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writing requests psa (probably deleting later)
Hello, hello! Coming on quickly to make this (unplanned) post. Normally I would try to resolve this in private but because the issue concerns anonymous asks, there's no way for me to speak with the relevant individual(s) other than this. I received almost 10 writing requests in the span of under like... an hour (closer to 45 minutes)? Several of these asks were sent only a few minutes apart. This normally does not happen this late into a period in which I take requests, so I suspect these all came from the same person or, at best, a few individuals that may or may not be related. To them, remember that my inbox is a SHARED SPACE and that I do not appreciate spamming. This is clearly stated in my blog rules. Please be considerate of your fellow readers and of myself and my time. I ask that you only submit 1, maybe a maximum of 2-3 requests, per cycle that I am accepting them.
Thank you!
#twisted wonderland#twst#disney twisted wonderland#disney twst#twst writing requests#twisted wonderland writing requests#notes from the writing raven#announcement#blog update#delete later#just wanted to get this out to let the anon(s) know#advice
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I HATE autobuses.
My bus didn't come so I lost my train.
I had waited 20 minutes under the midday sun for it and got a start of a heatstroke.
After I realized it wouldn't come I had to walk 40 minutes under the sun, which where I live gets even hotter in the afternoon, losing the first train.
I had to wait an hour for the next train, luckily the train station has shade, unluckily I already charged up on heat so I couldn't even stand.
I didn't sleep last night because I was working on the project for my exam of today, this added with the sunstroke made it so that when the second train came I didn't go inside because, even tho it was at the right time on the right track, it "looked weird".
I now have to wait ANOTHER hour for the next train.
#autobus#bus#trains#heatstroke#sunstroke#i hate autobuses#i hate trains#i hate summer#i hate the summer#i hate the sun#i will probably delete this post later if I remember#I'm just posting it because I have literally NOTHING ELSE TO TO#i just wanna go home#i just wanna sleeeeeep#but if I sleep here I'll lose the third train too#why couldn't we do the exam online???#it's literally a 3d project I could have presented it on teams#i might be in the shade but it's getting hotter and hotter#and I didn't take the integrators I need to avoid passing out from heat#I'm literally staying awake by sheer stubborness#and because sometimes I can't sleep no matter how much melatonin I take so I spend a week awake#I'm kind of tempted to jump on the next train that stop by#i don't care if it's not my train at this point#this is a lie#i have to go on my train because otherwise I'll get who knows where#and that wouldn't help#i think#would it help?#what was i tagging about? i forgot#random rant
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//suggestive images
Made these cuz uhm. Uhm. Im not sure actually. For funsies or something. Eroticisim of the machine or something idk im new here
God i am SO CRINGE but i am... Free?
#Ughhh do i tag this as nsfw. Everyone is clothed yet i feel like im treading such a FINE LINE#Okay if someone asks me to tag it like that i will...#Posting this im like 'oh my god what if ppl think im weird and i get killed for this'#Then i remember im on Tumblr. Ill be fine. I think#ALSO if u literally click on the read mroe and get mad at seeing. This. Then that's ur own fault ok. Or maybe i didn't actually give a clea#Enough warning idk#Ill probably delete this later if it flops 😭😭😭#ultrakill oc#gabriel ultrakill#V1sona#Oc: V5#oc x canon#Urghhhh this stuff looks so bad BUT WHATEVER#Look at my yaoi or whatever#art#artists on tumblr#artwork#digital art#digital illustration#digital drawing#ultrakill#digital doodle#my art#my ocs#oc art#// suggestive
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Sorry I've been somewhat mia lately irl life is beating my ass and it's probably not gonna lighten up until November
To all who've sent me asks I've seen them I'll get to them don't worry it just might take me a while 😭
#any free time ive had has gone to sitting around doing nothing or hanging out with friends to get human interaction outside of work#ive just been kinda mentally drained#not art block just tired yknow#ive been working on writing my au tho#just here and there not a lot#i wanna finish it before the new year#so thats my current personal goal#cfa posts#probably delete later if i remember#probably wont
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Was working on something before I forgot that I can't fucking draw.
Yeah this is what a grown-ass adult's art should look like, this is the quality expected of someone whose been drawing since they could grasp a pencil. This measly scribble is worth 2 days of effort using all my free time.
