#i wish i could link the post it note credit but i just saw it floating on twt so idk who posted it 😔

[orange-demons-deactivated2024]

Companionship in Street Fighter

The most interesting concept in Street Fighter 6 that I really liked was companionship. Every character is connected in one way or another, and most are symbolic of Ken and Ryu's relationship over the years.

Ken and Ryu were always the faces of Street Fighter since the beginning and their friendship/rivalry was something capcom really took into consideration when pushing SF6 out. Ken, Chun-li, and Ryu are getting older but they have a lasting impact on Capcom as a whole.

SF6 now has a roster of fighters that are connected to each other from old to new relationships.

Kimberly and Dee Jay, Marisa and Zangief, Blanka and Lily, Chun-li and Li-fen etc.

Even the Player has a rival/friendship with someone in the Street Fighter Universe.

Although Bosch seems like a character that gets sidelined within the first hour of the game, I do think that Bosch and the Player do have a significant connection.

When talking to our Masters, I find it interesting how often Bosch comes up in conversation.

Granted Player is the one bringing him up, but I found this interaction with Dhalsim fascinating.

Dhalsim: Create a fist within your heart.

Dhalsim: Good. Allow me to pose a question to you. What lies beyond that fist?

Dhalsim: I see. This is your friend...or perhaps a mortal foe?

Dhalsim: Forget what you saw.

Dhalsim: You wish to transcend the shadow, yet it remains inextricably linked to you.

Dhalsim: it is up to you to interpret its significance.

The Player brings up Bosch a lot in conversations that aren't about him, and it's got me thinking, does Bosch even care about the Player to that extent too?

We never see his perspective throughout the story so we could only assume as much.

He trusted the Player enough to give them a SIM card before he was taken. Maybe to tell them, "If anything happened to me, this is how you can find Kalima and the Resistance."

And he tried many times to scare the Player off so they wouldn't enter the Suval'hal tournament. Where he would've activated the championship belt to kill himself and JP.

But when the Player found out Cardboard combatant was him all along, he said "If you've come this far, I want you to watch me finish this fight." The fight between the Resistance and JP.

Bosch even asked the Player if you can give Yua his bangle and tell her that he's dead, he says "You're the only one I can count on."

Bosch also chose to go to the Player when his body was reaching its limit as a warning if things go south. That he may not recognize them in the arena.

And at the end of the post-credit cutscene, Bosch is wearing the matching hat that he and you got when visiting Metro City.

In the end, Bosch's hair is shaved so I can assume it's to keep people from recognizing him and a low profile.

In fiction, it could symbolize character growth and a break from the past. But paired with his matching hat, which he mentioned was cringy, he is still linked to you, the Player. Just as Dhalsim said.

Side note on what Ken says about Ryu:

[perseusjackson-jasongrace]

summary

“Maybe you weren’t a terrible person, maybe you were just fifteen.“

Jason finds Percy in the weapons room, wondering if the decisions they’d made were the right ones. The best ones. The ones that don’t make him the monster he can be.

(a lovely human on tumblr (@/rosekiller-addict) posted the above quote and said it would suit a jercy conversation so well and I obviously could not agree more. thus this was born!)

(links to their profile and the post are in the beginning notes)

beginning notes

this fic is based on a post I saw from a jercy specialist, aka @rosekiller-addict

this post gave me so much brainrot I saved it in my drafts for when I had the spoons to write and lo and behold that came on 15 Jan at fucking 1am o_o. why is my writing demon like this???

but whatever I love this piece and it’s very emotional and actually not at all like my writing style (in the jittery jumpy all over the place sense). I hope you guys enjoy it anyway!

and im sorry I haven’t replied to comments on my previous fics I will do so so soon I swear!

happy new year, I hope it’s calm, pain free, and full of magic <3

no content warnings for this one but do be warned it’s on the more serious side in terms of conversation. not playful and/or debauched like it usually is.

title is white lie by nct127 and hard recommend listening to that while reading this to enhance the vibes. trust me bro. trust me.

also it’s literally after 1am and I have not given this even one once over o_O. im sorry for my horrible typing please forgive me. If you see a mistake, wish on it!

I love you very much ! bye

end notes

also the part about unclaimed demigods living in a hestia cabin has full and grateful credit to @batcavescolony who gave us that beautiful beautiful idea and a concept I could never abandon even if I was put to death for it.

[rubberduckyrye]

So I saw your flowerfell post and it's actually true, it was ruined by shippers and they disrespected the creators wishes by doxxing them sending death threats and tons more, there is year old video on YouTube that talks more about it. I think it's called how shippers destroyed an au. I could be miss remembering the name of the video. Sorry 😔

Oii. You're gonna go make me watch that damn video huh? Just to prove a point? Mkay, I'll bite.

And you're going to regret getting me to bite.

First of all, this is the video in question you are referring to:

And immediately, the creator of the video proves to be wrong. And fuck you for making me give this video a view, because it really doesn't deserve it for spreading misinformation.

The original fanfiction, "Overgrowth," was posted to Ao3 by the user SociopathicArchangel, which you can find an archive of here. In before you suggest that SociopathicArchangel was a reposter of the fic, I want to point out that looking for their username on Ao3 brings up a shocking and alarming amount of people crediting them for the Flowerfell Fanfic. This is a bit too much of a coincidence for SociopathicArchangel to be a reposter, especially since Archangel doesn't have an Ao3 anymore.

Also, this video reading the fanfic credits Sociopathicarchangel. So you know.

The content creator who made this video refers to Sociopathicarchangel as... I think it's spelled, Lividicus??? Correct me if I'm wrong here, but I'm assuming Archangel changed their username. I'll be referring to them as Socipathicarchangel or Archangel for this ask though.

Disregarding that, if you are to look at the Archive.org link of Overgrowth--the original fanfiction was tagged as Frisk/Sans, or Frans. So yeah the argument falls apart when you actually look at fandom history. Flowerfell was a Frans AU. Whether or not the original creator intended it to be and their friend Archangel took it out of context is kind of moot point--the main explosion of the AU came from the fanfic made by Archangel, thus meaning the AU was a Frans AU. Or at least, gained traction from the fic which gave the assumption that it was a Frans AU.

This is important to note because the framework of this video is already severely flawed. So I'm not looking forward to seeing the rest of this hot garbage.

Oh I love how they didn't credit the actual composer of Secret Garden. They just showed a Fan PV on screen. Nice!!! They don't even say the composer's name for credit! Love (See: Hate) to see it.

About the kinning: I vaguely remember this drama when it started, and how the creator of Flowerfell was very Anti-kin. Which is. Uh. We see that as a shitty thing now, right? I know that having someone kin """Your""" character (Sans nor Frisk was never their characters to begin with) might seem a bit uncomfortable at first but like. Man, just leave fiction kins alone. They get so much shit for everything.

The evidence provided to prove that Kins were sending the creator hate for not making their Headcanons canon--I mean. Where's the evidence for that. Please show that. No? Okay...

I have absolutely no idea what the hell the OC stuff is about. People stole the og creator's OCs to use in their own stuff? Would love some context and evidence for that. But this video shows no evidence of these things what so ever. Ugh.

Anyway.

In the video, the content creator used this snippit from the fic to prove that Frisk was "Canonly a child in the AU" and "this was not a Frans AU"

Pointing out the actual context here--this snippit? It's talking about Toriel. Toriel, who had gone mad from seeing children before Frisk disobeying her and dying.

This is not saying Frisk is a child. This is saying Toriel has gone mad from seeing children before them die to the hands of other monsters.

Not really important, but this is just an example of why the content creator who made this video just. Is not to be trusted. They used this as "proof" Frisk was a child in the original Fic. Which is not the case.

And again. This video, as I'm going through it, is giving no evidence over anything that happened. Absolutely nothing. Go figure.

Also, listening to the clip that the content creator put in their video--I heard that. I heard that little flub. "An--asks we would get" I don't know, sounds like they were going to say antis there--as in, Anti-shippers maybe Hmmm. That is speculation, granted, but still. Worth noting it.

But also, now I have to go listen to the whole audio clip because it sure sounds like this wasn't a "poor Creator of Flowerfell was a victim in this uwu" but it sounds like Sane (I think is how you spell their name) became bitter, vindictive, and started fighting with people about their AU.

Like yeah, that's going to end well.

Anyway, onto the audio clip.

A lot of this is testimony so far. (And again, calling Frisk a child, that's not canon, I am Screaming) I don't think these people understand what fiction kinning a character means, because they are basically being Anti-kin right now. I don't know if there were actually any kins disrespecting the creators by saying they knew the characters better than they did, or if they were just saying "Hey!!! I am Flowerfell Frisk!!!!!" And these people took it the wrong way. I need references--aka, evidence that Kins actually were being disrespectful little shits, or shut up. Please for the love of god does anyone have any evidence. I am Begging.

Also the misconception that Sane owned Flowerfell because they created the AU is absurd. Please, for the love of god, if you make an AU of a canon franchise, unless you like, get super special privileges from the creators themselves, or are licensed to produce that content--you do not own that property. I am screaming into my hands. I am Tired.

I listened to the rest of the audio clip after that note because I knew it was going to be a very emotional audio clip. However, for as much as I feel for Psi (the person who recorded this audio) being stuck in the situation they were in... No, Shippers were never the main issue.

Here's what I think happened, after listening in and going over everything:

Flowerfell was created. Overgrowth was created. It got very popular as a Frans AU because it was tagged as a Frans AU on Ao3. Maybe some Fans got upset at the original creator because the Ao3 fic was tagged as the ship and the AU was not the ship, thus making them feel lied to, but from the sound of the audio clip it seems like the shippers and anti shippers were actually not that big of a problem. (Which is a surprise to me--antis are the ones who basically erased what actually happened from fandom history, like the content creator you referenced. They screamed "Anti" to me in that video at least) Even the thieves stealing and reposting art and the fanfic didn't seem to be the main issue here.

The biggest problem came about from Sane's paranoia of someone stealing their ideas and getting into arguments with fictionkins, and getting backlash from being frankly from what I can remember, very anti-fictionkin. And judging from the way Psi phrased things in this audio clip--yeah, I can easily imagine they were being extremely anti-fictionkin and that probably pissed a bunch of people off. And that, in turn, made them spiteful, which made Sane more bitter and spiteful because they didn't know how to deal with such a huge audience and a huge amount of backlash.

Either way, no, it was not the Frans Shippers that "ruined the AU." What ruined the AU was the fact that the main creator, Sane, didn't know how to handle such a large fanbase that was given to them overnight. They didn't know how to react or behave when fans were making them uncomfortable or being inappropriate. They were encouraged by peers to be spiteful and angry and only grew more bitter and paranoid because of it. As they became a worse and worse person, more fans started getting angry too, and wanting to take the AU for themselves since the creator was being a bad person for how they were treating their fans.

The AU wasn't ruined by the Frans shippers. It was ruined by Sane themselves--and by the people who were encouraging Sane's bitterness and paranoia. The only person who could ruin a creation is the creator themselves, after all. I'm pretty sure even Psi acknowledged that in their audio clip at the end--that it was all up to Sane.

So enough with the "Frans Shippers Ruined Flowerfell" Shit because that is not what happened from what little evidence I've seen/gathered. If you got actual proof that is the case, be my guest! But nothing concrete has been present to me thus far.

So yeah.

[smallraindrops-blog]

The Eros of May

WMFTD!Y/N x Hypnos

(The last day)

Wordcount: 550

Summary: Told in snapshots. There is a beautiful man with sleepy golden eyes, warm skin kissed by the sun and the lingering days of spring.

Warnings: no beta

notes: a writing challenge for myself, I took two different challenges and mashed them together. Credit to this post and this post and their creator for making these challenges.

One more thing, these are out-of-order, not a straight timeline. Sorry for any confusion.

To find the rest, use ‘The eros of may’ tag please. 

Thanks to everyone for coming along with this journey with me. With two minutes left before midnight, here is the last part of TEOM ( a03 link will be posted later once i edit it.)

Thanks again, my friends.

….

Am i allowed to cry at my own writing?

Memory lane.

The end happened on a perfect summer day. 

The Mediterranean Sea gleamed that impossible blue, so bright that it hurts to look for long. Wild poppies and daisies and so many colorful wildflowers grew on the hills of ancient ruins. Stone that was here before you and will be long after you were nothing but dust.

You took a terrified breath then another. 

With a boastful laugh, your dad clasped his arm on your shoulders as he watched you fight down the panic. “Remember, waiting is the worst part. Which is why me and your Pa eloped.”

”You were a pair of teenage runaways.” You replied sharply, brushing a hand down on the suit. Your eyes darted down to the beach, watching as children ran between the chairs. Family and friends were milling about, chatting as they waited for the ceremony.

