#i will read babel instead bc that one is also just SO good
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reading a horror book that full has my heart beat THUNDDRING in my ears ah!!!!!!! i wanted to read it during my infusion tomorrow but they do heart rate tests and this will NOT fly
#IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN HE DREAMED HE CAUGHT A FISH AND REELED IT IN AND IT WAS HIS DEAD WIFE WITH FISH EYES !!!!!!!#LIKE THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT !!!!!! THATS HORROR BABY THATS WHAT I WANNA BE READING !!!!#and it was that moment when ur reading and. theres only onepossible thing that can happen. even though its so unhinged. and other media has#let you down. time and time again.#'theres no way its going to be his wife hooked by her top lip midway transformed into a fish. i wish it was.' and then it IS!!!!!!! AND THEN#HER SKIN COMES OFF!!!!!!!! AND THE CROWD GOES WILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i feel like this book just yes and-ed my horror daydreams#and i loveeeee how 'jaws' paced it is like#slow establishing full of past tense dread filled narration about how thisonw guy WILL die and it will be horrific. no i wont give you more#detail yet.#like. im eating it up feeling it in my heart and soul ready to read more but not during my iv infusion tomorrow i guess :/#i will read babel instead bc that one is also just SO good#reading tag
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Tag Game To Better Know You! Send this to people youâd like to know better!
thank uu @astrophilic-soul ilu!!
What book are you currently reading?
Bouncing in between 'Beyond Suffering: Recounting War in Modern China', 'Britain and China: 1840-1970 Empire Finance and War', and 'An Epitome of the Reports of the Medical Officers to the Chinese Imperial Maritime Customs Service from 1871-1882' rn! First two are history books, second is a primary source recovered from 1884, they are about exactly what the titles say and so far all are very good and enjoyable <3 tho Britain and China has some... Interesting points sometimes (each chapter is by a diff author tbf)
Whatâs your favorite movie you saw in theatres this year?
Haven't been to the theatre that I can think of lol
What do you usually wear?
All sorts of things loll but almost never pants u.u my 2 fav types are (generally) long flowing dresses and short little skirts/dresses with cropped sweaters! But I also like hanfu and hanyuansu too, and I have some jp/cn street fashion that I wear out, and some weird fits from Taobao. basically, I'll wear anything I find cute whether its fashionable or weird and I do get lots of comments, good ones and sometimes weird ones too LOL
How tall are you?
165 cm uwu
Whatâs your Star Sign? Do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event?
Aries! Apparently Ireland became a republic on this day which is pretty cool
Do you go by your name or a nick-name?
What's considered a nickname? I go by my English name which is kind of a nickname in that it's not really my name to me, but I also go by a ĺ°ĺ at home, and 'Tia' online, so I suppose usually a nickname.
Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child?
I wanted to be an assassin. I won't elaborate anymore tho : )
Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one?
@peoniibud is my darling
Whatâs something youâre good at vs. something youâre bad at?
I'm good at lots of things. I'm bad at being humble
Dogs or cats?
Cats!
Whatâs something you would like to create content for?
Everything I like. I make almost nothing bc school is sooo busy and I'm soooo bad with procrastination :'))) but if I had to say I wish I could make Babel (R.F. Kuang) content, it's a newer interest and I'm sad I got into it right when I was too busy to make anything
If you draw/write, or create in any way, whatâs your favourite picture/favourite line/favourite etc. from something you created this year?
I haven't made all that much this year tbh? It's not really a line but I realize I've repeated in several fics some sort of mention about how when Arthur gets truly started (talking) he'll never stop bc he kind of loves the sound of his own voice even though he'll never admit it, and I enjoy that, it makes me giggle fjkldgh I think Arthur having that dash off irritating arrogance is rlly the whipped cream on top of the pie. paired with how he's kind of plain and dislikes showing softness or weakness even while troubled (stiff upper lip... but also sometimes tsundere) and is kind of defensive and you can sort of see an old inferiority complex peek through even with all of his *everything* esp during the centuries past, ugh I could go on I genuinely love that character so much Whatâs something youâre currently obsessed with?
fandom wise: Babel by R F Kuang
Otherwise: the building of informal empire in China 1800s-mid 1900s and its lasting effects... I've always liked history and Chinese history in particular but the search for the seeds of modern national identity through post Opium War history is surprisingly difficult and has consumed me
Whatâs something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year?
School... I hoped to be on top of things but my Mental Health (tm) and physical health took over again : ( I resent being so weak tbh I want to be energetic but instead I'm just trapped here constantly sick and easily feverish and barely able to function. It really hurts.
Whatâs a hidden talent of yours?
Uhhh I don't think I hide any talents? I don't do many things outside of what I know ig. I'm classically trained in ballet, piano, violin, and flute, and can read basic Manchu, so I guess those are hidden. I also have hidden british etiquette knowledge that I never use bc my mom's mentor at work (shes a scientist) was an old Scottish gentleman and I went to his house a lot to play with his granddaughter and learned how to properly act and eat the old British dude way ig dunno if thats a talent tho
Are you religious? Â Â
Not... actively, my parents don't practice so I never had much, and I was raised pretty nonreligiously. But I make sure I'm eating only Halal food and follow the same habits my mom (hui Muslim) follows and my grandparents are very devout so I guess it's like... someday I'll come home (to Islam) but I don't know when that will be... I guess. It's something personal I guess.
Whatâs something you wish to have at this moment?
(quoted from @/astrophilic-soul bc sooo tru) The ability to not procrastinate
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#tag game#thank u for tagging me btw mwah!!!!#shaking hands with u over history.... its so fun#asian history superiority uwuwuwu#do u rec Ponniyin Selvan btw
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i keep writing and rewriting my reaction to vincenzo because there are a lot but also i'm not certain i articulate everything i hated about the ending.
i will say that i knew no matter what that i wouldn't like the ending because murdering a character as punishment for their misdeeds is not something that appeals to me. i grew up watching kirikou et la sorcière, avatar: the last airbender, lilo and stitch, and (more recently) moana. all of these are stories that say "here is an evil character that we'll stop in a way that doesn't involve jail/murder," and the only exception i make for this is light yagami's death in death note and that's because ryuk killed him as a way to end their relationship, not as a punishment for his crimes. (and gothic lit is exempt bc they have to be resolved with murder.) so, whatever happened, regardless of how much violence the babel four did, none of their deaths would have held any emotional satisfaction for me. yet i prepared myself to be unimpressed by the finale since this is what the set up has always been: vincenzo will kill hanseok, and maybe myunghee, seunghyeok, and hanseo.
