#i won't deny i get weirdly obsessed

[webzazes]

I must now ask when YOUR birthday is if you are comfortable sharing 👽

cam we’re twins 🤡

not that you actually should have known that but.

tmank yuo for ascming

[lookiamnotshameless]

You know, I usually hate the 'really pretty person doesn't realize they're pretty' trope, but there's something about it that works when it happens with Roderich Edelstein, aka the man who spent half a millennium being The Catch of Europe, and knew it. He knew, and despite making rather full use of that and despite looking like that, he vehemently believes that he is plain and uninteresting without his glasses (his music), that he'd instantly become the worst looking person in Europe when you ask him to put on a relatively harmless costume (so, without his veneer of aristocracy).

This isn't your standard garden variety oblivious insecurity; this is some next level denial of self. This man actively, categorically and thoroughly denies any idea that he can possibly be attractive/wanted/needed by himself, as a person, rather than by what he is, the power he can offer, the cultural refinement he possesses. While he isn't repressed about who he is and has no qualms about showing his slovenly/lazy sides, he simply denies that it has any value. It goes beyond ‘I'm worthless', it's more like, ‘there's no value in getting to know any of this, don't bother' matter-of-factly. (I remember that meta that he doesn't even take his glasses off if there's even one person with him, even someone he's more comfortable around like Erzsebet.) There are cases of other characters telling him that he looks just fine or showing him rather personal affection, and he just seems to…shrug it off, like you'd shrug off someone who just stated that the world is flat and lizardmen live on the moon. He's not angsty about it. This is how he prefers it. He prefers that there's nothing to Roderich Edelstein the entity-who-could-conceivably-be-seen-as-a-person, only what Austria the Nation has built over the years.

Couple that with how he embraces his lack of agency and complacency to a degree that nobody else does and is just kind of shrug emoji about it, and he became this sort of undying cockroachlike intrigue that won't leave my brain even after so many years.

At the end of the day this is probably why my endgame Roderich ship in the Year of Our Lord 2024 is still Gilbert, after all this time. Reams of text have been written about how they've been such perfect foils to each other across the centuries, and what could be a more perfect modern-day foil to all that than the character who literally has nothing left but being a person? Someone who lost everything built in his name as an immortal earth-god-parasite-spirit-thing, whose legacy is being slowly forgotten? Someone who, despite shining as bright as Roderich back in his prime, had never defined or presented himself as anything but who he is as a person and expected the same from others? (Gilbert has his own tanks of worms yes but this is a Roderich stan post.)

When you take in the fact that Gilbert was weirdly obsessed with stalking and antagonizing Roderich this entire time, it creates a really nice juicy conflict point for my shipping tastes lol.

[dakogutin]

hiiii i just binge read all your fics and obsessed is an understatement!!!

idk if u take requests but i had an idea and it’s driving me crazy i just had to put it somewhere.

okay so i thought of it while reading the fic in which remus and sirius hear each other in bed at night.

well…. james and lily share quarters when tnehre head boy and girl, i know they don’t share a room exactly, but i was thinking: with all their tension building up throughout the years, especially that year, one of them hearing the other even if it was so so quiet would drive them crazy and i’d love to see your interpretation of how it goes.

i really hope you consider writing this but if you don’t thank you so much for all you’ve given the fandom!

ive never been thanked for giving to a fandom🥹🥹thankyousosomuch!

havent written exclusively jily smut yet but this one's for you anon<3

[cw for cute plot but with very filthy m/f smut below cut]

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Head Boy and Head Girl. That was definitely one way to have her final year at Hogwarts, Lily thinks to herself. For one, she was forced to work with James Potter often. But the surprises didn't end there as she's progressively making sense of why James Potter became Head Boy.

In the first month she could still deny it, but with their rounds scheduled together, the endless meetings, and their regular check-in with Professor McGonagall, she can't avoid it anymore. James Potter was surprisingly and unfortunately... she shudders... responsible.

She tries-- very hard-- not to let anything show, especially knowing James Potter will run with any reaction he'll get from her. But the realisation hits her harder than a Hex sometimes. And it had been too much lately.

Like that time when they were deciding on which Prefect to assign on the fifth floor corridor. It's where their DADA professor had hidden a "secret special dark creature", and no one was permitted to use that floor for their own safety. The task of keeping that corridor empty fell on the Prefects. Lily had names ready, which included Lupin. She watched James' reaction and sure enough, he protested. He and his gang were always weirdly protective of that quiet Lupin.

"Davies can take Lupin's place."

Lily raised an eyebrow. "No one gets special treatment, Potter. I wouldn't have you use Lupin for whatever kind of mischief you otherwise reserved him for."

Potter held out his palms in the air and let out a small chuckle. "None planned, I'm afraid. Just that Davies is rather, how shall I call it..." He shrugs. "A bit of a pompous sod."

"And you'd rather have a pompous sod keep check of whatever dark creature is in there?"

"If the choice is either that or Peeves, Evans? Yep."

"What does Peeves have anything to do with this?"

As though he was waiting for that exact question, Potter leaned his head on the pillar as an arrogant grin on his face matched his tone. "Lupin is one of the few people who can go toe to toe with Peeves. There's Sirius, but he's out of the question. Not a Prefect and all that. Of course, I'm another option but I'll clearly be occupied, won't I?"

No words come to Lily. He was right. To think she was too caught up with the smaller picture of using Lupin to spite Potter.

"And," James adds, "Davies loves his authority. If anything, students passing by that floor wouldn't think twice in following what he says. While Lupin can help the first years get to their common rooms without being tormented by our resident poltergeist."

It's this point that Lily failed to contain the awe from her face.

"I know. I'm rather brilliant." James waggled his eyebrows.

She simply rolled her eyes in response then.

At present, she couldn't help but have all those other similar instances where James Potter surprised her of his maturity and dedication to his role fill her mind as she went searching for him. He just had to have Quidditch practice at the same time with their meeting, so now the task of passing him the minutes of meeting fell to her as Head Girl.

She could wait until tomorrow of course, but the thought of an unfinished business with James Potter didn't exactly sound appealing. She'd much rather be done with it as soon as possible.

The pitch was empty when she reached it. Practice must've been over. For a moment she dreaded the more complicated prospect of searching for James in the entire castle, but that was when she spotted Sirius Black.

"Where's your other half?" she demanded.

"Evans," he noted. "Good morning to you too." Then he proceeded his steps.

"Black, wait." Lily held out the paper. "Why don't you give him this."

He stared at it for a second, then glanced up to her. "I'm allergic to official documents. Sorry."

"Don't be an arse. I'm just asking you to pass it to him since you're attached at the hip anyways. And it would spare me the trouble of having to look for him."

"Do it yourself." Black grinned. "He's in the changing rooms, doodling the team's strategy like a proper swot."

Lily sighed. "Why can't you do it? Please," she added, begrudgingly.

Black shrugged, already walking off. "I'm not the Head Girl."

He was gone before she could even form a retort.

After dragging her feet to the changing rooms she found it as empty as the Quidditch pitch. Lily debated simply sending her owl, but in the end she decided against it since the Owlery is in yet another tower. She cursed Sirius Black in her head, dismissing this as some stupid prank. Honestly, why hadn't she expected that?

She then heard a distant noise. Someone was inside. Lily proceeded further and was about to call out Potter's name when she recognised the sound of water spraying down on tiled floors.

If this person really was Potter, he was in the middle of a shower.

Lily clamped her mouth shut and cursed Sirius Black again, retracting her steps as silently as possible.

As she turned for the exit she heard a noise from the shower. She thought it had been a hum-- that maybe James Potter was one of those people who sang while showering...

Except it was too faint and too guttural to be a hum.

When Lily heard the noise again, she was more than certain he wasn't singing. The noise shot right through her, leaving a shudder. She needed to leave. Now.

But as another soft moan echoed in the small room, Lily could distinctly tell it was indeed James Potter's raspy voice. And that just made everything worse.

Her face heated as it became harder to breathe. Suddenly all she could picture was James Potter-- just a few steps away-- completely naked, sopping wet... and touching himself. Her treacherous mind reminded her how he's always been showing off about his form and how he worked hard during the summer, plus with playing Quidditch all these years. The thought of that form he worked so hard on right now?

Lily swallowed, and that's when she realised her mouth was watering. She was mortified as much as she found herself frozen. Another moan slipped out from behind her, deeper and gruffer. And just like that her mouth wasn't the only thing that's wet.

She needed to go. She needed to go. She needed to go. "Fuck!" she hissed a whisper. This was wrong on so many levels.

One foot was out of the room when-- she dropped her wand.

Horrified, she didn't waste time picking it up and bolting out. She could only hope James Potter was... too busy... to have heard that.

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Lily stayed at a deserted hallway overlooking the Great Lake for Merlin knows how long just collecting herself, questioning her life choices, and wondering if she should Obliviate herself. The thing is, distraction was just about impossible. She'd find herself circling back to all those sinful thoughts, and those sounds.

A voice broke through her spiral. She jumped at the unexpectedness but failed to make out the words. Turning to face the person, her knees almost gave out to the sight of none other than James Potter. He was still wearing his Quidditch uniform, which only sculpted his indeed very fit form. Why? Wasn't his practice over? Hadn't he already showered? Why did he have to wear that now?

She stared at him for a while and she saw how he was still expecting a response. "What did you say?" she asked dumbly.

Hands shoved in his pockets and grinning slightly, he stepped closer. "I said, are you all right?"

"Why wouldn't I be?" "Lily felt her breathing become unsteady once more and internally cursed herself. "And... why would you just come out of nowhere to ask me that? How did you even find me? What do you want?"

"Right," Potter chuckled. "You seem tense."

Lily took a deep breath. "I'm just tired. Look, I only meant to give you this." And finally, she was relieved from her task.

"Thanks, Evans." He said without sparing more than a second's glance at the paper.

"Sure." She then fixed her bag over her shoulder and walked past James Potter.

"Wa- where're you going?" He called behind her.

"Erm..." She hated that she didn't have an immediate reply. Anywhere was honestly better, with all those feelings she'd just shoved down already coming back to the surface as Potter looked at her with those round searching eyes. "My room."

"It's 4 in the afternoon on a Saturday."

"Your point being?"

Potter shut his mouth, whatever he wanted to say was left in his thoughts. "Nevermind."

"Okay... well, I'll see you around." Lily turned away once more.

"Actually, I wanted to ask you something."

"The answer is still no, Potter."

He laughed. "Not that." He stepped closer again, taking away the distance Lily just made.

"What is it..." She could smell his aftershave this close.