Hermes was laughing at something Pa said, as Hypnos’ mother sat with Zagreus’ parents for companionship. It was a beautiful scene.

You didn’t tell him that you and Hypnos almost eloped but Hypnos had really wanted his family to be there. And whatever Hypnos wanted, so did you.

”We were.” Achilles laughed, his smile growing soft. “I never could have imagined a better life.”

You nodded, parting your lips when you heard footsteps behind you. Achilles straightened his back and pulled you into a tight hug. He whispered, “I am so proud of you. I love you, kiddo.”

“Love you too.” You told him, returning the hug. Achilles gave you a manly pat on the back and hurried down the path.

Faintly you heard Thanatos’ voice. “Just say the word, I got the car and he won’t find us.” 

You shifted on your feet, a little annoyed that Hypnos’ twin was willing to play runaway driver. Mostly you were glad that Hypnos had someone willing to do that for him.

When they rounded the cliffside, you felt breathless when you saw him. You didn’t see Thanatos’ scowling expression, like he wished you would just drop dead.

Hypnos was gorgeous in a simple dark red suit, his hair flowing in the cool breeze. His smile grew when he saw you, and you knew you looked like a fool with your own smile. 

Ruefully, Thanatos let his twin go, watching with an odd sort of bittersweetness. Hypnos rushed to you. You met him halfway, and swung him around in your arms. 

He was laughing when you put him down, his cheeks flushed. Gods, help you he was perfect. You wanted to kiss him but you resisted, knowing Hypnos would tell you to wait.

“I will go tell everyone to get seated.” Thanatos said, walking past them. He shot you a look, a silent warning not to ever break Hypnos’ heart again. 

Once he was down at the beach, calling for people to sit, you looked down at the gorgeous man in your arms. He looked back up at you, his smile brighter than the sea itself. 

“Ready?” You whispered, pressing your forehead against his. 

“Ready.” He said, cupping your cheek.

The music began. 

Arm in arm, you and Hypnos walked down the path to the beach, toward the shining blue seas.

The end happened under a wedding arch of daisies, with a single kiss to seal vows evermore, but so did a new beginning.

[theroundbartable]

hi. a while ago, i saw a post of yours (i'm pretty sure it was yours, lol). It was a fic prompt about arthur thinking merlin was courting morgana and merlin being falsely prosecuted of it. i found a draft of it in my notes and am planning to continue writing it. i just want to credit you and use that post as an inpo, but i just can't seem to find it 😭😭 if you're able to, and obvi feel free to say no, could you link me to that post? thank you so much for your time

Hi there :)

It's very kind of you to ask, but I'm fairly certain it's none of mine. It might have been a reblog, but I can't take credit for the idea, nor do I know who originally posted it. :/

unfortunately my memory isn't very good, especially with names.

I'm sorry I couldn't help you, but I wish you good luck finding the original post. ☺️

[90sloverwithinsomnia]

Warrior's Descendants - Chapter 6/6

This is one of many archived fanfics featuring 1st and 2nd generation K-pop acts that I've come across recently. It's all in good fun, and maybe a bit cringeworthy! Just to clarify, I don't post fanfics, so I hope to the people that post and read K-pop fanfics makes sense. Credits go out to the original creator AuspiciousAutumn. *Note: Nothing in their post will change (unless necessary), other than being posted here, and the (Link) will be provided to the page that i found it on.

This work is suitable for Mature and has a WARNING of Graphic Depictions Of Violence, and draws inspiration from the fandoms of H.O.T.

The story is enriched with themes of Thriller, Abduction, Mystery and has Minor Character Death and Major Character Injury.

Characters:

Ahn Chilhyun (Kangta), Moon Heejoon, An Seungho (Tony), Jang Woohyuk, Lee Jaewon (H.O.T.), Eun Jiwon, Kim Jaeduck, Jang Suwon, Lee Jaijin, Kwon Boa (BoA), Park Jungsoo (Leeteuk), Jung Yunho (DBSK)

Summary:

H.O.T are so close to becoming an active group again, but not everyone is keen with them doing it on their own terms.

Chapter 6 - Warrior's Descendants:

   Leeteuk led BoA and Yunho down to his car in the parking garage below SM. He unlocked the doors, and the idols quickly dived into the car. They all collapsed in their seats, exhausted from running.

   "What...was...that...about?" Yunho panted.

   "I don't know, but it's clear that we're in trouble." BoA shook her head in confusion and pulled out her phone. "Also, did anyone see where Baekhyun, Taeyeon, and Onew went?"

   "No, they were the first ones out," Leeteuk muttered, also pulling out his phone. "I'm going to text them and ask if they're okay."

   Yunho just stared out into space. "We didn't imagine it, right? Like, is the whole SM being sold to some guy who is behind H.O.T's disappearance is something that actually happened?"

   "Yup, and so were the gunshots," Leeteuk replied. "Also Yunho, do you know you're live on Instagram right now?"

   TVXQ's leader looked at Super Junior's leader in confusion. "What are you talking about?"

   "I got a notification from Donghae about you going live-oh...what am I looking at?" Yunho and BoA leaned over and saw the underside of a table. The idols were confused about what they were seeing, especially since they could only hear muffled talking.

   "I dropped my phone during the meeting and got rushed out before I could pick it up," Yunho muttered, trying to understand what he was looking at. "I was trying to text Changmin about the meeting, but I guess my touch-typing skills need some work."

   BoA shook her head and smiled. "No, if anything it's a good thing. Depending on when it started, a lot of people probably heard what was going on, including the shooting."

    Kakako!

   Leeteuk backed out of watching the live and opened his notifications. "Okay, Baekhyun just replied. He said that him, Taeyeon, and Onew are fine. Apparently they didn't hear what else is going on in the building, and they're discussing what to tell their members and ex-members."

   "The truth," BoA answered. "I mean, what else is there to say?"

   DING!

   The idols looked through Leeteuk's back window to see Mr. Kim and a couple of men coming out of the elevator dragging an unconscious Kangta behind them. The idols watched in shock as they opened the trunk of a white car and threw their friend in. "Take him straight there, you hear me? I'll be joining you after I get the rest of the paperwork." Mr. Kim spat on Kangta, then slammed the lid shut. A couple of the men got in the car, and Mr. Kim went back to the elevator.

   "Where are they taking him?" Yunho whispered, wishing he had his phone with him.

   "We need to follow them," BoA stated.

   Leeteuk nodded, and waited until the car started pulling out and went around the corner. He turned on his car and rolled down the windows. "BoA, I'm going to need you to take notes about the car, just in case we lose it."

   "Got it."

   The idols slowly followed behind the car, making sure to keep some distance between them. Just when they were about to exit the garage, they saw a black car quickly make a U-turn and nearly hit them as it raced in the direction they were about to go in. Leeteuk was annoyed, but he tried to remain calm and follow after the white vehicle. Every time the white car made a turn, he felt panicked and tried to speed up. He nearly hit the black car at one point, which caused the passenger to turn around to look at them. They met eyes, and to their shock, they recognized the guy and he recognized them. The man broke out in a smile and waved at them.

    "Is that Jaijin from Sechskies?" BoA asked waving back.

    Leeteuk laughed. "Yeah, and I'm pretty sure I know who the driver is too."

    The white car reached a red light an intersection away from them. As there were quite a few cars ahead of them, Leeteuk felt comfortable pulling into the lane next to the black car. Both cars rolled their windows down. Sure enough, it was Jaijin and Jiwon from Sechskies. "You chasing after Kangta too?" Yunho asked. The two older idols looked panicked. "He's really in that car?!"

   The SM artists looked confused. "Yeah, isn't that why you're following it too?"

   "No, we were originally heading this way because Heejun told us to stick with Kangta, so we sent Suwon and our manager, but they got in a wreck," Jiwon explained. "We decided to come down to get him, but then Myunghoon told us about a live stream that was happening and said Kangta was dragged out of the room. A bunch of us agreed that we needed to tail any car that comes out of the building."

   "Boy, did we get lucky. Saving H.O.T and kicking ass is just what we needed to turn around a shitty day," Jaijin added, then looked back at the road. "Shit, the light changed, move!"

   Leeteuk and Jiwon continued to follow the white car until it arrived at a private hospital. They both slowly followed it into the garage, noting that nobody was in the security booth. The SM idols watched as Jiwon turned off his lights in the garage and stopped his car. Jaijin got out holding a crowbar. The idols watched the Sechskies member disappear around the corner.

   They were anxious about waiting for the man to return, but a few minutes later he jogged back into view and got into Jiwon's car. The black car sped off, and Leeteuk followed after, nervous about running into someone. They saw Jiwon get out of the car in front of the elevator, as he hadn't bothered to leave his car in a parking spot. Leeteuk figured that he did it because of the circumstances, but the Super Junior leader still parked around the corner to prevent him from blocking in the older idol's car.

   The SM idols joined the Sechskies members, as they waited for the elevator to come back down. Jiwon turned to them. "They took him up to the 25th floor, so that's where we're going."

   "So, what's the plan?" Yunho asked.

   Jiwon just shrugged. "As Jaijin said earlier, we're going to find H.O.T and kick some ass."

   BoA frowned. "That's the plan?"

   "Yup."

   The SM idols looked at each other, and all of them were wondering if they really should be following this guy. However, when the elevator doors opened, they got in anyway.

   Nobody talked on the way up. Luckily, no one got in with them so they had an uneventful trip. When the doors opened, Jaijin poked his head out, then silently motioned for them to follow him. They clearly weren't at a public hospital, as the nurse's station was small and it didn't seem like there were a lot of patients around.

   BANG!

   Everyone was startled when a door opened at the end of the hallway, and a man fell out. There was blood all over his face, and he was clearly knocked out. “That’s the driver. You think those guys are double-crossing each other?” Jaijin whispered.

   Jiwon pulled something out from his jacket, and rushed down the corridor with Jaijin hot on his heels, wielding a crowbar. Leeteuk, pulled both of them back around a corner, just in case things got messy. They waited for the sound of a struggle, but instead they heard the last thing they had been expecting.

   "Hyung!"

   The SM idols peeked around the corner and saw Jiwon hugging someone. It was H.O.T's missing maknae. He was wearing hospital pajamas and looked like he had terrible bruising on his face. Both of his hands were covered in blood, even though only his right hand had a cast on it.

   "I was scared no one was going to come to rescue us!" Jaewon sobbed into the shorter idol's shoulder, as Jaijin patted his back. "It's okay Jaewon, we're here."

   Leeteuk approached the emotional trio, with Yunho and BoA inching along behind him. None of them knew H.O.T's maknae well, so they were hesitant about joining the group.

   "Uh, hi?" Yunho interrupted, feeling bad when the older idols jumped.

    The H.O.T member pulled away from his former rivals and nodded at him. "Hi, Yunho, right? Sorry, I don't know much about TVXQ!, except from what I've heard from Heejun. He's really close with Jaejoong." Yunho nodded. "Yeah, Jae was a big fan of his." Jaewon turned his attention to BoA. "Obviously, I know you." The SM director laughed, as the H.O.T member turned to Leeteuk. "I think we've met a few times?" Super Junior's leader smiled. "I would have been the maknae if I hadn't joined SM so late." Jaewon gave him a hesitant smile. "Ah, but then you would have been in this mess with us."

   Jiwon turned serious again, and pointed to the man on the ground. "Speaking of which, Jaewon, did you take this guy out?" The tall idol nodded. "I wasn't sure if I was strong enough to fight back, but then they brought Chilhyun into my room a few minutes ago, and I just kinda...got defensive of my hyung, you know?"

   "Kangta's with you?" BoA asked, eager to step into see her friend.

   Jaewon nodded, and led them into the room. "Hyung! People came for us!" It was a large room with five hospital beds inside, and a small connected bathroom. The SM idols and Sechskies members wrinkled their noses at the smell of blood and vomit. However, that wasn’t quite as important as the people who were in the room. 

   On the left side was Woohyuk, who had a hard cast on one of his legs. He waved at them, but didn’t sit up. On the right side were Tony, Heejun, and Kangta. Heejun was asleep on one bed, and Tony was examining Kangta, who was lying on a bed close to the door. They all looked like they had been in a fight recently. Tony looked up when they entered and immediately ran over to hug Jiwon. “Is Jaeduk…?”

   “He’s going to make it,” The leader of Sechskies patted the smaller man’s back, as he started sobbing. “You can see him after we get out of here.”

   Jiwon pulled back and looked around the room. While everyone had been distracted by the appearance of the missing H.O.T members, they had completely ignored the nearly dozen bodies lying on the ground around the room. “What happened to these guys?”

   Woohyuk smirked. “Well, you see, most of them are the thugs who abducted us. All of us have injuries because of them. Luckily, they’re just knocked out, which means I’ll get to have a crack at them when I feel better.”

