#i worry i didnt make her look 14 enough

[cowboysurge]

(Art request) Any thoughts on what Aim or Hot Sauce might look like?

[venusinthesun]

When you were

Yandere arlecchino X reader (but can be read as non-yandere) CW: very subtle kidnapping, SEMI-NSFW at the end, THIS IS NWLNW‼️

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When you were little, it was a common trend among girls you were around to make a list of qualities you would want in a future spouse. Tongue sticking out between your teeth as you squint at the paper, messily writing the wants you had for a partner. It was a childish list of course, after all it’s not like 9 year olds have a good idea of what makes a good life partner, but you were determined to find somebody who hit all those qualities.

1. must be nice

When your nine,everybody is nice until proven otherwise. What people consider nice is definitely up to personal opinion, and even then you were definitely stretching it here. peruere was..good enough you would say. They were a peer you would see commonly enough at the park, always walking next to that pink-haired girl. She was a bit awkward and quiet, but that didnt stop you from trying your best to get her attention. You hadn’t really seen her ever be nice, but you have definitely seen her not kick puppies or something, so it was good enough for you! Check box one down!

2. Must be cool

Peruere was definitely cool. When you’re 14, everybody who seems “different” is cool. Peruere was any swooning teenage girls dream- streaks of black, red pupils, the blackened hands! She was so cool you almost didn’t want to talk to her, after all the last time you spoke you were nine, but you managed to stumble through an awkward conversation! With a lot of stuttering and blushing, you held a completely normal conversation with the coolest girl you’ve ever known. Check box two down!

3. Must be strong

When you’re 18, you force yourself to get over Perueres absence. You haven’t been super close friends anyway despite your embarrassing attempts at talking to her four years ago, so you really don’t need to worry about her as much as you are. However it’s difficult to pull yourself away from the window fretting over where you friend could be, and why she left with no warning. You mourn the loss of your long time Crush, forcing the ideas of her holding you lovingly to leave your mind to focus on the future.

4. Must be rich

When your 25, your lucky enough to have a date to bring you to fancy balls. The sparkle and glimmer leaves your eyes struggling to take in every detail, but persist anyway because of the wonder and excitement. There are hundreds of people here, each more done-up and fancy than the rest. You notice the woman looking at you, red pupils raking over your form. She looks so familiar, but also different at the same time. Her outfit is dark but is clearly expensive, and the wine she is holding even more so. Whoever that mysterious woman is must be very rich you think before getting pulled into an another dance with your date.

5. Must be very loving

When your 27, your life is consumed by arlecchino. You sit on her lap as she works on papers at her desk, but the quill is still on the table as her hands are focused on you instead. Greedy hands grab your hips and chest, squeezing and playing with your body lovingly. Her lips place short and curt kisses down your neck, sometimes leaving a bloom of developing dark purple. “To make up for all the lost time I didn’t have you” she whispers in your ear before turning your head to kiss you properly on the lips.

When you were little, you made a list of qualities you want in a perfect life partner. When you’re older, you know the only partner you will ever have again will be arlecchino, silly list or not.

[firefly--bright]

omg meeting jean’s family and spending christmas/new years w them ??

YES i went with spending christmas eve with them!! this might be a bit too specific but its something ive been thinking about for a while :D thank you for the ask!! :33 taglist ; @holding-infinity-and-a-book , @mrsnobodynobody , @hopeless-anti-romantic-again , @jeanscremebrulee , @berrijam , @happxme , @cherrypieyourface , @imgayandshesanime , @moonmalice , @kivernova , @potaho3frog , @xakilicious , @katestrophes , @gojo-ana , @ppushable, @candleohappiness , @zombiefiedskeivy , @1ovede1uxe ❅ masterlist is in pinned post ❅ enter my taglist ❅ requests for headcanons are open! ❅

❅ backstory on his family a bit first! okay so in my head it. it was was him and his mom at first. his dad wasnt in his life all that much and would only show up randomly. right. caused issues in his psyche. more about this in upcoming dusk to dawn chapters (PLEASE BE PATIENT W ME GUYS)

❅ and so when he was like. 13 or something. already hormonal teenager, his mom married this guy who already had two daughters, one of whom was older than him and one was younger.

❅ anyway. it took him a while to be okay with all of that, because he got really protective over his mom at one point and threatened his now stepdad with the whole "if u hurt my mom i will hunt u down and make u wish u never lived" mind u hes like 14

❅ ANYWAY so in my head he has an older sister who older to him by like 5 years and younger one is like 3 years younger than him. they didnt get along at first, obviously, being kids and allat. none of them were okay with this but with coaxing from their parents they found out that they werent terribly company, actually. again more on this in dusk to dawn upcoming chapters i swear

❅ ok so back to the request!! christmas in the kirstein household is beautiful ok. their house isnt super duper big but is well off enough, and jean's parents always go full out for it. lights and beautiful decorations, one of the prettiest houses on the block. youre obviously super nervous even if you had talked to his mom a couple times on the phone when she forced jean to give it to you. his sisters knew about you on social media and whatnot but thats way different than meeting in real life

❅ and jean tells you that his mom already loves you so you have nothing to worry about. "but what about your sisters and dad?" "my dad trusts my mom and will literally do anything she says so he will love you. my sisters will love you because youre you, stop worrying so much." he says even though everytime he has to talk to your family hes also scared shitless.

❅ you see their house and your jaw drops to the floor. he mumbles something about how they outdid themselves and how he's pretty sure theyre the ones trying to impress you. you only half listen to him tho

❅ anyway!! his mom opens the door and immediately hugs you. WARMEST HUG EVER BTW. cold outside be damned and she hugs you for a good two minutes before pulling away and then scolds jean for not wearing a beanie. "so i just dont get a hug?" and thats when she hugs him.

❅ the inside of their house is just as decked out as the outside. their christmas tree almost takes up the whole room. imagine those cozy romcom houses on christmas :') his dad is chilling by the record player (that jean has told you about) and gives jean the. guy hug like the two pats on the shoulder one. welcomes you in, shows you to you room, tells you to treat it as your home because it is your home. theyre all such warm people honestly

❅ his little sister isnt there to greet the two of you until after youve almost settled into jean's old room. its just big enough for the two of you and youre going through his old posters and things on the walls while jean tells you that "that was just a phase, honestly, haha, im not even that person anymore.." as if u dont kow everything about him already. and then his little sister walks in with some hot cocoa in her hand and looks at the two of you for a couple seconds and then says "how did this ugly ass bag you."

❅ anyway. turns out his older sister is going to be there by evening time so you help out in the kitchen, and jeans mom shoos him out of there coming up with some excuse of how his dad needs him or something. and then she tells you about all the times he wet his bed as a kid. this woman is dead set on embarassing her son tbh. i love her

❅ youre bonding over having a shared love for baking and shes giving you tips when his little sister walks in again. "did she tell u about how many times he used to wet the bed?"

❅ you find out shes studyinng to be a lawyer, in her first year of uni rn so shes super busy. his mom says shes very smart and shes just bashful and says "im not that good," waving a hand infront her face and you cant help but note that jean does the same fucking thing when someone gives him a genuine compliment. except that he usually follows with "i mean- unless youre into that." or something that ruins the soft moment.

❅ anyway. you meet his older sister soon, and she's almost identical to mama kirstein, mannerisms wise. the same laugh, her voice just a little bit deeper, the same sense of style, almmost everything. she embraces you in her warmth as soon as she steps in, tells you how excited she has been to meet you and that jean cannot stop telling her about you. she asks about your career and you find out shes also like jean with her passion and drive in her own career, and you get into an indepth discussion about it over a glass of wine until its time for dinner

❅ dinner is fucking beautiful. mama kirstein only let you help with the smallest things because you insisted, and she paid attention to any and all dietary restrictions you might have. sibling fights w jean and his sisters and you figure out why he hates his hair being touched (because his sisters always mess it up. thats literally all its not even that deep) jean and his dad eventually have a discussion about wines and stuff and its so obvious. right. they comb their hand through their hair in the same direction in the same way and youre like OH THAT MAKES SENSE.

❅ at one point you fix jean's collar and his sister is like "man u cant even do one thing right" to him, and his mom brings up marraige at the same time and jean chokes on his food. its not why she asked it that shocked him its just how she asked it. its so casual - "youre such a child, jean," his younger sister says, and his dad is talking over them, "alright, just because his collar is a little dishevled," and jeans glaring at his sister as you fix it and theyre all kinda talking over eachother right and you fix it and its like a little soft moment and he mumbles a "thank you" and his eyes are like shining and his hand is on your thigh and you roll your eyes in fake annoyance. and his mom is just, "so marraige."

