#i wish everyone would have this mentality

[maddie-grove]

I turned off notifications for this post but I looked again and here is my question: why are so many people saying “well, if you’re driving a car, you should not be going so fast that you could kill someone who walks in front of your car. You should be prepared for pedestrians to behave irresponsibly, because you’re driving two tons of metal.” Newsflash: I don’t even want to hit people with my car a little bit! I don’t even want to tap them with my comparatively tiny sedan! That seems very stressful for everyone involved! Also, maybe you are very old! My memaw broke her hip when she was very old just from walking around on her porch and tripping, and frankly everyone was baffled when she recovered because that’s the beginning of the end for many very old people! Maybe you have brittle bones or something! I knew a baby who broke her arm falling off a chair! I am not mad at people who wander into the road because they are babies or have a mental health issue or even are very high—I just wish you would not be in the road on such short notice!

I really like this website because somebody will be like “there’s nothing wrong with darting out from behind a parked car into traffic, bootlicker” and you can be like okay this clearly evolved from a valid point about how the US is too car-centric. But something happened to it.

[butyoudidthis4what]

Perfumer

Jack Abbot x Reader

1.5k || All of my content is 18+ MDNI || CW: none I think. Hinted at sex and suggestiveness but that's about it really.

Summary: Jack smells the perfume you're wearing, flirty fluffy happy teasing ensues. That's it, that's the fic. Established relationship. No use of y/n or related. Zero proofreading of any kind. No beta.

A.N.: The summaries and titles will not be getting better I fear. After getting out some sadness in that last one I just needed something fluffy and happy and flirty. This is very self-indulgent as I love perfume and wish I had Jack Abbot giving me some and then smelling it on me, and telling me I smell good, you know? Honestly I'm quite shocked I wrote anything with like no level of angst in it that was just fluff. But my mental health needed some pure happy fluff with him so here we are. Anyway, this is exceptionally short for me and as with last time this is my first time back writing fanfic in a longggg time so please be gentle and kind and also let me know if you like it! The ending is very open, so there's definitely part two potential depending upon reception and if anyone would like.

“I should have known the trail of smell good was you. You always smell good.” Santos comments as she walks up to you while you stand by the center desk. “Do you own like a thousand perfumes or something?” 

Jack’s head popped up from looking at the tablet in his hands a few rooms down from the desk at ‘smell good,’ correctly assuming it meant you were here. You can feel his eyes on you and look over at him. “Probably not a thousand, but a lot, yes. I collect them.” 

“Why? Aren’t women supposed to want, like, a signature smell or whatever?” She tilts her head at you. 

You start smirking but Robby beats you to it. “Oh, she has to keep Abbot on his toes somehow.” 

“What does that even mean?” She looks between you, Robby, and Jack.

You bite your lip and stifle a laugh. It’s nice, having your relationship out in the open, having been able to get to know Jack’s friends. He’s still quite private though, which you respect, and know Robby is flirting with the line. You weren’t going to go quite as far, but can’t help the way it made you smile, in large part because it’s true.

It’s become somewhat of a game for you and Jack. You wear a different perfume everyday and he guesses what it is. He’s good at it, which isn’t surprising, he’s good at everything he does. It’s a nice way to have a close moment together. He likes buying them for you too to keep the game interesting.

It lets him read your moods a bit too. He’s learned that when you’re a bit down you have a tendency to go for perfumes that are heavier in a sense, more warm and comforting. And if you don’t wear perfume he knows it means things are bad because you don’t want to end up associating a smell with however you’re feeling or what you’re going through. He also swears they mix with your chemistry and smell different at certain times during your cycle. You don’t know why you found the idea of him being able to smell that on you so hot, but you very much did.

Recently you’d taken to layering some of them, in part to be creative and in part to make it more challenging for Jack.

“It means-” Robby starts.

“Okay, can we just not?” Jack asks as he walks over to you, shooting Robby a look and standing next to you. 

“I just think it’s cute how-”

“Still talking.” Jack cuts Robby off. 

“How the tables turn.” Robby shoots back, making Jack roll his eyes. 

“I was just trying to help-” Jack starts.

“Now, now, boys, no fighting in front of the children.” You fake scold them. This time they both roll their eyes at you. 

“Go back to work since you all still want to be here past your shifts.” Jack tells everyone, grabbing your hand and leading you to the doctor’s lounge. 

