ABT HOW LENGTHY THIS IS 😿

ive been reading fanfics about snowkit and believe ive come up with a way for him to have become a warrior if he had survived the hawk attack (this is only likely though if speckletail got the hawk to drop him, since any other potential way for him to survive (hawk drops him whilst higher off the ground) wouldve either a; caused injuries that were beyond repair so he wouldnt be able to be mentored or b; kill him)

if speckletail had managed to make the hawk lose grasp of snowkit, he'd only need to recover from the injuries and potential physical therapy

because of his disability, it would be a struggle to train him as you would a normal apprentice, so they would obviously need to come up with a way to communicate to each other

which is where my personal idea comes into play

we know that starclan cats can visit dreams of the living, firepaw for example. from what ive seen, i dont think they have any specific criteria a living cat must have in order for a starclan resident to visit them (besides medicine cats, but those are using propheicies so its different)

but suppose there were, i believe snowkit surviving such an event would make him qualify for it, seeing as they most likely didnt expect him to live, maybe even intended on him dying (like the erins when they killed him off so his mother would have no choice but to retire)

i also dont recall if cats who were born with disabilities were able to see/hear/etc in their dreams (jayfeathers the exception, for obvious reasons) so lets say they can, or if they cant, starclan can at the least make them able to for special occassions

why this is relevant is because cloudkit NEEDS to learn what his clanmates are saying, which sure, they can use tail motions, but thatll never fully work

now imagine a cat, one who had gone deaf or hard of hearing dur to an accident, but managed to learn how to read lips and use tail signals at the same time

this cat is sent/or chooses to visit snowkit in his dreams, where he can hear, and teaches him how to speak, read lips, and how to use tail signals

this, alongside brackenfur training him in the world of the living, would allow for him to properly communicate with his clanmates AND be able to properly excell in his training, inevitably becoming a warrior, likely later than the typical apprentice due to needing to learn how to speak AND lipread, plus how to control how loud he is, and effectively import those skills into the real world where he is deaf

he'd still probably struggle a little, but not too much to the point its impairing. he might scare off prey sometimes from underrestimately yhe ptedsure he puts into his footsteps, but his heightened senses, primarily scent and sight, would be able to make up for this

this is my first time posting lol

if possible to draw or write a fanfic based off this scenario, pls do! id love to see it, i really love snowkits tragic character, and have read all the interesting fanfics tagged with his name, so im at a deadend on what to do

[yuukei-yikes]

im extremely kidomomopilled right now.

momo is the first person outside of kido's family to see their burn scars. and she's glad kido was able to share something like this with her and helps them be less insecure about them, to the point where kido can now wear short sleeve shirts/sleeveless shirts around the rest of the dan.

adult!kidomomo time. momo is sooo the type of person to drop their kid off at school and be shout "HAVE A NICE DAY ILY" out the window and hibiya tries to act like he does Not know this lady. thankfully after the first 3 times kido would just conceal the car so neither hibiya or the other kids around him hear momo. god bless.

YES🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 comfortable kido *bows bows bows*

also u said kid and i was like KIDOMOMO KAGEKID⁉️ then it was just hibiya and i was like. oh. yeah. yeah. true

momo is those tiktoks that are like picking up my little brother at school🔥 and kesha is playing LOUDLY while a rly embarrassed kid gets in the car. thats momo and hibiya

momo wouldnt NEED to take or pick up hibiya from school bc he can manage himself. but she INSISTS. "we barely get to hang out anymore!!!" she says.... "this is our quality time of the day!!!!!"

hibiyas like this is so stupid we live together we dont need to HANG OUT or HAVE QUALITY TIME. we're always together at home!!!! <- idiot boy. he says that but he also likes these rides with momo bc he does miss her its just that hes like 16 or something and has friends his age he hangs out with AND he's probably very busy studying a lot since a Big condition his parents allow him to move to kashiwa with kidomomo is if he keeps EXCELLENT grades...

also what if hibiya Can manage himself very well in the city bc he's basically got the map memorized cuz of the timeloop (hc from this fanfic though from hiyori's pov go read it if u can stomach the tags its sooooo good)(but also very angsty nothing like what were talking abt here LOL) but he's still not super into navigating it by himself. even if he's lived there for a while he's still rly uneasy walking around so many ppl and shops. i think hiyori manages better by herself than he does so hibiya isnt entirely against momo coming everywhere

sorry i made it all abt hibiya and momo but u were brainrotting abt kidomomo. kido concealing THE WHOLE CAR is so funny but i guess they could do that huh anyways kidomomo should kiss like a tiny little mwack in front of hibiya and hibiya cringes and acts like its the end of the world and he needs to move out immediately

[astuteabstractionist]

i forgot that "putting a post under specific tags" leads to "people looking at the specific tags will see your post". so uh, hi! im not great at writing or talking, but i hope those of you who followed will enjoy.