i knew this from the beginning. the narrative repeated it so often i got annoyed. there were so many close calls with vincenzo pulling a gun on hanseok that that got boring. by the time ep. 20 rolled around i was just fed up and wanted someone to die because this show had already failed me so many other times with their set ups that i wanted at least one good payoff.
lo and behold, they did end up killing the four characters i thought would die. hanseo died, and though he was my favorite character, and though i felt sad he didn't get any funeral scene or help while he was fending off his brother and that his death served as a sacrifice for vincenzo instead of literally anything else, i didn't cry or even get mad about it. he died and i felt free to stop caring about the rest of the story. yay me! i do understand the fans who hated that he was killed and that he should've survived bc abuse victims don't deserve the storyline hanseo got, but this is not a show i expected to actually care about victims. despite what it says, i knew i wouldn't get this for hanseo waaaaay back in ep 8 when they brought up the victims of that gay banker and just used it as a way for us to root against the banker. they didn't treat those victims with any respect at all and so i was already prepared for them to do it all over again. and they did and it sucks, but again for me i couldnât get as angry as i normally would about this bc i always knew that the deaths from this show would never mean anything to me bc there was just so much of it it became meaningless.
another thing i knew that was going to let me down about this show is that it didnât have a single âgoodâ character for me to root for. mr. hong existed, but he was murdered early on. every other character on the show is too corrupt to be the ones i would want handling a reconstruction project for a more ethical world. yes, they made hanseo go through a redemption arc, but they didnât let him stay did they? they focused so much on deconstruction they never cared about reconstruction. so when they got to the ending where vincenzo just leaves, chayoung and the tenants are thrown into a familiar cycle of court cases and defending their plaza from it being redeveloped, vincenzo just goes on to be a mafia boss again, and the guillotine file is back in the hands of the corrupt intelligence agency that created it on the orders of their president. the only thing that changed was babel group was destroyed bc their two ceos were murdered and the lawyers of their legal rep. were also murdered.
and yet, despite my expectations being so low they were basically non-existent, i was still disappointed. they didn't let chayoung do anything (which i knew would happen because i knew something about her characterization never felt fully fledged to me the way it did to fandom, so i wasn't surprised when they delegated her as a damsel-in-distress/love interest.), they killed myunghee the way we used to burn witches (which how fitting for a female character that is cunning and cruel), and the way they killed hanseok literally made me feel faint and nauseous (i wish this was an exaggeration; the second i saw the drill pointed at him i started feeling this way and i couldn't listen/watch his death scene because it was so brutal).
so, the ending satisfied nothing for me. if people who shipped the main characters were satisfied, whatever. i was never interested in them as a ship (i tend to ship vincenzo and chayoung with other characters), so the ending was even more disappointing bc it really held nothing that mattered to me.
i was also not a person that liked the way each character idolized vincenzo because i preferred his relationships with other characters to be filled with more tension* and the narrative just told me that the writers didn't, that vincenzo's word was what mattered, that the other character's conflicting needs were meant to be eclipsed by vincenzo's needs. so when the characters were all looking into the horizon hoping that vincenzo would some day come back (for what, i ask you?) i was just like :|
(*what do i mean by tension? i mean my favorite version of chayoung/vincenzo was the early eps when she hated him for being liked so much by her father that her flaws as a daughter were highlighted more and chayoung's own hesitancy with murder bumping up against vincenzoâs lack of hesitancy. mr. cho/vincenzo were most interesting when mr. cho wanted the guillotine file to use for his own purposes. the tenants/vincenzo were the most interesting when the tenants wanted to take the gold and vincenzo was trying to stop them. even hanseo/vincenzo was the most interesting when they had the "will you kill me? will you betray me?" tension as they worked together to get rid of hanseok. these dynamics added layers to the characters and reminded us they had their own motivations that were as equally important as vincenzoâs, but not enough of these tensions lasted past a few episodes and almost always would vincenzo's needs prevail with most of the other characters going along with his plans in the end.)
and this is all without mentioning how fandom sort of ruined a lot of the show for me, too. they took the characteristics that made the myunghee/hanseok dynamic one of my favorites and gave it to chayoung/vincenzo to the point where i was always left baffled and feeling like i was watching a different show. (a good point about the end for me is that i feel vindicated watching the scene where chayoung was basically like "i don't like your methods, vincenzo, but i needed to use them as the lesser of two evils to destroy hanseok," bc it did sort of reinforce for me my own reading of chayoung which was that she doesn't mind being corrupt and blackmailing people or scaring them into compliance, but that she was not going to get her hands covered in blood or dance over the corpses of her enemy. those traits belong to myunghee who accepts her role as a villain in a way that is as cool and collected as vincenzo. and lord, imagine what a show it would've been if the writers had made the kings chayoung/hanseok, the last ones that should ever be taken, while the queens were vincenzo/myunghee who would be the ones that would make all the moves, kill all their enemies pieces, and try to destroy one another first as the two most powerful players in the game? imagine if fandom had been able to read chayoung and myunghee accurately enough that i wouldnât have to read post after post talking about how they needed to see myunghee brutally murdered/tortured by chayoung because they would understand chayoungâs character isnât going to do that, posts which i hated seeing bc, as i said before, violence for violenceâs sake means nothing to me? imagine if the writers cared enough about chayoung/myunghee to develop them more fully? sigh.)
i feel like i'm going nowhere with this and that i'm repeating myself a lot or not making much sense. but i'll end with this: i knew the last two episodes were going to be garbage when they all gathered at toto's restaurant post-fight in ep 19 and all they were talking about was vincenzo this and vincenzo that instead of worrying after the ones that were momentarily kidnapped/injured. like thanks show, for instead of pushing the narrative along we get a vincenzo fan club meeting and another round of "i never had anything to fight for until you came along" which is a convo we've had plenty of times before.
(footnote: i edited this on may 6, 2021 for clarity.)
#anyway i'm glad i don't have to worry about the nonsense idea of a season two#and if there is one i won't have to subject myself to it bc they killed not only my favorite character#but also the 3 others that made the show interesting#so anything of value a potential season 2 would have is already nixed#i have been set free from a drama that started out extremely promising but petered out into a series of bad tropes & nonsensical metaphors#and bc there is nothing in the final eps that interests me i don't have to scroll through the tag and subject myself#to scenes of myunghee's or hanseok's deaths which were extremely upsetting to me#now time to think about writing that one chayoung character study fic that has been swirling around in my head for a bit#and those hanseo aus i've been playing around with that make me happy just thinking about#e.e.c. watches vincenzo
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Rebuilding Babylon
 By Rob Pue
Published on:May 10, 2020
In Genesis, Chapter 11, we read about the descendants of Noah who were living in the area known as Babylon. After surviving the destruction of the earth and the great flood, perhaps it was just âhuman natureâ that they would become prideful. They considered themselves the âsurvivorsâ of something more horrific than the world had ever seen. But⌠they also forgot GOD. And so, out of pride for their own PERCEIVED human achievements, they began to construct a huge tower⌠it was said to be about 650 feet high and about a quarter-mile square at the base, when construction ended.