❅ LMFAO moving on. theres dessert. you help with the clean up and jeans sister tells you that when they were small they used to make pancakes for their parents and jean got flour everywhere and she was always the one who cleaned it up. jean would worry about the presentation more than the taste and their younger sister would make the coffee, accidentally putting in too much sugar which went unnoticed until papa kirstein had to gulp down a wince at how sweet it was. speaking of, jean and him were in the living room and you could hear his voice clear as day complaining about how he just doesnt have enough vinyls and his dad telling him exact coordinates of where he'd find them <3

❅ and theyre all SO SWEET UGH like you can clearly see eahcother's influence in them. of course this cant be complete without mama kirstein showing you his old baby pics. hes so red in the face when his mom points out how chubby his cheeks were and his older sister pinches his cheek and he swats her hand away which turns into a small cat fight. dont talk about it. his dad puts some music on and claps his hands, "monopoly, anyone?" which then turns into a whole game night :')

❅ complete the night with a movie where you and jean fall asleep on eachother halfway through the movie, and his younger sister takes like 2000 pictures of the two of you with different filters on. as blackmail.

❅ bonus you wake up to pictures sent by an unknown number with different pictures of jean throughout his embarassing teenage years and his (gasp) emo bad boy phase in highschool... cringe...

god i love this man. i want him and his family so bad. anyway! thank you for the ask!! and for your patience :333

sorry for not making a moodboard, I couldn't find enough pictures with the vibe I wanted to go for (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠)

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for the way I dated people in high school?

💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 so i can find it later

I am like pretty sure I'm TA but I would like second opinions on this because a lot of factors are complicated and makes me wonder if i was 100% in the wrong or not.

When I was in high school (14-17NB) i had dated three people.

(I know for sure that I had been TA with my first girlfriend M because when we dated i liked her a lot but not enough to feel anything romantic and as soon as I realized I didn't like her as much as she liked me i broke it off to spare her any long term pain. We remained friends, but I think she and eventually my ex friends held some sort of resentment against me for being fickle.)

The main issues were with my second and third partners.

Firstly, I dated my second partner A (we were 15 then) out of pity because her ex treated her terribly. I didn't like her back, nor did i really pretend to, i just wanted to be the one to take care of her because it seemed that no one else in her life was looking out for her.

Then a mutual "friend" S (14M) told me she cheated on me. While I was not into A romantically I still felt betrayed for some reason I am not sure i understand even now. When i confronted her, she told me this mutual friend was unreliable and wanted to break us up. I believed this because S was a creep towards the both of us. (Later, S would stalk me for about 6 years but thats a different story).

But then A asked if we could have an open relationship, and I got upset but agreed because i was too much of an idiot to say no.

After more time, A and i grew apart and she started expressing interest in other people in front of me that i tried at every opportunity to break up with her because i was just over it. But everytime I'd almost bring up the subject she'd do something romantic and sweet to me and i felt like an asshole for wanting to break up with her, so i didn't. Eventually, I just updated my online profile to single to be done with it, which i know for sure was a dick move.

Later, A and I (both 17) met someone online named Y(19NB) who was nice enough, but i didn't feel anything romantic for. Instead, i was interested in another person named R(17M). But R didnt return my feelings and i felt really sad, so A pressured me into a relationship with Y and i agreed because I was still an idiot I guess.

I was still thinking about R, so A flirted with R to "get me to focus on Y". I will not say what exactly happened between them but it was horrible enough for me to feel deeply betrayed and hurt. Obviously, I could not focus on Y and because Y's friends were cyberbullying me and threatening my life because they assumed that I would naturally hurt Y's feelings due to my dating history that i just decided to be a massive dickhead and break it off with them shortly after.

When Y started to cry and everyone was calling me a villain for doing that I gave up and just let them assume the worst of me. (Later on it turned out that Y and all their cyberbullying friends were all accounts run by one person claiming to have DID but thats another story).

I still want a romantic relationship but I worry I'll mess it up for being fickle so I havent entered any since high school. I wouldn't do some of the things I did back then. I am much more honest now about rejecting people. I guess my fear of saying no was to blame. But I would like to know if I was in the wrong 100%.

So AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[cat-autism-wizard]

five times danny's english class learned that he was phantom (and one time he had to reveal it)

3 - Mr. Lancer

it was after a big ghost attack at casper high. it was sadly during mr. lancer's lesson. he didnt know what those poor kids would do in the exams if their educations kept on getting interrupted by the ghost attacks. but right now they had bigger problems to dealt with, like running for their lives.

lancer made sure everyone in his class made it out of the class and making sure everyone was out of school. it was a procedure he had to use so much that everyone knew what to do. of course it didnt mean he doesnt follow it. he still makes sure he follows it line by line. and no matter how many ghosts attacked the school, kids were always terrified which made it harder to count them. lancer didnt blame the kids of course. he was feeling bad for them if anything else. those kids were just teenagers and they shouldnt live through this again and again.

lancer tried his best to keep the terrified ones calm and lead everyone to outside. it was the hunter ghost attacking and phantom was already fighting him. no matter what those lousy ghost hunters say lancer trusted phantom to protect them. he saw him saving his kids countless of times.

after everyone was outside he counted his students. only one was missing. daniel fenton. when he spotted one of his friends he decided to ask her.

"ms. manson, i couldnt see mr. fenton do you know where he is?" just for a tiny second lancer saw a little panic flash in the girl's eyes.

"uhh yeah he is with tucker." sam blurted out. lancer could tell she was lying. he was a teacher for almost 15 years, he could tell when a student lied to him.

"great then you wouldnt mind accompanying me see mr. foley and mr. fenton right?" sam cringed to herself probably scolding herself for her bad lie.

"sure" she said with a fake smile.

they walked towards tucker as he was dealing with his phone. no fenton to be seen.

"mr. foley have you seen mr. fenton anywhere?" lancer talked before sam ever could.

"uh yeah he was with sam." tucker said without looking up his phone. only when he heard sam cleaning her throat tucker decided to look up. sam glared at tucker.

"uh did i say sam i meant to say pam" tucker tried to play it off.

"we dont have a 'pam' in our class mr. foley." lancer sighed.

"if you kids didnt know you couldve just said so. he might still be inside im gonna check before he gets hurt." lancer said as he start to head back inside. when both sam and tucker tried to stop him or run inside before him but lancer stopped both of them.

"ms. manson, mr. foley i understand that youre worried about your friend but if you step inside now, you will be suspended for a week." did they really care? no, but they were both smart enough to know that could damage their school record and neither of them wanted that.

not getting a reaction, lancer went back inside to look for danny. he searched almost everywhere but he was nowhere. the only place he didnt check was the hall of his class which had a fight going on. lancer carefully headed to his classroom. then he heard phantom saying something about 'souping the ghost' which meant it was probably safe for him to go there and thats what he did.

he expected to see phantom, yes but what he didnt expect to see was phantom looking so worn out. he looked like he was about to pass out. as lancer was about to thank him and ask him if hes alright glowing rings appeared around phantom's waist. then he transformed into danny fenton.

what. lancer couldnt believe his eyes. he was terrified. he was terrified of the fact that wes was right. what he was more terrified was that danny fenton, a 14 (soon to be 15) year-old kid was fighting and protect them all from the ghosts while trying to pursue his education as well. lancer wasnt easy on him either since he would always be late or fall asleep in the class. now he knew why.

danny was barely staying on his feet. he was tried. before he could fall lancer caught him. a fear set in danny. as lancer realized that, he started to scold him.

"so you were here. youre so lucky that phantom was around mr. fenton. you cannot wander around the school when theres an attack. if i catch you next time like this there will be consequences." with that danny was relieved. he was stressed about the next time because there will be a next time but at least lancer didnt know his identity right?

lancer forced fenton to stay in the infirmary for a few classes. danny whined at first but he was fast asleep as he relaxed when lancer made sure he wasnt going to be called absent in the attendance.

after that day lancer tried to give danny slightly more time on his works and when in detention, he gave him somewhat of an extra class knowing he fell asleep in those lessons.

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[vryivs]

finally posting my hsr age hcs

(note: these are all physical age only for obvious reasons)

notes below the cut (any i havent elaborated on are just there for vibes)

i know we joke that welt is a grandpa (because he is), herrscher shenanigans make me think he doesnt look much older than his early 40s (in alien space he canonically looks really young for a professor which is why i think theres some aging shenanigans occurring)

nat basically raised seele and seele is a young woman so nat has to be at least 40

i feel like as the resident milf and dilf gallagher and yukong are self explanatory

jade is a senior in the ipc and that doesnt happen over night, plus it seems like she was already fairly senior when a (potentially teenage?) aventurine met her

blade was old before he was de-aged and idk why the powers that be would be worried about youthful beauty so i think hed have gone back to his physical prime rather than early adulthood, and all the best blacksmiths ive met have been late 30s/early 40s

kafka imo is close to 40 because i like to hc that she mostly raised us

i just like the idea that a pretty blond twink can be pushing 40

serval is old enough to be friends with someone's mother, but bronya wasnt adopted as a baby so i think theres some wiggle room with cocolia being slightly older than serval that could plausibly put her in the early 30s bracket

sampo because of his long legacy of crime

all the xianzhou natives (homo celestiae) i imagine would stop aging entirely in their early-mid 30s. fu xuan is just short (sidebar, i have many questions about the xianzhou world building but thats for a diff post)

ruan mei could be a xianzhou native but personally i rather interpret her as a normal abundance abomination species since she has a home 'planet' and not a home 'ship'. anyway her aging is probably screwed in a similar way to xianzhou natives regardless since she seems a similar age to herta, who is over 200

himeko because i feel like she's older than her hi3 version

i didnt pay that much attention but i vaguely recall ratio being especially accomplished for his age, which makes me think he's fairly young, along with aventurine

asta is renowned enough to run a research base, so i would imagine shes old enough to have a phd

gepard only seems to be a couple years younger than serval

topaz also is notably young to be in the position she is

silver wolf noted to not be a child anymore, which makes me think she's only recently an adult.

trailblaze trio all come across as younger adults, although i imagine dan heng is slightly older than the other two, and march is the youngest

sushang came of age recently as per the letter from her mother, and gui is her bestie, so theyre probably similar ages

arlan imo isnt massively young, hes just transgender

i feel like xianzhou native aging slows exponentially until it stops which is what makes me think qingque is in her early 20s physically despite being over 100 years old

firefly's body slowing down over time probably includes aging so although she's old enough to be in glamoth's iron cavalry, i imagine she's physically fairly young looking

pela is canonically 16 and lynx is her best friend

these guys all strike me as being early teens (what with yanqing being 14 and the rest sharing a height and a model with him)

the babies are self explanatory

[spectral-idiot]

Noelle's lore! IM SO HAPPY RN

Hi! Its me! Again! Encouraged this time! YIPPIE!