(very long ramble under the cut)

anyways, ive been exploring the east branch the past... week? i think? ive been absolutely enthralled by this area. im such a sucker for strange and nonsensical places. exploring the various random rooms feels like travelling in a dream. id love to get out some graph paper sometime and try recording my path like you would in an old-school dungeon crawler. i think itd be very funny seeing just how lost i can get.

the tape recordings in the vents are maybe my favorite part though. its always a joy clicking on a vent and having the brief russian-roulette moment of "will this be of relevance to what im seeing or will this be smash mouths all star?" ive been caught off guard by the louder version many, many times. it never fails to amuse me. i believe ive seen all of the logs, but with how much there is in this branch i wouldnt be surprised to find a new one.

the memories im still not done with. last i checked i believe i was at... 110 out of 294? im excited to find out if its possible to get all of them, and what happens if you do. it is very difficult to accomplish this im realizing, since the counter depletes seemingly at random. this might be an entirely fruitless endeavor, but im nothing if not always down for a good challenge :)

i think the most eyecatching piece of the east branch is the chatlogs between wodin and the intern. when i first read through the entire thing, and i was meant to descend into the coffin, i declined (there was a vent in the room and i wanted to get the popup out of the way to read the transcript) and was then unable to trigger that dialogue popup again... which left me stuck wandering the rooms until i refreshed. whoops. its alright though, just gave me another opportunity to collect some more memories.

on my most recent venture, the coffin was present in the center from the very beginning, and almost immediately after starting to explore, a window popped up with some messages to wodin from the closer. while i did very much enjoy reading the contents, it did take me... around twenty minutes to screenshot them all? it was slightly nauseating trying to scroll down, since it kept shooting me back up to the top of the log whenever i tried to read the bottom-most message :( i did manage to screenshot them all eventually though, so i was able to actually read them all. im still super curious what it mightve been that triggered those changes in that run! i dont think i did anything different, other than play on a friday. maybe that was it.

god, theres so so much more i could say, this might be my favorite branch thus far. despite how much ive seen, i still feel like i havent even come close to seeing it all!

oh whoof. i didnt realize how long this was, ill need to put all of this under a readmore. hm. tl;dr, ive been having a boatload of fun exploring the east branch. if you havent done so yet, i highly suggest venturing into it for yourself. its like exploring a kaleidoscope maze within a dream. 10/10 experience

[dakbees]

bias tag game

rules: you're going to pick 10 of your biases (or as many biases as you have and then fill in the rest of the spots with idols you like) and number them 1-10. then answer the questions below! try not to look at the questions before you make your list!

tagged by @ambivartence and @dive-in-the-blue

Biases (just whoever came to my head first):

Yanan (Pentagon)

Wonsang (Lucy)

Changmin (DKB)

Dongil (DKB)

Yeri (Red Velvet)

Hui (Pentagon)

Bang Jaemin (soloist)

Jamie (soloist)

Rena (Pristin/Hinapia)

J-us (ONF)

1. Between 7 and 5, who did you bias first?

Yeri by quite a while! I started biasing her in 2016 (a bit before russian roulette era) and i didn't even discover jaemin until he was in top management (2018, i believe?) after that, i kept up with him and i started biasing him with his debut fairytail: lingering ep :)

2. Between 2 and 6, who are you more attached to?

Nooooo this is so harddddd 😭 i genuinely dont think i can chose, hui and wonsang both mean so much to me.... like if i had to chose between meeting one or the other i dont think i could chose either, i would just flip a coin and let that decide for me so... after flipping a coin i suppose i must chose wonsang (altho i still very much love hui so so so so much)

3. If you were to spend the day with either 3 or 1, who would you choose and what would you do?

im sorry changmin i love you but yanan is my number 1 my babyboo the light of my life and the wind in my sails. tbqh i just want to meet yanan so i can tell him how much he means to unis no matter what happens with cube and contract renewals coming up soon we will all stand behind him :( i know how much he struggles with his own self confidence so i just want to reassure him that we love him regardless, especially since cube has always treated him so poorly. i love him so much :(

4. What is your favorite physical feature about 9?

honestly?? i think rena's nose is very attractive. its one of the first things i noticed about her. shes very pretty in general and i like how silky her hair looks as well, but her nose is so sharp and i love the way it curves up a bit at the end :3

5. What is your favorite part of 6's personality?

what ISNT there to love about hui's personality? hes just so.. hui.. but if i can be a bit cheesy here, it would have to be how kind he is. hes so caring of his members and protective of them (like how he said he could never just watch if one of his members got in a fight aka hes gonna beat someone up) and he always has such a fond look when talking about or just looking at them. hes also just!! such a swell guy!! for boys planet and road to kingdom he just befriended everyone!! he knows mnet is shitty and tried to make everyone happy even though he was there to win/make a name for pentagon. hes so headstrong but can be so gentle when it comes to others

6. If you were to tell 8 anything you wanted, what would you tell them?

oh jamie :(( i know youve been through a lot but seeing you grow as both a person and an artist has been the most satisfying thing. youve been able to find yourself despite everything that has been in your way and everyone holding you back. im so proud of how far youve come and i will be even more proud watching where you go. i will listen to your beautiful voice now and remember the adorable 19-year-old i found so long ago. youve matured so much since then. thank you for coming back despite the hardships and i look forward to supporting you in the furture

7. Between 1 and 2, whose closet would you raid?

fahsBJDnalk neither i wouldnt fit into yanans or wonsangs clothes and tbh they arent really my aesthetic. hmm but if i had to chose one, maybe wonsang?? he wears a lot of sweaters and i do too when im lounging around the house :)

8. What is a style that you want to see 3 try?

i know changmin (and all of the dakbees tbh) are more into streetwear than anything else, but i would love to see him in something a bit more alternative! especially techwear i think he would look soooo good. theres just something about a man covered head to toe in black that does something to me 😔 (but if were talking music, i would love to see him do another hype rap song with the rest of rap team a la samsung!)