His glasses were skewed as his eyes scanned her. For the first time Lily felt an impulse to fix it on his nose. "Have you been looking for me?" he asked.

Lily had no idea how to deal with a James Potter like this. He was speaking in a softer voice and he was giving her a gentler gaze. It was far from his usual loud and uncaring tone along with his brazen grin. "I was," she replied. "Just to give you that."

"Right. And you were at the Quidditch pitch?"

She didn't like where this was headed. "Yeah. You had practice, of course that's where I'd look." At that, he simply nodded. "Why do you need to know?" she challenged.

James Potter's grin was back. "Guess I'm just curious."

Don't answer. Don't answer. Don't answer. "About what?"

He shrugged. "How long you can avoid what you know I'm talking about."

Lily decided to play his game. "What are you talking about?"

"Sirius told me he saw you," he said, stepping closer.

Lily held his gaze. "Oh? What else did he say?"

"That he told you where I was."

Nope. She couldn't do it. "Have you no shame?" Lily turned away, her cheeks heating up. "Whatever, okay. I didn't see anything."

Potter broke into a laugh. Of course he had no shame. "I didn't mean to make you... tense."

Still refusing to meet his face, Lily replied, "I'm perfectly fine."

"Evans," he called soflty, "I can tell your face is red."

"Maybe because this topic is largely inappropriate!"

"Alright, sorry," he said with another wave of chuckles. "I'm letting you go now."

Lily sighed in relief. "Thank you." She made one move to head off when Potter spoke once more.

"Just thought I'd let you know, I'd recognise your perfume anywhere."

There was just no way she was getting out of this unscathed. It became clear she should just stop resisting. Lily turned. "So, you knew I walked in."

Surprise was evident on Potter's face. Perhaps he expected Lily to walk away. "Not at first," he admitted.

"But you continued anyway." Lily took slow but consistent steps like a prowling cat, stopping right in front of Potter. He followed her every move with his gaze alone, half-lidded eyes trailed down to hers. "Would you do that if anyone else had walked in?" she added in a murmur.

Potter tilted his head. He had a dazed look, and his lips were parted. "You know I wouldn't."

Already this close, it didn't take much for their lips to meet in a kiss.

A shudder spread through Lily's skin in hearing a pleased but muffled sound from Potter. The thought of drawing more of those sounds from him filled her with dark anticipation. Big warm hands caressed her softly as she tugged on his hair. Too lost with the slick heat of James Potter's mouth, she gasped at the sudden solid brick of the wall against her back. James was crowding her there-- in the middle of the hallway where anyone could pass by and see.

"James..." she mumbled against his lips.

He responded with a groan, strong arms squeezing her. It was remarkably secure in his hold, and she could definitely feel his form. She took a self-indulgent moment to let her hands explore, never leaving his lips. From his sturdy chest to the narrowing of his waist. Merlin, she could do this for hours.

"Mmph..." James let out a deeper moan, and she felt it on her neck. "Lily..." His voice this close to her ear was nothing compared to hearing it in the shower. And for him to moan her name...

Lily's knees threatened to give out, and the certainty of being held firm by James almost convinced her. Instead, the palm on his chest pushed him until their lips were apart. "Not here," she whispered.

James stared at her for a while, still caught in a daze. She watched as her words settled in his mind, dilated pupils scanning her until they widened in realisation. Then, a smirk stretched his swollen lips. He looks as though the disbelief hasn't left him. That this really is happening. In all fairness, Lily couldn't believe it too.

"Wipe that stupid expression away and find us somewhere private, will you," she said with a chuckle.

His smirk stretched into a grin. "Yes, ma'am." He stole one last kiss before stepping back, pulling her with their linked hands.

James led them to an empty classroom. With a wave of his wand the lock clicked, and he was instantly back on her like a starved man, guiding her to the nearest desk. Lily welcomed every kiss before pulling his tight uniform over his head. "You found this room really quickly, huh." She couldn't help but notice.

"Hmm?" His shirt was now off, his hair was messier, and his glasses sat crookedly on his nose.

Finally, Lily fixed his glasses. "I just said, you seem to always know which places to look. You found me easily too, just earlier. I had to look for you for hours!"

Two blinks until he managed a response. "Oh." He shrugged. "Just... great sense of direction. May I?" he asked, glancing to the buttons of her shirt.

Lily gave him a look. "Since when were you a gentleman?" she said, then proceeded to unbutton herself. Much to her satisfaction, his eyes never left her hands.

"Since," he swallowed thickly, "since you bothered to find out."

"That doesn't make sense." Lily let her shirt fall from her shoulders and perched on the desk.

James' breaths were heavier. "No, it doesn't." His eyes stayed stuck on her breasts. He would lift his gaze to her eyes but they'd constantly fall back down. It was adorable.

With a fond smile straining her cheeks, Lily reached for James' hand and placed it on her left tit. "You can touch me, you know." She then pulled him closer, parting her legs to make space. "I want you to touch me."

A surprised laugh left James' throat. He bit his bottom lip, if only to contain his wide grin. "Fuck, Lily..." James surged forward into a desperate kiss, pressing down until Lily was lying back. Her skirt hitched up until it was now loosely around her waist. She could feel everything in this position, the most prominent being the erection against her own wetness, and the thrilling fact of being separated only by a few layers of clothing.

She bucked her hips impatiently, grinding against James. The groan she elicited from him went directly into her mouth. It's then she zeroed in on one goal. She needed to hear more.

While James' hands were otherwise engrossed with feeling up Lily's tits, she trailed hers downward, reaching for a buckle. James noticed with a gasp and pulled off to shoot her a look of pure want. Hooded eyes, heaving chest, and swollen lips curled into a grin. He was the image of a wet dream.

James watched as her deft fingers unbuttoned him, tugged his pants to pull out his hard cock. It fell right between her legs, sitting on top of the wet patch of her panties. Then, she stroked.

She was rewarded with a shaky moan from the man on top, his head dropped to rest on her neck as she found a rhythm. Right next to her ear, she could hear the shaky sighs and the small whimpers whenever she twisted her wrist just so. Then, an idea popped in her head.

"This was what you were doing in the shower?" she cooed.

"Oh, fuck..." he drawled before dissolving into a short laugh. He rocked his hips, aiding Lily's fist. It caused his cock to graze against her clit. She jolted in surprise just as a moan escaped her lips. "No," James continued, now gazing down at her. "This is infinitely better."

"James..." she whined, pleading. She didn't know what exactly, just that she wanted him to do something.

It's as though she flipped a switch in James' brain. He pulled up from lying on top of her, closed one hand around his cock and used his other to dip inside Lily's underwear, finally sliding his finger through her slick folds. Lily sobbed out a moan, her head falling back.

The finger stopped teasing and finally rubbed her clit. With Lily's mouth hanging open, she reconnected their lips until they swallowed each other's moans. Her hand that was still around his cock started jerking him off in time with his fingers. It prompted James to slip them inside her waiting hole and her other arm instantly flew around his shoulders, gripping tightly to ground herself from the whirlwind of pleasure.

They stayed in that perfect dance for a while as James' fingers tested different angles and eliciting different responses from Lily. When he found that delicious spot inside her, and she cried out from beneath him, he pulled out. Then, he got off her completely.

Before Lily could even form her protest, getting on her elbows to find exactly where he is, she was met with the sight of James getting on his knees between her legs. He delicately slid her knickers to one side-- then licked a stripe up her wet cunt.

Her head fell back down as she moaned hoarsely, a distant thought crossed her mind that hoped no one passed by this classroom, but it was quickly replaced by that same wave of arousal when she felt two fingers slip inside her again.

Just as she'd thought it couldn't get any better, James would moan-- and the vibrations went directly where his mouth kissed and sucked. It was too much.

"James!" She panted. "James, fuck, I'm... I think I'm go--" But James wasn't interested in helping her finish her sentence, speeding up his fingers, sucking harder, and moaning louder. She didn't stand a chance. Lily came in waves and waves, writhing in place as she was powerless to James' firm grip.

When the high subsided and she felt one with her body again, she didn't waste time pulling James up to his feet and smashing their lips to a heated kiss. Her hands crawled to his neglected cock, hot and leaking, and stroked him with all the intent to see him fall apart. His jaw fell slack and all he could do was turn into a mess of whimpers and groans.

A twitch in her hand told her he was close, and then he was coming a rope of hot white on her. It seemed forever that he recovered from his peak. "Fucking hell," he said after taking his first breath. "I don't think I came this hard in my life." He shook with laughter. The sight prompted a surge of emotion in Lily's chest that she couldn't help but drag him back into a long kiss.

The only coherent thought in her head was this couldn't be the last time this happened. "Ask me again, Potter," she said breathlessly, fixing his glasses back to the bridge of his nose.

It took him a long while to figure out what she wanted him to say, until finally, he grinned. "Lily Evans, will you go on a date with me to Hogsmeade?"

She mirrored his grin. "I'd go on a date with you wherever, James Potter."

The elation on his face could light up the entire castle on Christmas day. He let out one huff of laughter before collapsing on top of her and drowning her in kisses.

[animeyanderelover]

Could I request how it would be with indra,madara,Sakura,tsunade,kakashi,itachi,obito,Sasuke,shisui with a request like this?Thank you ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

Sure.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, clinginess, delusional mindset

Hold me or I won't be able to sleep

Indra Otsutsuki

💜He isn’t someone overly obsessed with physical affection so if his s/o is someone who’s clingy, they’ll have to be prepared for Indra to snap at them if they annoy him. Sure, he is slightly more tolerant because you’re his darling but that doesn’t make his words and actions less harsh. Indra feels torn apart about this habit of yours. On the one hand he naturally enjoys the dependency factor it has because it ensures that you won’t be able to ever leave him except if you desire to become the world’s greatest insomniac.

💜The undeniable clinginess that comes alongside with it tends to get on his nerves at times though because if you want to head to bed and go to sleep and he doesn’t, he’ll obviously ignore your pleads to tag along. Indra stays up at night pretty long as he deems training to be more important than going to bed early. You’ll have to adjust your sleep schedule to his own as you can’t fall asleep without him. Indra forces you to join his training anyways and if you don’t do well in his eyes, he won’t join you in bed. If you want to sleep, earn it.

Madara Uchiha

🌑Madara is a little bit more smug about the whole ordeal because he takes more pride in the fact that his s/o literally needs him if they want to enjoy some sleep. It’s like candy for his possessive side. Like, he’s sometimes just making fun of his darling because of this, whether jokingly or in a more condescending tone depending on the strength of your relationship at that point. At times he’s denying you by not going to bed and if you want him to cuddle you, you’ll have to beg him and stroke his ego.