   “Whoever ordered for us to be brought here owns this hospital. The doctors and nurses here are sick people. Aside from hitting us and depriving Jaewon and Woohyuk of food, they also gave us meds to either knock us out, or make us feel too weak or nauseous to do anything,” Tony explained.

   “So, then how did you guys take them down?” Leeteuk questioned, trying to count the bodies. “There’s a lot of people on the ground.”

   Tony walked over and patted Jaewon’s back. “One of the good things about the meds is that Jaewon, Woohyuk, and I were so nauseous that we kept throwing up the next dose they tried to jam down our throats. Seeing as how Woohyuk can’t walk, they just gave him a trash can. As for us, well, they thought we were going to stay in the bathroom for a while and got distracted when Heejun came.”

   “So, then when Kangta was brought in…” Yunho said, piecing it together.

   “We felt good enough to come out,” Tony laughed. “But of course, our maknae saw them man-handling Chilhyun, and well, I think you can tell what happened next.”

   “I’ve been boxing since my cancer surgery a few years ago, and I’m even licensed. But I never managed to seriously hurt anyone - let alone knock them out!” Jaewon beamed with pride.

   A groan caused them all to jump. Heejun grabbed the back of his head, and whined in pain. “Hyung!” Jaewon called, bounding over to his leader. “Are you okay?” The oldest member of H.O.T sat up wincing, then looked around. “Jaewon?” The maknae frowned, “Of course.” When Heejun didn’t register his presence, Jiwon came over and waved his hand in his friend’s face. Although Heejun’s eyes were open and he was blinking, he didn’t react to what Jiwon was doing at all. Jaewon and Jiwon looked at each other in panic. “Jaewon?” The youngest member of H.O.T grabbed Heejun’s hand. “I’m here, hyung.” 

   Everyone jumped when they heard a shout down the hall.

   “WHAT THE FUCK!?”

   “That’s Mr. Kim,” Leeteuk panicked, turning towards the door. “What do we do?”

   “We fight,” Jiwon stated as he reached into his pocket. The SM idols were startled to see him pull out a handgun, but he ignored their surprised faces. “We’ll distract them. You guys get H.O.T out of here, okay?”

   “Sure,” Yunho said, going over to figure out how he was going to carry Woohyuk. BoA went over to help Tony grab Kangta. Leeteuk quickly went to Heejun’s side, and got him to stand up. Jaewon, however, joined his former rivals. Jiwon looked at him warily. “You got some fight left in you?” H.O.T’s maknae nodded, and put his fists up.

   Everyone in the room was silent and on edge. They listened as the sound of hurried footsteps got closer. Just when the tip of a leather shoe appeared in the doorway, Jaijin swung his crowbar, and a loud thud could be heard.

   There was a second where nobody moved, then things kicked off. There were about half a dozen guys in the hallway. Jiwon aimed his gun at someone, but it was kicked out of his hand and the bullet struck the ceiling. That didn’t stop the idol, though, because he immediately resorted to punching his way through. Jaijin whacked a man with his crowbar, so hard, it knocked the man’s glasses off his face. Jaewon dodged a punch, and returned with his own so strong, that the man knocked two other guys down. 

   “What the fuck are you doing up!?”

   Jaewon looked at Mr. Kim, whose mouth was open in shock. “Let me guess, you’re the man who started this.” Jaewon stepped over the men on the floor, and approached the new owner of SM. “Turns out your goons and doctors are just as shitty at their jobs, as you are at coming up with them.” The older man took a nervous step back, and then pulled out a gun, and shot at Jaewon. Luckily, he missed and the bullet went straight into the wall. The older man then turned, and fled towards the elevator with Jaewon right behind him.

   Mr. Kim took a sharp turn and started running up the stairs instead, periodically shooting in Jaewon’s direction. He probably meant to kill the idol, but was unfortunately a bad shot either because he wasn’t used to using the weapon or because he was shaking. He saw that the idol had bloody hands, and knew he didn’t want to be on the receiving end of his punches.

  The older man stopped at the top of the stairs and fired again. Jaewon ducked, and even though his ears were ringing, he was fine. He looked up, but the man had disappeared. As he got closer to where he last saw the man, he saw that the door’s lock had been what the man had fired at.

   Jaewon swung open the door, and realized that he was on the roof of the building. For a moment, soaked in the feeling of being outside after having been cooped up for so long. But then that peace was shattered by a loud BANG!

   Mr. Kim pointed a gun at Jaewon, panting from the unexpected run up five flights of stairs. “You’re a lot more resilient than I thought you’d be, I’ll give you that.” The idol stared up at the man in defiance. “Why are you doing this to us? We haven’t hurt anybody!”

   The older man laughed. “It’s not about you. Listen, kid. I’m from a chaebol family - in case me having a private hospital didn’t tip you off. Let’s just say that I’m looking to bring my family down by blowing all of their cash. Even though I’m the one with the finance degree and I’ve been one of the main heads keeping track of the numbers for YEARS, I found out that I’m not going to inherit shit. My father is dying, so I decided to look at his will, and guess what I found out? I’m going to get kicked out of my position so that my younger brother can take it. I’m only going to get this damn hospital and the rest of my siblings are about to inherit everything else. To add insult to injury, I found out a few days ago that this place has a history of malpractice and has been ordered to close soon, so that leaves me with NOTHING. I’ve decided to ruin them before they can ruin ME!”

   “But why did you choose us? What does H.O.T have to do with you?” Jaewon pleaded, keeping his eyes on the gun. Mr. Kim gave him a small smile. “While I was looking at which businesses to ruin,  One of the stocks my family owns is in SM Entertainment, and one of my bratty nephews was about to debut. So, it seemed like a perfect fit. I arranged for the purchase of SM, and it was easier than I had expected it to be. I saw your little announcement about your comeback, and decided it would be done through you. Afterall, if it came out that SM was engaging in kidnapping and attempted murder of former idols, that would cause the stock to drop. Honestly, I never expected that it would be so easy to find people who would help me with my plan, but they did a good job at getting you all here.”

   Mr. Kim’s smile dropped, and he readjusted his grip on his gun. “So, now you’ve got two choices: either you go back downstairs and sign a contract willingly, or H.O.T’s next album will only have four members after you take a tragic tumble off of the roof of my younger sister’s hotel. And make it snappy, I’ve got a few more purchases to make.”

   Neither choice was what Jaewon wanted. He didn’t like this man, but he also didn’t want to die.

    Well, I might as well go down swinging.

   Jaewon launched to his feet, and punched Mr. Kim right below the sternum. The man dropped the gun, but grabbed the idol around the middle and they both went crashing to the ground. They rolled around, punching and kicking each other, until they moved back towards the gun. Mr. Kim grabbed it, and smirked. “Say goodbye, kid.”

   Jaewon closed his eyes tightly, waiting for the pain to come.

    Click!

   Click!

   Jaewon opened his eyes, thinking that maybe he had died immediately. But his right hand was hurting too much for him to have passed on. Oh, and Mr. Kim was also looking pretty panicked, as he scrambled away from the downed idol, still pointing his gun at him.

    Click!

    Click!

    Click!

   “Oh…” Jaewon whispered, feeling a bit stupid. He wasn’t dead - Mr. Kim was out of bullets. It made sense because he had probably used most of them up when he was shooting at him when they were running up the stairs. But that didn’t stop the tall idol from being angry.

   “YOU ASSHOLE!”

   Mr. Kim looked up with a panicked expression on his face as Jaewon stormed towards him, ready to knock his lights out. But the older man dodged the blow, and the idol stumbled on. Before he could turn around, the older man was throwing punches at him, and all he could do was block and try to back up.

   Jaewon’s foot hit the edge of a low wall, and he realized that he was about to fall off. He noticed that Mr. Kim was starting to slow down and was breathing heavily, so the idol saw his chance and pushed him strongly. He went to run past the man, but he was grabbed by the back of his pyjama top and stumbled back.

   “JAEWON!”

   The idol felt his stomach drop as he fell backward. He saw Mr. Kim’s shocked face, then the night sky as his back bent towards the abyss behind him.

   Jaewon felt his head snap back as his fall was stalled by a tug on his pyjama shirt. He heard strangled yell from Mr. Kim, then he was yanked forward. He collided with something firm. It was then that he realized there were arms wrapping around him and he recognized the smell of cologne.

   “Hyung?” Jaewon whispered, as he shakily returned the hug.

   “I’ve got you, dongsaeng.”

   Jaewon crumbled and started to cry when he realized that Kangta had saved his life. He sobbed into the older man’s arms, as sounds of yelling and footsteps approaching could be heard. Both idols were startled when they felt more people join their hug. They looked up to see Woohyuk, Tony, and Heejun holding them tightly.

   "Jaewon, you're a fool you know that?" Woohyuk muttered with tears in his eyes. "Never go charging into danger like that ever again, you understand?"

   H.O.T's maknae nodded, sniffling. "Only if you stay with me."

   "Promise."

   Kangta looked up to see Yunho and Leeteuk leading police officers through the door. A few feet away, Jiwon and Jaijin had Mr. Kim pinned to the ground. And as for BoA, she was smiling at something on her phone. The vocalist turned back to his battered band mates and felt whole for the first time since their last meal together.

   Eventually, H.O.T followed the police officers and fellow idols down to the entrance of the building. While they had expected cop cars and ambulances to be there, that wasn't all that was waiting for them. They felt weak when they saw a sea of people wearing white ponchos. White Angels had come to see their idols themselves. They chanted their names while keeping the press from overwhelming the members as they were loaded into ambulances. The white sea parted again and allowed the emergency vehicles to spirit away the men.

   That wasn't the end of the love they received, but the beginning. BoA had taken a picture of the group hug on the roof and posted it on Instagram and Twitter, which caused a huge swell of support for the members as they recovered. Their social media and email accounts were constantly being bombarded by people wanting to hear the whole story. Many variety shows demanded that they make an appearance as soon as they could. The members uploaded pictures frequently showing their recovery. Friends and family stopped by frequently with food.

   Tony was the first to be released from the hospital after a few hours, as he had only sustained a minor concussion and bruising. However, he stayed to check up on the other members and Jaeduk, who had finally woken up and sobbed upon seeing his soulmate. Next to be released was Jaewon, as he had broken his right hand, but was mostly suffering from exhaustion. Like Tony, he stayed at the hospital anyway. Kangta sustained a minor concussion, but due to how he was choked by Mr. Kim, his vocal cords were damaged and would take a while to heal. Luckily, his doctor said that the damage wouldn't be permanent and he would be back to singing in a few months. Due to the fall Heejun had endured, he had hit his head hard enough for him to lose his sight. Like Kangta's affliction, it wasn't a permanent medical issue and he was able to see again after a few days. Although, headaches persisted for weeks. As for Woohyuk, he had a broken leg that needed surgery to fix what the doctor at the private hospital had messed up. Unfortunately, he would need extensive recovery time and physical therapy before he could even dream of dancing again.

   Sechskies visited with them frequently, and they all cracked up when they heard that the police had assumed Jiwon's gun to be Mr. Kim's. Although the idol was upset at the loss of his weapon, everyone was relieved that he avoided getting in trouble for owning one in the first place. After the initial investigation wrapped up, Sechskies (mainly Jaeduk) hounded the H.O.T members to do a collaboration.

   As for Mr. Kim, him and his cronies (including the complicit staff at his hospital) were all arrested and received multiple charges. While attempted murder and assault were bad on their own, it was really the firearm possession, fraud, and license plate forgery that really added to the charges. As it turns out, Mr. Kim wasn't as smart as he had thought he was. He thought that it would be impossible for the cops to find their cars if they all used the same counterfeit license plate. H.O.T were both amused and annoyed when they found out that the criminal had chosen 9696 not because of the cab Jaewon had taken the night he had been abducted, but because that was when Mr. Kim thought their debut date was. He was off by one day, as they had debuted on September 7th - not the sixth.

   SM Entertainment, meanwhile, tried to pretend like nothing had happened. From the sale to the deaths that occurred in the building, they squashed all attempts of the story being spread. However, there was one notable change that came from it. The day after he had been released from the hospital, Kangta had turned in his resignation as both director and artist. Multiple executives tried to get him to change his mind, but he refused. Instead, he told them to send him a bill for the penalty of breaking his contract, and left to pack up his office. Kangta had one more box to go when Lee Sooman came in.

   "Chilhyun, please reconsider."

   Kangta ignored the man, so he pleaded again. "You've been here for 25 years, you can't go. Everything is okay now, there's no reason to throw away a perfectly fine career." The idol turned to the man who had been his boss for over two decades. "I haven't thrown anything away - you have. You were ready to throw away the company you built for the sake of money," Kangta rasped, still not used to talking. "I don't know what's gotten into you for you to think it was okay to sign over the company to a complete stranger right after meeting them, but I'm not going to stick around the next time it happens." Kangta opened his desk drawers one more time to make sure he hadn't forgotten anything.