9. Between 5 and 4, who are you closer to in height?

considering yeri is like 5'2" and dongil is around 5'8", def dongil lol. im still taller than him tho 😈 (i really doubt thats his real height i was taller than him by a bit when i met them lol)

10. Between 10 and 9, whose music do you like the best?

well pristin and hinapia both have.. a very lacking discography lol. they have about 11 songs total? i love them all dont get me wrong (i am very partial to tina and aloha) but onf have so many more songs than them i feel like it would be a disservice to NOT chose them. plus, onf has one of my fave discographies in the entirety of kpop. moscow moscow, the realist, original, asteroid, geppeto, i do, if we dream, why, we must love, yayaya-- all songs that have had a grip over me at some point or another.

[queerlordsimon]

Holidays with friends

Cw

An: this is for my secret santa giftee, @iniini , from @twstedsecretsanta event. I hope i did your oc’s justice, though im not positive, and i hope you can forgive me if they are not done the best. Please enjoy, and i would love to get to know them better after this!

Ah, the wonderful time, spending the holidays with your friends, an always fun experience. Especially for Ori and Mallow. So of course, when they were invited to spend it at the Monstro Lounge by Jade, they accepted. Well, Ori accepted, and then convinced/dragged Mallow with them.

“Ori, do you have to take me with you?” Ori nodded vigorously.

“Of course Mallow! I already told everyone you'd be there. Don't worry, they won't expect you to talk too much” Ori chirped. Mallow sighed slightly, not much of a tone to it, and allowed Ori to drag them to Octavinelle.

Once they arrived, they were both surprised to see more than just the fish mafia, rather, they saw most of their friends. Ace and Deuce had already dragged grim along with them, from their babysitting him to give the two a break. Jack had tagged along as well, and silver was inexplicably there as well, albeit asleep at a booth. Jade smiled his signature smile, as he approached.

“Welcome our ramshackle friends. I'm glad you could both make it.” Ori smiled and nodded.

“Of course Jade! Wouldnt miss it. Thank you for inviting us!” Mallow nodded sharply in response.

“Of course, of course. Well, make yourselves at home, I have convinced Azul that everything will be free for today for your little group, so enjoy. “ Mallow nodded again, before sweeping away, to go sit next to the sleeping silver, going to be content with mostly people watching. Ori smiled brightly at Jade, before taking their leave to go join in the shenanigans the freshman squad was causing.

“Yo Ori! Nice of you to join us!” Ace smiled, playfully nudging their shoulder. Ori hummed and nodded.

“Of course, I couldn't leave all the impulsive decisions to you guys.” Ori smiled widely.

“Just in time, henchhuman! Floyd just brought out food from the kitchen!” Grim said smugly, before attempting to grab stuff off of the buffet plate with his paws. Deuce held him back.

“Grim, no, ask one of us to get it for you with silverware, you will not be putting your grubby paws in other people's food.” Grim grumbled, before pulling Deuce to do it for him. Jack chuckled good-naturedly.

“Nice to see you, Ori. I saw you managed to pull along Mallow?”

“That I did Jacky, though I'm sure they are going to be just content sitting watching us from next to Silver, so it is fine. Hopefully” Ace chuckled loudly.

“Yeah, Mallow will enjoy themselves. “ he said, as Ori waved to Mallow, who waved back, slightly, eyes training across them all. Jack smiled cheerfully.

“Well, it's good you were able to pull them out of the house, getting out is a good thing. “

“That it is Jacky, that it is.” Ori smiled, before starting to get their food, as Grim and Deuce came back, Grim sitting on Deuce's shoulders eating, the plate balancing on top of his head, as the tanuki ate with his paws. Ori laughed softly, before letting their gaze turn across the lounge, which they hadn't been to since the holidays had started.

It appeared Azul had decided to take after the traditional Christmas decorations. Garlands and lights hanging on the ceilings, big evergreens in the corners, that seemed almost haphazardly decorated, though that could have just been because of the popcorn and cranberry garlands, which seemed to have been eaten on, presumedly by Floyd. The doors all had evergreen wreaths on them, and poinsettia flowers sat at the base of them.

“It seems Azul got the lounge in full festive feeling.” Ace nodded.

“That it does. Very Christmassy in here, isn't it Jacky?” He said teasingly to Jack, who grunted.

“Only Ori can call me that, Ace” which in turn caused Deuce to laugh.

“Yeah Ace.”

“You don't get to say anything, Mr goody two shoes, your head is being used as a table.” causing Deuce to pout. Ori shook their head, smiling at the freshman's antics. Grim smiled proudly.

“Henchhuman, you have to try this food, it's to die for!” deuce shook his head gently, not to fling the food.

“It might actually be to die for, Floyd made it” Grim's smile dropped before Floyd came bounding out of the kitchen, hugging the cat-like freshman.

“Catfishhyyyy, how nice of you to join us! And Mackerelll, how could you accuse me of poisoning this food? I wouldn't want catfish to die, would I?” Ori chuckled and rolled their eyes.

“Nice to see you too Floyd, thank you for making food for us!” Ori smiled widely. Floyd cheered and squeezed tighter. Jack's eyes soften,

“Floyd, you may want to loosen up that grip, you wouldn't want to hurt Ori.” Floyd pouted but did so, letting Ori release a breath of relief to breathe again.