🌑He has an image to keep outside your home though as the head of the Uchiha Clan so those playful acts of his are mostly only reserved for your private chambers. It isn’t uncommon for Madara to be gone long too, whether this is because of a meeting with the eldest or a mission. In such cases you're forbidden to seek him out or join him as in such moments he has to keep his scary face. As tempting as it may be to have you on his lap, especially during boring council meetings, you’ll play it safe by waiting for him.

Tsunade Senju

🐌Tsunade is a doctor so she is very fixated on the health of her darling. This includes quite obviously also their sleep schedule. Now, the beautiful lady is a tad bit happy when she realizes that her darling needs her if they want to sleep but she isn’t blinded enough to make the right judgement as a medic. That this dependence isn’t normal and could also be interfering with your sleep. She’s worried that she might not always be able to join you in bed which would leave you unable to sleep and could harm your health.

🐌The Fifth Hokage finds herself growing clingier as a result of that and often takes her with you, even in the office of the Hokage. Honestly, as guilty as she might feel because she still knows that such a habit is unhealthy, she also can’t deny that she adores it a bit. Whenever you fall asleep on her lap, she fawns over you, denying all the paperwork once again in favor of cuddling you. Still, Tsunade tries to clear her own schedule to go to bed with you so that you can fall asleep soundly and get a good nights rest.

Kakashi Hatake

📖A very tiny part of Kakashi is also a bit flattered about the fact that you need him with you if you want to fall asleep. Underneath his often nonchalant attitude is after all a possessive and paranoid man so he feels weirdly reassured as he knows at one point for sure that you’ll never leave him. For the biggest part though, Kakashi feels pressured and is even worried. His own sleep schedule is all over the place after all and even more so if he’s already the Hokage. In between all of that he needs to put you in somewhere.

📖Whilst his own health and sleep schedule may not matter that much to Kakashi, it’s a different story for you so in the end he’s still stressed. The man does his best to be there for you though. He’s probably a bit hesitant to take you with him in the Hokage office where you might fall asleep on his lap. Don’t misunderstand, he loves it normally when you sit on his lap but that’s only for when you two are alone at home. He’s far too protective and possessive to let you be so vulnerable in the office and be seen by others.

Obito Uchiha

🔥Truthfully, at this rate Obito might as well be an insomniac who rarely gets a good amount of sleep. He denies sleep in favor of his plans and nightmares of Rin’s death might just be another fact that keeps him away from laying down for a much needed rest. The Uchiha is unhealthily attached to his darling though and for that willingly joins them in bed whenever they head to bed. He’s already quite co-dependent on you so the knowledge that you also depend on him for your sleep makes him quite happy.

🔥You only feel secure enough to drift off to sleep when being held by him, you have no idea how happy this makes him. Obito is very clingy to top it all so you don’t even need to ask him, the moment you go to your bedroom he’s already eagerly following you. He has no sleep schedule of his own after all, even if he had one, he’d still adjust it to fit your own. He is for the largest amount of time not even really sleeping, he’s just watching you sleeping. That sounds quite creepy but for Obito it’s almost therapeutic.

Shisui Uchiha

🍂Shisui is for the biggest part quite responsible and focused on your well-being and as much as he’d like to bask in this all more, he can’t help but be worried. Your dependency would under different circumstances be quite sweet but not when it stops you from getting the healthy amount of sleep you require. Shisui is an Anbu and one of the most skilled and feared on top of that so he is on missions which can be very lengthy. He’s used to it but now he has to worry about you in the back of his mind.

🍂You can’t just skip on sleep during his absence so what Shisui does is seek out a good medic to help with your condition. You need to learn to sleep even without him. If you need to take special sleeping pills or other medication to fall asleep, you’ll do so. Otherwise you’ll worry your lover very much. Whenever Shisui isn’t on missions, he can’t deny that he spends more time with you, worried about your health due to the severe lack of sleep. He always forces you into a strict sleep schedule when he’s with you.

Itachi Uchiha

🍡Itachi has similar problems as Shisui but even more severe as he’s a member of the Akatsuki and his missions can go on for a long time too. What is he supposed to do then? You can’t get any sleep or very little without him. He didn’t expect you to develop such a co-dependence on him when he abducted you and neither did you but now both of you are here and Itachi just feels incredibly sorry for you. He sees how much it affects you whenever he returns from a mission, how the lack of sleep drives you insane.

🍡He spends as much time as he can with you, secretly starts dreading the next mission where he has to leave you alone. He tries everything he can, even searches on his missions for some herbs or other things that are supposed to help someone to fall asleep and brings them with him in hopes that it’ll help you. If the problem gets too severe, he even starts considering to bring you along on missions. He’s quite hesitant though as those are always dangerous and he’s far too protective to ever get you in risky situations.

Sasuke Uchiha

💙Similar to Madara, I can see Sasuke as feeling quite smug with this situation. It helps to satiate his possessive side more as it gives him an unfair advantage over you. If you don’t want to be robbed of your precious sleep, you’ll have to stay with him after all. Especially during his teenage years though I can’t help but see him as more difficult as you have to be careful with how clingy you are and how your sleep schedule works. Sasuke is very focused on training after all so he won’t go earlier to bed just for you.

💙Whilst you’re forced to adjust your schedule to his own during his younger years, Sasuke is far more relaxed as he gets older. Both of you are traveling around at that point, but he doesn’t mind stopping somewhere if you want to take a nap. Something that truly never changes though is his defensive behavior against anyone who might stumble upon you sleeping. Partially because he’s embarrassed to be caught cuddling his s/o, mostly because he absolutely won’t allow anyone else to see you in such a vulnerable cute state.

Sakura Haruno

🌸Sakura takes this problem a tad bit more serious than her teacher does. As a doctor how could she not, she should know best how important a healthy amount of sleep is. Not that she is one to talk, considering that she often spends time overworking herself in the hospital. Perhaps that’s where the problem starts though, she works a lot. Surgeries, daily routines of checking the health of her patients and so many other stuff that keeps her from coming home earlier. Even she gets called out for working too much.

🌸She definitely tries to come up with different methods to hopefully get you to fall asleep. Tea, exercise or something else. If she realizes that it has little to no effect, she tries something else. She either tries to actually head the advice of other doctors in the hospital and finish her shift on time or she invites you to just tag along and spend your time in the hospital with her. You don’t have time to sit on her lap though as Sakura is often busy with patients, if she has some paperwork to do though she will allow you to just sit on her lap and doze off.

[vintageseawitch]

it's been two days since MAGA has started this absurd & dangerous "rumor." just a reminder that this is literally a Nazi tactic - dehumanize a certain demographic of people so when this said demographic starts getting sent to camps or deported or straight up exterminated many people won't bat an eye.

conservatives are so evil & performative that they're angrier at bullshit lies THEY CAME UP WITH (Haitian immigrants eating cats, after-birth abortions, etc) than real life tragedies THAT CAN BE PREVENTED (school shootings, women dying because they're being denied reproductive care when it's dangerous).

there's no point in fact-checking them; they won't believe it. it's all part of the modern-day hitler handbook: having people believe that they can't even trust their own fucking eyes. the best thing to do is either ignore or ridicule (so long as you're safe to do so).

MAGAs need to become bigger social pariahs than they are now. they're showing some level of embarrassment, such as not having as much trump merch up in certain areas (whether they changed their minds on actually voting for him is likely another story; but unless i see the results i don't think their principles & inner ideologies have changed that much). it needs to be verbally beaten into their thick skulls that them advocating for trump & giving up loved ones because they love him more is them advocating for America to fall. they're all traitors weirdly obsessed with Russia BECAUSE RUSSIA WANTS US TO FUCKING FALL.

i refuse to go down with the rest of these morons who want to "own the libs" so badly they're willing to destroy America to do it. fuck you all. you're vile traitors. if you're willing to truly change your mind, wonderful, but if after all this time you continue to be for this monster i hope you end up alone & shamed. you're nazi scum & you don't deserve any good things.

[crimson-moonflowers]

AIGHT, RAMBLE TIME

Just adding little warnings(?) in case someone doesn't want to read something in here: I'll be talking about SO so ofc there will be spoilers, and I'm going to shit on people and a ship that, if you've known me for a bit, you know I absolutely DESPISE

Anyway :)

Istg idk if some Joly*ui shippers are stupid or straight up blind.

Like- y'all can't complain about people saying Jotaro protected Jolyne, HIS ONLY DAUGHTER THAT HE HAD SOENT YEARS TRYING TO PROTECT (by taking some stupid decisions, I won't deny that), when he pulls her away from that pink fucker after he asks to marry her.

MY MAN JUST MET THAT GUY, WHO ACTS WEIRDLY OBSESSED WITH JOLYNE AND WHO WAS FAIRLY IN PRISON UNLIKE EVERYONE ELSE.

"Oh, but Jolyne was the one to accept!" Excuse me, but you seriously can't stop me from believing that Jolyne didn't think "he's only helping because he wants to marry me, we need all the help possible, so I better accept otherwise he'll leave"

AND BEFORE ANYONE TELL ME THAT IS BECAUSE I PREFER OTHER SHIPS THEN NO SHIT

I WOULD'VE LIKED IF SHE HAD ENDED UP WITH LITERALLY ANYONE ELSE

HELL, EVEN ALONE

You're telling me that after her last boyfriend was accomplice of the plan to get her on jail and killed, she isn't going to have problems trusting people to be her partner?

BS

[skybluesocks]

Hi I don't know what the fuck im talking about here is a weirdly personal ramble about Tavros from my homestuck rotten brain I sent my friends from the fucking hairdresser:

Im having such complex thoughts on tavros while the pink dye is being applied so I put them here rather than subject my poor hairstylist to them: im just thinking about how like, he's a "late bloomer" so to say. Like, he still plays childish games, he's obsessed with fairies and pupa pan and games. His life sucks, and just keeps going downhill, and it makes him retreat into these sources of escapism, but its not actually solving the problem. I think about him telling Jade "the only fun I ever had playing this game is when I was asleep" a lot. He's a heartbreak feeling left behind by your peers. I see a lot of 20 such year olds freaking out over how they have friends getting married and having careers, but its also something so entrenched in puberty. You feel left behind socially as kids around you start getting their owns complexes to disregard and abandon "childish" things. This is seen so many times, a lot in Vriska but also a lot of the other trolls and even the kids, and a lot of them expressthis *to Tavros* . But tavros doesn't abandon this things, they're like, the best things in his life. Like, ni wonder he didn't know what to do when vriska kissed him, or when gamzee offered to make out, I would have had the same reaction at that age. Meanwhile I have heard people directly talk to me in 8th grade about having make out session in previous years. This doesn't have a point, im just having a lot of thoughts I can even imagine how long this is by now oh boy I guess its also like, I know I keep hammering home how the story seems to forget how young its own characters are, but tavros very much feels his age.