   "Chilhyun, it was just a small lapse of judgement-"

   "That's not 'a small lapse of judgement', and you know what else wasn't? Your decision to let H.O.T break up in the first place," Kangta snapped, as he slammed the drawers shut.

   "Chilhyun-"

   "Don't call me that. You've lost that right."

   "Okay, Kangta, please-!"

   "I've found a future, that's without your love~" Kangta whisper-sang mockingly.

   The founder of SM Entertainment chased after the idol, who ignored his pleading and fake tears.

   Kangta was relieved when he finally got to the lobby, as he was a few steps away from freedom. To his surprise, every idol who was still with SM was waiting for him. He wasn't close with all of them, but he had a feeling that they were curious about what he had gone through after hearing so much about it second-hand. BoA approached him. "Give me hug, loser." He put the box on the ground and hugged her. "I can come by and see you, right?" she whispered. Kangta pulled away and nodded. He looked around the lobby, and it felt like everybody was waiting for him to say something.

   The former SM idol leaned over to his friend and whispered, "Tell them that they are welcome to say hi to me anytime, and that I'm sorry things had to end like this." BoA repeated his words. "What are you going to do next, the H.O.T album?" Leeteuk asked. Kangta nodded. "Warrior's Descendant' is my top priority right now. The members and I decided that it will be our magnum opus. We're getting older, and we know that we won't be able to be idols forever. Since it was the song that changed Korea, we wanted to revisit the title itself and use it to create a new anthem to encourage those who came after us and were fans of us. This album is our request for you all to take up our torch. If you can speak out and use your art to change Korea and the world for the better, then you will have fulfilled our last wish as H.O.T. Thank you." He gave a short bow, as BoA relayed his words tearfully. Then, he picked up his box and left SM Entertainment forever.

   For the last few years, no one had been eagerly awaiting his appearance like when he was younger. However, he was delighted to see so many people holding H.O.T light sticks and wishing him well. He had a small smile on his face as he approached his van. Tony threw open the door and grabbed the box from his hands. Kangta closed the door and found his seat. "You okay?" Heejun asked seriously. Kangta nodded, and put on his seat belt.

   "What now?" Woohyuk asked, as their new group manager drove away from the crowd.

   Jaewon smiled, "We enjoy our time as H.O.T from now to eternity."

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Kate bishop x reader

Taking place during episode 2. Reader is a young surgeon and kate's girlfriend. Kate comes back injured with a clint.

Steady Hands

Summary: The last thing Y/N expects is to open her door to face her girlfriend with an ex-Avenger.

Authors Note: I combined this with another Kate request. I hope you like this!

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“Are you usually this happy after your life gets turned upside down?” Clint Barton’s judgmental and slightly jealous voice floated into Kate’s ears as she trailed behind him, surveying the aisles of the grocery store.

Kate had calmed down enough from her awe that she was with a literal superhero to roll her eyes at him, although he didn’t catch it. “No,” she stressed. “Can you blame me for being a little excited that I’m going to a S.H.I.E.L.D. safe house?”

Clint stopped short, and Kate just about caught herself before she walked into him. “What?” He asked over his shoulder, straining his voice to not sound too shocked. He reached out to sift through some bags of pretzels, though does it absentmindedly. They were all bland, anyway.

“What ‘what’? We’re going to a safe house, right?” She asked, shifting from one foot to the other. The familiar sting from her injuries came back and she wished she could be anywhere else but this stuffy, grimy supermarket.

“Why would you assume that?” Clint questioned pointedly, resuming their walk as he spoke.

Kate shrugged. “I dunno, but you were once a S.H.I.E.L.D. agent. I figured you’d have it figured out,” she admitted, now realizing just how immature and lame it sounds when she hears herself.

Clint heard it, too, because he scoffed. The minimal reaction dug a pit in her stomach. Great, the hero she admired liked her even less. “If only everything in life was that easy.” His words were vague, but she caught the disappointment and resentment in there.

Kate frowned. Where were they going to go to now? Her mother’s penthouse was out of the options, there’s no way she was gonna go crawling to Jack . . . That only left one place, or, person.

“I know where we can go,” Kate announced, surprising herself with how confident she sounds. A nervous grin slithered onto her face. Yes, she was excited to see this person again, but couldn’t imagine how she’d react to all this.

Y/N sighed as she leaned back against the couch, immediately feeling the relief as her muscles stretched from the tense position they were in. She forced her grip on her notes to lessen before she crumpled the paper, rubbing the tiredness away from her face.

Why didn’t someone tell her that medical school would be so difficult?!

Okay, she relented, Kate did warn her of that. But it was worth it. It had to be. She goes through medical school, qualifies as a doctor, and then can become a surgeon! All she had to do was remember all these procedures and information to pass her up-coming exam.

A knock interrupted her train of thought, and Y/N rose from her chair curiously. A tiny part of her was grateful for this brief distraction, but the smart part of her wondered who the hell was at the door at this hour. Peering through the peephole, Y/N saw the loving face of her girlfriend staring back at her. She made out the shoulders of someone else, but couldn’t quite determine him from this view. Thinking perhaps it was Kate’s soon-to-be step-father, but not knowing why, she pulled the door open.

“Holy Shi—” Y/N just barely caught herself before she cursed, eyes widening at the people in front of her. Indeed it was Kate, but also the man known as Hawkeye. A superhero. An Avenger who Kate had adored all her life.

“Hey, Y/N/N,” Kate greeted, wearing an over-the-top smile. Y/N snapped her eyes to meet her gaze and felt herself become grounded.

“Kate, what’s going on?” Y/N asked, now beginning to wrap her mind around this. Her girlfriend had come to her apartment late at night, with an Avenger, and appeared to be cut up and bruised — she had definitely gotten herself into some sort of trouble.

“Nothing I can’t handle! I was just wondering if my new friend Clint and I could crash here for a couple nights? Please? We’re kinda on some important superhero business,” Kate pleaded, ignoring the elbow Clint gave her.

Y/N looked between the two archers, gobsmacked. Clint offered her a small, forced smile which did nothing to lessen her confusion. Nonetheless, she forced that aside. She trusted Kate and Kate needed her.

“As long as you help me study for my test tomorrow,” Y/N conceded, letting herself share the brunette’s ever-contagious grin. Kate practically jumped in excitement, bouncing on her feet as Y/N stepped aside to let them in.

“There is one thing though,” Kate added. After locking the door, Y/N spun around on her heels suspiciously. “This guy is kinda injured. He insisted he was fine, but since you’re here, I figured he should be checked by an actual doctor.”

Y/N looked at Clint and sighed, letting the back of her head lightly hit the door. “I’m a med student, studying to be a surgeon not a—” she began to reiterate, but was cut off.

“Yeah, well, it’s like the same thing,” Kate insisted, shrugging her shoulders.

“It’s really not,” Y/N tried to convince her.

“Let’s just — just make sure I’m not dying, okay?” Clint reasoned, trying to keep them from going any further as he saw Kate begin to open her mouth. He was far too exhausted to deal with stubborn teenagers making no sense.

Y/N relented at that and them both sit down on the couch while she went to grab her makeshift first aid kit. Kate sighed as she spotted all of her girlfriend’s messy notes, instinctively going to organize them. Y/N was usually very organized, but those skills failed her in times of stress. Kate knew her well enough to know that if any of these notes got lost or damaged, that would only send Y/N spiraling into tears and yells.

Clint observed his new ally curiously, a little surprised to see her displaying an act of such genuine kindness. He smiled to himself, deciding that maybe she wasn’t so bad for a teen that was definitely in way over her head.

When Y/N returned, she quickly got herself situated. Opening up the first aid kit, she asked Clint the standard questions or if he was in any pain and how much. He told her that he had bruises and cuts all over, but the main pain was mostly in his left arm. Y/N gave him bandaids and disinfected the cuts on his arms. Since that didn’t take much time, she was able to quickly move onto the main concern. Y/N knew enough to tell that no bone was broken or anything, but made him a makeshift sling for good measure.

Kate wore a fond smile as she watched her girlfriend work. The way she tucked her chin and furrowed her eyebrows in deep concentration made Kate swoon. She would never get tired of watching her do what she does best. Her hands were rock solid as she worked, and Kate marveled at that. If she was dealing with a potential broken bone and risked injuring her patient with one wrong move, she’d be a trembling mess. That was probably the thing that fascinated Kate the most about Y/N — how steady she was. In high school Y/N had sewn, and Kate always wondered how her stitches came so perfectly, beautifully. No wonder she’d want to become a surgeon.

“All set. I have a guest room you can stay in and Kate’ll stay in my room.”

Y/N’s words caused Kate to blink, looking up to see Clint thanking her and rising from his seat. He bid them a quiet goodbye before retreating into the hallway, in search of the room.

Once they heard the door close, Kate smiled, about to go to her girlfriend’s comfy bed. To her surprise, Y/N went in the opposite direction. She nestled herself further into the couch, reaching over to grab her notes. Quicker than a snap, she was back in the zone, mumbling to herself as she tried to stick something in her memory, glancing to and fro across the notes.

Pouting, the brunette sat back down and leaned forward, tugging at the notes. “Hey, what are you doing?” She asked.

Y/N promptly pulled her notes back, eyes never ceasing to dart around the inked words. “I have an exam tomorrow. I need to study,” she said, in a monotone and rehearsed voice.

Looking around the room, Kate sighed. “How long have you been studying for?” She asked.

Y/N gave a small shrug. “Since I after I finished my takeout,” she murmured.

Kate eyed the takeout bag on the counter and reached it in quick strides. Peeling it open, she noticed that barely half of it had been eaten. Frowning, Kate made a decision. She walked right back to her girlfriend and easily slipped the notes from her loose grip, beginning to organize them and put them away.

“Hey!” Y/N protested, immediately leaping forward. “What are you doing? I need to study!”

Kate spared her a quick glance and caught, out of the corner of her eyes, her hands shaking like a frail leaf. Oh, god. That was never a good sign. She knew Y/N well enough by now.

Quickly dropping the notes, she encased Y/N’s hands in her own, meeting her gaze. “Hey, hey, take a deep breath, okay? You need to rest,” she said, her tone low and gentle but also firm.

Y/N just shook her head and bounced her leg, dissolving into her nerves. “No, no. I’ll-I’ll fail without the notes. Please,” she begged, lightly struggling against Kate’s grip. Tears quickly brimmed at her eyes, finally having broken out against the dam she had kept them behind.

Kate nearly started crying herself when she realized how bad it had gotten. Standing up close, she could see the bags under her girlfriend’s eyes. When was the last time she gotten a good night’s sleep?

“Oh, babe,” she said, frowning sadly. “You’re going to do great on the exam. You need to sleep, though. What’s all the point of studying if you fall asleep in the middle of it?” She attempted to reason, keeping her grip steady.

After a moment or two, Y/N lowered her head tiredly and sighed. Slowly, she began to relax. Her breaths grew deeper and her leg stopped bouncing. Yet, her hands still trembled.

“I know, but if I don’t get a good grade—” she trailed off, unable to finish her sentence in fear of jinxing it. She leaned forward, allowing her forehead to rest on Kate’s shoulder. In turn, Kate pulled one hand away, patting Y/N’s back.

“C’mon, let’s go sleep,” Kate said. At Y/N’s nod, she maneuvered them so her arm was wrapped around Y/N’s shoulders, one hand still holding hers. She led them to her girlfriend’s room, turning on the light as Y/N practically collapsed on her bed, snuggling under the blankets.

Kate smiled, rummaging through Y/N’s drawers for pajamas. She tossed a tee-shirt and shorts at Y/N, laughing when Y/N promptly whined as she dragged it off of her face, and grabbed one of Y/N’s oversized shirts for herself. The two changed in silence, both opting to disregard their daytime clothes on the floor.

Once done, Kate jumped onto the bed, making it bounce. She curled up beside her girlfriend, wrapping her arms around her waist and nestling her head into Y/N’s shoulder. Y/N let out a content sigh, leaning back into Kate.

Soon, the only sounds that filled the room were their breathing evening out. Neither of them had even bothered to turn off the light before they fell into a peaceful, heavenly slumber.

Kate’s last thought before she slipped into sleep’s clutches were how Y/N’s hands had finally stopped shaking in her hold.

The next morning, Kate awoke bright and early. A goofy smile rested on her lips, not at all bothered by the fact that sometime in the night, Y/N had shifted so her hair was in Kate’s face. At some point, Y/N had shifted to lie on her stomach, nearly pulling Kate on top of her.