You expect a kiss and hug now that you’re in private, but instead you’re met with him pressing his chest to your back, one hand coming to hold one of your hips and the other moving your hair off one shoulder and tilting your neck before he leans in close to breathe you in. You can feel the soft skin of one of his lips brush against you and the stubble from him not shaving for a day. 

“Jack,” you breathe, heavier than you mean to, one hand coming to rest on his hand on your hip and the other reaching up to cup his face. 

“Celeste,” he murmurs against your skin. He’s right so you nod. That’s the name of the perfume you’re wearing on your neck and wrists today. “No wonder Santos picked up on you. Heavy sillage.” He gives you a kiss to the neck before pulling back to spin you and give you one to the lips. You smile as he does. “Stop smiling so I can kiss you properly.”

That makes you laugh, but you’re able to control it and in turn he’s able to kiss you properly, how you deserve to be kissed. “I love that you know what that word means and actually used it. It’s kind of hot.” You give him another kiss. “I’m making my military man into a perfumer.”

He hums at you, low and from the back of the throat. He loves it when you call him yours. “If you ever told anyone I would deny all knowledge of having a clue about what sillage and gourmand and all of the other pretentiously fancy perfume related words mean.” 

“I never would. Couldn’t ruin your reputation could I, Dr. Abbot? Plus I like having our little secrets.” You let your voice trail down on the last sentence, run your hands all over his scrub top.

His eyes darken just a little and his jaw tightens. He never really had any sort of title kink before he met you, but there’s something about the way ‘doctor’ slips off your tongue that really gets to him. Same with sir. 

“You’re not here for an ED related reason, are you? Hurt? Sick?” It’s teasing but there’s just enough of a tinge of real concern to the question that melts you. 

“I am not, no. I promise if I ever was here for such a reason I would make sure you knew immediately.” You smile at him softly, run a hand through the salt and peppery curls you love so much. “I just wanted to lay eyes on you, even if only for a moment. I missed you extra today. I’ll let you get back to work.” He nods, the little smile he gives you saying everything it needs to. You share one last kiss before going to leave the room.

“Oh,” you say, turning around and shutting the door again. “You’ve only answered half the question today. I just thought you should know.”

He raises his eyebrows. “You layered scents?”

“No.” You shake your head and smirk. He narrows his eyes a little as he tries to find the answer in your eyes. It suddenly clicks.

“Fuck me, your ankles?” He groans. “You put a different one on your ankles? Why?” He can already feel himself starting to fill out. He doesn’t know if he could articulate why he finds it so hot when you put perfume on your ankles for him to discover but he does. 

Your smirk widens. “For a fun surprise and to see the look on your face when I told you.” He glances around the room and then gets a look on his face like he’s thinking. You’re shocked, honestly. It’s so out of character for him to think about trying to do it at the hospital. It’s only happened twice. “Oh no,” you laugh, “no, no, no, Jack rabbit, you are not finding out here at the hospital, so don’t even think about places you could take me to try and find out.” 

He makes a noise of protest, somewhere between a growl and a whine that makes you bite your lip. He pins your back to the door with his hips and rolls them against you, grinding him into you to let you feel what you’ve done to him. “So what, I’m just supposed to go around like this for the rest of my shift?”

“Well you might want to take a couple of minutes to let that go down baby, but yes. You can finish your shift thinking about what could be on my ankles and what position it is you’re going to put me in to find out.” You press a kiss to his collarbone and his hands squeeze your hips a little harder, an unspoken command to look at him. 

You pull back and do as he asked. So big on eye contact, your Jack. He blinks at you, jaw clenched. “I’m going to be half hard and uncomfortable there for the rest of my shift, you know that right?”

“I am nothing if not a cruel woman.” You say with fake solemnity as you smooth your hands over his chest. “I’m sure as you get drawn back into work it’ll go away. Plus, you know the anticipation and wait makes it better.”

He somehow steps closer to you, almost puts a knee between your legs and leans in close, dropping his voice and making his voice even more gravely.“I want you to remember those words because you’re going to find out all about them once I’m home and I don’t want to hear any complaining.”

“Oh?” You raise an eyebrow. “Are you threatening to edge me, sir?” His jaw grinds and you see the slightest twitch under your eye that makes you smirk. You love that you can affect him like this.