Across the room, Mallow was very intently and carefully watching all the interactions, smiling softly to themselves. They hummed quietly, as their eyes danced over the decorations as well.

Some of the more decorations that Ori had missed were just how sparkly the tree toppers were, and that there were little enchanted snowmen as centerpieces on the tables, that skated around a small metal circle on the table, had small snowball fights with each other, and made different expressions. There were some snow globes hanging from the garland as well, making the droop more, but it was very pretty to watch.

As Mallow watched Ori and the others mess around, Silver stirred slightly from his sleep, sitting up quite groggily, making Mallow glance at him.

“Good afternoon Silver. Was your nap enjoyable?” Mallow said, not much feeling in their voice, but the sentiment was there. Silver nodded as he blinked some of the sleep out of his eyes.

“Afternoon Mallow, yes, my nap was quite enjoyable except I do not remember falling asleep,” he mumbled sleepily. Mallow nodded, moving their eyes back to the loud group.

“It's good at least that you fell asleep here instead of anywhere else. Outside is quite cold right now. “ Silver nodded in response, running his palms over his eyes, and blinking some more.

“Yeah, there is that, but I was here early in a wish to be here and awake for when Ori inevitably dragged you here. But here I was sleeping on you. I must apologize. “

“It's fine, Silver, I know you can not help it. Why do we not go get food? It should assist in waking you up.” Mallow said, standing up and looking at Silver, who nodded.

“That should work, Thank you, Mallow. “ Mallow nodded swiftly, as he stood.

“Not a problem Silver,” they said as they both walked towards the louder group.

“Ah Silver, your up!” Ori said loudly when they got closer, Silver nodded to the cat.

“Good to see you Ori, Glad you could make it. “ Ori smiled,

“Well someone had to make sure Mallow got out. “ Mallow shook their head.

“I could have gone out on my own Ori. “

“I know~” Ori hummed and smiled, winking. Mallow rolled their eyes before pulling Silver to get food, as jade joined his brother and made small chat with the freshmen. Mallow and Silver joined in on the conversation with food. Well, Silver did mostly, but Mallow added some comments here and there. The group hung out until later in the night when the freshmen had to pack up and head home, Ori took Grim and placed him on their shoulders, as they and Mallow trekked back to Ramshackle, full and content.

[falsementor]

LITTLE MUSE FACTS.

Instructions: fill out the questions about your muse, repost, and tag as many people as you want!

1) What does your muse smell like?:

i've touched on this already actually!! here's the more in depth answer if you're curious, but tldr; macaque's scent is like incense - the smell of lilies, old fabric, and burning smoke follows him wherever he goes.

2) How often does your muse bathe/shower?:

often enough! but he doesn't have access to like. luxury things such as running hot water (homeless moment but also still lowkey kind of a wild animal moment) so he usually just bathes in rivers and springs (hot springs if he's lucky!), and uses either scentless soap or herbs he managed to gather that can work like soap. he knows how to live off the land, so!

3) Does your muse have any tattoos or piercings?:

nope! and i don't think macaque has really considered getting any. he's kinda covered in fur so a tattoo wouldnt show up well. piercings, on the other hand... maybe. i think it's something he'd have to be talked into doing... maybe an ear piercing on one ear could be a look. but he doesn't like his ears being touched, so hm.

4) Any body movement quirks? (EX: tapping heel, shaking knee)

the big one is his trade mark Dramatic Bitch stance where he folds his hands behind his back. he does it constantly, lmao. his tail also lashes back and forth when he gets excited or angry (or both) - man's unhinged and his mannerisms show it.

5) What do they sleep in?:

depends on what points in his life, because what he'd sleep in would depend on what era it is and also what's going on in his life. in the past before his falling out with swk, he probably slept in robes of some sort, i'd imagine. but after that - he was on the run all the time, so he rarely had the time to rest - let alone change into something comfortable. i think THESE days, however, with lady bone demon gone, he can... indulge a little bit more now. probably just strips down to his pants and shirt.

6) What’s their favorite piece of clothing?:

the cloak! it's fabric is sturdy and heavy, and has kept him safe and warm all these years, so yea :] has a bit of a sentimental attachment to it.

7) What do they do when they wake up?:

i think macaque is the type to wake with a start, and scan his surroundings. he's... yea. the trauma. it'll take him some time to be able to wake peacefully. but after that initial panic, i think it depends. sometimes, he'll just lay there and disassociate for a while. eventually, he'll get up, stretch, and go start his day.

8) How do they sleep? Position?:  

he sleeps light, and on his back, with his arms crossed behind his head. sometimes he'll have a knee pulled up, too.

he can't sleep in any other position.

9) What do their hands feel like?:

calloused, and strong.. but also warm. the tips of his fingers end with sharp claws. the years of combat have hardened them over time.

but his fur is still downy and soft, at least.

tagged by: @omniversentertwined

tagging: @hismentor @newdleboy @samadhifire @stcries @fatedefyd @abitangy @megapolismayor @lunarspeared

[drawing-way-outside-the-lines]

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Chapter 5 - Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas. Episode 2.