Mindful so as to not disturb her sleep, Kate carefully disentangled herself from Y/N. She managed to stand up and looked down at her girlfriend’s still sleeping form with a smile. She had slept! She had rested! Her mission was a success.

Checking the time, Kate was relieved to see that it was still early in the morning. Y/N wasn’t needed at her exam until the late afternoon, so that gave Kate plenty of time to enact the plan she had whipped up when she first saw her girlfriend studying the previous night. She changed into an outfit of Y/N’s (that she had actually stolen from Kate) and got herself ready for the morning.

After packing a small bag, she scribbled two notes out, both saying that she had to run out for an errand but would be back soon. She stuck one on the fridge in case Clint woke up first and one on Y/N’s beside table.

Pressing a kiss to the top of Y/N’s head, Kate left the apartment, careful not to make noise.

Kate couldn’t keep the smile off her face as she trudged up the stairs, bags hanging off her arms. She didn’t even mind that Y/N lived on the third floor! The moment she had purchased all her goodies using a secret credit card her mother hadn’t cancelled yet, she had dreamed of Y/N’s reaction. She almost wish she had a camera with her to capture it.

It was a couple hours later. She had spent the morning going from shop to shop, buying Y/N all the fancy and somewhat expensive things that she knew she deserved. From her favorite chocolate and candy to fancy perfume and a big cuddly teddy bear, Kate had definitely spoiled Y/N. Would it do a number on her credit card and on her mother’s reaction? Most definitely, but she didn’t have it in her to care.

With all the things she was carrying, she was forced to kick the door to get somebody’s attention. Clint answered, in his hands a cup of coffee. He sent her a confused look, clearly wondering what she hell she had bought, but didn’t say anything about it. When he stepped aside, Kate entered. She had the perfect view of her girlfriend, sitting cross-legged on the couch, papers and books surrounding her.

The brunette sighed, but she wasn’t surprised. At least this time, the bags under her eyes were gone and she looked more awake now.

“Y/N/N!” Kate said in a sing-song voice. She missed how Clint rubbed at his head and took a long sip from his coffee. It hadn’t even been a full day and she already exhausted him.

Y/N’s hands snapped up, eyebrows furrowing when she saw her girlfriend. “What’s all that?” She asked, notes forgotten.

“It’s for you!” Kate answered, dumping them on the couch.

Curiously and a little suspiciously, Y/N moved forward to peer inside. Gasping, she said, “You did not—“

“I did,” Kate said, sitting next to the bags. She said it in such a way that someone could practically hear the grin in her words.

“Oh my god, you are too much. Thank you!” Y/N said, as she dived into the chocolates, practically ripping it open.

Kate watched her happily, filled with her own glee at seeing Y/N so relaxed and excited. “Anything for you,” she said, and she meant it.

Her hands didn’t shake once throughout the entire day, even when she sat down to begin the exam. Kate’s presence had been the trick to calming her down and getting her through this. 

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[epochryphal]

just saw someone crediting me for coining xenogenital and clicked through to a post where i indeed mark it as i coined it, and

i completely fucking forgot that i did

doubly hilarious given i was just thinking “i bet all these definitions focusing on Imagination are just same phenomenon as quoi and originally it was more nuanced and could indeed fit Transition” (answer: yes)

apparently i originally described it as Conceptualizing and linked it to alien… whereas now i would emphasize it as a Relationship To Body and that it should be understood as agnostic about physical transition/modification, but certainly not understood as Unaltered or as Just Fun Fiction Narrative (nor about “always a dream, alas, definitely physically impossible, mustn’t get hopes up, let’s preempt any innovation and always specify it is hopeless wish”)

which of course is the whole. issue. and probably requires more intentional careful pushback (but also, is simplification and flattening just inevitable)

how do we open up the cognitive space to think about “hey, some people have genital setups that don’t occur naturally”

(without activating dysphoria and anti-trans cooptation along the lines of “-plasty surgery results are never ~real~ genitals”)

and this is where eunuchs and nullos are obvious but often forgotten examples. assumed archaic, or always only coercive. no thought about changes in healthcare experience or needs (eg risk of osteoporosis after gonadectomy unless on a hormone therapy; i wonder what preventative care some folks may still need and get denied because it’s tied into assumptions about organ inventories; how much does disgust reaction activate and prevent life-saving care)

but even then, how do we avoid the sort of “male / female / neuter” trinary?

i’ve been about removal (literally, blockers-and-ectomies) of sexed organs and tissue and traits, and it’s led me to yearn for transmutation into something visibly notably unrecognizable

and i don’t know what “not penis, not vagina, not a smooth doll crotch either; not scrotum, not labia, not smooth skin either” looks like, still — even as i literally have it, lmao.

like… how does this visually, conceptually (there’s the original word i used again) register? and how do we create the possibility to register something new? something possible. literally able to be noted/noticed.

i think a lot of xenobio designs focus on the physically humanly impossible for the foreseeable future - prehensile, especially.

probably all of this is very directly tied to phallocentrism. and it generates a binary yes/no, where further details are irrelevant (beyond coercive intervention to reinforce and reify that binary).

and anyway for all discussion there’s this looming spectre of “it’s sexual harrassment to discuss your own genitals, tmi inappropriate predatory creepy, can’t hide behind the veneer of fictional and have to be explicit (anything less gets misunderstood and elided back into penis/vagina/neuter) so that makes it real life sexual boundary crossing” - when uh how does one “get consent” to arguing with a paradigm of what can/does exist

mm. i threw this in my drafts for two weeks trying to think further and/or encourage myself to Formalize this into a bigger Plea For Paradigm Shift Around Genital Reality, and i hope i’ll be able to articulate that better in the near future but i’m gonna share this now as is

[ggukkiereads]

hi hii I was wondering if you had any taekook x reader fics ? 🙈 , also wondering if I could I go as 🗯 anon if that's okay? I love ur recs so much and ur page is a LIFESAVER , ily bae <3

🌷 Dear 🗯️ anon! I am sorry for answering so late. My drafts are all messed up but I was able to focus on this. On my 📍 pinned post, I actually asked if you meant love triangles or MMF smut but you didn't reply. So, I'll just put both =)

Enjoy! Much love and credit goes to all these wonderful writers who brought these fics to life 💖🥳

TaeKook Fics (Taehyung x Reader x Jungkook)

Love Triangle/s

M/M/F Smutty One Shots/Series

#ReadwithMe (fics in my reading queue/planning to read)

Love Triangle

All I Want @ardentlyjae - series [6/6] | 126k | War AU, Soldier!Taehyung | Heavy Angst, S

I actually read this on AO3 but I realized it’s on tumblr too. I remember this fic every time I hear Kodaline’s All I Want, which the fic was inspired by

Anima Meaology @arckook - series [5/5] | 26k | Soulmate AU, soulmate glitch (those with mismatched tattoos on their wrist) | A, F

I read this long ago on AO3 when I had this soulmate AU-fixation phase and I saw it on tumblr recently. Just had to read it again 🥺

Aquarium, Part 2 @whatifyoulivelikethat - two shot | 6.9k | cheating/infidelity, healing/comfort, second chances | A, F

I really like this comfort fic 🥰. Also shows that people deserve second chances, even the person who caused so much hurt. Screamed about it here and here

Change @junghelioseok - series [10/10] | 39.2k | a kind handsome stranger (Taehyung) makes you question your deteriorating relationship (Jungkook) | A, S, F

can I just say that Taehyung is such a sweetheart here 🥰? I always envision Paris Taehyung 2018 in this

Everything Goes @jamaisjoons - one shot | 24k | Fuckboy!Taehyung, Bestfriend!Taehyung, Stranger!Jungkook, unrequited love | A, S  (really angsty)

First Light @inktae - one shot | 24k | Bestfriend!Taehyung, Masked Jungkook who can’t seem to leave the forest, Fantasy AU, based on hotarubi no mori e | F

If you’ve seen my fic recs list, inktae is always part of my recs. The way they write is just emotionally and visually haunting. Their works are just masterpieces. This is beautifully heartbreaking and heartbreakingly beautiful.

House of Cards @aiimaginesbts - series [10/10] | 40k | infidelity au, taehyung in an arranged marriage with someone else, roommate Jungkook | A, S, F

don’t we all want to have a roommate like Jungkook who will be there to comfort you over your heartbreak over someone else?

Stealing the Bite by wildernessuntothemselves - series [6/6] | 37k | witch!reader x werewolf!taehyung x vampire!jungkook, supernatural au, fantasy au | S, A

I mentioned before that some are divided re the ending, so I wonder what’s going to be the reactions of others

The Muse @daddychims - one shot | 30k | Author!Reader, Bestfriend!Taehyung, Fuckboy!Taehyung,  Coworker!Jungkook, Taehyung offered OC to watch him have sex with another so she could write an erotic scene | S, A, F

The Universe of Us (read on mobile) @/taesthetes (officially closed her account) - one shot | 21k | Dream AU, Fantasy, Slice of Life, Kimi no Nawa-inspired | F, A

I am never going to shut up about this fic lol. It’s not exactly a love triangle, ugh hard to explain but please read this wonderful fic. Check their other KTH x R x JJK soulmate fic Cloud Ten too.

When You Least Expect @johobi - series [12/14 + drabble] | 118k | Slow Burn, Love Triangle, Drama, Childhood Friend Taehyung, set up with another guy (Jungkook) | S, A, F

ugh, I want to put another tag about Jungkook but I guess it’s a surprise. I just love the drama 🍿

🌷 I’m forgetting two more fics but I’ll update this once I remember. I haven’t read recently released fics too! I’ll add if there are good ones that come along

MMF Smutty One Shots/Series

A Piece of You @httpjeon - one shot | 13.9k | abo dynamics, camboy AU, camgirl AU, fan jungkook joins the cam session | S, F

All’s Fair @kimvtae - one shot | 13k | soulmate AU, college AU, dating Taehyung for a year but different name (Jungkook) showed up on OC’s wrist (lol it’s not a problem if you can get them both) | S

Blacklisted @/httpjeon - one shot | 21k | dom/sub AU, CEO AU, “after departing from your dom, you’re assigned to two incredibly powerful men” | A, F, S

Business @btssmutgalore - two shot | 28.9k | executive!reader, inventors/start-up owners taekook | S (seriously, how could I have missed including this here)

Dulce Periculum @forgottenpasta - two shot [2/2]  | 16k | Hybrid AU, Tiger Hybrid!Tae, Owner!Reader, Wolf Hybrid!Jungkook | S, A, F

Easy Like Sunday Morning @ofsugakookies - one shot | 11.8k | boyfriend AU (yes, both of them), dom!taehyung, sub!jungkook | S, PWP

It Takes Two To Make A Thing Go Right @imaginethisbts - two shot [2/2] 11.6k | Hybrid AU (dog hybrids) | S, A (side note: I realized I’ve read all of their fics! give their masterlist a try)

Just Kidding @/whatifyoulivelikethat - series [5/?] | 21.1k+ | nympho OC, friend Taehyung, tae’s roommate Jungkook | S, kinda F, crack

this is actually fun 😊; and the episodes are written in a drabble-ish sort of way so you won’t feel like it needs to be updated to get the story moving. It’s basically just reading fun scenarios of nympho OC and these two satisfying her needs *wink wink

Not So Digital @jiminables  - sequel to Digital Boy | 2.7k | camboy!taehyung, bestfriend!jungkook, short mxm | S, slight F

Playing to Win @tayegi - one shot | 8.6k | FWB AU (tae), sort of enemies to lovers (jungkook), TaeKook (mxm), originally Taehyung x OC (fwb) | S

okay this is one of my favorites! I’m amazed at how the power dynamics were written. Taehyung seems a dom with OC but with Jungkook he is all soft and sub; then, there’s that dynamic between Jungkook and OC who disliked each other originally. I just found the shifting so interesting and the writer was able to display these changes in dom/sub behavior among the three characters really well

Pour Up @jungkxook - one shot | 14k | fuckboy AU, fratboy AU (applies to two of them), one sassy OC, one kind of jealous Koo | S (thank you dear author for reposting this! 🥰)

Shhh @bang-tan-bitches - drabble (with OT7 sequel) | 2.7k | PWP (just pure hot imagine)

Shameless @imaginethisbts - one shot | 5.1k | established relationship (jungkook x oc), Taehyung’s POV, exhibitionism | S (not exactly threesome, because JK and OC are just doing it in front of people, Taehyung had a bit of action in the end)

Sugar & Spice @divine-bangtan - one shot | 20.8k | Kiki’s Delivery Service!AU, Baker AU, Noona AU, Assistant!Jungkook, Rich!Taehyung, pining Koo, a bit of M x M  | S, F, A (it’s all good everyone ends up happy 😊)