“I don’t make threats, Doll.” He whispers at your ear as he steps back from you and pulls the door to the lounge open for you both to walk out of. Everyone glances up at the two of you, effectively forcing you to control your reaction as he keeps his voice low, only for you to hear. “Only promises I intend to keep.” 

[ducksido]

OKK, hiiii ♥️, I came to make a request… kind of a weird one, but it’s my fantasy, okay? So, what would the dorm leaders and the other dorm members do if we gave them a smack on the butt? I've always wanted a bold Yuu. 😈 (But if it makes you uncomfortable, you don't have to do it <3)

Heartslabyul Dorm

Riddle Rosehearts: You smack his ass mid-lecture. He freezes. Visibly. Slowly turns red. “You… you—YUU!” Cue full-on explosion. He’s sputtering about decorum and discipline, but you’ve broken him. He starts checking over his shoulder around you for WEEKS.

Ace Trappola: “PFFFFT—yo, seriously? You’ve got guts, Prefect.” He’s into the chaos. May retaliate with a grab if you're not careful. Ace would make it a competition.

Deuce Spade: Chokes on air. “Y-Y/N!! T-That’s not appropriate behavior!” Looks horrified but turns beet red and can’t stop thinking about it. You’ve haunted his soul.

Cater Diamond: “Oho~ Scandalous~! You really are full of surprises, Prefect~ 💕” Definitely posts a vague tweet about it. Might even encourage you to do it again.

Trey Clover: Surprised chuckle. “Hah. Bold today, aren’t you?” He doesn’t make a big deal of it, but you feel him watching you with that smug older-brother energy for the rest of the day.

Savanaclaw Dorm

Leona Kingscholar: You smack it while he’s napping. Grabs your wrist and pulls you down. “You got a death wish or somethin’?” But he doesn’t let go. Tail twitching. He's mildly entertained and highly dangerous now.

Ruggie Bucchi: YELPS. Full on jumps. “HEY!! What the—You tryna give me a heart attack?!” You owe him a donut now. But he’s blushing for real. Calls you “wild” and is 100% telling everyone.

Jack Howl: Gasps. Freezes. Stares at you in horror. “Th-That’s inappropriate, Yuu!!” You have permanently short-circuited him. He won’t stop thinking about the forbidden smack.

Octavinelle Dorm

Azul Ashengrotto: Lets out the most startled “Hah!” and clutches his poor heart. “W-What in Twisted Wonderland possesses you to behave that way?!” He’s flustered, indignant, and mentally drafting a 12-page contract that bans butt-smacking. Secretly flattered.

Jade Leech: Smiles. Wide. Unnervingly. “My, my… Such boldness. Do be careful, Yuu, or you might awaken something~” You’re in danger.

Floyd Leech: Snickers. “EHH? You really touched Shrimpy’s favorite chew toy~?” Smacks your butt back. Now it’s a game. You started something you CANNOT finish.

Scarabia Dorm

Kalim Al-Asim: GIGGLES. “H-Hey!! That tickled!” He doesn’t get it. He thinks it’s some kind of new friendship greeting. Now he's doing it back without understanding the implications.

Jamil Viper: Eyes go wide. PAUSES. “…What… did you just do?” If you don’t run, he’s going to chase you down and make you regret that boldness. Is very red but too proud to admit it got to him.

Pomefiore Dorm

Vil Schoenheit: Whirls around like a diva in a telenovela. “You dare touch this masterpiece without permission?” He glares—but there’s a dangerous little smirk. “You better pray you don’t tempt me again.”

Rook Hunt: Sighs dramatically. “Ahhh~! The touch of my beloved Trickster—so daring, so raw!” Immediately returns the favor tenfold. You have awakened a beast. Good luck.

Epel Felmier: GASPS. Face goes red. “H-Hey!! I ain’t some kinda plaything!!” He’s flustered but secretly happy you see him as grown-up enough for that. Might try to retaliate and totally miss.

Ignihyde Dorm

Idia Shroud: SCREAMS. Physically leaves his body. “I—I—I—I—YOU—YOU CAN’T JUST—WH—!!” Goes into hiding for three days. Probably writes a dramatic Tumblr post about it.