Evan: Well thats our gang, and dont worry, we arent per say a gang, we just call it that way. I feel I maybe should say a bit more about Andy and Congo, as they are a big part of the gang as well. Congo is 49 years old, making him the oldest member of "the gang". He is a carpenter, very warm hearted, very tall, very big and bulgy guy with hair on his chest and arms. A real muscly teddy bear. He is kind, compassionate, loving, caring, really just a great guy who always wants to help. And then there's Andy. Smart, willstrong, reckless, passionate, strong, artistic in so many ways, flirty, cheeky, and add to all of that a dash of crazy. He is wonderful really. I could talk about him for hours, and I probably will end up doing so… but still I wouldnt be able to give him half as much credit as I want to. I admire him. Really. And now as I have mentioned the gang, I just wanna round it all of by quickly introducing Andy's family as we also shared Christmas with. Leonard, Andy's dad. 52 years old. Goes by the name Lenny. Very intelligent, great humor, a real family man always trying his best to help where he can. Katherine, Andy's mom, goes by the name Kat. 51 years old, very sweet and kind woman, very loving, a bit of a hen mom, very protective of Andy, but there is many understandable reasons for that, reasons Im sure most people would be able to understand if they knew. George, Andy's uncle, Lenny's big brother. 63 years old. Highly educated psychologist and Andy's therapist. Very down to earth, very caring and friendly. And last but not least, George's wife Gabriella. Mostly goes by the name Gaby. Shes much younger than George, actually only 33 years old. But they seem to have a very loving, yet open relationship. They are allowed to have sex with others, as long as they use protection. She is sweet, filled with positive energy, nature loving, a bit of a hippy although the right term in her opinion, is Gypsy. She is very beautiful, spiritual and knows a bit of white magic. She is an educated sexologist, and often advices Andy, trying to guide him through his new sexuality. I tend to keep a bit of a distance to her, she looks almost identical with my ex… the one I broke off with just before Christmas. Only she has darker skin, and less bitchy attitude.

Right, as I were saying; Christmas day… the whole gang was gathered at the ranch to celebrate Christmas and hopefully at the same time lift all our spirits a bit as well. It had been a rough past couple of months for most of us, so it was safe to say we needed a bit of fun. So we all decided to head to the nearby park. Fresh air would do us all good. It was gently snowing, everyone was chatting and trying to catch up on news from each others lives, some started building snowmen, while others had snowball fights. I looked around, Andy wasnt anywhere to be seen, so I left the group to go search for him. I found him quickly, I had been wondering why he was dragging a backpack around, and why he had had a smirk on his face while walking to the park. Turned out the idiot knew there were a small pond, and of course he had brought ice skates. This is the man who can dance like you see in the movies, you know Step up and shit, but still he can manage to trip over his own shadow. I laughed as he twirled around himself like a ballerina, he is always doing crazy shit like that. He laughed at me, pointed at the bag and told me he brought a pair for me as well. I couldnt figure if it was a bad or good idea, but I guess it was either the skates or building a snowman with Daniel that kept eagerly yelling my name. A snowman he would give up on half way through, and leave me to finish. So I grabbed the skates. I shook my head while tying them on, thinking there was no way this could end up well, as I hadnt worn skates since my early teens, but despite all warning signs flashing, I let myself glide out on the ice. Turns out ice skating is a bit like riding a bike, you never really forget how it works. We skated around for a while, just circling the pond, enjoing the fresh cold air on our cheeks, making them blush deep red. Andy kept smiling happily, it was easy to see he needed this. The freedom. Truthfully he is much like a child still, lets just say he had a rough start at life. Its really not anything I wanna get into. Cause Im not sure I can handle reminding myself about it. But sometimes, its easy to see the child still living in him. I guess thats one of the many reasons why we all tend to be protective towards him, well that and his suicide attempts also added to the constant feeling of protecting him, and the constant worry. I had missed seeing him smile like this. Happy. Worry free. I found myself getting lost in his bright smile, so when he grabbed my hand, I at first didnt notice. I guess I had already gotten quite used to him holding it when we were hiding somewhere alone. However, as I did notice, I stopped and quickly put both my hands in my pockets.

Andy: Frowned lightly What? He pointed towards the group they are pretty far away, and they are all bussy playing or yapping… no one is gonna see us. He reached his hand towards mine Come on man… lets take a spin.

Me: I looked towards the group, he was right, they were pretty far away, maybe they wouldnt notice? I looked at his hand, hesitating, and just as he looked like he was going to give up on me, I grabbed his hand okay… a quick spin…

Andy: His smile grew big and wide, and made his eyes sparkle, damned if he didnt knew how beautiful his eyes were in that state. He grabbed my other hand as well, and started slowly spinning us around on the ice, chuckling softly see… we are well hidden by the bridge… and I bet no one has even noticed we are gone anyway, I bet I could even kiss you without anyone noticing he winked at me and smiled cheekily

Me: No, dont! For a guy with a pretty deep voice, I find it hard to understand why my voice suddenly came out as a squeaky girl voice, and I blushed deep red

Andy: He chuckled hoarse since when do you blush?

Me: I looked down on our hands as I felt my cheeks get even warmer

Andy: He tilted his head and chuckled in the same hoarse tone and since when are you shy?

Me: I stopped and looked at him with a glare

Andy: Chuckled warmly alright alright, I'll shut my big mouth…. I'll try to behave okay?

Me: I chuckled softly and shook my head as I started spinning again We both know thats near impossible.

Andy: He chuckled cheekily and pointed his tongue at me You know me so well.