You surprised me! I thougth the whole thing flopped but then some people gave tons of love

Im excited and looking foward to write about her and an idea I have when I finish my current work so you lnow her !

( Previous work is taking a ton but rewarding 2 tons, and when it comes out I'll be so happpy and you'll be as well. August 14.)

But for now, take her story, im not the most original but I dont care im glad whit the result. (Please help me whit her team this is a cry 4 help)

I hope you like it!

So, lets start!

She grew up half of her life in luminalia, between their competitive spirit and beautifull ligths, fashion, performances and beautifull culture. She is a huge performances fan, her favoutite performer is serena

She didn't have that much friends there, but her parent's friends, the lumiose tower caretakers and Luminalia gym leaders, had a son almost at the same time, her only deep friend, Clemont

Whit the news of all the zygarde aproaching catasthrophe, she and her family ran away, letting him behind. And moves to paldea in the age of twelve, starting her life in Uva academy

She's so smart academically (She passes test almost whitout studing, is a weird thing about ADHD) but is shy at first cause adaptation to a new place is hatd. Nemona sees that and starts to get close to her, talk her and befriend her

The Scarvio story happens normally, she becomes Nemona's rival and best friend and Arven's little found sister. Nemona thaugth her to battle, her second dream, and that training turns her into the Paldea champion, and happens to also befriend team star on the way!

But, in the middle of her road to vecome a champion, 2nd or 3rd gym, and whit half of the team star defeated, she got called to go to a road trip to….. Guess….kitakami!

And there Noelle meets their folktales and the Kitakami culture. But she didn't expect to also know the Kitakami siblings, lets just say Carmine doesnt liker first, and if it wasnt for kiki and the Ogerpon mask quest, neither at last

(So much sunshine she thinks Noelle is fake, she is just so happy for knowing a new place and has too much energy. But she wins her heart whit an "OMG you and your morpeko are so beautiful you would win a performamce contest whit no effort" )

And the twist is, since she has experiences whit a boy like Kieran (Clemont was similar in persnoality) is so much easier to her to bond whit him, like, too deeply. Two weeks or field trip were enough for her to becole this lonely boy's ligthhouse

(I couldnt draw their mask but she would wear Monkidori, also notice how she uses laces instead of decorated haur ties when serious time. I wanted to go opposite whit Juliana in jinbei who changes her hairdo to wear it up, Noelle changes from up to down)

Also.. they like each other a little

But then things go downhill, she and Carmine meet Ogerpon whitout Kieran and happen to know the true story before him. The betrayal happens, she didn't realize she was doing it, she thougt it was for the best since Clemomt got depressed for like a year when he was revealed he had to be the next gym leader

Well, the higher you fly, the harder you hir the floor. She had to lefr whitout oportinity of making things up,

Kieran fell even harder than in indigo disk, half of the canon time is what he needed to become chanpion, Elaine also became champion in paldea and finished defeating team star and also the collosal pokemon whit arven.

When she heard of the oportunity of going a semester to Blue berry academy a year later, she didn't hesitate, when she saw what she caused it hurted her to no end, she fell into Drayton schemes whitout second thougt because she wanted fix her damage so hard

She couldnt believe what she've done

(You even can see the worried and serious gaze, and how she crosses her fingers and stops wearing that much accesories on her hair. She didnt want to be that strong if that meant hurting others.)

She didnt want to hurt him, amd now he is actually strong and almost unstopable, she wasnt strong she was lucky, and she begs that luck stays by her side now

She didn't actually want to defeat Kieran, Drayton convinced her that hiting the floor will make his wall fall, and will make him stop pushing people away.

A week later, they and carmine were suddenly called to an expedition to area zero, and their lifes beinf in danger were the catharsis they needed to ler everything out, they both confess their sttuggles and do the proper apologize. Time and healing are needed but they are going by good path!

That's all cuties, bye!

[donnietheterrapin]

my rant (and tmnt hcs) about having tourettes

tourettes grgrgrrggrgrgrggr (tmnt hcs after the cut) i fucking hate having tourettes like my tics arent that severe most of the time but sometimes its fucking debilitating and painful like right now I've hit my head with my wrist so many times my ear hurts and I feel like I'm going to pass out (which I felt like anyways, but now its worse) and I have a headache on top of that so yippiieeeeeeeee I feel so great so good so amazing mhm yep I'm doing SO SO GOOD!!!! /s

ok so headcanons they all have tourettes because I say so Donnie's tics include: shaking his right hand, hitting oneself in the head involuntarily with his palm, clicking his tongue, rolling his eyes back and falling for a second, repeated head and shoulder jerks, and gargled crunchy munchy screams

Mikey's are mainly verbal, and he has really bad echolalia on top of that, so you get a lot of "Yippie!"s and small "fuck!"s. He also has a spitting/blowing out air tic that he absolutely hates

Leo's tics are really minor, but they can get super prevalent during hallucinations. This includes giggling/laughing, tilting her head, and contorting her body to the right (like pulling her hip up, and head down to the right)

Raph has swears for sure. Also punching tics. He also makes "pow"s and funnily enough, fart noises. He's so embarrassed by it that sometimes he will just stay in his room during really bad tic attacks just so his siblings don't hear the "ptbhhbybrbvvv"s of shame

Before any of the turts told Casey they had tics, April was talking about funny stories with the turts, and she started to talk about one time when raph screamed "fuck" so loud that a mom and her kid started looking through the sewer grate into the dojo to see where it had come from, while simultainiously setting off Donnie and Mikey's tics, which also set of Leo's and they just sat in the pit for a few hours, just ticcing and trying to talk to eachother about nonsense to distract them.

Of course, casey didnt know though, so April started to tell the story, but stopped before realizing she couldn't tell Casey the rest without outing the turts as tourettes havers.

Casey was very confused, because april's exact diolog was "And this one time, Raph… uh… nevermind, I can't tell you that one." Casey was curious as always, and tried whining and moping until april would tell him. After she refused a few times, he went to Raph.

"So, april was telling me a story and-" He and raph heard a loud clatter coming from Donnie's room. They were both concerned, and walked into Donnie's room, to see him bent over, grabbing a trash lid he had dropped, repeatedly jerking his head to his left and making a clicking noise with his tongue.

Casey was worried Donnie was having some kind of seizure, and rushed over to check on him. Raph just stood back and went "You g-good don?" (Donnie's tics were starting to effect raph's tic suppression, causing a stutter.) Donnie was like "Yea- click -ah."

Casey was confused, and Donnie, only now processing that Casey was there and was reasonably confused and worried, began to slowly explain what tourettes was to casey.

Casey was confused, never hearing of the disorder in detail before, only online snippets, but was glad that Donnie was ok. He put his hand on top of Donnie's, and thanked him for telling "Casey Jones".

Donnie was confused, but nodded. "Yeah, no problem. Not dying yet!"

Raph butt in, still standing in the doorway, "Oh yeah, Me, Mikey, and Leo have it too." They all have different suppression tactics too.

Donnie takes deep breaths.

Raph stomps and runs in place, shaking his hands near his plastron to "get the tics out".

Mikey shakes his right arm as far away from him as possible.

Leo just wills it away. She takes deep breaths, but she just mentally pushes it away and it helps her a lot.

Donnie was the one who diagnosed them all at 14. Donnie had already had tics for a while but had never researched it, choosing to hide it instead for fear of being seen as "broken" or "uncontrollable", until Leo and Raph started having uncontrollable tic attacks. Donnie then decided that he would research it, and found a wiki article on Tourettes Syndrome that matched up with most if not all of their symptoms. Mikey later developed tics as well, but he developed slightly later in life, Leo and Raph's tics triggering his own. And those are my hcs :)

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Alright, I just finished season 2 and I once again have thoughts but before that, I need to make a small correction to my previous post

This season didnt jump headfirst into serialization, I mustve misremembered and honestly, when I thought a little more about it, I dont think it ever tried to be consistantly serialized for atleast the first three seasons (after which I stopped watching). Like, this series is very faithful to its status quo which is pretty bad considering its a SLOW-BURN ROMANCE. Also, while I dont think it ever actually claimed to be Coming of Age, it is allegedly inspired by magical girl anime which have had Coming of Age elements since the genre's conception, but you cant have those if your main characters are all perpetually 14 so that kinda sucks.