Diasomnia Dorm

Malleus Draconia: You… smacked the prince’s butt. Time stops. “…My child of man… You grow bolder by the day.” He’s amused. Curious. Might ask if this is a human courting ritual. It becomes A Thing.

Lilia Vanrouge: CACKLES. “Oh ho ho~!! Naughty, naughty~” Totally unbothered. Might even suggest you aim higher next time (the other cheek 👀).

Silver: Blinks awake from a nap. “Hm? Did you… just—?” He’s confused, a bit red, and unsure whether it was a dream. He’ll be flustered for the rest of the day.

Sebek Zigvolt: “YOU DARE LAY YOUR HAND ON—!!” Loses his mind. He’s yelling about disrespect and how you should apologize to Lord Malleus instead, but you smacked his ass, not Malleus’. Doesn’t stop yelling for ten minutes.

RSA + Rollo (and a bonus)

Neige LeBlanche: “Oh! A-Ahaha… That surprised me!” Blushing so hard it’s visible from space. Smiles nervously but can’t make eye contact for the rest of the week.

Chen’ya: “Oh~? Frisky today, are we~?” Whistles. Definitely returns it and acts like it’s a fun little dance. He’s chaos too.

Rollo Flamme: “W-What blasphemous behavior is this?! T-Touching one’s backside is—!!” You nearly killed him. He may spontaneously combust. You're never allowed in Noble Bell again.

Kiyoko Ayres: (my oc) “...Oh, we’re doing that now?” Cue slow, dramatic head turn. She gives you the most evil, gremlin grin before bolting after you at full speed.

“GET BACK HERE, YOU MENACE—YOU THINK I WON’T DROPKICK YOU WITH LOVE?!” Laughs the whole time, tackles you into a hug, and makes a scene. Gets revenge later when you least expect it—harder.

“You started this, Yuu. I’m just finishing it—with ✨style✨.”

[keitheaverage]

So full disclosure, when Power of Potluck was first announced and I saw the preview of ENA with her blue side having returned, I was almost a little... disappointed? Like, I had this feeling of "Why couldn't she have just had her Happy ending in Temptation Stairway where she and Moony got to keep their new favored forms forever? Is this a cruel rule of the status quo that tortured souls like Ena's can never heal?"

But then I watched the episode when it premiered, and... I got it.

For starters, the joy Ena received from Runas was only surface, skin-deep you might even say. Whatever's gone on in her life to make her that way didn't suddenly disappear with her sad side, it simply went quiet for a little while after making her wish.

Also, and this is more of a headcanon, but I figured that maybe any wishes made to the Great Runas only exist while those making their wishes dwell within it, therefore when Ena and Moony finally went back home after their little 10k-year sabbatical, they immediately reverted back to their original selves. Any so-called "progress" Ena made on the other side in regards to her mental health basically went away after she left. Her wish was voided and her sadness returned.

In canon, it would seem that she carries a bit of shame over her sad side's outbursts. And if my hc has any truth to it, the blow-back from all her sadness coming back to her was probably all the more jarring and painful for her to live with. Naturally she would grasp at the first thing that would help her hide her sadness away from people: the mask. And like her Runas wish, it probably worked for a while! She was normal again! For a while.

Her wish in TS numbed her sadness. The mask numbed her emotions fully. She tried to take shortcuts to healing her sadness for everyone's comfort and convenience (including her own), but none of them stuck. None of them were actually making her feel better. Only when she decided to take the uncomfortable steps of seeking out real help for her emotions, in this case finding and speaking to the therapist in POP, could she really begin that healing process in earnest.

So, like, I get why TS could not be the last episode of the series. I get why POP was made. In fact, POP is now one of my favorite S1 ENA episodes next to TS. Certified Good For Her™ Cinema, in my book.

In regards to my own headcanons and past artwork, I think all the stuff I've drawn of her and Moony in the past can still comfortably exist without having to pull too many strings. Although I think I'd have to leave their fankids behind in the Great Runas' Domain. :n( Though whether they stayed behind willingly or were simply not allowed by the Powers That Be to leave with their mothers... idk if I'm THAT cruel, but who knows. ;n) Regardless, canon doesn't mess with my fanon timeline too much, not yet, anyways.

Either way, I had to refresh Ena's post-series look to accomodate for her blue side returning. I also just wanted to see what she'd look like with that bobbed-hair-with-long-braids look, I thought it'd suit her vibe of embracing her different sides, being more at a more natural emotional equilibrium. I also also thought it'd be cute if Moony gifted her the earring I used to draw her humanoid form wearing.