Me: *I chuckled softly, thinking to myself he was right. I had known him almost 15 years, it just seemed like Andy had always been in my life, one way or another. I observed his at that point green mohawk, the snow flakes getting caught in it as we were spinning around, his eyesbrow piercing, the new piercing on his nose bridge, his lip piercing, and as I sniffled my runny nose, I felt the cold metal of my own septum piercing. Just yesterday he had complained that my snake bite piercings in my bottom lip had been like and I quote him 'kissing a cold lamp post' so I had taken them out for the day. Not that we could kiss anywhere around here anyway, but just in case an oportunity would drop. It was hard to see anything but Andy, the slowly falling snow surrounded his well proportioned face, made his high cheekbones look even more pink from the cold, he was gorgeous, and I longed for his lips. I got so lost in him, spinning on that pond, and I think he got lost in me too. So lost we didnt even notice Daniel had snuck up on us, and was now enjoying life as a paparazzi. He was alrady on to us, and determined to get a proof. But for now the rest of the world didnt exist, it was only Andy, the falling snow and I. Well that was until we both lost ballance.

[rowanthestrange]

bless u for thinking there’s structure as to whether i manage to miss a post or not, tungl on ‘mobile web browser’ is a crapshoot

#new friendship level unlocked &lt;3#im not.....entirely sure we've got the same thesis here tho#maybe we do i wouldnt be that surprised if you disagree#but like ive not even formulated my own thesis here properly so im not sure i know it or what you understand of it#/which part of it you disagree with#bc i was........pettyannoyedposting#that word doesnt really work but it's on the pattern of vagueposting#but so first level of my post here was just 'stop calling the doctor neurodivergent especially in canon it annoys me'#second level 'and it misses the point'#third 'and i can prove it' (not convinced i can but)#fourth (getting somewhere into the area of what my actual thesis would be probably) 'the doctor as a character (by design or evolution or#bit of both) is a perpetual other which is an experience that resonates with most people in one way or another#(fun bit of paradoxicality there) and what makes an other is not about (doctor) who/what you are#but rather about what everything around you is. the narratives youre captive in (social identities nationalities racialisation alienisation#what is Normal and how do you respond to it. how do you construct yourself/are you constructed through this response.#and i know what youre thinking now 'dimitri how the fuck did you get here' and also 'you dont know what a thesis statement is'#and you are correct#however how the fuck i got here is autism and its kin (dsm/icd diagnoses) are constructions of (ab)normalcy as heterosexuality and whitenes#and to diagnose the doctor i think doesnt work in a couple of ways#first of which is that a diagnosis i think only means something in the context of treatment#the second of which is that i think it stops what could be an interesting conversation/exploration as a theme in dw#the third of which is that it accepts the authority of the dsm/icd/psychiatrist and the validity of 'neurodivergent' as a concept#which i dont. and now im back to my petty first emotional response. nardole voice: hey we got there#and im missing a lot of aspects of the othering here clearly and also i dont know what im talking about CLEARLY ive never made an essay but#*gestures vaguely* was this the thing you disagreed with? ghkghjgh

Yeah, no, I do get it I think. From this and your previous tags and things, I think so. So here’s my essay i guess. Not a rebuttal just my general take, long, rambly, not exactly structured and best argued cus i’m just killing time til art supplies arrive and my brain wants to do that instead. Feel free to skip sections or all of it tbh, I really don’t care about this all that much despite essay length, do not take this as me giving a shit about minor differences in opinion if that’s even what these are. Headings are in bold for easy skippability.

Personal Views (not Dr Who. This was part of my conclusion but fuck it i’m making it the top actually):

I believe in normalising the not-normal, but I don’t think people saying “everyone’s weird and we’re all a bit different :) ” is actually the way to do that. I think that’s the “I don’t see colour” approach. I don’t think it works and I don’t think it particularly helps, neither people on an individual level or the wider society practically.

Love disability. Love neurotypes. Love definitions that flex as people lean on them differently year to year. Think diagnosis is incredibly helpful unless there’s a contraindication (like if god forbid you desperately want to join the army, and you think you might be a little autistic, hey, if it doesn’t impact your life that much, don’t need to be barred from getting your dream job just for that but also get a better dream job). Pro medication to be whatever you need to be, be that a woman, a non-depressed person, or someone able to hold down a job. Meds are Accessibility.

I think that some people prefer not be considered abnormal, and I get that, but knowing you’re in a small area that most aren’t in the spectrum of human existence is ultimately helpful. Pretending that some experiences/disabilities aren’t disabilities but actually based on our ‘cultural expectations of x y and z’ are often cope meant to validate negative emotions towards that aspect of the self or that person’s relations with their proximal environment; without true reference to the fundamental experiences of people with disabilities, and the points that actually bind us together across the world to our kin in other countries. And being broken compared to other people can be fine actually. But identifying it helps both internally, socially, and medically.

My General Philosophy - Not Dr Who related, whether relevant or not depends on if I was understanding you correctly:

So I disagree with the general thesis usually put forward in left spaces that ‘mental illness/neurodivergence’ is a socio-cultural construct created by white people, and terms we’ve constructed related to such, like “ADHD”, are therefore fundamentally rooted in that and why should cultures of non-white people be pathologised using these terms.

Here: The Doctor isn’t [earth term] they’re [not from our culture].

This also is often dovetailed with the social model of disability. Which I’m sure you know, but that’s stating ‘disability’ as consequence of a world not built for you i.e. the idea that in a world of wheelchair users you would not be disabled.