Sugar and Spice @sunkissedjk - two shot [2/2] | 8.6k | Your friends ask you whether you prefer sugar (jjk) or spice (kth) | S

ugh this is such an indulgent imagine. If taekook are your friends and they help you decide what type of sex you prefer through a demonstration, wouldn’t you want for multiple demos before deciding? *wink wink

Sacrilegious @therealmintedmango -  part of the Gods and Monsters series | 15.6k | Demon!Jungkook, Fallen Angel!Reader, God!Taehyung | S (so sinful 😈💦)

Sweat Pea @nitaescence - series [10/10] | 63k | DDLG!AU, caregiver!jungkook, caregiver!taehyung, little!oc | S, F, A

so I’m glad there was an ask about caregiver!jungkook because I remembered this. I actually checked if there’s a follow up drabble because the ending is open to any interpretation so I’m curious how other readers interpreted it

051 + Scum’s Wish @scriptmin - one shot | 3k | bestfriend!jungkook, pining!oc (unrequited), rebound!taehyung | S, A

it’s actually kind of sad 😭 but I added this because it's good to have variety. Not all smutty pieces will be a happy one

Tattooed Two @/httpjeon - one shot | 8.5k | tattoo artist AU, boyfriend Jungkook joined by his bestfriend Taehyung | S, F

The Doms Next Door @tatertotthethot - series [3.1/?] | 33.8k+ | BDSM AU, Poly, Neighbor AU, Tattoo Artist AU | S

I really love this series. It’s so funny too, I remember Jimin here - he’s THAT bestfriend you want to have. PLUS TaeKook are absolutely hot. If you're not interested in being a sub or partaking in bdsm, you will reconsider

The Hush Series @suga-kookiemonster - two shot [2/2] | 16.9k | coworker’s friends TaeKook, sort of E2L (Jungkook), dom!taehyung, a bit of voyeurism | | S

okay, I really like author’s writing. It can be about sinful delicious smut scenes but I noticed the members always have this developed characterization. I actually find Taehyung so adorably charming - makes me wonder if irl tae is secretly sinful too behind that sweetness lol

Thic Trilogy @btsinned - series [3/7] | 37k+ | CEO AU, Hybrid AU, College AU, Chubby!Reader | S, F, A

🌷 I’m throwing in fics in my reading queue #ReadwithMe

Attitude Adjustment @s0seo - one shot | 11.8k | Roommate AU | S

Chain Reaction @kissmetae - one shot | 3.2k | boyfriend Taehyung and friend Jungkook helping OC relax | S

Cherry @kpopstories - series [4/?] | 29k+ |  college AU, fuckboy AU, love triangle | A, S, F (this is part of my ongoing reading list)

Cobalt Blue @hauntedlilies - one shot | 11.3k | artist AU, “you asked Jungkook to draw you like one of his french girls” | S

When You’re Mad @honeyj00ns -  one shot | 3.8k | established relationship (boyfriend Jungkook), enemies to lovers Taehyung, Taehyung is JK’s bestfriend, Christmas AU, College AU| S

Madam Cupcake @craztextae - series [6/?] | 69.2k+ | Sugarbaby AU, Idolverse, idol!jungkook meets OC through an app called “sugarmamas(.)com” | S, F

Player Two @minjoonalist - one shot | 10.6k | Gamer!Jungkook, Boyfriend!Jungkook, Boyfriend!Taehyung, Brat!Reader | S

Tag Team @goodnight-tae - one shot | 5.2k | stripper AU, TaeKook are roommates and friends who share most things 😉 | S, PWP

Whoa @bangtanlalaland - one shot | 4.7k | skater!taehyung, 1970s AU, coworker!jungkook | S, PWP, Crack

posted: 2021 March 12; updated: 2021 May 12

link to other fic recs here

feel free to recommend a fic

[littlemisspascal]

Ezra’s Journal Entries #1-3

Fandom: Prospect / Pedro Pascal

Pairing: Ezra x Female!Reader

Word Count: 1,269

Summary: You and I were made from the same star, you said with such conviction it stole the breath from my lungs, bound to each other for eternity by the Currents of the universe. 

Warnings: angsty fluff, Ezra’s dealing with the aftermath of the Green, language, 1st person POV (Ezra), dialogue in italics because that’s just how I chose to do it, no beta so all mistakes are mine

Author Note: I know I said Death and Angel would come out next, but I got such a inspiration high and the words came out so quickly I just told myself screw it and decided to share what I have. If anyone thinks this is a series worth pursuing, let me know. If you don’t, well, just be gentle please 💖

Cross-posted on AO3

Entries #4-6

Look for additional notes at the bottom.

My name is Ezra. 

I have my mama to thank for that. Time has erased her face from my memory, but her voice is ingrained into the tissue of my brain the same way these words are inked on this parchment. She was a bonafide believer that the meaning of a child’s name influenced the course of their destiny. When I was no taller than the height of her waist I learned my own name’s denotation: help.

It’s just a tick too ironic, isn’t it? To be destined to help others when I can’t help my own self. I gave the Green far too little credit. It didn’t just pilfer my arm to satisfy its ravenousness, it greedily stole my sense of purpose too. 

Every night I thank the deities you didn’t accompany me there. If the Green had taken you...

I know how worried you are about me, little love of mine. When I look at you, I find you already looking back, a sweet smile gracing your lips even as concern burns in your eyes as an eternal flame. From day one you’ve always been looking at me, seeing every disgraced flaw and scar—even the invisible ones carved into the darkest edges of my soul. Kevva knows I’ve never been capable of concealing anything from you, but fuck if I don’t wish I could sometimes.

You’re asleep now as I write this, tucked against my side in the vacant space my arm once occupied, drooling on my shirt. I love you so much it hurts. A black hole in my chest perpetually aching to be filled by your presence. And as we venture once more into the starry sea, our ship gliding past the imaginary wings of Noctua, I find myself recalling a theory you once told me many cycles ago about humans being made in the womb with stardust infused in their bones, linking them to the universe. You and I were made from the same star, you said with such conviction it stole the breath from my lungs, bound to each other for eternity by the Currents of the universe. 

And it’s undoubtedly selfish, but all I could think of in that tender moment beyond kissing you was how I didn’t want an eternity spent together with our cosmic bodies intertwined. 

I want longer.

Soon after we awoke and each consumed a slice of bush bread bought during our recent docking at Kamrea, you fiddled with the channels on the ship’s radio, hoping to hear news from your homeworld but cursing when you only heard static. Then, without an ounce of forewarning, music burst out with an almighty scream through the speakers at full volume, flooding the whole compartment with a woman’s warbling. It was the same crusted Vayok song that merc Inumon blared in my ears during my last night on the Green, every note an individual needle piercing my skull, impossible to ignore.

Reality deserted me, leaving me to sink to the depths of the abyss within my mind where all I could see was Cee’s pale, disturbed expression as she looked to me for guidance. I remembered how my tongue felt clumsy in my mouth as I tried my damnedest to negotiate our transport, thinking if I could just piece together the right sequence of words, if I could just get their lingering eyes off of her, then maybe, maybe we’d have a chance at salvation. 

The memories coalesced, overlapping and blurring and mixing out of order. Each one was drenched in spilt blood.

Then your pinky wrapped around mine. The touch was soft yet firm, the action childlike in its innocence. It was such a jarring contradiction to my mind’s violent narrative, my consciousness was hurtled back into the living quarters of our ship as a result. You didn’t say anything when you saw I returned to you. Instead, you swallowed down the questions lodged in your throat and led me by our entwined fingers back to our bed.

There’s a plant back home called a dandelion, you told me with my head resting in your lap, a far better comfort than any pillow could provide me. It’s the only plant in the galaxy you can see the sun, the moon and the stars when you look at it. That’s not why it’s my favorite though.

I asked how it had won your heart’s favor if not due to its resemblance to the celestial bodies, then immediately found myself mesmerized by the smile that lit up your face as you peered down at me. My chest cavity tightened as I was filled with the profound longing to be able to suspend time, if only so I could stretch this moment to match the length of our separation, if only so I could erase the old and replace it with the beautiful new.

Dandelions grant wishes, babe. Anything you wish for with your whole heart, it will be yours to have.

I told you I wouldn’t wish for anything—nothing else in the galaxy could compare to the prettiest, wisest soul I’d ever encountered in all my years traversing it. You saw right through that lie with the same confident ease you see through all my masks and diversions, but—for the second time in the span of an hour—you held your tongue.

This journal’s as good a place as any to admit the honest truth. So here it is: I wish with the entirety of my bloody, beating heart I could be the man you deserve, little love of mine. 

When you read, whether it be a book or the flight manual, you have the precious habit of mouthing the words. I don’t think you have the faintest notion you’re even doing it, which makes it all the more endearing to watch.

My brother had a similar habit, always nose deep in the yellowing pages of classic literature, except he had a proclivity to spoil the plot when he talked in his sleep. I remember there was one particular novel he returned to often, sometimes reading from beginning to end, other times seeking out specific segments he’d underlined in bold, black pen. It was a rather dreary tale about war and rivalry and the process of determining one’s own identity. I became so exasperated with my brother’s obsession I considered shredding it on more than one occasion, only to immediately hate myself for entertaining the thought.

It was only after his death—twelve whole cycles, in fact—that I summoned up the will to open the front cover. Seeing his name scribbled in the corner, cursive and neat and so utterly him, nearly had me tearing the book in half, overcome with a vicious rage I had never known prior nor have I encountered since. But by the almighty grace of Kevva I reigned it in, chaining it to the agony and fear imprisoned within the confines of my rib cage, and turned the page.

There was one segment underlined not once, but three times, nearly bleeding ink onto the page behind it. When I close my eyes, the words are tattooed on the backs of my eyelids, as haunting as they are comforting.

So the more things remained the same, the more they changed after all. Nothing endures. Not love, not a tree, not even a death by violence.

The author lived and died centuries before my brother’s inception, that is an inarguable fact. 

But I know those words were written for him all the same. 

Notes: 

There is an actual theory humans are made of stardust ✨

The Sater within Prospect mention the Currents as being responsible for bringing Ezra and Cee to them, so I imagine them as similar to the Fates/Moirai in Greek mythology.

Noctua is a real life, extinct constellation that is Latin for owl. I thought within this Prospect universe it could exist as a type of landmark or coordinate. Plus I love owls 🦉

Crusted is a term from Prospect Ezra uses. Equivalent of damn. I think there’s something funny about how they use creamy as a positive adjective and crusted as negative.

Vayok is the alien language Inumon speaks within the movie, so I decided to write the song she blares as being sung in the same language

Bush bread is referenced in a deleted scene by Ezra, but a google search revealed to me it’s also a real life type of bread too

In the same deleted scene Ezra references that he has a brother. I haven’t decided his name yet/if he will have one

The book and quote Ezra refers to in #3 is John Knowles’ A Separate Peace. One of the few required reading books I liked back in high school.

The quote about dandelions being the sun, moon and stars is based on the legend of how dandelions came into existence. I always thought it was beautiful.

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[ganbaruwayo]

幻想ノスタルジア・Fantasy Nostalgia

Toripiyo ft. Hatsune Miku Translation by Platonic水を食べる / Free to use with credit and a link back to this post.

言い訳は　いらないわ There's no need for an explanation, うつむき　夜空に　天の川 looking downwards on me in the night sky is the Milky Way 思い出せない　いつの日か I just can't remember, but one of these days 遠い日の事　夢みてた I dreamed of something that happened on a far away day

いいかげんな　貴方だから I've had enough of this, but since it's you うなずき　青空　蝉時雨 I nod my head. Cicadas burst out and sing in the blue sky; 手を振った　あの日から From that day that I waved my hand, 桜は何度　咲いただろう I wonder, how many times have the cherry blossoms bloomed?

きっと大人に　なれないから Since I surely can't become an adult, 君ともう　空は見れないから and I can't yet see you nor the sky きっと大人　になれないのを Surely the only one uncomfortable with 嫌がっているのは　私だけ being unable to become an adult is just me

歌を歌っても　届かないよ I can't even make myself sing a song, 無理を言っても　聞こえないよ nor can I hear out the asking for unreasonable things なら何ができて　なにが残るの？ Then, what can I do, what's left for me? 教えてよ、ねぇ！ Tell me, please!

君と　月の下で　暇乞い With you, under the moon, we say our good-byes 最後に指を　切り合って and in the end, our fingers fight for a pinky-promise* 遠い日見てた　夢の跡に That far away day I saw in the traces of that long-gone dream** 約束交わして　またいつか Us exchanging promises…oh, maybe again someday

さよならなんて　言えなくて I can't say something sad like "farewell",*** 何も言わずに　見つめあって so I stare at you without saying anything at all 星空の見た　夢の跡と Looking at the starry sky, to the closing door of the 閉まる　扉に　手を振るよ traces of that long-gone dream, I wave my hand.