According to my research, the Tower of Babel was abandoned, and the people of Babylon dispersed in about 2247 BC â just a little over 100 years after Noah and his family had left the Ark. It did not take the descendants of Noah very long to multiply and begin again to fill the earth â and once again, they chose to rely on their own understanding and human abilities rather than to seek, honor and follow God.
According to the Biblical account, in Genesis 11:1-9, âNow the whole world had one language and a common speech. As people moved eastward, they found a plain in Shinar and settled there. They said to each other, âCome, letâs make bricks and bake them thoroughly.â They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. Then they said, âCome, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves; otherwise we will be scattered over the face of the whole earth.â
âBut the LORD came down to see the city and the tower the people were building. The LORD said, âIf as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other.â So the LORD scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. Â That is why it was called âBabelâ âbecause there the LORD confused the language of the whole world. From there the LORD scattered them over the face of the whole earth.â
Why did God confuse the peoplesâ language and scatter them over the face of the whole earth? I believe one reason was the peoplesâ PRIDE. They sought to build a prideful symbol of how great they had become, and that symbol would be a tower reaching to the heavens so that they could be âlike God.â It is said by some that the Tower of Babel was also used as the Temple of Jupiter, and so the people there had not only forgotten the God who mercifully saved them from the flood, but were also now worshiping a false god in His place.
One thing God despises is arrogance and pride in the hearts of human beings. As our Creator and Sustainer, He wants to commune with us, to guide and direct us as a loving Heavenly Father, and He wants us to depend upon HIM for our needs. Not pridefully act upon our own sinful, human natures.
So when God confused the peoplesâ language, the Tower became known as the Tower of Babel, since âBabelâ means âconfusion.â Likewise, the city where they were centered was also called âBabylon,â again, meaning âconfusion.â
Romans 1:22, âProfessing themselves to be wise, they became fools.â
Romans 1 is SO rich with so many things we need to be aware of and HEED today, especially â a powerful reminder of what happens when a people or a nation decide to abandon God and pridefully go their own way. All through the history of the world, such action results in the same end:
Verse 21, âBecause that, when they knew God, they glorified Him NOT as God, neither were they thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish hearts were darkened.â
And then, also in Romans 1, we read THREE TIMES how God âgave them over.â
In Verse 24, we read that God âgave them overâ â âto uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonor their own bodies between themselves.â
In Verse 26, God âgave them overâ â âunto vile affections.â
And in Verse 28, God âgave them overâ â âto a reprobate mind, to do those things which are morally wrong.â
No doubt, there was much of this sort of depravity taking place in the so-called âcivilizationâ in the city of Babylon. And so God scattered the people from Babel. The Tower itself was later destroyed by Xerxes in about 478 BC, and so the ruins can no longer be found. All their prideful arrogance against God, wiped from the face of the earth.
What were the people of Babylon actually trying to achieve? Iâbelieve they imagined in their hearts they were doing a GOOD thing â uniting, for common defense and security, for sharing of wealth and resources, for peace and safety⌠perhaps trying to create a âUtopian Worldâ of peace and love⌠but again, they had forgotten God; and NOâendeavor of man, without the blessing of God and dependence upon God, will EVER be blessed by God â especially when mankind abandons Him and begins to worship humanity â or worse yet, a false god of their own imaginations. And while Scripture does not speak, in the story of the Tower of Babel, of a âone-world governmentââor âone-world leader,â this, ultimately, is likely what the people there were endeavoring to institute as well.
Because we ALL have an innate need to revere and worship, we will either worship God or we will worship someone or someTHING else. Undoubtedly, the people of Babylon sought a universal LEADER â a MAN they could set up as King, and revere as a god.
Some things never change. Over the centuries, we have seen MANY attempts to rebuild that proverbial âTower of Babelâ and usher in a One-World Government â led by a special, revered âclassâ of people (or perhaps even one MAN as âruler of the worldâ)âwhom the people will blindly and willingly submit to and obey.
On the surface, such plans have always sounded like great ideas â as if they were for the ultimate âgoodâ of mankind and society in general. But the constant and recurring fatal flaw in all these attempts has been the ELIMINATION of God from manâs plans. And so the silly ideas of powerful men are quickly revealed to be the wicked devices of our eternal enemy, Satan â and eventually smashed to bits by the Hand of God Almighty.
We are seeing this demonic spirit of âGlobalismâ resurface again in our time.
Every day now, the push for a âNew World Order,â a âOne-World Governmentâ seems to be more and more bold and aggressive. Â That SAME spirit that dwelt in the plans, hearts and minds of the Babylonians has continued to rear its ugly head down through the centuries, often known as Communism and Socialism â the same ideologies we have seen in so many failed nations in the past. And today it is back, and what was once a covert, secret âagendaâ is now âoutâ of the âclosetâ and being proudly proclaimed as the answer to all that ails us by the so-called âProgressivesâ on the Left. In fact, not only are they NOT hiding their evil schemes any longer â they are openly advocating for them in our houses of Congress in America and governments throughout the World.
The most recent â and most concerning â attempt at a One-World Government is being orchestrated by the United Nations. Weâve obviously all heard of the UN, but how much do we really know about it? Â It began as the League of Nations after World War 1, to solve disputes between countries. Obviously, that plan failed when World War II came along, highlighting a âneedâ for a new organization to promote âglobal peace and harmony.â
In August 1941, Franklin Roosevelt and Winston Churchill held a secret meeting where they discussed the possibility of starting an international peace effort. Out of this came the Atlantic Charter, which paved the way for the creation of the UN. In 1942, representatives from 26 Allied nations met in Washington DC to sign the Declaration of the United Nations. And on October 24, 1945, the official United Nations Charter was ratified by 51 member nations. Today there are 193 members, representing countries from all over the world. That new âTower of Babelâ now exists in the form of the UN, but once again, the God of Creation has been excluded. And the ânew Babylonâ has been located in New York City since 1952.
Itâs interesting to note that while the UNâprofesses to ensure the safety, security and equality of ALL nations and peoples, it clearly is a government and authority unto itself, where SOME are more âequalâ than others. For example, with 193 nations now represented, and the headquarters in New York City, one might be surprised to learn that delegates to the UNâhave what is known as âdiplomatic immunityâ when on American soil. This means that delegates and ambassadors â and their staff and family members â can commit ANY crime â from jaywalking to murder â and still be immune from prosecution in American courts. They cannot be arrested nor can they be forced to testify in court.