Its so faithful to its status quo that all of the episodes end up having practically the same structure and there arent enough episodes that break it up so watching them all back to back makes it pretty hard to really distinguish them. I think the main thing preventing the show from getting boring as you watch it are the fight scenes which are pretty fun and inventive and, in season 2, the introduction of a bunch of new lore and heroes

Speaking of the new stuff, watching this series was kinda interesting because I felt like it was off to a bit of a rocky start and I got kinda worried because a lot of people hail it as the best season of the show so far and I was initially enjoying it a lot less than season 2 but then it did turn out to be pretty good and I liked the way they introduced the new lore and heroes and even Luca and Kagami, whom I was absolutely prepared to dislike. I think its because its all just setup but then I know that they're going to really fumble the payoff so I kinda tricked myself into thinking it was always bad when this season is actually pretty good.

Out of all the new stuff I think the Kwami Power-Ups were the worst. Its so blatantly toyetic in a way that feels really nonsensical and then they use them 2 and a half times and thats it, I dont even remember them ever being used in season 3but that might just be my shit memory

Im just going to restate that I think Master Fu is unecessary and that, between the Kwamis as their guides and the grimoire existing, our superheroes dont need a Wise Old Sage Mentor. Like, just make it so that the Miracle Box was in the possession of Marinettes family but they didnt know about the miraculous and then Marinette finds out but she only has the Ladybug (and maybe the fox and the bee) and all the other ones have been scattered all around Paris or even the world and then come up with some way for Adrien to get his hands on the cat miraculous idc

Luca was fine, hes a bit too bland and Manic Pixie Dreamgirl-ish for my taste except iirc he doesnt even end up advancing Marinettes character in any way, which is pretty much the only purpose a MPDG can serve, so like, what the point, but in this one season hes a good setup to become an actual character later on. Its a shame he never does, but still. I actually loved Kagami which is suprising because I mainly remembered her being kindof boring with some mildly offensive japanese stereotyping and fetishizing sprinkled on top, but shes pretty fun and likable. I love how awkward yet genuinely confident she is and I like the way she and Marinette interacted in Frozer, however briefly. I really liked Frozer in general, it was honestly really cute watching the four of them go on this litzle double date, I totally get all the polyshippers now, especially the Adrigaminette shippers. That being said, Kagami and Adrien really arent working for me as a couple so Im not looking forward to that

Alya, Chloe and Nino were fine as heroes its just that they dont really get any development (other than Chloe) and pretty much all they do is make the plotpoint where Ladybug and Cat Noir cant reveal their identities to each other pointless and nonsensical which is bad because thats the only reason the love square exists and the love square is like, the one Big Thing that this show has going for it. Alyas Rena Rouge suit is literally just Lilas suit down to the body being much slimmer so that sucks. On top of that, she and Queen Bee are unfortunately cursed with having to wear patterned skin tight latex suits with basically no other details because theyre girls in Miraculous Ladybug. I do really enjoy Queen Bees transformation sequence, it has so much personality and while I dont really like Chloe's civillian I do like that it has the same color scheme as her hero design almost like shes broadcasting the fact that shes Queen Bee without a care, even with clothes. Chloes arc was also really interesting and I liked the direction they went with her, i just wish her character development was more consistent because there were episodes where she seemed genuinely reformed even if she hasnt lost that Mean Girl exterior and then there were episodes where she just went back to being genuinely awful again. I dont have a lot to say about Nino except that I hate the hood and I hate his colorscheme. Theres a part in Heroes Day where they show the streets of paris from above while theyre parading these floaties of all the superheroes around and you can see how good Ladybug, Rena Rouge and Queen Bee look together with all of them having these warm main colors and Carapace just sticks out like a sore thumb, just put my man in a lighter more-yellowey shade of green Im begging you

One of the main reasons I was worried about season 2, beyond me mixing up stuff from season 3 with stuff from this season, was the way they handled Cat Noir. In the first season he was being playful and a little flirty with Ladybug but he had a similar playful attituide towards most of the people he interacted with and I guess the writers noticed that it didnt really come across as an actual crush on that part of the love square, so they made it a lot more blatant and made him come on to her much more strongly. Its clear to me that we're meant to symphatize with him when Ladybug rejects him but it seems that no one told the writers that unrequited love is only sad when they never voice their feelings to the person that doesnt love them back, when they keep making romantic gestures towards them even after an explicit rejection, thats just entitled, pathetic and cringe. It couldve been worse but season 1 was a bit better about it

I did like the Adrienette side of the love square far more this season though! Since they actually allowed Marinette to talk to him properly, Adriens personality got to come out more again and it felt like less of a shallow celebrity crush on her part. Its a realy shame that, instead of just continuing to go in this direction with the Love Square, they added Kagami and Luca as these pointless diversions. I think they could have worked, but maybe in a series that focused more on interpersonal relationships in general as opposed to just romantic ones or in a series that decided to get more wacky with it. Like, instead of there being The Love Square and then Luca for Marinette and Kagami for Adrien as Love Square Diversions you couldve had Marinette slowly form this deeper connection with Adrien while she also realizes how genuinely sweet and attentive Cat Noir could be but then Luca comes in and hes so interesting and cute but then Kagami is forward and confident like a realf life Ladybug and she starts to really admire her but oh, she never really noticed how much Alya always supported her and helped her grow....... and then do the same thing for Adrien. Like, go big or go home, GET WACKY WITH IT OR DONT GET WITH IT AT ALL

Hawkmoth is still really hard to take seriously, no surprise there. The moments where he cared about his son and even Nathalie in Heroes Day that were supposed to humanize him were fine, just kinda frustrating knowing that theyre gonna make him even more comically evil in the next few seasons and that its going to be inconsistant

Thats pretty much it. Pretty good overall, but hard to truly enjoy when you know whats coming

Thanks for reading ^^

[micallum]

dear melvyn isnt on the list. which i can understand because they wanna see if the 3rd guy (dulin) can play. But if dulin is good and plays again next week, im scared melvyn wont make the world cup list 😭😭😭🥲🥲🥲 i need footage of him. what am i gonna do with my life now, especially since top 14 isnt even on during the world cup so i cant even count on that to see him 😭😭😭

yeah im already seeing the worst scenario because everyone has been praising Dulin who even got made captain over MY TITOU 😭😭 i miss melvyn supremacy era in 2021/2022. I didnt enjoy it enough

Sorry for rambling it’s the hormones im not having a good time rn (but can be a good fic trope like ‘over stressed gf worrying for her bf’s career while he’s just smiling through the pain so he doesn’t worry her even more’)

Ok bye

Alright, first of all: my home (my blog) is a safe space for you and your rambles.

Secondly: I was so disappointed when I saw he wasn’t on the list!!! HOW DARE THEY!!!!

I will take notes about this as you suggested lol but yeah, let’s keep our shit together and try to stay focused on his good looks while team France ignores him.

BRING BACK MELVYN SUPREMACY 2023

By the way, I’m super emotionally unstable rn thanks to my Cycle®️ so I 100% get anything and everything you say about dumb men.

[afklancelot]

For the character ask, all the even numbers!

okayyyy, for this one I’ll be going with Funfiend, who looks like the character Funfriend except he’s got angry eyebrows. if you don’t know who Funfriend is, go play corru.observer right now. Funfiend stars in my own AU in the corru.observer featuring original characters and even the dread powers from tma (surprise!), where he manages my OC obesk’s personal corrucyst (like a computer assistant)

2. as far as im concerned no character of mine is ever in its final state. so for how long, id say the process will last until i die

4. recently ive had a hard time making his dialogue harsh and abrasive while maintaining a subtle soft side, bc i tend to lean toward the latter. in addition, i try my best to keep his language in style to the Obesks, tho since Funfiend took on some human slang while his obesk learned more of them i dont worry about this issue as much

6. did i put thought to his appearance? nah he’s literally just funfriend except w angry eyebrows to signify he’s ‘evil’

8. so at first i made Funfiend as just ‘Funfriend except evil’… but now it’s kind of more? like it turned into one of those ‘loyal servant’s master died and the servant grapples with the aftermath’ kinda deal but more indepth. think pearl’s posthumous relationship with rose

10. basically his arc is him accepting the events that lead to his Obesk’s demise and that he didnt die w her. he gets a surprisingly happy ending by tagging along w the main character (who is also an OC of mine)

12. never thought of any songs for Funfiend. if i had to pick any… maybe Bride of Necro? like ignoring the uh. the main subject, at its core the song’s about a refusal to accept a loved one’s departance

14. this is from when i first came up with him (and when he was still a joke OC)

16. probably the fact he can’t operate his gun. funny enough, i havent added any scenes of that into what im writing… oh and also, i plan to have other thoughtforms in the cyst use him as a volleyball. one day