Yeah anyways I may be unpacking further why I relate (me at 13) to tavros. I was always friends people younger than me, I was into "childish" things, absolutely massive prude, I didn't even start my period until 8th grade. I understand how he's feeling, especially being pushed so much by vriska to grow up. She has that part talking about how he's always too late. Sorry "l8" "too l8 to kiss me. Too l8 to kill me." And everything she does doesnt work, if anything it does the opposite. She says she wants to make him stronger, but she's the reason he's disabled. She wants him to grow a spine, to fight back at her, but all of her lashing out only tears him down more, she wants him to kill her when she ascends to godhood, but he can't and its implied he was ashamed and horrified and he slept so much to escape thinking about it. He's falling behind, and he's not able to help his team the same way, I won't deny that, but can you *really* blame him? Hes a sad, scared, lonely kid, and his life frankly kinda sucks my poor little meow meow out in the rain. But like yes he does very little to actually fight back and improve his situation. He's very passive, things really just happen to him. Wow ok for surface level tavros is my son, but also he *is* pretty annoying, but also he's me at 13, but also a wet cat in the rain and its a lite his fault but thats gonna be a whole other tangent becauseI haven't even gotten into how well he maintainsa smile, but also fuck vriska a little bit, she's **really** not helping

[crossdressingdeath]

Astarion: You look rabid, pained, sick. Astarion: You are spasming and twitching... You poor thing. Kyvir: Overwhelming violent desires fester in my skull. Astarion: The norm is to keep dirty thoughts like that to ourselves. But do carry on. Kyvir: A feeling deep inside possesses me and whispers murder, over and over. Astarion: It seems you have been dealt a vile hand... I say: play it. Play it for all it's worth. Astarion: Nobody should deny themselves of their true nature.

(For context this is immediately after torturing Liam until he gives up the grove's location.) At this point I don't quite have enough of a grasp on Astarion's character (curse me for still being in act one, I want to know more about the gang) to say for sure whether that "The norm is to keep dirty thoughts like that to ourselves" line is him underestimating the severity of the situation or him trying to make light of it because the mood's getting very heavy and that not quite landing, possibly because he opened by telling poor Kyvir he looks rabid. Either way it's great, and I like that he does get a bit more serious when the conversation continues. I kind of wish I'd gone for the "I don't want to confide in you if you won't take me seriously" option, I'm curious whether or not he apologizes if you actually get upset with him over his flippancy instead of ignoring him and continuing on. Ah well. Too late now, I'm pretty sure I saved over the save I had before this conversation.

Anyway, that aside. I love that while Astarion does think Durge should go all-in on this whole murder thing and encourages them to do just that (the little enabler), he also understands that this definitely isn't a comfortable or pleasant situation for them to be in. It is a vile hand to have been dealt, he's right! Astarion in no way wants to see his friend/lover (no idea if this is romance exclusive dialogue or not so I'm erring on the side of "not") suffer... which might be part of why he pushes them to give in to it instead of fighting it. After all, if anyone's going to understand what it's like to have needs and urges that you don't want to have but that you have to fulfill no matter how much it upsets and horrifies you it would be the vampire of the party! It's looking more and more like Durge has to kill, or at least it's incredibly detrimental to their wellbeing if they don't; fighting this instinct is hurting them, so it makes a lot of sense that between that and Astarion's interest in gaining and using whatever power he can his advice on seeing that Durge is suffering is that they should stop denying their nature and just go for it. It's weirdly soft, given he is encouraging them to start killing.

(Also obsessed with the implication that at least under some circumstances Durge will just start twitching and spasming and generally look slightly rabid. This is fine and normal.)

[dangerous-advantage]

(yagi-no-eda here~)

Totally would circle back /pos. I’m also pretty new to the fandom!

My wife has liked Usagi Yojimbo and associated stuff for years but it’s only this summer that my brain has allowed me to really get into it, and make it past the first 2-3 comics. Not for lack of trying - it was just never the right time in an ADHD way*. Something always would distract me. I’ve inhaled all the comics I can in just the last couple of months and yeah, Stan came at me with a steel chair too. I did not expect …this whole situation. I’ve been a fandom lurker since 1999 and yet suddenly I have blog I use near daily, a sketchbook, and bunch of fic WIPS...

Mainly because I am Unwell over UY.

I have accepted my fate. This is always going to be a Thing now.

Though I did admittedly also inhale TMNT 2003 and Rise.

Travels with Jotaro is one of my favourite volumes, but I’m also weirdly into Bridge of Death rn and just….in general having a moment over Usagi’s time with Mifune. To the point I’m doodling intros for a fake show called The Mifune Years. He had this whole expected future and friends - denied.

* to be fair this is also the summer I found out its def ADHD driving this media analysis machine I call a brain

Hope this was an okay way to get back to you! /lil anxious

Feel free to network (or share thoughts) in my tags anytime, I love hearing what other people think. Also happy to chat anytime. Or feel free to tell me to back off and that's chill too :)

(been waiting to answer this for when i had more time but gave in; should be working on my fic(s) but you know how it is lmao. stay tuned for a very long post, because i love talking about things with people, especially things i like haha

very cool to see another person very passionate about this series! i grew up on 2003 (and the 90's movies-- my parents had the third one on cassette and i remember i wore that fucker out lmao) but it was always more of a "scattered interest" rather than something i was fully pulled into

i started getting into rise (read: The Algorithm came for me) probably mid-July of last year, but didn't fully fall into it until after the movie came out. it renewed my interest in tmnt overall, and i've been here ever since!

i did attempt to watch the usagi chronicles a couple of times, and i remember thinking they were fun but not really my thing. (i definitely want to revisit it, even though i know it won't hold a candle to usagi yojimbo. it does look fun in a silly way, which i can get behind.)

i knew vaguely about how big usagi yojimbo was, and that it was a commitment, but i'm surprised how quickly it sucked me in. i've never been super interested in stuff within the genre, but damn if it doesn't satisfy the autism. entire chapters devoted to infodumping about the edo period of japan? sign me the fuck up!

i especially did not expect how much it would make me feel. like. wow. ouch. usagi is just Some Guy but he is also so well characterized and you really feel for his internal conflict, 10/10.

i've been looking for series with older protagonists, especially those more focused on the familial/platonic aspect rather than romantic (i am just an nd queer on the interweb, can you blame me for yearning for found family?), but hadn't found any i really liked other than the tarot sequence by kd edwards (very good read, would highly recommend.)

also not to be a nerd but ohhhh my god i am so obsessed with the plot with mifune.

like i know the series takes place after that, and after the fallout of that, but just. wow. imagine devoting your entire being to another, to the point where you would readily die for them and their word, and then they die. they die, and you did everything you could to honor them in that death, but they're still gone.

like... that emptiness stays with you. you don't just get over that. maybe it's the "being raised in a cult" but wow, do i empathize with that.

idk if we explore more about the fallout/exact history with mifune/immediately following mifune's death but there is so much writing potential there. if i was not embroiled within turtle hell and 50,000 words deep in a multi-chapter fic already, i would absolutely write something for it.

like. this is adjacent to your interest in the topic, but can you just imagine (/rhetorical /general you.) as far as we know, he spent five days on the battlefield before he made it out to the tangled skein.

(which is one of my favorite additions like good god holy shit. that is so cool and angsty. your lord, days after dying, appears as a fucking ghost and saves you. like, if i were to be silly and funky, i would absolutely headcanon that as the reason that he was able to stand up and continue on. because i mean... what else? what else could motivate you to stand up once more after something like that?)

(well. honor. but mifune is the physical manifestation of honor in the narrative, so same difference? it's like both thematically significant and emotionally significant and-- ok im shutting up now. but i could talk for days, istg.)

but like. how do you reconstruct yourself from that? we see him holding tight to this sense of honor, even after his lord is gone, sent reeling (adrift in the waves) with only his soul and moral compass to hold to.

which makes it hurt so much more when we see these ideals of honor-- this ghost of a man, of a life, still haunting him years after the event-- still woven through the narrative, made to specifically conflict his deepest wants.

i joke about it a lot on my fic discord (i have a whole channel called 'father-material' devoted to just pictures of him hanging out with/taking care of kids), but something that seems very important to him is wanting to be a father figure, and wanting these connections to family and friends.

but that is contrasted against these ideas of honor, the very thing he built and rebuilt his foundation off of after it was torn away from him. and it's just so incredibly painful but also it makes sense, because he can't just give up the side of himself that is a samurai. too much of his person, his characterization, is built off of this.

to see it constantly clash with this want to settle down and finally rest, devote himself to his relationships/family rather than the code of bushido-- the very essence of honor itself-- ourgh ourgh ourgh its so good

(put aside the fact that he once said he could never serve another lord, and we know from the story that the idea of a "lord" can be more than just a person... he never stopped serving mifune, not truly. he still upholds the ideas of honor that mifune stood for/represented. as if his lord never truly left him.)

...i was going to say more, but then i realized this turned into a whole-ass mini-analysis, so i'm forcing myself to stfu. but basically: i have feelings about this series, man (/gender neutral).

anyway. if you ever do put something together, i would love to read/follow it! if i ever wrote something, it would probably be exploring the direct fallout of losing mifune, so hey, different niches but similar (:

also: never be anxious about talking to me ever in any way possible. i will probably be even more annoying than you in tags/asks/everything under the sun, and i do genuinely love talking to people who share my interests (typically about those interests.) i like to pretend i am an internet Cool Guy, however, it is a flimsy veneer to hide all the cringefail swaglessness and unending mental illness about my blorbos

(...i am so tempted to just invite you to my og turtle discord server so i can annoy you about usagi on the regular. also about what my reimagining of yuichi would be, because i have so, so many ideas.

i will refrain, but if you would be interested, it has been kinda dead as of late, so it would be nice to enrich the ecosystem a little by slowly collecting other usagi-interested individuals and slowly taking it over, one by one (/j /lh).)

anyway, same thing goes for me with my posts/asks/reblogs/messages/whatever. i am so very earnest, so if that puts you off, that's very chill and fine. however, as long as you're down to vibe, i am similarly down to vibe >:D

i once more apologize for this monstrosity of a reply. i would say it won't happen again, but my reading comprehension apparently does not extend to the "all things in moderation" maxim. instead i choose maximalism (to the max)

(sorry for that joke. yeah that will also happen again. sorry. /lh /pos)

[aspenispoplar]

Part of the reason for Nate's cynicism is that he doesn't have a soulmark on him. Sure, he might have a birthmark that might look like smudged ink, and he might have obsessed over trying to read it in his youth, but that was all just a silly fantasy of his childhood.