On a philosophical level, while I understand them, I generally disagree with both.

Going in reverse.

These often are rooted in people seeing ‘disability’ (and here substitute for any other non-normative words I just don’t want to fill this with /queer/minority-gender etc) from an external perspective. I think it’s probably the least dangerous way for a normative person to think if you have to feed them a lazy solution, but it’s still lacking in nuance. And ultimately It’s a….validation response. “There’s nothing wrong with you, it’s the world that’s wrong” which ew. Cus I don’t think either is ‘wrong’ - a non-normative person or the world. It flattens the concepts.

And while helpful in a ‘please god just make accommodations like ramps’ way, and it is, it so is, please don’t let the non-disabled people read this; it doesn’t have the fundamental core of truth in this world we live in. I.e. if you can’t make a world of all wheelchair users, and you can’t, then with all the feasible accommodations in the world you’re still ultimately going to be disabled. Because you can’t change the heights of everything to a wheelchair user without making taller people have to bend painfully a lot etc. and none of it stops the variety of people that are wheelchair users where some can do some things, others can do others, and none of it gets rid of things like pain and hygiene difficulties and whatever, just says ‘but it would be easier to access painkillers, rest, etc’. The social model of disability purely used, is a good broad base for disability rights, but also in that pure form doesn’t stand up to much scrutiny unless you bring things back to one singular individual.

Example:

When my brain is full of cats, if I was in a world of people whose brains are also full of cats, we’re all still disabled because we can’t effectively communicate our ideas with each other.

Is it only useful to see this as a disability in order to access treatment/medication? I’d argue no. Knowing how and why you’re different is helpful on a fundamental level I feel. And in a world where most people’s brains aren’t full of cats, I get to benefit my psychological situation by knowing the details of how their brain broadly works and my brain broadly works, and having academics having researched people like me, and them, etc. etc. And if you would consider that self-treatment, then that folds so fundamentally with ‘living how i can most happily exist minute to minute and day to day’ that it may as well be indistinguishable.

Now, for socio-cultural construct. You’re not American, so I don’t need to do the whole ‘there’s no such thing as ‘white’ culture’ thing, I’m gonna assume you know all the nuances there, whatever.

There are definitely cultural differences in how people think. Huge ones. Have you ever been to Japan? Awesome place, but I think really shows some of those distinctions in a clear way. The general desire for things to be neat and ordered is so palpable that if you haven’t been there I can’t describe it. It’s like an aura. And don’t get me wrong, despite the amount of people sometimes, my autistic ass felt very at home. In fact because people were more ‘ordered’ the crowds were actually easier than in other countries. But I was still autistic. Still disabled by it. And Japan, like many places, is only just now coming out and trying to help and accommodate people with autism and other disabilities rather than them being in the house all day. They’ve only recently got around to even properly diagnosing ‘adult’ autism. And while there’s such a long way to go there, that’s helping people a lot, that they’re not just called ‘shut-ins’ anymore but they’re starting to be seen as legitimate people.

And this is what we forget when we talk about ‘pathologising’ people. Yes it can definitely go too far, but having someone not just be A Failed Person is also very very important. For them and for the people around them. All very well to go ‘what if we see nobody as a failed person’ cool but we won’t. Even you and I won’t sometimes.

And the reason why a lot of mental illnesses/neurotypes change some symptoms border to border but keep basics is because well, that’s the disability for you. Those are the bits that are wrong with the body and that’s fine. (And while things like “ADHD” may be underdiagnosed if say, you’re black, because people’s racism says ‘all black boys are hyperactive and don’t pay attention’ that’s a racism problem with the diagnoser, the disability is there). And cultural differences are very real, but that’s also one of the reasons why every country has their own diagnostic procedures. So imperfect, very very so, but not to the point of throwing out areas of study. Areas of study that truly have been studied across the entire globe. Fine, a white French person came up with this theory in 1904 but it’s been studied worldwide ever since - we’re going to say “schizophrenia” is a white term if it’s been studied in every continent?

Certainly these things have more weight when it comes to ideas of gender expression and sexual preference. America’s masculine ideal is not English, English masculinity not Finnish, Finnish masculinity not Japanese etc. etc.

However usually discussing this has two real world roots. Are we physically trying to change something in ourselves, or denoting a personal understanding of a boundary. Either way, given all people’s rights are equal (and they are rarely, but I’m pro that part of ‘western hegemony’), that does mean different cultures will view what makes a transgender person differently. For some people an amab’s desire to cook and look after children might cause a question of gender identity where in other cultures it wouldn’t. But that doesn’t mean the terms we’d use in regards to that are less meaningful, just nuances of them shift depending on culture.

(Someone is choking their lungs out outside. Hope we’re ready for the real world deconstruction of the diamond of the core of social disability model which is ‘the majority of people aren’t disabled’, cus hoo boy)

Finally The Dr Who Bit:

Out-Universe:

Doctor Who is a celebration of Being A Weird Guy.

But also not.

Because on one hand it’s quirky is good, good to be childish sometimes, and the other is This Character Is Fucked Up Don’t Be This. Both of those are Four, who much like Ten, gets the last but sanded down in people’s minds.

Doctor Who tells us being weird is good, that you should be kind even if it’s weird, helpful even if it’s weird, be clever even if it’s weird, and if you’re an interesting enough person you can even dress super weird if you like.