[apple-onigiri]

falls into your askbox all sillylike. The average person in ISATs universe has mental + physical barriers against excessive craft energy. In my headcanon, extensively pushing these barriers doesn't make them stronger, but instead just grates them down until one can't safely access their craft without risking exhaustion and sickness. Wish and time craft push against these barriers hard, almost completely shattering them depending on what you do with them. Post-canon, siffrin can't use their craft at all anymore at the threat of intense side effects. With his already-there internalized ableism, they are not gonna be nice to themself about this. [i may have yoinked this from a fic, but i dont remember the title </3]

guys someone just fell into my ask box?? (＃°Д°)! that's crazy!! help them up omg

but ooo, interesting idea. i do especially like the physical and mental blocks on craft overuse, kinda like your brain and body don't really allow you to pull your fingers back with your other hand enough to, y'know. break them. even though you probably have enough strength to do so

and yeahhhh siffrin would not take anything like that well At All, the party would have their work cut out for them in their attempts to reassure him he's not a burden ≡(▔﹏▔)≡

when it comes to pushing against those barriers... i do personally follow a belief of wish craft not being dangerous or harmful on its own unless it's overused, and time craft being the thing that exhausts siffrin the most (it is said to be impossible because it kills the user, the king and siffrin can only do with thanks to their wishes), and act 5 abolishing any self-preservation he had left with his desperation.

i think this because - considering the timeline - the island must've gotten [REDACTED] when siffrin was a child/teenager, and that means wish craft is something even kids know about and learn the rituals for, so it can't be that volatile if used the way you're meant to. also, on a less theoretical note, i don't want to make an element of siffrin's home culture something directly harmful because it'd be sad for them and for me, and for everyone, and :(

thank you for the ask!! i assume the other one worrying about if it came through was yours too, so don't worry - i was simply more offline yesterday and only now got to opening up my inbox o*(￣︶￣)/　

[azaharinflames]

https://www.tumblr.com/azaharinflames/780839267559735296/one-point-i-think-needs-to-be-considered-when-it?source=share

This isn't specifically at you, or this one anon, but I feel like people frequently forget that Oliver never posts BTS stuff with love interests. I don't know why it was expected he should start with Lou.

That said, part of me wishes he had because it would have curbed the "Oliver is jealous of his scene partner" discourse we got post 8x06 though LMAO

Oh, I agree, Nonnie. And I should thank you, because I was thinking this over and had a small epiphany.

I think (highlight on I, feel free to tell me I'm delulu) that we put things into the wrong context, perhaps? Let me explain.

Yes, Oliver (as far as I remember) has not posted with any of his LIs. He might follow them, he might like their stuff (I know he liked Annelise's pics back in the day), but he doesn't post them. So, based on that, it does make sense he's not posting Lou.

The issue, however, is that it is compared to Buddie. By them, sure, but honestly? Also, by us, a lot of the time. Now, I do not want to say that we have a mentality of: hey, he posted Ryan, he should post Lou, too! But, I think a small part of us thought: hey, he posts everyone, he posts Buddie, why can't he post about Bucktommy, too?

Our fatal mistake here was not realising that, sure, Oliver posts (well, he used to, we all know why he stopped) Ryan, and he sometimes posted about a buddie scene. But now, in hindsight? And based on previous behavior? Yeah babes, that was a way for him to highlight their friendship. He posted Eddie, and Buddie, because it is not a LI/romantic relationship.

So, while it sounds bizarre, I think we mistakenly compared Lou/Tommy/Bucktommy with Ryan/Eddie/Bucktommy.

Fact is that only one thing is platonic (well, and Lou). So ofc Oliver didn't post anything about it. And based on this, ofc he posted Buddie. And, honestly? it shows that for Oliver those tings are not comparable. This is not Oliver showing preference for one thing or the other; if anything, now I'm realising this is Oliver posting what he used to post because indeed, it is not a LI/romantic storyline.

Don't know if this truly made sense, but thank you for helping me with this epiphany, Nonnie <3

[vannumbskull]

After a while of sitting on the event, I want to discuss it. I would wait until tomorrow… I just cannot. I may reblog this after the conclusion of it.