#I hate myself#not to blog post or anything but my life is so stressful and I think that if I was good at drawing and churning out drawings quickly and#beautifully on the daily/weekly..#If I was like the thousands of foreign 12 year old prodigies on instagram with perfect anatomy on a mere sketch#or the soul-sellers on pixiv uploading 200 fully colored drawings at once#all my problems would be solved.#Im so hateful and it's all towards myself. I'm so painfully envious of things I'll never have...#...like a cock or artistic skill. If I wasn't so scared of not existing (to the point where thinking about it makes me physically ill)#l would have ended my shit already. But here I am.#So take this stupid ugly fucking Shane I tried to draw at midnight after a 10 hour shift. You're here to see bellies-#-not me bitching and moaning. Matter of fact I'll probably delete this part later. Whatever.#What is my fucking problem??#Enjoy what little I'm able to give. All I want is to share my thoughts and ideas and concepts and I can barely even do that.#I think I am going to pass out typing this so uh#see you later when I regret this post and delete this part haha#If I even remember#self post#Drawing#tummy kink#stomach ache#bloated belly
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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as#someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL#i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like#(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending#even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head#and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it#if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth#missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with#seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt#(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like#do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but#how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that#when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them#the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of#weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me#because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this#then good morning or goodnight
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He saw a spider
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I hope someone thinks of my stuff in evenings (or any other time really)
#dunno if my stuff is good enough to be someone's roman empire but i hope it's remembered fondly#yeah turns out people are capable of commenting and liking fics they probably just don't like me and/or my stuff for some reason#gonna delete this later#i accept kind words under this post btw
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Not going on a complete hiatus but things will be slower for anywhere between a few days to a few weeks due to work reasons 👍
#depends on how fast I can file 2 years worth of paperwork. lol.#anyway. yeah I will try to queue some stufff#but will probably fall behind on newer streams as I won’t be able to pause and take note of clips to post#since I have to do this as fast as possible#hopefully won’t take more than a few days :p#non voice post#delete later#if i remember
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Unpopular haikyuu opinions bc I’m stoney baloney
Under the cat bc iON WANNA HEAR IT-
*also disclaimer pls don’t take any of these seriously or to heart bc like. My fruity ass ain’t worth being offended or mad at, believe me 🥲💅🏼
1.) no shot Karasuno should’ve won against Shiratorizawa. No way. It took them TWO TRIES to beat Aoba Johsai, a team who NEVER BEAT SHIRATORIZAWA??? Nah dawg. No shot
2.) FOLLOWING UP WITH INARIZAKI?? AGAIN??? SEE ABOVE???
3.) Oikawa isn’t evil. Like. No, hes pettyand cocky but he’s been in the game so long he’s bound to get obsessive- got nothing to do with being mean bro, y’all just don’t like competition
4.) this one is gonna get me jumped but listen. ….bokutoisinfantizedsometimesinthefandomimsORRYIKNOWOKAY I DONT MEAN HARM I LOVE HIM TOO-
5.) kiyoomi, right? Not really a germaphobe, just kinda icked by people, which like. Same. NO SHADE TO PEOPLE who write him like that tho, like I get it. this is COMIN from someone who writes fanfictions to BITE HIM LIKE BE SO FR
6.) a lot of the ✨mean boys✨ were loved by their teammates and weren’t completely heartless and aloof, their ways of showing it was just different. Looking aT YOU KITA SHINSUKE I SEE THROUHJ YOUR ASS-
7.) I was 1012% rooting for nekoma in the land v air, I just wanted to see them win, like. That’s my team that’s my RIDE OR DIE OKAY, ROOTING FOR LIFE BRO VEN MORE THAN INARIZAKI- it’s caused far too many disagreements in my friend group dawg like lEAVE ME BE-
8.) Suna isnt Like… mean mean. He’s just a tiktok emo boy who instigates because ITS SO EASY BRO HAVE YOU SEEN THE TWINS LIKE??? But I’ve seen so many TikTok’s where he’s this like. Bad boy™️ like idk man. I think he’s just bad at everything. Maybe I ruined him for me bc i made him like, a booger picker LMAOOOO-
9.) straight up, okay. This one is going to make a lot of people mad, so don’t read it. Straight up. Bc I don’t want to hear it.