Maggie thinks that soulmates are real, but also thinks that they aren't the only person you should limit your love to. Maggie also thinks that Nate's birthmark is a soulmark, though, pointing out that if someone didn't have a single clear identity, it might look like smudged text. Nate privately doubts her judgement on most soulmate-related matters.

And then, far in the future, after his first couple jobs working with the team, he glances at his birthmark and sees that it looks ever-so-slightly different. Still impossible to read, but clearer maybe.

Whatever. It's just his imagination getting worked up without a plan to mastermind. He needs a drink.

He checks it every day. Sometimes multiple times. It's just to convince himself that he's wrong, of course. It didn't change, and it won't change again.

By the end of season 2, it's starting to look more and more like text, and by the end of season 3, he can't deny that it's text anymore, but he still can't read it.

When he and Sophie have sex for the first time, she startles when she sees it. When she asks what it is, he hesitates for a short moment that nonetheless terrifies him, before he explains that it's a birthmark. He mentions, "it's changed a bit recently, though. Probably be the skin growing around it weirdly."

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Sophie knows that Nate is lying, of course, but she can't even notice his tells beneath the churning in her head. She had been terrified that her soulmate would have her name on their skin. Her "real" name. Her birth name, which she had only ever used like the rest of her names. A tool. An identity to be adopted and dropped when it suited her.

But she knows Nate's mark- his smudge- is for her. Knows it with certainty built by every time she saw the words on the back of her neck in the mirror, where she had been eager to let her hair grow over it.

It should be relieving, to know that Nate doesn't know her birth name. Will never know her birth name. But all she feels is dread at Nate's comment that it changed recently.

Sophie has never had a real name. She's had no use for one, being a solo grifter as she is, never staying in one place too long.

But if the mark is changing, then she's changing. She's been more affected by this whole 'team' business than she had allowed herself to realize

Sophie wonders to herself, later that night. The mark is too short to hold anything but a first name. She wonders why, before she remembers. The only people who call her "Sophie Devereaux" are marks or people trying to kill her.

Or Sterling, who is oftentimes both.

Her team, though... They just call her Sophie.

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It takes until near the beginning of season 5 for Nate to talk to Sophie about it. For the whole time they've been sleeping together, he's been looking at it and wondering.

Wondering if it's just his lingering thoughts of her that makes him imagine he can see an 'S', or a 'ph'.

It's eventually too clear for him to pretend like there's any plausible deniability about what it says, though.

Sophie just says, "you know, this means that you were the first one I introduced myself to with my real name. Retroactively, maybe, but still."

Now hear me out because I typically detest soulmate aus with the fiery burning passion of a thousand bad bus schedules and all.

But for leverage, a soulmates au, with their name written on you, is more like the hope and promise that you have the capacity to care about someone one day, maybe. But also:

I think Sophie would be terrified of it I think it would keep her up at night, that someone knows her name, but they don't know her. That there's no way anyone can because she's not real. She's such a hopeless romantic, but to her it's not romantic, it's terrifying. It's an existential crisis. I think she would try to lose herself in the romance of it but when she thinks about soulmates too much it makes her feel sick.

Nate, predictably, is cynical about soulmates. Just a fluke, just pointless hope, just connecting with anyone who has their name on you, it's just a placebo effect, it's not real. It's just the convenient mathematical probability of how many soulmates stay together and lying to yourself to do so. That's just what love is. It doesn't matter.

Hardison thinks soulmates could be pretty cool, if they were real. Unfortunately, they're not. At least not for him. He's looked, he's tried, he's searched every single person on earth with the names on him, but no such luck. With his skills, he should be able to find them. Alas, he can't find them so they can't be real. He thinks soulmates would be nice, sure it's some weird thing that this, but this is just the way the world works. For everyone but him.

The amount of thought Parker has given to soulmates is the exact same she gives to anything that doesn't concern her or thieving. Almost none. She just thinks it's kinda creepy. That the words written on your skin say who you're going to be with. It's weird. She doesn't give any thought to hers. Whoever they are, they don't matter. They'll just get in the way of her doing thief things. She works alone.

Eliot isn't scared of pretty much anything. Except soulmates. Seeing those names on him terrifies him, just a bit. Knowing him will get them hurt in the end. That's how this works. He doesn't want to know them, or meet them, or ever see them. He avoids anyone with similar names, he can't get attached, they won't last, it can't bring anything good. Soulmates are a very real thing, and he won't be burned by them again. When he was a kid, he thought it was a sweet thing. Now he knows better. Now he knows it's not.

Of course, all of them are wrong.

[writing-for-me-at-this-point]

Ikr??!! Ayato is so pretty. I really like him, and like, yes the fanart was pretty, but it wasnt Super likely that that is what he would have looked like anyway.

Also weirdo's on twitter have started to try and say ayato is gay bcus of his outfit??? From what I understood they tried to say that the long sleeves are generally worn by unwed-women and so are to attract men, but others have said thats not the only time those are worn and were also often worn by noble men, so like, idk

I feel like the fanart was basically just male Ayaka tbh. This feels like his own person and someone who is related to her and not just male Ayaka. But from what we had, I wont deny that the art was amazing and the theories other faceless wonder were great.

Also I doubt he's gay because of his outfit. But his outfit is designed the way it is because of his high rank and nobility in Inazuma. Long sleeves and layers were symbols of that from my understanding, not just ways women used to attract men. His style is mixed from two distinct periods of Japan where those sleeves are common, with the nobles. I can't remember which ones tho. I know it's the one where Japan became more "westernized" and that was in the 18th century (I think)

But those people are usually shippers/fujoshis tbh. Mihoyo has a large male fan base on the Asia servers, but a largely female one on the Western ones. I think that's why they also made Thoma just a servant and not Ayakas fiancee, because people get weirdly obsessive and jealous if their fictional fav is taken 💀

And they are fictional characters. You're MEANT to simp for them. That's why they don't have ages/sexualities that are canon. So you can self insert and love your fav without judgment or actual canon to get in the way. The whole age debate is pointless as much as a sexuality one, because they want you to spend money on your favs for the reasons above. Is that right? In my opinion, no. Because then you have the pedos simping for "lollis" when they are kids and shit like that. Like I look at Klee/Diona/Qiqi/Sayu and don't see "young women" I see kids. Babies.

But that gets into the whole "does fiction affect reality" debate and that's a rant/long post for another day.

But I doubt they'd make a canonical gay male character due to censorship and with how big the game is it will be under close inspection. Honokai got away with this (from my personal belief and reasoning) because it's WLW and it's a heavily fetishized relationship and misogyny knows no bounds. Also WLW is treated differently than MLM because of this and the fact that people refuse to believe that women can only like women... that lesbians can be "fixed" while male homosexuality is more "dirty" and stuff. Again it ties to misogyny, homophobia, masculinity, and stuff like that.

Then again I have limited knowledge on how China works culturally and with censorship, but I don't doubt it's for these types of reasons and more. :/ both gay and lesbian relationships deserved to have rep and be shown as normal and natural, but with homophobia being rampant and how ingrained it is in society (to the point it impacts relationships that are platonic/familial, like no, you're not gay for wanting affection from a friend of the same sex. You're human, you want comfort and vulnerability, it's normal.) I doubt it's something you can fix so easily.

I am disappointed in some of the fandom. They have harassed and sent threats to some shippers who shipped Yae and Ayato because... of the color pallette. Like it's obviously a crack ship that won't gain attraction. Because you know, Ayato is gay and Miko is a lesbian, so let's send death threats over a fictional relationship with no impact on reality 💀

Idk this fandom is full of terminally online behavior. Like it's not that deep. It's a game. Please just let people ship weird pairs on colors or hairstyles if they want. It has no bearing on the Canon storyline. It's not that deep. It's a gacha game that wants your money and is run by a multimillion-dollar company. Learn sanity.

[simpysimps]

☻︎𝕯𝖊𝖛𝖎𝖑 𝖎𝖓 𝕯𝖎𝖘𝖌𝖚𝖎𝖘𝖊☻︎

Dolores!Cop!Adult x Reader!Cop!Adult

This oneshot fanfic contains: modern au, obsession, killing, ooc Dolores, spicy ending, blood

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"ughhhh!!"

Dolores groans as she puts down her cop things on the desk.

"What happened, mi amor?"

You ask Dolores as she plops down to her chair while she puts her head in her palm to rest or to just look more miserable than ever. Dolores looks at you as she notice your concern for her.

"Nothing really....just tired from work, the usual"

Dolores furrow her brows as she thinks of her bed just waiting for her to get home like a dog.

Currently you and Dolores are in your assigned cubicles because the two of you were assigned to research the current crimes that is happening around the city and send them to to your chief immediately to get it done already.

And Dolores just came back from patrolling the city and here she is complaining about many rule breakers. Whenever she rants to you, it's usually about work but then she mentions this 'guy' she met at a coffee shop she visited while taking a break at her patrolling.

"He was so hot and he was writing a love poem and so masculine! His so my type!!"

You look at her weirdly. And ofc as her bff you get concerned when they meet a guy they like but in the depths of your heart you felt this unwanted feelings. Like they were weighing you down but you brush off thinking it's just stress from work.

You listen to Dolores for over an hour now and she's still talking about the guy. To summarize what Dolores said, she said that they had many similarities like they like to read books about love drama and they care about family and all those.

The more Dolores talks about this, the more you were getting pissed. It was a irritating feelings and yes, you're aware of it but you don't know what it meant.

Dolores saw your frustrations and ask if you were ok. You didn't want Dolores to get all worked up about you so you lied about being 'fine'.

"Hey, you want something to drink?"

You change the subject so Dolores won't worry too much because she gets all worked up whenever your not ok or fine. You stand up from your chair and asked Dolores which she looks at you questioning your sudden action.

"Uh- sure? Can you buy me a ice coffee?"

You nodded in response and you told her that you'll be back in a few minutes. You could feel Dolores staring at you as you walk out of your cop station.

As soon as you close the door, you go to a alley beside the cop station. You usually go there to get out your frustrations by flipping a coin over and over again. You gritted your teeth in frustration about 'that guy' that Dolores keeps talking about.

You have been Dolores best friend for a lot of years now and you can't really deny it but you have some obsession with her. You're aware of this obsession with Dolores you even tried to stop yourself from obsessing yourself about Dolores but the pleasure of being by her side is too much for you and you possibly can't stop when you're this close with her.