18. well obviously his Obesk, whom i will finally reveal the name: meekuhatschuna qou notpyrc. yes she is a miku. he also manages the other thoughtforms, including those based off the dread powers, and some are more friendly to them than others

20. heres the art i did of him when i first came up w him lol

[camsstorytime]

1/14/25 11:31 pm

I didn’t think it would bother me. If anything I thought I'd be happy and relieved. When I saw my positive pregnancy test I was terrified. When the nurse told me i could be having a miscarrage i become shockingly distraught and upset. All I could think about was my baby and making sure they were ok. Then I got a blood test back and it was negative. I should be happy right? This is a good thing right? For some reason though I can't help but feel a mix between numbness and sadness. I know I've always wanted a kid but obviously I'm aware it's a very bad time. But throughout today I've changed. I turned into a mother just worried about her baby. I dont think ill ever be the same after today. It almost feels like I've lost something I never had. Another thing I'm upset about is he didnt try to comfort me or make sure I was ok or even talk to me when I got home. What if it was real. What if I was positive? Is that really the person I want by my side through something like that? Well he proved to me today that positive or not he really is a very self centered and immature boy. Ik the situation was unfortunate but i guess part of me was excited to take care of something that would love me back unconditionally. What if a baby is what I needed to get out of this teenager mindset. Because at that moment the only thing on my mind was my baby. I was as ready as I was scared. There's still something wrong with me and I have no idea what. But now I've fallen deep into depression and numbness. But this is a good thing right? I'm too young to have kids. I have too much going for me to have a baby running around. But I can't stop thinking about the what ifs. Today I gained a few years in my life. I realized there might be a chance im mentally ready for a kid. Even if I know I could never have one until a few years down the road. But I'm worried I'll never get the chance to get pregnant again. What if I never find a good guy who loves me enough. What if I'm unable to become pregnant. Maybe I'm so upset about a negative because I know I'm at risk for infertility. Maybe I'm sad because I'm lonely. Maybe a baby would complete me in ways nothing else can. I don't even know who I can talk to about these feelings because I know I sound crazy. I've always felt empty, like somethings been missing. What if it's a baby? I can't even sleep because of all these feelings. I don't even know why I'm feeling this. The father wants nothing to do with me or the baby. I'm still in high school and nursing school afterwards. I have no job or income to support a baby. But for some reason at that moment I wanted to try. I always promised myself no matter how or when I got pregnant I would make sure that baby would have the best life I can provide. It's like I had the opportunity to prove to everyone I can be mature and responsible and grown up. Prove to myself that I was able to do it. And all of that was taken away and now I look crazy and stupid. I feel stupid and crazy. I can't help but wish I was healthily pregnant and had a baby on the way. I wanted my baby to call me mama. I want to be needed and loved so dearly by a little human. I feel as though I could've done it and figured it out. I think deep down I really wanted to be pregnant. I really wanted that baby. I would have been due in october. I could have joined support groups for teen moms and made really good friends. I always get sad at negative tests but never like this. Probably because I had it and now it's all gone. What if I never have that opportunity again. And I also feel terrible for involving people in what I thought was a pregnancy and miscarrage. The nurse was explaining all the steps and I was slowly getting;excited. And finding out when I would be due made me happy. I really wish, selfishly, that I was pregnant. And maybe I really did have a miscarrage but the baby was so small it passed in a few hours. It hurts a lot knowing what I could have had. I fell in love with my baby that I never had in the first place. I know it wasn't God's plan and I'm trying hard to trust Him.

[themainroboot]

Vent cos apparently that's all I use tumblr for anymore. Tw for pretty much everything

Also this is gonna be a long one

What the f u c k is wrong with me. Everything about me is just so-

For one thing I'm a shitty selfish person. I literally have no good qualities- no matter how hard I think about it. Nothings good about me. And yet I have a bunch of shitty qualities. My "good" qualities aren't actually me. Im "silly" and "funny" because people used to hate me because autism made me "boring" (all I ever wanted to do was talk about planes and shit aidjrjorfk) so I almost subconciously MADE myself crazy and odd like I am just so people don't abandon me anymore. I was like 4 years old. I can't even control it anymore. And yet all my bad qualities- lazy, selfish, toxic, manipulative, anxious, temperamental, abusive, gross. Those are all me.

My body is also the most disgusting thing ever- in every sense of the word. I barely ever shower because I can't bare to see myself naked because gender and also trauma. Speaking of that, fuck my body. I'm so fucking curvy and everything is just so- it's basically the most socially "desirable" female body ever (minus the fact I'm a fat bitch), so. Why do I hate it. Because I'm just so fucking selfish. I'm a spoilt piece of shit. Nothings ever fucking good enough for me. I have what a NORMAL person would want, and yet I would give fucking everything to trade it for even the LEAST "desirable" male body. Why can't I just keep pretending to be a girl. It worked for 14 years. 14 years of pushing myself to be the most "girly" thing possible (like wearing dresses everywhere and shit) because "that's what will make me feel like a girl" and wondering why it just made me feel worse. Maybe I should just grow my hair out again, the one thing I've ever been able to do for myself, and just keep pretending. Sure I'd want to die the entire time, but I at least owe it to my mother. I've hurt her enough. I'm a horrible toxic shitty person. I abuse her. I do nothing but make her hurt, cry, and I gave her terminally high blood preassure from stress. She could have a stroke and die any moment. Because of me. She always wanted a DAUGHTER, not a son. I'm so shitty. I can't even do that for her. I'm the worst child in the world.

In fact I'm so selfish I can't even look at my fucking boyfriends tumblr reblogs (and now intro) without being reminded of even MORE fucking trauma that I didnt even fucking remember and fucking great now I'm collecting triggers like fucking pronouns because I'm just so fucking selfish.

Doesn't help that I scratched my arm so hard it fucking looks like 3rd degree burns. It's actually gross how bad it is you can even see lumps of fat coming out of it. All because of my pathetically dumb and selfish mental breakdowns. I'm the most shitty person in the world.

I feel disgusting for even posting these vents cos I just worry and hurt people who care about me but I can't fuckung shut up so what the fuck do I even do anymore.

Sorry it was so long. I want to die again yay.

(I promise I won't actually attempt I just really want to fucking die in my sleep or something)

[rebelspektrum]

For Maja

1. Not anymore. Being an old light and constantly roaming around doesn't give her time for such things.

2. Crimson days with Kerehoma. She has such a profound respect for him it would literally kill her to not celebrate him in a way.

3. She has a very modest studio with a small kitchenette/living room, a bathroom and a small bedroom. She's content with it since she's barely ever at the tower

4. Their job. Love is complicated and confusing when you kill and defend for a living

5. Fav Q would be "what kinda music do you like?". Least favorite would literally be "so hiw have you been doing lately?"

6. Favorite is "Idea 9" by Gibran Alcocer (she somehow remembers from her previous life thag she can play the piano quite well)

7. Tight black pants that can act as underarmour if she suddenly need to swap to defense, top is usually oversized shirt for comfort since she is always in tight clothes

8. Most likely a fancy split dress. Something classic, a bit spicy but not too revealing either

9. "So, I've got gum, some random stuff I found like this funny looking bone."

10. Not really but she would die for anything that includes pudding

11. Coffee and energy booster. She tends to drink a bit too much of them before crashing

12. In the rare times that she has time off, she likes to go incognito in the markets of the City or by the hefty library she founds who has a piano to unwind

13. Bits of French like "je ne sais quoi"

14. She once used her solar abilities to make some bbq in the middle of summer. And she uses strand to make a swing

15. Going under a ladder is a no go

16. She struggles hard with them. Usually tries to talk to close and trustful friends about it but usually ends up disappearing and going to smash things to clear her mind, even if a little. If the nightmares are too much, she'll take to the crucible until she cannot stand anymore resulting in a rant from a worried Shaxx

17. Her ship had been modified over the years to accommodate her for her long period of leave from the last City so she has enough supply and a decent way of sleeping. Even Little Sunshine (her Ghost) got her own little space to rest.

18. Let's say she used to be a rider in her first life.

19. Very close. She had been terrified at first of the floating orb but she soon realized that said orb was something she needed to keep going and that through that sometimes snappy attitude laid a very worried Ghost. She often buys her new shells to try out

20. Kiss Saint (on the cheek), Marry Shaxx, Kill Cayde

21. She is fully responsible for a guardian and a group of civilians death during the dark ages. No one knows about it since it happened when she didnt know how to manage her strong light power

Mundane Guardian Asks

Do they celebrate their resurrection day? If so, how? If not, why?

Do they celebrate any holidays?

Is their house/"home base" mobile, interim, or permanent? Do they invite people over?

Would they rather be asked about their love life or their job?

What's their favorite [or least favorite] Small Talk Question? ("Where were you rezzed?" "What's your favorite color?" etc.)

What's their favorite song? -OR- What song would they choose as their personal theme/boss music?

What do they wear when running errands?

What would they wear to a formal event?

"What's in their pocketses?"

Do they have a food combo that's unique to them, like tajin and avocado ice cream?