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Terushima is just a dumb teenager he doesn’t know how to get rejected and it shows bUT HES NOT A PREDATOR HES JUST DUMB-
Neither is denki but yaLL AINT READY FOR THAT CONVERSATION-
#I feel the rage coming o lawd#no 10 bc I’m already risking my kneecaps#I took a ss of my followers before this posts lets She how it rides#imma probably delete later bc someone’s gonna get mad and again I AINT WORTH THE GREY HAIRS BRO#IM HIGH MATE I DOMT WVEN REMEMBER WHAT NUMBER THREE WAS#gonna get me in trouble frfr#period I’ve been itching for a controversy 💅🏼#been a while LMAOOOOO/
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Seeing the same people who perpetuated or sent vicious misogynistic hate to Hannah Schmitz, as well as disgusting racist abuse towards Yuki and Alex because of FUCKING CONSPIRACY THEORIES and those who just straight up ignored it, now up in arms regarding whatever the fuck is going on between the FIA and the wolffs is beginning to piss me off. Because now that it's not someone red bull affiliated involved, it's somehow now unacceptable.
#f1#formula 1#formula one#who knows wtf is going on not the fia and not the teams but anyways#i will say toto needs to be investigated because of previous info breaches#but I've been saying that for years long before F1 academy was ever a thing#there's just been too many instances of him having info he shouldn't and things quietly and quickly changing for his benefit#I'm tired and stressed with trying to finish everything up for the semester hence why I've been less active#but this is just pissing me off#i never forgot or forgave the bs and abuse hannah yuki and alex got and i won't ever forget or forgive#i remember after monaco 22 i saw the anti red bull gang were claiming toto fucked up by “allowing' alex the Williams seat#apparently it was alexs fault ferrari fucked up and red bull were turning the tide smh#the bullshit ted began about hannah and yuki he will never see heaven i swear#and i know not everyone calling out the situation partook in the aforementioned but I'm seeing certain people who did#and they don't seem to notice their hypocrisy or double standards#anyway i get my one annoyed post that I'll probably delete later but at least I've got it out and can now return to watching the clown show#and ignore those with doublestandards#anyways bed now because i think I'm slowly losing my mind#it's not a good sign when you hear the imperial march in your head when thinking of college work is it
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return to pierresteban
“I beat you,” Pierre says and the words fall hard from his mouth, like pebbles dropping into the smooth surface of a pond. The ripples go out in a circle, each their own tiny wave of energy, of life. They lap against the shore, uneven. The grass waves, gentle. He’s fighting, against Esteban, against time, against nothing. He’s not trying to be mean about it, maybe, or maybe he is. He did. He shouldn’t have. He did.
“And how many DNFs did you have?” Esteban doesn’t ask it as a question, not really. It isn’t a question. He knows the answer. It was one. He says it in that kind of flippant way where it’s true, too true not to feel like a knife, but not important enough to twist it. He knows how it went, for him, for Esteban. They can blame the car. They can blame each other.
Pierre doesn’t bother to answer. Esteban doesn’t bother to look at him. The lung virus, the mechanical issues, the crash with Pierre, with the wall, in the first lap, whatever. The season is over. It doesn’t matter anymore. Esteban is four points behind Pierre in the standings, the only four points that matter in the history books. Esteban will remember every race. He will remember the way his stomach heaved and his vision blurred. He will remember Pierre, stupid and shiny, the flick of his tongue. He already remembers Pierre, tiny and bright and angry. He didn’t miss him. He doesn’t.
“Right,” Esteban says, quiet. He’s not being mean. There’s no point to it right now, though the urge wells up inside of him, sharp at the thought. He can feel Pierre’s gaze on his cheek, his neck, slipping away, the heat of it. It was a good season, wasn’t it. The car wasn’t great, but they scored points. They both got podiums. Esteban got sick, Esteban got tired. He broke up with his girlfriend or his girlfriend broke up with him. He and Pierre aren’t friends. They couldn’t be.
“Right.” Esteban’s eyes snap to him like magnets. Pierre looks skinny, wrung out, scruffy. Handsome, maybe, if that were a word Esteban could use. Ready for the offseason. Esteban is ready to see his family, for Mick to come visit, to sink into the couch and watch stupid movies and not think about how the end is nearer than the start. There’s no end to Pierre. Esteban only half-remembers the start.
A banging noise in the distance breaks the silence. “See you after the break,” Pierre says. It shouldn’t be an offering. It should taste like ash in Esteban’s mouth, like pondwater, like scum. Esteban imagines he can hear the hum of the lights.