In highschool every guy or girl that tries to communicate with her, you will not hesitate to threaten the people who comes near her and they never come near her ever again. The people you threaten never spilled that you threaten them because they know what you're capable of. I mean to be honest I think you can kill someone for Dolores.

Even though you were pretty famous for being an absolute hot shot in highschool till college, no one except the people you threaten, no one knew that behind those pretty, joyful eyes are full with obsession and hatred.

"You are mine....Dolores Madrigal..."

You whisper to yourself as you think of this guy. You plan to track him down and kill him. Yes, kill. No one can touch, talk to Dolores other than you. Even before meeting Dolores you already had an obsession with her. Everything was planned from the start. From the very start.

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Some time later you come back with Dolores's ice coffee and some snacks for you to munch on while you work.

"Y/n!! I HAVE SOME NEWSSS!!!"

You hurriedly come to Dolores trying not to spill the ice coffee. You give her ice coffee and you sit down to your chair to listen to her 'news'.

"You know the guy I was talking about earlier?!

"..Yea?"

"Well...HE TEXTED MEEEE!!!"

Your heart suddenly went ablaze but you didn't let Dolores see it so you acted like you were excited about this.

"REALLY?! LET ME SEE!!"

Dolores excitedly showed you her conversation with 'the guy' and ends up his name was Mariano. Dolores hands you her phone to see the Conversation that her and Mariano been talking about while you were gone.

"'Hermosa?'That's what he calls you?"

Dolores nodded in excitement unable to speak because of her excitement. You read more of their conversation and you were getting pissed the more you read it.

You handed Dolores phone back and while you do a mischievous plan comes to mind.

"oOOooh why don't you two go on a date~? To get to know each other"

Even though you didn't like this idea you had to. To own what's truly your's.

"OMG YOU'RE A GENIUS, Y/N"

Dolores said excitingly and kissed you on the cheek by giving her this 'great idea'. You didn't like this kiss because it didn't mean anything. She only gave you a kiss for giving her an idea on going out with Mariano.

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You and Dolores finished working. You stretch to your heart's content while Dolores was looking fresh as a baby's butt. You question why she looks like that.

"what do you mean? I look normal"

Dolores said protesting to what you said. You weren't that dumb to know that she was excited about her date later at evening.

You plan to follow Dolores at her date with Mariano later once they arrive at the place they were going. Luckily the two of you were roommates so you'll know where she's going.

The two of you arrive at your peaceful apartment and immediately. Dolores runs to her room and she's probably already going to bath to get ready for her date. Dolores left her phone on the center table of the living room.

Out of curiosity, you wanted to know what Mariano and Dolores was talking about. Ofc it was about the date but you wanted to know more about this 'Mariano'.

You know what's Dolores password so you type it in and quickly reads Dolores and Mariano's conversation.

'Hey, I'll meet you at the restaurant at 7:30pm, is dat ok?'

'Yup! Sounds great'

That was their last conversation. Weird. Usually Dolores would text this guy nonstop. She would ask him about his hobbies, what he likes and all those other stuff.

'Maybe she's nervous? Or too excited to text? Or maybe she wants to know more about him when she meets him face to face''

You think to yourself as you wonder why Dolores doesn't chat him that much. You hear Dolores bathroom door open and close. You assume she's done and was gonna pick her outfit for her date and put makeup on.

"Hey Y/n, is my phone there? I think I put it somewhere in the living room"

Dolores asks from behind her door. You respond after a few seconds so she won't get suspicious about it.

"Yea, it's here!"

You said to Dolores almost raising your voice so she can hear it behind the door.

Your hear the doorknob of Dolores's door jiggle and as she opens the door you see her in a beautiful dress.

You see her in a off shoulder, yellow, flowy, dress. It suited her. What's more shocking is that she putted her hair down. I mean the two of your are roommates and ofc you always see her hair down after waking up and you think it's cute like that. Her eyes still sleepy and her hair is a mess. It was such a sight to see.

Seeing her hair down and all dressed up is just so irritating for you. Yes she does look beautiful but the thought that bothered you is that she didn't dress up for you. She's this beautiful and yet she didn't dress up for you.

You gritted your teeth in anger as soon you saw her.

"What do you think, y/n?"

"....you look beautiful"

You try not to look irritated and luckily it worked. You were used to this since the next day people would go missing or be reported that they were murdered.

Dolores looks happy when you said she looks beautiful. She even blushed. You smile softly at her trying to look like your happy for your friend.

After getting the things she needed, Dolores says goodbye to you and closed the door. You felt so alone in your shared apartment. So cold and dark.

You go to your room in anger and slide open a plank of wood under your bed. It was your 'stalking clothes' and ofc you wash them cuz if you don't...you nasty.

You were dress in a black hoodie and a mask and some pants. I mean in this clothes you already look like your either gonna kill someone or stalk someone.

You bring your essential things and close the door behind you. You put a tracker on Dolores's phone to know where she's going.

You followed the yellow dot that was indicating Dolores's location. You arrive at the designated destination where Dolores was and there she is. Giggling and flirting with this "Mariano".

You clench your fist ready to punch the heck out of this guy but you hold back thinking you'll kill him later.

With much time on your hands, you decided to wait for them to finish their date and follow Mariano. While waiting you decided to go to a near vending machine and buy yourself a drink. Your eyes were still on Dolores while she grabs Mariano's hand and Mariano blushing from her sudden touch.

This made your heart break into pieces. You couldn't stand this sight but you have to, to keep Dolores.

"Why can't you just love me.."

You whisper to your breath as you saw Dolores having fun with Mariano.

A little while later, Dolores waves goodbye to Mariano as she giggles and making her cheeks red. Mariano waves goodbye to Dolores as well with a soft grin on his face.

You smile to yourself as you put your head down so Dolores won't notice you. You follow Mariano and put your hand into your pocket jacket to get ready to kill him.

Mariano stop at his step and looks back with a scared look at his face. The gap between you and Mariano was getting closer and closer and Mariano was getting nervous each time he turns his head behind him.

His aware that someone is following him and to your surprise he turns to a dark alley. You were cautious so you tried to peek to see why he turned to a dead end where he can be killed easily with no escape.

"I-I know someone's t-there so come out already! I'm not a-afraid!"

You can already tell he was afraid by the nervousness in his voices and he keeps stuttering. Those were clear signs of being nervous or scared. You couldn't help but laugh so you show yourself to Mariano but he can only see your figure not your face.

"Well well well, didn't expect you to notice me following you"

"What do you want from me?!"

The moon was barely giving light to the two of you maybe because the moon doesn't want to see this sight. You grin to yourself as you pull out your knife. You could feel Mariano's getting scared every step you get closer to him.

"Y/n?"

You stop at your steps when you heard a familiar voice. You turn your head to see Dolores looking at you with a tilted head.

"What are you doing with a knife?'

She said as she looks at the knife you were holding. You could sense that Mariano was now relaxed as you hear his sigh.

"D-Dolores! What are you doing here?"

"I followed you"

She said while looking at Mariano. You were somehow confuse how she's relax about this situation. You were holding a knife and Mariano is there almost peeing his pants and she's relax?

"Are you killing people again?"

Again? Wait- how does she know that you've been killing people? How much does she know? ....since when did she knew. She walks up to you and grabs your knife.

"That's now how you kill him, silly"

You look at Dolores in shock as she walks up to Mariano with a knife on her hand.

"D-Dolores, mi vida what are you doing-"

Mariano said before he was stabbed in the stomach. He flops into the ground as blood comes out of his wound. Your eyes were widened as you saw Dolores stabbed Mariano, the guy who she just went on a date with.

Dolores clothes has some splash of blood form Mariano. She turns around to look at you.

"That's how you kill him"

Dolores said with a joyous tone. She puts the knife on her bag and walks up to you.

"Y/n...I know you've been killing people who are talking to me or accidentally touching me"

She said while holding your chin towards her. You were in shock. Dolores killing a man? What a plot twist.

"You know how sexy you look when you get jealous? You're very very sexy, Hermosa"

She said while pulling down your mask and touches your lip with her thumb with a little bit of blood. Dolores looks at your lips and kisses you.

"Mm-!"

You let out a sudden shock from her seductive kiss. Dolores looks at you with mischievous in her eyes.

"Well...you wanna make out here?"

You look at her with your face beating red. She caress your cheek and kisses you again.

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Hi it's me the author!! Hope you like this Dolores x yandere!reader! And I put a little spice on the end👀 hope you liked dat too- anyways THANK YOU FOR READING!! feel free to request anything you want me to write next!!

[slime-sandwhich-nom]

Oh man I jst wome op

Honestly him being a dog is something I never thought of but now I do see it, kind of.

But honestly 😭 if he really was a dog he'd probably be one of those super small ones because if gumball is tiny (around 4ft [1,40cm] or something) imagine tobias who is generally the same height

🙏😈 undiagnosed characters let's go.

For my contribution, I always saw gumball as dyslexic. he's definitely neurodivergent (going for ADHD as well but could also be simple hyperactivity, kind of like my brother.) but he's going for dyslexia in my head, especially with the continuous bit of him "not being able to write properly" which is just him missing a few letters or mixing up words.

For Sarah!! Aside from her being quite literally being a fangirl character (I heard about the theory of her being a irl fan somehow turning herself into a cartoon to get in Elmore, hence why she was from "another town".) and this means she's gonna do..weird stuff I always saw her dislike towards anyone that actively goes against gumball (and Darwin) as her enemy

It made sense to me at least, if she's the mock of a fandom and is literally weirdly obsessed with gumball and Darwin, it'd made sense she'd go against anything that could be a potential threat, Tobias stealing "the spotlight" being one of them.

She used to exscuse of the show turning into a corny sitcom but she really just wanted gumball back, I don't think she cares about the sitcom since she's the type to watch them ngl.

So yeah, I always imagined she'd hate the same things those toxic people in fandoms hate, anything that is slightly against their favorite character.

The rest just doesn't care though. Neither for gumball or tobias, like sure gumball has lots of friends, frenemies and people who hate him but aside from rob (literally only does what he does because a) chance to be important and because gumball told him he could be the bad guy b) you gotta go through the main character of you're trying to change the script and the entire world and revolves around one guy.) no one does anything, at least anything like sarah does (loudly complain and attempting murder at this point.)

but for Tobias? They mostly get annoyed by him. They don't feel like they have strong opinions about him and they are all definitely just "friends in school" that after middle school won't talk ever, the only one I see talking to tobias are gumball (followed by Darwin, but Darwin himself wouldn't do much.), ocho(sometimes),bobert and banana joe, like those characters are the only ones who aren't constantly annoyed by Tobias nor ignore him, they do have chats and seem friends too (in the background they hang around a lot too.)