Additionally, while 193 countries are members of the UN, the United States pays more than 25% of the total cost of running and maintaining the UN â at taxpayer expense.
And itâs clear â from the UNâAgenda 21 to the latest UNâAgenda 2030 â that the United Nations has as its main goal a New-World, One-World government. While it has no military of its own, member states deploy military personnel to foreign countries at the direction of the UN, meaning that FOREIGN SOLDIERS often patrol the streets and cities of other countries.
Case in point: Haiti, where UN soldiers from Jordan were deployed after the hurricane in Haiti in 2010. Â Rather than help rebuild the country or maintain peace, this UN deployment became a foreign invasion and occupation. Virtually NOâhumanitarian aid was provided by the UN, and the country remains in rubble even today â 9 years later. Not only did UN âpeacekeepingâ soldiers NOT help the people â when the people peacefully protested AGAINST the occupying foreign armies, UNâsoldiers opened fire on them with deadly force. Similar tyranny takes place WHEREVER the United Nationsâ forces are stationed.
Clearly, the UNâs goal is world domination. Agenda 21 â nearly 27 years old now, was designed for the United Nations to control all land, water, minerals, plants, animals, construction, means of production, energy resources, ⌠as well as all education and information people receive worldwide. It should be noted that EVERY US president since George H. Bush has been in favor of Agenda 21 â and has worked toward its full implementation in America and worldwide â since its inception⌠UNTIL President Trump voiced his opposition to it in 2017.
Indeed, Agenda 21 has been very successful in moving toward that new âTower of Babel,â but now theyâve stepped it up even further with a new program known as âAgenda 2030,â which openly calls for a One-World government by that time. Agenda 2030 has 17 goals. Time does not permit to discuss all of them here today, but let me mention just a few, and translate what they mean to you and me.
Goal #1: âEnd poverty in all its forms everywhere.â This means centralized banking systems, cashless âcurrency,â control of all finances; the ability of you and Iâto buy and sell.
Goal # 3: âEnsure healthy lives and promote well-being for all at all ages.â This means mass vaccinations, whether you want them or not, government-controlled âhealth care,â and âdeath panels,â forced sterilization and forced abortions worldwide.
Goal #4: âEnsure inclusive and equitable quality education and promote lifelong learning opportunities for all.â This means we will all be indoctrinated with UN propaganda from cradle to grave⌠control, not only of our public school systems, but also our social media, entertainment and news outlets.
Goal #5: âAchieve gender equality and empower all women and girls.â Here we have forced acceptance and celebration of sodomy, pedophilia, âtransgenderism,â and all manner of sexual perversion. By the way, in case you didnât catch it, âempowering all women and girlsâ is Liberal âcodeâ for âfree abortion on demand.â
Other goals of Agenda 2030 include UN control of all water sources, control of food production, control of all private land, new UNâtaxes being imposed on sovereign citizens, UN control of the economy and private manufacturing and innovation, UN control of public transit, including determining who â and where â sovereign citizens may and may not be allowed to travel. Not to mention âbig brotherâ surveillance â not just in public places but even through monitoring of our own homes, cell phones and computers. There is no such thing as âprivate communicationsâ anymore. And, of course, stationing UNâsoldiers from foreign countries to patrol â and CONTROL â the movements and activities of free citizens here in America and around the world. It goes without saying, none of this can be accomplished here in America without forced gun confiscation.
The UN fully intends to implement these â and likely even more drastic measures to ensure a fully operational One-World, New-World Order within the next ten years. But like the Tower of Babel, this nefarious plan of Satan, too, will eventually be crushed by the Hand of God Almighty. The question is, will we, as Christians, continue to remain oblivious to these goals and plans of the enemy? Or will we educate ourselves and others and be a restraining force against the evil that threatens to engulf us â and our children and grandchildren?
2nd Corinthians 2 cautions us to not be ignorant of the schemes of the devil⌠and we also need to take to heart 1 Peter 5:8, âBe sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.â
So learn to discern. Study Godâs Word and learn from those who went before us. Do not fall for the devilâs schemes, no matter how innocent and lovely they may be presented to you. And most of all, keep ONE thing paramount, no matter WHAT the future may hold: WORSHIP ONLY THE ONE TRUE GOD OF HEAVEN, JESUS CHRIST HIS ONLY SON, AND OUR COMFORTER AND WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, THE HOLY SPIRIT. Those who stand firm to the end shall be saved.
Maranatha Jesus !