Coffee, tea, soda, energy drink, or another caffeine source?

What kind of hobbies do they have? -OR- how do they fill their downtime?

What's a word/phrase people don't expect them to know, but is somehow part of their vocabulary?

What's their weirdest habit when using the Light/Darkness? (eg yelling kamehameha before casting Chaos Reach)

Any superstitions?

How do they counteract nightmares [bad dreams]? How do they counter Nightmares [Pyramid constructs]?

What kind of ship do they fly? Is it custom to their wants/needs or mostly stock?

On a scale of "constantly fishtailing" to "the next Marcus Ren," how good can they drive a Sparrow?

Are they close to their Ghost?

If they were playing "kiss, marry, kill", who would be their top 3 candidates?

What's a secret (small or large) that they will never share?

[indigo474]

Jan 14th- sunday sunday sunday

i meant to write all week but didnt.. so much happens, all the time.

I stopped to get gas one morning this week. Thursday? yes, thursday i know because i ran that morning and showered before work. As i was getting my gas i just happened to look over at the pump across they way from me and there were 2 guys checking me out.. it made me smile.. they were kids but still.. i looked behind me and there was another guy checking me out.. it use to make me feel a certain way.. not a good way- but this day- it made me feel good and also i get it.. i look good so i really cant blame them for looking..

tuesday i saw James and everything felt heavy. i lifted less but more reps which was fine with me. i was not feeling it..Thursday i dead lifted 200lbs.. another personal record. apparently this is what we do.. we dead lift. there is no limit as to how much we lift. my knees feel better. i ran a few times this week.. not real far.. 3miles. i ran friday morning in my neighborhood.. in the daylight. first time. i feel like i am making progress.. i have this thing about not being seen.. bizarre considering all i really want is to me seen .. but i'm also scared of being seen but i said fuck it.. i didnt have enough time to drive to the park and i really wanted to run.. so i did.. i'm not sure who saw me nor do i care.. progress.

i was in my feelings at the start of the week. there is a guy in my neighborhood who gives me an icky feeling. i know him but i dont. our daughters were friends in elementary school. i dont think he knows me.. but he smokes cigarettes and watches me run in the am. he reminds me of X.. i drove by his house one night and he was smoking with the door open. something X would have done..smoke in the door way -not really outside- smoke goes in the house.. anyway. i heard this guy leave early monday morning.. absurdly early. 4 ish. it reminded me of x, only he would leave at 3 something to go see his baby momma and his baby.. it brought back memories of the bullshit that i lived through and how messed up it all was .. i didnt deserve to be treated they way i was treated considering what X was up to. is this neighbor guy up to no good.. who knows..i'm just glad i don't have to worry about anyone doing me dirty. its kind of weird what can trigger a memory.. the great news is ..it's all great news.. the past doesnt matter- here now!!!

New York!! such a great time. Dancing in times square! Times Square.. electric.. I was so glad to share the experience with Madison. We went to a museum to see Taylor swifts clothes. MAds is going to London in Aug to see swift- and wants me to go. I am on the fence. i need to make a decision by the end of this week. I am amazed by the number of people in the city.. amazed.. it was a fun visit and i would like to go back. weird thing.. we went to lunch and the other mother we were with was super excited when she saw alcohol on the menu .. i told her i was going to have an iced tea because caffeine.. it was like i ruined the party.. i told her to go ahead and order a drink.. she declined. it made me feel weird.

i made it 10 days.. 14 days porn free and vibrator free.. it was a lot of work to make myself orgasm-i'm just happy i could do it without watching porn.

I got myself a book light and i absolutely love it.. and it was on sale. it makes reading in bed so much better.. just a little light.. i actually really love it. im still reading the Bhgavad gita.. i'm still excited for this year.. not so much this winter.. it is cold and i am over it. i think we are getting snow. i hope it isnt true. I am falling in love with myself more and more each day. it sounds weird to say, type, think, feel.. i am in a love affair with me.. i am looking forward to having next weekend off.. i am still waiting for my King... i hope he is somewhere happy. someday i will tell him about all the days i prayed for him before i knew him.

[makahimetenshi]

Follow me inside the wastelands - Chapter 14  -Arthur Maxson x Female Sole Survivor Fanfic

This one will be a long fic with a lot of chapters, I already write the concepts. Since I don’t play as Nora in Fallout 4 because Nate for me is the real protagonist the personalities and ideas are pretty fanbased from another fanfics I read

 If you are very very very delighted with one fic and want a continuation I didn’t write or post you can donate me at least $5 bucks, most of this fics have next chapters I don’t finish because lack of motivation but hey a $5 is a $5, I see a few reviews and coments that fics that are abandoned months laters receive coments of wanting to know what happends next. Here it is, I finished my handling with you all, enjoy the fic

 Lately, inside his quarters, Nora was dressing cute. He didn’t understand the reason but he loved coming inside after a long day of work to admire that beautiful pre-war wife fantasy.

-Dinners ready for you -she said with a smile walking around the place, Arthur couldn't stop looking at the waves and movements of her skirt, long to the knees but still mesmerizing.

-I bring this for you -he said throwing at her a box of Blamco Brand Mac and Cheese, Nora look at it with a stranged face.

-Its radiated? 

-No -at seeing her smile and squeaks of happiness  he sighted relieved. She didnt eat much, thats why is hard for her exercising and gain muscle, he noticed that when she is able to eat something nice not radiated a pure joy takes over her entire body, it must be hard to live having the obligation to eat at least twice a day and not being able to eat almost anything because you hate it. Maybe thats why she despises the life in the wastelands so much, you are obliged to survive and lean on but you cant even perform the most basic thing to do it, eating -i can wait for my meal, lets eat together, make yours while i undress -she nodded with such a beautiful smile that make his heart jump, if she was happy he was happy, he wanted to make her happy, happy at his side.

Still, it was a bit disgusting that she prefers to eat food from 200 years back but he also understanded her point of view. How difficult it must be living through each day and not being capable to enjoy almost any food to brighten your day and she still carry such a good will for everyone's sake. Sometimes his heart hurt at this type of thoughts, thinking on how much he loved her made atches on his chest.

Coming to that realization was a process but truth is they weren't together for a long time, what started as good chemistry turned into affection and adoration. Just a few weeks they officialized being together and this...thing between them just started some months ago, it wasn't much but it was enough for Arthur to not only think, but to be sure that he loved her deeply.

For her strength, confidence, habilities, kindness, sense of humor, flexibility, inteligence, beauty...he loved being around her.

He wished for this to continue, to keep this ilusion alive and ask her for marriage one day. Yeah, thats how sure he felt, he was thinking in that lately.

it helps that she had those actitudes, she was feeling comfortable enough to act like in her old life and Arthur was so relieved that she was doing okay around him.

-So...darling -she chuckled, filling with hot water a cup to spurr her Mac and Cheese, he look at the cup worried that it was a very small portion- how was your day?

-At the Sherrif station we found a case with a lot of pre-war food, i tested it personally and it has no radiation, you should eat more

-I know how to ration my meals, what you found must be someone who saved food to survive the doom day when it comes

-Yeah it was next to a skeleton but it doesn't matter, you can eat more -she stir with the fork the noodles in the cup and smelled it.

-You dont know how long it will pass until another pre-war food appears, its just luck

-Doesn't matter, eat, you can do it today

-Alright -she said not wanting to fight- give the noodles time to soften. So theres a squad already setted?

-Yes, in both places, at least they were checking the conditions of the buildings when i left, the Sherriff station is the worst but there's a lot to loot, too open, the Research center its closed but the floors are destroyed, if we are careful with the structure we can replace them and make news.

-Have supplys already? 

-The minutemens offer a table to eat dinner together everyday, to be together in the nights, some will make guards around the table while the others take turns to eat.

-What about the entrances? and the Brotherhood stations?

-Of course there will be always people, you worry too much to not be around

-Well im sorry a Deathclaw used me like a ragdoll to play -she said testing the noodles, going up to pick up Arthurs dinners.

He sighted, thats not what he meant at all.

-Do you feel guilty? about not being around- he asked, looking at the noodles making bubbles in the yellow water.

-Im not following

-I expect from you to feel imprisioned, trapped, not able to do anything to help while being keep in secret here

-I like being here -she said, leaving his plate over the table calling his attention- i like here knowing that you are safe only

Oh yes, that was good.

-Do you like the Prydwen? -he picked up his fork and moved it around his mutt chops

-No, i like the hot water, but ill like more my in debt house with natural gas, clean unlimited water and a flawless pavement which i pay high taxes to maintain. I only like this because you are around -Arthur smiled uncomfortably. She hated life in the wastelands. Looking at his own food make him feel bad, it look menacing in comparison to her, aggressive, violent, diabolical

-I was worried that you are not taking your medical visits until the next week because you are here in secret

-Im doing fine and moving and recovering, this is the most chill period i ever had since i wake up from the cryo pod...i haven't been able to smell like clean clothes more than just one day in such a long time...

-Me too considering you want to wash mines too

-Shut up -she laughed and drank of her cup, leaving a little mustache of yellow cheese juice over lips- does it taste good? i figured out that if it look like pork ribs it shouldn't taste that bad but dog meat wasn't delicious not even back in my times...