This event is one of the worst I’ve seen. This does not discredit the developers hard earned work. So let’s start with pros before cons.

Disclaimer: There are event spoilers here. Aside spoilers, there are themes of SA and violation without consent. Read ahead at your own caution. I do not wish to trigger anyone. This event had a negative effect on me similar to my repulsion with Vacant Promises.

Pros;

The art style is extremely beautiful. A nice dreamy haze in an enchanting environment. Very pretty. I’m sure everyone thinks the same thing.

Music Production is as amazing as always. I actually enjoy this ost more than Ode to Sun. Kind of stuck in my head like Wash Your Sins Away.

I absolutely love, love, LOVE the NPCs this time around. They’re all so quirky. Very fun.

I also enjoy the new game mechanic for the story progression. It’s so cute and fun. I love it so much and getting to decorate chief.

Annnnd, that’s literally all I have for pros. I want to have more. I really do. It’s just… not it.

For my cons, it’s uncomfortable for me to admit. Games should be given honest criticism to see it flourish. This game has been my comfort game for nearly 3 years now. I joined when Insatiable Fiesta first ran (it was on the last few days). So I can confirm there have been issues since then. I hate admitting it. But… I want to see this game flourish so something needs to be said.

Cons;

Yingying & Yugu, aka the writing as whole

The reason why she isn’t bulleted is this is a large conversation point. I know people really like her character. Hell, I enjoy both Yingying and Yugu’s design. It is the writing that turns me away from them.

I view Yinging as a rapist and one who repeatedly tried to with Chief. Yes, she is a deceitful wisteria spirit who takes your life through moments of ecstasy. Yes, the moment is dreamy, in a haze, but this writer I am suspecting to also be behind Vacant Promises. Where in that event Chief was wildly out of character. Instead of watching the suspect, they were having what felt like sex-dreams about a mentally unstable woman while holding a position of power. The excuse was the datura flower’s delusion & hallucination capability. The intention of writer is who I am holding accountable. There are themes of transphobia in Insatiable Fiesta that go unnoticed, too. Whoever this writer is should be off the team. That’s aside the point… back to Yingying.

Since Back to Origin released, I swapped to m! Chief to checkout the differences. It is exactly the same as it were with f! Chief. So this overarching issue has nothing to do with demographic. Although, I find it a sorry excuse to give wlw content a shine. Before people come at me, I enjoy yoai/yuri as much as the next guy. I enjoy dark stories. What I don’t like is a complete disrespect for your writing, fanbase, and sexualization/mockery/comedy of real trauma. What I want is good yaoi/yuri instead of this take. Am I taking this too seriously? Maybe. But I can’t take ignoring the issue anymore.

Since it doesn’t matter upon m! & f! Chief, I am baffled why we are all excusing it. I know different perspectives exist — we are all entitled to our opinion, but how can we ignore these scenes?

I was on the verge of tears, throat dry, tense, and waiting for the excuse to throw the shackles. Yugu doesn’t help by trying to force us in that direction all for the sake of a good narrative (it’s really gross). The only thing I can say is it’s realistic the way Chief is agitated. But what doesn’t help is the game is automatically going to throw that under the bus. Chief is going to bounce back, acting like it never happened.

This was not sexy. It was not respectful. And I feel like the beautiful dreamy-haze was a coverup to excuse the sinister nature of it. How is that funny, too? It’s crazy to me because I revisited Nu Carnival’s Rusted Nation room for Rei as a comparison, and it’s more respectful than the take for PtN. They gave him dignity. Chief gets to be prolonged tormented with this for the sake of saving people… and Yugu’s amusement. I am not excited for the conclusion for this event.

I just want respectful real writing and the old charm PtN once held. I don’t know what happened in production but there’s so much piling up now. I don’t want to pretend this game is perfect and amazing when there’s glaring issues. I plan to write more about other criticisms for other things, too. Just. Not now.

The Pacing & Wuhuanzi

Wuhuanzi is amazing. I’m looking forward to her interrogation! The pacing for meeting her, having her as a companion, and appreciating her abilities as a herbalist are rushed. I did not enjoy the sudden appreciation for her when Chief was doubting her in the first place. Pacing is not as much as a glaring issue as the top one. Just wish it was slower.