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what i read in june
another very slow reading month bc uni work + migraines = not a lot of reading, also two of my profs thought assigning 500-page books (in the same week) was like, a cool thing to do
bilqiss, saphia azzedine (tr. from french by birgit leib (german)) beautiful, headstrong & intelligent widow (by her own making) bilqiss sings the adhan instead of the muezzin & is put on trial for that & her numerous other sins (like buying a very phallic aubergine). sheâs to be stoned, but sheâs so smart and eloquent that the judge falls in love with her and keeps delaying. bilqiss herself is incredible but i kinda wish the other two perspectives had been omitted (the judge) or made much shorter (leandra, the white saviour american journalist). also not too convinced by the ending. 3/5
the artificial silk girl, irmgard keun lovely sharp & funny book about a doris, a darling hot mess of a girl, who, in a moment of despair, steals a fur coat from the theatre wardrobe and runs off to berlin (as you do). but weimar berlin, fun and shining as it may be, is not the healthiest place to be for a pretty young girl with no money. doris is sharp and naive and vain and shallow and soft, and i adore her so very much. also the voice in this is so vibrant and specific that iâm really curious as to how itâs been translated. 4/5
dawn: stories, selahattin demirtaĹ (tr. from turkish by amy mary spangler & kate ferguson) demirtaĹ is primarily a politician but is currently in prison, facing up a sentence of up to 142 years for... being in the opposition & kurdish. anyway, this is a collection of short (mostly very short) stories that he wrote behind bars, mainly about social issues in turkey, sexism, police brutality, unjust prison sentences, corruption etc. they are more significant for their political content than literary brilliance & some are a bit on the nose, but definitely interesting & often emotionally affective. the title story and ânazan the cleaning ladyâ were my favourites. 3/5
babel, kenah cusanit really interesting novel about the german excavation of babylon in the early 20th century, just before the first world war, focusing on the thoughts & reflections of real historical excavation leader robert koldewey about babylon, history, architecture, philology, and middle eastern/european relations&politics. itâs very stream-of-consciousness-y and quite dense & hard to follow at times, and predictably i liked it best when it was actually about the third babylon (berlin in case youâre not up on berlinâs tendency for ridiculous self-mythologising) - thereâs a lovely bit where koldewey remembers returning to berlin after years away on digs and finding it completely changed, âlooking for the most part as if it had been built last weekâ, âa city that wasnât a city but something that had, from one day to the next, grown over its borders into a book by theodor fontane [...] as if this place wanted nothing more than to escape from itselfâ while in the present he looks on babylon which is also a city & not a city, but a sheet that has been written on so often that it is unreadable, and that is the sort of content iâm here for. I was also kind of surprised that the book doesnât take much of a stance on the subject of colonial theft of art and relics which is like....what koldewey is doing, but then again i left it really wanting to go to the pergamon museum which is still mostly closed to the public :( 3.5/5
hyperbole and a half, allie brosh (graphic-memoir-ish) if you werenât religiously reading hyperbole & a half in the late 00s/early 10s, were you ever even a weird mentally ill teenager? i knew most of these stories already but god, allie brosh really gets it and by it i mean depression and how the nothing you feel gets even void-ier every time someone suggests you try yoga or like ~*positivity*~. also itâs very very funny. 4/5
voss, patrick white (uni) in his introduction to this book about a 19th century exploration into the australian bush, robert macfarlane quotes a review of voss by poet a.d. hope who calls its style âpretentious and illiterate sludgeâ. macfarlane says this sludginess is a good thing (itâs not) but itâs certainly a good description - utterly excessively verbose and not in a fun, exhilarating way but oozily. sludgily. like wading through a mess of words that arenât quite were theyâre supposed to be and anyway thereâs too many of them. thereâs some interesting stuff here about exploration, systems of knowledge, spirituality and a love affair almost entirely conducted in letters that never arrive and hallucinations, but thereâs just too much sludge (and too many descriptions of female charactersâ breasts). 2/5
der junge und das meer, cinghiz aitmatov (tr. from russian) lovely little novella about a young boy from an indigenous east-russian fishing community being taken on his first trip to sea with the men of his family, where they get caught up in a storm. itâs a quick read & very sad. 3/5
macbeth, jo nesbo (uni) - dnf another really bad hogarth shakespeare entry. i appreciate hogarth going Full Genre, but mystery is one of my least fav of the genres, i donât really like scandinoir and.... macbeth is a scottish swat agent (does scotland even have swat???) whose special skill is throwing KNIVES (you have.... a gun....). also like âkill the king to be the kingâ kinda makes sense, âkill the police commissioner to be the police commissionerâ..... less so. 2edgy4me/5
anyway letâs hope july is better.
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incomplete list of gay st episodes
happy pride hereâs my contribution
season 1:
city on the edge of forever
domestic!au
spockâs Poorly Concealed Jealousy
the actual physical woman jim is supposed to be boning (to spock, on where they belong): âyou? at his side, as if youâve always been there and always willâ
p l e a s e
the naked time
I'm choking just thinking about this ok
spock, inhibitions lost, fucking tackling jim about his feelings
h a n d h o l d i n g
canon dialogue: âwhen I feel friendship for you, I am ashamedâ
shore leave
âpush...push hard....d i g it I N T H E R E, MISTER SPO --
thankyouyeomanthatâssufficientâ
truly legendary
flirting in life-threatening situations(TM)
the planet gives them whatever they desire most & spockâs travel time is suspiciously fast
the devil in the dark
oh my god
standard Battle Power Couple bullshit
orders? donât know her. we disobey orders to save each other like MEN
dramatic cave-ins
spock melds with an alien & jim is very close to losing his shit
as usual
operation: annihilate
okay listen basically any episode where spock gets sick/injured is fuckng...Too Much
McCoy: uh jim.......do you not mayhaps have a ship to run??
jim: do I look like i FUCKING care. my bfâs hurt just Do Something
errand of mercy
this episode is so fucking slow
do you know why?
because they canât. stop flirting.
please yâall are trying to sneak into a compound can you tone it down and FOCUS for two (2) seconds
this side of paradise
this isnât even that gay itâs just included on principle
did u kno star trek invented sex pollen?
yup.
spock hangs upside-down from a tree just watch it
season 2:
we getting real gay real fast kids
amok time
this is it. this is The Episode. this is the hallowed ground where it all began
seriously watch this Very First about 800000000 fanfic things will make sense
jim & spock Not Looking at each other and discussing Vulcan mating habits
spock about to challenge all Vulcan traditions bringing jim (and bonus bones) down to Vulcan
spock! smiling!
SPOCK! SMILING! AT! JIM!
spock, in full Vulcan mating throes, wrestling jim to the ground
later âhuh my mating drive is gone now. fascinatingâ
spock, logically: âI canât talk about this based on thousands of years of Vulcan privacyâÂ
spock, gayly:Â âyeah ok jim iâll tell uâ
I canât even list everything this ep is such bullshit just watch it
mirror mirror
âif I read my Spocks correctlyâ
spock w a beard, jim w a cutoff tank. true gay fashion icons
sparkly eyeshadow
spock being ordered to kill jim for his own gain and Not Doing It
u just Kno that jim has to keep reminding himself not to flirt w mirror!spock
bread and circuses
this made me and @phoenixexploded SCREAM in my kitchen
flavius and his cutoff shorts? a Gay McFreakin Icon
u kno that post thatâs like ��gay people donât know how to use chairsâ yeah
this ep is more mcspock than anything
flirting snark in inopportune situations, including but not limited to: during a fight for their lives, in a prison cell, in a prison cell AGAIN
spock saves bonesâ life
bones: âwhy, you wouldnât know what to do with a genuine, human emotion --â âreally, doctor?â âyeah, iâm worried about jim tooâ
not mentioned above: the FUCKING sex eyebrows. bones keeps flicking his eyes to spockâs lips.
the sexual tension is eNormous. save them
the ultimate computer
when your bf gets jealous of a computer
bones: spock sure loves that computer
jim: yeah I Hate It. No Reason Why Just a Bad Feeling
Actual Canon Dialogue:Â âComputers make excellent and efficient servants, but I have no wish to serve under them. Captain, the starship also runs on loyalty to one man, and nothing can replace it, or him.â
fridayâs child
jim & bones have a fight & when jim apologizes spock basically tells him off Vulcan-style
uh bones adopts a baby itâs fine
bones is holding hands w this warrior lady and when spock walks by he YANKS his hand out of hers like a guilty kid
spock makes an Angst Face and walks away
there is no context for any of this
bones:Â âyou put one hand here to support its head --Â â spock:Â âI would rather - I would rather notâ
the baby gets named âleonard jamesâ and theyâre like spock what a great name right? what do you think?