いいわ、だって　貴方なんか It's fine, after all, you're, well… 嘘つき　夕暮れ　トンボの羽 A liar, the twilight, and the wings of the dragonflies, 目をつむった　あの日から I shut my eyes to them and ignore it all, but**** 忘れてしまいたかったけれど I really wish that I could have forgotten that day

きっと 大人に　なりたいから Since I surely want to become an adult, 君のもう　傍にいれないから and I can't yet be by your side きっと大人に　なりたいのを Surely the only one uncomfortable with 嫌がっているのは　私だけ wanting to become an adult is just me

黙っていてよ　届かないの Shut up! I can't reach them… 嘘を言ってよ　聞こえないの Go on and tell a lie, I can't hear them 涙が出るの　声も出ないの Tears begin to leave my eyes but my voice won't leave my mouth,***** 苦しいよ、ねぇ This hurts, please…

君と　空の下の　蝉時雨 With you, under the sky, where the outburst of cicadas 歌う　ブリキの　オルゴール Sing, like the tin music box 遠い日見てた　夢の跡に That far away day I saw in the traces of that long-gone dream 約束残して　またいつか Leaving undone those promises…oh, maybe again someday

夜空に　唄う　天の川 In the night sky, singing a song to the Milky Way, ラジオの　詠んだ　星模様 the radio reciting the patterns of the stars like a poem 星空の見た　夢の跡に That starry sky I saw in the traces of that long-gone dream 君の事を　思い出すよ I remember a memory of you

ふたりで　描いた あの夢の　話を That dream story we painted together, 涙を　流す度に　忘れていくの Every time I shed tears, I forget about it きっと　貴方も　覚えていないけど Even though you surely don't remember it either… でも、忘れないよ　覚えてるよ But, I won't forget it, I'll remember this もう泣かないよ　だからきっと And I won't cry anymore, so, surely, この胸に　あったはずの　貴方の　名前は In this chest it should be: your name is

きっと　セピア色の　原風景 Surely, that unforgettable sepia-coloured childhood memory ラジオの唄う　ノスタルジー The radio singing, oh the nostalgia 貴方がくれた　夢の跡は The traces of that dream, that you gave to me, たからものの　絵空事 is a dearly treasured pipe dream.

空の下の　蝉時雨 Under the sky, where the outburst of cicadas つぐむ　ブリキの　オルゴール are silent, like the tin music box 遠い日　見てた　夢の跡に That far away day I saw in the traces of that long-gone dream 約束　残して　またいつか Leaving undone those promises…oh, maybe again someday

さよならなんて　言わないよ I won't say something sad like "farewell" 黙す　ジオも　いらないよ I don't need this shut-up radio either 星空に溶けた　夢の跡に Melted into the starry sky, in the traces of that long-gone dream 君のことを　思い出すよ I remember: a memory of you.

ゆびきった！ Pinky-promised!

Translation Notes *The phrase here 指を切り合って(yubi wo kiriatte) is a pun on 指切り (yubiriki / pinky promise). Kiriau means to cross swords, so it gives the image that they're struggling to make a promise. **夢の跡 is a phrase literally meaning "traces of a dream", but figuritavely it means a place where dreams have disappeared, and is meant to highlight the futility of reality, hence the "long-gone" part. ***Just to make sure because it's surprising how many people don't know this, 'sayonara' is like a "i'm never going to see you again" type of goodbye, so I added the "sad" part to make sure that nuance is conveyed in English. ****目を瞑る means both to shut one's eyes and to ignore/pretend not to know. *****涙が出るの 声も出ないの -- the verb in both of these phrases used is the same ("tears leave, voice doesn't leave" literally) so even though it would sound more natural as "i begin to cry" I decided to translate it this way to keep the juxtaposition.

[tokyokookmin]

I really loved your explanation regarding vmin it was retable. kanmom51 anon, Im using a little of your ask for @tokyokookmin to explain and narrate a lil about JIMIN shes a JM biased too so I felt that it would be appropriate to ask her.

"Because it’s no secret that JM doesn’t get any praise from the company, the choreographer, and all."

"When it comes to the members it’s a different topic. They hype Jimin up. We have J-Hope constantly praising JM. Jk completely in awe with JM dance. Jin thanking him for helping him rehearse."

"So for me Bighit for some reason doesn’t do anything for JM, no credit in his work, no acknowledgement, nothing."

I felt that every single word that this anon has said is pure truth and this remark deserves much more attention. We all know what's currently going on with JM, the situation is really bad and its getting worse, toxic solo stans are bashing him and they are comparing him to other members from every perspective + even the hate that he's getting bcuz of him "annoying jk" in that memories 2020.

I need you to explain on how a wonderful person JM is. Your impact makes a huge difference on people mindset. tysm keshhh.

Hey there anon!, I deeply understand your emotions. The hate that JM is going through is really bad and I have personally reported those accounts on twt etc. I even took a few snapshots of a tiktok video comment section... I will surely share them some day or another. Well then lets get started! I can't compare J-HOPE TO JM because they are my biases and both of them captivated my eyes, I just can't resist their flawless moves and they make a great dance unit... it would be incomplete without one of them + JK lol.

Most armies would say that JK is the golden maknae or he's the best overall in the team, well y'all took JM for granted, he's capable of doing so many things as well. But before that we need to talk about his dancing skills, I have made one blog about the 3J. Here's the link if you would like to know about their achievements/viral moments https://tokyokookmin.tumblr.com/post/654670945252933632/a-guide-to-the-dance-line..... this blog was mostly just me collecting info's lmao-.

1. DANCE ☝️

Well I found this incredible video from tiktok and I thought that this video would be perfect to describe his contemporary skills. Utmost respect to the creator for creating such a masterpiece!

Jimin Van Fleet Award!

Do we really need to talk about this? We all knew what impact he had given to audience with his remarkable traditional korean fan dance.He is extremely talented, after all he trained in contemporary.

“I received many really big awards today. I sincerely appreciate it, and it was a day when I thought I would like to share it with you with better music and stage in the future. Thank you all for your support. #JIMIN# We have been unclear” #JiminWorldwideLoved 📷📷📷📷

"As emphasized by the ballet dancer, being lifted is not easy, just like in the case of Jimin in the said stage. A strong core, glutes, and chest are vital for the one being lifted." https://youtu.be/3RW91KT3bXw - another review from a japanese dancer.

He is extremely versatile and he can master any sort of genre.He excels in dancing,his moves and fluidity of his body is astonishing they way he moves every tissue in his body to perfectly to complete the cheoreo is just mind blowing, he is truly the embodiment of dancing! Believe me or not, you should pay more attention on his facial expressions... he keeps it graceful. His fingers and angle are on point.

From MAMA 2016 Lie meets Boy meets evil to MMA 2020 black swan 🦢..I wonder what's coming up next.

2. Loving member

Jimin is the member that I connect emotionally to, he's a sentimental person but he just doesn't show it you just have to pay attention on his behaviour and actions. He consoles many of the members and he provides comfort for them. The picture I attached below sets a great example.

1. BTS MAMA 2018... It was a tough year for them. They were close to disbanding, and the members were emotionally drained. My heart sank when I saw hobi breaking down in front of the crowd, you can find tons of fancams but you should take a close look at Jimin. He handled the situation very well and I love the way he gives his subtle touch of love towards the other members.

2. Taehyung grandma death announcement

I don't think that I need to explain the about the situation. Taehyung was really sad and felt guilty as he couldn't mention his grandma name. He broke down and Jimin immediately noticed him and ran towards him and just gave him little pat/huggie.

3. The Final

Even by looking at the picture you can see the comfort. You know that GCF-TOKYO song “there for you’ which implies that Jk means he will be there for jimin but "you gotta be there for me too” which means jimin gotta be there for him too. So yeah, JM just know jungkook well and he comforts Jk pretty well.It was so cute and i wished i was a part of the audience, i would have had a panic attack looking at them being so cute,fluff,intimate ON STAGE . Too bad it’s impossible now .

3.He's a badass [ athletic/ physical ]

Jimin has often talked about his experience in kendo,japanese fencing,Geomdo (검도, 劍道) “Way of the Sword” & hapkido. HAPKIDO: electid korean martial arts .It is a form of self-defense that employs joint locks, grappling, throwing techniques, kicks, punches, and other striking attacks.

https://youtu.be/oUcHghZQxiw - a video you may refer to.

.4.Academic excellence

After Namjoon Jimin has the most remarkable academic achievements in bts. He was one of the top students in junior high and was THE top student in Busan arts high school from ALL the departments. Fun fact Jimin IQ is 128! He was valedictorian too.

"When he was in junior high, he was one of the top students so Jimin's dad thought of enrolling him in a foreign language school. When he decided to go to an arts school, his teachers tried to stop him and were disappointed. He was accepted as the top of his class and attended Busan High School of Arts. He was doing really good. Then he switched to K-pop dancing and decided to be a trainee in Seoul. Teachers also tried to stop him and were disappointed. Park Jimin's life is really something.

36. Our Jimin didn't spend a lot of time preparing for the arts school. He was dancing popping when he decided to go to the arts school. He then learned modern dancing for a little over a year and was accepted at Busan High School of Arts as the top of his class even though he was a dance majorπ TT TT Every member in this group could've been successful at anything. That group is our pride, BTS.

60. Wow! If there's only one dance class, it's really incredible~ It's hard to get a top student from dance department. And it was achieved by a male student and it's Park Jimin TTTT

67. That's what I know too.. I was looking into Busan Arts School before and one class for dance is probably correct. It was mostly music and art classes that I remember. So from Busan Arts School, one out of ten classes and a male student from dance department getting accepted as the top of the class...the percentage is just incredible. I know that the dance class has about 40 students? And male students could be 25:15 or 30:10. Jimin broke through this and became the top.

Namjoon and Jimin really made a huge gamble. They could've went the easier way. Truthfully, if they went their way, they both would have succeeded. But becoming an idol and not knowing what their future will be and BTS not being successful from the beginning must have been really hard for them. But now I'm glad they're successful and they can realize they've made the right choice."

cr @artimitatesjimin

I really respect and idolize him. His personality is unique and its different.He's been through alot. Being kicked from BTS for 8+ times, the members ranking his looks as the last and being called fat and ugly, that's really disturbing. He starved and went on diets just to please the audience and to have a jawline. He works his ass of and he really deserves more. He's obviously cutie,sexy,lovely,sweet guy! He prioritize his career, family and fans before anything. He has absolute heavenly vocals (+crazyyy high notes) and he is the definition of stage presence. PARK JIMIN IS THE STANDARD. Solo toxic fans are definitely going to attack on me but this is the reality.Jimin deserves more and he's such a sweet person. He performs with his whole heart and expresses it wonderfully,he goes all out and each performance comes out from his soul. He loves to perform. I MEAN FOR THE LOOKS, JIMIN IS THE FIRST FOR JUNGKOOK~.

He once even wasn't able to attend THE GRAHAM NORTON SHOW due to his sore muscles.

He went through alot and he deserves the #1 in brand reputation, who doesn't admire his determination?

Each member is unique in their own way. I want no hate or malice on my platform ~

Bits and pieces I collected anon! love ya ~ stay safe.

[prionguy-old]

hello enderwalk arg people

so i saw a cool thread from @/ranbeans on twitter and it inspired me. so naturally i spent five hours straight analyzing ranboo’s lore playlist

basically i think it’s a timeline of c!ranboo’s life, and it fits kind of eerily

everything’s below the cut (and it’s a lot) :]

prologue from starkid 

 - more clock references. it’s literally just an instrumental of a clock ticking

 - instantly you think of the ender text in that pic he tweeted. like that, this could relate to dream’s clock, or foolish’s clock (reading 10:33 always iirc) 

 - note that butler in tales from the smp: masquerade kept staring at a clock

 - it could also mean a theme of running out of time, or fighting with time

 - in the thread i linked, the person also points out that there are 23 clock ticks in prologue, and angel number 23 means that you are meant to be a servant

 - this would be his beginning

introduction to the snow by miracle musical

 - the first of many songs from the hawaii: part ii album on this playlist

 - i’ve seen that album described as an arg and i find it funny if ranboo just went no. my arg now 

 - introduction to the snow only has one verse, and the rest is instrumental

 - the whole hawaii album has themes of loneliness and death, especially loneliness for this song

 - it talks about feeling isolated, which gives hints about his childhood maybe?