Also about the boykisser energy

I honestly hc him as bi but says he's straight, like he's unconsciously oppressing his like for guys and goes for the girls. He goes for both but God forbid him having any crush on a guy (he'd probably go crazy before accepting him)

Kind of like the opposite of gumball,where I see the guy being open without a care ("gumball loves who he loves." - literally the show creator) and casually telling guys to marry him like with ocho and people going "knew it, you owe me 5 bucks"

just this guy oppressing his part of his sexuality by making everyone think he's the straightest of them all and then literally gumball being cool with both girls and boys but clearly has a crush on someone and even fw crossdressing and roleplaying as a girl

the two sides of bisexual: the one who fully accepts it and the one who denies it

Can't let the gang know I fw Tobias accidentally becoming aware

[punkscowardschampions]

Nancy & Rio

Nancy: Hey Nancy: Do you want me to come down and stay with you, it can't be much fun just having Buster for company, like Rio: That's okay, I can't have you playing truant too Rio: I'm going to make him go back before long, swear Nancy: Ri, please. You know what school is like for me, any excuse, I swear Rio: Your 'rents would have me like forreal Rio: I know how shit it is, even more now, soz Nancy: Do you hear them shouting down the phone to him? No 'cause they aren't Nancy: Not to be that bitch, 'cause it's so not funny, but you have kind of taken the heat off me so Nancy: I owe you Rio: Priorities, like, though I dread to think what happens when your Mum gets to me on her list Rio: Reckon I can claim that as any kind of excuse/reasoning or? Nancy: Don't worry nobody exists to her right now but my Auntie Nancy: Which is a sentence I never thought I'd say Rio: I know, but that's good, I mean Rio: as good as anything can be Rio: You know I never meant to do this to her, right Nance? Nancy: Of course Nancy: I think I understand better than most, right? Rio: What do you mean, like? Nancy: You and him Nancy: You didn't mean to, like I didn't, but it happened 'cause it had to, you know? Nancy: You can't help how you feel, even if you want to Nancy: Especially when you want to, like Rio: Oh, no no Rio: It really isn't like that Rio: like, I hear what you're saying on all that but that's not what that was Nancy: You and him aren't Nancy: I don't know how to word it now Nancy: But he looks at you like Nancy: And you're always tilting your phone away for someone Rio: Not him Rio: I wouldn't lie, I'm not saving myself from anything at this point, if that was going on I'd tell you Rio: He wanted it to and, yeah, I knew that before this baby shower but I didn't lead him on or encourage him Nancy: Okay, well now I feel weird Nancy: Fuck, I'm sorry Nancy: I really projected there Rio: It's okay Rio: It'll be the general consensus and almost certainly how he'll frame it but no Nancy: It's not okay Nancy: He did that and I've been talking to you this way Nancy: Wow Rio: I mean, I don't think I did Rio: I thought he was good looking, sure and I tried harder with him than most of us did but Rio: I didn't actually want anything to happen, nor think it would Nancy: I'm as bad as him so there's nothing I can say Nancy: But I still think you'd know if you did or didn't Nancy: And if you didn't want anything to happen, the signals are there, even if you are that committed to only seeing what you wanna see Nancy: He can ignore them but like, you still gave them out Rio: Don't say that, you aren't like him at all Rio: You'd never do or say half the things he did Rio: especially when he had so much reason to know I wasn't interested, you're right Nancy: I mean, I did kiss someone who didn't want me to Rio: It is different, just by nature of what it is, was Rio: Should you have done it? 'Course not but there was never reason or chance for Sian to give out the clear no I did Rio: Because, well, you know Nancy: Yeah Nancy: If I thought for a second that she didn't want me to, I wouldn't Nancy: He clearly didn't have the same qualms about it Nancy: That's so disgusting Nancy: On levels that I can't even Rio: I know she won't be ready to hear it Rio: probably not ever from me Rio: but Ro is better off without him Rio: he's still dealing, which I think we all knew Rio: and I've seen him out, he isn't her Prince Charming, like Nancy: Me and mum have been saying it for as long as they've been together Nancy: As much as she'll talk about any of it to me Nancy: I've overheard more than she's probably ever said but Nancy: I feel like I can't tell her either 'cause it's like oh the man hating lesbian at it again Nancy: But he's just Rio: He really is Rio: and he isn't a good Dad Rio: maybe he'll be better for this one but, he isn't to Edie and Indie barely thinks of him that way either so Nancy: Poor Astrid Nancy: Maybe we can move Ro in with us now? I don't know Nancy: Like it's at a point that I'd move into Indie's room at hers if she'd let me Rio: I'm glad she's got you all around, she's going to need the help Rio: My Ma and all of them will be there too Nancy: Let's be honest, she would of even if he hadn't done this Nancy: Oh my god Nancy: I'm never having kids ever Rio: Yeah Rio: I was joking that that shower was effective contraception before but now Rio: fucking hell Nancy: It's made me not wanna have sex again and I can't even get pregnant so Nancy: Good lord Rio: Think that's the first time I've legitimately laughed since Rio: Oh babe Nancy: Rio? Rio: Yeah? Nancy: Where are you gonna be? 'Cause you said your family will all be there but Rio: I don't know, honestly Rio: but my job at the angel is coming to an end and then with all this Rio: I might try somewhere else, just for a bit Nancy: It worked for me Nancy: I'll miss you though Rio: I'll miss you too Rio: You're gonna be going soon too though, yeah? And June and Buster Rio: I don't want to be the only one left behind just 'cos I don't have the brains, like Nancy: We'd never leave you behind Nancy: You can go in my place if you want, change the major to maths or something Nancy: I don't want to Rio: You've got to Rio: You're just scared, but it'll be incredible, and the right thing for you, most importantly Nancy: I'm really, properly scared whenever I think about it Nancy: What if it's worse than here 'cause I'm alone on top of everything else Nancy: I can't just change schools like I did before Rio: You can, like, that first year Rio: but you're not going to want to, it'll be nothing like School Nancy: Everything's changing so much, like you said Nancy: I'll even miss Buster, and what the fuck is that, like? Rio: He'll be wanting to visit all the time Rio: Me too, like Nancy: I need to see where I can get accepted first, slow down you two Rio: You so will though Rio: World's your oyster Nancy: Yours too Nancy: And we still have Milan, yeah? Rio: Romantic 😉 Rio: but yeah, I've not drank away my funds or anything drastic yet Nancy: I was gonna say I love you, but I'll keep it to myself now, fine 😏 Rio: New drama alert Rio: they'll not survive Nancy: Don't Nancy: I can't handle any more Nancy: It hurts so much, doesn't it? Rio: It does Rio: got to believe that was rock bottom though Rio: can't get any worse, only way is up, all that shite Nancy: God, I hope so Nancy: Give us a break Rio: Backatcha Rio: No more scandals from either of us, right? Nancy: It's my brother's fucking turn Nancy: While I'm on the subject, can I ask you something? Rio: Sure Nancy: Why pick him for a getaway driver? Of all of us Nancy: I know what he said but Nancy: I'm not saying it's the weirdest part of this, but I'm also not saying it isn't Rio: Gays can't drive, right? Nancy: I'm a walking stereotype, alright, emphasis on the walking Rio: 😂 Rio: Exactly Nancy: Tell him not to spend every euro on himself, yeah? Nancy: Nobody needs to eat out every night in a new look Rio: I did drag him to Skerries, no doubt the response but I'll let him know Nancy: He loves it don't let him deny it Nancy: Even if he did nearly drown 🙄 Rio: Another touchy subject Nancy: When his ego is involved, if you aren't stroking it you're asking for trouble Nancy: Boys ugh Rio: Don't need to tell me, babe Nancy: I won't bother telling you that girls are far superior Nancy: What do I know? Rio: Is it? 😏 Nancy: Can you please come back soon so I don't have to drink alone Nancy: I need my wingwoman back Rio: 'Course Rio: London is on my list of maybes so might even meet you there, like Nancy: Yeah? Nancy: If you run into Chlo, you know what to do Rio: Absolutely Rio: Doubt I'm affording her postcode but I'll drop by with the 👊 Nancy: You doesn't even have that much money, she just acts like it Rio: If I can take any life lessons from the bitch, like Nancy: As long as you stop there and don't take fashion tips too Nancy: I still have to be seen with you in Milan, like Rio: 😂 Where's the lie Rio: she was stalking me a while back, bizarrely so I was petty and did some myself and yikes Nancy: I try not to be that bitch but I HATE her so much Nancy: Oh? How and why? Rio: Understandable Rio: I reckon she keeps tabs on us all, she's like weirdly obsessed with you and your Brother Rio: idk, she double-tapped by mistake, amusing Nancy: Gross Nancy: But I was the one who fancied her, okay babe sure Nancy: I bet she tries to look up all of Buster's conquests still, good luck with that Nancy: I'm invested and even I gave up years ago Rio: Honestly Rio: ain't in a mood to be talking about ladies who doth protest too much but well Rio: look what you made me do Chloe Nancy: Her and Drew should start a club and get jackets Rio: She'd love that Rio: get rid of 'em both in one, bit hopeful perhaps but worth a shot Nancy: I try never to feel any sympathy for my brother ever, but she really drove me there Rio: It was fucked Nancy: It's messed his head up Nancy: I can see how sad he is Rio: I know Rio: but he'll be alright Rio: we all will Nancy: Yeah Rio: I promise Rio: hit me with a more enthusiastic yeah thanks Nancy: yeah!! Nancy: I miss you already Rio: You're cute Nancy: Try and control yourself though Nancy: No drama, remember? Rio: 😂 Rio: It ain't gotta be drama baby Nancy: Are you gonna divorce yourself from our bloodline so we aren't cousins? Nancy: Quite drastic but I like it Rio: That's just the kind of dedication you can expect from me Rio: What can I say? Nancy: No other girl has ever gone that hard for me Nancy: So thanks Rio: Should hope not Rio: 👀 up the sibs now Nancy: 😂 Nancy: On the dedication scale in general, babe Rio: Whatever you say, McKenna Nancy: What I should say is that I have so much homework to do Nancy: Which I gotta since you won't let me skip 😒 Rio: Unlucky babe Nancy: As you're also insisting I'm uni bound I better stop complaining and just do it Nancy: So high maintenance you are 😏 Rio: Obviously Rio: always about that sugar Nancy: Don't be a stranger, like Nancy: And don't start preferring the other twin, yeah?

[thelearningcatnaps]

Update:

I finished out all the current seasons. SPOILERS BELOW OF COURSE

My opinion of Moffat's writing remains the same.