But it also shows us where being weird is…not good. For us and others around us. Yeah, maybe you should get help for that, go see a therapy group, take some respite, identify your partner as a problem and leave.

And many times it’s neutral. We write them with the differences so that an ADHD or Autistic person can go, ‘hey that’s me :) ’ and characters and writers and actors labelling them so helps those people feel seen. It’s become almost a staple of main characters now to have some sort of identifiable characteristic to people, but wasn’t always so, and I really do think Doctor Who helped a lot with that. Back when freaks weren’t heroes.

One shouldn’t feel the need to have to label every bit of themselves, as a capital-Q Queer I don’t. But having things to guide you is lovely. I came from a very country place in England that’s perpetually stuck in the worst parts of the 60’s. Pre and early days of internet. I didn’t get to know what things like autism, adhd, sexuality, or gender divergence, most races (not joking, exceptionally white, didn’t see a black person til I was like 9 that wasn’t on kids tv or crime watch — as in i know exactly where i saw him, that specific — and there was 1 black kid in our school of 600+ who came when we were 16), even most physical disabilities. If I hadn’t had CBBC I genuinely wouldn’t have had most of what I did. Hadn’t heard of ‘muslims’ until 9-11. I’m talking a deeply stagnant place.

But finding out there were different aspects of people but far more importantly, different WORDS for that? Huge. Game changing. You can’t actually look these things up otherwise. There was no library book that could tell me what I meant when I said I felt like the Doctor. Took a magazine scan on Doctor Who Forum talking about the character to actually say the word ‘autistic’ and help me in any way.

(Also turned out my mother had been fleeing various medical professionals trying to get me an autism diagnosis since the age of four. THANKS.)

Having a label helped me…de-alienise myself. I wasn’t alien any more, I was a person, just a specific kind.

So I’m pro-diagnosing (even if frequently distrusting of the people who are in theory supposed to be equipped to actually do that irl but aren’t). And I’m pro labelling the Doctor. While also giving enough freedom so that anyone can still headcanon the one that’s most like them. But saying Twelve has ADHD does no harm to anyone’s headcanons while also helping ADHD people, things like that are good in my book.

In-Universe:

The Doctor’s culture considers them a freak. If they truly have terms for mental differences I doubt it, they’re eugenicists, we know their go-to for depression is forced-regeneration i.e. suicide-by-murder.

Even the nice ones are not like the Doctor, seem little different to us, or at least those high in politics or money.

Within the Doctor’s own culture, they are extremely different, and if their culture had the words for autistic/adhd/genderqueer/whatever they would be them by their own society’s culture too, not just ours. Saying that they’re not those things they’re just Not From Here doesn’t make sense cus the Place They’re From thinks it about them too.

For it to be a they’re ‘Not From Here’ thing the Doctor would fit normally within their own society but they don’t.

Maybe this was part of the autschizadhdfirework-brain jump

'the doctor as a character (by design or evolution or#bit of both) is a perpetual other which is an experience that resonates with most people in one way or another#(fun bit of paradoxicality there) and what makes an other is not about (doctor) who/what you are#but rather about what everything around you is. the narratives youre captive in (social identities nationalities racialisation alienisation#what is Normal and how do you respond to it. how do you construct yourself/are you constructed through this response.#and i know what youre thinking now 'dimitri how the fuck did you get here'

Trying to follow. But might not be, the idea that you can’t label the ‘other’ parts would seem to contradict that - that the Doctor and us share the same sorts of experiences of othering (despite alien society) that allows one to see ‘same hat!’ and label it so would…fit that, wouldn’t it? Perhaps with the same fluidity we give them on assigning a political spectrum to them, but ‘being defined by what you aren’t’ is surely labelling of ones’ characteristics in a nutshell. That is the construction of ones’ sense of self. The definition of one as an entity and how best to navigate the world with those tools.

But ymmv.

I’m not one of those people who needs people to see things the same way I do. I’m not big on philosophical discussions or whatever, I promise.

the doctor isnt neurodivergent or autistic or adhd or nonbinary or genderqueer or asexual. what the doctor is, is Not From Here

[charmedslayer]

Rules: Spell out your url with song titles and tag ten people

Tagged by: @whitewolfofwinterfell. Thanks for tagging me, sorry for taking forever to post this... but i’m a disaster lol (i was busy being too tired or too busy making gifs). I will however be consulting my playlists unlike you cause otherwise I will come up blank... I forget everything I know the second i’m asked what’s my favorite anything... (also... not sure if i know a song that starts with the number 2)

Kashmir - Led Zeppelin

You Never Can Tell - Chuck Berry

Renegade - Styx

Uptown Girl - Billy Joel

Meth Lab Zoso Sticker - 7Horse

Paranoid - Black Sabbath

Tales of Brave Ulysses - Cream

I Love Rock ‘n’ Roll - Joan Jett

Oh, Pretty Woman - Roy Orbison

Nobody’s Fault But Mine - Led Zeppelin

24K Magic - Bruno Mars

Tagging: @tylergaciaposey @wearethecharmedones @phoebehalliwell @mercer-queen @ladysummers @marshmallow-the-vampire-slayer @hostilepoet17 @sunnydale-scoobies @piper-haliwel @vampirelayer

(obviously you dont need to do it again if you’ve already been tagged already though feel free to if you wanna do it again and anyone else who wants to do it go ahead!)