spock: I think the two of you will be insufferable for a week, captain
journey to babel
fucking. iconique
Worst Meet The Parents Ever
Amanda & Jim bond over being in love with Vulcans
Spock & Sarek bond over their illogical humans
jim pretends heâs not Literally Dying of a stab wound so spock can save his dad
the apple
can you maybe Stop Flirting before youâre all dead
handholding bc why not
spock Yeets Himself in front of a poison dart (for jim ofc) and then tries to say it was the logical course of action
bones calls spock the devil pt 1
a piece of the action
âspockoâ
spock says jimâs driving alarms him
this episode is terrible. please watch it
the changeling
spock melds with a computer & gets hurt and jim LOSES IT
no platonic touches we cling to each otherâs arms instead
catspaw
this ep is complete batshit
bones calls spock the devil pt 2
kinky dungeon adventures
the deadly years
this shit is ANGSTY
they all start aging really fast ig
jim:Â âiâm not pretty anymoreâ spock: I love u anyway captainÂ
spock displaces jim for his own good and jimâs like âhow could u of all people betray me like this. I thought u LOVED meâ
season 3:
and the children shall lead
turbolift makeouts
âmy Vulcan friendâ
can your bf bring you out of a full-blown, alien-induced panic attack by saying your name one (1) time? no? didnât think so
need me a freak like THAT
this also made us start shrieking in the kitchen btw. my mom thought we were dying
the tholian web
this is The Angstiest Episode of TOS
they think jimâs dead & canât stop arguing and itâs Sad
jim leaves them (just Spock and Bones btw) a message to listen to after his death & itâs like âtrust each other. be strong. love, ur bfâ
when they find him heâs like âwhat happened? howâd u get along without me? what did u think of my messageâ
& theyâre like âhaha what message. nah it was fine.â
jim: yeah sure I call bullshit
whom gods destroy
this megalomaniac captain gets a crush on jim & spock is Not Having It
at various points the bad guy impersonates both of them. both jim and spock can tell that itâs him.
like listen. as a viewer I have the benefit of dramatic timing and background music and I couldnât even tell
in conclusion, itâs gay, lads. thanks for coming to my tedx talk.
iâll be back soon with additions esp to season 3. u canât stop me.
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yang chaowenâs drawing with himself as the prickly center in a circle of flowers is so deep .-.
randomly gonna add my ep 3 thoughts here lol
adding on but chaowenâs primary criteria that his group mates should not be selfish is realllyyy interesting again âI donât like selfish peopleâÂ
similarly, lin moâs criteria that group mates should be able to get along, rather than all be talented sounds like something he has learned from personal experience /cough
istg if jin fan literally just gets 1 stage and its a cutesy stage YET AGAIN im srsly gonna flip a table....
LOL I love kou cong being the super energetic and leaderly one bringing them together and giving them energy and acting all old even though heâs 1999......
lol rip they used all the practice room footage time to showcase zljâs group instead of hong weihaoâs.... YAYYY FOR SHAOPENGâS RAPPPP YAYYY i was so scared there wasnt gonna be any in this songÂ
omggggg lin ran starting the song is so perfect, hes so sassy and cute but cool at the same time ooooof he is really good at facial expressions and this song suits him wellÂ
Ooooo the fact that kou cong was willing to say he čŞĺŻ linjie as a leader says a lot I think, considering how much he had wanted to be a leader originally.Â
wow im so surprised that zuo linjieâs group lost tho!!!!!!!! is this some sort of youku play to get linjie some pity points or make his fans dislike the kids on weihaoâs team out of spite or something lol jk but actually I guess I respect that the show is not making it an straight-up easy run for the kid
its so meaningful that lin ran and kou cong are the ones huddled closest to linjie while he crying after their performance because the two of them have really been there and really understand his heartbreak and how devastating it feels to work so hard and still lose... oof but im most sad that huang enyu didnt really get much time to shine despite being hyped as a vocal and since hes not got popularity to fall back on, this could be real bad for him :(Â
aw im glad they talked about lin moâs strong leadership abilities during the babel practice and how much they respect and like him and are learning from him.... SO WHICH OF YOU COMPLAINED ABOUT LIN MOâS PART DISTRIBUTION THEN!??!!? hmmmMMmMMMMMM why do i have a sneaking suspicion it was su xunlun HAHAHAHÂ
OOF CHEN JUNHAO SINGING TO CHEN XINHAI AWWWW SO SUPPORTIVE LEADER such words of encouragement so touching ahhh i wouldâve cried if i were xinhai ahhh and the way he asks for a harder dance so that the dancers can show off their skills more and the way he asks to give his parts to some of his members so they can have more time to shine... and then the way he immediately goes to li chenxu after the stage ends and tells the camera people to leave him alone because he knows how hurt his teammate is feeling :(
omg li xikan has really improved so so much. im so so proud and happy for him, he really has improved so much in his dancing (!!!!) and even singing and stage presence overall. on ipd he gave me such a little brother vibe and he was kinda clueless, one of the ones who needed teaching, and now hes the one leading others, having confidence that his group will succeed, and having the confidence to teach and encourage others. itâs craazyyy these last 2 years have really changed him. he seems so much more mature and self assured and capable, im so so happy heâs getting recognition and love still. THEIR STAGE WAS AMAZING. the older brothers really taught the two young kids (and ybz lol) well! and mannnnn zhan yu get that recognition for your high note!!!! yay for kou cong and akey cheering zhan yu on from backstage I love friendship c: and yay for zhan yu and xikan being in the same frame omg i wish they showed more of zhan yuâs silly side because I feel like he and xikan would get along REALLY well being silly together hahahha and lin mo calling xikan âć厜äžäžâ hahhahaha so cuute!! im happy to see tyger & xikan friendshipÂ
oof see the wheels turning in shengenâs head when he realizes his team is going against xikan. id be calculating the odds of winning if i were him lol.... shengenâs the only one who realllyy knows how rough its gonna be for them. taking into consideration the skill levels of their members and his members and their levels of popularity and levels of difficulty Â
i appreciate that xzx acknowledges that their group works hard, but since the other group is very skilled and theyre staying up all night practicing, they have no choice but to also stay up all night to practice. itâs a very realistic pov, like he knows he needs to work at least as hard as the others, if not more. rip li zaixi this is not gonna be a good look for you lol but yay for mu xingyuan getting more recognition! i think he deserves it because he didnt really get much on afo either....