 - the “you’ll live forever tonight” lyric also gives off a hopeful vibe, like that of a child

dream sweet in sea major by miracle musical

 - starts with a changed reprise of introduction to the snow

 - "Rather than trying to “live forever”, it seems that the time has come for something else" from the analysis of the first part in genius

 - odd because this song is meant as a finale to the album, but it's towards the beginning of the playlist (could mean that there was almost an ending of sorts early on for c!ranboo, like a near death experience?)

turn the lights off by tally hall

 - okay this one confused me when i was first going through, but when the timeline started coming together it made more sense

 - about adolescence, and being uncomfortable with growing up, so it fits with the timeline playlist theory 

 - also about phobias and stuff like that in a way?? hm

the mind electric by miracle musical

 - the song starts out in reverse, then plays the stuff from the beginning normally

 - feels like a rls honestly i wish he could use this song

 - it's about someone put in an infirmary and condemned to electroshock therapy because they're insane. fun

 - this is where the timeline started to come together in a way. as soon as i saw the mood get darker i remembered ranboo’s line from the festival i think? “don’t let it happen again” or something like that

 - because of this, if the timeline theory is true, at some point before he joined the dream smp he did something which caused him to be condemned

 - also this

 - the mind electric isn’t the only song where the narrator glorifies themself in a way, we’ll get into this later

 - also the rejecting fanatical views,, i am thinking about that theory that endermen are servants to the ender dragon. if c!ranboo rejected that, the consequences could have been awful

live and let die by paul mccartney

 - if i wasn’t sold on the timeline theory before, i am now. after the mind electric, the mood changes drastically in terms of ideology and theme

 - this specifically made me say “holy shit” because like. that verse means that when you’re young, you’re open minded and say “live and let live” which resembles the optimistic but lonely attitude of the beginning of the playlist

 - but then when the world fucks you over, you begin to say “live and let die.”

 - “live and let die” i take to mean as him no longer caring about the people around him. how before, he wanted to help others, but then the mind electric happened, and he just. stopped caring

 - fun right!! /s

ruler of everything by tally hall

 - there are so many clock and time references in this. we get it

 - "mechanical hands" when it says “mechanical hands are the ruler of everything” refer to hands on a clock, saying how time rules over everything

 - the narrator is talking back and forth with time itself in this, which is interesting because i believe he joins the dream smp in the next song

 - the narrator appears very insecure and looking for a quick way to appeal to everyone (like how c!ranboo at the beginning was trying to be everyone's friend)

 - this is the second song with the narrator glorifying themself out of insecurity. what are you trying to tell us about your character buddy

 - also we can’t ignore this shit

 -  i don’t need to explain why this scared me right. right

merry go round of life from howl’s moving castle

 - this is a change huh

 - god i haven’t seen this movie in years, but i saw looking it up that it plays at the beginning introducing the main character, sophie

 - this is before everything changed for her

 - maybe this is when he joins dream smp? and ruler of everything is him talking to dream prior?

 - or maybe im reaching who the fuck knows

 - but him joining dream smp to this song would make sense. it feels like a clean slate and starting over, which would match with how he doesn’t. y’know. remember things

 - which begs the question: if ranboo forgot everything from before this song in the timeline, and after that i’m assuming his memory issues started,, what happened to cause this?

 - i’d say the mind electric could have caused this, but it was awhile back in the playlist. so whoever he’s talking to in ruler of everything, which could very well be dream, i believe messed with his memory somehow.

killer queen by queen

 - c!ranboo girlboss arc canon??

 - i got lost here ngl. it has a very specific vibe that doesn’t match well with what i know of c!ranboo im sorry

 - but two songs later, i get a hint kind of which makes me believe this could be him burning george’s house with tommy

 - also this song is a banger and i’m pretty sure he put it on there to scare the crown arg people because of the “baroness” line /j

mr. bad guy by freddie mercury

 - literally just more funky villain vibes. i love this

 - no more angst only girlboss

 - since cc!ranboo has said he doesn't want to do a villain arc, i take this to maybe be how he sees himself?? credit to the crown arg discord for that idea they’re smart and cool

 - if that is true, i’d say this would be another song for the “glorifying oneself out of insecurity” list because the narrator is like. seeing himself as cool and The Bad Guy, even if he might not be

 - possibly the butcher army if the next song is what i think it is

ain’t no rest for the wicked by cage the elephant

 - i have been informed someone saw ranboo listening to and grabbing songs for this off of a playlist called "my villain arc" king i hate you /lh

 - in seriousness: the song is about how the world forces people into wicked roles for money. i am getting live and let die vibes, like how both blame the world for making them not care/do bad things

 - c!ranboo take responsibility for your actions challenge /j

 - this definitely reminds me of how when he gave techno his armor, he blamed it on peer pressure. if this aligns with that event, the last two would be burning george’s house and butcher army i think

i can’t decide by the scissor sisters

 - this is probably about enderwalk

 - i really hope it's about enderwalk

 - did mr ranboo commit murder?? manslaughter?? sir

 - i really feel like this is enderwalk or ive forgotten something

stardust crusaders from jjba 

 - thank god for jjba fans, i know nothing about this

 - apparently this is the main theme for jotaro, who's power i think?? is like moving faster than time

 - and his main villain thing is dio, who's power is stopping the flow of time

 - and we're back with the fuckin time references

 - this is pure speculation at this point, but maybe it’s like. him fighting against time in a way, which would draw back to ruler of everything

a mask of my own face by lemon demon

 - the song is about not wanting to take responsibility for their actions again

 - c!ranboo i am begging

 -  specifically this lyric

 - also this lyric draws back to the bidding, in which the singer wanted to be enough for someone and showed almost narcissism as a sort of "mask"

 - also just. mask can be correlated with dream or the masquerade, where the butler stared at the clocks

stranded lullaby by miracle musical

 - been awhile since we had a hawaii album song huh

 - and,, a memory reference.

 - that lyric is talking about forgetting things

 - the rest of the song is,, im not saying time traveler ranboo but time traveler ranboo (look at this post about that theory by my friend pspspspsp)

 - he's talking to a "you" this whole time, and i have no idea who it is lmao

 - there are mentions of dreams and stuff throughout, so i almost want to associate it with the prison visit, but then i think the next song is after the festival so i guess not?

 - might also be him losing the memory book

hidden in the sand by tally hall

 - this is, lyrics wise, a song about a man whose girlfriend left him for someone else and he's upset

 - but if you look at the music video, it shows a cruise ship, on which people are friendly with each other at first, but when it starts to sink, they turn on each other trying to escape

 - i am feeling a connection to c!ranboo's views on "choose people not sides" somehow

 - i feel like he's called people selfish in lore, but my friends and i are all ranboo kinnies so we cant fuckin remember. if he has, then yeaH this definitely correlates

now i’m here by queen

 - there's a very optimistic and nostalgic tone to this

 - this one’s barely annotated on genius so i don’t have a lot for it, but i feel like it's after the dream voice disappeared or something? timeline's gettin a little funky

 - it could also be right before the festival, as he used optimism as a shield there

& by tally hall

 - this. yeah. & deals with opposites, especially good and evil. the singer talks about how everyone sees the world from their own perspective and doesn't look from another

 - and that definitely ties back to how ranboo wanted l’manburg people, like tubbo, to see from techno’s perspective

 - i feel like this is right after the festival. it resembles a lot of ranboo's speech from then, where he basically told everyone “sides dumb. just vibe”

 - and then the outro changes tone, almost like a warning?? which. yeah. a warning to choose people not sides before doomsday, or else they won’t be able to stop l’manburg from being blown up

i’m gonna win by rob cantor

 - this song is about someone fighting their inner demons

 - sounds familiar!! looks directly at dream voice

 - specifically, the singer is optimistic about winning their fight with the inner demons

 - it seems kind of chilling to me though, but it's also late at night when i’m doing these notes so it may just be me

 - if the timeline theory is true, this is where c!ranboo is mentally atm, which tracks honestly

=), an unplayable track

 - ranboo why do you hate us

tl;dr: ranboo’s songs that he would use for lore playlist might very well be a timeline of c!ranboo’s life, from even before dream smp and that’d be super cool

if you read all the way through this just know i would die for you

anyways feel free to drop your interpretations of the songs in the notes :0

[elfilibusterismo]

hi! i saw ur post on adam rippon and since im new in the fs fandom, i was wondering if you’d be open to explaining briefly what some people did? I’ve seen complaints with plushenko, weir, yagudin, eteri and daniil.

hi! sorry for taking so long to answer this. i know you said “briefly” but i tried to be as comprehensive as possible RIP. also please note that i’ve been kind of away from figure skating this past season so i may be missing a few details, but i’ll try to explain the best i can.

content warnings: racism, anti-blackness, abuse, eating disorders, homophobia, transphobia

1. evgeni plushenko

back in 2018 news came out on how he and his wife abuse their then five year old child, alexander plushenko, for him to be the “best skater.” it was reported that they beat him with a belt and lock him in dark, tiny spaces to “teach him a lesson.”

he’s also been bad mouthing his former students to the media, most notably anastasia tarakanova after she left him 2019. truly fucking insane to me how teenage girls handle these more gracefully than adults (case in point: yulia/evgenia/alyona with eteri, anastasiia gubanova with buyanova, etc). also, someone correct me if i’m wrong but i’m pretty sure he made alexandra trusova compete with serious trauma back in rusnats as well as made alyona kostornaya compete earlier this season despite her having complications with COVID-19. he’s just fucking incompetent all throughout. 

2. johnny weir

oh boy johnny. not only is he in hot water for his borderline xenophobic commentary (especially with yuzuru and anyone beating an american skater for that matter, link is just one of many, but generally his commentary is fucking terrible) but last year had the fucking gall to tweet this when the BLM protests started:

tweet has since been deleted. but you can see here how he tweets that and then the next fucking day he goes all “happy pride!” as if Black transpeople weren’t the forefront of the lgbt movement in america. amazing.

3. alexei yagudin

where to fucking start tbh. sigh. when the gpf 19-20 lineup was finalised, yagudin posted on instagram congratulating the russian skaters who made it to the final. cool, right? yeah maybe except the part where he says “ps also huge thank you to sergey voronov that my “favourite” jason brown didn’t qualify for the final, otherwise that would’ve been a SHAME ❗️❗️❗️” (trans. credit @/chopinstsq on twt) seriously, what the fuck?

then pride month 2020 comes around and adam rippon donates to Black transpeople. yagudin once again goes on instagram to post the most homophobic and transphobic (and one could even argue, anti-Black) shit, saying “When will you all die??? Mistake of the Earth [...] You and coronavirus are the same thing”

i know you came from my adam post so of course i am not erasing the anti-asian microagressions adam has done, but in no way does that excuse someone hating on him for being lgbt. adam of course calls him out and then yagudin posts an apology on instagram, but it means shit. you can read the translations of it on twitter by @/harubauer. 

but it doesn’t end there !!!!! nope, yagudin has been shit since day one. here’s a 1999 article on how he used the n-word against a Black manager of a restaurant and a Black journalist. from young bigot to middle-aged one. disgusting.

4. daniil gleikhengauz

genuinely wish all i could say about this man is that his choreography is terrible, but alas, it’s not. it’s pretty well-known that eteri girls aren’t allowed to choose their own programs, and this season he gave kamila valieva, a whole fourteen year old, boléro. fucking boléro. who in their right mind gives a 14yo boléro. 

not only that, but he’s said that health can and should be dismissed in professional sport. no fucking care for the wellbeing of the athletes he and eteri coach, which is greatly concerning seeing how majority of their athletes are girls who are minors, but are we really surprised? with how they’ve treated adyan pitkeev, yulia lipnitskaya, evgenia medvedeva, and alyona kostornaya? when they constantly push for little girls to jump quads and triple axels with no care for the effect it has on their bodies?

5. eteri tutberidze

there is no fucking person i hate more in this sport than this hag. FUCK this bitch for real. sorry for the lack of pics/links but damn does she make my skin crawl. she made adyan pitkeev compete with an injury, costing him his career. she’s talked shit about every skater that’s left her, most notably medvedeva when she left her after pyeongchang (i vividly remember the discourse and hell this released on twitter at the time) and alyona when she left earlier this season. she constantly starves, abuses, and pushes her skaters. no care for them at all.

special section because i’m a bitter yulia stan and i will never forgive this hag for what she’s done. she abused yulia and caused her to develop anorexia with cost her her career. there were reports of her silently encouraging the skaters at her rink to bully yulia, and reports from parents of other skaters that she would treat yulia so harshly that it was terrible to watch. when yulia transferred to urmanov those same skaters at the rink would spread lies to the skaters at urmanov’s rink, but luckily they realised it was bullshit. urmanov described yulia as a “distrustful kitten” when she first transferred like please you just fucking know how shitty they must’ve treated her back at eteri’s rink. russian figure skating personas talked shit about her every chance they got and eteri too. it’s also notable how yulia liked a comment about how eteri always blames the kids she coaches when they leave her (this was when alyona left) instead of acting like a fucking adult 😄