-It taste like dog meat with tato on top, i like it

-I dont know whats the equivalent of honey or vinegar in the wastelands to do barbecue sauce...speaking of which, are you available the week im out here?

-Maybe? -he said a bit confused, chewing.

-Saturday and Sunday?

-Two days? why? -welp now he was really confused

-I organized a party in Sanctuary Hills

-How do you organize a party being here?

-Radio

-Gosh i gotta check up Liberty Radio too for the news now -slippery, thats what she was, she always find the way

-Its a party for my recovery comeback

-But you are not fully healed -Nora was talking so relaxed while he was at the edge of his temper exploding, the knife cutting his meat was already rasping the plate and he didn't noticed until the sound of the metal plate was too evident.

-I got a little something between hands, Sanctuary is pretty far from here and i wanna go walking

-Why? is so far and dangerous lets take a ventibird!

-I dont know if is a good idea for you to leave the Prydwen and be seen two days with the minutemens, why not go undercover? as a date, between only us, not the Brotherhood or all the gossip involved

-I insist that is a dangerous trip for no reason

-Is my party...-the way she said that made Arthur whine out loud, she laughed sipping into her cup, eating some noodles. Both engaged a battle of who had the strongest gaze but after a pair of minutes Arthur surrender, sure, why not, lets risk our lives for a booty call

-Only if you eat that second cup of noodles

Truth is that he was risking himself HARD for a booty call, he, the elder of the brotherhood of steel, the supreme commander going to some farm settlement of citizens, of course all armed, with their general for two days without telling anyone. It was nonsense, crazy, stupid, he could be ambushed, he could be spellbounded from her for months to fall into this obvious trap to extorsion the brotherhood or something, she could be a double agent, after all being sentinel and also general of another force isn't normal but...but...

He trusted her, with his life. And he loved her.

This wasnt a trap, nor an ambush, this was a pure gesture from her and that's all, a party for them to be free and alone. -Yes elder -she said eating again- anyway i recommend to go with our power armors early in the morning  for safety and ill coordinate with the radio so a caravan picks us and get us a ride at some point to go faster, i don't wanna spend the whole day walking  -not to mention that she wasn't fully recovered on the legs to have that type of exercise

-A power armor date? -he said and she chuckled, the yellow cheese water splurted all around his cheeks and mouth, Arthur went up to clean her mouth with a tissue as she keep laughting, gosh he loved that.

-While there i can dress you with normal clothes, i have some mens pants in good state saved in my house.

OhMyGoshIts true. They were going to her place this time. The place, like, her real place. Yesyesyeyseysyeysyeyes now he wanted to really go, she was inviting him.

-Why do i need to be undercover? we officialized our thing -he went back to his plate, eating.

-Safety, and i don't need nobody treating you different, here at the Prydwen is one thing and its amazing but scribes told me that you have...cults around you? -she was chewing on the noodles, that was a good sing for Arthur, he was happy she was eating and talking.

-Yeah...-he moved around the collar in his neck uncomfortably, chewing, that was a delicate subject for him.

-You did good and its understandable, but I prefer for this days for you to be some other normal folk to enjoy my surprise -Arthur smiled lightly, she respected him and his special needs, she was caring. Nora studied him enough to know how to be together as it was some kind of manual to not slip and make an error that would compromise them.

-Ill see what type of excuse i can make to be off here without people freaking out, i trust you to not be recognized but im sure well have a good time, now prepare the water for that second cup of noodles.

-You are bossy today elder -she said and he kicked her under the table, keep eating.

The settlement of the Brotherhood troops went so well at Croup Manor that when the supplies arrived Arthur barely had to check anything, his soldiers were patrolling around the beaches, the turrets and lights were placed with a proper cable connection however generators were provided by the minutemens, that was the only weird thing but they worked, it just works. Now the beaches were guarded so twice a day a Mireluk emerged to watch on the people walking, just watching, they cant jump the fences and as soon they were spotted a warning shoot was trow, yeah, a warning shoot, because nobody want to attract a mireluk queen again to destroy all the work, for now, it worked, and it was going fine. Maxson was mesmerized to see people...walking on the streets...

The minutemens were cleaning the place, trimming the savage vegetation, moving trash out to the streets, some others were scraping to take as many resources they can...they were a community of..normal folks. Of course it isn't as innocent and pink as it looks like, they were cleaning and taking out the trash to use the land, start working it to make gardens and crops, separate it for the cattle, fence it to declare private property of whoever claimed that houses first. He understanded. But when he see an improvised post that sell old pre-war things scavanged from the houses and people bought with caps...

Maxson feel in peace, like, life before the war could be like this, and Nora made this possible, she showed him this vision.

A woman bought a bed in good state for her new house, another bought a pair of good shoes, a man exchange a gun for a shovel...Better not fall in the charm, this was possible because they were isolated and protected by the Brotherhood, also Libertalia wasnt far from here, better be careful with the raiders. 

Nora made this possible for this people, this moment of peace and socialization exist thanks to her, and he wanted to protect this, her project, her settlement, her idea of peace and people having this freedom

There was an empty house that no one claimed, when he asked about it, the minutemens said that it was reserved for the generals...alright...

He wanted her to be at his side, to keep making this projects come true together, give bring freedom to people to be able to see this visions again. He was lucky to have Nora at his side.

The end of her imprisonment was over without anyone getting news about it, one day after 14 days Nora just showed up a saturday morning in Cade infirmary to check the wounds on her legs, same with some exercising and clean up, now she was ready to go. Still, a power armor was needed, she needed the extra support of the exoskeleton.

The woman picked up a team of paladins early in the morning to go into a big old restaurant that had a big barbecue and get it back to the airport by the noon. Arthur was surprised to heard that the sentinel and the paladins were...playing around...with some apparently kitchen items in some place of the airport but he wouldn't interfere in the sentinels project... But he would at least get interested when a caravan with two pieces of already treaty radstag went into the entrance of the airport and Nora let them inside.

Two pieces done for eating, no head, no tail, no knees or whooves, bloodrained, apparently fresh, no furr or leather of course.

But what caught more his attention that there was two man with the caravans, sure, there was the driver of the caravans, which they paid to leave the cargo and go away, and also Preston Garvey and MacCready, great...sure Arthur have no problem with the minutemen general but the mercenary was at least...despitefull...

When he heard rumours of a barbecue...and see from the windows some fire and smoke...well he went down the Prydwen to the ground...to see what was up

-Will you give the orders or ill do? -said Preston to Nora, feeling out of place, but she wanted him there, she promised to them that shell be back, that she wasnt trapped on the brotherhood or anything, that shell be with them again.

And she kept her promise.

-Let me, they don't know you -better be than the sentinel giving orders than some stranger- Everybody don't worry, that wood is for scrap uses trow it all to the barbecue, we don't have natural gas or fire starter anymore so lets heat it!

-It took some work to take the leather out, now its sun drying and we move it when theres fire made, its a pain in the ass -said MacCready

It was expensive to make fire after all, wood and firewood were uses difficult to use.

-Well i want a good leather backpack so...-something something make her turn the head to one side, she didn't exactly know why she wanted to look that way with such...instinctive behavior until she saw the unique combat jacket and went running to Arthur, waving her hand until she was right in front of him with a smile -we are doing a barbacue!

-I can see that, why? -he asked curiously, looking at the fire and the exposed preys in a table.

-The other day i was reading something and i remember how annoying was Nate about having a barbecue with all his friends to celebrate the baby first year, its apparently a man thing, to do barbecues for the friends, i researched back then all the way to prepare it since he didn't know how to cook it despite wanting it so much even for other people. I mean i investigated and he bought the barbecue, the barbecue is of course lost in the wastelands, scavenged despite paying in interest-free fees since practically our baby's birth, anyway i remember that lost knowledge and wanted to prepare one since some radstags are not so different from old deers, its going to be fun!

Cool, that was some interesting reason.

-And why are they here? -he asked, not to be malicious but pure curiosity.

-It would be shitty to make them carry that precious and high valuable cargo and protect it without inviting some right? let them, they are under my watch and care. Besides some soldiers worked with that pair, they are not full strangers -he didn't trust that much the mercenary but Preston was a respetable soldier. Arthur make some signs with the hand, waving at them, when the mens understand they came by them to meet.

-Good evening elder -said Preston offering his hand, Maxson agreed and shake it.

-Its nice to meet on more quiet situations -said the elder to the second general

-Well that pricy radstag its going to be a blast for everyone, not sure if quiet is the most accurate word -said the mercenary, calling his attention.

-Pricy? -he asked.

-It doesnt matter Macready, the general paid for everything without a problem -said Preston to Macready. Nora had a peacefull smile on his face, Maxson didnt get it.

-Yeah because she is rich.

-Im not rich -Nora interrupted the talk a bit annoyed for the comment.

-Hell yeah you are, you buy not only one but two!

-Wait Nora you paid for these pieces!? -asked Arthur at the edge of having a heart attack. He tought it was gift or something from the citizens but...