I know this does not seem like a lot of issues. Writing is quite damning in my eyes. It relies strongly on its strong theme and unique style… It should not be ignored or glamorized when something is distasteful. We should be speaking up through survey about it. I don’t know if they consider global survey as anything, but holy cow, this needs addressing. A lot of stuff actually do.

For anyone who stuck around, thank you for hearing my long winded rant. Or whatever this is. I’m really upset with the writing and intention of this writer.

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

whenever dan and phil say words i remember misha collins coming out as straight and think, maybe if we’re really good, that could be dnp too 🙏

[wishchip106]

i wonder how long it took for charles to get out of his habits and depression after dofp

putting my problems on charles lmao

charles not wanting to change but knowing he needs too because nothing beneficial will come out of staying in his sad little bubble of alcohol and the serum.

i find it kind of unrealistic to just be able to get out of that hole. he would be going through two different types of withdrawal and his ex kinda broke his heart again

the main reason he got out of the house was because logan told him about the future and that his sister was going to be tortured and experimented on

he would also have to get re-used to not using his legs AND telepathy

bro stronger than me damn

i feel like mental health was also definitely not treated the same way it is now compared to the 70s so he pretty much just has hank as a support beam

change is an incredibly difficult thing so i bet it took at least a few years for charles to heal from all those years of drinking and taking too high a dose of the serum and depression. even then he still clearly has some lingering habits as we can see in dark pheonix he resorts to drinking whenever he struggles with something (and this is 20 years after dofp)

this guy crazy forreal

[avichor]

at the avatar the last airbender in concert ……. this is definitely not bringing the rot back. haha

[seithr]

powerful sorcerer with magical storm blood who can still magic and rend minds and transform people btw

[frogspawned]

constantly reining the urge to ask are you mad at me, are you mad at me? like a broken record. i crave reassurance but it's a poisoned cup, you know? you have trust people to tell you their feelings, and believe them when they do. reasonable people will. but it crawls up out of my throat like vomit and i have to sit there in my sick, a self-fulfilling prophecy. but also like are you mad at me? lol.

[rouge-fauna]

Some people think that your take on c!Tommy having aspd is dehumanizing and/or stigmatizing aspd because you don't like c!Tommy and therefore are biased and this take is based on hating him or seeing him as pure evil or something. How do you comment on that?

[essay on c!Tommy having ASPD]

Well my initial thought, is - say it to my face or don't say it at all ;P... like I feel like I try to create a safe space to have discussions, like if you disagree with me that's fine, let's talk about it. I'd love to understand why. I wanna know your reasons, I wanna see your evidence, and maybe neither of us change our opinions but maybe we gained some insight or at least understand where the other is coming from more by the end.

Besides that... First I would like to say, I never claimed to be unbiased. In fact I've written multiple essays on the topic of bias and how we all have inherent bias in the dsmp and why that might be. I've even talked about how I am biased and the reasons why that might be. As well as how our inherent bias makes it sometimes hard to have good analysis or discussion.

Secondly, while I do dislike c!Tommy in the same way I also dislike c!Quackity and c!Wilbur, I don't think I have ever reduced them to pure evil or dehumanized them or at least I have not intended to do so. They are very complicated characters, who are people and I hope that while I have talked about them not having empathy, I haven't reduced them to just evil. Especially in regards to Tommy, who I have somehow talked a lot about, I feel like I have covered a lot of other facets of him then just noting him as a sociopath or having ASPD (Antisocial Personality Disorder). In addition, for Tommy I have used sociopathy to note how his behavior isn't inherently malicious. I don't think he is trying to just go out and hurt people, but instead I think he does things without the consideration for other people because he lacks empathy. (Besides c!Quackity's confessed sadism) I don't think there are really any characters in the dsmp out to just hurt people on purpose, for the sake of hurting them. I think instead, some characters seem to do things for their own benefit and themselves without any thoughts for other people and any remorse for the hurt they cause. This does not make them any less of a person, but also certainly isn't going to pull any sympathy from me if they themselves don't have any...

Anyways, now about ASPD, I may be far from an expert and certainly don't personally struggle with it. However, I did have conversations about it with three different therapists including my grandfather who worked with people who needed someone bilingual, my sister in law who works a lot with couples and people recovering from substance abuse, and my own well accomplished therapist. Also, in addition to doing my own research looking at reputable sources, my best friend has a younger brother with ASPD. So, I have tried to be knowledgable as I can before talking about it, though it is also a highly complicated diagnosis process that is not agreed upon across the board of psychologists, with many having varying opinions on the matter. Not only with there not being a lot of treatment options, but also a struggle of how to diagnose someone as not having empathy if you are not in their head.