cheng xiao speaking only truths when she said xu shengen held up this whole stage lol
wow thats so wild lzx brought his team down by 10 points and xikan brought his up by almost as much... but that makes sense xikan would get the most votes and shengen would for lzxâs group lol but its really so wild to see xikan being regarded as like this amazing performer and working so hard and bringing his group together because that really says so much about how much heâs grown and improved since ipd.Â
the whole issue with gjm not letting akey and jin fan dance to the theme song too.... I feel like part of the problem is also because akey and jin fan didnât ask for it. I wasnât there so I wouldnât know but maybe they couldâve spoken up but didnât. but I think their personalities are both more passive like lin moâs and zhan yu too. i feel like that might be a problem for why mr tyger is where it is still today. theyre not very good at advocating for themselves and speaking up confidently even though they have the skills. itâs disappointing for them that their talent cant speak for itself and Iâm sad that they have to be more vocal in order to stand out, but it kind of seems like theyâll need to change this in order to get farther. itâs so sad and awkward to see them standing off to the side watching guo zheng, zuo ye and hu wenxuan... because lets be real they have just as much ability to dance the theme song just as well. maybe they were all shaken at the time, but even zuo ye as the leader couldâve said something like all of them can do this lets do it together.Â
ayyy look at xue en getting recognition in the votes!!! the blue hair somehow works on him hahhaha but also junhao said xue en helped lead their dance practices ayyy that cto experience hahaha
awwwww xikanâs speech says a lot. he really had the lazy sleepy image during ipd but he mustve really felt the responsibility to change so much. and he felt the need to apologize for his shortcomings despite his team doing so well. im hoping xikan remains humble
welp all in all except for what happened to uuu im actually pretty happy with this first stage! at least they were able to fit everyone into 1 ep, since thereâs less contestants. I feel like thatâs always bothered me on other shows, bc whoever happened to get aired in the week prior always gets an advantage in voting bc people have already seen their stage for a whole week longer than those who dont get to perform until the week following. the song arrangements werenât spectacular (except I really liked xikanâs groupâs!!!) but at least they were better than afo.... lol......... and i think the smaller number of contestants really makes it easier to recognize everyone so im feeling relatively comfortable that I am familiar with most of the kids already and itâs only the first stage. Iâm just reallllyyy hoping they donât eliminate way too many people too fast at every round, because I really hope the kids im looking out for can get at least one more stage..... esp jin fan and akey omg if jin fan only gets 1 stage and its a dumb cutesy stage (YET AGAIN) im gonna be SO MAD.Â
im not gonna even get into them evil editing zhan yu at the end... anyone who knows anything or cares about zhan yu at all will know that that isnt his voice so...... im just appalled that youku would be so low as to try to make him look bad like that. they barely give him any screen time already. im encouraged by comments I read that support zhan yu tho, it makes me feel hopeful that people acknowledge his talent!Â
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WIP Wednesday!
Itâs 4AM and my brain says wassap so I guess this update goes now.
Chapter 3 of âEarly Daysâ (Crowley and Aziraphale at the Garden of Eden) goes up Saturday. Iâm pretty excited about this, as itâs where a lot of my world-building, character arc ideas have their origin. Granted, these ideas are not as *original* as Iâd assumed - which is strange because I never touched Tumblr until the whole thing was edited and ready to go - but I guess some thoughts are just in the collective subconscious of the fandom. Still excited to delve pretty deeply into them, though, so the show goes on.
SLIGHTLY regret picking Saturday as my update day, instead of Friday night, but Iâm pretty confident I can do Saturday consistently across the MONTHS this is gonna take. I am a wordy bastard.
After a nice break to work on some shorter stories - where I discovered that no matter how fluffy my original description, someone ALWAYS BRINGS THE ANGST - I decided on Thursday it was time to crack down and start another historical. This are always at least twice as long as expected. Partly due to the angst.
Seriously itâs like theyâre trying to outdo each other.
Anyway, next on my list was supposed to be Greece, c. 400 BC. I actually had a few pages of notes/research ready to go, but decided I couldnât just leapfrog the entire Neolithic AND Bronze Age, even though I intended to come back. Never fear, though, I will get to it soon! (My outline says this one is supposed to be entirely lighthearted and fun but donât worry, Aziraphale has already disclosed plans to get angsty and probably drunk. I just really canât with these two.)
In the mean time, Iâm 22 handwritten pages into a story set in Ancient Sumer, probably about half done the first draft. My main direction to Crowley was âbe cranky and fabulousâ and heâs really run with that. Itâs been an emotional rollercoaster so I may need to trim some in the end. He apparently has an opinion on EVERYTHING and is SO MAD Iâm cutting his thoughts on the Rise of Social Stratification as a Result of Post-Neolithic Urbanization because thatâs QUALITY CHARACTER MATERIAL RIGHT THERE.
Despite a rough first few pages, Iâm really liking the direction this is going. Thereâs a bit of worldbuilding for Hell (though I still find Heaven and the Arcangels more interesting overall), and I finally managed to find an appropriate spot for the discussion of the Tower of Babel. My only concern is that I didnât plan for chapter breaks, and unlike âEarly Daysâ this wonât have any obvious breaking points (as most of the action takes place on a single afternoon).
Iâm hoping to get to editing next week, but donât want to rush it. âEarly Daysâ has 3 chapters to go (including the epilogue) and I have two short one-off stories set in the same series after that, so I have time. I also have two complete short stories ready for editing, though Iâd originally imagined them as a set of three; however, the third turned out to make a LOT of references to Crowley and Aziraphaleâs backstory, so thatâs on hold until the damn backstory is written. Havenât decided if I should just post the first two on their own.
*Buries face in hands* you guys... this was supposed to be just a couple of quick stories. Like 20 pages tops. IT JUST KEEPS GOING. And thatâs not even touching on the AU hanging out at the back of my mind, occasionally waving to let me know itâs there.
Anyway, this turned out MUCH longer than intended, but I HAVE WORDS and they MUST BE WORDED. Idk if anyone reads these log WIP Wednesday posts, so Iâll probably do a shorter one later today.
Thanks for listening to my TED Talk, yâall. Link to the series (âSawdust of Wordsâ) below.
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TRACK BY TRACK FEATURE: SAM TUDOR -Â âQUOTIDIAN DREAMâ
Nearly three years following the release of his last record, Sam Tudor is back with Quotidian Dream.
Tudor was born and raised in Williams Lake, BC; his move to Vancouver in the latter teen years greatly influenced the sounds and synergy behind 2014â˛s The Modern New Yearâcontemporary campfire melodies with flickers of trumpet, banjo, and keys. On Quotidian Dream, Tudor struggles less with growing into a new city and more with the immediate space around him.