“See you,” he says, instead of opening his mouth wide and saying something he shouldn’t, tight and frustrated and tired. Pierre turns away. Pierre’s right. He won. Esteban thinks they’re getting too old for this. His knees have started hurting when he climbs out of the car, not stopping for hours. He’s getting too old, if all he’s going to do is lose, make excuses. Pierre quirks an eyebrow. Esteban shakes his head. One more year, he thinks. One more year.
#Rpf mention#Remembered this is my blog so I can post what I want#I'll probably delete later but u can rb or whatever idc
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#hhhhhh reread the flashback chapter i wrote w d/dirk and just hooh boy i love it so much ugh#im tempted to post it on its own but i want to save that bomb of a scene for the middle of the larger fic its in#just ughhhhhhh i love everything about how i wrote d#im going nuts bc i have been working on it since like december? ish? but the past couple months have been hell for me personally#fuck like i remember going thru an entire calendar of movie release dates for that historical year and found the perfect spot#to where it accounts for historical events and events in canon and has its own special date and how the release of the movie...#...effects how d managed to make it a success and just#fuck man i researched the hell out of that and only had to put one anachronism to grease a moment in it#like#this fic is so big for me and i am so scared that i wont finish it bc i have so many things planned out for it and so many ...#...annotations i keep adding to modify things i wrote earlier in it (which is why im not publishing any of it yet)#i want to share it w the world so fucking badly but i keep getting amazing ideas to weave in from an earlier point i already wrote#cries lol#ughhh this is why im so tempted to post the flashback as a standalone chapter/separate posting#but#i wrote it to match a scene from both the previous and next chapter so i dont wanna ruin that either#fucking writers block man ahhhh wish my life wasnt shit rn bc i need to finish it#tag edit: i used the wrong spelling of affects earlier lol#but yeah ughhhh so frustrated w life rn i have such bigger problems going on rn but#rereading my fave chapter kinda just made my day at least lmao#personal#vent#kinda i guess#delete later / /#maybe idk lol#ShitPost.exe#like this wip is over 33k words and its probably not even halfway done in terms of event points i want to happen in it lmao fml#all bc i wanted to make one punchline happen which happened a long time ago before i wanted to write all that backstory into the fic
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Remembering when I wrote a theory, I guess, for BNHA about the Kudo and Yoichi handholding thing and OFA and someone told me I was thinking too much into it and since then, I don't think I ever wrote another theory for BNHA since that discouraged me in doing it again. (Unless it's for Miruko.)
#i don't remember who it was probably blocked I don't know#but lowkey I'm still hurt from that#like imagine rambling about something that you wanted to share whether you're right or wrong and you're doing it for fun#and then someone tells you you're thinking too much into it#that fucking hurts#like don't do that#i don't even think i got an apology for that but atp i don't expect one since it's been forever ago#i doubt that person even cares#but still when i think about it#it's just a reminder as to why i don't care to write analysis posts for this particular fandom like that#unless again for Miruko but even for her I'm like “nah”#just kiya's thoughts#bnha#mha#probably delete later#boku no hero academia#my hero academia
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Not so casual reminder to once again, not interact with me if you are a minor
Not on anon, not off anon. I don't care if you think you are mature enough to do so. I can't stop you from reading, but *please* do not try and interact with me.
It's something that genuinely makes me feel disgusting. It really kills motivation to write and answer asks.
It's a boundary, respect it.
(regular pinned)
#context: anon came off anon a while back and i just realized they're a middle schooler#i cannot express the genuine distress it invokes in me to realize something like this. i'm good at brushing things off that annoy me on the#internet but I think it's quite understandable to be upset at discovering a minor put the word ''adult'' in bio to get around blocks#by randomly stumbling upon their actual age further down in their blog when looking out of curiosity#UGH. first time i've gotten genuinely upset at something in a while. I typically just block and move on but the fucking audacity for them#to have lied and put the word adult in their bio around the time i do my purges makes me so mad. i specifically remember checking their blo#during my purges too because i thought their theme was pretty. they interacted with and tried befriending me on my main blog too 🙃🙃🙃#i've gone through and deleted all the asks they've sent me but i still feel digusting#i may or may not delete this post (or at least my tags) after a while once i get over it a bit. idk. i'll probably be pretty bothered by#this for a hot sec so we'll see#delete later
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fae jumpscare!!!!!! it's me!!!!
#shared in a friend discord and was told i loook hot so#ego boost selfie post#face#me tag#its me#for realsies#delete later#probably#if i remember
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