ASPD is very complicated, something I think I have tried to highlight. So much so, that from what I have gathered more recently, it has been confused with other diagnosis such as Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD). Something I actually talked about in my essays about why I think c!dream is autistic [post]. Because for a long time when I was younger, I thought I was a sociopath, but as it turns out I do have empathy it just looks a little different than neurotypical's. And I almost wonder, even though it's not my place or area of knowledge to even say so, if these people coming forward talking about how ASPD and sociopathy can be so dehumanized or stigmatized, if they perhaps might actually have a different diagnosis, because the way I understand it they generally shouldn't care about what other people think of them anyways. And since I came across somebody recently bringing up a diagnosis that isn't even a thing recognized by psychologist [post], I am beginning to wonder how warped the Internet is making our perception of mental illness and diagnosis...

Finally, I would like to also just add, that ASPD is a personality disorder, which as far as I understand it, means it is describing patterns of an individual's thinking and specifically behavior. Therefore it doesn't seem unreasonable or stigmatizing to me to take a character, not a real life person, and the actions that happened in canon and classify them as falling into the pattern of sociopathy/psychopathy/ASPD. Not to say the character then represents ASPD or is what it always looks like, but just that it fits them and helps explain why they did what they did...

[benetnvsch]

trusting people's words is not enough , I need to be able to read their minds -

[koorinokujira]

been going through it man

[iusedtoweavecrowns]

Personal life rant

Gonna write it here into the digital void so maybe it'll let me sleep easier but I'm feeling so bad and guilty rn because I've been visiting a foreign country for two weeks and one of the people I know and love from when I was here 10 years ago is in the hospital but I didn't manage to brave up to go visit her there.

She has severe dementia and it's unclear if she remembers and recognises people but I'm now struck with the thought of what if she does remember inside and would have liked to see me but I didn't go because I was too scared to talk to her husband and ask him to take me (I couldn't go alone) 😭😭😭😭😭😭 And not because he's scary but because I find it scary to talk to people when I don't have a scenario and because inviting myself into a personal moment feels Rude and Like I Shouldn't Do It (he's so angry and sad as you can imagine)(I struggle with inviting myself into other people's spaces and company, I keep feeling like if they want me there they would invite me themselves)(I did say in a convo that I'd be interested in going and waited for some sign)(maybe I looked shifty?) and I don't feel significant enough because I'm just someone who was here years and years ago for a bit and later exchanged a few birthday wishes on facebook.

Also I guess I'm scared to see her changed from how I remember her? And being in a situation for which I have no reference (what do people do on hospital visits? I've been very lucky in that I've never been there). In a way I prefer remembering the past I guess. So I didn't like try super hard? Didn't put in the effort to force myself into a situation where I'd write him (I need to create some sort of situation to overcome the fear for a moment) and I kept hoping he or one of our mutual friends would just kind of go we are going to visit her, come along. But no one did. And it's probably too much to expect of a grieving man to plan for me? I'm not sure he wanted to take care of me while on a trip to take care of his wife yk? But I fear that he hates me for not going? Or that I was unclear about when I'm leaving so what if he was thinking there was still loads of time? So now I feel Schroedinger's Rudeness for simultaneously wanting to force myself into a personal situation, not wanting to do it, and expecting someone else to do it for me. All the while I think I could forgive this (I am insignificant compared to all the other friends and family) if I hadn't had the thought that what if she's been waiting - I know her husband told her I'm here - and I've been just... letting time go past. Idk idk idk. Telling myself that she is a very kind woman who would understand and forgive me if I could tell her this is not helping.

Praying crying etc. Thought kebab turning in my head to the tune of being a despicable human being and everyone hating me now (what if all the people I know here will never forgive me this cowardice) and her being sad(der) in this already sad situation. I would call my mum to vent to her and hope she says she still loves me but she is much more close to the family (she's been here yearly) and spent her last visits sitting by her bedside so I can add the worry that she will be upset with me to the pile.

We are all helpless but I have made myself extra helpless 😫