Bill was such a God Damn waste of potential. His addition of her as an openly lesbian character felt like simply an addition to give her character. To somehow distinguish her from Amy and Clara. Except I didn't buy it. It felt like the same character repeated.

Before I continue my rant and explain some of the lost opportunities I saw, let me say, I do love that there was a black lesbian represented. I appreciate that. I love it. I'm happy that at least if we were going to have to suffer more of Moffat's writings, we could get some more representation for the underrepresented.

Now that I've put that little signpost up, back to Bill.

First, let me say the whole season with her, I felt incredibly uncomfortable about certain interactions between her and the Doctor. There was a weirdly romantic tinge to some of it that I could not get past. I write this off as Moffat not knowing how to write female characters without a romantic edge to them unless they are family members or older women.

Second, SO MANY LOST OPPORTUNITIES. Bill had so much legitimate potential to be her own person, except she just felt.... shallow. First, there was the fact she was attending the Doctor's classes even though she didn't attend the school. WHY DON'T WE HAVE MORE ON THAT! It wouldn't take a lot, but all the backstory we received from Bill was that her mom died. Which is the cheapest "here's a backstory" we could have gotten. My dad died when I was 18 after a long battle of cancer. Yes, that affected me in significant ways, but that's not my only backstory. I have other family members who also have significant effects on my life. Dead parents does not explain anything!

With Rose, we received a young woman up for adventure. We find out she's not horribly intelligent, and she's working at a shop. We find out she has a boyfriend she's not very into and a mother who is wonderfully protective and gives the Doctor a run for his money.

Even Martha, a lost character outside of Moffat, had a backstory. She was in med school. She was smart and useful, and her family was broken in a lot of ways due to her adventures. She had siblings and parents who were divorced.

Donna had a mom who hated the Doctor with a passion and a grandfather who loved the stars and would always support her. She didn't chose the Doctor's life at first. In fact, she had an incredibly dull life by all means. She was a temp with a husband who turned evil.

We understood all these characters and their families.

Cue in Moffat. (I admittedly don't remember a lot about these characters, maybe I just didn't find them engaging enough to remember and there's more. I won't deny the possibility only that this is as I remember)

Amy Pond. She had a job I don't specifically remember that gave her a reason to have a cop outfit? Or was that a Halloween costume? I don't remember. Her parents are dead? Or sucked into the crack, I guess. Her real significant moment of "This is who I am outside the doctor" is Rory. Who doesn't get much of a backstory either except to act as a wonderful contrast to Amy Pond (I say wonderful because while I'm shitting on his backstory, I love him as a character). What did both of them even do before meeting the doctor? Was Rory a nurse? There was an episode I'm remembering where there was a hospital. Oh, and who cares about Rory's family that was ignored. The point is "Before the Doctor" didn't matter in their story. It didn't define them. It was an empty thing of Amy being obsessed with the Doctor, which had significant potential in itself.

Clara was similar. No parents. She was a teacher, which played nicely into the story, and a boyfriend that also made things a bit more interesting. But neither of these are anything "Before the doctor".

The point I guess I'm trying to make is Moffat's characters use cliches to define their life before the Doctor. Moffat tries to make it up by having them all have a life outside the doctor, a job, a significant other, whatever, but it doesn't make up for the fact they are all the same person with no family to care about them and are ultimately willing to balance their life around the Doctor after being taken with the excitement of the Doctor. All these women have potential to be more. Moffat gives us glimpses. But he stops short of a full character that's unique in their personality, not just in their job description and significant other (husband, boyfriend, girlfriend... the title doesn't change the conflicts much).

Bill has this interesting characteristic that puts her in the Doctor's life. But it doesn't go anywhere past the first episode.

The second lost opportunity is similar. When she attempts to move into the house with her mates, her insistence, and almost embarrassment, that the Doctor not be part of this part of her life is beautiful. It highlights that this doctor lacks charm, which is something that is not well utilized, and that this is a young woman on the cusp of her life. She will go on adventures with the Doctor, but he's a crazy old man. She wants to make friends and live on her own. We never see this again. It's such a lost opportunity. Have her move into a different place with all those people. Have them question her on where she's going and have them interact with the doctor a little. Have her ban the Doctor from showing up at her place. No, we never see those people again, including the person who is supposed to be one of her best friends.

Oh, wait lets come back around to the use of her homosexuality though real quick. IT IS LARGELY USED WHEN MEN TRY TO HIT ON HER. I know of at least three times in one season where she tells a guy she's not interested because she likes women. Meanwhile, we see her interested in only two women. Have her flirting with some women she meets, especially aliens and other fun individuals. She's clearly open about her sexuality to all but the women she lives with (which that is never fully addressed or built either). We should have been able to enjoy. Have her go on some dates. Even better, bring one of her dates along for an adventure.

Finally, I felt the ending of the season felt really odd. Nardole had shown multiple times he's a robot with little empathy. He should not have been the one left with the people left. You know who should have? BILL. Bill as a cyberman. The conflict of these people being terrified of Bill and Bill having to learn to live as she was.... It was right there, and it was just left to rot. It's not clear why she dies in the end, and sure it leaves for a happy ending with her crush (who she never even fucking knew btw), But it lacks depth. Nardole was not built to be caring. It's a copout.

Nardole was a character I relatively enjoyed though. A constrast from the passionate characters usually with the Doctor. Granted, the lack of episode continuity between one to the other is infuriating in his storyline.

The last person I want to talk about is Missy. Missy was actually a well developing character in this season. She is try to be good, but she's just not very good at it. The mistakes she could have made to really change the repetitive plots of Doctor Who episodes could have really brought in some new interesting perspectives. She could have really developed the discussion of morality in this show and brought a lot of internally struggle with the Doctor. Especially after Bill turned Cybermen. I still have hope she'll be back, because the last episodes made no sense. They hinted she remembered but she didn't. The doctor never had a hard time remembering and the content of the Master showed he definitely didn't forget. So it makes no sense she would just forget this. So she either knew she was going to die, and chose to anyways, or she didn't, and it makes no God damn sense.

Missy is probably the first female character I've seen of Moffat's that had the potential to really be well developed. And killing her seemed weak.

So now I guess it's just time to wait for the first season without Moffat in what feels like forever and hope it captures my heart as much as those early days did.

Doctor Who with Moffet

I binge watched the first 6 seasons of Doctor Who over the course of a year and a half. This may not sound like binge watching, but considering my schedule at the time and the slowness of me watching hour long tv shows not propelled by my fiance (I am still only on season 9 of Supernatural after starting it sometime around 2009 and Battlestar Gallatica took me something like 5 years or more). It’s not that I don’t enjoy these shows, rather I have always lived a busy life and either I’m watching a show based on who is with me or I’m watching what I label as fluff- nondramatic, no-plot, comedic, and/or short. Cooking shows, sitcoms, hgtv, bridezilla style shows.

So the fact I found doctor who so enthralling to dedicate so much of my time to it speaks to my enjoyment.

However, around the sixth seasons beginning, I slowed down. All the potential of good ideas was there. I loved River Song and Rory. I loved a lot of episodes with the Eleventh doctor. I didn’t care for Amy Pond, but I also hadn’t cared for Martha, so that alone wouldn’t have slowed me down. It was the plot holes and the rehashed dilemmas that bothered me. It was River Song’s storyline supposed to be the exact opposite of the doctor’s. The fact the first time she met the doctor should have been the last time the doctor met her. It was the love interest of Amy Pond going on much longer then it should, not to mention being creepy in the first place. It was her impossible constant superpowers. It was the lost opportunities on more episodes with Rory.

When I finally met Clara, I was disappointed in the end of Amy and Rory, but it was at least bittersweet. But it was Clara that made me go on hiatus. We met her multiple times. She was marvelous each of those times. Her beginning plot was fascinating. Then we met Clara, the companion Clara. Who was another Amy level pretty face (this bothers me alone in that each of the companions prior to Amy since 2005 were not traditional western beauties and I had so much appreciation for that) with impossibleness. She crushed on the doctor and lacked any of the spunk I loved her original characters.

I’ve read a lot on Moffat’s writing of women, and I think if you look up that, it addresses a lot of my issues with these companions. Add in the plot holes and all the impossible feats, and you go from a show with character depth, variety, and well rounded plot lines to plots that begin and end within a couple episodes with no development in between.

Needless to say, this all comes to mind because I’ve finally revisited the series (the last season I watched a few years ago was the 8th season, because I wanted to give the 12th doctor a chance. I’m now almost all of the way through the 9th season, and I’m only reminded of my disdain for Moffet’s writing (BBC Sherlock redeems him somewhat).

His best characters are wasted, and the plot lines are underwhelming and feel repetitive. The twelfth doctor feels hypocritical. If you want an apathetic, sociopathic grandpa, then do it. If you want the soft caring, passionate man, then do that. I feel like I get whiplash. I get that Clara is supposed to humanize him. But he constantly is doubting himself and it’s getting old. He’s constantly acting like he doesn’t understand people then giving compassionate speeches as though he does. I don’t feel the development has been enough to make sense of this back and forth character traits.

Meanwhile, Maisie Williams’ character is brilliant. I admit some bias as I love her as an actress. Her character is undeveloped; I do realize that. But there’s so much potential. She could have easily been another jack harknass or River Song repeating character used much long. This is likely due to her part in Game of Thrones, but that speaks to the fact they should have never had such a famous actress in that role if that is the case. Repeating characters don’t happen nearly enough in a story about a time traveler. I love repeating characters because you bring in different relationships. It’s okay to have complexity (see Game of Thrones, viewers are not stupid). One episode was not enough to develop the pain and trauma she underwent or the realization that her pain and trauma did not mean she actually didn’t care. This was immortality the doctor created. This wasn’t some river song tardis accident (still not really explained) or Rose Tyler God result. This was the doctor. Willingly giving this child eternal life and not waiting to explain the consequences. Their explanation for why he couldn’t take her on the Tardis was actually decent, but it doesn’t excuse leaving someone alone to deal with the consequences of his actions. They could’ve spent the whole season on developing that relationship alone. They could have kept her for multiple seasons as a reoccurring balance to the doctor. The one who helps the ones the doctor leaves behind. And no. She was a four episode character who was rushed through the woodwork.

I’m excited for Billy. I’ve heard some great things about her. I’m going to keep watching because all I’ve been telling people for years since my hiatus started was that I wanted a female doctor, and they’ve finally given it. Plus, I’m hoping some of the early brilliance returns with realistic characters, fully developed plotlines now that Moffat’s reign of terror is coming to a close. A woman can dream right?

Rant over.