Experimental folk is layered with elements of new wave (âQuotidian Boyâ) to jazz (âChlorineâ). Tudorâs vocals bring a soft-spoken intensity to âTruthful,â with the thumping backbeat and whirring of strings coming to a beautiful, unsettling head at its close. âJoseph in the Bathroomâ is a remorseful take on his high school days, while âHolidayâ presents a warm, folk rock hook. A little grit and power would carry the tune into Mumford & Sonsâ Babel territoryâbut it is his tender nature and jaded lyricism (âOh itâs the cost of a frozen place, paying for the colour when itâs all gone greyâ) which make the closet anthem. Tudor often sings of disconnect with his surroundingsâa vacancy marred by routine and expectation and TV screens. But his compositions reflect the opposite; a discerning self-awareness held by the notion that, even as the flames run out of him, he is able to find them again.
Tudor was kind enough to write us a track-by-track on the release, which you can delve into below.
Words below by Sam Tudor:
1. âNew Apartmentâ
Iâve heard people talk about their apartments as safe sanctuaries and Iâve also heard people talk about them as lonely, even threatening spaces. In my experience, a Vancouver apartment can be both of those things simultaneously. When I first moved to Vancouver I would go home with a combination of urgency and anxiety. Itâs a bit clichĂŠ, but in the last couple of years Iâve been noticing physical space a lot. Most of the photography and paintings that I like these days document empty spaces â human creations that seem alien. Anyway, thatâs what I was thinking about for this song. I think when I wrote it I had a specific moment in my head, that moment when you first move in somewhere and you are alone, and you havenât unpacked your things yet.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
2. âQuotidian Boyâ
Writing and performing songs is cool, but itâs also a pretty weird thing. Thereâs a lot that I find funny about it. I used to write a lot of incredibly broad metaphors that could mean anything and I look back on that and find it funny. The construction of the âsuffering artistâ image is pretty funny too and I am definitely guilty of it. My good friend Brodie told me that itâs important to always âbalance the sacred and profaneâ in your life. Iâm trying to embrace that as much as I can these days, and I think this song says some things that are important to me while laughing at it all as well. The chorus âIâve got unlimited strikes but I donât want to playâ sums up how I often feel â lots of opportunity, still feeling the urge to bail.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
3. âTruthfulâ
At some point in the last couple years I became very frustrated with myself. I was in university, and it seemed like I had become more articulate then ever, but wasnât sure if I was actually saying or understanding anything important. You can congratulate yourself for being complicated and having lots of layers and nuance, but sometimes all that starts to feel like a weight you donât need. I tend to overthink things a lot, and I often get stuck in these feedback loops. I got in a pretty bad one at that time, sort of like a ferris wheel you canât get off. This song is a grasp towards something outside that loop. The chorus originally had much more words but I thought that would miss the point, so I just made it the simplest thing ever. I spend a lot of time on lyrics but this time the vibe was way more important than the words. I wanted to just cut through the bullshit and feel real and that was mostly it.
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4. âBrain Stealersâ
I think this song is mostly just about feeling creatively empty. When I felt as though I couldnât write any good songs, I wrote this song instead as a sort of âexasperated throwing up of the handsâ type thing. Itâs funny that it ended up on the album. It features the return of my trusty organ auto-drum: an old, no-name brand organ with a beat setting that Iâve come to really love. It canât keep tempo anymore and it currently sits in my childhood home at Gavin Lake Camp. My parents keep trying to throw it away, and every time I visit home I fear it will have disappeared forever. Hang in there, organ. A little longer.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
5. âJoseph In The Bathroomâ
This song is the one that is most important to me. My hometown and my experience growing up there take up a significant amount of space in my mind. Strange as it is to admit, I was âpopularâ in highschool in the sense that I had friends and managed to navigate all the high-school cliques (I think being friends with everyone can sometimes mean you are friends with no-one, but thatâs a different write-up). I was a survivalist though; and I avoided those people I might otherwise have been friends with if they werenât generally deemed unpopular. I regret that I acted that way and I regret that highschool channels people in ways like that. Weirdly, the older I get the more I remember and think about those kids in the corners â the ones who werenât as lucky as me and werenât able to navigate highschool in such a way. I still feel guilty and angry about it all today. I think the song is about more than just that, but in a sense itâs an apology song.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
6. âBlue Flowerâ
This is an unlucky song! This song is cursed! I know a girl who was listening to this song and when the line âas the camper van floats off the roadâ was sung she literally drove off the road and crashed her car! This is a true story! Sheâs fine, but I have since become very wary of this song. Drive safely, everyone.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
7. âChlorineâ
Do you know that feeling you get when you stay up really late on social media and your eyes start to feel weird and you are tired but also the computer screen has inhibited all your melatonin so you have insomnia and are also a bit stressed and itâs an uncomfortable dream-like state? For me, thatâs part of what Quotidian Dream is. I kind of wanted the album to sound like what that felt like. I think this might be the song that taps into the feeling the best. A big part of this songâs tone is created by the use of the trusty fish guitar. Shaped like a fish, and not a very good guitar, but it has a unique, slightly out of tune tone that I love. So I played that a lot in this song, and we had saxophones and strings and recorded it late at night.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
8. âClinical Namesâ
We made so many different versions of this song. Iâm not really sure why this is the one that ended up on the record. It could genuinely have been an accident.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
9. âHolidayâ
I like pop music and big anthemic choruses, but I also tend to write about sad things. So I always end up with weird songs like this one. My brother Harry played the drumbeat first and we wrote the song around it.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
10. âSilver Lining Skiesâ
I realize after listening to this record as one entity that a lot of it references being in my room, or being in a room, or being in a house, or something like that. This makes sense, considering how much time I do spend in my room. Most of the album was recorded entirely in my room. At the end of this particular song there is an audio file of me walking up the stairs and opening the door to my room. Or⌠am I exiting my room? Is this me going out in the world happily or retreating further into my own head? Who knows!? Wow, I am such an artist. I am so deep. Holy fuck. Ho-ly Smokes. In all seriousness, I just thought it was an important way to end the album considering how much Iâve been thinking about insides and outsides.
Quotidian Dream by Sam Tudor
If youâre still here, thanks for reading this! I hope you enjoy the album.
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Much thanks to Sam for giving us further insight into his new album! Quotidian Dream is available for purchase on Bandcamp. He will be playing a free set as part of the Vancouver Fringe Festival on Saturday, Sept. 16 at the Big Rock Brewery Fringe Bar (1531 Johnston St), alongside Rae Spoon. For more on Sam Tudor:
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