-Of course, i know meat is expensive and these two are ready to cook, no waste at all and they even give us the extras, im will make sure somebody will do fine clothes with the leather. What? do you think im a tax-collector or some kind of land lord? -the elder breath hard but he was kinda impressed by her way of think,admirable at least, very considerate very little transactional- people doestn own me tribute for protection or anything, i just put the announcement on a post and some farmers family offer themselves to do the job, they put their price and i say ill pay when it see it done. And there it is!

Arthur was shook, and Macready could see it.

-Do you wanna know how much? we both made the payment and make sure it will arrive here. -something inside  the elder told him it was better to not know, but knowledge is power and brotherhood needed power, so he agreed with the head- 8000 caps each piece, 4000caps the caravan here

-Nora thats way too much! even for me! -she looked to another side, sighting tired, she didn't expect to be lectured about money from the most powerfull man in the commonwealth, they really were poor- how do you even got that amount!?

-Because she is rich -Preston hit Macready in the ribs and he whined, Arthur looked at them confused asking for answers.

-The general never uses the caps she collects, she trades. -Preston said lightly

-Theres no inflation in the wastelands i can just leave all the wealth accumulate! besides there's nothing to buy! is not like i can buy a car! if i bought a boat theres no guarantee i can use it, there's no fuel or gas! -Nora talked to...excuse herself? what the hell she didnt need this lesson

-Wawa-wait -said Arthur

-Ohohohoho this is the moment, watch this -said Macready to Preston, both watched the secuence.

-Accumulate? So you are telling me you have an ally of caps? like that deposit of chems? -he was trying to imagine in his head the situation because his own imagination wasn't enought to picture it. He was far beyond money, he didnt need it now but before his life as an elder everything was all about caps and having them was hella useful

-Yes -she said and his jaw dropped, shooked, completly still on his place.

-Well this is a secret anyway -said Preston whispering, and Arthur couldn't agree more, nodding with his head- we don't want her kidnapped to get the secret of her wealth

-Of course not -man Arthur feeled small right now, she was precious and valuable before but now heck she was a hell of a price! she even had more fortune than him! She really needed to be safe and protected! she was too perfect for her own good

-Oh my god i should have seduced  Jack Cabot instead, i can't believe you all consider this misery being rich, he is really rich if we make comparisons... -Arthur felt a string of jealousy but he let it pass, he had more questions...

-Wait you are a mercenary -Arthur pointed at Macready, he nodded to participate in the conversation- so you work for her for money

-Yes, she is my boss

Arthur noose breath HARD, trying to go slowly and understand better -an unique payment?

-At first yeah but then she started to give me 250 monthly and after i bring Dunkan here with me at the commonwealth she gave me 400 a month  -the elder look at her back with his eyes going wide, she ignored him, looking at the fire faraway and how it started to get bigger.

-Nora you are supposed to pay a mercenary once only -said the elder, not believing what he was hearing.

-i said the same when i meet him -Preston interrupted.

-I just figured out that if somebody calls you boss you have to give him a salary -she said.

-Yeah, this is the part, you see? i never heard about that word: salary, crazy -said Macready trying to not laugh at the elder of the brotherhood, if the soldiers around see that lack of respect they would shoot him and he didnt want problems.

-After i graduated i wanted to also have a 5 days 9-18 work with a SALARY monthly, not a freacking internship like it was some kind of favor to work...and having a kid is expensive so better cash well...-oh no she was talking things from before the war they couldn't understand, at seeing their confused gazes she sighted tired- gosh i should really seduced Jack Cabot, he may double my age but he really understand what a luxury is, now, if you excuse me im gonna use my knowledge on how to make a successful barbecue, i didn't study the perfect recipe to not be the winner trophy wife

She left and  Arthur was speechless. He sighted deep. Feeling tiny under her. He wanted to only feel like that in bed not in everything else and...

-Who is Jack Cabot? -he asked, whispering to them.

-Oooooohhh he wants to know -Macready had a silly smile but Preston hit him on the ribs again, fucking idiot.

-I don't know him, i know Nora help that family a while ago and now they hang around sometimes because they are kinda friends -said Preston cordially.

-Right right but is he kinda...a fling or something? -Macready suggested a theme that Arthur wasn't so sure to want on keep listening but...

-I will not say more about my general private life -corrected Preston to the mercernary actually indignant, Arthur was glad that he had her back, that he was a reliable man- but i dont think so anyway, never left it between lines. I think Paladin Danse knew him.

The elders heart sinked down on his chest at hearing that name. He will always be between them. Always.

-Ohohohoho  Danse was definitely a fling -in the moment Macready said that Preston looked at him badly, and hit him strong on the sides- stop that! -he whined securing his sides with the hands.

-Shut up -whispered Preston to him, menacing to fucking end the subject.

Arthur step back, he wouldnt ask. He wanted to know but he wasn't ready to know or ask her.

At looking where she was they were already placing the pieces on the barbacue the teams of Paladins recover and bring on the noon, soldiers and her, working together to give the brotherhood an expensive gift, a well received feast.

A pain appeared on his stomach, so much things makes sense.

When both men spotted the sadness that took over the elder Macready said.

-I never liked that guy anyway.

Maxson watched the preys burn in the fire, a smoky smell was around in the air. 

The warm orange light illuminated the sentinel black suit againts the fire, making her look beautiful.

He sighted.

-The pieces are going to slowburn for 2 hours according to Noras instructions and when we can start cutting large but slim chunks -Preston wanted to desperately change the subject and being friends back again please

-You think theres enough? i don't know how many people is here but...-said Macready also looking to the fire.

-Well is just a dinner and she said we can eat until the bones and cook absolutely everything so...

Arthur Maxson may better enjoy this dinner.

The elder apologized to both minutemen and retired to his quarters to keep working, after all two hours was a lot of time to wait he can use. Not with the best of encouragement of course. An hour later, music and cheers can be heared even in the skies, everybody was already celebrating and party, he couldn't see it since he didn't have a direct view to the airport but it wasnt hard to imagine

De did not wish to come around tho.

Two more hours passed, he still can hear the music and his soldiers having a good time on the grounds.

Half hour later, the doors of his quarters open, a smoky smell appeared in the room. It was Nora, with a box on a bag.

-You are such a jerk i search for you everywhere to be here.

-I must lost track of time -he said, not having a real excuse for his behavior, this took a lot of work and risk for her and he wasnt appreceating enought. At first he planned on saying that the smoke will ruin his jacket but it wasnt necesarry to lie like that

-Its already cold -Nora took out the box off the bag and open it, showing that there was chunks of steak covered in a red-bownish sauce, she grabbed a fork and a knife from nearby and started cutting it- but it taste amazing, i can believe it came out this good in my first attempt with a wasteland creature. -then she eat the pieces, chewing them with a smile, sitting on the table to be more confortable

Arthur open his eyes wide at the scenario, specially looking at the chewing and swallowing on her face.

-Wait you are eating? -he never see Nora eat actual wasteland food before, radiated raw material.

-It looks too good to not try, and its so delicious! This is my...five...try it! -Arthur quickly stand up and grab another fork and knife, cutting a piece and quickly eating it. She was right, it was tasty, it melted in his mouth, and he never experienced a flavour similar, there was stag meat and somekind like the tato sauce the made the other day...He devoured the steak quickly, licking his lips after finishing it.

She was eating. He had to support this. He was glad she was eating.

-I love it, theres more? -he said picking up her arm to make them go outside his quarters, better go before she changes her mind about eating radiated food.

-Yesyesyes of course, let me pick the box so they can warm it up, it went cold all the way up the ventibird and coming here and...-she was exited that he looked so in a hurry to get more, her idea turned out like a sucess.

-Nonono i want to save for tomorrow, leave it, forget the box, lets get more directly from the fire -he said to not lose a second and both went off the room closing the door back, holding hands until Nora stop him by stop walking, the man turned back to see her and she jumped directly to his neck to hug him, at first he didnt understood but then he surrender and hug her by the waist, he was in no position to defend himself from a hug, he loved her hugs, she smiled wide  and he smiled shy, caressing their noses in a  affectionate little play,.

This was nice, relaxing. He shouldn't go away before, she...she...Arthur couldn't assure she loved him, he never asked, confessed, or clarify things but this type of moments make him fantasize about being loved back by her. He didn't need to doubt or feel bad, it distracts him from the present and he didn't want to loose a  single moment of this.

His head turned looking for a kiss, inviting, and she corresponded, but only small kisses, melting their lips swiftly, wet kisses, she did that a couple of times until Arthur bite his lower lip and she tried to separate laughing low but he wouldnt allow it, tightening his grip around her waist.

-Not here...-she said between small laughts.

-You are right, lets get down to get the best pieces, i bet they are running out!

He preferred to use the chance to see  her eat and fill her stomach, this didnt happend frequently to lose the chance for some sex, they can smash the other later and he had the feeling that a great night was coming, but first, lets eat together, share a meal, a common meal prepared by her.

Gosh he wished to be loved back so bad.

 Macready turned out to have a totally different personality than in the game, i think Deacon would be more accurate to this type of dialogue but I wouldn’t have much sense with this specific trama for him to be here, anyway

 I still gotta write the lemons.

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